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Fall
Warning: If suicidal thoughts trigger you, please proceed with caution.
It’s not the fall that kills you, it’s the landing.
Five minutes. From the time he got out of the taxi until he saw Sherlock’s lifeless body lie on the pavement, five minutes passed. At most.
John has lived through these five minutes countless times. Endless times. If you strung up every time he sees these five minutes play before his closed eyes - in dreams, in memory, in penance - you could reach the next century. At least that’s what it feels like.
How did he do it?
Why?
How did I not see?
These questions haunt him, derail him, consume him.
He walks by Barts at every hour of the day, he studies the police report, he looks at the crime scene photos.
How could I be so stupid?
He was devastated when Sherlock jumped. He was traumatised and grieving and barely functional for so long. He pulled himself out of a deep dark black hole by the skin of his teeth and the ridiculous thought that he had to live on to preserve Sherlock’s legacy. That he needed the world to see how brilliant he was, how loveable. How human.
How deeply, bitingly ironic, then, that Sherlock’s return from the not quite as dead as you thought after all has derailed him completely. Sent him into a tailspin he sees no way out of.
He barely eats, he kips on the sofa in his office. He only notices Mary’s thrown him out because one day, all his earthly belongings are dumped in a heap in front of his office door.
He doesn’t care. More time to devote to the one thought he cares about. How? Why?
He replays these five minutes in front of his mental eyes so often. He takes pictures, he tries to find witnesses. He does all the things he should have done after Sherlock jumped, if he hadn’t been so stupid. So paralysed with grief.
It didn’t even occur to him. That it could be fake. Because Sherlock wouldn’t. He would never.
What a fucking idiot he was. Maybe that’s why Sherlock did it. To get rid of him. To be free of the bumbling fool blogger running after him like a puppy.
Alex, his boss, puts him on medical leave when she finds him at the surgery at three in the morning, pacing his office, muttering to himself.
He doesn’t tell her he has nowhere to go. He just shows up at Murray’s house, who lets him sleep on the sofa in the basement and doesn’t bother him otherwise.
It’s a grey December day when he stands on a roof, diagonally across the street from Barts. Mycroft told him about the snipers, and he imagines what it must have looked like, from way up here.
He imagines watching Sherlock jump from this angle. Imagines the crosshairs of the rifle mark the place where the bullet would have entered John’s skull. Spends a visceral moment feeling it, wanting it. Wanting this all to end.
It would be so ironic, he thinks. If he actually did it. If he jumped. Like Sherlock did(n’t). Maybe then he would know. Maybe then he would understand.
It’s easy to sneak up on the roof at Barts. Easier than it should be, after a suicide.
It’s freezing up here. The wind cuts through his clothes. He shivers with cold and fear and a ringing sort of despair. What do you do when the only person you truly loved fucked you over this badly? What do you do when you’re not even worth a good lie?
He should have seen it. A thing like this isn’t easy to do. There had to have been cables, or a body switch, or some sort of catching device. He should have seen it. He didn’t, because he’s stupid and worthless and Sherlock never loved him, never wanted him, never cared.
The windchill freezes the tears on his face. He steps up to the ledge.
“Please don’t.”
Sherlock’s voice is raw and tired and rough with cold.
John isn’t surprised. Not really. He knows he’s being watched all the time.
He hasn’t spoken to anyone in days. He has to clear his throat before he can answer. “Why not?”
“Because I’m not worth it,” Sherlock answers. He sounds as hollowed out as John feels. As tired. As desperate.
John turns around. Sherlock looks like shit. He’s pale and wan and so thin, and John can see the lines the last two years have cut into his face. His nose is red from the wind and there are tears in his eyes.
“How did you do it?” John asks. I should make you watch, he thinks. Like you made me watch. Maybe then you would understand.
“Does it matter?” Sherlock asks, weary and sad.
“Maybe, just for this once, I can decide what fucking matters,” John yells, his throat raw, the words like barbed wires, ripping him up from inside. “Maybe just this one time, I matter!”
“You always matter!” Sherlock answers, “Please believe me. You always, always matter.”
“Two years,” John whispers, unbelieving. “Two fucking years.”
“I know,” Sherlock answers, his voice as raw as John’s, holding John’s eyes. “I know.”
“What does that even fucking mean?” John yells. He’s shivering with cold and anger as he takes a step towards Sherlock.
“Two years,” Sherlock says quietly, reaching out to gently touch the tear tracks on John’s face with ice-cold fingertips, his voice shaking with unshed tears. “I’ve missed you so much.”
John tries to bite down on a sob, but he can’t hold on anymore, he’s been biting down on that bullet for over two years, and he can’t do it one more single fucking second.
Sherlock’s there, wrapping him up in warmth and safety and that Baker Street home smell as John sobs out two years of grief and anger and sorrow into Sherlock’s ridiculously expensive coat. John can feel Sherlock lose control as he cries into John’s shoulder, muttering “I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” over and over again, but John doesn’t need to hear it anymore.
He can feel it.
He finally, finally understands.
“Let’s go home,” he whispers into Sherlock’s hair. He’s done with this place. “Let’s finally go home.”
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I promise happy fluff tomorrow to make up for the pain.
Tags under the cut as usual.
@calaisreno @peanitbear @meetinginsamarra @totallysilvergirl @jolieblack @keirgreeneyes @helloliriels @catlock-holmes @jrow @salmonsown
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and they were roommates
#danny phantom#danny fenton#sam manson#tucker foley#jack fenton#college au#i designed the house so here are some of my thoughts about it hahaha#the mansons bought the house really flippantly because it made financial sense not to rent for the next four years#and also they can probs make money renting it out after the trio graduates#they were not expecting how involved the foleys and the fentons would get lmao#the trio lives together really well#but sam hates how the boys take care of the bathroom on their floor#she forces them to clean it before people come over#danny is way more open about his powers in this house#he could have gotten away with that last one if he remembered that he can be invisible#but the boy is sleep deprived so who can blame him#sam colored her hair pink senior year of high school but light colors are too hard to maintain so she swapped to dark purple later
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What is this tension?
FIRST - PREVIOUS - NEXT
MASTERPOST (for the full series / FAQ / reference sheets)
(Chara's dialoge being a different shade of red is NOT a plot thing. It's just supposed to make it easier to read)
#deltarune#undertale#crossover#crossover comic#utdr#undertale fanart#deltarune fanart#twin runes#twin runes comic#my art#kris dreemurr#frisk#chara#ralsei#deltarune susie#is kris breaking down in fear of their own mortality?#are they handling it poorly?#why yes they are#are they planning on telling their friends the reason why?#I highly doubt it#but careful#people might be watching :)#anyways we really get to see how Asgore's failing business is also affecting this dark world in a way
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Bingqiu AU where Luo Binghe's the chosen village sacrifice to the evil deity who lives up the mountain.
Normally the village sends maidens, but they've more or less run out of expendable girls of the right age and, ahem, "virtues". So of course Luo Binghe's early life bad luck kicks in. In the wake of his mother's death there's no one to really care about what happens to him, he's fairly pretty, and the village leaders decide that if they dress him up like a girl the teenaged homeless kid should pass well enough. And hey, y'know, he's probably got a hard life ahead for him anyway -- dying in a brothel of some venereal disease or on the streets of exposure or starvation. At least as a sacrifice, everyone else gets to benefit from his loss! And the kid will get added to a shrine and be remembered as a hero! If anything, he should be happy about this!
Binghe is not happy about this.
But he's also a skinny underfed nobody who is easily overpowered, dressed up like a bride, and tied to a post. So. Not much he can do but wait for the evil deity to come and do whatever horrible thing he's gonna do to him.
Meanwhile, Shen Yuan is pretty sure he's been isekai'd into the over-powered hero of some kind of supernatural adventure story? He's not totally sure because he doesn't recognize the setting, but the signs are there. He's got a shrine-like base of operations (though it seems to have become corrupted/ruined, probably he has to restore it somehow), he has a very resilient and handsome new body with spiritual energy of some kind flowing through him, and a very clearly magical sword. Plus lots of neat starter powers! Though it feels like he has other abilities that have been blocked somehow? Probably he has to level up in order to access them.
When he treks out of his "base" and finds what seems to be a distressed maiden, he takes it for his beginner hero mission. The girl claims that she's been doomed to be sacrificed to an evil god. That sounds a little above Shen Yuan's pay grade for dealing with, so he unties her and decides that they had better just get out of the whole region altogether. He already packed up anything useful from his base, anticipating he might get caught up in an adventure once he left, so they follow the river away from the settlement until they reach another one.
While they travel, Luo Binghe tells Shen Yuan about the cursed deity, Shen Qingqiu, who was cast out of the heavens for slaughtering one of his brethren and has apparently being do-who-knows what to maidens from the local village in exchange for his "protection" ever since. Sounds like a real asshole! And also mid-level boss type bad guy at least. Shen Yuan hopes he doesn't have to fight him, but he probably will.
Thank goodness he found Binghe, though! Clearly the helpful little sister type! He's definitely going to require her assistance if he's going to figure out how to navigate this world and level up his skills enough to take on a god.
#svsss#bingqiu#scum villain's self saving system#scum villain#luo binghe: I don't know why the evil deity toys with me this much but as long as he is amused then he's not killing me#luo binghe: each day he lets me live is another blessing especially since I have no hope of escape#luo binghe: is it for some sick amusement that he drags me to and from the dens of monsters and feigns ignorance?#luo binghe: if I reveal that I know the truth will the ruse end? does he do this with all his sacrifices?#luo binghe: or is he toying with me because he knows that I'm not really a maiden at all? standing on this knife's edge is unbearable#luo binghe: and yet somehow this is the most stable my life has been ever since the death of my poor mother#luo binghe: the world is cruel -- perhaps if I become whatever it is this god desires I might be shielded from more of it for another day#luo binghe: wait I have heavenly demon blood? then... perhaps my dark master considers me a suitable companion thanks to this?#luo binghe: are we two companions in this wretched world? outsiders sharing scorn and thus only able to find solace in each other?#luo binghe: is this what it feels like to care and be cared for? it's been so long I had almost completely forgotten it#shen yuan: gosh these upgrades are getting convoluted I wish I had a skill menu or something#shen yuan: oooh neat a slime! easy exp!
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Pacific Rim is the best movie ever made for the same reason Sif is the best boss in Dark Souls. It's not bcs of quality or craftmanship or whatever it's bcs when I hear "giant robots fighting giant monsters with the power of love" and "huge wolf with a big fucking sword" I am overcome with the urge to scream "HELL FUCKING YEAH" at the top of my lungs before headbutting a wall so hard I leave a dent in the plaster.
#yes the other movies are good for technical reasons and such whatever who cares#GIANT FUCKING ROBOT#if you cannot understand my vision then idk I hope you get better#pacific rim#dark souls#sif dark souls
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Prompt 345
Let it be known that none of them actually expected the idiots’ of the week’s ritual to work. The summoning hadn’t worked for literal centuries- everyone knew it had been sealed away, presumably forever!
(Of course they had no way to know that in the Infinite Realms actually used the term forever as a measurement of time, what with how time itself wasn’t particularly linear within. And to beings that could hypothetically live for eternity? Forever was a nice vacation time really)
So maybe they hadn’t been exactly focused on stopping the ritual as much as they could of been, and by the time they realized it was working, well, it’d been a bit too late then. So yes, mistakes had perhaps in fact, been made.
First had come the chill, the cold of the ground as your body was lowered down, the cold of your blood dripping from your living corpse. Then came the shadows, the darkness creeping along their vision as their soul slipped from their body. Followed by boiling heat, flames scorching through their flesh and tearing from their chests like a blade piercing their hearts.
The form that emerged was massive, a cloak dripping crimson fluttering in the wind of an unseen battlefield, verdant flames licking at the air and causing the surrounding shadows to writhe. A dark growl echoed through the building, the stone below them shaking while deathly green eyes glowered down at the living with utter contempt.
“Do any of you imbeciles know how long it takes to get ghostlings to sleep-”
#Prompts#DCxDP#DPxDC#Halfa Trio#Dark Ages Ship#Dad Pariah Dark#He didn’t get a choice about it#The sarcophagus opened and Clockwork dumped the trio into his arms before he could fully wake up#Core bonded before he even registered anything#Look one has blue skin & one has white hair & one has green hair#He’s like 60% wondering if they’re actuall his & Clockwork’s & not gettin an answer#Clockwork is having fun acting as queen regent while Pariah takes care of de-aged trio#Gettin to kick the Observants’ asses while PD accidentally heals his torn core#Look a family-obsession would actually make sense for a ghost king-#he just also buckled under the weight of the Realm without a council#Because he insisted he could make it work as everyone else repaired the at the time#war torn zone from (insert thing lost to time here)#Tucker's ghost form has blue skin & gold eyes#Sam's has red eyes & dark green hair
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i think i'm hilarious -- aka i made blood blossom danny au memes
all of these come from my DpxDC prompt "i am pushing the batdad agenda--" and it's corresponding additions in the reblogs ksdjlf.
i am. rotating them in my head. forever and always. personally i think there should be more batdad aus in dpxdc, their dynamic could be neat. :)
#THAT FIRST ONE TOOK ME A HOT MINUTE TO MAKE. i have never been more careful with a trackpad. imgflip doesnt have an undo button#i think its fucking hilarious#its a batdad au#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dp x dc#dc x dp#mmm i need to come up with a name for this au#found family ftw WHOOOO. i could just do a generic 'blood blossom au' tag but i want a specific one because i like being unique#eldest batkid danny au#chronically ill danny au#danny: im grateful he's helping me but im still kinda apprehensive...#battinson: vaults over a car to escape reporters. likes rock music. isn't fucking evil. punched a cop. actively looking for a cure#danny: ...huh. okay.#furiously pushing the batdad agenda for my own gain. just look at them guys. they're funny little guys.#unofficial witness protection to adoption pipeline.#bruce wayne accidental teen acquisition. save a teenager gain a son#its about the adventure of them going from strangers to friends to family :)#im bored of the bruce slander guys in the words of hermes from hadestown:#“[its] about someone who *tries”*#danny saw a funny man in a funny costume eat the side of a dumpster and has never related more with someone on a spiritual level#“brother eugh i feel that. oh heY WAIT HERO BUDDY?? SAME HAT??? SAME HAT?”#danny's been the only hero he's known since he was 13. on god he is leaping at this opportunity. like YES. PLEASE BE ANOTHER HERO#HELP ME GET AWAY FROM CERTIFIED CRAZY MAN. HELP. YOU'RE SCARY AND HIDING IN THE DARK. EVEN BETTER. HELP A BROTHER OUT HERE#blood blossom au#for the time being thats the name
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Bring your son to work day 💀
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#Yes plumbella‘s sims lore iceberg video was what brought me out of my drawing slump 🫡🤙🫶#art#drawing#grim reaper#sims#sims 3#sims 4#nervous subject#sims fanart#art by op#cute#I love the dark and messed up lore from sims but I can also make little alternative realities in my head where my fave chars gets cared for#sims 4 grim reaper
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I'll be happy. For you, for her
#meow btw. if u even care#this scene has been giffed to death but there are soo many great expressions in it i couldn't stop rotating it in my brain#also i never noticed the soot from the fire on louis' face before coloring these because this show is so fckin DARK!!!!#can we get a light source on set 😭#interview with the vampire#jacob anderson#sam reid#iwtv
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The son (moomin) the father (snoopy) and the Holy Spirit (miffy)
#tbh they are pretty interchangeable who cares but this is my analysis#but idgaf you can switch it all up it’s fine#but I hope you all get the idea#anyway these three silly characters are my patron saints my everything my beacon of light in the darkness
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maybe it’s because it’s “too obvious” but im surprised how few readings I’ve seen of the Substance (2024) that discuss the themes of addiction and substance (ha) use & abuse.
in moderation you can use the substance to become a better, more fun, easier, happier version of yourself. then you realize you no longer want to be who you are when you’re not on the substance. then taking the same dose that used to be enough before isn’t enough anymore, so you want to take more, and just a little bit more couldn’t hurt, right? so you start to take even more. but this is only taking away from sober you, which is painful and difficult and even scarier than what compelled you to take it in the first place, so of course you can’t stop now. now you want to take even more, you NEED to take even more. sober life becomes harder and harder to bear, especially compared to how much easier everything is on the substance. now you’re not only using it to enjoy that feeling anymore, you’re using it to hide from what you’re turning into without it, from what you’ve already turned into.
every minute that you’re sober is spent counting down the days until you can use again, and the ends of being high are spent dreading going back. the sober self is upset and jealous at how irresponsible the high self is. the high self is upset at how much of a buzzkill the sober self is, and wishes they could exist on their own, without requiring their sober tether to existence. but the sober and high selves are the same person, you are one, and you become jealous and angry at yourself for ruining your own life in a vain attempt to become an impossible version of yourself that you most desire to be.
you want so badly to have all—and only all—of the best parts that you milk yourself dry, until you end up with all—and nothing but all—of the bad parts. by the time you truly feel that you have indeed lost everything and know you need to stop, the damage is already done, and there is no going back. you wish you had stopped at the first chance, you wish you had never started to begin with. and even then for many people the only way to deal with this terrifying, painful reality is to use even more, because you have made this terrifying, painful life without your substance feel unliveable, even scarier yet than what had made you use in the first place. there is nothing left to do but to hide from your own life, and the only ways to do this are to stop, to love yourself and take care of the person that you are now… or to keep taking more and more, using until there is truly nothing left, not even yourself.
#the substance#the substance 2024#addiction#also obviously there’s lots of other stuff going on#with the movie in general it had many themes and none of them were subtle but still#I couldn’t stop thinking about this until I got it down#until I could get somebody else to be like yes I see you too#please this is very dark. take care of yourself#if you are struggling with addiction I see you. I care about you. I understand#and I understand how impossible it is to get off because of how scary it is to be without it#you aren’t alone#substance use#tw#shut up riley
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BG3 Comic: The Last Unicorn
Be Forewarned: Dark Urge Spoilers
This comic was inspired by the excellent idea of using The Last Unicorn dialogue for Astarion’s story from @fangsandfeels and the lovely comic made by @solmesia depicting it. You can see the original post here and the comic here.
When I read the original idea I thought that this also potentially works in reverse for a redemption Dark Urge who is horrified by their monstrousness. I did edit and add to the original dialogue for my own purposes.
(Also I really think it would have been cool if slayer form worked more like an uncontrollable werewolf-like curse rather than a gift you have to seek out.)
#astarion#astarion x dark urge#durgestarion#dark urge#bg3 fanart#bg3#the last unicorn#my art#OC: Jiril the Wildling#ship: wildfang#lets see how horribly the images get compressed this time shall we#alexa hit post and run#dark urge spoilers#bg3 spoilers#we’re being loosey goosey with the lore tonight but it’s fine#I like taking care of astarion but I also like that the DU plot gives him more opportunity to give care in return#steel comics
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I'm constantly thinking about this passage & I need other people to talk about
like "here is someone you already know"????????
#Jace & Alec as parabatai are very underrated & nobody gets them like I get them I fear#they both would rather kneel over and die than talk about their feelings#and it gives the illusion they don't care but they do#alec met tessa and immediately clocked that she has Jace's smile like#which is also so crazy in and of itself like????? wdym Jace has Tessa's smile???? shut up???#bella talks#tsc#the shadowhunter chronicles#the mortal instruments#jace herondale#alec lightwood#queen of air and darkness#idk why I'm Jace & Alec posting today 😭
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Late night study sessions might feel exhausting, but they're also some of the most rewarding moments in your academic journey. When the world is quiet, and it's just you and your books, you have the opportunity to dive deep into your studies, to understand, and to grow. Remember, every hour you put in, every note you take, and every concept you master is a step closer to your goals.
It's okay to feel tired. It's okay to take breaks. But never forget the power of persistence. Each time you push through, you're building not just your knowledge, but also your resilience. This is your journey, and while it might not always be easy, it's worth it.
So, surround yourself with what inspires you whether it's a cup of coffee, your favorite study playlist, or motivational quotes that keep you going. You’ve got this. Keep your head up, your mind sharp, and your heart determined. Every challenge you overcome is a victory, every question you answer is progress.
Stay focused, stay motivated, and remember why you started. You’re capable of more than you know, and this is just one step on your path to success. Keep going. The effort you put in today will pay off tomorrow.
#study aesthetic#study blog#study inspiration#study motivation#studyblr#studying#studyspo#law of assumption#dark academia#light academia#chaotic academia#chaotic academic aesthetic#motivating quotes#get motivated#law of attraction#manifesting#culture#language#lawblr#universidad#university#travel#loa success#successmindset#successful#successstories#school#self improvement#self love#self care
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area Durge willing to experience potentially unrequited love as long as they get to try brand new things such as TouchTM
#bg3#bg3 tav#bg3 art#durge#dark urge#look man i just have a lot of feelings about Guy Raised In MurderDeathSadism Cult-#falling in love with.... Guy In Vampire MurderDeathSadism Cult#and both of them being like yeah this relationship is probably fake but i'm willing to use my body to keep it going bc-#how else do you get people to care about you except for providing ServicesTM#BUT ALSO i get very BARKWOOF over guard dog and guy who should not be a moral compass dynamics so u kno#my ocs#tav: darias#weatherdraws
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we should make Nico more fucked up, actually. enough woobifying him. that boy should be covered in blood and viscera
#pjo#riordanverse#nico di angelo#we've done ''nico ships where his partner coddles and takes care of him while he heals from the innumerable trauma''#now let's do more ''nico ships where his partner helps him move past his trauma and enables him to be gay do crime''#more nico ships where nico is having his big 3 kid force-of-nature moments and his boyfriend goes ''HOT''#whatever happened to ''Will and Nico's first date was killing a man together. also Michael was there''#even stuff like. [tsats spoilers] getting all your negative attributes physically ripped out of you and turned into immortal creatures#that perhaps could leave you Changed! give me Nico who had the darkness taken from him#and it leaves him just a little unsettlingly bright and empty like a partial husk of himself#give me Nico whose cacodaemons can reabsorb back into him like he's their walking nest to hide in and emerge from whenever they please#he's just left an unsettling host for shadow monsters of pain and trauma#that's just one avenue. Nico's the spooky guy let him be spooky!#im constantly rotating just normal Nico operating on underworld laws/logic/mortality in my brain#make him WEIRDER
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