#by which i mean i worked 9 hours today
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Literally on my hands and knees rn about the fact im working 10 hours like the one and only time i worked 10 hours at michaels was a surprise because two people called out and the closing manager was my framing manager whos not used to closing so i said yknow what fine iâll stay an extra three hours to give her an extra set of hands in getting the store ready to close so i stayed 7-5 when i had only been scheduled 7-2. so it was a random unplanned thing that i had done as a courtesy for a coworker i like
but now having my store manager be like oh youre willing to do 10 hour shifts? okay well out of nowhere im gonna adjust your shift to be 10 hours long tomorrow without even asking you or even just telling you ahead of time. im just gonna do it and then tell you after the fact. yeah you have to stay the whole ten hours haha yeah i know its a long shift ^w^
like. Agony
#brot posts#i hope im doing actual fun things tomorrow cuz otherwise im gonna DIE#by which i mean i worked 9 hours today#and it was just stupid fucking recovery. for my entire shift#i hate recovery when its just the normal 2 hour closing process#recovery for nine fucking hours straight. insanity#utterly boring. like banging my head into the wall boring#and physicLly taxing bc im just fucking standing there for hours on end meticulously combing through the shelves#the most maddening shift ive ever worked that wasnt maddening due to actual customers#naur actually i was actually begging to be on register for once in my life bc i wanted a break from the monotony#SO TOMORROW. i hope the fact he extended my shift means theres acrual things to do#so i can ACTUALLY DO THINGS !!!#otherwise i WILL go insane and start eating the walls
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I would like to both thank and blame tumblr for the phrase "turn slow tigers into fast tigers with this one neat trick!" Like, I am grateful for it as a mnemonic that stuck that reminds me to go punch the punching bag* when I get too stressed out and can't function well from acute stress, but also I can no longer refer to it any other way because when I get that stressed I have trouble with words Which means today I was putting on my wrap gloves and my brother was looking at me like "what are you doing?" and all I could say was "turning slow tigers into fast tigers" *I think the original post was about taking a short run or tensing all your muscles and then releasing them? But my response to stress is very much not flight lol
#the person behind the yarn#it worked though!! and he's on tumblr so he knew what I meant#are they called wrap gloves? wrist wraps?? hand wraps???#the wraps like you'd wear under boxing gloves but in glove form themselves instead of a long strip of fabric#and with padding on the knuckles#back before I got sick I used to do what was pretty much MMA sparring#in that that was not the specific style we were learning but once a week we had sparring hour#and like half the people that came were MMA dudes#which also means I can say (I find this hilarious but my sister doesn't)#I have only been punched in the face by three people: a toddler. my sister. and a professional MMA fighter#that dude got SO MUCH GRIEF from the rest of the class for even barely hitting my face. it was hilarious#I was probably the youngest person in the sparring group by well over a decade they were super nice#today was my first time hitting the punching bag in like...8-9 months?#I stayed away from it while I was anemic because that seemed a bad idea#and it was great!!! my new meds meant I could use the punching bag for more than like two minutes at a time!#and it didn't skyrocket my heart rate!!! or at least not as badly!!!#so I think I will get back into using it more often
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jeongin in the thumbnail for giant is insane....i thought i was over my starting work late to gif era but maybe not today....
#carly.txt#i have a new System for work where i take timed breaks#so it's like i only have to focus for 45 mins-1 hr then get a 15 min break#so i have to work two hours later than i usually would to make up for it#which means i have to work until 9 if i start at 11 and that SUCKS#but . it might be a sacrifice i'm willing to make today
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Despite all odds, I have arrived home safelyđ
Turns out that the earlier goop was the better goop. The adderall goop. The adderall has worn off now though. So I am. Very incredibly out of it.
But I am home. And I will take my quick shower. And then I will climb into bed.
I do need to eat. But... later...
#speculation nation#im the special kind of tired where im more tired than hungry#which is to say my every cell is yelling at me to get some fucking sleep.#and i dont think id be much more successful at eating rn than i was this morning.#i ate. half a can of chef boyardee. which was half bc i was so focused on typing and half bc i could barely stomach it.#so i at least ate Something. but not as much as normal.#i did have an ensure in the middle of the day. so theres some nutrients too at least.#i'll eat after i get a few hours of sleep. when the edge is no longer so desperate.#and hopefully i'll be able to stomach things better then.#honestly have all nighters always been this hard or am i just getting older? i havent actually pulled an all nighter since uhhh#well there was kind of one on dead dad day. but that day sucked just in general.#last time i think was april '23 when i read t.rimax volume 9-14 within a 24 hour period while also finishing a final presentation.#even then tho i got like 2 hours of sleep. it was still pretty rough though.#like ok i guess those times were pretty awful and also i did get at least some sleep. which is more than today.#so it makes sense for me to be in worse shape rn. i also didnt get as much sleep the night before last as i wanted to#i got... ...maybe 4 hours sleep??? ummm. which isnt a good thing actuslly. no wonder im so fucking exhausted.#i can barely type right now i will be honest. it was so hard to bike home. it took all my focus to not drive off a bridge#or get pushed into traffic by wind. oh boy the wind sure did try.#then i almost tripped down the stairs at my apartment after grabbing the mail bc i Briefly was focused on my mail đ#barely present. total mess. but at least im home. and i already did all the thinking i need to do today.#i was brave. i perservered. i was tempted to give up around 6 am ish but i was like No. this is getting done TODAY.#so i did it. i turned it in. and i so bravely did my in class work for my 2nd class. even though i was so mentally not present the whole way#i did my thinking... i am home... rest soon.#actually its kind of funny im lying on my couch rn and i think if most other ppl were in my current state theyd fall asleep right here.#but the power of my insomnia is so. powerful. i am not at risk of falling asleep without meaning to.#only time thats ever actually happened are like. a handful of times i was like. the most tired ive ever been in my life. etc etc.#in fact idk how well i'll be able to fall asleep for my nap. i certainly couldnt last night despite how hard i tried.#hopefully this time... i am truly tired enough....pls i need to rest i am so tired đđđđđđđđđ
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cannot stop thinking about how when you go to the house of hope in bg3 you literally just give raphael the worst fucking day ever like no wonder he fights you and sings about how stupid you are while doing it
#listen#i was picking at work today which unfortunately means thinking about my hyperfixation for 9 hours straight
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ughhh mistakes have been made :(((((
#my manager asked if i wanted to cover a shift today#and i said sure! not like iâm doing anything anyway#but apparently yesterday they were so busy that no one got a break#which iâm not worried about the no break thing#bc iâm a minor and thereâs a state law saying that they legally have to give me a break#iâm just stressed abt what that means for when iâm not on break#bc itâs saturday that means that weâre going to be more busy bc ppl donât have work#which also means iâll have to stay later bc we wonât have time to do any of the other things that weâre supposed to do#and it means that iâll be on my feet for abt 5 and a half hours on my shitty knees ;~;#also#i GUARANTEE that someone will come right at close#bc ppl where i live are entitled fucks who donât care abt workers#and we canât turn them away bc of stupid company policy#âwe say that we close at nine but you should stay open until 9:05 in case someoneâs watch is off!â#idgaf thatâs a them problem#i am closing the goddamn door at 9:00 sharp anyone who wants to come after that can get fucked#sorry for the vent. i just really fucking hate my job#k.txt#vent tw
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Today I woke up at a reasonable time, ate breakfast, showered, washed my face, walked to the coffee shop, came home and finished four things, three of which were on my computer and one of which was fixing some pants. All within like three hours. Look at me. I'm neurotypical now.
#my favorite thing is saying im neurotypical after i finish a couple of basic things lol#i fixed my pants! because thick thighs save lives but they ruin pants#so i had to sew in three different places#im on a roll#its because i work later than usual today#normally i work 1-9 but its winter so hours are getting cut#so today i work 3-9#which means i had an extra two hours to do shit which is fantastic#i like winter because its not as busy so hours get cut#whoch means less stress because of less work. but more stress because less money#but i dont mind rn#more free time means its easier to finish things that are stressing me out#you win some you lose some#less money is a little stressful especially since i just paid my rent#but the dopamine boost from taking a walk and finishing four things on my to-do list is worth it#i hope yall have a beautiful day and finish something from your to-do list
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I love waking up to a text from the assistant manager telling me someone I worked with yesterday is poorly (with what girl??? Is he contagious?????) and asking if I can pick up a shift today or tomorrow
#i ended up saying i canât do today because⌠i canât. who is going to take care of mabel??#i canât foist a blockheaded terrier on anybody with such short notice. and anyway i donât want to#iâm fully booked up today with dog walks and reading a cosy thriller. itâs gonna be the whole day ideally#but i accepted a 9-5 tomorrow đđ#itâs fine like.. iâll be okay. i just was really looking forward to yâknow. not having to pretend to be a functional human being that day#i kind of hope she finds someone better in between now and her seeing my message. or that sick coworker in question makes a very fast#recovery. i mean i hope that anyway. i like him. but likeâŚ#8 hours of pretending to be a person. and then i have to do it again on friday. whyyyyyy#like i donât think anyone appreciates or realises how much it takes out of you to have to smile and be polite with people who are being#terrible to you sometimes; while youâve been on your feet all day and your body is aching and youâve been doing heavy lifting#and maybe youâve been scalded or burnt at some point or cut your hand and man thereâs just so many things that can go wrong at my job#i get covered in something at least once per shift. milk; coffee; soapy water; mixture of the threeâŚ..#and iâve just realised i donât even have enough shit for lunches this week because i assumed iâd only be doing 3 shifts#so i ate all my snacks and only left enough stuff for 3 lunches#iâm probably just going to buy lunch there tomorrow. whichâll cost me like. nearly an hourâs wages. which is why i donât do it. đđđ#fuck it. i can just suck it up and pick out a sandwich and some crisps or something; write my name on them and put them in the fridge#itâs just annoying!! like iâll be fine but iâm just not mentally prepared for unexpectedly having to work lol#personal
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I've had a couple of days lately
#i had a headache for two days and i was about to cry because i cannot have a headache i have to do things!!!#but then i slept for 9 hours and was fine today#im having a blast with christmas decorations at work#but that also means im not studying at my free time at work#which means i have work piled up because of that AND bc i was out for 2 days bc of the headache#but if im fine now i can pull a half-nighter i guess#i know its not a thing but it is for me#lol
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My Oh My - R.S.
Synopsis. Trick or treat! The mean Ănmate in Room 6/9 doesnât want halloween candy - he wants something else much, much sweeter.
Pairing. Ryomen Sukuna x Reader
Content. MDNI, fem! reader, Ănmate! Sukuna, slight foĂłdplay, creampĂes, brĂ t-taming, use of âgĂłod girlâ, MEAN softĂe Sukuna, PĂSSYDRUNK Sukuna, oraI (fem receiving), fĂngering, Sukunaâs piercings and tattoos, dry-hĂşmping, squĂrting, spĂtting, bĂłdy worshĂp, exhĂbitionism, slight Gojo x Reader, pet names, swĂŠaring.
Word count. 6.7k (sigh)
A/N. Yes, the seventh day of k!nktober had to be Sukuna even tho Iâm a Gojo-gaggerâŚ
âNanami chill.â
Itâs twelve in the dead of Halloween, and Nanami Kento does, in fact, not chill - not when heâs five hours deep into overtime at the most high security prison in all of Japan, running on only three cups of caffeine and the promise of a day off sometime in the next year.Â
âYou know I canât do that.â he rubs his throbbing temples, heaving out a sigh as he often does. Taking one long look around the glaringly empty surveillance office, âEspecially not today of all days.â
Youâre humming in flippant agreement, but that only makes the furrow in your partnerâs brows deepen even more. âI know I know. But donât you think the inmates deserve something a lilâ special today? I mean, he-â Pointing at the grainy CCTV footage on your computer screen - showing one, Ryomen Sukuna, in his padded cell. Watching. Waiting. â-didnât get a single visitor all year.â
And before Nanami can even think to open his mouth, youâre already dusting down your uniform. Grabbing the bowl of candy propped between you two that youâd swiped from the break room.Â
âWait-â
âAfter all, whatâs the worst that could happen?â
Now, youâve always been told that youâre a little softer than most when it comes to your inmates - which perhaps wasnât the best quality to have when your section was filled to the brim with the most infamous of yakuza and serial criminals. But they respected you. Hell, Nanami loved to roll his eyes at this one but - you think they almost liked you.
Especially Ryomen Sukuna.
You shiver at the long, long list of crimes of his that you had to memorize in your early days - distinctly remembering the way your laptop had crashed with just how far you had to scroll.Â
Honestly, you werenât surprised that the most wanted crime boss across the globe wouldnât get anything other than public threats and a few snarling officers that laugh smugly in his face. Though, you have had to sift out a few perfumed fan mail from time to time.Â
And even before youâd started this job, you knew of him - who didnât?Â
The King of Curses, they called him. And what a king he was.
Some say he was just a crook. Others say he was a beast that seemed like he had four arms and twice the power of any normal human being.Â
Right before his arrest, the Curses owned half of Japanâs revenue - he was untouchable. With his deceivingly innocent signature pink hair, those circling tattoos all across his body, and the dark, dark bloodthirst to get whatever he wanted. Whenever. And fast.Â
Itâd made international news when he was finally caught - only after a long, agonizing syndicate war between himself and the Six Eyes. It was your first day working here, and you were there to spy it firsthand when he was brought in. Shackles clanking along the metallic prison floor, towering well above the eight officers by his side, being hauled into that specialized cell like some animal.Â
And, yet, through it all Sukuna was smiling - smiling like he knew something that everyone in this building didnât.Â
It still burns into your memory the way heâd stopped right in his tracks for the first time on his way up here, stalling for just a second. Two. Before looking right into your widened eyes, devilish grin only growing at your trembling figure.
Ryomen Sukuna had his eyes on you from the moment those handcuffs locked him in here.Â
And he still did.
âHey there, Kuna-â youâre humming after the long, tedious task of unlocking all sixteen padlocks on his heavy metal door. It clamors to a shut behind you with a deafening clang! Locked from the inside. With him. Alone. âHow are we doing today?â
Sukuna was sat on the padded floor of his cell, knees brought up to his broad chest. If you didnât know any better, youâd have said he almost looked like a scolded child - had it not been for the custom-made metal cuffs that restrained him up to his very forearms. A matching leather muzzle drawn tight to cover half of his pretty face.Â
He was the very epitome of all you should stay away from in this prison.Â
And, yet, you find yourself walking towards him, carefully trying not to step on the hefty chains of his shackled ankles.Â
It surrounds you like an iron serpent, clinking lightly when heâs raising his half-lidded eyes to look up at you. âHeh- will it reduce my sentence if I say sâbetter now that youâre here, brat?âÂ
Sukunaâs deep baritone was husky with disuse, hitching sharply at the end of his sweet little nickname for you. From what little you could make out behind the muzzle, you catch the slow, sultry curl of his plump lips. âOr should I say-â His gaze trickles down to your glinting golden badge, narrowing. â-officer.â
Youâre rolling your eyes, âYou and I both know weâre past all that, Sukuna.â
âNot past that enough, dontcha think?â heâs cracking his neck with a slight tilt side by side, as if he hadnât even realized how long heâd been sitting here until youâd wandered your way inside. Cocking his head up slightly at the small glass bowl still clutched in your hands, âSomethinâ sweet from someone sweet fâme?â
âOh-â youâre sputtering out. He knew exactly what buttons to push to tease and toy with you without even lifting a finger. â-yes, trick or treat! Since itâs Halloween I thought I might as well share the spirit.â
Heâs bellowing out a husky laugh that rumbles from deep within his chest, and you have to tear your eyes away from the slight, sinful sliver of tan skin that peeks out at the jostle of his thin cotton t-shirt.Â
You hated to admit it - but you almost understood exactly why Sukuna got so many fan letters that you had to throw out. A secret youâd whispered to Nanami over break and then never again after he fully ignored you for a week afterwards.Â
Sukuna takes his languid time stretching out his limbs, and you get the distinctly hot feeling that heâs doing this on purpose. One eye cracked to watch your every jolt when the hem of his t-shirt raises just a bit too high, when his long, long legs nudging lightly against your feet.Â
You huff, âWell, would ya like some or not? Because I can just give all of it to Mahito in the next cell-â
âAh, youâre so damn hot when youâre mad.â he grins, and now you know heâs having fun with you. âFuckinâ demanding, too.âÂ
Heâs bringing up his two firmly restrained arms up to your line of vision. âAnd, I donât know if youâve noticed, silly girl, but mâa little ah- preoccupied, here.â
Oh, right.Â
Shit.Â
It wouldâve been so easy to just move your fingers over to the keys in your backpocket and unlock his handcuffs for the slightest second. So easy to shut his cocky mouth up by doing the very things he knows he wonât goad you into doing.Â
But you sneak a glimpse up at the camera positioned at the very corner of the room - trained on the hunched over-figures of the two of you - as if to say, âHey, see, Nanami?âÂ
âNice try.â And you swear you hear the great Ryomen Sukuna gasp - gasp - a sharp, tiny inhale when you reach out towards the very back of his muzzle. Your fingers scratching up lightly against his silken tresses as you feel for the clasp, letting it fall to the ground in a sad pile. Soft - itâs the first thing on your mind, and the next was how unfairly attractive Sukuna looked without his muzzle. âBut youâre not going anywhere.â
He just beams up at you, showing off his slightly sharpened canines. Facial tattoos almost as sinful as the darkened glint in his eyes, âHeh- as if Iâd wanna go absolutely anywhere else right now.â
Before you can snap back - or more likely, make a fool out of yourself to his amusement - he cranes his neck desperately upwards. âSo? Jusâ gonna stand there givinâ me a pretty view or what?â
Too soon, youâre realizing what he wants.
And too readily, youâre crouching down till youâre eye-level with his greedy gaze. Hastily unwrapping one of the candies, âOpen wide.â
Sukuna only grins. âGet closer would ya? Mânot a fuckinâ giraffe now, am I?â
Fuck.Â
Wordlessly, you inch closer.
âCloser. These chains arenât as long as they look yâknow.â
And closer.Â
âJust a bit more- I donât bite. Promise.â
And-Â
âGood girl.â
Before you know it - Sukuna has you exactly where he wants you. Losing your fragile balance to topple over into his awaiting lap, manspread, cushioning your fall. His biceps flex against his restraints, as if some second nature of his wanted to wrap those tattooed arms around your waist.
âI-â youâre gasping, palms gliding over his feeble uniform. Feeling every curve and divot along his hard front- fuck, he felt like a wall of bricks. So toned underneath that fabric, your chin rests softly on the valley between his plush pecs. âIâm so sorry- I didnât mean to-â
âSâperfect though, isnât it?â heâs cutting you off, leaning in so close now that you could feel your cheeks heat with each of his feverish puffs of air. The very tip of his nose kissing yours. âNow you can reach me- honestly, why complain when life gives ya lemons, woman.â
Your breath hitches, âIâŚâ
âSo? Gonna gimme some of that sweetness?â
Youâre still unsure of whatâs happening. And all you can do is to wordlessly bring the sweet treat up to his lips, almost flinching when the warm softness of his lips brush up against your fingertips.Â
And shit, you know what it must look like on the outside, you know that Nanamiâs probably halfway through jumping out of his seat at the surveillance office already.Â
But you really canât bring yourself to think about that right now - not when Sukunaâs wrapping his rosy lips around your fingers. Eyes drooping shut slowly. Lazily. Lingering longer than necessary when his tongue swipes at the candy.Â
It all but melts in your hand, and as soon as youâre about to pull back-
âHold right there fâme now.â
Youâre sure if Sukunaâs hands were freed then heâd have claimed a strong grip on your wrist already, because he was just nuzzling his face into your touch. Sighing out, âCanât have my officer all dirty now, can I?â
His long, pink tongue comes up to just drag along your digits, making you keen at the slight scratch of his soft taste buds. One by one. Each of your fingers. Sucking, groaning.Â
Smiling at you slyly, heâs dragging his tongue in between your index and your middle finger, slurping up all the sweetened candy from before. âWhat? Cat got yer tongue?â
âY-you-â
âY-y-y-you-â he mocks, baritone voice a few octaves dramatically higher than usual. Through his smirk, Sukuna bites down on the very tip of your index, making you wince at the sharp sting of his canines. âIf ya got somethinâ to say then spit it out like the big girl you are.â
Heâs so leeringly smug, watching back as you struggle to meet his intense gaze as if it was his favorite show. Oh, how he wants to tease you about that little good girl routine you put whenever you stop by his cell - always smiling, always in that snug uniform that made you look so irresistible, always talking to him so sweetly as if he wasnât the king of curses himself.
Never in his life would he admit it, but it was soâŚcute.
And Sukuna half-expects you to jump back this very second, to throw another one of your pouts his way and scamper off back to the safety of your office. He expects you to-
âKiss me.â
Oh.Â
Fuck.
That was not what Sukuna expected - never in the hundreds of years he was sentenced to rot in this prison.
But, well, looking down at the way you were splayed out so prettily on his lap - your chin jutting forwards, hands steadied on his pecs, glossed-up lips all pursed for him - how could he ever say no?
In a split-second, heâs kissing you.Â
And youâre kissing him back and fuck- is it intoxicating.
Sukuna meshes his lips against yours so slowly, savoring. Angling his head just enough to suckle on your honeyed lips, youâre feeling his hips gently buck upwards, drinking up your light groans.Â
You mewl when he slides his soft tongue between your lips. And thatâs when you learn that Sukuna has a tongue piercing, cold and metallic against your lips. He tastes so sweet - exactly like the artificial strawberry from the sweet earlier and-
âHah-â youâre gasping at the soft clink! of something sweet, something hard being placed all prettily right in the middle of your tongue - the candy. Brows raising, âIsnât that-â
âSo what if it is?â heâs grunting, not letting you part too far away before sitting up even straight to surge his lips against yours. Mellow. Addicted. Sukuna just loved how sweet you were on him - even more so than that godforsaken candy. Heâs craning upwards to nip lightly at your bottom lip, âGot a problem?â
You were so pliant on top of him, swiveling your hips down lazily at his question instead of answering. Over and over. And Sukuna almost finds it in himself to taunt you until you answer- before one manicured hand of yours grips his face, letting his sharp jaw slack open.Â
Only giving the candy a few drippingly wet swirls inside your mouth before spitting - a thick wad of candied spit right onto Ryomen Sukunaâs tongue. Glistening against his piercing.
And he takes it.Â
Surprisingly, hypnotically takes it.Â
He groans, eyes rolling to the back of his head when he mouths in that tiny piece of strawberry candy back. You hear the crunch! of it underneath his teeth, kissing you even deeper to show off how heâd swallowed every tiny shard. Â
Curling his legs around your form, itâs all it takes for his gaze to drop half-lidded, chest panting - heaving - he smiles a dangerous curve of his lips against yours.Â
Sharp teeth glinting against your own, he chuckles. âI think weâre gonna have a lot of fun, dontcha think, brat?â
You can only take it when he rolls his yearning hips up into yours. You feel so dizzy at the massive outline of his half-hardened cock underneath you - solid, thorough inches girthing upwards against your heated cunt.Â
âBut first-â His teeth bite down on your lower lip, and he pulls. â-think mâgonna hafta hah- teach ya to be a good girl fâme.â
Clang!
All of a sudden, the heavy ripping of metal rings across your dazed head - and Sukunaâs just tearing apart his durable metallic handcuffs as if they were made of nothing but paper.
âWhat-â you gasp rubs over where the tough restraints had rubbed his skin redly raw, oh he just basks in all your sputtering disbelief. âYou could remove it- but- but that was special grade?â
âYa really thought a pile of trash like that would keep me put? Of course, I could fuckinâ get out, donât be silly, woman.â He quirks a slitted brow with genuine confusion - almost as if he was offended at the very thought. And before you know it, Sukunaâs throwing away the useless pieces of junk towards a nestled corner of the cell - hitting exactly on the bullseye of that damn CCTV he hated so much. Both of you watch when it topples brokenly to the ground. He hums, low and sultry, âI just hadnât found a good ânough reason until now.â
Almost immediately, his hands are on you. Everywhere. Anywhere.
Coaxing such pretty whines out of you when Sukuna ravages along every inch of your body, large calloused palms kneading down your tits, your waist, grabbing a handful of your ass.Â
âOhh- this sâthe life.â he groans, all ten of his thick digits squeezing and teasing you. Heâs leaning down to nip lightly at your ear lobe, âAlmost makes me forget what a naughty girl ya actually are.â
âIâm not-â you answer immediately, but it comes out much more breathless than you intended and both of you know that.Â
âOh yeah?â Sukuna jostles the two of you so that youâre fully laid out across his hulking body now, and youâre squirming already - desperately trying to wiggle your hips down to where he was throbbing. To glide the sopping wet place between your thighs down his rock-hard erection. For this, youâre gifted with a branding slap! on the curve of your ass, Sukuna holding you firmly in place. âDoesnât explain why youâre already sâfuckinâ wet like a slut, my pretty baby.â
You lick up the tattoo on his chin, âBut- but Kuna-â
Another needy grind - another smack.
âNow what did I jusâ fuckinâ say?â he hisses, and the primal rasp in his tone just makes you drenched.Â
And Sukuna notices - of course, he notices. Drunken red eyes widening, oh, he could almost feel how fucking soaking you were through all those clothes. Too many clothes, in his opinion.
Which is why he has one hand fisting furiously at your smart uniform shirt, not a single word or apology uttered before he just shreds it right off your heaving chest.
âOh my god-â you squeal, your hands coming up to clutch at the tatters of fabric and your badge. And your lips pout out in such a way that makes his cock just twitch, mumbling out stubbornly, âThat was my new uniform-â
âSâwhat happens when ya get too greedy like this.â His knees raise up a bit more to rub your glissading cunt along the very curve of his fat tip. Just dragging your dripping cunt all along his bulging dick, reveling in the sticky schwf! schwf! schwf! of wet fabric. Sukuna gives an impatient tug on the fabric of your pants, âNow get rid of this before I tear that off, too.â
You couldnât shuffle out of your belt and trousers fast enough. And oh, even that wasnât enough for Sukuna - dazedly flinging off what remained of your shirt, your bra, before turning his eyes downwards and-
âOh, good girl.â he whispers at the sight of you in nothing but your flimsy excuse of panties. So soaked -Â translucent, even - your saturated juices making such a glossy mess at your inner thighs. He canât help but flick at the tiny bow on your underwear, leaning up to press a soft kiss to your forehead. âSuch a good girl, arenât ya?â
âK-Kuna-â youâre barely even thinking at this point, panting. âWanâ to feel youââ
Heâs tittering a breathy moan disguised as a laugh at this, bringing up a hand to cup your cheeks. âAwww, my pretty baby wants my cock?â he coos, squeezing in two of his thick fingers between your lips.
But if Sukuna was looking for an answer, then he doesnât wait for it.Â
A spit-glossed pout finds its way to his lips, mocking your own. And fuck, he was such a little tease. One hand giving your ass another slap! just to watch you whine and pretend that it didnât make your pussy even more embarrassingly wet - shit, he was having fun. The other pulling out from inside your mouth, delicate strings of spit snap when heâs gliding his coated digits down, down, down-
âOh-â you tuck your trembly head into the crook of his neck when Sukuna drags his thumb just across your puffed-up pussy lips. Slowly. Tantalizingly.Â
âOh?â he huffs out, licking his lips at just how steamingly wet you were inside. So ready for him. ââOhâ is all?âÂ
Sukuna plants another lingering smack on your ass, and by now youâre sure by now heâs left the bumpy imprint of all five fingers on your flesh. Tracing between your swollen folds gingerly with just the rounded tip of his finger up and down up and down. He gets greedy.Â
âDamn brat-â And itâs all the warning you get before he just forces two of his fat fingers into your messily throbbing pussy. Rubbing all around your tightly quivering entrance, âSâwhat I get for spoiling you too much.â
Thereâs no hiding from the way he stretches you open so obscenely, having your sloppy hole just gaping around his digits. All wet and cozy inside.
âOh- m-more-â you mewl.Â
But he only continues rubbing saturated little circles around your teasing entrance, humming hotly against your lips. âHmm, dunno. Think we hafta teach you some manners, silly girl.â And each of his fingers were so thick, stretching out the channel of your cunt until your mouth watered. Your body was limp, hips stuttering down softly into his hold - trying so uselessly to fuck yourself back down onto him, as if he wasnât easily holding you still with just one beefy arm around your waist. âHow about a âpleaseâ first?â
You scramble to dig your nails into his bulky deltoids, tracing around his circular tattoos peeking out. âP-please!â
âNuh uh-â he snickers. âNo stutterinââ
âPlease!â
Sukuna pretends to think for a few syrupy slow seconds. He nips down softly at the sensitive spots on your neck, having you trembling like a feather in his vice-like grasp. âHow about a âpretty pleaseâ?â
And oh, he grins at the way youâre almost on the verge of tears at this point, your pouty lower lip wobbly with effort. Trying so desperately to comply with the demands of your inmate, you buck your hips so that the soft mountains on his palm graze against your clit. Whimpering, âWh-what if I w-walked away right now, Kuna?â
âMy my, resorting to threats?â heâs whispering filthily in your ear. âNow I know youâre bluffinâ woman. Because I hngh- also know-â So smug when he tugs down the soft cotton of his pants just enough to let his achy cock spring free. âThat youâre gonna stay nâ beg fâme like the good girl you are.â
And you hated that he was right.
You hated that he was so big.Â
Hefty girth slapping up onto his abs with a wet smack! Sukunaâs red, rounded tip was so thick that you could feel your thighs clench, swiping up a glossy glide of precum onto his t-shirt. Drip! Drip! dripping along the crevices of his veins and down to his eager balls, those tufts of pink at his base. All his solid inches winked up at you glisteningly in the harsh cell light. Just waiting. Throbbing.Â
It made your mouth water.Â
So you finally answer, voice strained and breaking at the very end. âI- I wanâ you really badly, Kuna.â He sucks in a breath when you bat your teary lashes up at him, âPretty please?â
âMy good girl.â
At this very moment, the only other response you get is a sensual, slow drag of his fingers out of your cunt. The exact opposite of what you wanted - because, of course, this was Ryomen Sukuna. You whine, clawing desperately at his wrist to try and reel him back.
But he doesnât stop. Canât stop. Almost hypnotized in the way he brings his drenched fingers up into his mouth without a second thought. Sukuna moans at the taste. A glossy trail of your messy slick forms down the corner of his slurping mouth, and he throws his head back with a guttural, âOh fuck- sâsweeter than any of that hah- candy.â
Ah, that did it.Â
Only milliseconds later, youâre being spread all flat on the floor with one swift shove of Sukunaâs big arms, panties sliding easily down your shivering thighs. It really doesnât take much to have your dangling legs splayed out across his sculpted back, his own body shuffling down ravenously to come lips-to-lips with your puffy pussy.
And oh you can feel his smile against your dripping wet cunt, half-lidded eyes boring right up into yours. Long, pinkish tongue lolling out like he was utterly fucked - and if you angled your head just right you could see the way he was deftly spreading both of your swollen folds, the very tip of the hot muscle kissing wetly against your sloppy entrance.
âShiiiit-â your fingers tangle themselves in his rusty pink hair. Hips jittery and bucking up drunkenly against the cool surface to chase his hot mouth. âOh- ngh- Love havinâ your m-mouth on me- ngh-â
âGettinâ all mouthy wâme, huh? Arenât ya embarrassed to be absolutely ruined like this by a criminal like me?â he huffs out a bout of raspy laughter. âSâall because you decided to be a- fuck- a good- girl fâme, thatâs- what.â Struggling to even get out coherent sentences because he didnât want to part from your pretty pussy. Instead kissing all over again and again-
The bulbous metal stud of his tongue piercing thrashes up so filthily against your hot clit, coating the sensitive nub in all of his heady, swelteringly hot saliva.
And the only time youâre registering Sukuna break away just mere inches is to spit. Once. Twice.Â
Thumbing across the stream of see-through spit he just grins up at you in a way you knew to be a pussydrunken expression. Glassy eyes almost drooping shut, tiny dimples cratering at the very ends of his lips, the entire lower half of his face covered in a shiny sheen of slick. Drip! Drip! Drip! right onto the middle of your shamefully spread cunt.Â
âYa got me thinkinâ Iâd wanna live out my entire life sentences jusâ for a taste of this pretty pussy, woman.â
Roughly lapping with his tongue against your clit, each one pulling out crashing waves of white-hot pleasure that make you all but sob when Sukuna unabashedly adds in his fingers past your gummy hole.
âYou can take it-â he hushes out uncharacteristically soothingly into your inner thighs, peppering soft, open-mouthed kisses along them. âTake âem fâme.â
Sukuna isnât shy about immediately dragging his fingers along your sopping wet folds. Starting up a ruthless, simpering pace thrusting inside and out of your drooling entrance has you whining. Â
âOh.â your mouth slack-jaws open deliriously, and for the second time tonight you feel like youâre being absolutely split-apart on his thick fingers. Splaying out a hand to glide across your tummy, âYou- hngh- you already feel s-so deep, Kuna.â
Your words were cracking with a whimper each time heâs delving into your gushing depths. Building you up, wringing you taut with pleasure whenever he picked up the pace. Alternating between harsh sucks on your cunt and the absolute meanest of swipes against the spongy placeholders of your sweet spots.Â
âAlready?â he has the audacity to cackle - cackle right in front of your teary face. âMâbarely even f-fingering this pussy nâ you wanna talk about deep- lemme show ya-â He spares not even the tiniest ounce of mercy when hauling your boneless body even closer. Brows furrowing at the knocking of his chin at the very base of your cunt, the way his jaw grinded. Sukuna replaces the hand on your stomach with his own free one, guiding it up, up, up until your eyes widened and you could feel your breath tightening in your chest.Â
âHere.â Drawing a burning, imaginary line about halfway through - âHere is where my cock sâgonna be so ya better get- better get ready for that, pretty baby.â Looking right in your eyes, Sukunaâs tone is laced with a vicious sort of snarl when he plows on, âBecause my good girl sâgonna be able to take it.â
And youâd heard of the type or orgasms that leave you speechless, that leave you so blindsided that you donât even realize youâre having them.
Because it takes only a few more expert tweaks of Sukunaâs lengthy fingers up against every nook and crevice of your. Scissoring, swirling - round and round until he was dredging up your dizzying orgasm.Â
âOh my god- I think Iâm-â your words are garbling together pathetically, wet and as unsteady as each jolt of electricity running down your spine. âIâm-â
âCumming.â heâs cutting through, tugging you by the thighs even closer to make out impossibly deeper with your convulsing pussy. Rolling his eyes, âI know I know, just shut up nâ cum all over my mouth would ya?â
Itâs not like you could do anything else.Â
And - as a little punishment - your grip tightens searingly on his scalp, just dragging your drooling pussy all over his pretty features. Letting yourself gush all down his tongue in a steady trickle while you ride him to your heartâs content.Â
âHeh- getting so fuckinâ- hngh- fucking greedy, arenât ya?â he mutters out over wet slurps. Still hammering in the pads of his fingers to press up harshly into your bulging sensitive spots. âSâalright. Use me then, use me-âÂ
Your back arches almost painfully, vision tinging with slight black at the edges, and itâs as if you were out of control at this point.Â
âNow now, what do you think youâre doinâ huh?â he feeds into each of your stuttering, slick glides down into his palm while you come down from your high. Eyes narrowing down at you, âAnd here I thought you were turninâ into my- hah- g-good girl. Where are those hands going, huh?â
Shit, you didnât even realize it at first.
Your hands are wandering so sluttily down to where his thickened base was just twitching in his lap. Aching to wrap your trembly fingers wrapping around him - struggling to even close.Â
âOh- oh my god.â your eyes widen after a few sloppy drags of your soft palm down his length. Curving it slightly to the side at the sight of another one of his signature ringed tattoos - right around his fat base. âYou have another tattoo here?â
Sukuna clenches his jaw, hips rutting upwards at a sloppy staccato in synchronization with his hands and yours. âYeah- nâ I already know you love it-â he shudders out, chest panting. â-because I can already feel just how much wetter ya got- shit-â
With all of his almost-inhuman strength, itâs almost too easy for Sukuna to drag your body downwards to his like some silly little ragdoll.Â
âKunaââ youâre dragging out in a breathy tone. Your hands shakily tugging on his t-shirt - your mind finally clear enough to realize that he was still fully clothed while you bare and fucked-out already underneath him. âWanâ this off-â
Smack!
âForgettinâ your place, arenât ya, pretty baby?â he growls, but fuck did Sukuna think you looked so utterly gorgeous like this. All pouty and teary, letting out the cutest whines while you waited for him to do exactly what you said.Â
And, well, he might be the notorious king of curses, the most wanted criminal in all of Japan - but that didnât mean that Sukuna was any match for you.Â
âMâonly listeninâ because you were so f-fuckinâ good fâme hngh- earlier, brat.â he spits out. Hastily ridding himself of both that paper-thin t-shirt and pants - not tearing, you note with slight disgruntlement. Kissing your ass with another smack of his palm for good measure. You wince when he flicks your forehead, âSo ya better not let it get to that pretty lilâ head of yours.â
But fuck, was it so difficult not to.Â
Sukuna was so mouth-wateringly gorgeous, all sculpted muscle and what looked to be miles upon miles of tanned skin that you just wanted to bite into. And you realize - with a jolt - that when those other inmates rumored he had tattoos everywhere - they werenât lying. Thick, circular rings that highlight his bulging biceps, those toned thighs as far as your eye could see.Â
Now you really understood the fan mail.
Smack! Smack! Smack!Â
Those drippingly wet smacks this time didnât come from Sukunaâs hands on your ass - instead, it was from calculated, purposeful little slaps of his thick cock onto your clit.
âHeh, as much as I love to have my- ngh! my cute lilâ officer ogling me-â His hand coming up to curl around your throat, forcing you to peer downwards. â-Iâd rather you look where it r-really matters, silly girl.â
He sounded so proud - barely lucid already at the very sight of your tight, glistening hole kissing up against his fat tip.Â
Dragging a thumb down your wet slit to grin at the size difference even further, he purrs, âYeahâŚthis pussy has been givinâ me a real treat tonight. Might as well give her one back, hm?â
And heâs so big, so full that you canât even whine out anything coherent when Sukuna sinks into your sloppy cunt inch by fucking solid inch. Pushing past that ring of feeble resistance, your pussy was greedily swallowing up every bit of his massive girth. Letting out the cutest squelches that make him moan.Â
âOh- would ya look at that?â he bares his teeth in a devilish smile. Head thrown back at how youâre already clamping and trying to milk him with your velvety walls. âTakinâ me so well, ya really are such a good girl, huh?â
Each and every hoarse little praise is panted raggedly against your ear, and your pussy slides up and down his swollen shaft in a sultry back and forth. And Sukuna just canât tear his eyes away from the way your cunt swallows him up so greedily - so frantically like you were trying to milk something delicious out of him.
âKuna- hngh!â your thighs quiver up and down. Hips moving in slow gyrations against how he was rummaging all inside you. âY-youâre stretching me out so good ah-â
Heâs still trying to squeeze inside, still pushing and pushing. Pressing a hand down on your stomach, âTold you Iâd be right-â Bottoming out. Hard. â-here.â
Each and every juttering ram into your gooey depths have you keening, and his eyes growing even wilder. Grin curling upwards at how every kiss of the very tip of his rotund cock has your spongy cervix bouncing into him, your walls pulsing where he swipes inside. Looking for-
âFuck!â
That.Â
âHeheh- hope ya can take it, brat. Because once I start-â he presses hot peck after peck down your jaw. âI canât stop.â
You learn very quickly that that wasnât a threat - it was a promise.Â
Every plunge into your melty pussy has you almost bawling, because Sukuna wasnât gentle - no, he doesnât even ease you into it. The soft curve of his head presses in so harshly against your bulging g-spot, so thoroughly in rough, wet glides. Each single hammer upwards sinking against wherever drove out the prettiest moans from your pouty lips, having you such a shaky mess underneath of him.Â
Exactly how heâs been wanting you this past year in confinement.
âW-what-â you sputter out, dragging your nails across his neck to mash your lips onto his. Tasting the candy and you and the candy- âThis past year?â
Oh. Shit.Â
âHeheh- did I say that out loud?â Sukuna rumbles, struggling to catch his breath while he swallows back each keened-out whimper threatening to break out from his lips. He gives your tongue a slow, tasteful suck. âWhoops- hah fuuuuck- you see what this pussy does tâme?â
He brings one large hand down to your jittery hips, the other drawing a tender stripe across your still-sensitive clit. That heavenly feeling just makes you clench, and Sukuna to throw his head back with a withering groan. âSâfuckinâ dangerous- youâre more fuckinâ dangerous than me- hah-â
You giggle at the way he was running his mouth now, sentences slurring together like he couldnât even find the words.Â
âYou see this-â he pants, so sensitive that Sukuna canât help but tuck his face into the crook of your neck. And you feel the burning flush of his cheeks, the way he brings your hand up to pat his plush pec, thumping thunderously underneath his heated skin. â-got me fuckinâ crazy here- ngh! Mâon my knees for you nâ youâre all here actinâ like such a good girl.â
As he babbles, Sukuna actually falls back onto his knees.Â
Dragging you right along with him to spearhead his cock vertically into your snug channel, his powerful thighs are thrusting up, up, up-
âOh-â Youâre wrapping your arms tightly around his neck when faced with another stinging smack! And this time he takes the opportunity to roll his fat thumb even deeply against your clit. âSâso-â
Sukunaâs eyes were half-lidded now, grumbling out little profanities into your mouth. âWhat? Canât even speak now?â He chuckles - but it sounds higher-pitched, breathless like he was fucking losing it. âDoesnât- ngh- doesnât matter- this cunt is speakinâ ânough for the both of ya. Why dontcha act like my good girl nâ ask what sheâs sayinâ?â
God, your face burned with such mortification - and itâs all you can do to dart a bleary look towards that smashed CCTV camera once more. Gulping out a breathy, âWh-what is she ah- sayinâ, Kuna?â over those deafening squelch! squelch! squelches.Â
He positively beams, âSheâs sayingâŚâ Nipping down on your lower lip, tasting that familiar strawberry on your tongue. â-that right about now sheâs gonna cum.â
And sure enough, a particularly harsh clashing glide across your g-spot has you sobbing, has you twitching - it has you cumming. Over and over all over Sukunaâs relentless cock, and not just that-
âShit, woman.â Sukuna stares, jaw-dropped in awe at the absolute mess your overwhelmed cunt was gushing out. Coating his erratic thighs in a wet gleam of all your juices, it seeps into his skin, dripping down the curve of his legs and onto the padded floors. âFuckinâ squirted all over me, youâre fuckinâ ah- unreal- fuckââ
If he couldnât maintain that gruff tone of it thatâs because he was genuinely in heaven. Mouth watering, achy cock twitching up into the cushiony sides of your walls once.Â
Before heâs shooting such a sloppy load into your already-messed-up pussy, dumping out thick volumes of seed again and again. It sloshes in all over your insides with every quivering wave of your own orgasm, seeping out from the edges of your sopping slit. Slobbering. Overspilling.Â
Sukuna grunts, feeling you shift gingerly up and down to milk each of his stringy ribbons of cum, leaving sinful dredge after dredge that paints a creamy white ring around his base.Â
âFuckinâ wastinâ it-â heâs jeering, plugging in one of his indexes into your already fully-stuffed entrance. âBetter keep that shit all inside- mânot gonna let my good girl waste it, mâkay?â
âMhm.â you nod, your drowsy body leaning heavily into his. And Sukuna wraps both his strong arms around you to just pin you to his body. âMight jusâ be the best Halloween Iâve ever had-â
âIt fuckinâ better be or so help me-â
SLAM!
âYo, King of Curses~â both of you snap your heads over to the sudden intruder thatâd just crashed the bolted cell door open. He was tall, enveloped by the harsh light from behind - but you could make out those features anywhere. Any guard in this prison could. Throwing over a heavy leather jacket Sukunaâs way, âI tried to wait until your pillowtalk was over but Nanamin can only hold off the bastards on morning shift for so long. So ah chop chop, Suguruâs already waiting for us.â
Gojo Satoru.
Leader of Six Eyes, foe of Ryomen Sukuna.Â
Looking at you like he wanted to positively devour you, âOr, well, if your cute lilâ officerâs coming, too, then we could continue this when we get back to the hideout. Donât you think, sweetheart~â
And Sukuna, oh Sukuna was scowling ever so slightly at the otherâs words - but he only had eyes for you. âSo, whaddaya say, brat?â
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In the hazy haven of the surveillance room, Nanami lets out a deep shudder. Head thrown back against his leather chair, he takes a few bleary moments to collect his breath.Â
âFuckâŚâ he groans, placing that small handheld camera monitor on the table. A secret one. One that no one working in this prison building - and least of all you - knew about. All of that had been an accident, really - an unintentional part of the plan. But the way that Nanami has to drag his boxers upwards, zipping his uniform pants back up wasnât.Â
Taking a steadying gulp, he throws away that soiled tissue. Fingers punching in a few numbers on his phone, all according to his rehearsed script. âYes, hello?â watching the monitor unwavering. Unsurprised. âWe might have a situation.â
A/N. *BAM* hits you with random plottwist.
Plagiarism not authorized.
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#this is gonna be so tmi sorry iâm advance but#how am i supposed to deal with having a body and every mental illness and stomach problems and throat problems and being ugly and having no#hobbies or life skills or a job#i need to find a job but i also have to deal with my stomach and my throat so i can be well enough to actually move my body to find a job#but i donât have much money left so i canât focus on those things either so iâm spending literally hours a day in the bathroom and it hurts#to speak#and i donât want to feed myself i donât want to take my meds i donât want to do anything but get high which also physically hurts also bc#throat#and i have to do PT everyday so i can shit better but i also need to find a job so i canât waste silly energy on things like that but then i#canât get a job because i feel like shit and am shitting literally all the fucking time#and obviously the logical thing should be to just take care of my health today so i can be good to#tomorrow to find a job right? wrong actually! tomorrow itâll be somethingâs#and the day after that#n the day after that#and every day after that one too!#but no one is actually willing to help me with anything because i am a 1 dimensional human being who spawned yesterday who has never heard#of things like ââbuilding tenacityâ and âhaving structureâ thereâs actually nothing wrong with me iâm just lazy i guess!#but if i wanna kill myself thatâs wrong and bad and needs to be stopped immediately#other people seem to look at suicidal people and go âi have no reason to want to kill myself so other people just need to push it through :)#thug it out lolâ and itâs like actually these are very good reasons to want to die#i have spent the last 9 years actively in treatment actively working on myself actively trying to build a better life#it has only gotten worse#donât talk to me about getting over to the other side. iâm on it. itâs just as bad as every other one of the sides#life doesnât ever get better for some people and just because that wasnât true for you and your life did get better doesnât mean other#peoples lives every will get better. like it is straight up not possible for me to have a better life. and i know this for a fact because if#it was#i would have it now and i would have had it for a while
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Someone make me get up
#m rambles#Iâm driving four hours to surprise my sister at her last swim meet#but itâs already 5:30 here which means itâs 6:30 where she is#and Iâm staying with my mom who goes to bed at like 8-9#I need to get my rear in gear#I didnât work today (again)#my house is a biohazard#and Iâm not even packed#god why
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#why would I expect that you would talk to me within the last 9 hours#thatâs so unreasonable of me to think youâd be able to send me a message with such ample time#Iâm starting to not want to bother with you because itâs like if you donât care then why should I?#but I know youâll tell me Iâm in the wrong and Iâm just being mean and petty#youâll tell me how busy you are and how itâs not fair for me to expect you to talk to me all the time#which I donât expect anymore in the first place because I know you wonât#but itâs not like youâre not usually able to send me at least something through the days even if youâre really busy#of course sometimes that isnât the case and it makes me really anxious when that happens#but this shouldnât be one of those times because youâve just been at work today#I know if youâre at work then youâre working of course#but based on all our previous experience you still find time to talk to me even at work#I do the same for you though Iâm lucky to have much more downtime than you do#I want to be understanding but it just feels like every day youâre pulling further and further away from me#I canât rely on you anymore#personal
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tfw by the time you finally get dinner ready you aren't feeling like eating any more
#i had a weird day at work#today was the last day i had to take care of a very unloved obligation of mine#which means it was hopefully the last time i spent more than 9 hours at the office this year#but i guess taking something away youâve never liked just doesn't make you automatically happy#well#i have a nice dinner and i'm treating myself to some fancy pineapple juice to celebrate#so there is that#about me
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the â¨â¨â¨i can fix themâ¨â¨â¨ trope but it's just me talking about my sleep patterns
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