#cash buckzo helluva boss

[sweetlandpuppy]

Poor Blitzø🥺😔.

[drama-glob]

Since Fizz didn't know that Tilla passed away, that means Cash Buckzo never told him that when he woke up in the hospital in addition to lying to Fizz about Blitz visiting and telling Blitz Fizz didn't want to see him. I'm thinking Cash did this to further set Blitz as the bad guy in this scenario and make him easier to manipulate that he was the only one he could trust, maybe even saying Tilla and Blitz ran off to start their new lives elsewhere because if Fizz had known what happened, his kind heart likely would have been more sympathetic to Blitz and possibly question his motive for the fire if it wound up that Tilla died from his actions. ;_; ;_; ;_; I suspect then Cash made a deal with Mammon down the road to pass Fizz off to him in exchange for money. -_-

I am curious though if we'll see Cash again because unless he's magically bound to never go near Fizz again, I could totally see him trying to mooch off Fizz's success or at least have already tried to in the 10yrs Fizz has been Mammon's brand figure. >:(

Side-note: if we get dialogue for any of the flashbacks/memories, I think it'll triple the gut-punch pain we already are going to get, especially since we might get to see Tilla in one of them. ;_; ;_; ;_;

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[ihavebadtasteinmen]

Had to update this one!

[knightinink]

OOOOOOOOO

[warblogs17282]

Every single memory of Blitz's during that scene in order, for convenience sake.

The point where Blitz starts to struggle against the chains.

The point where Blitz is forced to look at the memories again, with the last few being visible in the reflection of his eyes. With Blitz starting to cry at this point.

Blitz is still very much teary eyed at this point.

One last loop to the circus fire, before Millie comes in to save the day.

[meandtheyeehaws]

theyre just being silly dont worry

[nyxofdemons]

dear fucking god it's the same look of fear

[tealvenetianmask]

Does Blitz blame himself for Cash's abuse?

Stick with me, and I'm truly sorry.

All of the people except Cash featured in the memories Rolando shows Blitz are people who Blitz has cared deeply for and felt like he hurt, failed to get close to, or let down.

Let's look at them (again, yes)

Tilla

Fizz

Verosika

Loona

M&M

Barbie

A whole lot of Stolas

So. What. The. Actual. Fuck. Is Cash Fucking Buckzo. Doing in this line-up?

Well. Hurting Blitz, horribly. My first meta on this scene didn't really capture this, but as many have pointed out, this is Cash grabbing Blitz's freshly burned wrist after the fire and smacking the ever living shit out the burned side of his face. Presumably blaming him for the fire and everything (and everyone) lost from it. And then Cash telling Blitz in the hospital that Fizz doesn't want to see him.

It's emphasized too. Right after we see the memory of Cash hitting Blitz, we see Blitz physically flinch while watching it.

So if this is just a compilation of horrible memories, maybe that's all there is to it.

But if it's a grouping of the people Blitz cares for, well . . . it makes sense for it to be that, doesn't it? Blitz has a lot of love in him, and yet he's scared of intimacy. His trauma is ABOUT hurting people, losing people, driving people away, craving closeness that he can't have . . .

Being an abuse victim is complicated. Being a family scapegoat is complicated too. A lot of abusers try to make the victim think that they're ACTUALLY the cause of their pain and everyone else's, and we already know that Cash did this to Blitz (literally in this same set of memories in the hospital).

But we also saw it in The Circus when Blitz was much younger, and saw how much this tactic got to Blitz.

Cash guilts his son into going into a dangerous situation for him. If Blitz doesn't do this, their lack of resources, the possible suffering of his parents . . . it will all be Blitz's fault.

And Blitz cares deeply (he always has!), so he does it.

Now one might argue that Blitz says "of course I want to help Mama" here and leaves Cash out of his reply, so he doesn't love his father. But reality is often more complicated than that. He's upset here that Cash is forcing this on him. Cash hurts him. His mother (seemingly) offers much more love. That doesn't mean that Blitz doesn't ALSO feel some care and responsibility for his father's wellbeing.

I think that Blitz believes (or at least a significant part of him believes) that he destroyed Cash's life too with the fire, and that he deserved that beating and being turned away from the hospital and possibly many of the beatings and beratings that Cash delivered in the past. I think that in the moment when Cash grabbed him, he felt that he fully deserved the agony he felt when Cash held his wrist.

I think a part of him loved his father growing up and still loves him-- that there were moments between the incidents of cruelty where they had fun together as a family, and where looked up to his dad and wanted desperately to win his approval.

I think that Blitz has a lot of anger toward Cash too, and that a part of him always knew that Cash was wrong to hurt him. He had a whole lot of resilience and defiance in him even as a young kid.

I think that he felt guilty for all of the times he felt angry at his father. I think he might still.

I'm off to cry and then grab my pitchfork and storm wherever Cash is living nowadays. Who's with me?

[cringefailvox]

top ten blitz reactions my mental health didn't need to see

[sweetlandpuppy]

If I were them, I would kill them 😡

[drama-glob]

At least he's being honest and giving a fair warning to everyone. ;) XD

They are both horrible. -_-

I don't want to be on Ozzie's bad side and it might just be better to listen to him the first time. O_O

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A bonus post for All Saints' Day, to capture the mood.

[fizzie-frog]

Check out the trailer, people.

I AM LIVING ON FIZZAROLLI CRUMBS Y'ALL AND I'M NOT OKAY. This is becoming so intense and I aaahhhh. Send help.

[shellforbrains]

something something helluva text posts

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just a one off thing this time. the second i saw this post i knew what needed to be done.