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hey, anyone else want to slam their head into a wall any time they have a slightly less good thought?
or anything else really
i just constantly want to destroy my head ig
also bite things (my hand)
#tw sh#tw self harm#because i’m all fucked up#and apparently i can’t actually go to therapy because the wait list is so long#so ive been told to talk to my aunt#uh#how do you even start that#call her and be like ‘hey#i want to slam my head into walls because existing is too hard and i can’t stop that so i just bite my arm’#or idk#fuck my life can i just go to sleep#or get sucked into a fic (reading not actually) and stay#not have to do anything#or maybe just be able to stay up until three so i can enjoy the few hours i feel okay which is at night#too many things in the tags#fuck#:((((
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so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.
first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.
it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.
and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.
you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.
and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.
your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.
in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.
in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.
so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.
you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.
once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.
and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"
you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?
hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!
you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.
we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?
#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck#good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen#im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3#writeblr#the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this''#and like also#''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist#i was <3 punctured <3 during mine#and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion''#so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3#she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh#ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance#i'd crash on the table#like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it#and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop!#and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just#woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes#she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room#from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing#and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying#and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap#with this terrible memory#i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like#that was too many liters#and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home#i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after#that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty#you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it#while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED#and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.
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It's racist, my dear, to be blunt. People come from outside, they think we're all witches and druids. For God's sake, child, you walked into a piece of string!
#dwedit#doctor who#usertennant#userteri#userdiana#usertreena#miatendos#ruby sunday#enid meadows#roger ap gwilliam#*#this whole thing was just so interesting???#like supposedly the fairy circle meant nothing and mad jack is just a story they made up#but then where did the woman (who is definitely real and definitely supernatural in nature) come from.#what was she saying to people to make them afraid of RUBY. SPECIFICALLY.#why did they call her a HERALD to MAD JACK. then she was used to defeat roger. who by complete coincidence is also called mad jack.#(hey you know what else you could call a herald. perhaps... a prelude. maybe even... a harbinger)#how did ruby TURN INTO the woman when she (i have to assume) died of old age#AND MAYBE MOST IMPORTANTLY. IF OLD DEAD RUBY STOPPED THEM FROM BREAKING THE CIRCLE. WHICH STOPPED EVERYTHING ELSE.#THEN IS ROGER AP GWILLIAM NOT GOING TO REMAIN AS PRIME MINISTER IN 2046?????#or even though that timeline was erased did it still happen Enough for him to... lose? still resign but this time for no reason???#and WHY are we probably NEVER GOING TO GET ANSWERS TO ANY OF THESE QUESTIONS#AND WHERE THE FUCK WAS THE DOCTOR FOR 70+ YEARS
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#no home#haejoon in college like sorry hangon i have a call to take#my unstable friend is calling me#i have to make sure hes not like in a ditch somewhere#eunyung: yeah i quit my job and became a ranch hand at this farm and i think ive really found myself except my coworkers are cunts#but one of them lets me hit her vape pen which is cool oh but yeah i live in the country now and theres like jackshit to do#so ive gotten really into urban exploration except i think i inhaled spores or something in one my throats been scratchy all week#but i get paid under the table so i dont have health insurance right now but its whatever i got those fancy cough drops for it#haejoon: thats nice. i went for a walk yesterday#i think they go like 3 months without talking until either haejoon goes hey man whats up <- concerned or eunyung sends him a 10 minute long#voice memo about all the shit hes been up to
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imogen & fearne in c3e91
#critical role#cr lb#ygifs#imogen x fearne#imogearne#cr3#fearne constantly trying to shoot her shot cos hey it's the MOON thats a good reason!!!!!!#the fact that imogen keeps being like FEARNE HEY and fearne's like WE DOIN THIS? and imogen's like what#and fearne's like what this is my sense of humor this is a bit!!!#anyway I think it'd also be FUNNY if imogen called her bluff cos fearne would disintegrate it'd be a BIT#god they're just so dumb together imogen being like HERE and fearne being like AWW wait I don't need it HERE
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"they" is a pronoun that has the same rules as any other it's not a 'get out of misgendering jail free' card yes it's gender neutral no it doesn't mean you're allowed to use it to refer to someone you KNOW doesn't use that pronoun
#they is used if a) the person wants you to use that b) you Do Not know what the person wants you to use#if someone's like ''hey i go by she/her'' and you're like Ok. They :) congrats that's misgendering !#if you know someone goes by she and you call that person 'he' everyone would fucking agree that's misgendering#why should saying 'they' be any different ?#this goes fucking triple for neopronouns btw#it's not a ''i can't be bothered to learn your actual pronouns'' card either#someone goes by idk ze/zir and you use they/them that's Still misgendering it's literally not hard to understand#underlines the 'if you KNOW what pronouns the person wants you to use' part in red#because that seems to be the bit most people get confused about or at least pretend to in bad faith
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There was a time in which I could not conceive of how I could ever forgive you. And in this moment I am you.
#hey guys do you ever just *explodes*#this for sure been pointed out already but GOD#black sails#eleanor guthrie#max black sails#anne bonny#maxanne#like she is so self aware but even that doesn’t save her from falling into the narrative trap#but ahe gets a wake up call and turns it around#unlike SOME people
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Long-suffering fem Price who is your doting butch roommate- helplessly in love with you and you're the only person in the world who can't seem to notice that fact.
She listens to you after every single situationship sends you home teary-eyed with your tail tucked between your legs. She's always on the couch watching something when you enter, big arm slung over the backrest, as if her natural position just so happens to have a space always available for you to slink into. She turns down the TV and listens patiently while you cry over girl of the month #3, her heart pounding at the feeling of your head on her chest. She's so insanely warm against you. Price stifles the feeling of pride at how quickly you melt into her side, still worried about the tears rolling down your face.
You talk so long you shift positions, she ends up rubbing your feet with her strong hands while you continue to vent. Price is as good with words as she is with foot rubs, she knows just what to say at the perfect time.
'Of course it's ex #3's deal and not you, no there's nothing wrong with you', on and on. She holds back from telling you that you're the most hands-down gorgeous creature she's ever seen- that she'd break her back to give you the world given the chance- Price was too afraid that you'd laugh at her.
Rolls you a cigarette and you move outside, glaring into the night as you take the lit cigarette she offers you. She wraps you in a blanket when she sees you shiver slightly.
Has to bite her tongue so hard it stings when you bitterly joke, "That's it, I have to move. There are obviously no lesbians left in this city for me."
#noel.txt#price x reader#chat is it helplessly in love or hopelessly bc neither looks good#laswell is calling her weekly like “hey you ask out your roommate yet COWARD”#she genuinely offers price $1k just to fess up#fem price
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book!Aragorn is much more fun if you embrace him and enjoy him as the diva princess; who, despite being a hero of Man and the one true king, somehow still manages to have a way too good opinion of himself, that he is.
For a guy with such an impressive track record, it'd be quite a feat to be too full of himself, to give himself too much credit, but book!Aragorn manages it.
This is a PSA: brought to you by Hama the Door Warden.
#Hey we've all got duties and constraints on our freewill it's totally not a sexism thing that all your duties are picked for you#and are the ones that never get any credit or renown!#You just stay behind and if everything fails then you'll get to fight at the end when all hope is lost#and there's nothing but for you and your people to be destroyed in a futile last stand!#like calling the Lady of the Shield Arm a fair “thing” to be given away!??!#Eowyn#you dodged a bullet there#and he's got form#when he first met#Arwen#he asked her if she was a treasure her father had hoarded away#LOTR#Lord of the Rings#Aragorn#and when he tried to mansplain away sexism to Eowyn at Dunharrow#“Like why is that a problem for you sweetpea?”#And serious credit to Eowyn like she's hot for Aragorn but she doesn't let that fly#Hama the Door Warden taught her well
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colin 🤝 anthony: making an heir in s3
#the rest of my serious input is that i think this will be a flirty thread in a sex scene#esp bc in the book they have sex before they're married#but not so far before that they had to change the wedding date (although colin does but simply bc he just wants to be married)#i think it'll be the same in the show#except mirror stuff and also colin being like hey let's get in on this heir-making competition#and pen will be like colin! we're not even married yet#and he's like well do you want children? and she'll be like yes...#and he'll be like well our wedding is not so far out that starting now versus on our wedding night matters...#and pen will be like but my sisters are already pregnant#and colin will be like they could have girls! and i will love my prospective nieces very much but... we could still win this#and pen will laugh and roll her eyes and be like oh you bridgertons and your competitive spirit#and colin will be like we do like to win#(insert porn)#bridgerton#bridgerton spoilers#bridgerton s3 spec#polin#also. I DON'T SEEM SO DELUSIONAL NOW DO I!!!!!!! I FUCKING CALLED IT!!!!! I SAID THIS WOULD HAPPEN!!!! AND IT'S HAPPENING!!!!
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A 5'2 baddie in a corduroy hat (by this 5'1-and-a-half artist)
A young Morning Wrensong from @worldsbeyondpod (and Taro, of course).
@quiddie I absolutely cannot resist if y'all call for fanart in the fireside (or the show for that matter), you know. PS this is the broom Ame isn't supposed to do her chores with and almost flies in the Children's Adventure.
PPS couldn't picture her with anything but this dark brown pixie cut and dark blue hat because of @rebe-draws' own very cool design
#she has a big ass and wide hips like me because I said so#it's what I envisioned when Lou called her a baddie#maybe I'm projecting bc of her height too but HEY I refuse to think of Wren without some big ass and thighs no matter her age alright thank#worlds beyond number fanart#worlds beyond number#wbn pod#grandmother wren#morning wrensong#witch of the world's heart#the witch of toma#wbn spoilers#wbn fanart#aabria iyengar#Brennan lee mulligan#bleem#Erika ishii#lou wilson#the wizard the witch and the wild one#wwwo#wwwo fanart#twtwatwo#taro#the right arm is kinda meh but I saw it after I finished so hey#no pressure on fanart we said
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the realization that rielle is like probably 17-19 (per her comment about being due for the elezen growth spurt) puts an entirely new spin on that line of quests lmao particularly every time she's like sidurgu dude i am not your surrogate daughter. imagine constantly being treated like an orphaned waif child by a 26 year old man with depression and it's literally just because you're a short teenager and he met your mom one time. remarkable stuff.
#ffxiv#i remember sitting there during the final monologue she gives her mom and being like#damn this is a hardcore monologue for a kid to give#poor rielle. she's not a kid!#she's like. sidurgu. i am a fully mentally capable elezen adult-ish person. alphinaud leveilleur is my age and they gave him an army.#please see me as my own person. i am fighting here alongside you. we are a team. you are not defending me like a vulnerable child.#and sidurgu's like wow...she's so mature for such a young kid...fray would be so proud...#she's like sorry i'm SHORT they weren't exactly NOURISHING ME CORRECTLY IN THE DUNGEONS#he's literally like HEY young lady what did i say about calling me a chocobo's arse. she has the right to kill him if she wants.#shitpost: i got a good feeling#meta: durai report
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note: the following is three (almost four) years post-game
okay fine i'll just draw comics for my au since writing is so dang hard smh
anyways welcome to two coins! where loop shows up again but siffrin only got the one hat ending
edit: part two
#2024#isat two coins au#isat loop#isat mirabelle#isat siffrin#isat spoilers#on technicality#isat#in stars and time#this was also an excuse to play with mira's hair again bc i wanna see her in braids so bad! with beads that click clack as she walks!#hairier isabeau... oh merciful neptune oh sweet aphrodite i thibk i hauve covid#also none of these outfits are like... definitive. i'm indecisive so i want everybody to have a wardrobe#LOOP'S HAT IS NOT SIFFRIN'S BTW they prioritized hiding from siffrin over finding where it landed oop that thing is GONE gone#that coin attached to the tip of that hat is also not siffrin's... but siffrin doesnt know that...#also hey yall ever think about how loop can kinda turn their light out and maybe be invisible? i do#anyway this au is also loop/siffrin/isabeau just fyi... also maybe the tiniest of shoutouts to loop/odile if i'm feeling cheeky#also also also... loop still uses they/them but there will be more feminine terms used for them in this au ;u;#baby finally started seeing themself as a person again and is reevaluating their gender#people around where they've been frequently traveling call them miss lu or some call them lady#eventually when the polycule is complete i want siffrin and isabeau to both call loop ''my lady'' bc the thought just makes me melt#you don't /need/ to know that but i'm telling you#okay i've been trying to articulate my thoughts in the tags for half an hour so i'll stop now...#have a good day/night i love you mwah mwah mwah
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drewposting. part two!!!!!!! (ft. Diana Cavendish)
#skye’s-endless-imaganitories.txt#my art#Hey!!!!! I’ve returned with more Andoryu <33#I’m sorry that my last post was like… last month. My education calls for me………….#But! I’m here now! :)#Andrew is so funny… he’s just… some guy! A dude!#So Idk if you guys have looked at Andrew’s gallery page on the LWA wiki but!#Andy canonically has about 5 dogs!! (One mama(?) and four babies)#Ough he loves them. So much……… In my head he’d give them all like a bajillion little kisses and hold them so close…………#My sister said that he looks like he’s about to cry—#Completely unintentional but I kept it because. Idk her description kinda made it more beautiful??#Anyways. I love Andoryu I love Diana they are like my favorite (ex-)worsties ever!!!! Idk I saw the image on Pinterest and thought of them#Autistic piano enthusiast vs Lesbian magic enthusiast. The ultimate duo!!!!!#little witch academia#lwa#lwa fanart#andrew hanbridge#diana cavendish#Little witch academia fanart#Please don’t tag as the thing that floats on water and has a sail!!! Idk if there even is such a thing but just in case 😓
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Amanda's describing how her husband deals with/helps with her night terrors has got me going 🥹🥹🥹. Idk it just feels like a shining example of unwavering support and understanding and care for your partner. wow.
also Shayne saying his reaction to hearing about a ghost in a nearby closet would be "thats cool. .......sooo....." lmfao
#me too shayne me too. anyway the way amanda talks about her husband is so :')#smosh#amanda lehan canto#shayne topp#smosh mouth#the way amanda says 'hes never mad at me' is just like. im GLAD thats not an issue here and it SHOULDNT be#nd the fact that amanda calls it out... anyway idk.#this episode is great even as someone who leans more towards shaynes perspective but like hey you cant deny amandas lived experiences#shes got SOME kind of ghosty energy universe thing going on for sure
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thinking about this post but also it's more than that. do you ever think about how stories starring men are allowed to be about humanity but stories starring women have to be about Womanhood
#it's just the same discourse from like the 2010s about how girls will read about boys but boys won't read about girls#and we haven't gotten anywhere#even when it's like in a feminist way!!! there's room for stories about Womanhood obviously#but believe it or not ''women'' is not the only significant trait or experience that that half of the population has#and frankly I think it's counterproductive to focus every woman-centric narrative on the Woman aspect in some kind of feminism way#especially I feel like in adaptations that get a more hashtag feminism focus! like that story was about a person that was a woman#and you made it into a story about Women. which. ok#but was it not enough for her to just be a human being#experiencing human experiences that perhaps men could relate to#but a story with a male main character is allowed to exist on its own terms#no one's like. okay the main theme of this is obviously something to do with masculinity#(unless that's actually true)#a man is still the default character to explore your ideas and adding the ''girl'' trait is seen as like this extra distortion#that you would add only if you wanted to explore Womenness#like everyone's putting a guy in situations but hey maybe your guy could be a woman#even if the specific situation doesn't call for it#did you ever think of that?#and a lot of it I think is because men are conditioned not to relate to female characters#so making a male character would work to expand your audience because female readers are still willing to invest in him but not vice versa#but that doesn't mean we should just keep perpetuating the cycle#and only making stories about women specifically for women about Womanhood#that's just cementing the problem even further#obviously this is all a generalization and there are exceptions#this also applies to things like race#like in the US if you're making a story with a nonwhite main character suddenly it has to be like About Race or something
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