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boy why you so legs
#i dont even fully understand why i even draw him so much. hes like 4th place in the strawhats for me#its just that hes so fun for posing and simple scribbles cause his designs so simple. just one big dynamic line bc of the silhouette#even if his hair is a pain in the ass. but i think im getting the hang of it#i liked when in fishman island they gave him a little fluffy cardigan sweater for a second that was cute#too bad that was when chopper euthanized him. havent seen sanji since... what a shame#wtf... art#one piece fanart#sanji#black leg sanji
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i get this interpretation but i always thought about it in another way
i elaborated in the tags about it but oh boi oh boi im now thinking about this again and i have been thinking about this, like, for a long time already
so, yeah, the console room is indeed doctor's room
but it's partly because he always have smth to do in there
i found myself thinking 'hey, we sometimes see the companion's room in the tardis, but we never see the doctor's, why is that?'
and then i realised
we see it all the time
because it's the console room
#ok ok ok#but there was a scene somewhere in 11th era about that#amy asked him when he'll go to sleep/where's his room#and he ignored this question very very skillfully#and im thinking about this scene since i first saw it#i ecen wanted to write a fic about it#and i get op's interpretation but i always prefered that he simply doesnt have a room#at least as 11th#cause 11th doesnt want to stop even for a second#like in everything he does#so he wont have to think about all his trauma#cause its too painful#so he doesnt have a room cause he doesnt want to have a place where he's supposed to chill#cause chill equals stopping#and he's always running#dw#doctor who#but of course its just my interpretation!!#also thanks to op for bringing this up!!!
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In Any Lifetimes
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So.
Ghost King Danny (and or) Ancient of Space.
Basically POWERFUL Danny gets summoned to the DC world.
How?
Because his reborn lover/partner/wife(or husband) was being used as a 'sacrifice' to summon him. (Danny and his partner (not picky who, could be a DP character or a made up one) sometimes they relive lives together, but Danny due to King duties can't always join his 'other' (or Forevermores as I like to coin them as) into new worlds for a few years.
Who is partner was reborn as, I leave up to you all!~
#danny phantom#danny fenton#crossover#dp x dc#blue rambles#danny phantom dc#writing ideas#random idea#dpxdc#Danny isnt happy when he feels his partner panic/stress/pain when summoned#he's gonna go all POWERFUL ghost on the ones causing it#Danny loves his partner no matter what life they go and live#because they are Forevermores he knows they subconsciously remain faithful to each other in the end#even when Danny is reborn and has no memories too they always find each other in the new life's they live and get together#its fun for them#his reborn love is being sacrifice because some cultist somehow figured out their soul is tied to a powerful being#and mistakenly believed if they sacrifice them they will be rewarded or something along those lines
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So if you loved me so much Why'd you go?
#gang i'm in my soft blue era now if u even care x#this...is so long... and big...what a shame#this song has circled around my brain for weeks i hope it causes u an ounce of the pain it has caused me#once again too many ideas no direction but push on none the less its part of my brand now i think#good omens#good omens gifs#good omens 2#aziracrow#ineffable husbands#aziraphale x crowley#crowley#aziraphale#crowley x aziraphale#usersugar#tsusermels#userrlorelei#my gifs#gifs: good omens
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No jokes here. The Navy’s best pilot and the Navy’s best admiral. Between them, eight air-to-air combat kills and five stars. These were men who commanded respect with or without your approval. This was the picture of ruthless competence.
Debriefing (& Other Stories) • part 2 of Easier Done Than Said by @compacflt
#easier done than said by COMPACFLT#this is one of my alltime favourite fics rn#and probably for the rest of time too#its a topgun fic written by COMPACFLT and its insane and its so fucking good#its basically a canon rewrite of#top gun 1986#and#top gun maverick#and spans thirty years of Ice and Mavs relationship#theres just so much in this#so much emotion and characterization and everything#which has driven me insane that im having one hell of a dopamine comedown this week after having read it#i highly reccomended people go read it cause its just really that good#pete maverick mitchell#tom iceman kazansky#bradley rooster bradshaw#jake hangman seresin#i love how the commander wrote mav and ice in this. like theyre clearly military men#but theyre also SO much more#icemav#and theyve taken the canon 'whos the best pilot' and given its own twist#'hes the best pilot in the world'#my heart cant take it anymore#i know im making this sound like 100k words of just fluff but believe me its not#its 30 years of pain and internalised homophobia and time away and falling in love and raising a kid and not once talking about any of it#but the ending is so so so good and the additional parts from different povs literally left me wanting more#i cant do this someone help me go read this go read this go read this#and come cry with me how we cant ever read this for the first time ever again#also shoutout to the commander once again for the insane amount of preplanning and research into the navy theyve done to write this fic#im forver thankful. sorry im a stalker
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I love my girl Miwa but as soon as I read that this image immediately popped up in my head:
#HAVE SOME STANDARDS GIRL DAMN#i want this relationship to work out too but this aint it#how do we relationship#cine te a intrebat#uhmmm theres SPOILERS past this tag in case u care to read this yourself just a quick warning#i kid i joke but this scene fucks me up i like how this manga handles queerness. it shows how messy and painful it can be#like we already got a bit of that with sae and her relationship with sex but this mmmmmm this one i didnt see coming#imagine u work up the courage to confess to ur high school crush and she says she cant date you#not cause she doesnt like you. quite literally /because/ she likes you and wants to take ur relationship seriously and respect you#but she cant do that. because shes afraid of people finding out. of having to hide all the time. of being ostracised. she's tired.#she cant find the strength to do that.#the frustration of being loved but society denying you the possibility of being together... ill clown on Miwa (its very easy) but i feel bad#for her#gaud i need to sleep hai pa
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I want to say my favorite part of Mizuki's event is how they emphasized Mizuki isn't really afraid of not being accepted anymore.
It's to just admit that truth about yourself and have everything change, to show your pain and have people view you differently because of it. It's not even that they won't treat you with kindness in fact it's that kindness itself that's painful.
You just want things to stay to same even if it hurts because even if you know the people around you can help you, you don't want to ruin their own perception of view.
Like ezuifhEHIGUIT i'm gonna cry goodbye everybody
#mizuki akiyama#pjsk mizuki#prsk mizuki#25ji#25ji nightcord de#mizuki 25ji#mizuki5#i did not expect to relate so hard with mizuki#cause like#i'm trans too but it's not really about that#it's just in general having to face people in real life and tell them you need help#and you know you'll be met with kindness eventually if you made them understand but its like#it's so painful still#you don't want to be treated differently
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doodle i made when talking about lobcorp to people. i dont think they see me the same anymore after playing lobcorp and rambling about it
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#lobotomy corp spoilers#lobcorp spoilers#HUGE oversimplification. obviously. general idea? yeah. malkuth wanting to become involved to the point of almost obsession#yesod to where he ended up literally crumbling due to the fact he cared but just tried to burry it under rationality#netzach having that hope to being carmen back and caring for the lives of people to where it caused him pain and knowing its 'his fault'#hod... yeah. literally caring so much about the health and safety of employees and trying to do something about that also also having to#watch all of her colleagues and friends die and then reporting it and thinkin g the only way out is to Die#yeah. cared. a lot. all of them. a bit too much? nah i cant say that in seriousness but yeah they sure did care a LOT#anyways time to actuallt finish tags#malkuth lobcorp#yesod lobcorp#netzach lobcorp#hod lobcorp
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I need to talk about Julian's whole thing with Sloan in Extreme Measures cause it does actually make me feel a certain kind of rabid
Extreme Measures is a great episode for the Julian/Miles dynamic and has a lot of great moments with them but I think an underrated element of the episode is how it very plainly shows just how much the Dominion War has changed Julian, and how his morals have shifted into a much greyer area
Julian in this episode is very callous towards Sloan even as he's literally dying. he has no issues violating Sloan's mind, and when Sloan dies, the only reason he actually cares is because the answers and secrets Sloan has will die with him. truly cannot emphasize enough just how deeply Julian fucking hates Sloan, and sheer hatred isnt something we really see all that much from Julian, especially not to the degree he was with Sloan
even with that, though, Julian has never been like that with another patient. Julian doesnt let his personal feelings get in the way of being a doctor, and always treats his patients with the utmost care and his best work. Julian was willing to find a cure for the Jem'Hadar's addiction, simply because they asked for help, even if it meant potentially making them into a much bigger threat than they already were. Julian treated Tain in Camp 371. and, sure, Julian does treat Sloan, but he does so explicitly because Sloan has information they need, not because he has any care for Sloan's life
and I think that- his willingness to violate Sloan's mind to get what they need, and how he didn't particularly care that Sloan died- is a really bleak look at just how much the war has changed Julian and how much it's shifted his moral compass. throughout the war, Julian has been ordered time and time again to compromise his morals. add to that several traumatic events- multiple of which are orchestrated by Sloan- and a slide into deep depression, and it's no wonder he gets to a point where he can do the things he does in this episode
and I dont think it hits him until much later. I think one day, long after the war has ended and theyre still rebuilding everything that was broken, Julian lays awake at night and remembers how bad it got and what he became willing to do, and it makes him sick to his stomach
#star trek: ds9#julian bashir#luther sloan#Luther Sloan's death wasn't painful enough I need to bring him back and kill him again#Julian's hatred for Sloan is so compelling to me#I love when a character who is fundamentally kind and compassionate is driven to consuming hatred and rage#and Sloan does that to Julian in ways I dont think anybody else does#and that hatred is what allows Julian to do what he does#cause when you think about it- violating a dying man's mind- that is. INSANE#and not something you would expect from Julian who has always been so staunch about his morals#the morals he's been asked to compromise. over and over. by the people he looks up to#its so tragically ironic#Sloan wanted Julian to move into greyer areas and he got exactly what he wanted#except in the process it also got him killed#and yeah I think it does haunt Julian later#because Julian is a fundamentally good person#so one day he will have to contend with what he did#what he was willing to do#he's too good of a person to not have to wrestle with this at some point#maybe ill write a fic about it#I think about it often
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sorry im still dead and will probably continue 2 be…. take this as penance
#vixen draws#meant to be a way more emotional sketch until halfway through that one image popped into my brain and. alas#anyways ywah my physicsl health is still kind of tanking but we ball!#i um. Techinically have hashimotos but thats Not the thing causing my pain. said the issue was either rheumatological; neurological; or-#fibromyalgia. but the thing is i kind of doubt?? its fibromyalgia and they did a huge rheumatology panel on me and found Nothing ghere.#so now im having to confront some of my motor issues with a difference kind of anxiety KJDFABWEJKF#but yeag. um. we should find a diagnosis soon !#and then start treatment !#ok sorry for ghe ramble. i didnt wanna make this my own post cause that feels too self centered. happy ghostkicks yuri friday#jrwi#jrwi pd#art#my art#dakota cole#william wisp#ghostkicks
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i thought itd be funny if, aside from just getting the eyes like everyone else, naberius keeps giving ianthe a cleft chin (like he's got) and no matter how many times she tries to get rid of it, it keeps coming back and it looks so out of place on her and she hates it . psychological warfare
#see i figure the naberius unhappiness manifests in other subtler ways too. like body pain and fatigue.#cause her body and her soul have to fight to keep him in check. u know. so i can project my chronic illness issues. but in this case#its in a goofy way#ianthe tridentarius#harrow the ninth#htn#naberius tern#also i think theres something funny about her being a great flesh necromancer and despite this naberius being a hater just overpowers#it in that sense#tridentarii#john gaius#my art#procreate#the locked tomb#tlt
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Doctor said my condition 'looks and sounds just like lupus' in his own words, repeatedly comparing my facial patterns- to then blaming it on me being transgender after seeing my chest scars while checking my heart rate. Blames it on testosterone use. I haven't been on T for years.
On the way out asked what pronouns to use on my medical papers. I said I don't care, whatever's least confusing. He then asks again, stating that trans people are 'sensitive' and get upset about their paperwork.
Starting over again. More medical bills and need new referrals. :(
#i didn't plan on mentioning I'm trans at all bc its not relevant but then he saw my chest.#:(#he's still testing my blood at least but he doesn't seem to care too figure out what's causing all of my symptoms.#apparently he thinks testosterone explains constant fatigue - numb toes -my face literally bleeding - headaches - bad knee and joint pain#and more#🤷♂️
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Indigo
read on ao3
(based off this post I made, with some minor differences)
Summary:
While out on a call, Buck gets a bad feeling about a neighborhood. Following in Bobby's footsteps, he returns to the scene to investigate. When he hears a girl screaming for help, he doesn't hesitate, but he may end up becoming the victim himself.
Excerpt:
Buck woke up to a splitting pain in the back of his head. He groaned. He was pretty sure blood was on his neck. It felt wet and sticky.
He squeezed his eyes shut before trying to open them.
It took a few blinks before he could keep them open.
And it took even longer for them to adjust to the darkness around him.
He was lying on the floor, but for some reason his arms were dangling above him.
He tried to pull them down and that's when he realized they were zip-tied to something. His legs were tied together too.
He sat up quickly, his head thumping with the movement.
Another groan escaped before he could stop it.
He felt around the best he could, trying to figure out what he was tied to.
“It's the radiator.”
#bucktommy#911#tommy kinard#evan buckley#tevan#kinley#idk if i even like this anymore man but its posted and we all have to live with it#i think i've spent too much time with it for rn#but at the same time i wanna do a part 2#cause im a glutton for pain
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I love that Nasuada's major flaw is the same as one of Galbatorix's greatest flaws, and that it gets worse and more ingrained throughout the series. And it's so compelling because it's incredibly in character for her and there's every reason for the circumstances to perpetuate and exacerbate it, but that doesn't make her flaw any less egregious. The scene where Galbatorix compares the two of them is so fascinating because his intention is very manipulative and malicious, yet the statement itself isn't entirely untrue.
Because Nasuada treats people like tools. She considers a person's utility more important than anything else, including their personhood.
And it's such an engrossing flaw because of course Nasuada treats people like tools! She is proud and powerful and stubborn and noble and utterly committed to achieving what she has set out to do, by whatever means necessary. She will use whatever she has at her disposal to reach her goal, and that includes using the people around her. Of course, this doesn't make Nasuada inherently immoral; she cares deeply about justice and protecting her people. But her views on the individuals around her are impersonal and self serving.
And the goal she's trying to achieve is to win the war. Nasuada would never be pushed out of her ways by the circumstances because they work, the way she treats people accomplishes exactly what she intends. By its nature, the bloody act of war rewards using people like tools. It demands that, even; to a certain extent, it's an ugly necessity in war, but the thing is that Nasuada doesn't see it that way. She never struggles with or grieves over the need to consider people's individuality as secondary to their function. It comes naturally to her, and it lasts through the end of the books, when the war is already over.
Because I think the most flagrant example of this is at the very end, when Birgit intercepts Roran as he's leaving, presumably intending to kill him, and Nasuada says, "He has proved himself a fine and valuable warrior on more than one occasion, and I would be most displeased to lose him." It's such a wonderful, pointed line that perfectly sums up this aspect of her character. Because what a disgusting thing to say. Especially for the queen of all Alagaesia, perfectly positioned and empowered to stop this confrontation and declare it unjust if she cared to. But her words make no attempt at all to defend Roran as a person, only his value to her.
The way she uses others I find most evident in her treatment of Roran, Murtagh, and Elva. The way she tells Eragon that she thinks of giving Katrina a dowry as a "purchase" of Roran's goodwill and loyalty. In Uru'baen, only at great length, she makes the conscious choice to ignore Murtagh's past and only judge who he is in the present, but disregards any care for what that might say about him as a person, solely focused on if he could be useful as an ally. And when Eragon offers to revert Elva's curse, the one that condemned an infant to feel every piece of pain and suffering surrounding her, Nasuada is so fixated on Elva's utility and value to Nasuada's goals that she goes so far as to ask Eragon to fake his effort to cure her. She sees people as tools to such an extent that she can't recognize that relieving an innocent baby of unimaginable, cursed agony should come before her own priorities.
#guys i LOVE her#its SUCH a good character flaw im obsessed with it#eragon#inheritance cycle#nasuada#roran#elva#murtagh#pretending nasuada is entirely good natured is so boring i swear#she is passionate and heartfelt#but she is also Fucked Up sometimes#seriously tho those moments i mentioned always hit me like 'wow babe wtf is wrong with you???'#her nuance *chefs kiss*#she has the range#(also tbh. big reason why i think she and murtagh wouldnt work out together. this would cause A Lot of pain. too much.)
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ED 13A - Hired Puppet It's all that you have ever wanted! Pray that you will never come to regret this decision.
(based on @youneedthisjob's current portrayal of protag that you should totally go interact/ send asks/ follow/ give love to because holy shit i've been going insane by fortune's characterisation of him. and protag's in a newly started arc akin to ED 13 so go send asks and get blasted with lore and pain)
((also also under the cut is a monochrome version without the pixel-esque overlay because he's too colourful. i want my grey tones.))
#Elevator Hitch#Elehitch#Elevator Hitch RP#(yeah thats right this goes in the rp tag because its for an rp blog)#Protag Elehitch#Elehitch Protag#illustration#digital art#artists on tumblr#fan art#hazelnootart#id in alt#cw eye contact#tw eye contact#fortune if you're reading this Hi Hello thank you for the yummy writing i'm already in pain just from day one of puppetag#for that you are now subjected to art. it will be painful. these are the quencies.#honestly. i have a few ideas buzzing around in my brain for other things i could make art of from yalls blogs too......... But I Shan't Say#just know that puppetag will probably cause emotional damage to me for the rest of the arc and i will be grateful and distraught#update: uhhhh this was meant for tuesday! tumblr mobile said Heehee Post Now while i was fixing the post for something minor#i hate it here. but also who cares i do want this out ive been coming and staring at it ever since i finished it today#you get the angst now i hope it hurts :)
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TIL "Lay On Hands" is a paladin healing skill and I am blessed by this knowledge.
#moe talks a lot#oops i fell in love#cleric!right is forever funny to me because yeah its incredibly fitting for him to crave the power to heal#since he personally is so damaged and refuses to hurt others even in a game#but also he has such a foul mouth and you cannot remove that part of him ever#hes going to yell obscenities before he heals someone#like the joke of YOU HAVE UNO IT CAME WITH YOUR XBOX#is now YOU HAVE HEALING IT COMES WITH THE PALADIN#and then he just goes and heals karen while paul is like hey thats mean what if i want to bond with you :c#why wont you ever heal ME right i wanna be healed by you ! shes missing like 2hp what about healing my 10hp#again i have zero dnd exp and i am only learning from asking buddies who play it cause google sucks#i say that bc i tried googling something about clerics and it gave answers i didnt want to questions i didnt ask#anyway time to go perish personally im in so much pain and im v tired#for the record bc i know some people have expressed concerns in the past that im pushing myself too much to draw daily#its mostly my legs n feet that hurt constantly after work#my hand is still fine and while i do have some weird bruising on my arms (a mystery!) bc i bruise easily#its not me pushing through the hand pain or something bad like that its just i ache a lot
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