#clown yells into the void

[glass-clown]

playing the sims 4 with cc is like *goes on a downloading spree just to feel smth* *spends 5 hours weeding through broken/unwanted cc* *goes on a downloading spree just to feel smth* *spends 5 hours weeding through broken/unwanted cc* *goe

[glass-clown]

ty for the tag!! didnt feel like making myself so heres an unnamed oc i made last year that this post reminded me i had

open tag, have fun :•)

Hey guys! I wanna do a create yourself picrew chain with my favourite picrew :) tag 5 people (or more. or less im not your mom) once ur done.

here’s mine :))

tagging: @a-dotrivenitupontop​, @c4i-r0​, @xxriotgrrrlb0yxx​, @clumpofglitter​, @tennis-spawn​, @0beetle-legs0​ and literally anyone else who wants to do it

[ferretpajamapants]

various old the behemoth merch (mainly bbt LOL) I found going through archives 💔💔 I WANT THEM SO BAD

[void-husbandry-official]

Unlike other pets, black cats are unique in their ability to get along well with voids and other astral beings.

Many cats and dogs will find a void off-putting, be alarmed by it, or mistake it for a new toy to be attacked.

Black cats, however, recognize voids as fellow cats, as they are partially void themselves, and as such make fantastic companions for your voids. Especially if you’re a busy individual with pets left at home alone

[jadedaegis]

birthed this one from my mind vagina

[glass-clown]

yippee :3

open tag, anyone who wants to join

ah thank you @thebeautifulsoup for tagging me! i freakin love picrews, might be a lil bit too into them OK so do the picrew here and do the uquiz here

my hair is so faded, so this works lmao

also yeah i'm weird, autistic-coded, and i don't know much but i do know a lot of useless stuff 💚

gonna tell everyone who likes doing piccrews to reblog this with theirs and tag their buds too! 💚

[anachronistic-falsehood]

hgow do i write keeperschamp weird bug sex while making it narratively satisfying and in character

[cryptic-science]

LONG VENT POST. BE WARNED.

i need help. i need help cleaning my room. i do. and ive been so fucking afraid to admit that but i fucking need someone to hold my hand and be gentle with me through the process.

but no, i cant. i cant ask for help, especially not from the person i want help from the most. i cant ask because im not a little kid anymore. i cant have someone hold my hand through everything. thats not how life fucking works. im almost 19. im an adult. i should have the fucking responsibility to keep my bedroom clean.

when was the last time it was actually properly clean ? it must have been what, like, 2018 ? 2019 ? fuck. Fuck. four ? five ? fucking years. almost six, really. jesus christ.

even if she did say yes, even if i could ask her in the first place...you know she wouldnt be gentle. you know she would yell and get annoyed and force you to get rid of things you arent ready to. and youd feel trapped, and scared, and oh so fucking ashamed and guilty. and youd cry and cry and cry and cry. youd sob and youd beg, just like the little girl you are.

she doesnt ask much of you. she never has. you know this. everyone knows this. you never really had to do chores as a kid. not properly anyway. right now, all she wants you to do is get a job and clean your room.

why is this still so hard for you ?she got you what you needed right ? she got you the anti-depressants. she got you the adhd meds. she got you the autism diagnosis. so why are you still like this ? the meds are working, arent they ? why are you still Wrong ? what else could you possibly fucking need ??

all you do is take. and take. and take. you are so fucking selfish. why arent you fixed yet ? why cant you get off your ass and clean your fucking room ? why cant you get off your ass and get a fucking job ? why do you still lack the motivation ?

you are lazy. you are lazy. you are lazy.

how can you live like this ? there is garbage piled next to your bed. there are molding cups on your dresser. there are both carpet and larder beetles squirming through your things.

you have too much shit. you get too attached. maybe you are a hoarder.

you are disgusting. you are filthy.

your hygiene doesnt help either. you changed today but when was the last time those clothes were washed ? when was the last time you showered ? when was the last time you brushed your teeth ? you are vile. you are filth.

she yells because she loves you. she yells because she loves you. she yells because she loves you.

shes been through so fucking much. you know this. everyone knows this. you could have had it so much worse.

she is not the villain. she is human. you realized she was human a long time ago. shes doing her best with what she knows.

would it be easier if you moved out ? you are too scared to do that. maybe, itd be easier to clean your room, though. she doesnt want you to leave either. you know that despite the times shes threatened to kick you out. shes too scared for you to go too. you cant live with her forever. you know this. she does to. shes said that phrase to you many times. you are too scared to leave. you cant handle change. its safe here. youve been here for so long. its familiar. its close to most of the important places you need to go. it took you such a long time to be able to memorize the paths in order to get to them. you cant drive. everything is perfect here. its safe. its safe. its safe.

the pear tree was cut down. it was planted long before you ever lived there. part of you thinks that maybe its a sign. you arent too sure for what, though.

you are trying not to cry. you dont want to cry. especially not right now.

she says she doesnt think you are a disappointment, but how can that be true when all youve done, your whole entire life, is dissapoint her ? you have failed at every expectation and want she had, and still has, for you.

you were born this strange and rotten thing.

but she still loves you.

and you love her too.

you need a job. you should be using this time to look for a job. you are scared. you need to stop putting it off. you need to stop lying whenever she asks if youve been looking. youve applied to a few places but, you only got hired once. and you quit after a day and a half. it was Too Much for you. you were scared and your body hurt and the job was too fast-paced and it was all so fucking overwhelming. so you ran from it. you gave up.

because you are a coward.

you can count on one hand the amount of interviews youve actually gotten.

why is this so hard for you ? why must there be so fucking much wrong with you ?

just do something, please. anything. any job you can get your hands on. you need it.

why arent you doing it ? why ??

you want to be better. you want so fucking badly to be better, in so fucking many ways.

you wish you were better. you wish you were better. you wish you were better. you wish you were better. you wish you were better. you wish you were better. you wish you were better. you wish you were better. you wish you were better. you wish you were better. you wish you were better. you wish you were better. you wish you were better. you wish you were better. you wish you were better. you wish you were better. you wish you were better. you wish you were better.

i want to learn how to be better.

i dont know how to be better.

i dont know where to start.

i dont know.

help.

[rubra-wav]

Is this blog going to become another one that's gone inactive due to loss of hyperfixation? I really hope not because I love it :(

Nope. I'm not going anywhere, dw 🙏

Without getting too far into it, i've just been dealing with a growing pile of bs IRL that's been making me. Well. Not feel good /lh

I'm also chronically ill and that's particularly been absolutely buttfucking me the past few days due to temperature changes + the stress from the former 👎

Skill issue, I know /j

My hyperfixation iron is still burning hot and I'm definitely not going anywhere. I'm just dead asf rn 💀

There's a lot to come dw. I'm just trying to revive myself

Also, although I'm not taking reqs for full posts/polished writings, y'all are absolutely still welcome to just generally talk to me about Hazbin, i.e., send your own headcanons, ask questions, stuff like that. I love when people interact w me outside of just requesting stuff

[meatmanleclown]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA jester butt

[exhausted-archivist]

About to become a one clown circus the next few days.

[glass-clown]

thank u tumblr for recommending me posts that contain filtered tags. tags i filtered specifically so i dont see posts with said tags. recommending me posts that are tagged with things i dont want to see. thank u.

[deck-of-jokers]

WHYS IT SO HARD FOR GOTHAM FANS TO BE NORMAL ABOUT JEROME VALESKA.

HES 18 WHEN HES INTRODUCED/GOES TO ARKHAM AND BARBARA IS LIKE 30

HE MET AND KNEW BRUCE WHEN HE WAS 18 AND A HALF/19 AND BRUCE WAS 16

JEREMIAH IS HIS BROTHER!!! WHO HE HATES!!!!

I DONT USUALLY TALK ABOUT THIS STUFF BUT ITS ALLLLLL OVER THE TAGS AND IT MAKES ME ANGRY LIKE. BE NORMAL IT IS NOT THAT HARD. SHIP HIM WITH JONATHAN OR SOMETHING AT LEAST THEYRE ALMOST THE SAME AGE.

DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON HATTERCROW IN GOTHAM. THE ACTOR FOR JONATHAN WASNT EVEN OF AGE. HE WAS 17 WHEN HIS EPISODE AIRED. HOW OLD WAS JERVISES ACTOR? 29. 10+ YEARS HIS SENIOR.

HATTERCROW IS GREAT IN THE COMICS AND BTAS AND EVERYTHING BUT PLEAAAASEEEEE NOT IN GOTHAM. GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER.

[victoriasoroka]

My publisher just emailed me for the first time since December. And you know what. I went through entire character arc since then and almost became a UX/UI designer. How am I supposed to come back from that?? I managed to start home renovation and got in a car accident I still have a concussion holy shit give this bitch some rest

Good news he still wants my book. Bad news is it’s been five months and I still have to finish half of it 🤡

Good news! Time will pass anyway so I think I should get back to it

[butchdomesticwhore]

why is it so hard to recognize that all this info about bills and such is something you can acquire via googling and making phone calls to people who work in these departments and--yes!--asking them questions on what your best next step is? how does making this about systemic oppression help you or anyone else complete practical, adult tasks? when you point at a paper bill from a medical institution and declare it fundamentally classist, does the bill magically crumple into the dust, the issue dealt with and over because you aptly named the systemic issue at play? no!

do you get angry at mechanics when they tell you they have an idea regarding how your car could be fixed, also? how does that help you? what have you learned from deciding to be angry as opposed to using the information dealt to you? perhaps you should not be told by cashiers either about when the sales happen or how items are put on clearance lest their Insider Knowledge tell you something you don't know and--gasp--come from a place of privilege.

the point of my info and OP's is practical use. "if you have this problem, [x] might solve it." privilege or no, how the info is acquired doesn't matter as much as whether or not it's accurate and helps people. and despite your daftness, i very much hope any of this info helps YOU. or if not you, then someone you know. or someone completely random, i don't give a damn.

Ok so my kid had an ear infection, right? As kids often do.

The doctor scraped out a bit of earwax to have a better look inside.

I was sent a bill for $200 PER EAR for this 5 second procedure which I did not give permission for them to do.

That was key- they did not ASK me if they could do this "procedure". And, as I OWN a medical practice (it's me. The medical practice is me, sitting in my house on video calls) I knew to call them when this bill came in to be like "You did not obtain informed consent for this procedure, and it was not en emergency procedure. You had full ability to gain my consent and didn't. I'm not paying."

And the massive hospital who owned the bill said "yuh-huh you do have to pay."

And I said "I own a practice. I know these laws. I do not owe you money for this."

And they conducted an "internal review" and SURPRISE! Decided I totally owed them money and they had never done anything wrong ever.

And so I called my state's Attorney General office, and explained the situation because, as I mentioned, I know the law. The AG got in touch within a couple days to say they were taking the case and would send the massive hospital conglomerate a knock it off, guys letter.

Lo and Behold, today I have a letter where said hospital graciously has agreed to forfeit the payment.

"How not to get screwed over by companies" should be part of civics class.

Know your rights and know who to call when they're infringed on. This whole process cost me $0 and honestly less effort than I would have expected.

May this knowledge find its way to someone else who can use it.

[void-husbandry-official]

Provide your voids and astral beings with items that make them feel at home, glow-in-the-dark stars on your ceilings are a fantastic place to start!