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Iruma Ficlet: Meme
The Netherworld has an Internet, websites, social media, etc.
Eventually, as high schools do, Bablys becomes riddled with the equivalent of the worm meme:
Would you love me if I was a human?
Iruma… does not participate.
He listens, closely. He watches when others ask it, watches the shape of the word ‘human’ around their lips and the face they make with it. He watches the faces of the responders and memorizes their answers. Despite himself, he ends up making mental lists— lists titled maybe okay (laughter/maybe/I’d find a safe place for you/we can be humans together),
and maybe not (no/how would loving a human even work??/ew gross),
and definitely not.
(Sure I’d love you… for dinner!)
Iruma does his best not to let it all bother him, the questions, or the reactions, or the places various classmates and teachers have on his new lists.
He fails.
Iruma does not ask the question. Of anyone.
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Someone scrapes together enough nerve to ask Balam-sensei in the middle of Iruma’s class. The teacher freezes.
Someone else takes the moment to cut across that Balam-sensei would eat them and write research on what they tasted like; Balam goes pale.
A third demon says Balam-sensei wouldn’t eat them, since it’d be like eating an endangered species. He’d probably keep them in a jar like a pet. Balam-sensei’s hands begin to shake.
He finally interrupts. And doesn’t look at Iruma. “I’d keep you safe,” he says. “I’d fight my hardest to keep you safe. Of course. You are my students.”
Balam-sensei gets teased by the class and his coworkers for how soft he is for the rest of the week. The next time they have tea, Iruma doesn’t even give a cursory squirm about the hug, and just squeezes back tighter.
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Ameri does not participate. She serves anyone who does, in her hearing range, a debilitating axe-kick to the chest.
(Those who respond a… certain way receive kicks to the throat.)
People admire her dedication to spending school time on productive tasks and not foolish games.
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Clara asks Iruma.
Iruma freezes, skin gone pale, hands gone shaky. He can feel his internal defensive beast starting to rise, but he squashes it.
Azz starts to scold her for wasting Iruma-sama’s time on foolish games (he was one of those who admired Ameri’s response), but Iruma doesn’t listen to him. Can’t.
Iruma takes Clara’s hands, gentle, still shaking. “Yes,” he says, immediately, fervently, looking her directly in the eye and all but pushing what he can’t say through his gaze and into her mind. “I’d love you, and Azz, no matter what you were, or what I am, or where we are. There isn’t anything that can change that. Ever.”
#wtdsik#m!ik#good afternoon I was possessed by a plot bunny at work#Suzuki Iruma#Azazel Ameri#Balam Shichirou#Asmodeus Alice#Valac Clara#love trio#iruma kun#thinking about how scared Iruma must still be every day#also the parallels to being queer and closeted and terrified??#people need to catch up with that because I’m not seeing a lotta recognition for it
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at this point if a post implies s1 izzy was homophobic in any way its lost me. we have moved past the need for homophobic + gay izzy interpretations
#i mean i never liked them lol#nothing izzy did read as homophobic to me- at worst it was a guy who was very aware of what being outwardly queer in their lives could mean#and thought hiding it was a good option and that others should do the same#most of the time he just wanted people to do their fucking jobs#and he had issues with ed/stede obviously but again. i dont think it was the gay bit he was having issues with there#hes just a guy whos had to live closeted all his life and doesn't know what to fucking do around all these people who are so open about it#so reckless about it; don't you know its dangerous?#nyxtalks#ofmd#izzy hands#israel hands#it is too early to be having these thoughts but still. its a bad faith interpretation to me now
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i've been thinking about lesbian scott summers because the other day i made a jeanscott drawing where scott was a girl and like. how would it affect her, as a character, and how would it affect her relationship with other people (namely jean)?
scott's already canonically 'nervous' when it comes to his attraction to women. he's always like, "is this safe? it's not, it's not safe" until actively proven otherwise and EVEN THEN he's still like that (whyyy), and sure it might be because of his deadly eyes but add the lesbian into it. this shit takes place in the 60s, 70s, add the lesbian into it
#there is something about how society shapes people and how people shape society that is so hard to correctly show in media#in ways that aren't ooc. uncanny x-men begins in the 60s. bobby has been in the closet since the 60s#they already struggle because of how much the world hates mutants. add the fucking lesbian into it#there is something about the idea of xavier having repressed bobby's sexuality or smth like that because the ppl would hate them more#if they were queer. that i think would be fun to add into the jeanscott (+ xavier and perhaps bobby) dynamic#nothing can keep those two apart. so even if their sexuality was repressed. they still wouldn't be apart yk what i'm saying??#but.... society.......#smth about--#they can't help the fact that they're mutants so maybe queer people can't help the fact that they're queer#but it's the 60s#and they're lesbians#in the 60s#their love would still be the same i believe#but the way they might act upon it. the nature of their relationship. how much they show to the public. etc#all of that would change#the thing is. how it would change#the way society views people and the way people view society can affect how they show themselves to others#i'm not explaining myself correctly but please jst think about it#lesbian jeanscott... my beloved...#marvel comics#x-men comics#jeanscott#scott summers#jean grey#and GOD this isn't even talking about how the writers would. write them yk#like if scott was a girl we can know for a fact that they would not have been canon back then#so we can at least assume they wouldn't be together#until very recently#man this is so complicated#avis' post
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So funny how the venn diagram of people who clutch pearls over swearing and the people who feel like they get a say in how I behave on my own channel is a circle.
#Youtube#'maybe if a random stranger reprimands her she'll see the error of her ungodly ways'#What do these people think is going to happen#Also hi I'm very much a Queer#If I gave a single shit about how some people view my conduct I'd still be in the closet
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“The film only shows one part of the gay scene . . . it does not cover everything as many people wish it did. But such a hope or expectation is only a reflection of the dire situation in which there are so few films with or about gay characters. Almost any film starts off with the burden of trying to redress an imbalance, to make homosexuality visible in the cinema. We need hundreds of gay films, not half a dozen.”
- Ron Peck, director of Nighthawks 1978, quoted in The Celluloid Closet revised edition by Vito Russo
#the celluloid closet#queer#queer cinema#representation#lgbtqia#queer films#queer movies#ron peck#nighthawks#repeat it with me: we need hundreds of gay films!#for Hollywood this quote still sadly stands#for other markets where there are more queer stories being told: the variety is a feature not a bug!!!#because no one story can show the whole scope of any group of people#books#quote#quotes#quotes*
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ramblings on Li Ming (and Heart) and homosexuality
moonlight chicken has so many things to offer in terms of technical beauty and interesting themes but what i cannot stop thinking about is the different ways they approach homosexuality in the story.
we have Wen who has a rainbow flag on his desk and pictures of him and Alan on the wall. Wen, who openly flirts with Jim and has no qualms talking openly about his one night stand. Wen, whose step father knows about his sexuality and is close enough with him to discuss his love life.
Kaipa we don’t know too much about. But his mom knows and is supportive and some of the vendors and the chicken family seem to know. But if anyone was questioning in what reality this show is set with all the class discussion and corona featuring, his part of the story shows that homophobia exists and he is worried about how he fits in with his own family, the expectations of his mother and possible the awareness that he makes the family he has “different”.
Jim is arguably even more visibly gay than Wen in terms of what we see throughout the show. He opened the shop with his ex, they prayed at the temple together and even though he objected due to proprities sake eventually they loudly declared their love to each other and the whole neighbourhood knows. Wen somehow feels like he is living in the remnants of a bubble: his circle of friends seems very queer, his closest friend and the whole gym seem to be all part of that as well. This only might change now with him questioning his work and breaking up with Alan: some gatherings he won’t attend anymore apparently.
And finally, we have Li Ming. At school he doesn’t seem to open up to his classmates on most things and additionally is in the closet. While there wasn’t anything alluding to homophobic rethoric being spread at school we can see how the heteronormativity gets to him and feel that there must be good reason as to why no one knows. And it could just be how Li Ming is judging the situation based on vibes, we don’t know. His mother is or at least was homophobic but at the same time he is raised by his gay uncle who is surrounded by other gay people. And I love how it feels like this might have given him enough security to be comfortable with his own sexuality but how it also isn’t enough to shield him from the world at large.
With so many great shows coming out of Thailand and most of them getting more and more political it just feels so real and 2023 to me that Li Ming is part of a generation that knows who they are but still have to battle with the shadow that homophobia has cast way before they were born.
#moonlight chicken#i had this in my draft for a week now thinking if i'd get the time i could put this more leloquently but that was a lie as it turns out#might edit some stuff later#but for now i just have to write about how fantastic this show is for giving these varied realities of queer life#which are all influenced by their environment but also in the way the characters connect across generations#we don't know if him had a gay mentor who could've guided him#whereas li ming technically has him and his neighbourhood friends to reference#but li ming - understandibly so - seems more closeted than anyone else (minus Heart possigly)#in middle school everyone around me proclaimed how supportive they were of lgbt+ rights#but as soon as one guy came out he become the TALK of the school for weeks#he got reduced to his sexuality#and when he dated a girls some months after he got called attention seeking for coming out as gay before#and most people thought they were doing an open-minded thing#and despite knowing that i know that i am not the only queer kid who decided to not come out lest we'd become that talk of the whole school#and our dating lives scrutinized#even though all of us were super comfortable with who we are#and for me that was mostly the case because i had adult lesbian role models close to my family#so i knew i was good and that nothing strange was going on#but still - this othering made the school environment hostile enough to keep me in the closet#so yes - i am extremely delighted with how they depict this dynamic with li ming
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Reminder that killing off Will would not punish Noah, he's getting paid regardless and this is the final season.
It would, however, punish the writers who would be compromising their vision for the story
And more importantly, punish every queer person who sees themself in Will.
Don't forget that there a lot of people who don't keep up with the cast at all. To them, especially, it would be a message and only a message that traumatized, nuanced, queer whole people represented in media...do not deserve or cannot truly achieve happiness.
That sacrifice is not worth it. Will Byers didn't do anything to you. You just don't like the person who shares his face.
Characters are NEVER just characters. Characters represent audience members. It is for the same reason that I do not expect them to kill of any main characters. The only characters they have killed off before have been those with only one season or who were antagonists and therefore did not have enough investment to be as deep messaging to anyone projecting onto them. It is a writer's responsibility to understand what characters can mean to audience members, not just as likable people they'd like to befriend but as versions of themselves to live vicariously through to a happy ending they haven't yet achieved.
#stranger things#noah schnapp#will byers#he didn't do anything to you#but he's done so much FOR me#scream it from the rooftops with me#QUEER PEOPLE DO NOT NEED TO SETTLE#QUEER PEOPLE DO NOT NEED TO DIE SILENTLY AND CLOSETED#QUEER PEOPLE DO NOT NEED TO MAKE THEMSELVES SMALL AND AVOID TAKING UP SPACE#still working on that last one#i once pecked my girlfriend on an empty street then realized got scared and checked the street in my very progressive area#but we work towarsd it
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#ngl i don't feel as safe in the lgbtq community anymore now that i identify as a lesbian and lean a bit more masc nowadays...#esp since i genuinely used to be pan. i embraced it and still would if it fit me. it just doesn't anymore#ik people would call me a fakebian or some shit but how am i one if finding out im a lesbian has actually pushed me further into the closet#those people's opinions don't mean crap but i just needa talk through these feelings more somewhere...#i found a therapist yeah but idk if i'll open up to her about queer things because i live in a conservative-leaning state#and i can't really afford to find therapists that aren't connected to my workplace...#it really sucks#i need to remind myself that i don't need those people's approval...#beat it into my brain#jeri venting
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“oh i don’t want buck and tommy to break up so fast” “i want buck’s first relationship with a man to be more than just a fling” “i want buck to have a boyfriend” and i get all that and i respect it. however, counterpoint: i want a season 8 episode set at la pride and i want buck to be single and ready to mingle by the time that happens
#look in your heart and tell me you don’t want to see buck with a bi flag pin on his collar#shamelessly flirting with other queer people at pride and collecting phone numbers left and right#(maybe while a still-closeted eddie quietly seethes with jealousy? who can say)#911 abc
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"Aro and Ace people aren't LGBTQ+ because they're cishet!" "the A in LGBTQIA stands for ALLY!!!!"
Ally.... as in the cishet people who support the community.... the cishet people are LGBTQIA.... but Aros and aces can't be because they are....cishet....
#text#aphobia#queer#lgbt+#lgbtqia+#lgbtq+#im pretty sure we have already blatantly pointed out this broken logic many of times before#but seeing as APPARENTLY people still try to use it i think it should be brought up again#how absolutely stupid this logic is#'Ally is actually for people who are closeted' oh you mean the person who has an identity already included in the other letters?#a gay closested person still has the G in LGBTQ#'its for the people whose families who are queerphobic' so you mean the people whose families would shun them#if they found out they were lgbtq+ or supported them... somehow including ally into LGBTQ+ stops homophobes from being homophobic?????#the logic here never makes sense so I think y'all need to come up with better material or shut the fuck up lmao
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Matty Healy has found himself at the centre of controversy again as he took aim at Harry Styles during a recent interview.
The 1975 singer, who is the son of Loose Women star Denise Welch, is no stranger to making headlines, from making out with fans during concerts to mocking an Irish girl’s name in a viral video.
Now the musician has become the Twitter Main Character once again as social media erupts following comments Matty made about Grammy-winner Harry.
Speaking on The Adam Friedland Show podcast, Matty said the One Direction star, who has not labeled his sexuality, gets a ‘pass’ for ‘queerbaiting’ but he doesn’t know why.
He then added: ‘I don’t think the gays really like it. I think it’s young girls who think it’s a new thing who are like “Oh my God.”‘
‘Queerbaiting’ relates to a ploy most often seen in TV and films that aim to appeal to an LGBT+ audience by teasing, suggesting but never confirming, that a character or characters are queer.
The hosts suggested that gay men don’t care when a straight man pretends to be gay, describing it as ‘prancing around saying “Who wants to f*** my a**,’ and shockingly said it was as though Harry had ‘got the N-word pass from the gay community.’
Matty half-heartedly attempted to push back, saying ‘maybe it’s not all gay guys, but a lot of them,’ before the conversation moved on again.
The comments have caused uproar online, with even fans of The 1975 saying they were ‘disappointed’ by the comments and podcast as a whole, with some accusing him of homophobia.
Elsewhere on the podcast, the hosts and Matty mockingly discussed women’s periods, did impressions of Chinese accents and complained about ‘p***y drying up.’
One fan asked how the musician was ‘getting on stage every night and mocking toxic masculinity and then going on a podcast and undoing the whole thing by being wildly ignorant, misogynistic, homophobic, racist, everything else under the sun.’
Harry has not labeled his sexuality or gender identity, though he has only publicly been in relationships with women, and previously said he wasn’t using sexual ambiguity to be ‘more interesting’.
He later told Rolling Stone: ‘I think everyone, including myself, has your own journey with figuring out sexuality and getting more comfortable with it.’
Matty, meanwhile, is not sexually attracted to men but kisses male fans at his concerts ‘men can be objectively beautiful,’ but he doesn’t ‘want to f*** them.’
In 2019, the Chocolate singer made out with a male fan on stage at a concert in Dubai, where homosexuality is illegal and punishable by up to 10 years in prison.
Matty says he was threatened with arrest for the act, but was able to jet off to Japan to continue his world tour.
He was criticised online for endangering the fan he kissed, admitting to The Sunday Times later he felt ‘pretty irresponsible’ at first but then went ‘f*** that’ as he wanted to ‘be an ally for people who don’t have a voice.’
Metro.co.uk has reached out to reps for Matty and podcast host Adam for comment
Full article. Link here. Thanks @needvodkand1d for sharing the link and bringing it to my attention.
#YIKES#matty healy#being an ignorant asshole#The Adam Friedland Show#Denise Welch#queerbaiting#queer baiting#closeted queer people are still queer#and can express their queerness however they like#so stfu matty#your homophobia is showing#very ignorant#someone was butthurt bc harry didn't wanna sing on his stage#harry february 2023
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absolutely infuriating to me when people do not understand basic storytelling
#still wild that people are freaking out over every little leak pointing towards byler not being endgame#like i guess it's a possibility. but if it does end like that. the duffers are just bad writers. thats on them not on us for speculating#i cannot emphasize enough how horrible the writing would end up being if they didnt go canon with byler lmao#like what was the one way closet sign for then? the end of s3? literally the entirety of s4? blue meets yellow? glass closet references?#-mike's queer coding that is damn easy to pick up on if you just look a little? THE FUCKING. FINAL SHOT OF SEASON 4????#im sorry but my storytelling brain is just! like! man it's right there in the fucking text! don't listen to 8flix nick aka the man who#-speaks in riddles aka the man who had the scripts with weird and unecessary lines in them SHALL I GO ON???#i just. man. at this point it's just frustrating because yes stranger things has had its flaws with storytelling but of ALL the things it#-could be doubted on. when. literally everything is right there. i feel like im going insane.#sigh. anyway#stranger things#bee.txt
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Why are some still in denial that it was really Tae and Jennie in the video? I was a Taekooker but when those leaked photos came out last year I realized that all those TK selca that Tae and JK has been postings, that everytime Tae mention JK nonstop on his live and the TK selca he posted on Mother's day...all those were just Tae doing fan service. And those times he mentioned anything that is gay pride related? I realized he was only queerbaiting.
Hi anon!
Your message was the politest in my inbox this morning, so I'll be taking your ask to respond to some of the comments I've gotten.
I believe it was Tae and Jennie in that video and even if not it doesn't actually matter, because it is clear that the message they want to convey is that it's them. So either way it's to show that Tae is dating Jennie (a woman) and Jennie is dating Tae (a BTS member and a man).
From your ask I deduce that you have in fact seen interactions between Jk and Tae that you thought might be something beyond friendship. You changed your mind when Jennie rumors/evidence started to show up. What do you think closeting looks like? let me tell you, it is exactly this! There are so many examples of queer celebs coming out, when they have beforehand been seen 'dating' straight (Sam Smith, Ricky Martin, Kristen Stewart and many more... just google closeted celebs). There are also many accounts of such celebs admitting that them dating straight was a lie.
Why is your reaction to Tae queercoding (which is what he does) that he must be queerbaiting? WHy isn't your reaction that he must be closeted? Are closeted celebs not allowed to queercode? Are closeted people supposed to behave according their closet? How is that fair? A person's closet is never (!!!) by their own choosing. One might decide that for whatever reason them staying closeted is safer, it is never what they truly want.
I live in a very small country, in which queer people are thankfully able to live openly. It's by no means perfect, but people feel safe enough to be open. I can easily come up with a multitude of queer national celebs. Singers, tv-hosts, actors... queer people are represented well here. How many openly queer South Korean celebs are there? Very little, especially amongst idols. Does that statistically make sense? Does SK have less queer people than other parts of the world, or is the SK society less likely to accept them and they therefore are forced to be closeted?
Accusing a long time rumored queer-coding man of queerbaiting is so harmfull. It takes so much bravery for them to be even a little bit open, for society to then blame them of using their own lgbt community for clout is harsh. Even without Jk in the picture I would still consider the possibility of Tae being queer, because of his queercoding. Some of you might think you are protecting him of 'evil taekookers', but all you might be doing is solidifying his feeling that being queer is not safe for him.
For people... 'concerned' about my mental state, not to worry. I don't write this blog because I want to "insert myself in Taekook's relationship" (whatever that might mean), neither do I want to live out my own queer identity through them (I am not queer). I write about these things because I want the world to change. If my son were to be queer I want him to be able to just be. Not discussing queerness and all things that go with it wont change anything. If all I ever do through writing my blog is make one person change their perception... than that will already be a victory.
If anyone want's to read more about closeting or queercoding, please let me know. I will gladly direct you to some articles.
#anon#and yes Tae is my absolute favorite person#I will ofcourse still love him if Taennie does somehow turns out to be real#but it won't because it isn't#just watch tae and Jk reunite publicly soon after tae returns to SK#he can't stand people not knowing he loves Jk with his whole heart#taekook#queer coding#closeting
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i am feeling So Many Things at the moment but mostly i just feel like a disaster
#friday chats#tw vent#it's like.#new school - far from family - already behind - new crush - really tired - fucking focus would you?! - new show - undone chores#on and on and on#a big ball of highs and lows that - instead of mellowing out into a net positive or negative -#- just make me feel like i'm being pulled in two opposite directions#why can't i just have the good and not the bad#i really wanted to take a gap year to decompress from All Of High School but my parents refused#kind of wish i took it regardless. just ''whoops - missed the application deadline! i'll get it in next year'' and faced their ire#but then i wouldn't have met my new friend at freshman camp#we both were individually interested in the queer orgs on campus and could have still met that way#but idk. it wouldn't have been the same#mostly i'm just worried i'm not cut out for living on my own. being an adult with a job. doing college at all.#not because people who have to rely on others/don't have a job/drop out are supposedly failures#but bc i don't have anybody i could safely fall back on AND live a life that is entirely my own if i don't make it#all i've got is my family. who will judge me for failing and force me to stay in the closet.#and frankly i don't want to live like that#so i have to keep going#but also part of me's like. ''you're ready to throw in the towel only a week in?? for fuck's sake friday come on''#it was just so much. i don't know. i just want to rest. i've been stressed for so long#i want a life where my needs are met and i feel safe and loved. that's all#but NOO i have to get a DEGREE to get a JOB so i can even begin to THINK of something like that#my family always jokes about how one day when i'm successful as an author i'll be super rich and have a private jet or whatever#and yeah that just speaks to how poorly they know me but more importantly IF i make it that big i just want to settle somewhere nice#somewhere cozy. maybe start a garden. get a cat. hold a loved one close at night. that's it really#and it sure would be nice if i could have that without having to bend over backwards getting a degree and a 9-to-5 or w/e#but i can't. so throwing myself at the wall that is my shit executive function it is.
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Feelin weird in the queer gaming discord tonight folks
#my stuff#just. im glad this discord has strict tw stuff#but i still feel weird that my mentions of my religion are under a tw and spoiler#but other people can just chat about theirs in general#and like i realize this is all ‘oh woe is the christian’ big whoop get over it#but idk#my experience w my religion in queer spaces#is like. directly parallel to my queer experience in situations in which im closeted
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When he says my name (no one calls me by it and I swoon super easily)
#mlm#t4t#t4t mlm#queer#gay#mlm yearning#t4t yearning#I'm still in the closet so most people know me by my old name but he only knows my actual new name and I'm literally on my knees#vauge posting (not really)
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