#coastal’s vents

[coastxlwaters]

(WARNING: VENT POST, TRANSPHOBIA/I THINK)

Mom: “We do everything to make you feel comfortable!“

Me: Sends an paragraph text about how they dont

Mom, comes in my room 30 mins later: “So, you want to cut ur hair off and use the boys bathroom?“ very sarcastic and rude tone

Me: “im not responding to this“

Mom “I have the right to speak to you!“

First off: your about to lose that fucking right if u dont stop

Second: YKW, YES. THATS ACTUALLY WHAT I FUCKING WHAT, GOT A DAMN PROBLEM?

Third: The only times my comfort is actually taken seriously is when i get my therapist to talk to you about that. Not once, not a single damntime have u ever listened to me you crappy piece of shit

[wildcatpaws]

being therian is so funny because i want to express how i feel but art isn't enough for me, enough would be being fully my type which obviously isnt possible, so then enough could be being able to be open about my nonhumanity (gear, openly talking about it, having people know, understand, and refer to me in nonhuman ways) and being allowed to fully express my feelings through animal body language like growling, looking away, slow blinking, etc but all that wouldn't be accepted by society so where am i left

when i think about all the ways i want to express my theriantropy i think of all the things i can't actually do

[star-critter]

Even the most tame of dogs are

threatened

manipulated

tortured

abused

neglected

and whether they like it or not....

Those "tame dogs" WILL go back to their wild roots

[andy-arfs]

cw: lowkey cringe therian vent about love 💀 (idk why im being so personal rn but wtv)

i rly wish the therian/otherkin community was bigger so that being “therian 4 therian” could be an actual option for me 😭 i know that online dating is an option, but like my love language is physical touch i really prefer irl, and the fact that barely anyone irl knows and respects therians really stings that its so hard to find someone that im interested in and would actually understand me :( id only e-date if i was really close with someone, which ig i could be cuz atp i just want a therian partner :(

[therian-cat-mitzy]

Human facial expressions don't make sense. If I have my lip pulled up, eyes narrowed, and teeth bared, I am not "disgusted" or "judgy". I'm about ten seconds away from mauling you. The only place disgust has in this situation is what I'll feel when your blood is on my teeth.

[maudiemoods]

Every few weeks I remember that as of right now my life really isn't going in the direction I want it to go and I have a little month long freak out about how I'm wasting my life and how I absolutely need to find a career

I'm trying to make a list of goals and the steps to get there but it's hard. I'm so worried about investing all my time and energy into something I end up not liking. Idk I have a lot of fear in my heart. Makes things very difficult for me skenksmdjsjn

[entropy404]

oh i am so homesick.

i miss the salty moisture of my coastal city and how it tickles my skin like the wick of a timed bomb. i miss the scent of magnolia and graveyard flowers and how the raindrops of frequent typhoons pound on them, ruthless. i miss the smell of my grandmother's air conditioner. i miss the lighting of the indoor malls over there - they are much more benevolent to the eyes. i miss the voice of the guy that does subway announcements and his accent when he speaks english. i miss wandering in the streets at night with my friends and feel the night conquer the sweltering heat of the day. i miss the smell of the ocean. i miss food with spice in them. i miss biking to the farmer's market every morning and looking at all the fresh fruits and vegetables with dirt still on them. i miss the way the moon looks from the roof of my 32 level high apartment building, how it looms over the sea and the sea of lights that is my city. i miss not having to search up a niche word in english or pretend to understand random pop culture references just to google them on a private tab later. i miss going to the amusement park with her and listening to norman fucking rockwell and saying i love you when the roller coaster pauses at the top of the trail. i miss my concrete jungle and the jungle that grows within it.

you take the man out of the city, not the city out of the man. and tonight i miss my city.

[julesnichols]

You can always tell when someone has been to NYC but hasn't been to NY outside it because like, they act as if everyone in this state is so privileged and progressive, meanwhile I've seen Confederate flags upstate and down where I live over half my classmates are Tr*mp supporters, and my county's banned masks and are also trying to ban trans athletes and pass bathroom bill laws and anti abortion laws. But this state's soooo progressive, right? And because it's one of the ~coastal~ states where people are so progressive we're privileged? Please for the love of god leave NYC in this state because most of this state is red and if NYC wasn't holding the line we'd be a red state overall

[emdotcom]

When I was really young, my ma taught me how to approximate how close a lightning strike was. Once you see a flash, you count the seconds after until you hear the thunder. For every second, you get approximately 5 miles -- 3 seconds apart is 15 miles away, 5 seconds is 25, etc.

If you're afraid of lighting, it doesn't make the lightning disappear or make you invincible to its strikes, but it can give you an idea of where the heart of it is & if it's getting closer or further.

[puppytodlr]

The urge to run in the woods and escape this current world. Just fully give into your senses and fall in love with the current moment ughhh XC

[fr0zenballs]

I want to run on all fours. To bound through fields and chase rabbits. But nothing my feeble human shaped body can do relieves that urge. Quads only reinforce the fact that this body was never made for that, they make me feel like this body is a punishment. Shaking hands bearing the all-too-heavy weight of my body can never compare to the paws agilely trudging over the plains in pursuit. I just want to run, to do what I was meant to do, to be who I was meant to be. But I can't, and it's my curse to forever mourn that loss.

[coastxlwaters]

(CW: transphobia, self harm)

(the last one is a little dark, but i was trying to be silly with my answers for everything else)

Arguments i have heard for how i could not possibly be trans masculine, but i rate them:

“We gave you everythinv u wanted!“ 0/10, how is that a fucking reason?

“when you were younger you wanted really long hair!“ 3/10, i thought my only options for short hair was a bob cut

“You’re a girl“ 0/10 bro i just fucking told you i am not?-

“you like painting your nails and wearing jewelry!“ 2/10, i would like to introduce you to my cousin who is gay, and i dont think u would call him a girl

“you wear girly clothes!“ 0/10, i like soft colors, and yo have even told me in the best to stop wearing boy clothes

“Your too young!“ 0/10, your clearly too old if ur saying that

“its just a phase!“ 0/10, then you accept the phase and wait for it to pass if u truly believe that, an dthen u will notice it isn’t a phase

“I know you better than you know yourself!“ -My father, May 12th 2022 at 3:00 pm, 0/10 i started self harming soon after that for reference

[lesboylycan]

i think the rough part for me right now is like. it is very difficult being a species--or subspecies--that does not exist in the world right now nor did they exist in the past, but could have realistically existed had things gone just slightly different, and does have a comparable real world analog that's just barely different enough that it feels like looking in one of those carnival mirrors that distorts your appearance. it looks so close to me, and yet there's all these little things that make it look nothing like me at all at the same time.

i belong on the coasts, with the sea at my paws and the wind on my back. i belong on the coasts, eating fish and clams and lobsters and whatever other sea life i can shove down my gullet without getting sick, hunting the occasional deer where necessary. i belong on the coasts, surrounded by my family, other families some tens or hundreds of miles away.

but my family does not exist. those other families do not exist. when i search, all i find is a cruel mimicry--so close, and yet so distant; their noses are too big and their ears are too small, and their fur is long and fluffy when it should be shorter and denser. they live on the coasts, and in the uncanny valley, where i watch them from afar and shudder: they are not me, but they are similar and yet all too different, and they are all i have to feel at "home" with.

[hidden-highlands]

god. auckland is flooding for the third time this year and. i'm Tired. thankfully i'm not directly affected because i don't live there, but family and very close friends do so i worry like mad anyway, especially because my dad lives in a low-lying area that's a huge flood risk.

and it's terrifying, not just because of the immediate risk but also because it highlights how severely real the effects of climate change are becoming. i lived there the first 18 years of my life and have visited every year since and never in my entire life have i ever seen rain or flooding this bad even once, let alone three times within a year.

[marinelethellec]

Pantry (Tampa)

[therian-cat-mitzy]

Vent Tw!! Not sure if this'll make anyone feel uncomfy, so be cautious :)

I see a lot of alterhumans mention shifts, like they can feel their tail/paws/etc, the feeling of being their therio/kintype. And I'm glad that they can have that, yeah, but a part of me wishes I could too. Mental shifts, phantom shifts, anything that could tell me that I'm still me- or that I'm not pretending due to interest. I know it's not necessary to have shifts in order to identify as a therian, but I still want it, and I can't figure out if that's good or bad. I get the occasional phantom ears, and I've somewhat-shifted once- but even that wasn't because of a good experience.

Sighhhhhh. Oh well. It is what it is, I think.