#cancer journal

[atavist]

An ob-gyn in Virginia performed unnecessary surgeries on patients for decades. He took their reproductive organs, gave them false cancer diagnoses, and did other terrible harm. When his victims learned the truth, they fought back. Issue no. 146, DAMAGES, is now available: 

[Debra] requested her medical records and was stunned to find discrepancies with what Perwaiz had said to her during appointments. Most glaringly, she didn’t see any mention of precancerous cells on her cervix; the tests Perwaiz performed on her had come back normal. “If I was normal,” Debra said, “why did I have a surgery?”

There were other inconsistencies. One form from an appointment described Debra complaining of back and pelvic pain, which she told me she never did. Another document dated the day before her surgery stated that she “insisted on having those ovaries removed through the abdominal wall incision and not vaginally,” and that the “consent obtained after entirely counseling the patient [was] for abdominal hysterectomy.” In fact, she had requested the opposite surgical approach, and she recalled no such conversation with Perwaiz; the only time she’d spoken with him in the lead-up to her procedure was in passing in the hospital hallway.

Debra was sure she had a malpractice case. She went to several lawyers, but none of them would take her on as a client. “So many men—man after man saying, ‘You had a decent amount of care, and that’s all you’re afforded,’ ” she said. Frustrated, she came up with a new plan: “I said, ‘Alright, I’m going to learn how to sue this bastard myself.’ ”

[nianeyemystic]

✨ Sister Sign Compatibility Observation ✨

I’ve learned that Sisters Signs are naturally attracted to one another. It’s like meeting your polar opposite with insane similarities .

Some say that sister signs can help people understand qualities they might be lacking and learn from people who possess them. They can also teach people how to get along with others and make life better.

Have you experienced relationships with your opposite sign? Let me know about it.

Aries -Libra

Gemini - Sagittarius

Scorpio - Taurus

Virgo - Pisces

Leo - Aquarius

Cancer - Capricorn

Comment below I’m really curious how your experience in love / platonic relationships are.

[thedarkmaidenn]

The Zodiac Seasons and their Elements. What to focus on, what tools to use and what spells to conduct.

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[sayhoneysiren]

1/13 Full Moon🌕🌹 [ Read Full Article — https://www.patreon.com/posts/119510758?utm_campaign=postshare_creator ]

[chronicpaingirlie]

"I'm so tired of this. I want to be the person I used to be, the real me. I feel sometimes that it's all a dream, and surely I'm about to wake up now."

- from Audre Lorde’s The Cancer Journals

[coffeeeinbed]

⋆⭒˚.⋆ zodiac signs as coffee 

capricorn: espresso shot straight to the point and full of energy, capricorns match the vibe of an espresso shot to a T. they're an absolute no bullshit choice and you know exactly what you're getting with a capricorn.

aquarius: dirty chai  aquarius' aren't like the other girls, the same way a dirty chai isn't like the other coffees. chai is the star of the show here, and it's one of those drinks that feels irreplaceable.

pisces: vanilla affogato pisces of course had to be the sweetest coffee known to man, the affogato. unsure if an affogato is a desert or a drink, but like the pisces, we tend to overlook the confusion they cause and just enjoy the saccharine energy they offer.

aries: irish coffee  unsuspecting at first, but packs a punch. like an aries, irish coffee's can come off strong at first but it'll make you feel all warm and fuzzy after a while. spending time with an aries is always a good time.

taurus: caramel macchiato caramel macchiatos, despite not being as common, are well known and popular. like a taurus, they are known for being extremely strong with a hint of sweetness. unreliable and spacey at times, but always enjoyable when you encounter them.

gemini: cold brew with milk for a sign that seems to always be on the go and committing to a million different things, cold brew is a drink equally as adaptable as they are. quick, on the go, and easy to play with proportions, cold brew can be whatever you want it to be, just like the diverse personality of a gemini.

cancer: iced lavender latte  very gentle and an acquired taste, iced lavender lattes not only are a cancer season staple, but represent cancer's perfectly. floral flavors emulate the tender nature of this sign, and iced latte's are my summer coffee of choice.

leo: espresso martini espresso martinis are always the center of attention, just like leos. it's always a fun time when there's one of these around, but not only do you feel intoxicated in their presence, but the added espresso is an energy booster.

virgo: cappucino a comfort drink but still the logical choice. like virgo's, cappuccino's represent focus with the added bonus of a fun little garnish. virgo's always bring a little pizzazz with them despite their serious and passionate nature.

libra: pumpkin spice latte a classic, but with a fun twist. some people hate them, some people love them, no one ever feels neutral about a PSL, or a libra for that matter. despite their reputation, they are both a fun time and a cozy fall vibe.

scorpio: flat white  what the hell even is a flat white? exactly. scorpio's are absolutely the most mysterious sign, you have no idea what's in store. it seems like a pretty upfront coffee drink, but there's an unexpected sweetness to them.

sagittarius: peppermint mocha  a festive drink for the most festive sign! sagittarius' are the life of the party, and born in the lead up to christmas, it only felt right that they are the best holiday drink out there.

[uchiha-gaeshi]

Does anyone else automatically size themselves up with people their age and look for ways that you’re inferior to them? Just me? Ok….

[yawpyawp]

a year ago today i had to say goodbye to my amazing boye Pi

i miss him so much every day

[lyraeon]

I need to get this out somewhere

Got some devastatingly bad family news Thursday night

So the phone rings right, and it's the aunt who lives with grandma. she never calls so i know it's bad right away, and I just assume it's grandma

and when I answer she's crying so when she starts deleriously talking about a cancer diagnosis I spend the first 90 seconds still thinking she's talking about the nearly 80 year old whose health has been in shambles for years

then she phrases something just right and it clicks that I missed the name she said early in the call

and she is not calling about grandma

she is calling about her daughter

my cousin. who's still in her 20s.

has terminal cancer.

I didn't ask for much detail, I just let her tell me what she wanted to and talk how she needed to talk. Adrenal carcenoma in the lungs or something like that. really aggressive. not caught early.

3 years is apparently the optimistic number.

this kid has been through so much shit. she has been sick her whole damn life. one thing after another. So many different hospitalizations and problems I can't remember half of them. she's never just been allowed to have a normal life.

and now she's not even gonna make it to 30.

I don't know what to do.

the only thing I can think besides wanting to just hug her while i can is that I want her to give me a tattoo. she's not great at it but she was learning and tattoos are important to her, so even if it's just a little star or something, I hope we'll find a chance for that.

I'm devestated. I'm the oldest of the cousins, and by a decade. I'm supposed to be the one telling them not to worry about me while we all get old. we're supposed to live out some Golden Girls nonsense. None of them are supposed to go before me, and especially not this young.

I know how to handle old people dying. I'm very much a death is an inevitable part of life person.

I'm not prepared for this at all

and I don't know what to do for her at all

[blueberrybeomgyurecs]

every1 does not hate me every1 does not hate me every1 loves me i am cool and sexy and cute and awesome and fun it's not me it's the demons frfr

[uninspiringdyke]

gonna see my therapist on wednesday and go heeey girl. my dad's on suicide watch and i got a new job (unofficially).

[halosoliloquy]

Dad said, “I love you forever and ever,” his voice trailing off. “I don’t want to be selfish, but…” And then he pauses. He gets choked up, whispers, “I love you,” and hangs up.

His condition is worsening. Every time we speak, there’s something new, a fresh blow I’m not prepared for. This time, it’s heart disease. Pulmonary heart disease. And then, he tells me his flesh is peeling off his legs. “Water is leaking out,” he says. His feet, swollen beyond recognition, can’t even fit into his socks anymore. He’s in so much pain, he doesn’t know if he can walk much longer.

I beg him, like I always do, to consider pausing chemotherapy. Maybe his body just needs time to flush out all the toxins. I know his lifestyle isn’t perfect, but I reassure him we can find him a better place, somewhere clean, where people can help him. He knows this. He tells me it’s his last resort.

And here I am—his only daughter. It’s crushing, really. To be the only child and to watch your parents suffer like this… it’s unbearable.

[thedarkmaidenn]

I love a New Moon in Cancer ♋️

[eddiethehunted]

i. want to disappear for a while. i feel like something is wrong with me and nothing i do makes it better. no matter how hard i try. everything feels so hopeless. apparently i’m just a fucking cold unfeeling bitch who only cares about herself. apparently all i do is hurt people by just existing and being who i am. i know i joke about my autism a lot but i feel like a fucking horrible alien sometimes. i try really hard to be normal and palatable and acceptable and good but it’s like i’m existing outside of everyone else’s reality and no one will ever accept me as i am and i wish i could stop existing and nothing ever changes and no one ever understands and i will never be good enough for anyone because im wrong and bad and broken and traumatized and nothing i do will ever be good enough i will never be good enough nothing i do or say ever will matter it’ll never be enough. so why do i even try anymore. nothing even matters

[bolontiku]

I fucking hate the universe

How come there are people that are just the shittiest most selfish disgusting vile people in the world and MY BEAUTIFUL wonderful gorgeous loving sister gets cancer? She gives her whole life up to her fucking shit ex-husband and divorces him and he takes the kids and brainwashed them into believing that she's the worst so they don't talk to her, only to turn around and tell them he was the problem but it's kinda too late now. They hate her.

So, everytime she frets about her bf and says that he doesn't deserve to be saddled with a dying cancer girl, I get SO ANGRY cause my sister deserves only the best. And I remind her that if he wanted to he would stop choosing her everyday. If he didn't want or love her he has the choice to walk away, she's told him to AND THE MOTHERFUCKER PERSISTS. It's the only good thing in this world. That she found him and that he loves her sm...

I fucking HATE everything with all of my guts and soul. I just want her to be okay. I'm so sick of her being sad.

[homelandsexual]

Because I’ve never heard someone say it before…

…I am so grateful that I never started smoking. I am so grateful for all the scientists and journalists who risked it all to make sure we all know that smoking causes cancer. I’m grateful to the lawyers who sued cigarette companies for hiding the evidence for decades. I’m grateful for the millions of dollars of public health campaigns that told kids not to start smoking. I’m grateful for every teacher and parent who ever told me that smoking is addictive so it’s best not to try it in the first place.

And most of all, I am grateful to my younger self for realizing that while so much of the stuff adults say is BS, maybe this one time I should listen to the experts instead of the aesthetic gif sets on tumblr.