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I want to talk about hope.
In June of 2021, my house burned down. I was living with my parents and my two younger siblings at the time. My younger sister was set to move out in a few days, and I had just put my two weeks’ notice in at my previous job and was working my final day (I worked remotely). Around midday, I smelled burning followed by the smoke alarms going off. Only my siblings and I were home at the time. As I came out of my room, one of my siblings ran up stating the house was on fire. All three of us fled as quickly as we could. We all made it out with plenty of time and none of us were hurt. But because we fled so quickly, none of us were wearing shoes.
My siblings and I tried desperately to reach the rest of my family. My mother was about an hour away visiting her father as she did every week. My dad was at work in a different city. And my older brother lived across the country from us. The area we lived in was rural and we all had very poor cell reception without the use of internet. It was incredibly hard to reach anybody. It felt like the three of us against a giant monster that consumed everything we had. But as we struggled to use our useless phones (luckily all of us had our phones on us when it happened) and as we watched our house become consumed by flames, the most miraculous thing happened. People showed up.
These were not people that the three of us knew. They were all people from the community that came to see what was going on. They saw the three of us trying to call our parents and lent us their phones. They sat and watched with us as the flames engulfed our home and as the pops and bangs of the house being torn apart hurt us to hear. And the thing that I remember the most is the family that looked down at our feet, saw that we had no shoes, and took off their own shoes and gave them to us. They did not think about it for a second. They simply removed their shoes and gave them to us. They did not fit perfectly, but they were a comfort that we did not have that was given back to us during an incredibly difficult time.
I know right now is tough. I know things look bleak. I know it looks like there is a monster consuming our home. But there are people out there that will sit with you. There are people that will offer you their phones. There are people that will offer you their shoes. There are people that will return to you a piece of comfort that was stolen. They are there. And you will not have to look very far to find them. Hope will be found in those people. In the little moments and the little acts that they do. Even when you feel so alone and like you're watching your house burn down, hope can still be found.
#us elections#rae irl#i wrote this mostly for me#and i debated on posting it but if it helps even one person than it was worth posting#i don't talk about that day a lot and i will likely never bring it up again#but this felt important for me to share
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I know some dickheads have now decided that Judaism is the "bad, violent, terrorist religion" and Islam is the "good, peaceful" one, which is only to be expected of white people, but how much of an issue is it currently? Like I've seen some USAmericans sharing how the Islamic faith shapes Gazans values and perseverance (good) except with that distinct white hippie "I'm about to imprint on this like the world's most racist duck" vibe (bad), but I didn't think they're already turning on Judaism in numbers.
Do they realize that Christianity is also the same kind of comfort to Christian minorities in Asia and Africa? That it was Buddhists that genocided the Rohingyas in Myanmar and Tamils in Sri Lanka? That Hindu fundamentalists are even now trying to ethnically cleanse Muslims in India? How Hindus and Christians are terrorized and persecuted in Pakistan? That Muslims have a history of persecuting and ethnically cleansing Jews too?
Really tired of asking y'all to be normal about people's religions man. There's no religion that's inherently violent or exceptionally peaceful. It's just like any other ideology that becomes a weapon in the hands of ethnic power. Interrogate power, not religion, and respect people's belief systems insofar as they aren't in your business.
Edit: I've amended the "long history" of Muslim persecution of Jews because it might be misleading in the current political climate. Zionism and antisemitic Arab nationalism are twin births resulting directly from Christian colonization, and Islamic empires tended to actually be more tolerant of other religions compared to Christianity, especially Judaism, which was considered a sibling religion. Antisemitism wasn't ideologically entrenched in Islamic tradition. It's simply that ethno-religious power will lead to ethno religious domination and intermittent cleansing of minorities, and Islam is no exception. Humans be humaning always.
#Edit: please boost the edit#why can't white people just be fuckin normal for once#tbh this site was so weird about Judaism that it felt almost culty#I had several crises about whether I was being antisemitic before I realized no I'm just reacting to the idealization-demonization binary#that seems to be all western leftists know how to do#white queers are the worst about this#and now some of the asks I've been getting gives me the impression that the west thinks ''Islamist'' is some kind of dangerous cryptid#y'all attach insane levels of importance to people's choice of headgear#the only common denominator of all the Muslims I know is their fixation on biriyani idk#a lot of white lefties just want to use religion to distance yourself from your white privilege#same reason as why communism is so attractive to you#y'all want to share in a legacy of oppression because it's easier than self-reflection and unlearning#antisemitism#anti Zionism#Islamphobia#philosemitism#white queers#western leftists#racism#religious fundamentalism#genocide#religious violence#knee of huss
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girlbossing too close to the sun.
#art#ive literally just been treating this game as a library simuator#i walk from bookseller to bookseller opening up all of their books#vivecs sermons are either a highlight or the point at which i stop reading#ive been trying to convince the ordinators that imitation is the highest form of flattery but it hasnt been working#let me wear your helmets please theyre so funny..#posting morrowind in 2024 isnt a cry for help but youre not wrong to be concerned.#morrowind#almalexia#vivec#im going to explain the chitin armor give me a moment#so the bonewalker nerevar on the shrines is adorable and it was only after drawing it however many times that i realized#it looked relatively close to a modified chitin armor#and so i modified chitin armor a few times and this was probably the cutest result#i also know i drew almalexia relatively pristine and untouched by years and vivec not so much but my thought process was#vivecs role as if not a favorite then the most accessible divine or the most “hands on” in a manner of speaking#acting in ways visible to the general population or actions explicitly brought to their attention#like not that almalexia isnt doing anything she is#but the dissemination of information regarding that is very different etc etc etc#anyways to a certain extent a god is the face on a shrine or in art or upon a statue or carving#but vivecs presence is interwoven with the geography of vvardenfell especially and his actions and writings with pubished materials#and the arts and culture and customs etc etc etc#so to me the face of a god you know and feel a commonality with or a god that walks alongside you is a face you would recognize#and vivec is already otherworldly looking enough#the simple mark of the years on his skin in some way grounding him in reality felt more right#that and i think the ways in which he and almalexia care about outward appearance are slightly different- they prioritize different things#and the ways they present outward power and their embodiment of their respective attributes share some similarities as they both have that#important preoccupation with physical power and physical strength to a certain degree#oh my god nobody read this i am yapping so bad.#tes
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my brain belongs to her only
#I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE EP#im not even into what if lmao#im just gonna watch that one ep and go my way#agatha harkness#what if#marvel#agatha all along#aaa#kathryn hahn#ik it doesn't look exactly like she did in the trailer BUT THAT'S BECAUSE it was important to me that she felt like kathryn#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#i will never move on i swear#also if you haven't watched the trailer GO WATCH IT#also please share your theories for the ep lol#also it doesn't have my signature bc that's not the whole thing (i may be posting the whole thing laterrr) but just imagine nyoclo is there#my art#artists on tumblr#digital art
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do not harass or interact with said user.
hey so i find it rlly insane that youre telling me to "let go" when im literally a victim of your abuse and sexual harassment ?
not only would you constantly misgender me after being the first person i ever came out to as transgender, you also stalked me as soon as i started posting on tumblr again, and even had the nerve to reblog my posts. etc.
you cant tell a literal VICTIM to "let go" and "move on". i dont care if youve "changed" that much in two yearz, and im glad youre aware that your actions were awful, but that doesnt change what you did.
i havent said shit while you claim that i have. i have only told my moots and the people i care about for their and my own safety, because to me, you are a threat. while you, on the other hand, are draggin this out into public lettin the audience you have witness this with zero context so they can defend you going only by your word. and you say i didnt allow you to "give your side". okay ! you dont deserve a platform, you dont deserve mootz or followers, and you dont deserve being online in the first place.
screenshots for proof
#killz yapz#important#psa#idk how to tag this#but um yeah#if you need any more info plz come to me#and again do not interact or harass this guy#felt the need to share#since. they wanted to drag this out so bad !#so#yeah#ily guys#<3
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hello everyone today I'm thinking about how Magolor cries for Kirby to help him during his true arena theme. how is everyone else's morning going
#video#kirby#kirby spoilers#krtdldx#rtdl#rtdldx#magolor#not art#i wasnt the one who discovered it i saw a couple comments on some of the videos abt it#i felt it was important to share so u guys can. cry with me
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having the hc that minato is ace is incredibly funny sometimes when you think about how ryoji is oh so very bi because it's like. "ah. death stole my ability to be attracted to people," in the same way that ryoji stole minato's eye color and energy level. like wow, thanks ryoji, you just keep finding things to steal from minato!
#persona 3 spoilers#minato arisato#hc and au nonsense#lizzy speaks#happy international asexuality day to my fellow aces out there i hope you know that you are loved!!! 🎊🎉🥳#i like viewing minato with the lens of him being gay / ace. esp bc it stems from my own experiences so it's fun to look at-#him from that perspective even if that's not what was intended by atlus y'know?#and im sure others have other hcs from me that are informed by their own life experiences and i think that's great ^_^#something that i found interesting while playing FES was how. stilted? minato's animations felt when hugging the girls#you could definitely go with the perspective that it's a graphical limitation or they didn't have time to polish the animations#and that's def true!! but sometimes i see the hug @ yakushima beach + the other hugs and then i compare it to the sou/yo hug in p4#and there's like... a noticeable difference to me with how intimate and close together the hugs are...#that said i do know that the animations for reload are updated and the hugs are much more natural (good on them tbh!)#the other thing is (pensive sigh). the way you couldn't reject any of the girls when doing their social links in FES#objectively speaking i'm glad that they did away with that and i like how the rejections were handled in reload. it feels naturally written#but also a part of me enjoyed looking at the “hey atlus what the FUCK” moment and thought of how to interpret it differently#specifically with the idea of minato having like.. little to no autonomy and kind of going along with the relationship#it kind of reminded me of myself tbh with like going along with the rship without considering what you want bc#it's what others want or expect out of you... LOL. i dont think atlus intended for someone to interpret it this way but#eh i think that's the fun part of hcs and looking at characters with certain lenses!#regardless of how you perceive minato i do think there's something to be said about him being the kind of guy who molds himself-#into someone that is needed. not wanted. but needed. important distinction here.#the one caveat my brain runs into when im like “minato is ace!” is when i remember thanatos exists and i go#“you know what these ideas can exist simultaneously” GKLHFHDFHD when in doubt schrodinger's headcanons#anyway that's all i've had this thought in my brain in awhile and haven't sat down to share it properly until now 👍#have an excellent weekend everyone !!! lizzy loves you all lets all nurture our inner yippee!!! 🥺💙
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Japanese Fetishization in Landmine-Kei Communities
As landmine culture is a hot topic for discourse in the j-fashion community, I can't help but put out this criticism about it's popularity among western audiences.
Larping as an East Asian person isn't a new concept, and it ties into things like anime and/or kpop becoming popular. however I can't help but notice that it is very prevalent in the Western landmine community. I'll often see people in this community completely going out of their way to look, act, and even Google Translate their sentences to make them seem more Japanese. It's not just white people too, I see many East Asian people trying to appear in this manner as well. And I can't help but question...what is this obsession with trying to look like a different ethnicity than the one you are born with? This seems to stem from the belief that "Any information on j*rai-kei coming from Japanese ppl are always correct no matter what, therefore if I look like one then people will listen to what I have to say about it." I also see this argument where it's like "Oh actually, I LIVE in Japan so anything I say about this specific thing is correct, and I speak on behalf of the people living there." One person doesn't speak for the entire community, and many people have different opinions on the landmine-kei stereotype in Japan. Searching up the term in its Japanese writing can either give you girly makeup/dress up challenge videos, psychiatrist articles, or really offensive videos about girly fashion and the landmine stereotype.
I've always had this strong feeling that if landmine culture were to originate from any other country, no one would be interested in it at all. Some people may even feel repulsed, and worried by the thought of it. But since most "landmines" are young women in Japan who likes wearing cute frilly fashion, all of a sudden it's super trendy, cool, and "kawaii" to be a "landmine" in a self-destructive community.
It's not wrong to self-identify as a landmine if it's helpful for your personal coping. However, if you larp as Japanese and genuinely romanticize the harmful aspects of the culture as something cute, please reflect as to why you think these things. Japanese people struggling with these issues shouldn't be seen as a monolith, but as individuals of their own.
#girly discourse#地雷系#maybe if I add the japanese tag for reach then maybe I won't get jumped#but also as a mixed asian person I felt that this was important to share#because while I am not japanese seeing all this was making me uncomfortable#and another thing is#you don't have to be japanese to call this kind of stuff out#I wish more people knew this
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speaking of fucked up overly hated female twdg characters i find it Super Interesting how people will say carver was the best villain in the whole series, but when lilly is literally just a successful carver (iron fist leader of a community turning children into soldiers) suddenly shes a bad/lame villain for some reason 🤔
#twdg#hmm im sure this has nothing to do with the fact shes a woman (a woman that a lot of people hated since S1)#AND they gave her a giant boat? thats funny#LIKE if they did originally plan to have kenny be carver in S2 she is LITERALLY JUST THAT IDEA but the woman version of it#also i find it interesting that her speech about larry and the lights is reminiscent of that first convo between shane and rick in the show#i happened to like S1 lilly for the most part and felt her evolution in S4 made perfect sense#she hated being questioned. wanted total authority. ex military and so used to dealing with military types. family/loyalty important to her#which is why her and clem meeting again and clashing heads is so narratively interesting#is this person your family? can you bring them to your side? are they even the same person? when do you let go?#so many themes in S4 mmm yummy#a theme vi/minnie share too#and mitch brings up the sentiment while burning ms martin#but yeah im in the 'lilly was actually the best villain in the whole series' camp i wonder whos in here with me. is it quiet in here#it wouldve been nice to see more of the delta... unfortunately if things needed to be cut its understandable why it was#you dont NEED to know more about the delta than whats been told#but i would like to 😔#like could we have been given more fleshing out of her character? sure. do we actually NEED it? no#it speaks
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this video just came across my fyp and i felt the need to share this and this family's gofundme. this is what was posted with the gofundme:
"Marquis Rivera
Hi, my name is Katiana Edwards and I am fundraising for my brother Marquis Rivera, who was killed by Columbia Police Department in Missouri. The money raised will be used for lawyer and private investigator fees... Please read his story below.
My brother, Marquis Rivera, was 22 years old, and lived in Columbia, Missouri. During the time, Marquis faced overwhelming challenges. Relationship issues and personal issues led him to a point where he felt he couldn't continue living but desperately sought help.
On August 4th, 2023, at 3:05 p.m., Marquis made a distress call to the police, expressing his urgent need for assistance. When officers arrived at his residence, they found Marquis seated outside his apartment. He openly admitted to being a threat to himself, expressing his desire to end his life. Despite his plea for help, the officers didn't offer adequate support beyond repeatedly questioning him.
Despite knowing that Marquis had a gun in his home, and intended to harm himself, the officers, inadequately trained in handling mental health crises, left him without proper intervention. Instead, they contacted his ex-girlfriend, making assurances they failed to fulfill. This left Marquis feeling abandoned.
Later, at 3:57 p.m., Marquis called 911 again, this time outside with a gun. Marquis fired rounds into the air, emptying his gun. The same officers returned and confronted him, urging him to put the weapon down. Marquis, in his distraught state, told them to shoot him. The situation escalated, leading to more officers arriving, guns drawn, surrounding Marquis.
For about 15 minutes, Marquis, without a weapon, received no proper intervention or attempt at de-escalation. Although the officers were aware he had no ammunition, they maintained their stance, not detaining him. Marquis went back into his apartment and retrieved more bullets. After a brief moment when Marquis reloaded his gun and fired into the air again, multiple police officers opened fire, fatally shooting him.
Marquis was left on the ground, handcuffed, in the rain for hours before any action was taken. Not a single person from the Columbia PD reached out to our family to relay the news. I got the devastating news through a phone call from Marquis’ roommate, and I personally had to give the news to the rest of my family. The lack of outreach or support from the Columbia PD compounded the tragedy. All of this information was took from the body cam footage that was released to my family and I, and from neighbors who witnessed the whole interaction.
The loss of Marquis highlights the urgent need for better-equipped, extensively trained responders to handle mental health crises. His cry for help was not met with the care and understanding he desperately sought, leaving a void in the lives of those who loved him.
The prosecutor working his case has decided not to press charges on the officers.
My family and I want to sue the PD for negligence.
Anything will help, Thank you all so much!"
#séb.txt#not sure how to tag this but i felt this was important to share#marquis rivera#never made a post like this so let me know if i should add anything?
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ily my mutuals and ppl who interact with me, covid and moving stuff has made connecting with others and making irl friends difficult so having you guys really means a lot to me ���💖
#i just felt like sharing#(i might have also been wondering if Verity understands just how important she is and that made me want to post this but shhhh)
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If a fic author deletes their work, what’s your take on people who’ve previously downloaded the fics sharing their copies? I’m personally torn on it - I can understand both sides, but was wondering what others think.
This might be a controversial opinion, but I think it's fine to share downloaded copies of fics in certain situations. For example, if a friend mentions they have the fic and another friend asks them to email it to them. Or someone is desperately looking for their all time favourite fic that was deleted and asks for it on tumblr, I think it's okay for someone else to answer and offer to email it to them. I think, as authors, we need to accept that we give up a certain level of control when we publish a fic. Anyone can download it, even if we later delete the fic.
ALTHOUGH, I think posting it in a more public setting for other people to access (e.g., sending a link to a massive discord server) is probably a no-go?? Also, if the author has come out and explicitly asked people not to share downloads, then I'd say respect their wishes!!
#i know a lot of people will disagree with me#but as a writer i always personally feel like i give up my fic to my readers in a way#i may have written it but it lives in their minds and their memories#they have just as much of an emotional connection to it as me#i've never felt comfortable deleting fics for that reason#ultimately i think respecting the author's opinion is the most important thing#if my ao3 account ever goes down please feel free to go crazy go stupid sharing my fics <3#ask#anon#fic discourse
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How many people who followed me after 2018 see me post something about Boueibu every now and again and think it's one of my casual interests and not like, a fundamental component to who I am as a person
#venlapost#the fandom isn't as active as it used to be and I'm veeeeeeeeeery reblog heavy so you couldn't possibly know#there just isn't enough stuff to share lol#but it's like. literally. the most important piece of media in my life#which is why i keep saying shit like 'real ones know' when i allude to it in tags sometimes#sickening to think I'm not primarily known as a boueibu person anymore#having a boueibu icon would probably help things. lol#but even though it's always number one in IMPORTANCE it's not number one in RELEVANCE#not on the forefront of my mind not my main fandom sadly#but still. still. still. if you followed me for persona or something. you neeeeeeeeeeeed to know#this magical boy comedy you've never heard of shaped me into who i am and helped me find a community to fit in with#its effects cannot be understated#you need to know. their official Twitter posted a cryptic announcement for an upcoming announcement#and i haven't felt like this in years#I'm BACK baby. I'm HOME. this is my HOME
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okay, buttt blamore purposely trying to find ways to be kind of 'over-the-top' and/or inventive with its bone manipulation is something that i live for, if i'm being honest + this is because it ABSOLUTELY suits his personality. like imagine another muse having no freaking idea what blamore's doing during a fight because he threw a bone seemingly nowhere near them... but then the bone implodes and turns into shrapnel.
and it does this with the objective of either injuring this muse heavily or killing them — as it can do this with multiple bones at a time, after all, which would send a bunch of sharp and dense bone fragments flying across the room. like OMG. i can't say that that wouldn't be extra, but it also has the capacity to be really kind of scary to have to try to dodge LOL. and that definitely makes blamore more of a threat. for, i feel like bone manipulation is already such an underrated power as it is, but with someone who can use it creatively?
ahh, well, all i have to say is you better strap in because you're in for one hell of a fight LMAOOO
#IT WAS PROBABLY NOTHING BUT IT FELT LIKE THE WORLD: musings.#MAN IS BOUND TO LIE ABOUT HIMSELF: headcanons.#ahh... don't mind me y'all. i'm just talking about blamore's bone-related powers again JSJSJ no but i feel like i had to share this-#specific one with y'all because i think most people would usually view bone manipulation as a 'close-combat' type of power-#BUT blamore has probably found a couple of ways to make it into a potentially long range thing such as this 👀#but anywhozies!! with the discussion of blamore's powers will come a more detailed explanation of his weaknesses later on#i promise y'all bc i know that it's important to have balance between a character's strengths and weaknesses + blamore-#is DEFINITELY not invincible so yeahhh
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...Q running in an election, which he was completely allowed to do, during which he played 100% by Wilbur's rules and won fairly according to said rules, means that getting abused by his boss was his own fault?
Yeah your views are definitely scuffed. You don't have to sympathize with a character you don't like but holy shit
Perhaps fault isn’t the right word. Just to clarify, I didn’t mean it was his fault for being abused, not saying anyone deserves that. So, I didn’t mean like he asked for it or like it is karma or comeuppance for running in the election. And by no means am I saying he was wrong to do so in the first place and whether or not he followed c!Wilbur’s rules is irrelevant. So perhaps comparing that with exile is unfair to c!Quackity, after all c!Tommy did provoke Dream and there’s not necessarily evidence for c!Quackity provoking c!Schlatt into that behavior. But at the end of the day, it is a result of his own actions. It is a consequence of his own actions whether or not it was intended or deserved. He chose to side with c!Schlatt so he could win even though it’s not like c!Schlatt was necessarily hiding his true colors, and he chose to stay. Did he know he was going to be abused, did he chose to be abused, did he deserve being abused. No. Of course not. But it happened because of the choices he made and he could’ve always made different choices to escape that. Actions just have consequences whether good or bad, you pay them or someone else does, whether intentional or not. - I forget an umbrella and I get wet and I get the floor wet and then someone slips on the wet floor and falls - I made a choice or perhaps a series of choices whether to put my umbrella by the door or make sure to dry my shoes off… etc. did I know that was going to happen? Did I intend for that? Did I or the person who fell deserve that? No, I made choices and those were the consequences that happened as a result so one could say it is my fault even if it’s not only my fault and even if it’s not like I intentionally meant for that to happen.
So obviously c!Quackity didn’t deserve to be abused, nor choose it, nor mean for it to happen, nor make it happen, nor is his hurt invalid. But c!Schlatt had a bad reputation to start off with, I mean one of the first things he does is betray c!Wilbur and c!Tommy in the first place. So all I’m saying is c!Quackity chose to ally himself with the devil and the devil lived up to his name.
(And I know I said you can call me cold, but that is kinda accusatory. c!Quackity isn’t a real person, these do not reflect my view irl, this is my view on a sadistic, manipulative, fictional character who lives in a world where people stab, kill, insult, harass for a fun afternoon.)
#obviously schlatt isn’t the actual devil that just figuratively ;)#anyways… I don’t think it’s fair to judge me so harshly#no one bashes people for not sympathizing understanding or liking Loki Dark Vadar Lex Lurther Wilson Fisk ….#everyone has a tragic backstory but it doesn’t give you a pass to by bad nor even a reason#and I don’t see that abuse as being an explanation nor really a turning point of his character since it didn’t really change him#he was already on a dark path sure schlatt may have further his path but he was already on it.#….anyways I think when it comes to talking about Q and now everyone’s talking about Tommy we are running in circles so I almost didn’t#respond at all… but I felt like it was important to defend myself….#dsmp#dream smp#hello there#c!quackity#c!schlatt#dsmp analysis#did someone order an essay?#because I read a psychology paper last night and I have some interesting things to share :)…..#dsmp quackity#cquackity
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my brother can make me laugh without moving at all. he can make me laugh on command, just by existing, and there is no physical tell or indication that it is about to happen. it’s like he can will me to laugh and i will. of course we’re not telepathic, but we do speak in unison sometimes. we improvise like no one’s business. we could fool anyone into believing we are psychically linked. when i try to explain it, i sound silly saying it out loud, but i really CAN tell what he’s thinking. we exchange so much information just with a look. he can make me cry laughing and he doesn’t even have to move
#i miss him so much i need him back i need him to live next to me again. i need to mooch off his wifi from my porch and invite him over#i miss him so much.#he’s only 2 minutes younger but he feels years younger. and yet i think we’re two halves of one soul#i’ve always babied him not even in a mean or diminishing way but i felt this need to protect him#because he tends to be so naive and so shy#but. i am so proud of him. i need to show him off to everyone and i need everyone to understand how funny and charming he is#it feels like i grew up and left him where he will remain 11 forever. i miss him more than moving back home can fix#i miss him in ways that have nothing to do with the distance between our locations#but. it would certainly help to be able to see him every day#i keep smelling the carpet in his room and it’s so vivid. i remember the countless hours we spent developing huge wood block cities#and we would drive hot wheels over the wooden raceways we had made. we were actually quite coordinated and autistic about it#we were always building things together#just recently me and him talked on the phone about an old mlp au we came up with. all original characters and shit#it was super extensive and very clever#i STILL think it would make a really cool book series or something#i remember watching him play army men RTS gamecube on the wii. i STILL listen to the soundtrack to that game like…. daily#i remember walking into my room once where he was watching a show. and he was crying#and he NEVER cries over tv#but he was crying because his favorite character had resigned from the organization that the series was based around#and he was so distraught that she was leaving.#i remember when all 3 of us slept in one room. i remember when me and him were in bunk beds across the room#and we would sneak out of bed right as the parents left and stayed up playing by the light of the nightlight#the way we raced back into bed when the parents were approaching 😭#my mom always says she’s sad that i seem to remember so little of my life. like every story of my youth is news to me lmao#but i feel like i remember the most important parts? i think so#i remember how mom woke me up in the night to ask me to roll over because my bro could see my face from where he was sleeping#and he was scared because there was a weird shadow cast on my face that made it look like a skull which was making it hard for him to sleep#it was. so funny. i begrudgingly rolled over#i don’t know. it’s just that there isn’t a single instance i bring up that my brother does not also remember.#no matter how tiny or specific. we shared everything growing up
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