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moonlightchn · 22 days ago

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Chan sighs softly as he finally lays next to the sleeping fox, her body right away searching for his warmth as she snuggles closer against him, her skin burning, scent still strong and filling up the room. Exhausted, he can tell.

His arms wrap tightly around her smaller frame, protective, loving. Afraid... Hands rubbing down her spine, gentle, chasing away nightmares. Chaste kiss on top of her head as she hides away to sleep the night away, the boy can't help the way his heart swells impossibly.

He sighs, both in content and... Longing? Maybe? Definitely. Yearning. Oh, how long has it been since he last felt this way?

The wolf's eyes drift from the girl towards the desk, polaroids sprawled on top. The party, the trip here, their time together just now. What else is there to ask for? What else could he long for.

Her sensible touch? The sound of her voice in the mornings? Her warmth? Her scent mingling with his? Her love?

Maybe.

Would allowing her to love him be so dangerous, after all, when she makes him feel so at home.

Chan's eyes close as he thinks back on the day, the sound of Jangmi's heartbeat steadying his own as he recalls the conversations they had early morning, a single finger reaching to touch the new bracelet on his wrist.

In this life and the next, she'll always find him.

There's so much he should've said in that moment, so much he bit back as her breathing fanned his neck, her quiet confession as soft lips graced his skin. It's unfair. It's unfair how wonderful she is. The grounding presence she's become, the sun every morning, the calm in the middle of the ocean.

A second conversation plays in his mind.

Are you happy?

And how could he not be. How could he not when a single look her way is all he needs to forget every worry, every deadline, every fear, everything at all. How could he not be happy when it's the way she smiles at him, the way her eyes light up at the sight of something she likes, the sound of her giggles as his fingertips tickle her sides. How is he supposed to answer that without giving it all away?

It's so unfair, he reckons as he takes a deep breath, the way something that's never meant to be can become everything you need.

Buried under his skin, burned in his memory forever, made comfortable on his heart, just another love he can't give into.

It's so unfair, he reckons, when she cares so much. Feels so strong. Loves so pure.

The wolf turns softly with the girl still on his arms, soft huff of air in a sleepy complaint at his shifting, making him chuckle under his breath. Fingers cradle her head, keeping her close in an unconscious attempt to make her one with him, fusion together, and never be apart. Never be gone.

Chan's eyes close once again, nose buried into the fox's hair. Now it's not the time. It's not the time when she's given her all to him, gave up everything she's fought to win back for herself. It's not the time to doubt himself when she's trusted him with all she is.

It takes an extra while, sleep ever so slowly taking over before he can finally let himself go. Just for tonight, at least, this is fine.

↳ 𝑯𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒚 𝑩𝒊𝒓𝒕𝒉𝒅𝒂𝒚 — 𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒏 ༉‧₊

༊*·˚ "I couldn't imagine my life without you in it. You are imprinted on my heart and soul."

Jangmi had a plan, a list, she had goals that were going to be met even if she had to be sneaky to accomplish them.

Two bodies lay wrapped up in bed together, tender kisses, gentle caresses and soft whispers bathed in the moonlight filtering in from the gap in the curtains. Jangmi is too caught up in the warmth of Chan's embrace that she almost forgets to utter the words she's been waiting to say. "Happy birthday, my Alpha." She smiles into the kiss, her fingers carding through his messy blonde hair. Giggles sound as he rolls them over so that Jangmi is laying under him and the wolf nuzzles into the soft spot of her neck. Nobody could ever mistake who she belongs to, his scent surrounding them that even her soft fox scent could be mistaken for that of a wolf.

Their bodies intertwine, their craving for intimacy driving them further into each other until sleep washes over them. A sound sleep, wrapped up in love and warmth until sunlight replaces the glow of the moon. "No," Jangmi mutters, sleepily trying to put all her weight on Chan, "I make breakfast." She barely makes it onto his chest before she falls back under and sleeps a bit more.

Her body is exhausted which causes her plan of making breakfast in bed a failed attempt.

Mostly.

When she finally wakes up, she looks up at the Alpha and smiles before placing a kiss right on the tip of his nose. "If I asked really, really nicely, would you stay in bed so I can make us breakfast in bed?" She bats her eyelashes, "it's your birthday and I know Alpha always takes care of me but I want to do something for you!" Jangmi tries her luck, hoping it's enough to win.

When breakfast, a lovely spread of bacon and eggs with toast and a fresh salad, is made and finished, Jangmi climbs onto Chan's lap, squirming slightly as the suppressant she drank still needs to take effect. Playing with his hand, the little fox carefully writes the words 'I love you' on his palm before taking the seashell bracelet off her wrist. "I made this for you, I know I've made you like a lot of bracelets but this one is extra, EXTRA special."

She holds it up and shows him the twine used for the bracelet, red strands barely standing out against the beige. "I know you aren't someone who relies on magic and..." Playing with the shell, she runs through the words that she's been practicing, "I know that one day, you'll find someone who will complete you like a mate would but I've been learning about soulmates."

Her words a quiet, each one carefully being spoken as she tries to relay her meaning. "I don't know if I'll ever find one, a mate, and it scares me sometimes but I know that soulmates aren't always romantic. I learnt there are people who are connected to us no matter what, who we are always destined to find in our next life; they can be lovers, family or even friends, tied together with a string of fate." Delicate fingers play with the shells, "so I made this to make sure that we always find each other. No matter where we are or where you go, in this life and the next, it means I'll always find you."

She ties the bracelet into his wrist and avoids his eyes as she hides her face in his neck, using his scent to calm down. “I love you, Alpha. I always will.”

While Jangmi wishes that Chan would just stay home and relax, she knows that the wolf would head off to work the moment she said she had to go to the cafe. "It's out of your way," a guilty look settles onto her face when Chan mentions dropping her off at the cafe, "I can get Nini to come grab me..." There's that look that has her folding and the hybrid just nods and climbs into the car, texting Jongin to let him know she’ll meet him there.

The drive is filled with excited chatter about the day, Jangmi trying very hard not to spill her secrets about what she has planned. Holding Chan's hand as he drives, she tilts her head to the side as she watches his side profile. "Are you happy, Alpha?" She asks, giving his hand a gentle squeeze as she gives him some time to think about it.

Happiness. The second thing on her list for today.

Loved, happy, and cherished. She wants him to feel all these things today and she will do it to the best of her ability.

When they arrive at the cafe, Jangmi looks over at him, taking a moment to take in the man who makes her heart feel full. "I am happy. I'm always happy since you came into my life." With a kiss goodbye, Jangmi wishes Chan a good day and tells him he has to be at Irene and Chris' by a certain time.

"Don't be late!" She says before closing the door and waving goodbye… and then opening it again so she can give him a kiss.

The hybrid runs around the cafe, getting the last of the food ready to take it to the house. The cake, desserts, salads, cookies and some fruit kebabs - they've gone all out to make sure tonight is something to remember. Counting in her head as she checks over, Jangmi nods and presses the checklist on her phone. "All ready!" She picks up her presents and places them with everything else to make sure nothing is left behind when Jongin arrives.

Which feels like is taking forever.

"Do you have the balloons?" She asks, "decorations? Oh! Did you-"

"Jangmi." His tone causes her ears to fall flat onto her head as she looks down, "I get that this day is important. It's Channie's birthday too. Between you, Alice and Irene constantly reminding me, I have everything in the car. Okay?"

Biting her bottom lip, Jangmi nods, carrying the presents and placing them in the front seat. "I'm sorry."

The wolf sighs and puts what's in his hands down so he can hug her. His nose scrunches up as the overpowering scent of Chan reminds him of who she's been sleeping with. "God, you stink of him." Jongin says teasingly, causing Jangmi to giggle.

"He smells nice!" Knowing that Chan had spent extra time scenting her during their early morning of love making.

The pair finish putting things into the car and heading off to the house, Jangmi rambling about how she's going to decorate with Jongin just nodding his head and agreeing. She was the one who was mostly excited about it, having planned it to the point Irene had to pull her back a little bit. "Oh! We need to make a stop!" She says, pointing to the florist up ahead.

Placing the purple flowers on top of the white sheet, Jangmi takes a step back and has a look at the finished product. A white sheet laid over a chair with all the pictures of the boys together that Jangmi could find as well as the flowers she had bought - a little slice of Chan for the room. She had even managed to contact his pack and had them all sign a card for her to place with everything, showing those who would be thinking of him.

She looks around and nods her head. Red, blue and purple balloons nearly cover the ceiling, pictures of the wolves with their loved ones are placed around the room and little things that represent them are scattered here and there. On the coffee table sit three wolf plushies, each looking like the wolf they represent - Jangmi won't tell them that she spent a lot of time and money getting these made specially for them.

"Jangmi," Irene calls from the kitchen when it is time for the birthday wolves to arrive. She hurries over and helps move the cake onto the table before getting everything else ready. Chan's part of the cake is lilac purple, with music notes and little albums of his former group's works neatly place on top. Under his moon sits a white fox and white wolf which has Jangmi giggling when she looks at them.

Once she hears the door open, she's running and greeting them with a bright smile and bushy tail. "Happy birthday!!"

As dinner was finished up, Jangmi waits patiently for Chan to finish his conversation before stealing him away. "I want to give you your presents! One of them, maybe you'll want to use now!" She pulls him to the living room and has him stand still before running off to grab the presents and returning with a smile.

Three prettily wrapped gifts sit on top of each other and as Chan unwraps each one, Jangmi explains what it is that she got him - as if they weren't obvious enough.

A handwritten cookbook, "it's filled with all the different things we've made together! Recipes of your favourite meals, mine and of course, baking! That way, we will always know the right measurements instead of guestimating!" She giggles, remembering that one time they had put too much sugar in the cookies because they were both sure they were right.

A polaroid camera, "to encourage you to get out of the studio and enjoy life! It prints them out right away and you can add them into this really cute book that I saw on Instagram and got!" The book in question is the third gift, a memory book. "It has prompts for each day! Types of photos to take and add, asks for different memories, it's a life book so you can always go back and read about different moments in your life and the meanings they hold!" She beams so brightly like this is the best present she could have bought.

"It's time to do the cake," Irene calls shortly after, pulling them out of their bubble and back to the table.

The house comes to life with everyone singing happy birthday to the three gathered around the cake. The three brothers loved dearly by those celebrating them. With a click of a camera, a photo is taken, one that will be kept forever. The third thing on her list completed - the one she loves feeling cherished.

The night is quiet, peaceful as they get into Chan's car and make plans to head out to the cabin. It's something that Jangmi would consider a nice ending to the day - keeping the night for themselves.

She had taken a suppressant while making breakfast had started wearing off shortly after the cake cutting. The effects lasted long enough for her to not be causing problems around several male wolves and to get through the day without needing Chan. Sure, it might not really be that big of a deal but she wanted nothing to ruin his day - not even her.

Especially when she wants only Chan to be able to see her like this.

"Alpha," Jangmi plays with her dress, eyes looking out the window before moving to look at the wolf. "Do you really love it when I let you think for me?" She gives him a moment to answer before continuing her train of thought, "well, I want tonight to be about you."

She's thought about it, how Chan finds pleasure in her pleasure but also how he tends to always focus on the things she wants to do. He's never selfish, never taking too much from her even when she's completely under his spell. Jangmi has only seen Chan lose himself once, can barely count on one hand the amount of times he's put his needs first.

She knows why. She does.

It doesn't change that she wants it to be about him tonight. Everything he wants - even if what he wants is something they often do.

"I want to be completely under your control. My body is yours." She’s always been submissive to him, given herself up to him but this is different. “I’ll turn my brain off, no thinking. Alpha controls me, my body, my pleasure, he knows best. Knows what I need and when I need it.” Biting her lip, she gazes at his side profile as they sit at a traffic light, she wonders what he’s thinking.

“Only you can fulfil my needs, Alpha.”

— @moonlightchn Chan

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moonlightchn · 1 month ago

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It's a nice change for once, having lunch with someone new-. Or well, as new as it gets, all things considered.

It's been a while since Chan's last met with Mikyoung, and even though they aren't as close, there's this easiness to their lunch. A simplicity and naturality that both surprises and relaxes the Alpha.

Though, it was to expect, and he knows that much. Right?

He's also surprised to learn she's aware of his birthday, smiling warmly at the omega as she hands over her gifts. It's cute, he thinks, that she took the time to both get the present and also the card. Putting both things besides him upon inspection, the duo dives quickly into conversation.

Pleasant and uninterrupted, even though she is hesitant around certain topics, Chan finds himself actually talking more than he's used to. Her curiosity obviously taking the best of her. He doesn't complain, though-. It's refreshing, in an odd way, the energy she brings to the table. It's not always he shares this much about his work or himself, but it's hard to hold back when she seems so interested in it. In him.

Amongst laughs and anecdotes, the time ticks by rather fast, and before any of them can come to realize, their lunch is coming to an end.

Despite Mikyoung's best efforts, Chan takes over the bill, promising to allow her to invite the next time.

Next time, uh?

✎ 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐲 𝐛𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐡𝐝𝐚𝐲 🌙

Walking into the cafe a little earlier than agreed upon, Mikyoung pulls out the card she had bought on her way there and a pen to write in it. The poor omega had no idea that it was Chan's birthday until she had been scrolling through social media and had seen a post from Jangmi that basically screamed, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALPHA!"

It wasn't a lot, she didn't think it would be weird for her to give him something but she also didn't know what to get him specifically when they haven't yet had the chance to get to know each other on a deeper level. Of course, he likes music because he's a producer but isn't that kind of obvious? Does he like food? She can't bake anything but she could buy him a meal.

Like she is today. Great timing.

Signing a little heart next to her name, coming off from the 'g', she blows on the ink for a moment before hearing the bell chime and looking up to see the blonde Alpha walking in. Her heart skips at the sight of him but she manages to compose herself well as she hurries to hide the card in her purse just as he approaches the table.

"Hey!" She stands up, taking a moment before going to give him a hug, them both sitting down shortly after. I mean, it's not like she wasn't once covered in his scent as he cleaned her wounds, a hug isn't going to be weird for them now, right? "I'm glad you were able to meet me today." Her hands are reaching for her purse, trying to keep the bag from his view. "Though, you didn't tell me that today was an important day!"

Pulling out a small gift bag, the omega smiles sweetly as she passes it over. Giving Chan a moment to look inside, Mikyoung watches and waits before giggling at him reading the card out loud.

"Hap-pea birthday, Alpha Chan. I hope your day is filled with love and memories. All the best, Mikyoung ♡"

The card read 'Yip-pea' with three peas celebrating on the front so the woman couldn't resist feeding into the pun. Wrapped neatly in some patterned tissue paper are a couple of bookmarks that she's recently made, a favourite pass time of hers especially since she has a nice collection of books to use them for.

"I don't know if you're a flower man but I do love teaching the kids how to do little arts and crafts. I had made these at home last week and thought I'd gift them to you for your birthday." It's a little obvious that she's waiting for his response by the way her back is straight and posture expectant. Mikyoung does hope that he likes the small gift - especially because it would help her learn something new about him.

Once they had ordered, she starts asking about any new projects that he's been doing, listening enthusiastically to what he's saying while also appreciating how hard he must work. "I saw something recently, you used to be an idol, right?" She twirls the pasta around her fork as she remembers the article she saw recently.

Of course, Mikyoung wasn't entirely sure about the article and she wasn't sure if it was true or not because she's not about to go prying into Chan's personal life; however, she'd be lying if she wasn't curious about whether the rumours were true considering what she had seen herself. Was Jangmi really his girlfriend, mate maybe? She did think that something was going on with them when they were dealing with the moon situation, the hybrid even smelled like him when they met.

Pushing those thoughts out of her mind, she gets back on track. "You were the leader of Stray Kids, right? Isn't that your pack? Do you still make music with them from time to time? Or by yourself?" Curious, Mikyoung asks questions, answering anything he asks in return, while she shares lunch with the Alpha.

A lunch in which she insists she's paying for. It is his birthday after all.

— @moonlightchn Chan

#chans diary

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