#but the execution of everything is FUCKED

[thebibliosphere]

Man, I was so proud of myself, getting ahead of my ADHD and scheduling for flowers to be delivered to my aunties and my mum back home in time for Christmas. I scheduled this over a month ago.

I even kept obsessively logging in to check that I’d actually placed the orders and not just let them sit in my cart.

I was on this. Despite all the brain fog and pain that’s been making me forget everything, I was on this. They were supposed to get the flowers today.

And then Marks and Spencer’s emailed me to let me know there’s been a delay in shipping and my orders won’t arrive until the 27th 🫠

This is one of those moments when I really have to fight the ADHD urge to throw my hands up and yell “why even fucking bother” because hnnnnng.

I cannot let this derail me. I still have shit to do for my niece and nephew. I cannot let this tank my executive function this week. I can’t.

Something being late doesn’t mean it’s any less thoughtful or appreciated. Something being late despite my best efforts doesn’t mean I shouldn’t have bothered. That’s the chronic perfectionism talking and I will not let it kill the vibes. The vibes are intact.

We’re going to have a holly jolly fucking Christmas or else.

[almacambiondaughterofsaleos]

This Comment Really Is An Example Of How This Fandom Lacks Any Self-Awareness And Projects Onto Other Characters

Dude she gave him multiple chances and he blew it each time she is right to feel fed up with his shittiness. Dude, this guy has not even done the bare minimum to have her respect for him. Also fuck trying to say he got hurt giving her normalcy when he broke it when he cheated without remorse. Dose of reality my ass her father is all about living in a fantasy world based on trying to chase romance. Also thinking of herself f off you are vouching for a cry whose done nothing but that and constantly makes everything about him at other people's expenses including his own daughter. Also chose what's right my butt if he did what was right he would have told the truth and allowed Via to be told gently instead of making her think he was executed. F these pos these people are dick riders who really want to blame a child instead of the machild of a farce father.

[rottenpumpkin13]

headcanon: Sephiroth is hailed as an invincible soldier who can take a bullet to the chest and not flinch, up until an entire room of cadets witnesses him stub his toe and then crumble on the spot in misery

SOLDIER Second Class Zack Fair

Incident Report #4872

Date: [REDACTED]

Location: Training Room B, Floor 49

Subject: Training Exercise Incident - Sephiroth, "The Toe Incident"

OFFICIAL REPORT

At approximately 0900 hours, SOLDIER First Class Sephiroth was conducting a demonstration of proper foot positioning and weight distribution for advanced martial arts techniques. The exercise required barefoot execution as per Combat Form 7-B specifications for maximum ground sensitivity and proper form.

During the demonstration, Sephiroth's right foot made unexpected contact with the reinforced steel corner of the training mat platform. The following expletives were voiced in rapid succession:

"FUCK"

"FUCKING HELL"

"SHIT"

"SON OF A FUCKING—UGH!"

"FUCK SHINRA"

"OH FUCK EVERYTHING"

"WHO THE FUCK DESIGNED THIS GODDAMN CORNER!?"

"FUCK EVERYONE"

[Remainder redacted for length and intensity + because I feel shy writing them]

Immediate aftermath included:

• 3 cadets requiring emotional support

• 7 cadets frozen in absolute horror

• 1 cadet recording the incident (device has been confiscated)

• 1 SOLDIER Second Class Kunsel (he laughed so hard he threw up, had to be sent to Medical)

Sephiroth spent approximately 2.7 minutes on the floor alternating between lying face-down, rolling side to side, and occasionally hitting the mat while cursing in 3 different languages.

Recommendations:

- Install rubber corners on all training equipment

- Never mention this incident again

- Implement a swear jar

Respectfully submitted,

Zack Fair

SOLDIER Second Class

[syscest]

i was doing it for attention! At first. And then like i did it a few times without anyone else around. Like sorry fuckin sue me for being a hot person!! Sorry I have good taste! Like, yes, sure, the thing that made me fully satisfied with my transition wasn’t when I saw myself as a woman in the mirror but instead when I looked in the mirror and saw a girl I wanted to fuck and yes sure I did get A Few butterflies but that’s normal for trans girls probably. And like sure the other day I was packing up my apartment to move out and there was so much to do and I was overwhelmed so I said out loud like “hey can you help me please?” And then disassociated for like a few hours while I packed everything up and then I gave myself a soft and nice kiss on the mirror as a thank you but that’s just called like self love and respect. Idk. I’m scared I’m not plural enough lol i don’t want to fake it for attention

(little drunk sorry this is rambly)

ok so.

1. unbelievably hot. trans girls who find themselves hot and want to fuck themselves are hot. systems that find themselves hot and want to fuck themselves are hot. its good to be into yourself. jerking off in front of the mirror to spite every bastard who's tried to claim this somehow invalidates my womanhood about it

2. look we had a headmate who for a long time we only interfaced with when we had fully drained our reserves of executive function and would hand off a wishlist of tasks ("hey can you get up and brush our teeth and get a drink of water so we can go to sleep") and would then watch our body just get up and autopilot thru those tasks independently. plural experience or just a cool cognitive trick to get your body to do things? well... she started talking back to us eventually dkfjkgkg

[mymarifae]

sighs... i adore the finale of mlp: friendship is magic so much. there was clearly a lot of love put into those last three episodes, and you can just feel the writers and the artists fondly bidding these characters one last farewell, y’know? it’s the (bitter)sweet ending this special show deserved.

but also, while the writers bring twilight and her friends’ story to a very clear end, they (pretty masterfully, if i do say so myself) leave room for equestria’s story to continue. everything was set up for generation 5 to showcase how equestria and the lands beyond have evolved and how twilight’s legacy lives on!

so i’m just kind of flummoxed by how it’s... not.

like. generation 5 wants to be its own thing, and that’s fine. but it also desperately wants to be this seamless continuation of generation 4 and it’s like. um. you can’t be both, man. in its attempt to juggle both of these ideas, it just completely fuckin’ retcons 9 seasons of worldbuilding and development.

where are the winter spirits (not using their canon name because Naur)? you know, the ones that feed off of animosity and fighting? where are the dragons? the hippogriffs/sea ponies? the changelings? the griffins? the yaks? where is the crystal empire? how have 0 records of twilight’s literal School Of Friendship survived? how are there not even simple legends about nightmare moon and her defeat, or tirek and his defeat(s), or chrysalis, or anything?? how has all that world-defining history just been lost?

where is star swirl and the other pillars? ... ok granted they’re probably not immortal but again: not even a whisper of their legacy has remained?? what about celestia and luna? or starlight glimmer’s!?!? out of all the most powerful ponies equestria has ever seen, you mean to tell me only the image of twilight and her friends has stuck around . and that like Two ponies (sunny and her dad) are familiar with them.

where the fuck is discord*

(* comics i have not read are not being acknowledged atm. because really - a character with literally unlimited magic who is deeply tied to the mane 6 and would have been dedicated to maintaining their legacy and protecting equestria for eons to come should have come up in the movie/show by now)

why am i supposed to care about opaline when season 9 of fim ends with two of the most spiteful, interesting antagonists the show has ever introduced (i love cozy glow and i think she’s a fascinating character and i wish the show had more time to dive into why she’s like that, but i’m reluctant to put her on tirek and chrysalsis’ level. she’s like 11) are encased in stone, and since we know that sort of magic-stone-imprisonment is not permanent...? like ??? get this random (and frankly, Ugly) alicorn out of my face i want to know what happened with THAT before you go trying to establish any new Big Baddies

i wouldn’t have as many issues with a new generation/make your mark if it wasn’t determined to cling to fim as its foundation. but since it is.......... what the fuck is going on. why are you paying homage to one of the best iterations of my little pony when you can’t even keep the worldbuilding straight for 2 minutes

[lady-raziel]

because there is nothing to lose the people saying biden should resign now so kamala can still be the first female president are absolutely right but why stop there? inauguration day is 70 days away let's make "president for a day" a real thing. say "fuck it we ARE going to do the arbitrary quota DEI bullshit you accuse us of" and speedrun first [category] presidents. revolving door type thing.

first female president. first openly gay president. first transgender president. first president who has been to space. first president gamer president. first mime president. just play president bingo and hit as many categories as possible while we still can. make all of trump's #47 merch unusable by forcing him to be the 115th president instead. who cares anymore let's peacefully transition power but do it in the most chaotic hot-potato way possible

[lotus-pear]

guys idk about you but i am NOT ready to delve into uncharted waters as we move into new content with bsd in the upcoming chapter.

this new chapter could include anywhere from ada reunion and a return back to yokohama OR to a new horrible twist after fyodor’s death, ensuring that if he lost then dazai would too. taking dazai down with him.

not to mention if we return back to yokohama that’s a whole other gut wrenching story as one ada member is selected to go to the port mafia. i am not ready to see the futile and tragic looks on the other agency members as they grit their teeth and watch one of their own step into the world of darkness. the tragedy of letting someone go after they have all reconciled. being separated again, but for good this time

[redtail-lol]

#1 Octavia Defender here to say WHAT THE FUCK.

I don't hate Stolas, and I wouldn't call him an abuser. I think he is well meaning but he made serious mistakes and he hurt her. She has every right to feel hurt and upset. Via is VERY CLEARLY and always has been a hurt child in a broken home. She has no family that truly loves her. Stella and Andre laugh about how they're denying her contact with her father. Stolas threw away everything for Blitzø and has yet to make an attempt to see her other than calling. She's been making it clear since her debut that she doesn't think Stolas loves her, or loves her as much as he hates Stella. She cares - she was going to give him his pills, and she did use her powers to protect him - but she's very upset and has every right to be. For fucks sake when she found he took antidepressants she thought he either secretly never cared for her, or that he'd been bearing depression all for her (and therefore, it's her fault in her mind.) She feels lied to. She has a right to! I've always loved Via especially in this episode because she's one of the better written characters, and I have to give credit to the writing team and Viv herself for this! She's managed to write Stolas a situation where we understand where he was coming from, and I definitely believe he was right to save Blitzø from execution, but all the same his actions were morally gray and they did leave his daughter very hurt. He didn't do enough while he could to make her feel like she mattered to him.

On top of that, this is Stolas's turn for consequences. Both him and Blitzø are very flawed individuals, and he got his comeuppance in episode 9 and 10. And now Stolas gets the consequences of his actions. He's stripped of his power, which'll probably be better for his development anyways, and he's hurt his precious daughter. He needs this consequence for his narrative. This is good writing! The pain is good for him yet some HB fans have a very black and white view of characters that are meant to be seen as various colors. Stolas and Octavia being two of them.

Today on Twitter, somebody saying they hope Octavia gets abused by Stella for not throwing herself at stolas’s feet

Oh, I’m sorry I mean forgiving her poor abuse papa

[mohntilyet]

i read the wigmaker job recently and there’s an idea that really stuck with me, which may well have been discussed before, but it’s really been itching at me. it came from this exchange near the end –

“i don't want to quit.” / illario sat back. the distance between them suddenly felt much wider than a table. / “even if it kills you,” illario whispered. / “death is my calling,” lucanis stated, matter-of-fact. “just as yours is to become first talon.”

(the bits before and after this give important context, too, but these specific lines are what gnaw at me)

i. really wonder if this conversation – and the long-standing beliefs held by both of them that it’s indicative of – contributed to giving lucanis to zara.

like, illario coming to terms with the fact that lucanis really just will. not. stop. for ANYTHING. his cousin WILL get himself killed doing this and lucanis won’t have any regrets. he’ll leave illario to go this alone. (no one to follow after anymore.) combined with the envy of knowing that lucanis is and always will be caterina’s favorite, and she will likely pick lucanis to be first talon even tho lucanis does not want this At All…

i wonder if he thought that, well, if lucanis is going to die anyway… maybe it’s better to have it happen sooner, rather than later. why put off the inevitable? especially if this is the one thing that could shift caterina’s gaze to illario and give him what he’s wanted – what he’s earned.

lucanis wouldn’t be happy as first talon anyway (honestly, illario seems to see that what lucanis is NOW isn’t so much ‘happy’ as it is ‘obedient and content to accept the scraps that gives him’), and he’s GOING to get himself killed doing this, anyway… and sure, they COULD wait it out. wait for lucanis to do something foolish enough that he can't just walk away from it. maybe he’ll even last long enough to be made first talon (if caterina can ever bear to loosen her grip from the title) and be miserable for a while. years even, maybe. before he, again, does something he can’t walk away from.

OR. or. or illario could cut through all the pointless waiting and get right to the point. go straight to where this was always going to end up.

(and maybe part of it is an extension of anticipated grief, too – the loss will be agony. if illario controls when and how it happens, he can control his grief. …except he hasn’t accepted the inevitability of lucanis’ death quite as well as he’d thought and when he gets sloshed at the wake, real grief seeps through the cracks)

i dunno. something about both of them viewing lucanis’ death as a foregone conclusion and how illario Might have had that shape his decisions.

YEAH . YEAHHHHH. i do also think the “to reason” exchange is what solidifies it in illario’s mind. lucanis is like 'this has been a productive if tense talk with my cousin. surely he sees sense now.' and illario is like ‘what the fuck. i think he wants to die’ <- okay im exaggerating a bit but i do absolutely see the end of wigmaker’s job as the start of lucanis-illario’s downward spiral. there’s a reason that it’s something lucanis is stuck on during inner demons, and the exchange that you have very nicely broken down is what he hears echoes of, this is where he knows it started to go wrong

probably the worst part is lucanis WOULD have worked himself to death and it takes the series of events in veilguard for lucanis to see other options for his life, and still he ends up being shoehorned into first talon by the end of the quest. i thought his quest would parallel iron bull’s, in that rook shows them that living outside and away from crow influence is possible, and that he is much more than the weapon they turned him into, but it ofc doesn’t go through like that. it’s genuinely a bit heartbreaking that lucanis finally has support and like. FRIENDS. but with the way the game ends he’s pulled back into the crows and to a life that will be about protecting a cousin that the organisation he runs hates, and for as long as caterina lives, unable to say no to her. and meanwhile after lucanis has made connections outside of the crows, illario has absolutely nothing left (prison of his own making i get it but i still want to get his ass out of there. 😭) so the codependency that they used to share is gone as well. maybe lucanis has a foot out the door but i genuinely have no idea how illario goes on after this

[rubberduckyrye]

I cannot stress to you how important it is to me as a viewer of DR stuff that an execution isn't just tied to the talent of a student, but more so to what causes them the most despair.

One Fan Execution that I really like (though it remains unfinished) is this Rantaro Execution called "12 Strikes to Midnight." The execution might not be as polished as, say, an execution like "Deep Fried Teruteru" but the fundamental aspect of personalized despair is what makes the unfinished, unpolished fan execution far more interesting to watch.

The Rantaro Fan Execution plays witht he aspect of Time and how Time is Running Out for Rantaro to find and save his sisters. Each minute, each hour, one of them dies a painful and horrible death, until Rantaro is finally killed after he witnesses all of his sisters die. His deepest regret involves his sisters going missing, which encouraged him to become an adventurer--and the aspect of the clock is used incredibly well here.

Compare that to Teruteru's execution now--he gets caked up in egg and flour and deep fried in a volcano. Sure, that's a horrible way to die, but... what does it say about Teruteru's deepest despair? Does he hate fried food for some reason? That doesn't seem like a very solid despair to use to bring about the worst kind of emotional agony in a blackened during their execution.

Despite Teruteru's execution being better animated and polished, I find myself far more interested in the fanmade Rantaro Execution, because all in all, if your Executions are at least a little bit of a character study, you're probably doing it wrong.

[clegfly]

Hey guys would it be cool if I killed myself right fucking now

[waterghostype]

i have so much to say about them not in a good way not in a bad way but a secret third thing way.

[crunchsomebones]

Ohhhh manga knives you are so fucking slimy you need to be put down like a rabid dog immediately I love you so much please kill yourself

[wonder-worker]

I've been thinking about the tragedy of Elizabeth Woodville living to see the end of her family name.

I don't mean her family with her husband, which lived on through her daughter and grandson. I mean her own.

Her sisters died, one by one, many of them after 1485. When Elizabeth died, only Katherine was left, and she would die before the turn of the century as well.

All her brothers died, too. Lewis died in childhood. John was executed. Anthony was murdered. Lionel died suddenly in the peak of Richard's reign, unable to see his niece become queen. Edward perished at war. Richard died in grieving peace. For all the violence and judgement the family endured, it was "an accident of biology" that ended their line: none of the brothers left heirs, and the Woodville name was extinguished. We know the family was aware of this. We know they mourned it, too:

“Buy a bell to be a tenor at Grafton to the bells now there, for a remembrance of the last of my blood.”

Elizabeth lived through the deposition and death of her young sons, and lived to see the end of her own family name. It must have been such a haunting loss, on both sides.

[iwanttobepersephone]

So, my mom was telling me how much free time I have, and I was like, "I have no freetime wth do you mean?????" And I just wanna see if this is like. A normal way to think of things?

Things I need to do:

Finish reading icebound land

Make a whole lotta art that I promised people

Research study abroad programs

At least one Dutch lesson a day

Keep my room clean

Talk to my friends so they know I love them (and so I don't go insane)

My math homework

Keep myself clean (showers, finally brushing my teeth after months, etc etc) so I don't go insane

Eat at 7pm

Various things I enjoy as to not go insane

All from 6pm to 9 pm, every day, after being at school from 8 am to 3:30 pm and then The Public (teen center) from 3:30 to 5:30, and I need to be in bed by 9:30 and asleep by 10:00

So, basically, I'm "on the clock" from 7 am (When I start getting ready for school) until 9 pm, with no breaks

But yeah no I totally have free time. Yeaup

[gideonisms]

Once again frustrated by how Difficult it is to do very basic tasks