#but there's also no guarantee I WILL get engagement

[moriamori]

Time for me to ramble into the void that is tumblr (if this somehow gets picked up, it'll be 2-for-2 "I tried to ramble in the void but then one hyperspecific person out of a bajillion picked it up and irreversibly changed the course of my life" but anyway,)

Airships, the big literal "flying boat in the sky", became one of my hyperfixations since pretty early on. I don't know when my first airship exposure was (Final Fantasy 6 maybe?), but I do know that witnessing the airship in the opening cinematic of Final Fantasy 9 did irreversible changes to my brain. And as a depressed queer-trans kid with a constantly displaced home between divorced-disaster parents, the concept of a portable home that is mine became, understandably, a comfort fixation.

And as highschool marches on, everyone starts talking about graduation and college or university and life paths and like. I didn't mean to always be rebellious or out of step with everyone else, but. Even then, I knew in my depressed barely-beating-alive heart that This Was All Shit. The last thing I was going to do on graduating was immediately go to college or university to get in debt over something I didn't care about when I barely passed my classes as-it-was.

So I made my entire final "What I will do after graduation" project presentation over becoming an airship captain and fucking off entirely.

And you know what? It was actually kinda nice to look into it. I discovered that Canada already has an airship company called Solarship, and every few years to this day, I'll check google again and this time, I found out there's an even newer airship company set to launch within the next few years called Flying Whales, also set in Canada. I learned about the possible use of airships for delivery to areas without infrastructure, or the uses of them for scientific research with low-environment impact (You don't need to Go Fast for surveying forests, or to observe geographic landscape features, or to go low over sensitive marshlands; ideally, being steady and gentle probably helps more.)

And, partially because it's funny, partially because to this day I have a little bit of "Fuck it we ball" in me, I'll send an occasional email to these people to ask about how one can become an airship pilot. There's no real schools for that, after all.

Part of me wonders if I should go all in into becoming an airship pilot. Growing up socially isolated (without knowing why) as a trans autistic kid, I always felt like the strange exception outside of larger groups. The late add-on. Sometimes, it wasn't even the group's fault, but my own preferences that simply didn't align to everyone else's. I like time alone.

(Turns out that's autistic self-regulation. The irony nowadays is as my therapy improves and I develop a stronger desire for social engagement, I still burn out just as easily and still need these days to recharge, and they're getting harder to "schedule in" as obligations increase.)

It would likely be a strangely isolating career. Like a sky trucker. But instead of set roads; open sky, shifting weather, and an infrastructure that won't ever be guaranteed, and at times the only guarantee is the infrastructure's own absence at set points. I don't know what sort of payment I would even get from such a specific, strange job.

I wonder to myself; would I have a co-pilot? Would it be entirely me, in order to save on weight on the ship? (You need to account not just for the weight of an additional person, but the food and water and bedding and other living needs.) Would I end up married to this copilot or would it just happen to be a random-ass person I hated for the entirety of the trip?

Would I have to monitor the route and do micro-adjustments in my entire waking time for the trips, or would navigation be so smooth that I could spend this time working on sketching comic pages while making progress on casual flight path? (I deeply desire to finish my comic, but I know it would take maybe ten years to complete, and I feel reluctance to commit so much to one singular project when there's other things I could be contributing to. But it haunts me. "What if there was a way to do both?")

Ironically, I don't consider myself as "one of the true hyperfixated airship people"; I can't yet identify weather patterns by clouds, I can't name types of planes, my knowledge of a lot of aviation and aviation-adjacent things feels minimal compared to the True Believers out there. But at the same time, I can't deny the ever-present fondness I feel for these vehicles.

I end up asking myself; "Do I commit myself to this isolating pursuit, that is no doubt beautiful, but would physically keep me away from those I would love, for extended amounts of time? Or do I pursue a local, grounded career -- like engineering, or construction, or even just administration for some benevolent thing -- which then allows me to be engaged among people and community on a near-daily basis?" And, genuinely, I don't quite know the answer.

I think about the joke about pilots how their planes are their wives. I think about how I'm trans and single in my near mid-thirties, never having quite yet been able to ever secure a grounded anchor for myself, be it through a partner, a home, a place. I wonder about who would trust me with such a massive and unique investment, to one day introduce me to one of these incredible creations.

I wonder if they would allow me to have a ship cat and if I would be able to post from the airship itself, becoming like that one blogger from xkcd. Goals, honestly.

I don't know where I was going with this.

I think I just want to find out where I'm going with this. Go forth, my scarab.

yeah I'm an airship mechanic. I got that big ass wrench and the boots that are too big, but also, and this is important, goggles I do not use correctly

[shymoob]

RESIDENT EVIL SUMMER EVENT!!!

Hello everyone! I have been thinking of ways to engage to art/writing community more, and encourage aspiring artists and creators to be more active this summer! I really want to make my page a place where EVERYONE feels included, and can get appreciation and support for their creations.

That’s why I have decided to host a Resident Evil Summer Event! The event will take place this July, and have two prompts a week. Writers and artists alike are encouraged to participate! With summer coming full speed ahead, I encourage ANYONE to take part and show off your creative juices! Now, without further ado, let’s jump to the rules!

RULES:

- There really are no rules! Just be nice and have fun! If you are unsure about something, feel free to DM me, although anything is on the table! NSFW, Dead Dove, anything!

- Oh and this is a Resident Evil event, so as long as it relates to anything within the franchise your good!

- ALSO, no need to do every prompt! This is just for fun, so even if you’re just inspired by one, that’s great!

- If you tag me in one of your creations, you’ll get a guaranteed repost from me. Obviously no pressure to do this, I’m just so excited to see what you all come up with!

PROMPTS:

June 30th - Beach Day ☀️🏖️

July 4th - Firework Celebration 🎆🧨

July 7th - Heat Wave 🥵🔥

July 12th - Melting Ice Cream 🍦🫠

July 14th - Fair/Carnival 🎟️🎠

July 18th - Summer Camp 🏕️🌌

July 21st - Fishing Trip 🎣🐟

July 25th - Road Trip 🚗🏞️

I’m excited for anyone to participate in this! Even if it’s just one day! I appreciate anyone who takes the time. I’m very excited! Let’s have some fun this summer! #RESummerEvent

Special thanks to @writingwisterias , @lilith0fthevalley and @vixassketchbook for helping me bring this idea to life and creating it!

Banner by @writingwisterias

Dividers by @plutism

[the-golden-ghost]

Part of me kinda does want to post the fic I'm writing now but mostly I don't want to go through All That again

[slasherscream]

No bc ur post about hitting Jordan with the "this you? 🤨" is so real. Like maybe you two are frenemies like you hang out but are academic rivals so as soon as they get a little too bold, you pull up their jitterbean promo lol It def shuts them up but they're secretly into it when ur mean to them

(Sorry for rambling I just really like ur stuff)

They'd never know a minute's peace. Even when they think you're being nice there's teeth to it.

"You look really good today, Li."

Jordan, not trusting you to not be a cunt, "....thanks?"

You, copying their exact cadence and tone during the 'Godolkin Campus Tour with Jordan Li' video, "So much swag!"

"FUCK YOU."

[moiraimyths]

Before we call anon rude because let’s see it from their perspective, imagine getting an entire feast to eat. That can be pretty hard to start with so much that’s going on, but if they start with one thing they know they’ll like (aka one character they like) that can be the start for them leaping to other characters to finish the story and the bigger story. I struggle the same way to start book series if I don’t have at least one character that drives me to read it, it’s all about what can be the hook to push them through. Sounds like the anon is neurodivergent (just a guess) so they might genuinely not see it as rude and see it as a solution to even play the game to start with.

Btw absolutely adore the game, the complex and rich characters making them all so unique is amazing. The art is so pleasing to the eyes I love it!! I’m waiting for it all to get out at once so I don’t get too impatient. Shae however interests me the most, which routes will have the most lore for them? Will there be routes that give more lore in general based on decisions you make or do they all share the same amount? (I mean general lore not just Shae lore)

Apologies; we are not trying to accuse any asker of being rude! We are simply explaining our perspective as the developers / are trying to broadly encourage folks to dip their toes into other areas of the story outside of the main route(s) they're interested in, especially considering some routes will be made available sooner than others, and these other routes will likely contain additional scenes/lore of everyone's fave(s) regardless! We want to give each main cast member an equal amount of love (and lore) regardless of their overall popularity, so our goal is not to tut-tut anyone for having strong preferences for one character over the others, but rather to explain that you may be surprised by how much *more* you learn about your preferred characters in the other routes. That's all!

For Shae... Well, they were a foot soldier for one of the worst periods of the War. Lore wise, any other story that touches on the War will likely have content relevant to them and their experiences. ^^

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

Being a trans guy on this site is genuinely just depressing sometimes. Like within the last hour, I've seen two separate "men are bad™ and hating men is feminism, actually" posts where the OP is later like oopsie I didn't mean trans men when I said this.

Like okay, even if we ignore the biological deterministic elephant drinking terf kool aid in the room, you have just basically admitted that you don't think of trans men as men.

Cool. Great. Love that. I'm gonna launch myself into the sun.

[defiantinsect]

Hey sorry for the mental breakdown in your inbox. The caring too much and always fucking everything up about it dedf1sh thing is me projecting. I just have a lot of feelings about the pre side order dedf1sh fandom. I loved the collaborative fluid nature of it. The way that every dedf1sh was somebody pushing their own ideas of identity and illness through this familiar kaleidoscope made entirely of aesthetics and vague themes. The ways that you could see the light that person shines into it and see some negative image of another real person living within this character they made. The ways that people would explore their gender with the character and you would see a language of designs develop in conversation with each other, of headcannons that contradict each other pooled together to create a constellation of different ways people leave their mark in the space. And when side order came out a lot of that died. A lot of artists buried their self indulgent ocs they named Ahato Mizuta for the singular solid crystallized Acht. And when more came in who didn’t engage with the character past their appearance and their eyes, that singular acht began to shift to something that wasn’t even true to the cannon of the games. But instead of a symphony of flawed and beautifully raw and personal characters, crafted from something real, it was a sanded down version of something fake.

I’m also now realizing that this is not much more coherent and is really just more mental illness in your ask box.

see i wasnt into splatoon the way i am now back when 2 was the newest game (idk what happened. it was like christmas eve of 2023 that i suddenly got slammed with my affliction), i was still a fan but not a "will create fanwork for it" kind of fan, so i dont have a good idea of what the fandom and its subfandoms were like at the time, but what youve said is very familiar thanks to the other fandoms i used to be in (and your interpretation of acht is very close to mine, tbh). so i totally get it.

i dont remember the original post/account that said it but i always think about "people modifying their fanwork to fit fanon more is a type of body horror to me"

[slasherflicks999]

instagram pisses me off so hard why do i ONLY get engagement from like a few of my followers on there and almost all of them are just my friends liking my shit (still appreciated ofc but damn)

is shadow banning a thing on instagram 😭😭😭 because😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[nerdie-faerie]

I've got two family events coming up during term time and I'm trying to decide if the trips are worth the cost by asking if my family is actually going to be attending them and my mum's response was 'I might be able to convince your dad if we know you're going :)' girl I'm not spending nearly £60 just to come down for the weekend only to then find out I'm going by myself

[sizablelad]

so joever my roommate having basically no standards on taking care of our shared living space. also so joever my roommate being exceptionally lazy and refusing to do anything. she can actually be so unkind and straight up rude because she expects her friends to do basically EVERYTHING. her friend was visiting from home and she was the WORST host. this is the end result of upperupperupperupper-middle class only child helicopter parent nepo baby has a maid childhood and i don't know why i thought She was the only exception

[daydreamingtomatos]

if tumblr dies im remaking my twitter but tbh itll mostly just be weird porn. after the remake not before

[heymacy]

hi macy :) I read about your personal experience with finding yourself too invested in the gallavich fandom to the point of feeling upset about it and I have to say... that happened to me too. the compulsory need to engage even when there's no good feeling at the end of it, the constantly thinking about it to the detriment of other activities... I don't know if it's maybe because shameless and gallavich deal with heavy topics, or just one of the ways online engagement and hyperfixations can evolve, but I felt so much better once I removed myself from it, able to find joy in numerous other activities, and fandoms too! just wanted to share this - the fact that I had the same experience - and wanted to say I'm glad you're doing better now :)

hello my love! thank you for reaching out! i'm very glad that you were able to find solidarity in what i shared. re: heavy topics - i know that for myself, not being faced with content regarding my own disease on a daily basis has been a nice change of pace for me. i haven't felt as consumed by it since i took a step back. i think sometimes the content we engage with colors our real-world experiences and that was definitely the case for me. i've never been a casual viewer of media or a casual enjoyer of things so it doesn't surprise me that what happened to me, happened. i love having the capacity now to enjoy other things - and hey, i still engage with fandom here and there! i'm loving RWRB content right now (i have just a tiny bit of brain rot regarding those two) along with some jane austen adaptations and other such things! media is beautiful and transformative and i love putting stickers on the scrapbook that is my blog! thank you for your kind words - i'm glad i'm doing better now, too. it feels good. it feels healthy and normal. and i really hope everyone can find a balance if they're feeling off-kilter. also, i love you. did you know that? thank you for popping in 💛 feel free to do it any time you please, i'm always hanging around somewhere!

[atmospheral]

hiiiii re: comments on ao3

you reblogged a post from me where i said in the tags that i did a long comment and 'only' got a thanks

i think i wrote it wrong, but it was the first time leaving a comment with that writer and i thought i was overbearing, but of course i understand that writers have it busy!! writing a fic (and a 50k one at that) is hard as shit and I was not the only one who left a comment, so them not always replying was no issue 😭 it was just me overthinking, im so sorry

i do not mean anything mean/rude with this, just explaining my tags! love <3

(re: my tags on this post)

hii thank you for the ask!! also orz sorry maybe my tone didn't come through but i wasn't admonishing you in any way!! don't worry i completely understand where you're coming from (idk if you saw the post that i made right after reblogging the post from you but i elaborate there.

also just to clarify that post wasn't addressed at you at all!! i just realised i had a lot of feelings about leaving comments and fandom reciprocity after seeing your post).

really glad to meet a fellow comment leaver and don't worry about being rude or anything with your ask, i'm sorry my tone didn't come through! hope my answer clarifies and if not lmk. hope u have a nice day <3

[biscuityskies]

With the impending implementation of Project 2025, I suspect that AO3 will come under fire as well. And given that it’s a US based organisation, and the US has wedged itself somehow into every possible thing, I would also suspect that this will have global impacts. I cannot be certain of it - I’m certainly not an expert on political things and Trump remains, frankly, unpredictable - but I have personally found it’s more helpful to prepare beforehand than to scramble to keep myself afloat in the midst of a crisis. Knowing how important our favourite stories are to so many of us, here’s what I suggest:

Readers, I recommend you find your favourite stories again. Go all the way back in your bookmarks. Tell the authors you appreciate them, and you love their work. I think we could all use some nice words right now. If you want to keep the story, I recommend downloading it: here’s a guide on how to do so from the AO3 FAQ. I personally have wanted to take up bookbinding for a hot second; I might print off my favourite fics for myself and figure out how to bind them. The OTW also recommends downloading your favourites - see link below.

Authors, I recommend you keep your manuscripts. Download them onto an external flash drive and save them for a rainy day four or so years from now. Even the ones you don’t like are worth keeping - I guarantee you somebody else likes them even if you don’t. (I’m speaking to myself here, too.) Project 2025 has blatantly laid out a ban of pornography, and they will take that to mean whatever they want it to; I suggest you don’t even keep your fics on a Google drive if possible it’s definitely easier to keep them all online, trust me, I know, but so does the government. Corporations do not care about you: they will sell you out to whoever is willing to pay. Remember also to turn off AI scraping wherever possible, or better yet use sites that don’t engage in that behaviour.

For further reading from people more qualified than I, here’s the OTW’s statement on what their plans are so far.

I hope I’m wrong. I honestly would love nothing more. But more importantly, we will get through this. Humanity has told stories and put blorbos in situations for literal millennia. We’ll see the other side of this.

[myloish]

but then also who giiiiives a shit. what ended up on screen is what matters. jayvik yaoi cocaine has half the internet in a chokehold right now. it's been trending on tumblr for almost a week straight. every official arcane social media posting the same "because I promised" scene because it's guaranteed to get a fuckton of engagement. as much as this guy wants to whine and try to pull out all the stops to break the momentum, the ball is out of his hands. the court of public opinion has reached its conclusion, and the conclusion is that theyre gay as hell

[melaninfury]

Astrology Harsh Opinions

Back with a vengeance. Thank you 😊

Please don’t take this as astrological facts. These are more my experience and perspective. The whole chart and aspects must also be considered.

It must be gods gift to every Scorpio rising with Pluto in the 1st to seem very devoted to self preservation and just...self. Can be very self absorbed when the power is in their hands. With a Taurus descendant they have stability/peace in some relationships but I notice these people have a thrill for domination and power dynamics but in subtle ways that reflect back to how they want to feel about themselves, enough said.

If your parents are a Capricorn moons, their wounds and detachment from their mother will translate to how they raise and treat you. While they may not hate you or want to treat you with that same coldness but they can't help but resonate with the downright coldness they can carry into parenthood. Some.....some.

For independent souls if your MC (10th house) is in an innovative and independent sign do not and I repeat DO NOT tell your plans or all your ideas to somebody with a moon or malefic planet on your MC. They will control or have alot to say about how you approach and move through your career and navigate life on the outside. They can hinder you or make an emotional attachment regarding your improvement/advancement. Partnerships are great make sure yours can be though.

There is nothing more judgmental and ever questioning then a gemini moon, venus or stellium. Guaranteed aways have something to say.

If your coworkers have personal placements in your 4th, 8th, 12th and 10th. Trust they will be all up in your business, watch your mouth around them. They will talk and spread your business. (honorable mention the 7th house)

You will find a venus on someones ascendant or in their 12th can activate their jealousy towards you and the people you love and give your attention to outside of them. Especially if you surpass the idealism or idea they wanted you to be.

Don't be a fool mars conjunct mercury or these planets in the 7th, YOU know and you need to follow you intuition towards your people (soul family), business and fulfillment. Move away from them people that come against or attempt to hijack your wavelength. FUCK THEM PEOPLE.

Its true if you have 7th and 12th house placements you have hidden enemies/sneaky enemies....enemies of all kinds nonetheless. If this energy is connected to your 1st, 10th, 4th or 9th house i'm telling you now, you have hidden enemies that are coming from alot of places some family, friends or people around you (i.e coworkers). They seek to stop, control or transform you for their own benefit and from their own place of shadow.

Again if your parents are Capricorn moons I just want to start a support group for you and me so we can discuss all of our generational trauma and anger together, fully engage with the fact that your parents can do anything but love you properly.

If your a Sagittarius moon, Laugh...laugh as you cry its gods way of giving you proper antidepressants I do not care what your provider says....jkjk lets all get a therapist and shadow work :).

I personally think telling people to fuck off is the best way to protect yourself. Its the right way and the only way because if i don't get it then its not real. Make it make sense or shut up because I don't have the energy. The math has to fucking math thank you - a tired virgo mercury

I think having karmic synastry or inherited placements from family is a fucking curse. If this lady didn't fair well with her moon mercury and venus why the fuck would you give me that one for her to screw me retrograde...? HELLO god were you listening while I was crying and screaming....!?!?

One thing I fucking hate is being told what to do - sincerely a sag moon. Especially when you fucked it over 3 or 4 fucking times... now your trying to "teach" me something. Play with stop signs and red lights for me respectfully.

If your mars is conjunct a planet listen to your anger and the source, use it to your advantage or to calm down. If its a soft planet like venus, use pleasurable and fun ways to activate and express your needs. If its moon find comfort in taking action to protect and build your needs and home for yourself. If its mercury well, just try to calm down and find ways not to punch people, watch how and what you say because it makes sense why your angry with everyone but yourself. Use it to talk yourself down or scream or perceive a smarter person idk (sorry y'all i'm pissed)

Love yourself well and protectively Venus in the 8th, its precious there and its hard to fully recover from deep seated pain it changes the foundation of how you love or who. Which may be a good or bad thing.

Bump people and their passive aggressive lack of realness and balls to say I either do or don't like you 11 house placements (especially malefic). Cut em off loose ends that aren't productive for how you see yourself and reputation. CUT them off don't just think about it.

Saturn or Mars in the 4th is childhood trauma, the type depends on the connections and aspects to the houses.

A mars in scorpio is gonna do what they wanna do for them every time, your in the way of what they want or who they want...they will attempt to get you gone in secret or in public, I don't make the rules.

Neptune can show where you should or can spiritually protect your mind, body and spirit. I.E Scorpio Neptune in the 9th can use religious ideology or practices to protect or spiritually cleanse. Leverage your spiritual planet. Especially because of its need for strong spiritual hygiene. Sometimes applying the meaning to the energy of the planet can help you learn to define your spiritual practice.

Saturn squaring moon or mercury is emotional/mental pain, it can definitely show hardships involving perception and internalization in your environment. These are planets that rule over socialization and understanding (how we learn to understand the world around us), these are the main planets that show us and guide us on "how". Even if its not real, for example Saturn in the 4th/aspecting moon or mercury allows you to perceive through a lens of struggle or hardships that haunt them, as they grow older or reflect in lessons of life. Growing up in poverty effects how we see or want our inner world and homes to appear after we've endured childhood, this is seen through maturing the moon or saturn/moon hard aspects. Saturn/mercury aspects show the dent in expression and mental clarity that can often be inherited by a lack of stable environment or words being affirmed, later healed through journaling, therapy and expressing the source of what was never said.

If you are a Pisces, Scorpio, Capricorn or Aquarius. Learn to love yourself and who you are (not to say others shouldn't), my dual ruled signs tend to receive a lot more hardships being ruled by malefic and transformative energies. The rising can also show what your parents wanted for or of you, which under these signs can be a weight of something that you never asked or wanted. It can become a burden but allow it to show your strength. Focus on mastering and clarifying who you are to YOU before you find yourself in a job, label, home or relationship that may not be the best but the endurance before the best.

If you are a 9th moon or venus, move. If family and circumstance is bothering you MOVE, even if you cant leave forever or stay away forever. Take the time to learn when to move with the optimism of the heart. Because you may not feel in tune with yourself unless you find what your looking for elsewhere. Elsewhere is usually not with the past and people from the past.

One of the hardest placements to me is Saturn,Chiron, Neptune in the 11th. I truly feel sad when I think about this one, remedy or not who you trust isn't much up to you. Who really is there that you haven’t chosen? This to me is a cosmic rejection. You are not for everybody and everybody isn't for you. Don't easily trust or share because your heart will harden if you let it dealing with that type of public, communal or social rejection. Especially if your a social sign like libra, gemini or sagittarius, etc. Just be careful because it can be painful. Its protection there and ideas, innovative yet strong energy but it can be very lonely.

ALL signs should love themselves and take it easy. Grow up and live strong. Never forget who you are and what you live for.

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