#cause Kou give me TOO MUCH to work with

[mari-lair]

Kou's perception of Mitsuba, and how it changes, is fascinating to me.

(Quick note: I’ll be calling the human ‘Sousuke’ and the supernatural ��Mitsuba’ to make it less confusing)

Let’s rewind to Mitsuba’s introduction in Hell of Mirrors: Kou leaped at the idea that Sousuke was back. Even after Tsukasa told him this isn’t the same person he used to know, merely an "artificial ghost with part of Sousuke's soul", Kou subconsciously rejected the idea.

Mitsuba’s existence brought his grief back full force, and while he could sense that Sousuke’s memory doesn’t perfectly match reality, logic was never his strongest motivator in hell of mirrors, he is so full of hope and desperation: He wants Mitsuba to be Sousuke so bad.

He can’t let go of the past, he is not seeing Mitsuba, just shadows of Sousuke.

Kou wasn’t able to tell this is not his old friend, simply perceiving Mitsuba as an amnesic Sousuke.

Kou wants Mitsuba to 'remember' him when we know from Mitsuba's empty mirror that he has no life to remember. Kou calls him what he had called Sousuke and gives him Sousuke’s photos, visibly desperate to get his friend back.

Even when they get out, Kou did not allow himself to face reality, talking about Mitsuba as if he was Sousuke, pushing what Tsukasa had said away.

“I thought he was gone for good” “I didn’t think I’ll ever see him again” “Because I couldn’t save him” Is all about Sousuke, which, as Tsukasa explained, “Sousuke doesn’t exist anywhere in this world anymore”

Kou only starts to realize what he has been doing and face reality in picture perfect, when Mitsuba shows him Sousuke’s life on the windows, calling Kou out for only focusing on his dead friend, ignoring Mitsuba, and using him for his own selfish reasons.

Kou is reminded of his trauma when Mitsuba breaks the window with Sousuke’s memories in it, but it does serve as an efficient wake up call.

Kou actually looks at Mitsuba here. He is dazed and shocked but he pays attention to what Mitsuba is saying: he is able to sees him as his own person. 

Mitsuba is confident no one cares about him, so after venting, completely breaking this world's facade, he sucks up his tears and goes back to his human form, offering Kou his dreams.

This time Sousuke’s image isn’t overwhelming. Kou doesn’t want to believe in this fake world now that he can see through it: Now that he can see Mitsuba.

He understands this is his own wish, not Mitsuba’s.

He can see that this lie is hurting Mitsuba.

Kou understands that there is truth to Mitsuba’s words. During all the fun times they spent together, he had been picturing Sousuke by his side, he wanted to have Sousuke back so badly that he never considered Mitsuba’s feelings, or how his wish to replace him would be hurtful.

Kou is a selfish person full of genuine kindness: He still wishes Mitsuba was Sousuke and he feels guilt for ignoring Mitsuba.

“You can’t find happiness in a fake world” is a message to both Mitsuba and himself. Once Kou snaps out of his dream, he realizes it would only lead to ruin and tries to drag Mitsuba out of his own delusions, and while he has some points, he doesn’t understand that promising a better reality, giving him hope, is cruel.

Kou genuinely wants to understand Mitsuba, so he hears him out, and pays full attention to his distress.

There is still the solid weight of his failure with Sousuke in Mitsuba’s very essence, but despite them looking the same and being very tied together, Kou is determined to focus on Mitsuba, he doesn’t want to do the same mistake again.

I won’t go in depth on Kou’s lack of care about his own life in this analysis, but I think it is worth noticing this offer was for Mitsuba, not Sousuke, and Mitsuba could see that.

Mitsuba doesn't believe Kou can make him human, but he understands that he is serious, and that Kou will try.

He gets the feeling that maybe, hopefully, Kou cares about him too, not just Sousuke, so it freaks him out that his possible friend throws himself out of the fucking building.

The last thing Kou wants is to hurt him, so he apologizes for being reckless and trying to sort out his own feelings without considering how Mitsuba would feel.

Despite this determination to be closer to Mitsuba, he subconsciously puts a distance between himself and the supernatural. He accidentally keeps ignoring him.

Remember this:

It’s about Kou’s wish, but it shows one of Mitsuba's own wishes, one weaker than his burning desire to be human, but no less real: The wish for friends.

Friends are one of the reasons he went along with faking to be Sousuke, friends are one of the many reasons he wants to be human in the first place.

But unfortunately, this is a wish he shares with Sousuke, so Kou blocked it out, not wanting to overlap the two, even if wanting to be friends is a part of Mitsuba too.

It’s complicated.

Being friends meant so much for Sousuke, and Kou doesn’t want to be reminded of him.

Kou understands seeing Mitsuba as Sousuke is an insecurity of Mitsuba and truly believes that the supernatural deserves better, he should be his own person instead of a shadow of Sousuke. Kou recognizes this difficulty separating the two is his issue, not Mitsuba's, so he is determined to make sure it doesn't become a problem again.

This need to separate the two makes it so he can’t see Mitsuba as a friend, or if he does, he can’t voice it. He has never called Mitsuba a friend unless he was thinking of Sousuke or mistaking him for Sousuke, whose friendship he treasures. Even when Mitsuba had expressed he want Kou to stay in this world as his friend, the wish didn't register, and Kou focused instead on the far less achievable, but completely detached from Sousuke, dream of turning him into a human.

Mitsuba’s dream is important to Kou, and Mitsuba noticed that, since his vent was a moment were he had Kou full attention on him instead of Sousuke, so Mitsuba eventually used his dream to distract Kou from Nene’s lifespan and their dilemma in Mei’s world.

Unfortunately, this is, at its core, just a distraction: Mitsuba may believe in Kou’s determination, but he doesn’t believe Kou has the power to grant his wish, he isn’t expecting Kou to find a solution, and he never pressures Kou about it after, he only said this because he doesn’t like to see Kou in distress, it makes him uncomfortable, and so he needs him to snap out of it.

Mitsuba has no idea how huge this is for Kou, how important it feels, cause Kou feels as if no one had ever expected anything from him before.

Even when Hanako expected him to save Nene, Kou had no idea so much trust was put on him, because Hanako only told him this:

And Kou was frozen in time, unable to hear a thing, when Hanako added this:

So in Kou’s point of view, Mitsuba is the only one that expects something from him, the only one that depends on him. (which is diferent from people depending on his role: like his siblings needing a housekeeper)

Kou talks big but in the end, he is just an overwhelmed 14 year old: while he is determined to make Mitsuba’s dream come true and fully separate him from Sousuke, he has no way to help him, and it is hard for him to not see Mitsuba as Sousuke. It’s incredibly hard.

It may have been presented in a comedic manner, but we know this haunts him all the way to his dreams.

Add in all the romantic undertones of his interactions with both Mitsuba and Sousuke, and Kou really has a big crisis.

He only fully comes to terms that Sousuke is gone when he visits his mom and sees first hand the impact of his death.

He processed and mourned Sousuke's death, he can truly separate them now, but things are still far from simple.

What exactly is his relationship with Mitsuba? It isn’t as easy to understand as his relationship with Sousuke.

Let’s see how his wishes manifest to illustrate it. This is his wish with Sousuke:

It's the wish to have been a good friend to Sousuke while he was alive. Depending on where you read, the translations may be ‘you were my friend’ or you ‘are my friend’ but regardless, it has Sousuke wearing his death clothes and thanking Kou, which shows that Kou has moved on. He has accepted his death, no longer wishing for Sousuke to come back to life.

His wish with Mitsuba may start simple enough: Kou wants to be missed, to be wanted.

But grows out of control very quickly.

It’s strange. Dangerous.

It’s important that when the Fake shows up in the red house he is a supernatural, not a human like Mitsuba wishes to be. The fake also wants Kou to fulfill his promise from picture perfect and die so they can be together, which is something Mitsuba rejected, angry with Kou for his reckless behavior.

This wish to stay by his side forever is purely Kou, though it's not as simple as Kou wanting to die: Keep in mind that many of the house wishes are merely things Kou subconsciously wants because it would give him an easy answer to a dilemma he is being troubled by: Like when the house materialized an evil Hanako telling him to “exorcise me before I kill everyone” because all his problems would have been easier to solve if the world was more black and white.

If dying, ending it all, really was a deep wish of his the house would have shown him an easy way to die: For better or worst, the house is very straight to the point with its temptations, when Kou wished for a legendary weapon that would ‘save senpai in a flash’ the house gave him exactly what he asked for, when he got hungry it showed him food, so if he seeked death itself, even if subconsciously, the house would offer him a noose or a drop as high as a school building, not something so tied to the idea of being wanted, to Mitsuba trusting and believing in Kou.

Kou has very little self-worth and sees his own life as a disposable tool for others, but I do not believe being willing to die and wanting to die are the same. He mostly wants an answer about what to do with Mitsuba, he wants to be the one with the solution to his problems more than he wants to make Mitsuba human, and the only solution he can come up with is to become a supernatural, so the red house gave him exactly what he wants: a solution of his own making.

Kou is very self-centered, the Fake may be twisted, but Kou had always accidentally distorted his relationship with Mitsuba, the unease he felt facing the fake is likely because it isn’t what he expected to see, but it isn’t alien either, it’s similar to things Kou has thought before:

Now, Kou doesn’t want Mitsuba to be helpless, to consume his life, he have no malicious intentions whatsoever, but he does want to be needed. Kou is desperate to be needed.

He feels like he is never seen as reliable: He had bonding moments with Nene on many occasions but she has Hanako, whose actions are morally questionable at times but he does get results, unlike Kou. Teru loves him but kept him in the dark about the exorcist world for his whole life, Tiara loves him but Kou seems to be under the impression her favorite bro is clearly Teru, and anyone else wouldn’t pick him as their first choice.

In contrast, Mitsuba is very attached to him, Mitsuba has a wish that he had asked Kou to grant him, and Kou had attached himself to Mitsuba just as much as he has grown attached to the idea that Mitsuba needs him.

Kou’s wish to be with Mitsuba and his deep wish to be needed are interconnected, Kou wants so so much to help him, to not be a disappointment again, that he became obsessed. Ironically, while Kou wants to be trusted, he doesn’t trust himself, and this determination to grant his wish blinds Kou from bonding and granting Mitsuba's wish for friends. Kou does have good intentions but he is doing what he wants, he is not paying attention to Mitsuba.

Kou doesn’t want Mitsuba to worry, Kou wants to help, and he can’t see his lack of self preservation hit Mitsuba too. I personally think Kou is aware his selflessness is inherently selfish but he hates that part of himself, because he rejected all his wishes in the red house but was able to admit to himself later they are his wishes.

He seem to acknowladge this but still reject it, cause he keeps doing the same mistakes: He may have apologized for jumping in picture perfect but he keeps missing Mitsuba’s intentions.

He is at his most selfish with Mitsuba and yet, I have no doubts he genuinely cares about him.

When he does see Mitsuba again, he is happy he is ‘good’ and he has both a heavy romantic energy and a noticeable distance. In hindsight, I’m not surprised he called him an acquaintance.

Kou likes him but he isn’t sure if is because of Mitsuba or because Mitsuba reminds him of Sousuke, so Kou had put a mental block on the idea of them being friends. Mitsuba very existence was born out of his failure with Sousuke, and have a big tie with Kou’s self worth. Any romantic feelings he has are being suppressed, and yet they do have a connection outside Sousuke. Kou is so focused on not disappointing Mitsuba he sabotages a lot of chances of connecting with him.

So what are they? It’s not as simple as ‘not quite friends and not quite lovers’, they are deeply affected by each other but know so little of the other they are basically strangers. They put their wishes on each other (”I want friends” “I want to be needed”) and yet misread what they are expected to give. They want connection and are afraid of not being as important to the other as the other is for them: They are a loving and tragic mess.

I am not surprised Kou had a breakdown when Mitsuba told him to exorcise him.

At this point, Kou is able to see Mitsuba as his own person/monster, so I feel like the request to be exorcised doesn’t make him remember Sousuke’s death, but it does bring back Severance trauma: We haven’t seen a Sousuke flashback in ages, but we got plenty of little panels of Mitsuba in the severance from Kou’s pov.

Outside the distress of Mitsuba wanting to die after Kou just got him back, it’s important that Kou focuses on how he needs to eat to survive after the severance, and instead of being disgusted as Mitsuba expected, Kou takes it as a personal attack, as a declaration Mitsuba also has Tsukasa to rely on.

Kou doesn’t care that Mitsuba is a monster, it was one of the main things he used to differentiate him from Sousuke, is old news, but he does care that Mitsuba still wants to be human but have gave up on ever being one. By doing so, Mitsuba indirectly admits that he doesn’t believe Kou can grant his wish, which is a promise that Kou had put a lot of his self-worth in, so it feels like Mitsuba doesn’t need Kou.

The only thing Mitsuba seems to need Kou for is to exorcise him.

Kou needs to handle both the realization Mitsuba wants to die and that he doesn’t believe in him, that’s more than enough to break him. Add in all the repressed feeling he have, both of friendship and romance, and dear lord, please help this kid.

These two have so many communication problems I hope they talk in the next chapter.

[faerishv]

Hellooo!!

Can I request hanako, tsukasa, sakura, kou and mitsuba x reader who is calm and can handle things by herself and strong enough to defeat supernaturals

Hope you can do it and take care!!

!! : in this reader is wrote with she / her pronouns but yall can see them with they / them or he /him pronouns as always

a s / o who can handle things by herself

; hanako :

he's impressed by how calm you are ; there's always something chaotic going on in the school and your calm personality really helps him to relax a bit , though he will try to fluster you just to see your calm act drop off

also the fact that you can handle supernaturals by yourself does really help him , he knows you'll be just fine and doesn't have much to worry about , though at the end he will always check you for some injuries. When he sends Yashiro to destroy the yorishiros he asks you to cover her back

Sometimes he tries to save you and kill off the supernatural before you do and take you in his arms so it can seem like the prince saving the princess kind of scenario ( we all know you'll be the prince and him the princess )

; kou :

you're like the opposite of him and he adores it ; he loves you and your calm attitude and how it contrasts with his energetic one , you always help him to calm himself down and it works !! Even Teru adores you and always asks you to keep an eye on his brother so that he doesn't get himself in some troubles.

The fact that you can handle supernaturals even if you're not an exorcist amazes him more , he's always shocked to see you fighting bad spirits and looking cool while you do it , though even if he knows that you can handle yourself he tries to protect you anyway

You being this strong makes him overthink about you thinking of him like a weak exorcist , that one day you'll leave for someone better and that can actually protect you without letting you risk ; please give him a kiss and reassure him :((

; mitsuba :

at first he joked about you " not having feelings " because how can you be so calm ??? When in reality he loves you personality and being around you ; being the third mistery of school and dealing with the broadcasting room members can be quite exhaustive , so when he feels overwhelmed he comes to you for a bit of peace

he wants you to protect him from the supernaturals even if he's literally a school mistery ... but the anxiety of you getting hurt because of him makes his " skill " ( ? ) protect you ; he will start to say how much strong he was for protecting you and such when he was just shitting his pants tbh

Tho of course he doesn't want you to be in danger and will stop you if the enemy looks too much for you

; mitsuba :

he " lives " to try to piss you off , just like his brother but worse ; sure he loves your behavior but at the end its not really funny for him to see you always calm and collected ; its in his nature to piss off people after all

He wants to see you fighting supernaturals so bad , he'll watch your moves with sparkles in his eyes and when you win he'll hug you and compliment you. Though if he sees you are in difficulty he'll slay the supernatural with a single move and act like nothing happened

; sakura :

Trust me she loves and adores you so much because of your personality , finally someone who doesn't scream every day and just causes troubles here and there. You're the one she talks to you most , not just because you're her s / o , but because she really loves your company in general

She's not really happy when you fight off supernaturals , you're good and all , and your skills are impressive of course , but she can't help to be a little anxious for you when you come back ; you always have to do a spin in front of her just to see if you you're injured or something

[liannelara-dracula]

Can I get the mukami's for this prompt?

👨‍👩‍👧‍👦 What their family is like, like the household and number of kids.

Hi love,

Good question, sorry it took so long and that some are short but I did my best. Hope you like it. :)

Mukami Boys Family + Household hcs

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Ruki:

Family + Background:

Ruki wasn't focused on marrying, he just wants to spend his life with you and you wanted the same.

You two were unsure of what that had in store for you.

So you weren't even thinking about marriage or having kids.

Your main focus was just being together.

The marriage just came along the way because Ruki loves you and thought the time was right. Although he honestly feels like he's already married to you.

Number of kids:

Two! A boy and a girl.

You had your kids before you were married.

This is mostly because he can never keep his hands off you and you have a hard time saying no, you eventually had a baby.

You started off as a family of three and lived in the Mukami mansion because you too were just starting out.

The both of you were trying to figure things out so Ruki figured it was best to just stay at the mansion at first.

Plus, there was plenty of room.

And his brothers don't really mind, they are actually excited.

Especially Kou, he can't wait to babysit and help with baby showers or whatever.

Of course your pregnancy was an adventure for you both because you were clueless about caring a supernatural baby and so was he.

And being parents wasn't something you to were planning or expecting.

You both wanted to stick to the lover phase for a while but things happened so fast and you to did like the idea of baby.

It's also cause Ruki is old-fashioned, I highly doubt he'd let you get rid of it. Whatever the case you don't want to.

In terms of giving birth Ruki would just take you to the hospital

Your first child was definitely a boy and looked exactly like Ruki.

When you had this little one it took some time of getting used to and you eventually worked out who would do what.

Ruki is pretty involved as a parent as are you and he does a fair amount for you and the your first kid.

He will get up for you at night if you are too tired.

Made sure you had a nursery for your firstborn.

And he was pretty attentive to what you needed.

He was honestly great about everything.

And the best part had to be when he'd interact with his mini-self.

As you too were getting comfortable with the new baby, within a year or two there was baby two.

Which was a girl!

And Ruki really grew to have a soft spot here. I mean this was a mini you, even though she had his eyes.

His daughter is someone he cannot say no to.

He finds her so cute, he just can't tell her no.

Ruki tends to worry about her a lot so he's a bit over protective.

But he also worries about his son equally.

He loves both of his kids and after being with you long enough and seeing the family he had created he thought it was now a good time to propose to you. (Let me be clear you where a young adult when he met you so that's why you weren't marrying and the relationship was one of many years).

It was cute though because he asked his kids first if he should marry you.

"What do you guys think? Should daddy marry mommy?" He'd grin seeing his kids get excited.

"YEAH!" They'd cheer.

Household:

He cooks, you don't, because he doesn't think you're good enough.

The kids even think that Dad is a better cook.

There isn't too much difference in your role as a parent, you too typically share an equal amount of the work.

He might be the one to teach them academically.

I think he is also a bit better at being strict than you.

Its something about his tone that gets his kids to listen if they're not listening to you.

Kou:

Family + Background

You two got married and you were expecting and he thought it would be nice to have two surprises in one.

He wouldn't stay with his brothers.

After all he is an idol so he would just move out into another house.

This way you two have the place to yourself and you two even have a little bit more privacy.

Of course, it is hard to do with his idol life but you both manage.

if you want me to be really honest I don't see that he'd ever have kids.

Household

You are the one who stays at home considering that he works.

So you usually take care of things.

And the kids

But he appreciates it and when he can stay home he makes sure to spend time with everyone.

He plays with his kids a lot.

Especially when you want to get things done around the house.

I swear he is too lazy to clean and leaves that to you.

But you then leave him to watch the kids for when you go out.

He is usually the one who incorporates fun time for his kids.

He is known to be the more “fun” parent.

Mostly cause he says yes to like everything they ask.

Number of Kids

Two twin boys

He got more than he could ask for.

Sometimes wonders what it would be like if he had girls.

He is also training them to be idols.

It's mostly for fun, so they are his studio a lot.

He sometimes gets inspo from them.

And he dresses them on to.

They surprisingly don’t look like him, they resemble you but they have his social personality.

Yuma:

Family

You’re known as the big family.

He married you before starting a family though.

And even though having kids was on his list.

I don’t think he was planning on having them right away but it sorta ended up being that way.

When you two first got married you stayed at the mansion because you were still working things out.

And his brothers didn’t mind it.

They actually like having you two around.

Seeing Yuma smile is also rare for them too so they are glad you're around.

Although privacy can sometimes be an issue for Yuma.

Especially when arguing, although his brothers don't mind it too much.

In fact, Ruki finds it amusing hearing you two argue.

It's mostly because you and Yuma argue over silly things so it can be funny.

But not to you two.

Household

You and Yuma both stay at home for the most part.

He spends most of his time in the garden.

And his brothers play as babysitters.

There is also a lot of noise and movement thanks to the kids.

And he is also involved in that.

Number of Kids

A lot, honestly it’s over ten.

This man makes you have too many babies.

If you thought you didn’t have it in you, you thought wrong.

So it’s probably 14 kids and probably one by one

So you were pregnant every year practically.

All of them were boys except the last one.

He had one little girl who looked exactly like him.

And most of the boys are mixes of you two.

Although your first looks like him too.

The kids climb all over him.

He yells at the boys if they run around in the garden.

Like he’s strict about that.

Although he carries his little girl when he’s in the garden.

He prefers it’s just her since she stays put in his arms and doesn’t complain. She just watches him but if a bug lands on her she’d probably start to cry.

It’s cause she’s still a baby

Although with his boys he’s good at playing with them and chasing them on the field.

He gets too rambunctious with them you end up scolding him.

He's pretty easy going but sometimes the kids scream too much and don't listen so he sometimes gets serious and then they stop.

Azusa:

Family

The quiet but sweet family.

You two were together for a while and when he proposed to you, you were also pregnant.

So it was two surprises wrapped up in one.

he was really excited.

And he was more than ready to start a family.

He probably lives with his bros but eventually wanted to move out and so he got a place for the both of you.

Household

He does everything for you. Or whatever you need and vice versa.

He stays at home with the kids if you want too.

Azusa is happy to be at home with you and whatever you to do, you do together.

Whether it's cleaning, cooking, baking, watching tv, etc.

Although with one kid he finds the place empty and would like some more.

Number of Kids

Three, two boys and a girl.

They are all quiet and soft-spoken like him.

But they are all very sweet.

Except for when the screaming starts

Azusa usually gets them to settle down.

He reads them bedtime stories and he tucks them in.

He also plays with them a lot.

but overall you are a happy bunch.

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[taintedevesayori]

Prompt 22: Breathless

~ Diabolik OTP Challenge by @yuriko-mukami ~

“So annoying…” Sayo muttered, trying to gather all of her hair in her hands. 

There was so much of it that it wasn’t working out. Every time she thought she had it all, multiple pieces would fall again. 

“I swear I’m gonna chop it off…”

“Hmm~? But I think your hair is pretty.”

She glanced back to see Kou standing in her doorway. Apparently she had been so focused that she didn’t notice the door open. Who knew how long he had been watching. 

“I can’t say I hate it but having it so long can get in the way,” she sighed, letting her hair down. “Plus it’s hard to get all of it together so I can tie it up…”

“Want some help?”

“That would actually be great.”

“Sit down on the chair then!” He chirped, walking over to her. 

She moved away from the mirror, sitting down on the chair to her desk. Kou carefully gathered up her hair in one hand. He made it seem so easy…

“Brush,” he held out his other hand, so she handed him the brush. 

While she was at it, she pulled the hair tie off of her wrist, handing it to him as well. It felt strange to have someone else doing her hair. Honestly, she thought it was kind of nice. 

“There!” Kou grinned once he was finished. “All done!”

He placed the brush down on her desk as she stood. 

“Thanks,” she smiled. “I wasn’t getting anywhere with practice since it was bothering me so much.”

“What were you practicing?”

“A dance. Kisa thought it might be fun to add a little dance sequence to a new song. She wanted us to come up with ideas before our next practice.”

“No way! I love dancing,” he was pretty excited. “I want to see you dance. Let me help.”

He was actually pretty good at dancing, so it would be a good idea. Sure, she danced with the others when they occasionally attended the dance club instead of performing, but she never put any thought into it. 

“That’s not a bad idea…It’s easy to dance when it’s just for fun but I’ve been struggling now that I need to put real thought into it.”

“That’s why you just go with the flow. I hate people ordering me around, so that’s what I do.”

“So none of your dancing is choreographed?” She was pretty surprised by that. 

“Nope! Show me the basics of what you’re thinking and I’ll help from there.”

“If you say so…”

Kou had been helping her practice for over half an hour before the two decided to take a break. 

“I’m disappointed…” he muttered. 

Was he not having fun? It seemed like he was, but maybe she was reading into it wrong. 

“Why’s that?”

“I thought I might get to teach you about sex appeal, but you’ve got plenty of it already.”

She almost choked on her water. “Sex appeal?!”

“Isn’t that pretty important when dancing? I thought you were doing it intentionally….to get me to notice,” he smirked, placing his hands on her waist. 

“I was definitely not doing it on purpose,” she wanted to pull away but his grip was firm. 

“That’s too bad…then why don’t I give you a little sex appeal of my own?”

“…huh?”

He enjoyed seeing her reactions to this sort of thing. She became fairly flustered when he pushed her up against the wall. What was he trying to prove?

“Come on…be serious…”

“Your face is bright red,” he chuckled. “What do you want me to do?”

One of his hands moved to her back, sliding under her shirt. His fingers trailed up along her spine, causing her to shiver. Meanwhile, he leaned his face down to her neck, tracing her collarbone with his tongue. 

“Kou!” She exclaimed, completely flustered at this point. 

She attempted to move away, but he moved forward, his hips pinning her lower body down. 

“Go on~ Why don’t you start squirming? Doesn’t it sound fun to rub up against me?”

“It doesn’t…Come on, let me go…”

“I don’t want to…You taste too sweet…”

His lips moved down to the top of her breast, just above the top hem of her shirt. She winced as he bit down. Even if she had a high pain tolerance, such an area was uncomfortable. But…their position bothered her more than the bite. She wasn’t sure what to do. 

“Mm…” he licked his marks as he pulled away. 

When he glanced up at her face, a dark chuckle escaped his lips. 

“You look like you’re enjoying this, Sayo~”

“No way…!” She exclaimed. 

He leaned up, nipping at her ear before continuing. 

“Are you sure you aren’t getting a little heated?”

“Kou, be serious…”

“I am,” he moved his face closer so that their noses brushed against one another. 

Her heart felt like it was beating out of her chest. She knew she should push him away…but she couldn’t bring herself to. Kou felt like he had waited for her to reject him long enough. He closed the gap, locking his lips with hers. 

This was insane. She could barely believe what was happening. One kiss was enough to encourage him. He went right back for more. 

“Kou…” she managed to gasp out in between kisses. “What-?”

“Twist your tongue around mine…like this…” 

He cut her off with another kiss, more heated than the last. His tongue really did enter her mouth, twirling against hers. She had no idea what to do, so she simply let him continue to take the lead. 

Eventually she did push him away as she tried to catch her breath. 

“You’re…insufferable…” she gasped. 

“Don’t act like you didn’t like it,” he smirked. 

She grumbled some choice words under her breath, but let it go as he pulled her in for more.

[koumeowkami]

artists i associate to the diabolik lovers characters

(+ explanations/headcanons!)

this is gonna be a long post since i absolutely LOVE talking about music. you may take this as a music recommendations post lol. also check my DL playlists out if you want to! 💗

SHU — WITHIN TEMPTATION

let's start with some nice symphonic metal! it's pretty obvious since shu likes classical music. he's relatively calm (maybe too much) but there's a storm inside of him: his double side fits this band a lot imo. moreover, within temptation are powerful but also ethereal, so even though they're "heavy" i think he would give a chance to them :D he would occasionally cover their songs on violin if he feels like it.

REIJI — APOCALYPTICA

staying on the symphonic metal side, we have apocalyptica. this band is so peculiar since it's only formed by three cellos and drums, but i can assure you they're metal lmao. they're neat, polished, elegant and mature: all of these are basic reiji traits! (shu likes them too but he listens to them secretly lol)

AYATO — PARAMORE / HALESTORM

here he comes. my lil punk boi. i think about too many artists when it comes to ayato, cause honestly just every pop punk artist does it for me, but early paramore music gives me HUGE teen emo vibes (both angsty and romantic) that represent ayato so well!! i already stated it in my rocker!ayato headcanons post, but he would blast the RIOT! album at every hour of the day.

regarding halestorm, they represent his "darker" side. they're heavier and more aggressively free-spirited. now tell me if he wouldn't sing Love Bites (So Do I) to yui "jokingly" lol.

KANATO — THE BIRTHDAY MASSACRE

how could i NOT associate kanato with the band that basically gave birth to the creepy cute genre, the birthday massacre? their particular goth/industrial sound blending with the vocalist chibi's cute, almost ethereal voice gives so many kanato vibes!! not to mention that the official color of the band is purple lmao. he'd find their album covers very aesthetic, i'm sure of it :D and i also think his fav album would be Violet, the creepiest of them all.

LAITO — LADY GAGA / THE PRETTY RECKLESS

basically laito's two personalities lmao. lady gaga doesn't need any introductions: her provocative and sexy persona shocked everyone and basically all of her songs could potentially be in laito's sex playlist.

the pretty reckless are also indeed sexy, but sexy-depressed??? sexy-angsty?? some of their songs are about embracing one's "dark" side, some others are about dealing with depression (especially in their latest works). i like how they both use the "sexy" façade while actually having more to offer. considering how much laito is broken inside, their music fits so well.

SUBARU — BRING ME THE HORIZON

i'll keep saying this: emo music isn't enough for this guy. this dude listens to metalcore and whatever is heavier than emo pop punk. i actually had issues with picking a band for him cause most of them are casual listens to me but!!! in the end i chose bring me the horizon. angsty emo. pure rage. that's simply subaru for you! sometimes he would sing to their songs in his room but never admit it lol.

RUKI — HIM

honestly, this guy would love gothic rock. i just know it. HIM is the perfect band for him! their dark, elegant, kinda sad sound reminds me of him a lot. and the lyrics too!! they're really poetic, mostly about love and death with a few mentions to eden (pun intended?); the vocalist ville valo often takes inspiration for his lyrics from the books he reads! ruki would definitely dedicate Vampire Heart to yui btw.

KOU — AVRIL LAVIGNE / ICON FOR HIRE

LISTEN. i've been headcanoning this ever since my first DL post ever but kou would be a huge avril lavigne fan. it would mostly represent his frivolous idol persona, but also some of what he hides underneath.

his realest and deepest side is represented by icon for hire. they're heavier, aggressive and talk a lot about sensitive topics. kou has one of the worst pasts among the DL characters and has dealt with pretty much everything going from depression, to abuse, to drug addiction, to suicidal tendencies. i think he'd find some sort of comfort in their songs.

YUMA — P.O.D.

i always pictured yuma as a hip-hop kinda guy, so i think he would like nu metal. being part of the angry and bothered trio with ayato and subaru, he's relatively the calmest one but that means nothing since we're in DL lol. p.o.d.'s passive-aggressive style reminds me of him so much and i swear i ALWAYS think about him when i listen to Youth of the Nation, it's like it talks about him and his brothers specifically.

AZUSA — EVANESCENCE

there are two types of emo: the angry emo and the sad emo. azusa obviously belongs to the second one. i can't really associate him to one genre in particular, it just depends on the ~vibes~, but i chose evanescence for him cause their lowkey eerie, slow style fits azusa a lot. fear of abandonment and selflessness are some of the themes they've covered and Lithium is the song that makes me think about azusa the most.

CARLA — NIGHTWISH

carla has that gothic royal-ish attitude that reminds of the first nightwish era (with tarja turunen as vocalist). i mostly tend to associate the deep, elegant lyrical vocals with carla's deep voice lol. it's just a matter of ~vibes~ again :D

SHIN — FROM FIRST TO LAST

this little shit would only listen to post-hardcore. nothing reminds me of shin more than a cringy "i'm angy >:(" music genre. i actually do enjoy some post-hardcore and from first to last is the exception. i think shin would fit especially in the Dead Trees era, aka FFTL's villain arc™: very silly, angsty and full of villanous vibes but more mature than their previous works.

KINO — AMARANTHE

gamer boi coming through with electronic metal!! amaranthe's futuristic mix of edm and metal + their in-your-face attitude is a perfect match with kino. PvP is THE kino song. the music, the lyrics, the game concept just suit him so well!! slay.

[sayakxmi]

[Magi reread] Night 66: Holy Palace's Aladdin

It almost feels weird to return to Aladdin right now

Weird thingies

Idk, just that giant head is kinda silly

Also, damn, Aladdin's wobbly legs

Nvm, they aren't Schehe's clones. But it still confuses me a little, cuz I feel like it's sort of implied later on that they are? But I might be misremembering thing - I'll comment on it when I get to the Magnostadt Arc. For now it's just a bit ?? Like, it's a real possibility Ohtaka didn't plan that far ahead yet.

You look really sad about it for a guy who nearly murdered him in blind rage

Ok, to be fair, I can imagine him feeling bad about it after calming down. Still, weird choice to want to explain Alma Torran to Judar instead of, idk, Yunan for example. I feel like it would have made the whole dying-and-coming-back-over-and-over-again a little more bearable. To actually know the point of that. Bc when Aladdin and Yunan talk, Yunan admits that Ugo'd never explained anything, and in that form (the blob, probably) form he couldn't ask. So. That fucking sucked.

Anyway. Giving Solomon's Wisdom to Judar? Really? I think you're putting too much faith in that guy.

F

I... forgot that's what happened. I remembered they were the same guy, but that magic turning into one? Tbh, cool.

Pretty!

Hello there, characters nobody cares about, least of all Ohtaka

Don't worry, grls, I've got u.

Look at this annoyed Alibaba, lmao

F A T E

I mean, I jest, but it's pretty cool. Fate is one of Magi's main themes, that for sure, and to have it explained the way it is, I think it really works.

Black Sun

Honestly, I just love it being explained like that. Things becoming inverted, distorted.

Idk man, there's not much I think I can say about it. The explanation is solid on its own, and it's pretty damn cool.

Tho later Ohtaka will come and try to convince us that maybe falling isn't so bad after, yeah, sure, all these brainwashed people are a good proof of that...

That's... yeah. I was thinking about it lately, cuz I was thinking about the Kou Empire Arc.

Maybe that entire becoming more powerful god than the other guy then that guy becoming more powerful than you and then you becoming more powerful than him... etc didn't come out of nowhere here, bc Hakuryuu's falling feels kind of like that. Abra is fallen, so she works against fate, so she fucked up the fate for Hakuryuu, who then proceeded to, idk, +2 to that by also falling, and, since he's not returning things to the actual fate's course, he just makes even bigger of a mess... Which is ironic as fuck. He tried to destroy Al-Thamen by literally doing what they wanted to - sowing more chaos and disasters all around, which at worst could have led the world to an end (given Judar could cause Il Illah to descend, apparently). Idk man, put some make up on to the clown music, you fucking moron.

Like, don't get me wrong, I like Hakuryuu for the most part, but Jesus Fuck he's an idiot. This is why he's constantly painted as immature. Because he fucking is immature. He never thinks things through, has no patience to speak of once he snaps, and ends up just making everything worse for everybody and himself, and wakes up with a hand in the pot, because turns out he has no idea how to handle the aftermath of his stupidass choices, because he was too busy fucking up people's minds to consider what happens after the war.

Ok rant over.

Foreshadowing

(soon) RIP Alibaba

Honestly, that's such a cool moment.

It kind of looks cute

Idk man, awesome moment all around. The fact that all of these blobs are helping him up is really cute, too

That crying Aladdin : (

Also, not gonna lie, this feels like the theme of this arc, among other things. And I'll definitely talk about it more. It's about losing the people you love, but at the same time meeting new ones, too. Of course they won't replace them, but the point is simply you're not alone.

;;;

Honestly, it just looks aweosme

[d0t-d0t]

read destiny unchain online

I've never used tumblr in any capacity before, but I feel like this is a good way to introduce myself to it - by simping for my favorite manga series as much as I possibly can.

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So, why read DUO? Because it's just that good. It's basically like Shangri-La Frontier, but if the MC wasn't a lone wolf.

The premise is simple: In the distant future, VR and AR have integrated their way into daily life, and VRMMOs have exploded in popularity. The main character, Mitsuki Kou, has grown up playing VRMMOs all of his life, and his dad works for a company that develops them. From no-lifing VR games for his entire childhood, Kou has basically become what you'd call a "god gamer", and so his dad uses him to playtest the VRMMOs he develops.

The story begins as Kou's dad finishes his magnum opus: Destiny Unchain Online. Kou is called in to playtest for the game. Normally, VRMMOs in this universe are played using a fancy choker (rather than the headsets you see in other series); however, Kou's dad developed a special device for Kou to play in just for him, called "The Cradle". Kou logs in, and after choosing to play as a half-vampire named "Crim" in character creation, he gets genderbent by the game. It's at this point that she freaks out and contacts her dad, who then hits her with the double whammy that because of so-called "technical issues", she'll be staying logged into the game for three months straight.

So, yeah. It's got VRMMO, vampires, and genderbending. A triple whammy, if you ask me. But, of course, the premise doesn't make the story. What else do I love about this manga then? (I'll stay vague in this post to give you all a chance to read it before I post more spoilery stuff...)

Character-wise, everyone is just brimming with personality. Volume 1 largely focuses on just Crim and some NPCs, but in Volume 2, most of the rest of the main cast is introduced, and the character writing really starts to shine with how they bounce off one another.

The VRMMO mechanics are also very well thought out - the author plays a ton of video games and MMOs, and so situations, references, and terminology are brought out from their personal experiences rather than just using VRMMO as a story gimmick they wanted to try writing.

The fights in particular are VERY well executed. The paneling gives a great sense of movement, and the group vs. group combat has a ton of tactical elements thrown in. Just, in general, everything is thought out absurdly well.

And art-wise, holy crap. Wow. This manga, for lack of a better word, is simply beautiful.

Double page spreads GALORE, and there's some crazy art in later chapters that make you think "How the hell is this released weekly?"

And finally, there's Crim. We stan Crim here. (there's another character we stan here too, but that's for another post). Crim is just a completely lovable dork with one of the best character designs I've ever seen.

10/10, best manga of all time. read destiny unchain online.

feel free to ask questions cause I know way too much about the lore, and follow for more crimposting about DUO

[cryptid-pet]

Azushin Mermaid AU Headcanons I Created at the Bottom of the Ocean Part III

Okay, NOW we are getting into the Azushin relationship itself in this one, this also will go for part IV too

Couple Tws >>> Verbal assault, threats, implied gore, physical assault//self harm

This is sorta going to be hard for me to explain since it made more sense in my head, so PLEASE bear with me, y'all wanted this early

I'd like to think of it as Azusa wasn't alone, he was Ruki beause he's the eldest (Duhhhh?)

As I mentioned before, they don't go out during nighttime because that's like the perfect time for Carla and Shin to get down to business

It's like a tiny situation that Azusa HAS to make a big deal, and I'm talking about him loosing Christina on his way home

Azusa refuses to look for her the following day and it was already late enough, Yuma nor Kou honestlyyyy didn't wanna go for themselves to look with the kid (Ahh I love Ruki, obviously he'd give in and go help)

It was suppose to be a quick look around where Azusa came to and fro their home. Him AND Ruki were out for one SINGLE hour

They easily lost track of time and accidentally went faaaar off from home, which leads to everything else >>>

Ususally, the Mukami's don't pay a lot of attention to whatever is above them (You know like if there's a bird in the water if they're THAT close to the surface from underwater, it's stupid and minor)

When I tell you this bigass shadow covered roughly where Ruki and Azusa were, I'm talking about it covering everything AROUND them

It was easily worth waiting and planning for months for this moment because such a mission underway worked perfectly for the Hunter Brothers

It was too smooth in fact, as if they knew how fast Azusa would be and easily the knowledge Ruki gained of the two (Though they first thought any mermaid or merman would be stupid, but the Mukamis are pretty clever)

Ruki was the first to be caught when pushing Azusa out of the way of a sudden trap

Darts, yes, from a tranquilizer gun were shot in the water ONLY at Azusa (Again, he's fast as shit, you gotta least make the kid passed out in order to capture him

Ruki and Azusa were actually kept in seperate rooms that were almost similar looking, Carla would try and gather data from Ruki and Shin would from Azusa

Again, Azusa really doesn't have much information about who the Hunter Brothers are other than "They aren't nice people to mankind" and that's it

Reminder too, Shin was the FIRST human EVER Azusa has seen, so when seeing him again after waking up in a strange place, it did make him nervous

Nothing too intense happens, but Shin does verbal harassment to Azusa and the kid doesn't quite understand the meanings

Azusa doesn't actually say a single WORD as Shin explains what is going on, he just tilts his head and often will nod

What was freaky was that in the room both Mukamis were in already had things from stuffed dolphins, crabs, sear horse, etc, it was just a huge trigger for them

It's unknown if after research that Ruki and Azusa would be killed just for their scales and tails, but easily can be doubted that they won't be sent back into the water

During this entire thing, Ruki and Azusa weren't allowed to see each other nor get any updates of one another from Carla or Shin

There was a lot of threats coming from Shin, such as saying if Azusa did try to escape (Not like he would, he's half fish) that he'd pour oil into the tank he was in to kill him, put piranahs in the water to bit and cause injuries (You know like tearing at his flesh aggressively)

Of course Azusa was horrified, why wouldn't he be?

The public hasn't ben told about the Hunter Brothers catching, not one, but TWO merman, it's going to stay like this until further notice

When the first week went by, Azusa had a couple scales scrapped off him forcefully for testing towards Carla’s illness and even to establish a price of selling

It’s unknown if Ruki has gone through the same treatment as Azusa

Since Azusa doesn’t poke his head out of the water a lot for air, he easily got sick with the times he did from the large tank (Sure, you could say he can get out easily but he clearly wouldn’t get far when flopping right on the cold ground)

Despite the rooms being displayed of stuffed, polished animals, Shin purposely will even bring a living animal and kill it right in front of Azusa

Kou and Yuma can’t even keep track with how long Ruki and Azusa have been gone, they even went to search for them on their own

The more Shin came to get shit from Azusa, the more Azusa just gave in, though couldn’t determine the reason why

Azusa likely got his masochism from Shin treating him poorly and grew adjusted to it

Shin sorta got creeped out with how Azusa let him to what he liked just to make sure Ruki would be safe, but paid no attention

At the very start, around day two of being capture, Shin said he’d give Azusa some rewards if he didn’t put up a fight (Nothing special, like giving him a bigger tank and whatever)

There’s a saying Azusa made up with how there’s no such thing as a bad person, so he wants to believe the Hunter Brothers are doing what they do for their own necessarily, he’s willing to at least try and trust them until they are released

Right off the bat, Carla and Shin could tell Azusa was naive, which was a sly advantage knowing taking Ruki into a separate room would make it harder on Azusa (He needs that guidance)

[1/4] [2/4] [4/4] [Caruki Addition]

[trashlie]

ILY FP 236

I'm working backwards because it's late and I think I need more energy to get 235 out so I'm going to jump on this one, first lol I hope you guys don't mind! I'd like to get 235 out tomorrow before the ep goes out for those who like to come and check after the free post drops lol also I just REALLY want to catch up on these because I like having all my thoughts in one place and I didn't manage to hit up reddit for 236 last week - I was sick and I could not pull myself together for it ;~; So I'm flying by the seat of my pants! Also I just really want to get this one up before tomorrow, too, because I want to put down my thoughts/predictions/wants and see what actually comes out of it LMAO

KOUSUKE KNOWS KOUSUKE KNOWS KOUSUKE KNOWS KOUSUKE KNOWS!

Kousuke's arc continues to blow me away because I was SO certain we wouldn't get a lot of this until much, much later, in season 2 or something, so having this established before we move into our timeskip feels INSANE but it also makes me feel insane wondering where it's going to leave him, what it's going to do to him to learn this, reeling from this truth.

It's hard enough to digest that you've been roofied, much less IN A HOSPITAL by your own mother. That it was a dosage of benzos and oxy HIGH ENOUGH that it would knock a man out (AND DID as evidenced by the poor man who received Kousuke's leftover breakfast) and that it demonstrates how high his tolerance must be that he merely felt hung over.

That he was already wary of the medication Yui tried to give him at the restaurant was insane. That he was already wary of her even though he couldn't understand quite why. That he knew, definitively, something is so wrong with him he didn't care that Hansuke stole his blood vials and tested against Yui's wishes showed just how uncomfortable he is. But his response to the lack of answer!!!! To test him again! Blood AND urine! GOD I was screaming over THAT alone!

Also I have to say it but Kousuke in his Santa hat is so cute. I know I'm patronizing him, I know it's infantilization because he looks so uncertain and so very unlike himself with his discomfort and worry and unease that it makes him look so small and childlike but what can ya do? I like it when we get to see the haughty, confident characters knocked down a few pegs. Or a whole ladder lmao

Also also REALLY living for the Hansuke, Kousuke, Yujing dynamic. It is FUN! It is GOOD, it's what Kousuke needs lmao though I worry that Yui will do everything she can to box out Hansuke, depending on how Kousuke uses what he knows. But for now I'm going to enjoy it. There was something SO FUNNY about Yujing calling Hansuke "babe" and Kou's head popping out from between their seats going "BABE?!" ALKJFKAJFKJAFJKAFKJ SIR PLS CALM YOURSELF!!!!!

But MAN he's getting to THE realization. He's connecting the dots that Hansuke, bless his heart, is unwilling to connect, despite the very good points Yujing is bringing up. Being someone's mom does not mean you are going to make good choices for your child. We've seen fandom run with this thought before, too - that Yui can't possibly be manipulating Kousuke, that she just has alternative parenting. Hansuke, too, falls for the image, for the idea that a mother only wants what's best, that she has his best interests in mind. But like Yujing pointed out - it's so very clear that Kousuke is NOT okay, so why did they clear him? Why did she order him not to run the tests? Any doctor can see Kousuke shouldn't have been released, but a doctor in the hospital run by their FAMILY....?

Kousuke may not be voicing it yet but he knows. GOD, he knows. And the most interesting part is that when he's falling back into that spiral, when he's going back into that unresponsive state, not paying attention to what's going on, he sees Nol's bloodied phone - Nol's phone covered in the bloodshed caused by KOUSUKE'S doing - he uses THAT to anchor himself to the present. He picks up the phone and remembers holding Nol. I've been wondering how much he remembers about that, because he was SO RESOLUTE that Nol didn't harm him, that HE was the one who was hurt, that something was wrong. For that memory to resurface and be what grounds him when the realization that his own mother has drugged him with a lethal combination of drugs that should have done far more than made him feel like he has a hangover.... GOD.

Where does he go with this? He has to start suspecting, right? Because for him to have that tolerance, the obvious conclusion to jump to is that this is not the first time. The times that sweets did the trick and made him feel better - and the time he made them himself and they didn't. The times tea comforted him after particularly stressful experiences - and the brother who has such a strong aversion to it. Will he recall any of the conversation between Rand and Yui when he was passed out? I think, perhaps over the course of some time, we're going to watch that paranoia and fear grow. All this time he feared Nol, he worried about Nol - but Yui was the one to fear, right under his nose, orchestrating everything so that he would be left dependent on her.

UGH.

He knows he can't trust her, but who can he trust? The chef who prepares food for him that always does the trick? The thing about Yui is that Kousuke knows she has people everywhere, and that's the very horrifying thing about his situation. How many pockets is she lining? How many people does she have at her beck and call, to administer whatever she needs of them? Who do you trust when the one person you've relied on - because his own father is so absent and unavailable, also boxed out by his mother - is the very person who you can't trust, who has taken advantage of you?

And where will Meg and Rand's gift come into this? Before, Kousuke jumped on Meg as the only likely option he could think of - Meg who stalked and harrassed him, Meg who brought him the only food/drink outside of the parties. Meg who he acknowledged wasn't like that. It's not the first time Meg would have brought him something that he didn't want to be true - first telling him that Shinae had been drugged. Would he ignore this, too, a gift she says she found in the trash? A gift clearly from his father, disposed of by who else but his mother? Surely those are dots he could connect. And again, what do you DO with that? With the knowledge that she's drugging you, that she replaced the gifts with something so tacky and lacking of familiarity with who he is, especially compared to the actual gift that was thrown out. Will it make him wonder what else Yui has disposed of, traded in, how many other times he'll recall his father admitting that he didn't know this event was on this date that she didn't tell him?

There are SO MANY fissure cracks forming under Kousuke's feet and at the end of the day HOW is he supposed to deal with it, when you can't trust your mom, the people she hires, maybe your family? When you realize that she's been drugging you, that she's been driving that wedge between yourself and your father, that she's ensured you are dependent and reliant upon her, that she has access to all aspects of his life there is nowhere he can evade her he has nowhere to escape to.

GOD IT'S ALL JUST SO INSAAAAAAAAAAANE!!!!!

I still can't get over him using Nol's phone - the concept of NOL - to anchor himself, to ground him as he's reeling from a horrifying realization too big to digest, too overwhelming to handle. It's Nol who he tethers himself to, Nol he uses as a distraction, to pull himself out of these thoughts.

THE TRAGEDY OF THESE BROTHERS WILL NEVER CEASE TO GET TO MEEEEEEEEEEE I'M HOWLING

And then on the flip side we know aaaahhhhhh the long-awaited Dieter and Nol talk is COMING. I just knew it, when Dieter said he'd just go back home and they'll go visit Nol together tomorrow that he was lying and he absolutely was going to see Nol on his own, duh, we all saw that coming but I AM STILL LOOKING FORWARD TO IT! But I'd like to actually acknowledge WHY I am and what I look forward to, since it's not solely about the romance at play.

What Dieter saw when Shinae and Nol thought he was asleep wasn't just that his fears, the things he suspected, had been right all along. It wasn't just that he saw the girl he likes and his best friend flirting. It was all the things he realized he didn't know.

Dieter already made a comment about it - that they didn't realize how bad things were between the brothers and "some friends we are". Because on some level, Dieter has acknowledged it's true - there were so many things about Yeonggi worth questioning that they just didn't, whether it was because Nol isn't forthcoming about the answers, or because he was afraid of pushing him away. We even saw Shinae play with this concept, when she wanted to press him about his family but stopped herself because she was worried he'd run away again. That moment when Nol and Shinae's dance ends, when they have that little spat, was not Yeonggi. It was someone Dieter had never really met, because out of their group, Dieter is the one who knows the least about Nol. About his life, about his relationships. He only knows Yeonggi.

Think about this. Dieter sees Nol on tv, pleading guilty to something he didn't even KNOW about, with a name he didn't know, finding out he's the illegitimate son of Rand. That Yui isn't his mom! Nol blocks all of them, won't take their calls, won't receive them at their home. He finds Shinae in the rain crying, watches as she falls apart in his bed. Nol tells them not to contact him again and basically that he's peacing out.

And then suddenly there he is at Minhyuk's party. He didn't even arrive through the front door!

And there he is, bleeding out on the snow!

Dieter knows NOTHING. Not why Nol left. Not why he came back. Not why he hides himself from them. Not why he pushes away Shinae like he does the rest of them. Not why he cares so much about them but won't let himself have them.

Of course Dieter is hurt. His friend is a lie. His BEST friend, the first friend he made in Korea, the friend who has done everything to be a good friend to him. The friend who tried to play Cupid for him and the girl he likes. He's a LIE what about him is real? He doesn't know him! And not only that but he doesn't TELL him anything.

Dieter has no way to know that Nol has only just realized his feelings for Shiane. In fact, Dieter has been watching those feelings develop between Nol and Shinae for a while, taking note of that chemistry, the ways they veer towards each other, the different relationship that they have. And what hurts is probably not that they like the same girl (or rather, not only that, because I'm sure that hurts) but that Nol couldn't TELL him that. That he couldn't say Hey man I think we gotta talk about this I gotta get something off my chest.

Dieter probably feels like Nol can't trust him. Or maybe he feels like Nol thought so little of his feelings. Maybe he thinks he could have just hid it forever and then left and it wouldn't matter, like Dieter wouldn't have been left picking up the pieces of Shinae, yearning for a girl yearning for someone else.

It's that Nol didn't tell him anything. Nothing about his family, or who he is, or what was happening in his life. Did Dieter know that Nol was going to trial? I'm sure he had NO idea. Does Dieter even know what happened that night? That they were at the formal together? That Shinae got hurt? I don't think he does! There's SO MUCH he doesn't know.

But also.... he doesn't ask. I think he's afraid of scaring Nol off, of pushing him away, but he also knows that that makes him a bad friend, too. Nol put everyone's needs first all the time, deflects when it comes to himself and they let him. They took him at his word, even when they know better.

I want Dieter to call Nol out.

"Aren't we friends? Why can't you tell me things? Why do you keep pushing us away? Do we mean that little to you?"

And I want him to acknowledge that he, too, should have reached out more.

"I'm sorry I didn't pry more. I'm sorry I was so complacent. I'm sorry for being afraid of scaring you off by caring too much."

It's about SO MUCH MORE than just that they like the same girl. That may be an elephant in the room, but it's more about the way they've been friends. Obviously Dieter cares about Nol, but Dieter is also resigned to people walking away, to people leaving. He's so used to moving around and losing touch that perhaps he felt this was all only natural. I want him to fight for his friendship just like Shinae! I want him to call out Nol on boxing them out! We're friends so let us be there for you! We're friends so lean on us! We're friends so please share yourself with us!

Can you be okay if he left, Dieter, and just became yet another former friend?

Fight for him, damnit! ;A;

But also yes I do want him to call out Nol on how he's treating Shinae. That yeah, he's treating them all pretty awfully considering how much they love each other, but he knows what he saw and "if you're pushing her away for my sake, don't. I'm not a little child, I can handle it." I want him to remind Nol that these are not his decisions alone to make, that yEAH it impacts Shinae. What good is it if they like each other but "sorry Dieter likes you so I'm going to push my feelings away we can't do this" because if she doesn't like Dieter - and she doesn't - what does it matter? And would Dieter want to be the one standing in their way? Please. I'm begging this kid to stand up for himself, he's not going to pull a gross, possessive man treating a girl like an object to be claimed move.

Something that I must remind people again is that Dieter knew what he was doing. He knew Shinae doesn't like him like that. He knew that she and Nol have something he doesn't. He was still hopeful, he still tried - and good for him, I'm glad he did! He gave it his best and it didn't work out but at least he can't regret not trying. He hoped that maybe, over time, what exists with Nol and Shinae could develop between them but it's clear to him now that's not how it works.

Shinae didn't betray Dieter.

Nol didn't betray Dieter.

Dieter knew and he hoped anyway because sometimes all you have is hope, but he's not someone to hold that against people.

[mari-lair]

It’s wild when I see people say Aoi is written only to be Akane’s love interest, cause Akane never hid that he is her boy.

He goes the extra mile just for a hint of her attention and had given the classic childhood friend heroine speech of "I’ll love my crush even if they never look my way."

It's framed as a joke but he is genuinely happy as long as Aoi exist, he can enjoy his life and look forward to all his days no matter how shitty they are (Teru bullies him, the clock keepers work him dry, he gets rejected constantly, and so on,) as long as Aoi is alive and happy.

He is ridiculously easy to please when it comes to Aoi.

And while Aoi does loves Akane, visibly being affected by him: As seen by her possessive attitude, her wish to be closer to him, and the way his hard work influenced her, she doesn’t try or want her world to revolve around him.

Yes, she will cry and crumble if he doesn’t like her because she cares deeply, their relationship is a solid part of her character, but she has plenty of hobbies and plans without him, most of her problems are caused by herself or society's views and expectations of her, she wouldn’t do what Akane asks of her or change for him, not unless he is asking for something she also wants for herself.

Let’s compare how they talk about each other for a bit.

The only time Aoi talks about her feelings for Akane is in chapter 84, which is very far into the manga.

And this exposition shows her envious and insecure side, how she admires kindness and wishes she was as lovable: It shows a conflict that says as much about Aoi’s character as it does about Akane’s character.

Meanwhile, Akane consistently talks about her, and most of his expositions don’t offer any substance to his character, other than “he is in love”.

The only exposition that says as much about himself as it does about Aoi is the one in chapter 24, which shows he stalks her, and Aoi encourages it, since she trusts him, and unfortunately, she have been in need of constant protection from a young age:

Even when Akane explicitly says he’ll talk about himself.

He doesn’t.

He  proceeds to spend the whole chapter talking about Aoi.

The only thing he says about himself in that entire rant is “I hate that part of you”, which he later admits was a lie, something that he used to have her stay and listen.

He isn’t just her boy, he has a life outside her, a very busy life.

As Aoi put it, “He works hard and is dutiful.” which mostly translates to ‘helpful and trust worthy’, so he is constantly seen giving other characters advise that works or making them snap out of their bullshit: He is the reliable one.

His classmates respect him , Teru trusts his judgement, and hell even Kou, who barely interacted with Akane had called him and not a close friend like Nene, when he felt powerless and needed help.

But no matter how seriously he may take his duties or want to help people, Akane has decided he was born to love and protect Aoi.

That’s his priority, always.

His only long term goals involve Aoi, he devoted all his heart and soul to her.

If she wanted Akane to change his style to clothes he would never wear on his own, or make him get into new hobbies, or tell him to score lower than her, he would do it right away: He is comfortable being her boy, he’ll throw his pride away with no hesitation for her and do anything to make her happy to an extreme even most ‘heroines’ I see wouldn’t cross.

The one thing Aoi made VERY clear despite never saying out loud is “Keep your eyes on me. Don’t flirt with anyone else.” and that’s a wish that Akane took to heart, to the point that he is the only character that stays ‘loyal’ to his love interest even on silly extra events, like the ‘kiss day’ arts.

Everyone else send a kiss, no matter if they have a love interest or not, since is just a fun little bonus.

Akane only starts to touch her when he is confident Aoi likes him too: When he assumes she wants him, before that he always kept a certain distance, understanding he ain’t entitled to shit just because they are childhood friends.

Akane is far from perfect, he can be selfish and self centered, his approach to help usually tactless, but at his core, he always seek to do what Aoi wants, no questions asked.

His devotion is extreme to the point of being unhealthy, but he isn’t lying or trying to please Aoi here: As long as she is alive, and enjoying life, he will be delighted doing any of the things she wants. Her best hairstyle in his eyes is always the one she chose to style, the best clothes are always the ones she wants to wear.

There is nothing he likes more than her. Or to make her happy.

Even what Akane loves to do the most, which is to gush about Aoi nonstop until he looks batshit insane, is something that she had encouraged and never complained, no matter how much it escalated, so he was convinced she loved the attention.

Once she is honest and admits she doesn’t like it, he immediately tries to drop it.

He still has an ‘I was born to love you’ mentally, he just stop putting on a show, or trying to make her heart flutter. Most of his displays of worry, affection, or ‘ill protect you’ became either quiet or casual.

...Still.

He can’t help but show his love loudly from time to time, he is cringe at heart, truly hopeless, but he is trying his best.

In short: Aoi is in desperate need for more character focus, but the one determined to make their life revolve around their love interest is clearly Akane.

[2n2n]

I love the Tsukasa and Nene ship, and it seems that you do too and I would like to know why? Because this ship doesn't seem to be very popular what attracted you to it? And do you think it's possible for this ship to happen in the manga? (Unfortunately seen from my point of view I don't think so, because Tsukasa seems so innocent for this to happen, besides he only thinks about Hanako-kun 😢)

Popularity or suggestions from others has little to do with what I ship; I read the work, I imbibe the story, and I ship things based on what I am intrigued by, or perceive, in the story. I don't tend to engage much with fandom when reading something first time, so I had no idea what was 'big' or what wasn't (I didn't look at the fandom at all until the Far Shore arc, where I only really suddenly glimpsed it because I was looking for Sumire/Hakubo stuff & was blindsided by other's dislike of Hakubo). For instance, the popularity of Mitsuba and Kou, and ?? Aoi and Nene ?? completely and utterly baffled me, I wouldn't have guessed people really cared about any of that. I came out of it only caring about the twins x Nene-chan.

As it is, it intrigued me early on that Amane can compare Nene-chan to Tsukasa. They share a lot in common, centrally their love of Amane. In canon and in AUs, Tsukasa often acts like a sort of informant, giving Nene-chan information. The canon itself gives me the impression he places a lot of trust on her, and likes her. The story itself lead me to asking questions about it, and its viability only kept increasing as I read. I went into this expecting to only like HanaNene, but, AmaTsuka became the next obvious thing, but then weirdly the final piece, TsuNene, felt like it started taking shape...

Yes, I think it's possible for the ship to happen. I think it's the point of a lot of threads and ideas… I really do believe that. There are enough comics, illustrations, and commentary from JP fandom that make me feel I am not the only one seeing it, either. It's just the American fandom is helpless.... I call myself delusional but like any good delusional person, I believe what I think is true.

I guess after playing Narisokonai Snow White especially-- wherein you spend half the game exploring the love between the Princess x one twin, and then the OTHER half of the game unraveling the love the OTHER twin feels for the Princess-- yet ultimately relinquishes her to his brother, who he feels the Princess loves truly and deserves to be with-- I'm, really convinced that it's not just my delusion, but the sort of multilayered love story intrigue Iro-sensei likes to tell. We have much more to learn about Tsukasa!

I don't think Tsukasa "only thinks about Hanako-kun". I think these sentiments are incredibly sincere:

and intentionally loaded. You don't get a single vibe from TsuNene scenes? Aren't these vibes why anyone ships it? Well, I get major vibes.... It's not like....... Teru x Natsuhiko, or, some other frivolous idea invented out of thin air. lol

It could be his love for Amane that makes him love Nene-chan; the only other person who can understand what it is like, to wish to die for Amane.

For him to be willing to let Nene-chan in on so much, and share so many precious moments with Amane, I feel he has to admire her.

Iro-sensei likes complex romantic intrigue!!! I can't say enough ... Narisokonai Snow White was so about the interplay between the cast of twins + a girl they both like. The Princess and Rasphard were similarly ill-behaved children, something the Ambrose family notes in the text. The Princess, who is already in love with Estelio, sees similarity between the twin boys. We use established love between individuals to implicate love all across the ships. As the player of the game, you can cause either twin to yandere out on the princess based on what choices you make....

I believe in twin romance supremacy. I think it is why we have twins + a girl.

I think it is Iro-sensei's fetish lol

Now what I will say is your thought of "Tsukasa is too innocent for it to happen" is kind of real, but you should give more credit, then, to Nene-chan, who could also make it happen... :) ;) I mean look at her as it is, chasing down Hanako all running away from her every few chapters....!

Maybe Tsukasa doesn't understand everything he feels or everything that could be possible! Amane also thought he didn't value anything, much less her life. Nene-chan teaches the boys many things about love~

[adiabolikpastel]

[Excruciating Duplicity - Callista Lorne] Character Personality / Character Inspirations ~ pt. 4

Hello Everyone,

Welcome back to the next part of my Character Installment Analysis for the Lorne Family!

For those who might have missed pt. 1 or pt. 2 or pt. 3 - this series is to explore the different personality types and share some character inspirations for some of the more under developed OCs here on the blog. Starting with the Lorne Family.

This is part 4 of 4 for this group.

In this post we will take a look at the five youngest boys, Calli's younger brothers. If you have more questions, or you want to know more, feel free to ask! Enjoy~!

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Helios

ESTJ

An Executive (ESTJ) is someone with the Extraverted, Observant, Thinking, and Judging personality traits. They possess great fortitude, emphatically following their own sensible judgment. They often serve as a stabilizing force among others, able to offer solid direction amid adversity.

Being the oldest of this next group of kids, Helios wants to be like his older brothers. He wants to be serious like Alexander, but also understanding like Meteo. Helios does his best to lead his little brothers the best he can, and works hard to be the 'big brother' they can look up to. He is most like Hiro, where sometimes he can come off a bit too 'grown up' when he doesn't need to be - but cares deeply about his loved ones.

Hear me out with the Quaxly - they are a neat and tidy Pokemon. They want to look their best - a little perfectionist. Gaku also resembles Helios in passion and drive. A lot like the person he wants to be once he's older. Lastly, Yahiko continues to resemble Helios' determination and drive.

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Stevi

ISFJ

A Defender (ISFJ) is someone with the Introverted, Observant, Feeling, and Judging personality traits. These people tend to be warm and unassuming in their own steady way. They’re efficient and responsible, giving careful attention to practical details in their daily lives.

Everyone teases him of being a house wife, more specifically that he will make a great lord happy one day. The softest boy, who loves to do calm activities - unlike the rest of his brothers. Not to say that he can't do them - he just prefers not to. He is a lot like Yukito, a kind hearted boy who wants to take care of the ones he loves.

When it comes to 'letting the inner demon out', Stevi is like Kabane - becoming blunt, but also quite clueless. He can be passionate and strong like Suzaku. Or obsessive and loving like Wakana.

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Xylander

ESFP-T

An Entertainer (ESFP) is a person with the Extraverted, Observant, Feeling, and Prospecting personality traits. These people love vibrant experiences, engaging in life eagerly and taking pleasure in discovering the unknown. They can be very social, often encouraging others into shared activities.

The older of the twins, Xylander is loud and proud. Along with his brother, the two cause all kinds of havoc - and they fight almost constantly. Being older, he does try to take on the lead role between the two, but Xylon is hard headed, so it doesn't always work out. He is most like Kou, having a strong personality - but does carry a level of inferiority due to older siblings.

The big personality of Black Star and Asta really fit him most of the time. Seeing himself a the best, and a hard worker to keep it that way. Though when he wants to be, he can be a bratty and devilish as Alois - so best not to push him in that direction.

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Xylon

ESTP

An Entrepreneur (ESTP) is someone with the Extraverted, Observant, Thinking, and Prospecting personality traits. They tend to be energetic and action-oriented, deftly navigating whatever is in front of them. They love uncovering life’s opportunities, whether socializing with others or in more personal pursuits.

Every bit as rowdy as his twin, these two are pretty much always at 100. Unlike his brother, being the younger one, he doesn't yet have any rooted sense of insecurity. Xylon is an outgoing and curious boy that loves a good fight. He is most like Kakeru, joyful and full of energy.

When the going gets tough, this boy stays put - and is extremely loyal to his twin brother. It is in that regard he is like Draken, okay with being second, but is by no means less because of that - and will often give his brother hard time. He can also be like InuYasha in his stubborn will, and earnest attempts to become stronger. He does see himself as a protector even if he's the second youngest. Things can take a turn, and that is where Bachira's influence can be seen. Still every smiling - this boy does take things seriously, and god help anyone in his way.

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Onan

INFP

A Mediator (INFP) is someone who possesses the Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Prospecting personality traits. These rare personality types tend to be quiet, open-minded, and imaginative, and they apply a caring and creative approach to everything they do.

So young, and so sweet, just an absolute bean. While he is the baby, Onan has not come up to be a spoiled brat - even though everyone does spoil him. He is canonically all his sister's favorite, and they always feed him extra sweets when they visit. He is still growing, but as of now he is a polite, sweet, and charming young boy. He is most like Noe - when he was young anyway.

That being the case, Onan can be mischievous from time to time - I mean look at his brothers. It is then that he Mitsuba - so it's not like anything major, but he can use his smarts to tease his brothers a bit. Mob is a great representation of how caring and kind Onan truly is - even though he has the possibility to be the strongest of his siblings. When he lets his guard down and allows himself to be as out spoken as he wants, that is where the inspiration from Mio comes out.

[taintedevesayori]

Tainted Eve Chapter Seven

((It's not Friday, but it's been a while since I've been busy with work so I decided to post the chapter late. No specific content warnings for this chapter.))

Monday came around quicker than anyone wanted. It had been nice to get a ride to school with Kisa for that week, but now Sayo was back to walking to school. She didn’t mind all that much, but it was a bit of a pain. It was true that she could get a ride with Kou and the others, but she hadn’t thought of a good idea to combat being seen with them. If she thought hard enough, she could come up with one but didn’t really care that much. She had been walking to school for years. One week's worth of getting a ride wasn’t enough to deter her. 

To her surprise, a car pulled up beside her part way through her walk. The window rolled down, allowing Lei to stick her head out the window. 

“Come on, get in.”

There wasn’t any reason for her to refuse, so she climbed into the car when Lei opened the door. 

“Back to walking, huh?” She asked when Sayo was settled in.

“Yeah. Can’t ask Kisa’s mom to come to me, after all.”

“I’m sure she wouldn’t mind, but I get that,” Lei shrugged.

“What’s up, Sayo?” Lei’s older brother, Tetsu, turned his head to look at them. “How ya been?”

“Not too bad. And you?”

“Been pretty good. Heard you finally escaped hell.”

Sayo couldn’t help but chuckle. “Yes, I was able to move out. The circumstances were questionable but it seems like it’ll be alright.”

“Well if ya need me to knock some sense into your new roomies, you know who to call,” he grinned. 

Both her and Lei laughed. Tetsu was a protective type of guy, not just over Lei but the rest of their friend group as well. He was the only one out of her friends’ families that knew about how the church really was. If she didn’t stop him, he would have barged into the church a long time ago. 

“I’ll keep that in mind.”

“If you’re walking down this road, I can give you a ride partway,” he continued. “There’s a park right before where we stopped. You can meet us there and I’ll drive you the rest of the way.”

“You don’t have to go out of your way to do that…”

“It ain’t going out of my way if it’s on the road we take already. Don’t be so stubborn, missy.”

“Alright, alright,” she sighed. “Thank you, Tetsu.”

“No problem, Sayo,” he grinned. 

“Guess you won’t be walking the whole way after all,” Lei grinned as well. 

“Guess not,” she chuckled. 

She couldn’t help but wonder how the brothers would react if they found out she was getting a ride with Lei, even if it was only part way. They would probably be upset…Maybe it would be best to keep it to herself unless they found out. 

“How’s it going at the new house?” Lei asked. 

“Not bad. Still getting used to it. They live in a really nice manor so it’s been a weird change to have a nice room and eat meals with everyone.”

“Yeah, I’m sure that feels strange. But I’m glad that the change seems to be for the better.”

“True,” she agreed. “The only thing that could make it suck at this point is if they’re weirdos and are holding back while I get settled.”

“Hopefully not….”

“That’s why I said to tell me if something like that happens,” Tetsu chimed in. “I’ll make sure they don’t mess with ya.”

“I know,” she chuckled. “And I really appreciate it.”

The three continued to chat on their way to school. 

“Alright, have a good day you two,” Tetsu said as they were getting out of the car. “Don’t cause trouble.”

“Like we ever do,” Lei stuck her tongue out at him. 

All he did was laugh before driving off. The two headed inside, unaware that two people were watching them. 

“Guess she didn’t walk after all,” Yuma said to Ruki.

“She probably walked part of the way,” Ruki mused. “I can’t imagine she told that girl where we live.”

“Didn’t think she would ask a different friend to drive her just to avoid being seen with us,” Yuma sighed. “Should we ignore it?”

“No, I will confront her about it. We can’t force her to stop, but she should know it isn’t as easy to sneak around as she may think.”

Yuma nodded as the two of them headed inside as well. 

Classes had ended for the day and everyone in Sayo’s class felt braindead. They had a substitute teacher who was one of the worst types of teachers you could have. His lecture was incredibly boring and he had a voice that could put you to sleep. Some had actually fallen asleep during the lecture while others tried their best to pay attention. It was an understatement to say they needed something entertaining. The substitute had left, but most of the students were much slower to leave than usual. 

“Hey!” Kisa threw the door open, letting Emi walk in before her. 

Lei lifted her head from her desk. She was half asleep, causing Kisa to laugh. 

“Damn, what is up with everyone?” She asked, sitting on top of Lei’s desk. 

“Boring substitute,” Sayo filled her in. “He was the worst.”

“Sounds like you could use something fun.”

“Oooh, I have an idea,” Rena walked up to them. “We could do that thing we used to do last year when we were all in the same class!”

Most of the others were now paying attention to them, wondering what sort of fun Rena was talking about. During their first year, Rena had more free time, so she would often stay after school with them as well. Sometimes they would all sing and dance in the classroom once everyone had left. It had been a long time since then. 

“Are you serious?!” Kisa exclaimed, bouncing with excitement. “I forgot we used to do that! Hell yeah! Let’s teach your classmates how to have some fun!”

“What do you mean?” One of Rena’s friends, Yori, asked.

“This!” Rena motioned for Kisa to help her out.

Pretty much everyone was surprised when Kisa stood on Lei’s desk. Following her lead, Rena climbed up on her own. Kisa began stomping out a beat as Rena started to sing the lyrics to a popular song. Lei was now wide awake and laughing so hard her eyes had teared up. 

“Emi!” Kisa held out her hand for Emi to join her on the desk. 

There really wasn’t much room for two people, but since Kisa had asked, Emi couldn’t refuse. She giggled as she took Kisa’s hand, climbing onto the desk with her. 

“Well, shall we join in?” Lei nudged Sayo’s arm with her elbow. 

“Of course,” Sayo chuckled. “But I’m staying on the floor.” 

“Then I’ll guess I’ll stay with you.”

And so, one by one a bunch of their classmates joined in. Most didn’t climb up on a desk, but a couple of the girls and one or two boys did as well. They were quite the scene as they all danced, stomped, clapped, and sang their hearts out. No one was really paying attention to what was going on outside of the classroom. They had attracted a crowd. Different students had gathered at the door to see what the commotion was about. Nobody had seen anything like it before while at school. Some students gawked at the class while others decided to join in. 

A couple of songs in, this became normal, and those who had come to see had either gone by now or joined in. Rena had started the first song and Kisa followed with a second. But after that, their classmates decided to start the songs as well. Sayo was having so much fun that she wasn’t paying attention to the door. Because of that, she didn’t notice the Mukami brothers had gathered since they had also heard all of the noise. Yuma was fairly shocked by what was going on. Azusa was mesmerized by it all, and Ruki wasn’t sure what to think of the sight. On the other hand, Kou was highly amused. A part of him wanted to join in but knew that would only earn Sayo’s wrath. 

One by one, people began to go home until it was just Sayo’s group and Rena. They had decided to sit and take a rest, and were now talking amongst each other, still full of energy. 

“I can’t believe how many people joined in!” Rena exclaimed. “I really only expected a few. That was so crazy!”

“It was all thanks to your good idea!” Kisa pointed out. “We haven’t done that in so long. It was so much fun!”

Emi nodded enthusiastically. 

“It was nice to see everyone perk up,” Lei smiled. 

“Did you notice that a bunch of other kids from different classes joined in?” Sayo asked. 

“Yeah!” Kisa grinned. “How cool was that? I’ll bet people will be talking about it tomorrow!”

“Probably,” Rena giggled. “Maybe we’ll start a trend?”

“I doubt that,” Sayo chuckled. “It was one thing when it was just us last year, but the teachers will probably crack down on big groups doing it. I’m a little surprised no one intervened.”

“Luck was on our side,” Kisa shrugged. “No buzzkills allowed.”

The topic turned to Sayo’s new living situation. She had talked a bit about it with Lei this morning, but everyone else wanted to be updated as well. There really wasn’t very much to say, though. Only a day had passed, after all. 

Eventually, Sayo decided she had kept the brothers waiting long enough. She told everyone goodbye before leaving the classroom. There was no way to know where they would be at, but she figured if she headed to the entryway somehow they would run into one another. Sure enough, she was right. The four were all waiting around outside the front of the school. 

“Saaaayoooo~” Kou wrapped an arm around her shoulders the moment he saw her. “Did you have fun with your friends? I was having fun just watching you!”

“Oh, you saw?” She asked, shrugging him off. 

“Your class caused a lot of commotion,” Ruki said. “There was no way we couldn’t hear.”

“I wanted to join in,” Kou added. “I would have made things ten times more lively.”

“I’m glad you didn’t,” she glanced over, sticking her tongue out at him.

“Careful with that tongue,” he smirked, leaning closer to her. “Or I might use mine to force it back into your mouth.”

She rolled her eyes but was in too good of a mood to let him spoil it.

“What the hell were you even doing?” Yuma questioned.

“Having a dance party, of course.”

“But why?”

“Do you need an excuse to have fun?”

Yuma didn’t have a counter for that. 

“Such a thing,” Ruki was shaking his head, although didn’t actually seem upset. “You are definitely untrained.”

“I’m not an animal, therefore I am untrainable. Sorry Ruki, but there’s no way to change my behavior. Especially if you want me to keep living with you.”

She chuckled, crossing her arms behind her head as she walked past all of them. Ruki only sighed. They weren’t planning on trying, but still. 

“She is nothing like that sow,” Yuma muttered. 

“Is that such a bad thing?” Kou chuckled. “She’s lively. The masochistic kitten was broken by the time we got our hands on her.”

Broken….? What a cruel thing to say…

The fact that Yui could put up with the treatment she got from all of the vampires in her life and still manage to smile made her the strongest person Sayo knew. She wasn’t broken. 

Sayo could suddenly see the apple tree in the middle of the glass pavilion. Karlheinz didn’t need to tell her that it should be blooming apple blossoms, ones that would eventually bear fruit. The apples would be a sign that she had found Adam. But there were no blossoms. The tree looked to be dying slowly. That was fine by her. It would be more concerning if the tree was blooming. She couldn’t help but wonder if Yui’s had bloomed. Not to mention if Yui could even see it. 

As the five settled in the Mukami’s car, Ruki decided to bring up what they had seen this morning. 

“Sayori, did you walk to school?”

Since he was asking, she figured there was a chance he had seen her with Lei before school started. She didn’t want to flat out lie if that was the case, but she also didn’t want to say it outright if he didn’t know. 

“I started to.”

“And then you were picked up by that Leiko girl,” he stated.

“Yup. Her brother saw me walking and stopped to grab me. I didn’t actually plan for that to happen. I was just fine walking all the way.”

“I told you we could figure something out.”

“There’s no need,” she shook her head. “I’m perfectly fine with this.”

Would there be any convincing her? Ruki had the feeling it would be impossible. Considering he wanted some form of control, she was a bit frustrating. But if they wanted to maintain a good relationship with her, there was nothing he could do. Living together was going to be a learning curve for all of them….

“Not wanting anything to do with us is pretty cruel, Sayo,” Kou said. 

“I wouldn’t go that far. It was true that I did want nothing to do with you guys before, but I don’t have a choice in the matter now. I just want to keep my school life the same. It’s not like I’m going to avoid you guys when we’re at home.”

“Alright, we’ll lay off for now,” Yuma sighed. “As long as you know you can’t avoid us all the time.”

Sayo didn’t respond. What could they do to break down her walls and bring her closer to them? They weren’t completely sure. Yuma recalled that she had fun gardening with him, so that could be a place to start. Kou knew she loved music and dance, so he could try that, but had his doubts that it would work. Other than that, they had nothing. They would just need to keep trying.

Eventually she would come to like them….And Kou was sure that eventually he would become Adam. But none of them had any way of knowing that her apple tree, the one thing signifying the progression of Adam and Eve, was dying.

<- Chapter Six - Chapter Eight ->

[behaneul]

kou:

kou listens to haneul’s explanation, but he’s somewhat still convinced that the older boy has somewhat of magical element to his talent to even begin to process all of this. after all, kou had never thought too much about the harmonies, and to have haneul go into detail and help them figure out all of it is an experience in itself.

“i’m not fully convinced,” he says, though his voice is playful and he’s only half joking. “it probably takes a lot of talent to even figure out half that stuff out. maybe you should lend me your ear once in a while,” though he says the last part a little softer, as though distracted by his own thoughts for a good second.

“but really, i think the performance is going to sound a lot better thanks to the harmonies. if not it probably would’ve fell too…” he furrows his eyebrows, trying to find the word for it, “flat? is that the right way to describe it? i guess so,” he shrugs. “it’s really cool how you put yourself in the audience’s perspective. i don’t think that’s something a lot of us think of at first,” he admits, and while kou has had some experience on stage, it had never been to this extent, in front of such a large crowd. if anything, when he performed back in japan, it was usually with his band and for them to feel happy. it was interesting to put in the audience’s perspective.

“that’s why i think you’ve got some sort of mystical power up your sleeve,” he adds jokingly.

   “i mean, if you ever need help you have my number now,” haneul points out playfully, feeling in a rather good mood that his efforts have been recognized. of course, he hadn’t done everything considering that they had very good coaches and teachers that were helping them do the best that they could for these performances, but he had added bits and pieces that he personally thought would perform well.

    maybe it was because he had worked so closely with vocal coaches in the past that it was sort of just second nature to want to do these things.

    “you’re giving me way too much credit,” he insists, feeling very amused and very flattered from the praise. he’s glad that everything he’s done seems to vibe well with the rest of the team and that they hadn’t had any complaints or mishaps that caused them to need to redo anything. the song was a great one and the arrangement they had been given had only made it better, if anything. and proved how good the original already was.

    he had been about to comment on something about needing to think about the audience’s perspective because they were the ones that they were performing for when kou adds another comment about haneul having magical powers and he can’t hold back the cackle he lets out, covering his mouth with his hand and gently shoving the younger male away with his free hand. “stop,” he laughs, shaking his head. “i’m not a wizard, i swear!”

HANEUL​:  

     they’ve been given all the help they needed, even coached through a lot of the lines and some of the harmonies. bom is a great help too, and despite people saying that she’s the scary coach, haneul definitely thinks that she’s the one who gives the best advice because she doesn’t beat around the bush to give it. and she doesn’t seem to sugarcoat anything either. 

     he asks one of the other vocal coaches whether they could add more harmonies, if only because he knows that when he’s the audience and he’s listening to a vocal performance, it’s always the harmonies that have the shivers running up his spine and making him want to listen more. they manage to figure out the line distribution with no problem, and that’s when he starts working on seeing how they should do the harmonies.

     it’s mostly because he’s played piano for so long and also because he’s had idol training before and solo sessions with vocal coaches, but haneul goes out of his way to add some of his own harmonies. they’re not as great, probably, as what someone who did this professional could come up with but he also does the best that he can. maybe he’s being a bit extra, doing this so early in the competition but he doesn’t know the next time he’ll be doing something to show off their vocals. and how else would be a better way to show how good their teamwork is than to do harmonies?

     “what?” haneul answers, confused about the initial comparison before he laughs, covering his mouth with a hand. the laugh he had let out is louder and sharper than he had meant for it to be, having been shocked out of him. “please, i just play the piano? i guess? it’s easy to learn though, you just need to train your ear for it, i swear. it’s not like, magic, or anything.”

kou listens to haneul’s explanation, but he’s somewhat still convinced that the older boy has somewhat of magical element to his talent to even begin to process all of this. after all, kou had never thought too much about the harmonies, and to have haneul go into detail and help them figure out all of it is an experience in itself.

“i’m not fully convinced,” he says, though his voice is playful and he’s only half joking. “it probably takes a lot of talent to even figure out half that stuff out. maybe you should lend me your ear once in a while,” though he says the last part a little softer, as though distracted by his own thoughts for a good second.

“but really, i think the performance is going to sound a lot better thanks to the harmonies. if not it probably would’ve fell too...” he furrows his eyebrows, trying to find the word for it, “flat? is that the right way to describe it? i guess so,” he shrugs. “it’s really cool how you put yourself in the audience’s perspective. i don’t think that’s something a lot of us think of at first,” he admits, and while kou has had some experience on stage, it had never been to this extent, in front of such a large crowd. if anything, when he performed back in japan, it was usually with his band and for them to feel happy. it was interesting to put in the audience’s perspective.

“that’s why i think you’ve got some sort of mystical power up your sleeve,” he adds jokingly.

[titsuya]

I'm very horny and you have a knack for finding the best stuff... Do you have any cool visuals? <3

by visuals… i hope u mean P#RN BC YES I HAVE TONS IVE BEEN WAITING TO SHARE

# RANDOM VISUALS [HQ]

GET UR HEADPHONES AND MAKE SURE UR ALONE !

all my hq bfs w/ f!reader

warning: twt p*rn. minors dni. 18+.

a/n: ive been waiting for this ask my entire life

navigation (18+)

# IWAIZUMI HAJIME

» haji loves that skirt, but he also loves fucking your cute cunt and filling you up with his cum. <3

» frat boy haji gets takes you to his car because all the bedrooms are full and takes you for a ride. <33

» big, buff daddy dilf haji who loves your tight cunt so much it nearly makes him cry. <3333333 and he likes it rough ;)

» hajime just LOVES when you compliment his hands. <333333333

# SUNA RINTARŌ

» the only way to make rintarō smile is to wake him up by riding his dick like a good girl. <3

» me you and rintarō on y’all’s day off <3, he’s so vocal cause “you feel so fuckin’ good,” <3333

» rintarō loves creampies & cumming in your mouth… but he loves that you’re a “slut for daddy” and that you’ll let him paint your face <3333 (2 bonus visuals for my daddy)

» fuck fuck fuck he loves your tits so fucking much, squeezes and sucks the life out of them <3333333333333333

# SAKUSA KIYOOMI (tw… squirting… a lot of it)

» kiyoomi loves eating you out and making a mess out of his good little slut <3

» also loves fucking you so hard that you squirt on his cock </3 calls you a nasty little slut even though it makes him cum so hard

» brat tamer kiyo <///3 fucks you stupid, slaps your face, makes you squirt, but you love it so much

» worshipping kiyoomi’s pretty body <333

# AKAASHI KEIJI

» keiji is so vocal with his heavy pants and higher pitched moans and it makes you feel so good

» 🥺 being keiji’s pretty lil puppy and you were so good while he was gone at work, so he gives you a little reward <3

» keiji’s finger work so well… he knows how to hit that spot, how to make you gush

» loves fucking you to frank ocean. even when you’re all cuffed up <3

# BOKUTO KOUTAROU

» sometimes, kou loves watching his little crybaby grind all over his cock <3

» and sometimes, he just can’t hold himself back so he fucks up into you :))

» daddy likes double stuffing your pussy with cum, especially when you beg for him to put a baby inside you <3333

» 69-ing is kou’s favorite. you guys both feel good and that makes him soo happy.

# MIYA ATSUMU

» waking up his little bimbo princess with his cock ! tw somno

» daddy likes to see his cum on your pretty pussy before pushing it into you %^**>>{^^

» tsumu likes pressing your face into the mattress as he fucks you and makes you squirt

» knows how much you like being filled up so he fucks both your holes at the SAME time ! (tw anal)

# MIYA OSAMU

» samu gets so hard when he see’s you doing anything remotely domestic

» loves holding you close and kissing you while his cock is stuffed deep in you

» breeding kink!!!!!!

» king of eating and making a mess of your pussy

# KUROO TETSUROU

» such a good daddy </3 blindfolds you with his work tie and worships your body all night

» he’s also a rough daddy <3 likes to choke you a ton

» he can be really mean nd tease you to make you think you’re getting his cock <///3

» “shhh, can’t be too loud, kitten, we’re in public, you know that.”

# BONUS ROUND ! SUNA + MIYA TWINS

» rin thinks you’ve been so mouthy with him lately so he decides to have him and his friends shut you up (psst, atsumu on the left, suna in the middle, samu on the right)

» misbehaving and embarrassing rin in front of his friends? now he’s gonna embarrass you :)

[sluttsumu]

HAIKYUU BOYS WHEN THEY’RE HIGH

pairing: atsumu, suna, iwaizumi, bokuto x f!reader

warnings: 18+, use of recreational marijuana, use of the pet name “princess” (atsumu), bokuto being funny asf, suna’s is a lil sad if you really look into it

wc: 0.8??

a/n: i queued this yesterday but it didn’t work, so here it is your faves while high, suna’s was not supposed to be angsty i don’t know what happened LOL also not proofread lol.

# ATSUMU

atsumu is horny.

the only thing on his mind is making you cum as many times as humanly possible. you thought smoking with him would be fun, which it was, till he started laughing and chasing you around your apartment with grabby hands.

“pretty baby, c’mere, i wanna taste ya”

you thought it was hilarious, but he was serious. staring at you with pink, half lidded eyes from the other side of the kitchen counter. he was gonna get you, no matter what. you couldn’t contain your laughter as you thought of how to escape him from catching you and never letting go. he stared intensely, palms face down on the marble.

he’d definitely caught you in a rock and a hard place. you falsely run to one side, meanwhile he flinches thinking that you’d actually run that way. he chuckles at your face as you try and think of how to get out of this predicament. thinking his distracted you run this time, but you athlete boyfriend’s quick reflexes were something you were no match for.

“HA! I GOTCHA” he yelled engulfing you in his arms as you playfully squirmed in his grasp. “ugh you’re too fast for me” you whine as he carried you walking towards your bedroom.

“‘tsumu you smell like weed”

“ ‘m gonna make ya cum sooo much princess ” he chuckled, closing your room door. atsumu was gone, his mind could not be saved from becoming a horny hell.

“did you even hear what i said?”

“let’s make some pretty babies, baby”

now that he had you his mind was clouded everything went in one ear and out the other. he didn’t hear a damn thing you just said.

# IWAIZUMI

iwaizumi is sleepy.

at first when you brought up the idea of him getting high with you for once and, he wasn’t all for it. back in college when he went to UCI he was definitely a cigarette smoker, and didn’t find weed all that interesting. having a background in nutrition he knew all about the drug and didn’t think it’d be a good idea.

but then you made edibles…..and he ate them.

it was a complete accident, he just saw cookies and thought to eat them. you walk into the kitchen to see him on his third cookie, lord have mercy. “hajime— are those my…” you couldn’t bring yourself to finish you sentence in fear he’d frantically freak out. he arched a brow giving you a confused look as he continued to eat the sweet treat.

“those are my edibles…”

the rest of the cookie was now on the floor. iwaizumi’s eyes went wide but instead of the panicking reaction you expected out of him, he laughed. he laughed? you now stood confused at your boyfriends contagious laughter, which causes you to laugh along with him.

five minutes later, iwaizumi is slumped. dead asleep as if you weren’t just laughing with him a few minutes ago. though being 5’11 and probably 190+ pounds of raw muscle, he’s a complete lightweight. you rolled your eyes at him taking up your entire bed. taking out your phone to snap a picture of him, knowing that he will not remember any of this tomorrow.

# BOKUTO

bokuto is a mess.

this man is laughing, crying, yelling, saying the stupidest shit. just all of the above. he’s the type to make crazy conspiracy theories that actually….make sense.

“kou— what’s the colour of my shirt again?” you snicker barely able to make it through your sentence. “i-it’s, dark white” the silence is loud as the two of you stare at one another before absolutely dying of loud, boisterous laughter. bokuto is on the floor, crying meanwhile you hold your stomach from laughing so hard.

“what— the FUCK, is dark white?” you yell, tears brimming in your eyes. before he answers you finish by saying “THIS IS GREY” in all technicalities bokuto was right, grey essentially is….dark white. everything in this moment was just too funny, getting high with him was the right decision.

“THAT IS NOT GREY, DARK WHITE.” his face and neck are flushed pink attempting to prove his point.

“OKAY SO WHATS LIGHT GREY?” you question giving him a look of ‘let’s see what you say this time’.

“UHM— I-ITS…..LIGHT DARK WHITE?” he answered nothing short of confidence and confusion in his tone. you quickly arched a brow thinking about the stupidity the you just heard. light. dark. white. he was wrong so wrong, but also so fucking right.

“kou lets go to bed, you are tired very tired” he looked at you confused as you attempted to pick him up off the floor and miserably failing falling o to him..

“you’re a fucking idiot”

“your idiot babe”

# SUNA

suna is touchy.

he wants to feel on your body, and have you close to him. he has a very nonchalant and horny high. he definitely has you seated in his lap while blowing smoke in your face. he certainly was nicer under the influence, you wished he was like that all the time.

“you look so pretty like this” he smiles eyes blinking slowly. his hands secured themselves on the sides of your waist, he was just staring at your as if you were the most precious gem in the world. his eyes wavered back and fourth from your lips to your eyes, he wants to kiss you, he wants to show his pretty girl all the affection he has to offer. “you always do this” you sigh eyes steering away from his.

“what’re you talking about?” did he really have the audacity to ask you that question? this was an endless cycle one that seems to never stop. he grabs your face bringing you eyes back to meet his low red ones. “you only compliment me when you’re high.”

his hands run up and down your sides, caressing all the parts of your body that he loved so much. “that’s not true pretty baby.” but whether you stuck to your gut feeling or not, he always talked you out of it every time. you felt stupid for doubting yourself after his words, but each time you managed to convince yourself that you were wrong.

“i want a kiss” he pouts, and what rin wants rin gets. no matter the cost.

he encases your lips in a kiss in which you immediately try to pull away from before feeling his hand of your neck forcing your head in place, you hated that you loved it, loved him. the way he touched you telling you how much he loved you and to an extent he did.

suna rintarō was your drug, and you needed your daily fix.

sluttsumu 2021