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sadpanda · 2 years ago
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911 besties… I’ve had a Thought™ about the finale that’s been spinning around in my brain for like 24 straight hours and I have to type it out before I explode:
I think Julie Rosen is gonna die.
I was rewatching 6x12, and before we see Buck go to Eddie’s house, there’s the scene with Madney where Maddie says, “Julie Rosen, she and some of the guys were supposed to bring him dinner…” blah blah blah.
Which would be fine, and could just be them acknowledging that there’s more people that work at the 118 than just the MC’s…BUT we also see her in 6x13 in the poker scene. And I got to thinking like hmm, why have this character show up (or at least mentioned by name) for 2 episodes in a row when we’ve only seen her like once before in season 5?
But that’s where I was wrong - she ALSO shows up in 6x02 at the happiness convention, where first Hen calls her by name to have her pair off with Eddie. Then, Eddie conveniently happens to introduce her - again, BY NAME - to a victim. I can’t think of another time (off the top of my head) where a MC has introduced a non-MC that’s helping them to a victim. But they made sure to have Eddie say “this is Julie” to those guys at the convention.
Why? Maybe so the general audience will know her by name. We’ve seen/heard of her a handful of times, including twice in 6b alone (so far). They make a point to show that she’s good enough friends with Buck to have Maddie’s phone number and bring dinner to his house. She plays poker with Eddie. She’s a part of their family, whether we see her a lot or not.
Combine all that with the stuff we’ve gotten recently about death and time, plus the “cataclysmic catastrophe” we’re getting in 6x18 and… 🤷🏼‍♀️
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becausebuckley · 2 months ago
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michelle's buddie fic recs: week 39!
yay more fics! guys i have to tell you this was an excellent reading week for me, so many brilliant fics!
two things: some of these fics aren't buddie but gen/a rare pair, but i figured i'd keep the title, since it applies to the majority of fics. i'll make sure it's clear which fics are for other ships! also, now that season 8 is airing, i've decided to keep the buddie fic rec list spoiler-free, and i'm setting up a season 8 rec list alongside it. this week's season 8 list can be found here!
this is a mix of fics with all ratings, so some include NSFW content. please take a look at both the ratings and the fic tags before reading!
if you come across something you like in this list, remember to show some love to the author by leaving kudos and a comment!
5 times buck and eddie thought they were on the same page +1 where they figured it out | WendyDarling95/@bi-buck-hi-eddie | 11.8k | E
"Ok but miscommunication trope where Eddie keeps trying to tell Buck he’s a werewolf and Buck thinks Eddie’s telling him he’s a furry. Buck would buy a fur suit absolutely" i'm genuinely not joking when i say that this fic was the highlight of my week. it's crack treated seriously in the absolute best way, i was howling (lol) while reading. brilliant <3
the book of love | colonoscopys/@colonoscopys | 8.1k | G
It was a pretty regular day. He had an eight hour shift the day before, slept in a little bit, ate dry toast and drank a black coffee before dropping Chris off at physical therapy for an hour. If he had known he was gonna die, he would have sprung for the hashbrowns in the freezer. time loop fic!! lovely lovely time loop fic!!
but you're holdin' me like water in your hands | TheGirlWithTheKite/@muddiedfoxglove | 11k | E
In which Eddie offers a helping hand when Buck's relationship starts to sour. (The Frogboiled Infideleddie Fic) frogboiled infideleddie?? yall the way i ran to this fic the second i saw it <3 so so so good
constant craving | Inell/@inell | 7.8k | E
Buck and Eddie have recently started dating, and it’s their third official date. While playing a game of pool, they make a little wager, and Buck gets to indulge a craving he’s had for years. i spent a lovely hour this morning catching up inell's recent fics and i highly recommend you do the same!! brilliant fics, both of the sweet and spicy variety <3
FREE MOUSTACHE RIDES | Killbothtwins | 5k | T
All is not well in Station 118. Gerrard is running the show, Christopher is gone, and, worst of all, Eddie has a mustache now. Somehow, it's only Buck who realizes how catastrophic this is. this is exactly the fic i needed to cheer me up earlier this week. so good, so funny!!
keep your brittle heart warm | Ink_Dancer | 8.8k | T
Buck convinces Eddie, notoriously a dog person, to adopt a cat. Buck then helps Eddie adjust to his new family member while the cat tries to meddle in their relationship. fics like this make me want to adopt a cat even more than i already do. so sweet, so cute, i love pinto bean <3
a little wisdom | Daisies_and_Briars/@cal-daisies-and-briars | 8.6k | T
Christopher comes home from Texas and needs his wisdom teeth removed, which leads to a larger discussion on hurt and comfort and needs that Eddie doesn't see coming. the diaz boys <3 i love them so much and they're so so well-written here!!
the more it hurts, the less it shows | ummrys/@ummrys | 2.4k | M
Eddie finally hears the story of Dr Wells, and Buck finally understands the depth of what happened to him. so well-written and a great look at the whole dr wells thing!!
nothin' but a little shut eye | Tizniz/@tizniz | 3.9k | G
Buck and Eddie accidentally nap together. And then keep napping together. buddie naps i love you so much <3 this is the softest cutest it's so good
put my heart inside your palms | markofalover/@markofalover| 3.1k | T
how an accidental pet name, a thoughtful dinner, and a shared shirt makes them get their shit together.. love is stored in the kitchen indeed <3 this is so so cute!
suddenly the only thing i saw was you | ipretendtobesane/@userbuddie | 8.2k | E
five times adriana diaz and may grant run into each other and the one time they show up together adriana/may?? the VISION holy shit. this is a brilliant fic and has probably my fav adriana diaz ever, it's just that good <3
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dear-oizys · 2 months ago
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My thoughts on the latest 911 episode
Buzzkill
This was written while I was watching the episode
Noooooo the planes gonna hit the bigger aircraft!!!!!!!!!!
I absolutely hate Gerrard. Despise him. Take you your "unsatisfactory" to the fucking grave with your body you absolutely asshole. I hope you're allergic to bees.
Why the fuck is he bullying everyone like this. Chimney just cleaned the floor and that bastard just spit on it????????
Also why the fuck is he targeting Buck?? Im not gonna lie I expected dickbag to favour Buck solely cause he's white.
Why the fuck does this happen to Athena??? Can't they leave her in peace??
Buck I love you but you're so dumb. People can't quit their jobs just like that.
Nooooooo!!!!! Bobby got a job at another station???? Oh. He's on a set. Why is the lafd sending people to sets?????
Im asking the important question here. Why the hell were they transporting 22 million killer bees????????
Maddie and Josh!!!!!!!!! I love you guys!!!!!!!!!!
Gerrard better show some fucking respect to Josh. That guy has lived probably half of Gerrard's days and has definitely done more for more people than Gerrard ever could.
Buck. Why do you know so many bee facts???? Like how??? Gerrard you better appreciate good ideas especially when you yourself can't do anything but shout at everyone.
Awww Bobby and Athena!!!! They are so sweet.
Ooooooh. I feel like that there may be some animosity later between hen and chimney cause of the mara situation. Well not animosity but some sadness between them I guess.
No but for a second why did I think Chris came back??? Gerrard is taking credit for buck's idea????? Damn ok.
Last season I really liked LFJr and his character, but after finding out somethings I'm not sure I still do. But we'll see what happens and where Tommy and Buck's relationship goes.
I really understand where Chris is coming from but I still think that maybe it's a bit too much. I mean I'm not asking him to come back or talk like before with Eddie again but like uh huh and just straight up leaving does seem a bit rude. But honestly Eddie fucked up like a LOT last season. So it is kinda justified.
I don't like Eddie's mom.
Grown ups????? Bitch you should shut the fuck up. You're not a grown up. You're a childish, selfish, racist, sexist bastard who should DIE ( can everyone tell that I HATE Gerrard )
After causing so much trauma to hen and chimney, and now trying to do the same to all the new members of the 118. I don't know how the hell they put him in the same house again.
Lol its really funny how Eddie looks back desperately hoping it's not him Buck is referring to.
I once again ask. Why does buck know so many bee facts??????
"We'll this has both" chimney your comedic timing is perfection.
Not buck spraying perfume at Eddie while he's walking away 🤣
The whole Eddie running scene gives me life fr.
Duck tape is the best!!!!!!! ( I have never seen ducktape in my life, we don't have that in my country)
Wow. Buck was so happy and looked to Gerrard like he would do if Bobby was here, but Bobby is not here and Gerrard is an asshole.
Episode name drop!!!!!!
Not the Athena flashbacks. Please leave her alone.
Athena is so so so so badass. Like wow ma'am. You are so awesome. Did you guys see how fast she took the gun out?????????? The speed????????
Fuck. Fuck. It's going to be the flight that Athena takes with which the other plane is going to crash right. It's definitely going to be that one.
Ok weird movie guy. Why do you give me the creeps. I feel like he's gonna haunt us somehow, later in the season.
Ok I feel really really bad for buck. He has worked hard for where is today and he doesn't deserve everything that Gerrard is saying.
Ohhhhh he saved him. Ok ig
I knew it!!! I knew it was gonna be Athena's plane. I knew it!! ( But at what cost )
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mrs-dr-reid · 2 years ago
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Because I’m bored, imma give y’all a basic rundown of all of my OCs that I actively write for. There’s 15 of them, so this is probably gonna be in two parts, because I have face claims for all of them, and I’d like to provide visual aid for each one (and tumblr limits the images on a post to 9). We’re also gonna go by fandom because that makes it easier for me.
1. Elaina Granger is the very first OC I ever made so many years ago I honestly don’t remember when I made her up. Her full name is Elaina Marie Granger-Potter as of the end of the series, and she’s the younger sister of Hermione Granger by about 10 months. As one can probably tell based on context, she eventually ends up with Harry Potter. I rewrote the ending of the series out of spite, so Ginny ends up with Dean and I renamed two of Harry’s kids (James Sirius was a good name, the other two needed to be changed for my own sanity). My face claim for her is Emilia Clarke.
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2. Rose Fletcher is from the Marauders Era, and she came to be because I got really addicted to Marauder POVs on TikTok, and wanted to make a character for that time period. Her full name is Rosalind Artemis Fletcher, and she eventually ends up with Remus Lupin (the very popular Andrew Garfield fancast applies here). Continuing with me rewriting the series out of spite, Remus doesn’t die in Deathly Hallows and they grow old together and become kick-ass grandparents when their son and daughter start families of their own (unfortunately Teddy does not exist in this universe, but I think I replaced him with a grandson from either their son or their daughter). My face claim for her is Sarah Bolger.
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3. Gemma Silversmith is from the Fantastic Beasts era, and I thought her up way back when the first FB movie came out because I fell in love with Eddie Redmayne’s cute little face the second I laid eyes on him. Her full name is Gemmadine Florence Silversmith, and she eventually ends up with Newt Scamander. She went to Hogwarts for the first 2 years of her education, but then her dad got a better paying job at MACUSA, so she transferred to Ilvermorny in her third year and became friends with the Goldstein gals. She meets Newt when he brings his animal shenanigans to New York, and during the war they dance around their feelings like the world’s worst mating dance, then once the war is over they get married and start a family. My face claim for her is Lilly James, but imagine her with borderline silvery blonde hair.
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4. Adri Carmichael is in the Criminal Minds universe, and I created her because I too quickly became obsessed with Dr. Spencer Reid and his stupid perfect face. Her full name is Dr. Adrienne Ember Reagan Carmichael, and she’s a member of the BAU alongside her eventual husband Spencer Reid. I decided when I was developing her to make her a slightly smarter female version of Spencer, so she has a Highly Superior Autobiographical Memory (which is slightly better than eidetic), she can read 20,500 words per minute, and she’s 10 months older than Spencer so she graduated high school at 12-ish as well. She also has 3 PhDs and 2 BAs, and the whole team (aka Derek) always jokes that she’s a female Spencer but with better hair. They eventually have a daughter and a son together, but the daughter is born around the middle of season 11 and is about a year old when Spencer gets sent to prison, and the son isn’t born until after the events of the season 15 finale. My face claim for her is Amanda Seyfriend.
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5. Liddy McCormick is in the 9-1-1 universe, and I made her because Evan Buckley stole my heart WAY too fast. Her full name is Lydia Pearl McCormick, and as previous statements would lead you to assume, she eventually ends up with Evan Buckley. She works at station 118 as a paramedic, and she learned everything she knows from Chimney and Hen because they instantly adopted her as their work child on her first day. Her and Buck start dating in the aftermath of his lawsuit and all that drama, so Taylor remains just a friend, and the whole “I kissed Lucy, Taylor move in with me” thing turns into “Lucy keeps flirting with me when you’re standing right there, wth” and it gets sorted out. My face claim for her is Chloe Grace Möretz.
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6. Mal Byers is the first of three OCs in the Stranger Things universe, and I thought her up because Dustin Henderson stole my heart with his precious face. Her full name is Mallory Kay Byers, she’s the youngest Byers kid and Will’s younger twin sister, and as one can ascertain from context clues, she’s the girlfriend of Dustin Henderson. They start dating while Dustin is away at Camp Know Where, and she helps him and Suzie with Cerebro from Hawkins. She gives him Planck’s Constant instead of Suzie after he sings Never Ending Story for her to help her calm down from the barrage of information she gets thrown at her, because I decided she’s kinda missing in action for most of Season 3 because she gets a nasty stomach bug right before Dustin gets home and she’s stuck in bed the whole time the gang is running around dealing with the Upside Down shit. My face claim for her is Raffey Cassidy.
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7. Carrie Brown is my second ST OC, and I came up with her because my Joe Keery obsession was reignited full force after I watched Free Guy. Her full name is Carrie Beatrice Brown, and she ends up with Steve Harrington. She’s the go-to babysitter for the Party, and she’s best friends with Nancy. She’s kind of the third wheel around her and Steve all the time until they break up. She gets stuck staying with the kids and Steve when the Byers’ and Nancy go to get the Mind Flayer out of Will, then after their group goes to torch the Demodog tunnels, Steve asks her out, and they start dating. The whole bathroom confession in ST3 with Robin changes to him admitting that he thought he was in love with Nancy, but he’s actually in love with Carrie, and he’s terrified that once she goes off to college, they’ll be done for. But she only ends up going to a school half an hour away from Hawkins, so she comes home on weekends and for holiday breaks, so their whole plot line in ST4 pans out as Steve trying his damndest to figure out how to tell her he loves her, and while he still tells Nancy about his “six kids in an RV” dream, Carrie is the person he imagines as Mama Harrington and there’s no weird “will they won’t they” thing with Nance. My face claim for her is Olivia Cooke.
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8. Kim Anderson is my final ST OC, and I thought her up because I fell in love with Eddie Munson’s stupid perfect face WAY too quickly. Her full name is Kimberly Jillian Anderson, and as one could ascertain, she’s in a relationship with Eddie Munson. I decided I wanted her to be the polar opposite of Eddie so their relationship wouldn’t make much sense to anyone outside of their friend group, so she plays soccer, her family is on the more affluent side, she’s blonde, she’s popular, and she’s top of her class. She’s a normal senior while Eddie’s on his second do-over, so she’s 18-19 while he’s 20-21. And because the ending of ST4 pissed me off, I’m rewriting it out of spite so both Eddie and Kim go into the Upside Down to distract the Demobats, but Kim employs a trick Carrie shows her, and turns multiple cans of Aquanet hairspray and a lighter into a redneck flamethrower. They still get nibbled a little bit when the Aquanet runs out, but not bad enough that they both die, so they both make it out and hole up in Kim’s family’s cabin on the outskirts of town until Hopper shows up and exonerates Eddie. So the conversation Dustin has with Eddie’s uncle changes to him being told that Eddie is still alive, he’s just laying low until the chaos dials back a little. My face claim for her is Lili Reinhart.
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9. Christine Frampton is an OC I made for the Bridgerton universe because I fell in love with Benedict Bridgerton’s stupid beautiful face way too fast even though Simon and Anthony were right there. As one can probably guess, she ends up with Benedict Bridgerton. She returns from France with her family after the events of season two after being there for the last 4 years for her father’s job, meaning she missed her social debut by a few years (she’s 25). She grew up next door to the Bridgerton family, so she was very close with Daphne and Eloise as well as the eldest Bridgerton brothers, especially Benedict. When she returns, her mother decides that she’ll be making up for her missed debut that season, and Benedict has no idea what to do with himself because according to him she grew even more beautiful while she was gone. Both of them slowly fall in love over the course of the season, but both of them are oblivious to the other’s feelings because duh. They finally get their acts together at the end of the season and get married. My face claim for her is Ellise Chapell.
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A reblog is coming with the last 6 very shortly!
Tagging a couple of moots that are a part of these fandoms: @libraryofloveletters, @leossmoonn, @boldlyvoid, @stranger-nightmare, @homoose, @meganskane
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shijiujun · 4 years ago
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I’m here with a zombie apocalypse (think Resident Evil level) + ABO danmei! I’m not usually a fan of ABOs tbh and I picked up this book for the zombie part and was surprised by the ABO part, but this one was a good nice balance between both. Surviving the zombie apocalypse still takes centre stage while the ABO part is more of a subplot/backdrop, but it’s cool all the same haha
Written by the author who wrote Swallowing the Sea (Tun Hai) & Breaking the Clouds (Po Yun)!
- Part of Min’s ‘Why You Should Read’ Series -
Summary:
In a world that has been overrun by a virus that turns people into zombies, Si Nan wakes up with no memory of who he is and what he’s doing in this rescue camp, only that he’s an omega that is scheduled to be air-lifted out of an affected zone to a safe sanctuary, where omegas are prized individuals meant to be protected so they can give birth and contribute to a new population, which has been decimated with attacking zombies globally. 
He’s not sure who he is and what he was supposed to be doing, but his instincts tell him to not go along with these people, and he flees into the crowd of attacking zombies. Much to everyone’s surprise, he has strong combat abilities (despite being an omega) and manages to escape from the team and also the zombies.
He chances upon Zhou Rong, Captain of the 118 Retrieval Special Unit and his team during another zombie attack in a nearby city, and joins them out after his escape route is blocked. Si Nan hides his omega scent with suppressants he finds in a supermarket, and unbeknownst to him, he has actually met Zhou Rong before when they were both much younger in a different setting, before zombies were even a thing. Zhou Rong leads a team of beta soldiers, which die one after the other as they flee, leaving the team down to its last bullet and six members.
Si Nan decides to follow them for a while, and due to his skilled fighting prowess, he gains the trust of this team and the civilians they’re protecting. Zhou Rong also takes a liking to him, and so does another team member Yan Hao, while Si Nan mistakenly thinks that Zhou Rong and Yan Hao are a couple together instead. As they flee from one city to another trying to get back to the 118 base, they realize the situation and virus is worser than they thought. They have to fight to survive while also figure out who Si Nan is, and why he’s a wanted individual by authorities from another country.
*A pretty accurate representation of a zombie apocalypse I have to say, I had Resident Evil flashbacks when I was reading this, people start dying right off the bat, but nothing hurts more than 2ha so I only teared up at minor character deaths
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Novel (Online) | Novel (Print) - December 2020 Print | Novel Translations 
Characters:
1. 司南 Si Nan - Amazing pouty and fierce mix-blood blond-haired omega who has amnesia and doesn’t even know his own name. He sees some product in a convenience store where he meets Zhou Rong for the first time that has the words 司南 on it and decides that his name for now. Combat specialist and can take out a lot of zombies just on his own - he’s also immune to the zombie virus but they don’t know this until much later. He doesn’t go with the shady troop that rescued him initially, but with Zhou Rong because he’s intrigued by how brash and kind and a bit dumb this Captain is. Masquerades as a beta with the help of suppressants
He has a stepbrother (an alpha) who tortured him for many years due to Si Nan’s special condition and the mystery surrounding his childhood with his scientist mother and dead-but-terribly-revived father. Said stepbrother also wants to mate with him because he ‘loves’ him but is just insane af. 
Si Nan actually met Zhou Rong when they were much younger before this whole zombie thing came along, and Si Nan actually pretended to be a helpless participant of the competition they were in and lets Zhou Rong help him, only to steal away the prize at the very last moment. He liked Zhou Rong a lot then, but due to him being taken hostage technically by his stepbrother and also his allegiance to a Western state (he’s mixed blood, stepbrother is American-ish) they were unable to be together. 
He’s compassionate, but doesn’t show mercy to anyone who doesn’t deserve it. Like Zhou Rong, he wants to save everyone they possibly can, but they’re not dumb enough to think they can save everyone. As he travels with Zhou Rong and his team and other civilians, he starts to remember little things about himself and is caught by his stepbrother again midway through the novel, and just as he despairs that no one will ever save a monster like him, Zhou Rong turns up to do just that.
2. 周戎 Zhou Rong - Extremely confident, brash but handsome and strategic alpha Captain of the 118 unit, a special unit which was sent out a few months prior to the start of the book to clear out regions of civilians, but they lose touch with a major city and headquarters, and are forced to find ways to return to big HQ amidst unusual bursts of zombie attacks and a new strain of zombies who were infected without being bitten. Masquerades as a beta, like the rest of his team.
He loses a lot of his team along the way, and has to carry the burden of killing them before they turn at their requests, and also promising to find their families and take care of them for his dead team members. He wants to save everyone, but also knows that with dwindling supply to food, medicine etc. they can only choose their battles along the way. 
Takes a huge liking to strong Si Nan, unknowing that he’s the boy he met and fell in love with when they were younger. Because of the competition then, despite Si Nan winning over him, he decides to openly court Si Nan after the competition, and brings flowers to go see him, only to see Si Nan being given a temporary claiming bite on the back of his neck by another man (the stepbrother). Dejected and devastated, his first budding love kind of ended there, and from then on he openly disses omegas as he thinks that Si Nan basically seduced him to deceive him, and that all the affection they shared during the days of the competition in the wild were fake.
After the truth about Si Nan is out, he does a 180 hahahaha, and Si Nan forgives him XD 
3. 颜豪 Yan Hao - Another alpha-hiding-as-a-beta team member of Zhou Rong’s unit. After Si Nan saves him twice, he falls in love with Si Nan, not knowing that Si Nan thinks that Zhou Rong and himself are together. His feelings after are known to Si Nan, but Zhou Rong and he openly (and hilariously) fight for Si Nan’s affections. Zhou Rong is way more direct than Yan Hao is though, and Si Nan obviously likes Zhou Rong much more than he does Yan Hao, so naturally he was kicked out of the competition hahaha. He’s very sporting about it though!
Other Things I Like in the Novel:
Zhou Rong calls himself Rong-ge, asks everyone to call him that, he takes on the brotherly protector role in the team and amongst the civilians he rescued - Tells Si Nan to call for Rong-ge whenever he’s in danger and he’ll turn up - So there’s a part where Si Nan is bombarded with his memories while he’s about to be kidnapped by his stepbrother and also chased down by incoming hordes of zombies, and he yells out for Rong-ge, and Rong-ge really turns up ;-;
Si Nan is pouty and glowering all the time, a bit cold and aloof at other times, but he’s always drawn to Zhou Rong’s warmth
After they confirm their feelings for each other and spend his heat together, they are literally inseparable, like forever holding hands and looking out for each other like they go from flirty at 20% to 200% as a couple midway through the novel
Si Nan kicks ass, all the time! He’s super good at fighting
Zhou Rong promises to get Si Nan a huge rock as an engagement ring but he spends all his check on the families of his dead team members at the end of the novel, and Si Nan teases him, “So what are you going to use to afford my ring now huh?” Also, they’re just recovering from the zombie apocalypse so the commercialisation of marriages will once again have to wait, but Zhou Rong literally does turn up with a bigass ridiculous diamond ring (from where they raided a diamond ring story during a mission) and presents it to him
Yan Hao always teases Si Nan for how he thought him and Zhou Rong were together, because both men are always rough-housing and fighting like actual brothers than lovers XD
Yan Hao tells Zhou Rong that they should compete fairly for SI Nan’s affections, and Zhou Rong rolls his eyes and grabs Si Nan over and kisses him full on on the lips while Yan Hao splutters in defeat
The novel depicts deaths and helplessness really, really well. LIke seriously, I almost couldn’t finish it but it’s actually a pretty nice novel that doesn’t focus entirely on the doom and gloom of the apocalypse
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porschekittisawasds · 4 years ago
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i know this is kind of an unpopular opinion but as we get deeper into the season my hope for canon buddie is getting less and less :/ i feel like eddie and buck aren't getting nearly as much screen time together and it makes me wonder if that's because of the ryan and oliver drama. im just worried that because of their issues buck and eddie aren't going to have the same dynamic ):
under the cut because this got very long lmao
to begin with, let's talk about buck and eddie's screen time this season.
1 and 2: these episodes focus on the dam breaking and the landslide, so they're on calls almost the entire time. buck is paired with chimney for a good amount of time which is a change of pace considering he's usually paired with eddie. however, you have to keep in mind that this is the first episode we've seen since maddie and chimney found out they're having a baby. buck and chimney are now family outside of the 118, so it makes to pair them up especially when you consider chimney is experiencing a lot of anxiety about becoming a father.
3: lots of eddie/buck content this episode. buck teasing eddie about hilda. eddie knowing random facts just like buck. buck and eddie and chris hang out featuring chris asking buck if they can go play video games at his place and eddie giving buck a "we have to be a united front" look. chris and buck teaming up to prank eddie with what is presumably a pretty expensive coffee maker. literally Peak Buddie Content™.
lone star ep: buck, eddie and hen got split up this ep so we could have one 911 character with the 3 different lone star groups. buck is less than pleased when he finds out eddie is going off with marjan and it isn't going to be just the two of them. eddie defends buck to marjan when she calls him creepy and later asks her to follow buck back on instagram. tk assumes buck is asking him out and less than a second later eddie shows up (maybe that means something maybe it doesn’t). they were together for like 5 minutes of the total episode (and they really managed to cram in so much casual touching in that short amount of time) but we still got good buddie content.
4. not a ton of buddie scenes considering this ep was heavily focused on buck, maddie and their parents but the scene we did get was GOLD. when buck was venting about his family, eddie listened and validated his feelings at every turn, which is a change of pace from early season 3 eddie who was all about sucking up your problems and moving on. buck could have just as easily gone to bobby (you know, his father figure) but he was pissed off and hurt and he chose to talk to eddie over anyone else.
5. again, not a ton of buddie scenes but the ones we got were A+. buck being all self-deprecating and talking about how he's defective parts and eddie pushing back and telling buck that's not on him. eddie being the first person to show up in that warehouse fire and grab onto the rope ("people who love each other are always connected by an invisible string made of love"), setting him apart from the rest of the team. which imo is because buck has a very different relationship with eddie than he does the rest of the team. they do this again when eddie is the only member of the team there when buck and bobby arrive back to the station. that fond little “i know you did.”
6. straight up FLIRTING during the truck restock scene. buck was the first person eddie told about ana. he only talked to bobby about it AFTER buck told the team about her (in response to eddie teasing him about reading a book). if buck hadn't said anything who knows if/when eddie would have talked to them about it. the whole "i lost my partner" comment which was an interesting choice of words considering eddie's main struggle this episode was moving on from losing shannon. you know, his partner.
7. there wasn't a ton of eddie or buck in this ep considering it was a very hen and michael centric episode (nice), but we got to see buck talk about his date with eddie and them be dumb ass turkey hunters together. also v interesting that buck starts dating the episode after eddie goes out with ana. does it mean something? maybe. maybe not.
anyway my point is that even if they have had less screen time this season than they usually do (which im not sure is actually even true), there has still been a lot of good, meaningful buddie content.
as for potential ryan and oliver drama, i don't keep up with them so i have no clue, but listen. 911 does an exceptionally good job with storytelling. buck and eddie play a hugely important role in each others lives. outside of maddie and chris, their next closest relationship is arguably with each other. i don't care how much of an issue ryan and oliver have with each other, i don't see that influencing the writers' decision in terms of eddie and buck. it would make no sense for those characters to suddenly start pulling back from each other.
as for buddie, i think there's a good chance at this point in the show that the showrunners/writers have made a decision (or at the very least are leaning one way or another) in terms of whether to make them canon. if they've decided not to, then this is completely irrelevant. if they have, that takes some planning. if all the shit we've been analyzing this season was intentional and they do plan on making buddie canon, do you really think they're gonna be like “oh you guys don’t like each other anymore? no problem we’ll just scrap months of planning and go in a different direction.” more than likely they’re gonna be told to suck it up and do their jobs considering they’re, you know. ACTORS.
also as a side note, i've noticed some people say that they feel like the buck/eddie scenes this season have felt off but i genuinely think that's because people know there's a potential problem between the actors. imo buck and eddie have been soft as hell with each other this season and seem closer than ever.
in conclusion: don’t stress out too much about it. it’s completely out of our control. personally as long as neither of them die and they’re both happy and their friendship stays intact ill be okay with whatever direction the show goes.
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finiteuniverse13 · 4 years ago
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Bravo's Banned List
With the help of @bravo-four-seal-team, @@jayhalsteadfan-2417 and @rebelwrites, we made a list.
A list, posted on various walls throughout the Naval base, the plane and the cage room. About 1/3 of it is typed up, the rest is in hastily written pen. Made by Blackburn to try and corral Bravo. It's doing its best.
Tag: @rebelwrites @chibsytelford @bravo-four-seal-team @velvetcardiganbucky @supervalcsi @abby-splace @itsonautopilot @thegirlwhoisalwayswriting @pinkrockstar19 @softi92 @mrsmarvelous1995 @jayhalsteadfan-2417
Just so you're all aware, this is a 6.5-page document.
0: On the days of Adam and Swanny’s Death, leave the group be to remember them. I will not protect you.
1: Brock Is Not Allowed Coffee. No exceptions.
1.1: Do not leave Metal alone with Brock when Coffee is around.
2: Dick jokes are not required in briefings
3: If a single one of you bastards get between me and my coffee, we will be having issues
5: You made the dog sad; you die.
8: DO NOT GIVE THEM NERF GUNS
9: WHO THE HELL GAVE THEM WATER GUNS
9.1: STICKS DO NOT GIVE THEM STICKS THEY WILL PRETEND THEY ARE GUNS
10: Dirt bikes (don’t ask)
11: ARCHERY IS A BIG NO
12: FISHING. WHY AM I BANNING FISHING
13: Fire. That is all
14: KNIVES. WHY ARE YOU GIVING THEM KNIVES?
15: LADDERS (NEVER AGAIN)
16: PLASTIC CUTLERY ONLY UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES GIVE THEM METAL CUTLERY
16.1: Scratch that, they stab people with the metal cutlery. Let them suffer the consequences of their actions. They can eat with their hands.
17: MEMES ARE NOT ALLOWED IN THE MEETING ROOM
18: Horse riding. (METAL IT IS NOT A TACTICAL DISMOUNT ITS CALLED FALLING AND GETTING A CONCUSSION)
19: BOY BANDS (not allowed to be played on the plane)
19.1: GIRL BANDS (for the love of god, they will try and imitate them)
19.2 RAP MUSIC (they think they are the next Eminem and will make your ears bleed)
20: Do not tell Jason he is not allowed to do something. He finds a way to do it
20.1: Apparently Ray will do the exact same without question
21: Do not leave any members of the team with upper brass. (How did you make an Admiral with years of combat CRY!)
22: Clay is under Jason’s protection don’t go after him they will not find your body
22.1: If Clay calls Jason dad just leave it ok
22.2: Actually, check on Jason, he’s been standing staring for the past hour now
23: Hairdryers are banned (HOW THE HELL DID YOU GET YOUR BEARD CAUGHT SONNY)
24: Only Trent is allowed to call Metal by his legal first name. Ensign Williams learnt that one the hard way.
25: Paintball is banned from the base the last time it was extreme and got violent
26: The transformers movies because clay tried to do a stunt it ended badly
27: Thumbtacks apparently
28: Any Marvel movie (Jason you’re not Captain America)
28.1: DC movies are out as well
28.2: Disney Princess movies as well (don’t ask)
30: Do not leave phone unlocked around Sonny, he will not hesitate to change everything
36: DO NOT LET THEM GET SO DRUNK THEY START SINGING. IF I HEAR IN THE NAVY ONE MORE TIME, I WON'T BE HELD RESPONSIBLE FOR MY ACTIONS
37: IF THERE IS SILENCE DROP EVERYTHING AND START HUNTING AND PANICKING
38: Grenade launchers are not required for every mission Trent
39: WHO GAVE METAL A SWORD
42: Yes, Clay does know an Admiral by name. Don't ask questions you don't want answers to.
45: If Clay starts angrily ranting in a foreign language, don't worry. He's thinking out loud, not plotting to destroy the base
45.1: If Clay is calmly talking in a foreign language just back away slowly
48: SpongeBob is a Bad Idea because they are way too Annoying and make References (I’m looking at you, Clay)
52: Sharpies. When I find whoever gave me this sharpie tattoo sleeve, there will be hell to pay
56: DO NOT LET CLAY HAVE A GRIMM REAPER OUTFIT! THIS IS THE THIRD TIME HES NEARLY GIVEN SONNY AND TRENT A HEART ATTACK AT 3 AM
57: Red paint. I went to check something at 3 am and Clay was painting a satanic ritual on the floor
58: 3 am checks are a bad idea. (I have seen things, people!)
62: Explosives are to be locked away when not on mission Sonny and Clay will try and play catch with a live homewrecker
62.1: I expected Metal as a Master Chief to know better - he falls under the same rule as Clay and Sonny.
63: Don't wake Clay when he is sleeping back away slowly and leave the room
64: If I'm sleeping, back away and leave the room. Interrupt me if they've broken a rule, or if the base is actively being bombed. If not, I don't care.
65: Have multiple phone chargers or they will disappear and you’re not getting them back
68: If you call Clay anything other than a nickname expect to get punched or stabbed or sniped in the ass when least expected
68.1: Metal will stab you. Please remember he has a shovel and lye in his truck (WHY DO YOU HAVE IT)
68.2: Don't try to take the shovel and lye off of Metal
69: NEVER say the number 69 around them they are all immature children and expect tongue in cheek comments
70: NEVER interrupt Sonny when he is eating breakfast, he is grumpy in the morning
72: If they are all asleep make no sound - YOU WAKE THEM THEY ARE YOUR PROBLEM NOT MINE
73: For the love of god, stop giving Clay earth mineral nicknames. This is the third time this week I've watched Sonny empty limestone dust from his pack
75: Do not give them hammers! What is wrong with you people?
79: Do Not talk to Trent unless it’s after 2 coffees
83: For the love of god, don't ask Metal if he ever did nude modelling in art school. He will begin stripping, literally anywhere
91: Cerberus is a good boy and you hurt Brock you die
98: Super Glue (never again)
99: MY COFFEE IS OFF LIMITS WHOEVER PUT SALT IN IT WILL PAY
100: Do not give in to their peer pressure while they are drunk, I will not be doing it again
100.1: WHY AM I HEARING IN THE NAVY AGAIN?!
100.2: Sweet Caroline won't work twice
100.3: WHY ARE YOU SINGING BARBIE
100.4: SONNY, CLAY IS NOT A BARBIE GIRL
103: Don't tell Sonny he looks good in pink because you better believe he will keep wearing it (and probably some girl clothes too) to keep getting compliments
114: I ALREADY WROTE SUPER GLUE WHY DO I NEED TO WRITE IT AGAIN
115: HAIR DYE (Why did you dye Metal and Trent’s hair pink?!)
115.1: Face paint (Sonny, their faces did not need to match their hair)
116: Do NOT touch Clay, Charlie team learnt that, and someone ended up nearly losing a finger. (And it wasn’t because of the dog)
117: If they offer you a drink whilst smirking DO NOT take it
118: Sea shanties – if I hear one more SEA SHANTY while we are FLYING
119: If you hear someone shout incoming, run, it’s not an attack, it is Bravo, someone has done something and they’re coming to tell me
120: Vegemite is not allowed in the base after Jason let Clay eat it
121: Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (JASON I DONT CARE IF YOU THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNY TO ACT LIKE LEO IT WAS A BAD MOVE)
122: Hawaii 5-0, if I hear one more thing about how we should hang people of the rook of buildings I am going to shoot someone
124: Mortal Kombat (Clay was acting like Scorpion for a month)
130: Itching Powder (looking at you Brock)
131: DO NOT TOUCH JASONS TOMATOES - you will get a bamboo cane jammed into your thigh
134: Capes - YOU ARE NOT SUPERMAN CLAY STOP PRETENDING YOU CAN FLY BY JUMPING OFF THE HOOCHES
134.1: Edna Mode said NO CAPES - I EXPECT NO CAPES WORN BY ANYONE ON MY TEAM
138: Laser Tag is fun until someone gets hurt (Sonny and Clay you know what happened)
138.1: Laser Tag! (Ray needed to go to the hospital guys, come on)
143: Basketball. My nose will never be straight again.
144: Bravo and Ice skates don’t mix (the only person good on them is Jason but no other member of Bravo is allowed on the ice again)
144.1: Same goes for rollerblades
145: Ash Spencer is not allowed to be alone with Clay (Jason punched him last time he was on base)
145.1: Do not leave Jason, Metal or Sonny alone with Ash Spenser, it’s going to end up with a murder charge.
146: Clay is Jason’s adopted kid and needs to be supervised when Jason is away
151: SLIME - FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DONT GIVE THEM SLIME
152: GLITTER WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE
153: SCISSORS - Jase cut a chunk of Clay’s hair in the night now the base is a war zone
153.1: DONT FUCK WITH COVERBOY'S HAIR see point 68 for consequences
154: NAIR (why do you even have it?)
156: Call Of Duty (Clay must be supervised when playing it)
157: Do Not leave Clay unattended with Metal (They are both recovering from the ONE CHIP/DEATH CHIP Challenge)
158: Marshmallows (don’t ask)
163: The Hunger Games (are not a good training exercise)
164: The Olympus Has Fallen movies are not allowed to be mentioned in any given time)
173: If you mention the word ice-cream just run, run for your life
176: If I am sleeping STOP THROWING PAPER AT ME
177: Yelling FOR NARNIA is not an appropriate battle cry
178: The Fast And Furious movies (Clay you are not Brian so stop)
182: Nap time is important if their asleep do something else but if you wake them run like hell
190: Any movies about WAR are BANNED (I need a drink to talk about that one)
200 (From Bravo): Blackburn isn't allowed any more paper
200.1 (From Bravo): or pens
200.2: (Blackburn) Handcuffs. They handcuffed me to my desk and wrote that
200.3 (Blackburn): Bravo will not be allowed to tell their Commanding Officer what to do
202: Who keeps giving them superglue? This is the 8th time we are having to unglue Sonny and Clay’s hands
203: Do not let any of them take point on Briefing EVER
205: Are you serious? Paperclips! Do not give them PAPERCLIPS
206: Leaving anyone unattended with fire is a bad idea - I can still smell burning
210: This is Sparta (Jason don't kick people off the roof)
210.1: JASON I SAID NO KICKING PEOPLE YOU DONT LIKE OFF THE ROOF
213: Ash Spenser is not allowed on base. DEVGRU heard about what kind of dad he is, and now its kill-on-sight
213.1: WHAT DID I SAY ABOUT ASH BEING ON BASE
214: Puppy dog eyes because Clay has been using them on anyone to get out of doing paperwork
215: RAY STOP DOING JASONS PAPERWORK
216: GO TO A HOSPITAL IF INJURED, TRENT HAS A LIFE OUTSIDE OF YOU LOT
217: THE GLEE CAST SOUNDTRACK IS NOT TO BE USED ON THE BASE
218: DO NOT PUT LION KING ON - they will cry like babies and there’s no consoling them over Mufasa
220: If I have to explain why BRAVO will not be joining teaching GREEN TEAM please see rule 1 and understand from that then ask the Green Team Instructor. (Brock terrified them by running the O Course in 30 minutes, all because someone gave him coffee)
220.1: And yes, that is the on the 50-minute-record O course. The time hasn’t been counted since it involved performance-enhancing substances
221: WHO THE HELL INTRODUCED THEM TO FROZEN
221.1 NO I DONT WANT TO BUILD A BLOODY SNOWMAN
221.2: WE WERE DEPLOYED TO SERBIA YOU BASTARDS
222: Gray’s anatomy (That is all)
227: VAPES - YOU DONT SMOKE AND ARE NOT PUFF THE MAGIC FUCKING DRAGON (clay I’m looking at you)
228: HATS ARE NOT ALLOWED IN BRIEFINGS (Sonny you know what you did)
229: MAGIC MIKE AND MAGIC MIKE XXL (still haunts my dreams)
233: I am begging you can you please BE NICE TO THE FLEET ADMIRAL (it's the 3rd time he's left in tears)
234: Chocolate - just run ok
235: Please stop re-enacting the screen from titanic when we are on a boat (I’m looking at you Brock)
235: PIZZA NIGHT IS A FREE FOR ALL AND IF YOU DONT WANT A BROKEN NOSE JUST BACK AWAY
236: Jokes. JOKES ARE BANNED - IF I NEED TO EXPLAIN WHY I WON'T BE HAPPY – NO ITS NOT FINE TO JOKE ABOUT THE FACT YOU HAVE BEEN STABBED CLAY
236.1: STAB WOUNDS ARE NOT ADDITIONAL POCKETS
237: Monopoly got violent last time and Jason got punched
237.1: In fact, any board games turn violent even snakes and ladders
237.2: Board games. Just please stop playing board games
240: Why am I revisiting the nerf guns people? IT WAS A FAMILY BARBECUE! (You lot need to learn to let your kids win!)
241: Brock is banned from Cooking - I do not want food poisoning again
244: WE DO NOT NEED A FLASH MOB EVERY TIME DONT STOP MOVING BY SCLUB 7 COMES ON
246: If they pass out around the fire pit for the love of god move them Clay and Sonny tend to like melting the sole of their boots on the flames even when passed out
251: Plastic cups only (this rule is to stop sonny from smashing them)
254: Why am I needing to revisit Sharpies? They aren’t allowed them, give them Crayola's or crayons
254.1: Scrap that YOU CAN’T EAT THE CRAYONS
256: Clay you are not Spiderman get off the walls
257: WHO GAVE COFFEE TO BROCK!!
257.1: THIS IS RULE ONE ON THE LIST WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU
258: Don't mention Hawaii five 0 just don't
258.1: They will attempt the intro to it, it’s just painful
259: Don't mention Harry Potter because they will all cry over different characters deaths
287: Soup is now banned (Ray. I honestly thought you were the normal one of the team. I am disappointed)
321: If you see Clay and Sonny cuddling just walk away, pretend you didn’t see anything, one of them had a bad day and the other is the only one they will confine in
322: Don't mention the Philippines or India just don't
330: If Metal and Trent are talking, just leave them be. (No one wants to know if Metal is yelling about something stupid Trent did)
331: Popcorn is not allowed on base it ended up in everyone's gear
342: Non-Aerosol Deodorant. (Two of them tried to eat it before realising it wasn't edible)
344: Aerosol Deodorant. (Metal and Sonny used it with lighters. to create a flamethrower)
344.1: Side note LIGHTERS ARE BAD
345: Headphones. DO NOT ASK
346: Rubber bands are not slingshots
FINAL NOTE: FROM BRAVO - BLACKBURN LOVES US REALLY PLEASE IGNORE THE ABOVE LIST ITS ALL LIES
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horrible-writer-rain · 3 years ago
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Over the Edge and Under
Summary: The 118's actions have devastating consequences.
Pairing: Evan "Buck" Buckley/Male OC!
Warnings: Suicide, Angst, Hurt No Comfort, Depression, Post-lawsuit, Past Abuse in reference to Buck's treatment at the 118
A/N: This is not edited. I wrote this fic at like midnight. I'll post the reactions and aftermath at some point.
He was tired. Tired of the glares and harsh words from the people he called family. Tired of going home to an empty apartment because Luca was overseas on some mission that was classified. Tired of being the man behind when all he wanted was to save people. To do the one thing he was good at. He left a voicemail for Luca and one to both Luca’s twin sister and brother in Texas. His grip is tight on the railing but not from a fear of failing. No, he had resigned himself that he was going to die but only when he’s ready. He hopes Chris will forgive him, but he had written him a letter and had left it on his counter with Carla’s name on it. He knew she would give it to him. Luca would be pissed and heartbroken but he had a good support system in their old team, his family, and his crew in Austin. He had left letters for the crew of the 118 as well. Left them on the counter as well. He had written a letter for every person in his life that he loved. It was up to them if they read it or not.
He lets out a breath when he hears a car stop. “Sir, please step away back over the railing.” He felt like he could cry. He knew that voice. “I’m good right where I am, ‘Thena.” He calls opening his eyes to look down. It was about a 40ft drop into freezing water so if the impact didn’t kill him then the hypothermia and subsequent drowning would. “Buck?” He hears her come closer. “What are you doing here, baby?” She asks and he shrugs. “I’m tired ‘Thena.” He tells her as a firetruck pulls up. “Anyone I can call?” She asks stepping closer and he shakes his head. “Stay where you are ‘Thena.” He warns and she stops moving. “Just you Bobby. Keep the others back.” He hears her speak into her radio. The 118 must have responded. Fuck. It was bad enough that he was going to jump in front of Athena but now his crew. The ones who have thrown insults and petty jabs his way. The ones who had a hand in causing this. His grip loosens and Athena lets out a strangled noise. “It’s Okay, ‘Thena.” He tries to reassure her.
“Why’d you have the rest of the crew stay back, Athena?” He hears Bobby, no captain Nash say his tone weary. He knows exactly when Captain Nash spots him. His breath audibly hitching. “Buck?” The use of his nickname and the concern in his voice has him letting out a harsh laugh. “It’s Buck now, is it?” He says finally turning around to face him. “Buck, you don’t have to do this.” He says stepping closer, but Athena holds her arm out. “Why should I listen to you? You’ve done nothing but belittle me since I got back. This isn’t your house, so I don’t have to follow your rules.” His voice is calm, and he looks over to where Hen, Chim, and Eddie have gotten out of the truck. He can see the horror in Hen’s eyes, and he feels kind of bad. She was the one who he confided in the most about being away from Luca. They had eventually bonded over their similar sexualities and marriages to people of the same sex.
“Eddie get me a harness.” Captain Nash says and he sees Eddie falter for a second before following the order. Chim stands beside Hen watching with wide eyes. No doubt trying to figure out how to explain what happened to Maddie. Hen is gripping her med bag tightly. “Think about the people that love you, Buck. Think about your family.” Captain Nash says and he turns his gaze once more to his captain. “My family consists of Luca Rizzoli and his family.” He says and Captain Nash shakes his head. “You’ve got us Buck.” Eddie says as he hands over the harness to his captain. He lets out another humorless laugh. “I’ve not had you since the bombing. I thought you were my best friend. But friends don’t call each other exhausting or shove them around. Family doesn’t belittle anything that’s ever happened to a member of said family.” Eddie looks guilty at his words. “Captain Nash, I used to think of you as a father figure. Now, I see that your no better than my own damn father who didn’t give a single shit about me. In a way this is your fault. You chose to lie to me about what happened. So the only way I saw to get back to my family was to fight for it. I turned down 7 million dollars to get back to my family. It was never even about the money. I just wanted you back.” He pauses to take a breath before continuing. “I knew it wasn’t going to be easy and I accepted that you all would be mad at me. I just didn’t expect for it to last a few months and involve being assaulted. You chose to leave me as the man behind. At first, I was fine with it. I knew you didn’t trust me. I figured I’d need to earn your trust back, but you never gave me the chance. Then after awhile it just started to hurt. You had taken away my ability to help people in a way I loved. I wasn’t being shot at or have the threat of getting blown up and I wasn’t in some active warzone halfway across the world.” Captain Nash had put on the harness as he was talking but never took his eyes of him.
“Please, let us make this right.” Captain Nash pleads with him, but he shakes his head resolved to do what he had come here for. “Think of Christopher. That kid loves you like you’re his father too. Think of what it will do to him if you die.” Eddie says. “That’s a low blow, Eddie. I did think of him. All the time. I wondered if he had nightmares from the tsunami. Wondered if there was any way I could help him, but you kept me away.” He seethes but his voice is still level. “I’m sick and tired of thinking of and putting other’s before myself. Call me selfish but I just don’t give a shit anymore. I’m tired of being other people’s punching back both physically and emotionally. I’m done.” He sees Hen and Chim start moving toward him. “I’m sorry but I just am.” With those final words he pushes himself away from the railing letting go.
The air is cool against his skin as he falls closing his eyes a thinking of his husband. He can hear the screams of the people he once called family, but the sound disappears as soon as he hits the water and his world fades to black.
The 118 stand shocked as their youngest member just jumped of the bridge. Henrietta Wilson falls to her knees as a broken wail leaves her. Her partner Howard Han stands in total shock trying to make himself believe that the man he considered as a brother has just ended his life. Edmundo Diaz has crumpled to his knees as well sobs leaving him as the reality of what he had done had cost him his best friend and the man his son considers as a second father. Athena Grant stands with her hand over her mouth and tears streaming down her face. It was like May’s overdose all over again but this time she wouldn’t be saving her child. Robert Nash is half leaning over the railing with his arm outstretched for the man that had become like a son to him. Guilt consumed each member of the 118 from their actions in the last few months. Athena’s guilt coming from her failure to save her boy. Each of them wondering how they were going to tell their family and how they were going to tell them it was their fault. How it was their actions that drove him to take his own life. “Get water and rescue down here to search the waters. I want his body recovered.” Captain Nash’s voice is void of any emotion as he gives the command. It prompts the others into action but a cloud now hung over them and its their own fault.
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rikiflrts · 4 years ago
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— ꒰‧ 𝐃𝐚𝐢𝐬𝐲'𝐬 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭 𝐋𝐢𝐬𝐭 ༉‧₊˚✧
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after what seemed like forever, i finally made my own prompt list! if you wish to request for the prompts that you’d like to use with a certain member, then feel free to choose any of the numbers displayed and tell me about them in the ask box (^^).
also: please be specific with the genre that you'd like to imply with your chosen prompts, thank you~ ♡
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1.) "i just wanted to give you a hug"
2.) "dumbass we're lost now thanks to you!" " i already got lost in your eyes from the moment i met you but you don't see me complaining."
3.) "please don't talk to me right now, im not in the mood"
4.) "how are you so beautiful?"
5.) "my hoodie looks great on you"
6.) "how could you..."
7.) "i trusted you"
8.) "i didn't tell you to trust me."
9.) "you're leaving? just like that?"
10.) "no stop you're making me blush"
11.) "and if i am?"
12.) "just shut up and let me play with your hair"
13.) "so this is what falling in love feels like"
14.) "how are you even real..?"
15.) "are you being for real right now?"
16.) "...did you just sniff me?"
17.) "if you're that mad then why don't you just take it out on me?"
18.) "i don't mind"
19.) "you dumbass, i said i like you!"
20.) "i used to have this huge crush on you (laughs)" "used to?" "well, yeah.. i dont really like you anymore"
21.) "can i hold your hand?"
22.) "are you nervous?"
23.) "less talking, more working!"
24.) "im in love with an idiot"
25.) "but you promised me that we'd get married!!" "for the love of god, ____ we were 5 when that promise was made!"
26.) "but i still love/like you.."
27.) "this reminded me of you"
28.) "his/her/their smile is really pretty.."
29.) "just confess already!!"
30.) "you're an idiot." "yeah. your idiot."
31.) "are you even paying attention?"
32.) "does it look like i care?"
33.) "i don't really care"
34.) "it's been a while since i last smiled like this"
35.) "oh crap im starting to feel the butterflies again"
36.) "I'm scared, okay?! i can't do it"
37.) "what are you so scared of?"
38.) "im scared of falling.." "dont be, i'll catch you."
39.) "promise..?" "promise."
40.) "i guess promises really were meant to be broken."
41.) "you made a fool out of me!"
42.) "im sorry, its not you.. its me."
43.) "what about our promises??" "what about them?"
44.) "please dont go"
45.) "is/are they/he/she all you're ever going to look at?im already right in front of your attention is still focused on them/him/her."
46.) "that's it..?"
47.) "cuddle with me"
48.) "no."
49.) "his/her/their eyes were like pools; so deep. I fear that if I fall, I might never come out and reach for air."
50.) "i love spending time with you"
51.) "let's just be friends"
52.) "im sorry, im afraid of commitment"
53.) "im afraid of it too. why don't you just take this risk and overcome your fears with me?"
54.) "if its you, then i dont mind."
55.) "i love your smell"
56.) "what's that supposed to mean?"
57.) "first love really never does die huh"
58.) "hey, you look really familiar" "oh, really?" "yeah. you look like my soulmate."
59.) "if you like me so much then just marry me already"
60.) "wait i can do that?!" "your gullibility really amazes me sometimes."
61.) "are you dumb? be honest"
62.) "im not in the mood"
63.) "are you okay?"
64.) "you look horrible" "oh wow gee thanks for pointing that out sherlock"
65.) "what's in it for me?"
66.) "do you..like me?"
67.) "do you like him/her/them?"
68.) "but i wrote you letters.."
69.) "they mean nothing to me."
70.) "wow! i haven't seen you in ages, how have you been?" "we literally just saw each other 5 hours ago."
71.) "wipe that smirk off your face, its annoying"
72.) "aww, why? are you perhaps threatened that you'll end up falling for me?"
73.) "i think im going to puke"
74.) "are you blushing?"
75.) "aren't you tired of comstantly running in my mind?"
76.) "i can't get him/her/them out of my head"
77.) "your laugh sounds really pretty"
78.) "i love how your eyes sparkle whenever you're invested in something"
79.) "im falling"
80.) "oh no im catching feelings"
81.) "do you ever stop talking?"
82.) "let me get that for you"
83.) "its okay, i can pay for myself" "no. i wont let you" "but i have my own mone-" "shut up and let me spoil you!"
84.) "i refuse to stay in the same room with the likes of him/her/them!"
86.) "it was pretty obvious.."
87.) "come here."
88.) "stop doing that to yourself!"
89.) "you deserve better."
90.) "just leave. i dont want to see your face anymore."
91.) "i hate you." "the feeling's mutual."
92.) "didn't i tell you to leave me alone?!"
93.) "was it so wrong to love you..?"
94.) "if you really love me then just stay away from my sight."
95.) "you feel like home"
96.) "i love hugging you, it makes me feel safe"
97.) "i could kiss you right now!" "you're very welcome to do it."
98.) "i can't keep playing pretend"
99.) "let's put an end to this.."
100.) "i think im actually catching feelings"
101.) "this is getting dangerous.."
102.) "give me another chance"
103.) "give me one reason why i shouldnt leave."
104.) "im going to do it! im finally going to confess to him/her/them!"
105.) "you've got to be kidding me.."
106.) "i knew what i signed up for. im not surprised."
107.) "he/she/they has/have stars in his/her/their eyes and im captivated"
108.) "i love you" "nice try, but im not falling for that"
109.) "is it that hard to fall in love with me?!"
110.) "well if you put it that way, then yes."
111.) "you look happy"
112.) "you look happier without me."
113.) "can you guys please change the dare"
114.) "who gave you the right to toy around with my emotions like that?!"
115.) "i got played.."
116.) "stay out of my sight."
117.) "you're an eyesore" "you're an eye candy"
118.) "why are you still here?"
119.) "why..?"
120.) "stop making fun of me!" "make me."
121.) "was i just some kind of sick joke to you?"
122.) " i really like you "
123.) "i don't know how to express my feelings that well but i just want you to know that i'd take a bullet for you"
124.) "i'd do anything just to see you smile like that again"
125.) "what are you staring at?"
126.) "i think i have a crush on you" "you think? you're not even sure?"
127.) "take my hand"
128.) "let's get out of here."
129.) "you should wear my clothes more often"
130.) "i can teach you how"
131.) "I'm here for you"
132.) "you can use me to forget about him/her/them"
133.) "even if the world turns againt us, as long as we have each other, then we'll be alright."
134.) "you're all that i need"
135.) "you're all that i ever wanted"
136.) "you're all that i have"
137.) "please don't leave me"
138.) "I'm sorry."
139.) "look at me."
140.) "look at me and tell me that you don't love me anymore."
141.) "you're an idiot."
142.) "i don't love you anymore."
143.) "did you just drink from my cup?" "and if i did?"
144.) "im going to kill you!" "you don't scare me"
145.) "stay with me a little longer"
146.) "i knew it.."
147.) "i should've known.."
148.) "are you jealous?"
149.) "i made you a playlist"
150.) "when will you ever look my way..?"
151.) "im fine with looking at him/her/them from afar"
152.) "he's/she's/they're out of my league"
151.) "im scared of getting rejected"
152.) "back to square one"
153.) "I'm tired"
154.) "what do you like about me?"
154.) "i'd rather starve than spend time with him/her/them."
155.) "if i'm an idiot, then you're a coward"
156.) "i dreamt about you last night"
157.) "it was a nightmare"
158.) "it's the little things that he/she/they do/does that drive me insane"
159.) "i like you more than i should"
160.) "be mine"
161.) "it was too good to be true.."
162.) "i had a crush on him/her/them"
163.) "i never really thought that i'd end up falling for you"
164.) "you're adorable"
165.) "you mean the world to me"
166.) "you meant the world to me"
167.) "what happened in the past stays in the past"
168.) "careful, you might end up falling for me"
169.) "very funny, mister lover boy"
170.) "lets go out on a date"
171.) "i'm so lucky to have you"
172.) "where are you going?"
173.) "sometimes it really just gotta be like that"
174.) "hello good afternoon, what's your order?" "hell- oh wow.. you please" "im sorry, could you say that again?" "wait no! i meant- uh..oh dear.."
175.) "he's too good for me"
176.) "stop giving me mixed signals"
177.) "i guess it really just wasn't meant to be"
178.) "im not interested in you"
179.) "i cant get him/her/them out of my head"
180.) "where is/are he/she/they?"
181.) "you took my pillow so im going to use you as a pillow"
182.) "why are you avoiding me?"
183.) "did i do something wrong?"
184.) "please talk to me"
185.) "im not even his/her/their ideal type"
186.) "it wouldn't hurt to try"
187.) "you smell like me"
188.) "i like my scent on you"
189.) "that sounds weird if you put it that way"
190.) "can i call you tonight?"
191.) "you should smile more often"
192.) "i hate it when people tell me what to do"
193.) "lets wear matching outfits!"
194.) "im arresting you." "why? i didnt do anything wrong" "yes you did, you stole my heart and i want justice!"
195.) "i guess i got too caught up with my fatasies to notice that he/she/they never really liked me back in the first place.."
196.) "you're the answer to all my prayers"
198.) "you should go home."
199.) "let me come with you"
200.) "run away with me"
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the-family-we-choose-118 · 4 years ago
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Why I Think Albert Doesn't Die in 4B: A Meta Post
Maybe this is me reaching or some really wishful thinking, but i don't think albert is the one who dies, though i think he does get seriously injured (explanation below the cut so hear me out lol)
Based on scenes from 3b, 4a, the 4b promos, and some interviews done after 4x08 about 4x09.
In multiple interviews (one example below ⬇), Tim has stressed that there is going to be a divide between Bobby and Athena because he feels that she's too independent and won't let him in when she has issues. 4b is being set up to build off of last season's attack at the storage unit. Athena has made peace with the attack, so it will take something (encountering the attacker, being trapped while looking for a suspect, a storage unit, or experiencing other trauma) to act as the catalyst to trigger her into needing Bobby's help but refusing to ask. Albert dying will in no way drive or affect this plot line and will only really heavily affect Chimney, Maddie, and Buck and maybe Chris and Eddie.
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Tim did a different interview where he said that multiple characters will be in life or death situations ⬇
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As far as we know from the promo Hen, Buck, Bobby, Athena, May, Eddie, and Chimney are working the crash and Maddie is shown at work going into labor or having false contractions. None are likely contenders for a life or death situation, which leaves the side characters. Since this involves a massive pile-up, and we already know that Albert is in one car, that leaves three others.
The scenario I see best playing out in term of writing and setting up 4b and going into season 5 is this:
Albert gets horribly injured in the crash and has a long recovery. (This plays into 4a when Taylor said Buck was selfish and has no real friends because he doesn't know how to treat a friend.) If Albert gets injured and has a long recovery, he has 2 options for care. He either moves back in with Madney (but they have their hands full with the baby) or he stays with Buck, who has had to recover from a serious injury before. By staying with Buck, he learns how to really care for a friend unselfishly (tho we're gonna ignore the Buddie friendship for a minute bc the writers did). This also gives them the opportunity to set Albert and Buck up in a friendship so Buck can have friends outside the 118.
OR Albert goes into a coma because the writers are playing with a lot of characters right now and I don't think they know what to do with Albert and how to give him enough screen time for anything meaningful to happen. This way, they can revisit his arc in the future. Also, imagine Chimney and Maddie getting ready to take their daughter home and stopping by Albert's room to introduce their baby to her Uncle Albert 😭 Putting Albert in a coma or giving him a long recovery time is something that could be revisited at the end of the season easily.
I think the 3 others in jeopardy are in one car and I think it is Michael, David, and Harry after going to dinner one night or something and I think they are at the center of the crash.
I think the person who dies is Michael or David, mainly because of this interview ⬇
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First, they've brought in David, but like Albert's storyline, they can't fit him in enough for it to really be meaningful. We see them meet towards the end of season 3 and by season 4 they have quarantined together (even though David is on the front lines) and are now living together. Most of their story occurs off screen. The only reason we even saw Michael and David in most of 4a was because it was a storyline attached to Athena and Bobby. Killing off David is less characters to deal with and would affect Bobby and Athena, but not to a degree I would see it driving a wedge in their own relationship. It would affect Michael and encourage him to complete his bucket list he referenced in 4a but it wouldn't have an impact on the whole 118.
Both Bobby and Athena are really close with Michael, though I'm gonna focus on Bobby for a minute. If Michael dies suddenly, that "lighthearted and hilarious" relationship "quickly turns on a dime" and suddenly it "ends up being quite emotional" because Bobby is dealing with losing a friend. This could also dredge up those feelings of having lost his family in a fire and not being able to save them because Michael is now part of Bobby's family. Later in the season, it would be easy to revisit if Harry is mad that his step dad and dad's boyfriend weren't able to save his dad. Bobby would be dealing with his feelings of losing a friend while trying to help Athena (who doesn't want help) deal with the loss of her ex husband.
Shifting the focus to Athena, Michael dying would absolutely devastate Athena. They were married for nearly 2 decades and he is still a close friend and confidante. Losing her ex husband at the site of a crash she responded to would be traumatic. And if you compound that with her unresolved trauma from the attack, now you've got Athena trying to deal with everything on her own and not asking for help. Now Bobby gets mad/sad/distanced because Athena won't ask for help and he needs his own support from her. And maybe she is giving that support but she won't let him reciprocate it and now you have a recipe for anger and unresolved grief that begins to drive them apart.
Focusing on May for a moment, she became an operator because she wanted to make sure Athena was never alone in the field. Though I can't imagine her taking the call for Michael because he is on the line when Albert is injured, her dad dying in a crash she responded to would likely drive her out of the field and into college or another path (1 less character to have around to try to give screen time.)
Michael's death was also foreshadowed in 4a when Athena is concerned he gets the telescope and is spying on neighbors. He talks about having a bucket list that he never got to do because the pandemic forced him into isolation. He also talked about how his only concern during the cancer was preparing his kids for losing him.
Michael's plot is stagnant. He is happy and living with his boyfriend and son. He's cancer free. His whole plot is tied up in a nice bow where they could easily kill him off and the only loose threads to deal with on screen are his family members and friends grieving his loss. This would impact the 118 as a whole.
Honestly, I thought they were going to kill off Michael when he first got cancer and he decided to stop treatments but they bad May talk to him and convince him to go through with the treatments.
Now, by killing off Michael, it is 2 less stories they have to tell, and it is less they'll have to include storylines for Harry as much as they were because he was linked to Michael's storyline. And if they have May decide to leave the field to pursue other dreams or complete her dad's bucket list for him, that is 4 less storylines where they can now focus on the Madney baby, Bathena's relationship, introducing friends for Buck (they mentioned brining back Taylor), focus on ending Eddie/Ana, and establishing Albert as a character (based on a quote from the above article, I think Albert's storyline is going to parallel Buck's 1.0 to 2.0 phase ➡ "If you think about how we ended season 2, Buck being smashed by the firetruck. We knew he was going to survive... I would expect something similar here.")
Referring back to that first article, where it says "Then look for a significant source of agitation for the entire 118."
At this point, Michael would have passed and Bobby and Athena are now having marital problems AKA mom and dad are fighting.
Hen would be stuck in the middle because she is good friends with both Bobby and Athena. She is also facing her own loss of Nia being returned to her birth mom and doesn't have time for their marital problems but still tries to help. She can also pull from her experiences from the season 1 cheating storyline to tell them to communicate or it'll ruin their relationship (yes i too hate that storyline but it would work here)
Buck would likely (nonverbally) side with Bobby, but he sees them both as parental figures, so he gets stuck in the middle like a middle child who is just going with the flow. This would also parallel the Buck Begins storyline where Buck feels caught in the middle after his parents face a loss.
Chimney is raising a baby and (if this theory is right) worrying about Albert in a coma or recovering from a massive injury. He has no time for their marital problems but still lets Bobby confide in him and gives advice (maybe this is just cause i wanna see the bobby/chim friendship we used to get in s1)
Eddie sides with Bobby but he thinks the whole argument is dumb. He can also offer advice to Bobby based on his own experience, but it's going to be something about communication, at which point Bobby will start ripping his hair out because why won't she just tell me her problems and let me help?
Lastly, when have we ever known the show to go ahead and give a major spoiler of the episode 2 weeks in advance? They let us speculate about Daniel for like 8 months and imo it wasn't as big of a deal as they made it out to be. It seems more likely to me that they offered the promo to get the viewers with a twist ending when the show comes back.
Feel free to share your thoughts if you made it this far lol
TL;DR Based on the interviews Tim has done, Albert dying would have little impact on the 118 as a whole, but Michael dying would offer exactly what they need to set up season 5 and finish 4b.
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buckaroosboogara · 3 years ago
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911 week - Day 3:
“ Whatever you do, please don’t look.” + hurt
(1600~ words, May and Athena. Tw: suicide attempt.)
@911week
May had been waiting for this day for months. 
Her ride-along with a police officer that was part of being a dispatcher at the 911 call center. 
Her mother was anything but pleased when she brought up the topic and said no without a second thought. 
But she wasn't about to give up, no. 
After all, she was a Grant through and through, both her parents' stubbornness was in her veins and she would make it, no matter what. And after weeks of negotiations, she did it. 
But she never wanted this to happen. May would have done anything to undo the day if she could. Now it was too late. 
Everything started when Maddie told her Officer Williams was outside the call center to pick her up.
Athena had requested him and his partner to give her daughter the ride-along, trusting him with one of her most precious things in the world.
She thanked the woman and looked for her jacket, her phone, and her face mask. Josh walked her to the elevator and wished her luck before she went down to the entrance floor and found the officer.
"Ready for the day Ms. Grant?" He asked and she rolled her eyes, placing her mask on her face.
"I know you since I was like 10 Matthew."
"Okay then, ready for the day, May?"
"Let's do this Officer Williams." May said, getting into the police cruiser. She fist-bumped Officer Vargas and she started her ride-along.
There were some light calls at first, some private property trespass, and noise complaints. Then some disorderly conduct and infractions and May was kind of getting bored.
But she couldn't give her mother that pleasure, so she smiled and nodded and listened to everything Williams and Vargas had to say.
They stopped to eat at a food truck and she got to chat with other officers, most of them rookies and their instructors, they told her about procedures and every single one reacted with a glow in their eyes when she told them she was Athena Grant's daughter.
She quickly learned that her mom was someone most officers spoke about, like a legend.
Then Williams got a call for mental basic life support and they got to go.
May never knew that even existed, so she asked Vargas about it.
"Well, we have to check on that person and see if they are okay or keep company if they are struggling, so they know there's at least someone there for them." He answered, and May nodded. Flashbacks of her own experiences appeared in her mind and she tried to stay focused on the present. "It's usually a family member or a friend that calls the mental health hotline and units get dispatched, maybe that's why you have never heard of it. In this case, the sister called, saying he hasn't spoken with anybody in weeks."
Five minutes later they were at the front door, the officers leaving May in the car just in case something went south.
She was on her phone when the car radio sounded with Williams' voice. "Dispatch, the 1-56 turned into a code 1-42, send an ambulance in case the person attempts suicide."
Her breath hitched.
1-42 meant suicidal basic life support.
Meant they were trying their best to keep the person from ending their life.
She didn't know when she was inside, the air hot and heavy with sobs and low voices echoing through the walls.
May took a deep breath. She could do it.
"May what are you doing here? I told you to stay in the car." Matthew's voice snapped her from her thoughts.
"I know how to help him." May pointed at the man who was holding a blade to his wrists. He looked around her age.
Officer Vargas sighed, "Fine, go ahead."
May nodded and reunited courage, she started to walk close to him but he exclaimed, "Stop! Stop right there! I don't want anybody near me!"
She stopped in her tracks and raised her hands. "It's okay. Okay."
The man nodded and some tears spilled from his eyes.
"My name is May, can I know yours?" She asked.
"T-Tony."
"That's a pretty name, Tony." May said, as calm as she could. "Tony, why don't you put that blade down and we can talk?"
"No. N-no I won't."
"Look, I know what you're going throu-"
"You lie, everyone who tells me that is lying!"
"I'm not. Look, when I was 14 I... I took lots of pills and I almost killed myself." May's voice trembled. "All I could feel was pain and I just wanted it to go away... I- I didn't think my life was worth enough to live. Like I wasn't enough. That's what you feel, right?"
Tony nodded. May could feel the officer's eyes on her back, but she was making progress, Tony's arms lowered slowly.
"I know you are at your lowest point. But there are so many things that are worth living for."
Tony scoffed "Like what? This miserable place I can barely pay for? My stupid job? The thoughts in my head that are always telling me to quit already?"
"Like your sister." May said calmly.
She remembered being in the hospital with her mom and Harry by her side. The little kid asked Athena if his sister was going to be okay and then held her hand.
'Don't leave me, big sister.' He had said.
A tear fell down her cheek in the present. "She is sick worried about you. But there's someone else worth living for."
"Who?"
"Yourself." May stepped closer to Tony. "You matter. There's no one else like you in this world, Tony. And I know there's a better place out there where you will heal and grow, and you will never feel like this anymore. I also had to learn it the hard way."
Tony seemed caught on her words, he still had hope. She made another step.
"But that will only happen if you let go of that blade and walk out of that door with me. Come on Tony."
Her cards were thrown, now it depended on the man if he would trust her or not.
The sound of the metallic blade hitting the floor made her let go of the air she was holding. She came closer to the man and held his hand.
"That's it. Okay? We are going to get through this."
Somewhere while she was talking, the firefighters and paramedics had arrived and waited quietly behind her. One of the paramedics she recognized as Hen passed her a blanket and she put it around the man's shoulders, telling reassuring words as the paramedics checked his vitals and placed him on a gurney.
Both walked outside together and she promised to visit him in the hospital later, he had a few self-made cuts that needed professional attention.
His sister was waiting for him outside and ran to check on him as soon as she saw him on the gurney. Both siblings were crying when they got into the ambulance
"Good job there May." Chimney patted her shoulder and closed the vehicle's doors before taking off.
"He's right. How are you feeling?" Bobby's voice sounded behind her. She turned around feeling her eyes puffy.
"I'm a little shaken up, but good. Thanks, Bobby." May assured.
Bobby hugged her. "By the way, here comes your mom."
"May, baby!" Athena's voice said and May grunted quietly. Bobby chuckled as he walked away to give them space. The 118 was waiting for him in the truck, ready to go.
"Hey mom," May said, ignoring the truck's honk and already thinking of the upcoming scold. 'May Rose Grant, are you insane? Disobeying the officers and walking there when there was an armed man?'
Instead, Athena rushed to hug her.
"Oh, May my baby! I'm so glad you are okay." She said, relief exuding from her voice.
May sighed and made a small smile. "I'm fine mom, I swear."
"Good, now let's get you home, it's been a hell of a da-"
It came out of nowhere.
First, there was a bang and then her mom shook. May could feel something like a knife cut through her upper arm and then she felt a sticky hot liquid on her hands, which were still on her mom's back.
There were bangs everywhere and Athena's radio went off with Officer Vargas' words, "Shots fired against the LAPD! I repeat, shots fired, 727-L-30 is down! Officer down!"
Her mom collapsed and her strength wasn't enough to keep her from falling to the ground.
"Mom!"
May took her hands from behind her back and saw they were bathed in red.
Blood.
"May. M-May, baby-" Athena made a strangled sound with her throat as she came out of the shock. She couldn't breathe.
"Mom no!" She looked at her mom feeling powerless.
All those manuals she had read and re-read, all her training, all her experience, all was worthless now because her mind was blank. She could hear muffled screams, the shots had ceased and the sirens were sounding far away.
"May, listen to me. I love you, okay? Now press on the wound and-" Athena coughed. It sounded like she was drowning and May hated it. "And whatever you do, please don’t look.”
May hesitated, "But-"
"There's no time for buts. Tell your brother that I love him. I love you both."
May tried to cipher the place of the injury with her tear-blurred vision. She found it and pressed hard, earning a yelp from Athena. She then looked at her surroundings.
She couldn't look at her mom, she was ordered not to.
"Mom please don’t die." Hot tears streamed down her eyes. Her body numb to the pain on her opened knees or her gushing arm, and when she found her voice again she used it mercilessly.
"Help! Please, help me! Someone please, I need help!" She sobbed looking up to the sunny LA skies, her throat already raw.
"Please help me!"
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thefutureduchessmarie · 4 years ago
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My thoughts on Buck Begins (and why it was such a letdown to me)
There was a lot to love about this episode (particularly the background it provided on Buck and Maddie), but ultimately it failed to live up to the expectation for me. Here’s why: FOCUSING ON BUCK/MADDIE INSTEAD OF BUCK/CHOSEN FAMILY
So far the season did a great job in showing exactly how and why Buck grew up with so many abandonment issues and feeling like he wasn’t enough. But the issues didn’t come from Maddie. Sure, he was hurt when she moved away, but that had already been mostly dealt with. And of course discovering she lied to him his whole life was hard, but I feel like given their current relationship Buck would always forgive her for that, he just needed time to process it. What I really needed from this episode was for Buck to realize/accept that he’d already found the family he’s been looking for his whole life. 
The idea that he 118 are each other’s chosen family is one of the central themes of the show, and I needed that energy now, more than ever. All I wanted was to see them doing everything they could to save Buck, not because it’s their job, but because they love him. And they did - each one of them walked into that building, knowing they could very well die. We just didn’t get to see that because the show failed to realize that should have been the climax all along. 
Was there seriously no one who could tell him that he doesn’t have to save every single person on the planet in order to be worthy? That he’s enough on his own? Because that’s the reason why he keeps putting himself in life-threatening situations to begin with. And instead of helping him realize that, they praised him for it and told him that’s why they love him so much, reinforcing his belief that he needs to be out there saving people in order to earn the right to be loved.
BOBBY 
The father/son relationship between him and Buck has been an important part of the show since season 1. So when it was revealed that Buck Begins would address Buck’s complicated relationship with his parents and culminate with him being stuck in a fire - a situation that mimics the way Bobby’s children died, it felt like everything was lining up for this dynamic to be the heart of the episode. It seemed to offer the perfect opportunity for both of them to make peace with their past (Bobby couldn’t save his children, but he could save Buck; and Buck could get closure from his parents and fully accept Bobby as the only parents figure he needs in his life). The crossover only seemed to confirm that. 
By ignoring that, and not showing any special focus on Bobby, they didn’t just waste the opportunity to tell a beautiful and meaningful story. They completely disrespected Bobby as a character. Because you look me in the eye, and tell me that seeing someone he recognizes as a his kid, someone he loves and feels responsible for stuck in a building on fire wouldn’t be triggering as fuck to Captain Nash! The show can’t just ignore the single most traumatizing event of his life simply because they don’t know how to address more than one relationship (Buck/Maddie) in one episode.   
EDDIE 
If there’s one thing I hate in television, it’s fan service. Its always painfully obvious when a show is doing something not because they believe in it,  but because the fans want it. However, right now 911 is doing a sort of anti-fan-service that is just as terrible. Basically, they created a “Buddie monster” that doesn’t seem to have been planned and now they have no idea how to handle it. It was so clear that they were going out of their way to avoid any Buddie moments in this episode, that they ended up throwing Eddie’s characterization and the beautiful friendship they wrote for him and Buck out of the window. 
The Eddie I’ve been seeing for 3 seasons now would be the first to rush into that building after Buck, even before he got any confirmation or authorization from anyone. Instead, they turned him into this ice cold person right when Buck was feeling so unloved and abandoned. They don’t want to make Buddie as a couple? Fine. I can live with that. But please don’t disrespect the amazing friendship that has been canonically written. If they don’t think they can show us Eddie caring and worrying about his best friend without making it romantic, then it means they’re not doing they’re job well.
They also inadvertently created a power imbalance between those two that literally no one asked for. Because now, if you compare how each of them reacted to the other being stuck in a life risking situation, it comes across as Buck caring way more than Eddie. Which I don’t think it’s true, but alas…. Its there now, and it reinforces Buck’s feelings of never being enough. 
(And yes, I’m already taking into account their different personalities. I never expected Eddie to panic in the way Buck did in Eddie Begins. But I was expecting him to freak out in his own Eddie way, which he didnt. At all. Despite the show repeatedly showing us how important Buck is in his life and how much he unravels without him)
The cheap queer baiting (“I feel like he’s working his way through the village people”? They were purposely showing past-Buck in queer stereotypes and they know it. And Im really getting tired of them not putting their money where their mouth is) v them going out of their way to make sure there were no meaningful interactions between Buck and the man people ship him with 
PLAIN-ASS INCONSISTENCIES OR WEAK TV :/
First thing Bobby told them when they got to the scene was that they couldn’t separate from the team. They’re all trained professionals, fully aware of how risky the situation was. They’re also aware that Buck is the most reckless member of the team on a normal day, and that day he was dealing with some particularly difficult shit. So why the hell did no one stop him when he tried to separate from the team? If you wanna convince yourself the 118 suck and don’t love Buck, fine, but I know its not true. So Hen and Chim letting Buck go just feels out of character to me. Something the writers did, not because it made sense, but because they needed to have him alone and couldn’t come up with a better plan.
Now compare that to Eddie Begins, for example, a Begin episode that followed a very similar structure. Eddie being stuck didn’t feel forced, because the situation was properly explained and contextualized.  Everything made perfect sense given their line of work, the team dynamics and protocol. It felt like the natural consequences of a very risky job. It also made sense that Eddie Begins focused so much on Eddie/Christopher and climaxed with him fighting like hell to return to his son, because that’s Eddie’s struggle - feeling like he failed as a parent.
Buck’s struggle is feeling like he was always the one left behind. The one people didn’t love enough, because he it made it hard to. So by not focusing on his relationship with his chosen family, all we’re left with is “Buck and Maddie against the world”. Which is not where any of those characters deserve to be and ignores all the progress that has been made for 4 seasons. 
By focusing so much on this one relationship, they also turned this into “Buck and Maddie Begins”, instead of Buck Begins. THEY COULDN’T EVEN FOCUS ON BUCK IN HIS OWN EPISODE. Tell me how is this supposed to help resolve his insecurities?  
I did love all the flashbacks and the moments between the siblings tho. And I cried reals tears when Maddie pulled out her own version of Buck’s box. I guess I’ll just have to rely on fanfiction and headcanons to fill all the voids mentioned above 
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elisela · 4 years ago
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giving off sparks buck x eddie, 1.1k I told @tylerhunklin to choose a meet-ugly prompt and she picked this please blame her for this sloppy mess okay. 41.  I’m at the 24/7 gym at 2 in the morning and I thought I was alone so I’m singing in the showers, but when you start singing with me, I’m startled and slip so the first time we meet, we’re both wet and naked.
Filling in on B-shift has really thrown Buck off. Being down crew members is never easy, and not only does he miss his team (not that he’s ever telling Chim that), he misses his schedule. Buck thrives on routine, likes that it keeps him grounded and comfortable—something he hasn’t felt much of since Abby left six months ago. So of course as soon as they break the new probie in, Leo goes and gets himself hurt sliding down an elevator shaft like a big damn hero and catching his arm on some looped wires, tearing his rotator cuff and ripping his skin to shreds to top it off. As if that wasn’t enough, Mitchell’s wife had gone into early labor and he’d taken off eight weeks earlier than his planned leave (Buck wasn’t blaming him for that, of course, he’d dropped by the hospital a few times with gift cards and dinner for them, but it certainly wasn’t helping matters).
Down two, was bad enough, but then the ladder had collapsed with Macy at the top, and Bobby was scrambling to find coverage. They’d be getting some probies on loan starting the next day, but the last week has been difficult, and all Buck wants to do is get back to his usual schedule.
Honestly, the only good thing about this one is that when he wakes up from his nap at 2am, the 24 hour gym down the block from his apartment is usually pretty empty.
It’s leg day, and Buck takes the advice to never skip leg day very seriously. How else is he supposed to climb up endless flights of stairs, carry people out of burning buildings, or look good in those new pink shorts he bought for the next time he had a chance to hit the beach? And it’s been a hard shift, so he pushes himself a little more than he normally does, racks an extra forty pounds on the prowler sled that he pushes across the mat, adds an extra set to his split squats, and finishes up with a double-time Cupid Shuffle workout, because he’s seen it on TikTok too many times to not do it at this point, basically.
He doesn’t always work out to music but he blasts it tonight, jamming his AirPods in and hitting play on a random Spotify workout playlist, letting music he doesn’t know for the most part carry his energy. For the cool down though—he misses Maddie a little, because their schedules conflict now, so he scrolls until he finds one of the playlists she’s made and stretches while Bon Jovi sings about holding on and listens to Jenny’s phone number being scribbled on the bathroom wall.
He’s heading into the locker room for a desperately needed shower—the water pressure is more stable here than it is at his apartment—when Total Eclipse of the Heart comes on, and—
Well, Buck is only human, and the song basically demands you sing along to it. So, one earbud shoved in his locker along with his phone and the other still in his ear, he steps into the shower and belts it out.
It’s just his bad luck that he squeezes body wash onto his hand with a little too much enthusiasm, causing it to drip off and onto the slick tile floor, just before someone comes around the corner and joins him in the chorus, startling him.
He jumps, right foot sliding in the soap, and he can’t counterbalance himself fast enough on exhausted legs to do anything but fall—which would have been fine, if he hadn’t hit his head on the shower knobs on the way down. But he does, and he must black out for a second because when he comes to, there’s a very hot, very naked man kneeling next to him, and Buck would like to die very much because this stranger’s dick is right next to his head and what his traitorous mind chooses to say is “sorry, this isn’t how I usually pick up men.”
Apparently, his prayers for a swift death go unanswered, but tall, hot, and naked just laughs. “Sorry for surprising you, man. Can you look up here for me? Track my fingers?”
“Hot and a doctor?” Buck asks, because if he’s in this far he might as well just keep going. Shame can come later, when he’s drowning himself in whatever alcohol is in the cupboard to forget about this moment.
“Former paramedic,” the man answers, grinning. “So definitely not as rich as you’re thinking. Can I touch your head?”
“You can touch anything you want,” he says, and then “if loss of common sense is a symptom of a concussion, you should probably call 911.”
There’s laughter, and then the man’s hands are cupping his neck, lifting it gently and prodding his fingers around. “A little swelling,” he says, “but no bleeding. Honestly, you seem pretty good for someone who hit their head that hard. Anyone at home that can watch you for a few hours?”
Buck allows himself to be helped up and resists the urge to drown himself. “I’m heading into work in a little bit,” he says. “I’ll let them know. Thanks a lot.”
“I can give you a ride if you need—”
“I live just down the street,” Buck says, embarrassment catching up to him now that they’re standing in the small shower stall, too close together for no real reason. “But thanks, I appreciate it.”
He dresses quickly—carefully, not wanting a repeat of the shower incident, but quickly—and leaves, shampoo still in his hair. Whatever, he can shower at home, he just needs to get out of this locker room.
Hen’s still on shift when he makes it in to the 118 two hours later, going straight for the coffee maker and downing two cups; he tells her briefly that he hit his head, giving no other details, and she fusses over him for a few minutes before she also declares him to be fine.
It’s a slow day for the most part, just two calls until lunch, when Bobby comes jogging up the stairs while Buck is digging through the refrigerator, hoping to find leftovers. He’ll steal Chim’s if he has to, but he had sworn there was some leftover lasagne from the night before. “Alright, listen up,” Bobby says, “this is Eddie Diaz from the 136, he’s ours for the week. Buck, show him the ropes.”
“Sure thing, Cap,” he calls, pulling out the hidden pan of lasagna triumphantly and turning around—
“Hey,” says tall, dark, and very much dressed. “How’s the head?”
Buck is so screwed.
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buddiewho · 4 years ago
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I have a question.
When does it become too much to rely on other people for your mental health? When does it become too much to use them [a family member or friend] as a constant emotional support? Now, I can attest to people in my life who have been there for me in coping times, but there's also responsibility on my part to assess what's going on. I read something about anxiety and how sometimes those with it (maybe even myself) can react in such a way that is asshole-ish. Therefore, how can you reign that in and assess what caused the anxiety and whether or not it's something you can control?
For example, it's not the 118's job to police or be constantly aware of Buck's emotions. Can we call them mood swings? Can we? It's not their responsibility and Buck himself is realizing that Dr. Copeland might be right, "I do hide my true feelings from others." Buck is the classic, bury it deep, so deep, because I don't want people to think of me as a burden and besides I'd rather HELP other people with their emotions that I FEEL as well, so fuck my own. Buck is so empathetic (yet a little entitled) but I honestly believe he is the type to take on everyone's emotions without even realizing how he himself feels [look at what happened with roller coaster victim...he literally thought of himself last and took on the backlash from the sister as if he deserved it...then of course, the fucked up shit with the therapist, but still...] Buck will literally take insults against himself if it meant standing resilient for someone else's FEELINGS, while burying his own [sounds like he did this for Maddie]. Right now he's starting to look inwardly and be more aware of his feelings.
I think we fail to realize that Hen, Chim and Bobby [even Athena] experienced "I hate authority" and "act before I think" Buck. They dealt with a little shit, basically, and so I think they've come to this point of holding him at arm's length sometimes, especially Athena who actually made Buck check himself when they met and she’s the reason Bobby also gave him the second chance. They don't want to expect him to act out, but in some ways they do. However, they did watch him grow/change. They watched him change because of Abby, because of Eddie, because of Christopher, because of the incidents/emergencies/accidents...yet what I think they do is want to hold him accountable for certain actions he's taken [aka the lawsuit, aka thinking without his brain, aka being a damn daredevil]. They do not make fun of his trauma, because why in the ever living fuck would they do that having experienced their own kinds of pain? Plus, if the JOKES they make hurt, then he should tell them. "Hey, you know, I don't really like when you guys joke this like."  He can take responsibility for what he feels from the joke and actually express that it hurt rather than play it off and bury the negative reaction he may have had, but the show hasn’t written it that way, so I’m to assume that the joking doesn’t hurt Buck as much as one might think.
Most of what Hen, Chim, Bobby or Eddie say or do comes heavily from a protective mode. Look at how far they had to watch him push himself to get back into firefighting almost to die right there on Bobby & Athena's patio...? They want to protect him, and often times that comes with jokes and it hasn't been written as Buck having negative reactions to those. Sure, some faces (like the tsunami comment in the elevator). Like, really? Come on, Eddie. Though, this entire team is built on jokes. Look at the cake they got Chimney. And even that banner after he recovers from the stabbing is a bit maudlin, a bit dark, wouldn't you say? The levity, the jokes that are brought into this are not to actually poke fun at Buck or that they're not taking any of it seriously. They take it very seriously, but I think it's always going to come with one or two jokes. It always has.
I just re-watched the IT Chapter 2 and there’s the scene when the adult Losers get back to the clubhouse. Richie hides himself in the shadows and uses an "IT" voice to scare the shit out of his friends. Is he making fun of the trauma? No, that's called using humor to deflect his fear, in this case. However, in the case of 911 characters vs Buck, they're not doing anything to make fun of him. Everything they do or say even if it's a joke comes from being protective. Fight me. 
Actually, another example of this protective mode is how Bobby, Eddie and Hen immediately hovered over Chimney who kept babbling about holding onto a secret that might have to do with Buck. They each took a protective and curious stance, but ultimately figured it was between Chimney, Maddie and Buck...? Buck is protected and loved but he himself doesn’t think so. He doesn’t think he can live up to their expectations or that they care about him as much [look at how he told TK he wasn’t even sure that Hen would come save him, but that’s HIS OWN emotions getting in the way, because yes the fire fam would save him; they have before when he was being an overexerting idiot to get back to the job...Hen also being the one highly aware that the 118 is not just Buck’s job but a HOME he latched onto, because he didn’t have anything else so if he doesn’t have this place then what?] and I think Buck Begins is going to show him that his fire fam has always cared even when he doesn’t see it and they always will. 
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leedongwook · 5 years ago
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The fire station 118 gets taken hostage. Who will save them? 🔥
(Trigger warnings: violence, guns, shot wounds, blood)
Buck’s early to his shift today. He’s on truck cleaning duty this morning. That’s why he’d opened the big hall doors to get some natural light in. It was actually nice to have the morning sun shine into the hall while cleaning the truck. Yesterday’s been a busy day so Buck does enjoy the quiet of the morning while everyone’s just doing the chores. He looks up from wiping down the truck when he hears two men walking down the driveway to the fire house. Buck musters precisely because he’s not familiar with them. He puts away his cloth and walks towards the men.
“Good morning, can I help you?”
“Oh, I’m sure you can.”
One of the men laughs weirdly and Buck doesn’t even have the time to react when the other man moves himself quickly behind him pulling his arms behind his back, covering his mouth with his hands. Buck struggles in the man’s arms and tries to break free, and he could, but he stops moving when a gun is pressed onto his forehead.
“If you move or scream I’ll shoot you in the head, boy.”
Buck swallows hard. He thinks of his team members and a way to warn them. The pressure of the gun on his forehead makes it hard to think though.
“So, my friend here is gonna take his hand away now and you won’t make a sound. You’re going to close that hall gate and show us the way to your Captain. Do you understand?!”
Buck looks at the man with strong eyes. He won’t let them scare him. He needs to find a way to warn his friends.
The man with the gun slaps him on the head hard with his other hand. His cold eyes bore deep into Buck and a shiver runs down his back. This man was really dangerous. He’s seen such eyes. Cold and no regret.
“Do you understand?”
Buck nods his head and the man behind him lets go of his hands. The man lifts the gun away but keeps it trained on Buck. He walks over to the door and pushes the button to close it. Buck looks around and thinks about running out of the station. But then he thinks of his team. He can’t leave them in this situation. The hall gate closes shut with thud and Buck locks it.
“Good boy.”
The man laughs and Buck clenches his fists in anger.
“Don’t call me that.”
The expression of the man changes and the next thing Buck feels is an exploding pain in his face and he tastes blood. He brings his hand to his nose and it comes back bloody. He’s lucky when it’s not broken.
The man grabs him on his chin and violently moves his head up, so he has to look at him.
“I said. Don’t. Talk.”
Buck squeezes his eyes shut for a second. The other man grabs him by his arm and manhandles him into moving. Bucks face hurts and his vision is a bit blurry from the blow in his face.
“Now, get me to your Captain.”
Buck opens his eyes again and looks around quick. It’s early into their shift and he’s only seen Eddie, Chim, Hen and Bobby check in this morning. He hopes it’s not more firefighters who are around. In his current panic he can’t remember if he’s seen the others or not.
The man keeps on pushing him and it makes him stumble forwards. They walk over to the stairs. He can hear Bobby move around in the kitchen, probably preparing breakfast. When they arrived at the landing he can see his Captain. His back is turned to them and he’s busy cutting vegetables.
The man shoves him forward while is partner walks next to them. Buck wants to break free and scream for Bobby to run but he knows he’s got no chance. His eye sight is still a bit blurry and his head’s ringing from the blow in his face and he definitely wouldn’t be able to outrun the shot of a gun.
The man with the gun coughs loudly to get the Captain’s attention.
”Good morning Captain Nash.”
Bobby startles and turns around immediately after hearing the man speak.
“Good - ...”
His voice gets stuck in his throat when he sees the three men in front of him. The Captains eyes go wide and Buck knows he’s already planning a rescue mission in his mind. Buck slowly shakes his head though. It’s too dangerous. Bobby blinks at Buck and he knows it’s his Captain trying to calm him down. His face crunches up when his eyes wander to Bucks bloody nose.
“Buck, are you ok?”
The gunman chuckles and waves around with his pistol.
“Oh pretty boy’s fine, aren’t you Buck? He just doesn’t know when to keep his mouth shut.”
“What do you want? If you need help I can - ...”
The gunman stops in his tracks and Buck can see how his expression turns into anger. He steps forward and huffs at the Captain.
“Oh you, you did enough Captain Nash, you and your team ruined everything. You took her away.”
Buck thinks about a call gone wrong or any reason why those two men would want to hurt them. Their faces still don’t seem familiar to him but then again they meet  hundreds of people in their line of work.
The man who’s holding Bucks arm grips him tighter. He can feel that he’s nervous through. Buck makes a mental note, maybe he can use that later. Maybe this guy doesn’t share the same grudge as the other man.
The gunman walks back over to him and laughs madly.
“Get all of your team here. Now. And don’t tell me it’s just you and him, we know the others are here.”
Buck remembers now that Eddie, Chim and Hen went down to the basement to check the oxygen tanks. The Capitan hesitates for a bit but then reaches for his radio.
“Don’t try to warm them or -“
The gunman puts the barrel of his pistols against Bucks temple. The cold metal on his skin making him wince and hold his breath.
“ - I’ll blow the kid’s brains out. We don’t want that mess do we?”
He laughs and Buck wants to punch him in the face so badly, his fingers itch. The Captian looks at Buck with worried eyes and Buck knows he wants to help him. But there’s no way the two of them can handle the situation without one of them getting hurt.
Bobby pushes the send button of his radio.
“Eddie, Chim, Hen I need you in the kitchen, now.”
The radio rattles and Eddie answers back.
“Copy that Captain, on our way.”
A couple of minutes later they can hear footsteps coming up the stairs. Buck wants to scream but the gun presses against his temple reminds him that they most likely will shoot him when he doesn’t keep his mouth shut.
The team talks while walking up the stairs. They’re in a good mood, ready for a new shift.
“Cap, what do you want?”
Chim stops talking immediately when he sees the gunman holding the weapon against Bucks head. Eddies eyes get wide and Buck knows that look. He’s ready to jump in the situation. Buck slowly shakes his head and pleads with his eyes for the other man to not do anything stupid. Hen let’s out a loud breath and puts a hand over her mouth when she sees Bucks bloody face.
“Nice of you to join us. Get over there. Sit on the ground. Hands where I can see them.”
He puts the gun away from Buck and waves it over to the side of the room. The man then looks back at Bobby.
“You sit right there Captain.” He points to the table. “Hands on the table.”
Bobby moves slowly and sits down. The man holding Buck shoves him at his shoulder and presses him down on a chair opposite from Bobby.
The gunman walks around and takes everyone’s radios away and throws them on the table.
“This is gonna be fun.”
He laughs and it makes Buck’s skin crawl. Buck looks over to his team colleagues who are crouching on the floor. Hen looks scared and Chimney holds at her hand. Eddie is ready to burst and Buck tries to get his attention. Their eyes connect and Buck can see the anger in Eddie eyes. He has seen this look only once in the other man’s eyes. The time he was street fighting to get this anger under control. Buck prays that Eddie won’t do anything impulsive though he doesn’t want him to get hurt. He doesn’t want any of them to get hurt.
The gunman’s tapping the pistol on the table and the noise breaks Buck out of his toughts. The man behind him digs his hands into his shoulders.
“You, you all let her die. You probably don’t even remember her. Her name was Ruth and you let her burn.”
Ruth. Buck remembers now and he can see in his friends eyes they can remember it, too. You never forget someone you lost on a call. There was a house fire: The husband came out safe but it was too late for the wife. Buck remembers how they went in but the floor was gone already and there was no chance the woman could have survived. They went in anyway to check. They barley made it out themselves but they couldn’t get the wife out. Calls like that happen and it was always difficult for the firefighters to accept that they couldn’t save someone. Buck remembers the husband, the anger the desperation after realizing he had lost his wifey. They couldn’t have saved her though.
He looks at the gunman and sees the same anger and desperation from that night again. It scares him.
“2477 Baker Avenue. The house fire.”
Bobby’s voice is quiet and calm. It’s the voice he uses when he tries to calm someone down, tries to help them and focus, Buck notices.
“We tried everything we could. But the house was almost gone when we arrived. I’m so sorry -“
The man rushes over to Bobby and waves the gun at his face. Buck can see the man’s neck vein pulsate dangerously.
“You left her to die.” He screams in the Captains face.
“There was no chance we could have saved her. I’m sorry.”
It’s Eddie who talks now. The anger in the man’s eyes flares up and he runs over to where the team is sitting on the floor. He kicks at Eddie and shoves the gun against his head.
“Shut up. Shut up.”
Buck can see the man’s finger move against the trigger of the gun and he violently pushes the man’s hands off his shoulders and jumps of the chair.
“Nooo!”
Bucks scream startles the gunman and he turns around, pulling the trigger in panic.
The shot echoes through the fire house. It’s quiet after that, no one dares to move or breath. Buck feels exactly when the bullet hits his shoulder. It collides with his collar bone and knocks the air out of him. The man who was holding him down steps aside with fear in his eyes. Buck falls backwards, his head and back connecting with the floor hard. His vision goes black for a second.
“Fuck, are you insane, Tom.”
The gunman walks up and down and presses his hands to his head. 
“Don’t say my name, you idiot. Shut up.”
Buck blinks his eyes open again. He looks at the ceiling above him. His left shoulder is on fire and his chest aches painfully. He wants to move his hand to check on the wound but he feels frozen.
“Buck, Buck can you hear me?”
It’s Bobby’s voice and Buck manages to slowly move his head to the side. The Captain is standing now, his hands on the table. Buck tries to speak but no words come out. He sucks in air loudly and has to cough. He regrets it when a sharp pain flares up in his right shoulder.
Eddie jumps to his feet but the gunman is at him seconds later.
“If you don’t wanna end up like him, sit the fuck down.”
Buck feels incredibly dizzy but he tries to lift his head up. There’s a wet spot on the side of his shirt. It’s not wet though, it’s his blood. He looks to the side and can see a lake of red next to him. He’s freaking bleeding out on the fire house kitchen floor. That’s just Buck and his luck, isn’t it.
He watches Eddie sit back down biting at his lip angrily.
The other man without the gun walks over to where Buck is lying. He can see fear in the man’s eyes and Buck hopes that he’ll be the key to get out of this situation. He’s not as angry as the gun man. Buck notices the man’s hands are shaking.
“Is he - is he gonna die?”
Buck moans in pain when he touches his shot wound and digs a finger into the wound to stop the blood flow.
“Yes, there’s a big possibility. Hte bullet seems to have hit an artery and Buck here is on blood thinners which makes him bleed out even faster.”
The man looks at his partner in panic.
“I don’t -  I don’t want him to die. You said you’d wanted to scare them.”
The gunman walks over to his partner.
“They let your sister die.”
Buck feels himself slipping so he presses down on his wound harder to stop the bleeding a bit. The sharp pain clears his focus and he tries to speak.
“We - we tried everything we could I swear? I swear.”
Tears are rolling down his face now and mix with the blood next to his head on the floor.
The man looks unsure now, fidgeting with his hands nervously.
“This is wrong, Tom.”
The gunman walks over and pushes the man to the side. He talks angrily at him. Buck can’t hear much the blood rushing in his ear being too loud. He looks around the kitchen. Hen and Chim are still sitting on the floor. Eddies on his knees, roaming around the room with his eyes. Buck knows he’s planning to attack the gunman any minute.
“How you holding up, kid?”
Bobby whispers and Buck moves his head to where he’s standing at the table.
“I don’t think the bullet went through it’s -“
He has to squeeze his eyes shut because he feels a sharp sting inside his shoulder. He can’t breath and his vision goes white.
“Breath Buck, come on, breath.” Bobby tries to help him.
“It’s - it’s stuck in my collar bone I think. Bobby, I’m so tired.”
He barely gets the words out. Bobby’s eyes look scared at him. If the Captain looks scared, it really must be serious.
“We’ll get you outta here Buck, hang on, ok? Please hang on.”
The gunman walks back to Buck, followed by his partner.
“Don’t fucking talk, I need to think.”
Buck musters the man again. He’s nervously shaking his gun around, his fingers are not resting on the trigger at the moment. The man stands right in front of Buck, so If Buck could kick out his legs, he could make him fall over.
A wave of nausea hits him and he feels bile coming up his throat. It makes him gag. He knows he’s only got this one chance because after that he might lose consciousness. 
He feels the blood run through his fingers where he’s pressing them on the wound, life leaving his body with every breath he takes. He curses the damn blood thinners.
He looks over to Bobby and then to Eddie who are closest to him, then nods his head over to the gunman and his legs. He just hopes his colleagues understand what he’s trying to say. 
The other bad man leans at the wall behind him and if Eddie and Bobby are quick enough, they could get the gun before him and disarm him. It’s their only chance.
Buck reassuringly smiles at Hen and cChinmey. He takes one last deep breath and lets go of the wound. He feels how all the blood spill out of the wound freely now. He puts all his energy into his legs and kicks out violently against the gunmans kneecaps. The man yells out in pain and Buck can see him fall forwards. Eddie and Bobby jump into action at the same time.
There’s screams and loud noises but Bucks head falls back onto the hard floor and his vision goes black.
He can hear muffled voices and this awful hot pain in his shoulder won’t go away. His mouth feels dry and tastes like metal. Buck can’t remember why he feels so weird. And the pain in his shoulder is really getting on his nerves.
There’s hands touching him now, pulling at him and all he wants to do is push them away. There’s a bright light floating his sight and he squeezes his eyes shut and tries to move away from it. His body won’t cooperate though. He tries to focus on his own breathing and heartbeat and notices it’s all way too so slow. Why is it so slow?
“-Evan, open your damn eyes.”
Oh someone’s using his real first name so it must be serious. Was he hurt again? 
Suddenly someone pushes against his shoulder and the pain makes him scream and his eyes shoot open. He waves around his arms in panic and tries to shuffle away from the hands, that hold him down.
“Stop, Buck, don’t move around too much. You got shot.”
Hearing Eddies speak makes him stop moving. He looks around and Bobbys and Hens face appear in front of him. His sight is still blurred but he can see them now. 
On his left side Eddie is kneeling against his side and he can feel the weight of the other mans leg press against him. He follows Eddies arms to his shoulder and sees the blood. So much blood. His eyes dare to roll back into his head when Chimney, he thinks it’s Chimney, taps at his cheeks hard.
“Eyes open, Buckaroo. Five more minutes and we have you ready for the hospital.”
Eddie keeps on pressing on the wound while Chimney pushes something into his IV line in his hand. Buck remembers the gunman now and panic sets in again.
“Gun.”
Bobby kneels down next to his head and gently strokes his head.
“They’re both arrested and locked up. You did good, you saved us by kicking the gunman in the legs. You did so good, kid.”
Relief rushes over Buck and he smiles a bit. Suddenly his vision blacks out completely and he doesn’t know where he is anymore. It’s back in a second but he can’t get his eyes to focus again. He isn’t even sure he’s breathing anymore. He feels his heart stutter in his chest. At least he’d saved his team, right. It’s ok if he might not make it. They’re safe. He tries to fight against the numbness in his body and mind but he can’t.
“No, no, no Buck. You’re not doing this.”
He barley can hear or see things anymore. He feels hands on his body again. What he does hear is Bobby’s voice next to his head. He sounds sad. He doesn’t want him to be sad. He wants to tell Bobby to not be sad, that it’ll be ok. He cant though. The numbness and darkness being too strong. Overwhelming him. He prepares himself for more pain but he feels nothing instead and he gives in into the darkness.
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“Buck?”
Oh why can’t people just let him sleep. What time is it anyway?
“Come on, time to wake up.”
He feels a hand taking his own. Gentle fingers rubbing circles over his knuckles.
“Don’t wanna.”
He mumbles. He doesn’t recognize his own voice. It sounds raw and thick. He moves his fingers on the sheets and notices they feel different. Right, that’s definitely not his own bed. Shit, did he go on a  bender and had too much to drink? He tries to move his upper body but stops when he feels a sting in his shoulder.
“You slept long enough. Open your eyes Evan.”
His first name again. He’s heard it before not so far away, hasn’t he. He moves again but his limbs feel numb and he winces in pain. Why does his freaking shoulder hurt so much.
“No don’t move too much, you’ll hurt your shoulder more.”
Buck’s annoyed now because he doesn’t know what’s happening. He slowly pries his eyes open. The light is too bright, it blinds his eyes. It smells clean and medical in the room and the cover thrown over him itches his at his skin. He now notices the beeping sound next to his ear.
When he finally has his eyes open he looks at the faces of Bobby and Eddie. Bobby’s holding at his hand and Eddie softly pushes his hands against his shoulder to make him lie down again. When did he move?
“You’ll rip you’re stitches Buck, relax.”
He blinks in confusion. He’s in a hospital room. Again.
“Why- why am I in the hospital again. What happened.”
Bobby lets go of his hand and pushes a glass of water in his hand which is not connected to an IV. Buck takes it gratefully, the cool liquid soothing his sore throat.
“Do you remember the gunman taking over the fire house? You got shot kid.”
Buck looks over to his shoulder and sees a bandage peaking though his hospital gown. Oh that explains the pain
“Ouch, shit.”
“Yeah, you can say that.”
Eddie flops down on the bed next to Bucks leg.
“You did a real action number there, Buck.”
Buck gives the glass back to Bobby who puts it away. He awkwardly scratches at his chin.
“I did? What did I do ? My head hasn’t caught up, I guess.”
Eddie laughs but Buck can see the redness under the other mans eyes. The puffy skin under it, like he’s been crying.
“You gave us a little sign that you were planning on doing something and then you just kicked at the gunmans legs so he fell and Bobby and I could disarm the man. You saved us, Buckley.”
“Oh. Yeah? I can’t remember that if I’m honest.”
“You already had lost a lot of blood, could explain the holes in your memory. It was a miracle you could even kick out like that.”
Buck’s still confused and he can feel the pain in his shoulder getting worse. Bobby seems to sense the other man’s distress and pushes at the pain IV that’s connected to his hand.
“You can use the painkillers Buck, that’s ok. You don’t have to be in pain.”
Buck nods and gives his Captain a tired smile. He carefully looks down on his shoulder again and sighs.
“How bad is it?”
He already feels the pain medication taking an effect. He feels more tired though.
“Since you’re always so lucky with stuff like that, the bullet got stuck in your collar bone. Took the doctors a while to get it out. You being on blood thinners made it worse. You’ve been out of for two days.”
He looks at Eddie who wipes at his eyes again.
“You scared us.”
Buck bites at his lip.
“-m sorry.”
Bobby shakes his head and smiles softly.
“No, don’t say that. You saved us all. I’m just so glad you’re ok, kid.”
Bobby walks over and gently squeezes Bucks uninjured shoulder. There’s an expression on his face Buck hasn’t seen often and it’s reversed for his wife. Buck leans into the Captains touch on his shoulder.
They all look towards the door when a nurse sticks her head in.
“I’m sorry but visiting hours are over and the police is here to get his statement if Mr Buckley is up for it.”
Buck nods and Bobby softly pats the back of his head.
“I’ll be back tomorrow, alright. Get some rest.”
Buck watches Bobby walk out of the room. He notices that Eddie hasn’t moved from his spot on the bed. He can see the tension running down the other man’s body. His hands grabbing the sheets tight.
“Eds?”
The other man shuffles closer and pulls Buck by his shoulders bringing their foreheads together. He can feel Eddie hold at his neck, gently rubbing his finger up and down there.
“Please don’t, don’t ever do that again.”
Eddie gulps hard and presses his fingers into Bucks neck. It doesn’t hurt though and Buck feels the tension run out of his shoulders.
“Eddie, I couldn’t let them hurt you guys.”
The other man blows out a loud breath.
“That’s not what I meant. Don’t ever die in front of me again, I can’t - I can’t handle it. I can’t lose you, Evan.”
He feels Eddies fingers shake against his skin.
“Oh. Ok, I’ll try.”
Eddie moves away and Buck wishes he could still feel the other man’s hands against his neck.
“Just, be more careful ok?”
Buck nods and actually blushes a bit. Eddies smiles at him and squeeze at his hand.
“Get some sleep, I’ll be outside and check in later again?”
“You don’t have to stay Eddie. Go home to Chris.”
Eddie shakes his head.
“Chris is the one who wants me to stay with you. He’s with his abuela anyway tonight.”
Buck waves his hand gestures him to go.
“Don’t think I haven’t seen your hands tremble and how you react to sudden noises.”
Buck looks down on his hands who are slightly shaking. He did startle earlier when he heard a car backfire.
“Sleep and talk to the officers later. I’ll be here.”
“Ok, thank you.”
Eddie pats his leg gently and walks out of the room.
Buck slips under the bedcover and holds at his shaking hands. The knowledge that Eddie will be there when he wakes up makes them stop shaking and the pain meds help him fall into a restful sleep quickly.
He’s glad he’s ok. 
He’s glad he saved his family. 
Because that’s what they all are
His family and he’d do anything to protect them.
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Safe Place Chapter 2
Emma nervously tugged at the bottom of her dress as she made her way towards Athena’s front door.  Balancing the baking dish of brownies and the bowl of pasta salad in one hand was proving to be quite the feat as she desperately tried to keep her skirt from riding further up her thighs.  
Once she got to the front door, she cleared her throat before ringing the doorbell.  A few seconds later, a very tall man with a welcoming smile greeted her as he ushered her inside.
“Emma!  It’s so great to finally meet you.  Athena has told me so much about you.  I’m Bobby,” he said as he took the dish and bowl out of her hands with one hand and offered her his other hand to shake.
“It’s nice to meet you too, Bobby.  I’ve heard quite a bit about you as well,” Emma replied with a laugh.  Bobby grinned at her in reply.
“I’ll put these on the table.  Why don’t you head out back?  Athena is right outside the door,” Bobby instructed.  Emma nodded before turning around to walk out onto the patio.  Her green eyes scanned the crowded patio for her partner, but someone else caught her attention first.
“Emma!” Christopher exclaimed as he left his father’s side to come greet her.  
“Hi there, Christopher.  How are you?” Emma said as she leaned down to hug the boy.  
“I’m great!  All of my favorite people are here.  Well, except my grandparents,” Christopher said with that easygoing smile on his face.  Emma smiled in return and glanced up as Eddie joined them.  She could see where Christopher got that amazing smile from as the firefighter came to stand beside his son.  
“Nice to see you again, Emma,” Eddie said.
“You too,” Emma replied.
“Stopped any arterial bleeding lately?” Eddie asked with a chuckle causing Emma to laugh in response.
“Not since the last time you saw me covered in blood,” she answered.  Eddie opened his mouth to say something else, but a tall blonde haired guy joined their group with a loud exclamation.
“Well, who do we have here?” he said in his loud, boisterous voice that had Christopher laughing and Eddie rolling his eyes.
“Buck, this is Emma Sullivan.  She’s Athena’s new partner.  Emma, this is Evan Buckley, AKA Buck.  He’s also a firefighter at the 118,” Eddie replied as he gestured between the two of them.
“It’s nice to meet you,” Emma said as she stuck out her hand.  Buck laughed before pulling her into a bear hug.  Emma laughed as he squeezed her tight and lifted her off of her feet.
“I have heard so much about you!  I can’t believe Athena actually agreed to have a partner,” Buck said loudly in her ear.
“You can put her down, Buck,” Eddie said as Christopher laughed.
“Buck!  What on earth are you doing?” Athena said as she walked up to them.  Buck gently put Emma back on her feet before turning to beam at Athena.
“I was just greeting the newest member of our posse,” Buck said as he threw an arm around Athena’s shoulders.  “You didn’t mention she was this cute!”
“And why would I say that to you?” Athena said as she shewed him away.  “Go help Bobby with the grill and give the girl some space.”
Buck dutifully followed her command while Athena looked to the trio of people standing before her.  What she saw had her smiling.  Emma was slightly rubbing her arms where Buck had gripped her, Eddie was tenderly examining her arms to see if she was hurt, and Christopher was smiling at the pair of them with a glimmer of hope in his young eyes.  
“I’m okay, Eddie,” Emma said as the dark haired man gently lifted her arm to see if a bruise was forming.  His brown eyes lifted to meet her gaze and Emma had to quickly suck in a breath.  Good Lord, this man is attractive, she thought.  
Eddie slowly dropped his hands before he nodded at her.  
“I’m sorry about Buck.  He can be a bit much sometimes,” Eddie apologized.
“It’s not a problem.  He reminds me of my older brother,” Emma replied with a smile on her face.  
“So, Emma, did you find the house okay?” Athena asked, causing the two adults in front of her to break their gaze and look at her.
“I did.  I took an Uber,” Emma said.
“Good!  Now come meet everyone else,” Athena said as she began to lead Emma towards the crowd.
“I’m coming with you,” Christopher announced as he moved to walk beside Emma.  “I’ll see you later, Dad!”
Emma smiled down at Christopher before Athena began introducing her to the rest of the 118 crew and their families.  
Several hours later, the party was dying down and Emma had begun to help Bobby and Athena clean up.  She glanced over to see Christopher and Buck asleep on the couch.  
“Those two are attached at the hip,” Eddie said from beside her, startling her slightly.  Emma glanced up at him and couldn’t help but smile herself when she saw the beatific smile on his face.
“I can tell,” Emma replied.  
“Although, you are just about all he talks about these days,” Eddie said.
“Really?” Emma asked, surprised.
“Oh yeah.  He has been dying to hang out with you.  He’s always asking if he can go over to your place,” Eddie said with a laugh.
“Well, he’s welcome anytime,” Emma said.  “I miss being around kids.”
“Oh yeah?” Eddie asked as they both began to pick up empty plates and cups to put in the trash bag Eddie was holding.
“Yeah.  My nieces and nephews live in Atlanta, so when I decided to move to LA from there, it was hard not getting to see them all the time,” Emma explained.
“I knew I detected a Southern accent there,” Eddie said, and Emma laughed.
“I was raised all over the world, but my parents are from the South, so the accent stuck,” Emma said.
“All over the world?” Eddie asked as Emma dumped a few more plates in the trash can.  
“My dad is Navy, so we’ve been all over,” Emma explained.
“Navy, huh?  I was in the Army,” Eddie said.  Emma paused to look at him.
“Well, thank you for your service,” she said and Eddie nodded in reply.  “What did you do in the Army?”
“I was a combat medic,” Eddie replied.  
“Impressive,” Emma said as Eddie cinched up the last of the trash bags.
“I think we’re done here,” Eddie said as they both turned to head inside.  “Christopher is staying with Bobby and Athena tonight because he and Harry have a party to go to tomorrow.  So, since we are neighbors, would you like to ride home with me?”
“Sure, that would be great,” Emma replied.  After saying goodbye to Athena, Bobby, and Buck, Eddie ushered Emma out to his truck.  Just as she stepped up to grasp the door handle, Eddie beat her to it and opened the door for her.
“Your chariot awaits,” Eddie said as he playfully bowed to her.  
“Why thank you,” Emma replied with a smile as she situated herself in the front passenger seat.  Minutes later, they were headed down the freeway towards the exit that would take them to their homes.  The ride had been quiet so far.  
“So, what made you decide to become a cop?” Eddie asked quietly.  Emma nervously picked at the hem of her dress before clearing her throat.
“I was all set to become a doctor when my best friend and roommate was murdered.  The aftermath of that was a complete nightmare, and I guess I just knew that I wanted to be the person to help stop something like this from happening again,” Emma said quietly in return.  Eddie sighed softly before he reached his right hand across the console to grab her left one.  He squeezed her hand lightly.
“I’m so sorry about your friend,” Eddie said softly.  
“Thank you,” Emma whispered.  “Even though it was 6 years ago, it still feels like it happened yesterday.  My whole life changed after that day.”
“How so?” Eddie asked.
“Well, the detectives connected her murder to a series of murders that had been happening for the past eight years.  The only problem was she didn’t fit the victimology.  All of the other victims were petite, blondes with blue or green eyes.  Rachel was African-America and tall with brown hair and brown eyes,” Emma paused to swallow.  Eddie gently squeezed her hand again.
“You don’t have to talk about it, if you’re not up for it,” Eddie said.
“I know, but it might be good to talk to someone other than Athena and the department shrink about it,” Emma said.  “I was gone to visit my family when she was murdered.  I had taken Rachel’s car instead of mine because my alternator was having issues and we were waiting on a part to come in.  I found her body when I returned that Sunday evening.  The detectives told Rachel’s family that they believed the killer had gone there to kill me.  They think that Rachel surprised him and he killed her so he wouldn’t leave a witness who could identify him.”
“Damn,” Eddie breathed as he maneuvered the truck off the freeway and onto the exit ramp.  “Did they ever catch the guy?”
“Yes, eventually.  Unfortunately, he killed four other women before they could catch him.  By that point, I was living in survival mode.  I barely made it through my residency each day, and I barely slept.  I had been so close to Rachel’s family, but after her death, things just weren’t the same.  Her parents were so heartbroken, her brother was angry at me, and I carried so much guilt because it should have been me instead of her,” Emma said as Eddie pulled into his driveway.  He put the truck in park and unbuckled his seatbelt before turning to face her.
“Don’t say that,” he said adamantly.  “You were meant to live otherwise you wouldn’t be here now.”
“I know,” Emma said quietly as tears silently made their way down her face.  Eddie softly reached over with his right hand to wipe away the tear that moved down her left cheek.  “My therapist always says that I can’t control what happened and that none of it was my fault.  It’s easy to say that, but believing it is another thing entirely.”
“I know what you mean,” Eddie said.  “I’ve seen friends get killed in the line of duty and I watched Christopher’s mother die right in front of me.  It sucks, and I don’t think you ever really get over that.  You just learn to cope with it and try to move on with your life.”
“That’s what I’m trying to do,” Emma said as she turned to face him.  “A change of scenery was very helpful, and Athena has been wonderful.  Speaking of Athena, what did Buck mean when he said he couldn’t believe Athean agreed to have a partner?”
“Athena hasn’t had a partner in years,” Eddie said.  “Being a field sergeant gives her the choice of having a partner or not.”
“So why would she choose me?” Emma asked.
“Well, I don’t know the exact answer to that, but I can take a guess,” Eddie said with a smile.
“And what would that be?” Emma asked as she tilted her head slightly.
“She saw a lot of herself in you, and she knew how hard it was to overcome a traumatic experience like you did.  Plus, Bobby told me that she has bragged about how smart and intuitive you are,” Eddie said with a smile on his face.  Emma blushed slightly and bowed her head for a moment.  When she raised her gaze to meet Eddie’s, she was surprised to see the smile gone from his face.
“What’s wrong?” she asked.
“Nothing,” Eddie said quickly.  “It’s getting late.”
He got out of the truck abruptly and Emma followed suit.  They met at the front of the truck and silently stared at each other for a few seconds.
“Thanks for the ride home,” Emma said as she started to walk past him.  Eddie gently grabbed her hand to stop her.
“Thank you for telling me your story,” he said softly.  “I know that wasn’t easy.”
“Thank you for listening,” she replied as she gently tightened her grip on his hand.
“Let me walk you to your door,” Eddie said as he began to lead her across the small space between their homes.  Once they arrived at her front door, Emma pulled her keys from her purse and unlocked the door.  Then, she turned to face him one last time.  His body was only a few inches from hers and she could feel his breath on her forehead.
“Goodnight, Eddie,” she whispered.  Before she could turn to go inside, he lifted his right hand to cup her left cheek.  
“Goodnight, Emma,” he replied before leaning down to place a quick kiss to her forehead.  He quickly backed away and headed back to his own house leaving a stunned Emma on the front porch.  After a minute or so, she walked into her house and slumped against the closed front door.
Oh man, she thought.
In the next house over, Eddie braced his hands against his closed front door and let out a long sigh.
“What are you doing?” he said aloud to himself as his head slumped against the door.  “You just told everyone, including Anna, that you weren’t ready for any kind of relationship, and here you are pining after your neighbor that you barely know.  Get it together!”
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