#camryn lowe

[snwusberry]

pairing: multiple x fem!named reader

genre: fluff

warning(s): language, suggestive topics, fwb relationship, arguments between couples.

EPISODE 1

welcome back to berry tv's EX today we talk to camryn and three of her exes, choi san, choi yeonjun and jung wooyoung.

ex 1: choi yeonjun

ex 2: jung wooyoung

ex 3: choi san

crew behind camera: do you know why you're here?

yeonjun: i didn't read the whole email

wooyoung: yeah... i think

san: hmmm [he nods]

[the camera cuts to camryn who is smiling]

crew: we've got three of your exes here.

camryn: shut up, no you don't.

🫐

DO YOU REMEMBER CAMRYN?

yeonjun: oh lord.

wooyoung: man, how could i forget?

san: of course i remember her.

"LETS START WITH SOME BASIC QUESTIONS"

yeonjun: let's go

Q: WHAT'S CAMRYN'S TYPE?

yeonjun: me

wooyoung: someone who will match her energy. aka me.

san: someone fun, soft, caring, handsome, good in bed...

[camera cuts him off mid answer to show camryn.]

camryn: i don't think i have a type.

[screen cuts back to san who's still listing things.]

crew: you describing yourself aren't you?

san: of course not.

crew: you most definitely are.

san: i plead the fifth.

🫐

crew: you most definitely do.

camryn: i know nothing about that lifestyle because that's not me.

[the crew behind the camera laughs at her mini monolog.]

Q: WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION OF HER WHEN YOU FIRST MET HER?

yeonjun: hard headed...in a good way. [he screeches the back of his neck, looking at the camera crew.] she's not watching, is she?

[they all shake their heads which makes yeonjun let out a relieved sigh.]

yeonjun: oh thank goodness.

wooyoung: smartass.

san: sassy.

crew: is she?

san: very.

Q: HOW DID YOU GUYS START DATING?

yeonjun: we had a mutual friend and we started hanging out often and then we both drunkenly confessed to each other.

wooyoung: we met on a blind date and hit it off.

san: we broke the universal rule number one between friends with benefits.

🫐

crew: you were friends with benefits with san?

camryn: yeah, it was a crazy time, holy shit. [she starts fanning herself with her hands.] is it hot in here?

Q: HOW DID THINGS END BETWEEN YOU TWO?

yeonjun: gosh it was messy. we just stopped getting along which eventually lead to us angrily ending our relationship.

wooyoung: we're too alike so we bumped heads often.

🫐

camryn: one thing about wooyoung and i, we kept it real, even with each other. yeah that didn't work out.

🫐

san: we had issues communicating with each other, never really spoke things out so all the unresolved tension built up and became unbearable.

Q: HOW LONG WAS YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH CAMRYN?

yeonjun: like 10 months

wooyoung: a year.

san: are we counting the entirety of it or just our little romance story?

crew: everything.

san: 3 years.

crew: how long did you date?

san: no [he laughs making everyone else in the room laugh.]

🫐

crew: how long were you and san together?

camryn: oh... [she awkwardly laughs, running her hand down her one arm] we were fuck buddies for like 2 years, during that, we took a break and i dated yeonjun but then we broke up and i went back to san and we started dating like 5 months after. i'd say we dated for a year and a bit.

🫐

crew: that was just a warm up.

yeonjun: how fun. [he has his head facing the ground as he scratches his eyebrow with his pinky]

camryn: y'all already got me sharing the details of my relationships, what do you mean just a warm up?

"LETS DO SOME TRIVIA TO SEE WHO KNOWS HER BEST."

wooyoung: you guys are trying to set me up we dated like 5 years ago.

🫐

crew: who'll do the best here?

me: i'm keeping my expectations low for all of them.

🫐

Q: WHAT'S HER FAVORITE COLOR?

yeonjun: damn, like orange or some shit?

wooyoung: she liked pink.

san: her gay ass likes pink white and orange.

[crew laughs, putting a smile on san's face.]

camryn: pink and orange. they're so pretty together.

Q: WHAT WAS HER FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOU?

yeonjun: my height. for some reason she was crazy about it.

camryn: my favorite thing about yeonjun was his attentiveness. nothing got past him i swear.

crew: he's a tall man.

[camryn smiles, tucking a piece of hair behind her ear, only thing is, her hair is completely out her face.]

camryn: listen...

🫐

wooyoung: my sense of humor, i think.

camryn: with wooyoung, you either get it or you don't. i definitely got it. his whole vibe was just everything, i loved spending time with him.

🫐

san: my dimples. she always stuck her finger in them whenever i smiled.

camryn: his dimples are so cute. like i am obsessed with them.

crew: am?

camryn: hear what you wanna, i said nothing of the sort.

Q: WHAT'S HER BIGGEST RED FLAG?

yeonjun: she never took no for an answer. it was her way or the highway.

wooyoung: white noise scares her.

crew: what?

wooyoung: i don't know either man.

san: she's too stubborn to the point where it gets overbearing.

camryn: i get controlling sometimes.

crew: wooyoung said you're scared of white noi-

camryn: he's a liar, don't believe anything he says.

crew: you answered that very quickly.

[she just shakes her head with her eyes closed.]

camryn: actually, let's go to the next question.

Q: WHO FELL FIRST?

yeonjun: me. it's insane how whipped i was so for her holy fucking shit.

camryn: a hundred million percent him, no questions asked.

[screen cuts back to yeonjun.]

crew: how whipped were you for her?

yeonjun: you trying to ruin my street cred?

wooyoung: her.

camryn: him.

crew: you lying?

[camryn nods quietly.]

🫐

san: i'm not quite sure honestly, all i know is she made the first mood.

camryn: i liked him looong before our little arrangement.

[screen cuts to camryn who's looking at the crew as they ask her questions.]

crew: who do you think did best?

camryn: san? it has to be san, i spent most time with him.

crew: yeah it's san.

camryn: always knew he was obsessed with me.

[cuts to san]

crew: you're the one who knows her best.

san: i mean... come on.

"HOLD ON, WE'VE GOT GOT SOME EXTRA QUESTIONS"

Q: WHAT WAS HER CONTACT NAME ON YOUR PHONE?

yeonjun: wait let me check.

crew: drama, are you guys still in contact?

yeonjun: yeah she calls me for... stuff.

crew: drugs?

yeonjun: what?

[the camera crew laughs at yeonjun's facial expression from the question.]

wooyoung: camie with a heart.

san: haha [he starts actually laughing, his body completely going out of frame.]

crew: what did san save you as?

camryn: you you like crepe cakes? i love crepe cakes.

crew: you both won't tell us?

camryn: it's uhh. my baby sister is watching, i can't say [she takes a sip from the water bottle that's there on the table next to her.]

crew: you got a baby sister?

[camryn shakes her head, still with water in her mouth.]

🫐

yeonjun: i saved her as mama.

crew: elaborate?

yeonjun: it's something i called her a lot as a joke and it just stuck.

Q: WOULD YOU GIVE HER THE AUX IN YOUR CAR.

yeonjun: camryn, lots of love and everything but hell no.

wooyoung: no. respectfully

san: that girl listens to like skrillex and video game soundtracks. some crazy shit like that, no thanks.

crew: they all said no.

camryn: they just don't get it. get well soon to all of them.

Q: WOULD YOU LIKE TO RECONNECT OR GET BACK TOGETHER WITH CAMRYN?

yeonjun: it's a pretty delicate situation honestly.

crew: just say you fucking and move on.

[yeonjun covers his mouth with his hand amd turns away from the camera.]

wooyoung: oh i definitely would. we've both grown since we broke up so reconnecting with her would be great.

san: we still talk, we just don't talk like we used to. getting into an exclusive relationship really changed our dynamic so things aren't quite the same as they used to be.

"WE HAVE A FEW CLOSING QUESTIONS FOR CAMRYN"

camryn: shoot

Q: WHAT DID SAN SAVE YOUR NUMBER AS?

camryn: no wait, i think we're done here.

Q: WHO'S YOUR FAVORITE OUT OF ALL OF THEM?

camryn: do i have one?

Q: WHAT'S SOMETHING YOU WANNA SAY TO THEIR FUTURE PARTNERS?

camryn: you lucky ass motherfuckers. treat them right because losing such amazing people is going to hurt a lot more than you'd think. trust me i done that three times already.

great, that's all the time we have today.

camryn: oh already?

crew: mhmm, all good things come to an end.

camryn: funny you're saying that after the interview we just had.

BEHIND THE SCENES CLIPS

[camryn sits in her seat as the interview wraps up when the three men sneak in behind her. she's talking to the crew, still clueless to what's going on behind her until wooyoung scares her from behind, earning a scream from her.]

camryn: holy shit i almost met my ancestors.

[the crew laughs along with the three men that camryn is now facing.]

camryn: you're all laughing now, yeonjun, my therapist knows your name.

yeonjun: woah. what?

[leaderpinhead]

Silver - A Knight's Duty

“Silver!” 

Silver snapped to attention, having inadvertently dozed off again. He blinked in confusion when he saw Yuu running in his direction. He even glanced over his shoulder to be sure she was addressing him. 

Flight was the only class they shared—seeing how Yuu was a freshman, and he was a sophomore—but it was the first time they had acknowledged each other during class. She normally stayed close to Riddle, who had taken responsibility for her after the reckless flight that had sent her to the infirmary earlier in the semester. Silver didn’t see the housewarden anywhere on the sports field. 

Yuu was slightly out of breath when she reached him. Instead of pausing to catch her breath, she grabbed his wrist and began pulling him back in the direction she had come. Too shocked to protest, Silver allowed her to pull him across the field, pulling her out of the path of Azul’s low and wobbly flight pattern. “We’ve gotta hurry!” 

Her urgency snapped Silver out of his stupor. He automatically began assessing the area for any threats, just as father had taught him and Sebek early in their training. He was ashamed to have missed something that would distress the prefect so much. There was very little he had seen at this point that could shake the prefect. Not even Leona’s overblot had affected her in this way. 

One quick glance around the sports field yielded nothing, so Silver scanned it again. Coach Vargas stood on the far side of the field, boisterously encouraging Floyd and Kalani’s race around the field. Jade appeared very interested in a fairy circle that had appeared over night near the horse stables; Ruggie was exchanging something with Camryn, the hyena and fox beastmen constantly glancing around them. Azul still flew too low to the ground, but Silver assumed Jamil was working to correct him since the Scarabia vice housewarden followed him with a narrowed expression of concentration. There was a small group of juniors huddled together closer to the colosseum, and Silver could vaguely see Assistant Coach Leal’s shorter, stubby form directing them inside, likely for a short round of spelldrive. 

All in all, there was nothing Silver could discern as an immediate threat. Yet Yuu was still clearly upset as she led him closer to the line of trees serving as the boundary of the sports field. Perhaps something had happened to Riddle? That would explain his absence and her distress. 

When he saw the top of Riddle’s head peeking above a bush, he thought his assumption correct. His longer stride pushed him a step ahead of Yuu. “Riddle!” 

Riddle visibly jumped, but Kalim appearing behind the bush like a toy on a spring caused Silver to stumble in surprise. Kalim’s large red eyes glistened with tears. “Silver! Thank goodness Yuu got you so quick. You have to help!” 

Caha appeared from behind the bush as well, causing Silver to come to a full stop. The snake beastman’s hum sounded almost like a musical hiss. “Are you sure this is a good idea? Not that I normally question the wisdom of two housewardens, but you must admit, it may be better to...relieve him of his pain.” 

“No one has to die today,” Yuu insisted. The grave statement startled Silver. Was Riddle in such a dire state? They should have retrieved the nurse—not Silver! “Besides, his only injury is his leg. That’s like trying to say we have to amputate your arm because you have an ear infection.” 

Caha hummed. “Even if we were to take him back to the dorm and set the break, there’s always a chance it will not properly heal. He would have trouble getting around for the rest of his life, perhaps even be in chronic pain. Would that not be cruel?” 

“I don’t want him to be in pain!” Kalim cried. He disappeared behind the bush again. “Hang in there, little guy!” 

Riddle jerked away from Kalim. “Kalim! Give me some space.” 

Riddle’s agitated tone spurred Silver forward. He quickly flipped through the first aid father had taught him, feeling far more awake now than he had a minute earlier. “Please, give Housewarden Rosehearts space. Apply pressure to any wound if there is one. If it appears to be a fracture, carefully elevate the limb above the heart.” 

Caha hummed again, tilting his head to the side. Kalim frantically fluttered above Riddle, having obeyed Silver’s command for space. “But his leg’s so tiny! How do I elevate it without hurting him more?” 

Silver slowly blinked. “I know Riddle is shorter than most of us, but there should be no issue elevating his wound once we lie him down.” 

Riddle’s head jerked in Silver’s direction. He paused his approach when he saw the angered tint on Riddle’s face. “I am the average height a boy my age should be!” 

Caha’s continuous hum morphed into a soft laugh. “And you still have much time to grow.” 

“Exactly!” 

Yuu grabbed Silver’s wrist again and pulled him behind the bush with the others. Silver paused when he was finally able to see the small fawn splayed across Riddle’s lap. Its head rested in the crook of Riddle’s arm, and one of its hind legs was awkwardly splayed behind it. 

Yuu crouched beside Riddle and carefully petted the fawn’s head. “You poor thing. We just found it lying back here like this. I figured if there was anyone on campus who could help us, it was you.” 

“That’s what I said too!” Kalim agreed. He widely grinned at Silver. “Animals always feel so comfortable around you.” 

“Indeed,” Riddle agreed. He carefully shifted the arm holding up the fawn’s head. The muscles in his forearm noticeably twitched. “You have a soothing presence that calms even the more difficult horses in the stable. I have seen you tend to the rowdier ones with minimum issues.” 

“I am honored you would think so highly of me,” Silver said. Praise from not one but two housewardens wasn’t to be taken lightly. He shook his head. “However, I am afraid I will not be of much help here.” 

“How unfortunate,” Caha solemnly said. He patted Kalim on the shoulder. “I suppose not every creature can be saved.” 

Silver shook his head again, but he had to wait until Kalim’s distressed whine ended. “I’m sorry I sounded so dire. I simply meant there is nothing wrong with him for me to help.” 

The others stared at him in complete silence. Kalim sniffled. “The baby deer is okay?” 

“Yes,” Silver said with an emphasizing nod. He smiled down at Riddle, who blinked back at him. “I have seen this little fawn before. He often finds me when I fall asleep outside. He pretends his leg is hurt in an attempt to make me stay longer. See?” 

Silver crouched and gently tapped the back of the fawn’s leg. It jerked the limb out of Silver’s reach and stood without hesitation. It even added a little frolicking kick when it jumped around the tree trunks to find its mother. 

Kalim cheered, his previous tears nonexistent. “Yay! Bye-bye, baby deer!” 

Yuu emitted a small snort. “It was just playing opossum.” 

Caha chuckled. “I suppose it found Riddle’s lap to be a particularly pleasant resting place.” 

Riddle sighed and stood, lightly swatting the dirt and grass from his gym pants. “It is extremely rude to fake an injury.” A small smile appeared on his face. “However, I am still happy to see it unharmed. 

Silver smiled at their shared humor. “It usually has a little rabbit companion with it. They both enjoy napping here around this time.” 

“That would explain why I never see Leona skipping his PE class around this area.” Yuu clapped her hands together. “Well, crisis averted I suppose. I guess that means back to class.” 

Kalim and Caha agreed, and they grabbed their brooms leaning against a nearby tree before heading back to the field. Riddle and Yuu mumbled to each other. Riddle grabbed his broom where it lie on the ground next to him. He nodded towards Silver. “Thank you for coming as quickly as you did. Though the outcome was unexpected, it is reassuring knowing you would come to our aid without hesitation.” 

“Especially considering I just grabbed you and pulled you along without explaining anything,” Yuu added. “You could’ve just called me crazy and left.” 

“I would have never done that,” Silver insisted. “While a knight puts his liege above all else, he doesn’t hesitate to assist those who are in need. That is what my father has taught me.” 

Yuu smiled. “You’re definitely a knight through and through then.” 

The praise was a simple one, but he reiterated it later while retelling his day, which earned him a fond pat on the head from father. 

[insomniac-jay]

I have a lot of thoughts about Yun-Seo, especially in terms of her relationship with Camryn and Daliah.

The main thought is that Yun-Seo is equally surprised to learn about Camryn and Daliah as they are to learn about her (Yun-Seo is so estranged she didn't even know about Yalwa and Yuu's existence until she met Camryn and Daliah). The second thought is the two are relieved when Yun-Seo doesn't try to kidnap them (a frighteningly low bar but you know). Plus, Yun-Seo is willing to tell them everything the other Yukimuras kept them in the dark about (I have thoughts about this family).

I imagine in the future the Young Justice bike breaks down mechanically, and Daliah immediately calls Yun-Seo who walks them step by step through jump starting it or finding a reliable tow service (though I know Cassie would probably be able to fix it).

Yun-Seo gatekeeps her relationship with her cousins from the others. Also, is that new Yukimura lore I smell👀👀

Cassie would lose her mind at Daliah's hot older cousin who races cars and knows how to fix them

[carolinablues-story]

33 x Play The Game x part 2

Jermaine 

I took a deep breath as I pulled the keys out of the lock, closing the door behind me. It felt good to finally be home after yet another tiring training camp. Due to the last two days, I hadn’t much sleep--mainly because of my own choices. But today I was sure I was going to sleep even if I had to force myself to do so. My mind was overwhelmed with everything that was going on in my life, and with me still missing Cam I found any and every reason not to be here. Today I didn’t have  a reason so I’d have to face the reality. Hell, this was probably the step I needed to take to stop missing her. 

I quickly stepped out of my practice shoes and flipped the light switch to the right of me. It felt like my heart jumped out of my chest when I registered Cam standing in the middle of the living room floor, glaring at me. I would ask how the hell she got inside but I quickly remembered that I didn’t take the key away from her. 

“You’re not the only one that does pop ups.” She crossed her arms over her chest, laughing at my confused expression. 

“You had time to fly out here? Because you was Casper all before then...had a nigga stalking his then girlfriend, the fuck!” 

“We’ve talked about that! We need to talk... now.” I took note of her outfit, some light washed jeans and an oversized hoodie. It wasn’t something I was used to her wearing so I could tell she ‘rushed’ here. Sighing, I threw my keys on the coffee table that stood between us. Without removing my eyes from her, I took off my jacket tossed it and sat on the couch that was closer to me than her. I leaned forward and propped my elbows on my knees, giving her the most bored expression I could possibly give her. 

“Talk.”

“Where have you been all night? First of all. And what do you mean ‘then girlfriend’!?” Cam slapped her thighs before flopping back into the couch. She look exhausted but I also couldn’t find myself to care. I guess seeing her helped me to realize that I didn’t miss her as much as I thought I did. Having her in my presence allowed all the anger I really had towards her to resurface. I honestly don’t know how she could stand here questioning me right now like we didn’t  talk about this as she said.  

“Why you care? You not my girl!” I retorted out of anger, I was in my head thinking aloud. As soon as I realized it, I locked eyes with a teary eyed Camryn. Only then did my heart soften. Maybe we did need to talk, because she didn’t even understand that she was the one that said we weren’t going to last longer anyway. I didn’t even stop to think that maybe it was her feelings talking that day, but she seemed so cold why would I? It’s not like I ever had a woman in the past to base this thinking off of and she knew that. “I didn’t mean to yell...but you said that we weren’t going to last.” I finally shrugged when Camryn seemed to be speechless. 

“I know what I said but-”

“But what?”

“But I was upset...Jermaine you kissed Zayn how do you think I would feel?” Camryn tears finally let loose and I wanted so badly to jump this couch and hold her. I was stuck however. 

“Cam, there is nothing in this world I can truly do to prove to you that I am sorry. I lied. I lied about not being attracted to A’zayn...but she was never you to me and I saw past that. I was wrong for wanting you to see that. I didn’t want her at the time...”

“At the time?” Camryn head cocked to the side and she wiped her eyes for the first time. I shook my head. Damn Jermaine you really got to learn when to fucking shut up, I thought. “So you want her now?” I was the one speechless now. What could I truly say?

After that night, Zayn and I were spending more time together on the low. And when I say low I mean just that. I never knew there were so many lowkey spots in North Carolina and I’ve been here my whole life before the draft. Zayn was cool as fuck. I could not deny. Before Cam, I hadn’t been cool with any other woman since high school. Once I graduated, I was a man on a mission and nothing came in between that until I met Cam. I was so disciplined. I had dreams to accomplish, things I wanted to give my mama, my brother. Hell, my whole family. Then I met Camryn and she became my everything. She taught me another side of life I didn’t know I wanted to learn. She taught me how to fall in love for real. How to become friends with someone, making sure you’re really ready for something with that person. I was ready for it all with Cam. I always had been. I was waiting on her to finally catch up, and when she did it blew up in our faces and I met Zayn. I didn’t plan on meeting her. I didn’t plan on getting to know her. The same way I was drawn to Camryn, I could almost say for Zayn except she doesn’t need me. Zayn is a strong woman, and I learned that over the last few days. We got to know each other, deep conversations. Games. Tv shows. Lil dinner dates. Everything to get our minds off of reality. We didn’t do anything except enjoy each others company. It felt good to have an escape. Cam was always in the back of my mind every time though. I kept wondering if I was hurting her and my heart would sting. Each time Zayn would notice and call it a night. It had been two days since I last talked to her being that I had done that three nights in a row after spending two weeks truly enjoying her time.

So again, what could I really say? 

“Are you falling for her?” Camryn voice whimpered into my thoughts. I looked at her and sighed. For the first time I could finally move. I got up and crossed the short distance between us and sat down beside her. I could feel her relax and that was enough to help me think my thoughts through for whatever she wanted to ask after this. 

“No, I am not. Camryn I love you. I loved you since the night I’ve met you. I see you in my life. I never knew how much I needed you until I needed you and I risk majority of what I have to keep you around. You...you told me that I didn’t love you because I wanted you here, with me. Where I feel like you should be. I thought you was mine, my family. I wanted that with you. I still do. Its like, my heart only beat for you. But you hurt me Cam. Because I ain’t never in my life did no shit like what I did with you. I missed a game that night. You know that before anybody AND you know why....that wasn’t enough for you? I could have understood a...I don’t even know. But to tell me I don’t love you because of a sudden decision....and then use my career against me...its like how could you?”

“Jermaine, I-” Camryn reached for my hand, immediately my guard was back up and I put space between us. This caused her to cry again and I blew a breath out, shaking my head. 

“I’m not done. You signed up for this, you could have walked away at any moment. You know my career and what it entails. So it wasn’t, and will never be the same. I knew you were in school, I knew your dreams, your goals...and you switched them...for a big break? No offense but what am I?” I couldn’t help but laugh. So many women would kill to be Cam. I love her but lets be frank, in reality she freeloaded off of a complete stranger under the guise of ‘best friend’ until she suddenly fell in love. What kind of fairytale shit is that? And who wouldn’t want it? 

“I don’t think of you as some big bank, Jermaine!” She gasped looking at me seriously. 

“Well, I don’t know what you think. But what I do think, is that you thought, or possibly still do think that your life starts in Cali. So who am I to stop you? I meant nothing that night when you left, if I don’t love you for never wanting you to go in the first place.” I huffed and leaned back into the chair. I felt a weird emotion come across me. What the hell? Suddenly my cheeks were wet, Camryn noticed and shot out of the chair hovering over me as if I were dying. 

“Are you crying?” She shrieked. I could tell she was concerned. I quickly wiped my face, standing up. 

“Man move.” I sighed. Camryn stepped to the side. I was done with this conversation. After realizing I was crying, my whole body went numb. I couldn’t remember the last time I cried. Honest to God.

 I don’t know what Camryn did to me, but I don’t ever in my life want to feel like this again. 

Its a bet. 

Camryn

Jermaine went to what used to be our room and slammed the door. Suddenly after that I felt and heard the wall thud, some glass breaking and Jermaine yell “fuck” as loud as I have ever heard any man in my life yell. 

Because everything was so sudden, my reaction was to drop to my knees, cradling myself. My heart was beating so fast. I didn’t know what to think, or feel. I have never seen Jermaine this mad in all the years of knowing him and he gets mad. 

My cheeks went hot as I cried to myself letting our conversation replay in my mind. Over the last month, I wasn’t sure but  I am more than sure now that I have lost him. Because how can we ever come back from this? Can it be the same? Especially since he never really addressed what was going on between him and Zayn. Camryn didn’t want to admit it but she still managed to have Jermaine’s location and she had been watching him like a hawk. Explaining her exhausted face he was questioning as he looked over her earlier.

She cried so many nights because she knew if he wasn’t at least with Zayn, he was with someone. He was going places neither of them had been and he was there for long time periods. Not only that but it was the same time every night as if it was planned. Leading her to believe that it was Zayn because she had gone had the grid under the paps eyes when it came to them two. She knows they just didn’t suddenly stop talking. 

Cam cried harder, gulping and gasping as she suddenly began to realize that if it was her, they could possibly be fucking. She couldn’t fathom the thought of someone, the only one, she shared intimacy with, being with someone else. Especially Zayn. She was gorgeous and had an undeniable aura.

Heaving she began pleading within herself to God to ease her mind. Her thoughts were racing and she couldn’t control her breaths. How did they get here?

*OPEN POV* 

In the morning Camryn was suddenly awoken by the sound of the front door slamming close. Jerking up she looked around until her eyes landed on the digital clock near the tv. It read 7:38. She couldn’t help but worry about where he was going but her thoughts subsided to focus on her sore joints. 

She ended up crying herself to sleep on the floor and though uncomfortable, she had gotten some rest for the first time in days. She winced at the sound of her bones cracking as she stood up. Her mind was in a fog. Cam didn’t know what to do or think. All she knew, is that until he said or did otherwise they were done and all she could do now was accept it. Being that she was the one to say it first anyway. As long as they both know, Jermaine would have kept trying. Cam calling it quits at the first real sight of trouble showed Jermaine everything he really needed to know deep down inside about their relationship. 

Sighing to herself, she grabbed her keys off the table, noticing Jermaine left his. Was he coming back? Nevertheless she slid her slides on that she didn’t remember taking off and treaded for the front door as well. Sure enough the door was unlocked as she let herself out. Instantly she noticed Jermaine on the hood of his car, and she ‘bout fainted when a cloud of smoke escaped his lips. 

“What the fuck!?” Camryn exasperated, advancing towards him. He smirked at her as she approached him, attempting to grab the blunt out of his hand. “What are you doing Jermaine? Seriously stop!” Jermaine laughed in her face, pushing her back with one arm extended out. Tall mf. 

“I know you not worried...” He grumbled at her, bending down to put the blunt out. Jermaine smoked back in high school and a little throughout college, it helped him when he was down and out. It was nothing to him to go to his stash and remind himself where he really came from. To some discipline was a joke, to Jermaine it was his way of life. Though it was too easy to just be like everyone else. 

“It is never that bad that you have to risk everything you ever worked for!” Camryn was crying again, hysterically at that. She had never seen this side of Jermaine and it was scaring the hell out of her. Camryn finally managed to grab the blunt and threw it as best she could. Jermaine sucked his teeth, storming back towards their apartment. 

“You foul!” Jermaine yelled as soon as they were both back inside. Unlike Camryn, Jermaine quickly remembered who he was and snapped back to reality. The hell was he doing smoking in the open like that? He was definitely out of his mind. And it was all of Camryn’s dumb ass fault. 

“Jermaine STOP!” Camryn yelled. Jermaine was going crazy, grabbing everything he could see and throwing it. The sounds of glass breaking and objects rebounding off of whatever surface he threw them on filled the apartment. “STOP!” She cried again, this time after he broken the biggest print out he had of them hung on the wall leading to their room. Her heart shattered as she watched Jermaine lash out. 

“WHY!?” He finally yelled back, taking deep breaths. He looked around at his mess, then at her. Jermaine eyes softened when he realized how scared she looked but it didn’t take away the anger he held inside. Camryn made him cry last night, he was on one. “YOU AINT HADDA LOVE ME!” He yelled at her, coming towards her. “I WOULDVE KEPT IT PLAYA. I WOULDVE STILL HAD YO BACK! YOU SELFISH AS FUCK! YOU RUINED THE BOTH OF US!” 

Camryn fell to the floor, crying loudly. Pieces of glass pierced her arm and she screamed in pain, mostly from the heartbreak she was experiencing. What about him? It was all because of him. Camryn didn’t know what their future held and she didn’t want to be hurt. Look where that landed her. 

Camryn stopped crying when she felt his familiar touch finally. Through all her screaming and crying she hadn’t even noticed Jermaine coming to grab her and pull her to the bathroom, cleaning the glass out of her arm and rubbing the wound. The alcohol stinged her skin and she winced at the pain. The two were silent as he cleaned her cuts, sterilized them and put bandages on them. When he was done he returned the first aid kit where it belonged and washed his hands. Jermaine leaned against the wall, staring at Camryn. 

“Is it over...” Camryn looked at Jermaine through teary eyes, yet again. “Is it over between us?” Jermaine closed the space between the two. Camryn inhaled his scent and her heart began to beat even faster than before. Thoughts of how much she truly missed him had been buried in the multitude of work she had to do all the time. He touched her arm again, bring her hand to his chest. He rested it on his heart, and met her low, solemn gaze. Camryn cried as she felt the strong, soft thuds of Jermaine’s heart pound against her palm resembling a baby in the womb kicking. 

“You feel that...?” Jermaine asked her, tilting her head up. Camryn was short and it was straining his neck. “Nobody else ever has...how you feel knowing that? Knowing you the first woman I really loved, like know I loved truly in my heart.” 

“I feel powerful...” Camryn mumbled almost inaudible to Jermaine. 

“So why you take your power away?” 

“I was scared.” 

“I'm scared everyday. Every single day. But I keep you in the dark because I gotta show up for the both of us. Some random woman shouldn’t scare what we been building over the years...Cam, look at me.”

Camryn met Jermaine's eyes, not knowing what would be next. He lowered his eyes to her lips before leaning down and placing a kiss on them. Cam immediately went to kiss him back, but he had already pulled away by the time. 

“I’m sorry we’ve hurt each other.” He said to her. “But instead I gotta mean what I say when I say I love you, its not just for me that I love you. With love comes allowing you to do whatever you feel is best and nothing should stop you from that. I will never change on you, I know where my heart is but you gotta dream to follow and when I wanted basketball, my career....I didn't let no woman get in the way of that. I can’t allow myself to get in the way of your career. I had discipline then, I got it now. What you just witnessed is me processing the pain, I rather you see it because I’ll have you know that whatever I do from this day forward is nothing to hurt you, but to simply just....move on. That was it right there, that was all the anger and hurt you're gonna get from me towards you. You got my number. I'm always here. But yes, it is...over.” Jermaine let her go and left a sobbing, bruised woman on his bathroom sink counter. The Camryn he fell in love with, he never would have had to say that to.

When Camryn heard the apartment door slam shut again, this time really knowing he was leaving for sure, she let out the loudest scream she could muster. So loud that Jermaine had heard it, sending dagger sharp like pains to his heart. Clutching his chest, Jermaine let out a breath and began crying as he got into his car turning it on and not caring where it stopped.

Zayn | *OPEN, but focused POV* |

Repeated, thudding knocks going off at Zayn’s apartment door caused her afternoon nap to come to an end. Sitting up on the couch, she sighed to herself and checked her phone that was lying underneath her as slept. It was 12:45 in the afternoon.

The knocks weren’t stopping so Zayn slid her freshly manicured toes into her bedroom shoes and trodded towards the door. On the other side was a red faced, teary eyed Jermaine. Zayn gasped, her heart quickened as she stepped to the side to let him in. Jermaine crossed the threshold and closed and locked the door behind him.

“What’s going on?” She wrapped her arms around his neck pulling him into her. Jermaine hugged her tightly, sobbing into her hair. She wasn’t as short as Camryn but she was definitely short compared to Jermaine. Jermaine body shook in her arms and Zayn couldn’t think of nothing to say or do. She never even seen her ex husband like this. Much less her father or brother. She has never had to comfort a man in her life before, maybe she didn’t deserve to be a wife after all. Shaking the thoughts from her head, Zayn pulled back and led Jermaine into her quaint kitchen. Never releasing his hand, she fixed him what she had come to known as his favorite ‘drink’ as well as reaching into her fridge to retrieve a Gatorade she purposely stocked her fridge just for him. Call her crazy but the two had spent almost a month together and Zayn enjoyed his company. She observed him and found herself grocery shopping for the both of them the past few weeks as she learned he loved to eat. But what he hadn’t learned yet is that Zayn loved to cook although Los never allowed her to due to their chef. She couldn’t wait for the opportunity to arise to show any man not just Jermaine, what she was capable of in the kitchen.

Jermaine wiped his eyes, his heart slowing as he observed what was happening before him. He couldn’t believe his eyes. Zayn wasn’t a drinker so to say, so to see her with a bottle of Henny as well as a few other liquor bottles in her cabinet shocked him. Then when he saw her grabbing a Gatorade out her refrigerator, his tears immediately stopped. She paid attention like that? He asked himself. Jermaine secretly noticed Zayn searching his face for her own answers and it made his heart warm for some reason. Did she really care? After all, he spent all morning driving around splurging but it still wasn’t enough. Once he was back in the neighborhood he was bawling and somehow he landed here despite not knowing what was even up between them anymore in the first place. He was starting to think he made the right decision and he smiled to himself at the thought.

“What?” Zayn quickly asked, desperately wanting to know what was going on with him. She hated to see him like this. Hell to be honest, she didn’t think Jermaine was really capable of deep emotions. Like yes she knew Camryn was his girlfriend and she knew he loved her, you could tell by the look in his eyes at even the slightest mention of her name, but he came off as a jokester to her. Zayn didn’t think Jermaine let things get that deep and bother him so she was surprised to see him so flustered.

“Thank you,” Jermaine said the smile still on his face. Zayn nodded and watched as he downed both drinks. She made him another drink and he downed that as well. “One more and then I’ll talk.” He claimed. Zayn raised a brow before pouring the drink. This time she made herself one as well. She wanted to be ready for whatever this was about to be. “Cam and I broke up—“ The alcohol caught in Zayn’s throat, and it began to burn as she held it to keep from choking. Jermaine sighed at her actions, watching her slowly swallow. She done caught feelings, he thought to himself. Damn.

“I thought you were already broken up?” Zayn asked Jermaine and he immediately sighed again. Jermaine looked down at the empty glass, contemplating another drink.

“Yeah well you know those break ups where you give each other time and space … it was one of those at first. We weren’t talking since I had my phone turned off anyway, no communication no nothing. So we never got to talk things through though I was under the impression we were broken up… ion do that back and forth toxic shit.”

“So?” Zayn urged him to continue.

“ So I go home two nights ago, she’s standing in the living room because I forgot to take the key back. We had a conversation, she didn’t even understand her words when she broke up with me almost two months ago.” Jermaine shook his head thinking of Camryn’s dumbfounded expressions hearing Jermaine reiterate her words. So that explains two, out of the four nights Jermaine has been missing, Zayn thought to herself as she listened to Jermaine vent. She didn’t get in a frenzy about them not talking because she had already gotten used to his social habits. Had she not, you’d think Zayn was some crazy side bitch the way she would have been at his neck after the first night of ghosting. 

“Anyway, I remind her that we are not together. She starts crying and wanting explanations. She said she’s really just hurt from us kissing..” Zayn eyes bugged out of her head. 

“She knows about that?” Zayn questioned Jermaine, wondering how and if he told her himself. 

“Yeah, “ He laughed. “She uh, knew since the beginning...we talked about it but it wasn’t enough. Nothing was enough. She wants to be the only one and she could have been. It’s almost like she pushed me to you because at the end of the day I need real genuine love. I gotta have it.” Zayn observed Jermaine’s realizing that he was being very honest in this moment. Jermaine was nothing like most guys. He didn’t care for groupies and ignored all women that addressed him as theirs when he was very positive he never met any of them.

“May I intervene as a recently divorced woman?” Zayn asked. Jermaine quickly nodded. 

“I wouldn't be here if I didn’t want to hear what you think.” He said back to her.  

“Well, first, I wanna ask...why couldn’t you have just cut me off? Or explain to me, that Camryn truly wishes we didn’t speak. Granted we spoke on it before but you didn’t tell me it was the drama  of your relationship!” Zayn face was hot with embarrassment. She could only imagine what Camryn thought of her now. Not that she truly cared, she just didn’t want to be known as the women she left her husband because of. 

“You not the drama, she wish it was so that she wouldn't have to account for her actions but she messed us up way before I even kissed you. Cam changed the minute she landed in Cali, you would have thought she had a nigga out there the way she ghosted me. I had my homeboy who is a busy ass rapper, damn near kick her door down for me every day just to make sure she was straight. It was draining me, then to have to go out and play? Nah you can keep that.” 

“Well....what’s next for you?”

“I think Imma go ahead and buy my house. I put my life on hold for Cam. Since she’s younger I didn’t want her to rush into anything with me. I allowed her to be free and young and as much as I have been ready to start my life and really be comfortable where I’m at, I stayed where she was comfortable.” 

“Have you looked anywhere? I know an agent. They helped me find this place.” Zayn had gotten closer now since Jermaine was calmer. Jermaine noticed over the last few weeks that Zayn was a more “up close and personal” person with whomever it be. She didn’t let her voice carry too far and she wanted whoever she was conversing with to know they had her full attention every time. 

“Nah not yet, I’ll start tomorrow or something. I hadn’t even thought of what Imma do but I know I wanna move as soon as I can possibly move. I don’t even want my furniture.” Jermaine laughed seriously. They could have everything in that apartment if that meant getting a true fresh start. “Enough of that though, you got me feeling better.. for real.”

“How? I didn’t even say or do anything...” Zayn looked at Jermaine dumbfounded. Jermaine chuckled at her response, standing up. As he stood over Zayn, he stretched, almost forgetting how close she had gotten to talk to him until he put his arms back down and looked down at. Zayn seemed to be looking at Jermaine in awe, or so that’s what he was thinking. He smirked at her as she stared at him, still not knowing what to do. Zayn was really trying to understand what she did to make him feel better. Was it the hug? Or just letting him talk? The drinks? She never comforted a man, so she wanted to know what worked for future purposes. 

Without even thinking, Zayn caressed Jermaine’s arm. She couldn’t tell if he was really feeling better or lying to get off of the subject. Jermaine looked at her hand and then back at her. He stepped closer to her, causing her breasts to come in contact with the lower half of his chest. 

“Why you looking at me like that..” He mumbled to her. 

“Are you lying about feeing better?” She asked him and he shook his head immediately. Jermaine honestly did feel better. That was the thing about him, growing up his mom always made room for communication so he didn’t have a problem communicating his feelings, accepting others feelings, nor discussing either. He had good conflict resolution skills. Or so he told himself that he did. 

“Nah, you beautiful as fuck. Just looking at you dried my tears...then, did you go shopping? For me?” Jermaine asked Zayn. Zayn gasped. There was no way she could deny it, so she nodded. He smiled a crooked smile at her, cupping her face in his big broad hands. Zayn felt so delicate in his touch. Her heart began to beat out of her chest as she registered that he was finally going in for what would be their second kiss. Yes, finally. Zayn had been dying for Jermaine to kiss her again. Now that she was divorced and very much single, she could act on how she really felt. Even though she wasn’t sure what she felt towards Jermaine all quite yet, she was itching to catch a thrill. Even if it was just for a moment and would leave her with regret. Zayn hadn’t been with nobody else but Los, she was ready! 

As Jermaine kissed her softly, as if she was going to break, she grabbed his face as well, hungrily kissing him back. Chuckling at her response, Jermaine quickly matched her pace of kissing, backing them up until she was against the fridge. Jermaine’s hands left her face and began to freely roam her small body. This caused Zayn to moan into his mouth. It had been months, hell years, since she had been intimate. His touch set her body on fire. 

Impatient, and without much thought to it, Zayn grabbed one of Jermaine’s hands and stuffed it into her shorts. The sudden action left Jermaine without room and he immediately dipped two fingers into Zayn to fix his balled up hand. Zayn let out a loud moan and Jermaine hissed, lowering his head into Zayn’s neck. Zayn was dripping wet, quickly forming a little sticky puddle on Jermaine’s fingers. 

“Damn, A’zayn...” Jermaine grumbled into her ear, nibbling gently on her lobe. The feeling and hearing him call her by her government name caused another gush of wetness to leak onto his fingers. She was desperate for him. Jermaine began to pump his fingers in and out of Zayn, dropping her shorts with his free hand. Zayn gasped and moaned, surprising the both of them as she began to meet his fingers halfway. She had never felt anything like this before. Her face felt hot with embarrassment as it began to dawn on her that her husband was depriving her from things she didn’t know existed.

Los hadn’t fingered, nor gave her oral sex since high school. Once he took her virginity, penetration was the only thing he gave her over the past years. She could only imagine what he was doing with these other women. Were they getting what she was getting from Jermaine this very moment? Hot tears began to roll down her face, and they fell faster when she felt Jermaine’s fingers slip out of her warm vagina. 

“What’s wrong?” He asked, grabbing her and pulling her into a hug. It was his turn to comfort her now. “Was I being too rough?”

“No,” Zayn shook her head, wiping her tears. Way to ruin the moment, she though to herself. “I just...I just...never felt like that before. I ...if that's how your fingers feel...my God. I see why she’s crazy.” Zayn pulled away from Jermaine and pulled her soaked shorts up. She was uncomfortable in the now cold, wet feeling, and her vagina felt gaped open though he only used his fingers. 

“You only ever been with Los?” Jermaine quickly realized what she was saying and it shocked him. No he didn’t see her as a ho, but he thought she at least tested the waters once or twice throughout her horrible marriage. Damn, she really was a good girl. Zayn nodded, turning to grab a water from the refrigerator. Jermaine watched in silence as she downed the water in damn near one gulp. Slow down. 

“I’m sorry,” He admitted. “I overstepped my boundaries again.” 

“It’s okay.” Zayn dryly chuckled, tossing the empty bottle into the trash beside her. “I wanted it.” She admitted after a brief silence. Leaving them both shocked. 

[hclyrevivals]

❀ ˚ ↬ 𝐡𝐜𝐥𝐲𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐯𝐚𝐥𝐬 : a dependent mumu, for oldmystichq which is a closed rp. please dni unless you're part of the group.

character list ( currently standing at 126 ) under the read more, * denotes oc

adam lowe*, aelin galathynius, andromea "andie" caldwell *, angel mutti, angela montenegro, angela weber, annie marks, aria montgomery, bay kennish, benjamin "ben" gates, bloom of domino, blossom utonium, brittany aarons, caitlin geller, camryn "cam" barnes, carina deluca-bishop, carol newman ( mrs. claus ), chandler bing, chase adams, clare edwards, claire standish, daphne blake, danielle de barbarac, danielle "dani" dennison, danny fenton, davina claire, delaney jackson*, elizabeth swann, eloise thompson, elphaba thropp, emma duval, esme cullen, evangeline milton*, evelyn "evy" carnahan o'connell, evie grimhilde, frances "baby" houseman, freddie benson, galleria garibaldi, georgia miller, gillian owens, hallie parker, hector "zero" zeroni, hiccup haddock, hope mikaelson, hope paetz*, holly berensen, isabel "belly" conklin, isobel "izzie" stevens, isolde navarro*, jake fitzgerald, miss jennifer honey, jesusita "jess" valenzuela, jim hawkins, joyce byers, juliet o'hara, juniper ramos*, kai hewett*, katerina "kat" stratford, katherine "kate" bishop, katniss everdeen, kelsi nielsen, kendall santoro jr*, kevin doyle, kiki nakamura, kimberly "kim" possible, kirby reed, kourtney carino*, laney boggs, laurie forman, layla williams, lexy gold, logan mitchell, loretta modern, lucy hardgrove, luke danes, luna crowley*, madeline "maddie" fitzpatrick, maeve donovan, manuella "manny" santos, marnie piper, mary jane watson, matt flamhaff, max mayfield, mikey walsh, miley stewart, milo thatch, mirabel madrigal, nancy drew, nancy wheeler, nash gibson*, nesta archeron, noah redding*, odessa guzman*, olivia whitehead, padme amidala naberrie, penelope garcia, peyton sawyer, prudence "prue" halliwell, quinn james, rachel akana-miori*, rachel peabody, rikki chadwick, riley marra, robin scherbatsky, roger radcliffe, rory gilmore, ruthie camden, sabrina spellman, samantha "sam" carpenter, samantha "sam" montgomery" samantha "sam" simpson, scout hynes*, shiloh "seven" kellerman*, sidney prescott, summer field, taylor callum, tiana rogers, topanga lawrence, veronica mars, vivian ward, wes hicks, willa fitzgibbons*, winifred "winnie" foster, yumi ishiyama, yzma mendoza, zenon kar.

[fadingmadness]

✦ ↬ 𝐟𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 : a dependent mumu, for oldmystichq which is a closed rp. please dni unless you're part of the group.

character list ( currently standing at 114 ) under the read more, * denotes oc

adam lowe*, aelin galathynius, andromea "andie" caldwell *, angela montenegro, angela weber, annie marks, aria montgomery, bay kennish, benjamin "ben" gates, bloom of domino, caitlin geller, camryn "cam" barnes, carina deluca-bishop, chandler bing, chase adams, clare edwards, claire standish, daphne blake, danielle de barbarac, danielle "dani" dennison, danny fenton, davina claire, delaney jackson*, elizabeth swann, elphaba thropp, emma duval, esme cullen, evangeline milton*, evelyn "evy" carnahan o'connell, evie grimhilde, frances "baby" houseman, galleria garibaldi, georgia miller, gillian owens, hallie parker, hector "zero" zeroni, hiccup haddock, hope mikaelson, holly berensen, isabel "belly" conklin, isobel "izzie" stevens, isolde navarro*, jake fitzgerald, miss jennifer honey, jesusita "jess" valenzuela, jim hawkins, joyce byers, juliet o'hara, kate bishop, katerina "kat" stratford, katniss everdeen, kelsi nielsen, kendall santoro jr*, kevin doyle, kimberly "kim" possible, kirby reed, laney boggs, laurie forman, layla williams, lexy gold, logan mitchell, loretta modern, lucy hardgrove, luke danes, luna crowley*, madeline "maddie" fitzpatrick, maeve donovan, manuella "manny" santos, marnie piper, mary jane watson, matt flamhaff, max mayfield, mikey walsh, miley stewart, milo thatch, mirabel madrigal, nancy drew, nancy wheeler, nash gibson*, nesta archeron, noah redding*, odessa guzman*, olivia whitehead, padme amidala naberrie, penelope garcia, peyton sawyer, prudence "prue" halliwell, quinn james, rachel akana-miori*, rikki chadwick, riley marra, robin scherbatsky, roger radcliffe, rory gilmore, ruthie camden, sabrina spellman, samantha "sam" carpenter, samantha "sam" montgomery" samantha "sam" simpson, scout hynes*, shiloh "seven" kellerman*, sidney prescott, summer field, taylor callum, tiana rogers, veronica mars, vivian ward, wes hicks, willa fitzgibbons*, winifred "winnie" foster, yumi ishiyama, yzma, zenon kar.

[eddysocs]

Introducing: Camryn Wharton

Fandom: Orange Is The New Black

Face Claim: Kristen Stewart

Full Name: Camryn Maxine Wharton

Nickname/Alias/Pet Names: Cam

Age: 30

Myers Briggs Type: ISTJ

Hogwarts House: Ravenclaw

Love Interest: Linda Ferguson

Occupation: Accountant

Collections: Information

Style/Clothing: Not having to choose what to wear is one of the blessings of prison, if you ask Cam. She usually favors whatever is comfortable, clean and convenient with little care as to what it looks like.

Signature Quote: "When life gets a chance to fuck you, it will. The trick is learning how to fuck it back."

Plot Summary: Cam spends her sentence like a fly on the wall, always observing. It works out well for her, for the most part. Very few people tend to bother with her. Really, she makes keeping a low profile look like an art form. But then the riot breaks out and what used to be order turns to chaos and Camryn's perfect little world is tilted on its axis. Forced to adapt to survive, Camryn finds a leg up in the form of trapped MCC employee Linda Ferguson. While no one else seems to know her, Cam does, and her half assed attempt at a fake name doesn’t fool her, but she lets her think it does. So she promises to be her protector, and should she need to use her as bait, so be it. Only falling in love with the immensely frustrating woman wasn’t part of the plan.

Forever Tag: @baubeautyandthegeek, @kmc1989, @curious-kittens-ocs, @fanficanatic-tw, @gcthvile

[casspurrjoybell-30]

Howling Love - Chapter 20

*Warning Adult Content*

Camryn Summer

[Here we go again. I kinda wanna be more than friends] My beautiful, intelligent mate, strong, brave, quirky, sassy...

I could keep going but I needed him to stop car dancing to the song that we both loved as I was driving us toward Higgin Peak.

It was where we would find the next ingredient needed to help his dad heal and get him to wake up so we could celebrate Amille and my mating, it was disheartening not just for my mate but for me as well not having him there.

Calvin was the best dad I knew, it was true that I hadn't known him for a long time but the time I had known him, he was a ray of sunshine, he was kind, stern like a father, gentle and soothing like a mother, he was a balance, something rare in wolves but like my mate, he was unique.

I could understand why my father still loved him.

I don't know how their relationship would affect all our lives, even after this, I knew things wouldn't be the same, in my family that is.

I was determined to catch whoever did this to Calvin but a feeling that kept irking me inside told me the person was closer than I thought, which might be true, yet I couldn't focus on that now.

I needed to focus on getting my mate through this safely so we could get what we needed and head back home to heal his dad. I was still mind blown to know about a big part of my mate I hadn't gotten to know yet, he fascinated me, kept me on my toes, yet that's how exactly I wanted it.

Amille centred me, gave me a perspective beyond myself, I was in love with him, I truly was and I knew from here on out, I would always love him, he was my Moon Goddess given mate but I had loved him before he was that.

So I smiled as the song finally ended and I squeezed his hand gaining his attention.

"We need to get to the mountain before nightfall, I've been here before with my dad, it's about thirty minutes hard trek, so if we leave now, we can come back in time to get to the lodge, rest and by day break tomorrow we get the last two ingredients." I explained and he smiled.

[Thank you for doing this with me Camryn, I don't know what I would've done without you] he replied in his language and I leaned over to hug him, then place a kiss on his forehead, you could say I was waiting for that epic moment when he finally kissed me and besides we had more pressing issues to get handled.

"For you, anything, now come on," I asserted after breaking apart from our hug.

[I'm glad you took my advice on letting us continue tomorrow rather than continue in the night, the woods are creepy] he stated with a naughty smile and I narrowed my eyes on him.

"Your advice huh, I seem to recall you're the one who wanted to travel at night, and the woods are my home." I retorted and he snorted to my statement.

[Then you're creepy] he added and I held my hand to my chest, with my jaw dropped.

"Rude, Choco-moose and aren't you the one mated to the creep-ster then, one would say you're the creepy one, wanting to get it on with a woodland predator." I shot back and his jaw dropped.

[How dare you] he didn't physically say it yet I could tell even with signs as he ran forward and leapt onto my back trying to throw a fit which I only saw as cute.

"You know this massage you're giving me would be much more pleasant if you went lower and a tad bit faster," I suggested wiggling my eyebrows, he blushed then turned to hiding in the crook of my neck, it was adorably how I could easily do that to him.

[I hate you] he grumbled silently trying to get off my back but I smacked him, as I held him up by his bubbly butt earning more colour on his cheeks.

"Hold on choco-swirl," I mumbled and he wound his arms around my neck, holding on a little tighter as I took off in a burst of speed, sprinting fast, over logs and the low hanging shrubs, it didn't take long to get to our destination and little energy from me since I needed a release anyway, nightfall would come soon.

I needed my mate safe as I promised to keep him safe.

"So what exactly is mountain ash?" I asked my curly headed mate after putting him down.

[You see that misty cloud above, it mixes with the natural rock up there, humidity and mother nature eroding the outer layer and over time it's further erodes until it mixes with other elements which make up the rock, to create a dusty ash but because the composition is unlike the soil we are standing on, mountain ash is rich in elements because of it's source and that's why it's used in many herbal solutions, one of those being a binding agent] he explained in what I knew was a broken down version so I could understand better.

"Okay, seems I need to keep to cars and you be a nerdy genius," I teased and he smacked my bicep, then turning away from me noise pointed high to seem as if he's mad at me.

"Come here," I growled lightly, he squirmed but at this point he knew it was useless.

I tickled him with my now five o'clock shadow, then went on to rain kisses on the back of his neck which did the trick in making him laugh.

[Would you put me down] he signed yet even as he didn't say it.

I could place the whine, I tickled him one last time before placing him back next to me, grabbed the containers and walked up the slope to begin my climb of the actual mountain since we were a distance away at the base.

[Be careful] I heard him use his phone to call out and I held up... a thumbs up then proceeded to climb.

I was grateful for the rock climbing lessons Kendra had forced on me, now they had come in handy as I made short work of climbing up the mountain until the air was thin and my mate was now almost a speck down on the ground.

I knew I found what I was looking for when I spotted glistening mountain dust by the mountain side, quickly collected a lot of it since Amille could possibly need more to use after this, three large containment valves later I was done, taking in the view, it was breathtaking as the sun was setting, it also made my internal alarm go off.

I needed to get down before my mate started to worry, after all we were in the wild area, despite no rogues prowling this far into the wild, it didn't mean other animals didn't, such as the coyote that howled in the far distance, it gave me the motivation to get down even quickly.

It took almost an hour climbing up and down the mountain.

I wondered what my mate had done to pass the time, damn that sounded good to say, no wonder why it kept ringing in my head, Amille Laurent, was my mate, as I got closer I couldn't see him by the spot I left him which set in a panic, causing me to rush down even more, and the closer I got to the base.

I searched for his scent, he was closer than my mind had raced to think.

I finally caught sight of him by a tree, gathering herbs, I couldn't tell what they were but I knew he did.

"Hey short-stack, miss your man?" I called out and he whipped around with the brightest smile ever, despite having occupied himself with what he was doing, I knew he would've been worried about me.

[Hey, you're back, I was so worried] he stated crashing into me, I hugged him back with a chuckle.

"I would never leave the brains in this relationship, after all I need you to lead me on, I've got sparkplugs missing." I comforted and joked making him laugh.

[Idiot] I heard his phone call out.

"Your idiot creeper," I corrected as we both laughed again.

"Come on, let's get back, rest a bit, it's been a long day," I suggested as he nodded and we trekked back to the car, the tasks were getting harder, acquiring what we needed was still a priority despite it being hard.

[deathbysatellite]

Loner Household: Week 1

Ajay starts off the week by living up to his name and engaging in some solitary activities.

It took until almost 1 PM for the welcome wagon to finally arrive.

Thanks, Vidcund.

Erin immediately starts putting the moves on Ajay.

Then it's downtown with Meadow Pederson, Camryn Lee, and Bruce Rauscher. First, some bowling and dinner at Sugar Cube Bowling, then coffee and darts at Sim Center North.

Day one, and Ajay's already failing at his last name.

Contessa Anna Fuchs strikes again.

Ajay heads off to his first day of work as an adventurer.

He then comes home and struggles his way through sit ups.

Fun fact: Sit ups were just about the only thing I could do well in PE. During the Fitness Gram tests, I could run about 12 laps, could do exactly 2 pushups (because we had to go to an absurdly low angle and I did not have the upper arm strength for that), but I could do all 80 sit ups.

That evening, he invites over Kristen Loste, who he seems to have gotten close to on some community lot while I was playing other households.

Erin better watch out, because Kristen's making all the moves, resulting in a mutual crush.

Ajay, on the other hand, just wants to make her some grilled cheese

Moving a little fast there guys.

After a promotion, Ajay decided he wanted a car.

Then it's back to skilling up for work.

He's been working out so much for work, he got offered a subscription to a fitness magazine.

That morning is spent over at 94 Road to Nowhere, to enjoy the sauna for a bit.

Ajay finds a kindred spirit in Ripp, a fellow secondary Grilled Cheese Sim.

Ajay decides to use the thinking cap as a shower cap. Then again, it is said that some of the best ideas occur in the shower.

Made the right decision, and ended up earning Ajay a point in logic.

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Back downtown with his bowling buddies (minus Bruce), it seems all that exercise has paid off for Ajay.

Yeah, Ajay's definitely not living up to his name anymore, and has become a Reputable Resident.

All that exercise has also resulted in a club membership.

Ajay then ends the week by inviting over Kristen with the Want to flirt. As ever, Kristen makes the first move, and they end the night in love with each other.

[leaderpinhead]

Camryn (OC) - A Fox, A Snake, and A Cap'n

Side Note: This scene takes place before the Twisted Wonderland story officially begins, meaning the second years (like Riddle and my OCs) would be in their first year.

“I’m not one to usually complain,” Camryn stated with a sigh, “but when you said you had a gig I’d be interested in, I was honestly expecting something a bit more…profitable.” 

“Is this not up to your standards?” Caha asked. Camryn’s ears twitched at the hissing undertone he caught in Caha’s laugh. “I imagined you would be absolutely thrilled by such an easy task.” 

“It’s not that I’m against an easy job,” Camryn argued. He leaned his shoulders against a pillar in the shade of the breezeway, careful not to uncomfortably squish his tail. “You gotta admit this is pretty boring though. I actually pity the guy who thinks he can jumpstart his career by being a background extra.” 

Caha hummed but didn’t say anything to the contrary. Across the courtyard, Vil directed a few members of his club into the positions he wanted. Camryn hadn’t paid much attention to the short film’s synopsis, but he assumed it was something dramatic from the way one guy kept swooning. 

He turned to James, who stood stiffly beside him watching the club members play out their scene. “What say you, Cap’n? You as bored as I am?” 

James’s eyes narrowed when the Pomefiore student fell into another dramatic swoon that had Vil shaking his head. “I don’t understand what any of this has to do with a modern retelling of an infamous pirate crew.” 

“Perhaps they are the infamous data pirates we were all warned about during the technology boom three decades ago,” Caha said. “I heard there was quite a profit to be made pilfering information from our grandparents’ calculators.” 

Camryn snorted when he saw the tiny smile Caha tried to hide. James outright scowled at the snake beastman. “If that’s your idea of a pirate, then you lived a horrendously sheltered life.” 

Camryn whistled low enough not to catch Vil’s ire. “That’s a big word coming from you. You been catching up on your reading with Riddle as your housewarden?” 

James’s face turned red in record time, which Camryn knew it would. Heartslabyul’s freshman housewarden was a sore topic for James. “My vocabulary has nothing to do with Rosehearts!” 

“Cam has a point though,” Caha egged on. He rubbed the corner of his mouth with his knuckles to hide his stretching grin. “You’re a very one to two syllable type of guy. I almost thought you were mute until I saw you passionately debate Trein on the historical evidence for the existence of the Eloquent Captain.” 

“He was real!” James argued. His voice slightly cracked with its rising volume. Camryn fully leaned back against the pillar, his tail swishing around his ankles. “There’s plenty of evidence proving the sea the Eloquent Captain sailed is the north-eastern part of the Coral Sea. There are even oral stories started by the mermaids who had once encountered him and his crew!” 

Camryn gave the impression of an aimless shrug. “Yet you’ve even got the campus’s biggest history buff shooting down your so-called evidence. None of it’s been proven, bub. That’s why it’s considered a legend.” 

“It’s a legend because no one wants to believe it!” Caha and Camryn shot each other a grin while James flailed his hands to make his point. “Because if they did, then they’d have to admit to the existence of the wild tribe of boys led by an never-aging fae child, who frequently kidnapped the local children when he had to get rid of the ones who grew old enough to question his leadership. The Eloquent Captain was constantly attempting to save those children from that cruel fate!” 

Caha bit down on the corner of his mouth. “But James, even you’ve admitted to the one fact that disproves your own argument.” 

“What?” 

Camryn really did try not to chuckle, but James was a funny fellow when he got riled up. “You’re always opening the story with them living on a star, Cap’n.” 

James froze. His expression of sheer disbelief broke Caha’s careful restraint, and a small laugh slipped from him. Camryn’s ears twitched in the direction of the Film Research Club, who had called cut to discuss the boy’s ineffective swooning. 

James’s face exploded into an interesting shade of burgundy. He flung his arms into the air. “They lived in a star-shaped cove! The one that was discovered in the archipelago off the coast of the Queendom of Roses.” 

“Yeah,” Camryn said. His cheeks were starting to feel the strain of his wide grin. “A cove no one can conveniently get to now because of a cluster of deadly whirlpools.” 

“How convenient,” Caha agreed. “A land they can never reach. Like a star.” 

“Which star was it again?” Camryn pointed at the blue sky. “The first or the second one?” 

“I’m about to punch you both if you don’t shut up!” 

“You three!” It took Vil appearing beside Caha for the three of them to realize he was speaking to them. Vil’s face was set in a stern frown. “I asked for three unobtrusive extras for my background. You are gaining more attention than my swooning lead. If you do not quiet down, you will have to leave.” 

James thrust a finger in Vil’s direction, crooking his finger into a hook shape. “Your modern take on pirates sucks. I hope your film crashes and burns. And find a better swooner! My four-year old brother is a better actor!” 

Camryn cackled in the wake of James angrily stomping away from them while Caha could barely apologize to a stunned Vil through his hissing giggles. 

[unpleasantsimms]

Camryn has also started a work rivalry! I didn’t realize this was also a thing added to the new pack. I had Camryn choose the low road for fun, and of course she came out on top.

[jaya-and-camryn]

Jaya and Camryn <3

Artist: @zerozeroren

[alakazamryn]

fun autistic fact

not all autistics are created equal. if you see like, a “cringey” tiktok video or something and somebody points out that the creator is autistic (to say hey, don’t be a dick) there are Always comments like “well uh I’M autistic and I’M not like this lol”

it affects people differently. some people’s functions might even be more impaired than others’, such as a sense of what’s trendy or funny or not. I see people using this excuse to make fun of disabled people a lot and I’m fed up. please please stick up for other autistics, even if it means sacrificing a Funney Joke. thanks

[rayreddi]

Вeautiful Kelli Williams as Lindsay Dole:  

Lindsay Dole is a constitutional lawyer who, in her first case, locked horns with her mentor from law school and a multi-million dollar tobacco company and won. Since then, she hasn't looked back. Well-educated and ambitious, Lindsay is one of the firm's main money makers. She's even pulled them out of bankruptcy in the second season by taking nothing but the drugs cases that she hates so much. She has a great reputation, and has on more than one occasion, been the driving force behind most of the firm's changes.

The Practice (1997–2004) 

[firespirited]

Mermaze Mermaids factory rejects: $8 each at aliexpress.com/item/1005004823831727.html I was curious about these but waiting for them to hit second hand. $8 felt fair enough even if they end up as hair donors.

I love a glitter shaker doll like Novi Starz but $50 (45€) for a top and a jacket, a body that looks too skinny, glare-y eyes and light eyes on all the dark skinned dolls rubs me the wrong way. They’re cool but for $50 I expect swappable legs and a second outfit.

Ok where to start? Nera with the dark blue hair: she barely shed so that’s great, it’s kiwi with some bobble tinsel. She tried MC2 Camryn’s eyes which are the same eyes used on Mermaze but the eye sockets are too shallow and wide: they’ve reused their eye stock but didn’t redo the doll molds properly so that the eyes don’t bulge and glare. These eyes look fantastic on Project MC2 dolls (see review by ToyBox philosopher) and just wrong on Mermaze, I’ve ranted about inset eyes before but basically if you mess that up, you kneecap your doll line.

So I put milliput into the sockets and placed an acrylic iris in there which was actually a ton of work to get right and clean and smooth. It’s not as detailed an iris as i’d like but still SO much better than fish eyes. I removed her under eye glitter, reblushed, acetoned the sides of her brows too close to the hairline and the bottom of her lips painted too low.

Harmonique lilac got Adrienne’s eyes and I’m not sure i’ll keep them, it’s better than her pale turquoise eyes but still unfocused: the eyes need to be the main attraction. Her hair was trashed, I’m pretty sure the original has 3 lengths: 11cm twirls, 23cm main bulk and 30cm ponytails so buyer beware if you plan to restyle her. I cut mine down to 23cm.

Beyond that original photo, after i’d carefully sectioned out hair to salvage, I ended up just discovering more and more damage: hair sliced at 7mm-3cm along all three of her partings along with a bunch of rooting error knots.

That’s the risk of factory rejects. A risk I probably shouldn’t be taking with hard heads, I added ten or so knot method extra plugs to replace missing hair in front... shoulders still too fragile to do any more. She has a scar on her forehead and is light brown toned. Both should be easy to find bodies for (Nera is fakie pale pink or Cloe toned) but that neck hole will need modifying.

I’m not annoyed at paint or rooting errors, that comes with buying factory rejects. It’s part of the fun, the puzzle of repairing. ^__^

I am really put off by the decision to not invest in a better eye design and the way they’ve made rebodying these dolls a serious breakage risk between the tiny neck and very hard plastic. It seems they’re launching a spin-off line with better designed faces called Siren sisters so maybe save your money for that?

If you do want to get these dolls I recommend slicing into the back of the head above the second line of plugs and slicing out the eye sockets so you can place BJD 10mm eyes.

[romiantic]

moving to @kisminari !

hi hello ! if you haven’t noticed but I haven’t really been active on my blog since interactions are very low + my recent works haven’t been doing great in my eyes :/ + I’m losing motivation to even write for this blog. I still love to write and I would really love to continue writing in the future actually

but I really just wanna start over, a refresher, just something so I can hopefully gain some motivation to write again :) I’ll still leave this blog up but for the most part, I just won’t be active on here anymore :/. the last work I will have is my chifuyu series since I really do wanna finish it on this blog

also I will be going by another alias of camryn ! you can still call me mia but please switch between both aliases

regular pinned post !