#c; apple

[veiledsorrows]

you're not as good at covering your tracks as you think you are. ~ Sebastian x Apple

    There was a moment of pause, the brunette not anticipating Sebastian catching her - of all people. Recalling her disillusionment charm, brows furrowed and a light pout on pink lips, she spoke up. " I was just ... Well, I didn't think someone would be following me. "

    In honesty, Apple thought her sister or another prefect would be the one to catch her. But how could she not anticipate the one who taught her the disillusionment charm to catch her? " Looks like we're both breaking the rules. Why did you follow me out? "

[hoofpeet]

Oughhhhhh cooler Appletun !!

[fullcravings]

Apple Frangipane Tart

[eternvlsound]

[applestorms]

i love near so goddamn much. i finally read the c-kira and a-kira post-canon one shots all the way through last night and AAAAAAAAA my heart. nate river 🫵🫵🫵

c-kira in particular hits me hard bc you can really see that he's still reeling from the events of the main story. it’s a very specific era of near that’s so horribly awkward and insecure about his place in the world, about his role as L, and has so very few people left behind to support him-- really just lidner, rester, and gevanni. so much of that story is about near struggling to figure out who he is and who he wants to be in the wake of Everything, scrambling around in the shadows of all these false gods and blown up egos, trying to grow up and be a Person in the smoking remains of all these people who killed themselves with their own hubris. i mean, just look at this page:

LOOK AT THIS. near is almost shockingly expressive in this story, his grief and regret is fucking Palpable in a way that you very rarely see with a guy like him. it really gets to me that this is the story where near actually opens up about his mixed feelings surrounding the original L, about the interview he held where he picked near & mello out to be his two successors, and all while hiding himself within these massive card towers that you only see to be these giant L's at the end-- a kid barely out of his teens already getting dwarfed by the enormity of the history he is expected to continue and represent. the winner of the game who's only prize is the legacy he now holds on his shoulders, the grief he is cursed with as the only one left behind. this kid barely has anyone now, never even got the chance to truly, fully know what he lost in the first place, these all-powerful figures that have dictated every inch of his life from the moment he stepped foot in that damn house.

and i mean, goodness. what did we expect? i can talk all i want about the cinematic parallels of light & L as opposites, but look at near & mello in literally every piece of official art-- near truly loses his other half when mello dies, and you can just Feel the discomfort, the deep-seated, underlying imbalance in his soul through this shit.

a-kira near, on the other hand, has had the time to grow a bit more at ease with himself, but he still gets to me in a slightly different way. i cannot emphasize enough how utterly fucking perfect the decision to make his hair longer is-- for so simple of a detail, it really sums up so much about his character. this version of an older near feels like a guy who's been stuck outside of time for ages, barely even noticing the constant shifts of the outer world as he holes himself up in his room, hardly aware of the way that his own body stretches and grows and changes with each passing day. doing his job, all just for a bit of entertainment. there is still that distinctly privileged, childish part of him that hides in his forts of toys and makes whatever demands he pleases, but it's more smoothed over, more exhausted, more Done.

he's packed away the grief by this point. dealt with it properly? not necessarily. but the wound isn't as raw now so he can set it aside to be ignored or looked over more easily, focus on the things that he wants to. blow up his toys when they don't meet his standards.

i strikes me as important that near's view on the new kira's shifts so much over the course of even just these two little stories. in the c-kira story, near is so Quick to shit on the new guy as fast as possible, literally snarking him into submission with the fear of his presence alone until he writes his own name down. we never see this "cheap" kira, this pathetic fake that couldn't possibly stand up to the original. (projecting a little there, nate?) he's barely more than a panel or two of hands, and then he disappears from the story forever.

in a-kira though, you get something a little more desperate, a little more hungry-- near really fucking wants to meet this new guy, purely for the sake of talking to him, and is a lot quicker to respect him & the depth of how well he's thought through this plan. at first it seems like he's intrigued by the idea of finally finding yet another equal, someone to match his freak after years of standing on his own, and knowing DN you're inclined to trust that the mind games will eventually happen. but, in the end...

he loses. and doesn't he seem so happy about it?

minoru really is the perfect match for near in a way-- a new, passive kira, uninterested in the bullshittery of killing and shinigami and evil murder diaries, to reflect and match the tired, new L who was done with his job before he even started doing it. RIP minoru dying due to shinigami bullshit, but i'm genuinely happy that this is the ending near gets, the chance to finally lose at something without having to pay the price of human lives for it. winning has almost never been a truly positive thing for near-- his winning wammy's house only gave him the many pressures & stresses of a job as L, his winning against light only gave him a dead mello and a notebook to quietly burn, hell, all of this shit happening at all is what made mello resent him so much in the first place.

but now he can lose. and i think he's all the better for it.

near is immature, yes, he bossy and snarky and blows up his toys without giving a fuck what anyone else has to say-- but he doesn't get ahead of himself in the way that light and L and the others did, a trait which ultimately lets him win but also leaves him behind to shoulder the grief of a generation. but now he can lose, he can let the fate of the world fall of his shoulders for just a moment, and everything is still going to be okay. it's good to see him getting older. it's good to see that you can still move on and grow, even when it seems like the legacies of the past are locking you away in a cage. i'm glad these manga exist, and i'm glad near can still make it out alive.

[clownsuu]

Update I have been gifted a new art tablet and oh my lort how do y’all draw with a screenless pad-

This last one was the first thing I drew with it LMAO

all of these were lil test doodles, but m a n I got mad respects to them gamers who can use this kinda tabloot with ease

[biowarescreenshotsdump]

| DRAGON AGE: THE VEILGUARD | 2024

| I did have someone to come back to |

[veiledsorrows]

    She hung her head when he mentioned her protection. Did he think she was doing it to impede him? Did he think that her concern was an annoyance? Silently, the brunette rose to her feet - wiping her tears with the back of her hand. No, she wasn't going to cry anymore - her chest was hurting too much to even think about it. Their screaming, her sobs, her body felt like it was going to break down at any moment.

    Bloodshot brown eyes fixated on his form, a flurry of things she could say coming to her mind. No - she couldn't let herself get swept up by emotion again...

    " Sebastian. " Her tone wavered with all the grief from earlier straining her voice. " I know you never asked for me to protect you but I try my best because I consider you precious to me. I couldn't tear my eyes from you the moment we met. " The brunette admitted, taking a deep breath before she continued. " But the further you sink into that darkness, the more unrecognizable you become to me... And maybe it's my own selfish thinking, to assume I meant as much to you as you do to me."

    " I don't mind...putting myself in danger for you. Because all you had to do was smile at me and I would have forgiven any transgression... " Apple wrung her hands together, the shaking of her hands hard to see without stepping closer. " You lash out and say the most heartbreaking things to me then expect me to believe that you care for me. I don't... I... "

    Her gaze fell to her feet once more. " You put me in turmoil, Sebastian. That's why I thought... I don't know. " She shook her head, the thought too confusing to process. " Nothing I say will matter anyway. "

              ˜”*°•.      Leave .  Do her  a favor  and leave ,  free  her of  the  weight of  the  responsibility .  This was  what  he was  to  her, wasn’t  he  ?  Another distraction  in  her fights ,  someone  she should  always  look after,  sacrifice  herself for ;  a  weight .  The thought  alone  infuriating -  for  really , how  many  spells had  he  taught her  ?  how many  times  had he  helped  her  ?  Ancient magic  a  talent he  didn’t  possess perhaps   -  but most  capable  of  them  all ?  was she  for  real  ?

❝ I  never asked  you  to protect  me . ❞  To jeopardize  her  life  for  the  sake of  his,  something  he’d  never  demanded . It  was  the cure  all  he’d ever  wanted ;  it was  the  ceasing of  this  overgrowing fear ;  the  fear of  his  twin  dying .   Already  ebbing away  into  nothingness, already  fading  out -  why  couldn’t  Apple  understand  how  it was  ?  No . Instead ,  she  cried . She  cried  and for  a  moment, he  thought  he’d do  the  same.  Exhausting .  It was  all  exhausting ; to  be  eaten by  this  anger was  exhausting,  to  be arguing  with  everyone was  exhausting ,  to be  losing  hope , to  be  losing  everything ; it  was  all exhausting .

❝ I  don’t   know  how  I  can  prove  it  to  you .❞   Voice  was quiet  -  the   truth  merely  breaking   his  own voice .  What did  she  want  ?  What did  she  need in  order  to believe  ?  ❝ I don’t  know  what  any  of you  wants . ❞    

[lushwithrats]

Bittersweet Promise.

Me back at it again with c!Tommy fanart? more likely than you'd think.

[twistedappletree]

I know we love to headcanon that Lan Sizhui growing up as Wen Yuan would be a roguish badass (and he technically would when it comes to cultivation because he’d be learning from Wen Qing and Wen Ning) but aside of being an amazing cultivator, I really think he would just be the nerdiest nerd to ever nerd. Plant dork. Has entire notebooks filled with studies and properties of leaves and their decomposition. Cancels plans with friends to observe a spider weave a web and catch its prey. Can’t go on a simple walk without bringing home a sack full of cool rocks.

[veiledsorrows]

    ❛  why would you do something like that?  ❜ - Sebastian Sallow

    " I... " She was at a loss for words, mentally cursing her sister spilling her secret. Apple didn't think he would confront her on the notes she slipped into his books - nor did she think that her sister of all people would rat her out on her handwriting alone. " ...don't know what you're talking about. "

    Apple shifted her gaze away from him, a grimace settling on her lips. Was he going to yell at her for it or something?

        @thenightmareofyourdrems

[cartwheelapple]

poster I made for the c!aimsey finale (22 september | 7:30 pm bst >:))

[wallpapedits-vvc]

Matching wallpapers #276

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None of this wallpapers/pictures belongs to me, I just do the matching.

[childrenofcain-if]

As much as I love Elias I can't wait to explore the angst of their relationship and potentially, or most likely, ruin the relationship between him and my MC.

I hadn't thought of this before and it's all because of that swimming scenario you wrote. After reading it I took my MC aside and started to try and get a read on how they feel about how Elias cheered them on.

The result? My MC is in the mindset that Elias treats them like a walking, talking trophy case, waiting to be opened when he wants to have their accomplishments sang to Mount Olympus and back.

Meanwhile after the race itself C's mother treated us as what we were: a kid. That soft gaze, the warmer, friendly smile? That's what my MC remembers most from that swimming content.

Which is why I hope MC can spend the holiday with C and their mother. They want to be treated like a person, and I think C's household is where they'll get that most genuinely.

it’s very interesting how a lot of people interpreted that swimming ask as tbh, and i can see how it might feel like elias sometimes uses MC as some time of trophy to be paraded around.

i want to assure you that that’s not the case and even if MC was the world’s biggest loser, elias would be proud of them for even the smallest of achievements. but maybe i’ll add an option for MC to misunderstand that type of attention and pride for something that they have to earn.

louise, while being a good mother, isn’t the most affectionate ngl. like yes, C is emotionally repressed mostly because of their dad, but louise isn’t the best at showing emotions either and that really made C stunted when it comes to processing their feelings.

however, y’all will still get a chance to spend at least one christmas at your ROs’ place in the game, and that includes the lacroix household!

[drystem]

Behold! The boy!

(He’s figuring out the whole “being a person” thing after Pandora)

[theotherbackgrounder]

Raven and Apple argue

Cupid: Are they lovers?

Faybelle: Worse. They’re fucking stupid.