#cause its like. do you not notice my tics or do you think im doing it on purpose or...
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really is insane that i just woke up one day and started ticcing. like ok then guess we're doing this now
#like it's pretty background for me so i dont think about it much. but being around family lately has been a little weird#cause its like. do you not notice my tics or do you think im doing it on purpose or...#most of mine are fairly subtle like jerking my head or clicking my teeth#but it feels embarrassing sometimes!! and no one ever comments on it and it weirds me out honestly!#shout out to the era where i was a regular tommyinnit viewer who ticced hard when i heard the word pog#funniest possible combo#uhhh#tics#<- for blacklisting? lmk if theres a better tag
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hi its guitar anon :) i just gotta vent for a second
so i have tics (dr said its just anxiety but wouldnt listen when i said they happen even when im not anxious) and lately they’ve been getting worse. they’re like muscle jerks really. my entire back will like bend back and my legs will kick and my head will go forward or back (mainly forward). and then sometimes the corners of my lips will go down (if that makes sense?). they drive me crazy and lately they’ve been more often than usual. i feel like others can notice too. i really dont think they’re bc of anxiety but idk what else it could be. and a few times (not many maybe 3 or 4) ive had a “hum” tic where i just go “mm”. i kinda hate the word tic bc i dont want people to think im faking something but thats what my dr calls them.
It's a bit concerning that your doctor isn't like...doing anything about them? Like whether or not they're cause by anxiety, should your doctor not be doing something about it? lol. Anyway, next time you go to your doctor, I would use the words 'negatively affecting my life.' Those words tend to get doctors moving because it means they should treat you in some way.
If the doctor still does nothing, then use the words 'please note in my chart you're not treating me for this.' Again, this holds the doctor accountable.
If they STILL do nothing, then try for a second opinion. But the first two steps tend to do the trick.
Good luck!
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𝙩𝙚𝙖𝙢 𝙚𝙛𝙛𝙤𝙧𝙩 — olympic team / fem reader
[ atsumu, sakusa, suna, kageyama, gao, bokuto, hinata, iwaizumi, oikawa ]
the stress of the first match seems to be taking a toll on the team's spirit, and you refuse to sit and watch them fail when you know you can be of help. but can you really handle all of them?
(or, where you end up having a gang bang with 8 professional volleyball players, and 1 athletic trainer)
⥅ word c. 7,928
⥅ warnings. sub reader, gang bang, foursomes, voyeurism?, fellatio, cum play, vaginal penetration, anal, unprotected sex, creampie, facial, size + stomach bulging kink, praise kink, mild degradation, double penetration, pussy job (for like, one second), double vaginal penetration, fingering, squirting, overstimulation, someone passes out, aftercare
⥅author n. brought to u thanks to this tweet + @kmorgzz who suggested adding iwaoi to the mix
special mention to my wife and love of my life, runa. @tsumue u had me laughing at 4am as i read ur comments in the google doc. i don't know what i'd do without u, tysm for beta and putting up with me for the past week ♡
ps. im v sorry if ur fave didn't make the cut (╥_╥) i added the ones im more familiar with, in terms of writing
if someone had told you you’d be attending the olympic games not as a spectator but as part of japan’s team, you’d have never believed them. but here you are, sitting in the same room with the most skilled players in the country as none other than their personal assistant.
“iwaizumi-san! do you think kageyama and i could pull off a quick attack right at the beginning of the set?”
“shoyo-kun, if there’s someone you’ll be doing the quick attack with it’s me,” atsumu’s eyes land on kageyama, smirking at the other setter from across the room, “right, tobio-kun?”
“you’re a disgrace.”
sakusa’s statement earns an offended scoff from the blond setter, the rest of the team rolling their eyes and sighing at the all-too-familiar scene.
“oi! we don’t have time for petty fights!”
after iwaizumi gets everyone’s attention back on him, he barely finishes explaining tomorrow’s match opponents and their plays without losing the team’s attention. he might be there to train them and make sure they’re on top of their game, but he knows when the team is lacking morale and, sadly, today’s one of those days.
the meeting is over and all of you go to the dining hall, fetching your dinner and sitting on your respective table with you right next to iwaizumi.
since you took that part-time job at the msby jackals, you quickly caught onto their small tics and tell-tale signs when something isn’t right. atsumu becomes a complete asshole which makes sakusa lose his temper sooner than usual. meanwhile, bokuto and hinata become very fidgety, often causing a bit of chaos around them as clumsiness radiates off of them.
when the national team was announced, you were offered the job as the trainer’s assistant—all thanks to the jackals who recommended you to their superiors for said position. your pay-check might say you’re just iwaizumi’s assistant, but you’re basically there to cover the needs of the entire team—all of them.
“iwa-chan!”
your head snaps to the side as a good-looking man takes the last free seat next to iwaizumi.
“aren’t you supposed to be sitting with your team?” iwaizumi asks him, taking a bite of his food while waiting for an answer.
the unknown man huffs exaggeratedly, rolling his eyes as he too starts to eat, “thought you’d miss your best friend.”
“hanamaki isn’t here.”
the stranger opens his mouth to reply, clearly offended by iwizumi’s words, when he notices you peeping at him.
“oh? hi! i think we haven’t met,” he shoots you a charming smile, bringing out his remarkably handsome features, “oikawa tooru, it’s nice to meet you.”
you introduce yourself, bowing at him and focusing back on your food.
both friends start to discuss tomorrow’s events, which inevitably brings out iwaizumi’s concern for his players.
“they seem off,” he’s playing around with the food as he stares at the players sitting in the table in front of yours, “i don’t know if i should talk to them or let them be.”
he’s clearly concerned for them, you can see it in his eyes—the doubt, wondering if he has been doing a good job with the team.
“iwaizumi-san, i-i… perhaps i could aid them this time?”
his head snaps in your direction, a mix of surprise and worry taking over his face, “no way, that’d be too much for you.”
oikawa’s eyebrows scrunch up as he observes you two but says nothing, choosing to listen attentively at you trying to convince iwaizumi while the latter sighs and reminds you that it’s not just the jackals this time.
it takes a while for iwaizumi to accept your offer, pondering the pros and cons, but he ends up accepting it; for everyone’s sakes.
“i’m lost.”
oikawa’s words make your insides flare-up, looking down at your hands in order to avoid looking at him, his curious eyes switching between his best friend and you.
iwaizumi ignores him, standing up from his seat and walking to the table in front of you with you and oikawa watching closely. the team turns to look at him, waiting for him to speak since it’s obvious it has to be something important by the severe look on his face.
“seeing as some of you are clearly out of it, our assistant here has very kindly volunteered to help you guys for tonight.”
a few heads immediately perk up, looking at you with bright eyes once you answer their silent question with a smile.
“please, be good to her. i’ll be there supervising anyways, so don’t think of trying anything funny.”
“oikawa-san! you’re coming with us, right?” hinata looks expectantly at said male, excitement clear in the redhead’s eyes, “she’s the best!”
both iwaizumi and you freeze on the spot, gauging oikawa’s reaction who only looks more confused.
“you’re welcome to join us, if you so desire,” it’s you who’s offering it this time, surprising iwaizumi and earning a worried glance from him.
oikawa can’t deny he’s dying to know what everyone’s so excited about, and after thinking about it for a few more seconds, he has made up his mind.
“shall we go, then?”
—
“alright, ground rules.”
just a handful of the team sits in the room, the ones who know what’s happening waiting eagerly for the green light while the rest wonders what the fuss is about. as much as you want to help them all, it’d be impossible; which is why iwaizumi picked the ones he thought needed the morale boost the most.
with a nod in your direction, he lets you know you’re free to speak.
“the jackals already know this,” you say and atsumu snickers from his seat, winking at you as hinata and bokuto nod excitedly, “but i’m not too strict about the entire thing.”
you can feel the pairs of curious eyes burning holes in you—trying to decipher what’s going on. so, after taking a deep breath and getting an awkward, encouraging smile from iwaizumi, you start voicing out the rules.
“please, be patient. there are so many of you and only one of me. i promise you’ll get your turn,” you give atsumu a pointed look, and this time it's sakusa who snorts while the blond setter rolls his eyes, “which brings me to the next rule, no seconds.”
a hand raises in the air, making you advert your attention to its owner.
“i still don’t get what’s happening,” suna’s eyes narrow down at you, noticing the embarrassment and hesitation in your posture.
“don’t worry, suna. we’ll show ya.”
“shut it, miya.”
clearing up your throat, you smile coyly at the middle blocker, “it’ll make sense once i finish explaining, suna-san.”
he shrugs but stays quiet. taking into account the jackals’ reactions plus the cryptic rules, an idea has already formed in his mind. but it couldn’t be that. right?
“uh, again, only one round. all entrances are fine,” you pause, going through the rules in your head to see if there’s anything you might be forgetting, “oh! and you’ll be paired up in teams of three to make things faster.”
“one more thing,” iwaizumi speaks up, this time looking at you instead of the awaiting men, “don’t forget to let us know how you’re doing.”
two loud claps break the tense atmosphere, “well, we should get started then,” atsumu raises from his spot and walks towards you. his hands cradle your face between them and lift it so you can face him properly, “what do ya say, princess?”
his lips land on yours before you can reply to him, a small squeal getting stuck in your throat when his hands travel down your body until he’s squeezing your ass.
you’re too caught up in the kiss to notice the new presence looming behind you.
“i’ll take your pussy before anyone can taint it with their dick.”
sakusa’s words make you shudder. you break apart from atsumu’s mouth to turn around and face him, his dark eyes alluring and drawing you towards him.
“oi, newbie,” atsumu calls out to suna who scoffs in return, “c’mere and join us.”
meanwhile, sakusa guides you to the bed, making you sit on his lap as you wait for the other two to show up. once they do, atsumu immediately settles behind you while suna stands awkwardly at the foot of the bed. it’s hard for you to read his expression since you’re not too familiar with him, so you offer him a reassuring smile and pat the spot next to you.
the rest of the team watches from their seats as the four of you get started.
suna lifts your chin, his eyes staring down at you before leaning down and kissing the corner of your mouth. he trails down your neck until he reaches your chest, sucking on the skin gently before running his tongue over the delicate area. in the meantime, atsumu unbuttons your blouse, taking it off and playing with your breasts while sakusa busies himself with taking your pants off.
“i get the hype, now,” suna whispers in your ear, blowing air on it and then biting down on your earlobe, making the hairs of your body rise.
his lips capture yours in a slow kiss —savoring your taste— and one of his hands goes to the back of your neck to keep you in place. his teeth play with your bottom lip, biting it softly and pulling away, his hooded eyes calculating your reaction.
“don’t get too excited, suna,” atsumu says from his spot behind you, pinching your nipples between his fingers and prompting a whine to escape your lips, “you’ll only get her mouth.”
“mhm, is that so?” suna’s question is directed towards you rather than atsumu, tilting your chin up and smirking at the dazed look in your eyes, “can’t wait to see that pretty mouth bulging with my cock, then.”
his lewd words earn a few coughs and clearing throats from the rest, which he chooses to ignore when your hand cups his growing bulge.
“enough you two, let the poor woman have a bit of pleasure too,” sakusa’s dark eyes look at you questioningly, silently asking if you’re ready to continue.
in return, you cup his face with your free hand and kiss his cheek—knowing he wouldn’t appreciate a kiss on the mouth when you just finished making out with another man.
they finish getting you out of your clothes until your bare cunt is hovering over sakusa’s lap. he’s quick to undress and ease his cock into you, suna and atsumu observing as they get rid of their clothes as well.
“fuck,” sakusa groans in your ear, the position allowing you to hide your face in his neck and wrap your arms around his shoulders, “always so tight.”
“scoot over, i need to prep her ass.”
suna snorts at atsumu’s words, pumping his cock twice before kneeling on the mattress—right next to you. he pats your cheek with the swollen head, looking down at you with a faint smirk.
“open up.”
your eyes immediately focus on his length, your mouth watering at the sight. you open your mouth and stick your tongue out, looking up at him and observing as he rests the tip on your tongue.
“looking so pretty with a cock in your mouth,” he slowly slides in, guiding your head down until half of him is inside, “so warm.”
a cold liquid dribbles on your backside, making you flinch forward and causing suna’s cock to slide in even more.
“relax, baby. it’s just me,” atsumu rubs the liquid on your asshole, playing with it with his finger before finally sliding it in.
your muscles contract involuntarily, making sakusa groan as he keeps still inside your pussy, waiting for you to grow used to the multiple things going on around you.
“hurry up before i start fucking her.”
a second finger slides in and you moan around suna’s cock, spit running at the corners of your mouth which reminds you to swallow. you hollow your cheeks and retract your mouth until only the tip remains inside, running your tongue over the slit and making the middle blocker shudder.
“someone’s hungry,” he muses.
you hum around him, bobbing your head back and forth and pumping the rest of his length with one hand.
“i’m gonna try get in now, okay?” atsumu taps your ass with his cock, lining it up with your asshole and thrusting in. he watches as the head of his cock finally slips in, groaning when the familiar tightness engulfs him, “that’s it, baby. doin’ so good for me.”
you have to remove your mouth from suna’s cock to avoid biting down on him, the stretch slightly more painful than pleasurable which eventually leads to you tensing up even more.
“you gotta relax,” atsumu says under his breath, strained by the way you feel around his dick.
it takes you around a minute to calm down, taking deep breaths until you feel yourself loosen up and, with one last push, he’s finally inside.
“omi?” you say against his neck, “could you move a bit, please?”
said man grunts as he starts to move his hips, your slick helping his cock glide in, “color.”
it takes you a few seconds to understand what he meant.
“oh! uhh, green.”
atsumu’s thrusts are slow —testing the waters— since the last thing he wants is to get yelled at for being too rough, too soon. but you’re growing impatient, moving your hips backwards and trying to get more of him inside of you.
“m-more, ‘tsumu. i can take it,” you say and he immediately complies, his muscular thighs now slapping against your ass.
suna remains kneeling next to you, cock in his hand as he waits for you to bring your attention back to him. but he doesn’t have to wait too long, your hand wrapping around his cock and guiding it back into your mouth once you’ve set a steady pace with the other two men.
“thought you had forgotten about me.”
he pushes your hair out of your face, watching your lips wrap around his girth. it’s taking all of his willpower to not hold your head and fuck your face until you’re gagging around him, afraid it might be a big ‘no’ from you. and since it’s the first time he’s getting to experience this, he decides to take whatever’s given to him.
“you’re so wet,” sakusa points out as he looks down at where you two are connected, observing his cock slide in and out of your cunt, covered with your slick.
“‘course she is, she’s being stuffed by three cocks.”
“feels good…” your manage to say after releasing suna with a pop, pumping his shaft with your hand, “a-am i making you feel better?”
a hand lands on your ass, causing you to yelp and tighten your hold on suna’s cock.
“what do ya think, hm? we’re getting our dicks wet in none other but our slutty little assistant's holes,” atsumu plays with your ass, squeezing it and humming when the imprint of his hands appears on the soft flesh.
“mhm, quite the slut you are,” sakusa whispers in your ear, kissing your neck afterwards, “as long as i get to make a mess out of that cunt of yours before anyone else, i will always enjoy these little sessions of ours.”
your eyes land on suna, waiting for him to say his thoughts on the matter.
his gaze drops to your hand, covered in his pre-cum and your spit which sends a jolt to his cock, making it throb in your hand.
“can’t say i hate it.”
you smile at his words, recognizing the challenge hidden behind them. your mouth wraps around the flushed tip, eyes closing when both sakusa and atsumu thrust up into your holes at the same time. you try to keep your hand steady as you suck suna off, but the lewd grunts and moans coming from them, plus their cocks filling you so nicely make your rhythm falter every once in a while.
a hand starts toying with your clit, causing you to moan around suna’s cock. the vibrations make him shudder, scowling at himself when he realizes his orgasm is approaching faster than he expected.
“fuck, fuck– princess? do you mind if i cum inside?” atsumu grunts.
your muscles clench at the thought of being filled with his cum, imagining the thick liquid oozing out of your sensitive holes only to stuff it back in with your fingers.
“y-yes, ‘tsumu. cum inside me,” you pant as your hands squeeze suna’s cock, pumping it faster as you notice his hips jerking towards you. you turn your face to look at sakusa, who has his eyebrows drawn upwards and his mouth open slightly as he too feels overwhelmed by the pleasure, “omi, you can cum inside as well.”
and he doesn’t need to be told twice, his large hands holding you by your hips so he can thrust his cock into your drenched cunt faster.
moans and squelching noises echo around the room. atsumu picks up his pace as he feels his orgasm approaching, his deep grunts fanning over your neck and taking over your hearing. the drag of sakusa’s pubic bone against your clit has you cumming shortly after. your head rolls forward as both men keep thrusting in and out of you, only stopping once their cum fill your clenching holes.
“shit– look at me,” suna orders you, and you barely have time to process what’s happening.
his cum lands on your face, his hand helping you pump his throbbing cock as the ropes of cum cover your skin. he exhales heavily once he’s done, brushing the flushed head of his cock over your swollen lips, and smearing the white liquid around them.
it’s silent for a few seconds, save for the heavy breathing and pants coming from your mouths.
“holy shit,” oikawa’s voice breaks the silence. his cock strains almost painfully against his pants at the sight of what awaits him.
“yeah, holy shit,” atsumu laughs off, brushing his hair out of his face with one hand as he massages the flesh of your ass with the other, “ya never disappoint, princess.”
with a grunt, the blond setter removes his softening cock from you, his honey eyes —plus a few curious ones— observing the way his cum dribbles out from your stretched hole. the same thing happens with sakusa, who lifts your hips off of him, his cock falling on his stomach and the mix of your slick and his cum dripping down on his length.
atsumu’s fingers immediately go to your cunt, pumping the juices back into you, “god, you love this. don’t you, baby?”
all you can do is whine, your hands clenching the sheets until he removes his fingers from your sensitive pussy, and stuffs them inside your mouth.
“we all get a turn?” kageyama whispers not so discreetly to hinata, who only nods eagerly in return.
you lick atsumu’s fingers clean which earns you a radiant smile from him.
“here.”
suna has his arm outstretched, handing you a tissue so you can clean your face.
“thank you,” you take it from his hands as you climb off of sakusa’s lap.
you’re cleaning the residues of cum on your face when a hand falls on top of your head.
“drink some water before you start the next round,” sakusa’s dark eyes suddenly seem warmer and kinder to you, patting your head before disappearing into the bathroom.
after tossing the used tissue away, you turn to iwaizumi and give him a firm nod.
“who’s next?”
your dazzling smile has the rest of the men in awe, silently praying it’s them who get to feel your body with their hands next.
“bokuto,” the wing spiker’s immediately perks up at the sound of his name, “you, kageyama, and hakuba are next.”
the three men raise from their seats and make their way towards the bed—towards you.
“hey, bo,” you offer a loving smile to him, “you ready?”
his strong arms wrap around you, kissing your cheek loudly and making you giggle, “it feels as if i’ve been waiting forever. of course, i’m ready!”
meanwhile, kageyama and gao stand at the foot of the bed, waiting for any instructions or a signal from you that could tell them when to start. luckily, you’re quick to notice their hesitation.
”is there a particular place where you want to be?” you ask them, looking specifically at kageyama and gao, since you want to make sure they feel included.
“dibs on your mouth!”
you blush at bokuto’s enthusiasm but accept his request, stroking his cheek as you wait for the other two to answer.
“i’ll take whatever,” kageyama says and scratches the back of his neck.
“me too,” gao smiles and takes a few steps towards you, making bokuto move away from you. his large hand tucks one piece of your hair away, his eyes staring at yours before dropping to your lips, “although, i think i’d like it better if i had your pussy gripping my cock. wouldn’t you like that?”
he presses his front against yours, his erection poking at your belly which earns a small gasp from you. you have to stop yourself from taking a look at the tent in his sweatpants, trying to figure out how much of him there is hidden inside the fabric.
“o-okay.”
the middle blocker smiles at you before diving down to your lips. his hands grab your waist, lifting you up from the ground and making you wrap your legs around his torso. he gently places you down on the bed and kisses his way down your neck until his mouth is right above your erect nipple.
“hey! i want to kiss her too,” bokuto complains, “you can’t hog her like that.”
“s’okay bo, come here.”
he doesn’t have to be told twice, immediately climbing onto the bed and leaning down to kiss your lips.
you grab the back of his head and run your fingers through his soft hair, pulling on it gently which causes a groan to rumble in his chest.
a pair of hands slide over your legs, pushing them apart until your bare cunt is spread wide open for everyone to see.
“you’re dripping, babe,” gao murmurs over your nipple, giving it a light tug before flicking his tongue over it, “do you want my cock that badly?”
you can only moan and nod, your lips still busy with bokuto’s.
but there’s someone who still has yet to join you.
“tobio-chan, if you’re not going to do anything then let me take your place instead.”
oikawa’s words snap you out of your daze. you pat bokuto’s cheek signaling him to let go of you, and the same thing happens with gao as you try to sit up. your eyes fall on kageyama who stands at the same spot with a conflicted look and an obvious erection in his pants.
“hey,” you crawl your way towards him and sit on your knees, “are you uncomfortable?”
his mouth opens but nothing comes out of it. he can feel the weight of everyone’s stare on him, making him look away from you.
a few seconds pass and there’s still no answer.
“you don’t have to do this, you know?” you say in a small tone, slightly confused as to why he’s rejecting you, “i just thought… i could help you relax.”
he nods, still avoiding your gaze.
you take a look at iwaizumi –who looks as equally as puzzled as you– before looking back at the setter.
“do you want to leave?”
at this, his head finally snaps towards you, “no, i-” he pauses. his eyes are immediately drawn to your mouth, making him involuntarily wet his lips, “i want to stay.”
relief washes over you, a timid smile spreading on your lips which is quickly mirrored by him. you take his hand in yours and guide him to the other side of the bed, urging him to join the rest of you. there’s a hunger in his eyes that has your pussy dripping with your slick, a sigh leaving your lips when your back hits the pillows as you watch him take gao’s previous spot.
“kiss me, tobio.”
and he does. it starts slow, hesitant, but it soon turns desperate. his tongue strokes yours before sucking on it, spit coating your lips thanks to the messiness of the kiss. the strain of his cock inside his pants becomes too uncomfortable to his liking, causing him to start humping against you, trying to relieve himself.
noticing his predicament, you move your hand between your bodies and palm his hard-on. he groans against your lips, his hips jerking forward seeking more of your touch.
in the meantime, both bokuto and gao pump their cocks with their hands, having taken their clothes off while you talked to kageyama.
gao squeezes the head of his cock between his hands, pre-cum oozing from the slit as he imagines the way your cunt is going to grip him, “babe, you’re making us suffer.”
“get in line!”
“atsumu, shut the fuck up.”
“baby?” bokuto asks from where he stands, his own cock stiff and ready to be inside your mouth, “we don’t mean to be pushy, but do you think you could get to us soon?”
“bokuto-san, you’re going to break a rule!” hinata says, clearly concerned for his teammate, “be patient, remember?”
the rest of the team laughs and you can’t help but join them.
at this, bokuto pouts playfully at you, “you’re just teasing me, baby.”
“then come here,” you gasp when kageyama’s mouth sucks at the base of your neck, “y-you wanted my mouth, right?”
bokuto kneels next to your face, patting the leaking tip on your lips.
“i’m going to fuck that pretty mouth of yours and you’re going to take it like a good girl,” he says, his tone leaving no room for questions, “open.”
you comply immediately, lolling out your tongue and waiting for him to rest his heavy cock on top of it.
the lewd sight in front of him makes bokuto shudder. his hands grasp your head, pushing you down his length until he feels your throat constricting around him.
“fuck– baby,” he grunts and gives a shallow thrust, “i know you can do better than that.”
you try to relax your jaw so you can fit more of him inside of your mouth. but as you are about to graze your nose against his pubic bone, a finger runs between your folds causing you to flinch.
“i’m still here.”
gao’s tone sounds stern, even if a playful smile tugs his lips upwards, you can see the seriousness swirling in his eyes.
kageyama sighs and leaves your side, stepping away momentarily to take his pants off.
the middle blocker takes it as his chance to settle between your legs as bokuto keeps your mouth busy.
“you’re drenched, sweetheart,” he muses, running his digits over your slit, “don’t worry, i’ll fill this pussy with my cock so well that you’ll be cumming in no time.”
your eyes travel to his shaft, watching as he pumps it twice before running it between your folds. your brows furrow when you notice how heavy it feels, making you wonder if it will fit in.
he lines himself up with your hole, pushing the head inside which is enough to have you whining around bokuto’s cock.
“you look so sexy,” bokuto groans, pushing your head away from him and watching your spit run down your mouth. he looks at kageyama who stands awkwardly with his cock in hand, “i guess we’re sharing her mouth.”
the setter’s eyes widen slightly before nodding, mimicking bokuto’s position and nudging his cock on your lips, “suck.”
your breath hitches at his order, caught off guard by his demanding tone. you grab his cock from the base and guide it into your mouth, pumping bokuto’s length with your other hand. you hum around kageyama, running your tongue over the head of his cock before hollowing your cheeks and sucking harshly on it.
but your attention on them doesn’t last too long, the sudden feel of your pussy getting split open by gao’s cock taking it away.
“so tight,” he grunts, one of his hands running over the skin of your inner thigh until he reaches your soaking cunt. he pulls your folds apart, watching you struggle to take his cock inside you—no matter how wet you are, “i bet those jackals haven’t been fucking you like you deserve.”
“oi!” “not true!”
you free your mouth from kageyama and use both hands to pump his and bokuto’s cock, “s-so big, ugh-”
gao pushes more of him in, half of his cock already inserted in you. but he’s just so thick, so big, that you can’t help but clamp down your walls around him. his thumb starts rubbing circles on your clit, trying to relax your walls, as his other hand settles on your abdomen.
“you’re going to be so full of my cock that you’ll be able to see it,” he gives a gentle pat to your belly, “right here.”
your grip on the other two men tightens as gao finally bottoms out, a whine breaking through your lips at the stretch.
“if only you could see yourself,” his thrusts are lazy, mesmerized by the way your belly bulges when he pushes his cock inside you, “so fucking sexy with my fat cock inside your cunt.”
your lips wrap around the tip of bokuto’s cock once more, closing your eyes as pleasure clouds your head. he thrusts in, hitting the back of your throat and making you gag.
“good girl,” bokuto exhales, “taking my cock so well.”
you quicken the pace of your other hand, looking at kageyama as you obscenely suck bokuto.
the setter’s eyes refuse to leave yours, “who would’ve thought our assistant could be so naughty.”
“as if you’re complaining,” gao says, lifting your leg over his shoulder. the new angle allowing him to press his hips closer to yours.
“i never said i was.”
bokuto curses under his breath when you start sucking his balls, pumping the rest of his length with your hand and squeezing the head of kageyama’s cock with the other.
“you’re going to make me cum,” bokuto groans.
giggling, you lick your way up and run your tongue over the slit, “cum in my mouth.”
the sound of collective groans echoes in the room, a fair amount of players finding your words arousing.
“what a slut, let’s see if you keep talking when you’re covered in our cum.”
gao’s threat goes straight to your pussy, making you cream around his girth. the pace of his thumb on your clit quickens once he notices your walls spasming around him.
“ngh, fuck!” you’re breathing heavily by now, barely managing to keep the pace of your hands consistent, “i-i’m gonna… i’m gonna cum.”
“let go, baby.”
one of gao’s hands travels up your body until he’s pinching your nipple between his fingers.
“shit, shit, shit,” you’re thrashing underneath him, your cunt fluttering around his cock thanks to your orgasm.
kageyama’s way too focused on the way your face contorts in pleasure to notice how his hips have started to jerk faster. that is until the familiar coil suddenly snaps and his cum lands on your chin and part of your chest.
“h-how did you get even tighter- hah!”
warm spurts of cum fill your cunt, the sense of fullness intensifying as gao frees his load inside of you.
“i’m cumming, baby. fuck, fuck–” bokuto chants your name as he too reaches his orgasm, quickly shoving his cock into your mouth and releasing his thick cum inside of it.
you make sure to keep sucking him, milking his cock dry. once you remove your mouth from him, you bring his and kageyama’s cock closer to your face and pucker your lips, letting the mix of cum and spit fall on their cocks before giving a few kitten licks to the flushed heads.
gao starts to remove his cock from your insides, cursing at the state of your pussy once he’s finally out.
“holy fuck, she’s tightening around nothing.”
you let out a low moan when his fingers spread your lower lips, “t-too sensitive.”
“i think that’s enough,” iwaizumi intervenes, pushing him away, “color?”
“yellow,” but you continue as soon as you see his face become stern, “relax, i just need to calm down a bit.”
kageyama offers you a towel before awkwardly thanking you for your help. and after receiving a kiss on the forehead from bokuto, the three of them leave to go clean themselves.
“iwa-chan, why don’t you give her a massage?”
you let your body fall on the mattress, extending your arms above your head and moaning at the stretch.
“mm, that’d be nice.”
iwaizumi rolls his eyes playfully when he sees you pouting at him, “get on your stomach, i’ll be right back.”
in the meantime, oikawa and hinata take the spots next to you, eager to finally have their turn with you.
“you’re so pretty,” oikawa runs his hands over the skin of your shoulders, “those idiots are lucky to have you.”
your eyes start closing up, focusing on the feel of his fingers on your skin and making goosebumps appear all over your body.
“shoyo, we should help her relax too. don’t you think?”
you catch the suggestive tone in his voice, but his touch feels so good that you choose to ignore it.
both men start caressing your body, hinata’s hands paying special attention to your shoulders while oikawa pets your hair, murmuring sweet nothings.
“you ready?” iwaizumi pops back into the room, a bottle of oil and a clean towel in his hands.
“mhm.”
the towel rests on your ass, iwaizumi’s warm hands spreading the oil on your back and rubbing at the sore muscles.
“does that feel good, princess?” oikawa asks when he hears you sigh. you are about to reply when iwaizumi hits a sore spot, a groan slipping past your lips and making the setter chuckle, “can you tell me your color now?”
“green.”
oikawa looks at iwaizumi and both men seem to communicate through their eyes, the latter smirking before going back to work.
at first, you don’t pay too much attention to his movements, choosing to focus on the pleasure. but then you notice how his hands seem to ghost lower and lower until he’s kneading your ass, the towel long forgotten.
before you can comment on it, he moves them to your thighs, massaging the soft flesh. it all goes back to normal –or so you think– until his hands reach higher and his digits start grazing your slit.
“hajime…”
“shh,” oikawa coos in your ear, pushing your hair out of your face and kissing your temple, “let him take care of you.”
iwaizumi inserts one finger inside your pussy, curling it until he’s teasing the spongy walls.
whines escape your mouth, your hands gripping the bedsheets which are quickly replaced by hinata’s hands.
“so cute.”
another finger slips in and makes you open your eyes, looking at oikawa helplessly, “o-oikawa-san-”
“tooru,” he interrupts you.
“tooru,” you try his name and he hums, letting you know he’s listening, “could you… uh, k-kiss me?”
“of course, princess.”
he leans down to capture your lips, swallowing your moans when iwaizumi curls both fingers and massages your spot.
you open your legs, allowing iwaizumi to finger you better as you rut your hips on the mattress, rubbing your clit against the fabric of the sheets and chasing after your orgasm.
“iwa– faster, please.”
he complies immediately, causing wetness to gush out of your cunt and making the distinctive squelching sounds fill the room.
“i’m gonna– ah! i’m c-cumming!”
“cum for me,” he encourages you, and that’s all you need.
you gush around his fingers, your slick coating them as you squirm under the gaze of the three men.
hinata tugs at your hand, pulling you underneath him and kissing you sloppily. you gasp on his mouth, caught off guard by the sudden movement but quickly melting into the kiss.
he blushes once he pulls away, “s-sorry, couldn’t help myself.”
“it’s okay, shoyo,” you breathe out, caressing his cheek, “want me to help you?”
he beams at your offer, nodding eagerly as he watches you climb on top of him. you straddle his hips and run your cunt over his cock, shivering when his length grazes your clit.
“do you want me to ride you?” you whisper, playing with his hair.
“wait- i think i have a better idea.”
hinata lifts you from his lap and moves until he’s sitting on the edge of the mattress. he pushes your hips with his hands, turning you around so you’re facing away from him.
“you can sit on my lap now.”
your ass rests right on top of his cock, but he hooks his arms on your knees, spreading you open, as he lets himself fall back on the mattress.
“what are you–”
“oikawa-san, doesn’t this remind you of something?”
said man laughs, “how could i forget? we had quite some fun back in brazil, huh?”
you’re visibly confused, looking at oikawa with furrowed brows, “what do you want to do?”
“say, princess,” his tone suddenly sounds too sweet for your liking, “have you ever had two cocks in one hole?”
your eyes widen, looking back and forth between oikawa and iwaizumi—who has ridden himself of his clothes and sits next to you, his thick cock in his hand.
“i’ll take that as a no.”
“can we do that?” hinata asks from behind you, his breath fanning on your ear, “we’ll be gentle.”
“there’s literally another free hole for you to use!” someone yells, clearly annoyed they didn’t get the chance to do it.
oikawa clicks his tongue, “where’s the fun in that?”
after taking a minute to think it through, you agree to their offer, “okay… uh- iwa?” you turn to look at him, “what about you?”
seeing as there’s no room for him to take your ass, his eyes land on your mouth. and with two taps of his finger on your cheek, he lets you know his decision.
“think you can suck me off?”
they’re all given the green light when you answer his question. hinata raises you from his lap, aligning his cock with your entrance before letting your weight fall on top of it. you groan at the familiar thickness stretching you nicely, missing the flash of hunger in the setter’s eyes.
“my turn.”
oikawa presses the tip on your entrance, pushing forward and making room for his own cock.
the burn of having two cocks in one hole is new to you, but it’s surprisingly more pleasurable than you thought it’d be. you lift your eyes to look at oikawa, his gaze already locked on you, and you feel your pussy cream around their cocks at the lust in his eyes.
“enjoying yourself, princess?”
you moan when he bottoms out, watching the muscles of his abdomen contract and feeling his cock pulsing inside of you.
the thrill of being stretched by two cocks, at the same time, has your head spinning; your thoughts becoming lewd as you picture both men cumming inside you and globs of cum dripping from your abused hole.
“oikawa-san, did you feel that?” hinata asks. half-amused, half excited, “she’s squeezing us so well.”
“naughty, princess,” the setter grunts, “don’t forget about iwa-chan.”
you turn your head to face him, catching the irritated look he sends oikawa before looking down at you.
iwaizumi’s eyes immediately soften, but a smirk slowly tugs at the corners of his lips, “you seem busy.”
“there’s always room for japan’s national team athletic trainer.”
he can’t help but laugh, shaking his head at the silly title. he raises from his seat and settles himself above you, his cock hovering on your face and making your mouth water.
“whenever you’re ready.”
you don’t need to be told twice. grasping his thick cock with your hand, you lean forward and flick your tongue on the head, looking at him through your lashes with faux innocence.
“start moving,” iwaizumi hisses, the words directed at the other two men, “seems like she needs a little reminder of who’s in charge right now.”
oikawa and hinata look at each other with smirks on their lips. as hinata said earlier, they’ve been in this position before, so there’s no need for words between them since they both know what’s coming next.
hinata moves his head slightly to the side, allowing you to rest your head on his shoulder and, at the same time, granting him the view of your cunt being filled with their cocks.
“look at her, oikawa-san” his eyes are locked on your pussy, captivated by the way you suck them in, “she looks so pretty with two cocks splitting her open.”
hinata’s lewd words prompt you to involuntarily moan, the vibrations landing on iwaizumi’s cock.
“hmm, you like it when you’re reduced to nothing but a slut. don’t you?”
you blink up at iwaizumi as you keep bobbing your head up and down his shaft, opting to hum to let him know you’re not ignoring him.
but his words catch someone else’s attention.
“is that true?” oikawa asks, amusement clear in his voice, “you like being reminded you’re a whore? how much of a greedy slut you are by fucking an entire volleyball team?”
you’re speechless, his words –matched with his and hinata’s harsh thrusts– causing your eyes to roll to the back of your head.
“answer me.”
oikawa’s hand wraps around your throat, barely applying any pleasure but it’s enough to send your mind into a frenzy.
after releasing iwaizumi’s cock from your mouth, you take a second to swallow down your spit before answering him.
“y-yes, tooru. i like being treated like a slut.”
his eyes sparkle with mischief, pleased by your words.
“good, because that’s how you’re going to be treated from now on.”
a hand travels to your throbbing clit, rubbing circles on the sensitive nub.
“s-shoyo!”
“shh, it’ll make you feel good.”
something wet slaps against your cheek, “don’t get distracted.”
you nod and go back to sucking iwaizumi off, moaning every time hinata or oikawa hit a spot inside your cunt. you dare take a look at where your body connects with both men, and you catch yourself becoming entranced by the way their cocks slide in and out of your pussy so easily.
you are familiar with hinata’s cock, but it’s nice to see the contrast between the two of them. while hinata’s length is thick and veiny, oikawa’s leans towards the slimmer side—but still with a considerable length. either way, both men manage to hit those sweet spots inside you and make you see stars.
“shit– princess,” oikawa falters a bit when he feels your walls fluttering around him.
“we can cum inside you, right?” hinata asks, sensing his orgasm approaching. after all, he had been waiting for his turn for around an hour.
you pull away from iwaizumi, a string of spit connecting your lips with his cock and causing it to twitch at the sight.
“you can cum wherever you want.”
“oh? the team’s cocksleeve,” oikawa adds, “i see.”
iwaizumi chuckles, combing your hair out of your face and pushing his cock back into the warmth of your mouth, “you like that nickname, sweetheart?”
with his length still in your mouth, you manage to hum in affirmation.
hinata’s pace on your clit quickens as his hips jerk faster, your cunt squeezing their cocks even more in return, “i’m cumming, ah– i-i’m gonna cum!”
he manages to say before you feel him twitch inside you, pumping his cum into your walls. the fullness plus his rapid movements on your clit cause the familiar warmth to take over your body. but it’s your fourth orgasm of the night, and before you can warn anyone, liquid spurts out of your cunt.
you squirm on top of hinata, gushing around his and oikawa’s cock while your mouth remains occupied with iwaizumi’s.
“holy shit.”
both oikawa and iwaizumi cum at the sight of you squirting before them, observing the wetness soaking oikawa’s abdomen and running all the way down onto the bedsheets. they groan as they feel their load releasing into you, oikawa filling your tender cunt while iwaizumi fills your mouth.
you try to swallow a bit of iwaizumi’s cum but it’s useless. your chest heaves in exhaustion, your eyes closing involuntarily as you’re being hit with wave after wave of fatigue.
“hey,” oikawa winces when he removes his cock from you. he shoots a worried glance at iwaizumi before he’s leaning forward so he can take a closer look at you, “princess? how are you feeling?”
iwaizumi nudges hinata with his knee, wordlessly telling him to let go of you.
the following moments become a foggy mess, your mind barely registering the pair of arms wrapping around you and carrying you somewhere else.
all you can feel is tiredness, and the dampness between your thighs, before you finally pass out.
—
consciousness slowly makes its way to you, replacing the sleepiness and making you aware of your surroundings as a familiar soreness sits heavy on your body.
in an instant, flashbacks from the previous night run through your mind.
you grip the duvet and push it away from you, only to notice the set of clothes you’re wearing: an oversized hoodie and a pair of sweatpants that clearly don’t belong to you. but you don’t have time to dwell on it, the sound of your ringtone blasting all over the room and making you scramble around the bed so you can answer the call.
but it’s of no use when it goes to voicemail—you were a bit too late.
when you manage to find your phone, you tap on the screen to see whose call you just missed.
‘hajime’
your fingertips hover on the contact name, debating between returning the call or wait for him to call you again. but a few notifications pop up at the top of the screen signaling you have three text messages from him.
hey, i guess you’re still asleep. don’t freak out when you wake up, you deserve the rest so it’s okay if you stay in bed. i left your breakfast on the nightstand and you can always call me if you need anything else.
and i thought you’d like to see this.
there’s a link attached at the end of the message.
you click on it and wait for the page to load, tapping your nails on the back of your phone anxiously. a headline in big bold letters takes over the screen and you have to stop yourself from squealing.
‘japan men’s volleyball team makes it past the first round.’
you start scrolling down the article, reading how spectacular the match was and how the entire team seemed to be in their best shape. you feel your face heat up when you read the argentinian team won their match too, with multiple comments praising oikawa’s performance.
with a smile on your lips, you go back to your messages to type a quick reply to iwaizumi. only to notice you have one more text from him.
it’s our turn to take care of you.
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I love that alpha beta makes mechanical sounds? When he's running up the stairs away from Brett and Reagan we can hear his legs making that whining noise its so good. Not a request I just LOVE THOSE DETAILS
AAAA GOD I FEEL THE EXACT SAME. GRRKGKRKR YOU'VE ACTIVATED MY BRAIN IM SORRY <333
ALL SFW
LISTEN I <3333 AM A MESS FOR ROBOTS SO YOU'RE GETTING A BUNCH OF Extra Headcanons About AB's Robot Noises
LIKE /HE/ DOESN'T NOTICE THEM BUT YOU DEFINITELY DO??
it does take a while to figure out what each sound correlates to though. Like at first you just notice Oh His Eyes Make Noise Sometimes. Sometimes His Chest Makes A Weird Noise. It's only after a few months that you,,, actually notice Oh Shit Theres A Pattern Here-
HIS FANS ARE PROBABLY THE HARDEST TO NAIL???
Because like,, their purpose is to Cool His Insides, etc etc, but there's A LOT OF REASONS HE COULD BE OVERHEATING.
though there is definitely a difference to the noise when they start up bc of temperature?? Much more monotonous!!
If he's angry its this,, vv deep whirring sound?? Like this Heavy Droning Noise that goes between Very Subtle and Overbearing.
IF HE'S FLUSTERED ITS WAY SHARPER N HIGH-PITCHED?? Not painful to listen to, just noticably higher!!
Sometimes its hard to point out bc,, it'll click on for a few seconds, then off again!! (might jump up if he stumbled over his words, tripped over smth, etc. He's very prideful so little things like that make him FLUSTERED sdmnsd)
BUT IF HE'S PROPERLY RUFFLED???? <3333 he sounds like an AC unit I stg smndsmd.
HIS FANS GOING BATSHIT IS AS CLOSE AS HE CAN GET TO BLUSHING <333 DO WITH THAT WHAT YOU WILL
Whirring of eyes = staring very intensely, that's kinda obvious - he will sometimes get his eyes stuck bc Hes ~Dramatic~ and rolls them too hard smdnsmdnd.
WHEN HE'S WORRIED?? you'll hear smth akin to like the tic-tic-tic of a clock?? Whenever he's nervous he subconsciously starts doing diagnostics on his own systems!!
When he clenched his jaw theres,, an audible Whirring of Some Mechanism Being Strained. 99% of the time it's bc he's resisting the urge to smack smb.
GOD there's even just,, mundane stuff?? Like hearing the slight whirr of his fingers when he cups his cheek or plays with your hair?? <333
AT FIRST HE DOESN'T REALIZE WHY YOU CAN ALWAYS TELL WHATS ON HIS MIND?? Hes A Perfect Creation, Hes Completely Unreadable How The Fuck Are You Doing This. It would be frustrating if it wasn't
'Oh love </3 I just have a cold!! You don't need to be worried <3'
'how did you-?'
'Your fans are ticking <3 we've been dating for 3 years, you really think I can't tell when you're upset? <3'
AND,,, <333 GOD DOESN'T HIS MOTOR JUST START WHIRRING LIKE ITS ABOUT TO POP OUTTA HIS CHEST BC <333 >:( you're being loving and attentive and paying attention to the intricacies of how he works. Goddamit he's hopelessly endeared once again >:(( you bastard <3
ALSO MISC STUFF???
<33 pressing your head to his chest sounds like,, pressing your ear to your laptop/computer. Just that,, vvv quiet humming??
If he was at Full Functioning Capacity there'd be a lot less of those little details but he's currently been torn in half so YEA SMNDSM THE SOUNDS OF HIS MACHINERY WORKING ARE A LOT MORE NOTICABLE?? after he gets put back together it stops sounding like a Jet Engine Landing whenever he notices you smdnsSDMSNDM
Okay I can't tell if they put the Slightest Bit Of Autotune Over Every Line He Says, or if Chris Diamantopoulos' voice is just,, super gravelly but <333 YEA. no related thoughts here I'm just.. wowowow his voice. Gee golly <3
okay maybe a few thoughts <33
CAUSE,,, YKNOW, THE CLASSIC THING OF His Voice Glitches When He Shows Extreme Emotion (tm) IS ALWAYS FUN <333
like sometimes when he calls you My Love/My Darling Human/etc you'll hear his voice skip a few times bc <333 he's so in love <3
RRRR SOMETIMES WHEN HE LAUGHS IT SKIPS LIKE A VINYL RECORD. only when he's laughing really hard <333 so it's pretty rare to hear. It can be unnerving to some ppl bc,, it gets this Layered Effect but <333 you love it
gay gay homosexual gay <3 MSDNSMD THANK YOU FOR THIS IT WAS LOVELY
#tell me why the first time I heard AB my brain was like 'Theres Smth Suspiciously Canadian Afoot Here' AND TELL ME WHY I WAS RIGHT???#chris diamantopoulos IS TORONTONIAN AHAHA.#LIKE I GAIN NOTHING FROM KNOWING THIS BUT I FEEL MAGICAL MSNDMASNDMSANDMSAD#ok enough GOOFS this was vv cute to write TYSM!!!#why yes it IS AN AB KINDA DAY <33333#its ok i know y'all expect this by now MSNDMSNDSM#alpha-beta#robotus alpha-beta#alpha-beta x reader#robotus alpha-beta x reader#sfw#inside job#LMK IF YOU HAVE OTHER THOUGHTS HERE#heem heem im not straight <3#i always go into AB asks like 'ok im just gonna write a few things' and then </3 700 words later#APOLOGIES IF THIS WAS NONSENSICAL SDMNSDS ITS BEEN A LONG DAY#oh ab <33333
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So I’ve been on a rollercoaster of highs and lows lately and it’s really driving my anxiety to new heights. Which in turn has made my anxiety tics very frequent. (For me, these are full body tics, almost like a sudden chill or shiver that makes my whole body jerk. As well as eye twitches that can last for hours and sometimes cause headaches.) Of course, I have started thinking of my comfort movie and comfort characters as a distraction— but it has me wondering, how would the Triple Frontier boys react to anxiety tics if their s.o. had them? Just thought I’d send it in as a request, if you’re comfortable writing for the situation. <3
TF Boys and a S/O with anxiety tics
A/N: I have never experienced this, but I tried my best with the information you gave me. I hope this finds you sweet anon and brings some comfort. I am sorry this has taken me a while. I’ve been in a bit of a slump.
The song below made me think of this prompt, so I thought I’d include it.
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Frankie ‘Catfish’ Morales: Frankie can tell when you are getting stressed and anxious. You get a lot quieter and withdraw in yourself a lot more, and when he notices your eye twitch, he starts to get ready. He read about anxiety tics when you first started dating and told him, and he knows exactly what to do. He gets out a bottle of Tylenol and the softest blankets you own, puts on your favorite movie, and orders takeout. The whole night as you shiver, he wraps you like a burrito and holds you close to his chest, being your rock.
Santiago ‘Pope’ Garcia: Very similar to Frankie, he knows exactly what to do when you get your anxious tics. But he doesn’t keep you home; he loves to take you for a drive through the mountains, his hand on your thigh, the radio playing classic rock as he talks about anything and everything until the lull of the engine and his voice finally allow you to sleep. He drives as long as he needs to, pulling a blanket out of the back seat and tossing it over you as he keeps a steady pace, his hand rubbing patterns the whole time.
William ‘Ironhead’ Miller: Will is really observant; it’s in his nature to notice everything going on around him, especially when it comes to you. He sees the twitch and shivers start and doesn’t bring any extra attention to it. Instead, he just starts making your life easier in simple ways. He picks up the mess around the house, does the dishes, even runs you a bath with one of your new bath bombs to help you relax. When you emerge, dinner is made, and he curls you close on the couch, soft music playing in the background as he rubs your shoulders and kisses your head.
Benny Miller: Benny understands how stressed you’ve been, he’s seen the signs, and when you shiver, he comes over and starts talking about the most random shit. He tells you stories about growing up with Will, his time in Delta Force, one time he goes into explicit detail about the greatest sandwich he’s ever eaten at this diner in Austin, Texas. You feel yourself relaxing and smiling at the utter ridiculousness of his stories. While the tics don’t stop, you aren’t hyper-focused on them anymore, all your attention on the loveable golden retriever that is Benny.
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Cede I would absolutely love to see a list of why Ed is on the spectrum and adhd,,,, if you find the time,,,, pls let us see
ED IS AUTISTIC/ ADHD!
Okay its like. 11:30 right now and I’m not super coherent cause haha Tired but I’m gonna try to just quickly list off a lot of the major things but uhh.
I’m not dividing up the ADHD and autism traits cause theres a lot of overlap and also im projecting and hve both. AHEM!!
- has a comfort item, gets pissed when it gets made fun of or ruined (his COAT!!)
- hyperfixating on certain fields of research (Marcoh’s notes, bioalchemy, human)
- guys alchemy is his special intrest please listen. Listen. Remember how in Rush Valley he compared childbirth to alchemy? THATS EXACTLY WHAT A SPECIAL INTEREST IS FOR! It helps us interpret and interact with the world!
- experiences emotional shutdowns (Nina, after finding out about Hughes, when Winry saw the inside of his watch, Hohenheim’s return to Resembool etc.)
- Ed has physical meltdowns too, most notably when he dug up what he and Al transmuted together. This was shown to literally knock him down for a full day and the storm made it worse on top of that.
- he’s not good at articulating himself outside of alchemy/ his special interest.
- He often doesn’t understand why what he says might upset people (like Rose)
- uses what he DOES know (alchemy, research, fighting) to communicate his feelings to those around him in the best way he can, like the fight with Al on the roof or when he proposed to Winry
- his brain is wired differently. Like we just see it in how he picks things apart during the show
- this one is small but I will never forget the scene in Rush Valley when Ed was desperately covering his ears from the whole childbirth thing. Like yeah understandable but also. Sensory issues
- actually Ed has more sensory stuff then that. Especially with sounds, I’ve noticed. He reacts to noise or words very animatedly and also Really Really dislikes being tactile. Ed dosnt really want to be touched if he can help it (mood)
- has little stims and tics!! He twirls his pen in enough episodes for me to think its a habit and always does this super specific 🧐 gesture. Also the clapping can definitely count as a reflexive impusle
- low key same foods (ACHOOO Apple pie)
- cannot Compute. When people. Do. Things sometimes. Like why is Mustang helping me?? Why does Hughes keep visiting my hospital room? Why is Major Armstrong Like That? He Isnt great at reading people unless hes close with them!
- the fact that Ed has no volume control and also yells a lot (vocal stim im JUST sayin—)
- WICKED tunnel vision when he gets interested in a topic. It was pointed out straight up in the Nina ep.
- okay my hands are gettibg tired and those are all the ones that can be backed up with evidence without me extrapolating. There’s some more but I don’t wanna have to analyze this too much lmao
#anon#bless u for letting me go off about this#i need a tag for asks so bam#fmab#fma#fullmetal alchemist#edward elric#ed elric#fullmetal alchemist: brotherhood#fma: b#fma: brotherhood#fullmetal alchemist: b#edward elric headcanon#headcanon#fma headcanons#fmab headcanon
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hello may i have a haikyuu matchup plz<3
Hi my name is rex, i’m queer and use they/them pronouns and i’m 15. And i would prefer someone not over the age of 19 plz.
have like a caramel colored skin-tone (i feel like saying im black may be easier but 🤷🏽♀️) and im 5’3. Rn i have a purple-pink short mullet and i have pretty curly hair, im pretty chubby but i have an hourglass shape (but i have super noticeable hip dips) , i got pretty big fucking tittes (not even in a bragging way, im a fuckin k cup bro😭) and thicc thighs(thicc thighs save lives, sorry i’ll stop). I dress pretty alternative but i cant just choose one subculture tho, i wear a lot of heavy eye makeup. I could say i dress kinda “showy” but thats kinda what only fits me, but also who gives a fuck.
Honestly I don’t really have a type. Tbh most of my relationships have ended pretty badly cause they ether only wanted something sexual from me or I was “too clingy” when i just wanted basic ass affection. But the most I want is someone who is physically affectionate (like kisses, cuddles, and hugs for days) also im ok with pda to an extent like i will hug and like cuddle you but im not gonna make out with your infront of others thats weird af.
Im a libra sun, scropio moon, and gemini rising. This means that im a pretty social person and always wanna hang out with friends and just have fun, but moon in scropio makes my emotions rlly haywire and kinda boosts any sorta negative emotion, which is hard when you have chronic anxiety and major depressive disorder. Which also means i take medication for it, which i forget a lot. And because of these things i have anxiety tics, where it ranges to making noices and twitching a bit to full on hitting myself and saying random shit. But I really like making people laugh, it makes me feel helpful, but im also good at being to mother figure for people. I also like playfully bantering with people, like i love you but will full on roast you and get into fake fist-fights. I am a bit of a violent person at times but I have a punching bag and boxing gloves which help a lot. But I only get that angry when someone uses an insecurity of mine against me or is talking bad about someone i love, cause it you do that im beating your ass. I do have a bit of body insecurities mainly about my hip-dips and stomach. But because im curvy i get hit on by adults a lot and its creepy as fuck.
My hobbies include art (painting, drawing), sleeping (because i stay up mad late😭✌🏽), reading comics, Marvel and D.C superheroes, and super villains, cartoons, and anime/manga.
My favorite music genre’s are rock, alternative, emo, rap, and a little bit if indie music.
Personality: funny, sarcastic, creative, kind, inappropriate and the right times. Like im not gonna pull out a dick joke in front of your family
I don’t really have a type and im queer so i dont have a gender preference, but anyone who’s love language is physical affection cause im a clingy bitch
I have a couple ideal dates. So the first one is like an indoor picnic and a movie, an arcade date, and a stargazing date where you get take out or fast food and drive up a hill to see the stars and you like cuddle n shit
CAN-
CAN WE BE FRIENDS PLS
POR FAVOR
THIS WAS SO MUCH FUN
OKAY DOWN TO BUSINESS
I match you with……..!
Ryuunosuke Tanaka!
I just get such big vibes that Tanaka would be head over heels for you.
First and foremost: the 7 inch height difference? Yes please.
He loves to rest his arm on your shoulder bc it’s just so cute to him.
He loves your style??? I think Tanaka is also an alt Boi himself.
I’m talkin ripped jeans, skater Boi tees. Like he already wears beanies???
He loves your hip dips bc he swears that his hands fit perfectly on your hips.
HE WILL WANT YOU TO DO HIS EYE MAKEUP BC HE LOVES YOURS
Tanaka is always down for a night on the town. He loves being social and hanging with people.
But I also think that big crowds might intimidate him in just the slightest
He’ll never tell tho.
So I think he’ll cling to your forearm if he gets nervous.
Whenever you have the big sad, he brings over stuff to make nachos and dances to absolutely no music when he walks in your home.
“I’m dancing to the music in my head. And the music we’re about to be listening to”
I think that this man LOVES Hispanic music.
During your tics, he just kinda acts like it doesn’t happen if that makes sense? He doesn’t want you to feel bad or insecure about them so he just doesn’t even react to them.
Of course If you start hitting yourself too much, he’ll step in and give you a pillow to hold just in case.
Please wrestle and fake fight with him. Please he needs to be knocked down a peg
He likes to nerd out over marvel movies with you!!
I’m talkin he’s laying upside down on a beanbag and freaking out everytime something cool happens.
Always some kind of physical touch is included, and he treats you like a deity.
“GUYS THIS IS MY PARTNER AREN’T THEY SO CUTE!!”
If anyone even TRIES to agree, he gets hELLA possessive lmao.
He is a simp. Expect gifts.
Finally, I think that he would like to go on dates like roller skating and arcade, but the day you tell him about how much you want to go stargazing, he’ll take you.
He ends up loving it and that’s what you do for your anniversary every single year!
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Hi may i have an avengers matchup for you love month special<3
Hi my name is rex, i’m queer and use they/them pronouns
have like a caramel colored skin-tone (i feel like saying im black may be easier but 🤷🏽♀️) and im 5’3. Rn i have a purple-pink short mullet and i have pretty curly hair, im pretty chubby but i have an hourglass shape (but i have super noticeable hip dips) , i got pretty big fucking tittes (not even in a bragging way, im a fuckin k cup bro😭) and thicc thighs(thicc thighs save lives, sorry i’ll stop). I dress pretty alternative but i cant just choose one subculture tho, i wear a lot of heavy eye makeup. I could say i dress kinda “showy” but thats kinda what only fits me, but also who gives a fuck.
Honestly I don’t really have a type. Tbh most of my relationships have ended pretty badly cause they ether only wanted something sexual from me or I was “too clingy” when i just wanted basic ass affection. But the most I want is someone who is physically affectionate (like kisses, cuddles, and hugs for days) also im ok with pda to an extent like i will hug and like cuddle you but im not gonna make out with your infront of others thats weird af.
Im a libra sun, scropio moon, and gemini rising. This means that im a pretty social person and always wanna hang out with friends and just have fun, but moon in scropio makes my emotions rlly haywire and kinda boosts any sorta negative emotion, which is hard when you have chronic anxiety and major depressive disorder. Which also means i take medication for it, which i forget a lot. And because of these things i have anxiety tics, where it ranges to making noices and twitching a bit to full on hitting myself and saying random shit. But I really like making people laugh, it makes me feel helpful, but im also good at being to mother figure for people. I also like playfully bantering with people, like i love you but will full on roast you and get into fake fist-fights. I am a bit of a violent person at times but I have a punching bag and boxing gloves which help a lot. But I only get that angry when someone uses an insecurity of mine against me or is talking bad about someone i love, cause it you do that im beating your ass. I do have a bit of body insecurities mainly about my hip-dips and stomach. But because im curvy i get hit on by adults a lot and its creepy as fuck.
My hobbies include art (painting, drawing), sleeping (because i stay up mad late😭✌🏽), reading comics, Marvel and D.C superheroes, and super villains, cartoons, and anime/manga.
My favorite music genre’s are rock, alternative, emo, rap, and a little bit if indie music.
Personality: funny, sarcastic, creative, kind, inappropriate and the right times. Like im not gonna pull out a dick joke in front of your family
I don’t really have a type and im queer so i dont have a gender preference, but anyone who’s love language is physical affection cause im a clingy bitch
I have a couple ideal dates. So the first one is like an indoor picnic and a movie, an arcade date, and a stargazing date where you get take out or fast food and drive up a hill to see the stars and you like cuddle n shit.
I pair you with...
CAPTAIN AMERICA!
Why? Because...
Steve is an all round wholesome and romantic guy.
Yes, his love language IS physical AND verbal affection.
Honestly, he may not show it but he's touch-starved.
After work, he'd love nothing more than to lay with you in bed or in the couch and just cuddle, smothering you with kisses and compliments.
Saying things like: "I missed you." or "I couldn't stop thinking about you." while squeezing you in a hug.
His favorite places to rest his hands on are you stomach, thighs, and shoulders.
Your preference in clothes is totally fine with him! And he'll actively keep an eye out for any clothes that match your style.
Now, your eye makeup. Teach him how to do that because he'll want to put it on you next time.
Plus, you get to also put on him. And I'll tell you, this man will proudly wear it, around the Avengers compound, at work, or generally someplace else.
If somebody tells him that it doesn't look good on him, they can shove it. No one can tell Steve otherwise.
Steve's also a pretty social person, able to strike up a good conversation with just about anyone. He'd be more than happy to introduce you to the rest of the team. He has a little smile on his face everytime he sees you talking to HIS friends.
Most of the Avengers are understanding and patient. If you're a little down, they'll do their best to comfort and cheer you up. And that includes Steve.
If your anxiety gets a little too much for you, he'll take you somewhere quiet so you can breathe and gather your thoughts. He'll stay with you for as long as you need.
It's a good thing that you like being a mother figure because he needs help in straightening out his kids, especially Tony.
You'd definitely get into roasts fights with Tony or Sam. Now Steve would either be there to stop it or watch in amusement. (He's on your side but don't tell anybody that.)
A good thing is that Steve will help you work out your aggression as he also likes to hang in the gym and just bully that punching bag.
He'd also be interested in hobbies. Steve has a deep and good appreciation for beautiful artworks, and he'd want to binge watch some good ol' cartoons for fun. Now you can watch as much as you want and read as much you want as long as you go to bed the moment Steve says so. (He wants you to have a normal sleep schedule).
AND THANK GOD you're appropriate. He's thankful that you're not like Tony who makes inappropriate jokes, even if they're funny.
Dates are almost a daily thing. Since he's mostly out working, you know, saving the world and that stuff, he feels like he should repay you for leaving you for so long.
If you want an indoor kinda date, he'll cook up some food (he's a good cook) or order some if you want and pop in a movie or two on the tv.
Steve drives a motorcycle and a Santa Cruz.
He can take you out on his motorcycle for a ride around the city in high speeds or drive the Santa Cruz to a hill and park it there so you can both lay in the back and look up at the night sky, huddled together in a blanket.
💝~Happy Valentines Day!~💝
#runeterrankhaleesi#the avengers#avengers x reader#LMMU#love month match up#lmmu#matchups#match up event
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Neurologists And Cardiologists
I see also a cardiologist. It's going to be fun. No, not really. I just have a heart murmur but my dr is forcing me to see one to make sure it's not something serious. I'm hoping that I didn't cause damage to my heart from the drugs and partying I did back in the day. I think that I am lucky enough that it doesn't show on me physically that I was a partier.
You know how you can just look at someone and tell they've done some shady shit? Like my younger brother is 28 this year but he looks my age. I still look like I'm in my 20s.
Thank you Jesus! 😆🙏🙌🙏
Today I see a neurologist to take a look at my sleeping issues. I've had people tell me that I stop breathing in my sleep. Its gotten to the point that I'm scared to fall asleep every night.
I have to be careful and mindful about what position I sleep in because if I'm on my back, I have nightmares like I did did about tornadoes and being sucked into one. My bf notices when I have nightmares because I'm on my back so he nudges me to move and wakes me up because it looks like I'm not breathing.
One time I was out of body and I saw my ex check my pulse.
It was weird so I woke myself up to ask why he was doing that. He said it looked like I wasn't breathing. It didn't at the time click at all that it could be a problem. But it's noticeable more because my bf has insomnia and he can see more on how I'm sleeping.
I will see another neurologist for my tourettes.
This is what I'm excited about. I want to see what is causing my tics firsthand and how I can stop them from happening. Im pretty sure I don't have MS.. I DONT HAVE ANY OF THE SYMPTOMS. Being the subject is better than watching some video or whatever. I'm going to bring my notebook!
Already, I take 6 medications for a number of things. Not just for my depression. Here's to hopping I don't need any more!🥂😭
I better get ready for my appointment 😭 but I'm so tired......
😘💕 Wish me luck!
#disabilities#ssdi#ssdibenefits#tourettes#tourette syndrome#cardiology#cardiologist#neurology#neurologist#illnesses#my illnesses#channelingerik#channeling#twin flames#twinflame#twinflames#psychic#mediums#mediumship
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Basically a review of OP episode 503 ig
Currently rewatching post-war arc (in the dub so I don't have any screenshots for u guys sry) and theres a few things id like to point out.
During a conversation Dadan once had with Garp, they were talking about Roger. Garp said that even if they were facing powerful enemies, he would never run away because he wouldnt dare leaving his comrads behind; it wasnt an option for him. Obviously we see this in Ace. But ALSO, isnt this what he did with Katakuri? It was a little different cuz of the setting mostly, but he separated himself from his crew to fight off katakuri, and lied to them about being okay so they didn't worry (he was already getting his ass kicked by then, so he just made that stupid smile and told them not to worry (or smth like that, I can remember the exact line) (that smile was so gross and fake cuz he fucking sucks at lying). Also he said roger destroyed a buncha soldiers cuz they mouthed off his men. That's what Ace tried to do but instead he died. :(
"The pain he went through just made him hold on tighter to the ones he loved" -Garp, about Roger. "Despite his flaws and his bad reputation, his crew still trusted him completely." -also Garp, about Roger. These both sound a lot like Luffy AND Ace.
When Dogra got home and told everyone about Sabo's ship being shit down and him dying (which we all know didnt happen, thank fuck), (by the way the absolutely lost looks on Ace's and Luffy's faces with the sudden silence hurt like a bitch), Luffy started crying and said "WE SHOULDNT'A LET HIM GO, IT'S ALL OUR FAULT". Which fucking says something about him (thinking of episodes 913-915 when he goes fucking berserk, but before that he learns that Kaido probably killed Tama and he says "I should've escorted them..!" (*ugly cries*)). Ace also reacted pretty similarly-- "Sabo...why didn't we go back into town and bring him back here?! We're so stupid!" And he gets mad and asks where he could find the bastard that killed him (obviously not getting a good answer since it was a fucking celestial dragon ugh). That is what Luffy does, in present time. He results to anger first, not sadness. Not sure when he learned to do that but I'm 99 percent sure it was from Ace. Also the blaming himself thing? High chance thats ALSO from Ace. Who else would teach him that self hating behaviour?!
Dadan pins Ace down to stop him from going after the Celestial Dragon to calm him down, telling him he cant do anything, he's not big or strong enough to do anything and he'll be killed as soon as he tries anything, especially since it was the whole country -the whole WORLD- that killed Sabo. He can't do anything. And then they tied him to a tree outside to let him cool off. Oh yeah then he also told luffy to stop crying like a little girl or else he'll- (and he didn't finish the sentence). ...Ok maybe thats why luffy started being more angry than sad.
This is where things get a little more :( . Ace reads the letter Sabo sent them before he died. As he reads, he walks to the end of the forest, to a cliff overlooking the ocean. And starts fucking bawling (btw the voice actor who had Ace's childhood part did not do a very good job, no where near as in character and real as Coleen Clickenberg did with all of Luffy's crying scenes. She was spot on.) ...do you see where im going with that? He isolated himself before letting himself feel sad. It was all rage and then calm beforehand. Y-you see where im going with that. Dont make me say it.
"How's Luffy doing, is he any better?" "Well...he hasnt been eating much, but he still eats twice as much as we do". Oh look, That's what happened after Ace died too. There's a behavioral pattern that hasnt gone away. Not sure why it wouldve tho.
Luffy is mopeing, lying on the ground in a similar setting ace was at when he cried. Hes thinking about some of the things Sabo said, like how theyre gonna sail the seas together, and he clenches his hands into tight, shaking fists. After Ace shows up and hits him, and talking abt some other stuff I don't feel like relaying, Luffy tightens his grip on the straw hat and tells ace, whimpering, he wants to get stronger (and stronger, and stronger, and stronger and stronger and....) And he wants to be the strongest in the world. "And then, I'll protect everyone. I won't lose anyone I care about". He gets stronger mainly to protect the people he loves. And then he asks ace to promise he won't die. To which he hits Luffy again and tells him he should be more worried about himself dying first. And then the famous line that hurts like a bitch- "I'm NEVER going to DIE!" And then this hopeful music comes on (fucking damnit funimation, u gotta do this? Really??) Also he says he wont die as long as he has a wussy little brother to protect. ...FUCK. Ok, the fist clenching is a thing he does all the fucking time, usually when he gets mad. This was different because he wasnt mad, he was sad. He clenched his fist because thinking about it hurt. Which, huh, sounds a lot like his whole episode after waking up from his 2 week coma on the polar tang. To try and stop the mental pain of those horrendous memories, he resulted to physically pain. He hurt himself. So, He clenches his fists in times like these to fight off the mental pain and the urge to cause himself physical pain. Guys, our boy is bad at emotions, help him. ....ok this paragraph is longer than I anticipated so ill dumb down the rest of it ig. Next part, him asking ace to promise he wont die. The music, the body language, the over change in mood- this comforts him. He stopped hiding his face and silently sobbing after ace said this. OH YEAH! didn't he tell jinbe not to die when they parted ways in Totto Land? And then, hes missing still in Wano and we see Luffy is worried....but convinced Jinbe will show up. Again, this comforts him. Hes nervous cuz someone KOFF KOFF ACE broke that promise once. But jinbe is his crew mate so he trusts him, thank god.
"-But whoever did it, they must be opposed to freedom." The whole freedom thing? That runs through Luffy's blood and spirit.His brothers fought for it, his dad is the man who strives to give everyone freedom basically, and Luffy himself has seen enough of the OPPOSITE of freedom to be so, so much more than just against it. Hence why he of course was so eager to free the slaves in Sabaody, the kids in punk hazard, the toys in dressrosa, the country of Wano from Kaido's tyrany. The apple doesnt fall far from the tree huh.
I dont think Luffy would remember his promise with Shanks if it werent for his brothers putting feul to his dream. It was a stupid bet at first; he just wanted to beat Shanks, right then. But after meeting Sabo and Ace, he found the opposite of freedom and human rights. And then he wanted, REALLY wanted, to become the free-est man in the world; the pirate king.
Last one i promise ok? This one is less connected to whats going on in the episode at this point, but something I noticed (its so obvious everyone has seen this ok) was when luffy cries, his posture is always open. He doesn't curl in on himself like many people would do (I know I would, lol). He doesnt hug himself, protect himself. He's just, opened up to whoever is watching, literally. This has a little more to do with something I haven't talked about much in this post yet; his self-destruction issues. I said he tried to hurt himself when he felt mental pain, which is definitely similar. But he cries and doesnt try to protect or comfort himself, like he doesn't have that programmed into his mind. Reminder that he only wants to live because of his dream, and if he doesnt have his dream, he wants to die. (Whoa.). Ok, so no self preservation mechanism at all rlly. Hes basically ride or die. So, when things hurt so much that he cries, he has no hope left. He just kinda...dies inside. So this was mildly different after sabo died. Yes we saw him just standing there, sobbing. But the next day he's still crying, and instead he's laying on the ground. I saw that and the voice in the back of my head told me he wanted to be a part of that lifeless dirt beneath him. Then, Ace walked over. And his words made him feel the hope that I told you about earlier, and he sat up into a sitting position. And HUGGED HIS LEGS TO HIS CHEST. There's some self preservation! Some hope! Some will to exist, to live! Something we saw none of as he sat in front of his brothers corpse, shutting down. He sat there, open to his enemies, incapable of protecting himself. Practically anyone couldve killed him right then and there. I think he mightve liked that, at that moment. Like thank god he has that stupidly good luck cuz if he didn't I swear someone couldve thrown and axe or FUCKING ANYTHING AT THAT MOMENT and hed be dead becuase he never physically or mentally prepared himself. On purpose.
Our poor boy needs some fucking attention and therapists. (Insert my rant post about how jinbe is on the crew primarily for anger management and therapy, not just being a helmsman.) Ugh, smh ugly cries
Aaaaand thats about the end of the episode. Theres so many little tics and peesonality traits that you notive thru this episode, and I only noticed them cuz im rewatching this part of the show for like the third time. I don't react as much as the first time of course but some things are definitely sadder after knowing what's going on and what will happen later on.
Moral of the story (post)? I think luffy is almost equally as alike -if not, more similar to roger as ace is. Also, high key genuinely think Luffy met like NO ONE but Garp before he met Shanks and his crew. What the fuck was his first like 5 years of being alive like? (He wantd to be a pirate cuz Garp didnt want that. Rebellious baby asshole. And then shanks made things worse, in a good way for luffy. And then ace and sabo made that worse thing worse for a good reason. Luffy lives...for those influences. And that is fucking it. Why.
Oh thanks tumblr for moving my picture to the bottom of the post u fucking idiot
#ugly cries#ugh#i need to stop#i need to stop talking#pls#just read my rants ok#i guess#MY BACK HHHUUUUURRRRTTSSSSSS#UUUUUGGGGGGGHHHHHHH#SOBS#straggler.txt#headcanon#hc#one piece#one piece ace#one piece spoilers#monkey d. luffy#luffy one piece#im garbage#hha h a#review#episode review#episode 503#ackackack#i need to pee#i need to stop torturing luffy with my crazy ideas#hhhhhh#love u guys#bye ig
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is it really you?
title: is it really you?
pairing: Jared x reader
rating: pg-14
fluff: soulmate au
H&H: free space (reincarnation)
tags: finding your soulmate, meeting for the first time, memories of past lives, finding eachother and never letting your S.O die, ending the cycle of reincarnation through some massive self exploration.
summery: there is none
mentioning @sweetness47
created for @spnfluffbingo @heavenandhellbingo
the beginning of your problems (what you know now as your first life) started with someone you love, someone who was yours as well as your lovers doom. the person who loved you was called “Cathal”, you were called “Caitir”.
you were not betrothed to this man, but somehow you and he still found comfort in each other’s arms. the man who would soon take you both from this world was called “Seoc”.
Cathal: to my love i present thee with this dagger, this is my gift for your hand in marriage. sweet Caitir forever is all we need, forever is all we shall have.
Caitir: brave Cathal, i shall accept your proposal for marriage.
whilst “entertaining” Cathal in your chambers, you both were too preoccupied to notice someone sneaking in behind you. Seoc waited till both you and Cathal were asleep and then stabbed you both killing you both instantly.
a curse placed on you both would reincarnate you both till such a time as the curse could be broken, but would the cycle end easily or have to be done the hard way.
“this curse placed on 2 murdered sleeping helpless. lovers written in stars for time cometh. these 2 coming together again and again as they are reborn, till the viscious cycle breaks, shall they live out normal and die for the last time. forever shall this incribed be to this dagger!”
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today, one mild summer day in what we call Vancouver British Columbia in what is known as Canada. you are called YN, your job is wardrobe for actors of a hit tv show. this would be where you would soon re-learn the truth.
the dagger you had received as a proposal present, was sitting as a long time artifact in a museum. you on the other hand were laying out the wardrobe for the 2 gentlemen you were working with that day. the same 2 guys that you worked with well every single day.
you were picking some stuff off the floor completely not paying any attention to your surroundings, Jared (Cathal-present day) had no idea of your past lives either till this moment.
Jared wasnt paying attention to where he was going, he didnt see you. he tripped over your crouched form, instead of falling on his face he grabbed you, pinning you to the ground keeping both of your heads off the ground.
he looks down at you, then the memories came to both you and Jared in flashes slow and fast. but in each memory was the both of you in this exact position. after 10 minutes of just layign there lost in eachothers eyes.
Jared: are you alright? Am I hurting you?
Yn: I'm alright and no your not hurting me. Did you happen to see..
Jared: visions of sorts after we fell ya I did. What does it all mean?
YN: it means I guess we know each other. It seems like we know each other very well. Cathal.
You say as if it was normal for you to call him that.
Jared: it would indeed seem as such Caitir. The question is what the hell happened to us to make us like this.
YN: obviously we have alot to figure out. let’s start with whatever happened to that dagger that i saw...
Jared shrugged helping you off the ground.
Jared: we could check where it all began. up for a trip to cairo?
YN: i guess we don’t have much of a choice if we want to figure out what happened to us... figure us out...
Jared ushers for you to sit beside him as he pulls out his laptop and begins looking for flights. found one on expedia the details were as follows for what was being booked:
one way flight from Vancouver to Cairo expected to take 21hr 41min to arrive
leaving vancouver at 1:20pm fly for 4hr 33min to montreal for a 2hr 12min layover
leaving montreal at 11:05pm (stupid time change) fly for 9hr 30min (over night flight meaning cuddles yay!) to instanbul for a 3hr 5min layover
leaving instanbul at 6:40pm fly for 2hr 20min to arrive finally in cairo for 8:00pm
you look at jared who also adds a hotel near the pyramids for you guys to stay in figuring you wouldn’t want to ruff it.
Jared: before I finish purchasing, I want you to know that whatever we find out in Cairo, it might as well be the biggest discovery of our lives.
Yn: I know but aren't you the least bit scared of what we might find out... I mean it isn't like we can just...
Before you can finish speaking Jensen busts through the door.
Jensen: umm Jared what are you doing and with our wardrobe artist.
Jared: about that ya come sit down buddy there is something we need to well show you.
Jensen sits between you and Jared as he eyes you both very suspiciously.
Jensen: alright what's going on buddy your acting very strangely.
Jared and you both place a hand on either side of Jensen's head willing for the memories you both had just experienced to flow into his mind to see what you both did.
Jensen falls off the couch a few moments later, looking between you and Jared.
Jensen: so what the hell are you...
Jared: we are going to Cairo to figure this out. Cairo is where it all began for us, Cairo is where we will find answers.
Jensen: when does your flight leave?
Jared: tomorrow afternoon. we have to be at the airport for 11am i think... 2 hours before flight leaves for international flights. we still have to pack and talk to Rob and the others to make sure I'm covered to go. That we can figure this out. For the entirety of our lives we have died and come back to find eachother for years now and we just want to figure this out.
Jensen got up and began towards the door.
Jensen: well lets go present this to Rob and the crew. and get set for your time away... it will not help to be unprepared for any of this. if what you showed me is true then you both have alot to discover and im gonna do whatever i can to support you both.
Jared: thanks dude, now YN are you ready for whatever lies ahead of us?
YN: im ready to find out why we have only just remembered all of this now, how many times it has happened and the story behind it of course.
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that was how the journey started, after a very long conversation with Rob and the crew, you and Jared were cleared to go on your trip. going to your hotel first checking out and taking your backpack with you.
you and Jared decide that you both should stay at the airport hotel considering it would just be easier. settling into the room, you sit down to make a journal entry. you did this every single day, but today felt like you definitely should document this.
Jared came out of the bathroom to see you sitting on a pillow on the ground with a pen and a notebook. you were writing out your journal, you didn’t see Jared approaching.
Jared came up to you placing a hand on your shoulder.
Jared: what are you doing?
YN: writing in my journal. making sure that whatever happens we can document what the hell we go through on this journey. maybe just maybe one day we can look back on this and realize that this was destined to happen as it has so many other times before.
Jared: look i know its alot to process and believe me i too am having issues processing this but i might have a way to take our minds off it.
you finished the entry, and then closed the book. turning to face Jared smiling.
YN: what did you have in mind?
Jared picks you up and kisses you, fierce are his lips against your own. his arms supporting you as your legs curl round his waist. he tears your shirt from the back as he falls while holding you onto the bed.
the rest of that evening well the next few hours were spent in the bed. Jared now petting your hair speaks.
Jared: that was amazing. definitely took my mind off things.
YN: that was an amazing way to loose my virginity. and i couldn’t have lost it to a better man.
Jared: do you think this happens every time we reincarnate?
You shrugged but stayed right where you were knowing you were comfortable and safe.
YN: no idea but im not ready to move can we just lay like this for the rest of the evening. we can eat in the morning.
Jared: that’s why we got the continental breakfast. plus i think i owe you a new outfit.
You looked to where Jared was pointing.
YN: that’s okay i think i owe you new boxers
jared looks to where you are pointing.
Jared: well we can do some shopping when we get to the airport. gift shops exist for a reason and money is no stranger.
YN: that’s true.
now that you both were settled into bed you both decided to get some rest. it was a long day the next would be, and being on a plane you both would probably sleep anyway.
you both woke up the next morning to a phone call from the front desk, telling you there was breakfast and that we had to be at the airport within the hour for the 2 hour head check in.
you hung up the phone and watched as jared slunk to the shower. you followed cause he looked like he could use a pick me up. after some shower fun and getting dressed into something comfortable for the plane ride.
you both head with your bags to breakfast. eating lots to avoid being too hungry later on, you decide that its time to check out and find the airport shuttle. getting to the airport you both get through check in and security and now its time to kill 2 hours. well that was easy, shopping and playing cards and crib and tic tac toe and buying some jewelry just for fun.
then it was time to board the plane. doing so and the plane took off. you and jared holding hands you resting your head on Jared shoulder. you both cuddle for the flight to montreal planing to take a couples photo and pick up some souveniers along the way.
same thing with instanbul except that flight was an over night so you both mostly took the opportunity to sleep. upon arrival in instanbul you both stretched and looked around and grabbed souveniers boarding the final flight to cairo.
cairo in the evening damn it was gorgeous. just the way things were supposed to be. Upon this their arrival to Cairo, they took a shuttle to their hotel. The entire way there Jared held your hand, walking into the hotel you both go to the desk to check in.
Clerk: checking in?
Jared: yes under Padalecki.
The Clerk types into the computer for a moment and then speaks once more.
Clerk: ah here you are, ah your in one of our exclusive suites. Give me one second to grab your package that goes with it.
You still holding onto the hand of the man you apparently have known for centuries, & just lost your virginity to night before last, made you all the more happier. The clerk a while later places a packet on the counter in front of you both.
Clerk: this has all the information one could possibly need as well as a list of shops near by and when tours leave and some information on local legends.
That caught both yours and Jared's attentions.
Jared: local legends???
Clerk: oh yes, our most popular one is of a High priestess who fell in love with the prince of this region, but they were cursed and murdered for it by his father's advisor who grew jealous of the young lovers. The advisor used the Dagger the young prince had given to the priestess as a token of his affection to murder them in their sleep. He then lied to the prince's father about the whole thing. He was never brought to justice for murdering that young couple. Legend also tells of their curse. In short form, Destiny will reincarnate them for all time till they can somehow break the vicious cycle of reincarnation so they can finally live and die like normal people.
you looked at the clerk, Jared knew you were struck, he was too but you knew what this clerk was saying had to be true.
Jared: is our room key in here?
clerk: yes it is your suite includes a jacuzzi and fabulous egyptian royal inspired decor. as well as complementary royal silk robes. these keys will also get you access to the pool area and the buffet. welcome to the pyramid valley hotel, please enjoy your stay and don’t hesitate to ask questions if you have any.
Jared holding the package walks with you to the elevator, he then turns to you while he continues to hold the bags and the packet.
Jared: are you ok?
YN: no, did you hear that story...
Jared: i know, don’t worry we will explore this more when we get into the room. amongst other things. tonight is all distractions, tomorrow we are gonna start checking this out. starting with this legend, then checking out where me and you back then would have been.
you nod as Jared and you final approach to your room. once there you and Jared walk in and are instantly amazed by the sight of this room.
jared closes the door behind you locking it before putting down the packet and the bags he was holding as he came up behind you.
YN: is it distraction time?
Jared: its distraction time as long as we need...
thats when he started kissing your neck and that was the night. that began the trip of your life.
- after a very very passionate time in bed you both woke at noon the next day. it was time to make the start to your day.
-you didnt want to move, Jared grabbed his laptop to do some research, he had put the packet with his laptop so it was all in one swoop. as he kinda sat against the head board and you were still kinda curled but kinda propped.
Jared and you make note of several locations to check out during your trip. this included the sphynx, the giza necropolis and a few more places.
Jared: what do we want to check out first?
YN: the museum. maybe we can find some clues there first.
~thats exactly what you did, you both got dressed and hit the museum. you both walked in and found out that the museum director who was kind enough to speak with you both was a firm believer in what you both had told him. he decided to show you some of the stuff that had been taken from both of your areas. this was to include the dagger. yes you had found the dagger. now the last thing that he told you both was that the dagger had to be taken to the spot where it all first started and you had to plea to the triple goddess, she would grant the curse to be lifted and reveal who Soec is to you in modern day. you both got the location of the original incident from him and decided to go into the halloween costume shop and grab the egyptian outfits. making sure to bring them with you both when you would go the next day to this place that will hopefully end your curse once and for all. Waking up bright and early the next day you both rent an atv to get you both to the sight. A little cavern within one of the pyramids there was no way in there except for this one entrance. It was sealed when you both arrived. But unlocked when both your hands touched the door. Must have been sealed with some pretty powerful stuff. Going inside you both saw what seemed to be a cavern which had been untouched by dust or anything for centuries or eons if you will. It would soon be your greatest feat. But Jared held the torch in one hand, your hand in his other and you carried the bag on your shoulder. Looking at the surrounding architecture, you both made sure you were safe but this seemed very very familiar to both of you, it was like a secret passage or something. We head back to the story now with a conversation between you and Jared.~
Jared: I know there is something bothering you. Is it the feeling of being in here.
YN: yes it is… Something isn't quite right about any of this. That dude at the museum seemed a little too excited about all of this. But you know what, as long as we figure this out and stop this curse normal is what we shall be eternally, or ya know as long as normal lasts.
Jared: whatever happens in here know that this will not change how I feel about you.
Yn: nor I about… Holy shit… Jared look!
You point ahead and Jared looks where you are pointing seeing the gold architecture turn into columns and statues of anubis and then blood on an alter shaped bed, with a canopy draped over.
YN: this has to be the place. The blood, the hole in the canopy. Don't touch anything yet we need to change into our outfits.
You and Jared careful not to touch anything get changed. Then you pull out the book and place it where it looks like it went. Suddenly the room shook.
Jared: what's happening?
YN: I think it's time for us to call on the triple goddess.
Jared: well whatever we do we should do it quickly…
you went over to the book, and opened it to a marked page, you brought it to the bed and sat beside Jared, both of you now finding it easy to read the arabic pages.
YN: نحن نلتزم بدعوة الإلهة الثلاثية ، فلطالما تجولنا في هذه الأرض ، ولفترة طويلة انتظرنا في دهشة. حان الوقت الآن ، نتمنى الآن أن تتعفى هذه اللعنة التي وُضعت علينا في اليوم الذي قُتلنا فيه ، وأن نتحرر من حياة التناسخ هذه. يا إلهة ثلاثية ، أرسل لنا لخدامك المخلصين علامة متواضعة للتأكد من أنك قد سمعت دعوتنا (we adhere to the call of the triple goddess, for too long we have wandered this earth, for too long we have waited in wonder. now it is our time, now we wish that this curse placed on us the day we were murdered be appeased, that we be freed from this life of reincarnation. oh triple goddess send us your faithful servants a humble sign to be sure you have heard our call)
that was of course when this light radiated from both you and jared, then a figure appeared before both of you.
Anubis: i am anubis, i am your guardian High priestess Caitir, in this time i would like to say the curse shall be lifted once the one who killed you both originally is dead. you will find him back where you both have come from, he has been living among you both, pretending to be your friend. but really was unfazed when you showed him your little secret. Seoc goes by...
a flurry of rage and anger filled both you and jared. that cut your trip short. you got reimbursed for the days you didn’t stay, as you both flew back to vancouver. you waited till it was night fall then approached this person at the studio...
the announcement of yours and Jared’s arrival seemed not to phase this person, after he had been a dear friend to Jared for many many years, and a loyal person to you. neither of you could understand why he would ever do such a thing.
Jared: Jensen, why did you do it?
Jensen turns to face you both, he once more didn’t seem surprised by the fact that you both were back early.
Jensen: what exactly do you think i did?
Jared: why did you kill us?
the cast and crew backed away from you Jared and Jensen as you three began to glow, the final showdown had begun.
Jensen: because i had to raise my status with your father Cathal, this bitch here was just a side piece that got in the way...
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15 More Answers to Questions
I’m back with more about me because I secretly love getting to share more about myself on the internet
Thanks again @dizzypinwheel for tagging me once more, getting to learn more about you is so fun and I’m glad that you really like the work you do ��️
Also just gonna add real quick that I’m doing this through the app and have no idea how to do the formatting besides bold, italicize, etc. on here so sorry if it’s wonky
1. Are you named after someone? My name has (Christian) biblical attachments but I wasn’t really named Hanna because of that. I was named after my grandma for my middle name though!
2. When was the last time you cried? I met back up with my friends last Monday after being on vacation for a week and we played Quelf and laughed so much I cried
3. Do you have kids? No and I never really want to. If I DID decide to have kids though I’d adopt/foster
4. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Yes. So much. Mainly with my friends but its bled over into work too (not typically with customers but sometimes it happens) and its always just to poke fun
5. What’s the first thing you notice about someone? I notice a lot of things about someone first so it’s hard to just say one? Body language is very vague but it’s typically my first tic mark in my brain for how someone might act towards me or others. Im super paranoid lmao
6. What’s your eye color? Not to be extra about this but theyre definitely more of a grey-blue. Not vibrant blue like a cerulean but just. Muted? Colors are hard
7. Scary movie or happy ending? Im the biggest baby when it comes to horror omg it took me SO LONG to not be terrified of Until Dawn. Ive started to broaden my horizons in the horror domain but im still such a scaredy cat, so happy ending
8. Any special talents? I can play the clarinet, tenor or bari sax. Im the best at clarinet since Ive been playing it for ~8 years but my one true love will always be the bari
9. Where were you born? Good old Ohio, the place everyone loves 🙂
10. What are your hobbies? Such a cop out answer but I LOVE music. I love picking apart everything about a song, with or without lyrics even. I’m also big into YouTube of course, and starting to get more comfy with Twitch since Ive been watching Bryan and Amelia stream on there for almost 5 months now
11. Do you have any pets? My cat Gracie is the loml, it’s almost her birthday (she’s turning 1!!!) so I’m planning on making her a little cat-friendly birthday cake because I love her sm
12. What sport do you/have you played? When I was real little I played soccer for a bit, then I tried to do track in middle school but ran into some leg problems (which have still not been fully explored), and in high school I did marching band but there’s a lot of discourse about that actually being a sport and yada yada
13. How tall are you? I think I’ve officially passed to being 5’6, it’s a really big moment for me
14. Favorite subject in school? Aside from band, not to get too specific but definitely sociology. Thats def a class and not subject, but I dont entirely like one whole subject, just the more specific parts of them
15. Dream job? Honestly? I don’t know. I’ve had a lot of wants and still do, but nothing that’s jumped out to me so much that I want to keep going to school for. I completed one semester of college last fall and then dropped out in spring and during all of that time I went through at least 3 different decisions about what I wanted to do (geology, sociology, journalism, production) and I’ve even looked into trade school and nothing has felt solid. My current job as a cashier at a dollar store is more than okay for me, but everyone has an opinion on what I should do and I think it finally stressed me out enough to cause an early burnout lmao. Sorry for such a sad answer to wrap things up but just know Im really trying to keep it positive most of the time in daily life
I would normally bother people and tag them but I honestly don’t feel like it, so if anyone sees this and wants to do it, go ahead!!!
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Thoughts of the early mornin'
So yesterday I sprained my ankle pretty bad from just doing a bad movement and here I am laying in my bed at 3 in the morning unable to fall asleep cause that son of a bunch hurts like hell
Thinking and thinking and thinking and thinking.Kind of reminds me of the start of the au eheh
But yeah,i have been thinking,maybe a little too much.It's been 7 months that me and my family are on a waiting list until we can get a new family doctor.I never realized how time could go so slow before but lately I can feel it so well. And I can't help but rethinking of my past.Wooo how scawwwyy
I'm going to say this now,i've been fighting with depression for about 2 years now.Ever since I left school,from feeling out of place,i decided i'd take a year off.Feeling hopefuly with a one year break i'll be able to breathe again and take a well deserved break after 13 years of being in places where there was too much people,got distracted really easily and never knowing my multiplication table or where the different continents were placed (i still don't plz dont laughh).I stopped school in my second 9th grade when I was 17 just turned 18. Ever since I was young I had alot of trouble in school.Like alot lot.I never was able to remember anything UNLESS i had a sheet with exemples to help me,even then sometimes i would easily forget.I tried to tell teachers in my younger years how much "i don't understand please explain to me again" to which they would roll their eyes and shake their head and tell me
Listen i won't and can't slow down my class because your the only one to not understand.Keep working hard and you'll understand!
Those words they told me obviously affected me.But I was doing my best and all I wanted was to you to explain to me again!I know it can get annoying and long after 5 times I come by your desk but i'm willing to learn and try and understand! But all of those those students around me are screaming at the top of their lungs,making constant sounds that distract me are making it hard for me to remember that one thing you were just trying to teach me.And I have this tic of always daydreaming over your learning posters because they are so full of colours and filled with characters tHAT'S COOL i also have this sharp pain in my body it keeps making me really sleepy after a while i'm sorry i am doing my very best misses.
And i never knew why i was like that,my teachers always made me thought that daydreaming and getting distracted easily was normal and thats just how kids were back in 2006.But it never felt quite right.
I've been obsessing over SOO many things throughtout the years,From Sonic the Hedgehog to Billy Hatcher and the giant egg,from Toy Story and Shugo Chara!,to Persona to now here we are,Undertale. But these shows and games were never small obsessions kids have several times in their childhood.Mines were always intense and would stay for a few years. I was always facinated with making up stories,draw really ugly doodles and have fun and showing my friends and family what I just created.And having those "obsessions" for all these years have been really hard...but I can't help it,they helped me understand and learn some things and they are interesting and have really great characters!And to people that was also bad.Being this obsessed over something so interesting and colourful.
Oh and mind I mention,I have been dealing with chronic pain and a really weak immune system for the longest time I know.Since I was a small bean,I'd do my things,have my little 2006 kid butt running around having fun but all so sudden after a little while of doing that I always felt pain in my body,at first i'd whine about it. And then my stomach started hurting(to which i was able to calm down thankfully).And then fatigue kicked in and I was out,i could fall asleep anytime.anyplace.(To which i did sometimes with my aunt,thanks auntie for holding me while I slept eheh,but i was always and still am mostly a fighting to stay awake kind of gal),and I was sick ALOT.My parents obviously noticed the behaviours i was expressing and took me to the doctors.He told me I was in a good health! And still today,its the same song I hear everytime.They would say "oh shes just tired get her to get some rest". And still today we never know what I have exacly or how the hell it even started or happened.Is it chronic fatigue?Is it anything? Hopefuly I can get a heads up on what's up one day...!
So meanwhile,while I was having those little "health issues" i was able to watch and play and draw them shows and games.One required to just move my fingers and the other just required to watch the damn thing.And the other one was just to doodle.And if I wasnt too tired i'd put my whole mind into it and learn like I never learned anything before!Thanks to games and shows and books is why im even able to talk to you guys right now!
The rest,starting from our move to a different city,i dont feel too comfortable and able sharing this on social media sorry ;_;
But yeah,i want to go back to school so badly,i want to work to badly,i want to do all of things,i was always such a determined girl,willing to learn,fascinated with the world
But am I too slow?Am I too dumb for this society?i'll keep on doing my best but alot feels like shit will never get better...
Thank you for listening to my ted talk.I needed to share my thoughts with you all ❤❤❤❤❤
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ok so my friend (whomst has tourettes+mild cp) and i were discussing seven and they said that they hc him as having either tourettes/cp or some other similar disability especially bcs its mentioned that he doesnt really. go outside if he doesnt have to and the way hes nervous abt meeting mc for the first time and pushes her away, they said its a MOOD if you think of him being ashamed of tics etc and honestly?im wit it so id love it if u could do a one shot/hcs inspired by this concept??🍒🍒🍒
(🍒🍒 anon again) also if Both the twins happened to have similar disorders it mightve been a factor in the abuse they received from their mother..(+sorry if this seems like a weird request!! its just my friend and i both have neurological disorders and were Thirsty for representation hxjsbsj)
hello 🍒🍒 anon
saeyoung/707
interacting with mc was …enjoyable
but it was also confusing!
he could be seven the dork one moment, but blabbering something about himself to mc
he had to remind himself to tread carefully many times
but all was well! mc was cool and always enjoyed his sense of humor
but then there was the emergency and saeyoung rushed to rika’s apartment to keep things in check and mc safe!
only when he was already nearing the apartment building did he realize that the whole reason he was a recluse was because of his condition
beggars can’t be choosers, he told himself, and drove faster
once there, he went out of his way to keep mc as distant as possible no matter how it hurt him on the inside to push their genuine efforts like that
he pretended to ignore the tears that he caused to spring to mc’s eyes, and the way they flinched when his tone would turn harsh
it was just one room, and he couldn’t shake away the feeling of mc’s eyes boring into him
the added stress of mc finding him weird when they found out was the last straw and triggered his tics
‘are you alright?’ mc asked hesitantly, and he was going to reply with a curt nod but his neck jerked a few times and mc looked more concerned
‘you need to rest your eyes,’ mc ventured, and his fist smashed into the wall behind him before he reigned in that tic and ignored his rapid blinking, ‘just shut up and let me work mc!’
he immediately regretted it, but he had bigger concerns, like deactivating the bomb and tracking the hacker and not having mc find out about his tourettes
of course he knew that did not excuse his behavior
when mc had slipped away, he wasn’t sure, but seeing their spot vacant and the rest of the apartment empty freaked him out
seeing mc’s tear-stained face in the elevator broke his heart. he had just repeatedly hurt the one he cherished
deciding to just be honest with mc, because they deserved it, he gently took them back to the apartment and spilled his secret
it genuinely surprised him that mjc would react in anything but a mocking way. they thanked him for telling him and gently ruffled his hair- an action that actually soothed saeyoung
they looked sad at his confusion and promised him that he never had to worry about his condition with them; that they would like to help out however they could so he should always feel more than welcome to ask it of them
the silliest, happiest smile adorned his face when after a while he saw them researching tourette syndrome and how to help the people with the condition
saeran/ray
masquerading as ray was taxing
not just mentally, because he wanted mc to adore him for himself rather than a persona, but physically as well
it took a couple days for mc to notice with the few moments he got to spend with them everyday
he was immediately self-conscious, but reminded himself that mc noticing was inevitable
his shoulder rolling and little jerks could not always be explained away as exhaustion
when mc asked, he found himself coming clean to them relatively easily- perhaps because they were such a contrast from both his abusive mother, and the savior who had slowly become more and more cold and detached
mc was warm and genuine and caring and listened attentively and didn’t look at him with pity
they told him with absolute surety that it was nothing to ever be embarrassed about. it was just a part of him and that was that, and he could learn to control it and deal with it as he pleased
when mc said that he was so smart and strong and that they were proud of what all he had accomplished, his heart felt like soaring
mc may be saying that to ray, but wasn’t that just a part of saeran too? he was happy to believe mc
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Soooo Hiatus!!
Hey guys, remember that announcement I told you about? Well this is it.
Short version: I’m going on an hiatus till mid August (11th or 12th?). That’s a little less than a month.
What does that mean for the blog? It means that I won’t be posting any new fics till then. I won’t be answering asks like I do. BUT, there’ll be a queue running. If you really need me, drop me an IM. I’ll be sure to check it once every few days. Cool?
See ya. Love you <3
longer version (life update, asks from the inbox and such) below the cut:
Ummmm well....I need a break. Physically, mentally. I just need to step back a little.
I don’t know how many of you know, but 2018 has SO NOT been my year. I’ve been very sick. VERY. Trust me, I don’t take that word lightly. Just in the last 2 weeks, I’ve lost 5 kgs (I think that’s what? 11 lbs?) and its still dropping. I am relatively better now. At this point, I can’t quit my job and sit at home, so I have to drag my ass to work everyday. By the time I get home, I can barely move an inch, let alone, write and keep up with the stress of posting on schedule.
Secondly, Tic Tac Toe, a series I spent a year and a half over has finally seen its end. I put my heart and soul into that series, planning every second of their lives in my head. The love I got for it has made me grow so much, really. I want to thank EVERYONE who’s had kind words for the series. Who read every freaking part and left feedback for it and asks. You know who you are! I am indebted to you, and will forever love you.
The past two weeks in bed would have been terrible without all those comments. Trust me, I have every comment, every ask learnt by- heart, I’ve read them so many times now. That being said, I don’t think I have to much heart and soul left after that series. The hangover is terrible, and I feel a little empty inside. I had been so consumed by that story, that I can’t move on from it. As a result, I’m struggling to write anything else. I miss that Sam. I miss that reader. I just want to take sometime to find the inspiration to write again, to write something else.
For those of you curious about the orphanage, I found the kids. They are at another orphanage at the farthest end of the city, but its pretty cramped there, and not too good as far a living conditions go. I’m taking the management to court over it. It’s scaring the shit out of me. But I can’t not try and help.
For those worrying about why there is no light and electricity in my apartment, it’s not cause I’m broke. I make enough to look after myself. It’s not a luxurious life, but I don’t have to worry but splurging a little in mall or have to worry about bills and food. The electricity distribution board in the locality caught fire which caused all the problem and it is mostly solved now. Since I live in an apartment complex, no electricity by default means no water, cause it has to be pumped into an overhead tank. I’m fine, but also beyond humbled by the concern in my inbox. Y’all are actually blessings.Thank you for wanting to help me via my Ko-fi though. It’ll go into the court case for the kids. I make enough to help myself, but a legal battle requires way more than that. However, do remember that the ‘buy me a coffee’ is a choice, it is never a compulsion or obligation. So don’t worry.
For the Nonnie who asked about ABF, I met him on Thursday, after I joined back at work. I was a little miffed cause he didn’t say a word about me losing weight so suddenly, but then I realised that he never says a word even when I gain too much weight suddenly ;) It’s not about appearance for him. I am just glad he notices when I cut my hair (twice a year in April and October. It’s a tradition, don’t ask why XD) and if, once in a blue moon I apply eyeliner. He always has something nice to say.
That’s all of the anons/ asks in my inbox broadly answered.
I might try and catch up on some reading though ;)
So wish me luck??
I’ll see you guys bright and early on 12th August with the first chapter of my Dean Series. It is an AU and very fluffy.... also, kinda unconventional. I hope you guys like it.
LOTS OF LOVE MY BEAUTIFUL FOLKS <3
-Ana <3
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Ok, im gonna go off on this real quick because as a rabbit owner this shit REALLY tics me off. (Also not I'm not upset at anyone who rbd this bc they think its cute or anything but just, take this as I'm just trying to educate you.)
First thing you notice right away; the rabbit has pooped all over the floor, and theres probably two main reasons for that.
#1: the rabbit isn't litter trained (Yes, you can litter train rabbit very easily, there's lots of tutorials on youtube.)
#2: the rabbit isn't fixed. When rabbits aren't fixed theres several things that could happen; the rabbit pops all over to mark territory, the rabbit can get aggressive and it will start chewing things up, and also hump things.
Next thing I noticed, and this is what REALLY pissed me off, is the "enclosere" for the rabbit. RABBITS NEEED ROOM! I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH! That tiny little cage is TERRIBLE for keeping rabbits in and is quite franky abusive
FIRST: There's no fucking room! Rabbits need spaces like any other animal. You wouldn't put your cat or a dog in a tiny ass cage that they can barely turn around in, would you? SO WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU DO IT TO YOUR RABBIT?! Another thing about the cage is its obviously wire bottom, WHICH IS HORRIBLE, its can give your rabbits sore hocks (look it up im not explaining the whole thing right here, or ask me about it but it'll just take too long right here), or worse yet, completely fuck up their legs.
Another thing is the water bottle, that shit will fuck up your rabbits neck, plus lots of bacteria can get caught in the nozzle and cause your rabbit to get sick.
Plus I see no hay ANYWHERE around in this, and that's really fucking bad too, rabbits need hay, as they are grazing animals, if they aren't constantly grazing then their teeth will get fucked up bc they grow too long, and no pellets are not a suited replacement for hay, those are mostly for very young (six months and under) or very old rabbits who can't get all the nuetreants they need from hay (rabbits older than six months should be given pellets sparingly, and no more that a quarter cup per day, but that last thing goes for all rabbits), also the type of hay you get is really important; alpapha hay is good for rabbits under six months, while Timothy hay is good rabbits older than that.
Enrichment is also very good for your rabbits (like the ball in the video), theres plenty of toys that work great for them, like baby toys, especially baby key rings, as they love to toss those around, our willow reaths, for chewing on, but those are just some common examples
And now that that's fine im going to show you rabbit area done right:
Okay, first I wanna say that this isnt 'perfect' and isn't something every rabbit owner can do, its just the best setup for my rabbit, and a good thing to start with us and xpen. Those work great for rabbits because it gives them enough room to run around, the best thing to do for your rabbit would be to free roam them, there's lots of videos on how to freeroam + bunnyproof
Also note, hutches aren't good for your rabbit either, the one in my rabbit pen was a gift from my grandpa and I decided to use it as an extra asset to my rabbits pen (as a door for him to get in and out of, because he does freeroam in the day, but stays in his pen at night or when I need to go somewhere and can't keep an eye on him. I also use the the fully wooden part of the hutch for holding his litterbox plus his hay, and then I have his food and water dishes on the outside, (another note on rabbit diet, feeding them a bowl of veggies (I use a spring mix + anything else I know is good for my rabbit, and feed him that twice a day.)
Rabbits are also social animals, and its important to spend time with them, building up a bond with your rabbit is very important and will help your rabbit to trust you, because like with all other pets, you shouldn't get a rabbit just to have one, you should get them because you want a companion.
A healthy rabbit can live up to 10 or more years, its not a small commitment. You will be their caretaker, you chose the pet now its your responsibility to give them a good life, do not let those poor animals waste away alone in cages.
This is why I hate 'starter pet' culture. Rabbits are delicate and quiet animals who need a lot of care, if you are going to get a kid a pet get them what they want because a puppy or a kitty can tell the kid when they need to eat shit play or are hurt, a rabbit won't do that in an easy way for a child to understand.
And one last thing, if your gonna have a rabbit, watch 'Lennon the Bunny' on YouTube PLEASE, that channel has almost all you can imagine as far as rabbit videos go and there are lots of tutorials on setup and rabbit care.
Thats all I am going to say, and do your fucking reaserch before getting a god damn pet.
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