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ngl, "I'm the only one who understands [x] character" or "only ten people actually get [x] character" is like the #1 biggest red flag to me that a person probably will have an inaccurate interpretation of a character. because if you've decided that you understand that character in a uniquely objective way over others, you inherently wall yourself off from alternate opinions by deciding they're wrong on the basis of simply not being the exact same as yours. if you can't incorporate or even just ponder other people's perspectives, people who have lived different lives and are approaching the content through different but potentially very useful lenses, you might miss out on some extremely enlightening and fascinating interpretations. building yourself an insulated echo chamber is probably the worst thing you could do when assessing a character like that
#this is not about anything in specific it's just something i've been thinking about for a while#because I do see this kind of rhetoric come up more commonly than i'd like#like god even with veth i'd never say i understand her more than anyone else does. that's so stupid. and untrue#plenty of people probably understand her better than me even if just by a life experience that is more similar than anything i share w/her#when someone makes an inaccurate assessment of a character it is almost always because they've not actually taken the time to get it right#through interacting with and striving to understand what canon is saying#someone who actually puts in the energy and time to think and gather legit evidence for a thoughtful opinion?#that opinion is worth considering even if you won't always agree#but someone who's just like ''i'm the only one who understands them'? they will rarely show you the receipts for why that is#anyway#just thoughts
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SO it turns out I have even more thoughts on him than I realized, like I wrote 14k words about him and I still have so much more to say so here’s some headcanons that didn’t really fit anywhere. NOT WORKSAFE, but this covers a wide range of topics, with the nsfw stuff being only like 1/4th of them.
Adam Frankenstein Headcanons
- General:
He’s a stew guy, like that’d be his go-to meal if he could have it. He likes that no matter what it always tastes a little different than the last time and how easily it can be modified with different ingredients plus it warms him and makes him feel cared for.
Gets cold easily and gets colder than most people can handle, though he still prefers to be wrapped up in something warm.
His voice is deep and can vary between gravelly and raspy, though it gets a tiny bit higher when he’s upset or extremely passionate about something.
Tends to mutter under his breath and talk to himself a little when he’s working on figuring out something complicated.
He can be a bit impulsive and it often bites him in the ass, but he’s working on it.
Has absolutely NO care for looking how men are expected to look at that time in society.
His hair gets very poofy and wavy when it’s taken out of a wet braid.
He has thin skin, and though he heals relatively quickly, he also scars very easily and bleeds easily too.
Will read anything and everything he can get his hands on. He wants to learn about the world as much as possible.
His favorite fiction genre is romance, and he likes big, toxic all-consuming romances and thinks they’re the height of romance. He’s a Heathcliff stan (hey, he’s gotta have SOME bad qualities, am I right?).
Not the best at singing, can’t really stay on tune, but he enjoys singing when happy and alone. Gets very embarrassed if caught.
Animals either adore him or despise him, there is no in-between.
Has a habit of slouching over when standing, to seem just a little shorter.
Feels emotions very intensely. He’s never just sad, he’s devastated, he’s never just angry, he’s furious, he’s never just happy, he’s overjoyed. It’s something he’s working on.
- Romantic:
He has a habit of staring at the one he loves for a long time, blinking very minimally.
Adam doesn’t like to be far away from you, and will follow you around like a lost puppy.
Very much would prefer to have some part of him touching you at all times, usually handholding.
Takes him a while to get used to you touching him as opposed to him touching you, but once he does, he melts.
Braid his hair! It’s practical, its cute, it says fuck you to fashion trends of the time, and it’d make him smile. Braid! His! Hair!
Loves the idea of helping out with mundane tasks, like he’ll cook and sew and be so very gentle when brushing your hair.
Uses so many little terms of endearments, the more reverence they show to you the better. He wants you to know he puts you on a pedestal and practically worships you.
One thing that will piss him off quickly (unless you’ve maybe asked him to please hold back ahead of time) is someone insulting you. He’d be ready to go off on them in a scary way within seconds.
Ideal sleeping position: curled up around you like a pill-bug. He’s big enough that he can probably wrap his body entirely around you and would want to do that every night if he could. Horrible for both of your backs.
If you braid his hair (which you should!) he would want to braid yours in return if possible.
Tends to stand behind you when in public. Partially out of shyness, partially to serve as a warning to others to not fuck with you.
When he’s standing behind you in public? The slouch is GONE, he is eight feet of glaring intensity, like a pissed off lighthouse behind a tiny cottage.
Really doesn’t like anyone else touching you and would get a bit more clingy even if it was a purely platonic touch.
Honestly he’s very possessive. He’s found one person in the world who loves HIM, flaws and all, and he doesn’t want to risk losing you.
Tells you he loves you at least 4-5 times a day, including any time you leave a room he’s in.
- Sexual:
You know that image of the hamster eating a banana? You’re the hamster.
Massive, ridiculously large dick that’s still in proportion so it doesn’t look too crazy huge, but it’s still probably about 9-10 inches hard, 7-8 flaccid.
Absolutely aware of how big he is, and takes every step he can think of to make things easier, though it might still be tricky at first.
Adam prefers positions where he can see your face.
Very vocal, tries to hold back sometimes but fails, very loud.
Says anything that comes to his mind, most of which is just really over-the-top praise for you and how you make him feel.
He’s close to 400lbs of muscle, but very mindful of his body so that he doesn’t hurt you. Even if he lays on you he’d still be supporting himself mostly.
Not really fond of mirrors being involved. He’d love to see different angles of you, but himself? Not so much.
Thinks he’s going to die and ascend to heaven when he first gets a blowjob. Though he loves it, he prefers to give rather than receive, he wouldn’t want to hurt your jaw.
Not much aftercare the first time because he doesn’t know as much about it, but once he learns he’s a king.
Cleans you up, gives you a massage, water, holds you, praises you (even more!), makes sure you’re okay and that you enjoyed it too. He would melt if you do the same for him too.
- Familial/Paternal:
Ideally, he would have two children, he would love to be father to a boy and girl, but he would be happy with any amount or none at all and taking care of pets instead. He just wants to raise and care for something the way Victor never raised and cared for him.
So indecisive with names, like there’s so many good names he would want to use, he’d probably leave it mostly up to you.
The one name he’d really want to use? The second he hears the name Abigail means something like “my father is joyful” he jumps for it because that’s exactly how he feels about being a father.
So scared to hold the baby for a good while. He’s just so big and they’re so small and if he accidentally hurt them he’d never forgive himself.
Hovers around the baby though and still holds its little hand. As close as he can get without holding them.
Once he gets over that, he’s a very attentive father.
Very high chance any of his kids would have his black hair and some of his facial features. He’d hope they would have your eyes though.
Lets his kids climb all over him, pull his hair, swing on his arms, anything just as long as they don’t get hurt.
Very encouraging of them to explore and learn new things but also a bit of helicopter dad.
Torn between wanting to keep his kid/s safe from the world and wanting them to be able to do anything they set their mind to.
While not quite 8ft, I think any kids he would have would still grow to be a bit taller than average.
#adam frankenstein x reader#adam frankenstein#lite work#not worksafe#I thought writing a fic would get this outta my system#but he was a hyperfixation for me as a teen and he is again almost 20 years later#like a legit 'cannot think about anything else right now' hyperfixation#I need to write out a short summary of my S/I with him and work on a moodboard I've been making and a selfship playlist I've also been maki#send help#selfship
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A while back someone on my dash said something along the lines of “what sam wants from dream is a demonstration of the agency sam wants to take from him” and i’ve been thinking about it ceaselessly for what feels like months on end. Sam doesn’t want to win dream’s obedience completely, because if dream continues to rebel, if dream continues to be insubordinate in small manageable ways, sam can take this behavior as proof that dream hasn’t learned discipline yet, that rules and consequences must continue to be enforced - that sam is, in a sense, needed. Sam is a builder and dream is the ultimate engineering project: challenging (psychologically taxing to guard), important (to the stability of the server), rewarding (on those sporadic occasions when dream obeys him without question), and ceaseless (because the ideal prisoner always needs a warden to keep them in line.) The existence of the prisoner necessitates the existence of the warden. sam’s job is keeping dream locked up and as long as dream needs to be locked up, sam needs to be the warden. This is also part of why sam is incapable of seeing dream as a person rather than a monster - because if he admits that dream is capable of growth and change, he must then admit that one day, dream might grow into the sort of person that doesn’t need to be locked up anymore. Which would render the warden obsolete. That cannot be allowed to happen because sam needs to feel needed. And we’ve come full-circle.
#sorry if i've already said this#i be saying so much shit about sam and dream that i legit forget which thoughts i've already voiced lmfao#anyway lrb got me thinking bout them yet again...#c!sam#pandoras vault
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one Draco/Percy soulmate au concept I've had stuck in my head for a very long time is them meeting like super young
Like I'm talking no way to hide it because they're too young to realize that maybe they should
Like Draco barely remembers life before meeting his soulmate young
Point is Draco is not like as mean in this world because of having a good influence
Anyway all that preamble to say I'm thinking about Draco being kind of insufferable about his Soulmate being a prefect and then head boy
like anytime a professor tells the students to follow their prefects somewhere he is immediately at Percy's side instead of you know the actual Prefect he's meant to follow because "You're my prefect" type bs reasoning
and mixing that concept with the whole you can visit your soulmate in their house concept that i really like and you can pull alot of nonsense in those first three years
#percy weasley#draco malfoy#Draco Malfoy/Percy Weasley#We are going with the assumption that Lucius and Narcissa don't really like keep them apart#because it doesn't make sense for them too in a soulmate au to me unless said soulmate was like not a pure blood#Are they happy its a Weasley? No not really. Are they willing to accept it because Family is family and at least he's pure blood? yeah#also if add a sprinkle of in universe losing your soulmate can lead to insanity or something dangerous like that#Then yet another reason to just have them complying#Though I've also been playing in my head with the concept that their parents actually legit got rid of their soulmates because they were#you know not good enough in their eyes and that that plays a part in it too#Like they made a deal with each other to be accepting of anyone it was as long as they were pure or something#Though Percy is 100% expected to take the Malfoy last name#have i made a post like this before??#i cant remember#i have so many soulmate thoughts about these two#would love to do something with them#but most likely will not#Elise's Thoughts and Concepts
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What would you write for the title "Break Me"?
More toxic TsengRu in my mind for the win? Maybe. Angst, dubcon with a little fluff at the end. Well..whatever is fluffy for these two.
Like oh god. By default we know, Tseng and Rufus are....something. But what if Tseng didn't want this kind of life with Rufus? Tseng was content with their companionship but as time went on Rufus started wanting more and Tseng felt obligated to give him everything he asked for even when he truly wanted nothing more than to say no. Eventually coming to a point where Tseng's mentally broken by it but can't see his life any other way.
#tseng of the turks#tseng ff7#ffvii#ff7#rufus shinra#tsengru#final fantasy vii#I feel like i've thought about this for a while now#like legit been staring at my laptop blankly for a minute#but yea#this is what ive got
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Only eight of us survived the crash. I was hurt pretty badly. In fact, if it weren’t for her I would have never made it to the shore. She took care of me, took care of all of us.
#lost#lostedit#tvedit#lost spoilers#kate austen#nikolatexla#i've wanted to make sth like this for a long time indeed#it's not exactly how i planned but still good#no matter how annoying she is from time to time#she's one of my favourite characters#i remember the first time i saw her in handcuffs#i was like 'she was the fugitive???'#i don't know what season 5 & 6 is gonna bring me about kate but better be sth good#btw i *kinda* finished s4 but haven't watched the last 10 minutes#so i still dunno who jeremy banthem is pls don't give spoilers namaste 😂#in the first episode my guess was that it was one of our people in the coffin i was thinking either locke or sawyer#but now i think it could be benjamin... but locke's a pretty good guess too bc at airport kate was mad at jack for trusting *that* man#anyways for a second i thought 'jeez they're never gonna be able to leave this island'#the last episode was a legit roller coaster
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Thinking too long about Always Sunny always has me feeling like a Lovecraftian protagonist who has seen the incommunicable horrors (or wonders) beyond human comprehension and has succumbed to the eyes of madness, so I must occasionally wall off that part of my mind to hold back the floodgates of thoughts for the show, lest the last slivers of my sanity slip away, but it's like trying to nail a single board or place a single piece of tape over the door to an entire universe that keeps trying to pull you back in with some kind of black hole gravitational force when the whole time all anyone else sees is a simple locked door marked "pirate."
#iasip#text#it's always sunny in philadelphia#anmmbposts#i was so entrenched in overwhelming feelings and observations for it last year i felt genuinely ill#and i was legit incapable of thinking about anything else so i had to nix my sunny essay plans again cause i felt too much i felt too much#but god i want to open the doors again#like the interest never left i've just been forcefully tamping it down slightly to be able to do literally anything else for a hot minute#but oughghhgh them them them#brain let me write my essays brain let me write my essays I can communicate the incommunicable come on brain yip yip#the thoughts want out the thoughts want out#i fear i sometimes relate too much to glenn “i think i may be mildly bip*lar” to “i've recently found out that i have a*dhd” h*werton
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Everytime I face a new character limit on a website that didn't have them before/used to have really long ones... AUGHHhhh the modern social media world was not made for people like me (lovers of details, rambling, elaboration, thorough explanation, and nuance)
#twitter and other short form shit and everything being a Phone App On Small Screen instead of a Proper#Computer Website i feel like has just ruined the format of literally everything for me. Thoughts just keep getting more and more condensed#with detail and nuance taken away. everything over simplified into only the basics. blah blah blah. I've already probably rambled about thi#all before but it's just SO frustrating. I literally just CAN NOT talk that way!!! even if I try!!! I took multiple advanced placement#english & language arts classes in school and I literally never made below an A on any assignment EVER except for ESSAYS#where I would legit get almost failing grades just because I cannt express myself concisely. I took an english placement test thats made to#like evaluate your competency in a subject and out of the 102 multiple choice questions I only missed TWO of them. almost a perfect#score. But for the 5 open response questions (about articulating thoughts succinctly) I did not get a single one of them lol#I only got partial credit on 3. It's like I OBVIOUSLY understand the material and I know how Words Work and how to analyze and interpret#meaning and etc. etc. But it's just when I have to express myself CLEANLY I can't. It's always ''well you have very good points and you#get around to the idea eventually and I think it's very insightful - but it just needs to be shorter/the side tangent needs to be removed/#etc.'' I've always wondered if it has something to do with being on the schizophrenia spectrum and how that can cause disorganized#speech sometimes hmm..ANYWAY.. But I just naturally express myself in a very particular way which is lengthy and I can't rea#ly seem to control it. So it's basically like just.. being gradually pushed out of every place that won't accomodate people with different#ways of like perceiving and expressing or etc. Everything cannot ALWAYS be 100% 'Short and Snappy and To The Point' or a quippy one#liner or the Bare Minimum of information being provided or etc. Some peoples brains just do not work like that!!!!! Sorry I operate#in detail and elaboration lol. ANYWAY.. I still sometimes use random ''dating sites'' like OKCupid to look for platonic friends since#I never leave the house so it's hard for me to just meet friends naturally. And I just realized today that they added a RIDICULOUSLY small#character limit to their messaging system (2000 words?? augh). And also took away answer explanations (when you answer a compatibility#question you used to have a space to give detail and explain why you answered the way you did) and removed a few other features and it's ju#t like.. how the fuck is any of this actually helpful in terms of judging compatibility? take away ALL nuance and anyting that actually#is meant to tell you anything about a person? Bumble's character limits for your profile description are even more fucking insane and so#is every other disgustingly minimalistic place I've seen like.. OKC used to be superior BECAUSE it allowed for a TON of detail. like back i#2016 or something there was SO much data you could look at. long form question answers. personality trait summaries. etc. Now you have#SOO little to judge off of when evaluating compatibiility it's like. You'd have better luck just throwing a dart in a crowded street and#talking to whoever it hits. Why are people so fucking allergic to reading anything longer than 3 words and providing DETAILS!! It just seem#harder and harder to find any place to meet platonic friends where you have any amount of actual data to go off of and it isnt basically#just random 'speed dating' set up shit. AARGH. &I know 'oh just join a club& meet ppl irl' 1. erm..covid. 2.I mostly want to meet ppl#in places I'd like to move so I already know ppl when I get there. You kind of HAVE to do that online. bc I am not there yet.. WISHING for#Complexity.Com where ppl can upload full 900 page psychological files of themselves. MINIMUM profile character limit 30k words lol
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Elaboration welcome and encouraged! :) Please reblog for a bigger sample size.
#for background: i'm legit seeing posts that say it's weird/bad if a kid crushes on an older actor and i'm like#it's one of the most common experiences out there. it's almost like a rite of passage for many people#for me it was aragorn lol. i was like ten y/o and i had three posters of him in my bedroom#even my ace friend thought certain stars were cute even tho she didn't find them sexy#and i'm guessing based on what i've read/seen/heard that isn't rare. so what about y'all?#crushes#purity culture#tumblr polls#polls#proship
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my therapist spent today's session making Faces at me about getting an ADHD diagnosis
which
I can honestly say I have never seriously considered the possibility of seeking an ADHD diagnosis but she might not be a billion miles off
I was describing how I get "fizzy bored" where I have no energy or ability to move and nothing holds my attention but I feel like my bones are trying to vibrate out of me with the desire to be Doing Things and she was like 🤔 and I got onto the fact that I often need to be doing 3-4 things at once to ease into focusing on one and she was like 🤨 and then I mentioned how I find it really difficult to start doing things but once I'm in it I'm super focused and she was like 😌 have you considered the possibility of an ADHD diagnosis?
and so I explained that I don't really see the point because even though, unlike EDS and autism, a diagnosis could suggest an actual treatment, I don't really feel like anything I've described is disabling me cause I have the tools to manage it now most of the time and I feel Fizzy Bored WAY less often these days. and she was like 🤨
and I was like yeah to be fair actually I did use to think that about chronic pain, trauma and having shit eyesight and doing something about them did really change my experience. and she was like 😌 and I was like and actually now we mention it the fact that I sometimes for NO REASON AT ALL simply put off doing things even though they would be really easy to do and I want to do them for LITERAL YEARS is maybe. A thing that it might be nice to change if I could. And she was like 🤔 and I was like OH FUCK I'M GOING TO HAVE TO GENUINELY CONSIDER THIS POSSIBILITY AREN'T I?
anyway after talking a mile a minute and overrunning by 15 minutes I then got a quarter of a mile away on foot and realised I'd left my glasses on her table. she opened the door I went HEY SPEAKING OF ADHD
#red said#tbf that last bit is only funny jokes. i mean i did do that but that is not one of the marks in the ADHD??? column#i am not a habitual leaver behind of things i generally do a full check#but also here's the issue I'm having#(apart from the fact that the tiktokification of ADHD has really muddied the waters on what is or isn't a likely indicator)#the issue is i am REALLY GOOD at coping mechanisms and workarounds. like SO GOOD. so i am goofy but I'm legit not scatterbrained#and i am. to quote a past manager. 'frighteningly efficient'.#but there is no doubt that i have legit issues with time blindness#thought permanence. like if i do not write something down in a place where i can see it regularly i will forget it.#and i WILL stop seeing it if it doesn't change enough or if i have to go out of my way to look at it#and yeah like the whole inertia and energy disregulation stuff is. it's not nothing.#and i am SO MAD that she might have a point and tbh i don't even know why I'm that mad about it#other than that having diagnoses of CPTSD autism and adhd would feel like the Internet Diagnostics Starterpack i guess. feels basic.#i dunno man it's dumb brain stuff it's not rational! that's a dumb reason to reject an idea even if it was a legit complaint which it is no#also i have been really giddy and hyper this evening and idk if that's bc I've had some manner of breakthrough thing or I'm just suggestible
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I know it's irrational but still!
#this is legit the only thing holding me back from getting a Spider-Punk tattoo#and while I don't think it's gonna happen a part of me still worries!#he was written so well in atsv but it wouldn't be the first time a character got screwed over by the writers/directors#or the entire story (yes GoT I'm looking at you)#I've even seen some theories that Hobie is gonna be a twist villain and while I think that's ridiculously stupid and super unlikely#I still have a small fear that they're gonna do something to mess his character up especially if they're in a rush to finish btsv#but the writers seem really competent but if the higher ups tell them to do something they can't really do anything about it right?#so if they thought Hobie got too much love and attention from the fans in atsv#they might have him do something out of character in btsv to make people like him less?#this is just me rambling don't take it too seriously#hobie brown#spider punk#across the spider verse#atsv#spiderverse#my post
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i'm soooo glad i've been able to get out of the writers block for the bad trip fic cause now i can FINALLY write without staring at my document like
#thoughts#legit for the past few days i've just been opening it#and not writing anything#just looking at the notes i've written as if it'll come to me#shout out to me having a mild breakdown yesterday for allowing me to get my ass in gear i guess#anyways! i hope to be able to finish it soon!!#then i'll contact some mutuals and see about some beta readers <3
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This is gonna sound weird but I had a dream that there was another Eliot wolf/werewolf reference in Leverage: Redemption and I was so excited to tell you about it. Today I was headed here to share and then remembered my brain made it up and I don't even remember what it was...
asdlfkjhsdfs that is so beautiful and devastating at the same time!! Now I need to know what your brain came up with!!!!
Huh. But now I'm thinking about werewolf!Eliot again.. and now I want to write... dammit. That's one way to get me working on the next chapter, I guess!
(ps not weird at all i have crazy dreams all the time and always like to share them with people)
#asks#eliot spencer#leverage redemption#my posts#werewolf!eliot spencer#i've legit just been watching through redemption#so i feel like i should have clear thoughts about eliot's werewolf-ness in it#alas#my brain is like soup#WAIT NO#the fractured job#when he's driving home to oklahoma and he puts Lone Wolf on the stereo!#classic werewolf move right there#cruisin on a road trip#listening to werewolf-coded songs#see?? your dream was successful after all
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i don't project onto art 👹
#im a liar Tumblr you r the only social yhat gets the truth#i have NEVER kissed someone im 18 and have never kissed or held hands with another man 💔😞 and thats embarrassing#IM SO EMBARRASSED BY THAT I LEGIT HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT WATCHING HOW TO KISS VIDEOS CUZ IM LIKE WHAT IF I'VE GOTTA GIVE SOMEONE A BIG KISS!!!#i have only ever kissed my cats little head#my art#fanart#homestuck#dirk strider#jake english#dirkjake#hs
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:/
#gonna be annoying again#im like legit sad to see ian and anthony not doing any collaborative work anymore on smosh other than the podcast#seeing them creating stuff together and doing those sketches made me so incredibly happy#and now it's just.. a podcast#ill watch the pods every now and then but podcasts don't always keep me engaged#i tend to get bored with them#and yes i understand anthony doesnt wanna do much on camera work these days#but i can't help as a fan be upset about it#i thought they'd be doing sketches on bit city but that hasnt happened yet and we're 3 months in#it's just such a shame to have had all that AMAZING content last year and earlier this year and now this is all we get#I've been a fan since 2008 and when anthony came back i was so overjoyed#the cast is incredible#but i miss ian and anthony driven content that's NOT the fucking podcast#smosh
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I've bought so many RH dolls in the past four weeks or so. it's. really disappointing and stressful and stupid and I hate myself, ngl.
#I did really well for a little while there#then I had a very bad couple of days and. I don't know. I don't get it. I guess that explains why I bought a couple that day.#but it just. hasn't stopped since then.#I'm actively working on stopping again now. like it shouldn't be hard right?? but I see them and it's like. oh this is the thing that I#love a lot right now. buying it makes me feel good. nothing else matters. money isn't real. just buy it. it's so pretty.#and it DOESN'T make me happy! of course it doesn't! I feel way too guilty about it!#but I can't do anything about it. I've tried thinking about selling some of my dolls and it legit makes me panic#like the thought alone is so scary that I can't even consider it really#which makes NO sense!#it's so embarrassing and I'm really ashamed and I hate myself#personal
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