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[a box containing completely normal and ordinary brownies is delivered to the committee's doorstep. Please don't step on it.]
Everyone enjoyed them wholeheartedly, but when I came back after my lunch break there was quite a scene:
-Citizen Barère is reciting some poetry that I believe he made up on the spot. I think it's about grass? -Citizen Billaud-Varenne is trying to braid Citizen Collot d'Herbois's hair. -Citizen Collot d'Herbois is at least half-asleep. -Citizen Couthon is doodling rabbits on the back of a draft decree. -Citizen Jeanbon is mumbling about Protestant theology. -Citizen Lindet is trying to engage him in a debate by recounting his time as a constitutional bishop, complete with dramatic gestures. He nearly tripped over a chair. -Citizen Prieur-de-la-Marne is lying on the floor and snoring loudly. -Citizen Hérault de Séchelles is laughing hysterically while pointing out all the spelling errors his colleagues have made on the new draft of the Constitution. -Citizen Prieur-Duvernois is talking about non-Newtonian physics again. And something about ghosts. -Citizen Saint-Just has been sitting very still and staring into space for a long while. At one point, he quietly murmured 'if Plato isn't right I'm killing myself'. He hasn't spoken since. -Citizen Robespierre keeps asking if we can please open the window to let the pigeons come inside. (Our new meeting room does not have a window.)
...What have you done?!
#citizen what did you DO?!#committee deliveries#french revolution#frev#frevblr#unreality#gimmick blog#cw weed#<- implied
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no, but really, we need to talk about the casual objectification that has become the fallback discourse of the internet: if you're pretty and dressed nicely, you're a slut. and if you're even vaguely outside of their body standard, you're fucking disgusting.
too-frequently, people position sex workers as being "the problem". they sneer you're addicted to pornography, you don't know what a real woman looks like. but real women are in pornography. the real bodies on display are not the issue here: the issue is that other people feel extremely confident when commenting on someone's physique.
2000's super-thin is slowly worming its way back into the public ideal. recently i saw someone get told to "go for a run", despite the fact she was on the thinner side of average. not that it would ever be appropriate to say that: but it's kind of like sticker shock when you see it. people think that is fat? holy shit. do they just have no idea about things?
but what are you going to do about it? that's the problem, right. because chances are - you're a normal person. we can say normalize carrying fat on your body, but we are not the billion-dollar diet industry. we are not the billion-dollar fashion industry. we are just, like. people. who are trying to make content on the internet, without being treated shittily.
as someone who has been on both sides of things: you are treated better when you are thin and pretty. this is statistically correct. i am not saying that you cannot be bullied for being thin; i'm saying there are objective institutional biases against certain bodytypes. there are videos of men and women who lost weight all saying: i now know for a fact exactly how much worse you're treated. in the comments, some asshole inevitably says something akin to you deserved to be dehumanized when you were fat.
which means that ... the easiest thing to do is be pretty and thin. it is the path of least resistance, because of course it is, because any time you post a picture of yourself without a thigh gap, someone immediately comments something like you need to try a diet.
the other half is also dehumanizing though, huh, just in a different way. when i put on makeup and nice clothes, i am told i slept my way to the top as a professional. do you know how many women in STEM have told me they purposefully dress to "unimpress" because they already struggle to be taken seriously and if they're ever considered pretty - it for some reason takes away from their authority.
so they make it seem like it's your fault. you, existing in a body - it's your fault! if you didn't want shitty comments, don't have a body. they position us against each other like chess pieces; vying for male attention we don't even need.
and i can be an authority on this unless you think i'm fat and unattractive. when i am pretty and thin, i'm an activist. when i am just a normal person who makes a good point: i am immediately dismissed. nobody fucking believes you if you're not seen as attractive. you literally lose value. you cease to exist.
but the whole time, it feels like - is anyone actually grounded the fuck in reality? the line of "pretty and thin" keeps shifting. nobody seems to understand what "a normal weight" even looks like, because it's not something that exists - you cannot tell a person's health by looking at their body. even if you think you could tell that, even if you're sure a person is dangerously overweight - people are not your dolls. they do not need to be dressed up or displayed properly to soothe your aesthetics. you aren't concerned for them, you're stealing their agency. you don't get to say if they're "allowed" to take pictures and post them on the internet - you don't get to tell them how to exist.
people hide behind "the obesity epidemic" without any actual qualifications. they crow things about "normalizing unhealthiness".
but it's bullshit. i have visible abs. there is a pair of parallel lines on my body, even when i'm relaxed; where my obliques meet my abdominal wall. i am proud of this because it means i'm strong, because i overcame an eating disorder only to be ripped as fuck. it is genetic and physical luck that i even get any definition, i'm pleased as punch.
but it does mean that my abdominal wall sticks out a little bit. the other day i posted a video of myself dancing, and, for a moment, my shirt slipped. you could see a little bit of my stomach. i was cartwheeling to the floor. moments before this, i'd had my foot over my head.
a guy slid into my DMs. a row of vomiting emojis prefaced: you should really lose some weight before you think about dancing.
i stared at it for a long time. there was a time when i would have been triggered by this, where it would have encouraged me to starve myself. i would have ignored the fact i'm flexible, agile, good at jumping: i would have lost the weight for a stranger's passing comment. i would have found myself and my body fucking disgusting.
and for what? to please what? because why? so that he can exist in this world without an unchallenged eyeball? what would my self-hatred even accomplish? usually i write paragraphs. obviously. on this particular occasion, in this body i've been at war with for ages: i just felt exhausted.
it shouldn't be even worth saying. it shouldn't be hard to explain. all of this emotional turmoil when he cannot even comprehend the most basic truth: i am not an object on display for him.
#spilled ink#writeblr#warm up#like if im getting fatshamed. babe......... wake up#is there fat on my body? yes :)#btw this behavior wouldn't be okay even if I WAS overweight!!! that is my point!!!#it is both that people have no idea what weight is supposed to look like#and even if they DID... they do not seem to understand that PEOPLE ARE NOT DOLLS#YOU DO NOT GET TO TELL THEM HOW TO EXIST#if you respond anything akin to ''but raquel there IS an obesity epidemic''#you're blocked and reported.#go fucking DONATE TO A FOOD BANK THEN. volunteer in a food desert. start a free fitness program#GO GET A DEGREE AS A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL AND PRACTICE IN NUTRITION IN UNDERPRIVILEDGED LOCATIONS#FIGURE OUT HOW TO LOWER FOOD COSTS. FIGURE OUT HOW TO NORMALIZE AND STANDARDIZE#ACCESS TO FARM-FRESH FOOD. PROVIDE ACTUAL FREE ACCESS TO OUTSIDE ACTIVITIES#FIGURE OUT HOW TO TEACH PEOPLE HEALTHY CHOICE MAKING WHILE ALSO LOWERING THE COST OF MEALS.#THE AVERAGE GROCERY BILL OF THE AMERICAN CITIZEN HAS QUADRUPILED IN THE LAST YEAR.#SHUT. THE FUCK. UP!!!!!!!!!#you don't want to help these people!!!!!#you want to bully them but still feel like a good person!#you want to be justified in your hatred of an entire CLASS of people!!!#you don't give a fuck about how it makes them feel!!!!#you care ONLY about whether or not YOU get to VIRTUE SIGNAL that YOURE so thin and pretty!!!!#it is BECAUSE of people like you#and the fact you tolerate fatphobia - BECAUSE of that normalization. that men like the one who called me fat#feel like they can get away with it.#bc there's a line for you where you WOULD be okay with it. where if i WASNT thin you'd be okay with it.#which means the line can always be pushed in a certain direction. and it's always going to appeal to male aesthetics.#''well you didn't deserve it'' maybe fucking NOBODY does babe. maybe we should just all agree not to comment on ppls bodies!!
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"if we make america worse and more of a dictatorship that will be even harder to unravel and make it the way we want the country to be, maybe then everyone will join our Glorious Revolution!" bb girl you cant even be in the same room with someone who thinks you should vote, how in tf do you think you're gonna unite people to fight in The Revolution with you? it's gonna be you and your 5 friends, i hate to break it to you.
#i dont think you realize how repelling you and your politics are to everyone else#you get all of your validation for how Smart You Are from your friends and ignore any kind of feedback that suggests you should#change or do something differently. thats the only reason you're so convinced average people will go along with you bc you keep getting#affirmation from the people who ALREADY agree with you- but you have NO IDEA how to bridge the gap between people who agree#with you and disagree with you. you're horrible at convincing people of your side of things outside of straight up guilt tripping them#or bullying them like a highschooler. im sorry but the tools you learned to survive with as a kid aren't gonna help you in this situation.#the ONLY THING you can come up with to bridge that gap is a bloody revolution. thats how bad you are at this.#and you're also so bad at this and unimaginative that you dont even realize how THAT might not even be enough.#you cant imagine ANY kind of avenue to getting people to change AT ALL outside of blood and fire. and thats why people call you#an authoritarian.#i'll be honest- i really do think the world would be a better place if we did incremental change under a democratic president who wont#set the world on fire vs the godkingemperor republican WHO WONT EVEN LISTEN TO YOU AT ALL EVER AND MIGHT KILL YOU#FOR PUTTING UP A STINK. idk if you noticed but if that evil fuck gets into office we are severely outnumbered if he gets police#n shit to go after his own citizens. letting trump win is making this battle so much harder than it needs to be.#you are choosing trying to fix the world while its exploding vs trying to fix it before it explodes at all.#what is this like a procrastination thing? you wanna wait till the last minute to try? idfgi. wtf is wrong with you#throwing minority lives away to prove a point. and then you try to tell me you care. gtfoh.#accelerationists should never be taken seriously.
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This is the only thing I'm going to say about the election until it's over:
Anyone who did not vote for Harris or who attempted to dissuade people from voting for Harris, you are indirectly responsible for whatever shit Donald Trump does if he gets elected. That blood is primarily on his hands, yes. But it is also on yours. I hope you can live with that because I sure as hell wouldn't be able to.
#'but gaza' trump wants TO OBLITERATE THEM. HE LITERALLY WANTS THERE TO BE NOTHING LEFT OF GAZA AT ALL. WHY DO YOU THINK#I DON'T WANT HIM IN POWER?????#yeah I said I wouldn't election post I lied sorry.#I know most of you don't actually care what happens to american citizens because we're all Violent Hypocrites who should kill ourselves#and somehow every single civilian is responsible for the actions of a military and government that comparatively few of us are actually par#of but FUCKING HELL. You don't care about THE PEOPLE OF GAZA??? Because that's what you're telling me if you're in favor of#doing anything OTHER than the most likely path to get trump out of politics. which is voting for the candidate DIRECTLY OPPOSING HIM.#the thing about america being an empire that needs to die. is that before it dies. it is still affecting the rest of the world.#I can't make you care about me and my loved ones. but I am IMPLORING you to have some fucking compassion for all the people#who are going to be DEEPLY negatively affected elsewhere if trump gets into power.#THEIR HARM. THEIR DEATHS. ARE ON /YOU/ IF YOU DID ANYTHING TO FACILITATE TRUMP'S VICTORY IF THAT'S WHAT HAPPENS.#I don't believe most of you actually have any amount of the sympathy and compassion for others you claim to have.#I don't think any of the causes you throw yourself behind are actually meaningful to you. I don't think any of this is based on a#genuine desire to build a better world. I think you just want your Internet friends to think you are a Good Person.#if I see anyone. ANYONE. acting like a trump presidency is what we 'deserve'. or that it's necessary to 'teach [xyz] a lesson'#I am NEVER speaking to you again I don't care how long I've known you.#us politics#I am a disabled queer woman. almost everybody I love is also disabled and queer. you think we're acceptable collateral damage fine.#but don't cry that I'm being a bitch if I say that that makes me not trust you and not want to have anything to do with you.
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I love how that person who was like "oh ew a Zionist" also has reblogged posts about not being antisemitic and buying into antisemitic conspiracies while ALSO like.
Reblogging posts about how Israel is a uniquely evil "colonial scar" and how Israel is "murdering children" and like. Literally straight up antisemtic shit.
Leveling criticism at Israel that positions it as a unique evil among all other countries and doing literal blood libel (IE, Israel murders Palestiaian babies in a way no other nation kills children) is FUCKING ANTISEMITIC. Israel is JUST A COUNTRY. It is JUST another nation, doing the shitty stuff that other nations do. And if you find yourself railing against Israel EXTRA hard right now, or ever, in ways that you do NOT rail against other shitty countries that do shitty things (and, I can't believe I have to say this, if you find yourself saying that the kidnap, rape, torture, and murder of any civilian ever is justified because "uwu this radical extremist group is freedom fighters"!) then you're a fucking antisemitic, racist bigot.
Like. It blows me away how so many people don't seem to see that Israel, the Jewish state (whether you agree with how it is run or not, whether you agree with how it came to be or not) gets SO MUCH MORE SHIT than other comparable shitty countries... Come on.
Because the alternative is that you DO see it. That you DO agree with all of those things that are STEEPED in age-old antisemitic conspiracy. And you agree.
#antisemitism#i/p#like#idk how to get it through to people#ESPECIALLY my fellow fucking AMERICANS#that Israel is... Just another shitty country#y'all are nowhere NEAR this loud about other shit going on#and there IS other shit going on#constantly#but i don't see you going after other nations saying they shouldn't exist#i don't see you saying China and everyone in it should be destroyed#fuck#I watched all of you say that we can't blame individual Russian citizens for what Putin and his fucking cronies do#but the SECOND Israel pulls some bullshit#you demand every jew in the world bow down and slurp on your cocks#people gor MURDERED in broad daylight on FUCKING VIDEO that the killers POSTED THEMSELVES#and you denied it happened#and then said well if it did happen they deserve it like#you could not be more obvious in your hatred for my people
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8x10 Torn & Frayed one line schedule | 8x11 LARP & The Real Girl production draft script | 8x09 Citizen Fang | 8x10 Torn & Frayed transcript | 9x08 Rock and a Hard Place
Good fucking morning.
#I just thought about them too much so i made this cus the alternative was killing myself 🫶#slash jay#there is SO MUCH going on behind the camera in supernatural. these guys were fuckin#the fact that we can only canonically confirm that they really did have a relationship is through their break up is kind of fucked up.#I’ve said this before but I’m saying it again I deserved to see Benny hungrily and desperately drinking Dean’s blood straight from the tap#I want him back.#jensen benny-lover ross ackles…you know what to do#supernatural#spn#spn 8x09#citizen fang#spn 8x10#torn and frayed#spn 8x11#larp and the real girl#spn 9x08#rock and a hard place#deanbenny#destiny#dean winchester#benny lafitte#dean x benny
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Whumpee commits tax fraud and is put in jail. Prison whump ensues.
#us citizens PLEASE PAY YOUR TAXES TODAY IF YOU HAVEN'T ALREADY.#don't do what whumpee did#whump#whump prompt#crack whump#prison whump
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i’m still thinking about this sorry but the idea that the wol’s actions are the same as the garlean army’s actions just really rubs me the wrong way. like i dont think its actually a nuanced position to suggest that theres no difference between resisting imperial violence and committing it. the reason the garlemald section stands out to me is not because well it’s okay, the garleans thought what they were doing was right and we committed violence against them too so who’s to say who is right or wrong. it’s that they are demonstrably in the wrong and we help them anyway. because we can, because they need it.
#endwalker spoilers#i need a text post tag#sorry i’ve been thinking about this for weeks ever since i saw a post that was like well they thought they were doing the right thing so#what makes them the villain#and like this is not the first time this game has touched on this!#back in arr y’shtola tells merlwyb we would not be having to deal with titan if you didn’t break your deal with the kobolds!#okay sorry i really could not concentrate on other things for like the last hour 😭#also like i don’t think ‘the government did it not them’ actually absolves citizens of their complicity#you do have to do some introspection when your country invades others for purposes of conquest#but narratively that doesn’t matter to me as much as what i said in the post it’s just weird to me when ppl use that as an excuse
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Having been through the exact airport they likely flew in through makes Jimmy's customs story infinitely funnier
#vio.txt#like i went through customs there as a us citizen will a full us passport omw back from an international flight#the agent is like why are you in this country. im like i live here. agent goes oh really where do you work? i say im a student#and my parents say they work in reseach. agent goes so what were you doing in [country] is there a lot of research there????#i go. i was on vacation? we were literally there to see family??? at no point in the process did we ever say we were there for work????#hate tsa so much ive never felt more racially profiled#the way its organized for non citizens was like infinitly worse as well#i think customs just attracts every high school bully that wants to live out their power fantasy#theyre treating u like a criminal for no reason 😭
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right-wing hypercapitalist vegan brazilian dude who is convinced that I'm a cis guy has started to suspect something is amiss based on my yaoiposting and today asked if I was a fudanshi, which is immensely hilarious on many accounts because like. 1. the gendering me correctly with the right technical term (telling on yourself? why do you know this) 2. too curious about what my deal is that he HAD to ask (tried to fish it out of me by loudly mentioning there was a ton of yaoi and BL in the manga section of the bookstore and when I dodged that he asked directly not 15 minutes later) 3. I said that like the isekai genre 95% of yaoi is garbage but the remaining 5% is worth reading and he felt like he needed to defend himself and said "well I just prefer reading things I can see myself in" and 4. took it quite well all things considered when I came out as bisexual to him. so maybe there's hope yet for this guy
#just thinking thoughts...#ALSO. insanely funny was when he was like wait aren't you a taiwanese citizen soh. don't you have to do military service#and vege guy (completely zoned out of the conversation) chose this moment to go#OH YO SUPERHEROX. I read some of that and it was really good. huge push.#this is exactly what I brought him along for btw. covering for me when I get stuck in an awkward gender situation#and he did his job brilliantly and he wasn't even trying. huge shoutout to vege guy
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What I love about Hobbie as an English Person (TW: Flashing Lights)
God does it feel great to have a British character in a none British film that actually feels, well, British.
So to the rest of the world, you guys have this stereotype of us being poor ass Conservative assholes that only care about ourselves and its sad that stereotype is so common because (appropriately) its a tiny percentage of people.
Now I'm not from London (another thing guys we're not all from London! It's like saying every American is from California) so I don't know every reference Hobbie made and I was born far after the punk movement so take my observations with a pinch of salt but...
He feels so real!
I work in retail so I see a lot of unique colourful characters and I've met people similar to Hobbie, you'd think they'd be intimidating or stone-faced but they're so chill and more likely to treat people in our work place with more respect then others. And I totally believe Hobbie would too (he's punk he has to).
I love all the little references in the way he speaks, I find it hilarious that the film had to translate what a jumper is or other things I thought were universal.
I love how kind and open he is to Gwen and Miles. If his story is anything like the comics I would've expected him to act more douchy or angry but he doesn't give a toss he just wants to play his music and make Miguel angry (which I respect).
His art style is collage! My favourite medium!
(Also very appropriate from what I learned in college, where we analysed album covers and artwork by punk bands and artists and how it stood out in a time of same-y looking artwork) So very appropriate for Spiderverse.
Anyway I didn't have a structure to this. I just love having English representation that actually feels like the writers talked to actual British people (not posh assholes but actual people) and did their homework.
So Daniel Kaluuya got to use his actual accent for once! Yay!
#I know I missed a lot#apparently his shoelaces having meaning too#what things did you notice?#My favourite was 'I hate the AM and the PM'#so do we buddy#so do we#btw most UK citizens hate politicians no matter what side of the spectrum you're on#stop acting like we love our leaders#we're the ones to make all the memes and roasts#spiderverse#across the spiderverse#atsv#hobbie brown#spider punk#ALSO Spider Punk is Aro/Ace ok byyyyeeee#spiderman across the spiderverse
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Ada: maybe I should turn my personality off
Me (And my sole survivor): Absolutely NOT 😭😭😭🖤🖤🖤
#I will hand it to bethany esda for making that entire section getting to the mechanist OG fallout levels of fucked up in the right way#GOD. MARTA PROBABLY KNEW SOME OF THOSE PRISONERS#I feel like at some point she has to just. stop and hurl because what the FUCK. She KNEW things were fucked up. She DID.#Of course she did! But idk... I think she had this little bubble of 'well they wouldn't do this shit to their OWN citizens#this is JUST because we're Canadian and we're resisting occupation. Except Chinese americans obviously they're treated like shit too.'#and to have that burst for realsies by this quest? She's gonna have a long smoke and think by the ocean after this quest methinks#Not like. in game but cannonically to me she does#fallout#fallout 4#fo4#Ada is a sweetheart but I'm playing a stealth build so. Sorry you gotta go queen ily <3 <- does not gaf about companion perks
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@shadowbrightshine that is a wonderful idea. You’ve bullied Wiggog, and now mentally tortured my oldest brother. Fuck listening to all of you. We’re going to help Tinky, and we’re doing it ourselves. Goodbye.
#(Ohh shit what did you DO?? //OOC)#Blikloteo#ask blog#the lords in black#Blog Event: Hatchetfield Citizens#hatchetfield rp#rp blog
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the whole like "cool excuse, still murder" mindset has really rotted peoples brains like obviously there are certain situations that are just inexcusable and cant be reasoned but when you look at the wide spectrum of humanity like.... many things do in fact have not necessarily excuses but certainly explanations. but yall are so focused on everything being definitively right or wrong that you wont even allow yourself to consider the grey areas and the fact yall cant even do this with fictional characters.... appalling behavior quite frankly
#highkey gets on my nerves when people are like 'i dont wanna hear excuses for why you did xyz'#when the person is simply explaining the events/thought processes that led them to doing whatever#like i for one would like to be able to understand people but maybe thats just me!#idk how to convey to you two thoughts can exist at the same time#yes someone can do bad things and yes it can stem from a place of trauma or simply being misguided#and that person doesnt need to be held to fire for the rest of eternity if they show meaningful change in behavior like#what is not clicking i dont understand#or when people act like someone being surrounded by shitty circumstances and never knowing anything else should be expected to be a well#adjusted citizen like you are not being realistic right now#idk man yall just annoy the shit outta me and i needed to ramble lmfao#i actually love my mind and how i interact with the world sorry the rest of you get off on being one giant lynch mob i cant relate to that
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Ah, for the people who have blocked me bc I am simply (and reasonably) asking for proof of the validity of wildly circulated misinformation based on nothing but hearsay that is actively damaging hurricane relief efforts, and stirring even greater division among our fellow citizens:
I sincerely hope you have done so for reasons of not discoursing on the internet with a stranger in a way that for you is detrimental to your mental health, and not bc you refuse to acknowledge and discuss the possibility that you might be wrong.
One thing is very healthy, the other is very dangerous and sad.
#if you want a conspiracy about all this go read what#historian and political journalist heather cox richardson has been writing lately#biden didnt take from fema to give to immigration funds but trump did with ssp#he was also praised by republicans for his quick response to the disaster (and i can attest personally to#previous presidents' less than stellar or quick response to at least one disaster i lived through#we didnt call it a conspiracy then we called it bureaucratic red tape)#anyways a certain historic authoritarian was also fond of flooding the public with such huge amounts of misinformation#that people became too exhausted trying to sort through the lies to find the truth and **gave up** bc they couldn't stop the mass amounts of#lies from winning#you can also see locals and pastors pleading with people to stop spreading misinformation as trying to respond to it#is exhausting their energy when they are working 12hr days trying to help people and cannot afford to fight infowars#if you want a conspiracy it's definitely there#but it's one against democracy and against truth#and i can understand why people got exhausted trying to fight against this crap even before the age of information#anyways i got blocked what if i get hatey anons next simply bc i said 'do you know the specifics of these claims?'#and my lil blog doesnt reach far these days (thank heaven)#but i still have not had a single person supply actual evidence#just more of the same baseless claims made by media influencers who have something to gain#and they sprinkle in just enough truth (my family member's house flooded and neighbors helped them)#that the big lie (therefore the government is doing nothing and hates citizens) gets embraced wholeheartedly#literally the facts are there for anyone to look at#(or the lack of evidence of wrongdoing in this case)#like i don't love our government but whatever happened to innocent until proven guiltym#why find out that your opponent may not have done you dirty for once#when instead you can presuppose their guilt and lynchmob any dissenters for free#i love humans as individuals#i am terrified of humans in large groups who get angry bc someone told them something that fit their suspicions#(suspicions which have also been fed for years by massive heaping webs of lies#and often by foreign parties who would love to see american democracy crash and burn)#i wish i knew who to aim this rant at
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so apparently my mother is feeling overwhelmed again
if i suddenly stop posting forever its bc she slipped back into imagining im what she wishes i was (able) so she can be mad at me instead of herself, and really pushed me into a corner. maybe i survived but she made me homeless. i tend to catastrophize so lets hope this is just that and it goes away
#she who chose to have children she would never be able to do right by in a country that had just done a genocide on its own citizens#that lets its people starve and struggle and is proud of that.#she who sold the only thing i might have inherited before she'd even try to find a roommate#she who sold my car and ensured my life will end in suicide rather than pay the registration or defy the HOA in any way#she gets mad at ME. can you fucking imagine. the gall#if i could go back in time to when she was pregnant with me and beat the shit out of her and kill myself i would#what fucking kind of sick ego leads people to become parents when they know nothing and dont even actually want it. i loathe her#and my father. but tbh i suspect he did want an abortion which would absolve him of a lot#on the other hand its equally likely he was too chickenshit to ever voice that desire which would indict him much further. so#im not about to ask. i want nothing to do with these people but they created me in a place that would force me to rely on them#and get mad at me for it
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