#can’t stop thinking about them !!!!

[jaybirdscoffee]

shoutout to helen richardson and michael shelley, two individuals Who Just Laugh Like That.

[taintedmind6669]

Saw Deadpool & Wolverine for the third time today, im a slut for old man yaoi

[diangelodork]

yes, i am posting about this again because yes, i am thinking about this again.

i understand that most people likely wanted for charles to immediately be in love with edwin back and for him to know it immediately, but i sincerely appreciate that he didn’t.

but i also appreciate that he didn’t immediately write it off either.

payneland is, for most people, absolutely endgame and i totally understand that (because it is for me as well) but charles has never had to look at edwin in a romantic light before. he’s never thought about it and he’s never been forced to think about it.

edwin can only begin to understand his attraction to charles because of the cat king forcing him to face his sexual attraction to men, which is something that he had been repressing for a long time before then.

charles has always known he’s liked girls and that has always been the easiest answer so i can’t imagine he ever thought about men in a romantic sense before his death and i don’t think he ever would’ve thought to see edwin in that light after his death.

to us, it was very clear off the bat that edwin was a raging homosexual. but i’d argue that it was for the characters of the show as well.

crystal immediately clocks edwin’s behaviour and frustration toward her as jealousy. she very quickly calls them a married couple and tells charles that edwin’s jealous. charles had called him jealous before that, but he thought that edwin was just jealous that there was a new person in charles’ life which is not inaccurate, but it goes far deeper than that, and i don’t think that either charles or edwin understand that in this moment. i’m fairly certain crystal does though. she has a much more modern understanding of human sexuality and i truly think she knows how edwin feels about charles off the bat.

niko very quickly caught on the fact that Edwin had something romantic going on with with monty and even the cat king (which i don’t think the other two picked up on, only that he makes edwin flustered and nervous). this is also just another reason that she’s such an amazing friend, especially to edwin, because she doesn’t even bat an eye at this despite the fact that Edwin is likely terrified right now. not only does he make an offhanded statement about how monty is a boy and he’s a boy, but he was also murdered for being a boy who was deemed too feminine, and that was because he was clocked as queer in his life.

the cat king is immediately able to say and do certain things that get edwin feeling hot and bothered because he’s physically attracted to him and he didn’t doubt his ability to do so once.

when esther turns monty into a human, she doesn’t think for a moment that he will have any trouble seducing edwin.

even simon in their 1916 all boys boarding school where homosexuality was quite literally a crime could tell that edwin was queer.

i think charles always kind of knew that edwin likes men, but it’s very much something that is in the back of his head that he knows vaguely. he knows to be jealous of monty and the cat king and not to be jealous of niko, but he doesn’t understand what that really means for edwin. no one has said it out loud, but it doesn’t make any difference to him when he does tell him because of course he is. that was always just kind of a fact about him, but not an important one. not to charles.

regardless, everyone knows him to be queer, and he knew himself to be different, but i think he did always know that he was attracted to men. it was repressed, of course, and im sure there was a lot of self hatred and internalized homophobia there, but i think he sort of always knew.

charles, on the other hand, just went with the label that was most natural, the one that didn’t have any negative connotations to it, and that most people assumed was the norm. it worked for him because he was able to masquerade as that demographic. he’s never had to think twice about his sexuality because all he needs to know is that he’s attracted to women and that’s fine. i think that if he was able to live a full life, he may never have even thought about it and would’ve settled down with a woman, never realizing that he was also attracted to men.

we all know how jealous he was about monty and the cat king, but i don’t think he even began to consider the possibility that this was a romantic sense of jealousy and not just his protectiveness for his friend and for his friendship.

it truly speaks magnitudes to his character that after edwin confesses to him, he stops. he stops and he thinks. he’s an impulsive character and we know that from the beginning. but he stops here.

he has never considered men to be an aspect of his sexual orientation, but he refuses to sit here and give edwin an immediate yes or no. it would be so easy for him to say “i love you and you’re my best friend, but im straight and i don’t like you in that way,” but he doesn’t do that. he says that he can’t say he’s in love with him back, but that there is no one other than him on this plane of existence or on any plane of existence that he would ever go in the hell for and that they have forever to figure out what that means.

he says i love you, and i can’t sit here and say that i mean that romantically right now, but you mean more to me than anybody ever has and ever will.

charles rowland takes this scared young boy’s face in his hands, and he says “we can figure this out together.”

he’s not rejecting him here. he’s saying i don’t know if i love you like that, but i love you in every other way and i need some time to think about it, but i might love you in that way too.

and even if i don’t, nothing will ever change how much i love you.

i can’t handle how much they mean to me.

[arctvros]

“stop looking at me like that.”

“like what?”

[dudesinuniforms]

finally finished watching mota so this is some Bucky and Buck

[pendaisy]

I just thought about how mae’s mother taught her silence when noa’s mother taught him to sing

[kichiquax-draws]

Scraping myself together from the pieces you left behind

[honeycrispjamz]

Natalie can’t say ‘I love you’ to anyone, but she can say, ‘I need you.’

The things she wants wash away too quickly, and the things she needs burn too hot to hold. She tries to not let herself want, and it works for the most part—but she can’t stop herself from needing.

She can’t let Misty get close, but she can let Misty stroke her hair and pull her in as she cries. She can’t be happy, but she can let Misty make her roll her eyes and laugh. She can’t save herself, but she can let Misty try.

She can’t pull the trigger, but she can let Misty hold her as she fades.

She can’t say ‘I love you’ to anyone, but she can tell Misty, ‘I need you.’

[elliotthinkssometimes]

I love the idea of human pretzel as gills child but also consider third tidestrider sibling pretzle

[monachopsis-pluviophile]

This is the single most Doctor x Donna thing I’ve ever seen

[inkedfictionista]

Them - part 1✨

[gummidon]

Doodle dump

[adammilligans]

With Adam’s birthday coming up y’all should remember he was literally born on Saint Michael’s day

[floydsmuse]

don’t mind me, just thinking about how Calvin looks at Elizabeth in this scene 🥹😭

[bugmuncherr]

LAST POST OF THE DAY I SWEAR !!!

[chapel-of-rizztual]

Got puppy Mountain…. Puppy Phantom… on my brain…. Playing together…. Mountain sharing all favourite toys…. Phantom chasing Mountain’s tail… sharing their favourite treats with each other… curling up in front of the fire together….. their limbs and tails tangled together as they nap…