#can y’all tell that my ex has randomly texted me

[urmomsmybiggestfan]

Shout out to the people that randomly text their exes after not talking to each other for months. Stop it. The exes also don’t want to talk to you.

[juliasturnz]

“Your looking at me like I’m see through.”

🜸 - this fanfic is based of this song! I hope y’all like it! (I got it suggested♥️)

★ - summary:

Matt has been acting so weird lately you are trying to find out, but you find something you don’t wanna know. You leave right away from this terrible place.

༆- warnings!

Angst, cussing, mad!Matt, pushing (nothing more!), use of alcohol, a lot of crying and smoking

✫彡 - writers note:

there will be lyrics while reading, so if that annoys you I’m sorry, This fanfic might be not for you.

★ - other role!!

In this fanfic there is a best friend called Haley (when she talks her color is purple) - little backstory about Haley!

You have been friends with Hayley like since forever. Y’all got into pretty many fights but you two are still the same after, she always tells you that’s she’s here for you and that isn’t gonna change no matter what.

- I know you don’t care but can you listen? -

You have been in a fight with Matt that seems to happen more then 1 time a week. But every time y’all fought he didn’t listen at all of even look at you. ‘Matt can you fucking listen to me?’ He doesn’t even look up from his phone. To busy texting. When you call his name again all he does is rolls his eyes and you can hear the typing again, it makes you sick.

‘Matt!’ He looks up with a furious look. ‘Can’t you see I’m busy?’ ‘Can’t you fucking hear that I’m talking to you?’ And yet again he ignores you and goes on further with his fingers tapping rapidly across the screen. You walk up to him and grab his phone. He starts to freak out, ‘Y/N WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?’ He fully yells at you with his eyes widened. ‘So your texting another girl aren’t you?’ ‘Ugh fuck it, I don’t give a single shit about you.’ His words just randomly fall out of his mouth. ‘What did you say?’ Tears start to swell up in your eyes, have you really been that stupid, how didn’t you notice?

- so i think I better go, I just never know how to please you, your looking at me like I’m see through -

‘Im going to pack my bags I’m going to leave, I don’t deserve this.’ He walks back to the couch and quickly drinks the beer that was standing on the coffee table next to your glass with soda that is still fully filled. ‘Right.’ He just says while you watched him drinking his beer. You start waking down to the bedroom where you get all of your stuff and leave the vanity that he build with all love what makes you sick to look at. You plop on the bed and put your hand before your face and the tears start to fall down from your eyes what makes your hands soaked.

* about a hour passes *

‘What the fuck is taking you so long, get out of here bro.’ Matt is standing in the doorway and looking at you with a drunk look, wait have you been in here that long?

- Not thinkin' you would have left me gladly -

You are still surprised you get to see this side of Matt that you’ve never experienced, and now it’s happening all at once. You didn’t even pack your bags yet, you’ve just been sitting there crying. ‘You haven’t even packed your bags hurry the fuck up!’ His voice gets a little lower but even louder, you quickly stand up and get your stuff while Matt leaves the room.

When you finally get to the point where you have at least 3 bags full of clothes, makeup and more. you reach the hall way into the living room. You look at the couch where your ex-boyfriend is now fully drunk laying down. He turns his head from the movie he’s watching and immediately begins to start arguing with you. ‘So when are you going to fucking leave?’ ‘I’ll leave when I feel like it.’ He stands up from the couch and walks up to you while tripping over random stuff, ugh he’s so drunk. You roll your eyes and you put down your full and heavy bags down. He’s standing right in front of you. His eyes are not even fully open, and he can’t look at you straight. He pushes you, you fall back just a little, he doesn’t even have that much power to push you. ‘Get out!’ He’s fully yelling at you. You don’t look at him but look outside. Why does it have to be raining right now, this feels like a straight up movie scene. You turn your face to his drunk expression again. ‘Fuck you Matt! I fucking loved you, I really did.’ But in stead of lower his voice he starts laughing at you, ‘did you actually think I liked you?’ He just keeps on laughing, your legs are frozen. Your tears just keep on flowing from your eyes to your cheeks and your neck. ‘Yeah keep on crying that’s all you do, now don’t make me say it again.’ ‘But I-I’ ‘LEAVE. MY. FUCKING. HOUSE.’ you pick up your heavy bags and leave the apartment right away. While you leave his apartment, you call up the one and only real person in this fucked up world.

You tap on your best friend’s name and call her right away. ‘Hey girll I’- ‘can you just pick me up please.’ You are still sobbing from the things that happened this quick. ‘Oh my god my baby ofcourse, I’ll be on my way, Matt’s apartment right?’ ‘Mhm.’ She hangs up the phone and you stand outside already soaking wet from the rain that’s falling quick out of the starry sky.

When Haley reaches his apartment she quickly comes out of the car. ‘Oh my baby what happened.’ You were finally done crying and once again you start sobbing. ‘You can tell me everything just come in the car I brought some dry clothes.’ She has such a kind soul, I don’t deserve her.

You are now changed in her warm clothes trying to explain everything. ‘I’m going to fucking murder that guy.’ She already wants to step out the car when you stop her. ‘He’s drunk asf he doesn’t give a shit about what your gonna say. Can we please just go to your house.’ ‘Ofcourse we can.’ She gives you a warm smile and starts the car. The whole ride to her house it has been quiet in the car, only a little bit crying from you and her hand rubbing your back. When y’all are finally there she opens her door walks over to you and opens your door and helps you get out of the big car. ‘I’ll take your bags, wait for me at the front door okay?’ ‘Mhm’ you talk to the big front door and keep waiting there while just looking into your phone for a little bit. And end up texting nick and Chris about the situation. Haley comes to you with your big 3 bags. ‘Do you need some help?’ You giggle the slightest bit seeing her struggle with the big bags. ‘I do actually.’ She starts giggling with you.

You enter her big house that you remember easily. You turn around and look at her face with again that comforting smile on her face. ‘I’m so glad you could pick me up.’ ‘Always here like I promised.’ She walks up at you with a smile and hugs you, she slightly pets you on the head. ‘You’ll be okay ml.’ She is everything you could wish for.

After the most comforting hug you’ve ever had you help her with your bags and bringing them upstairs. When you let the bags fall on her bedroom floor. You walk over to her bed a fall down on it. Your now looking at her filled ceiling, but your not thinking about the filled ceiling your thinking about Matt and what the last thing he said was. You roll over, and start sobbing again. Haley comes into the room with the last 2 bags and quickly drops them on the floor, ‘hey hey! Come here.’ She sits down on the bed and picks you up to give you another hug. ‘Do you wanna smoke? It helps you forget your thoughts for a while.’ She says, you’ve never smoked before but you’re gonna do anything to forget him for a while. ‘I really do but I’ve never done it.’ ‘I’ll learn you.’

About 10 minutes later you’ve learned how to smoke and it really does helps to forget Matt. ‘I love this so much it’s really relaxing.’ You look at Hayley with a smile and she just simply smiles back, ‘Ofcourse anything for you.’

Suddenly you hear your phone buzz, your heart drops. ‘It’s Matt’ you say out loud, you haven’t blocked him yet. You just couldn’t, ‘come again?’ Hayley looks at you with a shocked face, ‘your not serious right?’ You can’t do anything, your just stuck in a sitting position with still a cigarette in your hand. ‘He’s saying sorry.’ You click on the notification and you type “it’s okay” even though you know it’s happy hour, (he always had one hour when he was drunk when he suddenly started to act affectionate) but someone is also looking at your phone. ‘Yeah no we’re not doing this he’s obviously not, give me your phone.’ You are still so in shock and still so in love, he has done everything for you. He was the one. ‘We are definitely gonna ignore this message till tomorrow, let’s see if he deletes it. That’s when we know when it’s real.’ ‘Okay.’ You look down at your legs, I think he really means it tho. ‘Hey it’s for the better okay?’ ‘Should we watch a movie?’ ‘Yes.’ Your face lightened up a little bit even though all you could think about is the “im sorry” text. ‘You can choose.’ You pick one of her favorites.

During the movie she suddenly asks, ‘not to rude or anything or bring it up like this but why did you choose him.’ She asks you with a curious but also with furrowed eyebrows. ‘I just kinda knew, he was always there for me. But he suddenly changed idk what happened.’ ‘I’m so sorry for asking about it.’ ‘No it’s okay.’ Your eyes are watering and she hugs you tight once again. Your still crying ‘I just want a good explanation idk I just still love him so much…’ ‘a-and im afraid I won’t let go.’ ‘I’ll help you through it all ml’ she’s a little taller then you so she looks down at you with a little smile.

Its finally the morning and you wake up with Haley smiling at you with a little breakfast table with all your favorite food on it. ‘Oh my god Hayley you’re the best!’ You just opened your eyes so your voice is raspy asf. A wide smile appears on your face. ‘Ofcourse my lady anything for you.’ She does a little bow what makes you giggle, ‘no but fr thank you.’ ‘Anytime. Alright I let you eat your breakfast and do your thing, I’m going to the store rq do you want me to bring you something?’ ‘No I’m good thank you.’ You both give each other another smile and she walks out of the door.

About three minutes later you hear the front door close with a bang. You immediately look at your phone, is this even a good idea? Yes I need fucking answers. You open your phone and the “I’m sorry” message is gone.

- I know your not sorry, why should you be? Cus who am I to be in love, when your love never is for me … me -

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[realcube]

class 1-A’s love languages headcanons 💕

tw// swearing, crying, she/her reader

Yuuga Aoyama

his love language is words of affirmation

like tell him that he looks fabulous but he is also a talented hero 

and. he. will. die. 

of happiness ofc 🥰

and whenever you are feelin’ insecure he’ll do a pretend fashion show with you to boost you spirits (o゜▽゜)o☆

Mina Ashido

her love language is physical touch

but not in a *holds your hand 🥺* *kithes🥰* sorta way

but rather in a

“YOU’RE SO FKN CUTE, (Y/N)!!!” *aggressively pinches your cheeks*

and whenever she kisses/hugs you, it’s always a surprise attack form behind

she is also 159cm in height (almost 5″3)

so if you are shorter than her, she’ll sprint up to you and before you have time to react, she’ll engulf you in her arms

if you are around the same height as her, she’ll sneak up to you and try to jump onto your back, peppering you in neck kisses

and if you are taller than her, she’ll grab your hand and place a kiss on the back of it 

Tsuyu Asui

i think her love language is gift giving 

but not typically gifts from the store

it’s usually cute flowers or any sort of pretty flora that she finds on her walks 

and she’ll sometimes come to your room just before lights-out and hand you a shiny rock or a colourful flower like “hi, (y/n). i found this flower in the park a nd it reminded me of you. so here, i hope you like it.”

then you cry (❤´艸｀❤) it’s too precious

also when she visits your dorm, she notices that you have a jar filled with all the flowers she’s every gave you and shE BRAIDS THEM INTO YOUR HAIR

and if you don’t have hair, she makes you a flower crown out of them

Tenya Iida

the king of gifts periodt ✋

to him, gift giving is kinda like a sport and if it was, he’d definitely be winning

he’ll be out getting groceries or sumn then he’ll pass the candy aisle and just *flashback to 3 months ago when y’all were studying together and you randomly said you were craving sour patch kids*

then he buys two packs of sour patch kids (❤ ω ❤)

so obviously excels during holidays like christmas, valentines day or your birthday 

and if you make it explicitly clear that you need something (ex. water, medication, cutlery, soap etc.) and you will go get it in x amount of day(s)

expect it to be in your hands within 1-9 hours 

“Iida, you didn’t have to rush out to get me Ibuprofen - I was going to go get some in a few days anyway.”

“Yes, but as a hero in training, you must agree that seeing your partner potentially suffer to due a preventable cause would be inhumane.”

“I-..”

Ochaco Uraraka

her love language is probably quality time

OR words of affirmation BUT ONLY ONLINE

like irl she loves going on lil’ picnic dates with you or dates to go watch the sunset or star-gazing..or literally anything where she gets to spend as much time in your presence as possible

you could literally take her on a date inside the sewers and she’d be like 🥰

in the moment (during the date) she just looks at you and wants to tell you how beautiful you are but she is way too nervous

but as soon you leave she texts you sumn like ‘OMG >< YOU ARE SO GORGEOUS 😍 AND I WANTED TO TELL YOU SO BAD BUT I COULDN’T 😩’ 

also, hypothetically, if she had a phone which supported social media platforms like Instagram and Snapchat 

she would definitely be the sort of girl to post cute candid pics of you on any special occasion and i mean ANY

like she doesn’t want to just random post pics of you bc she thinks that’d be weird so she looks for any excuse she can

deadass she’d post a beach pic of you and her on her insta with a caption like, ‘happy pancake day to @y/n.l/n 🥰💖 on our first date we shared a stack of pancakes so this is a really special day for us 💓 i’m so blessed to have a stunning, smart, amazing gal like her by my side always 💕’

Mashirao Ojiro 

he’s a physical touch kinda guy

sometimes he’ll randomly drape his tail over your shoulder to pull you close

or he’ll pat your head with either his hand or tail when ever you do anything remotely impressive

“ooh, i’ve apparently taken 17k steps so far today, ojiro.” 

then he’d be like “that’s good” *pat pat* 

he also gets butterflies whenever you hug his arm or tail while he is talking to someone

AND HE WILL KISS YOUR WOUND BETTER IF YOU GET A PAPER CUT OR SUMN

Denki Kaminari 

bb is blushing profusely when you hand him a pikachu plushie , saying it reminded you of him

before that, he was probably a physical touch sorta guy but once he realised how awesome and special that simple action made him feel, he became a gift-giver 

however, 99.9% the gift is a plushie and the other 0.1% it’s a doll

(he literally bought a whole fkn barbie bc you owned a dress similar to the one the doll was wearing)

“it looks exactly like you!” 

“i don’t think so..” “it literally does!”

anyway, whether he is at the mall, in the town, in a gift shop or at the carnival, if he sees something that he knows you’d like or that reminds him of you, he’ll stop at nothing to get his hands on it

flashback to that one time at the carnival, there was a stall that had a huge fkn Kuromi plushie up for grabs 

so he asked the lady running the stall if he could have it and she said it was all his, if he could get a ball into the basket 3 times in a row

-- my man was sTANDING THERE DESPERATELY TRYING FOR 30 MINUTES STRAIGHT 😭

and once he figured he couldn’t do it on his own, he got the bakusquad to help him out 

(bakugo was all like ‘i’m not helping you, dumbass’ but kirishima convinces him to give it a shot and as soon as he misses on the third shot, he is livid.)

(”YOUR STUPID PARTY GAME MUST BE BROKEN, LADY!”)

anyway, after an hour of holding up the line, the lady just gave the plush to kaminari for ¥1000 

but it was all worth it after he saw how thrilled you were 🥺

he came round to your dorm one day and noticed every plushie he had ever given you, sitting on your bed 

you told him that they help you sleep and he just..died..

IT MADE HIM SO FKN HAPPY TO THINK THAT YOU TREASURE HIS GIFTS SO MUCH (≧▽≦*)

Eijirou Kirishima

his love language is words of affirmation imo but with a sprinkle of physical touch 

like whenever he sees you looking nice or sumn..he’ll just tell you

he has no shame and why should he? he’s just telling the truth

if you walk into the room looking ✨immaculate✨ he will tell you 

he’s just like ‘if nobody else is going to say it then I will.’

when your face lights up after he has just told you that you’re beautiful or that you’re one of the most likeable people he’s ever met; it makes his day every. single. time.

the sprinkle of physical touch is because he tells  you what he is thinking all the time

and he thinks you’re stunning even when you are lounging around the dorm complex in casual wear and no makeup

so he’s aware that he might’ve watered down his compliments a bit by saying them too often 

(even though he’s telling the truth every time)

so he likes to give you hugs and kisses to express his affection without  seeming like he’s buttering you up

Kouji Kouda

honestly, idek which category he falls under bc he does so many different things to show his love

like, he’ll use his quirk to get a butterfly to land on your head so you can take the perfect photo for instagram

he always holds your hand in crowded areas so y’all don’t lose each other

(he would end up crying in the corner of a Hot Topic or sumn if he couldn’t find you tbh)

he writes mini-love notes v. late at night and uses his quirk to get an insect or bird to carry it up to your room

religiously takes you out on dates to the park

or library/study dates (p≧w≦q)

Rikidou Satou

acts of service but mostly to do with baking

if his s/o doesn’t like sweet treats then..it just..can’t work

he’s very good at noticing when you are down and what he bakes depends on the severity of the situation

like, if you’re just a bit bummed because you got a bad mark on a test, he’ll bake cupcakes and leave a few outside your dorm

obvs accompanied by a cute lil note abt how proud you make him and how you’re the most diligent person he’s met so he knows that you’ll succeed if you just persevere

and as soon as you come to him with your improved mark, he’ll bake you a cake with ‘congratulations, (Y/N).’ written on it

Mezou Shouji

acts of service. but like..service service

he treats you like royalty-

he is the kind of bf to give you his jacket if you’re cold

he can and will use his quirk to form more arms just so he can hold your bags along with his own

if you enter is dorm and he doesn’t offer to take your jacket immediately then i’m sorry to inform you but that is not shouji..that is toga in disguise 

you’ll never have to open a door if you are walking next to him and don’t you dare even try to 

just an overall gentleman tbh 

sometimes you try to get him to stop being so kind bc you’re afraid ppl will think you treat him like a butler 

so he’ll be like “sure ..

i’ll hold just your gym bag rather than your gym bag and school bag.”

“don’t hold any bags, shouji..”

Kyouka Jirou

her love language is definitely quality time

there is nothing she loves more than vibing with you in her room - whether y’all are studying, cuddling, playing videos games or something else - while chill music plays in the background, either from a playlist or from her playing it herself on one of her instruments 

and sometimes when she’s feeling especially comfortable, she might hum a tune or sing some lyrics to match the mood

she asks you for suggestions for music to put on bc she loves introducing herself to new music

but when you’re concentrated,  she doesn’t want to disturb you so she just puts on a playlist she made prior 

she doesn’t create a new playlist each time you hang out but there is at least 10 new songs added to it every day 

the playlist is called ‘lazy days w/ (y/n) 💕’

anyway, she just loves hanging out with you bc you’re one of the very few people who don’t annoy tf out of her 

also - she’d never say it aloud but - she thinks you’ve got a very comforting presence and you make her feel so exhilarated whenever you laugh (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ)

Hanta Sero

Sero loves spending as much time with you as possible - hence, he’s a quality time sorta person

but i also think he’s barely a quality time guy bc he expresses his affection in so many different ways

he’s like a mix of 4

( not gift-giving, whenever it comes time to get you gift for whatever occasion, he’s always stumped and ends up asking someone for help)

he preforms acts of service in a sense that if you are both cuddling on the couch and you are cold - even if he seriously can’t be assed to move - he’ll force himself to get up and bring you a blanket

he is really good at compliments bc he barely has a filter so if he sees you looking good, he’ll straight up tell you

plus, he loves seeing your reaction - especially when you get all flustered

and physical touch bc..cuddles :)

to him, there is just something reassuring about having you in his arms

Fumikage Tokoyami 

a quality time man mwah

he doesn’t play music on speakers when y’all hang out though, he just likes to sit with you and either mindlessly chatter or chill in comfortable silence 

he also doesn’t put in earbuds bc he thinks it’s rude 

(you assure him that you don’t mind if he puts his earbuds in but he is always like..no..)

he just loves your company bc he seriously can’t think of somebody he’d rather spend his time with 

also he is convinced that he does things 10 times better with you around

when he’s not with you though, he misses you- like- seriously

sometimes he’s just out with his friends or watching a movie with his family and he is just like ‘this’d be more fun if (Y/N) was here-’

and you said that you missed him too when y’all weren’t together 

so he did the reasonable thing and made you a playlist for you to listen to whenever you missed him ( •̀ ω •́ )

he sent you the link and your heart stopped bc it was literally called ‘i love you 🖤’ AND THAT WAS THE FIRST TIME HE’S EVER TOLD YOU THAT AAAAA

‘you’re so sweet, tokoyami 🥺 i love you tooooo’

and good thing that was over text bc otherwise you would’ve seen him blushing profusely (= ╯▽╰ = )

as for the contents of the playlist; it’s probably quite diverse

some alt pop, some indie, a bit of R&B, pop rock and a lot of Metal/Rock 

Shouto Todoroki

his love language is acts of service

most of them are school related though

he can easily tell if you’re struggling with the coursework and asks you if you want go on a lil study date at the library or in his dorm 

he also helps you with homework or explains the material to you if you don’t understand it

and he’s the best teacher since he’s extremely patient and well-spoken

if you’re feeling under the weather, he’ll head to your dorm to fetch your notebook so he can write the class notes for you 

and he’ll put in the effort to make them as similar to your other notes as he can

so he flicks through the pages and (for example) if you have a highlighting code, he’ll look for the legend and highlight the notes he took accordingly 

once school is over for the day, he goes to your dorm to drop off the notebook, putting it back in the respective part of your bag

and the next day when you open your notebook to check the notes, you notice that he wrote a little note for you;

‘get well soon 💛’ 

it was a simple, kind gesture but the small details like how he coloured in the heart with a glittery yellow highlighter he must’ve took from your bag had you blushing (^///^)

also, whenever you’ve scheduled a study date at his dorm, there is no way in hell you’ll walk into his room and there isn’t 2 bowls of fresh soba sitting on the desk

no way. impossible.

(or if you don’t like noodles, then two bowls of rice.) 

Tooru Hagakure

physical touch bb

she just likes you to know that she is there 

also she loves how soft your skin is ^^

she really likes surprise hugging you from behind and you’d think that she’d be very good at that considering that she is.. invisible.. but she’s really not

she has very unique and recognisable voice 

and whenever she creeps up behind you, she’s always snickering quite loudly 

but you like seeing her happy when she thinks she surprised you so you just think to yourself ‘get ready to pretend to be shocked’ 

so as soon as she wraps her arms around you and goes ‘boo!’, you jump and always say the same stupid line you wish you would   stop using but it just comes out naturally

“ope, didn’t see you there, tooru.”

but it makes her laugh every time so maybe it’s not such a bad habit

Katsuki Bakugo

he’s definitely a physical touch kinda guy but tries to be an acts of service man..y’know?

he doesn’t want you thinking that he likes hugging, cuddling, kisses or any of that none-sense bc..he is a big macho king explosion murder 

and he knows that if he gets to comfortable with showing affection through physical touch, it’d become a habit then he might do it in public and the last thing he wanted was a rumour coming out that ‘king explosion murder is actually a huge cuddle-bug dork!’

so he hides it the best he can and expresses his love by like letting you wear his hoodie and not cussing you out when you do something stupid

but the fact is, nothing makes him feel better than holding you in his arms - under a blanket or not -  with your face buried into his chest and your arm lazing draped over his shoulder

he usually does a good job at resisting his urge to randomly kiss you or take your hand in public

but there was that one time

luckily, it was on a date rather than on a school outing so it was only you who knows about it 

it was probably around 6 months after y’all first started dating and he took you on a date to the carnival

there was a gang of boys who looked around a few years older than y’all and they were chatting amongst themselves until they approached the line you and Bakugo were waiting in (to get onto a ride at the carnival) and the group of boys stood behind you in line

at first everything was alright; they were just chatting while you were raving on about the ride to bakugo but he kinda tuned you out after he heard one of the guys say something along the lines of

“she’s kinda hot- a bit young but so fit. i think she’s from the UA too.”

that comment was enough to make his blood boil but a separate comment from one of the other guys tipped him over the edge,

“yeah and look at the guy she’s with. he’s the feral guy that needed to be put in chains at the sports festival - how embarassing.” he snickered, which was genuinely one of the most annoying noises bakugo has ever heard

his voice was low, in a whisper so they probably didn’t expect bakugo to hear it over the background noise of the carnival along with the girl yapping in his ear

but he did

and when i tell you this man was livid 

in that moment he seriously considered just turning around and burning each and every one of those guys into a crisp

but the law-abiding citizen and hero inside him said no 

instead, he fiercely snaked his arms around your hips to pull you into his chest and looked over his shoulders to shoot literal daggers at the guys

he led you out of the line for the ride in silence and you followed him without question - having heard the things those guys said but choosing to pretend as if you didn’t 

“What was that about?” You finally asked as he brought you over to a bench, pulling you onto his lap

“Nothing.” He said, oddly calm as he stared into the void

“Okay.” You rolled your eyes, deciding not to pry as you obviously already knew what provoked him to do that. “I’m gonna go get some cotton candy then. Do you want some?”

“No.” He replied monotonously, allowing you to hop off his knee but immediately grabbing your hand, preventing you from going any farther than arms length from him.

“you needy cow.” you giggled, playfully kicking his shin, “I’m so hungry - let me go!” 

“No.” He replied in the same monotone voice. “I can’t be assed to move.”

You leaned back, pulling your whole weight backwards to try get Bakugo to release his grip on your hand and eventually he gave in and got up, sluggishly following you to go get cotton candy 

you gleefully popped some of the delectable fluff into your mouth before sneaking some into bakugo’s mouth too.

 “are you gonna let go of my hand any time soon?” you asked, wanting to hold the bag of cotton candy for yourself but instead having one hand interlocked with his and the other being used to rip small pieces off as Bakugo held the bag in his spare hand 

“No.”

[(a/n): not the over-used jealousy trope 🙊]

Izuku Midoriya 

definitely a words of affirmation kinda guy

bc he knows what it’s like to have to go through life with barely anyone besides your mother telling you that your great and that you’re worthy. it’s depressing and traumatic and he wouldn’t wish that misery on his worst enemy 

so he’s like your personal hypeman :)

making sure that you always feel appreciated, confident and loved 

during the sports festival or anything similar, he’s always louder than the cheerleaders when it comes to your turn to shine

“GO, (Y/N)! YOU’RE SO POWERFUL, YOU CAN DO THIS! I BELIEVE IN YOU! REMEMBER TO BREATHE!”

slightly embarrassing for him but when he sees you smile confidently back at him, every ounce of embarrassment melts away and he is just filled with joy

he gets really emotional sometimes as well 

but not like ‘you just faced an opponent and won bc one all your hard work and training - i am so proud of you’ sorta emotional

but like ‘omg you walked into his dorm wearing a new dress and you look really beautiful and you smiled at him so emotions wash over him and he just cries bc he realises how lucky he is to have you.’

he loves to receive words of admiration from you too though

one time you wrote him a birthday card and signed it off as ‘the future wife of the #1 pro-hero’

and as badly as you wanted to just sign it as ‘from the future pro-hero 😘’

you didn’t bc you knew how happy the other option would make him

Minoru Mineta

idk perversion ig?

wait no his love language is titties and/or ass

Momo Yaoyorozu

gift. giving. 

like you have no idea how much serotonin she gets when she sees you overjoyed at gift she gives you

bc in her mind she knows that it was her that made you that happy and no amount of trophies will ever compare to how accomplished she feels for being the reason behind your smile 

she’s a QUEEN 👑 UGH 😩💓

[some-days-we-get-sundays]

Full of shit and in too deep.  A Wildmoore fic

This is a prompt request that I got from @aliyahtheghost : “Sophie and Ryan have been messing around for a couple months when Kate Kane returns. Sophie basically breaks up with Ryan. Ryan is heartbroken while Sophie can’t stop thinking about Ryan while with Kate. What will Sophie do?.” So I didn’t completely fulfill this because I do not want Sophie breaking up with Ryan for Kate and also didn’t want to write Sophie and Kate being romantic. I tired to make it similar to what you asked. <3 If y’all like imagine me and you please read to the end I know it’s long ish but I’m geeked about the ending.

Ryan lets out a soft whimper as she feels Sophie pepper delicate kisses onto her neck. Ryan tilts her head back against the pillow and then drops her right hand into Sophie’s hair to keep Sophie’s head and lips in place against her neck. She runs her fingers through Sophie’s hair while Sophie darts out her tongue against Ryan’s throat. She licks and then sucks Ryan’s skin; leaving wet marks and eventual hickeys in her wake. 

“FUCK, Sophie!” Ryan mutters while biting her own lip to keep from yelling out again. Sophie chuckles against Ryan’s throat and the vibration of her laugh nearly sends Ryan over the edge. Ryan and Sophie were playing one of Ryan’s favorite games. It was sort of like too hot, where they see who can get the other hot before they have to just rip each others clothes off. Ryan always loses and starts unbuttoning Sophie’s pants or trying to take off Sophie’s top within minutes. Sophie thinks Ryan doesn’t even try very hard to win. 

Sophie feels Ryan start to move her hands towards Sophie’s button on her pants. Instead of letting Ryan have her way, Sophie takes Ryan’s hands and pins them over the top of Ryan’s head. Sophie looks down into Ryan’s eyes and Ryan gazes back up at Sophie’s almond hues. When this happens, it’s not just lust, rawness, and sex anymore; It’s passion, love, trust, and care. Sometimes Ryan and Sophie kid themselves. They pretend that what they’re doing is just casual, light, fun. No feelings. No, “where is this going, what are we” questions. When they hold each others gazes in this way however, they both know they are full of shit and in too deep.

Sophie rolls off the top of Ryan and then lies on her side. Ryan immediately rolls over and spoons Sophie from behind, snaking her arm around Sophie’s midsection. Sophie thinks it’s funny that Ryan is so small but loves to be the big spoon. They do this often too. Lie in stillness with each other. Their breathing and heartbeats slowly synch up and dance in a melodic rhythm, and it’s the only sound in the room. 

Suddenly there is a knock at Sophie’s front door. Sophie untangles herself from Ryan and shuts the bedroom door behind her as she goes to see who the visitor is. Sophie is happy that she is still fully clothed so that whoever is at the door isn’t kept waiting. 

Sophie opens the door and her breath catches, she puts her hand to her chest instinctively. 

“Kate.” Sophie says. Sophie looks back to the room that Ryan is currently occupying. Then she looks back to Kate who is standing in her doorway with her motorcycle helmet under one arm. Sophie runs a hand through her hair,  attempting to nonchalantly fix up her appearance so she doesn’t look like she was just fooling around with someone. Not that it would be Kate’s business if she was. Kate left. 

“Hi Sophie.” Kate says. 

Sophie and Kate stand like this for what feels like several minutes. Sophie, not moving to let Kate in, and Kate seeming unsure of what to do as she stands across from Sophie in the doorway. 

“I uh, I would invite you in but now is not a good time.” Sophie says. Sophie doesn’t want to tell Kate that she has company. She prays that Ryan stays in the room and doesn’t come out to see who is at the door. They aren’t hiding their— whatever they are. No they aren’t hiding but now is not the time to tell Kate that she is messing around with Ryan. How would Kate even react. 

“I’m sorry, I should have called first. That was rude of me.” Kate offers. 

“Why are here, Kate?” Sophie doesn’t mean for this to sound so sharp. But she also offers no apology for her tone.

“I made a mistake leaving you the way I did. It was stupid. I don’t know if we can, perhaps, I don’t know, maybe start over? Or we could pick up where we left off? You thought I was dead Sophie, and then it turns out I’m not dead and instead of staying I rush off to go find Bruce. That was a dick move.” Kate finishes. She shifts on her feet. Sophie can tell she wants to be invited in. 

“Yeah.” Sophie says. What else is she supposed to say. Kate ripped out her heart and yeah it was a dick move. 

“Ok... I’m gonna go see if I can stay with Mary for the night. Hopefully it will be ok with Ryan, I don’t want to impose. Maybe we can get coffee tomorrow?” Kate says, seeming to finally get the hint that Sophie is not going to let her in tonight. Sophie’s heart picks up at the mention of Ryan’s name. 

“Ryan’s not over there.” Sophie says quickly. Then she immediately regrets saying anything. Kate gives her a look. Sophie tries to explain. 

“I mean, I uh, I think she said she was gonna be out tonight. Doing bat stuff or something.” Sophie was never that great of a liar. Kate gives her another look. Sophie tries to breathe.

“So you two are pretty close then huh?” Kate randomly says. 

Sophie sputters. “Um oh, yeah, no. I mean yeah, Ryan’s cool. We didn’t get along at first but, yeah. I like her now. I mean she likes me now. I mean like we are friends now because I’m not with the Crows trying to arrest her and she’s well, you know, she’s Batwoman.” Sophie let’s out a forced raspy laugh, feeling mortified at her explanation of Ryan. 

“Ok well, I’ll uh, I’ll text you tomorrow morning when I get up and we can grab that coffee.” Kate says. She hovers at the door and then she lunges forward and wraps Sophie in a hug. Sophie returns the hug. Kate steps back, waves goodbye, and then she is gone. Sophie closes the door and leans her head against it. 

“So, Kate’s back.” Ryan says. Sophie jumps and then whips her head around to see a sleepy looking Ryan who has changed into sleep shorts and one of Sophie’s old military shirts. The shirt is too small on Ryan’s shorter muscular frame, it rides up and has turned into some what of a crop top on her. 

“Are you ok?” Ryan asks. Sophie’s heart melts just a bit. Instead of Ryan being accusatory, or being upset with Sophie, her first thought is worry and concern over Sophie’s well being. 

“Yeah. Yeah, I’m ok. That was just, weird.” Sophie says. Sophie walks towards Ryan and stands in front of her. She reaches out and lightly tugs down on the shirt Ryan is wearing. Then she goes to the couch and Ryan follows her. 

“So what did she want?” Ryan asks. 

Sophie sighs. “She wants to get coffee I guess. Says she misses me.” 

“I can imagine.” Ryan says softly. Sophie looks up at Ryan and then tucks a strand of hair behind Ryan’s ear. She brings her hand down and let’s her thumb lazily touch Ryan’s bottom lip in the process.

“Should I go? Should I go have coffee with her? I told her I would but—” Sophie trails off. 

“Why not?” Ryan says. Sophie eyes Ryan. 

“I don’t really have anything to say to her, Ryan. I mean, I can’t have her coming in and out of my life whenever she pleases.” Sophie says. Ryan puts her hand on Sophie’s shoulder and then starts rubbing Sophie’s back. 

“Maybe just see what she wants, get closure or something? I don’t know.” Ryan says. She then stops rubbing Sophie’s back and adjusts her body so that she is lying down with her head resting in Sophie’s lap. Sophie’s hand immediately drops to Ryan’s head to play with her hair. 

“I know what she wants, Ryan. She wants to get back together. I mean I really think she thought she could just waltz back in here and come into my life again; as if I’ve just been frozen in time waiting for her, like some lap dog. Sometimes I think that’s what she thinks of me. The girl who is just going to wait around for Kate Kane to come riding back on her white knight motorcycle and save everybody. I’m not that girl anymore, Ryan. I mean, I quit the Crows. She didn’t even ask me about that. She didn’t ask me about my life at all. Does she care what I’ve been up to, what I’ve been through? What we have all been through?” Sophie waits for an answer from Ryan. When no answer comes, she looks down and see’s Ryan’s eyes are closed and she’s breathing slow, deep and steady. She’s fallen asleep. Sophie smiles to herself and continues running her fingers through Ryan’s tresses. She pulls a near by blanket over them and then reaches for a book that is on her coffee table. She tries to focus on her book but all she can think about is Kate’s impromptu visit and whether or not she should grab coffee with her extremely flighty ex. 

“I’m glad you decided to meet me Sophie. I was worried you would back out.” Kate says as she brings their coffees to a table that Sophie is leading them to. Kate sets the drinks down and her and Sophie sit in their respective chairs across from one another. As soon as they sit, Sophie bites down on the blueberry muffin that she ordered so that she doesn’t have to answer Kate right away. She watches as Kate blows on her coffee and takes a timid sip. 

“Ok Sophie, I’m just going to say it. I want you back. I want us back. I’m really sorry for the way that I left. I had so much on my mind and I didn’t know how to handle it. I had to get away to process everything.” Kate said. 

Sophie takes a deep breath. “I understand that Kate. But, you can’t just keep coming and going. I want closure. I want to move on from this time in my life. I want to close up these wounds and you, you just keep pouring salt on them.” Sophie looks up to see Kate’s reaction to her words. Kate looks taken aback. 

“Sophie–” Kate starts.

“Look, Kate. I know it is not your fault, what happened to you, and what they did to you. And I’d love to be here for you as a, as a friend but I’m not ready to be with— no. It’s not that I’m not ready. I don’t want to be with you in that way, Kate.” Sophie says. Sophie looks apologetic, but she also looks determined, fierce, confident, older. This Sophie was different from the one that Kate knew.  

“It’s Ryan isn’t it.” Kate says suddenly. Sophie’s heart leaps out of her chest. How the hell did Kate put that one together. 

“What’s Ryan?” Sophie says, not wanting to offer anything up and waiting to see what else Kate was going to say. 

“Come on Sophie, you know you’ve always been an awful liar. She was there with you last night wasn’t she.” Kate says. It wasn’t a question. Sophie shifts in her chair and looks out the window. None of this was Kate’s business. 

“Do you love her?” Kate asks. Sophie stays quiet. Her and Ryan hadn’t even discussed what they were yet, no way was she going to be giving Kate this tea. 

“Ok, you don’t have to tell me.” Kate says in that smug way she always says and does everything. Like she knows better than everyone, like she knows people better than they know themselves. “I guess that’s what Ryan meant when she said her and I had more in common than I knew.” Kate says. 

“I’m a different person than I was when I was with you Kate. I’m not going to get into what is going on with me and Ryan because that’s not any of your business, but I’m not going to hurt Ryan, I refuse to hurt her actually, and I would never betray her trust. Even if it wasn’t for Ryan, you and me just can’t work out. We want different things and we are at extremely different points in our lives. I can’t keep living in the past. I want to move forward. You’re my past Kate, and it is something that is part of me, but it’s not my story. You know, you’ve not asked me once about what has been going on since you’ve been gone. It doesn’t feel like you want to know the new me, it feels like you want to hang onto the old me. But the old me wasn’t happy, the old me was hiding in the closet, scared to be out, scared to tell my mom who I really was. The old me was sneaking around, scared to be myself. The old me was stupidly dedicated to the Crows, so much so that it almost got me and my friends killed!” Sophie says the last parts of her speech breathlessly. Kate looks shocked and confused. 

“See, you don’t even know all the things that have happened. And again, I don’t blame you Kate. You came back from the dead, you had other fish to fry. But that’s just it. Us and timing. Even with you coming back now. It was not good timing, and I don’t think it ever will be.” Sophie says. She starts sipping her coffee now that she was sure it had cooled down. She watches Kate. 

“Well that settles it then, doesn’t it.” Kate says.

“Kate—” Sophie tries, she doesn’t want to end on a sour note. 

“No, no I’m not mad Sophie. I appreciate your honesty.” Kate gulps the last of her coffee and stands up. Sophie takes this as her que to stand as well. Sophie cleans up her crumbs into a napkin and crumples it in her hand. Kate takes their empty coffee mugs up to the front counter. They walk out to the parking lot. Sophie looks around for Kate’s motorcycle and then sees it parked some feet away, sun glistening on the handle bars. Sophie puts her hand above her eyes to shield the sun. 

“Ryan is lucky to have you, kid.” Kate says. She regards Sophie with a look and then starts off towards her motorcycle. 

“I’m pretty lucky myself, actually.” Sophie says to Kate and then smiles to herself.

“You always did like your women in suits.” Kate says. She continues walking towards her motorcycle and then turns around and gives Sophie the two finger salute. Sophie smiles and watches as Kate gets on her bike, puts her helmet over her head, revves up the engine and then takes off. Sophie hates to admit it but she hopes it’s the last time that she sees Kate. at least for a while. She wasn’t lying when she said they could be friends, she also wasn’t lying when she said she refused to hurt Ryan and break Ryan’s trust. Sophie jumps into her car and heads back to her place, on the way she calls Ryan to see if she will meet her there. 

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Sophie enters her place and see’s Ryan lounging on the couch watching some Batman cartoon, she’d figured when she told Ryan to meet her here that Ryan would get there first and let herself in. She gave Ryan a key a couple of weeks ago and it’s been fun to come home to someone that she cares so much about. It’s still blows her mind that only a year ago her and Ryan couldn’t stand each other. And now Ryan was all over Sophie’s place. In Sophie’s bed, on Sophie’s couch, on Sophie’s shirts, in Sophie’s arms.

“Hey Soph! How cool is it that I’m literally watching Batman, and I’m freakin Batwoman bish!” 

Sophie laughs. “Pretty cool, babe.” Ryan looks up and smirks at Sophie and the pet name that just slipped out of Sophie’s mouth. Ryan sits up and pauses the TV. 

“How is Kate?” Ryan asks. Sophie takes off her shoes and coat and goes to sit next to Ryan on the couch. 

“Kate’s... Kate. She’s gone again.” Sophie says and rolls her eyes. 

“Are we, are we mad about this?” Ryan asks. She is not sure how Sophie is feeling but wants to support her in whatever way she can. 

“Gosh no.” Sophie says briskly. Ryan says nothing and Sophie continues. 

“Kate wanted to get back together and I shut it down. She uh, she actually kind of guessed that something was going on between you and I, I didn’t really confirm it completely but she seemed to know anyway. I didn’t give her details.” Sophie says hesitantly, trying to register Ryan’s reactions. Ryan still says nothing, she just looks at Sophie with those rich, deep brown eyes of hers and Sophie has to look away because sometimes Ryan is just... Ryan is so raw and fragile at times that it makes Sophie ache. Sophie swears that one day she is going to drown in a pool of Ryan Wilder’s eyes. 

Ryan finally speaks. “So, Kate suspected that something was going on between you and me and that bitch still tried to shoot her shot!” Ryan says pretending to be extremely incensed. Sophie sniggers at Ryan’s antics. 

“She kept trying to pry but I didn’t want to tell her.” Sophie says. Ryan looks confused. 

“You didn’t want to tell her what?” Ryan says. 

“I didn’t want to tell her how crazy I am about you. I mean I did want to tell her. I want to tell everyone! But I thought you should be the first to know how I feel.” Sophie says. She puts her hand on top of Ryan’s hand. 

“And uh, how do you feel?” Ryan quietly asks. Sophie’s answer comes in the form of her lips on Ryan’s lips. Ryan’s eyes flutter shut and Sophie places her hand behind Ryan’s head to deepen the kiss. They break apart and lean their foreheads together. 

“Sorry, I didn’t catch that, can you repeat it? How do you feel?” Ryan jokes. Instead of another kiss, Sophie wraps Ryan up in a hug, placing her hand on Ryan’s head and pulling her into her chest. They fall back onto the couch. 

“I feel like everything that happens from here on just proves that you have been right in that first moment. When you suddenly realize that you were incomplete and now you are whole...” Sophie says, almost to herself. 

“Not you quoting Imagine Me & You.” Ryan laughs and buries her head into the crook of Sophie’s arm. Sophie laughs and then there is a comfortable lull in the conversation, where their breathing and heartbeats synch up once more. 

“I dare you to love me.” Sophie barely says above a whisper. 

“I just might.” Ryan responds back quietly, her head resting on Sophie’s chest. 

“Don’t forget me, Soph.” Ryan says softly after a few beats.  

“I won’t remember anything else.” Sophie says.

The two of them lie there for a while like that. Ryan drifting in and out of sleep, and Sophie playing with Ryan’s hair. Sophie’s eyes dance around her own living room as if seeing it for the first time. She looks at her coffee table, empty except for the book laying there and she decides that tomorrow she is going to purchase some fresh lilies. Sophie, feeling more content, more alive, and more like herself than she’s ever felt before, glances down at a peacefully sleeping Ryan Wilder on her chest and smiles.

[bisluthq]

this is like really random but i have to vent. so basically i’m 20 years old and in my second-year at a uk university. and like i had the worst first-year of my life, made no friends, and got long covid plus really bad depression so yeah it wasn’t great. and now im back at uni i just am really feeling my lack of experience. iv never even properly kissed anyone let alone had sex and all the drinking games etc revolve around sex. i’m pretty sure i’m bi just like based on what i masturbate to but i’v only ever looked at guys as potential relationships. i just like don’t know how to navigate the social world with no friends and no sexual experience, it just feels impossible. and all my friends from home (1 of which is at uni with me) have boyfriends or at least have had sex. and also clubbing feels totally revolved around sex and kissing. it’s really hard to admit to people that i’m a virgin because people assume i’m a prude or a weirdo when i’m not i just haven’t really had the opportunity. i’m just feeling like such a loser atm. oh aaaand i actually really want a boyfriend rn.

Firstly, this is totally normal and nothing to be ashamed of. There’s no timeline for these things.

Secondly, so this is going to be a long winded Agony AuNat but sometimes I think my best ones are. In a way, this reminds me of a friend I had like 20-21 at uni. Basically we became friends because I caught her forum role playing and I was like “lmaoooo I used to do that too!” and we like bonded over it and like very quickly I began realizing that she did it on the kinds of sites me and my online friends laughed at because they weren’t ⚡️aesthetic⚡️ or sexy. Like this was some high fantasy bullshit lol - no offense also cool - on like ProBoards when we were already in the Jcink era. Anyway no biggie. This girl - a horse girl at 20 still and not in the rich bitch way - proceeded to like… idolize me and obvi y’all know how much I like attention so I loved it. And one night she asked me for advice on how to get kissed because she had been like… really wanting to lose her virginity but things just weren’t happening. I proceeded to give the worst advice ever because I too was just a young un. I said “don’t worry it’s gonna happen for you!!! Like I’m sure your crush likes you!! Don’t stress you’re so pretty and sweet!” And I believed I was saying the right stuff and it comforted her ngl so I was like 👏🏻👏🏻 go Nat you’re the best at giving advice.

Except here’s the problem - it still wasn’t happening. She was going to parties with me and I was like dressing her sluttier like some weird teen romcom movie where I was giving her a makeover and like… no one was biting.

And then - for those who remember the Nat Cinematic Universe - it turned out that rando from my 21st who I randomly fucked? Ya dudes that was her crush lol and she hadn’t told me because she thought I’d figure it out lol and she was mad at me and we sorta stayed friends until I fucked that guy’s friend which was nbd to anyone involved because my bestie fucked him and tbh I fancied the friend because he was this average sized weedy dark haired boy who was very weird looking and she exploded at me and called me a slut and shit and that was that, friendship over.

Unsure what happened next, but the reason I’ve given you this backstory is from my current POV I gave extremely bad advice so I’m gonna try correct with you tonight.

Unless you’re in high school when friends of friends can go between people and say you have a crush, and then you text them and like bam you’re exclusive, you have to work to get ass or make friends. Okay the other exception is if you’re like SUPER hot idk about that life, but tbh probs even then. Life isn’t a teen movie, and you’re not gonna just catch someone’s eye and that’ll be that. Dressing nicely might be part of it, doing your hair and makeup in whatever style you want, and making it clear up front - especially at uni when imo branding™️ matters a lot - what your interests are and such shit all factor in. I’m not saying change who you are because again that’s supremely bad advice: figure out who you are. Figure out what you want to wear (experiment!), who you want to talk to (strike up convos on campus!), what you like doing (try things out!) and - most importantly - what you’re comfortable with. Try drinking - and if you don’t like it, don’t do it. Try flirting - and if you don’t like it, know that you can go from friends to this and not everyone enjoys that. Try clubbing - and if you don’t like it, know that there are a ton of societies you can join on campus and campus events you can go to that don’t revolve around that, so seek those out and find your tribe.

Fundamentally, college is what you make of it.

Which means that like unfortunately my dude, you’ll make a fool of yourself. Probably more than once.

But know that friends won’t manifest and boys won’t manifest unless you make an effort and put yourself out there. Ask people to coffee. Ask people to the pub. Girls, boys, enbies, whoever.

Re the anxiety about “never having done this before” - I think that’s totally normal. But also like lots of other people haven’t and everyone has had a first time. In drinking games you can lie lol. You don’t need to advertise it’s your first time for anything if you’re uncomfortable with it. I didn’t tell my first kiss he was my first kiss lol because it was unnecessary info for him tbh (it wasn’t hs boyfriend even tho I’m pretty sure I was his lol but he was my third 😌).

But you also don’t need to be shy about it because honestly 2nd year uni is so fucking young. It’s not like you’re coming to me as a 40 year old virgin and asking for advice (again no timeline but I’m not there yet so maybe not the right person to give it). Most of the people you’re hanging out with haven’t had a ton of sexual experience either lmao. On my 20th birthday I had been with exactly two people, my Angel boyfriend (in hindsight) hs ex and the Rabbi’s son (literally no one’s Angel boyfriend but hopefully he and his tiny dick are married now and Mazels if so) who I fucked a few days after we broke up to prove a point. I was a bad lay (and remain so with guys unless they’re into The Hiddles Experience, not for lack of opportunities, but because we don’t have to master all things). I also - unlike you - had never masturbated. I’d never had an orgasm. I liked sex with hs ex but couldn’t explain what I liked or why, it was just fun sometimes and other times it wasn’t. (In hindsight with clit action it was fun and with pure thrusting it wasn’t). So the fact that you have wanked already gives you a head start over many of the girls guys will be meeting.

So like… figure out what’s comfortable for you. Try different things out. Walk away when you don’t like it. Never do stuff that goes against your values. Don’t be overly shy in ways that wind up making you uncomfortable, like with the story that started this, and don’t expect these things to happen if you make no effort. That applies to friendships and ass alike. And sometimes what you think will be ass will turn into friendships and sometimes what you think will be friendship will turn into more. Let it. That’s what uni’s for.

Final point: try reduce the pressure of having a boyfriend. It’s fine if it happens, but since as you say you’re not a prude, it’s fine if it doesn’t. It will eventually. Try go into encounters with the open mindedness of “this could be ass, this could be friendship, this could be more” and like clear eyes full hearts can’t lose tbh.

Final final point: join societies. Join all the societies. The best way to both get ass and make friends and make friends discussing the ass you’re getting is by joining societies.

Good luck, hope this helped, love you lots and enjoy this year and the next (and beyond if you choose Honours or postgrad).

[calypsoff]

Ten. Part 3

Passing the blunt back to Chris as my phone vibrated in my hand “if a killer just randomly comes and starts chasing us, what would you do?” looking down at my phone “tell them to take you, you’re worth more than me” Rakim has text me back fast, side eyeing Chris “you an ass, I can imagine that too” unlocking my phone.

Rakim: Moving fast haha gotchu

Robyn: had to let you know!

Rakim: Appreciate it

“Still text your ex?” Chris asked, I knew he would, but I am not hiding it “yes, I had to let him know that I am dating again. I mean I didn’t need to let him know but I did because it was so close to each other, I didn’t want him to think it was him and I did while we were together. I mean I did kind of but whatever” I shrugged locking my phone “let me text Seiko and let her know then” placing my phone in my pocket laughing lightly “I am playing, I get it. Y’all are friends but he doesn’t need to know anything now, but if you are fucking with your ex in any way. Meaning you met him at the studio, I would like to know. I don’t want to be no dickhead, that shit alone will piss me off. I just have to get used to it but I would like to know. I will let that slide, I get it. It was close” that is me being told, I will make sure to tell him, I don’t want to annoy him “I promise” unlocking my phone again, tapping on Instagram, aiming my camera up at the stars. Pressing record and zoomed in “you and I will always be, I fuck with Mariah Carey a lot” Chris is still singing Mariah Carey which made me laugh, stopping the recording “you ruined my video” laughing at him “I got vocals” that strain of weed is strong, and he’s had more then I, he looks so faded. Adding a caption ‘Get you a man that sings Mariah Carey to you under the stars’ adding it to my story “you going upstairs now?” Chris asked “if this you saying we are having sex then yes I am going upstairs” getting up from the steps, Chris let out a deep chuckle before slapping my butt, I yelped out “I am coming, go on” I didn’t get waxed for nothing, he better give good.

Chris may take his time so let me just take a picture of the things he got me “oh shit” the bear has his name on his foot, looking around the bed, his tee. Rushing over, grabbing his tee and placing it on the foot of the bear, placing the hood over its head. Chris doesn’t understand how much he has done for me, how happy he has actually made me, I am more in love with him now, I mean it is weird to say that but I feel more in love with him now, that is still weird to be saying that. Stepping back, aiming my camera at the bed of things for me. Taking a picture of it, I will post this. Tapping next to add a caption ‘Meet son son! We gon put him to bed so momma can get some…… sleep tonite!’ pressing send on the picture, walking over to the bear and picking it up. There is a mirror in the corner, cute. Tapping the plus sign on Instagram, aiming my camera up to the mirror and wrapping my arm around the bear, placing my hand over the name on the foot, taking a picture of us. I am so in love with this bear, it’s just Chris in bear form. Captioning the post ‘meet son son! My baby’ my account is about to be about this bear, they will have to deal now I got a child.

I grabbed a nearby brush and pulled my hair back into a ponytail, I quickly dabbed my face with a towel. I quickly did my night theme for my face, he is still outside, like how long can I just stand here looking dumb, I am stood in a robe, I thought I would wear some cute lingerie under this. I mean I am not stupid; I knew this was coming. I felt my clit aching, I want him. My sex is pulsing. wet and swollen, I have been feeling like this since I saw Chris looking the way he did, he looks so sexy. I just want to ride his face. I groaned out turning around, I am going down “where you going?” I jumped at his voice, he is here. Didn’t even see him coming up the steps “nothing” I said in a whisper, I feel shy now to turn around. Taking in a deep breath as I undid the robe and let it drop down, he can enjoy the back of me, for now. I could feel Chris burning a hole in the back of my neck and I shifted uncomfortable “Robyn” he said my name softly, my stomach quivered, my heart pounding against my chest. It wasn't until that very moment that I realized how hard my nipples are. I slowly turned around to see Chris intently watching me. The way he looked at me caused my nerves to bundle. The heat between us immediately sparked to life and exploded around us like a little firecracker. I could see the lust and desire held for me in his eyes. He attempted to hide it behind his caring expression, but it was there. Our bodies called for each other and I felt myself being pulled towards him.

Glancing up he looked directly into my eyes, he licked his lips, and lowered his voice seductively. Dipping his head slightly till a mischievous grin grew on his face “mhmm tasting you has been the only thing on my mind since seeing you again” Chris took in a deep breath “but I do not want to give you the impression that I will simply just stick my tongue inside of you” my mouth fell open, sweet baby Jesus “oh” is the only thing that came from my mouth “I don't just want to taste you” He smirked watching as I struggled to keep my composure at this confession “I want to take my time and eat you right. I want to kiss the inside of your thigh and inhale your scent. I need you to fill my nostrils while I devour you completely. I need to learn your body” I am a wet mess, words could not be formed, thoughts were unable to be processed. My legs felt weak, my mind scrambled. His words were the sticks to the drums beating between my thighs. Chris stepped closer, towering over me. His warm breath dripping down my neck, crawling into my pores and I was two seconds away from letting him know that he could have whatever he wanted however he felt he needed it “I want to feel your body tremble while the tip of my tongue flickers your clit. I want my tongue to explore your sex until I unlock all the secrets of your body. What drives you crazy? What makes your back arch? Does sucking on your clit make your toes curl? How far can I push my tongue inside of you before you explode in my mouth? I want to know your body better than you know your body.” My core jumped. The throbs becoming almost unbearable. My drenched panties stuck to my pussy. A moan trembled from me and she I my bottom lip to keep from crying out any further. Fuck, I am in trouble and that is all I could think of “but most of all I need to hear you scream. My ears have to hear you moan again. You have this beautiful growl that rattles in the back of your throat and then roars out of you. It echoed around the room” he took a deep breath smiling “It's so…sexy” I pulled my bottom lip further into my mouth, my legs feel weak.

My knees buckled and I fell weak, Chris chuckled, he is watching me unravel and spiral out of control in front of him. I am right where he wanted me. I have been staring into Chris’ eyes for far too long, I didn’t realise that he has been unbuckling his jeans, he pushed down his boxers. I am a total mess, I can’t even comprehend how bad I am right now, I have never felt like this before and it’s scaring me. He pulled his top off and moved closer to me, I assumed he was going to kiss me but he didn’t, I involuntarily kept moving back until I hit the wall and then he dropped to his knees “oh my god” I just had to say it, Chris spread my legs apart. The moment his fingers touched my skin, goosebumps broke out all across my body. I shivered and looked down to see Chris looking up and watching me. She could see in his eyes that he felt it too, were those butterflies fluttering through my stomach. I shook it off and became distracted when Chris placed his nose as close to my core as he could without touching me. He simply inhaled, closing his eyes and moaning softly “mhmm” He finally nuzzled his nose into my panties, and I gripped his shoulders, holding myself steady as he moved his hands across my body. He kissed my sex. First with his lips, then with his tongue.

I yelped when he cupped my breast through my lace bra, roughly squeezing them in his hands. My head fell back and hit the wall, he pulled my panties to the side and teased me with his warm breath. I squirmed above him just enough to show that it was pleasing. Pulling my panties off, Chris grabbed my leg, opening up my body further and gently kissed the inside of my thigh. He switched back and forth between legs, kissing both equally. He bit the inside of my thigh, he sunk his teeth deep into my skin, with every intention of marking his territory. My sex is completely open to him. I am so wet; he growled and threw my leg over his shoulder. He pecked my clit, gently. Very soft. Treating it delicately before placing an open mouth kiss over the sensitive bud. He sucked long and hard until my eyes popped open and I am pulling on his hair. He placed more kissed on my lips before griping my thigh and going to work. I was grinding my clit on his face. Moving to meet the thrust of his tongue. Chris placed his free hand on my lower back keeping me in place as he continued to feast. He continued to tongue me down and I didn't know how much longer I could last on that one leg. He has me pressed so far up the wall I am practically standing on my toes. He moved his hand back up my body till he reached my breast. He pinched my nipples through my laced bra “oh fuck!” my one leg to the ground gave way but Chris caught me, he didn’t laugh like I thought he just picked me.

Guiding me onto the bed, he laid me flat on the bed and crawled up my body, hovering over me. My legs fell open without even asking. Chris touched my knee and slowly moved his hand up my leg. I withered with need when he touched my clit, he bit my neck the same time as he plunged two fingers into me. I whimpered and gasped. Chris sucked on my neck; his ear positioned next to my lips; listening to all the sounds I made. My body arched off the bed, he crawled back between my legs, picking up where he left off. Pushing my legs back until my knees touched my chest, Chris placed his whole mouth over my swollen sex. He plunged his tongue in deep, digging and sucking. I went crazy, my legs squirmed and shook, but he held them steady in place. I pulled on the bed covers, screaming loud. My eyes fluttered, back twisted and I trembled as Chris pushed my legs back further. Pressing his face deeper into me. I am convinced he is trying to eat his way out. He sat up a bit, letting go of my legs and grabbing my ass instead to lift my body off the bed, he pulled me towards him. Completely burying his face between my legs. His tongue vibrated against my clit and I slammed my hand to the bed in pleasure while he continued to slurp me up. I came hard, proof of his victory oozing out of me. I could feel my whole body pulsing as he moved back from me, still dripped freely between my thighs. Our eyes met and I silently pleaded with him to take me now.

“Shit, Chris” I spat, he bucked forward, and I arched away from the bed and curved into him. I spread my legs wide and gasped when he crawled up my body, he grabbed my breast and pulled it into his mouth. Twisting my nipple between his lips, Chris rocked his hips, grinding the length of his dick against my core. I whimpered and moaned wrapping my legs around his body and locked my ankles together. Chris grabbed my face and placed open mouth kisses along my shoulder and up to my neck. He licked and sucked down on my neck. He continued to push against me. Holding my face between the palms of his hands, he rolled his hips. His mouth still glued to the side of my neck; my eyes closed feeling every stroke of his length. Chris hands met mine, he moved his head away from my neck and I opened my eyes, our finger intertwined as he looked down at me. I gasped seeing him moan above me, he attacked my lips with a kiss, so I wasn’t just watching him moan like that, his hands never leaving mine.

Drying off my hands, I made it down those stairs and made it to the bathroom to pee. Looking in the mirror, I can officially say that I was a pussy ass bitch crying under him, I am still a mess. I look a mess, Chris has really done a number on my neck, this is day one, the fuck is he going to do now, there is no space. Placing the towel down, Chris always ends up making love to me, and I swear if I wasn’t on birth control, I would be pregnant from this night alone, chile. I am shook “you good?” I jumped “don’t you knock?” he scared me “the door was open, watching him walk by me butt naked “do you like my neck?” looking over at him as he proceeded to use the toilet “how did you notice that? I do, I like your neck” I can’t believe I am stood watching this man pee “I am pretty blown away, I am speechless Chris, you got me fucked up. You are so good, I really can’t get enough of you” Chris chuckled “I just want to be a little rough with you, but I can’t, I just fall into the love making” watching him shake his dick, I need to stop “and I enjoy it, you got me fucked up Chris. My stomach is still just trying to get over that, I orgasmed so good” moving to the side so Chris can wash his hands, tilting my head to the side staring at his butt “you got a nice ass” gripping his butt “are you making me your bitch now?” I shrugged smirking, Chris turned so he can dry his hands off but he gripped me instead and picked me up, I yelped out.

[shhhlikeme]

Nin’s Matchup!

(SFW + NSFW)

Matchup Profile: Sfw+nsfw matchup pretty pls! (1/5) Name: Nin>Female>5’4>Film & sfx/theatrical makeup freelancer>V athletic in MS-HS: ballet, was in volley ball, soccer &Basketball teams>Miss my prime days>Scared to start workout again b/c I’ll get lightheaded>If sum1 helps push me through initial fear, I’ll keep growing from there> Likes chilling in ballet stretch poses>paints, photographs&draws as hobby>draws a pic a day (mostly portraits)>writing a comic atm >Always plan contingencies.🦄

(2/5) >embarrassed of my loud laugh(it’s like Kuroo’s)>introvert>not afraid to lead a team tho> V shy & quiet most times>8/10 times, feels awk in public,like idk what i’m saying, but others told me I seem social>Once I’m comfy w/ u, i joke a lot(occasional mum jokes 2 annoy+Sassy dirty ones w/ S/O)>hides behind ppl who likes 2 talk, but not when they’re 2 loud>laughs @ mistakes/when embarrassed>Will stop mistreatment, even if I get in trouble>values communication&genuine discussions🦄

(3/5) Sings when home alone>competes @ Street Fighter tournaments, trains everyday 4 it>Sings “Hit Me W/ Your Best Shot” when fighting bosses in game&swears melodically when i lose>eats chips w/ chopsticks >make hats out of my cat fur when bored>Workahokic night🦉>likes 2 teach >full convos w/ my 🐱>LIVES in oversized hoodies & flip flops, regardless of weather>no pants@home!>Feels incompetent sometimes, but keep practicing 2 improve>Analytical fast learner>idk why ppl think i look innocent🦄

(4/5)>Forgets 2 speak eng when tired (Thai 1st lang.)>Headrubs 4 s/o every night b4 bed>will miss u but is bad@texting>yelps like puppy when I’m surprised>Unconventionally resourceful: Wire hangers’s fixes everything! >stress bakes & will gets pouty if it didn’t turn out well.>overwhelmed to water my 50+ 🌱 >Doodles on smt (always have a pen on me)when i feel socially anxious> 2 dance sober @ clubs> Wants a stable relationship where we work tgt like a team to bring out the best in one another🦄

(5/5) I like a s/o who is lovable, kind, genuine, mature, independent and caring, but can also joke & be silly with like best friends. NSFW: open 2 try new things>❤️restraints, blindfolds & sensual tickle sex (as lee+ler) but had always been too shy to share it with any1>occasionally self conscious of food baby+stretchmarks>🥰edging/teasing >has a thing 4 height differences (likes to feel smol lol!) & primal play.>Is a switch. I’m so sorry if it’s too much info! Thank you for doing this!🦄

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A/N: HI LOVE @crushzone !!!! I SMILE WHEN I SEE YOU IN MY NOTIFS GIRL I WORKED HARD ON YOURS OF COURSE💖 But no matter whaaaat I’m going to be very authentic in my matchups bc they’re based on compatibility and therefore, without further ado, lemme introduce you to your NEW BAE:

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KŌTARŌ BOKUTO 🦉

SFW:

so you’re a theatrical makeup artist.

Aight.

Mind if I offer you a word of advice? :

RUN

“DUDE THAT’S AMAZING IT LOOKS SO SICK!”

Startled by someone’s loud booming voice, you smudged the eyeliner you were applying to your actor’s face all over their forehead. Whipping around to see who had disrupted your work you were faced with a beautiful black and grey haired owl. A rather tall... and very attractive ‘beautiful black and grey haired owl.’

He started walking around the dressing room like he owned the place, touching everything.

“Excuse me, you don’t have a badge. You can’t be backstage—!”

“Pretty obvious don’t you think, Miss ________?”

You didn’t take his bait, refusing to give this stranger your name. Bokuto shrugged.

“Well since I don’t know your name I shall label thee—Miss HOT GIRL of the 9 Kingdoms!” He nudged the knight actor who was sitting in your makeup chair with his elbow. “Did I sound 15th century ish or what??” The owl turned to you expecting to be praised. “I had to meet the person who made the medieval vampire look so scary in the last act. But that guy with the lights didn’t tell me anything about you being so hot.”

You were speechless because he was hot too

But he shouldn’t be back here so you tried to shoo him out anyway

He allowed you to try to shove him out but he was way bigger than you so nice try sis

When he yawned while you panted because you weren’t able to budge him an inch....

Bokuto wagered that he would leave if you agreed to make him look like the Hulk with your makeup skills for a Halloween party he had to go to

You didn’t really want to because you were a professional and you had no idea who this owl was but because you had 15 minutes until the second act and you needed peace and quiet if you were going to finish your job!!! ....

( This boy was not peace NOR quiet )

You agreed.... but because you answered so fast Bokuto kicked it up one notch

Prince of pushing his luck (king is reserved for Shōyo‘s extra ass)

He pretended to allow you to push him out of the makeup room a few steps but before you closed the door he stuck his foot between the door so it couldn’t close.

Smiling, he peered back in, looking down at you:

“AND...... you have to agree to go on a date with me. Tomorrow night?”

“Ugh FINE!”

Bo removed his foot and let himself out with a bounce in his step.

SERIOUSLY WHO LET THIS MAN BACKSTAGE......

Needless to say, after a few dates, mans won you over like he wins EVERYONE over

It surprised you how comfortable you became with him but he just has that affect on people

***

In terms of your athletic relationship Bokuto does many things:

He pushes you to go to the gym with him for one

He signs the two of you up for impromptu Beginner 30-day challenges that you both must stick to

So every morning for 30-days straight he jumps on you in bed to wake you up:

“NIN BABY TIME TO HIT THE GYM. BABY NIN TIME TO GET IN SOME SEXY GYM SHORTS. MON BÉBÉ NIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNN—“

“Kōtarō, please shut up.”

he doesn’t

He drags you there and eventually you get back into the swing of things.. killing it in the weight room with your supportive man cheering on your every rep!

You don’t even need him to wake you up during the second challenge!

Your volleyball player boyfriend also signs you up (without permission) for the neighborhood soccer team that Akaashi’s girlfriend is already on

You hated it at first because it was uncomfortable going back after not playing for so long but you soon realized that all the girls there were ex-athletes too and not stars

You formed amazing new girl friendships (especially with Akaashi’s gf) and double dates with them were one of your favourite nights of the week!

You owed that happiness in your life all to your Owl 🦉🥰

He and Akaashi came to every soccer game y’all had and you and the three of you went to all of Bokuto’s games, obviously

Btw you all were FITTTTTT OML

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In addition...

You already know that your man finds your artistic talents insanely fascinating

On your first anniversary together Bokuto gifted you with a new paint set and new French stand:

Because he admires you Bokuto also tries to draw and paint seriously just like you

You stand over his shoulder and give him corrections and baby owl learns so fast it’s amazing

You two make ‘paint night’ a thing when you move in together and it’s always the most fun event!!!!

Bokuto CONSTANTLY and I mean CONSTANTLY asks for you to add him to the comic you’re writing but you say no because he wouldn’t fit in

He sulks but one day you surprise him by showing him that you drew a cute soaring black and gray owl in the background of almost every outdoor scene in your comic,

you pointed out that it was him

BOKUTOOOO WAS SOOOOO HAPPY

HE WAS SHOUTING FROM THE ROOFTOPS

He called Akaashi right away and almost cried tears of joy hahahahaha

***

Your contingent based lifestyle has saved your reckless boyfriend’s life and career many-a-times

It’s one of the things he loves most about you.

Also, it is important to mention that he is in LOVE with your laugh

Bby owl does anything to hear it and showers your face with kisses when you laugh to draw it out

He loves you so freaking much

When you don’t make sense and speak gibberish in public because your awkward side randomly comes out......your boyfriend loves to make fun of you:

“Huh? Nin, that wasn’t Japanese, that wasn’t Thai and that definitely wasn’t English. What planet is my adorable baby girl from, again? And how do I return her in exchange for a floating space car instead?!”

suh cute

All of Bokuto’s teammates really like you because you work in conjunction with Akaashi which means you actually have the magic ability to get Bokuto out of emo mode even faster than his best friend 🤯🤯🤯

When he’s at an away game in emo mode his teammates will literally FaceTime you and point their phone in his general direction

“Hey, Kōtarō!!!! Look, Nin’s on the phoneeee!”

Bby owl turns around slowly when he was sulking in the corner and when he sees you on the screen he’s running and jumping on whoever is holding your phone.”

“Kōtarō baby. You’re going to stop this emo mode right now. If not I won’t let you paint me nude like we discussed.”

mans was like: 😨😨😨😨🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗

YEP the next second you see him hitting his best practice spikes and his teammate thanks you profusely

You do this several times until Kōtarō just knows to not go into emo mode anymore because you won’t be happy

A year into his professional volleyball career The Black Jackal’s coach sent a surprise fruit bouquet to your work one time:

With a note that read:

To Nin,

Thanks.

Thanks a lot.

Love,

The Team

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I know you don’t really like people who are considered “too loud” and Bokuto is like...... “MEGA LOUD 🎙 “ but you and Akaashi work together to quiet your boy down as he gets older

He’s perfect

And you love him

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OKAY THIS IS THE FUNNIEST day THING:

You know how you like standing up for people (even strangers) and stuff?

Well one day, you and Bokuto get caught on a show called WHAT WOULD YOU DO?

Where the two of you cussed out this cat-abusing actor on the show in a convincing scenario!

It was PRICELESS

Bokuto literally tells everyone that y’all are movie stars because of it 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

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More in the relationship:

Bo is always singing with you 💞 when y’all make breakfast it becomes a national sport to sing at the top of your lungs!!

And when he sees you eat chips with chopsticks he’s pulling a Hinata “🤩🤩🤩” face .

He begs you to teach him how

So you try

......and try

..................and try

He can’t do it bruv 😞

You see bby Owl’s emo mode return for the first time in like a year when the chip shatters between his sticks again

This time, you have to enlist Akaashi as the FaceTime saviour and Keiji just tells him:

“Bokuto. You should prefer eating chips with your hands anyway. It gets to your mouth faster.”

cue Bo’s 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩 face

........And all is well again

There’s more:

So you’re a workaholic?

Bokuto is fine with that. He just makes you promise that he gets to take you out on your lunch breaks a few times a week or whenever he can

He’s so sweet and your coworkers are BIG jealous of your relationship

Your man BEGSSSSS you to teach him Thai but you find it too hard so when he’s travelling on a long flight he spends the time learning the language on YouTube (and actually get decent at it) so that he can understand you when you’re sleepy😴🥺💕

When Bokuto surprises you by wishing you goodnight in Thai before he falls asleep (while you’re giving him head rubs), your heart explodes BECAUSE why is he the cutest thing in the world ?!?!?!

RELATIONSHIP COMMUNICATION:

You don’t text/you’re bad at texting? That’s fine, mainly because bby owl is so busy with volleyball anyway, but if you don’t text him back when he is feeling needy the boy will call you 20 times in a row

When you finally pick up, your heart is beating like thinking it’s an emergency

But he will answer saying:

“Oh, no emergency. I just want booty pics. Please, Nin babyyyyy?”

you’re like: 😑

ANOTHER CUTE THING YOUR MAN DOES?????

AIGHT:

It’s cringey but.......

When you’re at work all day doing makeup and he’s home he will send you pics throughout the day of him taking care of your plants like they are y’alls newborn children:

His text:

Baby look!!! Ollie the Orchid grew to 7 inches today!!! Yesterday he was 6.8 inches!!!!! They grow up so fast 😭😭😭”

Your reply:

Not quite as long as your dick, Bo

His reply:

I hate when you get me horny when I’m trying to take care of the kiiiids 😭😭😭😭

Dkm

Of all the factors you look for in a man, Bokuto has all of them

Like I said he becomes much more mature when you and Akaashi are his closest compadres

What people don’t know is that Kōtarō is actually very mature he is just a hardcore optomist (besides emo mode lmao) so people often mistake him as immature or dumb

But He’s far from it and you see that everyday

It’s why you fell for him

When dealing with serious issues that life has to handle, you see a different side of Bokuto, a real side, the side he shows in every tough volleyball game when he makes you metaphorically step behind him so he can deal with any problem that comes your way

He would literally withstand all your battles if that meant you’d remain happy forever

We stan a relationship like yours💞

NSFW:

okay so you know how you chill in ballet 🩰 stretches sometimes?

THAT DRIVES KŌTARŌ WILD.

It turns him on so much and he is constantly testing how flexible you are in the bedroom

When you keep meeting his expectations he is POUNDING you cause he is so turned on

He fucking loves it

It also turns him on when you’ll be acting shy and stuff but then randomly you’ll lead your neighbourhood soccer team like a BAD BITCH

When he sees that he’s already asking Akaashi how long until the game ends because he’s horny:

Akaashi deadpans. “Too much information. And the game just started 3 minutes ago. Get a water and calm yourself.”

Bo is sad but it makes for one hell of a I’m-proud-of-you sexscape when you get home from your game!!

Your dirty jokes also turn Bokuto on.

A lot.

A lot a lot:

“Bo.....I was joking.”

“I know but if I hear the word ‘dick’ coming out of your mouth I automatically think of you blowing me so now I want us to go home.” He whines.

You sigh. He’s lucky he’s so fucking hot.

When you’re playing street fighter every night this boy will not leave you alone until you cockwarm him

“Nin can you pleaseeeeee warm my cock while you train? I miss you.”

Your concentration turns him on so he has to ask nicely 😊

You love his dick so of course you oblige

Bby owl is so happy just sitting there being in your company and in your warmth but sometimes or every time he ends up thrusting into you

Sometimes while he’s giving you deep slow thrusts he orders you to keep playing or he won’t get you off

Damn 🤤

Let’s not forget also that you drive your man wild by walking around the house in hoodies all the time and nothing else

Every day, another hoodie will be found in various RANDOM places in the house because Bo flings it off you before he makes love to you wherever, and they go missing

Finally, when you get all sad and pouty because one of your baker trials goes to shit (ruined chocolate brownies this time, boo 💔), your boyfriend is taking your hand gently in an instant, leading you to the bedroom:

“Don’t be sad my beautiful girl, you know how much I hate seeing you sad. It makes me sad.! Here, come in the room and sit on my face—I promise I’ll make you feel better.”

WELL DAMN—😳💦

Maybe you should screw up brownie recipes more often.

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A/N: do you know the show what would you do??? Watch it on YouTube if you haven’t haha I couldn’t stop thinking about you and Bokuto being on it after reading your matchup profile!!!! I hope you liked it bb! Give me all your reactions, I want all the smoke 💞💞💞

[krystaldeath]

Aha ha, what if I made my own self indulgent HLVRAI au??? Haha, just kidding... unless...?

(Y’all better get prepared for walls upon walls of text of my notes app ramble about this lol, here we go!!!)

HLVRAI Mansion AU

Gordon is a single dad who is struggling to finally finish his college career so that he can get a good job to provide for himself and his son. When he gets an eviction notice, he believes all is going downhill, until he sees an ad for a mansion that is looking for a new “roomate”. Taking the chance, he messages the contact on the paper, and is surprisingly accepted very quickly.

He moves in with Joshua and finds that the people already living in this Mansion are all a bit strange.

Forzen, an ex-militant who was tricked into it in order to get himself through college, but also seems to just disappear in the blink of an eye whenever he wants.

Bubby, an older man who is unusually spry and energetic, and has unusually sharp teeth. Plus, fires tend to happen whenever he’s around, and Gordon is starting to suspect it’s not just a weird, reoccurring coincidence.

Dr. Coomer, another older man who is also unusually strong and energetic, who claims to have “Power Legs” and “Extendo Arms”; Gordon thought they were claims anyway, until he saw Coomer helping a little girl’s cat out of a very tall tree with them.

The Coolatta’s, whose surname isn’t even the tip of the strange ice berg. Gman (what kind of name is that???) speaks slowly and makes plenty of uncomfortable sounds whilst doing so, and he always seems to have his suitcase on him, but Gordon hasn’t ever heard what exactly it is that Gman does that would require it. Tommy, Gman’s adoptive son, is nice and gets along with Gordon and Joshua quite nicely, but tends to have too many sodas to be healthy, saying they help him “see faster”; plus, the Beyblade battles he has with Forzen get a bit too out of control for Gordon’s liking. And don’t forget Sunkist, Tommy’s “Perfect Immortal” dog who is taller than Gordon when she’s just sitting. She is a very good girl though, so he can’t complain... still, what did Tommy mean by immortal??? AND WHAT DOES HE MEAN HE CREATED HER???

Darnold, a mixology expert who needs to be more careful where he leaves his “potions” around the house. Otherwise he is a friendly guy who is always happy to help (but he has scared Gordon plenty of times by just randomly flying around with his jet boots).

And then there’s Benrey. The biggest enigma out of them all. They seem normal enough, once you get past the sharp teeth and constant shadow over his eyes (which are ironically the only part of their face unaffected by said shadow); just a diehard gamer who is actually quite good with kids. But Gordon has seen and heard too many things about/from Benrey to write them off as “human”: a beautiful voice that comes with bright colorful orbs (which according to Tommy’s translations are a way of communication), phasing through solid walls and ground, and possible shapeshifting. Hell, the guy even said himself once “I’m not human”, which, sure, doesn’t automatically prove it, but from what Gordon’s seen it doesn’t seem like a strange joke.

Although, there is also two others in this mansion, including the supposed owner of it. (This is where it gets really self indulgent with me adding my self insert and oc lol)

Gordon hasn’t seen the owner much, and when he does it’s usually in the corner of his eye, and when he turns to fully look, they’ve already slipped into an open door. They must be nice, since they’re letting him and his son live there without paying rent, saying that they “understand” and that “life can be tough, but having company is a balm to count on”.

The other? A very human-like robot named Teasley, who apparently was made by the mansion’s owner, along with others no one talks about. They talk in a strange way, their voice changing pitch randomly, but are very kind and eager to help everyone. The others tell him how at first they were emotionless and didn’t seem to have any personality, but thanks to everyone’s companionship, their true self was finally “unlocked”; why it was locked in the first place is still a mystery. But, they take very good care of Joshua and Gordon can’t help but feel fatherly towards Teasley, so he can easily look past the many unknown things about them, for the most part.

While his new mansion-mates are all strange in their own right, Gordon has to admit they’ve grown on him. He just hopes nothing stranger or possibly even dangerous happens...

[smallelephants]

Dynamics of a CGLRE relationship

Day 2: Starting a CGLRE relationship! 💖

So, you’ve decided to take that exciting leap into a cglre relationship?

Great!

Now, here comes the decisions, conversations, and getting to know your partner (platonic or romantic)!

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I will create an index of sorts, so you can scroll to a certain part you want or like! This post is for experienced littles/ care givers, and for newbies (If this is you.. WELCOME CUTIE PIE! Hope you find everything you need here! 💖)!

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Lastly, so I don’t go on a rant haha, I hope everybody has a great day/ night!! ❤️ I’m always free to talk if you want to private message me for more advice or just to vent and talk!

Index:

Adjusting to the feeling of being with your partner platonically and romantically as a little/ care giver

Getting to know your partner (suggestion of activities included)

Making time for each other

Schedules/ charts (for chores if you live together)

First time little space!

First time caregiver space!

Okay! Let’s begin!! 💖💖

So, now that you and your partner have decided to be in a cglre relationship, it time to ACTUALLY start.

It may seem nerve-wracking or unsure for a bit (if not, that’s great!), and that’s 100% okay! It’s a very unique type of bond you two will have, and for some of you who have never been in a cglre relationship, it’s ALL new. So, don’t fret! I’m here to tell you easy peach lemon squeezy ways to get comfortable with each other! 💖

Talking about your personal experiences as a little or care giver!

While this may seem nerve-wracking for people who are new to this community or who aren’t open people, I can assure you it’s a great way to get to know your partner! If you two take time to sit down and talk about your past experiences with other littles/ care givers, then it can lead to so so many other conversations. Also, talking about how you found out you’re a little or care giver can be a great thing!

Talking about your favorite experiences!

This is slightly different than just talking about past experiences because this is more specific, and it doesn’t deal in your own personal hills you had to climb to know you’re a little or care giver, OR necessarily your experience with a little or care giver. This can be maybe a moment on a play date, by yourself, with a friend, etc! Just talking about some favorite experiences (funny, emotional, warm, etc) you’ve had as a little or care giver can build a less-tense and more relaxed atmosphere as you open up to your partner!

Starting off the cglre relationship SLOW

One sure fire way of getting closer and more comfortable with your cglre partner is to take things slowly at first! I know it may seem tough if you’re excited, but trust me, you won’t regret taking the time to adjust and get comfortable. Once you’ve spent time together getting to know each other, then you can take more steps.

Go out together/ hang out!!

This is very very important for adjusting to someone as important as your little or your care giver! You MUST actually go do things together! You can watch movies at home or out, go out to eat, go to an amusement park, bake at home, etc! Or, you can just call them everyday and make sure to keep in touch for an extended period of time throughout the day, rather than just five minutes of text conversation! It’s vital that you spend time with them; quality, real time that gives you opportunities to grow closer!

Next topic is getting to know your partner! This may be new for a lot of people who aren’t used to this community, or they’re just someone who isn’t used to sharing things about themselves. But, it’s VERY IMPORTANT that you become a more open, honest person when in these types of relationships! I will touch on this subject in a later post XD

Firstly, you must understand that getting to know someone TAKES TIME! Luckily, you two have all the time in the world! Don’t feel pressured to share every secret or detail within the span of five minutes! Take your time, relax, and enjoy each other! I’ve created a list of activities or conversation starters you can do if you’re struggling with getting to know your cglre partner! 💖

The little and care giver making a top ten favorite’s list and compare (this can be cglre related or not, your choice!)

Two truths and a lie (a great way to find more out about your cglre partner!)

Quarters! (With a twist.. oooooh~) Basically, you bounce the quarter into the cup, but instead of drinking, you have to tell something about yourself! It can be a fun fact, secret, or life experience!!

A “what if” game! Ex: “If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it?” Or “If you had to pick between having the power to control fire or fly, which would you pick?” And you can always go into detail about why!

“Would you rather?” It’s a classic, but it’s still really good to know your cglre partner’s “oh heck yeah”’s and “oof no”’s

Another classic: “Never Have I Ever”! This is a great way to know how experienced your little or care giver is in the cglre community OR just know their experience in life!

The next topic is “making time for each other”! This topic is going to be a little bit long, since I do want to discuss some important things that deal with emotional abuse or dependency, so buckle in!

I won’t be discussing everything about emotional abuse, since that’s going to be a post for another day. However, I want to say that you and your cglre partner (whether you’re a little or caregiver) should have space. You should not be relying fully on your partner being around to exist. You both should have school, a job, or some other responsibility that requires time apart. Building a life for YOURSELF outside of this relationship is very very important, because you don’t want to build your life around this other person.

This means that you should not guilt your partner into spending more time together. If you find yourself begging your partner to stay home from work every day, or guilting them into not hanging out with friends like they do once a week, then perhaps you need to take a step back and slow down. It’s 100% okay (and I even highly encourage it) to have a job, to volunteer, to have time alone, or to hang with friends! You do NOT need to exist purely within this relationship!

Now that that’s said... let’s talk about how you CAN make healthy time for your cglre partner in your daily life!

Talking about your days! This can be a great way to connect while also detoxing from your long day. Take maybe 10-20 minutes at the end of the day to sit down and just TALK. It’s really good for people to communicate our stresses and problems, and who knows? Perhaps your partner can offer some guidance or advice! At the very least, they can definitely give emotional comfort and support!

Having a designated day(s) with your cglre partner! Perhaps, if you work all week, you can give yourself every Saturday to spend doing whatever y’all want together! Maybe go see a movie, go out to eat, go to an arcade, go on a walk! Anything that you two like to do, assign it a day or two every week, and FOLLOW IT! I know for me, inconsistency as a little can feel jarring, so if you’re going to make a commitment to Saturday’s, keep that commitment. If you’re not able to, talk to your partner about it! Communication, communication, communication!!!

Have an alotted time or a specified day(s) for little/ care giver space! I know that little space can sometimes hit randomly, but I think it’s a great idea to have certain times within your week alotted for little and care giver space! It’s wonderful to come home from a long day and know you’re going to have the rest of the evening with just you and your cglre partner!

Invite your cglre partner to meet your family and friends! This doesn’t mean that you have to tell your family and friends what kind of lifestyle you lead, but perhaps you can introduce them as a significant other or friend! Making your cglre partner feel comfortable around friends and family can build such trust and pride in your partner! Plus, you could eventually get invited to family/ friend events!

Have slumber parties! These are my FAVORITES (can’t ya tell haha?)! I love love love these! Staying up all night, playing games, eating snacks, etc! I love the feeling of cuddling and just relaxing all night with someone you trust! This is an AMAZING way to build a bond, get to know someone, spend quality time together, and have fun!!

This one may not apply to some (if not most) cglre relationships, as some/ most may not live together! However, I will offer many suggestions for long distance relationships or relationships where the two partners just don’t live together!

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For cglre partners who live together:

I suggest for those that are living together (platonic or romantic), you start a schedule/ chart for chores! This is a great way to give your little a chance to earn rewards (I will discuss rewards in the next blog)! It gives them a chance to be responsible to earn praise, while also helping around the house.

Some suggested chores can include:

Cooking meals

Vacuuming

Sweeping/ mopping

Dusting

Dishes

Taking trash out/ collecting trash

Feeding/ letting out (to pee and eat) pets if you have them

What’s great about this is you can do cute sticker systems on your chart, such as hearts, Stars (my personal favorite), etc! It can be fun and colorful!

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For those that do not live together or are long distance, don’t worry, you can STILL do this! There are many many chores apps where you can monitor your littles’ chores and responsibilities!

I will list some below:

Thumbsters- this app is amazing! It’s cute, fun, and colorful! You can have multiple littles (if this is something you and your little have agreed upon), and you can track many things beyond just chores, such as attitude! You can do rewards as well on here!

Smiles and Frowns: Rewards Chart- this app is also colorful (though, slightly less). It uses a smiles and frowns system for if your little has completed a chore, activity, or remained respectful! This, I would say, goes more in depth than Thumbsters, but the draw back is it’s not as fun/ colorful!

Mothershp- this one is interesting because it’s BOTH fun/ colorful, and also super in depth! You can alott chores, physical activity, and attitude certain point values. As they earn these point values, they can redeem them for rewards! I’d say this one is my favorite, and I highly suggest!

Now, he comes the last two topics, which can be super duper exciting!!

Firstly, little space!! Yay! 💖

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This time can be a little awkward at first (in the best way), because it’s the first time you and your cglre partner are experiencing little space together! However, trust me, there are many activities you can do together to help it smoothen out and get more comfortable!

Coloring! This always a fun way to spend time with your little, and you can listen to them as they talk about the book! Trust me, asking a little a simple question like, “What colors are you gonna use?” Can get them REALLY ranting! (Or, at least for me, it does) Coloring together is super fun, especially when you can compare at the end and talk about it!

Watching Disney/ Pixar movies, or any cartoon movie! This can be a super fun, relaxed activity for littles, depending on their regression age! I do suggest you ask your little questions through the movie, so you can get to know their little space side even more!

Baking! You can use the easy bake ovens, or just have them help with the mixing parts of regular baking (so they don’t get hurt)! This can be so so fun, and it takes time, plus you can have ALOT of conversation! Ask about their favorite foods, foods they hate, snacks they love, etc! It’s a great way to know their little diets!

If you have a pet, like a cat or dog (I don’t suggest small animals since they’re more fragile and can get lost easily), then absolutely play with them with your little! You two can dress up the pet, even, for fun!

Speaking of dressing up... play dress up! This is a super fun way to pass time in little space! Trying on silly outfits is sooo fun for a little, and it’s gets their goofy side out more! Talk to them about what they love and don’t love clothes wise, talk to them about shoes and accessories! For me, I LOVE heels, and I could go on for hours in little space about it!

Board games! I love board games in and out of little space personally! Ones such as Candy Land, Sorry!, and Life are fun, lead to a lot of laughter, and they’re easy for a little to play when in little space!

Those are just SOME suggestions of activities you can do together when in little space for the first time to get used to it and more comfortable! As time goes on, you can do more relaxed activities, or things more specific to your little!

Now, I’ve talked to some people who don’t believe this is a thing, but trust me it is! Caregiver space isn’t as widely known as little space because it’s “age regression”, but believe me, caregiver space is real.

Caregiver space can be when a caregiver experience a large amount of love and warmth for their little, and they really want to take care of them and give them love and affection. It’s like an intensified care giver pretty much haha!

Some ways you and your cglre partner can spend caregiver space (in little space or not):

Cuddling/ snuggling! This is a way for caregivers to give a lot of affection to their little, showering them in love! And, it’s really awesome for littles too haha

Watching movies/ tv shows together! Caregivers enjoy this too, just as much as littles, and they love to see their little light up when their favorite cartoon character comes on!

If your caregiver is someone who loves to give gifts (perhaps it’s their love language), then maybe you and your caregiver can make bracelets or necklaces together with beads and string and personalize them! Or, you can paint, and just do crafts in general!

Dancing! Whatever type of dancing y’all love, do it! I prefer the cheesy slow dancing in the kitchen to old songs haha, but if you’re more the swing type of person or hip hop, do it! It’s super fun, and it bonds you both even more, plus if it’s in public, caregivers can proudly show off their little (which I know is what some caregivers love)!

Thank you for reading this! If you read this far, here’s some extra love for youuuu ❤️😍

I hope you have a great great day/ night!!!

[servinglemonade]

A.D. Revealed: My Thoughts On The PLL Finale

BEWARE: MAJOR SPOILERS AHEAD FROM THE PRETTY LITTLE LIARS SERIES FINALE

No more secrets, no more lies, no more creepy texts. Pretty Little Liars is officially over. I thought the finale was far from perfect, but they were a bunch of parts that I did enjoy. Here are my thoughts on the PLL series finale. 

The Beginning

What was this?! Lucas randomly tap dancing and Jenna riding a horse?! It was so weird. I just didn’t get the relevance of it.

The Intro

Sad times seeing it for the last time. But I loved that the coffin was open this time and they all did the ‘shh’! 

1-year time-jump

What was the point of this time jump? So when the game ended the girls just went on with their lives not knowing who tortured them? 

Emison babies

Okay, so Emily’s the mother of these babies right? Then why are they blond and white? Also, twins. How many twins does this show need? 

Rosewood High

Ali was discussing Ezra’s book in class, omg. I thought that was a bit weird. Also, why are we waisting time on this new clique Addison has created. They should be giving us some answers. On a side note, Jenna is a teacher, wow. Do have to give her some points for that remark she gave Addison about smelling a bitch, that was a good one!

The Lost Woods Resort

What’s up with this show making creepy places into nice hotels? Anyway, this was so boring. Just waisted time. Although when ‘A.D.’ turned around and you saw Melissa, I knew that was a mask. No way they would reveal it so early in the episode and in this way. When the mask was taken off and it revealed Mona I just knew something was up. I thought that she might be working with A.D. or something. Why she was exactly doing it is still not very clear to me. Did she just want to know who it was to help the girls? If you know please share it with me. What I did like about this part was seeing everyone together at the table and around the campfire!

Spencer visits Mary

I thought this was fishy. Spencer just mentioned she and her mom were getting along really good, why would she be visiting Mary in jail? Or maybe it wasn’t Spencer that you just saw?! (wink, wink)

Rehearsal Dinner from Ezra & Aria

First, why are the girls STILL treating Mona like crap? Honestly, I felt so bad for her. Secondly, THE MOMS! This was one of the best parts of the finale to be honest. They were so drunk. What I really hated was that they didn’t say how they got out of the basement. That was a let down. I did love how drunk they were at the end that Spencer had to drive them home. (also Ella calling shotgun was hillarious)

Mona Knocking Spencer Out

THIS WAS ICONIC! She slapped her so hard. Also how she said: “deja vu, bitch!” I loved that! It was exactly how Mona slapped Spencer when she figured she was A back in season 2. Janel Parrish is one of the best actresses in this show!

A.D. is revealed

The moment we were all waiting for. I love how they revealed A.D. Once it ‘looked’ like Spencer was looking in a mirror, I just knew that it wasn’t a mirror and she really does have a twin. It was so good! So Spencer has a twin, Alex Drake, and she’s A.D. Although I wasn’t shocked, because I just saw it coming. But it was a very good reveal!

The Backstory of A.D.

Once I heard that British accent, I knew that she had to be connected to Wren somehow. Then we find out that Wren just randomly meets her in a bar? Then Wren makes sure Cece/Charlotte meets Spencer’s twin, Alex Drake. They have a very strong bond together and Charlotte tells Alex that Spencer is a toxic person. So when Charlotte was killed, Alex needed to know who did it. She wanted to avenge Charlotte’s dead which is why she created the game. To figure out who did it (I have no idea what the puzzle pieces and the picture had to do with all of this). But when the game ended Alex wanted Spencer’s life, she wanted everything she had, including her friends and Toby. I honestly thought this was such a cliché. Like they couldn’t have thought of a better reason? 

We also see all the times Alex was pretending to be Spencer, including the infamous airport scene. Alex was also the one who kissed Toby and hooked up with him twice. This is where I start getting confused. Toby has been with Spencer for so many years and he didn’t realise it wasn’t Spencer?! How did the liars who have known each other for so long not realise it wasn’t their bff?! 

What was the point of impregnating Alison with Emily’s eggs? What did Alex gain from that? Also, Wren’s the dad? Was he aware of this? Was he working with Alex? Did he give his sperm to Alex even when he didn’t want to? I have so many questions.

Wren shoots A.D.

We all saw Wren with a gun in the promo. I felt let down by this, I really thought he was going to kill someone. Turns out Alex really wanted to be Spencer so she made Wren shoot her in the same spot Spencer was shot, so they’d look exactly alike. How crazy is that?

Not as crazy as what we found out next. Wren is dead. Alex killed him and turned his ashes into..... A DIAMOND. Wren is now a diamond. I have no words #WrenDeservedBetter

Mary and Spencer have lunch

Mary shares some information with Spencer while eating lunch together. Of course, Spencer is still locked up, but that’s not the point. 

So we learn that Mary SOLD Alex when she was born. Alex was adopted by a wealthy British family, but after a few years, she was put into a orphanage.

How is it possible that Mary never told Spencer that she has a twin sister. Even if Mary didn’t know where she was or even alive, that’s something you should mention. 

Ezra is missing?!

So the girls were being all dramatic thinking Ezra doesn’t want to marry Aria anymore. Come on y’all. After everything you have been through, you really don’t think something else happened? Seriously Ezra saying he is not coming to his own wedding through text is not believable. He has a masters in American Literature. He probably would have written Aria a letter on that typewriter of his.

So then we see Ezra is locked up in, what he called it, a DIY dungeon. So where Alex is keeping Spencer as well. I liked the DIY dungeon line, it was better that the fact that he can handle a dead body in a trunk because he has a Masters degree in American Literature. #OhEzra

The Horse and Jenna

So after an hour of practically no sensation, besides the A.D. reveal, and 5 minutes of actual answers. Alex goes to the stables. Why? No idea. But the horse she is with is the same horse from the beginning of the episode. The horse seemed comfortable around Spencer. So when Alex walks towards it, the horse goes crazy. Toby sees it and looks confused, just like me this entire finale.

Then Jenna walks to what she thinks is Spencer. Suddenly Jenna asks ‘Spencer’ if she is wearing a new perfume, she replies by saying she smells like horses, because of the stables. But Jenna doesn’t buy it and calls Toby to tell him that Spencer isn’t Spencer. 

So........ Jenna (of all people) and a HORSE figure out that Spencer isn’t Spencer before her long-time (ex) boyfriend, her parents and HER BEST FRIENDS?! What is this ridiculousness?

The Liars Figure It Out

So while the liars are still trying to figure out what happend to Ezra (really?), Toby comes in. He hands Aria the book that Spencer gave him before he left Rosewood with Yvonne and he says: “Look, there are no notes in this book. Spencer always made notes in this.” Everyone looks confused, including me. He then adds that it was weird that Spencer kissed him when he left as well. Toby then immediately comes to the conclusion that Spencer must have a twin. The liars come to the same conclusion and they go to save Spencer.

So you’re telling me that they figured out that Spencer has a twin and that she is A.D. in like 1 minute. They didn’t even know their dead friend was alive for like 2/3 years. What is this mess?

Toby To The Rescue

So then the Liars, Caleb, Toby and Mona find Spencer, Alex and Ezra. So of course, the classic who is who? For Toby to figure out who really is Spencer he asked a question about her favorite poem in the book she gave him. Although the real Spencer didn’t even know that he had that book, because it was Alex who gave it to Toby, Spencer knew the answer. 

Then Mona called the cops (obviously) and Alex was arrested. 

I just felt it was so rushed, everything was so last-minute.

Ezria Wedding

When that phone went off, I was like, no please not a text message from B please. Turns out it was just I. Marlene King, the creator of the show. I did like that cameo.

Final Scene with the Liars

I loved this. It was perfect. Hanna is happily married to Caleb and they are expecting a baby! Spencer and Toby are FINALLY together again #bless. Emily and Ali are getting married. And Aria well, she is happy I guess. #NoEzriaForMe. 

Ali’s line was so emotional. I was feeling all the feels.

Queen Mona is the winner of the game, this episode and the entire show

So we see Mona in Paris selling dolls?! Genius! Then her boyfriend (I assumed after that kiss) walks in and I realized that he looked a lot like the cop that arrested Alex and Mary. She then walks in a corridor which gave me major Dollhouse vibes and I wasn’t far off. Because Mona is keeping Mary and Alex as her own dolls! She beat A.D. in the most Mona way possible and I’m so here for it! 

The Last Scene

As soon as I heard that thunder I was like: “Oh no, Addison is probably missing.” And yes, she was. It was exactly like the pilot and I was not here for this. They should not have done that.

That was it, y’all. That was the PLL series finale. It was far from perfect, but there were still parts I enjoyed.

In my opinion, the whole A.D. reveal would have been better if Alex had been around from the beginning. If they (the writers) made her a part of the night that Ali disappeared and was the one that was controlling Mona and CeCe as A, that she was the mastermind behind everything, I would have loved that and considered that the perfect ending. They had the time to it to be honest. It was a 2 hour finale after all. They just wasted a lot of time on stuff that I wasn’t truly interested in. I wanted to see more of the mystery, because that is what made me love PLL so much. But you can’t please everybody. 

A special shout-out to Troian Bellisario, Janel Parrish and Sasha Pieterse who have been the best actresses in this show. Especially Troian in this finale, she deserves all the awards! 

Last but least I just want to say thank you to everyone who has been involved in this show for an amazing 7 year journey! I will consider this show one of my favorites forever. 

Goodbye Rosewood, it’s been one hell of a ride.

XO

Yenai

[multiple-nerdery]

even numbers?

2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? It’s happened, but its rare.

4: Do you find it easy to trust others? Trust is a cryptic. 

8: Are you close with your dad? eh. Not less than many people, but he can be an annoyance.

10: What are you listening to? A coworker practice piano

12:Do you like hickeys? Take a look at my neck rn and ask that again (the answer is yes. y’all should see it it’s extensive)

14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? Not sure if continuously, but like, there’s someone who often does.

16: Do you always answer your texts? no          

18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? This morning if texting counts.

20:What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? This bed is big and empty.

22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? Eh.

24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? Erin, a little. Also I wish I talked to Danny more I want to hang out with him once before I leave forever.

26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? It’s crimson. The decemberists.

28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? Well someone has blocked me, but I’m not sure if it counts as ignoring if we hadn’t talked for a while anyway. Also another person kind of.

30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? liSTEn. I honest to fkn god don’t know. I haven’t seen it happen too much

32: Are you mad at anyone? Nah                

34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? 19? I’m pretty sure.  

36:Do you have any summer plans yet? Road Trip starting 2 June hang out w/me other friends while u still can!!!

38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? I am keeping literally nothing from my best friend. Unless she wants to know random things about my past past that I haven’t thought of, or details that I haven’t brought up about things she already knows about.

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Actually a little. It was a long enough while ago now to where I don’t have as much a problem with it.

42: Are you available? I... I don’t know? (y’all shoulda asked 43 b/c it would be funny).

44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? Nose ring?

46:Do you regret anything? See #40    

48: Did you ever lose a best friend? Lose as in stop being friends? Yeah but it was for the best. Lose as in they died? no.

50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? I don’t think I have romantic feelings for anyone. I’m trying to avoid thinking about romance seriously until I matriculate into College.

52:Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? ...yes? Is this even a question for me?          

54: Did you get any compliments today? Long time drum student expressed sadness that I was leaving soon, which made me cry a little.

56: Do you own anything from other countries? Yes.  

58: Where have you lived most of your life? Colorado

60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? Not successfully. Like. We were going too but everyone was too tired and we just laid around instead.

62: Who do you text the most? Best friend if you count non-SMS texting, otherwise it’s my parents.

64:What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? Like I’ve got one of those.

66:Is the last person you kissed younger than you? Yes. Almost all of the people I’ve kissed are younger than me.

68: Are you happy with where you live? It’s nice but i’m rEADY to lEAVE

70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? I’m fine with both in theory but I might be a little too jealous to actually have a poly relationship. But. Maybe? I’ve never tried it.

72:What do you most like about making out? Teeth. Pressure of someone’s lips against mine. Pressure of someone’s body against mine. Tongue. Warmth and passion. Breath. Teasing. TEASING. teeth. Really all of it. All of it is good. Oh and personal fav thing is making shitty puns and having th partner break down into laughter b/c it’s cute as hell.

74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? Usually, I would say, I start things. It can really go either way tho.

76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? Parents

78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? Nope. Not sure I could to be tbh honest.

80:Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? Not at the tender age of 18.

82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? Not directly but it slips out. Plus I am not subtle.

84:Last time you slow danced with someone? In a romantic context it’s been like 3 or 4 years, but, like, I slowdance with best friends at school dances sometimes.

86: How can I win your heart? Fuck if I know it just happens an I’m all ‘oh shit’

88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM? Sleeping, but barely.

90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? I mean. I guess kinda but not really. It wasn’t NO communication.

92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? I don’t have the luxury of choosing. Few people find me attractive, so I take what I can get.

94: Name four things that you wish you had! Kaoss Pad, shit tonne of samples fr music, more musical talent, enough money to be financially secure.

96:Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? Yes. Twice. Both because of the same person to be real here.

98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? Not really I don’t think. I’ve met people randomly, found out they had a tumblr and then became mutuals with them, though.

100:Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? Yah there’s plenty. 

102: Are you too shy to ask someone out? The last time I did it, they got me high first, and then shot me down after so like... I mean I usually don’t imma be real here.But I can and have done it.

104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? only if we’re kissing or obviously joking.

106: Do you flirt a lot? Does the Pope Shit in the Woods? (yes. That’s a yes)

108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012? I’ve kissed 9 people, and I hadn’t kissed anyone in 2012 so... yes.

110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be? I don’t know. Any cute person who wanted to I guess. I am not desperately wishing to kiss people who I cannot kiss right now so...

112: Does someone like you currently? I dunno. Do they?

114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? I haven’t really done too many flings. So idk.

116: Are you happier single or in a relationship? I’m sad all the time, regardless. But fr it really depends on the person.

[calypsoff]

Eleven.

“Good morning my beautiful friend!” Mel half shouted, stretching my body out smiling “I just woke up, you are lucky” I sound terrible “its birthday eve” Mel made her way around the bed “yay” I sound deflated “I think I am unwell, well getting there” Mel got into the bed with me “birthday snuggles” Mel hugged me “I know I am not Chris, but I can give you snuggles, also. You really haven’t spoke on what went down since you came back, that was like two days ago?” yanking the covers back away from my neck “no fucking way!” Mel spat, she is staring at my neck like I did something awful, but it looks awful somewhat “this is Chris sucking the life out of my neck, like I noticed. Some parts you can see his damn overbite on my neck, he just likes my neck, but I have been covering it up for a while now, I didn’t want to be judged, like now” Mel is shocked “I have seen hickeys but to this extent, chile. That is crazy, he was having a feast” I breathed out laughing “I know, trust me. But Chris is actually my boyfriend now, he asked me out and I said yes” Mel nodded her head “right, but why do you seem so..” she dragged out “deflated, what happened? Did something go wrong or something between you both?” rolling my eyes “Chris being Chris, he has an issue with me being famous, that is it. Like forget about the none famous niggas, they have issues too. So yeah we had such a good time, we had so much sex as you can see from my neck, and then on the last day he got me breakfast in bed, got me such cute gifts. I was loving life; you hear the word was?” Mel nodded her head “so I was loving life, and everything seemed to be just great and then, this nigga turned around and said. I don’t want you to get pregnant, and the manner he said it. He just blurted it out, and he was dead ass too acting like what he was saying is fine, he just said I don’t want you pregnant so yeah, mind you we have had sex raw, constantly too. He just blew my fucking bubble, and he does this every time on the last day, then he started to pick on why I was texting Rakim, like I had to tell Rakim because it looked bad, we just split too, he was fine with it. then he told me he fucked his ex before seeing me in New York, he was just being do hateful to hurt me, and yes I cried” my bedroom door opened so I stopped speaking “morning bitches, you want me to bring the breakfast to you?” Sonita asked, shaking my head “I will be out” that has cut the conversation now “ok, you both look so deep in conversation, my bad” she is right, we were.

The door closed “this is why you was so quiet; you know I am here for you Robyn. You should have spoken to me” Mel is right “I know but I needed time to process things, I am giving him a chance. Like I told him I am going Barbados but that wasn’t the case, we came Mexico so when I told him plans changed on text he goes oh, so going there? What is there, like nigga nothing is here but good vibes. This y’all surprise I ain’t questioning it. He did this time text me if I am ok though so that is something but we had it out, I told him that I won’t have this again. I won’t have a man like Rakim again, I told him that he needs to think what he wants, if he wants me and he said does. That is what we were speaking on outside and we were hugging, he was sorry about it and he wants me. I said I want a damn essay on why, this is literally his last chance Mel. I can’t have him talking to me the way he does. Nigga I don’t want your kids, he put me right off and I am going to make sure he puts on a condom, ain’t no raw sex with me again. I think it’s me Mel, I got comfortable because he is my friend, I called him baby daddy and he just shut off, he keeps shutting off randomly. I am not sure what it is, but I think it comes from when I leave him, but he chooses to be hard headed Mel. I would have him here, I would have him on the jet with me, but he wants to be a man, he wants to have his own title but I am going to let him have it. I am currently watching his behaviour; I am not going to be blind to it. it’s just the way he spoke on having sex with other women, he wanted to be malicious with it, it hurt me, but he has yet to write me why he wants to be with me when he feels so insecure” I am not sure if Mel is looking at my neck or my face, I know it’s bad.

Mel is thinking something, she is unimpressed “do you think you maybe both jumped into a relationship a little too quick? Maybe he is not ready for that? I think actually” Mel pointed pausing “I think he actually wants you so he knows he got you, I think he is stuck between that Robyn he knew and this Rihanna. It’s like, let’s say you met Chris at that age and then you go away for a while and then he is Chris Brown the singer and he has all this attention on him, girls wanting him. People love him, and you’re just a nine to five worker and he is flying on private jets and having fun, living that life. If you put yourself in his shoes it’s a lot and it’s different for a man too, like if I didn’t know you both and then it come out you are dating this random nigga from Virginia, my first thing would be is that he wants her money and Rihanna is dumb, and then on top of that he has been in jail, that is just me. But maybe I see it from his view, but he shouldn’t be rude with it at all. I think seeing it from that side it’s a lot. He needs to come to terms with Rihanna, like if that was you. Then you would have needed to come to terms with Chris Brown the singer, and that would be hard for you? Imagine the girls wanting him, equally men masturbating over you” I busted out laughing “bitch!” I spat through my laughter “but I think, I don’t know him but you have spoken on him a lot, maybe just give him that space to just gradually get used to it but yeah, don’t let him get away with it, if he does do it again then just stop it” Mel is wise “I get it’s hard on him, and he has admitted to it, he said if I wasn’t famous he wouldn’t be this way, but I am not going to back down on him. He still needs to make it up to me and explain why he wants me; I am giving to him. I adore him Mel, you may one day see us together, and I am literally loving him so much, I am happy, but yeah. I hope we make it” that is what I want.

My family and friends all clapped that I finally appeared, I took ages because of having to put makeup on my neck, I couldn’t go out like this “so it’s my birthday eve and none of you waited for me!? Wow” touching my mother’ shoulder as I made my way to my seat “bitch you took an extra twenty minute once Mel left your room” Sonita got a point “she was busy dressing the bear” placing the bear on the table “it’s son, son. Be nice, Leandra no!” I shouted as she snatched the bear “you spend more time on this bear then anything, what the hell. Let me see it!” I want to snatch it off her, but I won’t “so this is called son son? Why son son?” I shrugged “because I said so, can I have it back now. And do not put his hood on, he wants it off” Leandra laughed out loudly “you are such a baby Robyn, what is wrong with you. Don’t cry about it” she placed it back where it should be “it means a lot to me” shuffling my chair in “thank you Sonita for the pre-birthday food, I am excited for the birthday shenanigans. I can’t wait for the rest to arrive in Mexico, yes bitch. Wine for breakfast bitch” grabbing my glass “wine for breakfast!” I said into Leandra’ camera phone in my face “down it, down it, down it!” she started chanting, my mom gave me the displeasing look but I did it, I am a bad bitch so I will do it “Robyn” my mom said Leandra screamed out “Monica is not happy, I am so sorry mommy” Leandra spat.

The sun got blocked which made me open my eyes “yes?” I asked seeing Sonita towering over me “oh wait, take a picture of me and son son sun bathing” Sonita snorted laughing “who is this bear about!?” holding my phone out to her, she took my phone “a friend gave it me” placing the bear between my breasts, placing my arm over my forehead squinting my eyes as the sun shone into my eyes as she moved away “mhmmm your body looks good as fuck, enough!” she held my phone out to me “I am jealous” getting up from the lounger to sit up “thank you boo, bitch your body looks good too” I am about to post this, tapping on Instagram and pressing the plus sign to add it to my feed, adding a caption to the photo ‘Somebodies son is having his breast day’ pressing send “we having shots, we all are having one! This is it before your party” Mel said as she made her way to me “tonight? My party is tonight? My birthday is tomorrow though?” I am confused “two parties, this is the family one and the other is the friends one, we can’t turn up as much with this one now drinks up” this is why I usually do my own parties.

Chris would call now when I said for him to call me earlier when I had nothing to do “just two minutes” I said to Yusef, answering the call “hey” I said down the phone “my bad, I know you said earlier but Barry came and we ended up discussing Texas, are you ok?” figured he was doing something “yeah I am fine, just getting ready for my party. Apparently the girls are doing me two parties, my mom wanted to do a family one. I think it’s going to be a birthday meal and party; I think anyways so I am getting ready, but I do have to go. Yusef is doing my hair, I will keep in contact with you through text and let you know what is up and stuff, I am sorry just busy” I am busy but also Chris hasn’t give me the essay so he can wallow “I get it, keep in touch then” as he is “sure, bye” I am cold with him still, I just. I want to be loving to him but then it’s me just backing down from the issue at hand, he is still being normal with me, but I am not, he can’t just think he can say that, and I will just be fine with it. Its not happening, and it won’t happen “sorry Yusef” I said, tapping on Instagram. I might as well catch up with my Instagram while I am in this chair, the first thing that loaded up was a picture of me, a candid picture of me leaving a hotel. Scrolling down anyways, fans always loading that shit but I had to do a double take “huh” I said to myself, reading the name again ‘fuckyopicture’ he’s put a picture of me up, scrolling to the caption all wide eyed ‘Woman crush everyday’ I cooed out, he really posted me as his woman crush, it’s made me smile so much. Tapping on the comments, there is comments on this. He doesn’t even follow many people, then I realised my fans are following him because I follow him, figured they would. Just a lot of queen comments on here “ah” TJ, he is here of course ‘does that include those school picture lol’ rolling my eyes at him, Chris replied ‘why not?’ oh wait Seiko is on this, tapping on her Instagram but of course, she has her profile locked, I am going to need to do digging on that page actually, let me see her comment ‘Nigga went to Rihanna concert and came out obsessed’ she is a bird, like she is still in his comments, go and be a bird elsewhere.

I find it so adorable that he posted me, like he kept it lowkey but still. He posted me and it means the most to me out of it all, I am not over it still and now that I am with my family and some friends he keeps on texting me, like I am not sure if this is him clinging but he’s been constant and my friends seem to think what the fuck, I text him back and he will text me back so fast and then double texts me if I don’t reply quick enough.

Robyn: Chris I can’t just up and leave this get together with my family, but I will once it’s over xx

Chris: I really want to be the first to say happy birthday to you, there is two minutes left! I won’t be long

Taking in a deep breath “Mel!” I shouted her “mhm” Mel turned to me “he wants to speak to me when it strikes twelve, I just want to talk to him. I won’t be long. I can ask him what the fuck is his problem, let me breathe” I shouted over the music “ok, I will hold it down. Hurry up though” nodding my head walking off, I don’t mind him messaging but I am ignoring guests and family I at times don’t get to see, I am busy most part. I don’t want to upset him either so I will be quick and let him be the first one “where you going?” Rajad asked “just need to take this call, be back” stepping into the house, rushing towards the front of the home where it is quieter, opening the spare room door, switching the light on. My phone started ringing anyways, not like I said yes, closing the door behind me “hard headed ass” I answered the call “before it goes twelve, I also sent you a picture, but I did it! I wrote a paragraph, you said essay so I filled the page with graffiti” my face softened “you did? I mean I didn’t think you would, you actually wrote that out?” sitting down on the couch “yeah, it made me sit back and read it over and over and think. It was therapeutic on my behaviour, but I wrote why I want to be with you, you want to hear it?” I am speechless “yeah, I am listening” now I want to listen “Hi Robyn Rihanna, Rihanna Robyn. Remember that? I thought so, you probably smiling because you would hate it. There was no purpose to that, I just wanted to make you smile. I could speak on it better then writing here on this paper, I want to be with you because you bring out the best in me, the love in me and the calmness in me. When I am with you Robyn, I get nervous. Every time I see you naked I still get excited, when I see you I see a future with you. I will never be at the same level as you but you shouldn’t ever be, you are a queen and you will be treated that way. I am not saying things will be perfect between us, it’s not true because nothing is perfect but when they say you know when you are in love, you do. It’s scary, I am so lost in love with you. I really want to do good by you and I just want to include that I am sorry, I would never do this for anyone” I am shocked he did it “you do really love me don’t you?” I said “to the moon and back, when I saw you at the meet and greet and you asked me if I wanted the picture with you, I touched above my heart, I did it because I knew somehow I would have every waking moment with you. God got us baby, and it brings me onto the baby part. I ain’t mean to make it sound like I don’t want you to hold my child, I do. That will happen but right now we can enjoy us, I will be more then happy if you did have my child, and that is it. But like I said I filled the page with graffiti, I sent you the picture of it, proof. And oh shit, it’s your birthday” he cleared his throat “happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you” I giggled my ass off as he sang down the phone “dear Rihanna Robyn, happy birthday to you. Man I love you so much, I’m hurt I am not there but promise you, I am missing you like crazy. I love you ma” I am smiling so hard right now, I feel emotional “wow, I am speechless Chris. You have made my birthday all the better, thank you so much. I miss you more then you know, I promise you this. I am speechless that you wrote it, now I do fully forgive you, just don’t break it” he has really made my birthday, he has me smiling so hard right now “I can feel your happiness, I love you” he feels it like I feel him.