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How do people keep having such cool Obey Me related dreams? I would love to have a Barbatos dream encounter lol!
Taking this ae a sign to dream dump:
very very long ago I had a lucid dream which Barb was in there and he opened a portal for meee but i was too horny i tried to fuck him and the portal and he legit screamed in terror and i woke up and never had any dreams of barb till like a few months ago.
I also remember that "dream" vividly. it was also lucid but i could only control my actions and it felt so real? :[[[ it was more of a nightmare.
I was in a hospital and I stood up from my bed and looked outside just to see nothing - a world collapsed perhaps? idk it was all ruins and the hospital was the only standing safe place and only I was in it.
m'kay then I saw Barbatos standing looking at the ruins and dirt and he turned towards me and smiled and I tried to get out of the hospital in panic but he didn't let me and that dream felt like days and at some point I started to forget how to wake up.
I once also managed to get out of the door and I took the iv out of my wrist but then Barbatos with that smile of his dragged me back inside my room and forced me back in which. was. scary because it almost was a lucid but I could only control my actions and not the world around me
100/10 I wish it happens again best nightmare ever
Wow and here I was all jealous about people dreaming about Barb, but yo that does sound scary. I'm good with just my daydreams, thanks.
I rarely lucid dream. I've done it a handful of times, but usually I'm just going along with whatever. I have a lot of dreams where I'm driving or riding a bike and I have almost no control over it so I'm like... on the verge of crashing constantly. It's stressful but nothing bad ever happens lol.
Anyway, I would wish you only good Barb-related dreams, but if you're enjoying the nightmares...
Though I do kinda feel like Barbatos standing around looking ruins feels very him. Like of course he would do that. Not so sure about the rest of it, though.
I bet Barbatos is good at dream interpretation, though. Like if you told him about this, he'd probably have all kinds of things to say about it.
#I have a lot of weird dreams#but they aren't usually nightmares#they have Themes though#weird ones#obey me barbatos#expressionless-fr#cc mutuals#misc answers
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Sleepy cuddles
#MF Minish#MF Rancher#Rancher likes to make sure the kids aren't suffering too much from nightmares#and NOT because she's a cuddle bug#Minish usually tucks in their hat#Monstrous Fusion#Creator Content
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horror being very specific with table manners and he berates people (dust and killer) for eating like fucking pigs
i think it'd be morbidly funny that because there was no food in horrortale but the cutlery and stuff was all there that maybe he would pretend to eat with no food on the plate. it was in a satirical way that he would joke maybe around horror paps or alone where he would pretend to eat and have really good table manners but then the satire joke became REAL and now horror is incredibly specific about how to eat food
you MUST hold the fork in the left and knife in right says horror. no killer you can't duel wield the fucking knives this is a table not a slaughterhouse. dust pick up your elbows off the table. actually how about you get your entire upper body off the table tf why are you SLEEPING ON THE FOOD??? killer's sitting fetal position in the chair because of course he wouldn't sit normally like the idiot he is. dust is forced to put his hood down and reveal his face no more mysterious shadow style because it puts horror at ease. they cannot have a single peaceful meal because once they get past the table manners phase it then becomes a completion to see who can eat the least (because they suck at everything including eating)
#hey guys. every time i don't post it feels like i'm abandoning my own children#NOOO im sorry i'll come back home... i wont abandon you chat PLEASE DONT MAKE ME PAY MORE CHILD SUPPORT#i've been a busy little bee i snicker out. and by busy i mean playing. and by playing i mean hi3#i'm sorry my brain literally cannot handle having more than one interest. once i get into something else the other thing becomes ignored#IT MAKE ME SO UPSET BECAUSE WHY CAN'T I DO BOTH OF THESE THINGS I LIKE EQUALLY ☹️☹️☹️☹️ is this a me problem#anyways none of these tags were related to the post. i usually do little extra tidbits adding onto the post when i tag huh#i just recently learned (2 years ago) that youre supposed to put the fork and knife in that order. i still mess it up#i've been drawing on this notebook from the same brand from what i drew on in 2019 AND GODDAMN 🤤🤤🤤#this notebook is SO FUCKING SMOOTH I LOVE IT 🤤🤤 drawing on this paper is like drawing on fucking BUTTER it's delectable#a shame nobody likes traditional art i cry out (i'm not particularly skilled in either traditional or digital)#you could call me a jack of no trades master of none#got this idea bcs i was listening to binomi (HARDCORE MARETU FAN SINCE I GOT A PHONE. WHAT YALL KNOW ABOUT MARETU‼️‼️‼️)#and i was like omg food theme.... horror. so i drew it in earlier mentioned notebook#and i was like hmm what positions should i put the fork and knife. and then i got this idea#i KNOW cannibalism songs aren't exactly horror themed. but let me be delusional i wanna give my boy a cool theme and cannibalism is soo coo#killer sans#dust sans#horror sans#murder time trio#tricule hc#bad sanses#bad sans gang#nightmare's gang#this is funny but in a sad way because i added context to it. as is with all my mtt content#it's comedic because i think they're all stupid fucking idiots but i also make them do this dumb shit bc theyre traumatized
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"It's not worth it. Let it go" I say as I click "discard post" on the long as fuck rant
#The b/lack m/etal 'fandom' on here is an actual nightmare these days but in the complete opposite way than how bm fans are usually awful#I just cant imagine having the complete disconnect from reality and callousness it takes to write/draw rpf of a fascist#being romantic with the man he actually fucking murdered in real life. Bm musicians aren't real people to them they're dolls to play with#It's so fucking disgusting. No respect for the dead#malhare.txt
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No one ever talks about hemiplegic migraines and how much they suck and ESPECIALLY no one ever talks about how much your head hurts THE NEXT DAY king my head felt FINE when I went to bed let me LIVE
#anyways hi my migraines get so bad half my body goes numb and every time i move my head too fast the next day it throbs#best way i can describe the day after headace is like. if you've ever had covid and you got that really bad headache???#and like every time you'd move your head you'd have to like wait for a second cause it was fucking THROBBING??#that's the day after headache i usually get sometimes it isn't THAT bad but sometimes it is#and i guess hemiplegic migraine is like#what if you have Migraine boss mode and it felt like someone swung a baseball bat at your head so hard you were experiencing stroke symptom#teehee! ❤️#i am NOT exaggerating one time i made the mistake of trying to sleep off a hemiplegic migraine after playing animal crossing at like 4am#cause screen bad for migraine but ot already sucks so i can be miserable or miserable a d playing animal crossing lmfao cnxncnxncnddf#and ANYWAYS i had a nightmare timmy and tommy were beating my head in with a baseball bat lmfao like you cannot sleep that shit off#it will follow you and it will hurt!#Anyway here is Mimi's super cool guide to a hemiplegic migraine: Take more ibuprofen that is comfortable (my max is 4)#drink a LOT of water cause hydration helps with migraines. lay down in a dark room and throw on a video essay you can half pay attention to#you aren't gonna be able to fall asleep but close your eyes and just focus on that. ALSO icepack. you're gonna be here for a while#anyways i would like to switch up my pain meds when having one cause. ibuprofen isn't good for your stomach! but idk how much to take#so i am stuck in limbo until i figure that out i caught yesterday's too late and that's why my head hurts today
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personally i think every single fitting room should have seats :c
#fed up of some stores having them only in the disabled rooms#and there's usually only 1#seats aren't just for the disabled... they're for everyone..#just as i was complaining about it in my head. i heard someone asking the workers about it#let people be comfortable??#i haven't got official diagnoses for anything but sitting down while changing helps ground me mentally and keep my balance physically#not only that. i was wearing shoes that i needed something to step on so i could put them on cuz they're super tight#in one of the fitting rooms there were no seats even in the corridor so i had to sit down in the room to get my shoes on :/#this isn't even mentioning how claustrophobic most fitting rooms are#or the fact some of the curtains are bullshit and don't actually cover your room#as someone who HATESSSSSS *ANYONE* seeing me REMOTELY undressed i fucking hate it#sensory fucking nightmare as well as physically irritating#fucking chain stores. am i right.#but there you go#just needed to rant LOL#rant in tags#spinny rant#irl stuff
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I mean, while I’ve got you here- (P1 | P2 | P3) (Patreon)
#Doodles#Law Abiding Citizen#LAC#Doug Peterson#LAC Russ#Roug#If you're not otherwise busy I mean I guess we could-#Lol#Looking like all that kiss-doodling practice has finally started to show results >:3c Quite pleased!#Looks like his gamble paid off! It'd take some doing but Doug could absolutely acquisition some overtime of the seduction variety lol#His -lust is usually more of the wander- variety but who is he to turn down a bit more time with his favourite human? :3#For the first encounter it'd probably have to be limited to their usual amount of time so what like two minutes lol but it's enough to kiss!#Or it could be longer if you'd prefer to imagine that lol it's not like I can stop you ♪#What a bureaucratic nightmare it'd be to either change or add being in a relationship with a client lol HR will hear about this Doug!#He's used to it he's been skirting that edge for way too long already this will just make it recognized pfft#Immediately bringing feelings into it! Aren't you a demon! Well that's why he changes his tune so quickly as well#For the record Russ did mean but he's feeling pretty guilty for that and having an ulterior motive and having human needs and all that lol#He does actually need contact to stay sane (enough) but asking for things is hard! Especially if they're to do with his crush!#All sorts of awkward uncomfortable feelings :) This is not how he envisioned his confession playing out!#I haven't drawn Doug with fully dark eyes in a while ah <3 It was fun :D Him hiding his eyes but literally hehe#Yet more of me ignoring the timeline lol - call him your Everything right now do it make him feel loved I dare you#A little possessive ♪ It's allowed he's being backed up by being the only person with access to him! This all works out!#I really am rather pleased with the last smooches :D Shapes! And Russ holding his horns while Doug initiates hehe ♪#I dunno how clear it is but Doug also has his tail wrapped around Russ' arm to pull him in ♥#Sometimes being obvious about it pays off
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I had sleep paralysis for the first time in months this morning, and it's one of the few times since I first started experiencing it that I've actually felt like something is holding me in place rather than just being generally aware that I can't move.
I woke up and it felt like someone was laying behind me with their arms wrapped around me, gripping me really hard, and obviously I knew that it couldn't be anyone or anything that I know. Understandably, it was terrifying.
#Didn't help that I was waking up from a nightmare#I'm usually at the point where I just know it's sleep paralysis again and the things I'm seeing/feeling aren't real#and wait for it to pass#but this was 100% pure concentrated nope
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Corinthian: I will kill you Corinthian who has feelings: I will kill for you Corinthian right back at being in denial: I WILL kill you. But I suppose I'll kill for you too
#[ ooc. mun — i need a cuppa tea ]#( someone love him and make him feel overwhelmed 'cos nightmares aren't usually loved by anyone :') )
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now why the hell is that what the brain decided to do !!!!!
#three whole hours of sleep less than usual#and a rly vivid nightmare to boot!#and apparently. new brain guy. i do not feel so good mr stark !!!!! or however that line goes#me having a breakdown two days ago bc i started fully comprehending this disorder again before i decided to ignore it. again.#and then this happens. i am gods favourite jester maybe#cant stop thinking abt one of the Big Bad Events that happened w my mother so sleep will not come back to me this morning i think#sigh. time to start the day i guess. onwards we trudge !!!#need to figure out what im going to be capable of today considering . the state im in fhfjdkl#need to work on cleaning ... need to rb some art .... need to make sure food doesnt go bad in the fridge ...#i feel like perhaps we are entering another ''i am not well'' period of time fhfklf#im gonna keep acting like things are okay though bc idk what else to do fjfkfl#yknow. I've got food to eat. the house is not as cold as it is outside. clothes to wear. im doing okay overall#basic needs are met. maybe not emotional/social/safety but whatever those aren't the basic functions#and thats pretty lucky that I've got those basic living needs met so im just going to focus on that fjfkdl#pippen needs 2nd breakfast
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Had a dream where I downloaded a modded pokemon game that added loads of new pokemon behaviours, mechanics and even an extra storyline to what seemed to be pokemon sword. animations were updated and improved, the visuals of the new area were very accurate, the only issues were a few bugs really.
there was a new character who looked kind of like a pokemon version of goro akechi from persona. he was enthusiastic and friendly, and loved to gush about all his favourite pokemon facts, since he was an aspiring pokemon researcher.
he would run surveys on the new area that was added which would change which pokemon were there — when you went to the train station to go there, the intercom would give you a list of all the current pokemon available. when you got there, you would have things similar to BBQs set by this guy, like catching certain pokemon, observing a behaviour, etc.
from what I remember, the research team the guy worked for thought he was too naive and overexcited about his research. they would shut him down whenever he brought something up, but he didn't seem to get too beaten up about it, and would just tell the player instead. his breakthroughs were usually little novelties like why a pokemon smelled a certain way, or what a specific behaviour was for, but he was certain he'd find something BIG in this new place.
I went to this area for the first time and I found a tentacruel climbing on top of a toedscruel, trying to eat it after it had fallen into the water — but the toedscruel, being bigger than the tentacruel, managed to climb back on land and was trying to shake off its attacker. eventually the toedscruel broke free, and I was able to catch the tentacruel, which happened to be shiny. The researcher guy was very excited about the fact that the pokemon was shiny AND demonstrating this predatory behaviour against a convergently evolved species.
there were some new battle mechanics too, where if you had completed a research task for a pokemon on that day AND the pokemon you were using in battle had a move that was the same type as that pokemon, you would be able to use a HUGE 1pp attack that changed depending on the pokemon you selected. it was called "ultimate (pokemon) research" and would have different effects and damage for each completed piece of research. Tentacruel's one was a physical water type attack that would hit once, let the other pokemon take their turn, then hit again.
If you especially liked a certain ultimate research move, you could pay 10,000 pokedollars to have ONE tm made of ONE of the moves per day. a pokemon could only learn that tm if they were able to learn another move of the same type, and if it was the same pokemon that the research was for, its pp was increased to 5.
after I'd been playing for a while, I found some strange ruins that seemed to be related to the researcher's main focus, and upon looking closer, it confirmed a very specific part of it that would make the rest of the paper way easier to prove. I wrote down the location in my notepad and was about to note some stuff down about it, but then he came up behind me and was all like "heyy what did you find this place is cool"
the ruins were on a hill and there was a narrow space running between the walls of two buildings. the walls were high enough to cover us completely, but we could move between the buildings via a broken bit of wall. a mudsdale got startled by something at the top of the hill and started running down the hill between the ruins to escape it, and it nearly ran over the researcher guy, but the player character tackled him into the other ruin seconds before it would have hit him.
he would have 100% died if the mudsdale had run him over those things are like a fucking TRUCK but when the player pushed him over to get him out of the way, he slammed his head on a part of the ruin wall and badly animated blood started pooling in the small space. he wasn't fully conscious but was in a lot of pain and it was quite frankly a really scary and sudden change in tone. the player character got their rotom phone out and asked it to call an ambulance (thanks rotom), then started to reassure the researcher and try to stop the bleeding with their hands.
they were saying things like "the research is going really well, don't worry, it's going to be great, you're gonna be the best researcher in the region, don't be scared" and the researcher guy was starting to cry.
the game cut to him waking up in a hospital. the head researcher of his group was there and they were apologising for being so discouraging, but researcher guy was more annoyed with himself for not paying attention, and not being able to continue his research himself until he was better. he was complaining like a whiny toddler it was really funny.
that's as much as I remember. it was a really interesting dream despite the scary parts and I'm kind of sad I don't remember more of it. I might keep this researcher dude as an oc for my own region.
#dream#dreams#sausagedreams#injury tw#sausagedream#lu dreams of video games again :')#pokemon#pokemon sword#pokemon sword and shield#pokemon swsh#injury#this was a little bit scary.#my nightmares usually aren't scary until I wake up but this one I was actually very uncomfortable IN the dream.#very unusual for me
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tw - non/con, unbalanced power dynamics, obsessive/possessive behavior, and manipulation.
Guard Dog!Nanami, who's the best security you could possibly ask for. You've been told that hybrids aren't very good for protection, that you'd be better off just getting a regular dog or, better yet, not living alone in one of the sketchier neighborhoods of a notoriously unsafe city, but those people haven't meant your Kento. Stern, stoic, and loyal - he keeps you safe, helps around the house, and doesn't need (or want, for that matter) half of the attention a normal dog would need. Really, it's more like having a personal bodyguard than a pet. You're sure he'd prefer if it if you treated him more like the former than the latter, too.
Guard Dog!Nanami, who'd practically be human if it wasn't for the adorably pointed ears on top of his head, the wiry tail at the base of his spine, and the dull canines you sometimes catch a glimpse of during one of his rare smiles. It's clear that he doesn't consider himself to be like most hybrids, so you do your best to treat him like a roommate - giving him his space, making sure he has his privacy, constantly resisting the urge to run your hands through his hair and apologizing profusely when you inevitably fail. He claims he doesn't mind, not if it's you, but you've seen the way his lips curl when strangers so much as approach him, how he rolls his eyes when he sees other hybrids sitting on their owners' laps or begging for treats. You're not eager to get on his bad side, even if you do occasionally catch him slipping into your bed in the middle of the night.
Guard Dog!Nanami, who's mistaken for your boyfriend at least once a week. It's your own fault, really. He likes to walk you to work, run errands while you're away, all the things a stay-at-home boyfriend would usually do if he were as loving and as attentive as Nanami. It's always embarrassing, even if all you have to do is nod to one of his less-than-human features to clear up the misunderstanding. Still, it happens so often, and you're not proud to admit that from time to time, you don't have the energy to do anything but smile and nod when your elderly neighbor compliments the 'hunk of a man' living with you.
Guard Dog!Nanami, who's less naturally protective than you think he is. He's concerned with your safety, of course, but that's not a privilege that extends to the male coworkers he catches with a hand on the small of your back, to the friends who drag you out of your shared apartment and don't bring you back until the early hours of the morning. He spends more nights than he's proud of standing outside of your bedroom door, listening for any signs of life, waiting for an intruder, or a nightmare - any excuse to cross that unspoken boundary. It'd be more practical to spend his nights on the foot of your bed like every other drooling, filthy mutt hybrid, but that's not the kind of relationship he wants to have with you. Not if you have to think of him as a dog to get there.
Guard Dog!Nanami, who has to fuck his fist three times a day to offset his humiliating instincts. He tried for complete abstinence at first, not to think about you in that context at all, but there's only so many hours of his day he can spend with his knot pressed into his stomach, his cock twitching every time you bend over or brush against him. Still, it's far from a long-term solution. How could it be, when he still cums untouched every time you scratch the base of his ears?
Guard Dog!Nanami, who volunteers to take care of your household chores so he'll have an excuse to root through your laundry while you're away. He's surprised you haven't noticed just how much of your underwear mysteriously vanishes with every load, but even if you were less oblivious, he'd rather you be suspicious of him than ever find the hoard of tattered, stained, ruined fabric he keeps underneath his mattress.
Guard Dog!Nanami, who knows this can't go on for much longer. He loves you, and he respects you, and he knows that you'll never really see him as anything more than a pet, but he's can't seem to bring himself to see you as a master. And, when he's walking you home late at night after yet another unplanned bar crawl, when he's listening to you whine half-coherently about how hard it is to live with a hybrid that's so close to human, he may pass a darkened alleyway and listen to the long-buried, animalistic mind urging Nanami to claim what belongs to him.
Guard Dog!Nanami, who knows that you'll never make a very good master and he'll never make a very good pet. But, that doesn't mean he can't hope that you'll both be better off after your roles are reversed.
#hybrid au#yandere#yandere imagines#yandere x reader#yandere x you#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen imagines#yandere jujutsu kaisen#yandere jjk#jjk x reader#jjk imagines#jujutsu kaisen x reader#yandere nanami kento#nanami kento x reader
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hi there!
some things about me…
personality: i’m super quiet but not because i’m shy or anything. i’m actually fairly confident in myself and my abilities, i just don’t feel the need to talk a whole lot, i learn more from listening. as i said, i’m a confident person, and am attracted to people with confidence, but i don’t like loud people as i feel it gets too much and i find myself annoyed with an overly loud person. i have a more logical and mathematical set brain and can sometimes have a hard time being overly emotional and empathetic, as it just doesn’t come too naturally to me. i do have a skill with reading people, however.
likes/hobbies: i am a math major and i really enjoy strategy games. I also really love reading, and working on other mental-set skills. i do tend to be a bit of a daydreamer.
appearance: i’m a bit shorter and thinner, but my hair is super super long, it goes down to my knees.
type: my pronouns are she/her and i am interested in men. i prefer guys who are more confident, but not loud, and who won’t smother me. I also prefer people who are hard-working and are passionate about something, I cannot handle lazy people.
thanks a lot!
It seems to me that you have captured the heart of...
The Haughty Aristocrat
Guy Avari!
(A/N when I say this hasbeen sitting in my inbox for ages 💀💀. I know I said I wouldn't write for Guy in my intro post, but I'm going through a character arc, just like him 😅)
Guy actually has a soft spot for confident people (he won't admit it outright tho), so the way you carry yourself is the first thing he'd notice. He also like that you don't talk too much (but he wouldn't mind hearing you talk from time to time though).
Guy's hella emotionally stunted, so he wouldn't actually know how to express himself. To say he'd come off strong at first would be an understatement, so please, PUT. HIM. IN. HIS. PLACE. (I called him the equivalent of a recovering Andrew Tate stan, so make of that what you will)
Assuming he tries to sort his shit out of his own volition (with the help of a reliable source (passively getting advice from his S-Rank acquaintances as well)) he might be better at expressing himself (at least in his own subtle way.
Guy does appreciate the fact that you're so logically oriented, but you might need to work on your empathic side. If you are emotionally mature enough to work on this side, your relationship will go a lot more smoothly than if you didn't.
Tell Guy you want to help him with this aspect of him also. He knows deep down that your relationship will thrive if you work together with this
His favourite activity to do with you is to play strategy games with you, like chess. As for your love of reading, he's got quite the collection of books he'd be more than happy to lend/give you
#court of darkness#court of darkness x reader#court of darkness matchups#otome#makai nightmare#court of matchups#guy avari#guy avari x reader#this is a lil different from what I usually do so I hope you aren't disappointed
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[ nightmare ] sender wakes receiver up from a nightmare :) || nonverbal angst ( accepting! )
To an outside observer, it wasn't immediately obvious.
Lena curled on the couch, knees bent and pulled up to her hips in a semi-fetal position. The blanket had been kicked off a few hours ago, and her head lay flat on the couch rather than the few - rather comfortable - pillows that sat next to her. Dark eyes were pressed tightly together, lips meeting a similar fate, as the rest of her muscles contracted and relaxed at regular intervals. Her chest heaved occasionally, puncuated with a panicked sigh before shifting on the couch again; Whether to get more comfortable or to escape whatever flitted across her unseeing vision. There were no grand displays of torment, very little sound beyond a frightened huff or a low groan of displeasure.
[ I can't hold it, losing altitude quickly... mayday... mayday... coordinates...what are the bloody coordinates... ]
[ Copper burst in her mouth. Rattling alarms, edged teeth, the sensation of weightlessness in gravity. Bruising bloomed beneath the harness. Cracked ribs. The crackling of branches. And darkness. ]
Lena's body coiled, pulling in tighter to itself. Her lips moved as if praying, whispering silent nothings to a god she was convinced wasn't listening any more. Nobody was listening anymore.
She was alone.
The sound that burst forth from her chest was loud enough to startle, a strangled beast clawing and fighting for freedom among the unknowing void kept her firmly ensnared. There was nowhere to go, nowhere to flee to. And just as it had come on, the noise choked off as Lena screwed up her face.
Then, silence again.
#( ic. )#i rewrote this like six times#I had an idea in my head but whenever I tried to put it to paper the words weren't wording#but I figured it would be fun to let byan wake her up and write from there#Because she will wake up swinging/pinning him into the cushion#usually she would never lay a hand on them but they aren't *them* right now#Anyway lmk if you want me tochange this at all#ptsd tw#nightmare tw
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drains me slowly
pairing: wade wilson x gn!reader
summary: deadpool finally invites you, the coworker he has a massive crush on, over, which means the two of you end up doing more than just watching a movie.
tags: smut (18+), sub!wade wilson, dom!reader, pain kink, use of superpowers to fuel a pain kink, light masochism, teasing, gentle dom, hand job, scratching, body worship
wc: 3.3k
a/n: fic inspired by the new deadpool movie coming out!!! also, title is from love me dead by ludo.
No surprise that Wade wasn’t exactly anyone’s favorite– that goes for among the heroes he’s worked with and throughout his life in general. He’s – to put it in the kindest way anyone’s ever told him – fucking annoying. Oh, he’s more than aware that he’s a little too out-of-pocket, abrasive, impulsive– a nightmare to interact with, really. And those were just the recent comments made by the closest thing he has to coworkers! The shit he heard from people growing up was leagues worse.
Look, having a rough start in life isn’t uncommon and he’s sure as hell not gonna get the tiny violin out for himself and throw his own little pity party, but he’s grown enough since his healing factor got beat out of him to acknowledge that he’s had it tough over the years.
He’s still going, though! Yeah, he may not always be the best at doing his laundry quick enough to get any clean clothes to wear, or at stopping his room from becoming cluttered with too many half-empty water bottles, but he’s still making it by, day by day.
But, well, it’s still really hard to constantly put himself out there, get assigned – or infinitely more likely, just shove himself into – whatever jobs or missions he feels like taking on when everyone treats him like Jar Jar Binks.
That was until you came along. So, obviously you’re crazy hot – he’s gotta get that out of the way first – but more than that, you were confident. Competent, too, and those rarely coincide in Wade’s experience. You mostly worked on call, joining the occasional mission, battle, or investigation because your mutant powers came in handy often, but you also still kept up with your day job. Honestly, Wade thinks the reason why you weren’t always present in fights was to stop the other mutants from being out of a job. Your ability to slowly deteriorate surrounding biological tissue, while horrifying and a pain in the ass to control – your words – was basically winning on easy mode.
But no, you were adamant about keeping your involvement with the X-Men infrequent– only joining when your presence was absolutely necessary. Apparently nonstop high stress situations aren't good for your mental health– who knew?
And he wants to pretend he became obsessed with you because of all those things, and of course they helped, but really, you had him at hello. Or well, you bothering to say hello and actually talk to him in the first place, to ask him questions about his life in moments of downtime where usually he’d be left with an unenthusiastic audience instead of a warm-hearted listener who actually laughed at his jokes.
So, of course, he has to go and fuck it up.
…
“So, glad that’s over, huh?” Wade says through a smile, the whites of his mask squeezing as his cheeks rise. “Speaking of over, you wanna come?”
“Over?” you shake your head a little, flashing your teeth as you try and comprehend him. “Right after we took on a whole crime ring?”
“Well, what a better time to unwind, am I right?”
“Oh?” you raise your eyebrows. “We’re unwinding?”
It’s small, but you swear Wade ups his talking speed, “Well, yeah, you know. Watch a movie, order in, show you my Pokemon cards, the works.”
You hum, pretending to consider it, “Depends, you got a holo Charizard?”
And now, for sure, he exhales his relief. “You insult me.”
The two of you enter his apartment not long after you’re dismissed from the mission, and Wade briefly excuses himself to change out of his suit. Making yourself at home, you take a seat on the couch and glance across his living room. His apartment is surprisingly nice. The kitchen and living room are one large, open space with a sleek, modern design. Also, you’d assume someone as chaotic as Wade would keep their house in a messier state, or hell, at least a little dusty, but the living room is spotless. Maybe he cleaned recently? What, was he planning on inviting someone over?
Snorting as you shake your head, a small click from across the hall catches your attention.
You’ve only seen Wade on the job, so naturally he’s always been wearing his red suit, but for some reason, you never stopped to picture him wearing civilian clothes. Actually, now that you’re seeing him in a sweatshirt and sweatpants – awfully warm for this weather – you’re struggling to reconcile the image of him you had in your head with the person right in front of you.
Well, at least until Wade brings up a fist to cover his mouth, illustrating his nervousness, and the tension fizzles out. Only Wade has body language that cartoonishly exaggerated.
“Nice sweats, green looks good on you.”
Wade pauses for a moment, registering your words before he giggles softly, arm falling to his side, “I’ve been thinking about changing the color of my suit. You know, hiding all the blood is great and all, but sometimes I gotta wonder – could this thing be more flattering?”
He walks over with a spring in his step before sitting by your side. Cutely, he wraps you up in the larger blanket first before settling the smaller, throw blanket over himself. You try your hardest not to show your confusion outwardly, but seeing Wade up close now has you questioning his outfit all the more.
He’s a bit tall, so the sweatpants don’t go all the way down to his ankles, but Wade’s wearing calf socks, as if he specifically were trying to avoid them being uncovered. Also, his hoodie’s easily a size or two larger, which makes it the perfect thing to wear to lounge around and watch a movie in, but also, the sleeves cover his entire hand sans his fingers. From the little you can see of them, they look puckered in scars.
But obviously Wade’s hands are scarred– he’s a mercenary. He’s handled all sorts of weapons and been in hundreds of fights over the years. You weren’t expecting his skin to be baby-smooth.
What’s interesting to you is why he’d go through all the trouble to hide it.
Also, yeah, the most obvious pointers were that the hood of his sweatshirt is up even though you two are indoors in his own home and – how could you forget this one – his Deadpool mask is still on.
Was he just uncomfortable with sharing his identity in general or was he specifically trying to shove distance between the two of you? Whatever, if he doesn’t want to take his mask off with you, he doesn’t have to. You feel a distinct pang in your chest, but you try not to let it color how you respond to him. He’s more than in the right to only share what he feels most comfortable with.
Wade’s been fiddling with the remote while you’ve been – hopefully – subtly looking him over, and the screen finally changes from a streaming service page to the opening of the movie.
“We’re watching The Princess Bride? I didn’t take you for a romantic.”
He bats his eyes – at least, you think he does, given the mask– and speaks in a sweet voice “Why, me? Oh please, I know romance. I’m not going to invite a lovely, gorgeous, incredible person over and force them to watch Die Hard on the first–”
His back straightens out like he’s been electrocuted before he forcibly relaxes his posture to finish his thought.
“Hang-out.”
Okay, you want to go easy on him, especially because he seems so tense, but you can’t just let that one slide. You close the small distance remaining between the two of you, causing your entire side to press against his. Even through his sweatshirt, you can feel how warm he is.
“Mmm, just a hang out?” you mumble, sliding your head onto his shoulder. You’ve done this before, either for comedic effect or just in an attempt to push his buttons the same way he always tries to push yours – which, despite his best efforts, always ends up endearing him to you instead of bothering you – but never in a context like this.
He inhales sharply, and you count the seconds until he finally lets himself release it. Sometimes, you think he takes his healing factor for granted.
Turning his head to peer down at you, Wade considers you for a moment, keeping his face and body language deceptively neutral. You try your hardest to keep your eyes focused on the movie and your body loose and comfortable.
“You want this to be a date?” he says, flat.
“Why, thank you for asking, dear sir,” you copy his sweet voice from earlier before returning to your normal. “Yes, Wade, I like you.”
“I–” he starts, but the words get caught on their way out. His fingers bury themselves in the material of his sweatpants, and the movement draws your attention to them again. Shades of blotchy red and pink curve all across his skin.
Wade doesn’t say anything, which is concerning enough on its own, but following your confession, you feel like he’s more than out of his element.
“That’s why you invited me over, right?” you try and help him out. “You feel the same, too.”
And then, feeling bold, you turn your head to face his still mask-covered head and kiss him lightly on the cheek. Instantly, you see fireworks go off inside him, because Wade hurriedly shuts the TV off and runs off to close the blinds. There’s barely enough light in the room now to make out shapes, but apparently Wade doesn’t take any issue because he peels his mask back and kisses you on the lips.
His lips are textured, and your intuition flashes quietly in the back of your mind, but for right now, you focus on how energetic he is. If his body is warm, his mouth feels like it’s on fire. He’s constantly moving, trying to experience all of you as fast as possible.
It’s making your face heat up, how quickly he demands your complete attention and how relentless he is in grabbing it. Wade bites your bottom lip, causing you to gasp into him, and he uses the opportunity to explore across your own teeth and tongue. After a few more seconds, you break away, needing the space to breathe.
“Holy shit,” you whisper, voice rough.
“You’re telling me,” Wade coughs out. “We could’ve been doing that this whole time?”
“Well, all you had to do was ask.”
And although you can’t see him, which you know is the point, you understand something in him has shifted. He gets up from the couch, takes you by the hand, and leads you towards his room. His pace is so quick, you barely comprehend his actions until you’re both standing right in front of his bed.
“Is this okay?” he asks, quiet. You don’t think you’ve ever heard him stifle the amount of words he let loose before.
“Yes, of course it is. But Wade, we have to turn on at least a lamp or something in here.”
“We do?”
“Yeah,” you pause to give him a second to think. “I can’t see you at all like this.”
“What if – and you're just going to have to trust me on this one – you’d prefer it this way,” Wade’s voice is light, but it feels like it’s cracking at the edges.
“And why’s that?”
Not like you’d be able to see, but the anxiety radiating off of him makes him sound wide-eyed, “Huh? Oh, I– uh…”
“Look, if you’re worried about how I’m going to react to you having a bunch of scars– don’t. I don’t mind,” the sound of fabric rustling in front of you makes you think he just flinched. “I figured it out. You’re not sneaky.”
“You say that, but…”
“Wade, I don’t care. And I mean that kindly! Really, it doesn’t bother me.”
Wade starts pacing in front of you, nearly tripping on the leg of the bedpost, “Look, I appreciate the whole hero act you got going on here – really fits you good, you should totally quit your day job – but you don’t have to force yourself, I–”
“Wade, you either confront your insecurities head on or I’m not doing this with you. I told you what I think, the only person who’s going to worry about how you look here is you. We either have sex with a light on or not at all, okay?”
No one speaks for a few seconds once you finish saying your piece, and you cringe, realizing how forceful you must have come off. You’re about to speak up again to apologize when you hear a shudder-filled exhale from a few feet away.
“Jesus H. Christ,” he groans. “You’re so hot when you're putting people in their place.”
Your lips curl into a shaky smile, “Yeah, what else do you think is hot?”
And you can practically hear the gears turning in his head from here.
…
It’s actually happening. No fucking way he didn’t dream this up. But you were pretty adamant about him getting his head in the game in order for you guys to actually get down and dirty, so for you, he tries to keep his train of thought as focused as possible– a big ask.
“Bossing anyone – everyone, especially me – around. You using your abilities–” you reach over and find Wade’s hand before running your fingers up his arm. “Shit, umm, using your abilities in general, but, umm, I really like when I’m there.”
“Oh?” you giggle. “When you get to watch, or?”
“When I get to feel.”
Your hand moves over to the nape of his neck, reaching under his hood and mask, to rub at his rough skin. Wade’s nerves light on fire as he waits for you to respond– for some reason, it never feels like your words come out fast enough.
“You got a thing for pain, Wilson?”
He chuckles, “You’d be surprised.”
“Okay, but are you sure? I can try, but it might not be all that good for you.”
“Don’t worry,” he thinks back to all those times he had a hard on while the two of you were fighting together. “It’ll be great for me.”
You hum, “Alright, then, but you tell me to stop the second you don’t like something, okay?”
“Aye, aye, captain,” he salutes, though you probably can’t see it. “And, same goes for you.”
“What a gentleman, letting me destroy him and giving me an out.”
He’s blushing something furious and he’s never been more grateful for the dark, “Anything for you.”
Those are the last words he whispers before he begins undressing. He knows you probably meant for him to strip with the light on, but he’s really not so sure he could stomach being looked at like a bug under a microscope. The attention, while electrifying, was already starting to get to him, so he lets himself stay in his comfort zone a little longer. As a treat.
Once his sweats are off, he hesitantly peels off his mask before slipping into bed, keeping most of his body under the covers. After shutting his eyes, he clicks the lamplight on.
You’re not saying anything. That’s– a sign? A good one, a bad one, Wade doesn’t know. He’s trying so hard to keep his breathing steady, but he can feel his body start shaking all on its own.
You join him on the bed, kneeling next to him, before your warm breath falls across his cheeks as you kiss his forehead. Only then does he open his eyes, and you reward him by cupping his cheek in your hand.
“There,” you say. “Wasn’t so hard, was it?”
Wade gets the strong urge to snort, and so he does, but your eyes narrow. There’s a soft scratching at the back of his skull as you snake your hand over, and quickly you dig your nails in slightly. Wade has to bite his tongue to keep the noise in.
“I’m sorry, is that funny to you?”
“No!” he whispers sharply as you bring your hand down to scratch along the line of his neck.
“Good, seems like you’re learning.”
You kiss him, teeth clacking together at first before Wade melts into it. Your hand is still slowly exploring his body, running along the line of his shoulder and towards his upper arm. When you reach his bicep, you very obviously squeeze the muscle there, and you let out a pleased sigh as you begin groping in earnest.
He wants to turn to hide his face in the pillow, not sure how to react to all the positive attention and appreciation, but you catch him trying to turn away, and you kiss him deeper.
While one hand begins to explore his pecs and abs, your other hand scratches down his v-line, softly caressing the skin of his inner thighs before moving around to squeeze his ass.
Wade rewards you with a small whine, and you carefully trail a finger down his dick. You move in to whisper in his ear, “You’re so hot, I’m not forgiving you for hiding for so long.”
Trying to stifle the embarrassing moan that he knows will come out, he bites down on his lip hard, but you take the hand not teasing his cock to gently pry his lip away.
“From now on, I get to hear you, okay?” you say and Wade nods rapidly.
You take the moment you wrap your hand around the base of his cock, and after giving him a second to ready himself, you ask, “I’m going to use it now. Tell me if you want to stop.”
“Okay–” he responds before he feels the sweet sensation of you jerking him off coupled with your power. It’s a humming, dull feeling of pain resting in the background– almost like the sensation of being choked except it’s affecting his entire body. Wade feels like there’s a weight pinning down each of his limbs and it’s so freeing– so relaxing.
He sighs and turns his head to the side, letting out a deep moan when you up the pace of your hand and bring the other to fondle his balls.
“How is it?” you ask, sweat dripping down your brow at trying to control your ability. Sure, it’s powerful and at times pretty horrifying, but Wade always loved how he was essentially immune. At the same rate you could destroy the flesh around you, he could heal his own right back. Just knowing that made him feel good, somehow, like he was made perfectly for you.
“It’s good– so good, I–” he nearly shouts, forgetting about the neighbors.
“Yeah, baby? What do you need?”
At hearing the pet name, he straight up whines as he tries to bury his hands in the sheets instead of his own thighs.
“Not sure, umm, a little more–”
And he doesn’t know which god he has to thank for putting you on this planet, but he’s willing to pay them all a visit. You read him like he’s not some mess, some walking disaster nobody bothers paying attention to, and you give him what you know he needs.
From the base of his chin, you drag your hand in a deep scratch across his neck, chest, and stomach, your eyes watching the pink lines blend in with his scarred skin. It’s a flashing pain, sharp like being scalded and it feels so good mixed with the blunt feel of being under your power.
“I’m gonna–” he says, and of course, you seem to already know. He cums with a deep grunt, rutting his hips into your fist before he thrusts his head forward to kiss you again.
As soon as he comes down, he pulls away only slightly, just so he can say what he’s been wanting to say since he met you.
“Thank–”
You cut him off with another kiss, because sometimes, he really does need to shut up.
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Astro Notes : Short N Sweet - The power lilith holds <3
Lilith in the 1st - Very strong personalities. Gifted in using the eyes to seduce others. Magnetic. Can fight the demons off of you so please be weary of getting to close if you don't want them to see what hides beneath the surface. There angelic, believe it or not. They're not here to see the world as you see it, they have a taboo personality, yes, but its also because they must learn how to live for themselves and not for anyone else.
Lilith in the 2nd - Cash cow. Can basically get any man to give them what they want. They have to be comfortable in getting under peoples skin, because they can trigger people with how they talk. Insensitive? Not exactly. Just doesn't budge and cares to be 'nice'.
Lilith in the 3rd - Creative freaks. Can use the mind in a million ways, but they still seek out one thing that works for them as they are very passionate people and whatever keeps their attention the most they'll go at it forever. They are use to the attention from people since primary school. So they like to hide a lot. They have a weird mind and they don't care to share it with too many people. If they ever considered writing, they could make some pretty interesting stuff. Sibling rivalries are a thing here.
Lilith in the 4th - Tumulous relationships with family & friends. It's because they're the outcast of the group. I mean, they know a lot and they can't stand for nothing but the truth. But sometimes the truth kills, even when they don't mean for it to be. Can be a hard knock life but they make it worth something. They're no angel, just the universe in the flesh. <3
Lilith in the 5th - Captivating presence. Lovely auras, and amazing bodies. Could be good at dancing. Could be a lil promiscuous. Could be a little dangerous. You never know. Secretive/private about their affairs.. But the stories they have I promise you its like reading a novel. Naturally sensual & can't get enough of them, even if you tried ;)
Lilith in the 6th - Goes hard for groups that aren't seen enough. Can have jealous coworkers or people who want to annoy them and get them out of character. Could also have sensual experiences with co workers. Demands compensation. Could be extremely well liked or hated no in between.
Lilith in the 7th - Spicy individuals. People love to hate them. Could have bisexual allegations from time to time. Most people like to be around them but despise them after a while. Sweet as a pie though, most people allow the rumors to get to them but usually these people are naturally sweet and empathetic. Popular loners.
Lilith in the 8th - Strong personalities. Capable of seeing beyond the veil. Has issues with society due to their daring nature but they do come out ready and swinging. Hypnotic presence. Can heal as much as they can poison, so be careful wit em ;)
Lilith in the 9th - Very beautiful spirits who are the epitome of being carefree. The universe takes them wherever their hearts want to go, and the journey is always something that last a life time. Being connected to someone with this placement could give you the feelings of something amazing. Always hold their hand tight because once their gone its over.
Lilith in the 10th - Dreamy auras. Have a knack for the public and the audience can feel their raw energy. Have haters from all area codes, this just makes them more confident. They know how to appease society well, and they can take on roles that others are too afraid to. This is great placement for lilith to be in.
Lilith in the 11th - Could had to fight to keep their self esteem in check. Due to being outcasted alot, they could of been the scapegoat for a lot of reasons that didn't pertain to them much. With time, they learn to accept that their energy isn't for anyone, and that their value is more than what you can define it. Helpful sweethearts who just wants to be around community that gets them.
Lilith in the 12th - The dream world is a nightmare. My apologies to y'all cause I'm suppose to start it off a little sweet. But this is placement of a witch/warlock. You guys have many gifts that go past the ordinary. And you more than likely come up with some ish down the line. There is a time where you will undergo a lot of spiritual refinement to keep your head going. Don't be afraid of what shows up, it might teach you something!
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