#but there's also respect

[devourcr]

i went back & forth about writing something up for these headcanons and tbh it took me a while to gather my thoughts and to decide how much i wanted to say about how i view armand's relationship to and with m.arius.

this is kind of a mashed up headcanon, applying to both my novel & show verse.

note: i'm not an apologist and i don't romanticize or condone harmful relationships. but this also isn't me analyzing marius as a character or how a 2000 year old vampire might engage with humans.

tvc is full of monsters. that's the part of the point. i'm not anti-marius (he's a fictional vampire), but i'm not an apologist either.

END OF DISCLAIMER HERE.

armand's feelings towards marius are complex. he loves him still, entirely, and remembers his devotion like second nature.

he perceives the relationship as one of love, but he's also not unaware of the power dynamic between them or the objectification. armand's awareness of these things, however, comes in physical and emotional reaction, rather than analytical thought. there were times he felt used, but it's really not until he finds out that marius lived that it really hits him.

armand feels abandoned by him. he's resentful bc where the years spent in his house were half of his human life almost, their time together was still extremely short. he's angry bc he feels judged by the person who created him, that made him the vampire he ultimately became.

while santino had a hand, a lot was set in motion before him and that's a post for another day.

basically, armand is conflicted, resentful, hurt, but also still feels love.

this. this is where it hurts for him. it's that armand can easily slide back into the role he had before, he can love him the same, but it feels almost unrequited now. all the dedication and all the devotion for what? and he's terrified of feeling abandoned again or used.

i wanted to write this mostly bc i wanted it to be clear that any romanticization comes from armand's perspective. and i tend not to put many disclaimers in my writing.

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[randomalistic]

Selfshippers who ship with weird/unappealing characters. I love you. Like hell yeah you go get with Mr Crocker. Go get with lord faarquad

[inkskinned]

this is just my opinion but i think any good media needs obsession behind it. it needs passion, the kind of passion that's no longer "gentle scented candle" and is now "oh shit the house caught on fire". it needs a creator that's biting the floorboards and gnawing the story off their skin. creators are supposed to be wild animals. they are supposed to want to tell a story with the ferocity of eating a good stone fruit while standing over the sink. the same protective, strange instinct as being 7 and making mud potions in pink teacups: you gotta get weird with it.

good media needs unhinged, googling-at-midnight kind of energy. it needs "what kind of seams are invented on this planet" energy and "im just gonna trust the audience to roll with me about this" energy. it needs one person (at least) screaming into the void with so much drive and energy that it forces the story to be real.

sometimes people are baffled when fanfic has some stunning jaw-dropping tattoo-it-on-you lines. and i'm like - well, i don't go here, but that makes sense to me. of fucking course people who have this amount of passion are going to create something good. they moved from a place of genuine love and enjoyment.

so yeah, duh! saturday cartoons have banger lines. random street art is sometimes the most precious heart-wrenching shit you've ever seen. someone singing on tiktok ends up creating your next favorite song. youtubers are giving us 5 hours of carefully researched content. all of this is the impossible equation to latestage capitalism. like, you can't force something to be good. AI cannot make it good. no amount of focus-group testing or market research. what makes a story worth listening to is that someone cares so much about telling it - through dance, art, music, whatever it takes - that they are just a little unhinged about it.

one time my friend told me he stayed up all night researching how many ways there are to peel an orange. he wrote me a poem that made me cry on public transportation. the love came through it like pith, you know? the words all came apart in my hands. it tasted like breakfast.

[crabhousecrafting]

hermitcraft “fun facts” are so hilarious because they’re always like

etho created the hopper clock! ⏰

xisuma created bedwars! 🛏️

cubfan is a published astrophysicist.

[sparrowlucero]

The greatest injustice ever faced is that I almost certainly started the still thriving "clown husbandry" tag on here, but any discussion about it (from a know your meme page to a youtube video with 500k views) says it's a joke of "unknown origin" or credited to this post, likely bouncing off of mine (which was actively circulating at the time with like 30k notes):

This is a tragedy for many reasons, most of all because it wasn't just an offhand joke but actually a direct response to some of the funniest online hate I ever got:

They're erasing the truest history of tumblr: its desperate need to seethe and argue over every obvious joke with more than 10 notes.

anyways here is the canonical pet clown. according to me

[divineandmajesticinone]

10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU (1999) dir. Gil Junger

[mroddmod]

one of the very few to show the batch kindness back on kamino

[ctrlzxoo]

ROUND 7: amongst a sea of green, is a glimpse of snow

Bonus: happy end(?)

[wanologic]

always good to keep a screamhole handy

[sayaberry]

being completely and utterly normal about the bombshell that just dropped

[robiniswriting]

david tennant, matt smith, and jodie whittaker: if doctor who calls me and im available I am so there

me: omg yes slay I love that for you

christopher eccleston and peter capaldi: there’s nothing on god’s green earth that makes me want to reprise the role of the doctor on television

me: omg yes slay I love that for you

[peevishpants]

i ask you this: how would YOU wear your freshly caught fish hat

[molinaesque]

But I got something going now. A friend. And I don't wanna mess it up. Maybe that's what I was like for you.

[pickled-flowers]

Sex positivity is also about not calling Ace people prude and using virgin as an insult 👍 hope that helps

[andstuffsketches]

finally watched Reign of the Supermen