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tennessoui · 2 years ago
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I had missed the brown and white robes thing, oh em gee, Anakin, WHAT. Semi-related: in canon I am always like "But what was Padme's endgame re: her MARRIAGE etc with Anakin-the-Jedi?" so I reaaaaaaally hope the counseling fic gets into that :D
Oh I’ve been trying to set that up as something the fic will touch on—probably not through the counselor but from anakins pov outside of the sessions as he interacts with Padmé and Obi-Wan and as Padmé tries to save her marriage (which won’t work)
I can’t speak to canon Padmé much, but couples counseling Padmé is definitely thinking anakin will leave the order to be with her—she’s most content thinking of their future, a future where Anakin is in their bed when she falls asleep and when she wakes up. Maybe they’re on Naboo, maybe they’re still on Coruscant, but she’s thinking about Naboo at least as an option….
Which is totally fair! I mean they’re married! When there was a war, of course Anakin couldn’t leave—he had to fight! The galaxy needed him, and Padmé understands his need to serve. It’s similar to her own drive to serve in the Senate.
And in AOTC, it’s not like Anakin is showing his commitment to the Jedi Order or how much he loves being a Jedi…. I can see Padmé loosely thinking that Anakin would be amenable to leaving if she asked
I do think they love in a similar way—in this last chapter of couples counseling au, Anakin knows he can distract Padmé from her job if he tries hard enough because both of them put their marriage above their duties a lot of the time. I think Padmé believes Anakin would leave the Jedi for her based on the same reasoning
But what I dont think they really understand yet is that there’s no way couples counseling Anakin would leave obi-wan, which means he is a Jedi and he will always be a Jedi. His version of the future involves living with Obi-Wan, picking up his dirty mugs and seeing his shoes by the door. Padmé’s version of their future….does not include that.
That’s definitely going to be a conflict before all’s said and done
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steakout-05 · 27 days ago
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i had. an idea. a while ago (and i mean probably back in mid 2023) i drew a little concept for what a Barry Steakfries plush could hypothetically look like in one of my old sketchbooks, but never really expanded on it beyond just a simple sketch. a couple days ago though, after i fixed up some holes in a couple of my old plushies, i remembered that concept and got absolutely flooded with a ton of ideas for a plushie i could possibly make for myself in the future. i quickly sketched some stuff down yesterday and here's what i made :)
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this is inspired by the awesome drawings of a makeship style Barry plush by schnabel53 and the Barry plush Daisy Parker created back in 2013, as well as the Fruit Ninja Sensei plush Halfbick produced!! i love the look of plushies that are in a more standard standing pose with floppier limbs and i wanted to revisit the old idea i had and expand on it a little bit. here's some very rough and rushed sketches of the side, back and how he would hold his jetpack:
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(why tf is that side profile so red lmao)
features:
little magnets on the inside of his hands that can hold stuff
embroidered facial features
his suit jacket can be taken off and replaced with other clothes
little plastic circles on the bottom of his shoes to retain their shape and make sitting him down easier
his body would be completely made out of minky or a similar soft fabric, with clothing made out of a soft material similar to material that the Spamton plush's jacket is made out of (for lack of better comparison lol). his tie would also be made out of minky with no stuffing.
his eyebrows are a separate part that slightly protrudes from his face rather than being embroidered
his jetpack handles have a wire inside and are posable, as well as having a magnet inside that Barry's hands can stick to
accessories:
the machine gun jetpack from MD and JJ
his shotgun from MD
a coin and a spin token
a mini Craig plush
important: i have absolutely no idea if i'm ever going to actually make this or not, these are just concepts. however i have been making little tests with felt and fleece to get myself used to sewing stuff again, as it has been a very long time since i made anything comparable to a plush, and i would like to see this idea realised some day and expand my creative skills. it's just not a guarantee. also since a couple days ago i have literally been obsessed with the thought of sewing into something and have been looking in my closet for any plushies that have holes that need to be sewn up just so i can practise it on some actual material, i'm going insane about it loll
further ideas that i may or may not do (depending on if i want to do them lol):
giving Barry more accessories like a couple of the gadgets from Jetpack Joyride (i'm thinking a lucky last token, air barrys or the gravity belt), revive hearts, a gun from JJ2, his pistol from AOZ and a mini supply crate, a tiny zombie t-rex for him to hold and of course: a plate of steak and fries. maybe also a little australian flag to hold :3
making a repaired suit (with visible seams for extra detail) for Barry
making a few of the Jetpack Joyride costume pieces for him, such as the DJ Barry headphones, the Sensei outfit and maybe even the maid outfit if i'm feeling ballsy enough
making concepts for Flash, Craig and Salesman Barry plushes
Flash accessories and features: the little toy remote thing from the JJ2 anniversary art, some sort of futuristic lookin tennis ball thing, a rocket jet for him to wear (like the one he wears when Barry is operating the Lil' Stomper), a small patterned pillow to sleep on and a bone for him to hold with a magnet located near his mouth. i think it'd also be cute if i were to hypothetically give him a nose that lights up but that's crossing the line of plushmaking and into adruino coding (which i have no clue how to do nor do i have the resources) if i were to actually make that lol
Craig accessories and features: a mini Barry plush, a clipboard and pen, little emotive thingies (like a sweat bead, blush, a question and exclamation mark) to stick on his face via magnets, removable gloves,
Salesman Barry accessories and features: his nametag, removable glasses, his briefcase, a mini gramophone, a clipboard, a little business card
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revelale · 4 months ago
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Celebrating TOA and the people who contribute to make our group what it is. Repost, don't reblog. Only fill in what you feel comfortable sharing! Happy anniversary, TOA! Here's to many more years spent together. Credits to Neffi.
Name: lilly!
Pronouns: they/them.
Birthday (no year): april 4th.
Where are you from? What is your time zone? pst (gmt-8).
How long is your roleplay experience? well, i started when i was eight, so twenty? years now? embarrassing for me.
How were you introduced to roleplaying as a whole? neopets, LMFAO.
How were you introduced to TOA? i'd just finished up the gd route for 3h when chuu, an old member, posted about a fe group on twitter. so, i dmed her and then asked about it and then delusionally manifested a blog and url in like roughly 8 hours. fun fact: prior to that, i'd only ever played one canon, lol!
Do you have any pets? yes, my awful little dog.
What is your favorite time of year and why? (Season, holiday, general period) wiiiiinter. it rains the most and i can just get jackets to be warm if it's too cold.
What is your IRL occupation? used to be a journalist, now i'm? in product development for stationery, lol.
Some interests and things you like/enjoy? mostly handicraft stuff? i like building lego sets, assembling dioramas, doing puzzles. i started learning how to crochet yesterday! i'm very bad at it!
What non-Fire Emblem games do you play? mostly jrpgs, but lots of puzzle-y indie games. i started playing sea of stars reeeecently, but haven't gotten very far on it. a metric ton of otomes, lmao.
Favorite Pokemon type & Pokemon: dragon, and dragonite! close runners up are bewear and ludicolo, lmfao.
Tell us some funfacts and trivia about yourself! i jokingly mumble "i'm thinking miku miku oo ee oo" when i'm struggling, but so my brother took that as "i really like hatsune miku" and now i have four figurines of miku just spread out in my room. i fear every time he goes to round one because i will just have another one.
How did you get into Fire Emblem? an old friend of mine told me to give awakening a try because she thought i'd like that i could date people, lmfao. it worked. NJKLRENGJKLRGR.
What Fire Emblem games have you played? eeeeverything post-awakening, short of three hopes. i also gave sacred stones a try and then got intensely mad when tana kept dying, so i stopped.
First & Favorite Fire Emblem games: awakening, then rrrr. i haven't touched one in a while, so i actually couldn't really say.
List your 5 favorite Fire Emblem characters across the series! inigo, fogado, hubert (toa pilled)—this is where i admit i don't actually have any favorites in game, but i do in toa, lmao.
Who was the first character ever to make you go “ooh I like this one in particular” and why? Can be any context and reason! sobbing, i don't have any. I'M A SHAM.
Any Fire Emblem crushes? 😳 naur, but i one day wish to experience chasing the high everyone else does.
If you’ve played (or are familiar with) the following games, who was your first S support? Who would you S support nowadays? - Awakening: chrom by curse, but olivia. - Fates: inigo. PARDON ME, LAZZY. tttheeen, idk. kaze. lmao. - Three Houses: claude...... and sylvain now. i love a man that's all red flags. it's a parade, not a warning! - Engage: pandreo................. still pandreo.
Favorite Fire Emblem class? PEGAKNIGHT SUPREMACY.
If you were a Fire Emblem character, what would be your class and stats? Would you be playable? in my greatest delusions, i'd be an armored tank unit, but the reality is i'm probably the villager hiding in their house after you swung by to let me know something was coming to murk me/us.
If you were a Three Houses character, what would be your affiliation? golden deer, lmao. i just like their vibe.
If you were an Officers Academy student, what would be your boons, banes and potential budding talent? wwww, i actually started doing archery recently and i'm not bad at it, so i think probably something in that vein for a boon ....... i'm also weirdly strong, so maybe gauntlets? lmfao. everything else is what i'd be bad at, rifp. an athletic creature i am not.
If you were an Engage character, which nation would you originate from? probably firene. it'd make sense for my name to be lilly, eh.
How do you pronounce TOA? 🤔t-o-a, lmao.
Current TOA muses: shiro & pandreo!
Past TOA muses? cynthia, shigure, lon-qu, constance, bylad, kiragi, kinu—i forget all the other ones if any, oops.
Who was your first TOA muse? If you no longer have them, can you see yourself picking them up again? cynthia! and maybe? lmao, she's evolved so much past her baseline in my head that i think it'd actually be quite difficult to pick her up again, but she also has such incredible capacity for interesting relationships.
Do you believe you have a type of character you gravitate towards writing? clown, usually with depression.
Do you have characters or types of characters you don’t think you can handle writing, but wish you could? oooof, really calculating and intellectual types! i'm not very good at it and my style of writing doesn't super lend itself to that because i tend to spell out their every thought, lmao. the only reason i could write constance is because she was simultaneously the smartest and stupidest person in the room at any given time.
What kind of scenes, situations etc do you believe you enjoy writing the most? oh, i'm a comedy relief writer first and foremost. any situation where i can put people into a yes-and context is fun for me. but, i am realizing i do really enjoy dramatic scenes too for character study and exploration.
Do you have any scenario in mind for your muse(s) that gets you thinking “man I hope I get to write this one day”? nnnnnot right now. i find that most of the spiciest moments i recall are ones that just happen by circumstance instead of planning.
Favorite TOA-related memories? on chapril, i got the mods and everyone else to change to chad icons when a new member abruptly showed up and i died laughing.
Present or past tense? present! past? i do both. king of tense changes that make no sense.
Normal size text, small text, no preference? no preference. i just use small text because i like lookin' at it.
Got any potential muse delusions to share? 😉 if i entertain it for even a second, i will have to make the blog right now and i don't have time for that but god i want to.
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deesi-academia · 6 months ago
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hey, I saw the anti swiftie post. If you're comfortable mag I know the reason why? I am kinda neutral about her but I feel like I should know stuff. I understand if you don't wanna answer this. Take care <3
(also I agree the swiftie fandom is kinda annoying lmao)
hello old old old anon ask I'm so sorry for replying so late but yeah hi 😭
I have tons of time on my hands for the next.... 30 minutes so let's get into it. I'll list a time line of my thought process to how I came to the 'ex-swiftie' conclusion:
1. She released a song called "renegade" which is good, but I found some lines problematic and unexpected, because I used to hold swift to a pedestal (guilty as charged).
The lines were 'is it insensitive of me to say get your shit together so I can love you' and 'is it really your anxiety stopping {something love something idk} or do you just not want to?' SOOOOO yeah these thew me off a little.
2. Her album Midnights came out which I ADORED, became my fav so quick. But then her multiple variations of vinyls etc threw me off again. This is when the Bad Feeling About Her started setting in.
3. Then she released the song 'You're losing me' which just BLARED red flags to me even though the song is actually good. It's the first time I think, where she hinted that she broke up with her bf (Joe Alwyn) because of his mental illness.
4. The ongoing carbon emissions controversy lol, and her buying carbon credits... like it just felt like a "hah I'm rich so I can do whatever wrongs i want and buy it out" moment. I really hated that, since I live in a pretty polluted city so it hit close to home.
5. She threatened to sue the teenager who published PUBLIC data about her flights. Bad.
6. The entire free palestine movement gained momentum and she stayed silent. She has her image as the American Princess and Activist Who Can Do No Wrong. Feminist Queen. Speaker For Those Who Can't Speak. Yada Yada.
I simply hated her billionaire self as she chose to stay silent (and still is). To call off the criticism she and her bestie Selena went to a live comedy show where the comedian donated his earnings for Gaza relief. LIKE. ??????? Basic billionaire below underground level of "donation"???? This had to be a joke. It was not.
I think this incident was the final straw for me where I realized I can't support her if she's such a human being. That's not what my morals stand for thank you very much.
7. I REALLY tried to separate the art from the artist but I couldn't. Not with my sane mind and strong ethics. AND THEN the entire Matty healy debacle. He's a misogynistic, racist, zionist, ugh of a person.
I don't think anyone can date someone with such drastic opposing values. So the Taylor-Matty era further tarnished her image in front of me.
8. Fast forward and she releases her new album The Tortured Poets Department. That's it this was my final straw. You can just Google and go on a reddit thread about how problematic this album is. I'll probably write a long ass essay on it. Anyway this is where I decided I'm done, back in April.
Since then I've just been trying to cope with losing my fav artist because of the person she turned out to me. And people say we shouldn't hold celebs to such high standards but bro. Taylor PROMOTES parasocial relationships. SHE held her image to that standard until recently. There's an entire documentary on Netflix about that - Miss Americana.
So yeah she let me down from the pedestal she put herself on. It's been 2+ months and I'm still coping, because I genuinely lost a very important part of my life - her music. It has got me through tough times and I have many good memories associated with those songs.
Anyway, here's to new artists to love ONLY for their music lol 🥂
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decaflondonfog · 1 year ago
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Twenty Questions for Fic Writers 💫
i was tagged by @nv-md (ali pls why does tumblr never let me tag you what have you done) and then sort of indirectly by @fluxweeed! as always i loved reading your thoughts and i'm v grateful you thought of me. as always, this is just me talking shite for 20 answers:
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
12 revealed, but I do have my @aftgthenandnow fic currently hiding so 13 technically
2. What’s your total AO3 word count?
99,518 (which my heart was immediately keen on saying it's "not that much" but all these words were written in the last year 365-ish days, which makes me very very proud)
3. What fandoms do you write for?
i'm still on my fandom whoring phase and loving it very much!!! i think it's mostly AFTG but I’ve dabbled in some Simon Snow and Check, Please! recently and have some more plans for those 🥰 honestly there is a RIDICULOUS amount of fandoms in my fic planning trello board, including: Call of Duty, The Raven Cycle, Red White and Royal Blue, BBC Merlin, and Our Flag Means Death. i love living in chaos!!!!
4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
oh it's these guys: the benefits of a broken air conditioning unit and other summer lessons (aftg/andreil, 3k, E) geometric equilibrium (aftg/kandreil, 10k, M) kaleidoscope (aftg/fem!andreil, 5k, M) growing pains (omgcp/bittyparse, 50k, E) celly (aftg/gen, 800 words, T)
5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
I do! Or I try to, anyway. Why? Uhhh. Because I want to, really. I'm not one of those people who feels like they have to, especially because as a commenter I don't expect writers to ever reply. But I love chatting fandom stuff and fic — mine or otherwise, so I always treat comments as an opportunity to do so. Sometimes I think I have a super random, like... reply style, I guess you'd call it? But I'd rather engage a fellow fan in genuine conversation rather than say just "thank you," which obviously is still what I end up doing like 70% of the time.
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
This is funny for me to think about because in former fandoms I was a bit of an Angst Guy lmao (mcd, unrequited love, cheating, miscommunication, you name it)... but I'm on a softer vibe now for sure. I think maybe a wreath of white lilies is my angstiest work but even that i wouldn't classify as angst? it's fucked up smut, if anything lmao
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
Uhhhh, I guess growing pains? It's a very hopeful, very happy ending with a lot of closure for stuff happening both within the fic and before. So yeah! I think that one. Very romcom-y neat sort of happy ending!
8. Do you get hate on fics?
i have in the past but not anymore! i'm not good enough nor bad enough to get hate jkfgjhd
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
yeah, baby!!!! what kind...? uh. good question. i feel like i always end up writing porn with a ton of feelings — not just love/lust though! but i do love a Strong Emotion (hatred, grief, confusion, relief, obsession) to be the catalyst for fucking. I like it when characters are seriously into each other (again, not necessarily only in an attraction way), in a little insane way. it just makes things fun. so i guess... my smut is the Big Feelings kind of smut lol
10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?
oh i haven't... but i do have a bit of a wild one i've considered! not sure if i'd ever actually write it though, but it's planned out.
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
in an earlier fandom existence, yes! it may even be around still, who knows? now... not that i know of?
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
i don't think i have! would love it though! i grew up bilingual so i have a lot of love for translation :') i'd actually love to try my hand at translating one day!
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
i have started co-writing fics with a couple of people before, but not something super serious and either times it never got finished. buuuuut i am actually in the process of co-writing not one but two fics atm! @skeptiquewrites and i are working on a zimbits flavoured little something, and @whataboutmyfries and i are very nearly done with our kandreil get-together fic, which is really exciting.
14. What’s your all-time favourite ship?
hate this question actually LMAO i am a multishipper at heart. a good fic can convince me of ANYTHING. like my favourite ship when i stopped writing hp was two guys who weren't ever even alive at the same time so???? anything goes truly.
for the sake of nostalgia, it might still be remus/sirius, because they were my introduction to fandom and all its joys! but that fandom is kind of tainted these days >:(
hmmmm. probably zimbits actually? they invented true love, i think.
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
hahaha so many!!! i have a catholic priest Neil fic that is a very fun idea but requires a ton of lore because it's so removed from canon... the kink is juicy but the laziness might be stronger. we shall see.
16. What are your writing strengths?
descriptions, baby!!!!! details!!! i want to say characterisation but i don't think that's always true... i just love thinking very deeply about the details of characterisation.. the little seemingly unimportant tidbits you can add in about a character that just tell you a ton about them without you having to spell it all out! i find that fun, even if it doesn't always work lol
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
dialogue... i hate it... i simply do not know how people talk... i don't know why they have to either LOL top ten most mortifying moments of my life was when a pal was beta reading a fic for me and said "hey there's no dialogue in this for the first like 5k at all... maybe we should do something about that" rip
i am also very bad at ensemble casts... while the weakness above is something i can't avoid, this one is a lot more avoidable but also something i am actively working on. i feel like my fics are very closed in on my MCs and their relationship but as a reader i love when the characters have meaningful interactions outside of that... so i'm trying to get better at that, even if it's really fucking hard. i'm lucky enough to have a couple of pals who are INCREDIBLE at this so i'm taking notes all the time.
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
big fan!!!! i love all methods of doing this too! add it in and provide translation at the end, weave the translation into the text, make the character themselves translate it, etc. i think it's great! i think i've done it maybe a couple of times but should definitely do more...
19. First fandom you wrote for?
you already know what i'm gonna say... HP. i am of that specific generation and i'm just gonna have to live with that lol
20. Favourite fic you’ve written?
hate this question hate it hate it hate itttttt do you mean favourite as in favourite final result, or favourite writing experience, or favourite prose, or favourite plot, or favourite characterisation, etc etc etc? i have a lot of love for growing pains, which i've already mentioned a couple times; and also for geometric equilibrium. for funsies, i'll say do not disturb the cats because i just love when an idea possesses me and i can't do anything else until i've written it LOL but yeah "favourite" is hard, sorry
uhhhh i've not seen this floating about a lot soooo sorry if i tag anyone who has already done it :/ but if you guys fancy doing this, i'm passing it along: @moondal514 @jaywalkers @mostlymaudlin @thetrojeans @ittyybittybaker @stabbyfoxandrew 💕 have funnnnnn
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m4yday-m4yday · 10 months ago
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Hey!! (I'm glad you're playing the ask games it makes me rly happy :))) )
🌼 - If you used any labels other than your current one, what were they?
Dude. I used to think I was a lesbian lmao it was wild. I am on the complete other end of that pipeline now (actually sometimes women can be very ghjkjhgfghjk) as an achillean transmasc.
🌈 - What's a Queer Identity, Experience or a piece of History you feel deserves more recognition?
I think a queer experience that deserves more recognition is gnc trans people not dressing "AcCoRdInG tO tHeIr GeNdEr" but still getting dysphoria when they get misgendered. Like it sucks (I'm a very femme transmasc person who wears tons of makeup every day so trust me I know) and just bc they don't conform to gender stereotypes doesn't mean they don't have the right to be upset when they're misgendered.
🏳️‍🌈 - Do you enjoy the colors of your preferred flag? Do you incorporate it into your outfits, decor, etc.?
I do like the color schemes of my flags (achillean, transmasc, greysexual, and greyromantic) but I don't really think they fit my personal aesthetic very well since I focus on red and black color schemes. I do have a black hoodie with a bunch of home-made patches though and it has my pride flags and also a pride flag wall though.
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toastybugguy · 2 years ago
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i wont lie my dude, i was a HUGE st*rek shipper when i was young. like i think i started watching teen wolf when i was 14 and s2 was airing and i was probably 16 or 17 when i jumped ship mid season 4. and i used to think st*rek was the best ship w the most potential ever, and i glossed over things like their 6 year age gap and shit bc i didnt think it was a big deal. like stiles was a little bit older than me and who wouldnt LOVE a older bf??? and over the years as ive gotten older and when i turned 22 and thought about wtf there is no way in hell i'd date anyone under the age of 20 lmao. i did a teen wolf rewatch and was shocked and appalled bc there is no way st*rek would have worked or happened in the show there are just too many red flags and its icky!!! stiles is a child!!! it made me understand why so many of the fics i would read back then had either aged up stiles or aged down derek lmao. i even went back to my old ao3 and unbookmarked a shit ton of old fics. thank god for growing up :')
Completely understand this!! Some things just don’t yet click for children/teens, so for plenty of viewers the age gap wouldn’t seem like a “big deal.” Then as we grow and mature and our brain matures with us, it becomes much easier to assess things we consume and think more critically about them, and I think a lot of people in fandom do! It feels unfair to judge anyone that enjoyed that sort of thing when they were younger, because honestly, there’s no roadmap on how to consume media. It’s a relatively new thing, and it’s not like many teens are sharing with their parents what they ship or what they read on ao3, so it’s easy for young people to become misguided in a sense, because they have to figure it out themselves. As with a lot of things, our ability to analyze media grows with us, and shoutout to that!!!
But then sadly, and for some reason I CANNOT explain, there’s so many st*rek shippers that ARE full on adults and haven’t grown out of it yet and I just. Pray to god they go outside and look at a really old tree or something. Call up their parents maybe. Read more books O| ̄|_ Put things in perspective idk LMAO.
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icharchivist · 1 year ago
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You are so right
It would be easy to say Lucilius was a poor little woobie who did nothing wrong and was right to lash out at God and his own creation because they were mean to him :( But it would be boring
Similarly, knowing Belial has free will and used that free will to ironically dig his heels into his purpose and ignore his free will is tons more interesting than if he really were just a machine following programming
Knowing that he made those choices, to double down and be horrible and petty and murderous, is the reason why I want to put him under the microscope and watch him so much
Same with Lucilius
They are so interesting because they are so fucked up. That's a feature, not a bug
People who insist their blorbo never did anything wrong are boring and also have very poor media literacy, because it's the flaws that make a character interesting
I had a friend who was neutral on Belial and his sluttiness and only started getting invested when I explained what else he's got going on besides his cheese grater abs
Anyway
I guess we really are lucky that those people wouldn't touch this little corner of tumblr with a ten foot pole so we can keep putting cat ears on everyone and having drama free fun
Lucilius would be adorable with cat ears btw
I'm so glad we agree there, so so much
And yeah exactly!!! exactly exactly, they're just fucked up little dudes. They have reasons that make them sympathetics but that doesn't change the horrors. and it's INTERESTING.
idk for me it is ultimately a major disservice to the characters to just brush off the amount of responsabilities they have or guilt and stuff like that.
I remember i got in an argument about it on a vastly more unproblematic fav, when talking about Seox, because i disliked seeing people say Seox has nothing to feel guilty about because he "did nothing wrong", unrelated to even just the drug (though the drug was an added argument), but because the people he killed deserved it, and i remember being upset at it because even if Seox had no agency in it (and that's a BIG DEAL), he still killed people, and innocent ones too. The fact Seox had no agency, the fact there were his abusers in the middle, of course means Seox should be easier on himself, of course it means Seox is a victim in all of this. But i think it's doing a disservice to both him and Nehan to say he "did nothing wrong". He did wrong. He had no choice but to do wrong. And this is a guilt that he will forever carry because instead of thinking he can just chose to do the right thing, he has to be held down by the fear that losing control will make him do wrong.
And it's why those characters are interesting, and it always baffles me when trying to paint them as doing nothing wrong, or that actually the end justifies the means, or any type like that.
Like i swear it is much more fun to accept a character with their flaws and downside, and especially the ugly sides of them, than to pretend it's not there.
Anyway. yeah. I'm just glad those people probably won't touch my blog ever lmao. And now that i have a Belial disclaimer in my bio, i feel like if they interreact with me, they just ignored my biggest red flag smh.
AND NOW WE'RE TALKING
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m1ckeyb3rry · 6 months ago
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LMAOO Karasu really is THAT man can’t have him in the plot or he’ll solve everyone’s problems just like that (and I’ll get sidetracked by him over Otoya LMFAO)
I lowk love that duality of how he’s so rough and almost edgy but he’s literally looking out for people (and doing their laundry LMAOO) That moment between him and Nagi after the Ubers Manshine match >>>> Barou pushing and trying to reawaken Nagi in his own way I love it (bring back BarouNagi rivalry!!)
Energy matcher Isagi so real LMAO i definitely think he doesn’t get categorized as red flag as often as others since he has some pretty clear moments of him being a lot more chill LOL the mischaracterization in the fandom runs rampant though HAHA
OOO sad to say I have not watched aot yet but I love some good world building…also wait expanding on part of the world not developed much in the series >>>>>> that sounds so interesting kinda almost like filling the holes in some lore!! I LOVR selfish y/n omg (very excited to continue following along with hollyhock too!!)
LMAOOOO time for a good reread sesh o7
And FR like what happened to just chilling and letting people exist as they please? It’s like people forget they don’t live in an echo chamber
I’ll never get over epinagi Karasu like oh em gee maybe it’s also because it’s monthly so there’s more time to put in the quality (opposed to some of the funny looking tiny panels of him LMAO)
One can only hope but I do agree…maybe someday in another filler ep where we have tabieitaken together we’ll see a spread….manifesting….
LMAO ego the lesser evil Shidous hot pink highlights truly are something…
-Karasu anon
BOTH SO TRUE like karasu analyzes people for fun he’s clocking otoya IMMEDIATELY LMAOAO and omg i was working on hollyhock a bit earlier and karasu finally showed up and i started tweaking because i need him…it’s so hard writing for his bff when he’s right there 😭 the only consolation is that he and y/n’s relationship in hollyhock is at least super relevant to the story though it’s not romantic. he’s based on hideyoshi to the extent that y/n is based on nobunaga (so not a TON but def to a certain extent) and like. ugh i can’t spoil so i’ll just leave it at they are soooo important (to me and to the plot in general).
I AGREE he seems so intimidating but he’s really kinda soft on the inside 🙂‍↕️ he and nagi have such sibling energy HAHAHA like barou is the older brother nagi never knew he needed and i love that for them
i do feel like isagi tends to be considered more of a green flag for the most part!! but yeah mischaracterization and popular fandoms go hand in hand nowadays 😓 not claiming to be the supreme authority on characterization or anything but idk 😫 it is what it is ig!!
that’s my fav way to write canon fics!! i like filling in holes in stories even if they’re not necessarily PLOT holes — just things mentioned in passing that i can expand on in my own way. i’ve done it a few times w aot and also w jjk!! i think it’s why coming up w a bllk longfic idea took me a while…the scope of the “world” is relatively limited so it’s hard to expand on it in a natural way. plus i only write female main characters and ah. well. canon bllk is not exactly an inviting atmosphere for women as we know 😫
yeahhh there’s def a lot of factors i think that have led to the shift in the way fandoms have operated but honestly i’ve decided to just mind my own business and live/let live. my post abt nagireo somehow ended up in the nagireo tag though??? idk someone commented saying they found it on there i PANICKED 😭 they were rlly nice abt it though just letting me know in case people got pressed HAHAHA i went back and tagged it as anti nagireo just in case 😰 don’t need the opps coming after me 💔 i actually think it’s one of if not the ONLY post in the anti nagireo tag that’s actually somewhat critical of them so i do fear that it’s truly a bit of a unique take LMAOAO we are in it together though ✊🏻
i’m hoping and praying they get one in epinagi!! like another top six spread but less focused on rin and shidou…obv it would have nagi in it but atp that may be our best option 🙏🏻 and the epinagi art style is so good it honestly might be a win
shidou is such a silly character to me HAHA he’s so easy to make fun of and so crazily violent and weird but also lowkey chill?? i have no clue what to make of him 😫 but yeah the hot pink hair is truly smth…honestly good for him though like #selfexpression
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crushed-starlight · 11 months ago
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UPDATE TIME YOU NEED SO MANY UPDATES FROM ME IT HAS BEEN ONE MILLION YEARS !!!!!!!!!
ok so . yknow how the main original point of this blog was for me to rant about my feelings for meadow? and then i slowly realized that this might not be the healthiest thing to pursue? WELL IT GOT WORSE.
over the winter break p much everyone went home to wherever they lived before uni. during that time, meadow hung out with their 2 friends from before and very quickly and chaotically fell in love with one of them ,, we'll call him wells 2, the sequel to wells in terms of people that meadow has liked that aren't me !!
over winter they got ,, very intimate very fast (it didn't help that wells 2 had just gotten out of a pretty long term relationship lmao) and i got to hear all about it in excruciating detail from meadow .. it was at some point around this time that i decided i desperately needed to stop crushing on them. i decided to just will it out of existence bc i was so tired of the pining and it had become painfully obvious that my feelings weren't reciprocated and i didn't feel like getting the hanahaki any worse.
thinking back on meadow as a person i noticed a lot of stuff that didn't occur to me originally because of the Big Feelings,, i also talked it over with fish and jiji (separately) which helped me realize what was going on a lot better. so here's some Things About Meadow that i Do Not Like !!
they rushed so fast into commitment with wells 2 in a way that i don't think i'd be comfortable with even if it were me..
there were ,, multiple omens. i'm not super spiritual anymore but i do believe in signs from the world and there were a few that i missed, specifically in terms of fictional parallels that showed up in really convenient times, like the world was trying to warn me by showing me mistakes that i could've made. those came in the form of felix love and lucy gray baird, the latter of which meadow literally introduced me to (we saw her movie together, i heavily related to her and meadow didn't like her for all the same reasons)
they don't match my energy !! they make me nervous !! even if it's in a lighthearted way, their teasing of my interests and stims and everything makes it harder to unmask (which i've been trying rly hard to learn) and ultimately makes me even more tired after spending a day with them
doesn't like snowball fights !! reddest flag i've ever seen
basically, meadow likes me, but he doesn't understand me. this'll sound self-obsessed, but my overall energetic optimistic outward personality is basically a product of coping strategies and adhd. i need someone who understands that, and values it as much as i do, if not more. meadow sees what's happening, i've explained it, but i don't think they have the capacity to fully understand since they cope so differently from me
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in other news, chipi. i know he's into me, but the flirting died down a lot over the past few months...................... until it didn't !! over winter break, we spent tons of time on call with an online friend of mine ,, we'll call him cala. i did a little doodle of my roommates as weezer last night since i shared a reel of a different friend group doing the same thing, and chipi started asking which one he was because he 'wanted to know how i perceive him', so naturally i recreated the reel in post-it note sketch form. well literally just now as i was writing this post, i checked discord to double check cala's pronouns and saw that chipi had made the doodle his profile picture ............. wHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THIS INFORMATION ??????
i'm not attracted to him, and i really don't want to lead him on. i literally sent him a valentines meme that said 'i LIKE you. as a friend ONLY' like i have been so so obvious about it and yet he persists.. i CAN'T date him , for one we're roommates so a breakup could get really ugly, and also there's about a million red flags. i think he feels understood by me in a way he hasn't experienced much before, which i don't want to take away !!
i haven't actively told him to stop flirting with me, since honestly i do like the attention. it's a huge confidence boost to know i'm even capable of being desired in this way.. he's so funny and likes me so much that it's really easy and so entertaining to spend time with him, plus i get flustered super easily and i know he enjoys it too, but i'm scared to accidentally lead him on because i know first hand how much that hurts, even when it's made abundantly clear. hell, i just watched it happen with myself and meadow, but now i'm on the other side.
i think i just need to trust him to look after his own emotional health through his crush on me, just like i did with meadow, and i hope that at the end of it we can still be friends!! i should probably tell cala about all this, since he's witnessed most of it first hand and is super understanding about every other emotional thing i've brought up so far. shit's wild over here
in other news i sang karaoke with odie and he's so cool if he weren't dating jiji i'd definitely be in love with him by now lmao
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ok i think that's everything !! sorry i was gone for so long, i can't promise i'll stay but i hope these updates can be entertaining for someone :)
TL;DR for anyone following my lore ,, i needed to will my crush on meadow out of existence and just as i was doing that, chipi caught even bigger feelings for me and idk what to do about it lmao
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latenightbreezeinheaven · 2 years ago
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Hi, I was reading your synastry post about your ex , and it was so beautiful. I hope life brings you two back together.
Also, I was wondering if you’ve ever experienced 12th house synastry or do you have an opinion on it
Hello! Thank you for your compliment! It was definitely sweet but also toxic. And I really hope the universe will bring us together again too because I still love him and I’ve already forgiven for what he did to me and his parents said about me and I feel like there are still things we haven’t fully figured out yet. But if we were meant to be, we would be together for sure! xx
Actually, I tend to attract tons of people who share 12th house synastry with me and most of them are planet person and I’m the house person. Maybe it’s my 12th house stellium or maybe I just love people who make me go crazy😂 . First of all, I wanna say that as the house person, my love was one-sided. Always. They didn’t return my feelings and rejected me too. And it was always forbidden somehow. There was always a reason not to date each other. Plus, those people lied to me a lot like A LOT. I had three guys who had their mercury in my 12th house and they all lied to me, manipulated me. They kept secrets from me and those secrets were ones I should have known. Mars in 12th house synastry is a big red flag for me personally if I’m the house person because all men who had their mars in my 12th house used me to satisfy themselves sexually and we also fought a lot. They irritate me. They hurt my ego and I hate them. People who have sun in your 12th house may become your enemy. I had two Gemini friends and both of them were traitors and they were the reason why I became a lone wolf and got bullied. They had their sun in my 12th house. Venus in 12th house can lead to unrequited love or forbidden love. Even if both people liked each other, one would definitely think the other doesn’t like him/her and will always question. However, moon in 12th house is a bit different for me. It brings me comfort, safety and warmth. It makes me feel home and at ease. They are men who I wanna have a family with. I can easily open up to people who have their moon in my 12th house because I trust them and they have never betrayed me by exposing my secrets too. But I tend to dream about them a lot after years and I go through tons of spiritual transformations after being with them. I love cancer moon men though they are momma’s boys most of the time. They’re so sweet! On the other hand, there are also positive things about 12th house synastry. As I mentioned above, it will be very spiritual, unseen and ethereal. Unlike 8th house, you will have no grudges holding against the planet person. You’ll find yourself forgiving those people unless they really hurt your soul or killed your family. But it also depends on your natal chart (I mean if you have a 8th house stellium or mars in Scorpio it can be otherwise lmao😂). In other words, you have a deep understanding for them. In addition, I love to make eye contacts with people who put their planets in my 12th house because the way they look at me is so otherworldly and intense. It’s not piercing but it’s like I’m in a vivid dream surrounded by chocolate and caramel clouds. Dreamy. It’s also a karmic house so these people can be your karmic partners/friends too. By the way, I always discover another interest or hobby that I love after having a friendship/relationship with those people who have planets in my 12th house. It’s just strange but definitely not a coincidence. The outer planets won’t make a lot of effects I guess because they are generational. Have a nice day! Hope you enjoyed my answer.💗
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evelynhug0 · 3 years ago
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guess who’s back
so i was gone for a few months and now i am coming back to tumblr - or at least i am trying to lol 
i am not used to this website anymore lmao
ok so here is what happened:
i started another internship in April (my sixth internship yikes) and was also moving into a new apartment, so I was quite busy. This internship was way more stressful than my previous internships/jobs and therefore I did not spend as much time on tumblr as I used to and wanted to. Still I was online quite often compared to June/July.
In May and June, I was just working a lot, preparing for job interviews, I got a real job (which I started in September) and I was enjoying a lot of time offline. I was reading a lot, trying new recipes, going for long walks, etc. I was of course still here quite frequently but less often than 2020/last winter. 
At the beginning of July, one of my friends died. And after that, I was just trying to live my life to the fullest. I was socializing like crazy, met friends almost every day, worked a lot, had to take care of my apartment, was trying to find a better job than the one I started in September - and I downloaded a dating app and met someone. I was busy and stressed all the time before I met him and our… idk what to call it because I wouldn’t call it a relationship… our “thing” was so fucking intense and actually there were red flags everywhere but yeah I developped feelings and was fucked hehe 
He dumped me in August (exactly 2 months ago yikes :(((( ) and I was destroyed. I also lost 2 more people and it was all too much for me. I am still healing. I continued to go on dates with a ton of guys (to try to forget that idiot who broke my heart and made me feel like I am not worthy of anything ever) and met one who was very… not nice… let’s call it “not nice” because what he did was not nice (don’t worry nothing too bad but still… not nice) well I did not go one week without at least one date and I kept myself even more busy - and did not take care of myself and of my flat as much as I actually wanted to. 
Btw I am sad that I missed my “10 years on tumblr” day in August! I would have loved to make a special post. Back then, I made the account to collect sad quotes. It’s crazy that I have used tumblr for more than 10 years! I was a freaking baby teenager back then and now I am old lol pls helppp. Btw the longest tumblr break I took before was in August 2018 when I did not use tumblr from August 6 till August 30 as I was in France and didn’t wanna bring my laptop and yeah… It was not planned to stay away from tumblr - who is a very special place for me - for such a long time.
In September, I started my first real job and it is a true nightmare. I don’t wanna talk about it in details but my physical and mental health is 10000% fucked and I am desperately trying to find a new job because I cannot deal with that constant stress, toxic environment and the shifts (that change almost every day) anymore and I am just surviving every single day instead of living it. I feel so trapped, I have never felt like that before and I am really not doing well at all. My body is aching and I have anxiety all the time. Plus I haven’t had a real break since August 2020, so… 
I don’t know how often I will use tumblr as I am really really really busy with this shit job and have almost no time for myself. But I love tumblr even tho it is a real hellhole… I mean it’s the only social media platform where I can write about my boob obsession and tell the world that my favorite panties have a hole (which is rude hello those are my faves where is that hole coming from !?!) this break from tumblr made me realize how much i have grown (up) during the last years.  I am so far from the girl I used to be when I signed up on this website. this makes me feel old. well, i’m not that young anymore haha I mean I am obviously not really old but I am definitely not a teenager anymore and that’s kind weird.. idk what i am writing here lmao i am just sharing random thoughts. i don’t know what’s “trending” anymore, i don’t know the celebs that are adored by today’s  teens, I have to google slang words all the time… I feel like 2021 has made me age a lot and I don’t know how to feel about this. everything is so weird at the moment. ok i am gonna say bye bye before it gets too weird and i start to talk about wrinkles and back aches and taxes and annoying teenagers k thx for coming to my grandma talk
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thatgirlonstage · 5 years ago
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Oh god, y’all, y’all, I have a THOUGHT, and this may be a completely wild stretch, but there’s enough maybe it’s not though to make me want to share it—
I want to talk about the USJ attack.
@gentrychild has an interesting meta pertaining to exactly how much of a shit AFO doesn’t give about Shigaraki (reveal from the newest chapter notwithstanding, I think many of their points are still relevant), that I’d like to pull a bit of analysis from:
Now, I want you to realize that the only reason why the USJ did so much damage was because All Might used all his time when he was supposed to teach a class, something no one could predict.
That means that if the plan hadn’t been derailed by All Might’s hero syndrome, Shigaraki and the rest of the League would have meet an All Might at full strength.
Since he punched the noumu into the horizon despite being at its limits, I am pretty sure AFO didn’t expect much from the USJ attack, apart from Shigaraki being beaten to a pulp.
If we conclude that AFO mostly sent Shigaraki to USJ to get a beat down from All Might, for whatever reason, then we’re left with the question of what AFO might have hoped he could achieve with that attack. Set up Shigaraki as an enemy, so that he can crush All Might’s spirit by revealing his identity? Get Shigaraki beat up, to give him some kind of lesson in how far he still has to go to beat the heroes, and/or so that AFO can point at All Might and laugh and not only say “look at what I did to Shimura Nana’s family” but also “look at what you did to the last piece of Shimura Nana still living”? Take the noumu for a test drive? Sure, probably all of the above.
Still, that was an extensive and complicated amount of effort to put into what boils down to some posturing and a lesson in humility. Crucially, it also raised the first red flag that Shigaraki has a mole inside UA; and security is, predictably, hiked way up afterwards. In one move they endanger their contact and make it significantly harder to ever launch another attack like this. That’s a lot of capital to spend on a fight that achieved very little. And maybe that’s partially AFO just sitting back and letting Shigaraki make mistakes. However, whether you see him grooming a successor or using Shigaraki as a tool to an end, he would step in and stop him if he were about to do something that actively jeopardized any of AFO’s own goals, including eventually being able to draw out All Might for a fight.
So what might have made the USJ attack worth it? What might AFO have thought he could achieve?
(Under the cut because it got long)
The primary target of the USJ attack was nominally All Might. They used a class schedule — presumably provided by the ever-elusive mole — to figure out a time & place when All Might would be relatively isolated from the rest of campus, and the sounds of a fight were unlikely to alert the rest of the staff that something was wrong. Sensible enough.
But All Might — I would assume — probably teaches a variety of classes. At the very least, Monoma would have said something by now if he wasn’t also teaching Class 1-B. And I would guess he’s probably teaching classes across the grades. (I mean, come on, imagine you’re an upperclassman and *All Might* comes to teach in your very last year at school and he doesn’t at least give your grade a guest lecture? SOMETHING? There would be a riot.) So, there’s no reason it had to be Izuku’s class specifically that ended up caught in the villain attack, outside of Izuku being the protagonist.
Granted, you could argue that targeting a class full of baby first-years who have been superhero training for like barely a month or two is strategic good sense, because they’re both much more of a liability and far less of a threat than second or third years with internship experience and provisional licenses. But, first of all, the number of the villains Shigaraki brought in as backup seemed like a massive amount of overkill to take on a bunch of fifteen-year-olds (it did turn out they all kinda sucked but I don’t think Shigaraki EXPECTED them to) which makes me question if he anticipated students more prepared to fight them off. And second of all, even if that was their strategy, it’s still a coin toss between whether they go after Class 1-A or Class 1-B.
Unless it wasn’t.
Because All Might may teach a number of different classes across different grades but Aizawa doesn’t.
And we’ve just learned that Ujiko — and therefore presumably also AFO — has had his eye on Aizawa’s quirk since he was a teenager.
Aizawa is an underground hero. He doesn’t have sidekicks, he doesn’t have a normal sleep schedule, he doesn’t do interviews, he is notoriously hard to find or spot. Izuku didn’t even recognize him until he used his quirk. Izuku didn’t recognize him. This may have unwittingly been saving his life for the past fifteen years.
What is maybe the one place that you could reasonably expect Aizawa Shouta to show up at a set location & time? At a class he is supposed to be teaching.
I’m not saying Shigaraki knew anything about AFO’s interest in Erasure or Aizawa. I feel certain that he didn’t. But Kurogiri might have had slightly different instructions about who might be worth grabbing or killing, if he got a chance.
As it turned out, everything about the USJ was off script from the jump. All Might was missing, Shigaraki’s backup villains were wimpy, the 1-A kids were surprisingly resourceful (or just Todoroki and ridiculously OP lmao), all of which added up to: by the time All Might arrived, a decent portion of the villains had already been defeated, and right after All Might punched their trump card through the roof, a ton of other teachers showed up to take care of the rest of the villains. In the end, Kurogiri barely managed to get himself and Shigaraki to safety.
But— even in the scenario where Shigaraki was always supposed to lose, All Might should have been front and center of the battle, freeing Aizawa to do what he does best: provide support, ambush from behind. In the chaos of 60-odd villains fighting 20 school kids, it would have been a lot harder to notice someone snatching Aizawa and shoving him through a warp gate in the blink of an eye.
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mariaiscrafting · 4 years ago
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can i ask why you dislike dream? im not being passive agressive or something lol i am genuinely curious
S’all good, kinda figured you weren’t being, and a lot of people have asked me this lol. There are so many reasons, and I’ve said this so many times already, but I’ll try to go over some of the main things I can remember:
1) Arrogance: kinda put me off how he’s always responded to criticism. Always kinda had an air of superiority about shit, and it never really bothered me on its own because I think lots of CCs are arrogant & I’m arrogant myself, but combined with all of the following, it became a reason for me to dislike him lol
2) Manipulation of his audience: look, I kinda always knew that CCs with huge fanbases, especially CCs who grow this quickly, have some kind of grasp of how to treat and foster their audience to their greatest advantage. I’ve always been wary of CCs that put on soft or nice personalities, especially since the whole Shane Dawson debacle. But with Dream, it’s been a whole other thing ever since his cheating response video, and I’ve never been able to see him in a good light in regard to how he responds to his fans, ever since. I went into it in a lot more detail back when I first watched the video, the day it dropped, but I’m too exhausted to scrounge that post up, so I’ll summarize: that video had a very specific strategy that he used to victimize himself and appeal to his fans’ compassion for him, and after rewatching the video for the third time that day, it felt gross and calculated to me. The way that he focuses very little on the actual mathematical part of his argument. The way he frames the issue of the mods having favoritism or bias. It was already proven on Reddit and throughout Twitter that the numbers the mods looked at were for good reason, and not because they just wanted to pick the numbers that made Dream look the worst, but that’s how he framed the argument. When I logged onto Twitter and Tumblr that day, there were thousands of fans who had latched onto what he said in the latter half of that video and coming to Dream’s defense, and that’s kinda when it hit me: this guy fucking knows what he’s doing, and he’s doing it well, and I really really dislike it. There’s about a hundred other ways he manipulates his audience, including not coming to people’s defenses when huge chunks of his audience attack them (even though the people had respectful and correct criticisms of him), defending stans so adamantly in the face of antis, and posting periodic alt tweets that help garner the illusion that he super cares about his fans; but, that cheating response video was the major red flag, for me.
3) Cheating & lying: as is likely no surprise to y’all, I think Dream cheated lmao. At first, I was ecstatic that he had actually made a detailed response video and put out a report with the help of an actual professional, but as I read up on his supposed statistical argument and dissected the parts of his argument that felt off to me, I realized maybe he had cheated. Talking to some STEM major friends of mine, who weren’t into MCYT but had obviously heard about the whole debacle because they like Twitter and Minecraft, kinda put the nail in the coffin for me. I’m not nearly smart enough or have a good enough memory to detail exactly why I think he cheated on this blog, right now, in April, but essentially: his main argument relied upon claiming mod bias, instead of a sound mathematical or statistical argument; there’s no way of proving that the world files he provided to the mods and in the open source weren’t altered; the statistical problems he points out (i.e., stopping effect) don’t actually skew the original mods’ model nearly as much as his supposed PhD guy would say; and the odds he comes up with might not be nearly as impossible as 1 in 7 trillion, but they still come up to around 1 in 100 million, which is still fucking ridiculous, considering that there are only, like, 120 million people in the world who play Minecraft.  Not impossible, but laughable that he expects people to believe that. But... I guess they did, lmao. The thing that peeved me the most about the whole thing was the adamant lying lmao. When you look at the situation from the perspective of “dream cheated,” you realize just how fucked up all his Twitter responses, his adamance in streams and that video, and the general mood among his friends is... idk man, it’s just highly fucked.
4) Relationship with stans: look, there are significant numbers of  his fans that take part in Twitter cancelling vendettas, who spread around information about other CCs and their fellow fans that is false and meant to villify them, etc., and he never fucking says anything. It really, really bothers me. There are too many instances to enumerate, but a few that have caught my eye were when Dream stans would attack Techno, prior to their battle and when a Native American woman politely explained why he shouldn’t use Native music, he responded and said he wouldn’t, but tons of stans continued to attack her in her replies for “being so harsh/mean.” Like, he knows that just one word from him will make his fandom follow his beck and call. All it would’ve taken was one fucking word. There are so many fucking people that have been harrassed off of social media platforms because of the hivemind that is dttwt, for christ’s sake.
5) Reddit posts: All of the above were reasons for me to mildly dislike the guy prior to the Reddit posts, but they weren’t really enough to make me stop posting about c!Dream or reblogging fanart or reading DNF fics or watching Manhunts. I kinda just clowned on the guy, answered the occasional ask about the cheating thing or something related, and left it at that. The Reddit posts not only pissed me off for their content, but for the lying, as well. Do you think I fucking cared about him cheating at speedrunning Minecraft, of all games? Fuck no. What I cared about was the adamant lying that went into the whole debacle. Kinda the same with the Reddit posts. I’m one to usually forgive creators who acknowledge past errors, obviously. It is creators who try to brush stuff off, or even worse, create an elaborate lie to cover up allegations, that put me off a fuck ton. This is the reason I could never be comfortable with watching Pewdipie after I realized all the shit he had brushed off, and it’s now the reason I can’t go back to watching Dream. There is so much evidence that points to guilt, including but not limited to: his first move when the slideshow dropped (before posting to Twitter) being deleting as many old Discord messages as he could, the contradiction between him at first denying the account was his at all then changing the story to say he shared it with a friend, the wording and phrasing in the political posts being almost identical to the non-political posts that were clearly him (i.e., the one that explains his demographics perfectly), and the timing of the political posts (some of them being posted mere minutes after posts that were verifiably him, like the picture of Patches to the cats subreddit). People can claim that he’s likely changed, and what this it matter, as long as politics don’t affect his work now, but I can’t believe this fundamental misunderstanding of why bigotry in entertainment matters. I’ve always had a problem with the adoration this fandom has for cishet white men, and the constant criticism of non-cishet, non-white, non-men, but this really feels like the final slap in the fucking face. It’s like everyone truly believes that it doesn’t matter, that his beliefs couldn’t have possibly affected the way he’s treated fellow CCs in his circles or any of the number of people that depend upon Dream, directly and indirectly, for employment/CC clout. It’s like everyone truly believes that political ideology has no effect on the way we perceive, treat, and behave around other people in literally any field, not just politics. I, just... Christ. I don’t really wanna unpack my emotions about this whole thing right now, so I won’t. I’ll just say: I dislike Trump supporters and ex-Trump supporters alike, I dislike conservatives who claim they’re centrists (every fucking guy my age does this, it’s infuriating and makes me want to bash my head into the nearest wall), I dislike people who levy their fans against criticism - even when it’s righteous - and I dislike people who lie about their past actions; Dream fits all those categories, so I dislike him.
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helliontherapscallion · 4 years ago
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omg pls share the story abt the lecture from that girl’s dad (only if u feel like it) but seriously ppl it’s not that hard to put a mask on to help the spread of a virus. just wear it, it keeps u safe. and for the ppl who don’t care then just wait til it affects u, bcs covid isn’t a game. I just wish ppl were more serious abt it
Ok so sit down and buckle up kiddos and grab some snacks bc this is a helluva ride
Little background info: I have been a section leader for both my junior and senior years now. When the new freshmen came in my first year of being section leader I was hyped as hell. And then this new freshman whips out a lighter and lights it WHILE WE’RE INSIDE THE SCHOOL MIGHT I ADD with a straight face looking off into the distance before we ask her to put it away. She also always has a pocket knife on her that we found on the ground during band camp. I’ll call her POS. 
I tried to like POS I really did, but then she turned out to be a bigoted racist asshole (she also drinks deer blood straight from the corpse and simps over jeffery dahmer so even more red flags). It was extremely hard for me to treat her like I did with the other people in my section, but I managed to treat her the same as the other people and avoided her for the most part (thank god she wasn’t in my subsection I would’ve actually gone insane)
Flash forward to this year. Covid was hitting full force and we had to quarantine for the first two months of our season setting us back by a lot. She was wishywashy about rejoining but as the most senior leader of my section my band director was on my ass about getting a straight answer from her and fast. So I kinda had to force her to give me an answer (which she told me she was doing it quickly which leads me to think she already knew she was doing it) so she already was going into the season hating my guts
When we finally had an in person rehearsal for the first time, she wasn’t wearing a mask so when I asked her where it was she looked at me like I was the dumbass and said in a matter-of-fact tone “it’s in my pocket” and pointed to the confederate flag bandana hanging out of her pocket. Those four words told me that this season was going to be a fuckin long one with her. I just deadpanned (she couldn’t see it tho bc mask, sunglasses, and floppy hat blocking my entire face) and said “I’d rather it be on your face. (band director and marching instructor’s names) will have my ass if they see you not wearing one.” She rolls her eyes and puts it on (at least it was over her nose)
A few months go by with me telling her constantly to put on a mask bc I am responsible for my section and I’d be damned if one of them got sick bc of one idiot being stupid that I could prevent. She is getting madder and madder with each passing rehearsal. 
Band camp rolls around and it changed from 5 13 hour days to 15 3 hour ones and I am already done with her bs. We get our dots and I mentally groan bc she’s next to me for the vast majority of the show. She is between me (an asthmatic) and my close friend (vvv immunocompromised and also hates her, I’ll call her S) so now I’m more worried about covid going around the section. It was in this time that I find out that at least 5 other people out of 20 also have pre existing conditions that make them susceptible. So now I make it even more my mission to make her wear a mask. 
It was in the middle of band camp when she is yet again not wearing a mask (we were just marching without instruments) and I turn to her and as kindly as possible (it was the second time that day) asked her to put on her mask. She once again rolls her eyes and says “ya know, (band director) walked past me 3 times and hasn’t said shit, so I think I’m gonna listen to him and not you.” S and another friend of mine looks over in shock cuz she just talked back to me. They were about to say something but I wove them off. POS wants to fuck with me? Fine. I’ll just go full force with this. She wants petty?? I’ll give her petty, I’ve been holding off all season. 
So I’m marching there for the next twenty minutes quietly seething and counting more aggressively. She’s getting annoyed, but I pull the section leader card and tell her that she needs to be counting as loud as I am bc her feet was lowkey off time. After we break off for a gush and go (very short water break), I go straight to my band director and use my limited water break to tell him what she told me. He apologizes and says that he thought she was just taking a breather. He tells her to put on a mask and she does so and glares at me the rest of the rehearsal. 
She blocks me on all social media and I obviously clown on her in private with the other section leader (he’s more of a pacifist and never really told her to wear a mask which kinda pissed me off but I understood) until she makes a passing comment to my other friend about using the knife she kept in her boot. Now he tells me cuz he’s a good friend and I’m shitting myself at that point bc holy shit I might get shanked. 
I think about telling the band director but I realize that there’s no proof of her saying this and she could easily get out of this so it’s kinda pointless to tell anyone. Plus if she did shank me, she’d get into so much trouble and I’d be laughing at her from my grave/hospital bed. 
Many rehearsals go by and she still refuses to wear a mask so after one rehearsal S and I went to the band director and reminded him about our conditions and told him about how we were worried for our safety (I also told him abotu the other vulunerable ppl in the section) and he says he’s gonna do something. Next rehearsal he gives POS a warning and she begrudgingly wears a mask for the rest of the rehearsal. The next rehearsal rolls by and she isn’t wearing a mask (again) and he sends her home. Major victory for S and I.
The next sectional tho was something I wasn’t expecting. I get there like 10 minutes before it starts like I usually do in a good mood. I get out of my car and go to grab my stuff when a massive white truck with a busted muffler pulls up into the parking space next to me with a cloud of black smoke. The window rolls down and reveals POS’s dad and POS herself in the passanger seat. 
Of course I’m thinking that this is the day I die and start mentally preparing to yell for help to my other section members 100 feet away on the field already.
Mans starts to lecture me saying things like “it’s unhealthy to wear a mask outside bc it’s like a pitri dish under there. 6th grade science!” (I am not joking or overexaggerating with this, he actually said that). I really wanted to say “well, 7th grade science says otherwise, but you wouldn’t know that bc I’m sure you didn’t pass 6th grade, but go off ig” but I didn’t bc I didn’t want to get shanked or disappear randomly. I just tell him that I am only doing what my band director told me to do and that there are tons of people (myself included) that can really get hurt from just being in contact with covid. He says that’s bullshit and tries to tell me that I’m an idiot before I cut him off by telling him once again that I am just trying to protect my section and that the sectional was going to start soon so I didn’t have the time for this. I walk away leaving him trying to keep talking to me and soon enough POS gets out of the car and follows me to the field giving me a smug smile on her unmasked face before she puts it on when she sees the other section leader stroll up. 
Lemme paint the picture for you: this guy (a 6′something burly guy in his 50′s that I know has like two felonies under his belt) pulls up next to me (a 5′2 17 year old ball of anxiety that drives a small yellow car) and starts to borderline yell at me. Traumatizing. I was shaking for the rest of the sectional and I spent the rest of the season looking over my shoulder looking for the glint of a knife swingin at me
Now I’m pretty sure she’s suspended bc she was caught with a knife on school property and she wore a confederate t-shirt to school, but I would be lying if I said I don’t still look over my shoulder or speed up when I drive past her house lmao
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mrs-nate-humphrey · 4 years ago
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how would rank nate's girlfriends (in terms of their relationships with nate and them as people)? lmao
hmm. this is hard. what’s easy is saying i loved natessa best, and hated naterine most. more under the cut!
i think i’ve mentioned enough times that most people know i think nate & vanessa were the best - they both supported each other equally, their relationship was very 50/50, they both respected & valued each other, etc. their relationship was so real and so balanced, i really loved watching that play out and think it made no sense, the way they caused the dissolution of it? especially since after breaking up with vanessa he suddenly seems really into commitment - see how he is with bree buckley!! where was that energy when you were dating someone who was actually cool, natie! 
i don’t know where to put serenate, because i love serena as a character, and i think nate was very committed to that relationship from day 1, but i don’t think serena ever took him as seriously as he deserved to be taken / as HE took her, & i don’t see that particular relationship to be fulfilling in a long-term way for similar reasons that i don’t ship danessa romantically. their break up felt organic to me. that said, serena WAS his best friend and she did care about him and want him to be happy, which is more than you can say for most of nate’s girlfriends.
blair & nate may not have had any sort of romantic spark when we saw them on the show (& honestly, i think nate was initially not a very good bf to blair)- but blair did her best to be there for him, and the implication of childhood friends is that she was there, paying attention for him & being there for him for a really long time. i think blair/nate had a really strong platonic connection that the show never went into, and i think by virtue of that they still rank relatively high from a nate pov at least. 
jenny/nate is also complicated to place, partially because i’m always going to be partial to lesbian!jenny & probably won’t write her as anything else. that said, of late, i’ve been seeing people who love her as much as me, if not more, who see her as someone who likes men, and the last thing i want to do is start a fandom war over ‘is this female character with unspecified sexuality lesbian or bi?’ because those NEVER end well. anyway i’ve become more tolerant to interpretations of jenny that aren’t her being lesbian, and i HAVE read a decent chunk of really good n/j fic. i think they had a closeness on the show that neither of them had with anyone else, where they could talk about their trauma with each other, which makes them special to me. that said, i don’t think their canon dynamic was necessarily the healthiest - jenny often used nate as a means to like, obtain social power, and nate became more passive than ever and just let jenny do whatever she wanted? it’s interesting to me because i feel, theoretically, like nate & jenny could be really healthy together but the show didn’t do that. 
i have a really weird soft spot for jenate shippers though, ever since i got those hateful jennycourse anons. i just hope y’all are having a good time in fandom, and not being dragged down by losers who send anon hate. (unconnected fun fact: sending me ship hate only makes me ship something more! and feel the urge to validate people who ship it.)
now we have a ton of guest stars & relatively unmemorable girlfriends. 
i liked lola and raina!!! raina & nate > lola & nate, for me, tbh. raina & nate had such a childlike enthusiasm and during that day that they do things they’ve never done before, they were both SO happy and it was so cute. eating ice-cream together, talking about starting an ice-cream company, raina kicking nate’s ass at just dance... i wish we’d gotten more raina. i think i actually like raina x nate more than serenate, come to think of it. we didn’t have enough of her, though. raina would’ve been such a GOOD series regular. 
i liked lola & nate!!! lola reminds me of kelsi from hsm for some reason i cannot articulate, and her relationship with nate was VERY chill. low-pressure, drama free, etc, from what i remember. twas cute.
now we are into the less nice ones!
bree :( nate was so into this relationship and there were times when he seemed like he would genuinely be happy with her, but i disliked bree as a character so much that i just could NOT get behind his happiness. it baffles me how men settle for bree buckley after vanessa abrams.
juliet, next. i never liked juliet from the beginning, and i say this as a flex ;) idk she was just really pushy, and her whole “I Can Help You Improve Your Life Even Though You Have No Idea Who I Am” thing felt like a major red flag. i felt vindictive glee about my judgement being right on that one, lmao.
sage goes here, because we only have catherine & diana next. but to be really honest, i think the problem with the sage/nate relationship was nate. he should not have been dating her once he realised she was in high school. teenagers have crushes on people in their 20s!! it’s normal!!! it’s the responsibility of the adults to Not engage and to turn them down if they try to initiate something!! 
diana is the second worst to me - the fact that she’s working for nate’s grandfather, the hashtag workplace harassment of it all... it’s really devastating.
i’ve implied before on this blog that catherine (& naterine) was the worst thing - genuinely traumatic, and it’s implied that after a point, she’s manipulating him & all the sex is coerced, which is undeniably the most terrible. like... the implications are of caon rape, so it really does not get worse than this.
i have not counted jordan steele or ivy dickens (she was never really his gf, she just kissed him + i can’t take her really seriously, given that she was cheating on dan’s dad with serena’s dad and apparently this was completely unironic and non-satirical) because the wikia says that they never officially dated & unlike jenate, those 2 aren’t even Main Characters.
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