#but the thing is is that i cant be a girlfriend again
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───── STEALING KISSES 김선우 Y. JW



ꪆৎ ⋆˚࿔ he just cant get enough of your strawberry chapstick 。。 idol!jungwon x reader .
FLUFF & wc. 900 + ; kissing, skinship, petnames 。。
──── ARCHiVE
yang jungwon sat in front of his desk, the soft glow of his ring light perfectly highlighting his features. his fans had been eagerly awaiting this live broadcast and as always, jungwon delivered—laughing, answering questions, and teasing snippets of upcoming music.
“let’s see…’what’s your favorite thing about performing?’ hmm, probably the energy from you guys,” he said with a smile, leaning closer to the camera. “nothing beats hearing you sing along.”
the chat was flooded with love for his answer, but just as he was about to tease another song, the door to his room opened softly.
he glanced up mid-sentence and his words faltered. standing in the doorway was you, his girlfriend, dressed in his oversized hoodie that nearly swallowed you whole. your hair was slightly messy, your face fresh and soft, and your lips curved into a shy smile as your eyes met.
jungwon smiled back, his gaze softening. “uh, hold on a second, guys,” he said to the live audience, waving a hand at the camera before standing up.
the chat erupted in confusion :
“who’s there??”
“what’s happening?”
“was that his manager?”
jungwon didn’t respond, already walking away from the desk. he approached you with a small, fond smile. “hey,” he said softly. “didn’t think you’d wake up so soon.”
“i didn’t mean to interrupt,” you said, your voice just above a whisper, your fingers nervously playing with the hem of his hoodie. “i was just heading to the kitchen…”
“you’re not interrupting baby,” he assured you, pulling you gently into his arms. his lips found yours in a quick, light kiss, a reflex more than anything, but the moment he pulled back, he hesitated, his brows furrowing slightly.
“wait, what is that?” he asked, leaning closer. “what’s what?” you asked, confused.
“that taste…” he kissed you again, slower this time, savoring the soft, fruity flavor lingering on your lips. “strawberry? is that your chapstick?” you giggled, your cheeks flushing. “yeah, it is…why?”
“i like it,” he murmured, leaning in to kiss you once more.
“you’re live, wonnie,” you reminded him between kisses, laughing softly as you gently pushed at his chest. “i know, but…” he pouted, his voice dipping into a playful whine. “you taste so good.”
“stop,” you teased, though your laughter only encouraged him. “seriously, go back to your fans before they riot.”
“i don’t want to,” he admitted with a grin, holding you closer. “i’d rather stay here with you.”
you cupped his face in your hands, pressing one last kiss to his lips before stepping back. “go,” you said firmly, though your tone was light. “you’re going to get in trouble if you keep disappearing.”
he sighed dramatically, leaning in for one last kiss before heading back to his desk. “okay okay, but i’m coming back later.”
when he sat down, the chat was in chaos:
“WHERE DID YOU GO??”
“you look too happy right now 👀”
“HE’S BLUSHING! WHAT’S GOING ON?!”
he laughed, scratching the back of his neck, “alright, alright,” he admitted. “someone special is here, and…i got a little distracted, but it’s her fault tho…her chapsticks amazing.”
the chat erupted with laughter, teasing, and endless questions but jungwon just smiled, brushing it off. “let’s move on, okay?”
minutes passed but he couldn’t stop thinking about you. the way you tasted, the soft giggle that echoed in his ears, it was driving him insane.
“actually, hold on one more second,” he said abruptly, dashing out of frame again.
this time, you were in the living room, scrolling through your phone. when you saw him approach, you raised an eyebrow. “wonn,” you said pointedly, though you couldn’t hide your amused smile. “you’re live.”
“i know,” he replied, pulling you into his arms once more. “but i couldn’t stay away.”
“you’re impossible,” you said, laughing as he kissed you again. “and you’re delicious,” he countered with a grin.
“go back before your fans start a petition to find out what’s going on,” you teased, poking his chest. “they already know,” he admitted with a chuckle. “well kind of…i told them it’s your chapstick’s fault.” you rolled your eyes but kissed him again, soft and lingering. “go jungwon. now.”
“fineeee,” he sighed dramatically, pressing one last kiss to your forehead before heading back to his desk.
after another hour, he finishes the live and says goodbye to his fans, jungwon closed his laptop and turned off the ring light. as he got up, he found you still sitting on the couch, scrolling through your phone. he walked over and flopped down beside you, resting his head on your lap.
“how’d it go?” you asked, running your fingers through his hair. “pretty sure i just gave the fans their biggest mystery of the year,” he joked, looking up at you with a grin.
you laughed softly, “you’re terrible at hiding things, you know.”
“maybe,” he said, sitting up slightly. “but i don’t think i want to hide you anymore.” your breath caught at his words, your cheeks flushing. “wait…you mean that?”
jungwon nodded, his expression sincere. “i’m not saying we need to make it public right now, but…i don’t want to pretend you’re not the best part of my day.” your heart melted at his words and you leaned in, kissing him softly. “you’re the best part of my day, too.”
he smiled against your lips, his hand cupping your cheek. “good. now, do we have any more of that chapstick? i think i’m actually addicted.”
you laughed, playfully smacking his arm. “you’re ridiculous.”
“ridiculously in love with youuu,” he countered, pulling you in for another kiss.
this time, there were no interruptions, no excuses, just the two of you, stealing kisses in the quiet comfort of your shared apartment.
⋆。°✩ @miukidoll @liwinly @sugarikiz @hyukabean
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can we honestly e date? you’re so beautiful. You always make me laugh, you always make me smile. You literally make me want to become a better person... I really enjoy every moment we spend together. My time has no value unless its spent with you. I tell everyone of my irls how awesome you are. Thank you for being you. Whenever you need someone to be there for you, know that i’ll always be right there by your side. I love you so much. I don’t think you ever realize how amazing you are sometimes. Life isn’t as fun when you’re not around. You are truly stunning. I want you to be my soulmate. I love the way you smile, your eyes are absolutely gorgeous. If I had a star for everytime you crossed my mind i could make the entire galaxy. Your personality is as pretty as you are and thats saying something. I love you, please date me. I am not even calling it e dating anymore because I know we will meet soon enough heart OK I ADMIT IT I LOVE YOU OK i hecking love you and it breaks my heart when i see you play with someone else or anyone commenting in your profile i just want to be your girlfriend and put a heart in my profile linking to your profile and have a walltext of you commenting cute things i want to play video games talk in discord all night and watch a movie together but you just seem so uninsterested in me it hecking kills me and i cant take it anymore i want to remove you but i care too much about you so please i’m begging you to eaither love me back or remove me and never contact me again it hurts so much to say this because i need you by my side but if you dont love me then i want you to leave because seeing your icon in my friendlist would kill me everyday of my pathetic life.
(I rlly love ur art, ur so cool)
who copied the pasta and why is it e dating???????
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pondering my orb
#personal#it appears i have fallen victim to the situationship industrial complex#this little arrangement i found myself in has escalated from ‘friends who hook up’ to ‘boyfriend without the boy’#and it is becoming lets say emotionally distressing#because i am leaving town for the summer in just three short weeks! and for the past two months we have spent every free moment together#and putting our own individual codependent tendencies aside i really do like him#i havent been alone long enough to shift my brain out of girlfriend mode#because the thing is i loved being a girlfriend#apparently it was a significant part of my identity#which i didnt really realize until i wasnt one anymore#and i miss it!#i dont even miss the boyfriend i was the girlfriend of particularly#i just miss being a girlfriend i think#and now i have found a man who i would very much like to be the girlfriend of#hes respectful and emotionally intelligent and he fucks me so good and we have a lot of fun together i think#but the thing is is that i cant be a girlfriend again#because since it was such a significant part of my identity now that i am no longer a girlfriend i have lost that piece#and i guess i dont know what is supposed to go in its place#who am i if not girlfriend? what do i do when i am not girlfriending? who do i talk to when its not my boyfriend?#my life purpose is certainly not ‘girlfriend’#i mean its not supposed to be. i was pretty happy with it but everyone in my life is telling me thats not what im supposed to do#so what am i supposed to do???? i dont like being alone i dont want to be#i want to be girlfriend!!!!!!!#i was happy and i felt fulfilled#sure it was for the wrong person but the right one will come along#im not very good at the whole casual dating thing though. i mean clearly#because this man is probably not boyfriend material either#as much as i like him it is questionable whether he deserves my girlfriending#so how does one find ‘the’ boyfriend?#is it a futile exercise in the first place
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the party if they were fucking cool 🔥 i wasnt joking about the modern stranger things au where everythings the same except the party really likes skating thing
#this is my six weed smoking girlfriends.#and yes.#they smoke weed#sorry for projecting all of my interests onto mike wheeler#it will happen again#cinephile mike wheeler is real to ME.#forgot maxs freckles in the second one#its fiinnneee#els ladybug helmet is very important to me btw#i tried to make maxs skateboard look like her canon one#and will’s skateboard is supposed to be painted#its like vaguely jellyfish and stars but you cant see it that well#will also painted the top of mikes skateboard btw. if u even care#max teaching lucas to skateboard can be something so personal <33#stranger things#the party#mike wheeler#will byers#max mayfield#lucas sinclair#el hopper#dustin henderson#byler#lumax#stranger things fanart#fanart#skater au#stranger things skater au#harperdoodles#stoner byler
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well as of today its been 6 months since the breakup. i think im getting better at handling it!
#sigh im mostly fine just a bit sad to again think about the fact im not over it. i know 6 months is nothing next to a total of 3 years#but its still frustrating that i cant just go limp and stop caring like he has#well hes clearly not better than me anyways at least i havent gone full imaginary fucking girlfriend like he has#the thing cocoa said about how he can play with baby toys forever keeps sticking with me kchsnfmhx
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gotta love how my brother thinks billionares and people in government are just scared of the world and are trying to control things to feel more secure, but me, his own sister whos incredibly mentally ill, is just lazy and selfish and doesnt care about anyone but myself.
#he loves going from ''i see so much potential in you'' and being really positive/complimenting#to treating me like a lazy selfish piece of shit and sees everything i do in the worst light possible#what can i expect from someone who thinks mental illnesses dont exist and believes in a multitude of conspiracy theories 🙄#he even said my girlfriend ''has a darkness inside of her'' like HFKSHKFJD???#me and her were laughing about that one but like. dude what is WRONG with you#instead of coming to me to talk things out he loves to go into the other room and loudly shit talk me until i have a breakdown#so now i just get anxiety anytime i hear him talking. yippee#god i cant fucking wait until he moves back out. im never speaking to this asshole again
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Jrwi be like or something idk I'm so tired at this point
#every fucking tjme#i thought it was just a grizzly thing but things cant ever be that simple can they#PLEASE get creative PLEASEEEE#i dont want to see the same concept over and over again slightly changed to make things a bit unique#weve had a TON of them in riptide#and now we have wonderlust#which is definitely the best execution we've had of it yet btw#also its so fucking funny to me that that chalrie isnt in the campaign#probably too busy sluting it up with his rpf girlfriend somewhere#no time to play dnd when you've got rpf to fuck to and “i played the SCARIEST horror game and THIS happened?!!?” videos to make#i just kinda have to laugh at this point
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robin buckley is the kind of gf to take every opportunity to talk about her partner its true
someone mentions the newspaper? oh! nancy works for the newspaper! did robin mention nancy is robin’s girlfriend?
the color pink? nancy loves the color pink! also nancy is robin’s girlfriend.
books? nancy loves reading books! robin loves reading books with nancy, who is robin’s girlfriend.
she just loves saying “nancy is my girlfriend!”
#ronance#nancy wheeler#robin buckley#robin#nancy#robin x nancy#ronance canon#stranger things#im taking this as an opportunity to talk about my girlfriend in these tags#i would do absolutely anything for her#if she told me to walk across the country to get something i would#even if it’s the smallest thing#I WILL DO IT#i would hand pick the most beautiful flowers for her just because i know that’s what she deserves#i couldnt ever imagine hurting this girl#i cant believe that somebody as beautiful as her would choose somebody like me#and if i were immortal and she was not i would wait for her for thousands of years to be able to see her once again#i could write hundreds of sonnets and it wouldnt amount to how much i feel for her#can you guys tell i like talking about my girlfriend
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#cant sleep bc im thinking so many thoughts#hiding in the tags#i think im finally over her?#like today and the last time we hung out i didnt Feel it anymore#and its not like i dont love her anymore i really really do but now its in a best friend way only i think?#the Feeling wasnt there which i guess its a good thing#and like yeah maybe its the depression maybe im just not feeling anything rn but also like#thats why she broke up with me and even when her depression got better she never got back to Feeling it?#and last time My depression was bad i wouldnt feel anything at all except when we hung out#so it feels different now#not necessarily a bad different just Different#but im so fucking scared of losing her#like im so scared of when she starts dating again#and yes ive been thinking of dating again im desperate for a girlfriend#but shes the one who broke up with me and shes had to deal with this before with Him and she didnt feel bad#but when we started dating He felt bad so like. i get him#and im so scared of never getting into a relationship again bc she’ll Always have a part of my heart like even if i dont Feel it anymore#she’ll always be number one for me#and im scared ill never let myself love anyone else bc i wouldnt think its fair to them bc of her#and idk.#i really dont wanna lose her she means so much to me#and im so comfortable around her in a way that im not with anyone else#idk where im going with this#sometimes i really fucking hate being aroace#and not being able to tell the difference between different feelings#:(#whatever
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I've been following that AITA blog for a bit now and it has me thinking about my own life situations with conflict and drama. A passive "do I have anything I could submit to that blog?" But upon thinking about it, it's like... I really find no value in asking strangers whether I'm "the asshole" in situations. There are situations where I'm clearly not at fault, situations where I was a little shit but it was justified, and at least one situation where I have a definite "Oh yeah, I was definitely the asshole there". All in the past, so it's not like I'd even need advice or anything. I already know, so what's the point?
Maybe it stems from me being a generally self-aware and self-confident kind of person. I know what's going on with myself, know when I've wronged people, & I have a mentality of "well, I'll try to not do that in the future." Even if I feel a little guilty thinking back, what's the point of asking after something when I know I'm at fault? Or situations where things were complicated and both people had fault in things, but I know I wasn't being shitty on purpose & that's what matters to me. Ultimately, it results in a bunch of strangers drawing conclusions about things I really don't care about outside input on.
Still love reading the blog tho. There's something about reading up on random people's life drama that satisfies that gossipmonger soul in me So well.
#speculation nation#i think the most blatantly YTA thing id get is when i ghosted that guy i was seeing back when i was 20 or so#wasnt ever actually dating but i made it sound like i would. very much led him on.#then realized i just wasnt into cishet guys At All and dropped him out of nowhere bc i was 20 and didnt know how to deal with feelings#objectively it was a pretty awful thing for me to do. and i feel bad that i did it.#have i ever tried to reach out and apologize tho? no lmao#it happened so long ago now i feel like itd bring more animosity than relief anyways.#id like to think ive learned from it tho. Dont Date People Just For The Hell Of It.#god it rly is my romantic history where im the biggest asshole. my prior girlfriend too#i do feel bad about that. i never meant to hurt her but that sure is what i did.#it was better to break it off when i did. wouldve been better had i did it earlier but oh well.#then as a teenager and my whole fucked up romance life then...#but NO LONGER!!!!!!!! hopefully lol. im rly into my current girlfriend and after my last one ive been dedicated to. not do that again.#cant date people just because im bored. that's never ended well for me.#i learned my lesson this time for SURE!!!!!#anyways yea id say more constently id be The Asshole in these situations. but im only human man it happens.#other situations it's usually just fucked up situations with me being a toxic little shit in response bc it's all i knew.#idk. community voting doesnt matter to me. learning from my prior mistakes and shortcomings is what matters to me.#it's interesting to see the blog tho. people are insecure about some of the most trivial things sometimes...
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lifeblogging begins....girl asked me out today AND i don't knowhow to tell her no 😭
#NO OKAY LISTEN RIGHT shes been texting me for a whileeee and she used to like me YEARS ago Literally full on told me and we didnt talk for#ages Then she starts messagjngme again And keeps making like weird things thag we have in common?😭#one time my friends were making fun of me for having rice for breakfast And i wrote rice onnmy friends hand And then she sat next to this#girl in her class and told her about me having rice THE NEXT DAY SHEEEE BRINNGGS UPPP RICE AND SAYS SHE HAS IT FOR BREAKFAST SOMETIMES#ITWAS JUST REALLY LIKE.😭😭😭#BUT I NEED TO TELL HER NO BECAUSE I GOT A GIRLFRIEND BUT LIKEE I CSNT SAY NO she hasnt said its explicitly romantic You know? just said#do you want to go out And well i cant work with that AT ALL. B3CAUSE IT WPUKD BE SO RUDE TO GO ummm No sorry. and it's would be so#self entered to be like Umm i have a girlfriend🤓 YOU KNOW?!#god this blog is great i love lifeblogging
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nothing has made me want to quit my job more than happiness outside of it
#staying in bed with my gf in the morning is way more important to me than my job#and the other thing that makes me want to quit is the Girlfriend Grief of knowing i cant see her for a while again :/
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I understand why other aro and/or ace people are uninterested in romance or sex in fiction but being aromantic myself I think its part of why Im so into romance. I just think its sweet!!! I dont really get it but its sweet!!!
#I dunno I feel very strong platonic emotions to people that I think are similar to like romantic ones but I can never get to the like#wanting a relationship with someone where Im calling the other person my boyfriend/girlfriend/partner/husband/wife/spouse thing you know#my point is I get where people are coming from being sick of love stories being in everything but I love it.#Cant get enough of it I love reading a superhero comic and then the main character has a love interest and their#relationship is well written and interesting. I am a sucker.#Yeah Ive just been thinking about O'Neil Question and Vic and Myra again.
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365 Days of Writing Prompts: Day 274
Adjective: Deceptive
Noun: Spiral
Definitions for those who need/want them:
Deceptive: giving an appearance or impression different from the true one, or misleading
Spiral: a spiral curve, shape, or pattern; a spiral spring; (astronomy) short for spiral galaxy; a progressive rise or fall of prices, wages, etc., each responding to an upward or downward stimulus provided by a previous one; a process of deterioration through the continuous increase or decrease of a specified feature; (American football) a pass or kick that moves smoothly through the air while spinning on its long axis
#just a smidge late this time#lowkey cos my girlfriend and i were busy#speaking of which we continued birthday celebrations for her and went out and did some small things#we honestly had another fun and relaxing day#also cant believe its october#halloween is right around the corner (my girlfriend and i are trying to work out costumes rn)#and we are both attempting inktober again#ive never finished an inktober (including the year in which i tried to write poems instead of making drawings)#so im crossing my fingers for this one#anyway this prompt screams the 'spiral' from the magnus archives#so im obviously going to do something with that in the poem i end up writing#i cant get over how 'deceptive' and 'spiral' are so perfect for a piece about the spiral#also i fell asleep while writing these tags and now im more than a smidge late#so oops#the magnus archives#tma#the spiral#the spiral tma#thanks for reading#writing#writer#creative writing#writing prompt#writeblr#trying to be a writeblr at least
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in thinking a lot about someone im thinking a lot about someone oh god no dont do this again youre gonna ruin it im thinking a lot about someone
#worms in my brain? no. im taking preventative measures#cause i go to class with this guy i met in the summer and i though he was soo cool when we met and he is in fact really fucking cool#now i see him every week cause class when i initially thought id never see him again. and im thinking about him way too much?#idk. i think im just excited to be friends because he really is so interesting and strange like so fucking weird and i love weird ppl#but im scared stupud brain and heart will do stupid things and start. you know. and i cant feel like that he has a girlfriend and also#would never happen. ppl never like me#but whatever its not a problem im just pre-worrying bc we have a great relationship like i feel rly comfortable with him and we laugh a lot#we are quite alike i think. and i worry that might mean sth else bc my brain tends to go for people i cant be with [well the 1 and a half#times ive liked ppl before. yeah] so you know#anyway im excited to have someone like him in my life#spikeposting
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Listening to Girl in Red's i wanna be your girlfriend on repeat in my room alone rn. No reason. Just for funsies.
#me when i LIE#actually sobbing because I think I have a crush on my best friend but I don't think she likes me like that#but really I'm not sure because she's been more friendly with me lately adn has been dropping what MIGHT be hints#also we already technically dated but that was when I was a boy and also in like seventh grade so#would she think it's wierd for us to date again?#also i might be dropping what she might be seeing as hints but really aren't#like I told her my favorite girl in red song is i wanna be your girlfriend#because we were talking about girl in red#which i am okay with her seeing as a hint#but also i was joking about how i like dick because i do because when i think dick i think girl dick but when she thinks dick#she thinks man dick and she went#wait arent you a lesbian? and i am but everytime this comes up the conversation changes before i can plead my case#so now im worried she thinks thats a hint that i dont like her because shes cis and i dont make jokes about how i like pussy because#imposter lesbian syndrome#also we were having a class meeting about prom and she said TWICE#id like to be on the prom court#and BOTH TIMES i not only didnt pick up the possible hint i fucking BUNGLED it and accidentally shut her down by saying#no way me too#but i think we'd have to go with guys ew#cause you know they dont do two queens or two kings#but our school does let you choose what ballot you want to be on#so ive been wondering if we could go together and one of us signs up on the king list and just dresses butch#the problem with that is i would want to do a rock paper scissors#hehe scissors lesbian#thing and thats how we decide who will be butch#but i cant risk losing because i dont pass well enough to pull off a suit as a girl#i wouldnt want to force her to do that though#even though she would probably look cute in a suit#raven caws
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