#but that was too complicated for me to draw this time so.

[moon-andstardust]

I'm so happy that they are portraying both Stolas and Via's struggles. This episode handled the complexity of their relationship so well.

In some regards Via is right, Stolas did lie to her. Stolas was partly right to have done so: a child shouldn't have to carry all of their parents' hurts and grievances.

But he took it too far, he hid too much. So now that it's all starting to come to light Via feels gutted: her father is not who she thought he was. Her image of Stolas is literally being shattered:

They were so close to each other and it turned out that didn't matter at all because not once was he honest with her about anything remotely important in his life*.

She starts doubting everything. What else could he have lied to her about? Was he just pretending to like spending time with her when in truth he was miserable the whole time?

(Note: Blitzø's face is replacing her own on the portrait)

Stolas was such a cornerstone in her life that his percieved betrayal makes her feel like her world is burning down around her. I've been in Via's position and it hurts so so much.

This line in her song feels like payback: I didn't know you, so you will not get to know me either

Stolas felt like he had to hide every ugly truth of his marriage so "that girl could have a semblance of a normal life" but not only did that not work, it further complicated matters with Via, who now thinks she can't trust her father anymore.

The other problem is that Via still doesn't have the full picture! She deserves to know dammit! That's her family! Due this she can only draw her own flawed conclusions which is just painful to watch.

[enchaentingly]

        she draws a smile from allie, easily, all over earnest that anika likes them, her little plants. the witch presses down the  ‘ really? ’  that almost slips from her. tonight is a lot of dress up and pretend. not so much pretend, allie’s never been good at it. but pretend that she’s not so lonely and desperate.

        “ next time, i’ll press you some. it’s kinda’ … ”  she trails off, looking at the their surroundings.  “ y’know, artsy. i guess it’s probably more collect-y. but, y’know, i guess this is too? ”  and she does understand buying art, she thinks, but there’s also that part of her that wonders about printing. she thinks of her plants, and thinks about how she’d never be able to grow them up just to give them away to someone that just wants something to look at. and there’s the money thing, which is the most complicated of all. money makes it not warm wishes and hope and love bundled into a bouquet. it’s weird.  “ i dunno’, it’s not my world. i’ve already been outside once, that’s where i belong. ”

        anika slips past allie’s insistence, but her own mind never does, not really. she promises she’ll be quiet after this, pinkie promise! she just needs to-  “ i did come to make friends, but i mean, i really only actually came because i knew you’d be here. ”  allie, with her heart showing on every bare space of skin, has never been a stranger to vulnerability, but she still feels it now. it’s natural, to talk to anika like this, but she still shies. it’s the fear of being too much that stops her, but everything else tells her to keep going, so anika knows she cares.  “ i guess it’s a bit silly, but it is a big deal to me. i’ve never had any artist friends before, and i thought … ”  her cheeks flush pink, and she laughs, softly, and hopes to not startle the space they share. “ um, i used to do cheerleading, back in high school. this kinda’ felt like the big game, so i’m cheering you on! ‘cause you’re my friend. ”

        the lightheartedness flows back in, and allie giggles, before shaking her head.  “ no, i came with ezra. but i’m not supposed to meet his sisters, so … i wander! it’s kinda’ like hide and seek, he comes and finds me when he wants and i find him! when i want, i mean. ”

Allie wouldn't be wrong about that. The hunter held very little appreciation for flowers. She lacked the nurturing touch, that any living thing needed to stay alive. Her hands were rough and stained with blood, made perfect to fit around someone's throat. But there was no denying they were beautiful, just like the roses now awkwardly held between fingers. "I like them." the roses, and that cactus barely surviving the awful conditions of her apartment. "— the dead more, than the ones that I need to keep alive." she said, letting a few chuckles flow, although Anika was certain the topic of dying flowers wasn't the most entertaining for the witch.

She could barely focus on what words were coming out of Allie's mouth. Fluffy red stuff, and hikes, and — her attention snapped to something moving in the background. The bright pink of a painting that belonged to someone else, far too different than the ones Anika was presenting not too further away. Anika nodded along — yes, to the hikes, yes to whatever she was saying. It was easy to convince her when she wasn't thinking straight.

Why did everybody keep saying that? It's not a big deal. She'd disagree, confess that she'd only ever do this for the money, and watch the light drain from her features. What did Allie see in her anyway? Anika wondered how, and when exactly did they become allies (she wouldn't dare use the other word.)

She lifted her flask, to emphasise her next words. "I'm already having fun." the look on her face a tease, with bright, green eyes. "Other than that — no, I don't have any plans." then her gaze caught the parting of her lips, and then the quick close, like trapping an honesty inside, and decided it was better not to ask, not to dig around something that would only hurt her. "You here on your own?"

[velvetwyrme]

doodle based on something that happened to me recently 😔

[kg-clark-inthedark]

My gift for @puddtoast for @dishonoredgiftexchange’s 2024 fugue feast. I went with the prompt of Aramis Stilton thinking about lost love in the wake of Luca’s downfall while listening to his last audiograph from Theodanis Abele, and then realizing he’ll be okay when a monarch butterfly lands on the audiograph player.

I’ve been head over heels for this emotional sucker punch of a prompt, so I hope I did it justice!! Also I’m delighted to have finally drawn Stilton for the first time. Thank you for providing such fun and detailed prompts to choose from! (Btw I didn’t know what symbolism you were hoping for - if any - when requesting a monarch, so I ran with what I grew up with, in terms of the whole “carrying souls of the dead” thing. Hope that works for you!)

[pepperpixel]

SAID HE LIKES CRAZY GIRLS,

BUT HE HATES WHEN I ACT CRAZY,

IT TAKES TWO TO TOXIC!

FINALLY!!! Finished these pics of jinx I’ve been working on!!!!! HOLY SHIT, these took so long…. But finally… they’re done… pls enjoy this art of my beautiful princess w a disorder. Featuring alternate colors for the big pic and also a closeup! Cuz I rlly like how both the lines and coloring on her face turned out… like the pink gradients w her eye… her deer in headlights expression,, like uve just startled a raccoon digging thru ur trashcan and r two seconds away from getting mauled.. m proud of it!

[disposal-blueeee]

[yogurtlid10000]

Phos traditional doodles because they’re definitley my favorite ice cream flavor

Oooorrgrghh SO FUN TO DRAW la la la🫶phos

[spookythesillyfella]

UUGHH I JUST HAD THE WORST DAY IM SO ANGRY AND FRUSTRATED GRRRR !!!!! goes to draw my best friend @jumjum-crafts 's guy to blow off steam

★ version without text + reference image under cut :

★ song : "STATIC ELECTRICITY HUMAN – Computer Flavor" – kairikibear

[geocitie]

🦈🦐🦑🪼

[ruporas]

hello hello! I hope you don't mind me dropping by but I just want to say I love your art so much, the way you draw vashwood is just so sweet and tender but can I just ramble about the way you draw Vash especially? More specifically, the way you draw his expressions when he's looking at Wolfwood???

I just LOVE the way you draw Vash's expression because the way you make him look at Wolfwood is so soft 😭😭😭. There's just something about it that's so tender, like whenever I look at Vash's expressions in your art I just think "that is genuinely someone who loves another person with all their heart" and it just mends and breaks my heart at once, you capture Vash's love for Wolfwood in ways I can't explain 👏

It's unbridled love mixed with the fear of hurting Wolfwood in their relationship. It's wanting to spill so much affection but holding back in fear of messing up. He looks at Wolfwood like he's longing for him so earnestly be it pre-relationship or even when they're already dating it's just so??? 💕💕💘💞💖💖💞💕

There's just something so tender and heart wrenching at the way Vash looks at Wolfwood in your art, it gets me really emotional and I hope you have a lovely day/night for real <33!!!

ouuuuu thank you so so much for your kind words and for taking the time to tell me this T_T !!! i'm glad my expressions for vash's longing gazes at wolfwood is well done enough to have this sort of response to it…

he's the kind of person that has to hold back in both words and touch when it comes to love, when it comes to wolfwood, but i think it's a difficult emotion to restrain, especially when wolfwood is kind enough to let it be.

ultimately, what they're allowed to have is the inevitable shared spaces during their travels, it's the other's physical presence, being next to wolfwood, being able to take him in through the way he simply exists. smelling smoke, seeing smoke, seeing the cigarette between his fingers, seeing the crosses littered across his person, the rosary snug around his neck, his scruff at his chin, messy bangs, messy hair, tired eyes, the canine that peeks when he speaks, and a voice carrying heavy words, but honest, and kind, and one vash could never get tired of hearing, like how he'd never be tired of just looking at wolfwood.

it's of gratitude, it's of sorrow, it's of grief, it's of love, praise, adoration, it's desperate and it's full of yearning. at first, it's a gaze he feels he has to be satisfied with until he's learned that he's allowed for more and at that point, when wolfwood has given him so much, how could he look at him in any other way?

in any case, i def like to make it known and parade around vash's deeeeeep deep deep feelings of love towards wolfwood, so i'm very happy to know i can express that clearly through his expression alone. i Also just love wolfwood so maybe the projection goes from the heart of the artist to the heart of the art.

i ended up collecting a few caps of his expressions just out of curiosity for myself :3 i have much to improve still, i'll keep on drawing vash's loving self until i can get the ultimate loving expression down!!

[pentragonart]

2nd time drawing these characters

[arolesbianism]

Despite how much I suffered making my last isat au Aris sprite redraw, I decided to do it again and once again went through hell doing it. There’s like a billion mistakes in this (such as her having the wrong arm rip) but at the end of the day I’m still happy with how it turned out :]

[piecesofchess]

Been debating redesigning Ettore this year. There are parts I love about his design, and I have yet to reveal his backstory + mask. It'll still be the same, but I'm thinking of changing him visually just a lil bit.

Kind of want to match these vibes, honestly

[swagspren]

There he is :)

[bmpmp3]

character designers when they need to design a mascot for a masculine vocal synthesizer: and i will put a mole. under his LEFT eye

[imflyingfish]

working in an art gallery and talking to a lot of full time artists has given me CRAZY imposter syndrome btw lmao