#chaos existential

[ominous-feychild]

Would it surprise you guys for me to mention that the Existential god of Chaos, who's essentially chaos personified, is canonically autistic?

And 100% struggles with the fact that he's repressed the traits for his whole life, being as he's WAY older than humanity/psychology and the other Existentials are uh,,,, not understanding with him.

[allangelschaos]

[mostboringsinner]

Serial Experiment Lain (1998), Ryutaro Nakamura

[i-am-trans-gwender]

"Normalize this, normalize that"

How about we UNNORMALIZE everything and embrace the absurdity of existence?

Get weird and stay weird!

Go to your transphobic mom's funeral and give everyone a rubber duck for no particular reason whatsoever. I don't care just don't be predictable.

[thereareeyesinsidethetrees]

ford: do you ever think about what nonexistence is like?

stan: i...try not to. i mean, how do you even imagine something that isn't even nothing?

ford: maybe it's everything

stan: ...either way, i don't like the concept. i can handle whatever cosmic horror bullshit goes on in nonexistence, but not existing also means not hearing or seeing or feeling or knowing

ford: maybe it's more peaceful not to hear or see or feel or know

stan: it wasn't. i already had thirty years of that. i'm not okay with another second, let alone an eternity

ford: ...i don't think i find it that peaceful anymore

[tenaciousdragonmoon]

This is my reaction when faced with a problem :

1. Denial

2. Mild panic

3. Pure panic with drama

4. Proceeeds to ignore and never actively acknowledge the existence of any such problem for the rest of my life

[thesupernaturalhouse]

Okay okay, hear me out, I know it's unlikely but inagine:

Because Pomni gives Jax no reaction and just, no fucks in general, he'll just...enlist her, without her knowing, help with pranks like-

Okay, so caine has a ban to stop Jax from touching. idk, a blow horn- like, it's locked up, and Jax can't take it out and pomnis by it, and Jax just goes

"Hey...hey pomni....can you hand me that?" "Wha- oh, sure Jax." "Thank youuuu" *sounds of everybody being tortured by a blow horn* "how the F--K does he keep getting it!?" "I don't know! Caine locked it up!!" *meanwhile pomni goes back to having a mental crisis*

[nihilosphere]

"Chaos is what we've lost touch with. This is why it is given a bad name. It is feared by the dominant archetype of our world, which is Ego, which clenches because its existence is defined in terms of control."

- Terence McKenna

[fishfrommars]

Scary characters award:

Death from Puss in Boots?

Or Raptor Lady?

[yourfavanxioussunshine]

You said home, and I embraced myself.

[theidealistphilosophy]

Chaos is what we've lost touch with. This is why it is given a bad name. It is feared by the dominant archetype of our world, which is Ego, which clenches because its existence is defined in terms of control.

Terence McKenna, Source Unlisted.

[neurogliadudette]

i started white nights

if i didn't know beforehand, i wouldn't recognize that this is the same author of crime and punishment

[dino--draws]

once again plagued by Admonition lore details and currently its the recently-ish-deduced-in-canonexus "MAGIC DRAWER's destinations were chosen by PHMD and one of those is Paraline, meaning that he intentionally causes the Paradox" and this is FUCKING ME UP. 7243 is full of paradoxes and its a Whole Thing that Dougall does not realize he's in a causal loop/bootstrap paradox w/ causing Phillip's death until That Exact Moment Comes when MAGIC DRAWER targets Admoline so assumedly it went the same way for PHMD having to target Paraline and like. how tf did PHMD react to realizing that? To learning this is his fault? Was it resignment, like Dougall? was it despair? anger? all three at once? are we just speed running the five stages of grief in the time it takes to throw a lever?

GOD I need to fucking know what's going on behind this mans eyes HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT ANY OF THIS????? THIS FUCKING CHARACTER MAN I AM UNWELL.

[quorras]

we gotta talk about this more. how on earth are they both holding on

quorra's crossed arms? sam with flynn's disc like a steering wheel? the parachute (?) on sam's back in the first shot and on quorra's back in the next/reverse shot? they're so ridiculous i love it

[etdraconis]

( only thoughts in head today are Bridgerton and Dragon Age so like, hmu if you want stuff with either?? )

[ohhnohhh]

4.25.24

Tea

Need to work on processing all the chaos.