#chan a.c.e smut

[lost-inthedream]

Ace and their kinks?

A.C.E Kinks

I'm assigning just one kink per member to start with😙

Smut content under the cut

➹Junhee:

Our leader is very into marking, especially when the marks left are from biting. He treasures the marks you draw on him and, after you have sex, he often kisses those he caused on you. His favorite place to bite on your body is your butt (don't know why but I'm so embarrassed to say that), also, he often bites your shoulder when you ride him on the couch. Please, bite and scratch him too! Please, suck pretty hickeys on his neck, he's gonna melt.

➹Donghun:

Omg, Donghun loves bratties. You intrigues him when he holds you by the waist because he's in a mood but you say no with a provocative smirk. He just shakes his head. He'll let you tease him until he can't take it anymore, so he gives you a look. "Beautiful, you gotta stop now. Got it?"

Can we call it a taming kink?

➹Sehyoon (Wow):

Sehyoon' s thighs are his favorite trait for sure. At some point, he found out he would love to watch how you and he look when you fuck. He asks you to go with him in front of the mirror from time to time and this is so hot to see him perform. His eyes feel like darts when he looks at you from the glass. He glances at himself too and, as much as it sounds selfish, you catch your mouth voicing "I love this, go faster".

➹ Byeongkwan:

Okay, this one is so spicy. He doesn't suggest it often but you all have fun against the windows of hotel rooms. Yes, boy is an exhibitionist. He loves it when the city is shining in the night right before your eyes and you all moan in bliss. Kwan feels like this is the best life, you are two beautiful souls in a beautiful world.

➹Yuchan:

Being able to touch your body and get his body touched by you fascinates him. He makes everything to have you moaning his name that's why he curves his fingers inside you and pays attention to all your reactions. The moment you reach to grab his dick and reciprocate he gets obsessed with mutual masturbation. It's a whole mess and he loves it that way.

[yeoosaangg]

៹ 에이스

✎… OT5

01. NOTHING YET

✎… PARK JUNHEE

01. NOTHING YET

✎… LEE DONGHUN

01. NOTHING YET

✎… KIM SEHYOON

01. NOTHING YET

✎… KIM BYEONGKWAN

01. NOTHING YET

✎… KANG YUCHAN

01. NOTHING YET

[t3kandson]

Fan Fiction I’m working on

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As previously mentioned here, how i work at my fan-fictions have changed to my health as have been in and out of hospital a lot recently. Please check back here regularly as I won’t be posting monthly updates no more. Just editing this page as I go along.

I know some tags in my Masterlist aren't working I’ve written so many so it’s a big task sorting them out.

I know a lot of the links are broken please bear with me. All one shots (Though the Masterlink tag links I don't think are) are updated and I'm working on a lot of the series link updates.

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Recently published

Fuck you Sohn

The Boyz Son Youngjae aka Eric

Published 22nd December

Jealousy's Fair Game

Cix Kim Yonghee

Published 24th January

Broken Mama

A.C.E. Kim Byeongkwan & Kim Sehyoon’s part 2 , to Baby Mama

Published 15th May

Part Three Bittersweet Mama

Published 23rd May

Part Four Of Baby Mama, 2 + 2.

Published 31st May

Make Me Your Bias

Ateez Jung Wooyoung

Published on 31st May

Blackpink Park Roseanna

Personal masseuse

Published 30th June

Next two Chapter of The Boyz Lee Juyeon, Stray kids Seo Changbin & Bang Chan Player

Player and the three dads

Published 19th July

Player in Denial

Published 11th August

Player in Danger

Published 15th September

Player No More

Published 28th October

Kard BM

You Don't love me no more

Published 13th August

A.C.E. Lee Donghun x The Boyz Eric Sohn

Deathly Powers.

Published 11th September

Power Starved

Published 31/10

Reunited in death

Published 20/11

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Written but not yet edited

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ff I’m Working on

BTOB Lee Minhyuk (7.1k words)

Hidden Boss

The Boyz Lee Hyunjae (1.9k words)

Third Part of NCT DREAM Lee Jeno & Lee Donghyuk Stranger & Saviour.

(700 words)

Sequel to Monsta X 06 Lush (700 words)

Oneus Kim Youngjo (O5 🤫🙄) (600 words)

The Boyz Son Youngjae, DKB Yang Heechan & A.C.E. Kim Sehyoon. (600 words)

Part Two of Monsta X Yoo Kihyun & Lee Hoseok, Youth of No Regret

BTS Kim Taehyung & Park Jimin, Monsta X Im Changkyun & Ze;a Park Hyungsik.

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Continued from previous oneshots/Series to be written

Third Part of The Boyz Choi Chanhee, Bae Jacob and Son Youngjae, Friends in Despair & Friends thrown in love.

Sequel to The Boyz Kim Younghoon

Family Friction

Sequel to The Boyz Kim Sunwoo’s Blossoms in Jeju.

Sequel to Monsta X Son Hyunwoo & Lee Minhyuk’s Forgetful Memories.

Sequel to A.C.E. Kang Yuchan Age is Just a Number.

Sequel to Ateez Guessing Game.

Sequel to 011 The Boyz Beware.

Another Chapter of Oneus Kim Youngjo & A.C.E. Kim Sehyoon’s Conflicted Love. (Including plans for a Spin off for Youngjo)

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One shots for

The Boyz

Lee Sangyeon

Ji Changmin

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🐶 Donghyun

Nothing So Far

🐮 Wow

Nothing So Far

🐰 Chan

Nothing So Far

🐘 Jun

Nothing So Far

🐯 Byeongkwan

Nothing So Far

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kpop masterlist

🍓 = fluff themes

❄️ = angst themes

🚧 = smut themes

🤸‍♀️ = slice of life / bish idek what theme this is

🚀 = crack fic themes

🎩 = dark and/or violent themes

🏩 = genre fic, i.e. mystery, horror, fantasy, etc

🍳 = slow burn

🦕 = personal favorite

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A.C.E.

Memory | 🍓❄️🦕 Kim Byeongkwan x Reader + Park Junhee x Reader (University AU) [Blurb]

Ateez

Only One | 🍓❄️❄️❄️🍳🦕 CEO!Choi San x Reader

BigBang

It’s An Act [WBU I] | ❄️ Choi Seunghyun (TOP) x Reader

Smoke | 🍓🤸‍♀️ Choi Seunghyun (TOP) x Reader

BTS

Runaway | 🍓❄️🏩 Mafia!Kim Seokjin (Jin) x Reader (Mafia AU) Preview 1 2 3 4 x

Mah Boyfriend | 🍓🍓🤸‍♀️🦕 Jung Jungkook x Idol!Reader

BTOB

Hidden Heart | 🍓🍓🍓🤸‍♀️🚀🍳 Lee Minhyuk (HUTA) x Idol!Reader [Headcanon]

Day6

A University Dilemma | 🤸‍♀️ Kang Younghyun (Young-K) x Reader (Univeristy AU)

What A Joke | ❄️ Kang Younghyun (Young K) x Reader + Park Jaehyung x Reader (University AU) [Blurb]

So... Haha... I Like You | 🍓🦕 Park Jaehyung x Reader (Fake Dating AU)

EXO

Wheel Of Fortune | 🍓🍳🚀 Park Chanyeol x Reader [Headcanon]

Welcome To The Jungle | 🚀🚀🚀🏩 Park Chanyeol & Oh Sehun (Jungle AU)

Maybe We Still Have A Shot [WBU III] | 🍓🍓🏩 CatHybid!Oh Sehun x Reader (University AU)

Unrequited Attraction | 🚧🏩🍳🦕 Mafia!Kim Jongdae (Chen) x Retail Worker!Reader

Color Palette | 🍓 Byun Baekhyun x Reader [Blurb]

Brown Leaves | 🍓 Kim Jongin (Kai) x Reader (University AU)

GOT7

One Million In One Day | 🍓🍓❄️❄️🍳 Sugar Daddy!Jackson Wang x Reader Preview ~ Alternate Moodboard ~ Moodboard Teaser  1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 

Car Rides | 🍓 Jackson Wang x Reader [Blurb]

Juice Box | 🍓🚀🏩🦕 Kunpimook Bhuwakul Bambam x Reader [Blurb] (Pre-Schooler AU)

Somewhere In Between | ❄️❄️Civil Engineer!Park Jinyoung x Reader + Architect!Henry Lau x Reader

Trading Secrets | 🍓🍓 Kim Yugyeom x WangSis!Reader

JYJ

Winning Losses | ❄️ Kim Jaejoong x Idol!Reader

Monsta X

Introspect | 🍓🤸‍♀️ Lee Jooheon x Reader [Blurb]

Letting Off Steam | 🤸‍♀️ Lee Hoseok (Wonho) x ArtStudent!Reader (University AU)

NCT

Seventeen

December Dates | 🍓🚀 bf!Seventeen x Reader [Headcanon]

The Stroke Of Midnight | 🍓❄️🏩🦕 Mafia!Kwon Soonyoung (Hoshi) x Reader

Here's My Problem: I Can't Get You Out Of My Head | ❄️❄️❄️🎩🎩🎩🏩🍳🦕 Detective!Jeon Wonwoo x Actress!Reader

10 Ways To Get Over Gyu | 🍓❄️❄️❄️🍳🍳🦕 Kim Mingyu x Reader + others (Childhood AU)

Half Of My Heart | 🍓❄️🤸‍♀️🍳 Kim Mingyu x Reader + Jeon Wonwoo x Reader (CEO AU)

On A Thread | ❄️❄️ CEO!Joshua Hong (Hong Jisoo) x Nurse!Reader

SF9

A Final Offering | 🍓🍓❄️🏩🦕 Deity!Kim Inseong & Child!Reader + Baek Juho (Zuho) x Mom  

What Does It Mean? | 🍓❄️🤸‍♀️ Kim Inseong x Reader + Lee Jaeyoon x Reader (University AU) 

16th Floor | 🍓🤸‍♀️ Kim Seokwoo (Rowoon) x Reader (Office AU)

SHINee

Understand This |❄️ Choi Minho x Reader I Don’t Understand [Understand This II] | ❄️ Choi Minho x Reader

It’s All A Big Joke [WBU II] | ❄️ Lee Taemin x Reader

Th-that’s Not | ❄️❄️🚧🦕 Lee Taemin x Reader Regrets [Th-that’s Not II] | ❄️ Lee Taemin x Reader

Angel Bride | ❄️🚧🏩🦕 Pirate!Lee Taemin x Reader

Noona, You're So Pretty | 🍓 Lee Taemin x Noona!Reader

Stray Kids

Professional Boundaries | 🍓❄️🚧🦕 CEO!Bang Chan x Pre-School Teacher!Reader + CEO!Hwang Hyunjin x Pre-School Teacher!Reader 1 2 3 4 

Bootylicious | 🍓🚀 Bang Chan x Idol!Reader

Super Junior

The Soup | 🍓🍓🚀🚀 SuJu x SuJu Maknae!Reader [Headcanon]

Secrets Of A Maknae | 🍓🚀🚀 Kim Heechul x SuJuMaknae!Reader

The Boyz

Gentle With Me | 🍓🍓🤸‍♀️ Lee Sangyeon x Reader

TVXQ!

Pitter-Patter | 🍓 Jung Yunho (U-Know) x Reader (Pre-School Teacher AU)

The Art Of Deception | ❄️🎩🏩 Shim Changmin x Reader (Secret Agent/Spy AU)

TXT

Forget About It | 🍓❄️🤸‍♀️🍳🦕 Choi Soobin x Reader (University AU)  

WINNER

I’m Not Playing | 🍓❄️❄️ Gangster!Song Minho (Mino) x Reader 1 2 3 

[baby-iloveyou]

< Masterlist >

. . . genre S smut SUG suggestive FL fluff A angst . . . reader GN genderneutral F afab M amab

Pentagon

. . . jo jinho

[S][F] Busted. - Jinho has always claimed he doesn’t like oral. But seeing you taste your own cum makes it difficult for him to keep disliking it.

. . . yang hongseok

[S,FL][F] just me and you - Whenever you and your best friend want to have a sleepover, it would always be at your place, since his place was small and would be uncomfortable for two people to stay at. He recently moved however, and to celebrate that, you are staying over at his place for the first time. But you didn’t expect it to be THAT different.

. . . yeo changgu

[FL][GN] A cover model, only for your eyes to see - Your relationship with Changgu has been nothing but lovey dovey so far, and when Changgu asks you to visit him at his Men’s Health photoshoot, you can’t say no. But this would mean you would see him shirtless for the first time, and you didn’t expect the view to affect you that much. [SUG] PART 1 [S] PART 2

. . . kang hyunggu

[S][GN] A private afterparty - Kang Hyunggu was one of the members of your project group, and he’s also one of the most loved people in your year. You’re good friends with him, and after this party you decide to hang out just a bit longer. It just isn’t a very common way of hanging out when you’re friends…

Tomorrow X Together

. . . choi yeonjun

[S,SUG][GN] Carpe Diem - Seize the day, why not have some fun with each other?

[SUG][GN] thought #1- bf!yeonjun is proud of you for passing your course, and thinks you deserve a reward

[SUG, S?][GN] thought #2 - teasing yeonjun is fun until he punishes you for it (or is that part of the fun?)

. . . choi beomgyu

[SUG][GN] Lyric prank - Beomgyu was feeling nostalgic and watched some old YouTube videos, revisited some old trends. One of them was the ‘lyric pranks’, which were a huge thing, and a joke he used to pull quite often on his friends. But since he’s now in a relationship, he knows exactly on who to pull the prank. And he knows exactly which song.

. . . kang taehyun

[S][F] goodnight, you're so tight sleep tight - after a long day, all you just wanted was to snuggle up with your boyfriend in bed and drift to sleep. he wanted something else.

Stray Kids

. . . bang chan

[S][GN] A picture for a picture - Chan is on tour with the rest of the group, and you as his significant other obviously miss him a lot. And he misses you too. He just misses you a bit more today than other days…

. . . lee minho

[S][GN] thought #1 - pathetic minho, and that on christmas…

. . . han jisung

[F][GN] i like the view right now - Late night talks made you discover that you both love stars. And Jisung knows the perfect place in his hometown to go stargazing.

. . . lee felix

[A][GN] Deep End - Sometimes, one fight can break a person entirely. And unfortunately, this was the case in your relationship.

SEVENTEEN

. . . choi seungcheol

[S][GN] thought #1 - texting one of your friends while seungcheol fucks you

. . . boo seungkwan

[SUG, S?][GN] thought #1 - just seungkwan pinning you up against a wall, choking you, and calling you his slutty toy

[S][F] you could be a hand model - sometimes you need a break from studying. and sometimes you suddenly notice that seungkwan has very nice hands. and sometimes you really want those hands to touch you.

A.C.E

. . . group

[F][GN] A.C.E comforting you when you’re afraid of failing your exams

Other groups/idols

. . . BTOB lee minhyuk

[S][GN] Whiskey - You’ve been single for a while and were looking for a casual hookup. And let there be one guy who wants to order whiskey for you.

[melanated-writersblock]

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ K-Music Masterlist ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

Fluff: ❣️ • Smut: ❤️‍🔥 • Angst: ❤️‍🩹

{still adding and under construction}

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ A.C.E ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Junhee ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Donghun ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

⟢ Drowsy (idol!Donghun x workaholic!Reader)❣️❤️‍🔥

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Wow ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Byeongkwan ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Chan ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ OT5 ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ ATEEZ ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Hongjoong ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Seonghwa ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Yunho ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

⟢ Confessional (Priesthood!Yunho x Reader) ❣️❤️‍🔥❤️‍🩹 • Prologue

⟢Lunch Rush (Ceo!Husband!Yunho x Exec!Reader) ❣️❤️‍🔥

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Yeosang ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ San ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Mingi ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Wooyoung ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Jongho ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ OT8 ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

⟢ Beauty Supply Store run w/ Ateez (Headcannon)

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ BTS ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Suga ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

⟢ A Helping Hand (non-idol!Yoongi x angel!Reader)

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ NCT ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

⟢ U

⟢ 127

⟢ DREAM

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Chenle ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

⟢ College Basketball Star!Chenle x Cheerleader!Reader Chronicles ❤️‍🔥 • One • Two

⟢ WAYV

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Soloists ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

⟢ Mirror Kink!Wonho Drabble❤️‍🔥

⟢ Mind Over Matter (Dean Drabble) ❤️‍🩹❣️

˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Scraps/Fic Graveyard ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

⟢ They Call Him “Devil” (1970s!Kingpin!Donghae x Nightclub Owner!Reader)

[ao3feed-ateez]

Dark Waters

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/TjBHNaw by seabubbletea In a dystopian city where magical creatures hide among humans, Donghun, a siren, leads a double life as a healer by day and a performer at Siren's Dawn by night. His life takes a dangerous turn when he's forced to seduce Junhee, a monster hunter, in order to spy on him. Despite the risk of exposure, Donghun begins to weave his charm around Junhee, who is unsuspectingly drawn to him. As their interactions grow more intimate, Donghun finds himself torn between his mission and his feelings for Junhee, knowing that if Junhee discovers his true identity, it could lead to his arrest or death. Or Junhee is a monster hunter and Donghun is a siren, can I make it any more obvious? Words: 5047, Chapters: 1/15, Language: English Fandoms: A.C.E (Beat Interactive Band), ATEEZ (Band) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: M/M Characters: Lee Donghun, Park Junhee | Jun, Kang Yuchan | Chan, Kim Byeongkwan, Kim Sehyoon | Wow, Jung Wooyoung (ATEEZ), Choi San (ATEEZ) Relationships: Lee Donghun/Park Junhee | Jun, Choi San/Jung Wooyoung (ATEEZ) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Urban Fantasy, Murder Mystery, Magic, Siren Lee Donghun, Blood and Violence, Slow Burn, Romance, Eventual Smut, Angst read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/TjBHNaw

[kpopkilla]

a.c.e mtl to like using toys on themselves and their s/o? thank u 💕💕

Jason!!JunWowChanDonghun

[spacequokka]

A.C.E Kinks & Turn Ons

When I should be writing, I find myself reading birth charts like they’re the Bible. Except I don’t remember them when I’m writing. Nor do I remember what I thought when I read them. Here’s a Choice shit post.

Donghun || Venus: Aries, Mars: Cancer || Kink: Breeding, low-key dom vibes

When he’s comfortable with you, expect some upfront flirting. He has an innocent, childish sort of charm to him since he’s fun-loving and energetic. Doesn’t like games or beating around the bush. Likes to lead the relationship. Might have on-and-off relationships as he’s prone to falling in love with love itself. For him, sex is tied up with emotional need so you won’t catch him settling for casual stuff. Getting to a point where you trust him fully with your body is what he strives for. Like most with Cancer in Mars, the possibility of making a baby excites him.

Sehyoon || Venus: Aries, Mars: Leo || Kink: Risky sex

Pretty much like Donghan in being straightforward, but a little softer in his approach. He’s a baby, be nice. Sensual yet stubborn. It’d take a lot to get him to change his mind about pursuing you. He enjoys the chase and falling in love. He’s easy to arouse and I see him not wanting to wait until you got home to take care of his needs. Right here, right now. High key competitive, so expect a bet that he can make you scream. But you don’t wanna get caught, right?

Junhee || Venus: Cancer, Mars: Taurus || Kink: Mommy/Daddy, Someone older

Okay, listen, hear me out first. This man just wants to be someone’s little and I’ll die on this fucking hill. We Cancer in Venus folk just wanna be loved and protected with lots of snuggles and kisses. Let. Him. Be. Smol. He cares more about the intimacy and quality time than the physical aspects and I respect that. It’s about being cared for and feeling secure. Tell me a good mommy or daddy wouldn’t be perfect for him? On the other hand, I can see him wanting to provide this for someone else, too. So he’d likely switch roles from time to time to meet his partner’s needs while taking care of his own. His chart also mentions being attracted to someone older than him and while I’m not saying he’s submissive, I am saying he’s smol in every way possible. Yes, this pot is calling the kettle black. Sue me.

Byeongkwan || Venus: Cancer, Mars: Cancer || Turn-on: Confusing me

We got another Venus in Cancer, y’all. Again with the snuggles and soft smol-ness. Give him lots, pls. The only difference I see between him and Jun is his protective aura is a little stronger. He’s smol but feisty. Like Donghun, there’s some breeding kink potential with hints of dom if he’s in the mood.

Chan || Venus: Aquarius, Mars: Aquarius || Turn On: The Pursuit

Congrats! You’ve found yourself a 4D chess player. He wants to be seen as unique and rebellious, “not like the others.” Needs confirmation he’s interesting to you before he takes it further. Once he has that, he turns up the passion. He thrives on adventure and dislikes being restricted or limited, especially when it comes to his sexual expression. Let him be a freak. To him, courting is a game that requires planning and spontaneity to get what he wants. Best part? He’s incredibly patient and isn’t in a hurry to make you crave his touch. Just know that when you do get tired of playing hard to get, you’re getting a guy who’s very imaginative in bed and goes all in. 

[lost-inthedream]

Kisses headcanons for A.C.E

kisses on the lips*** genre: suggestive at most.

✿𒀭Slow kisses (predominantly)

I will describe Sehyoon's kiss style as something laid-back and yummy. He genuinely and openly likes to kiss, which has you all enjoying each other's taste for so long. He loves it when you are both trying to fit in the same armchair, your tongues playing hide and seek while you are half sitting on his lap. His favorite place to rest his hand is on your thigh softly pulling you on top of him.

✿𒀭Rough kisses (predominantly)

I'm not saying Junhee's kisses are rude, but this dude sucks on your bottom lip and bites. I'd say his kisses are reckless as if he had lost his mind. He pulls back so many times because he can't focus on your mouth only. The way he keeps changing from your lips to your neck gets on your nerves and you eventually call him out, which he enjoys way too much. He is unhinged!

✿𒀭 mixed kisses:

Donghun has two types of kiss: he kisses you slowly and tenderly when he is needy, your hand naturally supports the back of his head. It's soft and you can feel that his breathing is steady just like yours, you take care of him. When he's in his alfa mood, he grabs your face and leads the kiss, almost devouring you. He can be so demanding but I don't think you will ever complain.

Byeongkwan alternates different paces and pressure during the same kiss. He is the type of lover who will constantly surprise you. Boy likes to press you against surfaces, such as the wall, or lying you down on the table where you had dinner minutes before. Kissing him feels like being in a movie, an expensive one.

Another one who can kiss for a long time, Chan looks deep into your eyes before going for it. Sometimes he kisses you so slowly and naively that it feels like your very first kiss. You're so sure that you and Yuchan won't ever get old because he is always full of enthusiasm and love no matter what. Still, he is perfectly able to kiss you as if he was a vampire, thirsty for your blood. He kisses with his mouth open and tongue vanishing any idea that you had of purity.

[peachybun-bun]

A.C.E

KEY

🔞Smut/Mature/Suggestive 🐇Fluff 💣Angst 💕 Poly/Multiple 🖤 Toxic 😆 Comedy  

Donghun

Wow

Jun The Missing Yogurt  😆

Kim Byeongkwan

Chan

[t3kandson]

Choices

Word count; 8,131

Fandom; A.C.E, KNK & a bit of Dreamcatchers

Pairing; Reader X Park Junhee, Reader X Lee Donghun, Reader X Kim Sehyoon, Reader X Kim Byeongkwan & Reader X Kang Yuchan.

Characters; Park Junhee, Lee Donghun, Kim Sehyoon, Kim Byeongkwan, Kang Yuchan, Park Seoham, Kim Sangwon & Kim Minji aka YiU

Warnings; Loads of Angst, Confusion, Jealousy, mild smut, heavy flirting, Body Marking and mentions of sex.

This chapter is very Emotional rather then Sexual.

Notes; Chapter 7/8 Next Chapter on 23/5

Rest of Release That Stress found here.

You woke to Byeongkwan peacefully sleeping, he looked so carefree. Normally when he slept he was full of tension, even in sleep his mind couldn’t let go. But right now he looked as if he had nothing to bring stress. While you could smile knowing that his date with you was possibly the reason. There was also a knot in your stomach, the pact was well and truly falling apart. You had tossed and turned all night struggling to find a way to continue the pact you and the others shared. But now you knew that they all had fallen for you, the only thing you saw in your path was destruction and trauma. Maybe you should be like Chan and end everything before too many hearts was broken in the fall out.

Junhee had told you he was falling for you, Donghun said he was jealous of you with anyone else. Sehyoon had pretty much told you that he wanted you and the pact was dead. Byeongkwan was so madly in love with you that he was planning to marry you if you remained single. Chan, your best friend had ended everything because he didn’t like the feeling he was experiencing because of the pact. You had no choice but to end it, maybe you should leave right that second.

You crept from your bed with running away in mind, when a strong grip pulled you back startling you. Warm lips attacked your neck as arms easily pulled you towards the topless skin of the body you was fleeing from. “Where you going?” Byeongkwan said deeply that you closed your eyes holding in the stir in your stomach. You flipped to face him, his warm bright brown eyes attacking your soul as your smile matched his. “To get you breakfast,” you lied as he smiled heavenly which hit you with a pain of guilt. “I’m only hungry for one thing,” he smirks rolling his body against yours that his hardened bulge hits your core. “Did I not feed you well last night?” You playfully pout as he bites his lower lip, lost in the memory. “That’s the thing I’m greedy, greedy for seconds,” Byeongkwan growls nipping your neck that caused a tickle as he’s hot breath fanned against your skin. “Greedy boy,” you chuckle nibbling the side of his face in retaliation. “I think We both can confirm I’m all man,” he says deeply as he flips you onto your back, hovering over you with lust in his eyes. “Plus I’m greedy for you not the sex,” he adds rolling his pelvis into you that has your walls clench around nothing.

The door to your room opens as Byeongkwan throws himself off you in a rush, earning blushes to fall upon both your faces. “Don’t mind me,” your mother smirks bringing in a tray of biscuits and hot drinks. “Mother do you know how to knock!” you scorn her as she grins amused. “Would you have preferred your father to find this little,” she wiggles her fingers between you. “There’s nothing little about this,” you snap as Byeongkwan sniggers behind you at the choice of your words. “That’s not what I meant and you know it,” you scorn swatting him. “We’re just friends having a sleepover,” you add more calmly. “Your not a child Y/N, if you was i wouldn’t have let you shared a bed here, infact your father thinks he slept on the sofa. So get changed and make it look like he’s helping you with a work assignment or something,” she adds with authority tone above her pleased expression on her face. “Breakfast will be in half an hour,” she says into the air as she leaves.

“Will you stop encouraging her,” you scold into Byeongkwan’s Chuckles as his lips brush your naked shoulder. “What, I can’t help that she wants to make me her son inlaw can I? It’s like you want me to stop being so perfect,” he teases. “How can you be a son inlaw when you can’t even commit, it’s not fair to her, it’s such a mean thing to feed her hope,” you snap with a little harsh in your tone that has Byeongkwan frown. “What does that mean?” Byeongkwan said sounding hurt. “Look sorry just,” you paused closing your eyes feeling out of your comfort zone and your emotions crashing. “I’m just tired that’s all,” you smiled brushing your elbow playfully into him in an attempt to change the subject. He looked at you with pain and confusion yet simply just nodded.

Breakfast was a lot more quieter then you expected. Byeongkwan seemed a little deflated and you knew he was mulling over your words. Guilt ripped through you as he tried to keep a mask of strength on for your family. Yet the way his body kept its distance and lack of sweet gestured jokes was clearly noticeably missing.

“You really need to snap him up,” you mother said with seriousness when she helped pack some kimchi she made up. “Mum he can’t, remember, he’s an idol, they can’t date,” you replied feeling the ache in your heart. “We both know those kind of rules do not stop people, especially those that are filled with as much love as you and Byeongkwan have,” she adds zipping the bag up. “Mum it’s complicated and a lot more then you think,” you said pouting her way. “Do you think I’m blind Y/N, you know better then anyone, my mind is as open as a Korean mum should avoid. But I see, hear and look at everything you’ve let me see, and those things you’ve tried to hide,” she paused with seriousness in her tone. “I know your with all of them, I don’t know how it started, why it’s still continuing, but I know enough to know you love all of those men,” she adds with her hands on your shoulder as you let your eyes water. “I also know that your in love with that man, you just haven’t realised that yet,”, “mum,” you whine cutting her off. “No don’t mum me, Y/N Byeongkwan’s crazy about you, don’t waste a good relationship. Because when you talk about him your face lights up different then when you talk about the others,” she adds with seriousness behind her eyes.

The car journey home was dead silent between the music on the radio, you was in deep thought at your mothers words. Did you really behave different around Byeongkwan as you did to the others? Was her thoughts biased? She loved attention and Byeonkwan fed into that, where the others didn’t.

You knew Byeongkwan’s own thoughts was mulling on your words earlier and guilt attacked once more.

Placing your hand on his thick muscular thighs you smiled at him warmly. He smiled looking your way briefly but his eyes return to the steering wheel with pain etched on his face remaining. “I’m sorry Byeongkwan if I upset you earlier,” you added sheepishly. “It’s ok your right we’re both just tired, you’ve had a very exhausting ten days,” he said above the music. “It’s been a good ten days though,” you smiled cherishing every great memory that the guys had gifted you with. “I think we’re all impatient to return to the flowerless part of the pact,” Byeongkwan adds with a smile not quite reaching his eyes. “Yeah, I suppose,” you say turning to look out the window. His words equally hurting you to hear.

“You staying for a coffee?” You asked almost pleadingly as he finished bringing in the last of your things that he packed in the car, before your trip to your family. “I’d love to but I’ve got a schedule,” he smiled briefly. “Oh, well,” you paused sounding awkward as he looked away from you. “Well work well, fighting,” you mustered, managing to say with enthusiasm, earning you his warm real smile. “Speak soon yeah,” you pout as he pulled you in for a hug letting his chin rest above your head. “You know we will,” he says kissing your crown before leaving.

‘Having a belated party tomorrow now all my friends are free, if your up for it.’

Was the message on your phone, like Chan had suddenly noticed that you was now home and dateless.

‘Sounds good.’

You added before you unpacked from your Christmas vacation.

You was just plucking your painted lips in the mirror when the door went. You smiled despite being puzzled when you saw Junhee stood there, his cheeks flushed red. “What you doing here?” You asked smiling as he struggled to contain his erection that was evidently against his pants. “I thought I’d drive you to mine, it’s not like this is healthy weather for you to walk in,” he smiled as he stood in the doorway as you walked to collect your items. “That’s really thoughtful thanks Junhee,” you said behind as you heard his footstep catch up. “Anytime, plus I thought it be nice to see you,” he added as you turned to him slightly amused. “But I’m going to see you tonight anyway,” you added putting your jacket on. “Yeah with everyone else, I always get left to last dibs,” he said frowning which hurt to hear. “What are you saying Park Junhee, you got first dibs on the dates,” you said throwing your arms behind his neck. “Pure luck,” he added gloomily as he’s warm fanned breath hit your face. “Junhee your not last dibs, not to me anyway,” you reassured him before you let your lips press to his.

You let the kisses get lost as you felt his hands fondle your ass. Deeply panting as he withdrew from you, you smiled his way. “I keep telling you all I don’t have favourites, your all special to me,” you added rubbing the red stain on his lips away. “But if the pact ended and you had to choose I wouldn’t be in the end run would I?” He asked tilting his head.

“That’s never going to happen, I know things are weird right now, but you would be in as much chance as the rest of them,” you reassured him. Your heart hurt thinking that he had believed that he was less important. He was the guy who tried to be sensible and that you had fun breaking the barriers with.

“Plus I’d rather just move away then be forced to choose,” you added as Junhee’s face dropped. “You’d do what?” He stuttered looking confused. “Do you know how much I love you all? Do you think I’d let myself come between your friendship?,” you said pursing your lips. “Y/N do you really think we would want to lose you in our life just because we get a little confused?” He threw at you as you breathed in deeply. “Do you think that after that first night us guys didn’t sit down and think of all the things that could or would happen if this went wrong? Because we did talk in detail all day long,” he added. “Do you think that we’re all blind to how each of us feel? Well your wrong I know who fell for you first, who loves you hard, who loves you silently, who wishes they didn’t love you, and who just try’s so hard to pretend that they don’t,” Junhee added as your eyes widened. “Which ones you?” You asked intrigued. “If you can’t tell me your favourite then I can’t tell you which ones me,” he smirks. “But you know that each one has,” , “I know, we all do, we’ve all spoken,” Junhee added sounding pained.

“So you have these meetings without me?” You question sounding a little annoyed. “We’re brothers and best friends of course we do, our survival, our groups survival depends on honesty,” Junhee explained as you bit your lips nervously. “But how can you explain if you don’t know how I feel,” you added as he smiled. “What that your scared of this ending badly, ending completely. That your hurt losing your best friend, hurt that you can’t get commitment so you dig your head into the sand,” he said almost a whisper. “I also know there is one of us you love so much your too scared to even acknowledge let alone admit to,” he added with his eyes widening. “Ridiculous,” you added taking your focus to your hand as you made the way to the door. “See you don’t want to push to think because your scared,” he added as your hand rested on the front door handle. “Junhee we’re be late, can we just drop this nonsense,” you added in almost a growl, knowing deep down he was right and not wanting to be pushed. “That’s what I thought,” Junhee added a little annoyed that you wanted to escape this confrontation of your emotions.

Like Byeongkwan the day prior the car journey was silent. It felt like the same then Byeongkwan’s situation that you had somehow done the same to Junhee. His hands refusing to hold you on your arrival made you hold back the tears that was threatening.

When you walked in to the apartment it was full with other visitors, some you recognised, some you didn’t. But your heart stopped when the view you was met with was Yuchan with someone you didn’t even know. His arms was wrapped around her neck, eyes totally devoured by the beauty he was holding. You recognised the look of his lust filled eyes, like he was hungry. His hands left her neck to find her hands tearing her towards his room. There was no mistake Chan had found someone else to meet those needs. “Y/N,” you heard the familiar sound of Seoham reach your ears, you smiled into his warmth glow. “I didn’t realise you was coming, your normally Donghun’s friend right?” You queried. “What am I not allowed to share friends with him,” Seoham sniggered. “Sorry that must have come across rude, I apologise,” you said softly. “As you know Chan’s one of Donghun’s adopted children so obviously we’ve met several times,” he added. You realised how stupid you was to forget the obvious. That Donghun’s friends would know those that was important to Donghun and Chan was important to him also.

“Sorry slow moment,” you criticised yourself as he laughed shaking his head. “So what’s the score with the situation?” he asked intrigued. “Three aren’t talking to me, two are god knows where,” you smiled. “Donghun needs a shake,” Seoham said smirking. “He’s not the one ignoring me, well not to my knowledge anyway,” you added smiling. “Oh well at least he’s behaving,” he said looking pleased his friend wasn’t pushing you away again. “Do you want a drink, you can tell me all your woes,” Seoham smirked as you nodded.

Your eyes raked the room when you found Junhee, Donghun, Sehyoon & Byeongkwan. The four was huddled beneath the crowd deep in conversation, from there expressions it seemed serious. Sehyoon’s eyes found yours as they filled with pain as he tilted his head, like he was trying to read your thoughts.

“So which one?” Seoham said startling you as your thoughts and attention broke from the guys. “Which what?” You asked looking confused as he handed you the beer he had brought over. “Which ones ignoring you, because I would say that there’s more then three,” he added as you looked to him confused. “What makes you think it’s all of them?” You ask. “Well it looks like a committee meeting there and the way there looking, it’s clearly over you,” Seoham scoffed drinking down his beer. “They’ve all declared there feelings for me,” you said as Seoham choked on his drink. “Even Donghun?” He asked with a cracked voice. “Even Donghun,” you replied letting your eyes fall to the guys who had left there location. Your eyes roamed the room with them at no sight.

“Which ones do you know are ignoring you?” Seoham asked. “Chan told me he didn’t want this pact because he didn’t want to lose my friendship,” you said taking a swig. “Well that’s protecting his heart not ignoring you,” Seoham said smiling with his eyes twinkling under the party lights. “And the other two?” He asked with a slight smirk. “Byeongkwan’s been off with me since we had to come home,” you said pursing your lips. “Why would he be upset and ignoring you then?” He quizzed. “Him and my mum has this banter about me and him having kids and getting married. I was a bit mean yesterday morning and told him it’s not fair to my mother as he can’t commit anyway,” you replied watching Seoham’s eyes fill with surprise. “What annoyed you more the future life he explained or the him not being able to give you those dreams,” Seoham asked. “Erm, I don’t know,” you replied feeling your heart thump with the sudden quizzing. He saw the panic in your face as he smiled softly. “And the third one,” he asked as you bit your lips slightly. “Junhee just earlier, I don’t even understand that one myself,” you added grimacing. “Or do you mean you don’t want to understand?” He added looking in his empty bottle. “So which one’s your favourite?” Seoham smirks pushing himself through the silence. “Myself,” you add hastily causing him to chuckle. “Your not an option are you,” he sniggers. “Well you have to love yourself first,” you hit back confidently. “Well can I argue Donghun’s case?” He asks smirking. “Who’s to say he needs his case addressing,” you smirk back with a wink on the hope to end his pursuing of the issue. “Really?” Seoham replies sounding excited at this revelation. “Well he is rather fun to play games with, what’s not to love,” you say playfully, despite actually meaning those words. Donghun’s ability to play games was what always brought excitement in the pact.

“So it’s Donghun?” You hear the broken voice behind you. You turn to find Sehyoon looking hurt, he’s normally so strong at holding his emotions, but he suddenly looks broken. “No, No that’s not what I,” you cry putting your hand in panic to his chest. “It’s ok Y/N, it’s ok,” Sehyoon smiles and you could believe him if it wasn’t for the gulp he had to quench before spilling those words. “Sehni,” you cried, “it’s fine I wanted to talk to you anyway, when I wrote that text I was just drunk that’s all,” he smiled. You blinked in his view. “And what I said at my sisters it was just, you know emotions got to me,” he explained.

Your blood was slowly beginning to boil at his confession. “I don’t understand?” You said holding your hands on to his collar that startled him slightly. “Y/N I don’t have any feelings for you. When I thought about it, I was just losing myself into something that actually wasn’t quite me,” he added, his eyes finding yours. “So you said it and realised you didn’t mean it?” You questioned confused. “Sehni,” jIU screamed out breaking his attention. “Look better go,” he smiled, “but wait Donghun,” , “it’s ok, secrets safe with me,” Sehyoon smiled as he made his way to jiU who looked too comfortable around his arms for your liking.

“Ok well that didn’t go that well did it,” Seoham scoffed. “No shit Sherlock,” you groaned closing your eyes with frustration. “So I guess Donghun doesn’t get your vote,” Seoham whispered. “Don’t be stupid,” you spat out with annoyance that made his eyes widen. “Sorry I hate this,” you moan as he opens his arms for you to fall into. “I think I should go home, I’m really not feeling it tonight,” you moan into Seoham’s arms. “Do you want me to drive you back?” he asked resting his chin on your head. “You’ve been drinking,” you replied closing your eyes enjoying the comfort of Seoham’s hold. “This is alcohol free,” he smiled holding the bottle to your eye sight. “I’ve got an important audition tomorrow,” he explained. “Ok, then yes please,” you said as he took your hand leaving the party with you.

On the journey home any mention of the guys was absent as you laughed and joked. You was surprised and then felt guilty to not know he was also an idol, but an inspiring actor too. He had even taken his jacket off for you to help keep you warm, blaming the crappy heating in the car. He made sure you got to the front door safely once arriving.

“Thanks Seoham I appreciate you being my escape supporter,” you chuckled. “Anytime Y/N, Im happy to rescue you when ever you need rescuing,” he smiled contently. “I haven’t got your number though,” you pouted playfully. “Phone,” he smirked with his open palm. You obliged watching him dial his number in to pass back to you. “Now you have no excuse,” he smiled. “Thanks,” you said leaning up on your toes towards him to press a kiss on his cheeks. “Anytime Y/N,” he said blushing. “Get in before you freeze to death,” Seoham chuckled as you obeyed.

It had taken seconds to realise what he had typed his name under.

‘Your rescuer,’

You smirked shaking your head as you made your way in to the living room. You went to take your jacket off realising you had his jacket as well.

‘Hi my sweet Rescuer you left your jacket behind,’

You typed smiling as you brushed your thumb over the material.

‘It’s ok I’ll pop over tomorrow for it, get some sleep,’

You once again obeyed, letting the events of that night fade away.

You was woken to the door banging heavily as you rush from your bed to answer. You found Donghun looking a little less pleased with you as he stormed his way in.

“Donghun,” you squeal feeling self conscious with your rough bed hair and soft flannel pyjamas. “So I told you how I feel about me being insanely jealous, and you go home with Seoham,” he spits out. His jealousy sounding cute encouraged you to laugh which made him dead pan your way. “Go on count you know you want to,” you whisper as you make your way to the living room. “Don’t be Smart Y/N I’m hurting,” Donghun said sounding in pain which ripped through you. “I’m sorry but you guys ignored me all he did was drive me home. There was no reason to get jealous,” you said pulling your knees into you.

“That hug was very much reason to get jealous,” Donghun whined as he sat beside you. “Plus I wasn’t ignoring you, I went to talk to you and you pretty much ran out with one of my closest friends,” he added showing his vulnerability. “Donghun he just gave me a lift that’s all,” you said nudging him. “Did you want me to come home alone?” You asked as he shook his head. “Donghun there’s nothing going on with Seoham, I promise,” you smiled placing yourself in his lap. “I’m sorry I didn’t wait for you,” you said kissing his jawline. “Y/N I can barely cope with you sleeping with the guys, please don’t complicate the pact with an outsider,” Donghun said cupping your face. “Seoham’s your friend he’s hardly an outsider,” you said fluttering your eyes watching his smile return. “He’s an outsider to our pact,” Donghun said taking the opportunity for a quick peck against your lips. You brush your nose against his that makes him pull your hair back. His lips suckling against your skin as he bites in, making his claim.

You get lost in the moment of kissing and marking when your interrupted by your phone. Donghun breaks the kiss as you let it ring. “There leave a voice message,” you whisper letting your lips fall to his letting a few more seconds of kisses pass. “Who is it?” Donghun ask breaking the kiss again with annoyance. “Does it matter this is our time isn’t it,” you grin with your finger under his chin. But his eyes fall to the other side of the room before looking to you with furrowed brows.

His eyes fall to the phone as he brushes you off his lap. “I know we’re not together, but what hurts so badly is when you lie to me,” he growls standing up. “What?” You cry confused standing too as your phone rings off again. He grabs your phone flipping it to the caller as he listens silently. “Donghun what the fuck,” you growl. “You think you have the nerve to say that to me,” he said tossing the phone to the sofa. “Who was it then?” You questioned getting upset at his outbursts. “Don’t pretend you don’t know?” He growls shaking in what your sure is a mixture of fear and anger. “Well if I did I wouldn’t have asked?” You say with equal annoyance. “The same guy who’s jacket is sitting over there, the same guy who you was all over last night, the same guy that you said nothing was going on but down on your phone as Rescuer and trying to ring you,” he growls as his voice shakes.

You stand backwards thoroughly pissed off with his biting jealousy. “That’s what you think yes?” You ask him as he looks at you with his eyes widened in fear. “Do you think that we would both do that to you?” You question into his silence. “Then you clearly never thought that highly of me,” you said with tears threatening. “Looks like your right Donghun, this was all going to turn to tears,” you said holding them at bay as you chose to focus on anger. “Y/N,” he chokes with vulnerability on his face but you don’t care. “Please can you leave Donghun,” you ask standing out his way. “Take that jacket, pass it to your friend and thank him for lending me it. He can get it from you instead of me now,” you said letting a couple of tears fall down your eyes.

“Y/N I just want answers, I don’t want to be lied to,” Donghun said softly realising he pushed the line. “And I told you I didn’t, but guess you don’t think that much of me to think I would go off with your friends,” you said bitterly. “So please leave,” you asked as his eyes searched yours. “It’s ok I won’t bother any of you again,” you added regretting the words instantly. “Is that what you want? For the pact to end? he asked looking lost. “Yes,” you whispered feeling your heart squeeze in your chest. Tears dripping from Donghun’s eyes he nodded as he made his way passed you. The second the door shut, your heart broke. Was it really the end? Was your relationship, your friendship with them now non existent.

The weeks that followed you ignored if not all of your calls, especially the guys and Seoham’s. The texts unread and the door unanswered when they knocked. The volume of your tv being higher then there screams and pleads through your door.

Even the tv presenters voices muffling there cries couldn’t hide the sadness in there voice. Though you wanted to run to them, hold them tight, turn the clocks back. You knew that there own friendship, the very group you loved couldn’t survive the anguish of not being chosen. Sadly you knew making a choice was the only option left, the pact being very much dead.

The Calls, Texts and House visits slowly trickled down. Though you was sad that you successfully managed to destroy the friendship you shared, you took great comfort watching them on there lives, a combined unit. You knew right that second you had protected them and the group they cherished so much.

It had almost been a month since you had gone silent over them when your boss sent you to the cafe for a food run for there business meeting. You knew it was the same cafe that the guys used, you prayed that they had a long schedule and that your paths didn’t cross. When you left the building you signed a breath of relief despite your achy heart missing them so much.

When you bumped into the very person you was trying to avoid.

“Y/N,” he cried as pain engulfed his features. Your heart thundering under confusion and equal agony of seeing him again. “Please don’t ignore me,” Yuchan said with sorrowful eyes. “I’m really busy right now,” you said showing him your load of boxes of sandwiches. “I can see,” he smirked that had your breath hitch. “But if this is the only time I can get you to talk to me, then I’m going to be selfish and say I don’t care,” he said as you bite your lips. “Y/N I hate this, I miss you so very much,” he cried showing the pain on his features. “You didn’t miss me much when you jumped into your bed with that girl at your party,” you bite back filled with jealousy you didn’t deserve to have. “Is that what this is all over? I’m confused, we ended things, we was going to be friends and you get upset that I was with someone else?” He questioned with a puzzled expression. “No it’s not just because of that,” you said frowning at him from the top of the boxes that was heavy all of a sudden. “Then what because we’re all baffled, well minus Donghun, I think he’s worked out why your ignoring him,” Chan said grimacing. “I’m not ignoring you all Chan, I’m just very busy and now the pact is now dead I don’t have to prioritise you guys anymore,” you said rather bitterly. “We don’t want to be your priority, we want to be friends and especially me who’s been your friend like forever,” he said hurt. “Chan I’m really going to be late,” you said closing your eyes trying to avoid the tears that wanted to fall. “I’ll leave you be if you promise to set aside time to talk, just with me if that is the case. We’re still friends aren’t we?” He asked pleadingly. “Yes Yuchan we’re still friends,” you breathed out biting your lips. “Then please meet with me,” he cried. “Fine tonight,” you relented. His smile on his face lit up and you couldn’t help but smile at his expressions.

Your palms was sweaty when the door went, you answered feeling your heart thunder. Your cheeks so red you couldn’t even look him in the eyes as you open the door without a glance and walked hoping he would follow. However, you was filled with rage when you turned back around to find he was entering with the others. “What,” you cried, “you promised me,” you whined feeling the betrayal as you found Donghun’s pained expression. “We need to speak before this gets out of control,” Sehyoon said wincing slightly. “There isn’t much to talk about, the pacts come to an end, I’ve been busy so we’ve not had time to talk,” you added feeling vulnerable. “And that’s why your annoyed that we’ve come with Chan?” Junhee adds. You purse your lips and continue walking to the living room with the guys following.

You sat on the sofa hugging a pillow, wishing that the world would collapse so this conversation didn’t take place. Chan followed sitting by your side, his eyes refusing to take yours. “Why have you ignored us?” Byeongkwan said sitting down the other side, his eyes looking swollen that you could see he had been crying. “Please don’t lie, be honest,” he said pleading that hurt. “We can’t save our friendship if you can’t be honest at the very least,” Donghun said biting his lip.

“You all ignored me or did you forget the meeting at the party you invited me to,” you said looking at each one of them. “We wasn’t ignoring you Y/N, we was worried because our emotions had pushed you away,” Byeongkwan replied. “We all told you how we felt and we should have known that a relationship was something you was scared of,” Junhee added. “I’m scared of what?” You laughed feeling extra confused. “Commitment, it terrifies you,” Chan said his eyes widening. “Kang Yuchan may I remind you, you was the guy who ended the pact because he was scared of his emotions, and you say I’m scared of commitment,” you sniggered amused beneath the annoyance of there accusation. “Your scared to commit, we’re scared because we’re not allowed to commit, that’s not the same thing Y/N,” Chan replied. “Not allowed to commit but yet you’ve all asked for the opportunity to go further then the pact,” you snort as you struggle to hold the laughter building. “Since when was rules for not breaking,” Byeongkwan added with a little mischief in his eyes. “Right you guys are confusing me so much right now.” You scoff. “Your scared because your not allowed to commit, yet you pretty much proposed to me,” you added. The guys looking at him as he reddened. “Not quite a proposal, but a promise,” he replied.

“Y/N how are you feeling?” Sehyoon added changing the tactic of the conversation. “Annoyed right now if I’m honest,” you added as he smiled. “Why?” He asked as you raised an eyebrow. “Because you’ve come here telling me I’m ignoring you because I’m scared of commitments when your the one’s scared. Call it scared because your not allowed if you want but your the one’s scared not me,” you rant, watching his features not change. “What makes you think that your not scared too?” He asked like some sort of councillor. “Because I love all of you that didn’t scare me at all, I only got scared when you guys started looking like your friendship and the group could be affected,” you added. “So you are scared,” he smirked amused as your words got caught in your throat. Sehyoon smile rose deeper, “So your not scared of commitment, your scared of the fallout any commitment could have on us?” He asked as you nodded. “Is that why you pushed Byeongkwan away?” He asked as you looked his way, his eyes heavy focused on the conversation you and Sehyoon was having. “It’s why I said something in a heated moment which he got upset with, yes,” you replied. Byeongkwan went to talk but Sehyoon held his hand out to stop his words. “What about Junhee?” Sehyoon asked. “I honestly don’t know he was awkward with me in the car,” you added looking at him as he looked annoyed your way. Sehyoon repeated the same actions he did to Byeongkwan earlier.

“Me,” he asks with a raised brow. “What?” You questioned a little confused. “We know why you pushed Donghun and Chan away but Why you pushing me away?” He questions as you blink while your throat closes up. “You told me lies on our date,” you said as pain from his words attacked. “What if I told you I said that I took those words back, because I was saving my ego when I mistook you for choosing Donghun?” He questioned. “But how was I suppose to know that you was wrongly taking those words back, do you know how much you hurt me?” You cried tears threatening.

“Can me and Byeongkwan add our input?” Junhee asked as Sehyoon nodded. “I felt and wrongly presumed, Byeongkwan too that your outbursts towards us was because you didn’t want us,” Junhee said looking a little lost. “I would love nothing but to be able to choose one of you. Do you not think I didn’t think of what a relationship would feel like during our Christmas dates. But I can’t, I can’t choose, I won’t be responsible for the damage that will follow,” you add looking at each one of them.

“You push us each away because you was in fear of choosing?” Junhee asked as you shook your head. “Y/N lie to us all you like, but it’s yourself your lying to the most,” he added. “Y/N do you love any of us?“ Donghun asked as you looked at him. “I love every single one of you,” you added. “We love you, we’re willing to break rules with you,” Byeongkwan said almost pleadingly. “We’re even willing to step back and be happy if it’s not us chosen,” Chan added. “Without jealousy, well after a short while anyway,” Donghun added chuckling.

“Don’t pretend you wasn’t in here crying missing us because I heard the tears,” Sehyoon added with a smirk. “We’re willing to break the rules with you Y/N and we’re willing to take that risk, we’re even help hide you both if it isn’t us you choose,” Sehyoon says as you bite your lips. “But you need to be honest that there is a favourite,” Junhee said softly as you closed your eyes. “Even if you realise it and don’t tell us or go further with us, you need to at least acknowledge for yourself there is a special one in your heart,” he added. “But know your not losing us even as friends we won’t let it happen,” Chan said pressing his hand to yours. “So if you can’t get rid of us, and the pact is now dead, you might as well go further with at least one of us,” Byeongkwan adds smirking that makes you smile warmly at him.

“It’s Valentine’s Day next week,” Donghun says smiling. “A good day to tell someone your madly in love with them,” he adds looking lust filled in his eyes. “Remember you got plane tickets to Paris as well,” Byeongkwan adds smiling warmly. “We should leave her to challenge her thoughts,” Chan says standing up, the other’s following.

You watched as they nodded smiling as they left, each of them throwing a pleading smile your way.

Could you choose one of them? Could you trust that they wouldn’t fall out once you did choose.

Junhee was loving, kind and collective, but also very supporting of you with your own life goals. He also was very romantic and you enjoyed getting to know the romantic side of him.

Donghun was jealous beneath his strong stance and actually quite the cuddly sweetie. Yet beneath that he had a hard edge and you had to admit you had enjoyed his sexual games.

Sehyoon was very much the protecter but also the most reasonable member that he was able to listen to any issues. Yet he was very unreadable and subtly showing you how precious you was to him. You acknowledged he would be the easiest person to hide a relationship with.

Byeongkwan was the one you knew who loved hard, you was sure he loved you before the pact even happened, his passion and devotion was powerful.

Chan was your best friend, he had the highest sex drive of them all, he knew you inside and out. Yet you worried he would get lost beneath the sexual life of a relationship and not mature enough for the relationship side of things. Though as you had grown over the years, surely he could learn in a relationship with you.

Could you really choose one?

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It was Valentine’s Day and you woke late feeling really low. You, like the guys, had taken some leave in case Y/N chose you. You looked at the side of your room at your Suitcase all packed Incase it was you she chose. You had received a message the night before saying she was still weighing her options. Having seen her with the others you felt your own relationship couldn’t compare to them. Though Y/N had tried to reassure you, your insecurity wouldn’t let her words plunder through your fears. The way she pushed you away that day before the party. The tone when you pushed her, hurt more then anything. You knew you shouldn’t have sulked, you shouldn’t have presumed that she didn’t want any of you. Maybe if you hadn’t called them over to discuss the issue, then maybe she wouldn’t have left the party.

How did you let yourself become consumed with emotion for her? If you was honest you couldn’t even remember when it went from pact to emotional, but you knew it was before the romantic date. Hearing Chan feel that way too and had ran, you knew the pact was in trouble. You didn’t want your words to collapse it but you needed her to know, so if there was a chance of something it would be able to go somewhere.

Your phone blinged from the bedside table, your heart got stuck in your throat. It was Y/N, she had chosen.

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“Come on snap out of it,” Sangwon scoffed at you as you got lost in your little world of your own. “Look if she rings that’s great but if not there’s others out there,” he added trying to help you out from your moping. “We both know I won’t be getting that message,” you scoffed. “Says who? She knows your passive aggressive about the things you love, she wouldn’t have even sent that message yesterday if you wasn’t an option,” he said a little more supportive. “You should be more concerned with how your going to cope with the jealousy,” Sangwon added smirking slightly that irked you. “Either way jealousy if she picks someone else but the jealousy if she picks you,” he smirks to your frown which turns to confusion. “Donghun she was fucking and loving the others. When you find her joking with Chan for instance, you was sure you wouldn’t let that mind wander,” he said as your stomach churned. “Of course it’ll be hard for a while, but Y/N’s not that type of girl,” you bit out. Sangwon smirked which made your eyes roll as your phone pinged.

Sangwon dashing to it before you could. “Ooooh it’s Y/N,” he smiled passing it to you, but you couldn’t touch it. Your stomach swelling with pain from the burning anxiety, what if she didn’t choose you?

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The others had thought you was the calm and collective member, but inside you was dying. The amount of times you sped to the bathroom to stare in the mirror imagining the outcome from the day. You was slowly losing your mind as you was unraveling. If only you didn’t confuse her and Seoham’s conversation you could have pulled her into your arms. It should have been you that took her home, you wouldn’t have let her be confused.

Maybe when you told her how you felt, you should have been honest. You should have told her that you was willing to crash and burn the group just to have her in your arms. But you knew she would guiltily blame her self and you would rather have had those guilty thoughts then inflict that on her. Once you had heard that Chan had ended the pact your heart had sunk, you felt the end. Especially as Byeongkwan had confided in you that he wanted to marry her if you was both single when the stipulation was removed. When Junhee had admitted to expressing his emotions, you almost messaged her too. But when you overheard Donghun’s plea that was it, your last resolve snapping. You had loved her the very second your eyes had fallen on her, there was no way you was losing the chance to be with her.

Hearing Byeongkwan’s cry’s from the other side of the door brought your attention back as you looked down on the phone still in your hand. You was lost in thought so much you didn’t realise she text. You was too scared to open it.

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Normally you practice at work, but you was on leave and your heart was aching so much you needed to burn some energy. Nothing helped keep your mind busy then busting dance moves. Everyone was out, but Junhee who was moping in his room and Sehyoon who was hiding in the bathroom trying to pep talk himself. You hated how as friends you was all clinging to the call as if it was an audition. But Y/N was just as important, if not more, she was worth what ever the future threw, even if it wasn’t you she chose. Those beautiful eyes of hers capturing you the second you both met, you didn’t once think of her romantically or even sexually even though you heavily flirted. But the second she mentioned the pact, you felt your future widen with them. Her weary eyes as she tiredly let you finish yourself when she was beyond exhaustion. You imagined what it felt like to have a woman besotted with you. You realised in that second that the pact was a mistake, the promise you have was thrown out. You didn’t even care to hide it, ignoring Donghun’s warnings, letting your hands enjoy her in romantic clinches. Christmas was the best idea you had let become fruitful. You just felt guilty for allowing your insecurity that she couldn’t see you romantically when she bit out at your commitment issues. Wishing you didn’t jump to the conclusion that you was just unlovable.

You whimpered when your phone blinged, was you ready to see the answer?

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You was exhausted from the emotions that you let slip in as you walked the same route that you had gone with her just a couple weeks back. Your eyes falling to the green grass recovered from the snow as your eyes found the park toilets. Your dick responded for you as you rolled your eyes at its reaction. It was at this very spot when you realised you had fallen in love with your best friend. The way she looked at you, the way your body responded and it was more then your cock, it was your heart expanding. You had pushed your self away scared and terrified but in the lift not long after you realised it was too late, you had fallen. Between the excitement you was terrified, you knew your friendship was tainted after that. It didn’t matter who entertained you afterwards, they was Y/N every-time.

Why had you walked into the pact so easily, why did you even let them meet her, jealousy biting you for a brief moment that brought guilt. How could you blame your hyungs.

You heard the phone bleep in your pockets, you didn’t even need to check it to know it was her. But you wasn’t ready, not yet as you walked into the very toilets. Beneath the stench, your cock hardened and in need of Y/N.

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Your heart was thundering as you looked at your suitcase. You had worked out who you had chosen just hours after they had left. It had been obvious as soon as you sat down and thought hard. Just you needed to be sure and dwell on it for the week. You almost messaged them last night to tell them but you couldn’t do it, the future terrifying you. How could you hide a relationship? Just because they wanted to risk it, could you? What if the guys couldn’t hold there jealousy? Would your future with the rest of them be tarnished like you feared. It was those fears that had your heart in your mouth as you pre wrote to each of them.

Your throat closing when you messaged each one in a hurried copy and paste, Incase they was together when they received it.

You left his message till the last and was shaking almost violently in fear when you pressed send.

Looking at the entrance less then an hour later after checking into the private lounge, You was nervously waiting for his appearance. But when you saw him it was like all your worry’s was taken away as your lips fell on his plump ones, wasting no time to fall into his arms.

“How soon do we tell your mum?” He teases as your kisses falls apart. “Shut up,” you whisper as you pull him back hungry for more, but he pulls himself back. “Hey we promised her a summer wedding,” He said wiggling his finger with the beer can ring on the tip of his wedding finger. You smiled so hard you felt your muscles ache, he was so sweet and goofy. “Kim Byeongkwan it’s going to be hard hiding a girlfriend let alone a wife,” you scoff. “I’m game if you are,” he teases as he holds your hands making you feel content.

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Selfish - Part 16

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Genre: angst, fluff

Pairing: Jun x Reader / Chan x Reader

Word Count: 4.4k

Summary: You love them both and you’re torn. But…what if you didn’t have to choose?

You felt like Chan was avoiding you and you didn’t know why. He ended up changing his flight and staying in Jeju for an extra day, saying he wanted to spend more time with his family. You understood but it felt a little out of the blue. So you flew back to Seoul with Jun.

It’d been a week since you’d been back and you barely saw Chan. You’d eaten at a restaurant for dinner and he declined your invitation to sleep over at your house. He said that he had work to do but he’d never declined one of your invitations and, in the past, having to do work never stopped him from coming over. If anything, he’d just bring his laptop and books with him, at least wanting to be in your presence. But you didn’t want to complain or come off as petty over this. Chan must’ve just wanted more alone time. Maybe he was stressed about work or school or both. But part of you felt hurt because, normally, he’d always come to you during those times. Something changed but you weren’t sure what. 

You weren’t going to lie, you’d been in a weird mood since. You hated feeling like he was mad at you or something. So, Jun suffered a bit too. And you felt bad that you couldn’t give him your all. And he knew that there was something off with you. The trip you thought was supposed to be relaxing ended up not being as relaxing as you would’ve hoped, especially given that Chan had joined unexpectedly. You supposed that it caused a little turbulence in your lives. Maybe you shouldn’t have said anything, you wondered. Maybe you should’ve just kept the trip as one with Jun. But, then again, it seemed like everyone had a good time. And you knew that Chan wasn’t there the whole time but you also knew he hadn’t seen his family in a while. It was hard to tell how everyone felt truly. Was this all just a facade?

It was nine o’clock and you knew that Chan was working at the cafe tonight. You figured you’d just show up with chocolate covered strawberries and hope that you could convince him to let you sleep over. You missed him and you missed falling asleep in his arms. 

As you walked toward the cafe, you could see him through the window. There weren’t any customers at this point. He was wiping down the tables, from what you could see. And he looked handsome while doing it. He looked concentrated, his eyebrows furrowed the same way they did when he was frustrated or thinking. When you knocked on the glass, you could tell that he wasn’t expecting you. He took out his Airpods, surprised. He opened the door, letting you in before locking it again. “What are you doing here?” he asked, little to no emotion in his tone.

“I miss you,” you said, a little taken aback by his tone, or lack thereof, “and I wanted to see you. I feel like you’ve been avoiding me…”

Chan turned around, heading back toward the table he was cleaning. “You could’ve called me.”

“I wanted to surprise you...but it doesn’t seem like you’re happy to see me so maybe I’ll just go…” You took the box of chocolate covered strawberries out of your bag, placing it on the table. “Enjoy them.” You turned on your heel to leave and, just before you got to the lock, Chan’s hand was wrapped around your arm.

“Don’t go.”

Tears were starting to build up in your eyes. Chan was usually the one that always greeted you warmly, the one that always showered you with love and affection, the one who always seemed to know what you needed no matter the time or place. You bit your lip, trying to hold back the tears.

“Baby,” Chan said, frowning at the sight of you tearing up. “Please, I’m sorry…I’ve just been in this weird space lately. I don’t mean to take it out on you...”

You raised your brows. “What do you mean?”

“There’s just…something that happened to me recently that made me rethink things.”

“Do you want to talk about it?”

“No, it’s okay. I’ll be fine.”

You shook your head. “You’re the happiest person I know…and I know when you’re not being honest with me.”

Chan looked down. “I know. I just…don’t want you to get hurt.”

“Does what happened have something to do with something I did?”

He shook his head. “No, no, it’s not that…'' 

To be honest, Chan was tired of keeping this secret. It was hardly his to be carrying on his shoulders like this. This was all Jun’s fault. Why was he the one to be suffering when Jun was the one living stress-free? Why was it that he was still protecting Jun like this? Chan was the one who was done dirty and he was sick of putting everyone else first. Even if you were hurt by this information, you deserved to know the truth and to not sleep next to someone who hadn’t been completely honest with you. 

“So what is it, then?”

“I want to close up first. I’ll be done in five. We can talk as soon as I close the cafe.”

And within those few minutes, your mind started racing. You didn’t have the slightest clue what Chan wanted to talk about. It seemed like he was going through something and, on top of that, he’d even distanced himself from you. Did what he was going through have to do with something you did?

Chan closed up the cafe and locked the doors. “Okay, let’s go.” You started walking toward Chan’s building, which was about a ten minute walk from the cafe. 

As you started walking around the corner, Chan said, “I haven’t been completely honest with you…” You bit your lip, expecting the worst. “Remember when I said I had family stuff to deal with in Jeju?” You nodded, unsure of where this conversation was heading. “That wasn’t true.”

“So why did you leave? I thought you were having a good time…”

“Well you know we’d all been drinking. Jun had been drinking the most and I saw that when he went over to the bar by himself. I went over to bring him back over to the dance floor with us while you were in the bathroom. He said some things that made me uncomfortable even though I was doing my best to be friendly and include him in everything…” Chan let out a sigh. “He implied that the only reason he agreed to me coming on the trip was to make you happy. He basically didn’t want me there. He got angry and told me that I’m your favorite and that he never gets time alone with you, which is ridiculous. The part that made me upset was the fact that he basically lied and put on this pretend act. If he wasn’t okay with it, he could’ve just been honest and said no. I-I don’t know how to feel. I can see him trying to push me out. I had to leave because I didn’t want to ruin the trip, so I kept my distance and let him have his time with you...which, I guess, was his plan. And it worked.”

Tears had been building up in Chan’s eyes as he told the story. He’d kept a lot of it in up until now and, honestly speaking, it felt nice to be able to be honest with you. He hated the situation that he was in. He felt more secure about being in this polyamorous relation ship with you and Jun but Jun didn’t seem to be okay with it at all. And it hurt him because he felt like Jun had basically pretended to be cordial with him. Chan wondered what you saw in him. What Jun did just seemed so...evil. Was Jun finally showing his true colors? Would you forgive him yet again?

You stopped him to pull him into a hug. “I...I didn’t know…”

“It’s not your fault. You didn’t do anything wrong, babe.” Those words were comforting and, with them, came a few tears. You could hear it. “Thank you for telling me...and for trying to protect me. You don’t have to hide things like that from me, I promise. I love you so much, Chan…”

He pulled away from you and you wiped his tears with your thumbs. He smiled and said, “I love you, too, Y/N…”

*

You left Chan’s house in the morning feeling a little confused and, by the time work was over, you still felt frustrated. You didn’t know what to think of the situation with Jun. It seemed like there was some turbulence in the relationship and you weren’t sure what to do next. Of course, you needed to bring this up with Jun. You couldn’t sit back and let this simmer on the back burner. 

You opened the door to the nail salon. Na-Ri was there a little early, waiting for you. “Well, well, well, look who it is...The person I’ve hardly heard from since you got back.”

“Sorry,” you said, chuckling. “Things have been kinda crazy.”

The two of you checked in for your nail appointments and headed to the back of the salon to get your pedicures done. When you got settled and dipped your feet in the warm water, you turned to Na-Ri. “You won’t believe what I just found out...”

Na-Ri looked over, putting her phone down. “What’s up?”

“Remember when I said we went to dinner that first night in Jeju? The three of us? Well, everything was fine up until we went to dinner. That’s when things started getting a little weird. Actually, no, things were a little weird before that but I didn’t put two and two together at the time…I think it started when Jun fell asleep at the hotel. Me and Chan stayed up for a little bit and then we fell asleep, too. When I woke up Jun was gone and I think he might’ve been feeling jealous that me and Chan fell asleep together. Then he just got really...drunk at dinner. If we had ordered another bottle of wine, I don’t think Jun would’ve made it to the bar.”

You continued your story as you flipped through the catalog to decide on what colors you wanted. “I always try to make sure I spend enough time with both of them. Next thing I know, I go to the bathroom and then when I come back, Chan is telling me he has family issues to go and take care of and that I should stay with Jun. At the time I thought it was kind of weird and random but, at the same time, it could’ve been true so I believed it. In the past, his dad collapsed from overworking, so it was believable. Anyway, I went back to the hotel with Jun and he just acted like everything was normal after that.”

Before you could continue, Na-Ri stopped you. “Did Chan invite himself on the trip?”

“Not exactly. I was talking to him and I told him what we were doing. I guess he kind of implied that it sounded like fun and he wanted to go. So I asked Jun about it...and that’s when the lie started...I asked if Chan could come with us because I thought that it would be a good idea for us to bond. And it was supposed to be Chan’s weekend with me so I felt bad. Anyway, Jun said it was fine and that it was okay. If he didn’t want him to come, he could’ve just said no…”

Na-Ri said, “What the hell? Where’s the communication?”

“Exactly…”

“Have you talked to Jun about any of this?”

You shook your head. “I just found out last night.”

“Good luck. I don't know how you do it. One man is enough problems for me.”

You chuckled. “I don’t know how I do it either…”

“Maybe it was too soon to try this kind of relationship...”

You let out a deep sigh. “We’ve been doing this for months...I don’t know how much longer he could possibly need.”

“Well if you think about it, you haven't really done anything together, with just the three of you. So maybe it was a bit much to go on a trip together. I think it’s something you have to ease into. Like going on dates together, to the movies, to the amusement park, and stuff like that. Cause it seemed like everything between them was pretty much fine–well, neutral–before this. I don’t think he gets jealous until Chan is physically there...and, I mean, that’s not good either.”

“Yeah, you’re right. We’ll have to work on that if this is going to work.”

“Yeah, it’s the next step in the relationship. You got past the beginning stages so now the next step is for them to be more comfortable around each other and to do more things together.”

Na-Ri was right. You were still angry with Jun and the fact that he hadn’t been honest with you or with Chan. Jun’s selfish actions had hurt you but, more importantly, his actions hurt Chan. From what you could see, Chan had been trying to be friends with Jun. He’d been putting in effort, only to be rejected by Jun in the end. And Chan knew that feeling all too well.

It had been months since you came up with this arrangement and Jun was acting more like a child than an adult. But you couldn’t help but feel like part of what was happening right now was your fault. Since this was your idea, you should’ve had a better plan. But you weren’t an expert and neither were Jun or Chan. Was it too much to expect this much from them? 

You probably should’ve been trying to do more things together rather than keeping things separate. Keeping things separate wasn’t realistic and, obviously, it wasn’t working. The relationship was going to have to undergo some changes if there was going to be any chance of survival. You needed to figure things out but, first, you definitely needed to talk to Jun.

*

When you asked Jun if you could have dinner later, he thought nothing of it. He answered your message, of course, suggesting that you come over to cook. But, strangely enough, you declined saying that you’d rather go out to eat. It was a little surprising since you usually enjoyed making dinner together but he thought little of it. He told you to meet him at your favorite restaurant to have some Taiwanese noodle soup.

He waited for you inside, browsing the menu. He’d been here once with you but, as far as he knew, it was a place that Chan had introduced you to. Sometimes Jun couldn’t help but feel like you had more in common with Chan than you did with him. Jun pushed the thought out of his head. Those small insecure thoughts were beginning to annoy him a bit. He was starting to feel bad about the things he’d said to Chan. Maybe he shouldn’t have been so harsh. Maybe he should’ve been more mature and accepted things as they were rather than mope about the things he couldn’t change.

Was this kind of relationship for him? Was he too in over his head? Was it even meant for the two of you to be together right now, with or without Chan in the picture? He loved you, without a doubt, but sometimes he wondered if all of this was worth it. He missed when things were simple, when it was just the two of you. Before you’d even met Chan in the first place. Part of him wished he never accepted that job or went to Japan. But maybe everything that was happening to him now were things that needed to happen. 

You came into the restaurant looking a little stressed, bringing Jun into a state of distress. Were you here to break up with him? Had you finally had enough of his shit? You sat down across from him and said, “Hey.”

Normally, you’d embrace him. You’d reach across the table and brush your fingers against his hands. You’d lean over for a kiss, something. But you weren’t doing that. Jun’s heart dropped. Something was definitely wrong but he wasn’t sure what. 

Jun tried to lighten up the mood. “Are you okay? How was your day?”

“I’m okay. My day was decent.”

Jun nodded. “Your nails look nice,” he said, glancing at your hands. “This color looks good on you.”

“Thanks,” you said, taking a sip of water. “Look, can we talk about something serious?”

“What’s going on?”

“Chan told me everything…”

Jun looked down. Of course, he knew that he was in the wrong. Deep down, he’d known that this day was coming. How could he think a secret this big would stay a secret? He’d wanted to come clean and apologize about it, mostly to Chan because he’d done nothing wrong in the situation. In any case, Chan was merely a victim of Jun’s insecurities. 

Jun didn’t say anything so you did. “If you wanted it to just be us, why lie to me? I would’ve understood.”

Jun let out a deep sigh. “I don’t have an excuse for why I did it…” He looked up at you, finally. There was so much hurt and disappointment in your eyes, he could barely stand to see it. “I just couldn't bring myself to see you disappointed so I lied and I tried to convince myself that I could do it but I couldn’t...Then it got too late to say anything, so I just tried to swallow it. And I became a person I couldn’t recognize by the end of it all…”

“You hurt me, Jun, and you hurt Chan, too…”

Jun nodded. “I know…”

You reached for his hand, taking it in yours. “It’s okay to feel these kinds of things but it’s not okay to act like that. We agreed to this relationship and for it to work, the three of us have to have some type of communication.” 

Jun said, “I’m sorry…I’ll also apologize to Chan. I’ll talk to him tonight. I really am sorry, Y/N...”

You looked him in his eyes, almost as if you were staring into the deepest, most vulnerable parts of him. “I need to know if you’re all in.”

Jun squeezed your hand in his. He’d be lying if he said he wasn’t afraid of losing you. But he nodded, continuing on through these unknown waters.

*

After dinner, you went home despite Jun’s suggestion of coming over. He understood and he wanted to give you your space but he couldn’t help but feel like there was suddenly this giant rift in your relationship. It was his fault, he knew. But he missed you. He missed the way things were, just before the trip. So much had changed and it’d only been about a week. One of the ways he usually made himself feel better was to find comfort in your arms. When he had a hard day, he’d go over to your place or you’d come to his. And you’d hold him in your arms, running your fingers through his hair. But again, that wasn’t an option for him right now.

He knew he needed to apologize to Chan soon. If he didn’t apologize soon, he’d lose the nerve to do it and you’d be more disappointed in him than you already were. He took out his phone and called Chan, anxiety filling his chest. It rang five times and, just when he thought that maybe he should just hang up and forget it all, Chan answered. 

“Hello?”

“Hey, I was wondering if you had time to talk.”

Though Jun couldn’t see him physically, Chan was rolling his eyes on the other end. “Sure. Do you mean over the phone or in person?”

“We should talk in person, no?”

“Okay. Where do you want to meet?”

“I can meet you near your place.”

“Okay. There’s a bar a few blocks away. I’ll send the address.”

The call was over and anxiety washed over Jun. He had no idea how to start or what to say. There was nothing he could say to take back those shitty things he said to Chan and there was nothing he could say to justify them. He was immature, insecure, all of those things. He hated that he put himself in this position and that he had to even apologize in the first place, but he knew that he couldn’t just sit quietly.

As Chan got ready, he felt very irritated. Of course, you’d already told him how the conversation with Jun went. He even felt annoyed at that. How many ways did that man have to show you that he wasn’t ready for this kind of relationship? It was so frustrating to sit back and watch Jun hurt you both. These feelings were no longer coming from a place of insecurity or jealousy; it was a place of genuine concern. It seemed like a good idea at first, but maybe this kind of relationship was beyond the three of you. Chan had done online searches trying to figure out how he should go about things but he always ended up in a loop where his question was too specific or there were too few answers for him to make an educated guess. 

With the current state of things, he at least knew that he’d at least attempted some research. Had Jun even bothered to do research on what it meant to be in this kind of relationship? Chan knew that there were different types of people but he could see that Jun wasn’t the kind of person that could handle this. Once upon a time, Chan wasn’t either but he’d like to think that he’d grown since then. If being in a relationship with you and Jun had taught him anything at all, it was patience and he’d even gained a bit of maturity. At the end of the day, you needed a man who was mature, a man who made you feel secure and who felt secure in himself. Of course, Chan wasn’t perfect and he had moments where he felt insecure but, overall, Chan liked himself and the person he was becoming. He was becoming a better man, not only for you, but for himself as well.

When Jun entered the bar, Chan was already there. He was sitting by himself, having a cocktail. From the looks of it, it was dark liquor. It was one of those nights and Jun understood. Hell, he figured he’d order one for himself. He greeted Chan with a nod and sat down in the seat next to him.

“Hey,” Chan said, taking a swig from his glass.

“Hey,” Jun replied. He turned to the bartender. “Can I have the same thing?” he asked, referencing Chan’s nearly finished glass. 

Chan downed the rest of his drink, sliding the glass toward the bartender. “And can I have another?”

A moment of silence passed before the bartender returned with both drinks. Jun let out a deep sigh before he turned to Chan. Chan didn’t look up, though, and understandably so, Jun supposed. 

“I’m sorry for those things I said back in Jeju. I was completely out of line,” he started. “I know I can’t take any of it back but all of this happened because I wasn’t being honest. I wasn’t being honest with myself and I took it out on you instead, thinking you were the problem when I was the problem. I drank too much and I felt frustrated. I should’ve been honest with Y/N and told her I wasn’t comfortable.”

Chan nodded. His feelings about everything began to rise to the surface. “I’m not going to forgive you right away but I’ll accept your apology for now…” Jun didn’t say anything but nodded instead. He didn’t know what to say next. Was there anything left to say? Was the conversation over? Was this one of those instances where the conversation could’ve just been a phone call? Just when Jun thought that the conversation was over, Chan spoke again. “You know what was most upsetting about all of this? I thought we were finally at a point where we could be friends…I thought wow, we’re actually getting along.”

Hearing that made Jun feel even worse than he already did. He wanted to be able to be friends with Chan too but his insecurities were holding him back. In the ideal situation, the three of them would get along. In the ideal situation, he and Chan would be sitting at this bar having a drink together, laughing and sharing stories, while you were at home with no worries about whether or not your boyfriends would get into a fight. There wouldn’t be all this drama and conflict surrounding the relationship, for God’s sake!

Jun wanted to say something comforting. He wanted to tell him that he did want to be friends, believe it or not. But he couldn’t find the right words. The words, for some reason, wouldn’t leave his mouth. “I’m sorry…again.”

Chan was frustrated because it seemed like he didn’t even care. Was Jun here because you made him or was he here apologizing on his own accord? It was hard to think of him as a decent person after all the drama and lies about Malai and more recently, their Jeju trip. This was his second strike, in Chan’s eyes. If he did something else, Chan wouldn’t be able to forgive him. He couldn’t read Jun’s mind but it would be nice to know what he was thinking.

He said, “I don’t think you’re serious about this relationship. Have you considered it at all? If you’re serious about being with Y/N, you’re going to have to work harder. and I’m more than willing to support her to make this work. But if you’re having doubts or don’t think you can work with us, then you should leave us alone. Y/N is my priority. Why isn’t she yours?”

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[junquisite]

Making out with A.C.E

WARNING : Suggestive

Lee Donghun

Would probably be a tease

Love random kisses, would come and surprise you and pepper you with kisses

Spontaneous but with purpose, if wants to make out, no one can stop and definitely not you or whatever you're doing

Hands - if you guys have time and it can lead to something else, it WILL lead to something else. But if just simple making out, would stay at your waist. Maybe at your neck

Might sneak in some kisses if outside. Too quick for you to respond Though

Bite your lips!!

Bites. Your. Neck. Would leave hickeys and your complains of having to hide them would fall on deaf ears

Just v v soft

Kim Sehyoon

Softest

Probably giggles after you guys break away

Hands - at waist or back of the neck. Before wandering his hands, would ask for permission, is super endearing

Not a huge fan of making out in possibly public/ semi public places. Also not big on PDA so only would make out at home

Loves forehead kisses. Would kiss you on the forehead when leaving, when meeting, when you're about to sleep or is asleep

He's just adorable

DEFINITELY smiling during kisses. You could just feel him smiling into kisses

The type to shower you with kisses randomly. You're just watching TV but he'll come and pepper your face with kisses - eyes nose lips cheeks - everywhere and then giggle

Park Junhee

Won't mind kisses in public but they would definitely be short

Would take his time with you, doesn't like quick sessions

Kisses that leave you breathless

Can you tell I'm whipped for him

Hands - definitely on your ass. He's an ass man and I don't make the rule. Might also grab your hair once in a while to pull you close when in mood

Loves lazy makeout sessions with you in his lap, maybe softly grinding

One way to get him weak - neck kisses

A tease for sure!

Neck kisses - both loves giving you and getting them. Although cautious with getting because you can't leave a mark

The type to push you against a wall and kiss you breathless

Kim Byeongkwan

Hands - probably holding your face. He's just a soft person like this

But doesn't mean he won't tease. He'll probably kiss you and pull back just to see you chasing after his lips and laugh

All for PDA but nothing more the pecks

The babiest baby, a giggle mess

Would kiss you passionately and leave you breathless one second and the next second pull back and giggle in your neck

Leaves lots and lots of hickeys. Wants the world to know you're spoken for

Kang Yuchan

Kisses in public, again, loves showing off to everyone that you're dating him

The kind of Boyfriend to introduce you to anyone he remotely knows or meet as 'my girlfriend'

Hands - he mostly would be confused on where to put his hands but It would depend on what is the mood. If it's just a small kiss, then maybe your waist. If more, his hands might pull you closer and trail to the back of your neck

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A.C.E MASTERLIST

KEY WORDS:

🐥 -> ONESHOT

® -> REQUESTED

🌸 -> FLUFF   

🤧 -> ANGST

🔥 -> SUGGESTIVE/SMUT

💀 -> CREEPY

❤ -> VALENTINE SPECIAL

❄ -> CHRISTMAS SPECIAL

🎃 -> HALLOWEEN SPECIAL

🎂 -> BIRTHDAY SPECIAL

🏵 -> DRABBLES

🌺 -> SERIES

⏰ -> TIMESTAMPS

🆎 -> NSFW ALPHABET

📱 -> SOCIAL MEDIA AU

You’re so clingy, I love it ®🌸🎂🏵

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Is that my shirt? ®🌸🏵

Your real home ®🌸🎂⏰