#call it industry research lmao
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if-mirrormine · 2 years ago
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for the past few hours ive been feeling the urge to write something other than mm or wtsr so i was looking through my wips and it got me thinking which would be the more interesting one for viewers so i bring to thee another poll!!
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anthonys237thfreckle · 5 months ago
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i need need need headcanons for anthony with a gf who’s like got a career in STEM and she’s super smart and as an actor he’s amazed by her lmao.
this is so cute! thanks anon
I’m looking for a woman in STEM - Anthony Ramos x F! Reader
prompt: headcanons for Anthony who’s girlfriend is in STEM - i’ve picked biomed for a degree since my mom wanted me to do biomed in high school
TW: mentions of academic stress and panic attacks, mention of drugs used in medicine, mention of mental illness
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🔬 when you both first met, and he first asked for where you graduated from, let me tell you - mans did NOT expect you to say ‘Cambridge’
🔬 ‘Oh, so like Cambridge College in Massachusetts?’
🔬 This man omg
🔬 When you said ‘No, England’ he felt goosebumps cause like ‘geez louise CAMBRIDGE?’ and when you casually said you did biomed he was like ‘wait what-’
🔬 ‘Me? Oh, I did Musical Theatre’ he says matter of factly, and you’d add ‘Oh, I played piano when I was in elementary-’
🔬 You’d be the definition of a perfect golden child. He knows that couldn’t have been easy
🔬 When you two do start dating, he’s always bragging ‘Oh my girlfriend does lab research for this new supplement for this drug for schizophrenia in children-’ HE’S A PRO YAPPER. Especially in interviews.
🔬 He’s so proud of everything you’ve done - doing medicinal research at NYMC (New York Medical College)
🔬 Maybe in the winter as you two are baking (you always make sure the measurements are perfect, never letting him measure anything out lol) he always says baking is an ‘art’
🔬 ‘Actually babe, it’s chemistry’ you’d chuckle, taking a bite out of some gingerbread cookies, and ever since, he’s jokingly kept a lab coat and goggles and chides you for ‘not tying your hair in the lab’.
🔬 You’d tell him about how hard high school and college was for you, having to get a scholarship, going to British private schools because the medicine industry is mad competitive and honestly, you need to show something off in your application.
🔬 You’d tell him how even though you did Cambridge IGCSE and A level courses all throughout high school, it was no match for what England had in store for you - panic attacks became a weekly thing.
🔬 I mean, you did Pure Math, Biology, Chemistry and Psychology A and AS levels for gods sake - its an absolute mindfuck.
🔬 He’s always there to reassure her how smart she is and that she’s human no matter what - that college is over, and the drug trials will end up great, and a bunch of kids will get some damn good medication.
🔬 He LOVES it when you come watch his shows and movies. It means the absolute world to him.
🔬 Soon, he kind of drifted away from theatre after Hamilton, and started in film, and would always get super excited whenever he’d get some remotely science-y role.
🔬 Like in In Treatment, he’d come to you for help for some advice on his role, on some deeper level analysis (not as deep as an actual therapist guys, just a psych student level) and you’d be squealing with pride when you see him on TV.
🔬 And when he got into the more Sci-Fi movies like Transformers, he’d tell you ‘it’s not that deep, baby.’ whenever he’d catch your brows furrow in confusion at the misuse of a niche scientific term
🔬 He’d be so happy when he landed Twisters, even though you weren’t a meteorology student, your use of organic chemistry would def have some revelations when watching Kate use some form of polycarbonate.
🔬 ‘they’re right! they use silver iodide for cloud seeding!” you’d giggle.
🔬 affectionately calls you ‘nerd’ all the time.
— for anyone not british, igcse is from grades 9-10 and a levels are a bit like AP! but like they have a lot of depth. you’re not expected to do more than three.
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spineless-lobster · 11 months ago
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Okay so it is 1:20am and I should be going to bed but instead I’m gonna contribute to the endless conversation about how fucking fantastic the representation in hades is
Like as a queer person of colour I just get this massive wave of joy when I see my favourite characters look like me. Like I often forget how underrepresented people like me are in the media until I actually see it and it changes me fundamentally lol
Orpheus and eurydice have afros LIKE ME! Athena, ares, zeus and patroclus are black LIKE ME! Dusa is asexual and trans LIKE ME! Chaos is nonbinary LIKE ME! There’s also east/south asian representation via hermes and dionysus. And it’s all portrayed so casually, it’s not there to tick off a diversity box. Supergiant actually put thought and care into these designs and stories and that’s just so amazing to see especially within the gaming industry
To quote the creative director of supergiant from this article (which you should DEFINITELY check out)
“As we discussed and researched the Olympians from canon sources, something stood out that in retrospect was obvious: They’re called the Greek gods because they were worshiped in ancient Greece, not because they themselves are ethnically Greek.”
“Zeus rules all the heavens, not just the airspace over Greece, Poseidon rules all the sea and land. They sprang from the Titans, who sprang from primordial Chaos, the source of all creation. So it stands to reason that the gods represent all the people of the world, at least indirectly.”
Not only is it great to see sexuality represented but it’s represented well. Like everyone just knows zag is bi, there’s no coming out story and there’s no threat of discrimination. It’s just like yeah this is zagreus he likes men and women and pissing off his dad. When zag asks dusa about her body and she declines to talk about it he apologizes saying that he didn’t know any better. Everything is treated with so much respect it’s just so great
Again, my heart feels so full when I see portrayals like this. I looked in the mirror the other day and made a joke about how my hair looked like orpheus’ and that honestly made me so happy and giddy it was a little embarrassing lol
Anyways, I think I had more to say but I’m tired and my brain is foggy but I needed to rant about this because otherwise I might’ve exploded lmao
I just love this game so much
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reysdriver · 2 years ago
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Origins | P.P.
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After an incident at Oscorp, your academic rival Peter Parker calls you for help with the sticky situation he's found himself in — peter x gn!reader fluff
warnings: spiders/spider bites (but if you can't handle that then what are you doing here lmao?)
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On an internship orientation at Oscorp, you only knew one other person in the group. Granted, you weren't the most popular person in your school and there were only 6 other students in the program, but you figured you would recognize at least a few others. 
Standing next to you as your group toured the laboratory was the boy tied with you for top student in your grade at Midtown High, Peter Parker. 
Of course he got the internship, you thought. 
Though your longtime academic rival was in the same program as you, you promised yourself you would not do anything to lose this opportunity. If you wanted a career in science, and you did, you would devote everything of yours to this internship.
At exactly 8 o'clock, exactly on time, a blonde woman in a lab coat approached the tour group and introduced herself. 
"Hello. My name is Gwen Stacy, and I'll be giving you interns a tour around the Oscorp building."
She looked young, maybe in her early twenties. Her age gave you a bit of hope that young people could get into the science industry. 
Your eyes started to wander while Gwen was talking about the history of Oscorp and you looked over at Peter Parker. He was looking at Gwen, but he had a particular gleam in his eye, a look of adoration. It was funny. Peter had a crush on a twentysomething giving them a tour of Oscorp's labs. 
Whatever, maybe if Peter was off his game because of a crush, you could prove yourself as the best and brightest intern in the group.
Gwen continued her lecture as your group started making your way into the actual lab instead of the lobby where your tour started. "And again, I apologize for making you all get here at 8 on a Saturday morning, but hey, that's the life of a scientist."
The group let out a small collective chuckle, but Peter laughed just a little too hard at her joke. 
She thanked the group for the laughter, said you were a great crowd, and continued to lead the group into one of the laboratories. 
"This is one of our biology labs, biomedical, actually." She said, swiping her work ID card and inputting a code into a keypad on the door, leading you all into a white room full of computers and terrariums. 
All the interns looked around the lab in astonishment. All of you with the same exact thoughts running through your head. 
After a second of letting you take it all in, Gwen continued her introduction of that particular lab. 
"Right now, this division is working on using properties of animals to use in medicine." She explained. "Over there is our reptile chamber, where we have lizards and geckos at the moment. And right next to you all is our spider terrarium."
She paused again so the group could take another look around, and you raised your hand to ask Gwen a question.
"Yes, (y/n)." She said, noting your name tag. 
"Is it true that you're using gamma radiation on those spiders to make them radioactive or is that just a rumor?" You asked, pointing at the terrarium as you spoke.
"That's exactly what we're doing." Gwen confirmed. "Both radiation and animals are, or have been, used in many different medicinal practices, so our biomedical scientists are working on combining the two."
You nodded, and noticed that some of the other group members looked confused, as if they were trying to think of a question to ask as well. 
"I love the curiosity, (y/l/n). I can tell that you've done your research. You seem like you'll be a great fit here at Oscorp." Gwen smiled. 
She continued to explain the other experiments being conducted at the moment in that department, and your eyes started to wander over to Peter again. He swatted the back of his neck, like he had felt something back there. He winced as if he was pinched, but in a second or two, returned his focus to the tour. 
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The next day, you hear your phone buzz from across the bed while you were doing your physics homework. 
Who would be trying to contact you right now? 
Your first thought was that it was another student from one of your classes asking for last minute homework help.
No, you disregarded the idea, It's not even noon yet. It wasn't last minute enough. 
After several more notification vibrations, you decide to see who it was and what they wanted. As you leaned over and reached for the phone, you noticed the notifications becoming closer and closer together, as if the messages were becoming more urgent. 
A look of confusion washed over your face as you read the contact at the top of the messages. 
"Peter Parker?" You said, accidentally out loud. 
What does Peter need so urgently? 
You scan the messages, seeing him rambling vague details about Oscorp and the biomed lab. Before you could read any more or even process anything you had just read, an incoming call screen appeared over the messages. 
Confused and reluctant, you hesitate to answer the call. After a tiny pause, you accept the phone call and hear Peter's continued fast-paced and disorienting rambling. 
"(y/n), oh my god, something really weird happened to me last night and I don't know what to do! I think it's because of the Oscorp tour yesterday but I don't know how it could happen to me. I don't want to say anything else over the phone, I just need you to come see this in person."
"Peter, what are you talking about?" You asked, completely flustered by his rambling. 
"I can't explain, I would just have to show you." 
You paused for an extended second. 
What is going on right now? 
"Please, (y/n), I need your help." Peter pleaded. 
"Okay." You sighed. "I'll come over and see what you're freaking out about." 
"Thank you, (y/n)." He said. "Okay, I'll see you in a minute. Wait, you need my address!"
"No, I don't. I've been over to your apartment to do schoolwork before. You still live with your aunt, right?"
"Yeah." He replied. 
"Okay, I'll be right over."
You hung up the phone, and gathered up your homework in a neat pile so nothing would be damaged. Then, you grabbed your backpack with your wallet and keys, and left your apartment, heading to Peter's place. 
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When you got to Peter's apartment, you stood in the brown hallway and knocked on his front door. His aunt quickly opened the door. She recognized you, which you didn't expect. 
"Hey, (y/n), right?" She greeted. 
You nodded, and she let you inside. 
"Are you here to see Peter?" She asked. She didn't seem to know about whatever was going on with Peter that was freaking him out so much, so you didn't say anything about it.  
"Um, yeah. It's a school thing we have to do." You told her, slightly turning to the side to display your backpack.
"Oh, alright, no problem. He's in his room right now." She smiled warmly. 
She called out for Peter, alerting him that you were here, and he told her to let you in. Then, she led you over to Peter's bedroom, and you knocked on his door, telling him it was just you. He unlocked his bedroom door, and anxiously urged you to come inside . You walked in, and he quickly shut the door behind you both, likely alerting suspicion in Peter's aunt. 
"What is going on?" You asked in a whisper-yell. 
"I don't know how to explain it, but..." He paused, trying to think of a way to describe his situation. "I just woke up and I'm sticky now."
You cringed, making a disgusted face and trying to avoid making eye contact with him. 
"Peter." You sighed. "Didn't you learn about this in the fifth grade? It's completely natural, but-"
He cut you off, realizing he had said the wrong thing and made you think of something completely different than what he meant. 
"No, no, ew, (y/n)!" He defended. "No, I mean I woke up super strong, and then everything started to get weird when I..." He paused and walked past you to grab something off of his bed. He picked up a metal water bottle by his bed and threw it, but it didn't leave his hand. "And I'm sticky. Things just keep sticking onto me."
"Alright, yeah." You rolled your eyes, not believing anything Peter was saying. "You're just holding it." 
"No, I'm serious. Look." 
He tries to throw the water bottle a few more times, aiming towards the wall. On the third or fourth attempt, the water bottle shot from his arm, through the screen of his window, looking like it made it at least five or six buildings away without hitting the ground. 
From another room, Peter's aunt heard the noise and asked what it was. 
"It's nothing, May! We're fine!" Peter shouted back.
"How did you do that?" You ask, eyeing him suspiciously. 
"I don't know!" He said loudly, then lowered his voice so as to not draw any more suspicion from his aunt in the other room. "That's the point!"
He walked past you again, making his way over to his desk, and pulling a glass over a piece of paper sitting there. Underneath the glass was something small that you couldn't identify. 
"And then, after I accidentally punched myself in the face trying to brush my teeth this morning, I noticed this inside my shirt from yesterday." He said, pointing to the object on the paper slip. 
You inspected it closer, now being able to identify it as one of the spiders from the biomed lab yesterday. The reason Peter smacked his neck on the tour. 
"Oh god, Parker. Don't tell me you actually let an experiment bite you on the neck yesterday." You said. 
"I did. Accidentally. And now I need your help because I don't know what it's doing to me."
You started laughing. At first it became a small chuckle, then it developed into close to a laughing fit. 
"It's not funny, (y/l/n)!"
"Oh, it's absolutely funny. You're an imbecile, and now you're going to lose the Oscorp internship for it if they find out. Plus, you're becoming some spider-man hybrid thing. Don't be surprised when you wake up tomorrow with four extra limbs!" 
"You don't actually think that's going to happen, right?" He asked, a large amount of concern in his voice. 
"Oh, I definitely think they'd kick you out of the internship for that." You said, your laugh silencing. 
"But the limb part?!"
"If you were listening to Gwen yesterday instead of sniffing her hair the whole time or whatever that was, you would know that yes, those spiders are experimental, they're radioactive. But they're being made for sick people, so that they can regain their strength, sharpness, and all abilities." 
"So?" He asked. 
"So, you'll be fine. Likely."
His eyes widened in shock at the last part, not realizing that you were kidding.
"I'm joking, Parker." You told him. "It'll actually probably just make you cooler. You could be a jock for the first time in your life."
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flagellant · 2 years ago
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lmao the obesity article from huffpo you reblogged is so insanely incorrect
First off, the whole "Your body is just doing what it's supposed to do, you're fat because you're MEANT to be fat!" while also saying "about 40 years ago, Americans started getting much larger" hmm... Why only Americans? Why only 40 years ago?
That seems odd, that Americans, specifically, would suddenly change to being naturally fat. Even today America has a much higher rate of obesity than other places like Japan. How is that? Wonder what would be discovered if we looked at when things like beet sugar, corn syrup, etc. started to be commonly added to foods 🤔
And then the "diets don't work!" spiel, along with emotionally charged reports of people starving themselves until they passed out.
What diets specifically doesn't work? Were the people getting enough calories? Did they stop the diet, and then the weight came back? Did they start with small, gradual changes or completely overhaul their entire meal plan right away?
They say "95% to 98% of research shows diets fail" what research? What studies? What was the sample size? What were people eating? Were they given any help to maintain their diet or encourage any other healthy habits, or were they just given a list of foods to eat and sent on their way?
It sounds like ALL the diets they talk about in the article are shitty. People starving themselves, people doing useless fad diets, etc. and presenting it as if weight loss is IMPOSSIBLE. Which is crazy, considering all the people I've seen who lose weight, maintain the loss, and feel insanely better than they did when they were obese.
Maybe it's not that "diets" don't work, but that the diet industry doesn't work? After all, what would happen if they encouraged people to change their relationship with food completely, starting with small, gradual changes, and work on fixing their gut microbiome and cutting out unnecessary things from their diet like processed sugars, corn syrup, etc? Then people would lose weight. Then they wouldn't need expensive diet plans anymore.
And then the industry has no more customers. Just like if Apple makes phones that actually work and aren't pieces of trash, then they wouldn't be making money from people buying new iPhones every other year. Same with the clothing industry, and the pharmaceutical industry, and every other industry.
For someone who always talks about people researching things and checking out the sources on information before automatically believing it ya'll don't seem very good at it lmao
I'd like to start off with saying that I definitely agree with you in that the way the diet industry is structured exists to predate upon invented insecurities, just like nearly any cosmetics aimed at body alteration to some degree (makeup included). We also agree that it is fundamentally built to ensure failure and ongoing failure as a norm, in the same way that we're never going to get a proper cure for cancer when the cancer industry is so insanely prevalent and profitable.
That said, I understand your...frustration, let's call it, sure, about the fact that no, I did not do any further digging into this and took it at its word. You have my apologies for that.
However. I'd like to use this as a tool for transparency and assuming best intent. Your tone and treatment of me in this is rather hostile and I don't see the purpose that it serves. If I'm someone who claims to find accuracy in reporting important, then yes, accuracy needs to be had. And it was as simple as just Googling "95% diets fail". First result is an article from the NYT debunking it and explaining why it's a myth and bad statistics.
But that same article gets me to the heart of why I'm writing things out this way: you brought it up yourself, in fact, though in deciding to get petty you probably missed the subtext. For over forty years now these numbers have been used and spread around to the point where countless literal professional doctors don't have any idea that it's false. After all, we live in a society where diet industries have for pretty much ever been able to operate with nearly no regulation, fat people aren't actually given a shit about from medical professionals and are just told to get GPS, etc...you could even say this is a systemic issue which started long before I and likely you (and most reading this) were born.
Nobody learns these things on accident. You're absolutely right that if I looked it up and researched the claims I could easily have found out their validity to be nonexistent. But why would I? This isn't new research. This isn't anything that goes against anything I was ever taught. It's just a fact of life, just the way things are. People thought the universe was geocentric.
So with that said, I have to admit that while I've done my best to not vent my irritation at you or anyone else, it is deeply frustating, sure, we'll call it, to have you walk up to me and act in this way. It would be one thing if this wasn't a case of unlearning systemic bias and normativity. That'd be on me, absolutely.
But instead of thinking things through like an emotionally mature individual and going "Hm, this dude who says it finds research/accuracy important posted some stuff which was wrong, which I'm aware has a history going back multiple decades and is still going strong. Maybe the reason they didn't do any followup research was because they've lived their entire life hearing this same statistic over and over again and therefore thought that their systemic biases were accurate and saw nothing wrong because they couldn't,"
you decided to be a cunt for no fucking reason and you knew it because you had to go on Anonymous to hide any possible consequences coming your way for your actions. So thanks for informing me about this, I'm genuinely grateful and we, again, completely fucking agree ideologically, but/so fuck you for thinking that acting like a fucking 10th grader with a gotcha was a better use of anyone's time than just typing out "Hey that diet thing you reblogged is actually completely false if you look it up" to which I would have gone "Oh shit you're right, here's some followup research I did about this thing and how it's a systemic bias that needs to be unlearned".
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sharonisthebettercarter · 1 year ago
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we need to talk about common comic opinion for the boys
so i read the comics.
was curious for a while, buddies wanted to do it, finally bit the bullet and MAN OH MAN~<3
there's common opinion that swirls around from people who *have not read the comics* need i remind, an opinion that they are merely *meaningless edgelord drivel* or the like.
i'm here to bust that misconception, smack it upside the head and drag it around the fuckin' town and kick it till it's caved in because it couldn't be more *wrong* if it tried.
first thing i'll say is that the comics *don't* compare in what you'd call 'gratuitous edginess' to the show. while they have their 'bit on the nose moments', they're drawings that go panel by panel. even what they *could* show wouldn't compare, and it honestly doesn't. (coming from someone who's also watched the show too many times over now and got a nice fresh read in)
robin's death is more brutal *in the show*. there is more blood and gore. *in the show*. the arguably edgiest thing between both of them is a guy exploding another guy from inside his urethra, which *only happens in the show*
and for those that have no clue about the big twist or comics homie and try to make blocks of analysis for a character they have zero actual information or decent research on.
homelander is worse. *in the SHOW*.
granted, both have similar enough structure with reversed character development/reveal, but i digress
butcher is just THE biggest fucking bottom by the way, lord satan i CAN NOT with that boi--
anywho~<3
the 'meaningless' part? well that's just a big fat lie and i'll say it up front. that shit needs to stop. this thing was definitely an emotional rollercoaster, and while it may be true that it's not for everyone, it was far from meaningless and actually brilliantly written and even researched.
it's raw, it feels real half the time, it teaches valuable lessons, and even when you're in the notion of 'okay, where is this going, it's sus', when you stick with it? you get rewarded fucking beautifully.
there are moments you'd disagree with the characters actions in a way that makes them feel humanly flawed. of course they might do the wrong thing or say the wrong thing, so do real life humans?? there are cross cultural miscommunication references and conversations that show ennis knew what he was doing and why he did it a certain way. and yeah, it can be too much to handle for some,
*but if you honestly feel that way you shouldn't be watching the show either*
and here's what it's not.
meaningless, ill-thought, pointless, edgelord drivel.
it *is* an intricate and well done, brutally *honest* creative critique of the *military industrial complex*, *corporate capitalism*, and a couple other things expertly squeezed in. even touching on *abuse* and hitting all the right spots for how it can psychologically fuck with people. the ending punches you in the fucking feels as you could appropriately expect it to with a hard side of begrudged satisfaction.
good fucking satan these things were an excellent read that compelled me to want moar from start to finish, and yeah, if you have watched the show then i *highly* recommend them because the important topics and themes touched on are presented much better in the comic, even with the sometimes wonky ass art in place of hawt actors to distract you, lmao
but seriously? the lot of you that keep spouting nonsense from your clenched up assholes without actually bothering to look at the source material need to stop. all you're doin' is actin' damn fools and showing off high and mighty opinions based on complete mis-education if not un-education.
and f.y.i.... also being the damn fools both the comics AND show make fun of.
so remember that line billy says?
'but the main reason you don't hear about it is cause the public don't want to know about it.'
that's y'all. legit, at this point. more specifically, y'all would be the 'public' that wants to live with rose tinted glasses instead of acknowledging that reality is more brutal than we often want to see or admit.
why else would you keep denouncing and dismissing the comics and source material of something you allegedly love?
because some other schmuck on the internet said a lie, gave you hearsay, or a rumor they heard through a grapevine on a game of telephone that said it wasn't worth looking into yourself?
well i'll call bullshit on that straight up but what are y'all so afraid of??
couple other things i will say, if you hate butcher for being the biggest worldclass cunt, you will absolutely feel vindicated and have your feelings or possibly lovehate boner (like mine~) completely validated with what happens in these comics (and if i'm being honest about the direction of the show, weeeeelllll...~<3 lemme not tho lmao<3 still def the biggest bottom, out bottoms hughie by far, i wanna see him get railed by vas/love sausage)
i will also say, billy is 100% wrong in the comic and the show is slowly but surely unraveling that truth there as well, if it's not clear enough by now. what he does isn't for becky/becca, and definitely not for ryan either. it never was.
it's for his father, no i will not elaborate cause read the damn comics. (but also, people need to stop fucking forgetting that HUGHIE is the *actual* good guy here, not billy... billy is a bad guy... billy is objectively worse than homelander in many MANY canon ways and remember that reverse character development i mentioned--.)
contrast, if you *love* butcher, you will likely be disappointed in the show, but the comics will help prepare you for it (they also make too many things CLEAR)
unfortunately, you do not get sweetheart noir in this and while i love his show counterpart, bearing with cunt 9000 noir is worth it. (it also sparked fic ideas for me cause why not both~<3)
LOVE SAUSAGE IS UNREAL AND PERFECT~<3<3<3 if nothing else, comics love sausage at least deserves your full attention.
homelander's as always is a fun boi, show homelander by comparison is basically *final stage* comics homie (full throttle evil berserk type shit/just before it hits) take everything you thought you knew about (comics) him, and throw it out the fuckin' window.
boi does some fucked up shit... and ALSO has fucking mental breakdowns and visceral reactions like throwing up to doing evil shit because he literally can't stomach it and is trying to convince himself that he is the bad guy because he's been gaslit--.
and i'ma stop there. read the fuckin' comic if you actually wanna know just how deep that homie rabbit hole goes.
and i will absolutely use the idea of him having legit *adverse reactions to doing evil shit* in a fic because FUCK. YES. that was a sad but lovely detail and would make for a perfect fuckin'a alibi<3
anywho~<3, if you recognize he's a victim in the show? the comics. read them cause OOOOOHHHH--.
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miela · 1 year ago
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Shattered Memories • Chapter XII: Sunflower Love • {Peter Parker x Stark!Reader}
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Chapter Genre: FLUFFY (smut mentions) Chapter Warnings: (18+ MDNI) // very time jumpy (its a montage lmao), think of it as a transitional chapter into the next phase. Extra: I will be taking a little break (about a week) to catch up on requests that I have to do, and just to relax my brain a bit. I will be having a Q&A bit though, so stay tuned for that! Word Count: 5.6k
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For the next six months, life for you and Peter has been nothing but the best days of your lives. 
Smooth sailing and life uninterrupted.
The day after your relationship reunion with Peter, you saw that you both were put into a discord server with all your friends in it. Celina had put it together the day after the Gala, but you two were so caught up in each other that you didn't get a chance to check your phones. 
Gwen had video-called Peter and he woke up to the sound of his phone going off. When he answered, he hadn't realized it was one in the afternoon. You were knocked out next to him snoring softly and in a deep slumber.
"Hello?" He asked groggily while rubbing one eye and turning to lay on his side away from you to not disturb you.
"Dude???" Gwen asked. "Where have you been?! I know it's only been a day and a half but you haven't accepted the server request-...wait where are you?? That's not your bed. Wait, are you naked???"
Peter looked down at himself to double-check. "No, I have boxers on."
You woke up to the sound of Gwen's voice and rolled over snuggling into Peter and looking towards his phone while yawning and rubbing your eye. "Baby, come back to bed," You kissed his cheek and then laid your head on his while wrapping your arm around his waist. When your eyes adjusted you focused on the screen. 
"Oh…!" You smiled tiredly. "G'morning, Gwen."
Gwen's face was a mixture of shock and something else. Peter couldn't tell he was too tired to really analyze. Considering the circumstances, she probably figured out what was happening and what had happened.
"Holy shit!" She exclaimed. 
Peter smiled in response.
"You guys are together?! Like for real?!"
"We are. As of yesterday." 
"Dude! Let's go!" Gwen cheered happily. 
You giggled softly in response.
"Well, I'll let you guys go then, but I am gonna inform everyone. We were all kinda worried about you."
"Sorry about that," Peter said genuinely. 
"Hey, kiss each other so I can screenshot it and send it to everyone."
Peter snorted and you kissed his cheek longingly enough for Gwen to catch the snapshot. Blush bloomed across his cheeks as he smiled in reflex.
"Thank you!" Gwen chimed. "Sweet dreams and other things I guess."
"Gwen, please-" Peter groaned as you giggled.
"Byeeee," and with that she hung up. 
After that, life has been nothing but a dream for both of you. 
Your headaches were gone and you found out with research and testing that when you were made to forget Peter, your senses did not, so whenever you tried to remember him it was a push of the godforsaken spell but and pull of your senses which caused intense pressure in your head because that's where both things affected most.
It was like a constant civil war between what you knew and what you felt. The spell and your senses having an endless wrestling match and your brain was the ring. 
So when you both connected again, your senses went into overload, and didn't know what to do because it was stuck behind a spell. When you first kissed it broke the barrier for your senses to not feel trapped behind the spell. Your mind though, still couldn't completely remember him.
You continued having dreams about the faceless Peter, but you didn't mind when most days you woke up to his face next to yours.
Business was good too, especially when you started social media for yourself. You joined mostly because you helped make a social media app by Stark Industries funding an intern. You made your presence on Flutter (mostly), Twitter, and Instagram for business purposes. TikTok was left for Silk, much like how Peter had a YouTube Channel for Spiderman. 
You had personal accounts on Flutter, Tumblr, and Discord too and you used the username "jarjarjarvis" or "binksbby" made from the nickname Flash Thompson gave you in high school to bully you (he called you "Jar Jar Jarvis" or "Jarvis Binks" or simply "Binks") but jokes on him, you enjoyed the names because you thought they were hilarious as a Star Wars fan. Your Alias name on those was Luna Jarvis. Luna comes from Laguna, which was your nickname from Morgan when she was five because she wanted matching nicknames with you (and your room had moon and star themes). Everything there worked out because you didn't have to think too hard for an alias name. You really only joined with personal accounts to keep in touch with your friends and connect with others of your interests without the fame of a Stark attached to it.
But what the world doesn't see from you is the gallery on your phone where your most cherished moments are. And many of those moments made their way into a new scrapbook that you started that was titled "Our Story II: Reunited". Inside of it were the many memories made from your phone pictures, Peter's photography camera, and a Polaroid you both brought everywhere to capture memories that you and Peter had been making in those six months.
You learned in those months how much of a romantic Peter could be. Dates were nothing but going all out despite his small budget. He knew ways to utilize his resources without going broke. You loved how intimate those dates were. But Peter wasn't the only one making dates though. You also took him out on dates too. It challenged you to stay within budget and not spoil the hell out of him like you wanted to (he wouldn't let you because, by all means, you tried). You two had a dynamite dynamic. 
The seasons passed and you both accommodated them together. The autumn season, when you both reunited as a couple, was filled with red, orange, and gold colored walks in the park during your long lunch breaks and cafe trips after his classes. Hot tea and hot cocoa under heated blankets on the cooler days as you guys binge-watch movies, TV shows, or Celina's YouTube videos. When winter rolled around you went ice skating and built a snowman or had a snowball fight with Morgan in the front yard. Then you would have a hot (and sometimes steamy) shower and then cuddle up on the warm couch. You celebrated the holidays together and on New Year's, Celina and Ned hosted a party at their house with all of your friends.
Some dates included movies. It's one of the easiest ways to spend time together without spending much money. Sometimes it would be going to dinner and then the theater, other times it was a drive-in movie in your beloved convertible but most of the time it was in the comfort of Peter's apartment under blanket forts and surrounded by pizza boxes and other types of food. Sometimes it was Chinese food, Korean barbecue, Italian food, Indian food, or other foods from different cultures but most of the time it was Mexican food due to tacos and burritos fitting well with pizza for reasons you don't understand. 
When you felt like hitting the town you guys would go to bookstores where you told Peter about your favorite books and introduced him to your mystery book boyfriend.  And then comic stores where you both geeked over your favorite graphic novels, manga, and comic books. Sometimes you would buy something. This usually followed up with going to a music store where you would introduce each other to different bands and artists' music that you listen to. You would buy Vinyls while he would buy CDs (a plan you both put together for when you move in together in the future like you guys talked about doing).
Most notable is when he introduced you to Cigarettes After Sex and it was a life-changing moment.
"It's giving Lana Del Rey's brooding cousin meets The Neighbourhood," you commented which made Peter laugh. 
The self-titled album became a common go-to for living room or office ballroom sessions with you two slow dancing in the evenings like the married couple that you hoped to be one day. In turn, you introduced him to Turnover and their album "Peripheral Vision" which he enjoyed a lot more than you thought he would. Afterward, you would go to a cafe to replenish your energy before walking hand in hand down the city's streets or in Central Park.
Other dates would be with your friends too. You once went to a cooking class with Harry and MJ and it ended with both guys stressed and having high blood pressure because you nearly set the place on fire and MJ nearly took her finger off with how aggressively she cut the vegetables. You all agreed to never do that again. 
Another time you did a Pottery class with Miles and Gwen. You and Peter decided to make mugs for each other. You had fun for the most part but you didn't enjoy the feeling of clay on your hands and you tried to not show that you were squeamish about it. Peter made you a dark purplish blue mug with pastel purple clouds and silver stars around it and at the very bottom was a heart-shaped spider web which makes you smile every time you see it. You made him a mug with the darkest shade of blue you could find with stars and the millennium falcon, the death star, and a rogue one on it. You both used your mugs religiously.
Another double date was with Celina and Ned to a Botanical Garden. Celina would tell you all different facts about different flowers which made you all happy because of how excited she got to share her knowledge on them. When you got to the butterfly house, you didn't miss how the butterflies were very attracted to you and Peter due to your bug pheromones. Celina graciously took pictures of you two with several butterflies sitting on you.
You went to an arcade with Pavitr and Gayatri. It was a place where you paid one fee per person and you could play any of the games for the entire day and you guys ended up being there for five hours. You had an absolute blast, but you all were starving afterward which meant lots of food. Gayatri showed all of you an Indian restaurant that had food that tasted the most like the food back in India. You were over the moon with how good the food was.
Sometimes there were group dates with your entire friends group. One time you all went to an underground concert for a friend of Pav, Gwen, and Miles who's name is Hobie Brown. He was a guitarist in a band. He had dark skin, a very punk style, and wicks for hairstyle. Despite the stereotypes against punks, he proved that to be wrong because was one of the nicest people you have ever met. Other group dates included museum dates, roller skating at a roller rink, a full spa day, and that one time you bought everyone a weekend trip to Disney World.
On Halloween, there was a party at Harry's frat house and you and Peter dressed up as your hero personas as a joke. It was funny hearing how people spotted the "differences" between you and your hero alternate self. Like how someone said your ass is smaller than Silk's and that Peter is shorter than Spiderman, which you both found more hilarious than insulting.
Mentioning that, you guys even went on Spider Duo Dates as you both called them. Those consisted of patrolling together, volunteering together, and stargazing on the platform of the Avengers Tower. Spidey and Silk was a hot topic on social media because of the sightings of you two patrolling together again. 
When money was low on his part but he was feeling rather romantic anyway, he would set up a picnic for you both. Sometimes it was on the beach, sometimes it was at a park, and other times it would be at the lake by your house. You would bring your red guitar on those days and sing to him softly as he rested his head on your lap looking up at you lovingly like you hung the moon and created the stars or something. If it were a later picnic you would cloud gaze that turned into star gazing into the night. If a tent was involved that usually meant you were in for an…extra sweet dessert. 
Speaking of, you guys did that a lot in the beginning. It started off as a daily thing you guys did at the end of the day. You both knew it was the Pheromones and that you should slow down but he was insatiable you were insatiable and both of you together were thunderously insatiable. 
You were smart about it though. You weren't completely delirious because of your senses bonding after so long of being apart. You took birth control, he wore a condom and you made sure any room (or tent) you were in was soundproof to the point where people would think you weren't in there. 
You learned that Peter got off on pleasuring you. He's a giver by far and one of the things he likes to do is come visit you during your lunch hour and eat (you) there in your office (on the couch or the desk) as a way to treat you (and satisfy him). 
It happened so much to the point where every time Peter walked into the building (in spider suit), Nika would roll her eyes so hard at him and he would shrug. 
"You said it was your job to know things," he stated to her. "It's not my fault that you're so smart."
"Oh, Puh-lease," Nika said with another eye roll. "Don't start with me, Parker. The way you two leave that damn office beaming like idiots it doesn't take a genius to figure out that you two are doing something in there. You're lucky I'm the only one who suspects anything."
"If you weren't you would gaslight them, right?"
She squinted her blue eyes hard at him. "You're lucky I like you." 
After a while, once your senses got used to you guys being together, your coupling became less frequent. It was down to three times a week, a healthy amount you think. 
You really appreciated how your friend groups came together like a puzzle. Peter and Ned within the first month of reconnecting, instantly became best friends again. You became close with Gwen and MJ became close with Nika. Everyone got along so well and you all hung out whenever you could. 
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When your 22nd birthday rolled around, no one was surprised that this day was going to be your favorite birthday to celebrate. Peter wholeheartedly expected you to be theatrical that day.
Peter woke up before you and decided to make breakfast for you with Morgan. They had gotten pretty close and she began to see him as an older brother figure which brought you joy. You knew if Morgan approved of the guy you're with, then he's a keeper. She could be an annoying little shit at times, but she did genuinely care about your well-being.
Happy also lightened up on Peter and he almost sees him as a nephew or son now, which also relieved you from your worries there. Pepper liked Peter from the start so you had no issues there. 
As to be expected you were a bit dramatic in the morning but not in a bad way, but in an amusing way. You blasted "I Wanna Dance With Somebody" by Whitney Houston which made Peter laugh and Morgan roll her eyes. 
"She's awake," Morgan deadpanned. 
You danced down the hallway wearing a cream off-white frilly lace silk robe, a red silk bonnet with white polka dots, a green feathery fur scarf thing you found at Party City, and red heart sunglasses on your nose. Your makeup was done and your toenails and fingernails were painted the same shade of red as your lips. 
Peter and Morgan watched you the entire time as you danced your way down the first set of stairs and you shimmy your shoulders and pointed at Peter which made him chuckle. You then sat on the railing of the second flight of stairs and slid down. When you reached the bottom of the railing you posed with your leg straight up in the air revealing the black red-bottom strappy heels you were wearing as you stopped yourself before you ended up flying off the staircase railing. 
Thank god, for spider powers.
"How vogue," FRIDAY stated and snapped a picture of you from a hologram.
"Thanks, FRIDAY," you replied.
You had a straight face the entire time. 
Morgan gave you the most disgusted look. "You're honestly so lame and embarrassing," she said with a grimace. "And you look like a mushroom."
"Omg, thank you!" You smiled genuinely and bent your leg down and then swung your legs over to step off the railing. "I was going for a red and folklore-themed beginning of 'You Need to Calm Down' Taylor look. I think I did a good job, no?"
"You look like a dorkface."
"Listen here, peasant child," you lowered your glasses to look at Morgan. "Today is my birthday, my 22nd birthday, all I ask from you is to let me be my quirky lame ass older sister self for a whopping 24 hours and then you can go back to being a little buttheaded little sister all you want, m'kay?"
Morgan rolled her eyes and turned back to being Peter's little kitchen helper. "You're still lame."
"Thank you," you sang.
"You look adorable, princess," Peter smiled.
"Aww, thank you, princey," you walked over and kissed his cheek and he responded with a kiss on your temple. "Did you make breakfast for me?"
"Mhm," he hummed in a sing-song way. "So, if you would like to sit down, your Highness, so I can serve you your royal meal, that would be greatly appreciated." He took your hand and brought it to his lips as he gazed lovingly into your eyes.
The way your heart did backflips was unreal.
"Okay," you sang lovingly after an embarrassing giggle escaped you and you walked over to the island bar and sat down as Morgan made a noise of disgust.
Peter walked over and set down the plate in front of you as he stood behind you. "A stack of strawberry banana and chocolate chip pancakes, a three cheese omelet, and strawberry jam toast." 
"Ooh, are you part of the meal?" You smirked asking lowly and lowered your glasses to meet his gaze.
"Mmm, I'm for later tonight." He smirked and as he leaned in and glanced at your lips with his bottom lip pulled between his teeth.
"Oh? I can't wait," you replied with a smile.
Your lips met for a long moment until you heard a cup being slammed down loudly next to you. You turn and see Maguna with her hand wrapped around said cup with an annoyed look on her face.
 "Milk for the big birthday baby," she fake smiled and walked away. 
Your eyes follow her with one side of your nose scrunched and a bombastic side-eye.
"Hey Maguna," you started. "Remember a few years ago you were dying to see me kiss someone so you tried to get me and the babysitter to kiss? Now when I'm in a committed relationship you wanna cry about it? Kinda sus, just saying."
Morgan hurried back into the room in a huff. "I was five!"
Peter looked at you with a confused look. "Really?"
"Yeah!" You scoffed in disbelief. "And he actually tried to kiss me!" 
Peter did a dramatic scoff-gasp and put his hand on his chest exaggeratingly.
"I know right?!" You matched his energy. "Fired his ass right away." 
"Good. I should've been the babysitter. Then it wouldn't be so hard would it?"
"Exactly, I wouldn't hesitate to kiss you," you smirk again.
Morgan walked out again while calling out "Mom! Laguna and Peter are being weird in front of me again!"
You pfffted and began eating your food. 
You finished getting dressed as Peter showered. 
You wore a white sparkly fringe mini dress with the strappy heels. Peter went for a white tee shirt to match and a pair of black jeans that had you staring at his ass more than you probably should have been, and red Converse shoes. You both wore matching blazers together. You spent the afternoon out with Peter getting lunch and eating at the park as you both made paper promise rings with an origami kit that he got and walked around town before going home and being met with a surprise party with your friends there. It was filled with karaoke, games, and watching your favorite movie. After that, it was time to open your gifts. You didn’t really ask or want much so they all pitched in to help Celina make you a beautiful versatile dress that was very TS folklore-inspired. You were over the moon and you went to put it on. Celina insisted that you had to do the whole look and so she decided to re-do your makeup as well. When she was finished you hurried down the stairs to show everyone who all agreed that it was amazing.
“You look so cute!” Cindy chimed. “Like a magical forest fairy.”
“Thank you, Cin,” You smiled. 
“Still look like a dorkface,” Morgan smirked.
“You know what,” You said, crossing your arms and standing in contrapposto. “When your birthday comes around I’m setting your cake on fire and throwing it in the lake.”
She stuck her tongue out and blew a raspberry at you and you responded by doing the same back. 
Pepper sighed and rubbed her temple. “I can’t with you two.”
You smiled and looked around for Peter but you didn’t see him.  
"Hey, where’s Peter?" You asked.
"I think he went outside," Celina commented, coming in from behind.
"Yeah, through the back," Gwen added with a thin-lipped smile.
All your friends looked at each other and nodded before looking back at you. You squinted at them all acting suspiciously.
“Girl,” Nika started. “Stop mentally investigating and go find your boyfriend.”
“Okay, okay, fine,” you smiled. “Thank you,” you sang before hurrying to the back door as you lifted the dress from the front in fear that you would dirty it. 
You overheard your friends whisper and shuffle around with your enhanced hearing but you decided to ignore it. You walked out onto the back porch and looked around for your beloved boyfriend. You could sense him but you couldn’t see him.
"Peter?" You call out softly.
You felt his aura towards the greenhouse fairytale garden that you and Morgan worked on together a couple of years ago while you were still healing mentally. It was a way for you to bond and you guys work on it together every spring. It was meant to be a little escapism for anyone who needed it and you found yourself reading in there most times. Outside of the greenhouse garden was a gazebo that was decorated with fairy and globe lights around it and flowers of various pastel colors along the sides of it. It added a nice touch to it. You built it with your own two hands. You often sat there to play guitar and think. 
You followed the flower pathway that led to the garden. You saw that the lights on the gazebo were on and in the center stood Peter wearing a maroon suit with a maroon T-shirt underneath and his stark specs on. 
Oh God, you thought. He looks phenomenal.
He was pacing slightly but stopped when he sensed you and looked up at you. He looked at you with wide eyes as his eye traced over the dress and blushed. You could tell he wasn’t expecting you to come out dressed in a fairytale-like dress and it caught him off guard. You smiled big with a giggle and ran over to the gazebo. You walked up onto the wooden platform and walked over by your starstruck boyfriend. 
“Hello there, handsome,” you smiled. 
“Hey,” he breathed out before blinking rapidly. “You look…I…I promise I’m looking respectfully.”
You snorted. “Well. I’m not looking at you respectfully. That suit is doing wonders for you and even more wonders for me.”
The blush on his face bloomed as he smiled as his composure slowly started creeping back in. “You can take it off of me later.”
“Oh?” you smirked and put your arms on his shoulders. “Is that a promise?”
He put his hands on your waist and pulled you closer. “It is. And I keep my promises.”
“Most of them anyways,” you giggled. “I did have to come find you, no?”
“Okay, fair, but I did tell you everything,” He smiled with raised eyebrows.
“Okay, I’ll give you that,” you replied in a playful defeated tone. 
You both chuckled softly and after a moment of silently admiring each other like it was the first time you saw each other, Peter cleared his throat.
“Will you dance with me?” He asked you.
“Always,” you smiled. 
"Hey EDITH. Please, play the song."
 You smiled as you wrapped your arms around his neck and began dancing silently. He then twirled you and you giggled. You both danced around playfully and romantically around the gazebo before he pulled you back into him with your hands on his shoulders and his hands on your hips. 
He smiled. "My barefoot princess.”
You had forgotten that you hurried out of the house before putting on your shoes. You knew if Morgan saw you like this she would have some witty shit to say to you about it. 
"You missed your chance to say barefoot Cinderella," you replied with a playful tone.
"I'm not making a Hannah Montana reference," he grimaced with a smile. 
You giggled and then you leaned your head on his shoulder and he kissed your head. "I love being your barefoot princess."
 Your senses and heart were blooming and fluttering as you both danced and you couldn't help but get lost in your thoughts. You realize that if you were to ever have a wedding, you want it to be just as magical as this moment. 
When the song ended, Peter pulled away for a moment.
 “Um, I got you something.” 
He reached into his pocket and walked behind you. You then felt him put something around your neck. You looked down to see a gold heart-shaped necklace with a sunflower on it. You looked at it with wide eyes as you felt him wrap his arms around your torso and lean his chin on your shoulder. You lift your hands to touch the golden heart and when you do, you open it to see a picture of you and Peter in it. 
You pouted and looked at him with glossed-over eyes. 
“Do you like it?” He asked. “I got the sunflower one because our senses are like sunflowers. Always facing their sun.”
“Yeah,” you replied softly. “I love it, Peter. So, so much.”
He smiled and kissed your cheek longingly. 
About an hour later, Peter carried you inside bridal style so you wouldn’t dirty the floor from being outside in nature. He set you down on the counter of the bathroom, grabbed body-cleaning wipes from the cabinet and cleaned your feet for you. He then planted kisses on them. You watched him endearingly the entire time and he looked up at you with a smile.
“You’re so pretty,” he cooed.
Your face burned and you looked away from him shyly and you pressed your lips together to keep from smiling like an idiot and failing miserably. You both then went back down by your friends who teased both of you playfully. It was then time for everyone to leave and you and Peter ended the night in bliss. 
The next day you were met with another gift. It was a heart-shaped box with star name tags with the words "from Peter" on it with a heart.
You opened the box and were met with 
adoption papers for a kitten and a love letter from your beloved boyfriend.
Peter had gone and gotten you a rescue fluffy ragdoll kitten who was born on the day you climbed through Peter's window and reconnected. 
You teared up and hugged the letter to your chest after reading it.
It was sitting in a room that was made into a cat room by your friends while you were out with Peter. The kitten was presented to you on a cat bed when you walked in. 
"Hi little one," you cooed softly as the cat rubbed its head on your hand and began purring. 
You spent the rest of the weekend playing with the bundle of fur, sending pictures in Discord, and telling Peter that he's the best boyfriend ever.
All in all, everything was perfect. You didn't feel that giant hole in your chest anymore, you got out more, your relationships were strong and overall you had a clearer mindset about everything. You still missed your dear old dad and you still had days when your mental health would decline, but for the most part, everything in your life was falling into place. It was like you were living in a contemporary age fairytale.
Until the universe decided it had other plans for you.
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It was the monday after your birthday when you walked to the back of the Avengers building to go for a coffee run. Really you just needed out from your hovering board members who were bothering you about anything and everything. Your best bet was to escape through the employee parking garage.
Before you could go any further than the parking lot, your senses began tingling. You stopped and looked around before you saw your spider-boyfriend ease down on a web upside down. He was wearing the red and black spider suit you made for him, and it was honestly your favorite. 
 You smiled at him, "Spidey."
"Miss Stark," he replied. 
"Fancy seeing you here in my employee parking lot," you crossed your arms and leaned back on the wall with one leg crossed over the other. 
"I was in the neighborhood," he shrugged. "I figured I'd bring you lunch but you weren't in your office so I gave it to Nika to put it there for you. She told me where you'd be."
"Ah," you replied and tilted your head to the side and checked him out in his suit with your bottom lip pulled in between your teeth. 
He smirked. "I saw you brought Dutchess Willow to work."
Dutchess Willow, or just Willow, is what you named your new kitten. She was in your office napping on the couch when you walked out.
"She's too cute to leave at home. Plus she keeps me sane."
"I'm glad," you could hear the smile in his voice.
"So what brings you here besides bringing me lunch hm?" You smirked. "I'm sure you didn't sense any danger in Mid-Manhattan all the way from Queens."
"Nah," he leaned his hand on the wall next to your head as if he were leaning you back on the wall. "Just you."
"Oh?" Your smile widened as you let out a giggle. "Am I distracting you from your hero duties, Spidey?"
"Just a bit," you could hear the smirk in his voice. "I have an idea of how that could be fixed." 
"Do you now?"
He tapped the area where his lips would be and you laughed softly and bit your lip again. "You're cute."
"In this suit? I think I'm a little more than cute."
"Hot?" You pulled his mask halfway up his face. "Sexy, perhaps?" You moved your face closer to his. "Maybe…fuckable?"
"Ooh," he began with a smirk on his visible lips. "Can't say things like that while I'm in a suit this tight, princess."
"You have a guard there," you replied lowly.
"Yeah, that's part of the problem."
You both giggled and you leaned in and kissed his lips softly and he reciprocated. Your hands cradled his face and it felt strange because he was hanging upside down but the kiss was absolutely electrifying. 
You guys pulled back for a moment looking at each other drunk from the kiss before he flipped himself to stand normally and pressed you against the wall while kissing you deeply and you invited his tongue to explore your mouth. Your leg instinctively went around his waist and he held it in his hand while his other arm leaned against the wall next to your head. 
He grinded himself against you instinctively. And you moaned softly in response. 
"Spidey," you smiled with a flirty tone. "Save that for later."
"Sorry," he apologized. "Can't help it sometimes. Gotta have you thinking about me." 
You hummed in amusement and playful doubt as you kissed him again as you wrapped your arms around his neck.
Moments like these were sweet and had you giddy but usually, it was in a more secluded area. So you didn't spot the figure in the distance with a camera out filming the both of you caught up in your little moment, you didn't hear the whispers of an act of sabotage and secret defamation, and didn't expect it to be on blast on the Internet as the number one trending topic in a matter of hours. 
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deceptive-daydreams · 8 months ago
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What TTPD song is your favorite and how are you projecting it onto Eddie?
oooo you've just unlocked a new level of crazy, im doing my research, im analyzing the songs...
ok when i first listened to the album, i was all over but daddy i love him. it's so eddie, the way everyone hates him and she's head over heels, doesn't give a single shit about anyone else but him. it's so canon had eddie had a love interest.
and then rockstar!eddie has the BIGGEST choke hold on me, there are SEVERAL songs i've created tiny fics in my head to. The Tortured Poets Department feels very him. Like in the middle of their relationship when things get a little rocky and he gets distant, she's kinda giving up on it except she's kinda like well if not me then who will hold you? Like who's gonna know you so deeply if not me? "I chose this cyclone with you" ARE YOU KIDDING ME.
loml...DO I NEED TO ELABORATE. well i will. she feels a lot like he's giving up on them. he's called her the love of his life but he doesn't necessarily show it, too caught up in the industry. drugs play a part. he needs to get his shit together. he's so used to pushing people away that he makes her think his love was "counterfeit". because he can't have it all, right? basically sabotages himself, is a huge idiot, he is the loss of her life. for a good six months.
i can fix him (no really i can) UM...SHE DEF THINKS SHE CAN BEFORE SHIT REALLY GOES DOWN HILL. she thinks she can get him sober, thinks she can make him take shit seriously. she doesn't realize he won't do it until he WANTS to, he has to WANT to help himself. "trust me, i can handle me a dangerous man, no really i can." meanwhile he's fucked up, running down the street with his dick out and everyone is looking at her with pity like "so this is your man?" and at some point she has that moment of "whoa maybe I can't"
THE BLACK DOG...when they're broken up and she's so convinced he's forgotten all about her, even with the implication that they are soulmates. she knew him at his poorest, knew him at his worst, knew him in all shitty aspects and still loves him yet he still couldn't get his shit together and now he's out at the bar with women who are far better looking in her eyes but could never put up with a fraction of the shit she had to.
and finally, moving on from rockstar!eddie my beloved, i hate it here is also so eddie. he HATES it here. rightfully so. i do too. he creates fantasy worlds in his head, spends most of his time there. only shares them at hellfire and even then not ALL of it. he hates feeling like an alien despite embracing his "freak" title. it's just a cover up. "this place made me feel worthless" brb gonna cry
i can't pick a favorite lmao
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scoutisnthome · 3 months ago
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sereneverse,,,I have questions but mainly-what is the story? I'm intrigued *imagine me sitting in a business chair lmao*
Hello. Let me inform you. *posts up business presentation style*
Sereneverse is a story (primarily. there is other stuff too.) focusing on a region called the delta and the community of mutants that live there. The delta is the bottom layer of a cyberpunk esc tiered city called Echoana. It's the poorest of the layers and where all of the waste and pollution end up eventually. (Adding a read more because this is gonna be long. Read my scifi boy 🫵)
Most of the Delta belongs to a district called the stacks, tall stacks of ready-made room pods and shipping containers that serve as peoples homes. The people living in the delta, due to economic status and general lack of infrastructure, don't have much any sway on the politics of the upper layers which makes it easy for people like HORIZON industries to move in without them being able to protest (they do anyways. Though more forcefully than civilly). HORIZON industries is a primarily research based company which is often employed to do trial research for Echoana officials, often for weapons, and it's also the company funding the human experiments I mentioned in the other post.
Because of the Delta being incredibly polluted and sometimes just having scrap fall from the sky (among other things (concerning background radiation)) almost all of the residents have either a mutation, are missing at least one limb, or both. Which unfortunately makes them really convenient test subjects for HORIZON especially since they have no feasible way of taking legal action.
Sereneverse in general mainly focuses on the conflict between the inhabitants of the Delta and upper HORIZON authority as HORIZON industries continues to try to move into the delta (at the start of the story they have 2 makeshift lab sites. Both of which are destroyed soon after by Roya Ngo.) and the experiments who escaped HORIZON in the process finding full lives and families they never would've had if they stayed with them.
Sereneverse is named after Serene Violence (it/it's), a escaped human experiment of HORIZON industries, because it was the first OC I made out of the bunch. It's kind of the catalyst for a lot of the plot as immediately upon its escape it starts making targeted break ins on the homes of HORIZON officials, which makes people investigate in a way they wouldn't have otherwise.
If you want me to elaborate more on characters and introduce the cast lmk!!!!! I can show you all the sillies
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heystephen · 5 months ago
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I really wanna be supportive of Bebe Rexha and her issues with the music industry but currently she's getting cancelled by the entire Balkan for spouting nationalistic propaganda bs about "Greater Albania" which is on the same level as Russia and Israel for this region of the world. Dua Lipa has done the same thing and also got a lot of shit for it. It's literally the same as Russia claiming parts of Ukraine as theirs, and Israel wanting to take over all of Palestine.
My issue is both of these girlies never even grew up in the Balkans. Right now, Bebe is talking about how state borders don't mean a thing to her but she hasn't been around for the last three decades to see people fight over those borders. There are a mix of peoples within each of these countries she's talking about with several of them trying to pursue nationalistic propaganda of how various territories should belong to them under one state, but the thing is, that mix of people happened due to the various wars and exiles imposed by each neighboring country there.
I feel very "stick to what you do and know best" for her and Dua because I hate their propaganda. There are already enough issues with each ethnicity, no need to make it worse, especially when you're not even here. And now she's acting like she's a victim on IG after people started calling out her fascist propaganda. It's fine for her to be proud of her heritage, I got no issue with that, but her calling all the other countries with Albanian minorities as belonging to Albania is what I take issue with.
Anyway, sorry for the rant in your inbox, I just saw your posts about her speaking out and had to share this.
totally understand why you feel like the two of them are speaking out of turn, especially if neither of them have never actually lived in the region and therefore lack the personal stake that a local does. i actually had no idea about all of this and will have to research the topic to better understand it because i had no idea this was going on at all :/ also thought bebe was english so you’ve taught me a few things here lmao
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feminisedlad · 11 months ago
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How might one get into "reading for a living" because that's a dream job
it is not a dream job, its called publishing and i make less than 40k a year LOL.
to be less arch, im an editor, and i work in editorial which is the 'flashy' department (lmao), but it's a pretty stressful job. obviously it's one i enjoy because no one would stay in the industry unless they got some reward for it. but still. i say 'reading books' is my job but thats probably only like 40% of it. a lot of my day to day work involves nagging people for deadlines, having meetings abt whether XYZ feature will cost extra, researching marketing trends, etc. YMMV if you work as a book designer or some other dept, i know they have different rules. this isnt to bitch but i think publishing has REALLY good PR among english majors and these are things i wish someone had told me before i sunk money into a publishing degree. BTW: dont get a publishing degree. experience > MA in publishing
so like, i cant in good conscience recommend the industry -- its sort of like going to grad school except with worse pay (the phd candidate gets a stipend; the unpaid intern does not.) but if you already have prion disease and you want to go into publishing, heres what i got
publishing advice below:
first things first, you need book experience. you can get this through the obvious ways (working on ur college lit mag, unpaid internships, copyediting freelance work) but i feel like that prob goes without saying. so what ill say is: if none of those options work, you could always work at a bookstore. lots of the editors i work with actually got their start by saying in the interview, "i worked at barnes and noble and noticed that [category] sells well. i love noticing which books resonate with people" or what have you
i will say that i work in nonfiction publishing, which has some differences from like, editing queer YA fiction. one of those jobs is more competitive than the other. and the industry standards are pretty toxic (if your author misses his deadline and sends the manuscript at 6pm, tough shit, you have to work late to make sure the book doesn't miss its pub date. if you're not thinking about all your books constantly, you must not really care. etc.)
that said one of the best things i can recommend is looking into publishing jobs in different departments. most people are competing for editorial department jobs (things like acquiring and signing books, and being the main point of contact for an author.) but if your passion mostly lies in editing or making things pristine, managing editorial departments often hire production editors who still read through all the books, but their day to day work is more like proofreading, checking barcodes, and other printing related tasks.
theres also finance. finance publishing jobs are never anyones first choice, but on the plus side, you wont have to tell the author why his advance is late. thats the acquiring editor's job. and also lots of people pivot to editorial after they have some years doing finance, design, production, etc.
i will say there are way more remote publishing jobs now than ever. theyre all super competitive but you should apply anyway. if youre entry level, look for "editorial assistant" type roles. some of these actually pay really well: to give an example, harvard hires copyeditors and editorial assistants at a rate which is more than my yearly salary. i mean, its harvard. you gotta look around. but there are more options besides the big 5 publishers. academic publishing is its own field! work at your favorite journal/database! work at JSTOR or wiley!
i dont think theres anything else i would add, other than just random shit talking abt industry standards and quirks of the industry. i dont want to sound whiny because i realize im lucky to be working in my field -- but, i think people oversell publishing as one of "the only career options for english majors."
to be totally honest, most people could make double or triple my salary from being a project manager or corporate editor. so if you enjoy reading and editing, there are better options to you than trade publishing. if you enjoy the act of connecting with authors and making their vision a reality, you might enjoy publishing. or you might not. idk!
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reds-skull · 1 year ago
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So my thoughts on the train wreck that was mw3
(spoilers... obviously)
I reblogged a post talking about this a few hours ago, and it talked about this issue better than I could, but the mission with Samara made me grind my teeth literally. It doesn't mention that at the end of the mission, when she's forced to wear a bomb vest and hold a glock, in order to get to the detonator to stop the bomb you need to go through a crowd of people. I didn't shoot them but the game encourages you to. jsyk.
It's really fucked.
Overall, I'll be honest I didn't take anything too seriously. I heard it's a shitshow so I just looked for the full half of the cup. I also had a feeling someone's gonna die so I was scared for everyone all the fucking time.
[continued rent below]
My favorite parts are where Graves and Shepherd show up actually, since everyone's so fucking done with their bullshit it's so funny. Ghost straight up asking Laswell to airstrike them killed me, Soap being feral is a highlight.
Shepherd being the prisoner made me laugh idk I can't take that fucker seriously.
I liked seeing more of Farah and Alex. Playing as price was also interesting.
Liked seeing what happened in Verdansk that was cool.
Now for the shit... I was expecting a sort of chasing around the world part 2 after a couple of missions. And that's what it is? Kinda? I'll be honest I'll need to rewatch to understand what was going at the start...
Now for the last mission... I saw people talking about Soap's death coming out of nowhere and I can't help but disagree? Like since Verdansk with Makarov threatening Soap and then Shepherd telling him it will all come back to bite him in the ass... I knew it will be him.
But did it make sense for him to die at that moment? That is harder to tell, I think they're aiming for his death to be a catalyst for Price, to be more ruthless. We see that with him killing Shepherd, like Soap wanted to.
Was it necessary for Price's arc to have Soap die? Not really. He was already set on killing Makarov at the start of the game. I guess you could say he's not tolerant of Shepherd and Graves' grey morality, but they didn't really pose a threat to the 141 after mw2. Shepherd went off the grid and Graves was busy with Farah and Alex.
In general I was surprised that was the last mission. It felt really jarring, even if I know it's supposed to lead up to mw4.
Small note gameplay wise (and glitches) I actually liked the changes, but that's because my favorite games are stealth based, so having the option for it was more fun for me. But I see the average cod player not enjoying it (not really what they signed up for).
I was actually feeling like if I had the option to return the game I would, but it's a dlc and I sure have more than 3 hours on mw2 so I can't...
(first time I buy a triple A game on release and that's what I fuckin get... kinda deserved ngl lmao)
The 2 main things that should be taken away from this are that first this was an impossible game to make in a year, there's a lot of overworking we didn't see behind the scenes, and we can thank the execs and the current nightmare that is the triple A games industry. You can't make a good game at that short of a time.
Second thing is, this is cod. As much as it wants to criticize the military, on the bottom line they got ties with the American military complex. Because of that, Call of Duty will never be an accurate view of the army, and will always glorify western military.
I honestly was agreeing with some of the stuff the villeins say at times when they criticize the good guys. But the villeins are often so over the top evil you can't really agree with them. And that's the point, isn't it?
So it will always have that issue. My interest in this story is purely from a narrative point, irl I come from an extremely militaristic place so I'm sick of all that shit propaganda. Might be obvious for the rest of you, but for the ones that are not... do your research. Learn about how propaganda works. I promise it will be useful to you at one point in your life.
(getting sidetracked here... sorry recent events really bring up some emotions. Mostly anger.)
Just as a sidenote about my own comics - I'm just gonna straight up ignore mw3. Might work with the Verdansk backstory because I liked that, but in general just imagine I'm going off on a tangent. As much as I like angst I want it more emotionally fueled than the campaigns, so if anyone dies, it's on my terms!
I've been really fucking busy with uni so it might take a while, but I'm working on a nice fluffy comic (with an idea I've planned months ago so it's completely unrelated to mw3)
Whoever's still reading, I'll cya then!
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tomwambsmilk · 2 years ago
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Not to get all conspiracy theory, but that reddit screenshot you reblogged got me thinking... It is really weird that a show as big as Succession had its final season announced so late and with almost no promotion. Alan Ruck said everyone knew it was the last season in June, but Sarah said she didn't know until January. HBO has been pretty chaotic recently, a lot of shows were axed, I don't think it's that crazy to suggest internal conflict might have something to do with it. Especially if future plans could alienate a large chunk of the viewership, like that post mentioned the idea of killing Kendall off, or I bet businessbros would be turned off if Tom and Greg actually kissed, people would probably be mad about it being 'bad representation' too. Maybe I'm just in denial, idk :(
lots to unpack here lmao.......
First of all. I have to say that I DO agree that there is something weird about how season 4 has rolled out and been promoted, and there's absolutely something weird about Alan Ruck saying everyone knew in June, and then Sarah Snook doubling down a couple of days later to say she found out at the table read. Best case scenario, I think HBO let Jesse Armstrong make the call, and he made the call very, very late, and then HBO had to try and do damage control because the late announcement botched some of the promo, and not everyone internally ended up finding out about it at the same time.
Worst case scenario? ...... I don't know. I really don't want to turn into a conspiracy theorist. But. I've seen discourse about hbo max. I've seen people talk about the writers strike. And I know that studio-creator conflict is pretty common in the industry. so do I think it's possible that there was internal conflict involved? Yes, absolutely. Do I think it's likely?..... I'm genuinely unsure. I don't know. I wouldn't place bets in either direction tbh.
And..... yeah, if internal conflict was at play, I would say it's pretty likely that there was some discussion of future plotlines and story beats. If hbo is scrambling for money, they might be more invested than usual in pumping out things that are commercially successful to increase their subscriber numbers. (It would also bias them in favour of creating new shows instead of renewing old ones). What does that mean for succession? Again, I'm not sure. I don't have HBO's market research, and I don't actually know what the widest cross-section of its viewership is interested in. I think killing Kendall off would definitely alienate a massive chunk of it.
And tomgreg going canon? .......Honestly, I'm not sure I want to comment too much for fear of accidentally starting the johnlock conspiracy II: succession edition. I don't think HBO is the Big Evil Homophobic Studio punching down on Little Gay Rights Creator Jesse Armstrong. I also think that if season 5 pitches were being discussed, a disagreement on just one plotline wouldn't be enough to get Jesse to call it quits. But I'm also aware of the Discourse around "woke HBO" in the wake of ofmd and tlou, and of the businessbro portion of the viewership (which is sizeable) vs the marketing to the tg fans. I don't know if I'd go as far as "HBO axed succession bc tomgreg canon", but yeah I could definitely see there being Discussion about tomgreg.
(That being said. I did write that post about the editing/soundtrack de-homoeroticifying (?) tomgreg scenes and it would be really REALLY funny to me if that turned out to be HBO interference lmao)
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i-write-hurt-not-comfort · 10 months ago
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One small question as I got a bit confused. After finishing the basketball diaries does that mean you will never write about diabolik lovers again? Because you have a new series?
In no way do I mean to sound or be understood rudely, the question is for informational purposes only 🙂
hello! no worries, i understand your question.
the answer is, i don't know. i have a tendency to bounce between hyperfixations and unfortunately i've learnt that i am straight up incapable of having more than one at a time. so in 2017 i wrote mostly diabolik lovers, then 2018-2019 was primarily pandora hearts, and i was pumping out elleo fics on an industrial scale. i even worked up quite a following for that. then from 2020-2021 (i was an absolute weapon in 2020 for one specific ship) i wrote almost entirely vanitas no carte. then 2022 and 2023 came and i returned to writing an insane about of diabolik lovers fics.
these things seem to last 2 years, and when i started reading tgcf, i really didn't expect it to be as good as it was. i knew it was good, but i wasn't aware it would take over my every waking thought, yknow? so i didn't expect my diabolik lovers writing stamina to get taken over so quickly.
having said that, i never stopped writing ph or vnc entirely. i'm actually writing another ph fic for elleo right now called divenire, which i'm 9/15 chapters into. i still write oneshots here and there.
so i won't definitively say i'm never writing dialovers again, because i might as a one-off, and i do have commissions open, but right now i'm gonna follow my heart and write what i'm rlly passionate about at this time. and i'm doing my masters research project at uni so i'm limited on time as it is.
i DO intend to start my blue is the new pink sequel soon-ish though, which is DL x PH x VNC and now ALSO with TGCF. so i keep my practice in for all my beloved hyperfixations.
so uh yeah i'm sorry to my dialovers fanfic following lmao. this wasn't supposed to happen, but my ask box is open and i'm always down to talk about it :)
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greenapple4loko · 11 months ago
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got tagged by @sohelpmegod to do this in like the fucking mesozoic era <3 but just now was able to lmao
1. are you named after anyone?
an inside joke and a video game character respectively
2. when was the last time you cried?
i think im on month seven or eight of my not crying streak
3. do you have kids?
hell the fuck nah!
4. what sports do you play/have you played?
if archery counts i used to do that, if it doesn't than absolutely none lol (i was a nerd w no friends until high school. read so many terrible books tho)
5. what is the first thing you notice about someone?
their car; if n/a then how they talk
6. eye color
driver's license says green and a classmate called me Loki the other day so probably that
7. any talents?
i was nominated for a creative writing award a couple yrs ago at a community college and i'm pretty good at finding bones
8. scary movies or happy endings
scary movies 100%
9. hobbies
writing and drawing when i have time (longest WIP has 50k words but i decided 2 rewrite it lmao), also collecting model cars like a loser lol (fav diecasts i have are the wrx sti, 1978 firebird, mustang, challenger demon, and a bmw m2)
10. pets
3 cats, hopefully no more
11. height
not enough
12. favorite school subject
math and human biology are tied for no.1
13. dream job
the pipe dreams are medical lab science or biomedical research, but there's only one approved med lab tech/science program in my state and no way im getting a grad degree (who tf has that money??). atp i'm gunning for chemical tech or similar in the pharm industry or sterile compounding
not gonna tag ppl but if anyone wants 2 do it then pretend i did! sharing personal information on the internet is so fun everyone who sees this should do it too
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oysters-aint-for-me · 11 months ago
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aaaaaagh help i need some opinions...
i'm signed up for two classes right now (grad school) and i'm not sure which one to take!!!!!
here's the stats on both.
Class 1: INTERACTION DESIGN
About user interface design as a cultural practice
Which seems super interesting!!
But is not at ALL related to my thesis focus (which is comedy and audio editing and production for podcasts/radio) and I'm having trouble thinking about how to draw a connection between the two
Not too many assignments, seems like a relatively light load
Meets 8 to 9:50 pm (once a week) so I don't need to miss ANY work
It's a 1 hr 50 min Zoom class (shorter than the other one)
Have only missed one class so far
Professor has a cat named Skittles
I already bought the $60 textbook (which i could return or resell but let's be real I'll probably forget)
Class 2: AUDIO POST PRODUCTION
About what it says on the tin - but very much focused on sound editing for movies
Still - much more relevant for my thesis focus than the other class
Focuses on details of the audio editing process like reverb etc. (which my other audio production classes have never gotten to)
Have already missed two classes because I forgot it met on Mondays and I don't know how to lie to the professor to make it seem reasonable that I missed the most recent class other than "forgot"
Meets 7 to 9:40 pm (once a week) so which means I miss an hour of work (not a HUGE deal but still)
It's a 2 hr 40 min Zoom class which is. Long. I've done it before but still.
Seems like it might be kind of a challenging class but I think I'd learn a lot???
I don't know anything about the professor
I might have to learn an entirely new kind of editing platform (Pro Tools, which is the industry standard) than the one I'm used to (Adobe Audition) but also I might be able to keep using Audition
WHICH ONE DO YOU THINK I SHOULD I TAKE or should I just try to take both lmao
(I'm already taking another class, which is called Research Design for Media Activism, so if I take both Interaction Design AND Audio Post Production that's 3 classes and that's a full-time course-load on top of full-time work, and idk if I can/should do that...)
I suppose I should probably email the professors too and get their opinions but that's SCARY so HELP
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