#can't articulate right

[mirrorhouse]

I have what you're looking for. High quality. Befitting a man of my tastes. I have a room over on Divisadero, not too far a walk.

[lazylittledragon]

detransition is something that should Absolutely be talked about but the idea of going into this tag terrifies me beyond belief

[coquelicoq]

shin yoosung and lee gilyoung demonstrably would love kim dokja if he were a worm. they've proven it. they have a room full of evidence of how much they love every creature they think could possibly be kim dokja. when he disappears from the world they see him in all things and their love expands accordingly. so yeah, they'd love him if he were a worm. if he's a worm they immediately make him a super comfy terrarium and attach a label that says KIM DOKJA WORLD'S BEST WORM. the first few times they fight over who gets to cuddle him they maybe accidentally pull his head off, but they're quick learners. (and it grows back. the guy's a worm.)

now would they also find a way to make kim dokja being a worm into a competition over who loves him best? obviously. lee gilyoung would be all smug at first. he'd be like hyung is a bug, i win!! and shin yoosung would be all actually it means more that i love him because i clearly love ahjussi for ahjussi whereas you just love all bugs so it doesn't count. and then they'd slapfight until some nerd came along to reveal that worms are members of kingdom animalia, thereby destroying shin yoosung's argument. they have to settle it as a tie. a worm is clearly a bug and technically an animal. either way kim dokja is kim dokja and they would love him in any form, in every universe.

[cor-ardens-archive]

Nina Auerbach, Our Vampires, Ourselves

[projectcatzo]

The entirety of Bleach boils down to "this fight to the death could've been an email"

[canisalbus]

genuinely CANNOT get over how you draw your boys comfy in bed. holy shit. how do you do that. the vibes...... immaculate........... so floppy and poofy and snuggly..................... teach me, sensei 😔😔😔 cloth is a nightmare lmao

yeah but no keep up the good work!!!!!

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[t-u-i-t-c]

"He's a good guy."

[ninyard]

what do you think about kevin as a character ? And his dynamic with andrew and riko if you don’t mind, this is kinda stupid but I really like ur takes lol

i think a lot about Kevin as a character and I have so many thoughts about all the relationship dynamics that he finds himself in throughout the series that there's probably not enough words to talk about him concisely.

tumblr search function sucks and i literally can't find any of my posts rn but i always think about this one when i think about kevin

there's too much to say about him - and his relationship with riko? their dynamic is just so brilliant to look at, i think, the brothers who turned enemies, riko who thinks about kevin all the time and loves him but hates him so much, jealous of him, but wants to fight by his side, but cant, because his ego won't let him? kevin, who is scared of riko, but was prepared to go back to him in a heartbeat to save himself.

andrew and kevin, the protector and the protected, the fearless and the scared, how their deals with each other saved their lives, kept them going, kept them safe.

i dont even have the right words right now to say in a grand sense how it is that i think about kevin, but i think he's so strong, and he deserves so much credit for bouncing back from everything that he went through. he's been through hell and back and through it again and everytime he comes back stronger. everything is about kevin. everything that matters is kevin. he's the backbone of everything, the epitome of strength, the epitome of powering through and fighting back against everyone that has just been dying to watch him fail.

[smoozie]

I'm actually a little bit ill about Scar's "Lizzie be careful!!" When she approaches the gaggle of murderers around the rapidly spinning minecart

[creepyscritches]

Watching my way thru law and order svu bc there's an insane amount of it (need a bg show) and it's astounding how much of a clown show it is. Ice-T is hunting pedophiles and he's canonically republican. Detectives pick up victims w gunshot wounds to the head and run them to the ambulance while making sure their noggins bounce as much as possible on their unsupported necks. Only criminals don't give DNA come on trust me come onnnnn. Detective Stabler has 2 foreheads.

[jonathanbyersphd]

Toning down the homophobia the Byers brothers face after season 1 was a mistake in this essay I will

[greenishness]

You can’t force people to be honest with you. If you’re an up-front person who doesn’t have a problem asking for what you need, it can be easy to interpret wishy-washiness as cowardly and manipulative. It obviously sucks to be in emotional limbo, and I don’t blame you for interpreting their silence as a punishment. But have you considered it might also be a form of self-protection?

“Why won’t X tell me what’s wrong? I’m not a mind reader!” is a common complaint. But the question which often occurs to me is, who does that clarity benefit? Does the teller have reasonable grounds to believe expressing their anger is a safe or productive thing to do? Is it going to lead to deeper understanding, or just another argument? Is the person demanding an explanation going to listen, or use the teller’s complaint to retaliate, linguistically outmanoeuvre them, or adopt a position of victimhood? Often a request for clarity is disingenuous. We know what we’ve done and just don’t want to have to be the one to bring it up, because we feel guilty, and it’s easier to take a defensive posture than proactively apologise.

Not to mention that when we’re upset, the last thing we want is to give the person who offended us an opportunity to relitigate the situation. Especially if there’s wounded pride involved. It can be humiliating to confess the depth of your hurt feelings. That kind of honesty is an act of generosity, not emotional obligation. 

Help Me Hera: Our Couple BFF's Won't Forgive Us

[datastate]

thinking abt kai satou on this evening. devastating.

[littlest-bugz]

Relapsing is a part of healing

[one systems perspective on relapsing during Resolution/late stage DID recovery.]

This post has been cooking in my drafts for a while, but since I'm back in a headspace where I would consider myself back in Resolution, I'm comfortable talking about this. I'm airing out my dirty laundry quite a bit in this post, but the reason I'm making this post is because of the fact I don't see many late stage recovery systems talk about relapsing back into dissociation and other CDD symptoms. I'm here to say it's totally okay and a part of healing. I don't know who needs to hear that, but I definitely did. I didn't hear it until i was in therapy.

A couple of months ago [when I was initially writing this post], I went through a series of traumatic events, including little over 3 weeks of reoccurring flashbacks due to a re-traumatizing situation. I have lovingly dubbed it 'the three weeks of hell'. There was more than just that, including 2 explosive breakdowns, where I just couldn't handle all the input I was getting with what all was going on. I was a whole wreck for a moment there, that's for sure. THANKFULLY, we only split off a one new alter after everything, which is healing progress, but it meant an increase in blackout amnesia in our day to day life, let alone the dissociation it was causing the system as a whole, nearly putting us back at step one of recovery.

The moment I noticed the blackout amnesia and increase in DID symptoms, I started thinking I had ruined any progress I could've possibly made. It felt like I had taken ten steps forward and then tumbled down the stairs. I never got to process the trauma as it just began to pile on, and eventually I popped in probably the worst explosive breakdown I've EVER had- my fight or flight kicked in and for gods know what reason, my brain chose fight. But that breakdown had solidified that 'fuck, I'm getting worse again' mentality I had going on. Everyone I knew seemed to 'keep it together' during rough times, so why couldn't I?

So that brought me to this post.

I wondered why I don't see talk of relapse in Late Stage Recovery spaces, let alone general CDD spaces. I figure, in my mind, that it's because it just isn't talked about. At least, not frequently. In the space I have curated for myself, I see a lot of fellow late stage recovery systems and finally fused systems, but everyone seems to not have relapsed at any point. Granted, this is the internet, and people show what they want others to see, but I felt ashamed for a good while that I had relapsed back into the amnesiac aspects of my dissociation. I didn't feel like I could call the stage of healing I am in 'late stage recovery'. But that's just. not true. I still am. My healing is ongoing, and I was able to resolve it.

In recovery for many disorders, relapses are, inherently, a part of the process of healing. Symptoms resurfacing is, to some extent, part of healing. Everyone is bound to have slip ups and rough times, and if your go to coping mechanism is dissociation [in CDDs cases], it's possible that you might slip back into those maladaptive mechanisms due to the stress of life happenings, but that's okay. What is needed is to learn the proper coping skills to deal with that stress, but it can be extremely hard to unlearn maladaptive coping skills and make turning towards healthy ones a default. Relapsing gives you the time to reinforce and build up what skills you do have.

When the three weeks of hell was occurring, I didn't exactly have the coping skills necessary to keep on with life, and any I did have, they were not 'automatic' enough. On top of that, my therapist was conveniently out of office for those three weeks. It did give me the time to make my skills stronger. Of course, I felt terrible about it but Relapsing is okay. As long as you learn how to deal with the stress and trauma, that's what matters. I'm still learning how to properly cope with everything that happened during those weeks, to be blunt, but I have gained a grasp on Resolution pretty quickly afterwards. I don't think it would've been possible to recover so easily had I not been in late stage recovery, and like I said before, it helped reinforce my coping skill box, making them stronger and much easier to recall. I definitely would say that relapsing was a part of my healing. Didn't feel good, but it became a huge factor in how we cope day to day.

TLDR; Relapsing during Resolution [Functional Multiplicity/Final fusion] is a part of recovery itself.

[amelikos]

Friede, Amethio and Zeiyu..

[hexedrosel-arts]

I did thing I said I would do yesterday

My ocs in kg characters clothes! And an occasional bonus

And 2 silly bonus facts as well

Edden and Damien were designed to be the Stevie and Hallmon of my characters respectively(as in how I made their personalities, they changed) Edden's first alt outfit reflects this

Lilith has been dressed up kg characters before, but she has her own alt outfit now

and a quick note(apologizes for over explaining myself): please don't use kg ships as relationship refs for my characters, this was just for personalities(a quick example is that Opal is Felix and Damien is Austin, Opal is 5 and Damien is 15)