#cleaning out my drafts and found this in there

[hrrtshape]

Omg babe, I hope this doesn’t sound rude or anything, I swear it’s not meant that way!! But like… have you ever thought about just scripting out bpd ? Maybe it could totally change things for you in a way you didn’t expect! Just a thought, gorgeous!

you are so sweet for this. like genuinely, i'm cradling your little question in my hands like it's a baby bird i just found in the ruins of troy. and i get it. i really do. the instinct to smooth out the jagged edges, to rewrite the script so the protagonist never stumbles, never burns, never cries in the bathtub at 4pm. but the thing is, ml, i was written in a furious hand. ink smudged, pages torn, footnotes full of madness. and i don’t want to be a clean draft. i don’t want to be an easy read.

if i scripted it out, who would i be???? some girl in a jc leyendecker painting, all soft lighting and political intrigue??? no. i am the flickering film reel, the typo in the manifesto, the poetry scrawled in the margins of a philosophy book. i need my jagged edges. they catch the light in the most interesting ways. i am sylvia plath. not really...but what do ya know

but you are so, so dear for asking. i mean it. you saw me and thought, what if it didn’t have to be hard? that’s love, in its way. i see you too. and i hope you let yourself be a little messy, a little handwritten, a little impossible. i think that’s where the magic happens. xx

[beyondtheticklecloset]

Lodestone (Dr. Stone)

Summary: Tsukasa realizes he has feelings for Ryusui and decides to confess them in the only way he knows how.

A/N: Another one I wrote for @giggly-squiggily! This one's been in my drafts FOREVER and I decided with my renewed interest in Dr. Stone (Season 4 baby!) that now was the perfect time to post it. Enjoy!

Word Count: 969

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Tsukasa thought it was sweet, really, the way Gen showered Senku with affection.

Sure, the scientist usually acted unbothered, turning his face to hide his blush from the mentalist but in perfect view of Tsukasa and the others. But Gen knew he loved it and kept it up to the point of overbearing, and still Senku never told him to tone it down or stop. Sometimes the unsentimental man would even reciprocate with a rose on a starry night or a surprise kiss when he thought no one was looking.

It was cute, and Tsukasa wanted to do something similar for a certain blonde-haired captain that had recently joined their crew.

He wasn’t sure when it happened, this fluttering in his chest. One minute he was being introduced, surprised by how loud and determined Ryusui was, and the next he caught himself watching the man map out their route across the ocean with a look of concentration he admired very much, and – boom. Butterflies.

The trouble was Ryusui’s history. He came from a wealthy family and wanted for nothing; he had everything he ever desired and more. What exactly could Tsukasa give him that he hadn’t already had before? For that matter, why was he assuming Ryusui would accept anything from him? Forget their difference in status – that didn’t matter in this stone world – but there was no evidence that the blonde might be interested in guys.

Still, Tsukasa felt like he had nothing else to lose now. So one evening as the sun was going down, he set out to look for something in the forest that would inspire him, something he could give as a gift to show his own affection for their newest companion. It had to be now or never. He might lose his nerve if he didn’t say something tonight.

Surprisingly, he didn’t have to search long at all.

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“Ryusui,” Tsukasa said quietly as he approached the fire the captain was sitting beside along with Francois and Chrome. “Is there room for one more?”

Ryusui shot him his trademark grin and hummed around his noodles. “Absolutely! Sit down and eat up.”

Tsukasa sat beside him, and for a while they chatted amicably along with the other two, though the taller man was distracted, constantly looking for an opening. It didn’t feel right with the others right there.

Finally, his chance came when Ryusui stood up to return his bowl to the pile for cleaning. Tsukasa stood with him and said, “If you have a moment, I found something I think you may be interested in.”

“Oh? Then I desire to know what it is!” Ryusui replied grandly, nodding toward the growing number of finished dishes. “Come with me.”

They returned their empty bowls to the pile.

They moved slightly away from the hubbub, still within eyesight of the others but at least out of earshot.

Tsukasa took a breath, reached into his robe, and pulled out the item he’d found earlier. “This…this is for you, Ryusui. As a gift from me.”

Ryusui took it and glanced over it for only a moment before his eyes lit up and he looked back up at the brunette. “Lodestone! Do you know what this was used for?”

“I believe the first compasses were made from them, weren’t they?” Tsukasa replied, smiling when the blonde nodded back at him eagerly.

“What an incredible find! This will be so useful for us when we set sail. Thank you, Tsukasa.”

Hearing his name in the other man’s mouth made his heart clench, and Tsukasa took another breath and decided to just get it over with.

“I wanted to find something special for you because I…I realized I have feelings for you, Ryusui.” Another breath. “I’m not sure if you’re interested in men or not, and of course whatever you feel is valid and I will respect it. I just…” Another breath. “I couldn’t go forward without saying something. So…yes. You’re welcome. I’m glad you like it.”

Ryusui laughed, surprising the taller man. “Tsukasa, you did hear me the other day, didn’t you? I openly admitted to liking both women and men. I’m bisexual.”

“Oh. I…I suppose I just thought you were appreciating both in the general sense. I didn’t know.”

Now the blonde was looking at him appraisingly, as though taking him in for the first time. Tsukasa forced himself not to fidget.

“I have admired you from the beginning, Tsukasa. Though I will be honest and admit I never thought of you in that way. But to be fair…” Ryusui held up a finger as if to stop Tsukasa’s thoughts before they could run away from him. “…it was the last thing on my mind when I woke up in this stone world. So it’s not just you. I’ve been preoccupied.”

“I…I see.”

Ryusui’s smile softened somewhat. “I appreciate the gift. Truly. And I thank you for your interest. I’m flattered.” He tilted his head. “Perhaps we should get to know each other better and see where things go? We are going to be stuck on a ship together for quite some time very soon. I’d like to get to know my crew.”

Tsukasa couldn’t help but chuckle. He liked the blonde’s upfront honesty about his own feelings. It was enough to give him a bit of hope. If nothing else, he knew he wasn’t being outright rejected. He’d take it.

“I think that would be wise,” he replied at last. “Perhaps I may be so bold as to join you in the morning to help you with your duties?”

Ryusui cradled the lodestone close to his chest and snapped his fingers with a smirk. “I expect you bright and early!”

Tsukasa would be there brighter and earlier if it meant getting to spend time with this man.

[graylinesspam]

The clone language

I will stand by the fact that the vast majority of clones speak Mando'a, but and this is a big but. They do not do it well.

The Commandos are the only ones that speak Mando'a well, including pronouncing it correctly and using the right grammatical structure. The rest of them are simply absorbing words and phrases and using them wrong.

Mando'a is not exactly a closed language but is very rare to be spoken by a non mandalorian anywhere other than the planet Mandalore. But I do think that in their language training the Kaminoans would have offered like an entry level class which consisted mostly of flashcards with translations. The big two languages of the galaxy, Basic and Huttesse, are the only ones that they are taught extensively. There are several other languages they have access to beginners courses for like the Twi'lek and Togruta language, ect. But that's all voluntary learning/extra credit.

The reason Mando'a sticks more is because their trainers speak it. Whether just absorbing the language through osmosis or learning it voluntarily to listen in on the trainers conversations, some pick up a lot of words and phrases. Then those phrases are explained and poorly translated to the rest of the clones. And not just translated in one language. This is a bunch of bored bilingual kids trying to explain a new language to each other. They play fast and loose with the line between basic and huttesse. A lot of phrases are straight up translated into an entirely different grammatical structure, which mixes up the words and swaps some for words from other languages.

Now this is where the generational divide comes in, because the older clones had a lot more time and motivation to learn half way proper Mando'a than the younger ones. They also had time to spend with their generals at the beginning of the war and absorbed a lot form their respective languages. Especially the jedi sayings.

Think about the way that Jedi speak. Super cryptic responses to straight forward questions. Poetic observations, Flowery language. But then sterilized by military formality.

That leads to a lot of the older, especially high ranking clones to develope a formal yet vague way of speaking, kinda like office languages that says nothing with too many words.

The younger men do not understand this at all. They're blunter. Less well socialized by the Kaminoans and more internally minded socially. The elder clones assume they're being perceived at all times and behave according. The younger figure if they're incomprehensible enough, they can't get in trouble for what they say.

The result of which is slang.

The elder clones slang evolved from multiple languages and sayings getting mistranslated. It includes a lot of shortened words from the reg manuals, quotes from the training videos, and jedi sayings they've heard repeated too many times. Sometimes interjected with a pessimistic sense of humor. Eg, "They're on the planet" becomes "they're planetside" becomes "they're dirtside."

Meanwhile the younger clones slang develops in more of a throwing spaghetti at a wall and seeing what sticks fashion. Way less of a logical evolution path and more of a whatever gets a laugh mindset. Eg, taking a piss could be "off gassing" or "Going past the perimeter" or "getting fresh" or "flipping his belt" or "finding a tree" ect. There are too many options, it truly becomes a language at this point. A specific dialect that you have to be taught to keep up with.

There is a bit of a language barrier between the generations. It isn't too bad. Run of the mill "youths and their slang today" kinda stuff. The youngins absolutely use it for evil. Gossiping and joking around in front of the COs without getting in trouble.

Their incorporation of Mando'a follows this pattern as well.

An older clone might say something like "Better one big enemy." referencing the Mandalorian saying "Better one big enemy you can see, than many small ones you can't"

where as a the younger generation might here a phrase like "Hukaat'kama" literally cover my kama, more broadly watch my back/6 and translate it to something like. "your my six", "On me", "Watch my ass", "get on my ass", "you're my ass", "cover me", ...Which is a lot less clear than previous... They might also say something like "my kama" but translate it to mean something more like "Watch this"(boastful) or "watch me"(defiant) or "Watch me"(accepting a challenge). Which is just a blatant mistranslation of the phrase. Or the phrase could evolve past a call to action and turn into an insult. like calling someone a "Hukaat" or a "watcher" for staying in the back all the time. or calling them a "kama" insinuating they're only good for covering. Or saying "loose my kama," to tell them to fuck off. which could also turn into "loose the kama," when theyr'e acting too big for their britches as a kama is usually a sign of rank.

Basically language evolves as it is used. If it's used by more formal people in a more formal context then that is the pattern it takes on. If it's used primarily for mischief and shit talking, that's the form it'll take.

But either way, as fascinating as the clone language can seem to us, it's still a bastardization at heart.

[aroaceleovaldez]

i am a firm believer that Nico either got his ears pierced by Thalia with a hot unbent safety pin or at a random mall with a piercing gun when he was 10. there is no way he went about getting his ears pierced in any normal, safe manner. dude went to Claires. these are the only options.

[darklight-owl]

Sissel referring to Yomiel in the first person for a little longer than he should have btw. Sissel continuing to use Yomiel's likeness even after he realized that the corpse he saw that night wasn't his btw. Sissel desperately clinging to that form because it was his only lead and has become part of his identity btw. If you even care.

[bandy-andy]

Grounding yourself with c!wilbur

[imjusthella-gay]

what if i tied you down with your legs spread n edged you for hours until your crying n begging for release….jk… unless ?

[aaronstveit]

OH, SHIT! I WON THE BREAKUP!

[hylianengineer]

I was just scrolling past one of those atrocious clickbait articles about managing anxiety - you know, the ones intended for people without severe anxiety disorders, people who haven’t memorized every trick in the book. Then it occurred to me it might be useful to share some of the weird, new tricks I’ve come up with or learned from others (over the course of many years living with an anxiety disorder), and see if anyone else wanted to share some as well. 

1. Rock music. It sounds counterintuitive, but sometimes trying to listen to calm music just feels ridiculous when I’m freaking out. Rock is good because it matches my preexisting energy level (for those times when calm music makes you want to fight someone, preferably the person who suggested listening to calm music when you’re freaking out), but it’s still music and distracting and has a steady rhythm so it helps sometimes. I’m particularly fond of the kind with screaming in it, for some reason.

2. Doodling on yourself. I do this on my arm in washable marker, because, I don’t know, it was on hand and it’s more grounding than drawing on paper. It worked though, drawing on yourself is multiple kinds of distracting all at once - the art, the sensory aspect, etc.

3. Don’t have a weighted blanket and/or it’s not heavy enough? Lie on your stomach and position your arms beneath your torso so that the weight of your body is on top of them. Fair warning, I usually fall asleep when I do this, so maybe be prepared for that possibility.

4. Got too many emotions you don’t know what to do with? Try fingerpainting! Credit to @a-star-that-fell for teaching me this one. Works not only with anxiety but also other overwhelming emotions.

Please feel free to add to this list, I need ideas.

[frownyalfred]

do it (the thing) for background/research on the next fanfic you’re going to write.

[dilutedconfusion]

The idea of Kid being called a punk, damned punk, etc. as a child because he was indeed a little orphan punk who probably got into fights for survival purposes (or because he just likes to fight), stole things because he was homeless/poor, and had a loud overly confident personality due to the fact that he survived in a hostile environment is probably why he decided to make punk his whole brand. What once was an insult became a right of passage into the person he is today. Which is why accepts himself in his entirety no matter what. It’s why he wants so desperately for those he cares about to feel the same way about themselves. Kid was never the boy and now man who got what he wanted. He was never the person who thought life was about nothing but pleasures and joy. He knows it rough but he accepts it. He accepted the pain that people threw at him and decided to swallow it down as the truth. But just because he can be defined as a punk doesn’t mean he is less. Kid himself can give the word punk a new definition, a new meaning. Which to him probably means being fearlessly unique and unwavering to those that defile you in this difficult life. So I wish to anyone who likes Kid as character to feel the same way about themselves. If others judge you for who you are, lean into yourself without shame. Change the meanings of the words that haunt you. Fight battles not because you are too weak to dodge them but because you deserve the privilege of letting yourself believe you can win. Be a damned punk and be a good one.

[taldigi]

Yu Narukami, stone faced, legendarily calm, fashionista- and dedicated to the art of staying silly.

[thequeertheatrekid]

I need Frank to call Matt some variation of pretty, pretty boy, pretty thing ect.

I need for Matt to then shrivel up, blushing a bright red. I need him to then bury his face into the nearest object, be it a pillow or Frank’s chest trying to hide the quickly forming blush, because there is no way on earth that this man does not have a praise kink.

[leviiackrman]

SIMS 4 OC BUILDS: Buddy Daddies Apartment Part 2

Another round of house snaps and this time it’s the v large Olalia apartment building! In canon I envision their apartments to be in separate buildings considering she works 3 jobs and can’t afford the boys boogy place, so this had to do! Lower apartment is Kazuki and Rei’s home with little Miri, while upstairs in Gigi and her boys swanky flat: all of course designed/built by the interior designer herself! Part 1 featured the boys canon flat, so I hope you enjoy Ms Gigi's next!

Lookbooks: Ackermans || Rikihisas || Enatsu || Kyutoku || Olalias || Hatakes || ATLA || Ginnivan || Ishimoto || Drakes

Builds: Saitama Loft || Sunset Cosy Cabin || League of Villains Hideout || Tiny Treehouse || Maritime Villa || Hokage Retreat || Buddy Daddies Apartment Pt1

Tag list (ask to be added or removed): @carrionsflower @statichvm @risingsh0t @simonxriley @tommyarashikage @jacobseed @confidentandgood @unholymilf @florbelles @thedeadthree @shellibisshe @roofgeese @aezyrraesh @faerune @tekehu @jackiesarch @minaharkers @sergeiravenov @carlosoliveiraa @rosenfey @hexmaturgy @queennymeria @heroofpenamstan @tethrras @viktorgf @d-esmond @solasan @bigbywlf @delzinrowe @fenharel @imogenkol @auricfog

[camilla-obscura]

[ohyoufool]

is this something: the team playing themselves in a TV show about Check Please