#cant deal with it anymore and i want to scare people i want to make people fucking care but they never will i know that because for years id
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how it feels to see people reblog a post about the man who basically ruined my life and tag it “drama tw”
#like dude it isnt drama im a real person and my life is RUINED#i cant really have relationships anymore. im in constant guilt. im terrified he’ll find where i live and do something#im terrified my most vulnerable moments will be spilled by him to make me the bad guy#idk why it puts such a bad taste in my mouth. this isnt petty drama hes a PREDATOR. I WAS 11 YEARS OLD WHEN WE MET#literally the only times im not scared is when i’ve successfully deluded myself into thinking that the 84 year old man of my desires wants#it isnt petty drama for the love of god tag with anything but “drama tw” bcus it makes it seem like not a big deal#it is a big deal! my life is ruined! my psychosis is worse than ever! ive never cut myself more! it’s serious!!#ive contemplated suicide more in the past week than the past 3 months bcus shepard scares me so badly and im terrified of what he’ll do#it isnt drama im a real person this is a real thing. hes hurt many people and maybe they dont care but my life is RUINED!!!!!
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Uh oh punishment moment alert
#gamer txt.#ughghhhh#can i stop crying man its been like 40 minutes#i hate it i hate it i hate it so much i hate what it did to me#i hate how scared i am of fucking everyone#Especially those i trust#i dont to be so scared i feel like a little kid i cant keep doing this#but its not my choice to make fuck me it never was#i just want to tell them i want to tell them so bad#my friends love me my friends are concerned about me they care about me#but its 3 years how do i just broach that topic? how do i just sour tge mood immediately#how do i just breakdown in the front of the people i love at fucking School#how do i stop shaking so damn much#how do i let them know that ive let them carry on in ignorance and compliment my mother to my face despite what she did#how do i stop thinking about this so much how do i stop it from getting to me like this#its been 3 years im fucking begging for anything#anything any relief any breaks#hell if i could i might even take ignorance#i just cant deal with this anymore#why does it have to be so clear in my head#why do i have to relive it#why cant i repress it and forget please for the love of anything tgat cares its ripling my heart and mind apart i cANT DO THIS#think i might go to bed soon
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#i miss my best friend and my entire life is falling apart#literally everything has been falling apart extra bad for a year and the scars its left make me want to smash everysingle mirror in my house#its been falling apart since i could learn to speak reallymy entire life has been a nightmare and im so tired i legitimately have nothing#i have nothing. not irl friends not my health not my sanity not comfort not silence not privacy not personal space not a comfy space anywhre#not money not love not family not talent of any kind not an ability to talk to anyone for several different reasons not a body i can stand#not nice hair not nice skin not a working body not a working brain not a job not anything to look forward to that doesnt fill me with shame#for not having anything other than music in my life not an id so i cant even see half the bands i want to or meet anyone or date at all or#have my own money my dad yells at me every time we talk now and hes giving up on me entirely like the rest of my family my pop cant remember#anything anybody else probably forgets i exist 363 days of the year i cant even read bc my brain is getting so slow that it scares me and i#cry over how little i can read when i used to read a book a DAY i cant comprehend anything anymore i cant do anything because i barely feel#anything barely anything is fun or cool or interesting outside of a single 2 minute spark im just doing the motions im a ghost im dead#its just too late#i cant be anything or do anything i never will be and 99% of the people in my life will never care how much i debase myseld and divulge#traumas id never willingly do it just for the dmallest piece of attention from anyone because everyone stares and wayches silently and i#cant deal with it anymore and i want to scare people i want to make people fucking care but they never will i know that because for years id#cry at every single party alone in the corner bc nobody would talk to me for more than a few minutes and then i stopped getting invited#until my best friend who changed that and now they barely talk to me and all i can think about is relapsing#Spotify
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i don't know if i could EVER part HIM I mean, Just thinking about it tears through my brain like PAPER IN A SHREDDER I'm stone cold at a memorial thing 4 my late uncle but I think about losing HIM & tears start coming because he just fucking. Like how the fuck am I gonna do this i just wanna start ripping at my flesh & muscle because thinking about leaving him gives me the feeling that something is writhing under my skin I just wanna tear it out & make it stop ^^^^^^^^^ I imagine a world without both of my darlings & i think i would just k#(*%(^ll myself!!!!!!!!!!
#cw sui#]]H0K0#QUEUE#08/02/23#GL00MY . . .#struggling 2 front cuz im just messing it up so bad !!!!#but a lot of us HIM!! its not just me so im not the problem!!!!!!!#trust me if it was just that id have myself skewered by now#the whole point was HE WOULD NEVER LEAVE ME#I CANT LEAVE HIM#THATS THE WHOLE POINT I CANT DEAL WITH PEOPLE LEAVING ME ANYMORE#its hwy i have this stupid fucking illness bpd i hate it I HATE IT I HATE IT#cuz it just makes everything WORSE#i claw at people wanting them to stay but it scares them away or i HURT them enough to make them go away#it fuck ing sucks i wanna crack my head open like an egg & slice my brain in half like a loaf of bread#im genuinely wondering if i should continue. like. idk if its worth it#whatrver i wont go too in depth in that#but im sort of obsessed with having a goodbye letter but i think thats primarily a me (hoko) thing#i also really care about the date but idk if i could wait for our anniv or his bday
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Real (a little rant of mine below, i start complaining on it so just.. ignore it lmfao)
I know life is full of goodbyes and hellos and sometimes you go away from people you love and sometimes they go away from you and that’s the way things are but I just hate it. I hate saying goodbye I hate letting go. I hate missing people.
#little rant based on this#i fucking hate goodbyes#sometimes i feel like its the better thing to do though. i don't wanna make people deal with me and as much as id like to just come back#i know i need to just leave them alone and let them move on with their lives. its the right thing to do#it still hurts. it hurts a lot. its just that way#people move on. i dont know why i cant just let go. i know these same people dont care about me or even think about me late at night#but i do. its all i do. i lay awake at night thinking about what could have been if i had just stayed or i could be friends with them again#it's a cycle#just something in life you have to deal with and I know im not special when i complain about stuff like this#i hate getting attached to people and knowing that eventually im going have to move on. to just.. stop. like everyone else#nothing lasts forever and this is a known fact. i know. i just idk.#i don't know or even want to make friends anymore. i dont think i can. my mind subconsciously compares experiences#with people i used to know and people that i just dont talk to anymore#i hate goodbyes so much that it resulted in pushing majority of everybody away because i cant stand the thought of them leaving#or i cant stand thought of possibly hurting them with anything i do. so i just leave first.#and sometimes i find myself coming back when I know i should let people go. I text them. I try to make conversation but then delete it#i think im being repetitive but ive just been really unmotivated and depressed lately#i hate being lonely but im scared of making new connections with people#and im scared to try and rekindle of what i once had with other people that i used to know#because most of the time they dont really wanna rekindle something that had no flame begin with#anyways i'm rambling#idk why i even did this.#if you read this 💀 bro why
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Headcanons for being the Justice League’s computer intelligence
Justice League x reader
warnings:
a/n: THANKS BABE. this is such an old request i am so freaking sorry
prompt: anonymous: “Hello! I would like to request a Justice League (DC Extended Universe) + Reader who is sort of their 'Person in the Chair' - helping behind the scenes to keep their weapons/powers/skillset in tact, but is not afraid to fight back if necessary? I would like these to be a set of headcanons, please? Thank you and Happy Writing! P.S. You're writing is incredible!”
you and alfred got along well
“glad i’m not the only one doing the grunt work anymore” -alfred
“and i was under the impression you loved this job” -you, sarcastically
you could frequently be found switching between important sites that actually helped during missions and reddit
“alfred hang on i want your opinion on this: ‘am i the asshole for trying on my bosses suit? i (25m) work with some pretty famous people and my boss (45m) has a really cool suit. it’s a little stiff but i think i like it. anyways, there’s a matching hat (if you will) and it smells AWFUL, so i sprayed it with febreeze but it only made it worse—’” -you
“hang on. this cant be…” -alfred
“HOW DID YOU FIND MY REDDIT ACCOUNT?!” -barry, over comms
“your name is scarletspeedster, and we’ve been trying to wash that febreeze smell from the cowl for weeks.” -you
“my god, barry. next time, just use an old suit” -alfred
“really?!” -barry
“no” -you and alfred
you do a lot of gadget/weapon design with JL members
“it’s acceptable” -bruce
“wow, thanks” -you
“it’s…it’s good work. i mean it” -bruce
diana sits with you and tells you stories, sometimes theyre very informational
“so if you ever do end up fighting, you’re going to want to craft a very nice sword for yourself. i know you’re good at that, you’ll do just fine” -diana
barry nerds out with you sometimes
he gets real excited when he sees you designing stuff on the computer
and tries to be helpful
“wind resistance might be a problem with this design, you should go sleeker” -barry
“hey, barry? if you don’t let me do my job im gonna design a tool specifically to shut you up” -you
“harsh!” -barry
“sorry, maybe a little too far. but let me work” -you
arthur wanted cooler clothes
“can i get you some material from atlantis so you can make me a nicer suit?” -arthur
“only if you bring me extra so i can have fun with it” -you
“not a problem for the king, its a deal” -arthur
clark didn’t really need/want much
but he was a great help when testing new weapons and suits
“can you just…laser vision that target right ahead. new suit material” -you
“yeah, stand back” -clark
it held for a good 20 seconds
“better than i thought” -you
you were their eyes in the sky on missions
directions, lookout, enemies, obstacles, detours, you name it
and yeah, maybe victor could also do a great deal of this stuff, but you got to do it behind the scenes and you actually got paid pretty well for it
but occasionally you did ask him for tech support
“victor, the batcomputer froze” -you
“i know, i did that on purpose” -vic
“can you unfreeze it so i can see what’s going on?” -you
“what’s the password?” -vic
*sigh* “ilovevicstone123” -you
diana let you spar with her sometimes
which honestly scared you every time bc you know she could kill you if she wanted to (but you knew she would never)
(but she could)
you’d never be apart of the justice league, which was very okay with you because you loved being behind the scenes and not being shot at
and so long and you had tea with alfred while the rest of them were kicking ass, you’d manage
taglist: @locke-writes // @captainshazamerica // @summersimmerus // @deanzboyfriend // @zoeyserpentluck // @mr-mxyzptlk-1940 //
#justice league#justice league x reader#justice league imagine#bruce wayne x reader#diana prince x reader#clark kent x reader#barry allen x reader#arthur curry x reader#victor stone x reader#batman x reader#wonder woman x reader#superman x reader#aquaman x reader#flash x reader#cyborg x reader#dc comics#dc comics imagine#dc comics x reader
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Hazbin Hotel - Alastor Scenario Dump
One of my friends requested I make more of these, so I guess I'm doing a series. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Like before these are just a bunch of story ideas I've had pop into my head that I have no plans to use. Feel free to use them, just link back/credit me and slap me with a tag because I wanna see what you write!! ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
Contents/WARNINGS: ANGST; stalking; abuse of Alastor's shadows; heavily implied voyeurism and other creepy shit; (most of these warnings are for the last prompt so if your bothered by any of this, just skip that one) Actual brainrot below the cut; Not beta read we die like men -ˋˏ✄┈┈┈┈
Ringing Hollow ₊˚ ‿︵୨୧
Basic idea is that Alastor ends up caving to Charlie/the hotel and getting a cellphone. Everyone insists he needs it in case there is an "emergency", especially after the whole Exterminator attack on the hotel.
So he relents. As much as Alastor hates to admit it; they are right. But he isnt going to get any of that smartphone crap. Alastor opts to get himself an actual flipphone. (Angel Dust questions how Alastor even managed to find the piece of junk) Its only for emergencies. He should barely be using it, if at all.
But things change one day when Alastor gets several messages from an unknown number thinking he is their close friend. Alastor does end up telling them that they have the wrong number, but you know, being Alastor, he has to tease them relentlessly first.
They actually end up talking for a bit. Both of them find the situation incredibly entertaining and surprisingly like each other's sense of humor. The reader ends up asking who they actually texted. Alastor panics a bit. He doesn't want to just tell some stranger that they just messaged the radio demon of all people.
No matter the case, Alastor doesn't want to give his real name. So he wracks his brain for something that wont give him away. He cant just use Al, that's too obvious. Wait... Alastor-Al-A...A... A-nonymous? Anon? Yeah. Anon could work.
(This is Alastor's own line of thinking of how he 'came up' with the name. The boomer has no idea this is actually a common internet pseudonym because I doubt he has ever touched a computer)
Anyway, Alastor ends up telling the reader to call him Anon. The two of them end up talking alot. The rest of the hotel finds it rather comical to see the radio demon on his phone texting someone with a grin on his face.
Alastor actually gets pretty fast at texting with his stupid flipphone. Eventually, under Angel's suggestion, Alastor does end up "upgrading" to one of those phones with the slide out keyboard. He still draws the line at smartphone.
But everyone finds the whole thing rather adorable. Charlie always giggles to Vaggie about how soft his eyes get whenever he sees a new text from the reader. Rosie teases him nonstop about his 'paramour' and ends up suggesting that Alastor try to meet them in person.
At the first thought of it, Alastor's stomach drops. He still hasn't actually told them who he is. But the more he thinks about it, the more Alastor thinks a meeting between them is inevitable. He has never felt this way about anyone before; and he needs to deal with it one way or another.
So Alastor arranges an in person meetup. However, he STILL doesn't actually tell the reader who he is. He plans it as a surprise. The purpose of this is twofold; Alastor thinks this will be a wonderful surprise (he is the fantastic radio demon after all!), and it will serve as a test to see if the reader actually likes him.
The secret third reason is that Alastor is actually scared of what the reader's reaction will be and is avoiding it until the ninth hour when he literally cannot anymore. But he would rather die then admit that.
The reader asks Alastor what he looks like and other, you know, obvious things they should know for when they meet. But Al dodges the questions and tells them that they will know everything and learn who he truly is when they finally meet.
Well the time comes. The reader shows up to the designated meeting place, a semi public location. Then they see him. The Radio Demon.
The reader's eyes meet his and they freeze in terror as he approaches them with a knowing, determined stride. They are mortified when Alastor kisses them on the back of the hand; calling them darling and confessing that he was the one who they had been talking to all along.
The reader backs off, stuttering an apology and a half hearted excuse to leave before quickly running off. Alastor’s smile never wavers. But it can be seen in his eyes and the way his ears have flattened against his head that he had hoped for a better reaction.
Alastor makes his leave before he can embarrass himself further. When he goes to text an apology, his number has already been blocked. He swears he feels a foreign pain in his chest in that moment.
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Mockingbird ₊˚ ‿︵୨୧
Alastor begins fall in love with the reader. Driven by his strange feelings, he starts to compose little songs that he hums/sings to himself. The songs are inspired by the things he likes about them, things that make him think of the reader, and ways he sees their presence improving the hotel.
There is even a special one dedicated specifically to their laughter. A tune that he made to resemble how melodic he finds it.
Charlie and Vaggie start to notice Alastor singing to himself all the time. How his eyes soften and his smile turns wistful as he sings. Its how they realize that, holy shit, the guy has fallen in love.
They think that the songs are how Alastor is choosing to ‘deal’ with his feelings and that he is using them as an outlet. Not realizing he is composing them himself.
So other then like the weird love singing to himself there really aren't signs of Alastor having a crush, especially not one on you. So it kinda becomes like this big mystery that Charlie is determined to solve. Charlie holds a 'top secret meeting' and drags the rest of the hotel into it. Who has Alastor fallen for?? She will find out dangit.
I also have the image of at least one of the songs being composed entirely in French. So like Alastor finds the reader asleep at some point, maybe they fell asleep on him or they fell asleep somewhere out of exhaustion, but either way, Alastor ends up singing the song he composed for them while they sleep.
Alastor gently picks you up and cradles you to his chest. Singing all the while. He takes you to your room and tucks you in, singing the song as if it were a lullaby. The reader half wakes up at some point and hears him, but cant understand the words.
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Chasing Shadows ₊˚ ‿︵୨୧
Basically a really sweet girl checks into the hotel. Maybe she just has that southern belle vibe or reminds Alastor of his mama or whatever; but the point is he has an immediate soft spot for her.
Anyway Alastor quickly picks up how guarded and almost paranoid she is. Her eyes always seem to be darting around or looking into the distance for something. Although she is quick to help others, she dashes anyone elses attempts to help her. Alastor finds it very odd.
Then Alastor’s shadows start reporting of ‘incidents’ happening around the hotel, mostly around the new guest. Her things going missing, gifts and letters being left outside her door if not outright in her room, and the one that pissed Alastor off the most was one of the shadows saying they even found a small camera had been placed in her room.
Alastor isnt stupid; he knows someone is stalking the poor girl. And he is seething. Part of it is anger and outrage at someone daring and succeeding at breaching his territory of the hotel, and the other half of his anger is at such a disgusting creature thinking that they are entitled to treat a woman this way.
Alastor quickly puts more shadows around the new guest's room, having every entrance and exit watched for the intruder. Yet the stalker manages to slip by him again, leaving a bouquet of flowers as well as stealing a pair of undergarments.
Alastor nearly kills the poor shadow that informs him of this. How could they let someone slip past them again??
You got the gist of how this story goes. Ive had this sitting in my ideas folder forever cause I love it alot but, realistically speaking, Im not going to write it. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ So either someone else can use it or you can just brainrot about it with me.
The big twist is the demon that is stalking the new guest has the power to turn into/manipulate cockroaches. That's how they are able to traverse the hotel so easily and undetected.
Wasn't sure if I wanted to go all in on that and make him an actual roach boy or not. You could also make the demon a Jewel Wasp which is a bug known specifically for mind controlling cockroaches.
Since the stalker is cockroach themed, I also had the idea floating around that Niffty would be the one to finally catch them in the end.
I was picturing the relationship between the new guest and Alastor to be strictly platonic; with like big brother/dad protection vibes. Basically Alastor just wants to protect someone who he sees as a ‘lady’ from a disgusting man. Its his southern trauma kicking in hard
#the last one could be like a whole story or series#but man#Im not writing that#I do not have the energy nor time#so just throwing the idea into the world#but please tell me if you use it#I want to see your roach boy#alastor hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel#hazbin alastor#hazbin hotel x reader#alastor the radio demon#hazbin hotel alastor fluff#hazbin hotel alastor x reader#hazbin hotel alastor angst#hazbin hotel alastor x you#alastor x reader#alastor x you#alastor fluff#alastor angst#hazbin alastor angst#hazbin alastor fluff#hazbin hotel alastor#hazbin alastor x reader#hazbin alastor x you#hazbin hotel prompts#hazbin x reader#hazbin x you#hazbin hotel fluff#hazbin hotel angst
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Fyuuture Kid AU is actually my favorite au of yours; I just think it's cute! How's floyd Yutu? I feel like there would be a thin line between "You're cool ig" and "You and shrimp are a little... close. Stop it." But once he knows that's his kid? Yeah all bets are of. Sorry Azul; he actually CANT go to work today he's too busy being a FATHER and a HUSBAND (these single fucks can cry about it)
No because this is exactly what I see happening and just the image of Floyd being like "nah I can't hang out spouse needs my help with the kid. Oh you wouldn't get it because YOU GOT NO BITCHES" he's just so silly I love him so much (つ╥﹏╥)つ
notes: they/them used for Yuu, this is part of the fyuuture kid au, Floyd's part can be found here, and the explanation for the au can be found here. You can find even more stuff for it on my masterlist under the series section.
Yutu wasn't really prepared for the first people he saw to be his parents. He knew he was going to have to see them eventually, and he did a lot of preparing mentally for seeing Yuu again but his dad? His father who he has heard so many stories about, the person he admires second only to you?
"And who's this little guppy?" The whites of Floyd's eyes widen as he zeros in on him, Yutu's senses force him to drop into a defensive stance and get in between the danger and Yuu. He's being circled by a larger, more dangerous predator. Every nerve ending in his body is screaming he is in danger, that Yuu's in danger, but he feels happy. He knows what his father's voice sounds like now.
"I ain't a guppy." The points of his teeth flash, but Floyd isn't amused by Yutu's claim.
"You are what I say you are, small fry."
Floyd! Yutu is very extroverted. He enjoys talking to people and had a lot of friends before and after being isekaid. If Yuu or one of his friends was more introverted he took a great deal of pride in doing most of the talking for them. He likes being helpful, or at least he says he does. If you've seen those videos of morays who act like puppies around divers they've known for years, that's sort of how Yutu acts. He's a big puppy who pretends not to know his own strength. Unless your his parent, he fears no man, but Yuu's wrath? That scares him.
He's similar to Floyd in school performance, he doesn't like to pay attention so he doesn't always do well. He didn't have a choice about paying attention to magic classes though, among all the different versions of Yutu, Floyd! Yutu might be one of the most cracked when it comes to combat magic. If you were to ask him about it, he'd say he sees his skill as another way of being helpful, but that prey drive is no joke he does like a good fight. Just not when that fight is against his dad...
He has always loved the water, whether he was swimming or out playing in the rain he always felt most at home in the water. In your world he was on his school's swim team, and while Yutu gets why he isn't allowed to be on NRC's he is still a bit salty about it. On the one hand he gets to actually live in the water now. On the other he sort of needs to find a hobby.
Maybe he could focus more on cooking? Or fishing? Or would that just be hunting under the sea...
The oceans of Twisted Wonderland were never safe, but in the time that Yutu arrived in they had become borderline unlivable due to blot pollution. Yutu really loved being in Octavinelle for allowing him to experience a little slice of what the Coral Sea was supposed to have been like. The version of the dorm he was placed in didn't have the lounge anymore, so he is very curious about Azul's business.
Papa (Floyd) Leech isn't very impressed. On the one hand he thinks it is kind of funny watching the shrimplet run around campus following Yuu like he's convinced they're going to disappear. Floyd feels like that sometimes too, it makes him want to drown you in his embrace and keep you here forever but he tries to ignore those feelings most of the time.
On the other hand knowing he can't just drop by Ramshackle and have you all to himself anymore makes it really hard to ignore them. Shrimplet doesn't even have the sense to be afraid of him, Floyd swears he gets excited when he threatens to give him a squeeze. And what's worse is you are really protective of him! Sure you're protective of Baby Seal too, but he's got enough sense to piss off when Floyd glares at him. He does leave when Floyd threatens to fight him, but not because he's scared. He looked sad actually, which Floyd clocks and brings back to Jade and Azul.
You asked another question about what happened to the boys in the bad future, and I want to save most of my thoughts related to what happened to Floyd for that answer, but Jade was still alive when Yutu got isekaid and he was able to meet him. They had a really good relationship, so when Jade comes sniffing around for information, Yutu is able to dodge his questions pretty easily. Future! Jade actually used his signature spell on him before he traveled back in time just to fuck with his past self. He did make his nephew promise to tell him if the one use rule applied to this case. Partially for science, partially because he knew that it would give his younger self the chance to keep the information to himself.
And keep it to himself he does- sort of. He makes sure Yutu knows he knows, but he never explicitly says anything to him. No what he wants to do is distract Yutu so Floyd can be a sulky coward in peace. That he does make clear to Yutu, he would like his brother to have more than one kid for him to be a bad influence on and he needs him to actually make a move on Yuu for that to happen.
I am not 100% on how the reveal on how Floyd learns about what's happening and who Yutu is, but once he does he is very serious about it. He wants to know what Yutu thought about him, why he knows more about Jade then his dear old dad, and what happened to Yuu to make him so protective. Wasn't he there at all? He'd never abandon his mate or his son... little shrimplet knows that, right?
Well he's just going to have to make sure he does know that. And everyone else too, "these single fucks can cry about it" indeed. Yutu is getting dragged to the Atlantica Memorial Museum so they can swim and talk about Azul's overblot, and how cute his parent was for standing up to him. He still wants to spend time alone with Yuu sometimes, but he gets why Yutu is afraid of letting them out of his sight now. He would feel the same way. If Floyd can manage it he wants to take him back home too (not to introduce him to the grandparents since that would just raise questions), since Yutu never got to go there.
Floyd would be such a good dad. An embarrassing one too, you know he teases Yutu, roughhouses with him, and openly flirts with Yuu in front of him. He's really looking forward to getting to be embarrassingly in love with Yuu in the future, and no silly "end of the world" thing is going to stop him.
#<3 asks#twisted wonderland x reader#twst x reader#floyd leech x reader#floyd leech x yuu#future kid au
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AVENTURINE RAMBLE ALERT!!!
tw: suicidal tendencies/ideation? let me know if i should add anything because im not used to needing to add this stuff- im usually goofy abt him but ive been thinking about this for a while now
aventurine puts quite the emphasis when he tells us that he doesn't make deals he can lose
yet he doesn't seem to hesitate to risk his life, doing it willingly even, like in the final victor light cone where it was down right unnecessary
sorry pal but no sane man would do that, it's almost like he craves to 'lose' one of these gambles, like dying would be a kind of victory in and of itself.
and in a way, taking his backstory into consideration, it does kind of make sense...? he doesn't have anything to live for other than being the sole survivor of the massacre. he was bought as a slave because he was lucky enough to survive. he climbed the ranks because he was lucky enough to win the bets he made, the bets he made in hopes of regaining his freedom. but at some point it wasn't about regaining his freedom anymore. even as one of the stonehearts, all he is is a chip for the ipc. and he's accepted it.
he cant get out of the system (unless he dies) and he's accepted that he's just a tool. it's even mentioned in his first meeting voiceline.
"Your humble servant Aventurine at your disposal, just a cog in the machine called the IPC's Strategic Investment Department. Nevertheless, I can also play the role of friend if needed"
(wow promoted from slave to servant)
before the thrill of the gambles was 'If i win this, i'll finally have a little more freedom' but now it's are 'if i lose this, i'll lose it all' (a part of me considers that this is where kakavasha became aventurine)
he's a coward in his own way to me. i think the majority can agree that this man is suicidal (HE FUCKING ATTEMPTED MULTIPLE TIMES JUST TO 'CHECK' IF YOU COULD ACTUALLY DIE IN THE DREAMSCAPE WTF??) but he's suicidal in the way that although he does want to end his life, he's too scared to do it directly by his own hands.
but also perhaps it's not just fear. as the only avgin left he also feels the burden of making sure his people don't just 'go extinct' (for lack of a better word). his family put so much faith in him before they left. would it really be ok for him to give up like that?
(side note: he mentioned before he didnt really appreciate the rain. perhaps the two are related?)
so instead, comparable to a person who stops checking for cars before crossing the road, he gambles, willingly risking his life, in hopes that his luck will eventually run out by itself...
i love him guys. i promise.
#i feel like i just typed out a whole loadda nonsense#i hope this wasnt too serious or anything...#i feel oddly bad abt posting this#babbles#hsr#honkai star rail#aventurine#hsr aventurine#aventurine hsr#badly written char analysis?#star rail#kakavasha
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flames of desire chapter 4: I'm creepy?...
Alastor x (f! bunny reader)
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your POV:
back at the hotel, I went straight to my room, putting all of my clothes that angel bought for me in there drawers and hangers. angel said that there weren't any shoes that work for my paws so he said to try and wear toeless socks....there comfortable but I just have to be carful were I step. walking to the lobby I decided to grab a drink, sitting on the stool "what do you want kid?" "nothing strong" sliding the drink over to me I decide to ask about what happened earlier "hay husk right..." "yeah?" "do you know who valentino is?", setting down the glass he was cleaning he turns "hes an overlord, part of the Vees ...owns a strip club angel works at" well that explains it "what's an overlord?" "you ask to many damn questions kid" "sorry...just asking since I'm still getting used to the permeant damnation thing..." "overlords are powerful demons, ranked by there power over others. humans deal in favors and money, but down here...you deal in souls. and fuckers like radio face abuse that power" radio face? that's new "you mean Alastor? "yeah kid, hes an overlord, haven't you ever seen those posters outside?" now that I think about it, no...I haven't but that would explain his whole dark and twistedness "is that why hes so creepy.." "I'm creepy?...", whipping my head around my heart feels like it just fell out of my ass "oh how you wound me dear, tell me what makes me so creepy hmm..." "well I- no I didn't mean- how long have you been standing there..." "well I heard my name and couldn't help but listen, tell me what is it that has peeked your interest in me?", "w-well husk was telling me about overlords and that you were uhm-...one" "ah yes my dear, husker is correct!, what brought up such a subject?" "oh well... me and angel ran into this Valentino guy and when I asked angel he looked so scared..." "hmm well if he works for valentino, then there's a high chance he made a contract" "contract?" "yes, a contract for his soul~" of course, a contract or a deal for a soul "husk also said something about the Vees who are they?" hearing loud static I look up, Alastors smile was tight and his expression was that of irritation, the static getting louder "oh nobody important..." "oookk..." I'm not gonna pry into that anymore, I like my second life...sorta.
Alastors POV:
so our little bunny got into some trouble with the Vees? and it seems valentino has caught interest in her, I cant have that... "tell me dear what did valentino say to you?" "hmm he asked me if I wanted to work for him, said he could make me rich or something like that" oh Valentino, how does one fine joy in taking advantage of young women, maybe he has an animal fetish or something, for once that makes my skin crawl "and what did you say?" "I told him no naturally, the guy has no boundaries, and from the way he treated angel I don't think I would want to work for somebody like him" hmm smart girl~ "well its good to know your alright!" wouldn't want my toy to be broken before iv played with it first... "i just hope angel is ok" "you need not worry about angel, I'm sure hes doing just fine dear, you shouldn't get involved" especially with the likes of such nasty people like valentino, how dare he attempt to steal my plaything, I guess ill have to show him that I don't like sharing.
your POV:
chatting with Alastor and husk I feel a bit tired, probably had one to many refills of my drink, iv always been a light weight... "its getting a bit late, I think I'm gonna head to bed now" husk takes my half empty glass as I stand from the stool "well goodnight my dear, sweet dreams~..."
I had writers block for like 30min because I just felt like adding a whole extra part for Alastor and it nearly killed me!!! but anyways I love you guys and please enjoy this chapter stay tuned~
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Soft yandere Aonung x reader
Aonung x reader
Aonung is a jealous boy so you better be careful what you do.
Human or not he will be obsessed. If you came with the Sully family he will love your strange details. Your tail is thin? He loves to play with it. Your skin is dark blue? He will admire it and say you remind him of the sea.
The first time he would see you he would not think much of it. I mean just cus he cant look away from you means nothing. He might be mean to your siblings when your there but he wont dare say one bad thing about you and if his friends try they will come out looking like an Ikran just attacked them.
»Your spacial« is what he would say when you ask him why he doesent make fun of you.
I could see you not liking him at the start espacialy when he was picking on Kiri but trust me this boy will do anything to get you back.You wanna see the spirit tree? He will take you there. You like the forest? He will take you there. Anything to make you love him again.
If you were a human it would be another story tho. His mother would not like you at all and would make sure to make a big deal when she would see you for the first time. But this guy would just stare. He always thought humans were ugly but you werent even close to ugly. He would not talk to you apart from a good morning when he sees you. It would be hard to even know he likes you but if you look really hard youd see it. How he always stares at you when everyone is learning how to swim since he is scared you will drown. How he only ever said morning to you. Its the small things he does to show you your spacial to him.
The confession would be pretty simple. He would slowly start to touch you since just staring at you is not enough for him anymore. And then one day he would just say it. No romantic things or words just an »I see you« and thats it. But the second you say yes this guy will lose it. He is not big in affection but you loving him back just made him change his mind. Be ready for a lot of touching and kissing. It does not need to be in a sexual way he just wands his hands on your body.
Dating him would be pretty normal apart from him wanting to kill anyone who even looks at you it would be great. He does not like touching when people are around but if they arent watching or if you two are alone hes like a little puppy. He would parcticaly beg you to touch him.
There is not a lot of nicknames he would use for you since he just likes some like : my forest girl/boy , Hì’i ( which if im right means sky) and pretty pet.
He loves to take you swimming just seeing the sea life with you is amazing for him. But when it comes to sexual stuff he is pretty calm. Takes his time getting you in the mood and does not go fast. That is till you say certain things like moan his name or pull his hair. But the one thing that would make him go crazy is pretty simple. All you have to do is whisper an i love you in your human language(For example: ti amo in Italian or if your navi just say i love you in english) and he will lose it.
His favorite places have to be behind his tent ( he might not like people seeing you two but just the thought of you trying to keep quiet not wanting to let others hear is amazing to him) and in one of his caves( and he has a lot of them mostly to take you there and have some alone time)
All in all he is actualy not bad. He might glare at others for staring at you but he wont hurt them unless you want him to. He loves you and what ever you want would be yours even if you wish for someone to die he will do it. Might as well not even think about it as long as your happy.
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the comfort that etho finds in bdubs is so unique and special like i cant stop thinking about him coming up to bdubs and declaring that they race horses and how he literally never talks like that with ANYONE!!! i have so much to say about this but i just started crying
its the way that for as long as ethos been doing collab content, hes been so afraid of asking for things, let alone demanding them. but that bdubs has always seen thru that and very calmly held ethos hand and not given up on him even when he was so quiet about what he wanted.
its about how etho’s rftw went so disastrously that guude just assumed that etho was going to stick to solo content and didnt even bother to ask if he wanted to join mindcrack. but bdubs was watching ethos videos and heard him talk about wanting to join an smp. so he begged guude to let him join. and he did. and he was so scared. and meeting new people went so badly so he just stuck to himself. but bdubs kept showing up and interacting with him without ever being dissuaded by etho being awkward and quiet because he KNEW!!!! he knew that thats not how etho wanted to present. so for years he slowly coaxed etho out of his shell by making sure he was included and making him know that he was appreciated. its that meme thats like “if etho has a million fans i am one of them” except real for bdubs.
he was his only fan (in the cc sphere) for so long, or at least the only one with enough patience and understanding to do the slow gentle work of loving and believing in etho until etho loved and believed in himself. and even now, he won’t ask people for things. he doesn’t ask to be included. bdubs is still the one reaching out, still inviting him along. but meeting new people isn’t scary anymore. he can hold his own, but only because bdubs supported him for so long. and it’s that trust and understanding implicit in their relationship that lets him confidently demand that bdubs race with him. he wouldnt with anyone else in the whole wide world. and bdubs is so!! thrilled by it! he doesn’t make a big deal out of it, but he does make it an immediate priority.
even now, more than ten years later, he is helping etho grow his confidence. with a simple gesture, he’s telling him that he can ask for things!! and people will do them!!! because they love him!!!! because he is so loved!!!!
this is what ppl miss when they talk about bdubs being an ethogirl. he loved etho when it was not easy to love etho. he loved etho before etho loved etho. he has had such a profound impact on etho that he would be completely unrecognizable without bdubs in his life.
there is nothing more loving in this world than showing patience to someone who is growing into who they want to be. and there is nothing more rewarding than letting that person grow into you and take your better parts and become a happier human being because of it. and thats what bdubs has done for etho for a decade and will do for him over and over until the end of time.
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AITA for not telling my partner that i love him?
i (23f) have been with my partner (25m) for seven months now. we still haven't said i love to each other. i very much do love him and im pretty sure he loves me back but im not telling him (but not because im scared he wont reciprocate!)
a bit of backstory. seven months ago i asked him out one night (we were coworkers, we're not anymore for unrelated reasons) and he said yes. so we started dating and hanging out, you know the usual. then after a bit i asked him to be my boyfriend, you know to make the thing a bit more official, and once again he said yes!
now, i hate the little "relationship games" that people sometimes do, like never double text or wait a few hours before replying to not seem clingy or stuff like that because i find them kinda childish! but at this point i kinda caved and im waiting for him to say i love you first, i am not gonna say it even if i have to wait another seven months!
im a hundred percent sure that if i tell him first he will reciprocate and everything will be good and nice but i kind of want to hear it from him. i don't regret the fact that i was the one who took the initiative with asking him out and then asking him to be my boyfriend so its not a big deal if im also the one that says i love you first. but i cant help but holding back.
(a bit of context: i know he never takes the initiative in general when it comes to relationships. he told me during our first date even! if it wasn't for me that i asked him out that night we would've never dated. and its not a problem for me, i don't think bad of him because of that. hes just kind of insicure most of the time and overthinks a lot, so i think hes just not sure if/how/when he should say it. but i cant help but feel like a bad person for not takin the initiative once again)
so AITA?
What are these acronyms?
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Could you do A, C, I, G, K, L, and P for EJ in the fluff alphabet? It would make me reallyyyy happy :3
Fluff Alphabet w/ EJ!!
ive been waiting for someone to do EJ you dont understand!!! i saw this earlier but the power went out when i finally had time to sit down and get to writing </3 my apologies as for other stuff/for everyone else, requests are still open, and the fluff alphabet will be open indefinitely!!
ATTRACTION- Honestly I think you gotta be a real catch to end up as Jacks partner, considering his entire hermit thing... I personally think that he separates himself from society after he becomes Eyeless Jack via a funky cult sacrifice thing... which he was kinda pretty much unwillingly roped into. I think he would want someone who's capable of taking care of themselves, and perhaps someone whos smart. maybe even lower maintenance. its not that he doesnt want to treat you as you deserve, its that sometimes he cant given he sometimes legitimately goes feral (though this is only really due to him pushing off his needs, blood frenzy type deal for when he pushes off eating people, can get real ugly). understanding as well, he needs someone whos willing to be understanding of his position and current predicament and know that eventually jack is going to fully not. be there anymore one day (possible angst idea? ooo?) but also even before the whole, demon thing, jack wasnt the most cheery or social and things definitely havent changed
CUDDLING- hes really cold so thats good for hot nights! not good for cold ones though </3 but hey maybe you guys are somewhere where its perpetually hot. as for the actual act of cuddling, he prefers to be the big spoon. likes sleeping closer to the door, kinda makes a barrier of himself for you in case someone were to come in. which is unlikely since if this were his place, its literally a cabin in the woods in bumfuck nowhere, but the point still stands. only engages if youre asleep or ask for it. if youre the one holding him, he kinda. freezes still and doesnt dare move. poor dude, hes so scared hes going to bite you or something
GIFT GIVING- since he lives in the woods and doesnt have a job he cant exactly go out and give you gifts. he also isnt fond of taking belongings from victims, since he already takes pieces of their bodies. coughs. anyways, i think hes more of an act of service person (will talk more about that in L)
INJURY- youre in luck, he had plans to be a doctor, thats what he was going to college for! plus i think he had a little fixation on medical stuff in general growing up. little hc that his other choice was to be a microbilogist. idk, i can see it. but i dont think it needs to be said that neither became reality. but he does know how to treat some injuries and illnesses! so youre both in luck! but how does he react, emotionally? honestly, as long as youre not bleeding while hes in his frenzied state hes more than willing to help you... although its more so because he doesnt want the scent to trigger anything in him... he cares about you, i promise! its just that ultimately its better he doesnt go feral on you- now if he was the one injured hes already patching himself up... oh but imagine convincing him to let you clean up a wound he got while trying to do his thing.... ouuuugh... let the man be vulnerable, let him be taken care of... ueueue... anyways- yeah
KISSES- he doesnt wear his mask when hes at your place or his cabin- in fact he only really wears it when hes 'hunting' or 'prowling', so!! loves kissing your cheek. will absolutely refuse to kiss you if hes just ate, though, let him wash his face and brush his teeth first. and change his clothes. he likes being kissed anywhere; forehead, mouth, cheeks, hands, ect ect ect. now in terms of frequency i dont think he likes it too often, but that may be some internalized thing about no longer being worthy of love or something but hey who am i to say (loudly winks)
LOVE LANGUAGE- as previously mentioned, acts of service is how jack shows his appreciation and love for you. need something done? hes on it! need to do some chores but dont feel like it? you dont even need to ask! stuff like that, hell, even if something doesnt need to be done he will probably tinker at it and try to make it better if its an appliance or something that can be upgraded to be more efficient and effective. when it comes to receiving he likes words of affirmation, this man has been through hell and hes still going through it, so reassuring him that you still love him even though hes changing makes things a little less scary
PET NAMES- he likes calling you babe and baby. he likes being called hon! doesnt really do petnames, he finds saying someones name intimate enough... which honestly i kinda agree with, i kinda hate how utilized it is in romantic media. just two characters loving each other, sharing a moment, and one softly utters the others name in a sweet tone. GUH!!!! anyway
#creepypasta headcanon#creepypasta x reader#creepypasta x you#eyeless jack x reader#eyeless jack x you#eyeless jack imagine#eyeless jack headcanon
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Morgie le Fay x vk!reader
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“Attention everyone! I have made a partner task for your final assignment. You have your names on the desk, go find them and sit down!” The lovely professor yelled as I entered the classroom with Malificent, Hades didn’t take this class so whoever spends time with her will have an experience of a lifetime.
“Dude, he put us together!” Morgie yelled in my direction as I was trying to find my name.
“Well then I guess this task won’t be too bad then huh?” I looked at him as I dropped my bag, filled with only one book and a few pens.
“Easy A for us cause we can use stuff we already know” he pointed out.
“What are you thinking about?” I looked directly at him, he had a small smirk on his face.
“My mother is a sorcerer…I grew up reading all the books and stuff in the library we have.” I nodded, keeping silent. “We could also go into the detail of your mother. I’m sure there’s something in the library about her”.
“Please, I don’t think there would be too much on Madam Medusa as there would be for Le Fay” I turned towards the notebook I had, it was still blank but my pen was open.
“Okay, how about after lunch you and me go and see how much we find for this project?” I chuckled a little.
“Sure, but I’m still sure there’s more interesting content for your mum than mine” I looked at him pointedly.
“Deal” We talked about different things we could do for this task and just like that, the bell rang for lunch.
“Everyone, make sure to submit your tasks by next week!” I heard the professor yell as I was already getting ready to head out the door.
“You and Morgie seemed pretty close together” Malificent said to me the second she found me outside the classroom.
“Well we mostly talked about how we were going to do this task and make it more interesting” I looked at the horned girl. “How was yours?”
“Useless, I got a pretty pink princess to work with. She couldn’t even talk to me properly.” I laughed.
“Sounds like you’re gonna have a tough week huh?” I asked her just as we got to the normal spot where the other villain kids hung out.
“Oh do we have a problem?” James overheard our conversation and decided to join in.
“No you can leave yourself out of this one” Malificent sighed and went to sit next to Hades.
“Hey y/n, what you decide to make this time?” Morgie looked at me intrigued, Uliana looking at me as if she could steal it.
“Nothing special, although I could have used more salt” I laughed in her face growing red.
“How dare you try to be so cool and different whilst sitting here. You should be grateful we let you in Medusa, cause otherwise I don’t think anyone would touch you knowing truly you’re a villain” Uliana got in my face, taking the food from me as well.
“I think that’s enough Uli, you might scare her away otherwise”, Hook spoke up.
“She deserves it, what with her mother being a selfish woman and kidnapping another girl” Uli started eating the remaining parts of my food, my stomach dropped at her statement rang through my ears like a burning fire to my brain.
“Hey, you don’t get to speak about my mother that way you filthy sea witch” I stormed off heading off to the library where it was getting quieter and quieter, i didn’t even realise I was crying.
“Hmmm?” I turned around and Morgie was in front on me. His soft smile that he only shared with his friends apparent on his face.
“Y/n I heard what she said to you and couldn’t stay there to hear anymore. I want to say I’m sorry for her cruelty towards you, and hey maybe you and I can spend some time together.” He wiped my tears from my face.
“Gods I know she’s horrible to people, but her own friends? That cut deep.” I leaned into hand that was still on my face. “I would also love to spend more time with you”
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“No I think, we should make something that looks like a giant gem, and maybe a pot underneath it?” I suggested.
“I just cant believe we did it on both our mothers Y/n” Morgie laughed but agreed with the decision.
“Awwww look at you two” James interrupted our conversation of different ways to make our presentation look good.
“What do you want Hook?” I looked up at him.
“Well you missed out on Bridget getting Uli all pink” My eyes almost shot out of my head.
“SHE DID WHAT?” I was begging for more details.
“Ate all those feathers that go on her cupcakes, BAM Uli was pink. We kind of cornered her, but to no avail- Uli wants help getting her back” He looked down at the two of us on the carpet examining our project.
“The prank is for castlecoming. She needs you to be there.” He grabbed a drink from the mini fridge they had in their room and walked out of the room.
“This is gonna go to hell isn’t it?” I asked Morgie.
“Yeah I think so” He looked at me softly. “What do you say, we get this done and then see what happens? Cant be that bad to come up with their own ideas”
“Well then, Devils Eye on top or below the sorcerer bowl?” I smiled at him.
“Above, it seems appropriate” He took the items from my hands to make a figure which would hold both items together.
“Okay, now we put it in the middle…” I looked at him as he still held the items together.
“Yeah easy, we want it facing the front right?” I laughed and nodded.
“This might give professor the jumpscare he needed” I looked at Morgie and then I decided I wanted to hug him after all our time together.
“Not that I’m complaining about this. But why?” Morgie laughed whilst on the floor next to the project.
“This is our hard work, and I wanted to hug because of that. As well as the fact that you’re with me instead of our other friends right now” I mumbled out, but enough that he could hear everything.
“Well you know what I’ve been wanting to do since I was paired with you?” He asked me. And in a second his lips were on mine.
“I think you should have done that sooner” I laughed in his chest, then coming back up to kiss him again.
“We’re not going to the lair right?” I shook my head at him.
“Well I also have another question to ask..” He took my hand gently “Will you be my girlfriend?”
I then went and kissed him again. “Does that answer your question Morgie?” I asked him.
“Absolutely” He kissed me again, a lot stronger this time. “I can’t believe you’re mine”
“Same goes for you” I said when we finally came up for air.
#morgie le fay#vk!reader#descendants fluff#descendants imagine#descendants#descendants the rise of red#malificent
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Warm Company
Halsin x F! Plus Sized Tav, Set between Part 2 and 3
18+, feelings of undeserving, pining, touch starved, tenderness, heavy petting, fingering (f!), rough sex, Halsin being so sweet
listening to: Movement - Hozier, Sand - Dove Cameron
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"Would you like some company?"
Startled, Tav looked up. Embarrassingly wiping her eyes. Gods was there a place to be alone anymore.
Softened when she saw it was Halsin, the kindest mountain of a man.
"Sorry," She wiped her face with her sleeve. "Just having a moment.."
"Would you like me to go?"
Pulling her lower lip into her mouth, sitting back on her haunches. "No, no, it.."
Sighing in defeat. "It might actually be good to get it out. Talk about it."
He sat down next to her on the grass, a large hand against her back. Drawing reassured circles. "Tell me."
The touch drawing new tears to her. Gods she had been touched, been held, so little in her life. It still felt overwhelming sometimes.
"It's, ugh Gods... Its Astarion." Let out a mean laugh at herself. At her pining. At her crush. "I've been infatuated with him for a while, he only sees me as a friend. A traveling companion."
Screwed her eyes shut. "His friendship is so so precious to me. That he trusts me and feels safe, Gods finally feels kind of okay. I know so deeply how that feels, to be a scared animal in the dark... But I cant help wanting more. Wanting him. I'm selfish. I'm-"
It was a dam breaking, a torrent pouring out.
"Tav," Halsin said suddenly, tone stern. Stopping her tirade. "You are not selfish."
Wiped one of her tears, the callous of his fingers brushing against her cheek. She closed her eyes, heart leaping.
"Astarion is.." Gathered his thoughts. "A deeply troubled person. As are you," She laughed wetly. "As are we all. Yet you have come a tremendous way, a great deal of understanding and processing your pain. Much farther along in your journey. Incredible truly, what you've unraveled. The love you still have in your heart for the world, for us." Hand to his chest. "I have faith that he'll get there, that he'll catch up to you. Then he can see you, see the beautiful light that you are."
She stared up at him, the warmth in his eyes. How he looked back at her, unguarded, nothing to hide.
"Kiss me." She breathed, shocking herself.
A warm hand slid to cup her cheek, the other encircling the outside of her thigh.
"You're sure?"
"Yes," She whispered to him. Heart hammering. "I need to be touched right now. Be loved."
"I'd be honored." He murmured against her temple.
Holding back more threatening tears she slid her mouth against his.
Tav was not a small Drow, usually towering over people. Seeing the tops of heads as she walked. Her body was thick, full, tall.
But Halsin dwarfed her. The hand on her thigh with a wide reach, thumb reaching the sensitive skin on the inside. It made her chest flutter.
Feeling her need rising, she pushed her hand into his long hair. The tip of his ear sharp against her knuckle.
Still cupping her face so tenderly, he kissed her deeply. Slow. Setting her aflame.
Her free hand wandered to his chest, the muscles an expanse. Gods there was just so much of him. She finally didn't feel like she was going to break her lover. Fingers along his clavicle, savoring.
Hand in his hair laguidly scratching.
He groaned into her mouth, pulling her closer. Large hand running up the small of her back.
She naturally slid onto his lap, straddling him. It felt so instinctual, always did with her if she was honest, but especially here. Especially with him. Like he was designed to be loved.
She pulled at the hem of his tunic, lifting. He followed her, pulling it over his head, dropping into the grass.
"How do you look like that," She admonished, out loud she realized.
He chuckled, "The compliments are welcome, but you..."
Trailing his fingers down the curve of her neck, eyes full of wonder. "You are the one to be marveled at here."
She bit her lip. "You're going to make me cry again." Barely a joke. Stop being so sweet. She thought.
Another chuckle, low in his throat. "Apologies."
Stop being so good to me.
She pushed both hands into his hair, mouth hungry, demanding. Hips sliding into him.
"Take my top off."
His hands dutifully pulled the blouse free, dropping it near his in the grass.
"Touch me, please."
His hands on her waist, her hips, her chest. One finger tracing along her hardened peaks. She moaned lightly into his sweet mouth.
"More," A whine this time.
He broke away, mouth moving to her neck. Suckling and licking. She shivered against him as he moved to her ear, nibbling. Could feel his hardness against her. Straddled closer into him.
Took his hand, led it down the front of her. Positioning it right above her entrance. Urging.
He nodded into her neck, fingers working to open her ties. Other arm wrapping around her ass, lifting her. Pulling them off in one smooth motion.
The lifting made her ache, like she weighed nothing. Her need an inferno.
Now bare against him, his hands found her. Sliding two fingers down her slit, so warm.
She bucked into him, already so wet. His fingers swirling into her clit.
"Yes," She breathed, eyes fluttering closed.
Perfect hard circles. His mouth trailing down her chest, pushing his body forward. Hand bracing her fall as he led her down onto her back.
Hand still working he straddled between her, his body a shadow over her in the moonlight. Her hands ran up his wide shoulders, legs spread to accommodate him.
Mouth finding her nipple, swirling, nipping.
She groaned, undignified.
Two fingers sliding inside her. Hooking into her, pulsing.
"Gods, yes." She whimpered. "Just like that."
Even just the two was filling her, what would three do? What would his cock do? She thought, shivering. Though she doubted she would make it that far, at this rate.
Already shaking against him, her hips telltale. The tightening in her pelvis. The sound of his fingers in and out of her drenched core.
"Three, three fingers.." She moaned, knowing she was drawing near.
He moaned into her chest in agreement, his ring finger pushing into her.
She groaned loudly, pushing her hips hard into his hand. An animal rutting. Grinding her clit into his palm when he would push into her.
"Harder," She urged. Meaner. Make it hurt.
He took a handful of her hair, pulled it taut. Hand rough, pushing and pulsing.
Her build almost to its peak, finally getting what she needed. What she craved. What she couldn't get from the one she desired.
"Let go," He said, his words tender, his hands violent. "I'll catch you."
Back arching, head thrown back she released against him. Drowning in her pleasure, gasping and writhing. A burning ache, a smothering wave, one after another after another. The onslaught of his hands not slowing she rode the tide, a cry escaping her throat. Begged for it to never stop.
She fell back, exhausted. His hand slowing, gently sliding against her core. Arm snaking under her, pulling her into his chest.
She fell into him, ashamed to have fresh tears already sprouting in her eyes. "Thank you."
He smiled, pushed her hair away from her face. "It was a pleasure."
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#hes my sweetheart. my sweet boy!#also Tav at some point in the future going 'did you know I fucked halsin one time?'#to the sound of crashing dishes in the next room#she deserves to get her back blown out 😤#halsin x tav#halsin x plus sized tav#astarion x plus sized tav
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