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Closed Position: Week 7 (Paso Doble)
Closed Position Masterlist ||| Main Masterlist Dieter Bravo x OFC (Katarina)
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Series Summary: Dieter Bravo, now sober, was looking to change his bad boy image after hitting rock bottom. His team hoped that having him join the nationally televised family friendly dance competition, Dancing with the Stars, would be a good first step, if they can keep him out of trouble.
Katarina Stamos expected her last season as a professional dancer on the show to go the same as it had for the past thirteen seasons. That all changed when she was partnered with the infamous Dieter Bravo.
Dieter and Katarina are reluctantly thrown into their partnership and must learn to work together to succeed in the competition. In the process they form a deeper connection beyond the dance floor that neither anticipated.
Chapter Word Count: 28.5k (I went off the rails again.)
šŸ‘‰ Warnings: Themes dealing with intimate partner violence (not by or toward Dieter), past alcohol abuse, and past drug abuse. There will be fluff, tears, spicy language, and smut. This will be a slow burn. Read at your own risk. Dieter Bravo comes with his own warnings.
šŸ‘‰ Chapter Warnings: Dieter and Kat both being a menace, smut, fluff, angst in the form of discussions about childhood trauma (including homophobic comments)
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Chapter Quote: ā€œI actually meant what I said earlierā€¦Iā€™m bending you over the counter and fucking you when we get back to the house.ā€
Katā€™s POV When I awoke on Tuesday morning, my body felt strangely satiated after the previous evening's exploits. My mind, however, was swirling with more thoughts and emotions than I could process. My first thoughts were of the way Dieter had taken care of me in every way possible after the show. He brought me home, made an amazing dinner, and ran a hot bath as he promised. He joined me in the tub, massaging my neck, shoulders, and back as he his lips trailed behind his hands - managing to get me completely relaxed and turned on in the process. He followed that with a scalp massage as he washed the product from my hair before rinsing with the handheld sprayer. I offered to wash his in return since it still had all of the gel in it from the show, but he refused, instead drying me off and sending me to bed while he jumped in the shower. I didnā€™t even bother to get dressed, choosing to collapse into the fluffy duvet completely naked.
I was lying stretched out on my stomach when Dieter came out of the bathroom and crawled up my body, continuing where he left off as he massaged my thighs and hips for several minutes. He eventually moved upward, peppering kisses along my spine until he reached my neck. I tilted my head to give him better access as he rubbed his patchy beard against my skin. The length of his body pressed against mine, which made it obvious he was aroused.Ā 
His teeth grazed my earlobe, causing me to moan and arch my ass upward into him. He nipped and sucked at my neck as he pressed his hard length against me. My hand found its way to the hair at the top of his head, tugging slightly as I told him I needed him again. He wasted no time, positioning himself at my entrance and slowly sinking in. He covered my body with his, pinning me to the bed as he began his steady, but slow rhythm. After propping himself up on his left elbow, his hand found mine and entwined our fingers together, squeezing it tightly. His right hand roamed my body before finding a home under my chin, tilting my head back so he could give me an upside-down kiss on the lips.Ā 
As things got more intense, I collapsed, face down into the plush bedding as he continued to lavish my neck and shoulder with attention from his mouth. My fingers tangled in his hair again as I turned my head to search for his lips. After a passionate kiss, he pulled away and rested his forehead against the side of my temple. We stayed like that for a time, inhaling each other's breath and getting lost in the sensations that our bodies were creating as we moved as one.Ā 
It was almost foreign to me, how he could make any position feel that intimate. It didnā€™t matter if we could stare deeply into each other's eyes or not, I could still feel the connection with him. It was there in the way he touched and held me. Our bodies communicated in ways I had never experienced - using all the senses to bond us together. I surmised that it had to be because of the way that we spent our time together, building something that I couldnā€™t really understand or explain.Ā 
The past week with Dieter had been strangely domesticated. It was full of homemade meals and lots of cuddling. He stuck to his word about keeping this thing between us as something more, not always turning to sex for a connection. He really was putting in the effort to experience all forms of intimacy, always looking out for me and taking care of me in ways that Alec had never even tried. I hated him doing so much, but he wouldnā€™t have it any other way. Even when things would get heated between us, he would keep his focus on me and expect nothing in return. Always being perfectly satisfied with a good cuddle and head scratches.
However, after all of our incredibly intimate moments, I still felt like he was holding something back. I could see it in his eyes, often swimming with some sort of emotion. I didnā€™t want to push him because I knew he would open up eventually. I did sometimes worry that he was hiding something that he thought might upset me. For as connected as we were, it still felt like parts of him were a mystery.
Those thoughts didnā€™t seem to dampen my need to be near him though. The one night I went home to rest because I wasnā€™t feeling well was strangely lonely and unsettling. I didnā€™t get a lot of sleep, having thoughts of Alec sneaking in under the cover of darkness and choking me in my slumber definitely didnā€™t help. I hadnā€™t felt that anxious since the incident, now realizing it was because of Dieter. He was keeping those fears away without even trying. They were gone as soon as I reunited with him. When I went to his house the following night, I fell asleep without a worry in the world because he was there with me.Ā 
I did appreciate Dieterā€™s need to focus on intimacy outside of sex. We managed a whole week without it, but after all the closeness of the week and the fire that blazed between us during our Argentine Tango performance, I couldnā€™t hold out anymore. I shocked myself when I suggested we fuck in the dressing room. That was one thing I had never done even though Alec tried to initiate it multiple times. I was always too worried about getting caught. It was different with Dieter though. He was slowly waking something up inside of me that I didnā€™t recognize. The way I craved him had reached a boiling point and I couldnā€™t fight it anymore. I wanted him in every way he would let me have him.Ā 
I had never really been a fan of rough sex in the past, but as with everything else, it was different with Dieter. There was the connection between us of course, but he was also passionate. He somehow managed to turn it into something else, full of emotion and sensuality. It was a lot to process and to be honest, the sheer aching need that I had for him was scaring the hell out of me. He was quickly becoming an addiction for me. The way he made me feel confident, desired, and cared for was all the things that I had been missing, and it was thrilling. Even as my brain shouted at me to slow things down, my body craved him. After fucking in the dressing room, I still needed more.Ā 
As his body moved against mine, his scent completely engulfed me - making me feel intoxicated by him. My skin was tingling from his affectionate touches, my lips burning from his passionate kisses, and my heart skipping beats from whatever this emotion was that was taking over my very being. His soft sighs and deep groans against my ear sent shivers down my spine and had me coming undone underneath him in no time. He followed soon after, nearly collapsing on top of me before moving to the left, still half draped across my body.Ā 
His hands ghosted over my skin as he placed the occasional kiss on my shoulder, eventually dozing off for the night after flipping the duvet over us. That was how we still found ourselves this morning, his steady exhales blowing against the base of my neck, causing my skin to break out in goosebumps. I could feel the weight of Zee laying across my feet, both of them cocooning me in warmth. Everything about it felt so right, yet a little voice in the back of my head still questioned it. It was almost too good to be true.Ā 
Dieter stirred, nuzzling his face further into the crook of my neck as he inhaled deeply and hugged me tighter against him.Ā 
My sleep filled voice greeted him, ā€œGood morning.ā€
He sighed as he kissed my shoulder, ā€œMorning, beautiful.ā€Ā 
To Zeeā€™s dismay, I turned over to face him. She grumbled as she got situated again. We both snickered at her before turning our attention back to each other. I could partially make out a crease down the side of his face from laying on the blanket. I smiled as I ran my finger along it. ļæ½ļæ½ļæ½You sleep well?ā€ I finally asked.Ā 
He smiled and nodded against the pillow, ā€œSo good. Itā€™s so much better with you here.ā€Ā 
I felt my heart flutter as his chocolate eyes danced around my face. I could see that strange look there again, like he wanted to say something but didnā€™t.Ā 
I cleared my throat, ā€œYou ready for another production meeting this morning?ā€
He rolled his eyes, inhaling deeply before answering. ā€œI donā€™t see why we have to meet with them every week. Canā€™t they just send that shit in an email?ā€
I chuckled, ā€œThey couldā€¦but then they couldnā€™t be nosey and try to make drama for the show.ā€
ā€œUgh, such bullshit. Why canā€™t they just let the show be about dancing?ā€
I gave him a tight smile, ā€œThatā€™s not how they get high ratings.ā€Ā 
Dieter's phone rang on the nightstand, ruining our morning chat. He sighed, turning to grab the shrilling device and finding his agentā€™s name flashing across the screen. He pressed ā€˜answerā€™ and brought it to his ear, ā€œYou should know better than to call me this early in the morning, Lenny.ā€Ā 
I could hear a deep chuckle on the other end of the line, ā€œSorry to call you so early, Dā€¦but we have a potential issue. There are rumors circulating that there was a serious altercation with you and Katā€™s ex last week. Is there any truth to that? Does that have anything to do with the schedule changes?ā€
Dieter puffed air out of his cheeks as he glanced over at me. He had obviously kept his agent in the dark about that.Ā 
ā€œThere wasā€¦a minor incident. He attacked Kat and I pulled him off her. They did change our schedules around so that Kat doesnā€™t have to be near him.ā€Ā 
ā€œDamnit Dieterā€¦can you please stay out of trouble? Youā€™re on the upswing right nowā€¦ā€
I could tell Dieter was frustrated as his jaw tensed. ā€œSorry Len, but Iā€™m not gonna stand by while someone close to me gets mistreated. Iā€™m sure the public can understand that.ā€Ā 
Lenny sighed loudly into the phone, ā€œFineā€¦youā€™re right. Iā€™ll get Janine on it and see if she can put out the fire. If you get any questions about it, donā€™t answer them. Maybe itā€™ll go away. Iā€™m told there are some pap pics of the guy thoughā€¦and his face is busted up. So, Iā€™m not sure if it will.ā€Ā 
Dieterā€™s brows furrowed, ā€œIs he saying anything about it?ā€
ā€œNo, itā€™s mostly speculation I thinkā€¦but they know for sure there have been schedule changes. Itā€™s TMZ, you know how they draw conclusions about shit.ā€Ā 
Dieter nodded, ā€œYeah, wellā€¦my lips are sealed. Iā€™m confident Janine can handle it as long as that douchebag isnā€™t running his mouth. Iā€™m sure he doesnā€™t want people to know about it anyway.ā€
The call ended soon after that as it was time for us to get ready for our production meeting. It wasnā€™t long before we found ourselves sitting in front of our two favorite people, Stacia and Joe. They were unusually pleasant, making small talk and checking in with me to make sure I was doing ok, and that Alec hadnā€™t been out of line since they had apparently had a conversation with him after our last meeting. Stacia, of course, complemented our last performance, making a point to mention how great our chemistry was on the dance floor. She was fishing for anything she could get her hands on, but we gave her nothing. We politely thanked her and redirected our conversation to this week's performance.Ā 
I had to bite back a groan when Joe gave us our dance for the week, the Paso Doble with a traditional Spanish style song called Uccen. It was definitely going to wear me out. I had a feeling Dieter would enjoy it since the dance was more focused on the manā€™s performance, but I could already envision him whining about how tired he was.Ā 
They handed over the costume sketches, putting us both in all red again, which wasnā€™t unusual. Black and red were pretty typical looks for this dance.Ā  My costume had a Spanish feel to it with layers of fabric that bunched up in the back. It was shorter in the front and very flowy. It had a halter top with the same flowy fabric draped to cover the necessary areas, leaving the back completely open. They had Dieter in a red suit with a textured button up shirt. After approving the looks, we were pretty much done with the meeting. I was thankful this one was drama free. I did not need my day ruined by them.Ā 
After the meeting, we continued our tradition of grabbing lunch together. We settled on a small cafe nearby. The staff seated us on the outdoor patio, so we made sure to be on our best behavior because there were eyes everywhere. We were even approached by a few fans to take pictures and happily obliged. Dieter was all smiles as he interacted with them, seeming perfectly at ease while I was still trying to get used to having this much attention from strangers. He seemed to sense my anxiousness, smiling gently as he reached over to give my hand a quick squeeze after they left us.Ā 
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We were off to the dance studio for rehearsals after that, beginning the week like we always did, by listening to our song. Dieterā€™s head bobbed along with the fast-paced Spanish and mediterranean style guitars mixed with folk undertones. It was obvious this would be different from anything we had done thus far.Ā 
Once the music concluded, I clapped my hands together dramatically, ā€œOk, Bravo. Youā€™re probably about to love and hate this dance.ā€
His brows furrowed, ā€œWhy?ā€
I huffed out a laugh, ā€œBecause itā€™s dramatic and fun, but itā€™s also gonna wear your ass out.ā€Ā 
His brows arched as he gave me a wide-eyed stare, ā€œI mean, you do that already.ā€Ā 
I rolled my eyes and fought a smile as I stood from where we were seated on the floor, then pulled him up to join me.
ā€œSo, the Paso Doble comes from sixteenth century Spain and France. It literally translates to ā€˜double stepā€™ and itā€™s very high energy and veryā€¦theatricalā€¦meant to imitate a bullfighter and his cape. You would be the matador in this instanceā€¦the star of the show. I need you to have strong posture and emote power with your body and facial expressions. Iā€™ll be your cape, with more graceful and fluid movements at times. Weā€™re gonna be doing sort of a marching style rhythm with staccato footwork along with that. Like I said, itā€™s funā€¦but tiring.ā€Ā 
Dieter gave me a tight smile, ā€œCan we look at some videos of this before we get started? I feel like that might help get me going. I have a feeling what Iā€™m envisioning ainā€™t it.ā€Ā 
I couldnā€™t help but laugh at him. At least he was honest. He went into full work mode after that, studying each video I pulled up for him. After an hour of video watching and making notes on some things that stood out to us, we got started on the basics. He picked those up quickly, allowing us to begin planning our choreography.Ā 
As predicted, Dieter was gasping for air and whining about being exhausted before the rehearsal time was over. Not that I could blame him, I was too. And it was only the first day. He was doing amazing though, and I made sure to tell him as much. I knew he would enjoy the theatrics of this dance which helped make up for how much work was involved.Ā 
We basically crashed when we got back to his place. After seven and a half hours of going non-stop, we were spent. We barely had the energy to eat dinner and shower before climbing into bed early, tangling ourselves up together and zonking out for the night.Ā 
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We started our Wednesday morning off with Dieter receiving a text from Janine, his publicist. It was a link to a newly posted TMZ article.
I watched as he leaned across the kitchen island and scanned the article. His eyes crossed as he let out an annoyed groan and passed the phone to me.Ā 
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Dieterina Spotted Getting Cozy During Lunch After Alleged On-Set Drama Dancing with the Stars (DWTS) fan favorites Dieter Bravo and Katarina Stamos were spotted having lunch at a LA cafe yesterday. Witnesses say they seemed very cozy and touchy during their meal in between posing for pictures with fans.Ā  This sighting comes after rumors began to circulate about a possible altercation between Dieter and Katā€™s ex, professional dancer Alec Balaska, after last week's live show. If you recall, Dieter and Kat set the ballroom ablaze with their sultry performance and intense chemistry during their Argentine Tango, which earned them a perfect score for the week. Itā€™s easy to see how that could have caused tensions to rise backstage. We have no confirmation that Dieter and Kat are officially an item, but they definitely seem to be getting close.Ā  TMZ sources have not confirmed the altercation took place, but we can confirm there have been schedule changes that appear to have happened in an effort to keep Dieter and Kat separated from Alec as much as possible. It must also be noted that Kat did not dance with the same group as Alec during last weekā€™s professional performances, which could help back those claims.Ā  Alec was spotted out and about in LA with his DWTS partner and new love interest, Lana Thompson, earlier this week. He appeared to have bruises on his face but gave no response as to how he got them. His reps refused to comment. We reached out to Dieterā€™s publicist who also refused to comment on the situation.Ā 
Included with the article were pictures of Dieter and I at the cafe. There were several with his hand resting atop mine as he smiled my way. There were also several zoomed in stills of our Argentine Tango performance along with an embedded video and pictures of Alec and Lana seated in Alecā€™s car.Ā 
I sighed, ā€œThey really will post anything for clicks, wonā€™t they?ā€
Dieter nodded, ā€œYep, bullshitā€¦as usual. For all they know, he could have fallen on his face during rehearsal. Itā€™s plausibleā€¦Iā€™ve done it enough to know.ā€Ā 
I chuckled, nodding in agreement. Just as I was about to hand Dieterā€™s phone back, a text popped up. There was no name, only a number. I felt my stomach drop when I unintentionally read the message.Ā 
646-333-4545: It was nice bumping into you. Call me, so we can get together. I do miss having your mouth on me. šŸ˜‰
I slid the phone toward him as I tried to control my breathing, ā€œUmmā€¦you have a text.ā€Ā 
He picked up his phone, brows furrowing in confusion as he read it. ā€œI have no idea who that isā€¦Iā€™ve not bumped into anyone.ā€Ā 
I watched as he swiped, then selected ā€˜blockā€™ on the screen.
I didnā€™t say anything, but my face must have. When he finally looked at me, I could see the worry in his eyes.Ā 
He began shaking his head as he approached me, ā€œI swear I donā€™t know who that isā€¦maybe that actress from New York? I havenā€™t bumped into anyone besides herā€¦I didnā€™t even have the number saved. I-Iā€™ve been getting a lot of texts like this since SNLā€¦people trying to hit me up to party. Iā€™ve blocked them all, you can check. Maybe I just need to get a new numberā€¦I deleted everyone I didnā€™t need to talk to when I got out of rehab. I swearā€¦ā€
The longer he rambled, the more panicked he sounded. I took a deep centering breath, realizing I needed to give him some leniency. It was obvious he didnā€™t have the number saved, and that bitch had been pushy.Ā 
He continued, ā€œIā€™ll get a new number, OK? I was thinking about doing it anyway because Iā€™m pretty sure one of my dealers texted me the other dayā€¦I blocked himā€¦just so weā€™re clear.ā€Ā 
I gave him a tight smile as I reached to cup his cheek, ā€œHey, it's OK. I believe you.ā€Ā 
He visibly relaxed into my touch, ā€œIā€™m sorry. I donā€™t want you to think Iā€™m doing shady shit, because Iā€™m not. I wonā€™t do that to you.ā€Ā 
The rational part of my brain finally caught up to my emotions. We've spent ninety-five percent of our time together since we got back from New York. I would have noticed something if he was talking to other people. He was rarely on his phone, and when he was, I was usually at his side looking at it with him as we watched funny videos together.
I pulled him in for a hug, ā€œItā€™s OK. I have no reason to think youā€™re lying.ā€
He backed away, ā€œImma text Evan right now actuallyā€¦and have him take care of all that. I want zero doubts.ā€Ā 
And he did text Evan after that. I never would have asked him to change his number, but the fact that he offered and got right on it did make me feel better. Alec never would have offered. It was another reminder of how completely different they were.Ā 
Dieter made sure to take a few minutes to apologize, cuddling on the couch before I had to leave for the professional's dance rehearsal and him for his weekly therapy session. By the time I walked out the door with promises to meet up with him at the dance studio for our evening rehearsal, the whole incident was an afterthought.Ā Ā Ā Ā 
The professionalā€™s dance rehearsal definitely had a new vibe. I could tell other cast members were looking at me differently - curiosity maybe? I tried not to pay them any attention, allowing Marc to distract me from it when we werenā€™t receiving instructions. He and Stefanie both had become allies in this whole mess. Given that they knew what actually happened, I had to respect that they were keeping the information quiet while not so subtly choosing a side. Marc had mentioned that people were asking him what he knew, but he refused to comment. He really was a good guy, I hadnā€™t given him enough credit for that in the past.Ā 
Once we wrapped up rehearsal for the day, I made my way over to grab my water bottle. As I took small sips, I picked up my phone to scroll through the missed notifications. I had a text message from my sister asking why she hadnā€™t heard from me and telling me to call her. Since I had been spending all of my free time with Dieter, I had pretty much gone radio silent with her. I shot her a quick response, promising to call her the following day since we had a late rehearsal.Ā 
I was silently debating if I should tell my sister about my relationship with Dieter as I moved on to the Instagram notifications. My brows furrowed when I came to the notification that said, ā€˜bangingbravo1 was live (45 min ago)ā€™.Ā  Well, thatā€™s new.Ā 
I quickly collected my things, telling Marc goodbye as I made my way to the car. After tossing my bag into the back, I sank down into the driverā€™s seat, pulling my phone out as I closed and locked the doors. My curiosity was making me anxious to see what Dieter was up to since this wasnā€™t something he normally did. I wasted no time opening Instagram and clicking the notification. He was no longer live, but the video was posted to his story.Ā 
It appeared that he was sitting in the same spot he had been in when he and I played guitars together all those weeks ago. His black acoustic sat perched on his lap as he briefly fiddled with the camera. He then proceeded to strum and tune the instrument for a short time before glancing up and smiling, welcoming his growing number of viewers. He took a few minutes, answering questions that popped up - some about Zee, some about his plants. Someone must have asked about me, causing him to smirk as he explained that I was at dance rehearsal for the professionals, noting that he and I would be rehearsing later in the day. Then he cleared his throat, getting to the reason for going live.
ā€œSoā€¦Iā€™ve been getting a lot of messages and comments asking me to do more playing and singing. I hear youā€¦so, weā€™re gonna give this a try and see how it goes.ā€
A soft curl fell down over his eyes as he glanced down to place his hands and began strumming a bluesy intro. His demeanor shifted, seeming almost melancholy as he began to sing.
This song has two very different versions and I love both. Give them a listen. šŸŽ¶Version 1 šŸŽ¶ Version 2
When the sins of my father / Weigh down in my soul / And the pain of my mother / Will not let me go / Well, I know there can come fire from the sky / To refine the purest of kings / And even though I know this fire brings me pain / Even so, And just the same
His voice was full of emotion and grit as his unblinking eyes fixed on something just out of frame. He sounded soulful, but there was an edge of pain to the lyrics as they appeared to have deeper meaning to him. I knew him well enough to know that he was feeling the words, seeming to dredge up old memories or feelings. It had me wondering what he had discussed with his therapist that morning, because I knew he didnā€™t pick that song at random. Music was an outlet for him. It meant something.Ā 
All seed needs the water / Before it grows out of the ground / But it just keeps on getting hard / And the hunger more profound / Well, I know there can come tears from the eyes / But they may as well all be in vain / Even though I know these tears come with pain / Even so, And just the same
His line of sight drifted, appearing to focus on nothing as he took on a far-away look. A deep crease formed between his brows, his eyes turning somewhat glassy as he belted out the next verse. I had never seen him like this, but I knew that look all too well from experience. He was reliving something from his past. Something painful that had potentially shaped him into the man he had become - both the old and new version of himself.Ā 
And let the clouds fill with thunderous applause / And let lightning be the veins / And fill the sky with all that they can drop / When it's time to make a change
As he finished out the song with the last few refrains of the chorus, I realized tears were streaming down my cheeks. Every hair on my body was standing on end as my flesh pebbled from the sound of his voice. I could feel it in my soul. The connection that he and I seemed to share only made me feel it that much deeper. I couldnā€™t recall anything ever having affected me like this before.Ā 
After the last lyric left his lips, he inhaled deeply to center himself. He sat silently for a beat, then his eyes flicked up to the camera. They were pools of emotion as he gave a small smile that didnā€™t reach his eyes. He was obviously reading the flood of comments filling the stream. Then he finally spoke.Ā 
ā€œYou all are too kindā€¦itā€™s more than I probably deserve.ā€Ā 
He paused, swallowing thickly as he continued to read the comments. He nodded, ā€œIā€™ll uhh, yeah, Iā€™ll do another live soonā€¦thank you.ā€
After saying his goodbyes, the stream ended. I had to take a moment to pull myself together. We were supposed to meet at the dance studio for rehearsal in an hour and a half, but I couldnā€™t wait. Something told me that I needed to go to him. So, I did.Ā 
When I got to his house, I knocked and rang the doorbell, but there was no answer. Figuring he was still upstairs and maybe couldnā€™t hear it, I tried the doorknob. To my surprise, it was unlocked. So, I let myself in and headed toward his sanctuary.Ā 
I found him with wireless headphones on, slouched back into the chair and lazily strumming the strings on his guitar. He still had that vacant far-away look in his eyes as he stared at nothing. My movement in the doorway must have caught his attention because his eyes snapped toward me as he paused his motions.Ā 
His brows furrowed as he pulled the headphones off, giving a small smile as he asked, ā€œWhat are you doing here? I thought we were meeting at the dance studio?ā€
Moving toward him, I could tell something was off. He looked like he had the weight of the world on his shoulders, and I hated it. As I stood in front of him, our gazes met. He sighed, then placed the guitar back on its stand next to the chair and set the headphones on the floor beside it. His eyes met mine as he worried at his bottom lip with his teeth.Ā 
ā€œAre you OK?ā€ I finally asked.Ā 
His shoulders slumped as he leaned back in his seat and scratched at his patchy beard, now avoiding my gaze.Ā 
ā€œNo. But Iā€™m gettinā€™ there. One day at a timeā€¦ā€
My feet carried me forward as I reached to run my hands through the top of his messy curls. He sighed as his arms found their way around my waist, pulling me to him so he could rest his head against my chest. I needed to be closer, shifting so that I could raise first the right, then the left leg to straddle his lap. He hugged me tighter as he buried his face into the curve of my neck and inhaled deeply. I could feel him relaxing more and more with each breath that he took.Ā 
He lifted his head, pressing it against mine as he hugged me just a little tighter.Ā 
ā€œThank you for coming. I needed thisā€¦needed you.ā€Ā 
My nose brushed against his, ā€œYou have me. Tell me what you need from me.ā€Ā 
He shook his head, ā€œIā€¦I donā€™t know.ā€
My right hand moved to his chest. I could feel his heart thrumming away under my palm as his eyes pooled with tears and his breathing became shallow. He seemed lost. I needed to bring him back and ground him to the present.Ā 
After extracting myself from his embrace, I stood, taking his hand and leading him to the bedroom. I pulled him into a deep kiss, eventually breaking away to slowly undress him and trail soft touches and kisses along his body. His hands explored every inch of newly exposed skin as I undressed myself next. Once we were bare, I led him to the bed where we both lay down facing each other. He pulled me against him, tangling limbs together as we held each other. His face found its way back to the curve of my neck as he took deep and steady breaths to calm himself. I cradled his head against me, gently running my fingers through his fluffy curls to soothe him.Ā 
We stayed like that for a time. Strangely, it didnā€™t feel sexual at all. Yet, it had to be one of the most intimate moments I had ever experienced with another person. He was showing me his vulnerability, sharing his pain with me as our bare skin touched from head to toe - allowing ourselves to be connected physically and emotionally without judgement. The intensity of it was scary but also mixed with a strange feeling of relief and security. It was a hard feeling to wrap my head around as I tried to stay present for him.Ā 
Once his breathing settled to normal, he pulled away to meet my gaze with a serene expression. His eyes danced around my face as his hand glided up and down the side of my body. I would give anything to know what was going on in his head at that moment. The way he was looking at me caused the air to crackle around us. It felt like there was something he wanted to say, but instead, he leaned forward and captured my lips with his. It was slow, passionate, and needy.Ā 
We melted into each other, further deepening the connection that I currently felt humming between us. As I moved against him, touching and tasting his skin, I could feel his hardness growing and rubbing against my center. He groaned into my mouth as I began to grind against it, coating his length in my arousal. He wasted no time shifting so that he was between my thighs and sinking in to the hilt as he caged me in between his arms. His hips didnā€™t move, but he continued to kiss me deeply as I hugged him tightly.Ā 
Several minutes passed before we broke apart. His hips finally began their painfully slow thrusts as we got lost in each other's eyes. This didnā€™t feel like it was about the sex for him. Maybe it was his way of staying grounded in the present. Or, perhaps it was about strengthening whatever bond was forming between us. Maybe it was even a little bit of both. There were definitely some strong emotions swirling around us as we moved together. It was almost overwhelming, causing my chest to tighten and tears to prickle at the corners of my eyes.Ā 
There was no question about it now, I was in love with him. It ran deeper than it ever had with Alec or anyone else. The realization caused my heart to race as the anxiety set in. Was this too fast? Too soon? Weā€™re either of us really ready for this?Ā 
Dieter seemed to sense the shift in my thoughts, reaching to run his fingertips down the side of my face as he nudged his nose against mine. It helped calm me some but did nothing to dampen the sudden and intense rush of emotions I was feeling for him.Ā 
The languid pace in which he was moving drew out how long this all lasted, but it felt right. We were completely lost in each other, causing the world around us to blur and cease to exist. It was the slowest build to a release that I had ever experienced. When I finally fell over the edge, it was intense and euphoric, seeming to go on forever. I felt like I was floating and the only thing keeping me tethered to this plane was Dieter. He followed behind me soon after, unable to hold it back as my walls contracted around him. He pressed his forehead against mine, his eyes clenching shut as he spilled into me with a deep groan that turned to quiet whimpers with the last few thrusts of his hips.Ā 
He sighed heavily against my lips, clearly savoring the high he was riding after his release. I peppered small kisses around his face as I brushed back his sweaty curls. His dark eyes finally opened, meeting mine before capturing my mouth with his. He broke away to catch his breath, both of us still gulping for air as we took each other in.Ā 
He eventually shifted to lay facing me as I turned toward him. His hand slid around my waist to pull me closer. We were nose to nose when he finally spoke, ā€œI think I should maybe tell you why I had such a strong reaction to the Alec thingā€¦itā€™s sort of the root of everythingā€¦why I am the way I amā€¦ā€
I took a deep breath, ā€œOkā€¦but I donā€™t want you to feel like you have to. Only tell me if you want toā€¦and if youā€™re ready.ā€Ā 
He nodded, ā€œI want toā€¦I think itā€™ll help you understand me a little betterā€¦andā€¦my therapist thinks I should tell you too.ā€
I gave him a small smile as I reached to scratch at the scruff on his cheek, continuing to lazily rub in circles as he began to speak.Ā 
ā€œIā€¦didnā€™t have the best childhood growing up. My dadā€¦he was an asshole. I canā€™t remember a time when he didnā€™t abuse my mom, but it got progressively worse over the years. I couldnā€™t tell you how many times I sat with her or tried to take care of her after he bloodied her up. I remember always feeling helpless when I was youngerā€¦I wanted to protect her, but I couldnā€™t.ā€Ā 
He paused, sighing heavily as he reached for my hand that was still rubbing at his scruff and entwined our fingers to rest on the bed between us.Ā 
ā€œOf course, that was when she still cared about lifeā€¦about me. At some point she started drinkingā€¦which ultimately made things worse with him. It got to the point where she stayed wasted all the time and didnā€™t really seem to care about anything. By the time I was a teenager, I was pretty much taking care of myself. My dad left me alone for the most part, until I started interfering with their fightsā€¦trying to protect her.ā€Ā 
He swallowed thickly as his eyes turned glassy, ā€œI thoughtā€¦maybe if I could protect herā€¦that I could get her backā€¦matter to her again. You know what I mean? I just felt so aloneā€¦abandoned evenā€¦just existing. It only made things worse though. My dad no longer held back from directing his anger at me and it just seemed to push my mom further away.ā€Ā 
He scoffed as he squeezed my hand a little tighter, ā€œHell, there were times I think she was happy he was taking it out on someone besides her.ā€
I could see the pain that realization caused him as a deep crease formed between his brows. He stared, unblinking, at our intertwined hands as he continued.Ā 
ā€œWhen I was in high school, I joined the drama club. For once, I had several close friends. Thatā€™s when I realized my sexual preferencesā€¦variedā€¦and I started exploring my preferences within that group. Anyway, there was this one guy I spent a lot of time with. It wasnā€™t serious, but we had a thing. I guess someone saw us together at the mall and we were obvious about it. Word got back to my dad, and he absolutely lost his shit over it. No son of his was gonna be like that. He called me every slur you can think of while he tried to ā€˜beat the gayness out of meā€™. That was one of the times I snapped on him. I got in a few good hits, but he still beat the hell out of me.ā€
The tears finally spilled down his cheeks. He sniffled a little before he continued.Ā 
ā€œIt was pretty badā€¦and the sad part wasā€¦my mom couldnā€™t bother to care. She didnā€™t check on me once. After spending a day in bed and feeling like I was dying, I managed to drag myself over to Evanā€™s house. I lied and told everyone I got mugged. His mom ended up taking me to the ERā€¦I had a concussion and a couple of broken ribs. Of course, all my parents cared about was the astronomical hospital bill.ā€
It was my turn for tears now. My heart was breaking for him. I squeezed his hand tighter as I gave him a sympathetic look.Ā 
He sighed and finally met my gaze, ā€œIt got pretty unbearable after that. I couldnā€™t stand being at home. My dad was constantly belittling me and saying things that made me feel like I was a dirty abomination. My mom even said she was disappointed in my behavior at one point...I think thatā€™s when I really started to hate myself. I didnā€™t feel like I was worthy of being loved or happyā€¦I started having some pretty dark thoughts.ā€
He paused briefly, chewing on the inside of his cheek as he considered what to say next.Ā 
ā€œEventuallyā€¦Evanā€™s mom took me in after she figured out what was going on. She helped me through the emancipation process so they couldnā€™t have control over me anymoreā€¦but the damage was done. I had already started self-medicating with alcoholā€¦and after I got my big break in Hollywood with money to burn, the slow spiral started. Honestly, Iā€™m not even sure how Iā€™m still alive after some of the shit Iā€™ve done.ā€Ā 
ā€œWhat made you finally wanna change things?ā€ I asked.Ā 
He shrugged, ā€œAfter my third overdose, my agent gave me an ultimatumā€¦either get sober or I was done. None of the studios wanted to work with me anymore because I was a liabilityā€¦and by that point Evan had quit working for me. He was tired of my shit. I was also damn near bankrupt. Everything just sort of converged and blew up on me at once. So, I took that last stint in rehab seriously. I had sort of an epiphany about getting my life together and wanted to learn how to be happyā€¦exercise the demons out of my life. Somehow, I found a way to do it, but itā€™s still a struggle some days. Sometimes I get triggered and wanna go back to that dark placeā€¦but Iā€™m slowly learning how to cope with it. Iā€™ve found new ways to channel that energy into something positive.ā€
I suddenly felt a wave of anxiety hit me, realizing that the drama with Alec had been a trigger for him. I felt like shit over it.Ā 
ā€œIā€™m sorry that I involved you with the Alec stuff. I didnā€™t realize the sort of effect it was having on you.ā€
He shook his head, ā€œNo, itā€™s ok. I was worried about you more than anything. I didnā€™t want you to get hurtā€¦or lose yourself to him. I wanted to keep you safeā€¦and the fact that you gave me a chanceā€¦trusted me with thatā€¦it meant more to me than you realize.ā€
I sighed, ā€œBut when you found us in the dressing room, I could see it. It did something to you beyond being upset about what he did.ā€Ā 
His brows furrowed, ā€œIt was justā€¦the fact that I wanted to inflict pain on himā€¦it scared me a little. I was worried that I was more like my dad than I realizedā€¦that a part of me was violent enough to do the things he didā€¦because I really wanted to. Then I was also afraid that I had scared youā€¦that you would think I was no better than Alec. I didnā€™t want you to think that I could treat you the same way.ā€
My lips set into a tight line. I was determined to make him see himself as I do.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re nothing like either of those men. I know this. Youā€™re just fiercely protective of those you care aboutā€¦If anything, youā€™re a nurturer. Youā€™re selfless and enjoy caring for others. Youā€™re an amazing person and worthy of everything good that life brings to you. I wouldnā€™t be here if I didnā€™t believe that.ā€Ā 
From the way his face scrunched up, I could tell he was fighting back his emotions. I pulled him against me, allowing him to bury his face against my neck as I hugged him. His arms tightened around me as his shoulders began to shake with his quiet sobs. His sniffles became a little more frequent as he allowed himself to feel whatever it was he was feeling.Ā 
He was right, knowing about his past did help me understand him better. His past self-destructive behavior and difficulty with relationships made so much more sense. The fact that he had shared this with me so willingly showed me that he was trying to break the cycle and connect with me in ways that he never had with anyone else. He was still putting in the work to better himself and be happy.Ā 
I continued to sooth him for a time, until he finally pulled away as he wiped his face with a tentative smile, causing his eyes to crinkle around the edges. Realizing that he was obviously feeling better, I gave him an encouraging smile in return.
ā€œYou somehow always seem to know what I need before I do. Thank you for not being afraid to show me,ā€ he finally said.Ā 
I chuckled, ā€œI donā€™t really know. I just know what I would want under the circumstances.ā€
He hummed as he nuzzled his nose against mine, ā€œSoā€¦naked cuddling and slow, mind-blowing sex? Noted.ā€Ā 
I laughed. It was nice to see his sense of humor returning.Ā 
ā€œSoooā€¦were you and Evan a thing at one point?ā€ I asked. I couldnā€™t help being curious about it.Ā 
Dieter snorted, ā€œHell no. We were in the drama club together, but he doesn't swing that way. Never has. He likes boobs too much. He was there for the chics.ā€Ā 
I snickered, ā€œGood to know. I didnā€™t get those vibes between you two, but I had to ask. I didnā€™t realize heā€™d been around for that long.ā€Ā 
He smiled, ā€œOh yeah, we go way back. Iā€™m not sure I could trust anyone else to handle my stuff the way he does. He actually looks out for me and has my best interest in mindā€¦calls me on my shit when he needs to. Iā€™ve had other assistants that just wanted to enable my bad behavior so they could party and take advantage of me in some way. I canā€™t be having that anymore.ā€Ā 
I couldnā€™t help wondering about his parents after that. He seemed to notice something was on my mind and asked what I was thinking about.Ā 
ā€œHave you had any contact with your parents since you left?ā€ I asked.Ā 
His lips set into a tight line, ā€œUmm wellā€¦my mom pretty much drank herself to death. She died years agoā€¦but my dadā€¦I think heā€™s still around somewhere. Itā€™s been a while, but Iā€™ll occasionally get a call asking for money. I donā€™t give him shit. That goes over about like you would expect. He hasnā€™t changed much. Heā€™s still an asshole.ā€Ā 
I sighed, ā€œIā€™m sorry.ā€
He shrugged, ā€œIt is what it is. I canā€™t change him. I can only change myself and how I respond to him.ā€Ā 
We soon noticed the time, realizing that we were going to be late for our evening rehearsal. After rushing around, we eventually made it to the studio. I think Dieter was happy for the distraction, quickly settling into our routine and focusing on the performance. He was back to his goofy and smiley self, having fun as we tried out a couple of different options for the choreography. At times we behaved a little less professionally as our bodies moved together with lingering touches and lips brushing against any skin they could get near without being completely obvious to anyone who might be passing by.Ā 
Things were definitely evolving between us, yet again. After the events from earlier in the day, I could tell something had changed. It was like all of the broken pieces of our being were slowly falling back into place and somehow converging into one. With every new piece that found its place, our connection steadily grew. Part of me questioned if it was real or just being overblown and intensified by the circumstances we found ourselves in. I hated to think like that, but it was something to consider.Ā 
After rehearsals, I found myself back at Dieterā€™s house. It was late, so we settled on something quick for dinner. Dieter made sandwiches that were fancier than anything I had ever put together between two pieces of bread. He was incapable of doing things halfway it seemed.Ā 
We got ready for bed after that, going through our newly established routine. We didnā€™t even bother changing into sleep clothes, now opting to sleep in nothing instead. I crawled into bed, snuggling in while Dieter shut off the lights and made sure the door was cracked for Zee. He slid under the blankets, reaching to pull me against him and tangle our limbs together. After burying his face in my hair, he sighed in contentment and squeezed me just a little tighter. He was asleep within minutes, and I wasnā€™t too far behind him.Ā 
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When I awoke the next morning, Dieter was still snoring lightly against the back of my shoulder. I could just make out Zeeā€™s paw stretched out across the side of his head and disappearing into his mess of curls as she snoozed behind him. I moved to get up, but Dieter groaned and stiffened his arm that was thrown over my middle.Ā 
I chuckled and whined, ā€œDiiieter, Iā€™ve gotta peeee.ā€
He huffed as he mumbled out a gravelly, ā€œFine.ā€ Then he turned, snuggling Zee instead. ā€œGuess Iā€™ll just cuddle my other cat then.ā€Ā 
I laughed at his ridiculousness, shaking my head as I made my way to the bathroom. Once I was finished, I took the opportunity to swipe another one of Dieterā€™s t-shirts that said ā€˜Stay Horny for Artā€™ in large letters across the front. It had me shaking my head all over again as I slipped it on and walked out into the bedroom. I made my way over to his side of the bed, leaning down to ruffle his hair before giving him a quick kiss.Ā 
ā€œIā€™m gonna go get breakfast started.ā€
He grabbed my hand, kissing the top of it before groaning and hiding his face from the sunlight that was beginning to sneak through the curtains. I smiled to myself as I pulled away and made my way downstairs. He was too adorable when he was half asleep and needy.Ā 
I was obviously nowhere as good of a cook as Dieter, so I decided to keep it simple. As I was digging through the pantry for pancake ingredients I heard movement in the kitchen. Assuming it was Dieter, I called out to ask, ā€œDo you know where theā€¦ā€
My words trailed off as I walked out of the pantry to find a petite woman, most likely in her early fifties, with short dark red hair, and a scowl on her face. I stopped in my tracks, taken off guard by her sudden appearance.Ā 
She stood with her hands on her hips as she looked me up and down, ā€œI thought he was done bringing hussies home?ā€
I nearly choked on my own spit as I sucked in a breath. I shook my head, ā€œNoā€¦ Iā€™m notā€¦ā€
She sighed, ā€œDid he relapse again? Iā€™m gonna kick his ass if he didā€¦then quit.ā€Ā 
That took me by surprise. I liked her already. Spitfire indeed.Ā 
I held my hands out in surrender, ā€œNoā€¦heā€™s fine. Heā€™s still in bed, asleep. You must be Cora, I presume?ā€
She seemed taken aback that I knew who she was, her face shifting from frustration to confusion before she nodded.
I gave her what I hoped was a polite smile, ā€œIā€™m Kat. Dieterā€™s dance partnerā€¦ā€
I could tell when the realization hit because her eyes widened and her mouth fell open slightly before she finally spoke, ā€œIā€™m not sure what to do with this...ā€Ā 
I chuckled, ā€œItā€™s okā€¦I think this is a learning experience for all of us.ā€Ā 
Dieter chose that moment to come shuffling into the kitchen wearing nothing but a pair of grey gym shorts and black crocs with Zee at his heels on a mission for breakfast. He came to stand next to me so he could wrap his arm around my waist and give me a quick kiss on the cheek, smiling lazily as he turned toward Cora, ā€œI see youā€™ve finally met my lady. I hope you werenā€™t too hard on herā€¦ā€
Coraā€™s eyebrows lifted up to her hairline as she studied Dieter. If I had to guess, I could only assume he had never acted this way toward anyone in front of her before. She gave a hesitant smile, ā€œDieterā€¦you wanna tell me whatā€™s going on?ā€
He pulled me snugly against his chest, ā€œWellā€¦weā€™re not exactly making it public yetā€¦but Kat and I are together.ā€
ā€œTogether?ā€ she asked. As if she needed confirmation.Ā 
He nodded as he fought a laugh, ā€œYeahā€¦together. Likeā€¦a couple. Dating. Courting. Whatever your generation calls it.ā€
She gave him an admonishing look, ā€œMy generation? Iā€™m not that much older than you, you little shit. Youā€™ll be fifty in no time.ā€
I clapped a hand over my mouth to hold in the laughter that was threatening to escape. Dieter, on the other hand, cackled over her words. I could already see why he hired her. She was his kind of people.Ā 
Cora rolled her eyes at him before changing the subject back to us. ā€œWell, this makes sense. I knew something was going on with youā€¦youā€™ve been different lately. I just thought you were slipping back into your old habits and tryinā€™ ta hide it. Iā€™m happy to see thatā€™s not the case.ā€
She paused, giving me a mischievous smile before looking back at Dieter. ā€œLooks like youā€™ve made a good decision for once. Iā€™m not getting floozy, gold digging vibes from this one.ā€
Dieter chuckled as he turned to look at me with a dimpling smile, ā€œNo. Sheā€™s definitely not a floozy or a gold diggerā€¦sheā€™s perfect.ā€Ā 
He had that sappy look in his eyes as they danced around my face. His smile widened as my cheeks flushed from his gaze and the words he said so freely. I could feel my heart fluttering in my chest as the thoughts of what that feeling meant, bounced around in my head. I refused to acknowledge it by name, but I knew what it was. The fact that I was falling so hard, so fast, had my mind reeling. I had to quickly pivot my train of thought before a spiral started. My attention shifted back to Cora, who was watching us intently, with a toothy smile.Ā 
Dieter invited her to sit for breakfast as he shuffled things around on the top shelf of the pantry to find the pancake ingredients. After refusing to let me help, I joined Cora on a stool at the island to watch Dieter cook. We slipped into an easy conversation, getting to know each other a little better while also teasing Dieter in any way we could. She was quickly becoming one of my new favorite people. It made me happy to know this was who Dieter was choosing to surround himself with now, even if she was hired help.Ā 
Since we didnā€™t have to be in rehearsal until later in the day, we spent some time lazing about in the pool. Not a minute passed that we werenā€™t touching each other in some way - be it laying back against his chest as he whispered sweetly in my ear while we lounged in the shallows or wrapped in his arms as he held me tightly and spoke in a low voice against my lips between kisses in the deep water. It never felt sexual. We were content just being wrapped up in each other as we bonded through touch and conversation. It made me realize how serious he was in not making our relationship about sex.Ā 
He opened himself up to me in a way I didnā€™t think anyone ever had, holding nothing back and giving me every part of himself. There was a lightness to him now, like everything that once weighed him down had been discarded and left in the past. It made me hopeful for him, and for us. His smile and happiness were infectious and warm. He was the sun and my light, teaching me how to find my confidence and love myself again. However, in the back of my mind I still had a worry that I was allowing him to affect me too much, too soon. I knew he had the power to break me in a way that Alec couldnā€™t, but he had given me more than enough reasons to trust that he wouldnā€™t.Ā 
After spending a good amount of time in the pool, we decided to relax and read on a chaise lounger. Dieter sat down, then allowed me to sit between his thighs and recline against his chest as I read aloud from the pages of Dan Brownā€™s The Lost Symbol. This eventually shifted into a debate about US government conspiracy theories which had us in fits of giggles as we argued our points for and against each one. We were into a deep conversation about the Roswell crash when my phone rang on the table next to us with an incoming FaceTime call. Dieter reached for it and handed it to me.Ā 
Seeing my sisterā€™s name flash on the screen elicited a sigh from me. ā€œI probably better answer this. Sheā€™s been giving me hell because I havenā€™t called her in a few weeks.ā€Ā 
Dieter shifted to get up and give me some privacy, but I stopped him, ā€œNo. Stay. I might as well tell her what Iā€™ve been up to in my free timeā€¦ā€
He gave me a nervous look as he settled back into the seat. I took a deep breath then hit the ā€˜answerā€™ button, careful to keep the camera focused on my face for now as I smiled into it.Ā 
ā€œLydia, heyā€¦how are you?ā€
She looked annoyed, ā€œAbout damn time you answered. Why havenā€™t you called me?ā€
I smiled nervously, ā€œOh you knowā€¦Iā€™ve been busy with rehearsalsā€¦ā€
She scoffed, ā€œYouā€™re never this busy with rehearsalsā€¦ā€
I scoffed back, ā€œWell, I typically donā€™t make it this far into the competition to keep me this busy with rehearsalsā€¦ā€Ā 
She paused for a beat, considering my response. ā€œFair point. I guess Iā€™ll let it slideā€¦How come youā€™re not rehearsing now?ā€
I pushed a stray piece of hair away that was blowing in my face, ā€œOur schedule got moved around a bit. We have an evening rehearsal today.ā€Ā 
She nodded, ā€œWellā€¦whatā€™s been going on? I havenā€™t talked to you in weeks. Has Alec been an issue?ā€
I grimaced and shrugged, ā€œYou knowā€¦itā€™s Alec. Iā€™m just avoiding him as much as I can and trying to move onā€¦ā€
Something in my demeanor must have tipped her off, causing her eyes to narrow slightly. ā€œAnd how is the moving on going? I feel like youā€™ve been veryā€¦nonchalant about this whole thingā€¦ā€Ā 
I pursed my lips, ā€œI meanā€¦I was kind of over his shit before the thing with Lana happened. So, itā€™s like a weight has been lifted, honestly.ā€Ā 
Her eyes narrowed further, ā€œWhere are you right now?ā€Ā 
I could tell Dieter was holding in laughter, causing me to fight a smile as I replied. ā€œIā€™m hanging out by the pool at a friendā€™s house.ā€Ā 
Dieter was shaking now, burying his face in the back of my hair to muffle his giggles. My teeth sunk into my bottom lip in an attempt to hide my smile as I angled the phone just right to cut him out of frame.Ā 
Lydiaā€™s eyebrow arched. She was not amused with my evasive answers. ā€œHow are things going with your dance partner? Youā€™ve hardly said anything about himā€¦ā€
I couldnā€™t help smirking at that question, ā€œItā€™s going goodā€¦heā€™s a good dancerā€¦and we get along.ā€
Her face told me she was on to my bullshit while her voice feigned ignorance. ā€œHm, well thatā€™s good. I guess thatā€™s why you have such good chemistry on the dance floor thenā€¦ā€Ā 
I chuckled, ā€œWell, he is an Oscar winning actor. He knows how to play a role wellā€¦ā€Ā 
I could tell Dieter was about to lose what little composure he had over that line. I wasnā€™t too far behind him.Ā 
Lydia sighed, ā€œKatā€¦just tell me what the hell is going on. Iā€™m not an idiotā€¦something is up with you. Did something happen with him?ā€
I scrunched up my nose, ā€œYou really wanna know?ā€Ā 
She sighed, ā€œKat, seriously?ā€ She paused and rubbed at the crease between her brows as she continued, ā€œSo there is something to that TMZ article then? Please tell me he at least fucked some sense into you and made ya realize that Alec was a shitty lay?ā€
Dieter snorted out a laugh before clapping his hand over his mouth. I grimaced while trying to hold in my own laughter. Lydiaā€™s brows furrowed in confusion.Ā 
I glanced up at Dieter with a questioning look. After getting a nod of approval from him, I stretched my arms out in front of us so that we both fit into the frame. Dieter smiled sheepishly and waved. Lydia gasped out a shocked, ā€œOh shit!ā€ before accidentally dropping her phone.Ā 
Dieter and I burst into laughter as the blurred images on the screen bounced around before finally focusing back on her shocked face. She sat there staring with her mouth hanging open as she processed what she was seeing.Ā 
Dieter chuckled before finally speaking, ā€œHi, Lydia! Iā€™m sorry Iā€™ve been keeping your sister from you. I swear itā€™s not on purpose.ā€Ā 
Her mouth finally snapped shut, ā€œWow, OK. So, this is likeā€¦happening then?ā€Ā 
I nodded with a smile, ā€œYeah, it kind of isā€¦ā€Ā 
She looked overwhelmed now as she sputtered out, ā€œHow?...When?ā€¦Does Alec know?ā€¦ā€ She paused, then gasped out, ā€œDid you cheat on Alec? Please say yes.ā€Ā 
Dieter buried his face in my neck as he laughed at her. I shook my head and chuckled, ā€œNo. No cheating. It was after I ended things with Alecā€¦in New York. Dieterā€™s been really supportive with everything and was looking out for me. We had gotten close andā€¦it just sort ofā€¦happened.ā€
I reached up behind me to cup his cheek. He wasted no time lacing his fingers through mine as he turned his head to kiss the palm of my hand and pulled it away to nuzzle his cheek against the side of my head.Ā 
Lydia looked absolutely dumbfounded as she mumbled out, ā€œHoly shit. So, youā€™re like together, together? This isnā€™t a fling type thing?ā€Ā 
I scoffed, ā€œNo, you know Iā€™m not into that.ā€
She laughed, ā€œI KNEW something was going on with him! I could tell from the way you look at him when youā€™re dancing on the show.ā€
Dieter and I snickered before I continued, ā€œWell, weā€™re not going public yet. The producers are trying hard to make this a thing and I refuse to let them. Alec suspects, but I donā€™t wanna give him any more ammunition to come at us. I just wanna make it through this season with as little drama as possible and be done with it all.ā€Ā 
She nodded before her expression shifted to one of worry. ā€œSo, how has it been goingā€¦with you two?ā€Ā 
The question seemed innocent enough, but her tone told another story. Dieter sighed quietly, then leaned in next to my ear, ā€œIā€™m gonna go get us something to drink and give you two some time to chat.ā€Ā 
I felt my stomach drop and hoped that hadnā€™t upset him as I shifted so that he could get up. He gave me a quick kiss on the top of the head before he disappeared inside.Ā 
My eyes shifted back to the phone, ā€œDid you really have to ask that right now?ā€
She huffed out a nervous laugh, ā€œWhat do you mean?ā€
It was my turn to narrow my eyes, ā€œYou know what I meanā€¦you and your disapproving tone.ā€
She sighed, ā€œItā€™s not disapprovalā€¦itā€™s concern. You just got out of a very long term engagement with an asshole and immediately got with Dieter Bravo of all people? He has a reputation ya know. I just worry is all.ā€Ā 
I couldnā€™t argue with her logic. Those same thoughts had already crossed my mind on more than one occasion.
My brows furrowed, ā€œI completely understand where youā€™re coming fromā€¦Iā€™ve thought about that too. It is fast, but we were building a solid friendship beforehand. Itā€™s not like I just met him last week. And Dieterā€¦heā€™s not what you would expectā€¦certainly not what I expected. Heā€™s actually very caring and sweet. Heā€™s been working really hard on himselfā€¦and he really is a good person. Weā€™ve connected in a way that Iā€™ve never connected with anyone beforeā€¦ā€
She puffed air through her cheeks as she rubbed at her temple, ā€œOh Katā€¦youā€™ve got it bad, donā€™t you?ā€
I sighed, ā€œYeah, I think I doā€¦I mean, the man is learning to make Greek food for meā€¦and heā€™s always worried about how Iā€™m feeling after rehearsals. He makes a point to take care of meā€¦cooking, hot baths, massagesā€¦Alec always acted like my body aches were such a damn burden. And Dieterā€¦heā€™s so open about everythingā€¦his past, his feelings. Heā€™s the complete opposite of Alec in every way. How could I not have it bad with that?ā€
Lydia let out a low whistle, ā€œDamn, sisā€¦he almost sounds too good to be true. What about his reputation though? The whoring around and partying? Doesnā€™t that worry you?ā€
I pinched the bridge of my nose. It was frustrating, but I understood where she was coming from.Ā 
ā€œHeā€™s been sober for ten months and hasnā€™t been with anyone else for even longer than that. Heā€™s been taking it seriouslyā€¦Weā€™ve talked through why he used to do those things and heā€™s working through itā€¦I-I trust him. Heā€™s not that person any more. Heā€™s already proved that to me in a million different ways.ā€Ā 
She grimaced slightly, ā€œAre you sure this isnā€™t another one of your ā€˜I can fix himā€™ phases?ā€
I scoffed, ā€œI should be offended by thatā€¦but I kind of deserved it. I-Itā€™s not that. Dieter doesnā€™t need me to fix him. He was already fixing himself before he met me. He did that part on his own.ā€
That seemed to alleviate some of her worries, causing her features to relax. ā€œWell, thatā€™s good to hear at least.ā€
I huffed out a laugh, ā€œHell, if anything heā€™s fixing me...ā€
Lydia snickered, ā€œSo heā€™s good in bed thenā€¦ā€Ā 
I couldnā€™t help rolling my eyes as I fought a smile, ā€œThatā€™s not what I was referring to, but yesā€¦he is. Heā€™s very attentive, skilledā€¦adventurousā€¦and he knows how to read me. No direction needed. Itā€™sā€¦more than just sex with him tooā€¦itā€™s always very intimateā€¦during and after.ā€
I paused, briefly laughing to myself as I thought about mine and Dieterā€™s previous conversation we had in this very spot. ā€œWhen we got back from New York, he invited me over to stay with himā€¦he didnā€™t wanna have sex that night. He said he didnā€™t want it to be all about that with us. We didnā€™t do it again for like a week. Heā€™s all about exploring all forms of intimacy.ā€Ā 
Lydiaā€™s eyes nearly bulged out her head with that news. ā€œFuuuck, ok. He just won me over because thatā€™s a major turn on.ā€
I laughed, ā€œRight? You understand now? And I havenā€™t even told you about his cat and plants.ā€
Lydia looked intrigued, however, Dieter chose that moment to emerge from the house carrying two glasses of lemonade.Ā 
I murmured out a quick ā€œIā€™ll fill you in on that later,ā€ as I turned to smile up at him. I scooted forward so he could take his seat behind me after he set the glasses on the small table beside us. He wasted no time wrapping his arms around my waist and hugging me tightly against his chest.Ā 
ā€œAlright ladies, what did I miss?ā€ he asked in a playful tone.Ā 
Lydia bit back a laugh, ā€œKat was just telling me that youā€™re awesome in the sack.ā€
I could feel my cheeks flush, ā€œFucking hell, Lyd. Shut up.ā€Ā 
Dieter vibrated from laughter behind me, shaking his head as he spoke. ā€œWell, I guess there are worse things she could be saying.ā€Ā 
We fell into easy conversation after that, somehow dragging Lydia into our prior discussion about conspiracy theories. They were both laughing and already throwing jokes at one another. I could tell she liked him which gave me some comfort. After we hung up, a text message immediately pinged from Lydia.
Lydia: OK. I get it now. Hot. Fucking hilarious. Worships you. I approve. šŸ‘šŸ‘šŸ‘Ā Ā Ā 
I smiled and showed it to Dieter, who howled with laughter. He was feeling pretty smug, having won the affections of my sister.Ā 
Soon after that, relaxation time was up. We had to get to the studio for a rather exhausting rehearsal. Given that the Paso Doble is a fast paced, Latin style dance, it didnā€™t take long before we were running on fumes, but the choreography was really beginning to come together by this point in the week. Dieter was having fun with the fact that most of the attention for this dance was on him and allowed him to show a little bit of sass and attitude. He was definitely playing up those attributes, and I was enjoying every second of it. Especially after he declared the room felt like an inferno and peeled his sweaty shirt off over his head.
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The constant rehearsals were definitely having an effect on his body, toning all the right muscles and slimming him down slightly. He looked amazing and I could tell he was feeling it too. He seemed more confident in himself, which only led to more torture for me. It was obvious he was intentionally flaunting the goods to get me worked up - not that I was complaining. I didnā€™t mind seeing more skin or watching the muscles in his chest, arms, and back flex as he moved around the dance floor. It was quickly becoming one of my favorite sights. Especially when he added that sexy smirk of his to the mix.Ā 
After rehearsal, Dieter went to pick up takeout for us while I ran home to check on things and resupply on clothes and the essentials before I made my way over to his house. He was just setting Zeeā€™s dinner down on her mat when I walked in. They seemed to be having some sort of standoff over the eveningā€™s meal selection as he placed his hands on his hips and huffed down at her. She sat defiantly staring up at him as her tail flicked back and forth. I rolled my lips together to hold in my laugh as I watched Zee meow loudly, which elicited a heavy sigh from Dieter.Ā 
ā€œOh, for fuckā€™s sake. Thereā€™s nothing wrong with it, woman. You donā€™t have to have freshly cooked protein with every meal.ā€
She meowed again, then glanced at her plate before shifting her eyes back to his. He rolled his eyes and puffed air out of his cheeks before stalking over to the pantry, then emerged with a pouch of tuna. Clearly losing the battle with his furry little menace. Zee seemed more enthusiastic about her dinner as she watched him spoon a small amount out on top of her food. Finally, a compromise.Ā 
Dieter turned his attention to me with an exasperated look on his face. ā€œI think I have unintentionally created a monster,ā€ he said through a chuckle.Ā 
I walked over toward the island to unpack our dinner as I snickered, ā€œIt seems soā€¦but I gotta say, watching you two battle it out has become one of my favorite pastimes. Sheā€™s got you wrapped around her little paw.ā€Ā 
He came to stand behind me, grazing his nose up the side of my neck as he wrapped his arms around me. ā€œWhat can I say? I live to serve my two ladies. Iā€™m your bitch and I have no shame to say it.ā€Ā 
I snorted out a laugh as I sank back against him, turning to give him a quick kiss. He pulled away with a smile, ā€œSpeaking ofā€¦I got you some spanakopitaā€¦and after you eat, weā€™re taking a hot bath. If my body hurts this bad, I know yours has to.ā€Ā 
I smiled up at him, ā€œSounds like a plan. I am feeling quite achy this evening.ā€Ā 
His lips set into a tight line, ā€œIā€™ll make you some herbal tea. Itā€™ll help. Nowā€¦go sit. Get off your feet. Iā€™ll handle all this.ā€Ā 
The no nonsense look on his face told me there was no arguing. So, I did as he said. He had a plate full of food and a glass of water in front of me within minutes, making sure I was taken care of before he sat down beside me. When we finished, he put everything away while I spent a few minutes cuddling Zee and drinking my fresh cup of herbal tea. He soon disappeared upstairs to run the bath, and I followed several minutes later.Ā 
I found Dieter undressed down to his boxer briefs and leaning over the side of the tub, checking the water temperature and adding some Epsom salt. The sight of him caused my pulse to quicken. When he turned and gave me his sexy little smirk, I thought my heart would explode out of my chest. Without a word, he stood to grab a brush and began to meticulously brush the knots out of my hair caused by todayā€™s rehearsal. Then he twisted it up and secured it with a flat clip. He proceeded to undress me, taking his time to allow his hands and lips to gently explore my body before helping me into the tub.Ā 
Dieter settled in on the opposite end, immediately taking one of my feet into his large hands and began massaging. I relaxed into the water, enjoying the feel of the jets spraying along my body and Dieterā€™s touch. We sat staring at each other in silence, the air around us electric as we simply existed together. His lips tugged upward as his fingers dipped down to rub at that spot on my foot, causing my thighs to clench. My teeth sunk into my bottom lip as I narrowed my eyes in his direction.Ā 
The smirk was back now, ā€œWhatā€™s the matter Kitten? You need something from me?ā€Ā 
I further relaxed into the water, ā€œI think youā€™re the one being naughty right now, Bravo.ā€Ā 
His brows arched, ā€œLet me show you how naughty I can be. Just lay back and relax. Donā€™t fight the sensations. Imma show you how nerve endings work.ā€
I did as he asked, trying to loosen up and just feel as our eyes remained locked in an intense stare. His thumbs got to work, gradually increasing pressure in the spots he knew would get me worked up. I could feel the tingle begin in my foot, eventually shooting up directly to my core. My first instinct was to pull away just because it was an odd sensation. It caused his grip to tighten as he tsked at me, ā€œRelax, Kitten. Donā€™t fight it. Feel it.ā€Ā 
He continued the same pressure with his thumb, allowing me a moment to become accustomed to the sensation. I was soon panting under his touch, my thighs tensing as my center sought out more friction. It was as if I was suspended right on the edge, close enough to feel something but never completely falling over. His hooded gaze told me that he was enjoying watching me writhe under his touch at the other end of the tub. I lost track of how long that went on. I was damn near in tears when he gave me that mischievous smirk and finally spoke, ā€œTouch yourself for meā€¦ā€Ā 
My jaw fell slack as one hand moved down to my massage breast and the other to my center. My fingers got to work rubbing at the sensitive and swollen nub, adding to the sensations I was already feeling from where Dieter continued to rub my foot, now adding even more pressure with his thumbs. Within seconds, I fell over the edge. My body tensing and arching out of the water as a loud moan escaped my lips. I saw stars as the blood rushed behind my ears. It was one of the most intense orgasms I had ever had from basic stimulation. Dieter continued rubbing my foot through it, prolonging the sensations until I finally relaxed into the water.Ā Ā 
When my senses finally returned, my eyes fluttered open to find Dieterā€™s smug smile. He seemed rather proud of himself. I gave him a lazy smile in return, suggestively running my foot down his chest until it disappeared under the water - going lower to brush against his hardness that was hiding under the surface. His eyes narrowed, ā€œNow who's being naughty?ā€
I gave him an innocent smile, ā€œOh noā€¦Iā€™m just returning the favor.ā€Ā 
I sat up, shifting to join him at the other end of the tub. With my breast pressed against him, I leaned in for a slow and sensual kiss. My left arm moved around his neck allowing my fingers to tangle in his hair as my lips trailed down his jaw to first suck on his ear lobe before moving to the sensitive spot behind it. I resituated myself, my left side leaning against him as my right hand traced a path downward. His lips captured mine until my fingers wrapped around the base of his cock and stroked upward. His jaw fell slack, breaking our kiss as his head dropped backward onto the ledge of the tub. With the arm that was wrapped around me, he reached up to gently rub soothing circles at the base of my neck as I continued to pump his length - occasionally swiping my thumb over the head and squeezing just a little tighter.
I took this opportunity to take in his expressions as his breath quickened. His head lolled back and forth as his brows pinched together. His teeth bit into his bottom lip as he turned and whimpered quietly against my shoulder. I leaned down, grazing my nose against his ear, speaking in a silky soft voice.
ā€œYouā€™ve been so good todayā€¦taking care of me in every way. I think itā€™s only fair that I take care of you too. Donā€™t you?ā€
He whimpered, his mouth falling open, allowing his hot pants to blow against the curve of my neck as my hand pumped a little faster. My fingers twisted in his hair, pulling it slightly causing his head to fall back away from me so that I could see his face again. His brows pinched together tighter as his arm tensed around me, his fingers now gripping my shoulder firmly. He was panting out soft whimpers with every exhale, eventually turning into a deep groan as I swiped my thumb over the head for the last time - causing him to cum. He trembled under me, eventually going limp against the tub, sucking in deep breaths through his pouty lips as his brows arched.Ā 
A curl fell down over his forehead as his head leaned toward me. He looked relaxed now and completely blissed out as he sat there with his eyes closed. A lazy grin slid across his lips as his dark eyes finally blinked open to meet my gaze. Without warning he pulled me down, causing me to squeal as he crashed his lips against mine. His hands ghosted up and down my back side while we continued to make out like a couple of teenagers, pulling apart only to stare into each other's eyes.Ā 
He reached up to brush a stray hair away from my face as he took me in, ā€œYou knowā€¦I wouldnā€™t be upset if every night for the rest of my life ended like thisā€¦with us togetherā€¦you make me happier than I ever thought possible.ā€Ā 
His words took me off guard, causing a mix of emotions - excitement because it meant he was thinking long term about our future, but also panic. It was another reminder of how hard and how fast I was falling for him because I now realized I wanted that, more than anything. I was also setting myself up to get hurt badly if this went wrong. I was already in so much deeper with him than I ever was with Alec. I need to get over this. Dieter isnā€™t Alec. He wonā€™t do what Alec did.Ā 
My eyes searched his, I could tell he meant what he was saying. I felt like he wanted to say more but was holding back. I suddenly felt emotional, the only response I could muster was a small smile before pulling him in for a gentle kiss. I turned, settling back against his chest as his hands rubbed my shoulders.Ā 
He kissed the top of my head, seeming to sense my anxiety, then leaned his cheek against it as he spoke, ā€œIā€™m sorry, I probably shouldnā€™t have said thatā€¦I wanna take things at a pace you're OK with. I donā€™t want you to feel rushed. I mean it when I say youā€™re important to me andā€¦I donā€™t wanna fuck this up.ā€
I grabbed his hand and nuzzled it against the side of my face, ā€œDonā€™t apologize. I want you to be open with me about your feelings. I do appreciate the graceā€¦just be patient with me. Iā€™m there with you, but Iā€™m feeling a lot of thingsā€¦Iā€™m still working through a lot of things, most of which have nothing to do with youā€¦just know that.ā€Ā 
He hugged me against him, brushing the hair back off my face as he told me to relax for a little while. We sat in silence for a time, until Zee came strutting into the bathroom meowing because we werenā€™t in bed yet. We took that as our cue to start our bedtime routine so as not to upset the queen of the Bravo residence.Ā 
Dieter climbed into bed first that night, raising the blanket for me to crawl in beside him. I was suddenly feeling vulnerable as I snuggled in against his chest. He pulled me snugly against himself as I tangled my leg with his. His scent and warmth surrounded me, calming me and bringing me back to my senses. ā€œDieter?ā€
He murmured out a sleepy ā€˜hm?ā€™ against the top of my hair.Ā 
ā€œI wouldnā€™t mind having this every night, too.ā€
I felt him smile as he nuzzled his face further into my hair and hugged me just a little tighter.Ā 
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Dieterā€™s POV This week had been such an emotional roller coaster for me already. Kat and I finally caved after a week of no sex, first in the dressing room at the studio, then again after we got back to my place that same evening. It wasnā€™t just sex though. Like in New York, it was different - intense. She had me feeling things that I had never felt before, causing my emotions to jump all over the place. It felt like it was never enough and too much all at the same time. I wondered if this was what it felt like to make love to someone. I had always heard people say that, but never really understood it. To me, there was only sex or fucking. Those two things didnā€™t feel like appropriate descriptors for what Kat and I did though.Ā 
There was no question about my feelings for her. I knew I was in love, but did the intensity between us mean she felt the same about me? I couldnā€™t help hoping that was the case. Why else would it feel like this with her if she wasnā€™t reciprocating those feelings? It was something I wanted to bring up with her, but I didnā€™t know how. I didnā€™t want to freak her out and ruin what we were building. Deep down I knew she was more fragile than she let on. I knew this thing with Alec had affected her no matter how hard she tried to hide it. I wanted to make sure I gave her all the time she needed to heal.Ā 
The shit storm brewing around us certainly didnā€™t help any. I knew there would eventually be some repercussions from the Alec confrontation. The rumors had already begun to swirl and TMZ had gotten a whiff of it. They were sniffing around for any details they could get so they could post about it.Ā 
Then that suggestive text message came through when Kat had my phone. I damn near had a panic attack, worried she would think I was talking to other people behind her back. I knew I should have gotten my number changed as soon as all those random messages started to come in after SNL. It would have saved us both some grief. Thankfully, it appeared as if she believed my explanation. At least I hoped she did, because it was the truth. However, I knew it had to be worrisome to her after the whole Alec thing. I felt like a complete asshole over the incident. I never wanted to do anything to make her worry about those sort of things because I would never do that to her.Ā 
I went from that major fuck up right into my therapy session with Dr. Smith where she made me talk about my parents and how that related to my freak out on Alec. It was something that I did need to talk through. I couldnā€™t put it off forever because it had been bothering me. Dr. Smith helped me realize that the visceral reaction was more about protecting someone I care deeply for than anything - that Iā€™m not that violent person. My biggest fear is that I would turn into my father or that I was already like him in some way. Deep down I knew I wasnā€™t, but that worry would always be there because I was so affected by it during my early life.Ā 
When I got back home after that session, I went straight to my sanctuary. I needed to get it out of my system in some way, finally settling for music. When I began to play, I didnā€™t have any intention to go live on Instagram, but I figured why not? That was what Lenny wanted me to do. I ended up finding it to be strangely cathartic, but I was still feeling down when Kat showed up. Given that Dr. Smith had encouraged me to tell Kat about my past, I felt like it was the last step I needed to take to absolve myself of all the things I was feeling.Ā 
I didnā€™t even know where to start, but Kat knew exactly what I needed - pulling me into that moment of intimacy and just letting me be while I worked through my emotions. I needed all of her and she willingly let me have as much as I could handle. It felt like something shifted between us yet again, but I didnā€™t know what. All I knew is that I felt closer to her afterward and completely safe to open up to tell her about my past.Ā Ā 
Our relationship really was progressing quicker than I thought it would. After Kat met Cora, she had essentially met all the important people in my circle. She was becoming engrained in every part of my life, and I couldnā€™t have been happier about it. Cora loved Kat and approved once she got to spend a little time with her. Kat had even told her sister about me, which I felt like was a big fucking deal. She seemed almost proud to show me off to Lydia, not hesitating to let me join their call after she spilled the beans. It all felt very natural, and I honestly couldnā€™t believe it was happening. This thing between us was obviously turning into something serious. It was scary, but I welcomed it with open arms. I was ready to have someone, to have my own functional family.
After allowing my mind to run a marathon of thoughts as I laid in bed staring at the ceiling, my attention turned to Kat. She was sleeping soundly beside me. I hated to disturb her, but I really needed to take a piss and get breakfast started. Since it was a late rehearsal day, I wanted to take advantage of our free time and surprise her with an authentic Greek meal.Ā 
Kat groaned as I pulled away from her to get up, causing me to huff out a quiet laugh as I ran my fingertips down the side of her cheek. ā€œSorry to wake you sweetheart, go back to sleep for a bit. Iā€™m gonna go make you some breakfast.ā€
She hummed out in agreement, snuggling deeper into the blankets as I tucked them around her. Zee stood from her spot at the end of the bed, moving toward Katā€™s head. I narrowed my eyes at her, pointing an accusing finger as I whispered out, ā€œYou behave. Donā€™t be an annoying little shit.ā€
Kat snickered into the pillow as she lifted the blanket, allowing Zee to cuddle in against her before cocooning them both in the duvet. Seeing my two girls snuggled up in my bed together was really doing something to me, causing my heart to flutter in my chest and making me feel happy in a way I never had been. I really couldnā€™t ask for anything better than that.Ā 
I threw on a pair of gym shorts and grabbed my fluffy green robe, then headed downstairs to start cooking. I had asked Cora to pick up some ingredients for a traditional Greek breakfast that I wanted to try my hand at making. It seemed simple enough, so I figured I couldnā€™t fuck it up too badly.Ā 
I got to work, chopping the tomatoes and onions before letting them sautĆ© in a pan - eventually adding lightly beaten eggs and several spices before topping with crumbled feta. I followed that up with fried pork, then made a small batch of what equated to Greek French toast. Kat came shuffling in just as I added the finishing touches of honey and cinnamon to the fried bread. I could hear her sniffing the air as she came up behind me to wrap her arms around my waist.Ā 
ā€œThis smells amazing. What did you make?ā€
After setting the container of cinnamon down, I turned to face her with a smirk, wrapping my arms around her and hugging her against me as I went over the morning menu.Ā 
ā€œWell, we have some fried porkā€¦and forgive me if I butcher the namesā€¦but I also made some fetoydia and strapatsada.ā€Ā 
Her eyes lit up, ā€œNo you didnā€™t?!?!ā€
I chuckled, ā€œI did. I also had Cora get you some fancy imported Greek coffee and mountain tea too. Iā€™m curious to try those. Which would you like with your breakfast?ā€
Her mouth hung open for a beat, clearly surprised by my efforts. ā€œI canā€™t believe you did that for meā€¦I donā€™t even know what to say.ā€Ā 
I shrugged, ā€œItā€™s not a big deal. You know I love to try new thingsā€¦and youā€™ve given me a reason to. Now, coffee or tea?ā€
She sighed in contentment, ā€œCoffee, please.ā€
I gave her a quick kiss on the forehead before pulling away to get it started, ā€œComing right up! Foodā€™s done, so dig in.ā€
She had a ghost of a smile on her lips as she made her plate which had me feeling all warm and fuzzy.Ā  I would never tire of spoiling her every chance I got.Ā 
Kat seemed to enjoy the meal, moaning in appreciation with every bite. She and I ate way too much to the point we both felt miserable after. Thankfully we had several hours before we had to be in the dance studio, so we could relax and be a little lazy for a while. We spent some time snuggled on the couch - her tucked into my side as Zee stretched out in the crevice between Kat and the back of the sofa. Kat watched as I aimlessly scrolled through the threads of one of my online plant groups, taking the time to respond to questions and complain to her about how so many people gave terrible advice.Ā 
I chuckled as I explained to Kat how I was the dickhead that always incited arguments about plant care and then won them and how I had amassed quite the little following that always directly asked me for advice. I often wondered what they would do if they knew who they were actually talking to.Ā 
After several minutes, Kat piped up to ask, ā€œWhat do they mean when they say SuccDee? Is that a dirty plant joke? I donā€™t understand the context.ā€Ā 
My body shook with laughter as I tried to hold it in. I finally got it together enough to answer her. ā€œMy username is ā€˜Succulent_Daddy_Deeā€™. They have taken to calling me ā€˜SuccDeeā€™ for short.ā€
I could see the moment of realization on her face as her eyes widened. Then she burst into laughter as she buried her face in my chest. She had tears in her eyes as she asked, ā€œAnd Iā€™m sure you did nothing to encourage that. Youā€™re so badā€¦ā€Ā 
I snorted out laughter, ā€œHey, I wasnā€™t the one to come up with it. However, I will admit I did nothing to discourage it. Honestly, I spent a good five minutes laughing the first time someone said it. It just stuck and itā€™s kind of fucking perfect.ā€
She wiped her eyes, ā€œIā€™m not sure which version of that name is more entertaining. The multiple meanings of the word succulent take it to a whole other level.ā€Ā 
I feigned innocence, ā€œI have no idea what youā€™re talking about. A succulent is a type of plant. I am the father to many succulent plants. Get your mind outta the gutter.ā€
She broke into another fit of giggles, ā€œYouā€™re so full of shit.ā€Ā 
I snickered, ā€œYeah, guiltyā€¦but hey, at least I keep it entertaining.ā€
With the arm she had thrown across my torso, she gave me a little squeeze. ā€œThat you do. I canā€™t complain.ā€
I continued to scroll, pausing on a post that caught my attention and reading it out loud to Kat.
Hereā€™s a little fun fact for all of my plant enthusiasts. Plants can talk! They emit ultrasonic vibrations of 20ā€“100 kHz. To make this more interesting, cats can hear up to 64 kHz and dogs up to 45 kHz. Does this mean my pets can hear the plants?
I looked down at her, ā€œFuuck, am I unknowingly driving Zee insane with all my plants? It must be super loud in here to her...ā€
This fact was sort of blowing my mind as I peeked over at Zee, the mention of her name rousing her from a deep sleep. ā€œDamn Zee, I wish you could talk. I wanna know what they sayā€¦Maybe I should talk to them more?ā€
My attention diverted back to Kat, finding her smiling up at me. ā€œWell, now I know why she sometimes randomly stares at them in that freaky way she does. I wonder if thereā€™s a way we can hear them? Imma have to research thisā€¦ā€Ā 
Katā€™s smile widened, and to Zeeā€™s dismay, she shifted so that she could raise up to kiss me and mumble, ā€œYouā€™re so fucking adorableā€ against my lips. My thoughts for the talking plants were soon forgotten as I discarded my iPad on the floor next to the couch and proceeded to have a heated make out session with my lady.Ā 
We were interrupted minutes later by her phone ringing on the table next to us. Kat seemed intent on ignoring it, continuing to kiss down my jaw and neck as I turned to grab her cell with a chuckle.Ā 
ā€œItā€™s Marc. You need to take it?ā€
Her head popped up with a perplexed look on her face, ā€œYeahā€¦maybe. He rarely calls me.ā€Ā 
She answered, going through the usual small talk and pleasantries before going quiet to listen to what I assumed was his reason for calling. Her brows pinched together slightly before she gave me a puzzled smile.Ā 
ā€œMarc wants to know if weā€™re available for dinner with him, his wife, and Stefanie and her partner on Sunday?ā€
I was surprised by the request, but they had seemed to be more friendly toward us since the Alec incident. I figured it might do us some good to be sociable, so I shrugged. ā€œWhy not? Could be fun.ā€
Kat gave me a brilliant smile before telling Marc we would be there, then listened for a bit longer before asking, ā€œBring our guitars?ā€
Her eyes shifted to mine nervously. I reached up to run my fingers through her hair, causing her to relax into my touch. ā€œYeahā€¦Iā€™ll tell him to. Yep, see you then.ā€Ā 
After she hung up, her eyes met mine, ā€œIt seems they wanna have a jam session after dinner. They all play apparentlyā€¦ā€
She didnā€™t seem excited about that idea. ā€œWe donā€™t have to stay for that if you donā€™t want to.ā€Ā 
Her nose scrunched up as she asked, ā€œHow do you feel about doing that?ā€
I shrugged, ā€œI mean, it could be fun. I havenā€™t done anything like that in foreverā€¦but if you donā€™t want toā€¦ā€Ā 
Kat sighed, ā€œNoā€¦you know what? Iā€™m gonna do it. I need to play again. Itā€™ll be good for me. Besides, youā€™ll be there with me, so Iā€™ll be fine.ā€Ā 
Her words caused a warmth to spread through me. I loved that she felt that way, that I could ease her anxieties. She was putting so much trust in me, more than anyone ever had. If only she understood how much that meant. I knew it couldnā€™t be easy after what she had gone through, which made it mean so much more. I gave her a soft smile before pulling her in for a tender kiss.Ā 
Zee chose that moment to paw a glass that was still about one fourth of the way full of water off the coffee table, which broke our spell and the glass.Ā 
ā€œZee, what the fuck?ā€ I huffed out in frustration while Kat snorted out a laugh beside me. Zee gave me a defiant look as her tail whipped back and forth. I sighed as we moved to get up. Kat grabbed Zee to keep her safe while I moved to clean up the mess. Zee now seemed happy as a clam as she purred and snuggled against Kat.Ā 
I gave Zee the side eye as I swept up the mess, ā€œThere are other less destructive ways to get our attention, young lady. That was not cool.ā€Ā 
Zee seemed like she could care less as Kat scratched behind her ears and snickered at her complete disregard for my scolding. Once I got everything cleaned up, I decided to do some much needed plant care as Kat gave Zee the attention she was demanding. Zeeā€™s need for affection didnā€™t last long. Once she had her fill, she simply jumped from Kats arms and made her way over to the top of her cat tree to groom herself. Kat scoffed at her dismissal as she stood, coming to stand next to me as I dusted, pruned, and misted leaves. Her arms snaked around my waist as she rested her chin on my shoulder and watched me work in silence for a few minutes. I could feel her lips brush against my skin as she asked, ā€œCan you teach me how to do this?ā€Ā 
I donā€™t know why, but her request had my heart racing. It made me feel giddy that she wanted to learn about my hobby. I glanced down at her with a smirk, ā€œYou mean you donā€™t already do this for your plants?ā€Ā 
She snorted, ā€œMy plants are lucky to get water. They come to my house to survive, not live.ā€Ā 
I shook my head and scoffed out a laugh, ā€œThatā€™s just depressing. Donā€™t tell me that. Imma have to start checking in on them.ā€Ā 
She smiled against my neck, ā€œI would be ok with that.ā€Ā 
I pulled her around to stand in front of me, now leaning over her shoulder with my arms around her. My hands shifted through the leaves of the plant I was currently working on as I explained when to prune and the process for dusting and misting. She was full of questions as she took over to do it herself. I hugged her backside against me as I supervised, placing the occasional gentle kiss against her jaw and the curve of her neck. Once she got the hang of it, we both worked through all the plants in the room as we chatted and got to know each other better. I honestly couldnā€™t think of a better way to spend my free time, and I found it to be a wonderful and relaxing way to bond with her.Ā 
Before we knew it, it was time for us to head off to rehearsal for the rest of the day. It was another grueling day in the dance studio and also filming day. After seven weeks of this, I could tell it was slowly wearing me down. This dance in particular was taking a lot out of me with it being very high energy. After six hours of it, my tank was running empty and I was beginning to make ridiculous mistakes with my footwork and frame. Kat seemed to be struggling as well. We were both slowing down and couldnā€™t seem to keep up with the music. At least it made for some interesting footage for the show. We eventually sat on the floor and settled for talking through some parts of it, deciding what still needed to be tweaked or changed and coming up with a game plan for the next two days. That part would probably be less exciting to watch, but we sort of didnā€™t care.
Once our studio time was up, we headed home. After a quick dinner, we showered together - too tired to do anything aside from getting clean. It wasnā€™t long before we crashed, falling asleep almost as soon as our heads hit the pillow. When I awoke the next morning to find Zee snuggled up next to me, I couldnā€™t recall having felt her get in the bed. Neither did Kat. We had obviously been out of it.Ā 
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We spent our Saturday morning outdoors with the intent to take it easy until our evening rehearsal time. We started with painting some planter pots on the back patio. I had somehow managed to con Kat into the activity over breakfast. She grumbled at first, citing her lack of artistic capabilities, but that grumbling soon abated when I sat down behind her. I made sure to pull her back to my front as snugly as possible before putting my arms around her waist and using my hands to guide hers, showing her different techniques for painting flowers and trees onto the plain terracotta. After she got the hang of it, I took advantage of my position to lavish her exposed neck with attention from my mouth.Ā 
Once I had her properly worked up, I scooted away with a smirk so that I could paint my own pot. She scoffed, calling me a ā€œfucking teaseā€ as I shot a wink in her direction. My smugness soon faded when she began removing layers of clothing to reveal a lavender bikini that looked absolutely amazing against her golden skin. She was the smug one now as she pretended not to notice my eyes on her.Ā 
I huffed out a laugh as I pulled my t-shirt off over my head, ā€œFine. Two can play that game, honey.ā€
She scrunched up her nose in annoyance, then flicked a paintbrush in my direction - causing speckles of paint to splatter all over my face and chest. It only escalated from there. Before it was over with, we were rolling around on top of the drop cloth covered in paint, laughing like a couple of idiots in between making out with each other.Ā 
Once we realized our skin was beginning to stick together from the drying paint, we finally got up and made use of the outdoor shower stall to rinse each other off. Afterward, I jumped into the pool while she sat on the side with her legs swishing in the water, laughing at my antics and taking pictures of me with my phone.Ā 
I eventually swam up to her, wrapping my arms around her legs and resting my head on her lap as she scratched at my dripping scalp. We sat like that for a time in silence, enjoying the sun and just being together. I could get used to this. It was almost addicting having her here by my side in this way, but it was also calming the storm that always swirled in my mind. The self-depreciating and negative thoughts were so far removed from my focus that I felt what I could only describe as normal? Unburdened? Content? I couldnā€™t really find a word to describe it. I was definitely happy, but there was something more with it. I knew it was because of her, keeping my demons locked away in the shadows where they belonged.Ā 
I raised my head, squinting from the sun as I looked up at her with a smile. ā€œLet's go out to the beach. I havenā€™t gotten to properly take advantage of it yet.ā€Ā 
Her brows furrowed, ā€œIs that a good idea?ā€Ā 
I shrugged, ā€œItā€™s a private beachā€¦ā€
She scrunched up her face, ā€œI donā€™t like getting in the ocean thoughā€¦Iā€™m not confident in my swimming capabilities.ā€Ā 
I pouted, ā€œYou donā€™t have to go in very far. Besides, Iā€™m not gonna let anything happen to you. How about I just donā€™t let go of you?ā€Ā 
She sighed, tilting her head to the side as she slowly gave in to the idea. I gave her a cheesy smile, ā€œIā€™ll even let you bury me in the sand. You can give me a mermaid tail and boobs.ā€
She snorted out a laugh, ā€œFineā€¦fine. I will not be cleaning the sand out of your ass though. Thatā€™s on you.ā€Ā 
I backed away from her with a laugh and pulled myself up on the edge of the pool to get out, ā€œDealā€¦Just remember you didnā€™t say anything about cleaning under my balls though.ā€Ā 
She cackled as I held out my hands to pull her up from the ground, ā€œCome on, letā€™s go pack a bag with the essentials. I may even have a tiny shovel and a bucket you can use.ā€Ā 
That pulled another tinkling laugh out of her as she stood.Ā 
I was true to my word, letting Kat bury me to do all manner of ridiculous things - including the mermaid tail and boobs. I helped with the boobs, shaping and cupping them to make sure they were the perfect roundness and size, which had us both in a fit of giggles.Ā 
Afterwards, Kat stretched out on a towel under the oversized beach umbrella to read while I went for a dip in the ocean to try and wash the sand out of all the places it shouldnā€™t be. She laid on her stomach for a time, which had her voluptuous ass on display. I couldnā€™t help staring at it in those little bikini bottoms she had on. It was definitely begging to be spanked. After several minutes, she flipped over onto her back, propping herself up on her elbows as she not so subtly adjusted her top. She gave me a smirk and a wink while her boobs bounced around from where she tugged at the scraps of fabric. She knew exactly what she was doing, and it was working. I was already half hard from the visual. The dirty thoughts that followed finished the job and got me the rest of the way there.Ā 
I ambled to the shore, noticing Katā€™s gaze on me as I made my way toward her. She tucked her bottom lip between her teeth as she watched me hungrily. My eyes surveyed the area, not seeing anyone near us and realizing the umbrella blocked the view from nearby houses. I intended to take full advantage of that as I sank to my knees at her feet. I crawled up her body, dripping water and peppering kisses along her heated skin as I went. I paused half way and shook my head like a dog, which elicited a loud squeal from her and laughter from the both of us before I captured her lips with mine. Her hips bucked against my raging hardon, causing me to groan into her mouth.
She hummed against my lips, ā€œFeels like somebody enjoyed the view.ā€
I smiled, dropping my right hand down between her thighs, slipping a finger underneath the fabric of her bikini bottoms to find her soaking wet for me. ā€œI think somebody else did too.ā€
She sighed softly as I began to rub between her slick folds, ā€œNot gonna lieā€¦you looked pretty fucking hot coming outta the water like thatā€¦better than any porno Iā€™ve ever seen.ā€
I chuckled, leaning down to kiss along her neck as my fingers worked her over. ā€œSounds like my Kitten needs a little attention. Are you aching for me, honey?ā€
Her hands tangled in my hair as she nodded and let out a breathy, ā€œAlways.ā€
She began to grind against my hand as my fingers curled inside of her and my thumb made leisurely swirls around her sensitive bud. My lips found her ear as I spoke in a hushed voice, ā€œAlways so ready for meā€¦such a needy girl. I want you to come for me, right hereā€¦where anyone could see.ā€
Her thighs began to tense around my hand as her body arched upward against me. I knew she was close. ā€œYouā€™re being such a dirty girl right now, you know that? Letting me play with you out in the open like thisā€¦and I think you kinda like it. You like being my dirty girl?ā€
I pulled back slightly to look at her even though she had a death grip on my hair. She nodded in response to my question, her brows pinching together and mouth falling open as my thumb increased pressure and speed. She was trembling now, so close.
I kissed along her jaw again, mumbling as I worked my way down the curve of her neck, ā€œIā€™m gonna bend you over the kitchen counter and fuck you senseless as soon as we walk through the door.ā€
That sent her over the edge, causing her to bury her face against my shoulder to muffle the moans she was trying and failing to hold in. She collapsed against the towel, panting as a lazy smile spread across her face. Her hand slid down from my hair, cupping my cheek as she peered up at me, ā€œThe things you do to meā€¦ā€
I chuckled, ā€œDonā€™t worry, Iā€™m not done yetā€¦ā€
She narrowed her eyes at me as I stood and pulled her up from the ground with a smirk. Once she was standing, I didnā€™t hesitate to lean forward and throw her over my shoulder, giving her ass a good smack before I turned to walk back toward the ocean. She squealed and squirmed, but it didnā€™t do any good. I had a firm grip as I walked into the water up to my waist before dropping her in. She stood, cursing me as she sputtered out water and wiped at her face. I reached toward her with a smile, snaking my hand around her waist and pulling her into my embrace. She welcomed it, wrapping her arms around my neck and kissing me gently.Ā 
I pulled her out a little further into the water, so that we could bob with the waves. I felt her grip tighten slightly, but she didnā€™t stop me. She was trusting that I wouldnā€™t let her go. She gave me a mischievous smile as she wrapped her legs around me, now rubbing her center against my dick and further stoking the flame that was burning inside of me.
I groaned, ā€œNow whoā€™s being a fucking tease?ā€Ā 
Her lips moved along my neck, ā€œWant me to take care of that little problem for you?ā€Ā 
I huffed out a laugh, ā€œNo. I actually meant what I said earlierā€¦Iā€™m bending you over the counter and fucking you when we get back to the house.ā€Ā 
She raised her head to look at me, her lips fighting a smile. I leaned in, brushing my nose against hers as I reached down to grab the globes of her ass, pulling her center tighter against me, ā€œIā€™m also gonna spank you and make you come again. Maybe twice if youā€™re good for me.ā€Ā 
I could feel her thighs clenching against me as her mouth clashed against mine. Our hands explored each other as the kiss deepened, her right one making its way down between us to rub at the bulge in my shorts.Ā 
ā€œCan we go back to the house now? Please? I need youā€¦ā€ she begged.Ā 
My forehead pressed against hers as I whined, ā€œAs if I could deny you anythingā€¦ā€
My hand moved to cup her cheek as I leaned back to take her in. She was so fucking beautiful. The sun was glistening off her tanned skin and emphasizing the gold flecks in her amber eyes in a way I had never seen. I felt dumbstruck by it as my heart began to flutter in my chest. She was literally taking my breath away.Ā 
One side of her lips twitched upward, ā€œYou OK?ā€Ā 
I nodded as my thumb stroked her face, ā€œYeahā€¦Iā€™m justā€¦I wanna remember everything about this moment. I ummā€¦ā€ I love you.Ā 
I was so fucking close to saying it as she smiled up at me, but I was too afraid it would scare her away. It had only been two weeks. It was too soon.Ā 
ā€œIā€™ve just never ummā€¦ā€Ā 
My words trailed off as I shook my head to clear it. I didnā€™t know how to express what I was feeling but I needed to say something.Ā 
ā€œIā€™ve never experienced something like this with anyone beforeā€¦felt how I feel in this moment. I canā€™t exactly put it into wordsā€¦ā€Ā 
Her hand dropped to my chest, no doubt feeling my heart pounding against it as her face softened. She leaned in to kiss me sweetly. The moment was ruined a few seconds later by a large wave that nearly knocked us over. She was back to sputtering out water and laughing as I pulled her toward the shore.Ā 
We wasted no time packing up and heading toward the house. I pulled her into the outdoor shower stall, our hands and mouths now exploring each other as we washed away the sand and salt and peeled our suits off. Once we were sufficiently clean, I wrapped her in a towel which she secured around her torso as I grabbed one to put around my waist.Ā 
She was barely through the sliding doors of the house before she dropped the towel and placed her palms on the island, arching her back toward me as she smiled seductively over her shoulder. I moved to stand behind her, gently running my fingertips up the center of her spine as her head dipped forward between her shoulders from the sensation. I felt her shiver as I made several passes up and down. On the last one, my fingertips continued upward, grazing the back of her neck before sinking my fingers into her hair, grabbing hold at the roots before tugging gently. She stood up straighter, melting into me as my left hand ran down the side of her body. I tugged her hair a little harder, angling her head to the side so I could access her neck to place gentle kisses along the length of it. Then, without warning, I smacked her ass. She moaned quietly. Another smack gave me the same result. Her breaths were coming faster now as the anticipation got to her.
My lips moved against her ear, ā€œTell me what you want, Kitten.ā€Ā 
Her eyes slid shut as she exhaled, ā€œI want you to have your way with meā€¦any way you want.ā€Ā 
I groaned against the side of her neck, ā€œYouā€™re gonna make me come saying shit like that.ā€Ā 
She chuckled, pressing her ass against me just a little more, which resulted in another smack. She smiled this time.Ā 
I tutted at her, ā€œI think you like thatā€¦lean forward.ā€Ā 
She did so as I dropped down to my knees, giving the other cheek a couple of smacks for good measure before landing one right to her center, causing her to flutter around nothing. My hands found her thighs, massaging deeply as they moved upward to her hips. She was dripping wet and practically begging for more when I leaned forward and licked up her folds, causing her to cry out as she gripped the edge of the island until her knuckles turned white.Ā 
I dove into her cunt like a man starved, absolutely devouring her as my hands gripped her hips tightly to keep her from squirming. I had her falling apart within minutes as I sucked and licked at her bundle of nerves, giving the occasional slap to her ass as I worked. When she finally came, I didnā€™t stop or slow the pace, causing her to come for a second time in quick succession.Ā 
Her legs nearly gave out on the second one. So, I held her around the middle with one arm as I stood. After dropping the towel from my waist, I used my free hand to drag myself through her slick. She moaned quietly each time the head nudged against her over sensitive clit. After notching at her entrance, I sank in slowly. Taking my time so she could feel every inch slide in and out at the perfect angle.Ā 
I pulled her against my chest, one hand sliding around to grip under her chin, angling her face toward mine so I could see her. Her face was sweaty, flushed, and completely blissed out when she met my gaze. It had me feeling the same way I had when we were in the ocean. It felt like home. It felt like peace. I felt complete.Ā 
My forehead fell against hers, ā€œYouā€™re so fucking beautifulā€¦perfect for meā€¦never letting you go.ā€
I was babbling like a fool and completely losing myself as my other arm held her around the waist. She laced her fingers through mine, gripping my hand tightly as I clung to her. I know I said I would fuck her, but this was so much more than that. I kept the pace slow and languid, our breathing completely synced as we drowned in each otherā€™s gaze.Ā 
I could feel Katā€™s abdomen tighten as she quickly came again out of nowhere, squeezing me to the point that I could hardly move. Her jaw went slack, one of her hands flying up to twist into my hair as she let out a loud cry. I was seconds behind her, the feeling and intensity of her orgasm pulling me over the edge with her. My hand released her chin to reach for the counter as I attempted to steady myself, but it was no use.
My legs gave out, causing me to sink down to my knees - pulling Kat with me. I was somehow still pulsing and leaking inside of her as she melted against me.
I panted out a breathy, ā€œFuckā€¦sorry. I-Iā€¦couldnā€™t standā€¦anymore. That wasā€¦intense.ā€
She sat on my thighs, both of us slumped against the side of the island as we tried to catch our breath. My arm around her tightened as I leaned in to kiss the side of her cheek. She turned, her lips seeking mine for a heated kiss that had me seeing stars.
When she finally pulled away, my attention was drawn to movement at my left. Katā€™s eyes followed my line of sight and found Zee, who was sitting on the floor with her head tilted, her tail twitching from side to side as she looked up at us with concern? Confusion? Curiosity? I wasnā€™t really sure. Kat and I both burst into laughter, her leaning back into my chest as I hugged her snugly and laughed into her shoulder.
ā€œIs this what it feels like when moms and dads get caught doing the dirty by the kids? Because I feel like thatā€™s what just happened,ā€ I said between chuckles.
Kat snorted out another laugh, ā€œI dunno, but I think sheā€™s kind of into it. She was totally watching.ā€
I gasped for air, ā€œIf thatā€™s the case, she gets that shit from you. Youā€™re the one who likes to watch.ā€
Kat leaned her head back against me, still laughing as I reached for a towel. I motioned for her to open her legs a bit to put it in place before I pulled out of her with a groan. Between the two of us, we had made an absolute mess of each other. We both shifted, stretching out on the tile because our legs still felt weak.Ā 
I sighed, glancing at the clock on the microwave, ā€œI think weā€™re gonna be late for rehearsal.ā€Ā 
She waved a dismissive hand, ā€œI donā€™t careā€¦whatever that wasā€¦was totally worth it.ā€
We were late for rehearsal. Forty-five minutes late to be specific, but I really didnā€™t mind. There was more between us after that, somehow feeling more connected than we already were. Maybe it was just because of the intensity of everything. I couldnā€™t be sure. Whatever it was definitely carried over to our dancing. We were so on top of it, barely making the tiniest of mistakes. I felt newly energized and ready to win that fucking Mirrorball trophy as we went through the routine one last time.Ā 
Since we had a long day planned for Sunday and felt pretty on top of the choreography, we headed home early. There was no way to improve perfection after all.Ā 
Kat and I had just gotten home, and I was making some quick sandwiches for dinner when my cell rang. Lennyā€™s name flashed on the screen. I looked at the time, it was near 9:30 PM, which was sort of late for him. He tended to go to bed early since he got up before the sun rose most days. Worried something was up, I sucked some mayo off my fingers as I hurried to answer it.Ā 
ā€œHey Lenā€¦ā€
ā€œWhat the hell have you been doing?ā€ he barked out before I could even finish my greeting.Ā 
I winced, ā€œWhat do you mean? I havenā€™t been doing anything.ā€
Katā€™s wide eyes met mine in concern. I shrugged.Ā 
He sighed, ā€œWho were you with today?ā€
I was so fucking confused, ā€œI was at dance rehearsal with Kat. Thatā€™s the only place Iā€™ve gone. Why?ā€
I could hear him shuffling papers around on his end of the line, ā€œTMZ just called. They have pictures of you at the beach kissing a woman.ā€
I grimaced as my eyes shifted back to Kat. Fuck.Ā 
ā€œHow the hell did they get those? I was literally in my backyard on a private beach. There was no one else out there today.ā€Ā 
Lenny huffed, ā€œThen you obviously have an asshole neighbor who wanted a quick buck.ā€
I sighed, ā€œFuck.ā€ I switched the phone to speaker so Kat could hear, then I asked ā€œCan you tell who it is in the pictures?ā€
ā€œTheyā€™re asking if itā€™s Kat. Is it?ā€Ā 
Kat shrugged, waving her hand to go ahead and tell him the truth. ā€œCan you tell whoā€™s in the pictures?ā€ I asked again.Ā 
He was quiet for a minute, obviously looking at them, ā€œI meanā€¦I canā€™t. Most of them are blurry. Itā€™s pretty far away. I can definitely tell itā€™s you, but most of the pictures of the woman are from the back...Is it her?ā€
I scrunched my eyes shut as I rubbed at the bridge of my nose, ā€œTell them itā€™s not herā€¦but yes, itā€™s her.ā€
He scoffed, ā€œFucking hell, Dieter. I thought we were done with this shit? What do you think youā€™re doing? Are you using again?ā€Ā 
My fists clenched together. I took a deep breath to calm myself as Kat came to stand next to me, placing a comforting hand on top of mine.Ā 
ā€œNoā€¦Iā€™m not fucking using again. Itā€™s not like that Lenny, OK? This is different. Weā€™re likeā€¦together. Itā€™s notā€¦not a fuck buddy situation or anything. I care about her.ā€ I puffed air out of my cheeks in frustration, now pacing around the kitchen nervously as Kat watched me in silence.Ā 
ā€œLook, we donā€™t want anyone to know yet. The producers canā€™t find out and the less thatā€™s confirmed for Alec, the better. I need you and the team to keep this under wraps.ā€Ā 
Lenny was unusually quiet now. I didnā€™t know how to take that. ā€œLen, you still with me?ā€Ā 
He cleared his throat, ā€œYeah, Iā€™m justā€¦processing. Does your therapist know about this? Is it really a good idea? I thought you werenā€™t getting involved with your co-stars anymore?ā€Ā 
I rolled my eyes, ā€œLook, Iā€™m tryinā€™ not to be pissed about this because I know where youā€™re coming from. Itā€™s my fault, I earned thatā€¦but trust me when I say this is different. And yes, my therapist knows. Sheā€™s been supportive of it. She likes Kat.ā€Ā 
He sighed, ā€œOk, so how the hell are we supposed to handle this?ā€
I was still pacing as I talked through it, ā€œWellā€¦nothing we can do about the pictures. Maybeā€¦ā€
I paused to think through my words before I continued, giving Kat a wide-eyed look as the idea sparked. ā€œMaybe we take advantage of this. We say itā€™s not Katā€¦lieā€¦say Iā€™m seeing someone else but wish to protect her privacy. Use it as a misdirectionā€¦It might help settle the rumors about us and get the producers, Alec, and the paparazzi off her back some.ā€Ā 
Lenny chuckled, ā€œYou really think your publicist is gonna go for that?ā€Ā 
I shrugged even though he couldnā€™t see me, ā€œI kind of donā€™t care. Iā€™m going with it. Iā€™ll head it off and do a cryptic Instagram post. Besides, it might be fun to fuck with Stacia and Joe some. I wanna see their heads explode when they realize their fairytale showmance isnā€™t happening after all.ā€
Kat snorted out a laugh over that one. She obviously thought it was funny, but I did want her input before I did anything.Ā 
ā€œKat, are you good with that? I donā€™t wanna do anything without your consent.ā€
She nodded, ā€œIt is a funny thought to be honest. Iā€™m cool with it. Theyā€™ve been fucking with us this whole time. Itā€™s time to beat them at their own game.ā€Ā 
I turned back to my phone, ā€œYou hear that, Len? This is probably gonna cause a little mayhem, but weā€™re here for it.ā€Ā 
He grumbled, ā€œYour publicist is gonna murder both of us.ā€
I chuckled, ā€œNot my problemā€¦better start making some calls because Iā€™m posting something as soon as we hang up.ā€Ā 
ā€œUgh, fine. Ok. This is all on you though.ā€Ā 
I smiled, ā€œThanks Len, youā€™re the best. Weā€™ll talk soon.ā€Ā 
He grumbled some more then hung up without even saying goodbye.Ā 
I turned to Kat and smiled nervously, ā€œWell, looks like we have a project to do tonight. We need to look through my camera rollā€¦justā€¦donā€™t judge me for what you find.ā€Ā 
Her brows furrowed, ā€œDo I even wanna know what that means?ā€
I shrugged, ā€œI meanā€¦itā€™s just full of pictures of Zee and plantsā€¦and you.ā€Ā 
Her brows arched, ā€œOh, really?ā€
I grimaced as my face heated, ā€œYeah, I may have saved a few I found onlineā€¦and I sneak pictures of you frequently.ā€
She shook her head and laughed, ā€œI canā€™t wait to see thisā€¦ā€Ā Ā 
As we sat eating our sandwiches, I handed my phone over. Kat scrolled in silence, an occasional smirk on her face before glancing up at me and shaking her head. After several minutes, her phone pinged a few times before she finally slid mine back over to me with a smile.Ā 
ā€œWhat did you just do?ā€ I asked.Ā 
Her smile widened, ā€œI sent myself some pictures of you and Zee.ā€Ā 
I leaned toward her, narrowing my eyes slightly. ā€œMaybe I need to check your camera rollā€¦ā€Ā 
Her eyes widened, ā€œUmmā€¦mine is far more scandalous. Iā€™ve saved some pictures of my own. Youā€™ve done a lot of salacious photoshoots, you know that?ā€Ā 
I chuckled, ā€œAhh, filling up the spank bank then. Iā€™m flattered.ā€ I gave her a cocky grin and waggled my eyebrows, ā€œIf you want some nudes all you have to do is ask. I might even let you take them yourself.ā€Ā 
She shot a mischievous look over her glass as she took a sip, ā€œDonā€™t give me any ideasā€¦ā€Ā 
I grabbed my phone, snickering as I unlocked it. ā€œSo, I think the backlit picture of you and Zee, you painting, lying in bed from behind, and then the one you took of me in the pool kissing your leg will do. I donā€™t feel like it's obvious thatā€™s you in those pictures. Iā€™ll just do a whole photo dump and keep it vague. Let them speculate away.ā€
She huffed out a laugh, ā€œYouā€™re about to cause all kinds of chaos with this.ā€Ā 
I nodded, ā€œProbably. Iā€™ve never posted cutesy pictures of a woman before. Itā€™s definitely making a statementā€¦ā€Ā 
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The post did indeed cause chaos. Likes and comments began to flood in - most of them asking if it was Kat in the pictures. I responded to exactly one person with, ā€œDid I tag Kat? No.ā€Ā 
That set off a whole new onslaught of chatter and speculation. Kat egged it on by liking the original post and my comment. I could only imagine how my publicist was handling this. I was sure her head was probably about to explode.Ā 
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When I woke up on Sunday morning, Kat was lying against my chest with her leg thrown across mine. She was still asleep, so I reached over to the nightstand to grab my phone without waking her. I was almost afraid to see what awaited me when I opened Instagram. I found more of the same stuff from the previous night. It was officially my most liked and most commented post ever.Ā 
I took a moment, taking in the sight before me. Ehh, we can do better than that.Ā 
As if I wasnā€™t already causing enough trouble, I took a short video clip of my hand rubbing along Katā€™s bare leg. It was obvious we were tangled up in bed, wrapped in nothing but sheets with a nice view of the ocean outside the French doors. I posted it. There was no caption, only emojis, ā€œšŸ‘‰šŸ‘ŒšŸ¤ÆšŸ¤ÆšŸ¤ÆšŸ˜ā€Ā 
I threw in a few hashtags too, #PerfectMorning #MindBlown #WouldntChangeAThing
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I was patiently awaiting a call from my publicist after that. She really might murder me over this one.Ā 
I sat with a smug smile as I watched the comments roll in. One in particular caught my attention.
Beasty45: I really hope youā€™re not screwing Kat over too. She deserves better.
I had to appreciate the sentiment behind it and really hated people thinking that way. So, I hit reply.
BangingBravo1: Wow. Never. Sheā€™s my bestie. All is well. šŸ‘šŸ‘
It wasnā€™t a lie. She was my best friend as far as I was concerned.Ā 
I felt Kat stir against me. She groaned, hiding her face against my chest, ā€œWhat time is it?ā€
I looked at the time, ā€œYouā€™ve got ten minutes before the alarm goes off.ā€Ā 
She let out another groan as her eyes blinked open, ā€œWhat are you doing?ā€
I snickered and handed her my phone, ā€œCausing more chaos.ā€Ā 
She squinted at the screen, then rolled her eyes as she handed it back to me with a laugh. ā€œNow everyone knows you had a night of mind-blowing sex. Wonderful.ā€
ā€œI know. Iā€™m in trouble.ā€Ā 
As if on cue, a text message popped up from my publicist.
Janine: What the fuck are you doing?!?! Stop it. Now.
I cackled, tilting the phone toward Kat so she could see it, ā€œThatā€™s tame for her. I usually get a call with lots of yelling. Trust me. Sheā€™s dealt with worse.ā€
Kat shook her head, sighing heavily, ā€œToday is gonna be interestingā€¦ā€
We crawled out of bed soon after that to get ready for the day. We had a morning rehearsal slot, so that was first on our agenda. We had the routine down by this point, so we just focused on cleaning things up and tried not to wear ourselves out too much.
After rehearsal, we had our weekly spray tan. As we were walking into Television City Studios, I realized that I had a missed text from Janine from earlier in the day saying that TMZ had posted the article and pictures, so that was now out there for the world to see.Ā  They had to add an addendum once they realized I had made the social media posts, completely spoiling their 'breaking story'.
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Kat and I were thankful the staff got us in and out quickly for the spray tan because we were definitely getting some looks and whispers. I imagine the confusion was spreading because we were fairly certain the majority of the cast thought we were together. We couldnā€™t help laughing about it as we left, wondering if Joe and Stacia had heard the news yet.Ā 
Kat ran to her house to check on things and pick up her guitar while I went home to feed Zee her dinner. Zee was in full menace mode as she tried to smack things off the counter while I prepared her food. It seemed to be her new favorite pastime, apparently enjoying getting me in a tizzy. She knew what she was doing, freezing mid shove when I would lock eyes with her. I concluded that she must think itā€™s some sort of game. A game that was fun for her and a nightmare for me. I ended up shooing her out of the kitchen so I could work in peace.
As I was finishing up with Zeeā€™s gourmet meal, Kat came into the kitchen. Her brows furrowed as she pointed her finger to something behind me and busted out her best mom voice, ā€œZee, donā€™t you dare.ā€Ā 
I turned to see what the hell she was up to now, my eyes landing on her as she shoved a small potted succulent off the window sill. Luckily the pot did not break, but dirt spilled everywhere.Ā 
I sighed, ā€œWhy is this a thing all of a sudden?ā€Ā 
Zee meowed as she jumped down to rub against Katā€™s legs and shot me some nasty side eye. Kat snickered as she shooed Zee away so she could clean up the mess.Ā 
ā€œMaybe youā€™re not preparing her food fast enough. Best get to it, cat daddy.ā€Ā 
I huffed, ā€œShe messes with me, and Iā€™ll go get some of that cheap nasty pellet garbage and she can have that. Little punkā€¦ā€
Kat laughed at me as I continued to grumble about Zeeā€™s impatience while Zee rubbed up against my legs and yelled at me until I finally set her plate down on the food mat. Zee rushed to her plate and ate with enthusiasm. I rolled my eyes at her as I turned to Kat, ā€œAll right, now that the diva is taken care ofā€¦you ready to go?ā€Ā 
Kat nodded, ā€œYep. Letā€™s get this sideshow on the road.ā€Ā 
My hand found its way to her hip and squeezed gently as I leaned in to give her a quick peck on the lips, ā€œI should probably be offended by that, but it might actually be an accurate descriptionā€¦of me anyway.ā€Ā 
She playfully pushed my shoulder and laughed, ā€œAt least youā€™re aware. Letā€™s go.ā€Ā 
On the drive to Marcā€™s house, I could feel a twinge of anxiety forming in the pit of my stomach since I didnā€™t really know what to expect. From what I knew about Marc, he was a family man and seemed pretty drama free as far as his public persona was concerned. That helped some, but that didnā€™t mean there wouldnā€™t be alcohol or other things floating around. I knew it was something I would have to face eventually, but I wasnā€™t sure how ready for it I actually was. However, one glance in Katā€™s direction suppressed those feelings. I knew she had my back, and I knew I would never do anything to let her down.Ā 
A short time later we pulled into Marcā€™s driveway and made our way to the front door. He greeted us, making small talk as he led us out to the back patio where he introduced us to his wife Valarie, and Stefanieā€™s partner, Kira. He was cooking hamburgers and hotdogs on the grill while everyone else sat around and chatted. So, as these things go, I joined him at the grill while Kat joined the ladies. We went into more small talk about the show, rehearsals, how I was feeling about ballroom dancing in general. It was all pretty surface level. Then, he asked me if I wanted a drink as he moved toward a cooler. I was taken off guard and sort of froze up.Ā Ā 
He seemed to sense my hesitation as he opened the lid, giving me a gentle smile, ā€œIā€™ve got water, a couple different kinds of soda, and if youā€™re feeling really adventurousā€¦some juice boxes.ā€Ā 
I visibly relaxed as a smile tugged at my lips, ā€œWaterā€¦please.ā€Ā 
His smile widened as he pulled a bottle out of the ice and handed it to me. He grabbed a juice box for himself, unwrapping the straw and stabbing it into the top with pursed lips. ā€œSorry, I probably should have worded that differently. I know you're sober.ā€Ā 
I shook my head and waved it off, ā€œNo big deal. Donā€™t even worry about it.ā€Ā 
His brows furrowed, eyes shifting up to meet mine as he took a quick pull from the straw before setting the drink down beside the grill. ā€œNo, I get it. Iā€™m eight years sober myself. I remember how hard and awkward it was in those early days. People can be weird when you say you donā€™t drinkā€¦or do anything else for that matter.ā€Ā 
I nodded, ā€œYeah, Iā€™ve been lucky enough to not run into that yet. Iā€™ve been keeping to myself a lotā€¦ā€Ā 
He picked up the tongs to flip the patties on the grill, ā€œSo how long has it been for you?ā€
I screwed the cap off the water and took a swig, ā€œTen months. Longest Iā€™ve ever been sober since all that shit started.ā€
He smiled, ā€œThatā€™s good. When you hit a year, weā€™ll have to do something to celebrate. Thatā€™s a big deal.ā€
I nodded, feeling warmth creeping up my cheeks from the praise. ā€œYeah, I meanā€¦I think I owe Kat for a lot of it. Sheā€™s been so supportive when others havenā€™tā€¦It makes a lot of difference when you have people in your corner.ā€Ā 
Marc nodded, ā€œThatā€™s so true. I never would have made it without Val. She held me to it, and Iā€™m so thankful for that.ā€ He paused, turning toward me with raised brows. ā€œYou know, if you ever need to talk about it or anythingā€¦I donā€™t mind. Sometimes it helps to talk through things with someone thatā€™s been there. Especially if youā€™re having a momentā€¦ā€Ā 
He pulled out his phone, ā€œNo pressure, but we can exchange digits that way you have it.ā€Ā 
I reached to pull my phone out of my pocket, ā€œYeahā€¦sure. Thatā€™s really nice of you actually.ā€Ā 
I gave him my new number, then he sent me a text message so I could save his to my contact list. That was a development I wasnā€™t expecting, but I was strangely happy about it. I suddenly felt much better about how the evening was going to go. Kat caught my eye, giving me a questioning look. Something must have shifted about my body language, and she could sense it. I smirked, giving her a quick wink before taking another drink of water.Ā 
My attention shifted back to Marc as he handed me a large platter to hold while he piled the different meats on top of it, announcing the food was ready. We settled into easy conversation as we ate, getting to know one another a little better. Everyone seemed at ease. There was no pressure or awkwardness. It was nice to have normal conversation without all the posturing and cockiness that often came with Hollywood type gatherings. It was exactly what I needed.Ā 
As we all became more comfortable with each other, they got a little braver with their questions. Which led to Stefanie giving Kat and I a deadpan stare before asking, ā€œSo whatā€™s really going on with you two? Iā€™m not buying whatever shit TMZ put out today.ā€Ā 
Kat and I gave each other a nervous glance, I shrugged and held my hand up in surrender toward her indicating I was good with whatever she wanted to say.Ā 
She took a deep breath, smiling nervously as her eyes roamed around the table, ā€œWellā€¦weā€™reā€¦ā€
She paused, her brows arching as her eyes found mine again. ā€œI mean yeahā€¦weā€™re together, but weā€™re trying to keep it under wrapsā€¦for several reasons.ā€
They were all smiling at us now. Stefanie threw her arms in the air like she had just won something, ā€œI fucking knew it! I knew it. How long?ā€Ā 
Kat and I laughed at her enthusiasm. ā€œNot long. Just since New York,ā€ I answered.
Stefanie playfully shoved Marc, ā€œI fucking told you. You owe me $100.ā€Ā 
Marc rolled his eyes, ā€œFine, Iā€™ll Venmo you.ā€Ā 
Kat and I both scoffed, laughing over the fact they were making bets.Ā 
Marc pulled out his phone and began tapping away, ā€œDonā€™t worry guys, we wonā€™t say anything. I know Alec is an issue.ā€
Kat gave him a tight smile, ā€œYeah, we figured it best not to provoke him as much as possible. Heā€™s looking for any excuse he can find to make what happened be my fault. Thereā€™s also Stacia and Joe with their meddlingā€¦I donā€™t want to give them the satisfaction of thinking they had anything to do with this.ā€Ā 
Valarieā€™s brows furrowed, ā€œSo whatā€™s with the beach pictures and social media posts then?ā€
I chuckled, ā€œWell, I apparently have an asshole neighbor that took pictures of us in what is essentially my back yard and sold them to TMZ. They reached out to my team asking if it was Kat, so I told them to deny it. Iā€™m just gonna play it off like Iā€™m seeing someone elseā€¦a total misdirection. At minimum, itā€™ll cause a little chaos and make Stacia and Joe lose their shit. Weā€™ll see how long it lasts.ā€Ā 
Everyone laughed. Stefanie clapped her hands several times before announcing, ā€œIf anyone asks, weā€™ve all met Dieterā€™s new woman and sheā€™s amazing. Iā€™m totally backing this chaos.ā€
Agreements sounded out around the table which had Kat and I leaning into each other and laughing. We relaxed some after that. Now that our secret was out, I felt more comfortable showing affection toward her and her toward me. It was nice not to have to hold back, to be able to reach out and touch her when I wanted to, to put my arm around her or rest my hand on her thigh. At least we now felt like we had a safe space among friends.Ā 
Marc eventually steered the conversation to Katā€™s plans after this season ended, which was something she and I hadnā€™t really discussed. We had been very much in the present up to this point and I was suddenly feeling like an asshole for not asking about it myself.Ā 
Katā€™s excitement was clear as she answered, ā€œWell, Iā€™m really hoping to open up my own dance studioā€¦and I would love to offer some classes for things that are a little harder to find around here. I still need to do more market research to see how that would look, but we can always have the normal stuff to fall back on too. I havenā€™t got to put as much work into yet as I would like, but once the show is over, Iā€™m gonna jump in head first and see what happens.ā€
Marc seemed extremely interested in this, leaning forward with excitement in his eyes, ā€œThatā€™s amazing. I was actually considering doing the same. I still havenā€™t decided if Iā€™m gonna do another season or notā€¦but I did want to look at something like that when Iā€™m finished. Maybe we can team up.ā€Ā 
Everyone began to throw ideas around at that point. It seemed like there was a real possibility something was brewing. I made a mental note to bring it up with Kat again later. I wanted to make sure I was supportive and help in any way I could. I also liked the thought of helping her plan for the future, because I really hoped that I would be welcomed as part of it.Ā 
After we finished up with dinner, we moved to the garage. Marc had converted the space to his ā€œJam Roomā€. It was full of various instruments - a piano in one corner while a drum set sat in the other. Several different types of guitars hung on the wall along with some small handheld percussion instruments. Microphones and small speakers sat around the room. It seemed to be a proper setup for making music, which surprised me. I wasnā€™t expecting to walk into this.Ā 
Kat looked almost giddy as she took in the space, which surprised me. She seemed to be coming out of her shell, which was understandable. They did well to make us feel welcome and relaxed.Ā 
Marc pulled an electric guitar down from the wall while Kira took her place at the drums, making it obvious they had done this before. Marc began to strum a slow sexy tune as Kira joined in with a beat. Stefanie started dancing around the room to the music as Valarie sat down at the piano. My gaze turned to Kat, she looked amused as her eyes met mine.Ā 
I smiled, arching my brows as my head began to sway with the music. She laughed, her cheeks flushing as she watched me move. I took it up a few notches, rolling my torso and hips as I shuffled toward her. I raised my arms, moving them to the beat, biting my bottom lip as I enticed her to join me. I was dancing for her, showing her what else these loose hips can do outside of the ballroom.Ā 
ā€œWhatā€™s the matter, honey? Too hot for you?ā€ I asked.Ā 
I could hear everyone else chuckling behind me as I grabbed her hand and pulled her to the center of the room to do a little old fashioned dirty dancing. When the song concluded, I pulled her in for a quick kiss and everyone whooped and whistled, which had her blushing even more. Once everyone settled down, I leaned in next to her ear, ā€œWant me to go get your guitar?ā€Ā 
She gave me a toothy grin and nodded. After another quick kiss, I made my way outside to the car. I was back with both of our cases within minutes as Marc found a couple more chairs and microphones for us to join the circle. A couple of hours passed by in no time as we took turns choosing songs to play. Those who knew them joined in while the others just vibed. It was honestly the most fun I had in a long time.Ā 
Stefanie asked if she could take some videos to post on social media. We all agreed, figuring it would be good content to promote the show since we were supposed to be doing that anyway. I felt less weird about it since it was a whole group of people from the cast, rather than just Kat and me. I still felt pretty strongly about not taking advantage of our relationship to boost my own career. Deep down I knew that any content of us together would do that, but I did want to have some limits on it. She wasnā€™t a plaything for me to use as I saw fit. It needed to be on her terms.Ā 
After several minutes passed, Marc suggested that we go live and maybe take some song requests from the chat and answer some fan questions. After some coaxing, we all agreed. As Marc worked to set up the tripod, Stefanie turned to me with a mischievous smile, ā€œDieter, please try and behave yourself around Kat. I donā€™t wanna be on TMZ tomorrow for encouraging an affair that will destroy your imaginary girlfriendā€™s heart.ā€Ā 
That drew a round of laughter from everyone as I scrunched up my face, ā€œI guess I already have a reputationā€¦Iā€™ll try my best.ā€Ā 
Once Marc had his phone set up, he mirrored his screen to one of the TVā€™s hanging on the wall so we could all see the chat, then we went live. Within minutes there were over two thousand viewers. The numbers only climbed from there, with people posting in all caps about Kat and I being there.Ā 
Kat snickered and pointed at the screen, ā€œI guess the Dieterina Stans found us already.ā€
We waved and said ā€˜hiā€™ to everyone. Since it was Marcā€™s Instagram account, we motioned for him to take over and share what was going on. The song recommendations began to roll in, with Marc and Stefanie taking the lead on the first two. After that, the chat flooded with requests for me and Kat to sing. I deferred to her on that, asking if she wanted to do one. She shrugged, then asked the viewers for some song recs. We laughed over some of the options thrown out as she joked about them not being her style. Suddenly her brows arched as if something caught her attention. A smirk formed on her lips, ā€œHmm, that one is certainly a mood.ā€
We all gave her a questioning look. ā€œWhich one?ā€ I asked.Ā 
She pulled the lyrics and chords up on her phone and propped it on the stand in front of us. I couldnā€™t help cackling. It would definitely send a message.Ā 
She turned to everyone else, ā€œYou guys know Eyes on Fire by Blue Foundation?"
Stefanie bounced up and down, laughing maniacally and clapping her hands. Probably having the same thought that I did. ā€œI do! Iā€™ll do the backup vocals.ā€Ā 
I swapped out my acoustic for one of Marcā€™s electric guitars for this one, playing the intro as Kat and Stefanie started in on the ethereal vocables that the song opens with. Katā€™s voice took on an almost haunting melancholic tone as she dove into the first verse. The smirk still graced her lips as a knowing look passed between us. This was totally a major ā€˜fuck youā€™ to Alec, and I knew I was going to love every second of it.Ā 
šŸŽ¶Listen to Eyes on Fire Here.
I'll seek you out / Flay you alive / One more word and you won't survive / And I'm not scared / Of your stolen power / I see right through you any hour I won't soothe your pain / I won't ease your strain / You've been waiting in vain / I've got nothing for you to gain
It was hard not to be absolutely mesmerized by her as she worked her way through the lyrics. It was obvious to me that something had finally shifted for her. She had taken back her life and was owning it - putting it out there for the world to see. She had escaped hell and was now controlling the narrative. It was her game to play. I loved seeing her like this, free to be herself and not holding back. It was a beautiful sight. My infatuation with her was probably written all over my face as I strummed the chords to the song, but I didnā€™t care. She was stunning like this.Ā 
Stefanie continued to sing the background vocals as Kat moved on to the next verse. Her eyes focused on me hungrily, our connection causing the air around us to vibrate. There was just something about us and music. It didnā€™t matter if we were dancing, playing, or singing. It caused an electricity to buzz around us, linking us together in a metaphysical way.Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā 
I'm taking it slow / Feeding my flame / Shuffling the cards of your game / And just in time / In the right place / Suddenly I will play my ace I won't soothe your pain / I won't ease your strain / You've been waiting in vain / I've got nothing for you to gain
At this point, the song was reaching the crescendo. Kira joined in with the drums and Marc with the bass guitar. I layered my vocals along with Katā€™s, the sound even more haunting now as we finished out the final verse.Ā 
Eyes on fire / Your spine is ablaze / Felling any foe with my gaze / And just in time / In the right place / Steadily emerging with grace / Felling any foe with my gaze / Steadily emerging with grace
The chat was going absolutely insane when we finished. I thought I even saw a few ā€œfuck Alecā€ comments fly by in the chaos of it.Ā 
Stefanie began to clap again, ā€œI think we should start a band. Weā€™re kicking ass here.ā€Ā 
We all laughed as she turned to me, ā€œAlright Bravo, youā€™re up. Whatta ya got?ā€Ā 
I pursed my lips, ā€œI dunno, Iā€™m open to suggestionsā€¦ā€Ā 
We watched the chat flood with comments, there were a few song recommendations but there were even more questions.Ā 
Whereā€™s Bravoā€™s new lady? Funny how everyone else has their romantic partner there except for Dieter. Dieter is so full of shit. We all know itā€™s Kat.Ā  Yo Bravo, whereā€™s your beach babe? We wanna meet her! Has Kat met Dieterā€™s new girl?
I let out a nervous laugh as I glanced at Kat. She winked then gave me a mischievous smile before turning to the camera, ā€œGuys chill. Yes, Iā€™ve met Dieterā€™s significant other. I know her very well. Weā€™re all friends.ā€
I chuckled, ā€œYeah, donā€™t worry. Sheā€™s not being left outā€¦sheā€™s here with me.ā€
This is the biggest conspiracy since the moon landing.Ā  Iā€™m too high for this shit. Whatā€™s even happening? I thought he was gay? This hurts my soul. You two are made for each other! #Dieterina #NotJustFriends Maybe it's a throuple situation. No way they havenā€™t boned.Ā  Poor Kat, she's like the 7th wheel now.Ā 
I couldnā€™t help laughing at the comments, ā€œGuys, come on, be niceā€¦back to the song recs please.ā€Ā 
A song title finally caught my attention. I took a minute to check in with Kira and Marc to see if they were familiar with it before adjusting the mic so that I could stand for this one. I needed to be able to move around a bit. Once I was situated, Marc got us started with the opening guitar riff for The Devil Wears Lace. It was a nice little blues song about desire, temptation, attraction, and obsession.Ā 
Kat, Stefanie, and Val provided entertainment by dancing around us. It was all good fun until Katā€™s eyes locked with mine. Her moves became more provocative as she approached me. By the time I hit the chorus she was the only thing I could focus on.Ā 
šŸŽ¶Listen to The Devil Wears Lace Here.
So light me in flames / Just as hot as you need / Let me see the good girl you wanted to be / All of my praise, only from meĀ  / I can be the one who could set you free / Fall from your grace / Turn up the heat / I feel I'm going down, hands gripping the sheets / Settin' the pace / Number the beast / Got me by the belt, heart skippin' a beat / The devil and me
She moved around me, against me, up and down my body. I played into it of course, wiggling against her as I belted out the lyrics - both of us giving each other mischievous smiles. This was definitely going to get the conspiracy theories going. I couldnā€™t bother to care because she looked so fucking hot dancing like this. The slow sensual roll of her body was a sight to behold, and it was all mine. I loved to see her let loose and have fun like this.Ā 
When the song ended, she strutted away before bursting into laughter. It was a little infectious, causing me to do the same. The chuckles of everyone else drew my attention to the monitor. The comments had gone completely unhinged by this point.
They definitely fucked, at least once.Ā  Nobody pay attention to that vibrating soundā€¦ This is how pornos start. Iā€™m not mad about it.Ā  So, IT IS a throuple then?Ā  I think Dieterā€™s secret lady likes to watch. I donā€™t blame herā€¦Katā€™s ass is a work of art.Ā  Iā€™m still calling it a conspiracy. Kat is the beach chic. I know that ass and those thighs.Ā Ā 
I huffed out a laugh and shook my head, ā€œCan we not talk about Kat like that please? Sheā€™s not a piece of meat.ā€
Kat snorted out a laugh as she squeezed my arm in thanks. Marc jumped in to try and redirect the conversation, ā€œAlright guysā€¦I think one more and weā€™re gonna call it a night since we do have a rather long day tomorrow.ā€
He paused, obviously reading the comments about the show before chuckling, ā€œOh obviously Stefanie and I are gonna win the trophy.ā€
I laughed, ā€œHey now! Weā€™ve gone all night without trash talking. Donā€™t you startā€¦besides, obviously Kat and I are gonna win. Iā€™m gonna call it though, weā€™ll be the top two groups. Nobody is beating us.ā€Ā 
Marc rolled his eyes, ā€œYeah, donā€™t try to sweet talk me after insulting me.ā€Ā 
Stefanie cut in, placing her hands on her hips as she spoke, ā€œNow boys. Letā€™s play nice or Kat and I will drop you both and claim the win for ourselves.ā€Ā 
Marc and I both rolled our eyes in response as Val cut in, ā€œHey, how about we stop bickering and end with that song we did earlier. That was a good oneā€¦ā€
Marc and I both furrowed our brows, waiting for her to continue. She chuckled at our similar expressions before answering, ā€œAll on My Mind.ā€
We nodded as I shouted, ā€œOkā€¦Kat weā€™re up.ā€
Kat and I took our place, sharing a freestanding mic as everyone jumped in with their instruments. I took lead, singing the main verses while Kat joined in on the chorus, alternating the lines.Ā 
šŸŽ¶ Listen to All on My Mind Here.
I said, "Oh, honey, just like that" / I give you my loving and you give it right back / I said, "Oh, honey, just like this" / Hanging on white knuckle grip
Kat and I sang together for the remainder of the chorus while the rest of the group jumped in on the repeated lines.
It's all on my mind / Feel something when I kiss you good night / It's all on my mind / Feel something when I open my eyes / It's all on my mind / Feel that I could be your sweetest compromise / It's all on my mind / It's all on my mind
Our eyes stayed on each other, big smiles on our lips as we belted out the words in unison. I couldnā€™t deny that we sounded amazing together. Our voices complemented each other perfectly, especially when we leaned into the bluesy sounds of the music. Hell, truth be told, we all sounded pretty amazing as a group. Nothing could compare to how it felt singing with Kat though. We finished out the last verse together, completely at ease and having fun.Ā 
Well, me and my baby are the bass in the beat / A lo-fi rhythm, the sweat and the heat / Come on now lover, won't you follow my lead / And we'll move on into the night
The energy in the room was high as we finished it out after everyone gave it their all on the chorus refrain. It was probably the best one of the night. The chat was going wild with praise for everyone, but Kat and I were getting most of the attention.Ā 
Can we just get this crew their own show? So much more entertaining. šŸ™Œ Dieter and Kat are amazing together. šŸ˜šŸ˜šŸ˜ I had no idea Dieter Bravo had this much talent. Kat, marry me. Iā€™m NOT an asshole. šŸ™šŸ™ Both? Both. Yes. šŸ˜Ā 
We all said our goodbyes after that, promising to do another live soon since we had so much fun together. Once Marc disconnected, we all broke into a fit of laughter.
Marc was still chuckling as he said, ā€œIā€™m sure Stacia and Joe are gonna have a lot to say about that.ā€
ā€œYeah, Iā€™m sure my publicist will too. Iā€™ve done nothing but cause chaos all day,ā€ I replied.Ā 
Kat came over, snaking her arm around my waist. She fought a smile as she leaned into me, ā€œAnd, the plot thickens. Apparently, weā€™re in a throuple with your mystery lady now.ā€
I shook my head, ā€œYeahā€¦Iā€™m not even upset about that. Iā€™ve been accused of worse things. Iā€™m not sharing my Kit Kat thoughā€¦ā€ I paused, reaching down to swat her butt cheek, ā€œThis is Bravoā€™s ass.ā€Ā 
Her eyes darkened as she attempted to give me an admonishing look, but she failed. She was totally turned on by that.Ā 
My brow arched as she fought a smile. We were completely oblivious to everyoneā€™s amused eyes on us. When we finally turned to look at them, a blush crept up Katā€™s cheeks.Ā 
I cleared my throat, ā€œWell, everyoneā€¦this was fun. We should do it again.ā€Ā 
They all nodded with knowing smiles. ā€œWe should probablyā€¦uhhā€¦head out. We all have a ridiculously early start in the morning and I wanna be well rested so I can kick your ass on the dance floor.ā€Ā 
Marc and Stefanie both gave me a deadpan stare before flipping the bird, causing me to let out a boisterous laugh. ā€œAhh, I think Iā€™ve finally found my people.ā€
Kat and I said our goodbyes, grabbing our guitar cases then heading out the door. The air around us was thick on the drive home. Kat definitely didnā€™t help the situation with her hand wandering dangerously close to a very much at attention little Bravo. Her eyes cut toward me with a smirk on her lips every time she did it.Ā 
We started pulling each otherā€™s clothes off as soon as we walked through the door. We may not have gone to bed at a decent hour, but we definitely fell asleep happy and satiated.Ā 
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Monday mornings meant performance day. We followed our usual routine, arriving at Television City studios extremely early so we could get our camera blocking out of the way first. That went smoothly and we nailed the routine on each run through. We were feeling pretty confident about it as we headed toward wardrobe for our final fitting.Ā 
Katā€™s costume for the week really had my attention. There was just something about her in red. It looked amazing against her dark features and golden skin, giving her a sultry edge. This dress was no exception, the way it draped around her body and gathered in the back accentuated her curves in the best way. Her back and shoulders were completely exposed, emphasizing the muscular contours. This was an area that I had never given much attention to on woman, but hers were so fucking sexy. I couldn't help staring as she raised her arms and turned this way and that for Amy to pin bits of fabric for some minor alterations. The image was seared into my brain, I knew it would be the subject of one of my paintings later.Ā 
I ended up ditching the jacket and tie that went with my costume. It felt too constricting for the choreography of this dance. Before it was all said and done, I only wore the red pants and red velvety button up shirt - leaving several buttons open and rolling up the sleeves, at Katā€™s request, of course.Ā 
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Hair and makeup were pretty uneventful. We managed to snag our usual ladies, filling our time with banter and jokes as they worked. They gave Kat a sleek up-do this time. I swear she rolled her eyes every time they added a new bobby pin. I sort of didnā€™t mind it though, because I knew I would be the one to help her take them all out later. She suggested they leave my hair in loose curls this week. To my surprise, they actually did. However, they still put a shit ton of gel and hairspray in it to my dismay.Ā 
We had managed to avoid Alec and Lana the entire morning. We assumed he was hiding out in his dressing room as much as he could. Word seemed to be spreading about what an absolute asshole he was to Kat, and many didnā€™t take too kindly to it. He was no longer the popular one of the cast and Kat loved every second of it. His ego was definitely taking a hit, which was the one thing that would hurt him the most.Ā 
We could only be lucky for so long. Alec and Lana were already in the staging area when we got there. He didnā€™t even bother to try and hide the disdain on his still slightly bruised face. Lana kept shooting glances our way with an odd expression. It was almost smug, maybe? I couldnā€™t quite figure it out. Kat and I made sure to watch ourselves since the backstage cameras were circling like sharks, being sure to keep our interactions friendly between each other. We also made a point to not look Alec and Lanaā€™s way after the initial sizing up. We didnā€™t want to give the producers anything to work with.Ā 
Kat did the opening performance with Marc and the rest of their group, then rushed to change. I stayed with her the entire time, not chancing leaving her alone while the asshole was in the same building. There would not be another repeat of what happened after New York.Ā 
Alec and Lana were two performances ahead of us, still doing very well and obtaining a high score. They scored 2 points under Marc and Stefanie, which put them in second place for the night. If Kat and I had it our way, they would soon be in third.Ā 
We went through our usual routine of picking a hype song. I took the lead again this week, pulling up one of my favorite rock songs, You Shook Me All Night Long. Kat gave me that little smirk that I loved so damn much as she shook her head and laughed at me. I shrugged before transitioning into some of my goofy dance moves - pursing my lips as I wiggled my hips. She joined in of course, laughing at my ridiculousness through the entirety of it.
Before we knew it, it was our turn. Kat took her place in the center of the dance floor. As the music began to play, I walked toward her seductively, caressing her cheek as I circled her before grazing her nose with mine. After fanning her outward, our fast paced choreography synced with the quick beat of the Spanish style guitars. We commanded the attention of the room with our strong staccato footwork and vivacious presence. It was every bit as dramatic as we had intended it to be.Ā 
Iā€™ll admit, I was nervous about my solo part. Up until this point, I hadnā€™t really had choreography this challenging without Kat by my side. The quick and precise body movements along with the flamenco style footwork while trying to exude assertive energy really was a lot of work. However, we only had to do it once. I didnā€™t have to pace myself for hours of rehearsal time, which meant I put everything I had into it. By the time I reunited with Kat to finish out the last part of the routine, I was feeling pretty damn cocky about the whole thing. The cockiness only added to the overall effect and took the performance over the top.Ā 
Katā€™s movements were fluid and graceful as she danced around me, waving her flowy skirt. We continued with the stomping footwork, shaping our arms and hands into dramatic poses as we sidestepped each other. The electricity between us was buzzing at max levels as it always did when we performed together. The intensity of her gaze nearly took my breath away the handful of times our eyes connected. We were both in the zone and fucking killing it. We ended with a dramatic lift. I caught her by the hand before she fell back onto the floor for a dip to end it.Ā 
I pulled her upward and wrapped my arms around her as the crowdā€™s near deafening screams and applause sounded around us. I had to fight the urge to crash my lips against hers at that moment. There was so much adrenaline and passion between us that I could have burst into flames from it. I wanted nothing more than to get her home and work some of it off.Ā 
We went through the whole routine of doing the interview and waiting for our scores. With massive effort, we managed to keep our hands off each other in any inappropriate way. The whole thing was a blur. I donā€™t think I paid a lick of attention to anything the judges actually said. All I know is we got another perfect score, putting us in first place - again. To our surprise, we were met with more cheers than usual from the cast. Marc and Stefanie were the loudest among them of course.Ā 
Marc and Stefanie invited us out for a celebratory dinner afterwards. I left it up to Kat. She declined, citing how this week had worn her out and she wanted to go home and get some rest before we woke up to do it all over again. They were bummed but understanding. I was a little bummed too, until we walked through the door at my place.Ā 
Kat was definitely not as worn out as she let on, dragging me upstairs to the bedroom, peeling clothes off as we went. After a rather passionate round of sex, I made sure to give her a lot of aftercare that included a massage and hot bath while I made her some dinner. She might not have been feeling it right then with the rush of endorphins we both had surging through our veins, but I knew she would be soon. This week had been rough, and I wanted to see to it that she was properly taken care of so that we were ready to take on whatever week 8 had in store for us.Ā 
āœØFun Fact: The song that Dieter and Kat are dancing to is this chapter is called Uccen, which translate to "The Wolf". Given that Dieter wears that little wolf ring, I found it fitting.
āœØYour Paso Doble video for this chapter can be found HERE. Seriously, one of the best performances ever. It won and Emmy! This couple is married in real life and always burn up the dance floor when they perform.
Next: Week 8
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A/N: So, this got posted a couple days later than I had planned. It was a doozy to edit and I'm sure I probably missed a lot. I do apologize but work did indeed kick my ass last week. Hopefully it was worth the wait.
We got lots of smutty goodness in this chapter. I 100% blame Mr. Pascal for his holiday beach antics. There was just too much inspiration. Some of it was planned and some of it wasn't. I'm not sorry.
Dieter and Kat are getting pretty close. They are completely embedding each other in the other's life. All of Dieter's people know now and Kat's sister knows. Dieter is pouring his heart out and sharing about his past, yet Kat is still in her head about everything. Do we smell drama brewing there?
They've also made some new friends. How are we feeling about Marc and crew? Good or bad?
Dieter has started his Instagram live shit. More to come on that. Also...his Instagram posts, that man is stirring up all the drama with those. Good or bad idea?
Zee got some love in this chapter. I love me some good Dee and Zee drama. They are both shit heads and we love them for that.
There was so much that went down in this chapter that I can't think of what all to highlight. So, please do show some love with a reblog and sound off about it. I wanna hear all the unhinged thoughts!
Week 8 will bring us the Viennese Waltz, and with that comes LOTS of drama. Y'all might want to have a tissue handy, because the shit is going to hit the fan.
Until next time,
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Chapter Credits: - Giving @avastrasposts credit for the SuccDee name.Ā She saw it when I didn't, even though it was right there. -Major credit to @bitchwitch1981 for song inspo. She turned me onto The Devil Wears Lace and All on My Mind.
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survivingandenduring Ā· 10 months ago
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@mysterious-moonstruck-musings that vibes page for Dieter & Closed position gave me soooo many thotsā€¦
Soā€¦ this is my gift to you šŸ’œ
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khaopybara Ā· 1 month ago
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but if you let me help, maybe you can go beyond your limits.
JOONG ARCHEN as FADEL episode 4 of THE HEART KILLERS
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pokimoko Ā· 11 months ago
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howdy! :D
sorry to bother you, but i saw your ace week creatures you drew and have 1 request: could you please draw a transbian flag salmon? i'm transbian and i love salmon, it's my favorite animal
(I have barely asked anyone for a request ever so i'm very nervous ;w;)
/nf!!!
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Not a bother at all! I've been meaning to do a fish critter for a while now, and salmon are one of my favourite fish to draw, so this was quite a serendipitous request. Here are some lil' salmon critters for you! I hope you like them! :D
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citricjoy Ā· 6 months ago
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ppl on here complain abt watching bad movies for kyle gallner you havenā€™t even reached your final form yet. wait until you start watching the bit part tv shows
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formulanni Ā· 4 months ago
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Girl I just saw your post about how people were fighting in the comment section of your Lando post and I'm just like ā‰ļøā‰ļø
Why are people like this
Honestly though I love your art and really love the Lando tarot as well
I DONT KNOW IM LOSING MY MIND
There were a good amount of reblogs with like. Stuff about me wanting him dead (?) in the notes but now I canā€™t find those so I assume ppl read the card description and deleted lol?
People on twitter are also trying to misconstrue it and say that itā€™s a death threat or something Iā€™m actually so upset lol
But thank you!!! Iā€™m glad you like it :-)
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throwawayasoiafaccount Ā· 8 months ago
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question: how can you adore elia when sheā€™s barely a character?
we do not know enough about this character for her to even have stans.
stanning elia is illogical at best, completely delusional and very concerning at worst.
because what even is it that is being stanned and adored? your self insert?
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laesas Ā· 1 year ago
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I don't know how much more explicit the message of "THIS IS GROOMING" could have been without Be On Cloud superimposing it in all-caps text over every one of Non and his teacher's scenes. People interpreting that as "cheating" are cracked in the fucking head.
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mrmeepsmadmind Ā· 3 months ago
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I'm kinda obsessed with how his tank form just looks like he's cowering in fear and distress and is just hoping the big weapons on his back/butt??? will do something if he combines them
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um. Gulps. is that um. your valvussy...
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.... im sorry -
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atthebell Ā· 1 month ago
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they asked about when he decided he wanted to do more than just be a streamer or a content creator and he talked about his first video being a minecraft roleplay and how he always wanted to create stories. when he was only making gameplays and streaming he felt like his creative drive wasn't being satisfied enough, and that was part of the drive for creating ordem and doing more storytelling and artistic endeavors. he mentioned moving away from content creation for a bit to work on scripts and things; he had gotten a script to a producer to make a series around 2020 but the the pandemic happened and the plans got dropped, so he took some of those ideas and adapted them for an RPG setting.
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lizzybeeee Ā· 1 day ago
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Well, shit.
RIP Dragon Age.
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Hello my lovelies,
Welcome to my small part of the internet. I currently write for the Pedro Pascal fandom. Dieter Bravo is my favorite Pedro boy and is who I primarily write for. However, I do plan to write for others in the future. Don't let my love of the chaotic trash panda fool you, I enjoy reading and screaming about all the Pedro boys. Iā€™ve been known to give a fic rec or two when I really enjoy something (no seriously, I have lists).
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wikitpowers Ā· 1 year ago
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I'm happy but the next page button is looking pretty pale compared to the previous page one??????? Has she just NOW started writing twp???????????
maybe she did it on purpose so people donā€™t know how much she has written and that she doesnā€™t feel the pressure?šŸ¤·šŸ»ā€ā™€ļø
personally iā€™m gonna stay in my little bubble of delulu and say she has like 3/4 written :ā€™)
whatever her progress is, she is a pro writer and is currently writing like 2 books at the same time (that we know of) so time will tell but i say in the meantime we should šŸ•Æļøpray for an earlier releasešŸ•Æļø
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chokemedaddyloki Ā· 1 year ago
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Is their love the greatest power in the universe because I swear my heart just stopped. šŸ’ššŸ—”ļøšŸŒŒ
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martianbugsbunny Ā· 1 year ago
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Every episode of Ahsoka that doesn't have Zeb in it is a little bit more bearable if you simply operate on the base assumption that he will show up eventually. so you can just say to yourself "it's at most four weeks until zeb shows up. at most four more weeks." it contains the madness
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fauxnotice Ā· 3 months ago
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crazy how alien stage would have never gotten such a big fanbase if ivtl didnt exist. Not because its that good or better than mzsu but because no matter how you look at it female characters will never be treated the same way male characters are and the same applies to f/f ships. Like yes fandoms have mostly (not entirely though!) moved away from the trope of portraying women as nuisances that get in the way of gay relationships but now we have a new brand of misogyny that is much more subtle. and if you even IMPLY that some internal bias is the root of the way fandoms treat female characters youre looking too hard and youre too woke. Whatever
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