#but the thing is is that i cant be a girlfriend again
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hi late night thoughts but
max would def be the type of boyfriend to touch, LIKE A LOT, like it doesn't even need to be sexual or for long periods of time. just a simple touch, maybe it's tucking a stray strand of hair behind your ear, or gently touching your waist when he needs to move past you, before landing a sneaky kiss in there for good measure.
or like i've had this scenario in my head for a good week now, but you're working from home, just clicking away at your laptop when he comes home, he clearly looks exhausted from whatever flight he's been on, and when he comes home and looks at you, the exhaustion disappear from his face bc look! it's his favorite person! he's finally home!!!!
he drops all of his thing and just comes to cuddle next to your side, not even caring that you have to do work bc he's now with his favorite person ever and that's all he cares about. the longer you continue to work, the sleepier he gets, he can't tell if it's from the flight and the jet lag or because being in your presence just makes him calmer and sleepier. the soft tapping of your nails against the keyboard makes it even more relaxing, just some white noise to tune all of his thoughts about the next race and what he should do tomorrow because he had a redline stream to take part in.
ur just his favorite person once you become his girlfriend!! like he's so soft and mushy about you too, even though he's a relatively private person, and he refuses to talk about you in public bc he's scared that you're going to get affected by what they say, his close friends listens to how much he yaps about you, sometimes they roll their eyes playfully bc there max goes again talking about his girlfriend!!!!! cz once he's in love, he's IN LOVE.
AH I CANT MY DELUSIONAL ASS CAN'T TAKE THESE LATE NIGHT THOUGHTS!!!!!
#this was very self indulgent#i love being delusional abt max#leclarifies ramble#max verstappen x reader
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Yeaaah I think this is a year old by now, unleashing it now
This is from @mable-stitchpunk's Home series, mostly "Cant Go Home Again"
I found the fic, gave it to girlfriend to read because she likes Puppet, she liked it and drag me and more friends to read a few chapters every week, we are almost caught up with the current flow (adulting is hard we can only do one chapter per week now)
During the reading nights the friend group have draw scenes and memes based on the fic's universe, I mostly did for the first and some of the second one. I wanted to draw a lot and then post it- I did drew a lot but most of it are paper sketches and eventually I slow down and died.
We are on chapter 76 of Going home in a box, so yeah now is a good time to post this. Is mostly memes from my side and TWO legit "scene redraw" thing
Also this thing
#mable-stitchpunk#fnaf#going home in a box#arte#idk how to tag this#so i wont (?)#i added alt text for explanation
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im curious. why do you ship flashvibe. i see them as just best 100% platonic bros and i cant imagine them romantic
Ooh this would be a better question for @alittleflashvibe (who can absolutely feel free to hop in with reblogs or comments or whatever, really 👀) but I will take a crack at it myself:
So first of all, let me preface by saying, none of this is going to be me going ���see?? No platonic explanation!!�� because that’s a) canonically false and b) nonsense. Barrisco, for all that I do ship them, is canonically a friendship, and I value that highly. You can absolutely choose to interpret this all as solely platonic, and that’s totally fine! Their relationship is strong either way, and it’s not “better” or “worse” from either perspective. So just keep that in mind.
Second of all, I’ll assume you’re someone who’s open to shipping Barry with guys (otherwise this discussion is sorta pointless 😅).
Third of all, this will include comparisons to Westallen because...duh, they're canonically romantic, and I need a point of comparison. I love both ships, mind you, this is simply for academic purposes.
With all that said, let’s begin! And since this got long, the rest is below the cut :) enjoy!
Heart Eyes:
Okay so we know Barry does this a lot, right? Almost exclusively with Iris (his canon best-friend-who-he-has-a-crush-on -> girlfriend/fiancée -> wife)…and with Cisco. Cisco, too, does this a lot. Observe, if you will:
This post by the amazing @icedteaandoldlace (who can also hop in if so inclined), compares the Westallen proposal and the "the unvierse wants us to be bros" speech. No, seriously. Look at how alike the scenes are. Barry's heart eyes in those scenes...IMMACULATE! He doesn't give those heart eyes to anyone else
Bonus: notice Cisco’s reactions when we do see them. Earnestly hanging on Barry’s words…and Barry’s encouragement gets him to smile 🥰 just like Iris whenever Barry encourages her (see: the s4 scene when he encourages her as Team Leader and she smiles sincerely through her tears)!
Also...this parallel: "You've always been my hero" ~Barry to Cisco as he's walking toward sort-of-death + "The Flash may be the city's hero, but you, Barry Allen, you're my hero." ~Iris to Barry in her vows
Physical Touch:
Physical touch is canonically the way Barry shows his affection/love (“we all know touch is your love language” is a canon line of dialogue). He does it with Joe, Henry, Iris…and a lot with Cisco, who constantly touches/hugs Barry too:
Something interesting about that last one…I feel like I’ve seen that one somewhere before:
(I made that gif :D)
Oh and uh...remember when I said we'd get back to talking about Cisco doing something risky to save his life? Let's talk about that for a second.
Let's talk about how Iris and Cisco react to losing/the prospect of losing Barry post-s3/s4 and s6:
Post-s3:
Iris: Quits her job, becomes Team Leader in Barry's absence so she can use her skills to help out, wanting to honor Barry's words ("keep growing, keep loving, keep running, for me") and knowing Cisco can't lead the Team alone because he's strung out. Argues with Cisco about getting Barry back, because she is understandably worried that it'll make things worse, cost them someone else...and/or Barry will either already be dead, or will die as a result of their actions (i.e. she fears losing Barry all over again)
Cisco: Hyperfocuses on saving Barry ("quits his job", so to speak, because he's not being Team Leader as Barry intended), uses his skills to help out by building a Quark sphere to save Barry, goes forward with his plan despite Iris's misgivings so he can honor Barry's words ("he also said that everyone would look to me after he was gone. So look to me."). In the aftermath, modifies the suit extensively because he fears losing Barry all over again)
s6:
Iris: Is distraught and horrified at how easily Barry accepts his death, tries to talk him out of it. She takes up the charge of recruiting Ryan Choi, Paragon of Humanity, empathizes with him about his fear, draws on their similarities to convince him.
(She does not pull risky manuevers here, since it's E90 Barry who saves our Barry, but she did back in s3, when she shot Savitar, a speedster and her almost-killer (and also a future version of Barry), to save Barry's life)
Cisco: Makes a risky call to try and save Barry's life, defends himself fiercely when Barry gets upset about it, is distraught and horrified at how easily Barry accepts his death
Bonus:
it's relief in Barry's eyes there, and worry. Barry was mad at Cisco earlier in the episode, but...in this moment, none of that matters. Cisco's doing something risky to save his life (as he canonically does often) and Barry's relieved but also terrified it might go sour. And...well, you saw from one of the gifs earlier how enthusiastic he was once this rescue succeeded - he beamed up at him, all "you've always been my hero" (canon quote) and took his hand to be helped up, just like in a fairytale.
Just a couple of guys nerding out together 🥰
Barry using a shared memory to prove he's not an imposter 👀
Iris and Cisco teaming up to pull Barry out of the Speed Force! Note that Cisco almost succeeds at this 👀 he only fails because Barry is not yet ready to leave - by the time Iris tries, Barry is ready. I've always thought Cisco could've pulled Barry out of the Speed Force too, lightning-rod style.
This post compares some Westallen and Barrisco moments! Specifically, some Iris and Cisco reactions to Barry (very similar, you'll note!)
And there you go! As mentioned, none of this is me going "AHA see, Barrisco is definitely romantic", but moreso pointing out why I ship them via their parallels to Westallen (which is widely considered one of the It Ships of DC in general, especially for Barry). Hopefully this changed your mind, and if not, hopefully you enjoyed the ride anyway!
(and I meant what I said: @alittleflashvibe and @icedteaandoldlace, feel free to weigh in. Same for any other Barrisco shippers! I'm sure I didn't get everything, though I did try to hit the major highlights)
#barrisco#barry allen#cisco ramon#the flash#the barrisco/westallen parallels are why i ship barriscowest 👀 fun fact
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pondering my orb
#personal#it appears i have fallen victim to the situationship industrial complex#this little arrangement i found myself in has escalated from ‘friends who hook up’ to ‘boyfriend without the boy’#and it is becoming lets say emotionally distressing#because i am leaving town for the summer in just three short weeks! and for the past two months we have spent every free moment together#and putting our own individual codependent tendencies aside i really do like him#i havent been alone long enough to shift my brain out of girlfriend mode#because the thing is i loved being a girlfriend#apparently it was a significant part of my identity#which i didnt really realize until i wasnt one anymore#and i miss it!#i dont even miss the boyfriend i was the girlfriend of particularly#i just miss being a girlfriend i think#and now i have found a man who i would very much like to be the girlfriend of#hes respectful and emotionally intelligent and he fucks me so good and we have a lot of fun together i think#but the thing is is that i cant be a girlfriend again#because since it was such a significant part of my identity now that i am no longer a girlfriend i have lost that piece#and i guess i dont know what is supposed to go in its place#who am i if not girlfriend? what do i do when i am not girlfriending? who do i talk to when its not my boyfriend?#my life purpose is certainly not ‘girlfriend’#i mean its not supposed to be. i was pretty happy with it but everyone in my life is telling me thats not what im supposed to do#so what am i supposed to do???? i dont like being alone i dont want to be#i want to be girlfriend!!!!!!!#i was happy and i felt fulfilled#sure it was for the wrong person but the right one will come along#im not very good at the whole casual dating thing though. i mean clearly#because this man is probably not boyfriend material either#as much as i like him it is questionable whether he deserves my girlfriending#so how does one find ‘the’ boyfriend?#is it a futile exercise in the first place
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the party if they were fucking cool 🔥 i wasnt joking about the modern stranger things au where everythings the same except the party really likes skating thing
#this is my six weed smoking girlfriends.#and yes.#they smoke weed#sorry for projecting all of my interests onto mike wheeler#it will happen again#cinephile mike wheeler is real to ME.#forgot maxs freckles in the second one#its fiinnneee#els ladybug helmet is very important to me btw#i tried to make maxs skateboard look like her canon one#and will’s skateboard is supposed to be painted#its like vaguely jellyfish and stars but you cant see it that well#will also painted the top of mikes skateboard btw. if u even care#max teaching lucas to skateboard can be something so personal <33#stranger things#the party#mike wheeler#will byers#max mayfield#lucas sinclair#el hopper#dustin henderson#byler#lumax#stranger things fanart#fanart#skater au#stranger things skater au#harperdoodles#stoner byler
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Jrwi be like or something idk I'm so tired at this point
#every fucking tjme#i thought it was just a grizzly thing but things cant ever be that simple can they#PLEASE get creative PLEASEEEE#i dont want to see the same concept over and over again slightly changed to make things a bit unique#weve had a TON of them in riptide#and now we have wonderlust#which is definitely the best execution we've had of it yet btw#also its so fucking funny to me that that chalrie isnt in the campaign#probably too busy sluting it up with his rpf girlfriend somewhere#no time to play dnd when you've got rpf to fuck to and “i played the SCARIEST horror game and THIS happened?!!?” videos to make#i just kinda have to laugh at this point
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robin buckley is the kind of gf to take every opportunity to talk about her partner its true
someone mentions the newspaper? oh! nancy works for the newspaper! did robin mention nancy is robin’s girlfriend?
the color pink? nancy loves the color pink! also nancy is robin’s girlfriend.
books? nancy loves reading books! robin loves reading books with nancy, who is robin’s girlfriend.
she just loves saying “nancy is my girlfriend!”
#ronance#nancy wheeler#robin buckley#robin#nancy#robin x nancy#ronance canon#stranger things#im taking this as an opportunity to talk about my girlfriend in these tags#i would do absolutely anything for her#if she told me to walk across the country to get something i would#even if it’s the smallest thing#I WILL DO IT#i would hand pick the most beautiful flowers for her just because i know that’s what she deserves#i couldnt ever imagine hurting this girl#i cant believe that somebody as beautiful as her would choose somebody like me#and if i were immortal and she was not i would wait for her for thousands of years to be able to see her once again#i could write hundreds of sonnets and it wouldnt amount to how much i feel for her#can you guys tell i like talking about my girlfriend
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Oh my god one last thing my ex took me to outside lands and when we tried to watch lana del rey he laid down on the grass and had a “panic attack” (this was after months of him talking about how he didn’t like her) so we went to see foo fighters after a bit and he was FINE
#LANA i know his sister works for you BUT TRUST MY WORD AND GIVE ME A FREE TICKET PLEASE…#MY FIRST TIME SEEING YOU WAS RUINED GIRL… she was so good too like i was saving her songs to spotify that night#im reliving all this because i found out a lot of his exes and ex friends hang out together and two of them invited me so it was me an ex an#d an ex friend just swapping stories and first of all. he said he got cheated on by this girl and she NEVER DID IT (HE would have emotional/#angry outbursts at HER though) (allegedly he’s acknowledged to her that the cheating never happened too) and 2. this is obviously making me#mentally rehash everything again. i feel so bad for his current girlfriend and also for the person i ‘’stole’’ him from though i really hesi#tate to blame myself after hearing about his patterns. first of all he wouldve done this with anyone who was vulnerable around him and secon#d i was the only reason he was at all honest with them. he was fully planning to gaslight this ex and me and his dad had to convince him not#to. they look like theyre happy now and im very happy for them over that. oh my god that man was evil he told me for WEEKS about every time#his then partner had talked shit about me while i made clear that i didnt care and wasnt very interested but he kept going. god i cant belie#ve this was my life a year ago.#the one thing i can say is that i out freaked him because throughout our short relationship i made him so insecure that a week after i told#to never speak to me again he called me asking if he really was ugly.#I CANNOT BELIEVE I HAD TO TEND TO A GROWN MAN WHILE LANA DEL REY WAS RIGHT THERE BECAUSE HE WAS SO OPPOSED TO BEING AROUND HER. LANAAAA#times like these i get so mad i dont know what to do but ultimately remembering that he has not achieved any of his goals because he refuses#to face himself really helps me. god man IVE achieved some of his goals and i wasnt even trying to#a really awful part of all of this was all of the friends who knew him taking his side. because they didnt know him well enough to know what#he was actually like.#i was talking to my ex friend of four years and she was like not to blame you but he was probably really vulnerable from his time with [ex p#rior to me]’’ because he’s been going around alleging that that ex was abusive. and she was implying i took advantage of him. so i had to go#into detail about what an awful awful person he was and the sort of state i was in when this relationship took place. hannah lee you are#not seeing your little jehovah’s witness heaven.#anyways redirecting this energy im very happy with the way my life is and the way i am now. and im grateful for it i would not have ever bee#n able to imagine having the sort of peace and motivation i feel now. life feels like it can and will change for the better and it keeps pro#ving that right all the time#it just hurts sometimes having that as my first experience and not even being able to vocalize what was wrong bc i just didnt know hurts#oh i forgot one of his besties can see my account bc we’re sort of mutuals. i doubt he’s looking he did the whole unfollowing the ex bc she’#s allegedly amoral thing after the breakup but if he is hi isaac#he did on rare occasion show me selfless kindness but ultimately your best friend is a creep. i don’t want to be involved with anyone from#our school but I hope you know this and I hope you’re proud
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#cant sleep bc im thinking so many thoughts#hiding in the tags#i think im finally over her?#like today and the last time we hung out i didnt Feel it anymore#and its not like i dont love her anymore i really really do but now its in a best friend way only i think?#the Feeling wasnt there which i guess its a good thing#and like yeah maybe its the depression maybe im just not feeling anything rn but also like#thats why she broke up with me and even when her depression got better she never got back to Feeling it?#and last time My depression was bad i wouldnt feel anything at all except when we hung out#so it feels different now#not necessarily a bad different just Different#but im so fucking scared of losing her#like im so scared of when she starts dating again#and yes ive been thinking of dating again im desperate for a girlfriend#but shes the one who broke up with me and shes had to deal with this before with Him and she didnt feel bad#but when we started dating He felt bad so like. i get him#and im so scared of never getting into a relationship again bc she’ll Always have a part of my heart like even if i dont Feel it anymore#she’ll always be number one for me#and im scared ill never let myself love anyone else bc i wouldnt think its fair to them bc of her#and idk.#i really dont wanna lose her she means so much to me#and im so comfortable around her in a way that im not with anyone else#idk where im going with this#sometimes i really fucking hate being aroace#and not being able to tell the difference between different feelings#:(#whatever
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I've been following that AITA blog for a bit now and it has me thinking about my own life situations with conflict and drama. A passive "do I have anything I could submit to that blog?" But upon thinking about it, it's like... I really find no value in asking strangers whether I'm "the asshole" in situations. There are situations where I'm clearly not at fault, situations where I was a little shit but it was justified, and at least one situation where I have a definite "Oh yeah, I was definitely the asshole there". All in the past, so it's not like I'd even need advice or anything. I already know, so what's the point?
Maybe it stems from me being a generally self-aware and self-confident kind of person. I know what's going on with myself, know when I've wronged people, & I have a mentality of "well, I'll try to not do that in the future." Even if I feel a little guilty thinking back, what's the point of asking after something when I know I'm at fault? Or situations where things were complicated and both people had fault in things, but I know I wasn't being shitty on purpose & that's what matters to me. Ultimately, it results in a bunch of strangers drawing conclusions about things I really don't care about outside input on.
Still love reading the blog tho. There's something about reading up on random people's life drama that satisfies that gossipmonger soul in me So well.
#speculation nation#i think the most blatantly YTA thing id get is when i ghosted that guy i was seeing back when i was 20 or so#wasnt ever actually dating but i made it sound like i would. very much led him on.#then realized i just wasnt into cishet guys At All and dropped him out of nowhere bc i was 20 and didnt know how to deal with feelings#objectively it was a pretty awful thing for me to do. and i feel bad that i did it.#have i ever tried to reach out and apologize tho? no lmao#it happened so long ago now i feel like itd bring more animosity than relief anyways.#id like to think ive learned from it tho. Dont Date People Just For The Hell Of It.#god it rly is my romantic history where im the biggest asshole. my prior girlfriend too#i do feel bad about that. i never meant to hurt her but that sure is what i did.#it was better to break it off when i did. wouldve been better had i did it earlier but oh well.#then as a teenager and my whole fucked up romance life then...#but NO LONGER!!!!!!!! hopefully lol. im rly into my current girlfriend and after my last one ive been dedicated to. not do that again.#cant date people just because im bored. that's never ended well for me.#i learned my lesson this time for SURE!!!!!#anyways yea id say more constently id be The Asshole in these situations. but im only human man it happens.#other situations it's usually just fucked up situations with me being a toxic little shit in response bc it's all i knew.#idk. community voting doesnt matter to me. learning from my prior mistakes and shortcomings is what matters to me.#it's interesting to see the blog tho. people are insecure about some of the most trivial things sometimes...
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lifeblogging begins....girl asked me out today AND i don't knowhow to tell her no 😭
#NO OKAY LISTEN RIGHT shes been texting me for a whileeee and she used to like me YEARS ago Literally full on told me and we didnt talk for#ages Then she starts messagjngme again And keeps making like weird things thag we have in common?😭#one time my friends were making fun of me for having rice for breakfast And i wrote rice onnmy friends hand And then she sat next to this#girl in her class and told her about me having rice THE NEXT DAY SHEEEE BRINNGGS UPPP RICE AND SAYS SHE HAS IT FOR BREAKFAST SOMETIMES#ITWAS JUST REALLY LIKE.😭😭😭#BUT I NEED TO TELL HER NO BECAUSE I GOT A GIRLFRIEND BUT LIKEE I CSNT SAY NO she hasnt said its explicitly romantic You know? just said#do you want to go out And well i cant work with that AT ALL. B3CAUSE IT WPUKD BE SO RUDE TO GO ummm No sorry. and it's would be so#self entered to be like Umm i have a girlfriend🤓 YOU KNOW?!#god this blog is great i love lifeblogging
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nothing has made me want to quit my job more than happiness outside of it
#staying in bed with my gf in the morning is way more important to me than my job#and the other thing that makes me want to quit is the Girlfriend Grief of knowing i cant see her for a while again :/
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I understand why other aro and/or ace people are uninterested in romance or sex in fiction but being aromantic myself I think its part of why Im so into romance. I just think its sweet!!! I dont really get it but its sweet!!!
#I dunno I feel very strong platonic emotions to people that I think are similar to like romantic ones but I can never get to the like#wanting a relationship with someone where Im calling the other person my boyfriend/girlfriend/partner/husband/wife/spouse thing you know#my point is I get where people are coming from being sick of love stories being in everything but I love it.#Cant get enough of it I love reading a superhero comic and then the main character has a love interest and their#relationship is well written and interesting. I am a sucker.#Yeah Ive just been thinking about O'Neil Question and Vic and Myra again.
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365 Days of Writing Prompts: Day 274
Adjective: Deceptive
Noun: Spiral
Definitions for those who need/want them:
Deceptive: giving an appearance or impression different from the true one, or misleading
Spiral: a spiral curve, shape, or pattern; a spiral spring; (astronomy) short for spiral galaxy; a progressive rise or fall of prices, wages, etc., each responding to an upward or downward stimulus provided by a previous one; a process of deterioration through the continuous increase or decrease of a specified feature; (American football) a pass or kick that moves smoothly through the air while spinning on its long axis
#just a smidge late this time#lowkey cos my girlfriend and i were busy#speaking of which we continued birthday celebrations for her and went out and did some small things#we honestly had another fun and relaxing day#also cant believe its october#halloween is right around the corner (my girlfriend and i are trying to work out costumes rn)#and we are both attempting inktober again#ive never finished an inktober (including the year in which i tried to write poems instead of making drawings)#so im crossing my fingers for this one#anyway this prompt screams the 'spiral' from the magnus archives#so im obviously going to do something with that in the poem i end up writing#i cant get over how 'deceptive' and 'spiral' are so perfect for a piece about the spiral#also i fell asleep while writing these tags and now im more than a smidge late#so oops#the magnus archives#tma#the spiral#the spiral tma#thanks for reading#writing#writer#creative writing#writing prompt#writeblr#trying to be a writeblr at least
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I get so incredibly triggered everytime I break something
#i broke my girlfriends headset :(( AGAIN#this is like the 3rd timd#i swear i cant be trusted with anything#i wish i was better#i wish trying my best was enough#i wish i had at least made money to replace the things i break but i cant even do that#why does my girlfriend love me? most people wouldnt even tolerate me#im useless and i mess everything up
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in thinking a lot about someone im thinking a lot about someone oh god no dont do this again youre gonna ruin it im thinking a lot about someone
#worms in my brain? no. im taking preventative measures#cause i go to class with this guy i met in the summer and i though he was soo cool when we met and he is in fact really fucking cool#now i see him every week cause class when i initially thought id never see him again. and im thinking about him way too much?#idk. i think im just excited to be friends because he really is so interesting and strange like so fucking weird and i love weird ppl#but im scared stupud brain and heart will do stupid things and start. you know. and i cant feel like that he has a girlfriend and also#would never happen. ppl never like me#but whatever its not a problem im just pre-worrying bc we have a great relationship like i feel rly comfortable with him and we laugh a lot#we are quite alike i think. and i worry that might mean sth else bc my brain tends to go for people i cant be with [well the 1 and a half#times ive liked ppl before. yeah] so you know#anyway im excited to have someone like him in my life#spikeposting
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