#cant relate to myself :\\\

[dzozef-art]

yes i am a control freak yes diavolo is my favourite villain

[daily-crabbys]

This Friday's meme: cold blooded killer

[bunnyboy-juice]

oh to be the comfort plushie of a little girl getting fucked by her sister in the middle of the night....

[shinnamoon]

Axl Low doodles (from oldest to newest)

[bugwolfsstuff]

Aaand the self hating kicked in

Someone please tell me lady Aphrodite and lord Eros dont/wont hate me for being aro.

[sometimesanequine]

hey dont be sad. what about a centaur?

[will-teehee]

Little Nam-gyu art dump :33

(+thanos because they're a pair)

Namgyusito >_<

I am entirely having fun with the fonts

[wuntrum]

genuinely a big proponent and believer in "make something even if its bad" but if i make bad stuff on a day where i desperately want to make good (or just fine) stuff it makes me want to explode

[lemongogo]

[doyoulikethis-vocaloid-song]

Do you like THIS song?

This isn’t even Vocaloid it’s just something I made in google music lab

hi i wrote (bad) lyrics for this

[rigelmejo]

learning to code!

When I was 9 years old, I learned enough html to code neopets pages, my own geocities websites, and I even made forums on my own sites so my friends could all roleplay together or rant together lol. And then? I forgot so much. I no longer no how to make a forum, or even a 'next page' button - so even the dream of just making a simple blog or webnovel site feels like a huge hurdle now. (9 year old me could probably figure it out in 2 hours).

So I'm relearning! I figured this would be a fun post to place resources I find for coding, since there's coding languages, and I figure maybe if you like running you're blog then you also might be interested in tools for making blogs!

First, for those of you who miss the old geocities and angelfire type of sites to make your own free site on: neocities.org

You can make free sites you can code yourself, the way 9 year old me did. A lot of people have made SUCH amazing sites, it's baffling my mind trying to figure out how they did, I definitely wish I could make an art portfolio site even a fourth as cool as some of the sites people have made on here.

And for those pressed for time, who aren't about to learn coding right now: wix.com is the place I recommend for building a site, it requires no coding skill and is fairly straightforward about adding pages or features by clicking buttons. I used it to make my art portfolio site, I am testing out using it for my webnovel - the alternative is Wordpress, but wix.com is letting me basically make a wordpress blog Inside my own site. It's very beginner friendly in terms of "how the fuck do I set up a 'sign up for updates' message and have my site actually email these people my novel updates?" and "I need a 4x20 grid of my art down the page, that lets people click the art to see it's information and make it bigger."

I did neocities.org's little html tutorial today, it's the part of html I DID remember (links, paragraphs, headers).

My next step is to go through htmldog.com's tutorials. They go from beginner, to intermediate, to CSS. Unlike many a coding tutorial I've seen, they explain what program on your computer you need to WRITE the code in and then how to save it and how to open it. (You'd think this isn't a big deal but I've been looking into how to learn Python for months and I can't find a tutorial explaining what fucking program to write my python in... notepad? do I need something else? I don't fucking know!! My dad finally gave me a printed textbook which supposedly tells you what to download to start... I learned C++ in college and for that you needed Visual Basic to code C++, so I figured I needed Something to Write the fucking python IN.)

[heal-the-ashes]

I feel like Hershel and Desmond would both be afraid of themselves.

If they stop and look at themselves. If they realize what they're doing came from years of pain. Would it all lead to a question of "Who else am I going to hurt?" "How many people have I unintentionally hurt because I never realized what I was really doing?" "How many things of my life have I missed because of this?" "How many things do I—or will I—regret?"

I feel like Layton self-sacrifices to a fault. That others get hurt trying to protect him. That he unknowingly drags other people through pain to get to where he thinks he needs to go. To solve every mystery there is. To get rid of his pain from outside sources, he needs to make as much of it himself under the titles "Determination" and "Amazing at solving things" and "Helping others" because then, how could those things ever hurt him? How could they ever be seen as pain? They're not like his (other) traumas. They don't cause pain at all. Not to mention what he thinks about danger. Danger? What danger? There's no danger here. Just people who are willing to hurt others to get what they want—Which is very sad and shows their pain and he'd very much like to help them in any way possible, if possible. If they show that they don't want to be helped, then it's better to leave them be.

But then again, nothing can ever be someone's fault other than his around him. I think he goes over betrayals thinking, "There must have been something I could have done." or "There must've been something I did." or "If I learn from this, I can make sure it never happens again." or... ... I think he has a hard time accepting that things really aren't his fault / there's really nothing he can do about some situations. Actually, when it comes time for Unwound Future and the whole Evil Layton arc... The only time in which he actually raises his voice is at himself. Is at the version of him that betrayed all of the morals in which he's held onto for so long. But a part of me thinks that, if he knew things were actually his fault, he'd have a problem with that, too... I mean, look at how he reacts to him getting puzzle answers incorrect in CV. In CV. In the 4th game of experience that he's had with puzzles. And a movie. With all that experience and he gets something wrong... he's disappointed in himself. Going back to the UF/LF thing... "I demand an explanation!!" I don't think I'll ever forget that line. I think, from his journal... We know he was trying to think of reasons why he would do something like this. Idk. I'm. Thoughts are not thinking anymore. Um. Wow I really lost my thought process. I was also gonna talk about Desmond. But I guess that's not happening at the moment.

[satsuha]

2024! you can find my other art summaries here

[starry-sophrosyne]

That draft and all the talk about the sugar au has me thinking of Sophist singing "Poison", and now I'm passing the brainrot to you :3.

MORE ANONS YIPPEE!!! ٩(๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵๑)۶ And I can indeed confirm that I thought about "Poison" right after realizing the AD similarities to Escort Sophist, my only thing is that AD's voice is waayyyy too tenor (high pitched) and also pitchy(? dunno if thats the right word) for me to actually hear him singing it lmao-

Speaking of which, I can definitely imagine Leo filming himself with Sophist, not for public view or as he says, himself, but because he knows of Sophist's self loathing (explained in a drabble i have coming up). Sophist is popular in the business, but Leo's known that he's now/has been struggling to remain here, and throughout the years, his hold on him has also weakened. So instead, he lets him trap himself, constantly murmuring the scarlett letter effect/trope into his ears as they're filming.

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A salacious, honey-like voice, slithering in the air but murmuring expressions that are both cruel (in comparison to his voice) and coldly calculated. Leo had always been good with his voice, and in the moment, it was intoxicating, making the venom in his whisper made each word feel like a reminder, a statement, rather than a threat. Maybe it was the heat in the air, but it felt so suffocating, inescapable, like this undeniable truth.

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It's true that lust will blind and suffocate, but just as much does it distract and coalesce one into this deliberate softness, lowering one's guard subconsciously. It is enough to make the phrases cut into him like glass shards, but be too preoccupied for him to notice. Over time, the phrases gradually embed themselves into his heart, and it is through this that Leo manipulates Eevee. Coherent thoughts from the days before dissipating alongside the haze of lust, and without any recollection that these ideas are the result of/connected/linked back to Leo, his subconscious can only believe that these thoughts have been conjured by himself. As such, that idea becomes true, and in technicality, these thoughts have always been his own. It takes years, but slowly, Leo strengthens this idea of impossibility of a new future, a new life with acceptance without prejudice, while also advancing Sophist's previous insecurities to this self loathing. It matters not to him whether or not Sophist is insecure, eating away at himself in this self hatred, he just needs to be blinded. Blinded enough to stay. As long as his perspective is never opened, he'll always see the tall, looming wall in front of him, unclimbable; and disheartened, he will not attempt to leave. Any hope of that idea will be crushed, and he will be unable to see the truth that's really around him.

... That is, until he meets someone special.

[v4mpyinred]

junpei actually has such strong bisexual vibes. I can't believe I didn't see it before. and I can't believe most of the fandom still can't see it either smh

[blitz0hn0]

Let's be real. Realistically, every time we see Mikoto it might as well be a different alter.

Does that make for an easy-to-follow narrative? No. Is it what the authors intended? Not likely, but also this is a game all based around perception and life experiences.

"Mikoto" and "John" as we know them are functionally made up by the audience (and thus Es) for narrative flow. Just like how ppl w DID irl are generally assumed to be "themselves," as in their body's name/main identity. Whether you're singlet or plural, the "you" in someone else's mind is a tiny piece even to your closest people. They see you through a special lens all their own, and these interpretations reveal more about the viewer than anything (not that that is a "bad" thing; it just is). Every individual consciousness is a different lens. You really can't know shit about any system unless you ask within the system, even w alters in your own brain. Mikoto hasn't had enough time to process his different parts yet, so it's wholly ambiguous.

Oblivious as we are, we've noticed a bit of friction surrounding how people view Kayanosys and tbh it makes us kinda sad; but the subject matter is touchy, so it's understandable. In my humble opinion, while they give us many clues as to "who's who," it's all still purely hypothetical. And it's fun to guess and theorize and even make shit up! You wouldn't do it to a real system but Milgram is not real; all respectful interpretations of 09 are valid in my book.

Personally I like the idea that he has more alters than just who we see, and I like interpretations of Mikoto/John/Kataboku as their own people. I also like completely ambiguous interpretations, and everything in-between bc if we wanna be Really Realistic, there's no end to the possibilities whatsoever, especially with as little info as we have so far.

This makes writing him So Difficult for me, but it only adds all the more layers to why I love these characters so much. I am so so sick of being a system sometimes, but it's a complex worldview that few experience and even fewer fully grasp. Plurality deserves to be talked about openly and with patience, and I couldn't be happier that Milgram even dares talk about them to such a large audience.

The reasons to talk about these things, after all, won't go away even if we do stop talking about them. I'm not gonna say "it all happens for a reason," but we certainly have words to describe such experiences for many reasons. I feel like we all need to stop being afraid of not fully understanding things. I certainly don't understand a lot, but I understand a small handful of things that many do not. Sharing helps us understand more, even if we miss the mark sometimes.

Idk. I love Mikoto and I love our little mikotoverse on tumblr dot com, that is all.