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[kerizaret]

DID I UNFOLLOW BY ACCIDENT IM SORRY!!! </3

IT'S COMPLETELY OK NO NEED TO WORRY <33 I DONT MIND??

[happi-dreams]

Omg I love your little player(poppy playtime)

I just imagine in this au when safe haven toys ask for food they actually get to have some.

Also I can see player trying to feed pianosorous but doey comes in and absolutely traumatized player.

AAAA thank you so much !! my little player is my pride and joy :DDDDD

and yes your absolutely right, i doodled a little drawings for this since it was stuck in my brain :]

player quickly becomes liked within the safe haven through positivity and (most importantly) having food that isn’t scraps!! and lending it !!

and they probably would try to talk to pianosaurus but honestly they would NOT of survived without Doey

[oynonrings]

👁️👁️ vs 🥺

[feng-shui71]

What’s up guys … closing the inbox this weekend so reminder that this is the last chance for reqs, i’m actually being serious this time LOL so send some in!!

Also reminder please do NOT send me duplicate asks, I see them the first time and I get to everyone’s eventually, just at different paces. I’m already giving you guys this art for free and all I’m asking for is respect.

[fumifooms]

You’re the resident chilchuck expert, so I was wondering about it there’s any canon evidence that he did smoke or drink alcohol when the kids were younger. I always thought it was something he picked up due to the strain of long jobs, when the kids were already older, but you seem to think differently and I was wondering if there was anything in canon that made you think that way!

Now that you mention it I guess it’s true there’s no evidence he did. Smoking we literally only know he does at all because of one post-canon panel where he has a pipe, so no, maybe this stick-looking thing in the panel below too though, I’m not familiar with medieval blunts eh. We’ve only gotten one panel of him and his daughters interacting when he was younger so that’s not too insightful on that end, and every time we see him young and freckled it’s in a job context so again not really where we’d expect him to be drinking. The earliest proof (/heavy implication since we don’t see inside his cup I guess) is 3 years before canon when Laios hired him, where he’s at a bar, classily placed in front of all the bottles ✨

Yes alcohol is almost certainly a way through which he copes especially with stress, so if we go with the theory he started around when work got stressful, well… Chilchuck started working as a dungeon diver ~10 years ago so when he was ~19, making Mei, Fler and Puck ~6 and ~4 respectively, so from that draw the ‘stressful enough to start drinking’ line wherever. We don’t know what he did before that with any certainty, and it could be he did odd jobs, lived off mostly mutual aid and community work, or just focused on only raising the girls. Half-foots tend to be poor and I see a lot of that in Chilchuck specifically so I don’t think he could have afforded to not have some paying work though.

Alright, so then why do I think he did drink when the girls were younger?

I give a more complete rundown of the info we do have on his alcoholism & his family with panels and references + all the speculation I make from it here. But the most targeted and objective answer I can give is:

Of course there’s just very very little we know of Chilchuck’s life with his family, and I think that’s by design too. I think the details being up in the air is to allow more nuance of the topic, like, will trying to reconcile go well, is their relationship salvageable? We don’t know, because we don’t know. So the message of giving hope a chance even if it’s a long shot, that things could truly go either way, is more relevant, impactful and meta in that way. How long was he usually away for work travels into dungeons here and there? How did he act with them? All we can really do is "it’s likely that", it’s a game of which way we think it’s more implied. There’s no right and wrong answer, it’s all Marcille-like larping the events out.

My main reason for thinking he did is that his father died from overdrinking and Chilchuck is very aware of that. He mentions his death casually in the extra about their stance in alcohol and in his Adventurer’s Bible profile, etc. He acts towards the alcohol presumably the same way his father did: with abandon, uncaring for the health effects, probably happily too considering Chil says "dying doing something you love is a good way to go". Very nonchalant. So you see what I’m saying here right, wether he started early or late, his view of alcoholism is very influenced by what he saw of his father growing up, it’s something he’s always been aware of and saw in a mostly positive light, something that was inherited you could say. It’s something that was normalized to him from a young age. Regardless or where it goes from there I do think this part is pretty inarguable. If he views it positively and we know that in the present alcohol is his favorite food that he loveees, why would he have held out on it? Personally that all makes me think he started drinking very young, especially since I don’t think they limited alcohol to age as much as modern standards (and I mean, teen drinking is obviously still a thing). And here you could argue, maybe his father only started being more alcoholic later when Chilchuck moved out, or something! And to that there’s nothing I can say except I think that’s a strained theory, and that Chil might even have largely cut contact with his family after moving out (since he and siblings are listed as almost strangers and he doesn’t seem to have much emotional attachment to his parents, but also we know he rents out his place to "a relative"), but it’s true we have no evidence. "I’ve picked up the same unhealthy substance abuse as my father haha! No big deal right haha" repeated several times to me just reeks of intergenerational trauma, & the alcoholism gene as they call it. Like effortless sliding into drinking as if it’s second nature, it’s natural after all, it’s normal after all, it just makes sense, it makes you feel good and that’s what matters.

BUT from my interpretation then we have a whole other layer: Alcohol is of course not all bad always. I think he’s always liked alcohol and drank it on occasion and it brought him joy etc etc, but I think here the implication in the question is, how much effect did his drinking have on the family relations and how early? And that isn’t so much about when him drinking started but when the alcoholism started. Addiction is defined by a habitual need, that has negative effects from filling that need (physical, psychological, social, etc) and negative effects from withdrawal. If Chilchuck drinks to cope and he can’t not cope without it, that’s addiction, if it affects his relationships, if it’s a need he has, it’s addiction. Addiction can be very insidious or look very casual, and how much people around the person are affected by it is case by case. Cheerful drunks can be sooo annoying and uncomfortable though let me tell you. Drunks are drunks. And this sounds harsh, but even if people around them don’t mind drunks it’ll still have some effects here and there, living with one can be such a challenge, ily drunks good luck with everything much like Chilchuck you deserve good things 🫡　

Ok so with the dad thing and the "ok well maybe he’s always drunk casually but it grew worse with time around when he started working as a dungeon diver" precision made, the other bit of info we have that can inform this is that Chilchuck is on a harsh diet and that alcohol is a hunger suppressant. We know Chilchuck "used to be fine not eating for two days", that literally on screen to quench his hunger so it doesn’t keep him awake he goes to drink water, drinking is his instinct to hunger. Again alcohol is a hunger suppressant and if you want info on that the internet has a lot of research and anecdotes about it. He diets to be light enough to not trigger traps, so it’s something he’d have started after dungeon diving most likely. Between the stress and the diet, yes it’s extremely likely he started going harder on alcohol after he started working in dungeons. There’s arguments on wether two days without eating is less bad for half-foots than humans, but apart from smaller portions there’s nothing that indicates half-foots should get less than 3 meals a day. They need less food but that’s because their bodies are smaller: the need is proportional to the body, not smaller than others’ races, the % of need is similar even if the kg amount of food isn’t. There’s also a popular headcanon with support basis that half-foots run hot and have a faster heartrate and whatnot, and that points towards a faster metabolism rather than a slower one: a bigger need for eating rather than a smaller one. He has the same bmi, 18, as Mickbell, but perhaps because Chil is much taller he’s less intensely visibly underweight with ribs showing than Mick during the bath extra, it’s most apparent when he becomes tallman.

Alcohol is something so important and omnipresent in his character that I have trouble believing it’s something that was part of only a small fraction of his life. It’s his immediate go-to, his no-brainer solution to a good time, I’ve sort of always assumed especially after looking at his family that it’s something he discovered decently young. Like he just acts like someone who’s always had alcohol to fall back on and started young idk. Alcohol is one of his 5 keywords. Alcoholism is very ingrained into his world view and life, his "it doesn’t matter" stance his ‘work hard play hard’ mentality his idea that the world is harsh so you get relief where you can, so it just makes sense to me that it’s always been in his life, if not actively then at least looming.

So yes, in summary, my take: Alcohol was always something he wholly enjoyed to an unwise level, but it could have been considered casual until he started working into dungeons and his need for it on a regular basis intensified. Alcohol has always had positive association to him as far as we see, so when it started being a problem he didn’t see it as such. To quote him, "I drink anytime I get the opportunity to". Why always? Approval of father’s alcoholism. Why alcoholism at all? Diet + stress & coping mechanism & emotional stunting + relationship issues, and she decided she had enough after they went out for drinks.

Conclusion

Chilchuck having drunk from a young age makes sense to me and it’s the strongest narrative angle I see on the table, but that’s objectively a me opinion, yes! There’s no evidence, moreso there’s canon basis and supporting info, but it’s all very left up to interpretation. I’ve made my own interpretations of things from the scraps we see, like everyone else making Chilwife and daughters content. Wether you have a stance on the topic or prefer to leave it vague in your takes, it’ll be a matter of what you think makes most sense, or what you’d rather believe I suppose (which is literally fine)

There’s a lot of subjectivity in even just setting up causal links like you probably noticed during this and I was careful with my word choices, because we’re just extrapolating from what we see and unless Kui states it explicitly from a reliable mouth all we can do is have informed opinions on most things. This particular interpretation is influenced by other details I’ve come to form about my interpretation of Chilchuck too, the more psychological and emotional sides of him and the timeline and how his marriage even happened, unplanned pregnancy imo. Like I hope you see what I mean, this wasn’t supposed to be a speculation post just a quick simple answer but there’s sort of just no other and concise but complete way with the subjectivity nuance to put "maybe it could be yes because of this but maybe it could be no because of this" haha

Edit: Wait the phrasing on this… Interesting. "In recent years"— This does imply that if not just his alcohol consumption increasing then the diversity and quality of it did, so either he indeed did start drinking more (not necessarily meaning he didn’t drink before) assumedly because of his wife leaving, or he started drinking other/more different kinds of alcohol maybe due to the union he formed + his experience gave him greater salary than he had previously (and no wife and family to provide money for), a mix of both perhaps.

[crystallakec]

your art is gorgeous, you make mark look even more handsome than he already does

my honest reaction to your information

[tenspontaneite]

hii, i am so curious about what you thought of tdp s7

Hi! I haven't engaged with tdp material since S4 on purpose, since I've learned I don't do well being a creator in fandoms whose canon is so actively updating. I'll binge all of tdp and catch up on everything eventually, but it might be a while, and I'd like to ask for strictly no spoilers for anything since S4 until then! I'm great at avoiding spoilers on my own but if people send them to me I can't really avoid that :P

(thank you for being so spoiler free in your ask btw, appreciate it!)

[blossoms-phan]

omfg your new fic is crazy. so good. this whole paragraph:

Dan took hold of Phil’s other wrist, bringing his hand up to his mouth. He licked flat over Phil’s palm before sucking two fingers into his mouth, pulling them in and out and slicking them with spit. He pulled them out with a pop before turning his head and neck as far as he could, his half-lidded gaze meeting Phil’s, both slightly shocked and turned on, that always read to Dan as: I’ll give you anything you want.

is. holy shit. SO amazing. that visual of dan looking back at phil is so hot. this is wonderful. your writing is so so so good <3

YAZ WHAT THE HELL…… genuinely sobbing and giggling and kicking my feet this is so sweet ;_; like what did i do to deserve the best coolest moots in the entire world <33333

[moonsidesong]

misophonia sucks for several reasons but i really gotta say my least favorite part is how much music gets ruined for me by my brain focusing too much on The Triangle

[devilssacrament]

I need more info on this pornifest of yours 👀

oh anon buckle up because it's a lot. well no it's really easy to explain it's just- anyway

okay so basically last year I decided "hey the 22/23 season was so much fun let me write something" so I brainstormed a bit and came up with the idea that for every goal nico and jack score they have sex. or make each other come in some way or another. at first it was probably an established relationship funny gimmick thing but it devolved into a friends with benefits situation since they're both single and picking up all the time gets a bit annoying

so we have the basic premise of jack and nico agree to have sex whenever they score a goal. obviously we need a friends to lovers situation or else it would be boring (to me) so we have nico being in love with jack and jack being. well. not

a normal person would have gone and picked a couple games to write about, add in a sprinkle of off days to progress their relationship and voila you have a story

unfortunately I am not normal and decided to just. make this story span the entirety of the 22/23 season. because I have problems that I am not getting into right now (I am not being serious)

which leads us to the present day where the pornifesto is currently 156 (planned) chapters and 425k words long. I have made it to the end of december 2022. nico is still pining, jack is still an idiot, people around them are like ???? but too afraid to ask, and I am losing my mind a little bit

it's a long-term project as you can imagine given that very rough estimates have us set at ~1.5M words when all is said and done. it's really more of an episodic story than anything else given that every chapter correlates with a day of the 22/23 season. the interested reader can of course check the schedule from that season and get excited and speculate what whacky sex adventures they get up to next while also wondering what mental gymnastics the two of them use to explain away their very much "they're dating why don't they realise they're dating"

so yeah there you have it. the pornifesto in a nutshell. and because you've asked and I like to yap, you get a snippet ❤

“You wanna get take-out on the way back?” Nico asks when they’re outside the Lindt store, out of the way of people rushing past.

When he looks at Jack, the other man grimaces. “I would love to, but I’m meeting up with a bunch of the boys this evening.”

It’s not unusual for them to spend their days with each other and then go their separate ways in the evening, but Nico can’t prevent the sharp sting of disappointment. Clearing his throat, he nods. “Of course, no problem.”

He starts walking and waits until Jack has caught up to sigh. “I’ll just spend the rest of the evening all by myself. With nobody to cuddle on my big couch. Watching TV and eating a home cooked meal. Alone.” 

The weight of Jack’s bags full of chocolate slapping against his leg startles a laugh out of Nico. 

“Oh my god, you are so full of shit, Neeks,” Jack says. “I’m sure you will survive one evening without me.”

Shaking his head, Nico grins. “I’m honestly not sure that I will, you know? It’s going to be cold and lonely, with nobody there to keep me warm.” It’s complete bullshit and they both know it, but hearing Jack laugh because of him makes Nico want to keep going anyway. “And what if there’s a spider? You know I hate spiders.”

Out of the corner of his eyes, he sees Jack fight a smile. “Fuck you. I’m not that bad. This is slander.”

[that-spider-fan-over-there]

*dusting off this old blog* Well it's been a while, isn't it?

[chaos-in-bright-pink-hair-dye]

End of Killjoys week 2023

Well with the seven wonderful days of Killjoys week 2023 behind us I would like to say that I enjoyed it immensely and I hope you did as well. It was so nice to see all your wonderful art and writing and I would like to thank everyone who participated it was thanks to you that this week was so pleasant and that now Tumblr is filled with even more cool art!

I know my participation as the organiser wasn't the best, some mistakes were made, a lot of things have been learned but in the end I would very much consider it a success from my point of view and if people are interested I would love to organise something similar next year as well!

bus also if you perhaps haven't managed to post something on time feel very free to post after the end of the event, we would all love to see it and it is more than okay to take more time if needed

[meetmeatthecoda]

You are freakin awesome I love this blog and your writing so much

Wow, um, what??? 😭 Welp, this is officially the sweetest, most unexpected ask I've ever received, hands down 🥹 So, needless to say, thank you so much, anon, you're far, far too kind 🥲 I apologize for the delay in answering this (hectic-ness of the holidays & all) & I hope that doesn't make you doubt the sincerity with which I appreciate this ask!! To think that somebody likes my silly blog (especially this long after TBL, which is the only thing for which I might have been somewhat identifiable at some point in time, haha) where - true to form - I just reblog random things I like with stupid tags..... AND my writing?! That's a hell of a compliment 😍 So yeah, thank you so much again, anon, suffice it to say that YOU ARE freakin awesome, & much love to you, my friend!! ❤️

[nobodybetterlookatme]

you’re valid

Thank you but the general concensus from the girlies has been no I'm not LMAO I just have zero reading comprehension and was dramatic for no reason, so I'm just gonna go ahead and delete that other post now bc I overreacted over literally nothing ahdkakskal

[fingertipsmp3]

This fucking cardigan I’m making for my stepdad’s niece’s kid is going to make me tear my hair out I swear to god

[irritablepoe]

they are terrible for this you have a problem and told them and they make fun of you? that is mean as fuck people who are supposed to care about you should want you to not feel horrible but maybe the friends feel badly for you with that look? like sympathetic?

yeah, but i'm... well not okay with this exactly, but i'm glad that they're respecting these boundaries at least. i'm used to being made fun of though lol, i'll take that then ig

and yeah my friends definitely feel sympathetic towards me, though probably don't know how to react bc they don't quite understand? which again is fair, these thoughts are irrational after all (at least the feeling dirty and scratching/hitting part, though this has probably resulted bc of me not establishing boundaries much earlier where i started to feel uncomfortable with it, which is a valid thing to feel ofc but didn't realise at the time)