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DID I UNFOLLOW BY ACCIDENT IM SORRY!!! </3

IT'S COMPLETELY OK NO NEED TO WORRY <33 I DONT MIND??

[fumifooms]

You’re the resident chilchuck expert, so I was wondering about it there’s any canon evidence that he did smoke or drink alcohol when the kids were younger. I always thought it was something he picked up due to the strain of long jobs, when the kids were already older, but you seem to think differently and I was wondering if there was anything in canon that made you think that way!

Now that you mention it I guess it’s true there’s no evidence he did. Smoking we literally only know he does at all because of one post-canon panel where he has a pipe, so no, maybe this stick-looking thing in the panel below too though, I’m not familiar with medieval blunts eh. We’ve only gotten one panel of him and his daughters interacting when he was younger so that’s not too insightful on that end, and every time we see him young and freckled it’s in a job context so again not really where we’d expect him to be drinking. The earliest proof (/heavy implication since we don’t see inside his cup I guess) is 3 years before canon when Laios hired him, where he’s at a bar, classily placed in front of all the bottles ✨

Yes alcohol is almost certainly a way through which he copes especially with stress, so if we go with the theory he started around when work got stressful, well… Chilchuck started working as a dungeon diver ~10 years ago so when he was ~19, making Mei, Fler and Puck ~6 and ~4 respectively, so from that draw the ‘stressful enough to start drinking’ line wherever. We don’t know what he did before that with any certainty, and it could be he did odd jobs, lived off mostly mutual aid and community work, or just focused on only raising the girls. Half-foots tend to be poor and I see a lot of that in Chilchuck specifically so I don’t think he could have afforded to not have some paying work though.

Alright, so then why do I think he did drink when the girls were younger?

I give a more complete rundown of the info we do have on his alcoholism & his family with panels and references + all the speculation I make from it here. But the most targeted and objective answer I can give is:

Of course there’s just very very little we know of Chilchuck’s life with his family, and I think that’s by design too. I think the details being up in the air is to allow more nuance of the topic, like, will trying to reconcile go well, is their relationship salvageable? We don’t know, because we don’t know. So the message of giving hope a chance even if it’s a long shot, that things could truly go either way, is more relevant, impactful and meta in that way. How long was he usually away for work travels into dungeons here and there? How did he act with them? All we can really do is "it’s likely that", it’s a game of which way we think it’s more implied. There’s no right and wrong answer, it’s all Marcille-like larping the events out.

My main reason for thinking he did is that his father died from overdrinking and Chilchuck is very aware of that. He mentions his death casually in the extra about their stance in alcohol and in his Adventurer’s Bible profile, etc. He acts towards the alcohol presumably the same way his father did: with abandon, uncaring for the health effects, probably happily too considering Chil says "dying doing something you love is a good way to go". Very nonchalant. So you see what I’m saying here right, wether he started early or late, his view of alcoholism is very influenced by what he saw of his father growing up, it’s something he’s always been aware of and saw in a mostly positive light, something that was inherited you could say. It’s something that was normalized to him from a young age. Regardless or where it goes from there I do think this part is pretty inarguable. If he views it positively and we know that in the present alcohol is his favorite food that he loveees, why would he have held out on it? Personally that all makes me think he started drinking very young, especially since I don’t think they limited alcohol to age as much as modern standards (and I mean, teen drinking is obviously still a thing). And here you could argue, maybe his father only started being more alcoholic later when Chilchuck moved out, or something! And to that there’s nothing I can say except I think that’s a strained theory, and that Chil might even have largely cut contact with his family after moving out (since he and siblings are listed as almost strangers and he doesn’t seem to have much emotional attachment to his parents, but also we know he rents out his place to "a relative"), but it’s true we have no evidence. "I’ve picked up the same unhealthy substance abuse as my father haha! No big deal right haha" repeated several times to me just reeks of intergenerational trauma, & the alcoholism gene as they call it. Like effortless sliding into drinking as if it’s second nature, it’s natural after all, it’s normal after all, it just makes sense, it makes you feel good and that’s what matters.

BUT from my interpretation then we have a whole other layer: Alcohol is of course not all bad always. I think he’s always liked alcohol and drank it on occasion and it brought him joy etc etc, but I think here the implication in the question is, how much effect did his drinking have on the family relations and how early? And that isn’t so much about when him drinking started but when the alcoholism started. Addiction is defined by a habitual need, that has negative effects from filling that need (physical, psychological, social, etc) and negative effects from withdrawal. If Chilchuck drinks to cope and he can’t not cope without it, that’s addiction, if it affects his relationships, if it’s a need he has, it’s addiction. Addiction can be very insidious or look very casual, and how much people around the person are affected by it is case by case. Cheerful drunks can be sooo annoying and uncomfortable though let me tell you. Drunks are drunks. And this sounds harsh, but even if people around them don’t mind drunks it’ll still have some effects here and there, living with one can be such a challenge, ily drunks good luck with everything much like Chilchuck you deserve good things 🫡　

Ok so with the dad thing and the "ok well maybe he’s always drunk casually but it grew worse with time around when he started working as a dungeon diver" precision made, the other bit of info we have that can inform this is that Chilchuck is on a harsh diet and that alcohol is a hunger suppressant. We know Chilchuck "used to be fine not eating for two days", that literally on screen to quench his hunger so it doesn’t keep him awake he goes to drink water, drinking is his instinct to hunger. Again alcohol is a hunger suppressant and if you want info on that the internet has a lot of research and anecdotes about it. He diets to be light enough to not trigger traps, so it’s something he’d have started after dungeon diving most likely. Between the stress and the diet, yes it’s extremely likely he started going harder on alcohol after he started working in dungeons. There’s arguments on wether two days without eating is less bad for half-foots than humans, but apart from smaller portions there’s nothing that indicates half-foots should get less than 3 meals a day. They need less food but that’s because their bodies are smaller: the need is proportional to the body, not smaller than others’ races, the % of need is similar even if the kg amount of food isn’t. There’s also a popular headcanon with support basis that half-foots run hot and have a faster heartrate and whatnot, and that points towards a faster metabolism rather than a slower one: a bigger need for eating rather than a smaller one. He has the same bmi, 18, as Mickbell, but perhaps because Chil is much taller he’s less intensely visibly underweight with ribs showing than Mick during the bath extra, it’s most apparent when he becomes tallman.

Alcohol is something so important and omnipresent in his character that I have trouble believing it’s something that was part of only a small fraction of his life. It’s his immediate go-to, his no-brainer solution to a good time, I’ve sort of always assumed especially after looking at his family that it’s something he discovered decently young. Like he just acts like someone who’s always had alcohol to fall back on and started young idk. Alcohol is one of his 5 keywords. Alcoholism is very ingrained into his world view and life, his "it doesn’t matter" stance his ‘work hard play hard’ mentality his idea that the world is harsh so you get relief where you can, so it just makes sense to me that it’s always been in his life, if not actively then at least looming.

So yes, in summary, my take: Alcohol was always something he wholly enjoyed to an unwise level, but it could have been considered casual until he started working into dungeons and his need for it on a regular basis intensified. Alcohol has always had positive association to him as far as we see, so when it started being a problem he didn’t see it as such. To quote him, "I drink anytime I get the opportunity to". Why always? Approval of father’s alcoholism. Why alcoholism at all? Diet + stress & coping mechanism & emotional stunting + relationship issues, and she decided she had enough after they went out for drinks.

Conclusion

Chilchuck having drunk from a young age makes sense to me and it’s the strongest narrative angle I see on the table, but that’s objectively a me opinion, yes! There’s no evidence, moreso there’s canon basis and supporting info, but it’s all very left up to interpretation. I’ve made my own interpretations of things from the scraps we see, like everyone else making Chilwife and daughters content. Wether you have a stance on the topic or prefer to leave it vague in your takes, it’ll be a matter of what you think makes most sense, or what you’d rather believe I suppose (which is literally fine)

There’s a lot of subjectivity in even just setting up causal links like you probably noticed during this and I was careful with my word choices, because we’re just extrapolating from what we see and unless Kui states it explicitly from a reliable mouth all we can do is have informed opinions on most things. This particular interpretation is influenced by other details I’ve come to form about my interpretation of Chilchuck too, the more psychological and emotional sides of him and the timeline and how his marriage even happened, unplanned pregnancy imo. Like I hope you see what I mean, this wasn’t supposed to be a speculation post just a quick simple answer but there’s sort of just no other and concise but complete way with the subjectivity nuance to put "maybe it could be yes because of this but maybe it could be no because of this" haha

Edit: Wait the phrasing on this… Interesting. "In recent years"— This does imply that if not just his alcohol consumption increasing then the diversity and quality of it did, so either he indeed did start drinking more (not necessarily meaning he didn’t drink before) assumedly because of his wife leaving, or he started drinking other/more different kinds of alcohol maybe due to the union he formed + his experience gave him greater salary than he had previously (and no wife and family to provide money for), a mix of both perhaps.

[crystallakec]

your art is gorgeous, you make mark look even more handsome than he already does

my honest reaction to your information

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

honestly it's been really healing being back to actively contributing things and writing out thoughts on tumblr the last week or so, because while twitter tends to be easier for me to write out Thoughts on without getting overwhelmed, the environment in the twitter fandom circles i'm interested in is not only infested with antis but cliqueish in a way that is caustic to the fucking soul if you try to express a thought that's more than three sentences long--a hundred times over if you're autistic in slightly the wrong way--and it's incredibly reassuring to come back to an environment where the very kindest and most inclusive people toward you are not clearly thinking the r-slur the entire time they interact with you lmao

[moonsidesong]

misophonia sucks for several reasons but i really gotta say my least favorite part is how much music gets ruined for me by my brain focusing too much on The Triangle

[joyridingmp3]

have to wake up early tomorrow to drop my sister at the station, then get my ultrasound done, and then go to my job interview after. feels like a good night to listen to the cure

[cuteniarose]

Making memes instead of crying because I went to Ghazan’s school of coping with depression

(Context, because apparently not everyone is aware of the intricacies of the multiverse of madness @katkastrofa and I created together:

In my main fic verse, SotRL, Bolin will end up really close friends with Midori, Mingzan’s daughter, to the point that they begin considering each other siblings. Ghazan’s rather fond of the kid, who treats him as literally the coolest man in existence and begs to learn lavabending from him, and Bolin REALLY needs a positive father figure in his life, and Midori is already his sister, so… one thing leads to another, Ghazan is Bolin’s dad now. And Ming-Hua is a lot more neutral on Bolin but she sees how much her partner and daughter like having him around, so eventually warms up too. She’s not the most maternal with him, probably calls him ‘son boy’ the way people on here do with kittens [because that is HILARIOUS to me. fucking sue me if you don’t like it], but she likes him well enough. Of course, this all raises the question of Mako, who happens to be… not on the best of terms with this family, Ming-Hua in particular, especially after Book 3…)

[rebelcliche-archive2]

heyooo so i totally understand if anyone wants to unfollow, but i think i’m gonna go on a hiatus here on nancy until june 1st. i love nance, but the muse just ain’t there for the time being and i don’t wanna lurk on the dash and stress myself out over not having the will to write and then worrying that people will drop me for being inactive. SO— i’m just gonna bite the bullet and go on hiatus for a bit and then see about coming back. hate to leave y’all hanging like this, but i think i need a break from writing early 20s and teenage muses lol.

[that-spider-fan-over-there]

*dusting off this old blog* Well it's been a while, isn't it?

[honorhearted]

(For our Historical!AU. I hope this is okay?) The Scotsman didn't sleep a wink that night. How could he? After the rest of his small unit whom he was traveling with was completely obliterated by a rogue, band of rebels, Richard found himself to be the last man standing. The Scotsman did his best to run as fast as his legs could carry him, but the rebels were faster. And now? Now he found himself on rebel soil, being held prisoner in one of their cabins, no doubt to be interrogated when the morning came.

True enough, morning eventually did come, and in stepped one of their men. One of the heads, no doubt. A captain? Or perhaps a lieutenant? Either way, it was somebody of importance, or at least rank. "Are-... Are ye' finally gonna let me go," shivered Richard, sitting at the furthest corner of the room, as far away from the other as possible.

@richardxoliverxmayhew

When Ben arrived at the designated cabin, his hand on his saber and a cutting gleam across his eyes, he looked between each man guarding the entrance for an explanation. A messenger had informed him that during a reconnaissance mission gone wrong, they’d entered a skirmish with a band of travelers – that only one lone man was left – and was in need of questioning.

“What is his name?” Ben demanded. “I was told the prisoner was being held here?”

The head guard, Anders, nodded his head and instructed, “This way, Major Tallmadge. He’s not sayin’ much -- didn't gimme a name yet -- but I figured you could give ‘im the ol’ fear o' God to change his mind.”

Ben didn’t mirror the other man’s smile. Applying duress, though often necessary, wasn't exactly a beloved pastime of his, regardless of the favorable results.

Without further preamble, Ben entered the cabin and kept his hand on his sword, his eyes narrowing as he inspected the stranger from top-to-bottom. The man's plea was weary, but did not garner any sympathy. He and his men were tired, too.

"The means of your release will depend entirely upon your cooperation, sir," Ben evenly replied. With his mouth in a firm, grim line, he demanded, “What is your name?” It was not a request, but a command. With all new captives, Ben found it beneficial to start with the basics. If the prisoners proved combative or uncooperative, other methods could then be enacted.

Strolling toward the man, Ben followed up with, “Where do you hail from? Why were you traveling through Continental lines?”

[the-kipsabian]

pls consider this your official invitation to info dump to me about alan wake because i LOVE psychological horror and what you've posted about it so far has me super interested. so pls tell me more 👀

OKAY OOF SORRY IF THIS GETS LONG

so the basic premise of the game (originally from 2010, they made a remastered version in 2021 and a sequel is coming out later this year! and theres also technically also a sequel? from i think 2012 but its apparently non-canon but anyways we dont dwell on american nightmare its fun in its own right but no way a deserving full sequel lol) is that a crime writer alan wake takes a little vacation with his wife in hopes of getting rest and trying to break his writers block of two years. they go to a small town thats ridden with a dark past as something dark and terrible lurks under the waters surrounding the town. eventually, alan loses his wife in a freak accident, driving him slightly mad so he ends up taken over by dark forces, making him write an evil manuscript where everything he writes comes true, in the most horrible dark way possible - cause the dark presence wants it that way, as i feeds from the death and horror of the script, making it stronger and more powerful so that it can one day finally manifest itself back in human form. in return of alan writing this thing, the darkness promises him his wife back alive

and alan breaks free of this curse before the manuscript is finished, giving him time to try to figure things out, how to save his wife and try to stop the darkness before it eats the entire town alive as it keeps growing stronger with each passing day, as he has written in the manuscript

the game basically follows the manuscript alan has written, you keep finding and collecting pages throughout the game, where sometimes they give you little glimpses to different characters, other times its events that have already happened or are still about to happen. the pages come in a random order so its just lovely bits and pieces of lore here and there which really gives emphasis on the story which i really like. its also written super well, as alan is a writer and the manuscript pages are his handiwork, so its all viewed through a very artistic lens which is just. fucking incredible and inspiring

the game itself is more action and exploration oriented than really just horror, but the darkness is definitely there as is the psychological aspect, which is really what drew me to the game the first time (plus its made by a finnish studio so obviously i have to support my locals lol). its really just an incredible story about love above all else, trust in the people around you and yourself and its just. its incredible i cant do this game justice by talking about it tbh lol

[chaos-in-bright-pink-hair-dye]

End of Killjoys week 2023

Well with the seven wonderful days of Killjoys week 2023 behind us I would like to say that I enjoyed it immensely and I hope you did as well. It was so nice to see all your wonderful art and writing and I would like to thank everyone who participated it was thanks to you that this week was so pleasant and that now Tumblr is filled with even more cool art!

I know my participation as the organiser wasn't the best, some mistakes were made, a lot of things have been learned but in the end I would very much consider it a success from my point of view and if people are interested I would love to organise something similar next year as well!

bus also if you perhaps haven't managed to post something on time feel very free to post after the end of the event, we would all love to see it and it is more than okay to take more time if needed

[nyaitsu-writes]

there's more info over here if anyone's interested but,, let's say i had a really really bad day. i got ran over by a car this morning in a freaking crosswalk right before my Very Important test and spent a few hours at the hospital. doing fine though. just a sprained ankle, luckily. but everything hurts, i'm still shocked and i can't walk. i feel so useless right now....

i just,, need some distractions esp from the pain ;;;;

[loverboybrightsideghost]

YOOOO CONGRATS ON THE COLLEGE 🎉 here's to you having a bangin' time at uni!! Be proud of yourself and take it easy if you can <3

thanks bestieeee 😌😌😌😌😌❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[pierswife]

Me lately--

[nobodybetterlookatme]

you’re valid

Thank you but the general concensus from the girlies has been no I'm not LMAO I just have zero reading comprehension and was dramatic for no reason, so I'm just gonna go ahead and delete that other post now bc I overreacted over literally nothing ahdkakskal