#but unfortunately theres no real proof of that happening..

[triptychofvoids]

Oooo also you got any medical history-related or maybe human body-related funfacts, doc? (i mean maybe not exactly "fun", but you get what i mean)

i would be happy to sit her and talk medical and physiology trivia all day! but im not sure how much of it you would actually find fun or interesting.

that being said, a few of my favorite 'fun facts' are that the hardest substance in the body is tooth enamel (as hard as steel, but brittle), the idea that different areas of your tongue are more sensitive to different flavors is actually incorrect, your body holds about 5.6 liters of blood (thats about 1.5 gallons), 95% of your blood is produced in your bone marrow (and yes, bones are organs made of living tissue! im often surprised how many people are not aware of this), and the longest type of cells in the human body are neurons, the longest of which is about 1 meter!

as for medical history, i would be remise if i did not mention my favorite amputation story of all time! if youre familiar with robert liston youll know what i am about to say. he was a skilled surgeon that lived from the years 1794 to 1847, and before anesthetics became common practice he was well known for his ability to perform surgeries at an extremely fast rate to avoid shock and blood loss. one of his most famous operations was an amputation performed in under three minutes, resulting in a witness dying from shock, his assistant dying from infection after getting his fingers cut off in the process, and the patient themselves later dying from infection as well! this operation is said to be the only one with a 300% mortality rate. the actual validity of this story is dubious at best, but its one of my favorites regardless!

[stateswscarlet]

Hi!! thanks to you and your threads i finally manifested my sp after (wait for it…. this will be long!!!)

3 years of separation and 1 year of no contact!!!!!!!!!!!!

let this me a reminder to anyone out there struggling or thinking time matters. i was in such a lack state for years and had horrible things happen between sp and i but im telling you i took a healthy way to do this and remembered theres nothing i can do to “make” it happen. i reread so many of your threads and read edward art series from a new set of eyes and decided to calmly shift my state ONCE without the expectation of perfection, making something happen, waiting for the 3D, etc (all of which I did unfortunately for a year and a half and never manifested anything “big”) i just shifted my state FOR me 100%. in that moment i didn’t even care about sp, about 3d, about reflecting, heck i didnt even care if i shifted states right. i just DID IT. now ik what you and alia meant by “just do it” because THERE IS NO OTHER WAY.

anyways after i shifted my state (probably for the first or for real this time in my whole journey), i felt nothing unusual or different in a huge way (coz why would i? if im with sp i wont feel special all day) and i KID YOU NOT SCAR I think it was like maybe 3-4 hours later he (sp) CALLED me on “accident” THREE times. I was so confused as I didn’t have his number saved yet as I recently got a new phone, but then I got a text from him saying it was *his name* and if this number still belongs to me. I didn’t even panic or freak out or even think “omg i manifested this bc of my state!” i just approached it normally and replied saying it was my number. He then told me “suddenly” he keeps getting reminded of me and has been missing me for a while and wanted to see me. We decided to catch up after uni last weeks monday and it was SO GOOD. he “changed” in good ways and yes i will admit it was awkward at first because we hadn’t talked in so long nor been alone with each other but that went away so fast!!!! we kept seeing each other daily for a week and he confessed he likes me a lot, and I did too and told him ive been missing him. he said nothing ever compared to me and that the breakup hit him hard but he hid it from me. he said he has been missing me for a year now (proof that i actually shifted states and dealt with a “new” sp because a year ago he told me he dislikes me, is completely over the relationship and told me to move on because it had been 2 years at that point and he was thinking of seeing someone else). this week on wednesday he took me on a date to our old special place in my city and officially asked me to be his girl!!!!!!

so from shifting my state ONCE and all the way to relationship it took a little under 2 weeks.

oh also - just because in my story i only shifted my state properly once dont mean anyone else is wrong for doing it multiple times!!! a KEY part of the law is knowing that WHATEVER WORKS FOR YOU AND IS NATURAL TO YOU IS WHAT WILL “WORK”. whatever YOU ENJOY imagining is what will shift your state!!!! STOP trying to do everything and worry about stuff thats not yours to worry about and JUST IMAGINE.

thank you again to the loa/ss community and especially you Scar!!! I will most likely still be lurking and supporting you and my other favourites on twt but not as active anymore ;)

OMGGG CONGRATS ANONNNN 🥳 🎉🎊👏🏻🪅

this makes me sooo happy and proud thank you for sharing your success and how you did it!

[isa-ghost]

hey it's the anon who asked what dr*m did,

I decided to do my own research (mainly cause I was curious) but... I can't find much? let me rephrase it - I did find the allegations from 6ish months ago, that he's going to court with one(?) of them, but that's... all? I didn't find the court's verdict, confirmations, or him admitting either... and any post or video I find has both the OP and the comments mostly on his side and believing that it's either not true or true but not grooming, even people who say they're not his fans or don't even like him.

so Im not sure if the confirmation didn't reach youtube or if I'm searching wrong or something?

but honestly while researching I realized that I cant stand him lmao, gotta agree with some comments I read - he made a mistake by showing more of his personality online, looks like any time he can handle a situation wrong/respond wrong he does it

so dunno, guess I didnt find the confirmation but at least now I don't find his old minecraft videos interesting anymore so theres that

Yeah he can't act properly to save his fucking life

Also I think most of the threads on Twitter and stuff that have all the proof he's guilty/etc is probably long buried, unfortunately. You could probably try to ask around saying you're trying to get the whole picture but tbh it's not a huge deal if you can't. You can try searching my blog but Tumblr sucks with that shit. The fact that this and his other controversies have been buried and lost to the void of the internet is typical white boy with a monstrously big platform shit so I'm not surprised. I never heard any details about court (prob for legal reasons) or a conviction either. All I know is there was screenshot proof from the victim that they talked, and Dr*m confirmed the screenshots were real but didn't say anything about other details. But those details literally can't be false if the screenshots & the shit said in them are true.

Anyway, as far as his other bullshit goes:

People found old kkk meme edits on his yt account through the wayback machine. More than once if I'm not mistaken

He has a history of defending himself using the r slur

He cheated "on accident" in a speedrun (the least important thing ever but everyone always brings it up)

He claimed he was going to donate all proceeds during pride month to lgbt+ charities & he'd do charity streams all month but never did

He defended himself about replying to haters, which would send thousands of his toxic stans after the person getting them doxxed/death threats/etc and he refused to address that it was irresponsible of him bc he was too entitled to immaturely clap back at the antis. Even other ccs, like B/itzel called him out about shit related to how he uses his platform irresponsibly & he unfollowed & shaded them like a bitch baby

The whole "accidental" copycat shit with QSMP/USMP and basically softcore stalking Q/uackity online.

His "apologies" for all of the above fucking sucked in multiple ways. And that's just 2021-Now shit I can remember off the top of my head, I lost my Twitter in May last year so now I get my info from people's posts about it on here or links to tweets.

Everyone largely suspects he spontaneously reignited d/smp lore & started the finale to cover up the groomer thing bc he has a history of doing smth "new and cool" every time he causes drama to divert attention and avoid accountability.

He's also suspected of suddenly rewriting the d/smp finale to paint his Irredeemable Abuser Villain Up Until The Last Stream as a sympathetic poor baby out of nowhere and wrote that his victim, c!Tommy apologized to him, which sends a HORRIBLE message about abusive relationships. T/ommy and T/ubbo have both subtly mentioned not liking the finale and that Dr*m had AWFUL communication during the last like 6+ months of the smp.

He also suddenly showed up in T/ubbo's chat lurking while T/ubbo happened to be mentioning he'd do his own research on the grooming situation instead of blindly siding with Dr*m and it was some shit out of a horror movie is2g, he suddenly dmed T/ubbo out of nowhere during it on discord saying they'd talk about it after T/ubbo wasn't streaming. Basically sounds like he was gonna bias T/ubbo about his innocence. Like he hadn't been in chat all stream long but SUDDENLY he was there the second the topic came up. But the d/smp ccs also can't say anything about the situation since it's a legal matter, so a handful of ccs have just stated/implied they don't support him other ways

He only quit MCC bc he threw a tantrum about how he couldn't practice for it but now that MCC island exists, people were getting better than him. He's habitually a sore loser about that kinda shit

He's got that whole weird "is he, isn't he" bullshit going on about him being lgbt. I personally think he's just catering to his stupid d/n/f shippers bc they like to truth their relationship & sexuality all the time and he's never explicitly said he's bi or smth. He's just vaguely been like "yeeeaahhhh I mostly like girls like 99% but maaaayyybeee I like guys idkkkk. 🤪" But he's also done that multiple times so who tf knows. I'm not gonna fully dismiss him & I understand no one including me is entitled to his specific sexuality, but he has garbage credibility on like everything so I'm neutral on the matter and find it hard to believe him

Not directly him related, but his stans went on a long and horrifying witch hunt on Twitter during the kkk ordeal doxxing, death threatening & harassing ENTIRE mcyt subtwts who spoke out against him and called him out on his racism, performative activism, shitty apology, etc. For example, I was part of S/neeg's subtwt and all my mutuals and me had to go private to avoid getting doxxed. It felt like being raided in some dystopian ass horror film. Entire subtwts were going private, panicking, paranoid they'd get outed & stalked & harassed by people just for condemning racism, raising Black voices, etc. It was borderline traumatic to some people, I know people who lost sleep over it bc they were so afraid.

That's all I can think of off the top of my head but the end of 2021 to early 2022 was a fucking nightmare between him being an immature entitled piece of shit and his stans blindly defending him and going out of their way to endanger people who rightfully opposed him.

[thisismeracing]

hi friend, you still have the potential to be sued here in the US, even if you’re not using images. That’s a big part of why authors likes Anna Todd, scrubbed After (with all references to Harry’s name) from the internet when she started charging for it and before any publication would take an interest. (Before anyone comes for me, I’m sure the original has been saved by some third part somewhere. This is the internet after all. But the point remains if she were to be sued, she is able to claim that she did her due diligence by removing any and all content with any reference to Harry Styles from the internet BEFORE she received any payment.) The US is currently starting to crack down on copyright and intellectual property infringement. In large part due to the fact that so many people have received huge payouts over the last ten years. Unfortunately they’re not choosing to go after the ones that have actually gotten rich from the issue. And while the drivers might not care. Their management most certainly will. If you’re choosing to charge for your fiction it might be best to at the very least change names so you might have some form of deniability.

this was an interesting ask, thanks for the heads up again!

I'm not trying to go against your word, but rather wondering about the topic myself because it seems to me it's a huge gray area, so feel free to reach me on my private messages or on anon again if you want. But speaking about Anna Todd, technically she could still be sued even after scrubbing Harry's name from the story because there was still proof on the internet that it was a story about him, if we're talking about defamation it doesn't need to involve the monetization aspect, it's still defamation without it. This would mean that ANY RPF fanfiction is illegal and could be sued (which is not necessarly the case because theres the whole fair use thing).

We're talking about huge payouts, but I'm getting less than fifty dollars a month with Patreon lol would their team really come for me (a poor grad student) on behalf of a billionaire for getting less than fifty dollars a month to help pay school and medical bills? this would need a huge pr work too to make them seem good after doing something so crazy like this.

Talking about defamation, let's say I change names, but this Tumblr would still be up and everything else would easily show that it's about pilot X, this could still be considered illegal because you can tell who it is about. The reason why nobody comes for rpf is because 1) the money people are talking about is just a few bucks most of the time, and 2) it's exactly this real people's FICTION, there's not much to talk about defamation of a worldwide artist when the content you're sharing is for a nich of less than one hundred people, it's not reasonable. I haven't found a past decision about something similar in the US court, if there is, please send it in, but other than that it's a huge speculation thing in my head, which only a judge could clarify.

Patreon and monetizing fanfiction is quite common in fandoms like Chris Evans', for example, and I haven't seen anything legal come from it yet. again because it's unreasonable for those artists to go after their own fans for taking less than a hundred dollars in content that clearly sets a fictional character that just happens to look and have the same name as them because more often than not it's set in an alternative universe.

[doing-something-unholy]

Thinking a lot recently about Adrian's belief in God. He was born and raised Catholic so for most of his childhood it was a given. At some point he would've started to wonder, maybe around 10-13?

(He doesn't remember, but the first cracks happened earlier. He asked his mom why his picture bible didn't show dinosaurs in the garden of Eden. She didn't answer him.)

He went through it as a teenager. He was an altar boy and had a lot of anxiety about God and Hell and his sexuality. Didn't help that Father Mathew was the fire and brimstone type and homophobic.

As an adult though, Adrian's belief is much more casual. It's routine to him. Most of the time he doesn't think about it, it actually doesn't matter much for doing his job. Being a priest involves more paperwork and meetings and community service than you'd think. He just thinks that God involves Himself in the lives of humans very sparingly, it's up to them to help each other out.

Sometimes, at his most optimistic, he sees God everywhere. The breeze in the garden, the sun dappled through leaves, the stained glass and incense smoke. He'll linger in the church after Mass, breathing in the quiet and peaceful moment.

Unfortunately, that kind of optimism doesn't last, and it can break in two ways: one, God isnt real. His prayers go unanswered, but not all is lost. There is nothing out there, and all his platitudes are meaningless, but comforting for the people he tells them to. He doubles down on community work, trying his best to help with the resources the church has, and cringes inside every time he has to say it's in God's name.

Two: God is real, and theres a reason why Adrian doesn't feel Him. Sometimes his mood and mental health spirals, and Adrian worries that people aren't exaggerating when they speak about their religious experiences. Adrian has actually never felt like God had any kind of personal interest in him, and he can try to brush it off as proof God doesn't exist, but it hurts to the core. At his worst, he believes in a God that sees him as so broken he's not worth saving. That he'll never be good enough, that he's damned irreparably. Every now and then the crushing weight of the fear of Hell keeps him awake, unable to sleep until he exhausts himself by praying until he's crying so hard he can't breathe. Adrian wakes up feeling almost hungover, going through the motions of his day. Eventually the fog lifts, and he starts feeling better.

And the roller-coaster starts again.

[astronautical-v]

Dumping almost every thought i have about the dwemer in an incoherent ramble because i have too many ideas and nothing to do with them. I have only played skyrim and know some about morrowind and read up on a ton of lore so im probably way off in a lot of places

Was thinking about the "fifteen-and-one sacred tones" that the dwemer mention and im trying to think. What the hell does that even mean? Obviously its reminiscent of the "eight-and-one" divines which implies its something to do with the aedra and daedra. So its either the eight divines (since talos wasnt a thing yet) and eight of the daedric princes OR all sixteen daedric princes. Since there just so happen to sixteen of them (as of then. Ithelia wouldnt have been known by them or anyone else around that time anyway). But then that begs the question, whos the "and one"? Whos the outlier? Im guessing either sheogorath or malacath. Sheogorath bc hes the daedric prince of madness and therefore the least predictable of them all, but also because sheogorath is also jyggalag, making him different from the rest of the daedric princes, as well as the fact that a mortal can become sheogorath just as tiber septim could become a god. Malacath because he used to be trinimac, and trinimac is present in im pretty sure every elven pantheon, and the dwemer, despite not believing in the divinity of the aedra or daedra, are very much elves, and would probably have known about trinimac just because of other mer. If malacath used to be a god, then it would make sense that the dwemer would consider him to be an outlier. Supposedly even other cultures dont always see malacath as a real daedric prince either, and malacath himself has to do with those who are scorned, othered, etc.

The dwemer probably viewed the daedra and aedra as nothing more than energies, the tones that make up the world (or something like that), but focused less of the divines and more on the daedra because the daedric princes are MUCH more present and involved on mundus than the aedra tend to be. The dwemer simply did not believe they were anything worth worshipping, or even considering to be above them. They recognized the power that they had, though, which is why they were called the "sacred" tones. I guess. I dunno. Alternatively, it was the eight divines and 8 daedric princes, but i dont know which of them they would be.

And regarding the term "fifteen-and-one", i was wondering what the 16 tones could possibly have an equivalent to in real life. I also wondered how they programmed any of their machines to do what they wanted, then somewhat jokingly came to the conclusion that they used some kind of dial-up and transmitted data via sound. But then doing a bit of research i found this:

16 tones. Crazy. Wow. Felt like i hit a revelation. Unfortunately i dont understand how that stuff works so i was reading a whole lotta words and not absorbing that much of them (i am not technologically adept). But the mention of radio was also really important because theres plenty of proof that the dwemer DID in fact have radio technology. Theres an item called "dwemer coherer", and a coherer is a really really old form of radio communication that basically only really worked for morse code messages and kinda sucked at it, but it was radio. And thats huge.

Regarding the radio stuff, i do think the dwemer had actual telepathy but that they also used radio. I think maybe their telepathy just wasnt as long range and probably like using a walkie-talkie but with their minds. Idk. I think the only way that kagrenac couldve used "the calling" to affect EVERY dwemer ever is if it was some sort of direct mental connection, and if every dwemer had that ability it would explain how it worked. Maybe kagrenac just amplified it somehow bc of the heart. And it would explain why yagrum bagarn wasnt affected, because if it wasnt some sort of telepathy then whatever kagrenac did with the heart would have simply had to affect every dwemer regardless of where they were. But since yagrum wasnt in mundus at the time, the calling never reached him, so he wasnt affected, and i just think that means it had to be telepathy. Idk im not explaining this point well but i hope it makes some amount of sense.

With that all said i think if they did have telepathy i also think their ears would be pointer and more mobile. Like radio antenna. Just because its fun to think about. They can "tune in" and out of other peoples... callings? I guess? Idk. They probably used radio primarily for longer distance communication.

With all the stuff about sound, it brings me to the falmer. I dont know why the dwemer did that to the falmer and im not sure if they were already all fucked up by the time the dwemer disappeared but im pretty sure they werent. But thinking about that thing in eso that they just had a huge machine that could make people go crazy and even mind control them, as well as in skyrim on solstheim that guy who was losing his mind over some weird dwemer thing under his house that emits a really deep sound if you listenclosely and ignore the steam pump sound (though i have no idea what "fire from the deep" could possibly mean, other than dwemer lived underground and had forges. Idk), their usage of tones was really for everything. They could probably hear a wider range of frequencies than other races and observed the effects of those frequencies on other people. Consider how old structures and machines irl produce very low frequency sounds that can and do affect the mind.

The dwemer very much could have used infrasound in their own technology for various reasons, but its probably what made the falmer what they are today. And, also likely, that the lack of maintenance of machines and whatever (since all the dwemer disappeared and automatons can only do so much) caused them to go "out of tune" and probably produce more infrasound that is impossible for anyone other than a dwemer to hear, which would have greatly affected the falmer mentally. Thinking about how gelebor notes that the falmer seem to have a "rise in intelligence" recently is probably because the falmer in the forgotten vale are so far from any dwemer ruin that they arent being affected by the infrasound they produce. Im sure infrasound alone wouldnt have caused such a huge chance in a whole race but this is also fantasy magic world so im saying this all as the dwemer had some elder scrolls world equivalent of it. The falmer developing sensitive hearing was maybe a way that their bodies tried to adjust to the infrasound so as to not be driven completely insane by it, along with aiding their navigation while blind.

And since this is fantasy magic land, this all also reminds me of string theory. The theory that everything that ever exists is made up of little one-dimensional strings, closed or open, that vibrate. And well sound is a vibration and theres a connection there that i havent fully understood to think through but it would help explain why theyre so atheistic in a world where gods are very much real. They just think everything is a form of energy that they are trying to figure out how to harness. And they succeeded in a lot of ways. If everything is made of vibrating energy, or tones, then you can simply make other tones and do stuff with that. Does that make sense? I dont know how to explain exactly what i mean. They probably had tone tech that helped them with excavation and whatnot. Breaking stones with sound. Idk. You can even shatter kidney stones with sound. Its pretty cool.

Also i think the dwemer ate a lot of mushrooms as their primary cuisine. It only makes sense. Living in places that have mushrooms everywhere. Probably how they knew about the toxic mushrooms that blind you if you eat them. Also they had a mushroom farm in blackreach.

I like to imagine the dwemer singing. Thats probably not how they did tonal architecture stuff but its fun to imagine they could do that vocally anyway. Idk

Uhh i dont think i have anything else i remember thinking about tbh. Im so interested in how their tech works and what they used it all for. Worldbuilding type of stuff. I dont know what to think about the soul gems or whatever the hell is going on with kagrenzel or the lexicon in avanchnzel. But yeah

[anonymous-nicholas]

The Best Anime Quotes

“Being weak is nothing to be ashamed of. Staying weak is.” - Fuegoleon

In my last Dragon Ball Super video I discussed some of the lessons I learned from going to the gym these past few years, and some viewers expressed a sentiment that made me a bit sad. While some of you saw the video as inspiring or motivational, some viewers expressed that the lessons were above them, and unattainable. 

If you watch my videos then you’re most likely a fan of anime, shonen anime specifically. One of the reasons I love shonen anime is because of this overarching theme they all share that centers them in a sort of self-improvement space. Even the silliest of shonen anime focuses on the philosophy of overcoming all life's challenges by simply improving yourself. 

If you at all believe that you are not where you want to be, or that you are not the person you want to be. That’s okay. There’s nothing wrong with being able to identify the potential for progress, the problem instead lies in a refusal to do anything productive with that insight.

“You’ll laugh at your fears when you find out who you are.” - Piccolo 

A long time ago I had a good friend of mine explain his personal philosophy of unlimited potential. He’s a youth pastor at a church in my hometown who preaches to troubled teens about the abilities he believes we are all born with, but some never fully take advantage of. 

Each and everyone of us is born with the ability of unlimited potential, and the opportunity to become our idealized selves. Unfortunately, most people don’t embrace this gift that we are all given, and those people always fall short of their goals. But once you realize the gift you were given, begin to practice it each and every day, you will soon be so far from the person you once were that the life you previously viewed as challenging will be nothing but a memory. Additionally, you will hopefully find new, harder challenges and larger goals to strive for. 

“Even the mightiest of warriors experience fear.” - Vegeta 

Theres a couple to be said about this quote in particular. Partly the idea that your anxieties and panic are felt by may other people in your situation - including your heroes and mentors - but also that this fear is a good thing.

A long time ago, when I was being given more and more responsibility in my professional life, I was starting to get scared that I couldn’t handle the life I had worked so hard to build for myself. Despite feeling like I deserved it, I became more and more anxious that I was setting myself up for failure. I almost turned down a promotion and an offer from a larger company that was looking to pinch me from my current firm. More than anything I didn’t want to let other people down. Even to this day I find myself hesitating to accept praise for my work or take on new challenges because I don’t want to disappoint the people I love and respect. I only had the courage to go through with both of those opportunities, and the future ones that I will one day have, because at the beginning of my career I had a mentor confide in me.

She asked me - of all people - if she really deserved her position as director of the department. The details of the conversation aren’t important. What is important is that this was a real thing that I promise happened, and this mentor of mine had been in her position for almost 10 years, with the company for more than 20, and was promoted by the CEO herself.

Before that conversation I had this fear that I was just faking all my success, and that each failure I experienced was proof of my incompetence. I fully believed that I was in the place I was meant to be for the rest of my life.

You probably experience these same fears and anxieties of being inadequate and undeserving of all the good things that have come to you, or maybe you feel that you’re undeserving of your idealized self. Everyone around you has felt these same fears at some point, including the people you respect the most.

Additionally, these fears are good for you. They can be the driving force behind striving for progress, or at least the ignition to kickstart you down a new path of improvement. A lof of my personal growth has come from that place of fear. Just feeling it means that you care about what you have and what you’re working towards. It can also be used as the guiding light that points you towards your next steps. My fear of being inadequate is what led me down the path of self-improvement, my fear of not deserving the love my girlfriend - now wife - led me to be a more proactive, emotionally invested partner, and my fear of one day looking back and having regrets is what led me to finally start this YouTube channel.

If you feel the fear, just know that it is good. I believe some of the most successful people all experience that exact feeling at some point or another.

“If I die trying, at least I tried.” - Luffy

“There’s no shame in falling down.” - Midorima

One of the reasons people never take the step forward is fear of failure, but failing is the quickest way to learn. You’ll learn more from your failures than you ever will from success, and you can’t expect to be successful all of the time. A knight in shining armor has never truly had his metal tested, and constant success is nothing to brag about because it means you never really tried. If you’re not failing you’re not putting in effort, and effort will always outweigh - greatly - whatever innate talent led you to the success you have. If you are successful, consistently, you will hit a ceiling that your talent and natural abilities won’t let you surpass, because growth only lies beyond consistently pushing yourself. Talent and natural ability will always be surpassed by hard, consistent efforts. And failing is a sign of that effort being put forward.

“I do not fear this new challenge. But rather, like a true warrior, I will rise to meet it.” - Vegeta

The ability to accept the possibility of failure is a form of courage, and knowing that failure will always bring you closer to your goals is wisdom. No matter how many times you fall down you can always get back up, and if you keep getting back up you will always meet your goals. Never be afraid to take on a new challenge just because of the possibility of failure. You can always rise to the challenge if you keep getting back up.

“Arrogance Destroys the footholds of victory.” Byakuya

Pride in your abilities is a great thing to have, and you should acknowledge the things you do well. You should also be mindful to respect the struggles you are experiencing and the obstacles in your way. Underestimating the required work of your goals will only ever set you up for failure, and you’ll find that you can anticipate the hurdles you’ll need to overcome in order to seize accomplishment. 

In the gym, we refer to this as “staying humble,” in football, my coach referred to this as “never underestimating your opponent,” and in the boardroom, my CEO always referred to this as simply “being prepared.”

Pride comes before the fall. Everyone who begins to just accept success as a part of their life will one day stop seeing success all together.

“To win you have to want something.” - Hiruma

I, unfortunately, know too many people who have no goals. If that’s what makes you happy, then to each their own. But I don’t think many people can find happiness in complacency. Certainly not me, and I doubt you can either. It doesn’t matter if it’s a promotion at work, a new PR at the gym, a better kill to death ratio in the gaming space, whatever. Goals are important to have when you're looking to become a smarter, stronger, more capable version of yourself.

Things like strength and self-improvement don’t come from a place of desire. Growth comes from a place of need and necessity, and you’ll never need to grow or become better if you have no reason to.

I talked about hitting my own personal rock bottom in my last Dragon Ball Super video, and I’d like to use this conversation as an opportunity to clarify something. Hitting that rock bottom isn’t what made me a better person or led to my growth. It may have created that need I’m discussing right now, but more importantly was my willingness to accept and acknowledge the situation. My admittance of being in a horrible situation, I think, is what led to my desire for something better. And in turn that desire manifested in the day-to-day steps that I took to become someone who could accomplish the things that got me to where I am today. I finally have a stable life, a career I am passionate about, a wife who loves and supports me, and I’m in a place where I can say that I am truly happy and fulfilled. But I first needed to realize that I wasn’t happy and fulfilled, and then I needed to figure out what those two things meant for me. They can be different for everyone. Find yours, accept that you don;t have it, and determine what is necessary to get there. Once you know your next step all you have to do is take it. But if there's nothing to strive for then there are no steps to take. And if there are no steps that will move you forward then you’ll stay where you are. You’ll never win if there isn’t something you want.

“Wanting to do it and being suitable for it are two different things.” - Iida

This one hurt to hear and it hurt even more for me to accept. The unfortunate truth that some people refuse to acknowledge is that simply wanting something isn’t enough to actually accomplish things. You also have to be qualified. It’d be great if when we decided to be astronauts or super heroes or big beef cakes who bench 300 lbs, that all those things just happened. But they don’t. You can’t just get the things that you want before first taking the necessary steps towards seizing those desires. You can’t just be someone who wants what you want, you also have to be the person deserving of it, and that person is the one who worked towards that goal or desire. 

If theres something you don’t have right now it is likely because you’re not taking the necessary steps toward that goal. Hitting a new PR at the gym, getting promoted at work, fitting into last years skinny jeans, pivoting into a new industry because you’re not happy with your current job. These are things that don’t just happen on their own. They require your participation.

“Constant effort is lifes greatest shortcut.” - Genji

It doesn’t sound like the easy way out, but it is. Dedicating as much time and energy as possible to accomplishing your goals will always help you get there more quickly. It sounds like a no-brainer, but really think about it. How many people do you know that actually do this? Personally, I don't know many. As much as I love them all, I have many family and friends who claim to want certain things but then only appear to put in the bare minimum time and effort. They constantly complain about not getting anywhere or not accomplishing things quickly enough. But my friends, family, and coworkers who but in just a little more time and effort always end up accomplishing things more quickly. 

Small disclaimer: That’s not to say you should be sacrificing everything for your goals. Down is just as important as the time you spend being productive, and your whole life shouldn’t revolve around one or two goals tied to being productive. We don’t worship the rise and grind culture on this channel, but we also don’t accept mediocrity and complacency. Life is all about balance, and success, health, and happiness reflects that balance. It almost directly equates to it.

“Push through the pain. Giving up hurts more.” - Vegeta

Even if things are hard nothing will be as hard as living regret. Looking back and realizing that you could have accomplished something had you just kept trying is a pain that never goes away, because it is linear and once it’s spent you will never get it back. You’ll never have a second chance to live the life you deserve now, only to begin again at creating that life for the future. Another tomorrow that you will always wish had instead been today. No matter how painful the sacrifice may be pain is always temporary, and there will come a day very soon after that you don’t even remember what the pain felt like. But failure is forever, and failure is even more painful when you have to realize that you brought it upon yourself by giving up.

There are so many things in life that we can accomplish if we do something as simple as continually moving forward. I had a personal trainer that said “showing up is the hardest part, and many people stop doing that. It’s the most common difference between those who meet their goals and those who don’t.”

No matter the sacrifice, no matter the pain, no matter the time and effort; just keep moving forward. Keep getting up and keep showing up. You’ll accomplish more that way.

Honorable Mentions

“Laziness is the mother of all bad habits.” - Shikamaru

“Those who don’t have many abilities tend to complain more.” - Kakashi

“If I can still move at all then I just can’t sit still.” - Deku

“When real men do what they need, it’s not always what they want.” - Kuwabara

[badxsshottiexllie]

"Unfortunately, he knows what I look like because I was talking to Mona last night. I also have no doubt he knows about how I saved you from that random guy based on word of mouth so I could be screwed in this too..." She was a good looking woman, was fit, knew how to fight, and was skilled in machinery and technology due to her bachelor's degree in Industrial Design from another dimension. There was no doubt that anyone would want to use her for their own selfish reasons.

The redhead had no doubt that Mona was innocent in all of this. But the real question was...how did she end up in this awful situation in the first place? Was it after she rejected Eden's job proposals and Hoyt just so happened to offer her a job opportunity? Who knows. What sounded alarming to her in the moment was that Mona's brother was named Murfy. Her rebellion group was working with someone thats also named Murphy. Could they be the same person?

"Shit, thats right. Without solid proof, theres still not much we can do..." The rebel frowned. He may know why Mona's boss was making those "business deals", but it doesn't mean anything unless he had evidence to back up those claims.

"I know this must be very hard on you, but...." Ellie paused, trying to find the right words to say. "You at least know whats going on now and don't have to guess. Its a start...right?" She knew this wasn't the end, and that there would be more that they would have to do. Despite the odds, the woman wanted to be hopeful, especially for Rayman's sake.

@spoocys-glade-of-dreams

*When Ellie arrived at Rayman's penthouse, the limbless show host would direct her to the sofa within the lounge area of the first floor. He sat himself down and listened intently to what Ellie had to say. When presented with the truth of what Hoyt does with the people that are lured to his table, Rayman's jaw dropped.*

"So you're telling me that Hoyt might be using Mona to lure potential traffic to him, and he sells those poor souls off? That certainly explains why my bosses didn't want me to get involved with this. He'd probably try to sell me off if he had the chance. And Mona...

Mona would never keep quiet about something like this going on with her unless she's being threatened. I know her. She'd normally fight back if she could, or she'd come straight to me. She's not someone that would partake in these crimes willingly! Hoyt must be using someone or something against her. And those visitors she gets. They're Hoyt's men. Considering that I'm forbidden from visiting her when they are over... Does this mean that her brother, Murfy, also knows something about all this?

Damn it! If only I had some solid proof of all this, I could have Hoyt buried!"

*Rayman slammed his fist down on the coffee table out of frustration. He let out a sigh and shook his head. He was heartbroken to hear that his friend was in some kind of danger. The thought that Murfy possibly knew something about all this and not telling him also made him furious. There was a whole mess of emotions going through his head right now and it was clearly showing.*

[nyctospoilers]

KHDR Reactions

Episode 5: The Key to Each World’s Order

54 years later:

^ THERE HE IISSSSS MWA MWA MWA MWA

they did a wonderful job drawing the Land of Departure. It’s beautiful.

divoooorce~

7 years later:

YEEESSS YOUNG XEHANORTS THEEEMEEE FUCK YESSSSS

Okay I am DEFINITELY going to make a Xehanort timeline with all these jumps back and forth, just to help me visualize what the hell’s going on LOL. I’m pretty sure this is 3 years after the graveyard scene, though. And looks to be after YX’s time travel trips in both DDD and KH3 too, since he didnt have the real No Name then.

Eraqus “We became keyblade masters a year ago” okay noted…

the way they’re talking in this scene kills me LOL, like “okay Person Playing This, here’s what you missed on Glee.”

Xehanort “since coming here 9 years ago” note that too

ooh girl that was a lot, I’m already satisfied and like— thats already so much of what we’ve seen in trailers!

The Key to Each World’s Order

Xehanort “I want to focus on the task at hand” damnnn cold blooded

E: “I thought you cared about your friends.” X: “a real friend doesn’t manipulate someone’s beliefs to match their own.” E: “A good friend would help a friend see the error of their ways.” X: “who’s to decide what’s right and wrong?” Me looking back and forth 🌛🌜🌛🌜

u know maybe Eraqus and Xehanort don’t like each other afterall LMAO

Eraqus and Bragi dawning their armor and jumping up— did they just blow a hole in the roof??? LOL

^ this game is to me what DDD is to soriku shippers

Vidar and Odin

how would Odin know that the Lost Masters got the darknesses ? I have a theory but… idk I’ll keep watching.

And how would he know about the ones with Player?? hmm

“two are said to have been destroyed when the world collapsed— but theres no proof.” Is the ones with Ven and Maleficent. Its interesting that Odin knows what happened to the other 11 but not these two. I still have a theory but I’ll keep going.

^ Okay I can’t bring myself to hate him anymore, I really cant. I love this LMAO. I just wanna call him mithrandir LOL

Disney Worlds

^ HDKDHDKHDKDH ERAQUS!!!!! also which translator do I have to kiss in gratitude for “Dude!” LMAO

That is so funny that Eraqus and Bragi dipped LOL. They said “this bitch is too vain, she’s never leaving this fucking mirror.” hakhdkffh “alyssa edwards ass”

Okay Chip talking to Xehanort is so fucking funnyyyy

Xehanort “I deal with difficult people all the time.” lmao

^ he’s so mopeeyyyy I love Beast from this film

Hermod to Xehanort “Are you sure you’re not upset about Eraqus? I’m sensing some hostility…” LMAO

Heyyy I think we got our first “May my heart be my guiding key” of the game! UX excluded of course.

^ YEESSS THE FUCKING GLASSES GLOW LMAOOOO VALAA

honestly this fucking goal thing the upperclassmen keep mentioning is so fucking suspicious….

^ her slow dancing by the piano, I got sapphic vibes LOL

“I expected more obedience” hello???

^ THE OTHER LESBIAN!

omg dont THROW THE GLASS!!!

1 year later:

“1 year after the upperclassmen went missing, we would be given the Mark of Mastery” okay noted. I gotta keep this in mind with Re:Mind’s cutscenes and KH3’s report by young Xehanort.

not the series of unfortunate events LOL

Yesss the Xehanort Report where he mentions forgoing his armor to embrace the darkness between worlds!

^^ OOOOO OHOHOH! HELLO!!

[hallowsvilbur]

[cringe]bear's Pizzaria

Freddy Fazbear's is a sensitive topic that many don’t address correctly, In my amateur and very much unqualified opinion, I am subject to believe that Freddy's is a gross and capitalistic cycle of fame. Before I get into this I want to address very clearly that I don’t support William Afton in any way, I think he is actually very evil and not cool. in this I am only saying speculation and nothing is factual, basically more of a conspiracy theory. The facts: Things that are 100% for certain, no one can deny. William is very immature and irresponsible; we know this because we has done many things that usually fully sober people would think about maybe once, but then anyone would think again about and then say, “wow, what an awful idea.” Just as an example, William created evil killing robots, got super pissed off at news channels that commented on it for weeks without even checking his blueprints, and disrespected children on their birthday day, and probably more that I’m not thinking of. If anyone needs some sort of evidence then just look it up.  Now clearly by now you might think this guy is a total prick and made some shitty choices, in that you would be right, but there is another aspect that has also been lightly addressed by others. The other members of the Fazbear Company also have a slightly problematic past (go figure, who doesn’t), using one as an example, Henry once neglected his daughter which ended with her dead in the rain. This is pretty fucked up right? Except when you take into consideration that this was years ago and was also (unfortunately) part of the norm, he has since made an apology about this (which I am *not* the target audience for acceptance so I will not pretend to forgive him for). Now you might be thinking,”wow that is still pretty bad but argubitably a bit less bad now.” You see, this is not what people on TikTok and Twitter think. For the record, I am 100% not trying to stand up for for Henry, I am only relaying the facts. People online think that since Henry (and others) are on the Fazbear development team that means everyone on there supports and stands by William. Now this gets into the area not supported by any facts, and also happens to be the perfect transition into my next topic.

Fazbear Ent. (not based on fact): Freddy Fazbear's Pizza (if you don’t know) is a pizzaria where the animatronics perform while everyone eats pizza. It’s pretty simple and has been done probably 100 times before but this one seemed to blow up and inspire 1000 more pretty much copying it exactly. It sounds pretty simple at heart but the real corrupt part of it takes place with the main founders; William, and Henry. Something I never see ANYONE talk about ANYWHERE is the constant queer-baiting between Freddy and Bonnie. I used to watch these god-awful performances and it was pretty much every script they did together. My theory is that William started this all, William was the first one to speak out about it and is mainly the only one to bring it up at all. He knows that the fake “relationship but not really” he made will bring customers and fan-made content, which in turn brings more revenue. I believe he might do this because 1: he knows how children's minds work 2: theres proof of him being a self-centered asshole.  I know that might trigger some Fazbear stans but to be honest I don’t care.  Now to get into the marketing aspect of the pizzariz. Everyone knows that Freddy Fazbear's is a big void thats constantly filling up with donations from visitors, and as long as the content brings in kids and mentally ill tweens they will be set for life. Imagine you were invited to this pit full of money, getting to buy whatever you want. You wouldn’t want to leave, even if you have to work with someone you dislike. Thats kind of my stance on Freddy Fazbear's. Once again, I am not saying there is any factual evidence that anyone on the Freddy Fazbear development team doesn’t like William.  Something to note is that is Henry left a bit after a lot of the shitty things William was doing happened, possibly nodding to the fact he could not like the things he did? That is the part where things get a little blurrier for me, I stopped going to see the performances all together at this point, I only caught glimpse of what was happening with a couple news headlines recommended to me. Target Audience/ The Fanbase The target audience for Freddy Fazbear's (as I’ve stated before), Is children. Before you read any further I want you to envision Freddy Fazbear fans as just a bunch of children, because thats something many people don’t take into consideration when actually MURDERING these kids. I don’t care if maybe a couple of the teenage fans of the Pizzaria get all pissed about me calling them children. Teenagers are still children, this is coming from a teen. Sending death to someone you KNOW is probably a child is fucking ridiculous. I don’t understand it. Instead of stuffing these kids into robot suits we should inform them about why William is shitty. The reason the fans are so stubborn about it is because a bunch of people are telling them they *cant* watch these performances, naturally they are going to watch it even more. Ending note: Thanks if you read this far, its 1 am and I just recently made a Tumblr acc so I thought I would write my thoughts about this down. Sorry if there is some weird sentences, this isn’t really all that edited. I hope I gave at least one person a different perspective or someone who feels the same way someone to relate to. If this post gains any traction at all I just know I’m going to get death threats and those petty “wheres the evidence bozo?” comments. If you don’t know what William did or want evidence then you should look it up. It is the consumers responsibility to know who they are watching. Anyway good night, I’m going to bed after this. love ya <3

[animalinvestigator]

Was Paul actually kept somewhere and forced to play the game? I'm a bit confused on that bit.

And, if you feel like, what are your thoughts on Belle's PlayStation being on for so long?

Probably, and i'll run you down why i say that! Got long so its under the readmore sorry i literally have to talk so much

here's my citation on him being at the very least coerced into continuing to play the game after a certain point, in the description left on petscop 11 by the family:

so we have pretty strong textual proof that paul isn’t entirely happy to be put in a situation where he has to play the game, which lends credence to the notion that wherever he’s playing the game, he’s been put there against his will. the stress that you can hear in his voice from 11 onward also kind of makes it readily evident that he’s not super excited to be playing the game anymore. and then we have the monitoring of his location -- in petscop 16, we see the burn in monitor, which appears to be tracking the location of someone playing the game, who is in a small, controlled room -

the monitor of what’s being played on the tv seems to show the house, which is a location in game where paul would have been playing at the time (probably -- theres a lot of dubiousness with the upload order), so its fair to assume this is him  (also because of the person playing’s seeming reluctance to address the game, even though its literally making siren noises at them) .

and while you could easily make the argument that the ghost room/testing room is a metaphorical location rather than a real place where paul is located, i feel like 23 addresses that pretty head on -- marvin apparently knows where the testing rooms shown in the classroom are located and physically goes there, and belle also seems to acknowledge that the ghost room is a physical space with her warning message to paul:

(Left in the additional note from the comprehensive progress doc because i think its interesting -- kind of implies belle is in a testing room too, or at least has been, which is something i think about a lot) 

all of this makes it pretty clear that the ghost room is an actual place you can go, and while the way paul ended up there is left ambiguous, it’s pretty clear that he doesn’t particularly want to be there. the rooms themselves raise a lot of questions, but however they came about and whatever they’re for, paul seems to physically be there. my best guess is that the family put him there to better monitor his gameplay, but its also dubious how the family members knew about these rooms and how deep their connections to petscops surveillence systems run.

with regard to belle’s playtime, it’s really not something we get much solid information about whatsoever! (this is the case with most of belles history unfortunately) so really everything i could say about it is mostly conjecture. that being said, belle’s playtime translates to roughly 17.5 years, which would put the time she started playing around late ‘99 or early 2000 - which is interesting for a number of reasons ( Her “rebirthing” attempt would have had to happen before christmas 97 because thats probably when rainer died and he was directly involved, so why did she start playing again in 99/2000? anyones guess) theres some evidence to suggest her copy may have been running in the surveillance rooms -- as shown in the earlier figure, belle seems to be really familiar with the ghost rooms, and wherever she goes to play petscop, it would have to be somewhere marvin can access (”marvin picks up tool hurts me when playstation on”), and we know marvin has access to the ghost rooms. that being said, wherever it is, she can freely come and go (going to the windmill with her brother see petscop 22), so it’s not the same situation as pauls. belle pretty clearly has some degree of fixation on petscop -- she’s extremely fluent in the phonetic text language, can play her septet flawlessly now despite being unable to as a child, knows how to use nifty, etc etc etc. so my guess is that shes been keeping it running in hopes of finding a way to free herself from the quitters room so she could get answers on what happened to rainer, who she had personal connections with as a child. how exactly she was able to keep it running this long is something you kind of have to suspend your disbelief on, but having her copy of petscop running in the school is a potential explanation for it , considering it seems marvin either lives there or frequently goes there and would be able to maintain it somewhat. so yeah, long and short of it, we dont know at all why she started playing it when she did or how exactly shes been keeping it running, but its clear shes logged a lot of time in it, and the best evidence i have suggests that her copy may have been running in the ghost rooms, which i assume she would visit regularly to prevent the burn in monitor from activating assuming it exists on her copy. at the very least, she has ready access to her copy and can access it pretty much immediately once she finds out paul has been playing the game to try to communciate with him.

SORRY FOR THE ESSAY HOPE IT MAKES SENSE SO EMBARRASSING THT I SENT THIS BEFORE WRITING IT THANKU

[binniedeactivated]

saint. || soobin (2.7)🌪

🖤┊𝔰𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔱 . ೄྀ࿐ 𝖕𝖆𝖎𝖗𝖎𝖓𝖌: 𝖘𝖔𝖔𝖇𝖎𝖓 𝖝 𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖉𝖊𝖗 𝖌𝖊𝖓𝖗𝖊: 𝖘𝖒𝖚𝖙/𝖆𝖚 𝖜𝖔𝖗𝖉 𝖈𝖔𝖚𝖓𝖙; 2436

spending time studying became easier and easier by the day for soobin with your help of course. even in school he found himself using your methods of studying and was actually pretty consistent with it. studying was also good in terms of him passing his exams but it was also an excellent tool for soobin to try and forget what occurred just a couple of days ago. He’d been spending so much time with you he hoped you wouldn’t find out about it at all.

but there was nothing to be done when it featured all over the news this morning. soobin curses under his breath knowing this would be the buzz of the school for days on end. nevertheless he nervously awaits outside the door of your classroom. it would be his first time seeing you since the news released not too long ago. the bell rung and students were pooling out of the classrooms in a frenzy about what had happened. some even saying they wanted to stop by and see the scene before they went home. soobin thought it was weird, but whatever. he lays his head back on the wall until you strolled out of the classroom with books tucked into your arm. you walked out without even looking at him so he caught up to you, tugging your arm back.

“mama--”.

“soobin, I don’t know if I want to talk to you right now”. you stated as calm as you possibly could. 

“so you’ve heard?”.

you placed your hand on your hip at his reply. 

“what do you mean have I heard? do you think I was born yesterday. It’s obvious who did it. my question is why didn’t you stop them?”.

“why is this my fault?”.

“I been told you to tell your idiot friends to leave her alone and that whatever they had going on is over. you didn’t do it did you?”.

soobin sighs in defeat. 

“you’re acting like they would’ve listened to me”.

“why wouldn’t they? you’re choi soobin right? the cute rich that every guy in this school wants to be? most popular? the one who calls all the shots right?”.

you turn to walk away but soobin pulls your arm back again. 

“you don’t understand how difficult this is. they won’t stop. that night when they did it I was with you. I wasn’t involved at all--”.

“because they’re your friends this means you’re just as attached to this situation as they are. mia was already being effected by other medication but now she has to deal with this trauma too? theres no telling what they did to her in that house soobin”. 

“why are you pinning this on me? you’re acting like I told them to do it”.

“why are you trying to disassociate yourself from them now as if you all weren’t close weeks ago?”.

“I’m trying to be a better person. I really am, princess. you have to believe me when I say I didn’t want that to happen to mia just as much as the next person. I’m just as confused about their motives as you are”. 

honestly, you thought. who did soobin think he was? did he really think he could win you over with his innocent face and pet names? because if that’s what he thought then... maybe he’s right. you had to admit you saw him changing himself piece by piece. although he isn’t entirely perfect now you knew he was trying. you calmed yourself down before you spoke. 

“so what do you think this is going to mean for you soobin?”. 

soobin sighs, knowing what you meant by that. 

“I- I don’t know. but don’t worry. my parents know a lot of people and can pay for lawyers to lift any suits if they are placed on me”.

you unconsciously frown. since soobin wasn’t there you knew his friends would try to make everything seem as if it were his idea. because you knew even long ago that his friends weren’t as real as soobin thought they were, and that’s just the type of people they were. and although soobin was one of them not too long you began to think that maybe it isn’t fair for soobin to get wrapped up in their antics after all. 

soobin pulls you into his chest hugging you and kissing you on your forehead. he was already scared and worried for himself enough, he couldn’t deal with you being worried for him too. 

“i’ll be fine. you just keep worrying about passing these exams so you won’t get punished by your mom”.

you placed your chin on his chest, now looking up at him. 

“have you been studying on your own? how is it going?”. you ask. 

“bad. it’s boring studying alone”. 

“why? because you don’t have someone to touch constantly?”.

you smirk detaching yourself from him now starting to walk to your next class. soobin laughs behind you. “that’s not true”. he calls louder watching you turn inside. he missed you between classes, he really did. once he was finished watching you he turned around to see yeonjun standing behind him with a grin waiting at the corner of his lips. 

“are you done loverboy?”. 

“where the hell did you come from?”.

“the shadows. let’s go to free period we have to talk”. 

soobin nodded, following yeonjun into the library with their designated teacher and sitting at their designated table. soobin piles his textbooks and notebook on the table. yeonjun does the same, the both of them knowing they weren’t going to get much studying done. 

“so you saw the news this morning?”. yeonjun starts. soobin was sharpening his pencil. 

“unfortunately”. 

“and you do know that mia ratted them out to the police right?”. soobin’s eyes widened. he stops his sharpening. 

“she did what?”. 

“they are no longer suspects anymore soobin”.

soobin’s heart tanked. 

“it’s only a matter of time before your name pops up”. yeonjun mentions again. 

“I’m going to get a lawyer”. soobin replies.

“make sure you get a good one soobin. since you were friends with them at one point it’s going to have a bad reflection on you”.

“it might, but where is the proof that I planned the whole thing? how would they even get away with saying that?”. 

“you’d be surprised the lengths that people go to just get themselves out of trouble. especially with the charges they have over their heads”. soobin breathes again, trying to feel positive that his lawyer would be the one to get him through this. 

“does your girlfriend know?”. yeonjun asks, 

“she knows about the incident and she was getting mad at me because she told me to tell them to stop messing with mia and I didn’t tell them. she’s saying that if I did what she said I wouldn’t be in this situation right now”.

yeonjun nods. 

“what are you going to do if the hotel situation comes up?”.

“why would it?”.

“the boys need evidence to deem you capable of carrying out such a plan. the more clearer the evidence gets the closer you are to becoming an inmate”. 

soobin gulps. at this rate, the only thing that was on his side was time. 

“whatever you do, you have to tell your lawyer everything. like everything in full detail so they are able to defend you when it comes up”. 

“everything?”.

“yes everything. the last thing a lawyer wants is to be surprised with some new information by their client in court. above all else though, you must be ready for anything”. 

soobin nods. it was going to be hard to admit what he’d done but he would rather do so than to be sent to prison. he tapped his pencil on his paper a couple of times before speaking. 

“yeonjun”. 

“yo?”.

“why are you helping me? you aren’t afraid of getting caught in it?”.

yeonjun shrugs, writing the last of his sentence before speaking. 

“if i’m caught in this i’ll protect you”. 

“but why?”.

“because you’re just a dumb bastard whose trying to be a good person and your friends are fucking it up for you”. 

soobin chuckled a little. “thanks, dipshit”. 

“what did i say about thanking me?”. yeonjun playfully responds. the joy in yeonjun gave soobin at least a little bit of hope. hopefully he’d be able to get himself out of this. that’s all that clouded his mind these days. he’s done bad stuff in his life but he never knew it would lead him to this extreme. but all of this clouded worry was brushed away when school was over and he was able to see you again. 

he kisses your neck while you were retrieving things from your locker and you flinch. he laughs at your shock and you looked like you wanted to kill him. 

“soobin! what are you doing?”. he pinches your cheek softly. 

“I can’t kiss you?”. 

“not on the neck--at school”. you reply. he childishly rolls his eyes and waits for you. 

“this is the beauty that I haven’t gotten a chance to meet yet”. yeonjun grins approaching soobin’s side. you turn, trying to figure who it was that said that. some blue haired kid that you haven’t saw around here before. you kind of thought he was cute but, don’t tell soobin that. 

“yeonjun don’t start”. soobin nudged. yeonjun ignores him and continues talking to you. 

“how you doing? i’m choi yeonjun. i don’t think we’ve met”. 

“choi? you’re related to soobin?”. you ask. 

“in some way, yeah”. 

“interesting”. you say nonchalantly, grabbing the rest of your things and closing your locker. you didn’t want him to think you cared about anything he had to say. 

yeonjun slides his arm up the locker beside yours, 

“so yeah whenever soobin is acting like a bitch, you can call me”. yeonjun joked, winking for good measure. soobin shoves him into the opposite direction and yeonjun laughs in return. 

“stop fucking playing around you idiot”. soobin scowled with his hand on your lower back, ushering you away from him. yeonjun’s watches the both of them go, “remember what I said!”. he shouts after soobin. and soobin heard him loud and clear, he just didn’t want to think about that right now. 

“how was your classes today?”. soobin begins while you both were now settled in his car. it was kind of second nature at this point, you going with soobin after school. 

“they were okay, I’m tired of hearing about the same information. are you going to your classes nowdays?”.

“yeah i’ve started. i thought it was pretty stupid to study for exams and not go to class”.

choi soobin? going to class? it had to be some type of miracle. 

you were fixing your ponytail,

“so? my house or your house today for studying?”. you question. now driving soobin answers, 

“let’s go get some food. how about a coffee shop?”. 

actually, a coffee shop didn’t sound too bad. it gave you both a break from being enclosed in your homes. you nod in agreement. while driving though you couldn’t help but to start up a little conversation.

“so? where did choi yeonjun come from?”. 

“he’s this kid that was brought to my house by my dumb ass friends. I hated him at first”. 

“why?”.

“because he was talking back to me”.

you laughed. 

“talking back?”.

“i was shit talking him and he was shit talking back. that was a first for me”.

“god forbid no one is scared of you, soobin”. 

soobin laughs, “yeah i thought it was pretty cool to be feared. but when yeonjun was talking back I kind of realized I like a person that knows how to defend themself. so then I started liking him”. 

“you can date him instead of me you know”. you tease. soobin deadpans you for a brief second before putting his eyes back on the road. 

“it’s not even like that”. 

“oh so it’s complicated?”. you tease again and soobin laughs, you could tell that this time he wanted to murder you. the both of you arrive at a small cafe shop on the corner of two of the biggest streets in town. you were sure to bring your backpack inside with you, you hoped you could get a lot done even if you were with soobin this time. 

he pulls your chair out for you and you thank him whilst taking your seat. he sits across from you. he was pretty satisfied with the size of the table, you guys needed just as much space as you could get. 

your eyes grazed the menu at the endless flavors of coffee the shop sold. some sounded just pure weird and some sounded delicious. “have you ever been here before?”. soobin questions. you shake your head no. “I forgot this town even had coffee shops”. you admit. 

“welcome! what can I start you guys with today?”. the waitress asked. soobin orders a hawaiian salted caramel coffee which sounded amazing, but not as amazing as the one you had in mind. you decided to order the s’mores flavored coffee. 

“so did you hear?”. you prompt. “no, what is it?”. 

“the school is hosting an incentive for the seniors who ace their exams this year”. 

“what is it going to be?”. 

“I’m not sure but I’m kind of excited. I know most seniors didn’t pass their exams last year so i’m motivated. that’s probably what the school is trying to do anyways, motivate us”.

“that is kind of motivating. but we go to a catholic school so for all we know our incentive can be an extra church service”. 

you laugh. 

“i’ll die”. 

“excuse me choi soobin?”. voices blare behind him. you’d saw the two officers walk in but you thought they were going to a table, not targeting soobin. your eyes widen. soobin turns around, stunned once he found out who was searching for him. 

“yes?”. 

one of the officers beckon his hand upwards, signaling that he wanted soobin to stand up. soobin does so. 

“you’ll be coming with us for now”. the other officer spoke pulling out his handcuffs. you gasp. soobin was at a lost for words. he pulled his hand away. 

“wait just let me--”. he fishes for his wallet and gives you some cash. “i’ll be fine princess. don’t worry. eat well”. 

the officers take the both of his wrists and cuffs them tightly. soobin didn’t really know if he’d be fine. truth be told he was scared out of his mind. and truth be told you were more than scared out of yours. 

[mar-bluu]

with Invasion day finally coming to a close, i just wanna remind everyone that while it’s good to sit out of the day and recognise it for celebrating the genocide of Indigenous Australians, that shouldn’t be where your support and effort ends. I’ve seen a few posts with links to helpful donation sites, which i definitely recommend visiting, but for people like myself who can’t donate, educating yourself is the next best thing.

as with the history of most colonised countries, Australia’s history has been twisted to a more ‘palatable’ version of “Captain Cook came to Australia and bought the land off the Indigenous People! then they all danced and sang and lived happily ever after.” Which is not at all what happened. However, for my entire schooling career, that’s all that we were ever told. Last year was the first year our year ten history curriculum was changed to focus on the actual treatment of the Aboriginal people during colonisation. up until then, the most we’d ever done was watch ‘Rabbit Proof Fence’.

Last year was the first time i had actually read and learned about the real treatment of Indigenous Australians, beyond the “colonisers didn’t like them very much :/”. and let me tell you there were some horrors. (if you’re up for it, check out this website that details the massacres that took place from 1780 to 1930) By the end of each lesson, our class would grow angrier and angrier at what we read, horrified by the brutal massacres and destruction of sacred areas, as well as frustrated at the fact that until then, we hadn’t been taught this.

Did you know that Indigenous Australians make up 2% of the national population, but make up 27% of the prison population? with over 400 deaths in custody since 1991? 

Did you know that the rate of Indigenous suicide has increased from 5% in 1991 to 50% of total Australian suicides in 2010 with youth suicides increasing from 10% in 1991 to 80% in 2010?

Did you know that in 2015-2016 Indigenous children were 10 times more likely to be placed in out of home care compared to non-Indigenous children?

Did you know that until 1967 Indigenous Australians were excluded from the rest of the population and weren’t even included on the census? 

cause until last year, I didn’t.

Even with this, some people still want to ignore all of it, dismiss it as a “thing of the past” despite its continuance and chalk it up to “drama” and “political correctness”, and unfortunately theres not much we can do to change the viewpoints of people stuck in their ways.

but just remember that while your neighbours catch up for drinks or a barbeque, and while Australian flags are being waved around and worn like capes, remember who’s land we’re living on, and the Indigenous Australian’s ongoing fight to get the justice and equity they deserve.

[whatisgoingonpaul]

Ghost au: First concepts!

I thought I should make this all a text post first, as my art seriously seams to disappear from the tags theres at least 2 recent ones that aren’t there. So anyway take the core beginnings of the au.

Star, ‘19’ -

She seamingly has it all this smoking hot young woman who seams to have no responsiblity in the slightest this total free spirit. Only problem is she’s a bit odd. She talks to herself a lot... except the issue is. She sees and talks to ghosts. About three years ago maybe longer she can’t remember it started happening, she walked so far down the beach she reached this sort of opening to the cave. (Completely now without the graffiti.) it wasn’t a cave ... not completely but the hollowed out remains of a hotel. The hotel, she read about this every spoke on the place how grand it used to be. More importantly the money it brought the place back in the day.

That was when she met them. The boys. This group of the dead, ghosts. She at first was welcoming, though frightened but it soon became clear that they had attached to her. Ghosts aren’t typically one to leave where they died or a place of real emotional importance unless they attach. And they did, they went practically insane seeing the Modern world(... well 1987) she meets Micheal and passes the attachment to him without knowing at first.

- quick note that in this au the Lobby would look completely different, there wouldn’t be the graffiti or the posters and art and items scattered about we all know it for. It would be extremely bare bones; just the remains of the hotel and some barley intact furniture. The candles were added by star.

Micheal -

Himself. A adverage teen with the same story that he had moved with his family here. He was drawn to star unexplainably. He had the same ability at first, completely unknowing that her friends were ghosts until he started to see them more clearly. The blood, the sunken faces- the transparency. He was F R E A K E D until he got to know them. Sam- basically himself and the frog brothers are just paranormal little conspiracy theorists who want to get the lost boys on tape. They desperately just want to know everything about ghosts.

Sam and the frogs-

They themselves don’t change much as charecters, except the frog brothers are more into ghosts. Into the studies and the need for proof, they need to know if the boys are good and if they can’t make them pass on or leave people alone.

David , 18-

His story is about the same. Orphaned at a young age, stealing from pockets as a kid using his charm. He found the boys and they started doing it all together, it went pretty well... though they never did have much street credit. See, adult gangs never had much of a like or respect to these kids messing around - threats were often cast, insults thrown but it never got serious. They never liked calling attention to the police. Though one night a fight went down, the boys were never heavy on weapons- they didn’t have guns like the adult gangs. David had one, but he was a terrible shot and it had proven fatal, he was shot in the gut and ended up dying from his wound.

Particularly pissy more often then not. Wildly protective and territorial. Though out the years it’s not uncommon for jackass teens to stumble across the hotel, some place to party. He scares them off. Poessesion rumored.

Marko, 18-

First of them all to die. He could never control himself, not really. He didn’t have manners, he didn’t want to - he didn’t want to look ‘proper��� or say his graces to the pretty people. Best of them at stealing, small , quick and cute it was easy- though that didn’t always translate. He would get to cocky for himself mess up deals at times. Some people didn’t like that, his attitude, the snarky way in which he spoke. Rival gangs, angry bar patron- he’s not sure. None of them partially good people. He was cornered in a ally and stabbed- a lot.

Particularly clingy, HATES being alone or any sort of seperation.

Paul, 19-

Escaping. From what? From everything. Unpaid tabs , mistakes, botched robbery and his cheating at cards. Cornered. Beach? Water? Somewhere with water. Drowned.

Cannot sit still, cannot leave things be. Fear of water, understandably.

Dwayne , 19-

The big one, 1906. He was in the hotel when it had happened. Unfortunately he was one of those to get stuck in it. Crushed , impaled or worse. He’s not really sure, he doesn’t really remember it or want to.

The one to find and help laddie. He was the one to bring him with them.

Laddie, 11-

Some kid who went missing in the 1970s and wasnt found. No one knows how he died, he does not much either. He doesn’t know a lot. He ‘woke up’ on the side of the road one day and no one quite has the heart to explain to him. He was found by Dwayne, one of the few that didn’t scare the boy- laddie was just estatic that someone isn’t ignoring him. Someone can see him! Before Dwayne found him bye Would wander the boardwalk tugging at women’s sleeves trying to get their attention, they would turn around and scream or turn pale. Terrifed. They couldn’t see him.

Star also felt bad for him; so when she visits she’ll occasionally bring something for him to mess around with; play with. Sometimes ghosts can just barely move objects, one can hear a ball move - it echos around the cave.

Ghosts-

Breif rundown. I’m basing this more off the real (if you believe in such.) sort. So basically no one can really see or hear them except in certain cases or if they manipulate enough. This isn’t Casper they can’t just walk around town or go wherever they want. It’s where they died; a place of emotional importance or if they made a attachment to someone. In cases like laddie where you either don’t remember your death and carry on like normal or just- wander aimlessly.

Also since their ghost the boys haven’t really seen the world since 1906 and are sort of rocked by the modern world of the 1980’s and just. Star and Micheal answer a lot of questions.

*May do art for this, May write something. Depends on what y’all wanna see 👀

[cosmicbash]

(answer only if ur comfy with answering) i’m pretty sure 3/4 of the boys (em, kells, rook, and pete) prolly self harmed, i mean the fuckers are covered in tats, i won’t be surprised if the “it looks cool” is just an excuse. how would their s/o react to the scars?

Pete:

Pete talked alot about his self harm in his interview early on this year with Charlamagne. I highly recommend anyone who likes Pete, doesnt like pete, or just wants to know who the fuck he is watches is. Its an hour long but I literally sobbed while watching it because its just so heartbreaking some of the stuff hes gone through and how deeply I can relate to alot of his struggles.

Fuck it imma link it.

But anyway. He's said he used tattooing for a while as a less destructive form of self harm because the pain from getting them done worked the same way cutting did for him. Also he had them done to cover up some of his self harm scars because he used to cut his own chest. Pete's always been very open about this kind of stuff. Especially so in the interview where he goes into a lot of explicit detail so if thats potentially triggering I would have to also recommend AGAINST watching it unfortunately.

But as for how his SO would react?

Rook would already know ahead of time about Pete's past and current self harm habits. In interviews Pete talks alot about how he "warns" his partners when they first get together about how he's "crazy" and regularly will need to take "vacations" to the mental hospital to get a handle back on things when his meds need readjusted or his mental health gets to be too much of a struggle to handle on his own with his outpatient therapy. So, by the time they're actively dating, in a serious relationship Rook would already probably have figured out what days are going to be bad ones for Pete and what he can do to help.

Like noticing Pete looking more disheveled on their facetime calls, or his jokes leaning a bit too far on the scale of self deprication. They can't always be together because of their careers and living situations (at least not until they move in together) but Rook would drop some of their usual teasing banter for the day and instead fill their conversations and calls with reassurances and check ins on what Pete might need. The most important thing for him would be making sure Pete knows he loves him and that he's not going anywhere just because Petes having a low day and acte snappy or distant.

Rook doesn't notice Pete's scars most of the time. Not unless he looks closely for them and, except during the dim quiet nights where they're laying together and his fingers are tracing the random explosion of art lining Pete's chest the drummer actually forgets they exist at all. When they first met it was hard for him to even imagine cheery, sweet always giggling Pete in such a dark space that he would do things like that but, once the proof is infront of his eyes it's hard for Rook not to feel his heart ache even before he's fallen completely in love with the man. Rarely he will find his fingers catching on a feather thin line on Pete's skin, and when they do the kiss that follows is not out of pity but one of acceptance. Pete's perfect. Even with all of his sharp edges and missing pieces. That's just more space for Rook to fit himself into to act as support.

Kells:

Kells has said similar too, I think I remember an interview with him saying he also got tatts to cover up some self harm scars (also to fight some of his body dysphoria. Which actually got heightened really badly when he had to wear all that makeup for the dirt and see himself truly 'naked' again.) Cutting himself, including on the chest like Pete has mentioned. He also drinks and does drugs to self harm and numb the pain.

The majority of his scars are hidden away by his colorful tats. The few Em discovers are like Rook, through accident. The pads of his fingers catching on a slightly different texture or a close examination of some of the blonde's artwork. Kells is less vocal than Pete. If Em presses, depending on the day he might give a detailed account for each gash or on a less comfortable night he might change the subject with a "i dunno, probably happened when i was drunk/high/a kid"

Em does his best to respect Kelly's comfort but the few scars he finds uncovered down around the blondes ankle become a favorite spot of his to hold and stroke whenever available. Theres just something about them. Maybe the strong need to "protect" that rushes through him when he touches them or it could be the almost possessive idea that while the world may know every tiny piece of art that litters his boyfriends flesh, this small patch is his and his alone to see. Like a secret held between the two of them.

Em:

Em's obviously talked about his own self harm in the past. His "slit me" wrist tattoo an unashamed statement to it. Even after he got sober and stopped doing the "usual methods" like cutting, drinking excessively, and nearly overdosing, he did struggle with starving himself or abusing his body by over exercising instead. Like Em tore his hip flexors after getting sober because of it. I'd hope that nowadays he's got a better handle on things but it wouldn't be shocking if he still struggled from time to time.

So, Kell's being a huge stan of his. Even before the beef is guaranteed to know about it. He looked up to Em and compared the similarities of their lives for years.

That doesn't make it any less jarring when they get together and he stumbles upon the scars though.

The faint faded lines across Em's wrists he expects. Even the almost undetectable jagged line along the older rapper's scalp from his childhood bully is something he knows enough about to immediately place. But the paler crossing lines he spots one day between Em's thighs are what make them all feel "real" and less like some tiny little trivia fact he read in a magazine, heard in an interview, a song. Them and Em's quiet almost reluctant admission of their placement being the only true "private" space he thought he could use crushing the final leg on the unreachable pedestal a younger Kells had placed the man up on. Allowing him to actually see Em. To fall in love with him.

From that moment on Kells hands find themselves glued there every time they go to sleep. It doesn't matter the position. Big spoon or little spoon he will twist his wrist or arm to curl one hand around the soft flesh of Em's inner thigh. Just to feel them against his palm or to sleepily stroke with his thumb.

Sure, it might be a little like how his knowledge of them tickles that posessive side he and Em both share. But, it's actually mostly just because Kelly finds them beautiful. Scars have always been attractive to him and every bitter huff or dismissal of how they're ugly or childish from Em just makes him want to kiss and stroke them more.

Rook:

I unfortunately don't know much about Rook's history with self harm. Its reasonable to assume he shares the same "drown your sorrows" habits kells and Pete have/did. And from what I've seen and learned about him through his lives and just following his social media I couldnt speculate one way or another.

Regardless any kind of scars Pete might discover on Rook would be treated with care. Lots of soft fluttered kisses and gentle brushes of fingers.

Pete wouldn't pry. Current Rook and the risk of any future scars are far more important to him. If Rook wants to share or talk about them he's of course eager to be there for him to listen and support. And even though he knows the struggle with mental health and jow unavoidable some heartache and pains may be that doesn't stop him from feeling any less grief over not meeting Rook sooner to prevent the drummer from experiencing some of it.

And ahh its almost 1:30 am anon 🥺🥺 sorry I got a little carried away with this ask. I hope it's close to the type of answer you wanted but I'm gonna cut it here because I'm hitting a wall.

[floralkittygambler]

Reposting for reasons

Response to Honest’s post here: Doing this to spread this awareness more as I know theres a bit of a rift in the critical community - plus I really fucking go on. Im PISSED and I do apologise however it NEEDS urgent addressing. I know people will hate me for it but Im used to hate and honestly? Hating rather than helping to solve the issue only furthers my fucking point here. So yeah this is so more people are aware (no offense to any of those involved in said rift either, but this is an important message. Thank you for understanding and if I can do anything to make all sides comfortable, then please message me and I’ll do my upmost.) “ More awareness of this is needed. Even if it’s your favourite, you can’t justify their shit but rally against another’s shit. Have people tell you you’re experiences arent real or invalid because, like Husk, people have - in real life - shipped you with someone you are far from comfortable with but you still treat them like a person. Because you have basic respect. And people force you to accept harassment, touching, stalking, advances for THEIR satisfaction. People use you for their fantasies. But you’re just a ‘tsundere’ for it. Or you have addiction issues but people think being with another addict will ‘save’ you because you’re apparently too incompetent to save yourself. Love isnt some magic fuckin cure so stop romanticising it as a fuckin saviour. It’s gross and fuckin creepy. Get stalked and have someone NEVER accept your no just because you show youre still decent enough to not treat them shitty or any different from anyone else. Try having someone way older or way younger (both in morally fucked up ways) advance on you and people encourage that. People you’re supposed to feel safe around.

People touch you when you pull away or show discomfort. Follow you home. Have pictures of you and wont accept you dont like them like that and it’s not ‘playing hard to get’ or ‘the thrill of the chase’. Fuck. OFF. In fact, Im not only disappointed in the fandom. Im disappointed in the entire team who some should know better from their OWN personal experiences - or at least the bare minimal of being a fucking adult. Im disappointed in especially females (sorry idk whether girl or woman is more appropriate here-) who statistically are more likely to have experienced something similar at some point in their lives think this is a cute gay moment. No. Angel is made out as a fucking predator - Im not saying he is, Im saying that his persistence is very fucking unwelcome like one. People like Husk dont need that fucking invasiveness. They/We need patience and someone on our level. Angel’s I know are the fuckin polar opposite - and some of them I know are very sexually harassing, including unwanted touching. It’s a shitty way to present gay people. Gays are fuckin people. Some are cunts and some arent. It’s a HUMAN thing. But considering the shit theyve been subjected to, presenting a gay as a victim only to also show them as a perpetrator is insulting! And for those Ive seen argue this about how people like AD wouldnt know how to express their love normally and whatnot? His pig. His best friend. He’s in his fucking 30s. There are literal real life criminals who get molested as kids and then go on to molest kids. Not all who grow up like that turn into nonces. Stop just fucking STOP justifying and romanticising this bullshit! I used to see the good in AD but now he makes me fucking sick. Especially with my verrrrrry fucking real traumas and connections. But fuck me, eh? Because this fictional guy matters so much more. Fuck real victims. And whilst we’re at it, fuck AD too when it suits your fetishes! Sarcasm aside, the fans and the team need to straighten up their abhorrent behaviour. Stolas. Fucking clearly having an affair, knowingly fucking up his daughter’s mental health and bribing a guy into sex who only wants the book and nothing more. He even has a fucking warning button over Stolas- Guys, how do you think any of this is cute? Even the team gross me out- I genuinely see potential and talent and it’s all gone to shit to satisfy horny teens, horny adults, and literally everyone who doesnt for the life of them understand being an adult is more than sex, drugs, violence and swears! I REALLY want to keep enjoying HB/HH but it’s getting harder and harder with such ignorant and bordering lazy creators (note: lazy as in wont do the fucking research or actually listen to real criticism and victims), such despicable fans (yeah, some HDers fuckin mocked that they triggered my ED, yet they had the fucking NERVE to support Angel’s potential ED AND laugh and blame me for me getting treated so badly for actually having the balls to call Angel and the teams hypocrisy. I got told to kill myself, that my problems arent real - oh but Angels apparently is! Which... They *are* but AD isnt real so technically only onlookers will suffer and not a drawing  - and they just excused their toxic behaviours. These people are like “aww poor angie babey!” yet fuckin INSULT sex workers. All this red in Hazbin yet it feels everyone and they mama colour blind. The issues are getting worse and fans are outright becoming EVIL, VILE, Vindictive little bullies - from kids to adults. You SHOULD be ashamed of yourself if you conduct yourself in such a manner. And you need to readjust your attitudes and behaviours because the only fuckers getting hurt are actual fucking victims. Ever been violated and been gaslit so much you STILL fucking question it’s reality? So you drown that shit out yet somehow it’s effects still hit you? Fetishise it. Make it your uwu gae couple goals, you’re no better than people believing Harley and the Joker werent toxic af. If this shit happened to you, most of you would actually SEE where we’re all coming from. Also, stop making gay a fetish - you’re like those creepy old men in the alley heckling lesbians to make out so they can wank off. Gays, no ALL the LGBT+ are fucking people too. So dont give me that bullshit then start turning everything just gay or just straight to mentally wank off to. It’s degrading and dehumanising. And yes, fiction does effect reality. You crush on a fictional character? Mourn one? Support one? Hell, fuckin jerk off to one - that’s affecting reality. Remember how in fiction all blacks were treated as villians? Look how theyre treated IRL. JAWS, great classic unfortunately their was a spike in shark killings over a fucking movie - the shark in the movie wasnt even real for the most part because they dont behave like that! (Also the animatronic was so shit they genuinely had so many issues - I think they even took to naming each one! Some fun trivia there!). Tiger sharks are more nasty than great whites as tiger sharks will hunt and eat a human. Great whites prefer seals and dislike human flesh, they just mistake us for seals. Hell, theres the toothless basking shark - theyre often SWAM WITH by divers for being so friendly. Yet Jaws made people think all sharks are bloodlusting over humans. Slenderman was created for a fucking contest and that influenced a stabbing (NOT Victor’s fault). Watch a horror movie that isnt based on a real life event and tell me that at least ONE has left you peaking over your shoulder. Stella may be a bitch - we dont know for certain - but try getting cheated on. Y’know what? Try growing up in such a broken home like Octavia. Yeah reaaaaaal fucking cute now, huh? Funny how as well y’all petition for male victims to be taken seriously then laugh when fictional males experience this abuse, further adding to stigma. You can be hit on by the hottest mf on the planet but if you arent interested, that should be respected! Also we’ve all been inspired by at least one fictional character so yeah. Yknow, since I was little Ive been fighting for sex worker and homeless rights. But HH/HB treatment of both leave a bitter taste in my mouth. I’ll still fully support sex workers and the homeless, but that’s the fucking effect this show is having. Bearing in mind I wont ever share everything Ive been through - and I shouldnt fucking have to in order to be believed and validated (obvs proof is required in a legal case but that’s a whole other topic). Why should I share MY fucking pain especially when you fuckers have belittled and triggered it more so? We have our rights to our secrets but fuck ME you lot NEED to start acting appropriately and like decent fucking humans. ‘iTs HeLl’ yeah and welcome to Earth- the team and yourselves live HERE. You obide by THESE rules. And as someone with beliefs (and a LOT of ancient fucking texts and studies on this shit) their Hell isnt even a proper Hell! It’s closer to purgatory and even then it’s not. Regardless, it’s a poorly built world with the lore consistently changing per episode and tweet, with many plot holes, and is apparently easy to get into - even via accidentally watching porn according to a stream. If youre gonna parade youre a fucking expert and research into demonology and use real believed figures, at least get THAT right. In fact, Lucifer and Lilith (and Stolas tbf) are ESPECIALLY risky as theyre a lot more complex than most easy access texts will tell you. Likewise, Stolas’s first introduction and main focus is sex. He’s one of the FEW Goetia demons that dont have some involvement in relationship issues at ALL. He’s known for astrology, crystals and herbs but hes also known to aid MONEY troubles (it’s lesser known but it’s true! HB Stolas is an insult to the Prince). Turning Vodou into something evil is vile considering it’s powerful and liberated slaves. Pentagrams are nothing to do with Satan, they’re magic based sigils. Upside down cross is the symbol of a SAINT. It’s just some edgy attempt to trick people into believing they know more than they do. Also you should NEVER dabble and doodle sigils without knowing the meanings or respecting what they behold. Vox and Val, real fuckin cute way to make them look like a stupid fucking highschool drama instead of a fucking SEX TRAFFICKER (note: real pimps often target YOUNG folks too - aka minors - and groom them into sex work. Theres different types of pimp. Viv has shown barely any understanding of ‘the game’ and its a fucking insult to injury. Yes we KNOW what a fucking pimp and prozzie are! We dont need to see it. We need REAL AWARENESS.) and a fucking scheming bastard of a CEO salesman botman. And yet even THEN lets go a step further and make some yandere wuv on boyfweind aboose! Fuck off- Now I love a good anime but these tropes are getting fucking dangerous now. And unrealistic to real love and relationships. Kids nowadays know fuck all on a healthy relationship (neither did the fuckin 50s tbf) and Im seeing more romaticism and glorifying abusive situations. Like the show ‘You’. Ok, there’s a fuckin bloke online who slaughtered innocents and kidnapped yet people commented how cute he is on his IG and that they want to be kidnapped or killed by him next. Dont believe me? Look up Peter Manfredonia Connecticut and the comments people left him and then tell me why shit like whats being presented in HH/HB ISNT fucking concerning - because it is. For a series about redemption, it’s brilliant at the opposite (Quote from the creator herself, Viv has posted that it’s influencing her bad choices. Even as a joke, proof’s in the pudding). And the overall focus on sex in the way Viv does is so immature and really creepy, and this is from an ADULTS perspective. From one adult to another, Im concerned as to why any of them think this is a normal fixation. Then again they’ve hired quite a large amount of dodgy folks and even a child. Most of this shit gets avoided with a basic background check like most companies run. I DO like Hazbin. Or the premise. I love some of the cast and spite the others. In Helluva, I just like a tiny portion of the cast. And I critique it so harshly because Viv DOES need a wakeup slap, grounding to reality, people who arent going to big her up or kiss her arse for once and shape her up to be the best she can be. The actually reach and even surpass her potential. And to reach where you need to be, there’s a lot of harsh lessons youll face. That’s life. Shes chosen one of the most HEARTLESS industries and if she blocks out critique as ‘hate’ then she’s not strong enough and wont last. It’s just another unprepped YanDev again (except I dont believe Viv to be a nonce. Even with her dodgy past and dodgy present, I think her perspective on sex and relationship with sexuality is FAR from healthy BUT I dont believe she’s a pedophile. Ive bled my fair share and so far, I just think her sex perspective isnt healthy or mature for her age. But there’s little to nothing to suggest actual noncery - dont worry about accusations there. But YanDev is totally a dirty predator. Just clearing that up). Viv NEEDS some harshness and stability if she wants to do things right. And it’ll make her fucking cry but if she loves these projects as much as she claims to, then you’ll sacrifice blood, sweat and tears for that shit. Even the strongest points are mediocre at best when properly observed. She CAN do more, but she’ll have to face the harsh music. Viv wont see this, but if she does, I dont care if it upsets her. Why? Because this is that much of an issue - something she’s cultivated - that she needs to take action and not ignore it or be secretive about it. She needs to grow up and get tougher skin. Im not saying this to cause her pain. In fact, I wouldnt waste my fucking limited time if I DIDNT care. Trust me, I have duties to be met at a certain quota every single day. I say this shit only because I give a shit and care. If we met, she’d fucking hate me. But people like me are good for shaping people up to their potential. And we arent always this ‘tough love’ either. But when someone needs that level of harshness to help themselves, we’re not afraid to lose people or cause upset if the results end up being the best for them. If she ever saw this, she needs to re fucking evaluate her message, her story, and those she’s choosing to welcome into her circle. And all Im seeing is one rookie mistake after the other. Her paid patreon discord. Just like the messages Honest has posted on her side of being harassed (not in Vivs fyi), Ive experienced shit and bullying and even stay silent on their for being attacked for a group I fuckin paid to be in and yet I feel isolated. It’s all arsekissing and ‘thank you viv’ (thats an actual channel-) and it feels like a place of borderline worship and people trying to appease her 24/7 whilst kicking others with different opinions down. There’s so many I love but I aint kissin yer fuckin arse. Ask the closest friend I have - we’re fucking raw and wont just side with each other just because. We’ll call each other out if we think they’ve fucked up and then help each other build themselves up better. Because real fuckin people who actually care wont just want to be adored by you. They’ll care enough to point out your bullshit and help you, even if they upset you at the time. They’re real and upfront with you. People like us arent always the easiest to be close to either because we arent afraid of upsetting someone if it’s in their best interest and to help them. Likewise, we dont go out looking for fights either. Most times, we’re fuckin soft bastards- All this shit listed is the fuckin surface level of the real life hell of this fandom. And unsurprisingly, those who experience little to no toxicity have always been higher on that popularity ‘food chain’ - enough admirers and shared opinions that people wanna arse kiss regardless of their OWN feelings as well as neutral perspectives. I’d say you’re the lucky fans, but you’re not. You’re sheltered, and that isnt always the best way to be sadly. As for the fans. If Ive upset you. Well... I dont care. Because many of you have actively sought me out and weaponised my traumas against me. You never cared about my feelings then. Why should I care about yours? Im not doing this out of malice. Im fed up of humans behaving so pathetically yet claiming to be high and mighty. Most of you have been arseholes to those in and out of the community. The victims and non-victims alike. Hardly any of you considered once my real suffering. You put a drawing over a life. Many lives. You had the audacity to tell me Im full of shit. Some even using my real traumas to make a mockery of me and those Im around with a very similar history. Some with traumatic histories that differ from my own. You hardly ever considered the real lives of those effected. So no, Im not sorry for having the fucking balls to this day to still stand up for our rights and give us a voice that’s long been stolen. Im not sorry for being a fucking victim. Im not sorry for saying what desperately NEEDS voicing. And Im not sorry for not conforming to you or any fandom just to belong. We deserve better than to constantly be your fuckin arse monkeys (well... the trope is butt monkey but yknow-) and to be mistreated, misrepresented and harmed by you. You’re no different to the school bullies who give speeches on anti-bullying day. And I hope every single one of you starts looking into yourselves and improving. PS: Depending on the texts you read, Lucifer is said to have been redeemed or to be redeemed. Fun fact to haunt yalls with~ “