#cat throwing up a fucking hairball

[brokenbutunbowed]

I've had a tonsil stone stuck in my throat (obviously, where else would it be lol) since January of last year and it is finally fucking GONE as of this morning. 😭🙏

I have not been able to eat a single meal for the last year without spontaneously feeling like I was choking or suffocating at random intervals and it was even making me wake up at night gasping for breath frequently because it had my throat so irritated.

(And yes, I probably should've gone to a doctor like...11 months ago when I realized whatever was happening wasn't going away on it's own, but despite throwing away money on health insurance every paycheck, I don't actually have a pcp and know I can't afford to actually find and see one. Fuck this country and all that, but that's besides the point)

I gave up pop for new years because I really do want to get my shit together and lose some of the weight I've gained since the accident and all that and so far that's actually been easier than expected. I've tried before but never stuck with it more than like, 3 days, but I'm not even having cravings like the desire is just... gone. It's nice.

Hoping these are signs that this year isn't going to be as bad as I'm afraid it will be. At the very least, it seemed like a good time to get my health under control at least a little bit before the fucking cheeto man fucks the entire country. :/

[wonderlandhour]

Rollo, holding Ash's hands and kissing the back of it: you know I could never chose to love another~

Ash: brother eEW-

-

In the background, Jamil, Ruggie, and Silver are all laughing at her fake gagging at Rollo.

[alliswyattonthewesternfront]

i think jadzia is too old to recover from the big litter box trauma our cat sitter put both animals through in July (and by extension, put me through, because i've been losing my mind over it). no amount of positive reinforcement has worked. if there is any waste in the litter boxes at all, Jadzia will just go right beside it on the bare floor. they were both doing this after The Incident, but Ishka was able to be retrained after three weeks of me working with her. Jadzia and her melting brain, less so.

so my solution has been to get kitten-sized litter boxes to put beside each of the two main litter boxes for overflow. we haven't had an accident since, so even though i have doubled the number of boxes i have to clean each day, i haven't even felt mad about it. i'm just glad i don't have to pick up cat shit every day.

[naamahdarling]

I'm going to literally fucking lose my shit.

Jasper is feeling unwell and has been throwing up.

I wouldn't worry too much if it was just the hairballs but he threw up several other times and was clearly uncomfortable even after.

He did poop some so things are moving along for sure, and he came to play in the shower with me, but he wasn't interested in treats earlier. The cat who EATS SOAP wasn't interested in treats.

I'm worried, and not having access to the car makes everything ten times harder. I have to decide if I want to disrupt everything, throw my sleep schedule disastrously off, and maybe use one of the only two PT cancellations I'm allowed to get him to the vet today, or wait until the weekend.

I think instinct is telling me that something is wrong, but not horrifically wrong. It's the losing our boys that has me chewing the walls.

I made this earlier before he started acting sick.

Getting pretty tired of trying to mash that button.

[gh0st-t0wn3]

Lmk ss edits + headcanons, Part 6 (Azure Lion, Peng, Yellowtusk)

(I originally made my own design of Azure and Yellowtusk but wasn't quite happy with how they turned out so I scrapped them, the designs for those two I used in these edits were made by @/erraday_ on twt, with a few minor changes, but Peng's design is my own :) )

- He/Him

- Pansexual

- Snores so loud, it's insane, Yellowtusk once thought there was an earthquake

- Feels bad whenever he's steps on a ladybug, butterfly etc

- Gives everyone and everything giant bear hugs because he thinks if Yellowtusk can take it, so can everyone else (They cannot)

- Mei once gave him catnip as a joke and he went fucking feral, he's not allowed near catnip anymore

- His hair/fur is actually very soft and curly

- Thought he saw an old friend while out in public and hugged them, it was a stranger

- Wakes up Yellowtusk in the middle of the night to ask stupid questions

- The Brotherhood asked to hear his roar but he got really nervous last second and it ended up being really meek, they never let him forget it

- Coughed up a hairball once and Peng refuses to let him live it down

- Has eaten cat food before and would do it again

- Cannot do the splits and is too scared to try

- Gets really confused by modern slang, MK and Mei abuse the hell out of it because it's funny

- Whenever he's rough housing with people he accidentally hits a bit too hard

- Whenever he walks past anyone playing a game that involves a ball (football, basketball, netball, etc) he somehow always ends up getting hit in the head with it

- If he wasn't sealed away and got a chance to babysit Redson as a kid he wouldn't know what the fuck to do and would be really awkward cause he doesn't know how to interact with children, he'd be able to bond with Redson better when he becomes a teenager though

- No one gossips with him because he always ends up unintentionally outing someone about something

- Ate moldy food once by accident and freaked out, he was absolutely disgusted

- Hates horror movies but loves slashers

- Drinks mouthwash

- Smells like catnip (trust me guys)

- Love language is words of affirmation

- Has horrible bed head, his mane gets tangled really easily and he tosses around a lot at night so his mane takes hours to brush out

- Absolutely refuses to wear shoes, they hurt his feet (paws?)

- The type of person to cry over a movie about a dog getting lost and then finding its owner at the end

- Can somehow eat an entire goddamn buffet and not gain a single pound

- His face always scrunches up when he smiles

- Lost his balance on a hill and fell down like a tumbleweed once, Peng still brings it up

- They/He (Canon, Peng uses They/Them in the show but is exclusively referred to w/ He/Him in the sets)

- Nonbinary (Canon)

- Starts squaking when he laughs too much

- If you throw a blanket over their head he'll immediately fall asleep

- "look behind you but don't make it obvious" Looks behind him in the most exaggerated, obvious way known to mankind

- Stole food from Wukong's private stash for several months when the Brotherhood was all still together, Wukong still doesn't know

- Wukong gave them cooked chicken once as a joke but he actually liked it

- Constantly argues with Wukong about Macaque not being able to hold his own, yes it got physical

- Their wings have a bunch of scars from the amount of weapons and shit they block with them. Has to consistently clean their wings in order to keep them from getting too damaged, yes this includes softening and preening his feathers

- If they weren't sealed away and got a chance to babysit Redson as a kid they would tape him to the wall like that one meme and call it a day

- Bit off a person's finger once just to see if they could

- Doesn't shop, just steals

- "I hate you so fucking much" as he's handing the person a gift

-  Tried to draw on Wukong's face once but got wacked with his tail

- Absolutely HATES beetroot, will actually gag if he smells it

- Kicks over kids sand castles at the beach

- Can't stand small buzzing sounds

- "I'm not that competitive" is that competitive

- Claims you can trust them with anything but will snitch the second they know it will benefit them

- Probably threatened to eat someone's baby once

- Goes to playgrounds to trip kids

- Smells like Lavender, it just feels right

- Love language is words of affirmation and acts of service

- Has tried sleeping upside down like a bat multiple times

- Hardcore wine aunt vibes

- Had a bunch of ducklings accidently imprinted to him and they followed Peng for hours

- You'd have to pin this bird down to get them to eat collyflower

- Jokingly pushed Azure off a cliff once then remembered they're the only member of the Camel Ridge Trio that can fly

- They have full on concerts at like 3 am, has woken up Azure on multiple occasions

- He/Him

- AroAce

- Is the calmest one in the Brotherhood

- He uses Peng's head as an armrest sometimes

- He and DBK were actually quite close, he knew and accepted that DBK was in love with a celestial but was very surprised to see they ended up having a child

- Very poor eyesight but doesn't like wearing his glasses because Peng made a joke about them once saying he looked like a grandma

- Uses ":3" and ":D"

- Loves soap opera's

- Hates seafood

- Peng once tricked him into eating fish nuggets once and he still hasn't fully forgiven them

- If he wasn't sealed away and got a chance to babysit Redson as a kid he would definitely be the most responsible one, and probably Redson's favourite uncle

- Eats a snack then forgets he ate it and will bet frustrated when he can't find it

- The therapist of the Camel Ridge Trio, and probably of the whole Brotherhood in the past as well

- Was the only one who felt bad about imprisoning the Demon Bull Family since he and DBK were very close

- He also reprimanded Peng for when they pinned and scratched Redson with their claws after they left the Demon Bull Palace (he's the protective uncle, trust me guys)

- Hates getting hiccups, he despises the feeling and it gives him heartburn

- Wakes up at ungodly hours just to raid the fridge

- Heard a story about a bug crawling in someone's ear while they slept and has worn earplugs to bed ever since

- Loves apples

- Smells like Lilies

- Love language is gift giving

- Is really big on safety, would be the type of person to make sure everyone is wearing their seat belts before the car is even turned on

- Actually really good at cooking

- Makes the best chocolate chip pancakes ever

- Is the kind of person who assumes everyone tells eachother everything and accidently exposes someone because he thought everyone else knew about it already

- Always hears things wrong but doesn't wanna ask anyone to repeat themselves

- Has the most elegant ass handwriting you will ever see, somehow

- The peacemaker of the Brotherhood,  they all would've disbanded way sooner if it wasn't for him

- Uses his trunk as a snorkle when swimming or sleeping underwater (elephants actually do this irl, I just thought it was cute)

[asbealthgn]

cackling at this dumb cursed thought I just had and I greatly apologize in advance

- basically Steve has this habit of just eat anything even things that ARE NOT EDIBLE but he can like puke those right out like an owl or shit. Robin finds this out by accident when she dangles a worm to his face for funsies one day and he,, just slurps it like spaghetti and then easily retches it out alive. she is both disgusted but fascinated and it’s become something like their thing for Robin to see if Steve can devour anything else without either of them getting sick

This is also my set up for how Eddie gets his crush amplified when he shows off his new die set and Steve instinctively eats them off his hand like a fucking horse (Steve realizes a second too late what he just did, throws them up, and cleans them as nicely as possible. Eddie is both mortified and horny)

PLEASE this is so funny

it’s a nice day, so steve, eddie, and robin are lazing around in steve’s backyard. they’re drinking lemonade while eddie shows them all the new stuff he got at that game store he went to with jeff. for the grand finale, he whips out the gorgeous dice set he got, all glossy and opalescent.

“they look like they’d taste like smarties,” steve says and before eddie can even react steve is swooping in and sucking the eight-sided and six-sided dice off his fingers. robin immediately starts cackling while eddie watches in mesmerized horror as steve swallows his brand new dice.

“uh.” he doesn’t even know what to do in this situation. what’s the protocol for when the guy you have a massive crush on eats your dice?

realization registers on steve’s face. “oh, shit, you probably want those back, huh?”

“oh, uh, no,” eddie says as robin laughs even harder. “i think those are yours for good, man.”

“no, i can still feel them in my throat,” steve says, “let me get ‘em for you.”

then he’s on all fours, retching. what the actual fuck? and what’s wrong with eddie that the sight of steve on his hands and knees hacking like a goddamn cat with a hairball is doing so much for him?

steve gives a final heave and the dice are landing on the grass on front of him along with what eddie hopes is just lemonade. steve gives eddie a triumphant grin and scoops up the dice. “let me just clean these for you,” he says.

still in stunned silence, eddie can’t say anything as steve gets up and jogs into the house. as soon as he’s out of sight, eddie turns to robin.

“what the hell?” he asks, “did you know he could do that?”

she nods, eyes twinkling. “jarring, right?”

“that’s a word for it.” eddie drops his head into his heads. “i wanna fuck him so bad.”

that just makes robin cackle again as the sliding door opens and steve comes back outside.

“here,” he says, dropping the dice in front of eddie. “good as new.”

eddie peeks through his fingers to inspect the dice. they do look as good as the other ones, no ill effects from the time they spent in steve’s esophagus (no, eddie’s not jealous of dice).

“alright?” steve asks, looking concerned for the first time at eddie’s lack of response.

eddie drops his hands and smiles at steve. “alright.”

[bwoahtastic]

Okay but Charles staying over at Max's house for the first time after they fuck (not the first fuck, but the firdtntime he doesn't leave immediately after) and the day after Max happily hums he slept r3ally well, always likes sleeping with someone next to him, and Charles stares back at him, barely having slept cos the cats kept biting his toys, almost throwing up hairballs on his chest, sleeping over his face... kaksks

[moonlit-escape]

made an even sillier, stupider self-insert oc:

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ Moonlit ᨐฅ the neighborhood cat

/ᐠ - ˕ -マ a stray cat that lives in the neighborhood. everyone shares them, because the cat keeps choosing a different house to stay at all the time (although they do seem to have their favourites)

✦彡 is this cat a boy or a girl? no-one can tell! they respond to different pronouns and terms all the time! and good fucking luck getting them to let you find out.

ฅ₍ᓀ‸ᓂマ ੭ this is a really odd cat. for one, this cat can eat anything they want, and not throw it up later! including chocolate! (unless a hairball was incoming...)

✦彡 this cat is very sweet and very well-mannered! they even shake paws when meeting new people! but, only if that person is accompanied by someone they know. otherwise, theyre sprinting full speed to the nearest hiding spot!!

ദ്ദി（• ˕ •マ this cat is terrible with social skills! and is very skittish with people! to be chosen by this cat, is to be deemed a safe and comforting person

✦彡 this cat is clingy as fuck! they will follow you everywhere you go, make sure you're taken care of, stay by your side at any time you need them, and get all up in your business and yell at you when you're being bad!

ᨐฅ this cat will also disappear almost completely for days at a time, totally at random! especially right after they've been exceptionally sociable! what a moody kitty

✦彡 this cat is a huge fuckin nerd! they love to sit on the couch or bed and watch cartoons, anime, and video game let's plays. they even start purring when their favourite character comes on screen

≽^•⩊•^≼ this kitty is belled and tagged, but that doesn't prevent them from bringing their humans gifts! they like to bring the people of Mystreet things like rocks, cool leaves, dead insects, feathers, and random shiny things. and sometimes a dead mouse. (or the meat from a sandwich that they stole from another neighbor)

✦彡 thank irene cats can see the color blue, because that seems to be this kitty's favourite color! their collar is blue, their preferred toys are blue, their special kitty blanket is blue.. just a whole lotta blue! although they do seem to like green a lot, too...

ᓚᘏᗢ this cat is a blue-eyed, deep brown tabby with white markings on their chest all the way down to their paws! and they're small and scraggly as fuck! but, when they're treated well, they're quite soft and fluffy...

[caffeinated-beverage]

HCs for HWS U.kraine!!!

BODY

_______

-She is both fat and buff at the same time

-When not flexing her muscles, she just looks chubby. But, once her muscles are flexed, she is very very very buff and muscular.

-She is VERY VERY strong, too

-For an idea of how strong my U.kraine is, she could throw a tractor and suplex a 300LBS grown man if she wanted to.

-And, by the way, even though she is so strong, she is also quite gentle most of the times. She is well-aware how strong she is, and can control it quite well!

-Just don’t fuck with her

-She gives very strong bear-like hugs

-Also, she’s naturally a brunette, bit bleaches her hair blonde using box hair bleach (it’s ok tho, bc I do the exact same thing IRL)

___HOBBIES___

_______________

-She knits, crochets, and sews. She also often makes her OWN clothing!! :D

She even gifts homemade clothes to her loved ones often times <3

-She especially likes to do her knitting/crocheting/sewing while watching tv dramas <3

-Ever since she learned that Liet & Lat.via likes oversized sweaters, she ALWAYS gives them oversized sweaters! <3

-One of her hobbies is making homemade gifts for her loved ones and seeing them happy <3

-She quite enjoys playing volleyball

-She also enjoys painting (even if she isn’t Leonardo da Vinci levels of painting & ends up making a mess all over herself ^o^), embroidery, baking, solving crosswords & puzzles, reading, watching TV dramas, scrapbooking, patchwork, making little ragdolls, & playing horror games (there are LOTS of things she does!!)

-She is also a good singer, and I imagine she can also sing opera well :)

-I also think she would be good at DDR for some reason :D

___PETS/ANIMALS___

_____________________

-She found a stray cat wandering nearby her house a little while back, and so she gave it food, which led to her giving it food EVERY day, which led to it coming inside her house, which led to it getting in her bedroom and sleeping on her bed, aaaand now she has a cat! She didn’t really give it a proper name though, but, she still loves it very very much <3 she just calls it “koshenya”, which I am p sure is just Ukrainian for “kitty”

-On her farm, she also has chickens, cows, sheep, goats, ducks, pigs, rabbits, turkeys, donkeys, & horses. She also has, maybe a shepherd dog or two. And, also, she has BEES!! :D

-She would also gift some milk, eggs, & wool to her loved ones, but she won’t give milk to my Lat.via bc he lactose intolerant :’((

-Nothing will wake her up faster than the sound of a cat about to hack up a hairball xD

[poppyandzena]

Zena:" The stalkers who claim to be experts on Poppy's story don't even know shit about sexual health. This is just clowning around. I just can't these people seriously. I told Poppy to get testing to protect herself because after someone violates you, they're is zero reason to trust their history."

1.) Literally no one has claimed expertise on Poppy. This is yet another false claim. See, people paid attention to Poppy's behavior and Poppy's words. People are just observing Poppy's publicly abusive meltdown. People are simply tracking a smear campaign. Poppy provides that data. A LOT of data. Poppy continues to incessantly and obsessively make false claims of sexual assault, as if hundreds of people didn't witness Poppy serve us with a linear timeline of rejection. People aren't experts on anyone, that's silly. Poppy put out a fuck ton of information publicly. It's getting difficult for people to silence their own critical thinking. Luckily, there is public access to entire archives documenting Poppy's willfully malicious campaign to destroy another Trans woman. Because of rejection. It's revenge. Thanks to Poppy's unhinged antics across Tumblr and Twitter, people can analyze the data for themselves on their own time. And there-in lies the rub for this sneaky tyrannical goblin -- your arguments are getting more nonsensical. Zena is throwing up diversions. It's getting a bit pitiful.

Zena: "I guess I'm going to be posting sexual health articles to educate these fucks now. Just how much these people know about sex is both astounding and telling. This is a self report on their part."

Zena: "These are just more signs that Poppy's story is actually true AND that she has love and support to help her after this awful shit.

2.) The only link between public discussions on sexual health and Zena's false expertise claims is Poppy's word-vomit. The UTI was splattered all over her TL after having consensual sex & getting rejected. That's it. Zena, this disjointed, bizarre gotchya connection you made with sexual health is not a sign that Poppy's story is true. This deeply goofy statement is almost as bad as me saying, "Oh wow my cat actually has asthma, not a hairball." Then going on to say, "This is a sign why I know my neighbor married a raccoon." Y'all have lost the plot and if all this wasn't so potentially harmful to folks in an already marginalized community, this shit would be funny.

On to the next point the goblin tyrant attempts to slip in subtlety. Folks may have left out the BACTERIAL VAGINOSIS part during sexual health discussions. Hell, some folks might not even know what BV is. NOT knowing what BV is or forgetting to mention BV aren't indicators of a total lack of knowledge on sexual health. Leaving out BV doesn't mean folks need to be educated by this tyrannical goblin Zena. What she's trying to do is divert attention away from Poppy's very transparent attempts to further humiliate Noeh. Everything Poppy puts on her TL centers on smearing Noeh. She literally HAS NOT stopped tweeting @ Noeh since she publicly disclosed her tweets made Noeh uncomfortable when they were partners. It is deeply unsettling that Poppy continues to try to talk to Noeh behind the scenes while routinely @ing Noeh from the YT account. This is all calculated and this community is not dumb. They're catching on. Trust that there are doubts that even her most fervent defenders are experiencing -- OF COURSE they have doubts, but what would happen if they just got brutally honest and disclosed that Poppy is indeed out of control. Poppy has gone against SO many things she advocates in her streams. Rapejacketing and targeting a trans woman is pretty disgusting. Attempting to cut of a homeless trans man's only source of revenue in the middle of winter in MICHIGAN. Shitting all over asexuals because Noeh slipped up and made a controversial statement.

BPD will NEVER be an excuse for abuse. An abuser is actively being coddled to the point where her supporters are enabling more abuse. I think it's pretty clear this therapist has not gotten treatment like DBT for her BPD. This person is a public figure. She is lending more stigma to this diagnosis. There are so many folks with BPD in my life who put in the work and are determined to be well. It is unbelievable what they face and I have so much respect for these survivors. I also feel incredibly protective over them. That impact of these far extending stigmas ACTIVELY cause HARM to people with BPD.

Listen, it's very obvious how Poppy is shitting on survivors of rape and havers of BPD. She's not an imperfect victim. She's a spiteful, vengeful, scorned woman. Zena is also shitting on folks with BPD by enabling Poppy's behavior Her supporters are enabling Poppy's behavior. You are lending to stigma and shitting on other BPD survivors. Coddling this woman while she loudly and publicly continues on with her harmful actions is not a loving act. Enabling is not an act of love. If you truly supported her, you would not lend momentum to her smear campaigns. You'd see that, at this point, Poppy is actually a liability. She is causing REAL harm to your community. Adding insult to injury, she really is out here publicly shitting on y'all, underestimating y'alls knowledge base and ability to recognize lies, abuse, danger, and malice. Some of y'all are leaning into that and at some point, you'll have to come to terms with your choices.

Anyway...

I just want to acknowledge the work and time y'all archivists have put into this. I really do appreciate being able to have access to the information I've needed to form my own opinions. Okay. That is all.

Have a beautiful night, beautiful people.

"Whoops lotsa typos there" 🥴💩

^

[bunniesbearsandadventures]

Nobody

My cat:

*Wakes up from the 1637372888993rd nap of the day*

*stretches*

*meows*

*throws up hairball on my carpet*

*fucks off to go sit/nap in another room*

[johnnycagesrightnut]

‘Ew ew ew my cats sick! Don’t throw up on my bed I’m moving you!’

You SICK FUCK. Your cat is SICK and you are worried about them BEING SICK ON YOUR BED? THATS YOUR CONCERN? NOT TGAT THE POOR BABY IS SICK?

WHAT IF YOU WERE THROWING UP OR ABOUT TO AND SOMEONE PICKED YOU UP AND PUT YOU ON THE FLOOR?

Sweet boy was making coughing up hairball sounds so I went into my living room and sat beside him and told him I was there and to just get it all out, because when I’M SICK AND PUKING PUKING ISNT WHAT MAKES ME FEEL BAD, PUKING MAKES ME FEEL BETTER BECAUSE WHATEVER IS MAKING ME FEEL EICK JS GETTING OUT. So he doesn’t hairball and I get up and walk back down the hall to my room and he follows me. And now he’s here. And if he has a hairball on my bed I will NOT be mad because that IS NOT MY FOCUS.

[sk3l3t0n444]

ok so in case you guys didnt know, my name is lea (yk rhymes with tea and pea and yk LIKE THE ACTUAL WORD LEA) and ive been called so many different names that its just fucking funny so here are some of the weirdest things ive been called in no particular order

leah/lia (the most common thing i am called)

leia (like from star wars)

lei (like the necklace)

lie (like the opposite of truth)

lexi (what)

lhaea (pronounced LE-HAY-AEH...idfk)

nina (HOW THE FUCK?!)

lah (right what it says on the tin idfk)

ella (...thats not even my deadname)

ellie (im just so confused)

elleeagh (ELL-IEE-IGH yes the g is pronounced...)

*the sound a cat makes when it throws up a hairball* (...what?)

ellheeaye (how is my name this hard???)

lhaeigh (god is dead and this is the reason)

anyways thats all i can think of rn lmao

[face-palming-fox]

idk what's happened to both our pet and human healthcare in the past few years but i am so. entirely tired of their lazy ass bullshit.

granted i don't go to the doctor as much as i go to the vet (hardly ever if i can help it) but my family does go and they give them the run around just as much as these fucking vets don't do shit for me and my cats.

my cat son has had some itchy skin for the past 3 weeks, took him after a week of not improvement and his skin started to get scaly so i was like oh maybe it's not just. he's got dry skin, something's actually going on? i was afraid he had mange or something. they sent cultures off to the lab and told me DIRECTLY it would be a week before results come back.

it's been two weeks, my other cat now is also itching and my cat son is having difficulty pooping the past day or two and it's making me worry even more that he's gotten backed up from licking his fur that was falling out off despite the fact he did throw up the most giant, massive hairball i'd ever seen which looked like it would've accounted for like the majority of the hair he loss so idk;

but called the vet today and said hey. it's been two weeks. when are we getting results back (mind u this test cost 150 bucks. for a cat) and they were like oh dunno. the dr will call when it comes in (which i also don't trust cos literally every time a vet has told me they would call me back they never do if i leave them to wait and then when i finally get tired of waiting and call they're like OH YEA THAT HAPPENED DAYS AGO like fucking do what u say ur gonna do) but recep checked the estimate the lab said results would be in..

the 31st. that's not a week dudes, that's THREE fucking weeks. don't tell me one thing when it's NOT that thing. if it was gonna be three weeks SAY SO. like holy shit i can't stand for someone, A 'PROFESSIONAL', to tell me one thing and it's not.. even close to what they tell me. get it the fuck together i'm so tired of dumping tons of money to people who barely do anything for the amount of money they're getting.

[skull-babe]

I’ve been throwing up so much and NOT EVEN FOR REASONS YOU MAY THINK.

I think I messed up bad 😭 all the ulcers I was having I think they had more long lasting affects and I may have damaged nerves in my stomach and now I have some slight paralysis and can’t digest my food.

I basically threw up three fucking cat hairballs type of puke. All thick and solid. Was the weirdest feeling I’ve ever felt puking. The worst part of it all is like I need to eat but fckn can’t. Like I can see myself losing a bunch of weight and it’s messing with my head so bad. Like this isn’t even bc of my disorder this is genuinely an unwanted symptom. I AM RECOVERING. And this makes me feel guilty that I’m literally puking. But I can’t help it :c

[wearegonnabelegends]

Corporate ick

for the past week i have been applying to jobs because im soooooo bored of my job and i feel like 50 hours of the week goes to waste because i am just sitting there. sitting there staring at a screen and learning nothing and gaining nothing and the commute is terrible and im sick and bored of it all.

while on my job search i found out that im literally so incredibly unqualified for anyyy IT jobs and it made me sick to my motherfucking stomach thinking of getting certifications or whatever the fuck these corporations ask from you, and then i realized that

I DONT CARRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

i dont care about my major i dont care about tech i dont care about networks i dont care about supporting the IT i do not care!! this is not for me at all! it was such a physical feeling, my body is literally rejecting IT, and i dont know what to do. it geniunely makes me wanna blow my brains out thinking of working these types of jobs for the rest of my life, and its not something that ill do for a lil while or 8 hours a week or whatever, its literally going to be my entire life. such incredible nonsense and its all an act like were in a play for imaginary people for imaginary things for imaginary goals, nothing is real in this corporate world! the word itself, "corporate", makes me gag like im a cat throwing up a hairball.

such a late realization because what am i meant do now? switch majors? do what the fuck what? what? what?

the 21st night of september 2023