#cancer mention tw

[jillvalentine]

there’s no pressure at all, but i’m going to link my ko-fi on here, in case anyone would like to pitch in to help me and my partner as he undergoes treatment for stage iv hodgkins lymphoma / cancer.

he won’t be able to work for (at least) 6–12 months, and we’re in a bit of a tough spot after some unexpected medical expenses and a now significantly reduced income.

please don’t feel bad if you aren’t in a position to help out financially. i appreciate all of the kind thoughts.

thank you for reading! ♡

https://ko-fi.com/yogacapris

[uncanny-tranny]

One thing that I always disliked about how people approach mental illness was to frame it as a grand battle, a battle you can lose to.

Obviously, this type of thinking absolutely gets applied to people who have gone through cancer, but I leave it to people affected by cancer to articulate how they feel about this, because it's absolutely not in my lane to talk about that part of this conversation. I talk about mental health because people (at least where I am at) also apply the logic to mental illness - especially if one has "lost" their battle.

It especially bothers me because in many cases, people conceptualize battle as something wherein both parties are full participants, that one participant can only win. Do you commemorate and respect the people who lose battles? Often not.

I know that many times, people use battle euphemisms in order to preserve dignity and (somehow) imply that the illness isn't their fault, but I just don't personally resonate with the idea that illness is something you "win" or "lose" at, that winning means something Grand, Big, and it's something which good people achieve. In my personal experience, it can feel like a battle, but it's completely different in how it operates as a "battle."

[bandsanitizer]

halsey fighting lupus and leukemia this whole time though… very proud of them and grateful for them sharing this story. I dont… I have a strong feeling this will be a good album I can’t listen to much but an amazing album none the less. I’m glad they took the time they needed for themself and their recovery too.

[centurieslater]

a phlebotomist oc who mainly works in the quieter departments but sometimes gets called to the emergency room and they always have banter with the er doctors like “my shift was nice and quiet until i ended up here”

[gps-yaps]

Pne time my science teacher was tslking to me and she was like "we should do a research project on cancer next!! :)" and started blabbering about it and I was just sitting there nodding and going "mhm" like I wasn't going to burst into tears at any second

[storminmyveins-archived]

Got the update on my mother-in-law

Her cancer is back. Bad news. Good news. Just one area. Easily treatable.

So bad good news. Good bad news? Okay, not as bad as it could have been but it's still frustrating.

Tomorrow is hitting me today and I'm PMSing like a bitch so emotionally I'm here, I'm there, I'm on the moon, I'm in hell.

I'll be in drafts, but quiet otherwise. Here and @starkissedscarsars as well as @walkingthroughfire

If you have it, best way to get to me at the moment is discordian. ( discord )

[wantsforever]

✉ → "pretending you don't need people doesn't make you strong, it just makes you a jackass." / @lovethcrn

she's like a cancer, think you beat it and she comes back stronger. with his last blow, he's confident that she's going to take the loss and walk away, but she friggin' persists. and of course she does, because izzie stevens doesn't know how to leave well enough alone. and him? he's definitely well enough.

"just because you throw philosophical bullshit at me doesn't mean i'm gonna sit down and talk to you."

even as a medical professional, alex karev doesn't believe in therapy. what's he going to get out of sitting on a leather couch and telling a stranger his darkest secrets? absolutely fucking nothing, that's what. however, alex would be more likely to go up to the psychiatric ward of the hospital and wrap himself in a straitjacket than talk to izzie stevens about his dad's sudden reappearance.

"leave it alone, iz. sorry if me being a jackass gets in the way of your weird savior complex, but i'm not actually sorry. i have charts to do."

[mothmans-cumrag]

So ever since my step-dad stopped his chemotherapy, he really has been living his best life. He got chicken (Tristan, Kokoschka and Prillan), he is steadily gaining weight which has always been an issue for him, and, most importantly, he is learning how to cook.

Now this man got married to hist first wive at 18 bc he didn't wrap it up and has always had a woman providing for him. He's been working on his gender roles ever since me and my brother came out as trans, but he genuinely used to believe that cooking and cleaning is women's work, even during times when my mum had a full time job and he was unemployed.

He's retired now and my mum still has her job and one of three children living with them, but due to him being basically incapacitated first by the cancer and then by the chemo, he still didn't really do a lot.

However, these days whenever I visit them, he shows me pictures of the bread he baked or the dishes he made, proud as anything. My mum and sister were away this weekend and when I had breakfast with him he was so so proud of the fact that he'd managed to keep the kitchen clean despite actually cooking and eating more than just toast, it was adorable!

My mum said that one day he came up to her and said that he watched a video on the internet about all the different ways you can cook cabbage and was really excited to try them. She knew and frequently did a lot of these ways, but apparently handling him is like handling a kid who comes home from school telling you that elephants are grey. You can either nod along excitedly and encourage them to learn more, or you can tell them that you already knew that and make them shut up and stop trying.

Anyway, I just think it's beautiful how much this man who I used to loathe and who is the reason for some of my trauma and the fact that I moved out as soon as I legally could is changing and growing. First him coming to terms with my and my brother's gender identity and now him overcoming these walls himself.

I am proud of him.

[twistedappletree]

back from mammo/ultrasound and….

ALSJAKJDAJJDAKJDK

🎉 I DONT HAVE CANCER 🎉

funny stuff about what I do have under the cut tho bc the doctor was lowkey hilarious lmao

So basically, I have a shiiiiiiiit ton of fibroadenomas. SO many that the doctor said he’s never seen that many in his entire career and that I set a new world record LMFAO

There’s a few complex cysts but literally nothing concerning so I just have go back in 6 months and repeat the process to make sure none of the cysts or fibroadenomas are growing/changing.

Also I didn’t have enough to pay for even the discounted price for uninsured patients (shit was like $800 like P L S 😭) and since the discounted price is only offered on the day of service, I have to pay the full $1600. BUT I can pay it in increments whenever I can. And also I just really give a fuck because??????

I DONT HAVE CANCER AAAAAHHHHHH 😭😭😭🥹🌸

[overcopious]

my last chemo treatment ( hopefully for good ) is tomorrow! i'll probably be out of it the next couple of days due to the side effects. if i'm not active i'm most likely resting. sorry i couldn't do much writing here this week. work was exhausting as usual. i'll try to get some writing done this upcoming week when i feel better!

[snaxle]

if it makes you feel better i once shaved my eyebrow off (trying to shave the middle and then just kept going like whoopsie daisy) and to not seem like a complete absolute fool i buzzed my head and also shaved the other eyebrow and went into school the next day and told everyone it was a cancer fundraiser. raised a lot of money for charity. part of my eyebrow still hasn't grown back and it's been 3 years

HELP?!??????

[extr4normal]

going to try to get some writing done tonight <3 i have another treatment tomorrow so i'm not sure how active i'll be this weekend.

[4doji]

27, 16, or 42 :3

42. image based prompt.

"That sad look on your face really doesn't suit you." The observation is frank and to the point; he was never one to hold or still his tongue, after all. As a man of little words, the few words that were spoken were chosen carefully, with little embellishments or frill, and, at this point in his life, after everything he's endured up to this point, he knew it was best to say what needed to be said instead of leaving it unspoken... or saying it when it was too late.

"Heh. It's not that ill - fitting, is it? My shirt, I mean." His iconic crimson red shirt was loose. Far too loose. The undone top buttons at betrayed just how drastically his health had fallen-- how the vibrancy of his skin tone dulled, how much muscle tone he'd lost, how pronounced his collar bones were... a testament to how much time has passed and how his illness claimed more of him every day.

The sand was warm beneath their feet, and the waves that lapped at their feet was welcomed. The sun had begun its descent in the horizon, bathing the sky in radiant reds, saturated blues, and warmed orange.

" ... I apologize. You and I finally reunite after I disappear for years, just for you to find out that I'm living on borrowed time. I know an apology will never make up for the torment I've caused you, but I'm grateful you came out here to meet me." It was a loose end he wanted to tie-- not for his own sake, but theirs as well. A proper means of closure. It was, beyond a shadow of a doubt, cruel. A cruel, cruel kindness.

This was his rightful punishment, after all. Poetically and appropriately reaped for his failure to ask for help, for being too stubborn to want to rely or depend on anyone. It was a burden he didn't want anyone to bear. Not Haruka, not the other children, not Dante.

How can we call this world just when men like you don't get a happy ending? He'd recalled those words said by the proprietor of the Survive Bar.

it was never within reach. Not once. Maybe briefly. Maybe for a short while. But never permanently.

[nghtmarish]

@leagueofdccm ; negan : forehead ; a gentle kiss on the partner's forehead, conveying care and affection. different ways to kiss someone ; always accepting.

    𝐬𝐡𝐞  𝐟𝐞𝐥𝐭  𝐬𝐨  𝐧𝐮𝐦𝐛,   unsure  of  what  exactly  to  say  or  do  now  that  her  worst  fears  had  been  confirmed.   she  had  told  negan  when  she  had  her  tests,  as  much  as  she  wanted  to  kick  his  ass  out  for  what  he  was  doing,  screwing  around  on  her,  she   𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝𝐞𝐝   him  and  wanted  his  support  in  this  moment.   they  had  their  daughter  to  worry  about  and  she  needed  him  to  be  the  best  dad  she  knew  he  could  be  whilst  she  was  faced  this   -   pancreatic  cancer.   she  had  been  on  the  other  end,  telling  parents  that  their  little  ones  were  going  to  have  the  toughest  battle  ahead  of  them  and  she  saw  the  way  it  broke  them  apart.   now  she  had  to  do  the  reverse,  she  had  taken  in  the  news,  told  her  husband  and  now  had  to  face  telling  tilly  what  was  going  on.   lucille  always  told  her  daughter  that  they  don't  hide  anything  from  each  other,  as  a  family  they  are  open  and  honest  with  each  other,  they  don't  keep  secrets.   just  because  negan  was  happy  to  do  that,  not  that  it  was  a  big  secret  since  she  was  aware  of  what  was  happening,  but  she  couldn't  confront  him  right  now,  she  just  had  to    𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐭   that  he  would  stop  now  that  they  were  possibly  facing  the  hardest  thing  they  have  ever  had  to  face.

    𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠  𝐢𝐧  𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫  𝐛𝐞𝐝,   just  thinking  about  everything  and  she  was  wondering  what  was  her  best  option  here.   it  had  been  hard  enough  with  negan  struggling  with  his  own  issues  right  now,  leaving  her  to  handle    𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠   on  her  own  and  she  would  do  it  because  he  was  her  person,  the  love  of  her  life.   but  that  didn't  mean  when  she  found  out  about  his  cheating  antics  that  didn't  hurt,  it  cut  deep  and  to  find  that  out  when  she  had  been  trying  to  figure  out  what  was  wrong  with  her  healthwise,  it  could  cause  her  to  fall  apart.   but  she  had  to  be    𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠,   not  just  for  herself,  for  tilly  and  still,  despite  not  really  deserving  it,  negan.   lucille  wouldn't  give  up,  she  would  fight  this,  overcome  it  and  be  there  for  her  family.   she  was  trying  to  face  the  idea  of  her  own  mortality  and  it  was  hard  to  focus  on  anything  else  right  now.   not  that  she  was  happy  with  the  idea  of  her  husband  sleeping  with  someone  else,  she  really  didn't  have  the  time  or  energy  to  fight  him  on  this.   she  just  had  to  hope  now  this  was  happening,  he  would  actually  do  the    𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭   thing.

    𝐥𝐮𝐜𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐞  𝐝𝐢𝐝𝐧'𝐭  𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐞  𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧  𝐬𝐡𝐞  𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐝  𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫  𝐛𝐞𝐝𝐫𝐨𝐨𝐦  𝐝𝐨𝐨𝐫  𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧,   knowing  that  she  still  had  a  few  hours  before  tilly  would  be  home  from  school.   negan  comes  and  kneels  beside  her  side  of  her  bed,  brown  eyes  meeting  his  and  she  sighs  softly,   "   thank  you  for  coming  with  me  today.   i  just   .   .   .   i  needed  you  to  understand  what's  happening,    "   lucille  admitted,  hand  moving  to  reach  out  and  take  one  of  his,  her  grip  tight  as  she  tried  to  ground  herself.   she  had  gotten  him  to  come  to  the  doctor's  appointment  so  that  she  didn't  have  to  try  and  explain  it  to  him,  she  didn't  know  if  she  would've  been  able  to.   nothing  was  going  to  stop  her  from  fighting,  she  didn't  give  up  and  she  would  show  both  negan  and  tilly  that  was  how  they  would  always  be.   as  a  family,  they  didn't  give  up  and  she  was  no  exception  to  that.   but  as  hard  as  she  had  felt  it  had  been  to  tell  negan  what  was  going  on,  she  knew  it  was  going  to  be  even  harder  to  tell  their  eleven  year  old  daughter  what  was  happening.   lucille's  eyes  closed  briefly  for  a  moment  as  he  pressed  a  kiss  to  her  forehead,  leaving  her  heart  both  racing  and  breaking  at  the  same  time.   how  could  he  both  devastate  her  and  make  her  feel  so  loved  at  the  same  time?   she  tried  to  give  him  a  small  smile,   "   don't  you  get  soft  on  me,  old  man.   i  need  you  right  now,  tilly's  gonna  need  us   .   .   .   we've  got  this.   i'm  not  giving  up  and  neither  should  you,    "

[fierstrt]

okie ; just a few small things to note until i get muse infos done asap!!

nick ;

i do not ship nick/ziggy for obvious reasons. therefore, the kiss never happened. sure, he found her interesting and cute but like . . . that's all lol.

he's heavy into witchcraft by 1980.

ferris bueller ;

baseball player for sunnyvale

attended camp nightwing and was there when shit happened. he was holding some shadysiders captive during color war cause ya know . . . that's what they were doing lol it was all fun and games until tommy slater axed people

by 1994, he's an radio host. has his own talk show on the radio. still resides in sunnyvale.

mason lockwood ;

part of the founding families of sunnyvale ; also comes from a very ancient long line of werewolves. the apisi wolf bloodline to be exact.

wolf curse triggered when he was a senior via accidentally pushing a friend too hard and said friend hit his head which killed him.

wolf form is pure black, with yellowish-red eyes.

by 1994 , mason has moved out of sunnyvale but returns when the mall massacre happens at his mother's word.

davina claire ;

shadysider ; elemental witch ( fire )

died in child sacrificial ritual at sixteen ( 1976 ) , resurrected a week later

cheerleader for shadyside

1994 ; davina is a defense attorney who still practices heavy magic such as necromancy.

liz forbes ;

only and i mean only affiliated with my caroline ( @cahroline ) and for world building with her dynamics , etc

deputy of sunnyvale , becomes sheriff though after nick's father's death . but steps down to regular deputy once nick is sworn in and becomes sheriff

finds out about caroline's vamperism a year after care's curse was triggered .

rescued caroline from bill forbes's basement where he was torturing his own daughter and fully accepts that her daughter hasn't changed and that care is still her .

dies in 1985 from cancer . kept it from caroline until one night when she passes out .

bill forbes ;

only and i mean only affiliated with my caroline ( @cahroline ) and for world building with her dynamics , etc

surgeon , divorced liz when caroline was 10 years old . fancy ass fucker who everyone hates . literally .

tortured caroline because she was a vampire. he viewed her as a monster and wanted to change her.

throws fancy parties at his manor .

dies in 1979 from a heartattack . doesn't even apologize to his own daughter for making her hate herself ( i oof )

[variantia]

BELLUM. so a bitch cracked her laptop screen (it's me, I'm a bitch) and am waiting on my new one. professionals want like $300 to fix it which I might as well buy a new computer at that point, but my uncle's gonna fix it for free (tho I'm still gonna offer money or take him to breakfast if he won't take the money, cuz, DAMN he's saving my ass, I wasn't ready to buy a new computer and transfer all my crap)

using my mom's for now but I don't have access to any of my files or stuff, pretty much all I'm using it for is to reply to emails from friends and use Discord

the second I have my laptop back I have to send Hitomi's presents to Kimimaro in an ask and we're just,,, gonna pretend that his birthday stuff isn't late, ok ? ok- xD

... in the meantime, I also managed to hurt my foot / ankle ? it's been swollen and painful for about a week so I went to urgent care yesterday and they told me it's a soft tissue injury (despite me not remembering injuring it, they think it's either because I'm on my feet a lot at work or my shoes not fitting correctly, or just an injury I don't remember)

so I'm on crutches for a week, not supposed to put weight on it, have to alternate between a compression bandage and icing and elevating it ... so I'm having to miss work for a week as well because I'm not allowed behind the register or on the floor with crutches as it's a safety risk

in the meantime the swelling hasn't seemed to have gone down much yet which is making me paranoid. this is also the worst time for me to have to take a week off bc one of the other managers is taking vacation for a week starting tomorrow.

and did I mention my boss was recently diagnosed with cancer so I was ready to step up and help out more and now I physically can't until I'm off crutches so I also feel like a horrible person ?

blehhhhh. so yeah it's been a rough few weeks but I'm dealing ... as soon as I get back, I want to do some stuff here, so stay tuned ! <3