#but thanks for pushing me out of my confort zone'

[monstrifex-art]

Im shy but I wanted to thank you because your art not only pushed me out of my confort zone to try TF pieces but also made me remember the strongest gender awakening was Transformation art. So yeah thank you and your art fucks so hard /positive

Thank you so much! That makes me really happy to hear 🥰

[cloudycrystalkpop]

Warrior Queen

pairing: Ravi x reader

sumery: she had missed her chance, and now it tore her apart.

warnings: sad but fluffy little drabble, mental illness.

notes: requested by @heart-baek-bleed 

she lay on the carpeted floor, staring at the white ceiling above her. it had been three days. three days of tears. three days of crying until she was dehydrated, than simply laying there dissociating because her body did not have the strength to move, then falling asleep, and waking up in tears again.

every negitave thought she could have had passed through her mind. ‘you’re an idiot.’ ‘you don’t deserve him.’ ‘he’d never want some stupid little girl like you. look at you. laying there for three days. you’re going to die like that.’ maybe death would be better.

she sniffled again, but no tears came. even they had left her. if only her feelings would leave her too. she looked at the calendar on her wall. today way the day. the day he was leaving. there was no telling when he’d return, if he would at all. she just couldn’t bring herself to say goodbye. 

she felt warnth sting her eyes again. it seamed her tears hadn’t abandoned her after all. she lay back on the floor, currling up in a ball and alowed herself to sob. she was so caught in her emotions, she didn’t hear her front door open.

i’ve got to see her again. i’ve got to say goodbye. i can’t just leave her.

Ravi used the spare key to open (y/n)’s front door. emedeatly he knew something was off. her candles had burned all the way down and there flams extinguished. it was deadly quiet. she always had music playing, or she was humming to herself. if she had gone out she wouldn’t have let the candles burn all the way down, so where was she?

it was then Ravi heard a heart shattering sob. no.

“(y/n)!” Ravi called, rushing to her room.

he found her, curled up in a little ball on her floor. he looked over her quickly for any ingeries, but she seamed clean. he could tell her pain was not phisical. 

“oh, sweet heart...” he sat behind her and pulled her into his lap, cradling her like a child. she was lighter then she should be, and extreamly pale. her sobbing didn’t stop as he held her. he rocked her back and forth, cradling her like a doll who could shatter in his arms at any moment. after some time, her tears stopped.

“it’s gunna be okay, precious. you’re safe. i’ve got you.” he mumbled softly into her hair. she hickuped, hiding her face in his shoulder. he shushed her, rubbing her back and placing his hand on the back of her head. 

“what is it sweet heart, can you tell me?” she hickuped again and shook her head, clutching onto his shirt. he hummed lowly, continuing to rock her. after a little longer, her hickups stopped. he continued to hum, and rock her, rubbing her back. 

she felt new fresh tears sting her eyes, and she tryed to hold back another sob. he only held her tighter, whispering to her that she was safe, that he had her, that she was safe with him. 

“i love you.” she said it so softly she couldn’t even really hear it herself. but Ravi understould. 

“i love you, baby girl. and seeing you in pain, hurts me.” he mumbled into her hair. she hickuped again.

“no, Ravi... you don’t undertand.” he pulled her head up to look at him. in his eyes she saw tears, she saw the stains on his cheeks. he’s been crying too. 

“don’t i?” he asked, there was no harshness in his voice, only softness and pain. “how long have you been like this (y/n)?” she snifled.

“three days?” she geussed. he let out a sob.

“three days? why didn’t you tell anyone? why didn’t you tell me?” he sounded hurt and betraid. she shook her head.

“i didn’t want to bother anyone.” she staited in a small voice. Ravi sobbed again.

“(y/n) listen to me please.” he held her cheeks in his hands, making her look him in the eyes. “you are not a bother. you are never a bother. and when you’re in pain like this, you need to tell someone. you need to tell me. please.” he was still crying as he spoke his beautiful face glistened with tears.

“i love you (y/n). do you understand?” his voice broke as he stared at her. she hickuped, but nodded. “i love you, i love you, i love you...” he repeated those same three words as he kissed her face. her forhead, her cheeks, her chin, her nose, her eyes, and finaly. “i love you so much baby girl.” he kissed her lips.

the next day Ravi was gone. no matter how much he loved (y/n), he still had responsibilities. to his group and to his company. 

when she woke up, she found a glass of water and a note next to her bed. she sat up, taking the small folded note, and opening it. 

“once upon a time, there was a queen. she was stronger then any would know, but even the strongest of warriors had there bad days. she was a fighter though and would not let such a little thing destroy her...” she reread the note, before looking on the back where she read “come and find me” 

she drank the glass of water, and took it and the note into the kitchen. there she found another note. she opened it and read, “she fought bravely, but found herself in a trap she couldn’t escape. she was to fearful to ask for help, and was nearly bested...” she turned the note over again. “keep looking”

she wandered her home again, and at the front door she saw it. there was a small vase full of her favorite flowers, and infront of it sat the last note. “just when she was ready to give up, he found her. never think that you haft to go though your pain alone, never let those negative voices best you, and never forget how much i love you (y/n). let me be your knight if you’ll be my warrior queen. please wait for me. i will be back soon for you my queen. i love you.”

[mrssimply]

About these writing prompts, “Jealousy seems to be a great motivator for you.” With Kerry x Male V ;))

Anon, thank you for promptimg me :D

This fill was SO DIFFICULT! I'm really not a jealous person, so I had to really get out of my confort zone and I think I totally went overboard. Were are downright angsty here. I tried several approaches, but each time I nosedived into more hurt so... Here it is. I'm sorry.

As usual, if any of you would like to prompt me, here is the masterpost about what I'll write.

This fill is still NSFW, because there is seks (of the sweet kind), but probably not what the anon had in mind. Again, I'm so sorry ^^'.

Oh and, that thing about keeping it under 2000 words? Well, lets forget about that huh.

Without further comment, have a good read!

Oh oui, vas-y fais-moi mal !

Oh yes, please hurt me!

Every time they went out, it was the same thing: people saw V, and promptly fell in love with his roguish smile, with his mischievous eyes, with the way his long fingers moved as he delicately lifted his glass to his lips. Kerry could see them watch his output’s mouth and just dream of having it between their legs, men and women alike. And Kerry got it, he really did. Because he had wanted the same thing, was still having day-dream about it, and was the lucky one to actually experience it several time a week. Sometimes, several time a day. So yeah. He got it.

But it was INFURIATINGto watch!

Those people didn’t even glance at him and he was a fucking celebrity, for fuck sake, albeit hidden behind dark glasses and a hoodie most of the time. Still, no one glanced at the old man next to V, because V was fucking breathtaking in his radiant youth: all insolent charm and coy attitude barely hiding the flair of danger and passion he exuded. Everyone wanted a piece of him, but Kerry wanted all the pieces. Forever.

And yet, he watched from the side line as they came like moths to a flame and had to bear witness to how V flirted with them for a while before letting them down gently. This ballet always left an acidic pain at the pit of Kerry’s stomach: from the abject fear someday one of them would hold V’s interest for real, and from the vicious feeling of victory that V still chose him over them.

Each time it happened, Kerry took V’s hand in his and pulled him to the nearest somewhat private place he could find, be it the toilets of the club they had been dancing at, one of their cars, a hotel nearby or the back of an alley at night. And each time, he pushed V against the wall and kissed him, pouring all his feelings between the merc’s lips, all of his desperation, all of his love. All of him.

And then proceeded to make him see stars one way or another.

That time was no different. Except maybe the location: it happened in their home. Well, it was Kerry’s house, but the musician really considered it their home now, so maybe it was why it hit him harder.

Legendre, Kerry’s new manager, had an assistant, a young girl of twenty-five named Coraline. Legendre was here with her to make Kerry sign some papers, but it ended up taking a lot more time because Kerry was reviewing every points thoroughly. When at last, everything was in order, both he and his new manager got out of the office and Kerry saw V and Coraline, head bent over either of their phones, watching some silly video trending for people their ages, giggling like high-schooler. He could tell Coraline had not been immune to V’s charm, if the way she flushed when he looked at her with his corner smile was any indication.

The well-known fear filled Kerry’s belly, that acidic feeling spreading in his veins like fire. Still, he waited and watched. Watched as Legendre called Coraline to her, and how said assistant couldn’t help but look back as she crossed the threshold, smiling at V with obvious desire in her eyes. And V… Winked at her.

The moment the door was closed, Kerry roughly pushed V against the grand piano, making the merc stumble and then groan as Kerry clashed their teeth together, surging up to cover V’s mouth with his. He didn’t let V any room to breathe as he nipped as his bottom lip, then trailed hot and bruising kisses down his throat. Trailing his hands under V’s shirt, he slid them behind to claw at his back, nails leaving angry red marks and V hissed.

“Fuck,” he moaned, hips bucking forward and neck arching back.

“That’s the idea, yeah,” Kerry breathed against his Adam apple, before licking the musk and the sweat of V’s throat. His hands drifted to the younger man’s belt and undid it with harsh gestures, practically ripping the zipper open. And V was hard already, hips cocked forward, erection straining in his underwear toward Kerry’s.

“Did she make you fucking hot?” he couldn’t help but hiss. “wanted to fuck her tight cunt?”

V huffed a laugh, shook his head, but didn’t deny it. It made Kerry’s desperation grow tenfold. He dropped to his knees and pulled the last garment down before looking up. He tried to channel the anger and not the despair, and maybe he achieved it because V teased:

“Jealous?”

The sentiment being so casually slapped to his face made Kerry’s heartache intensify, so he hid it by taking V’s cock into his mouth, and the merc sighed, sagging a bit on the piano. Kerry concentrated on the feeling of the silky skin over his tongue, on the girth stretching his lips, and on V’s hips stuttering uncontrollably.

He glanced up after a while and saw V grip the edge of the piano. He was biting his lower lip between long keens of pleasure, and his thighs trembled. And then, he rasped:

“Bet her lips wouldn’t stretch like yours around my cock.”

It was too much. Kerry stilled, then recoiled, stumbling backward as he got to his feet. V seemed surprised, so much that he made a step forward and got tangled in his clothes, nearly overbalancing.

“What?” Kerry breathed. “wha – were you thinking about her while I sucked you off?” he stammered as a turmoil of emotion boiled inside of him, lashing out over his heart and mind.

“Ker?” V asked, hand reaching forward. His face expressed the utmost confusion, which fueled Kerry outrage.

“What the fuck, V!” He distantly remarked his voice was pitchy, like a wounded cat. There was also a ringing in his head, and his eyes were stinging.

“Ok, calm down, I think there is a gross misunderstanding here – “ V started, using his reasonable voice, the one he used when face with a particularly stubborn client, or when he was surrounded by gang members.

“Calm down?” Kerry repeated, a note of hysteria in his tone. “You want me to calm down when you were thinking about someone else while I had my lips wrapped around your fucking dick?!”

On top of using The Tone, V was now looking at him like he was a rabid animal.

“Baby, I thought…” but then he stopped, frowned and closed his mouth. Kerry watched him do it with heaving breaths, chest bursting with agony. “I thought,” V repeated, before changing gears, “Jealousy seems to be a great motivator for you. So I thought it was a game.”

A game. The words hung here in the ether between them. It had a strange effect on Kerry. Some part of him recognized that the situation was something else than it seemed. But the better part of him was roaring in absolute furor.

“Playing with my feeling is a game to you?” he hissed after nearly a minute of silence. His tone was now utterly cold and his eyes flashed dangerously.

“No, not at all, Ker please, I misunderstood, I thought you liked it!”

It was like something shattered inside Kerry as he understood that V had deliberately edged all those people. That he had accepted their advances and even flirted back because he thought it was a game of tease between them. And all the while, Kerry had been swallowing his own emotions like broken glass, trying not to be the clingy boyfriend that would surely drive V away. All the while thinking he was soon to be replaced by the next adventurous person approaching V.

“You thought I liked being reminded that I’m fucking old and that you’ll soon get bored of me?” Kerry asked, voice dripping with irony to hide the shaking, “I know I’m fucked up in the head, but this is beyond even me.”

And once again, V opened his mouth, only to close it as he rewound all the times he had played that game thinking Kerry was in on it. Every moment scrolled in his brain, bathed in the new light of a terrible realization.

“Fuck,” he breathed, “Fuck, Ker, I’m sorry.” His mouth trembled as he understood the amount of hurt he had inflicted upon his output. “I really thought…”

But Kerry couldn’t bear it anymore. He walked off to hide in the bedroom, cursing the openness of the house.

He heard V climb the stairs about an hour after that. In the meantime, Kerry had cooled down a bit, and chased away the treacherous tears falling over his cheeks. His make-up was ruined, his hair was a mess and he probably looked pathetic curled up in the middle of the mattress. But he didn’t care, concentrating on soothing the hurt little boy inside him, like his therapist had taught him to do.

He felt the bed dip as V sat on the edge, behind Kerry. For a long moment, silence reigned before:

“I fucked-up Kerry. I’m sorry.” V murmured. “I… I don’t know how to tell you how shitty I feel knowing that I hurt you like this. Repeatedly. I’ve been an idiot.” He concluded in a low voice, sounding like a kicked puppy. It melted Kerry’s heart, try as he might to resist.

“I can only hope that you’ll find it in yourself to forgive me.” V pronounced softly. “I just really want you to know that… I love you. And that’s not going away anytime soon.” He paused and Kerry closed his eyes, feeling the pain recede at V’s heartfelt words. “As for being old... Most of the time I forget you’re nearly ninety. To me you’re this awesome rocker that makes my heart do flips every time he looks at me. I feel so cherished when you look at me, like I’m some sort of treasure or something. And when you get jealous you look at me like this too and I will admit it’s… kinda heady.”

And how could Kerry blame him, when he felt exactly the same under V’s gaze.

“Truth is… You’re not the only one thinking the other is gonna ditch him. Every day I look at you, and I wonder what you see in me, how you can even love me when I’m a fuckin’ killer. My hands are so bloody, where yours create so much beautiful things. I feel like I’m tainting you – ”

Kerry turned, sending a glare at V over his shoulder.

“You’re not tainting me, stop that right this instant.”

V smiled tentatively, and the fucker even used his coy charming smile, which had Kerry’s heart doing somersault inside his ribs. And it was really unfair that the man could ignite such strong emotions inside him, be it positive or negative ones. At the moment, Kerry wanted to hold on his anger so bad, but it was slipping away like sand between his fingers.

He turned completely, gaze softening.

“Maybe we should have talked about this earlier.” He breathed between them, hands reaching to V, who dutifully bent forward, letting Kerry stroke his cheek. The merc nodded, eyes closing with the faint traces of an anguished expression.

“I’m sorry,” he said again.

Instead of replying, Kerry pulled him toward himself, on top of him. Both men looked at each other for a moment before V tentatively got closer to Kerry’s face.

“Can I kiss you?” he asked, words mouthed without a sound.

Kerry’s lips spasmed in a repressed smile, and he tilted his chin to kiss V instead. The man responded gently, taking his time to slot their mouths together, to nip at both lips, to swipe his tongue over them softly. They exchanged a breath before they started again, V moving to cover Kerry more, as one hand captured one of Kerry’s, lacing their fingers, and the other drifted southward. It traced the valleys of Kerry’s stomach over his shirt, before slipping under. And slowly, the musician relaxed completely and the emotions quieted to be replaced with a low simmering want. He lost himself in the kisses, V keeping them absolutely sweet like they never were before. The younger man moved delicately, undoing Kerry’s pants slowly, pausing after every move to ask for permission to continue, which Kerry granted with a sigh. They separated only to undress, the need to feel skin on skin overwhelming, and then V laced their hands again, going down to kiss every inch of his partner’s skin.

He nipped the jointure of skin and cyberware, licked hot trails in the crease between hip and thigh, mouthed at a nipple on his way back up. He kept at it while he gently prepared Kerry, the man arching back with each pass of finger inside him. It was slow, soft and terribly hot. It had been a while since Kerry had been made love to like this, worshipped as V was doing. And fuck if it didn’t make him feel like a god. V’s little pants were warm against his lips as he looked at him, gaze burning. It was nearly too much, and Kerry had to fight not to close his eyes, but each time he did, V whispered “no please, open your eyes, please,” in such plaintive voice that Kerry’s heart ached and he obeyed.

It became even more intense when V penetrated him, at last, fingers intertwined on either side of Kerry’s head, breathes mingling when they panted softly. Once he was settled inside, he paused to kiss Kerry again, and again, hot tongue burning love letters against his. He moved slow, deliberate, precise: exactly the way to make Kerry lose himself. The musician moaned, a wounded sound deep in his throat as his expression turned anguished, lips trembling in their kisses. With a huff and a small grunt, V nuzzled against his lover’s neck and gave just a little more power behind his thrusts. And kept the pace as Kerry’s whimpers turned to long keens and pleasure rippled inside him from his core to the extremities. He clenched his hands over V’s, painfully, in an echo of the intense feeling he was experiencing inside. He wanted to hurt V, bite him, make him bleed, mark him.

“You’re mine,” he whispered, “say you’re mine.”

V shivered and nodded:

“Yes, I’m yours, Ker, only ever yours.” He murmured back, right into his ear, punctuating his words with a sharp thrust that made Kerry bow with a cry. V did it again, and again, watching the whole time as Kerry’s eyes clouded with ecstasy.

Abs straining, muscles tensed to keep the position and the pace, V watched it happen in increments: how Kerry clenched around him, how his stomach rippled with the effort, how his cheek flushed and he eyes got beyond feverish. And the riptide broke as his orgasm zipped through him, making him shake and close his eyes as he arched back in V’s arms.

V followed, head bowed against his output’s heart, cursing low as they ignited, burned and floated away like ashes in the hurricane of their love.

[slynella]

Today is the day! Thank you so much @winged-fool​, your prompts really pushed me out of my confort zone and they were really fun to work with. So I really hope you enjoy this ♥

Oh, and just a little warning for blood, violence and some kind of slavery (the gladiator in the Ancient Rome kind of slavery, not really discuss or anything but it’s there)

[moons-and-stars-and-shit]

Hi hiii! I would like to order a cake! >.<

First of all thank you for the matchup (for haikuu) I am a 5’3 girl with long light brown hair and green eyes. I am a pisces sun and rising and a leo moon. My personality type is isfj but I am an ambivirt. I’m mostly atttacted to guys but i’m happy with anyone. I am kind to everyone I meet and I am loyal to my friends. My friends describe be and bubbly and in the clouds lol but when I need to I can be hardworking and tend to be a perfectionist. I tend to be attracted to people who are funny/joke around and like adventures/push me out of my confort zone but I also like chill relaxed time. I’m dyslexic and have ADHD and deal with anxiety with a social aspect and because of that I get tics sometimes. I am super spiritual and have a major plant obsession and loveee crystals. I like all types of art and fashion and enjoy playing video games with my friends. I kin kenma with a little bit of owkawa and bokuto. I hope you have a lovely day >.<

🍰 for @akiranolegs

Romantic Matchup

Daichi Sawamura

How yall met

You were actually friends with noya and tanaka

And when some members of the team needed tutoring

They suggested that you helped tutor them all

So daichi approached you and asked if you could PLEASE help the team

And you agreed

Daichi always supervised your study group

Only because your group consisted of Tanaka,Noya,Hinata,and Kagayama…

So yeah...problematic

But he was shocked when you were not only able to control Tanaka and noya

But somehow got Hinata and Kagayama to stop fighting

And after all those tutoring sessions he continued to talk to you

Yall starting hanging out more and eventually started dating

What they love about you

He loves that you have a very carefree personality

But can get serious if you need too

He saw the perfect example of this when you were tutoring the team

He also loves how hardworking you can be

Like if you want something your gonna work hard to get it

And he respects that trait of yours

The last thing he loves about you is how you can seem to handle the teams craziness

He's started using you as a threat to the team

“If you guys dont stop i'll call y/n in here and have her deal with you”

The team: 👁👄👁💧

What you love about them

You love that he knows your limits

He knows you have social anxiety and takes the lead in most social situations

However if its a more easy going social interaction hell push you to get more involved

You love that he shows interest in all of your interests

Especially crystals!

You gave him a necklace with an obsidian stone in it

He wears it whenever he can

(btw obsidian is the stone for strength and protection)

Sometimes you joke about it because he wasn't wearing hit when him and Tanaka crashed into each other

Favorite things to do together

He really likes to go shopping for crystals with you

Like if you mention going hell always ask to come

He loves to do cheap thrills with you

His favorite one is getting into his car with a coin and flipping it

Heads means right and tails means right

And yall just drive around listening to music

You can't even count how many times you've gotten lost playing that game

Random Hc

His favorite crystals are obsidian, rose quartz, and amethyst

You gave him one of your baby plants to take care of and he's too afraid to tell you it died

RIP plant 🌱

You tools sugas role as ‘mom’ of the team

He is now the wine aunt of the team

He has a very large crystal collection and takes a random 5 to away games or training camps

Astrology

Pisces + Capricorn

Compatibility 76%

A relationship between Capricorn and Pisces tells a story about possibilities of inspiration.

If someone like Capricorn can be pulled into a crazy love story, exciting and unpredictable, this must be done by Pisces.

In return, Capricorn will offer their Pisces partner stability, peace and some rest from their usual emotional tornadoes.

There is a fine way in which Capricorn can help Pisces be more realistic and practical, while feeling more cheerful and optimistic themselves.

Still, there are challenges in their contact, mainly represented through their love of Jupiter.

It might be hard for them to reconcile their different approaches to religion, faith and their different belief systems.

To overcome this, it is best if they both ask themselves – does their belief system work? And does one of their partners also work?

If they understand answers to these questions, they might find enough respect to leave each other’s Jupiter intact.

Friendship Matchup

Sugawara Koushi

Bark bark woof bark woof

How yall met

You also met Suga while tutoring the team

He helped you calm down everyone in your group if they got to crazy

Ngl you picked up some mom tendencies from him

Why you became friends

Although you appreciated him helping you with your study group

There was one thing that made you really like him…

After you stopped tutoring the team he legit made you a whole ass thank you basket

It had all of your favorite snacks and drinks in it

And he had wrote you a really sweet thank you letter

After he gave you that you felt bad so you gave him a thank you basket for your thank you basket

He was like 🤨 “that's not how that works but thank you so much!”

You guys really just started talking after that and became really good friends

What yall love about each other

He loves how bubbly you are!

Like when you two are together it just creates such a positive vibe

And he loves how your always down for some chaos

I stand by the fact that suga is a chaotic boy

The only difference between him and tanaka and noya is that he doesn't get caught

So you two always do some crazy shit together

And then later feel bad because tanaka and noya always get blamed for it

You love how aggressively encouraging he is

Like if you step out of your comfort zone to do something

This man is right behind you like “GET IT BITCHHHHH”

And it just hypes you up to do more things that are outside your comfort zone

Random Hc

You guys have matching bff necklaces

This one specifically

The team is kinda scared of you two

Like they're more scared of you two than Daichi

And that's saying something

One time for gits and shiggles you got that picture with the vice principles wig on daichi and put it on shirts

Yeah he was not too happy to see you two wearing those

You guys tend to get into petty arguments but tend to solve them within the day

Astrology

Pisces + Gemini

Gemini and Pisces understand each other well, and form a strong friendship.

Pisces are imaginative and sensitive, and Gemini must be careful not to hurt their feelings.

However, any arguments they have are easily forgotten, and they rarely bear ill will towards each other.

The ruling planet of Gemini is Mercury, and the ruling planets for Pisces are Jupiter and Neptune.

Mercury represents communication, and Neptune represents spiritual strength. The two star signs are very compatible with each other.

Jupiter represents knowledge and empathy. Mercury also represents intelligence and innovation. Gemini could come up with new plans often, and Pisces could always support them.

Gemini is an air sign, and Pisces is a water sign. Both partners place a lot of importance on intellect and feelings.

The partnership is filled with action, and both friends preserve a good, compliant relationship.

However, on occasions, there could be misunderstandings, aggravation, and communicative barriers between them.

Both signs have lively imagination and that keeps them going.

Even though they argue often, they resolve their differences quickly. However, the fish could easily get dejected and put down, especially if it feels that the twins don’t understand them clearly.

[catwithangerissues]

Hi hiii! First of all thank you for the matchup (for haikuu) and take your time💞 I am a 5’3 girl with long light brown hair and green eyes. I am a pisces and my personality type is isfj. I’m mostly am atttacted to guys but i’m happy with anyone. I am kind to everyone I meet and I am loyal to my friends. I tend to be attracted to people who are funny and like adventures/push me out of my confort zone. I’m dyslexic and have ADHD and deal with anxiety with a social aspect. I am super spiritual and have a major plant obsession. I like all types of art and fashion and enjoy playing video games with my friends. I hope you have a lovely day >3<

I match you with...

✨ATSUMU MIYA✨

-Okay, Sumu + a short shy/introverted girl? HELL YEAHHHH. He is a huge tease about your height difference, and loves to see your flustered face if he holds things above your head, calls you height related nicknames, comes up behind you and reaches to grab things down for you, or rests his chin or arm of the crown of your head. He loves it all, but he never hurts your feelings about it<3 because he doesn’t ever want you to think it’s a flaw, it’s something he wouldn’t change even if he could 🥺 And bending down to kiss you?? Sign him the fuck up bro

-I always feel this way about green eyes, because they’re actually quite rare, but I feel like he’d be mesmerized by them. He could stare into them all day if you’d let him, just taking in how pretty they are. You definitely catch him not paying attention to what you’re saying at times because he’s caught up staring at you, awee <3

-Your kindness is one of the many reasons Sumu adores you, whether it be with the smallest plant to the largest dog or to a new person you just met, your kindness spreads warmth throughout his entire body. He can’t help but smile at seeing you in those interactions, and he never feels bad bringing up an interest, question, or concern to you, because you’re so kind, he doesn’t have to feel bad. He knows you’ll never put him down for any of his flaws, and this causes him to be more comfortable and confident around you <3

-Your loyalty to your friends and loved ones is one of your most attractive features, according to Atsu. He admires it openly, how you always have their back but you’re willing to tell them when they’re doing something wrong. He’s not so secretly glad that it rubbing off on him more and more each day, not that he wasn’t as loyal as a puppy before anyways <3

-If you want someone funny and adventurous and that will push you out of your comfort zone at times, you’ve got yourself a keeper. You two have hundreds of inside jokes, always laughing when your together. The kind of laughing that makes your abdomen hurt and you end up wheezing or crying in the floor. Atsu always has a way to make you smile and laugh, and it’s his favorite thing to do. He’s a naturally adventurous person, and he loves doing spontaneous things with you! He pushes you out of your comfort zone gently, never wanting to hurt you. But he can’t help but feel smug about seeing you so happy after you try something new, he just loves experiencing new things with you <3

-With your dyslexia, I feel like Atsu would always be willing to read something to you if you asked, or if he saw you struggling he’d gladly read it aloud- no judgement. (I don’t have dyslexia, so please forgive me if I’ve put something that doesn’t make sense) Sumu would be cautious of your anxiety, he has it too but not in a social way, rather a performance way. But he does his best to help when you’re anxious- holding you, whispering praises to you, or leading you to a more private place so you can calm down. He never wants to push you too far, and so he’s developed a habit of being incredibly observant of your behavior in social situations. He just wants his bb to feel safe <3 and let me tell you, a big hug from that cuddle bug definitely helps <3

-Sumu can’t help but feel infatuated with you when you’re talking about your different spiritual things. He gets so interested in what you’re saying, that he goes basically silent except for a few ‘mhms’ and ‘really? What else!’ and stuff along those lines. It makes you feel all warm and fuzzy to know he’s so interested in what you have to say, and he’ll definitely offer to help you with whatever you request involving your spirituality <3

-Fellow plant lover, you’ve got yourself a keep with Atsu. He’d definitely have a list in his notes on his phone of plants you’ve mentioned wanting to own in passing, for when he needs an idea for your birthday or an anniversary. He’s 100% the type to buy you little plants randomly, and go to the nursery with you to look around. He would totally take you on a date to a bunch of nurseries one day, and take pictures of you surrounded by all the flowers and plants<3 he made one his lock screen 😭 He thinks your excitement when you see a plant you like and then proceed to tell him everything you know about is the damn cutest thing in the whole world. So he naturally loves to buy you whatever it is that makes you happy, even when you protest <3 (don’t worry, he won’t go too far... too far for his liking hehehe)

🌱I hope you liked the mu! Little babie Atsu is so cute 💛 Thank you for requesting!

[yamaoops]

ALERT (💌) : ONE (1) NEW ORDER:

order details :

— from :  evie  <3

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— order : spring fever tartlets

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Hi hiii!! I was wondering if u could get the haikuu spring fever tartlets matchup. I am a 5’3 girl with long light brown hair and green eyes. I am a pisces sun and rising and a leo moon. My personality type is isfj but I am an ambivert I’m mostly atttacted to guys but i’m happy with anyone. I am kind to everyone I meet and I am loyal to my friends. I tend to be attracted to people who are funny/joke around and like adventures/push me out of my confort zone. But i also like relaxed down time. I can be very hardworking when I put my mind to something and tend to be a perfectionist. My friends describe me and bubbly and in the clouds. I’m dyslexic and have ADHD and deal with anxiety with a social aspect and because of that I get tics sometimes. I am super spiritual and love crystals and have a major plant obsession. I like all types of art and fashion and enjoy playing video games with my friends. I kin kenma with a little bit of bokuto and owkawa. I hope you have a lovely day >.<

— @akiranolegs​

a/n: hi there my darling! thank you so much for your patience and i’m so sorry for the delay! i really enjoyed writing this so thank you very much!! feel free to send an ask if you ever want to talk lovie <33 i hope you enjoy!

I MATCH YOU WITH SUGAWARA KOUSHI

suga is very gentle and kind when it comes to your relationship

the confession comes a little out of the blue (completely out of the blue) but he assured you that he didn’t need a reaction- he just needed to let you to know 

it’s quite surprising to you- but you accept him all the same. and you are so glad that you did

he likes to make lists of reasons why he loves you and they really help you when you’re having a hard time

he also loves to kiss your cheeks and hands and uses nicknames like ‘love’ and ‘sweetheart’ a lot

he also loves giving you hugs which end with the two of you swaying slowly in each other’s arms

he always glances at you during his matches- your bright smile never fails to motivate him!!

he’s a classic romantic who likes holding your hand or having an arm around your shoulders

the two of you always go on cycles with no particular destination in mind- just the intention to enjoy each other’s company

he does teach you a bit about of volleyball so the two of you play mini ‘matches’ together. in exchange, you teach him about the symbolism and meanings of different crystals

he has you saved as ‘jewel’ in his phone because you are more stunning than any diamond or amethyst the world could provide

thank you for ordering lovie!! if you enjoyed ordering, please do consider reblogging as it would really help me!!

hugs kisses and valentine’s wishes,

- liya

(p.s check out the event here )

[miioouu]

rules: ship yourself with your favorite character and give headcanons on how your relationship would go

Omg I literally had a mental breakdown choosing!!! Like obviously i chose Baku, but i felt so bad for not choosing Sero like my baby deserves more love but..... I mean I'm a Bakugou slut what else can I say??

-OK so like I said before, it's either one of two options.

-We either hate, like absolutely despise each other.

-Or we best friends. Periodt.

-Though I prefer the first option so that's what I'm going for.

-I might seem nice and kind here, but irl, i will definitely roll my eyes everytime I hear his voice.

-I will cry out of cringiness in the middle of the class when he has some presentation (i hate to say that but..... I've actually cried bc someone i dont like was talking to the class idk what's wrong with me!!!)

-But, I feel like I'd be good friends with Sero and Kaminari, since I somehow for some unknown reason, get along with idiot trouble makers.

-And being the fake bitch I am, I'll try and be nice to Bakugo, bur HaHa not so fast.

-I usually insult people a lot but I hide it in like a joke format, But katsuki is having none of it and he'll start insulting me.

-I'll either insult him back and we have like a weird hatred but not really relationship.

-Or if I'm having a bad day I'll cry, and even if he's an a-hole, he'll still feep bad for making someone cry.

-After a while, our hatred relationship evolves and we find each other literally glued to one another.

-We'll probably sit in the back and judge what the teacher is wearing, what on earth is Pikachu talking about, you know normal mean stuff.

-We have.... Special nicknames for each other.

-Of course I'll always call him Bakubae, Bakuhoe, Bakuwhatever but in a more private setting, I'll call him Kat, pronounced Cat.

-Because I just like cats and he reminds me of those angry cats you see all over the internet.

-He'll probably just call me by my first name, and if he wants to annoy me, he'll call me by my middle name.

-But also in more private settings, he'll have sweet nicknames like Baby, babe or princess.

-Though I'll literally shoot daggers at him if he uses that last one.

-I don't think either of us are into dates.

-Fancy, romantic stuff are just beurk so it's probably more of hang outs at each other's house or at friend's.

-And if we do go on dates, it's something really lowkey, like movies or a simple lunch dates.

-OR OMG he'll take me to cat shelters because he likes to see me cry and suffer but I also always beg him to get me one and he gets annoyed.

-Our lock screen background is not each other pic, because you know, idk it's just cliché.

-But our home screen is probably a picture of us.

-Maybe me sleeping and he's taking the pic. Like one of the rare ones where he's smiling.

-We looove to make fun of stupid horror movies.

-Since neither of us gets scared, and let's be honest most of horror movies don't have a good plot, we're just laughing the entire time.

-Ok so sweeter hc.

-When I'm having a bad day, he always knows what to do. He doesn't cling to me and he lets me cry.

-He tells me that it's ok to cry and will listen to me angrily explaining to him what's going on.

-And if he's having a bad day, I'll the one to do all of that, I'll hold him and run my hair through his hair, wipe away his tears as I tell him how important he is to me.

-I probably overuse the words I love you, but when he always say it back, it just feels so special and I'll get all blushy.

-Ugh hugging him would be an absolute delight, I'd be the one hugging him, so so tightly while he's just standing looking at his phone or talking to someone.

-It might not sound the sweetest, but that's how I like my hugs.

-And on the rare occasion where he's the one hugging, his hands would wrap up so tight, I'll have to push him away to breathe.

-When we're just sitting around, with his head on my shoulder looking over it to see what I'm drawing, I'll probably take any pen and start doodling on his arm, hearts, animals, eyes, dicks.... Whatever and while he tries to erase them, he'll keep the 'I love you Kat"!!

-Ok weird thing I'd do, I'll try and convince him to dye his hair black, only cause blonds aren't my type.

-Omg the more i think about it the more i wonder how he's my fav??

-I always need someone to be honest with me and get me out of my confort zone, so he's the one doing so.

Ok and ig songs weren't on the original prompt but imma do it cause i like it.

Simple Love by The Digs

So fall into my arms

It's the only place to be

You're the fish and I'm the sea

Our love is a simple love

It's a simple love

It's a simple love

Les Hautes Lumières by Fauve

J'porte le blason de mon clan

Je l'ai désormais gravé sur la face visible de mon coeur

Mais ça ne fait pas mal rassure toi au contraire

J'ai fait broder nos souvenirs étincelants sur deux manteaux de nuit

Que m'ont offerts des frères tisserands, drapiers canuts

J'ai à la main mes haussières

Je suis prêt

Après la nuit

Avant le jour

Et à travers les roselières

Après la nuit

Avant le jour

Je t'offrirai les hautes lumières

(translation)

I wear the coat of my clan

I have now engraved it on the visible side of my heart

But it does not hurt be reassured on the contrary

I had our sparkling memories embroidered on two night coats

What the weaver brothers, canut drapers gave me

I have my hawsers in my hand

I'm ready

After the night

Before the day

And through the reed beds

After the night

Before the day

I'll give you the highlights

Thanks @necccomancy for the tag. I'll tag @bnha-homeroom and @1-800-callmekatsuki

[savingoursanity]

Cheers to the good days 

It’s easy to get caught up with life and to only write and talk about the struggles. Those struggles are important yes and adressing them is important. But I think we often do so to the detriment of all the good things that are happening in our lives. Counting your blessings is important no matter what you are going through, but especially in moments where everything truly is going great. Make sure to truly bask in the joy and happiness of the moments, however brief they may be. 

It’s important to be able to let yourself be able to enjoy them, to not be afraid to feel the happiness out of fear of sadness returning, out of fear of things being too good to be true. Being happy doesn’t mean you can’t be realistic. If anything, sometimes I think we get stuck in an overly cynical point of view because positivity and optimism seem like a joke in light of all going on in the world. 

But you know what, today was a great day. And the past few weeks have also been really great. Granted I’ve still had my ups in down, I’m so happy to be able to say that I’m in such a good place right now. I’m finally starting the program that is leading me to my future career and I couldn’t be more thrilled about what I’m learning. I’m managing to relatively well socialise with my class peers and have been feeling more and more like I am actually a part of the group, that I have just as much right to be there as anyone else and am all around becoming less and less self-conscious. My living situation has been a pleasant surprise from one end to the other for so many reasons; my roommates are fantastic, the location is amazing and I just feel so at home. I've gotten to make amazing and wondeful new connections through different online communities. Everyday I’m being pushed out of my confort zone in ways that yes are scary but are also finally letting me feel like I can truly explore who I am. 

I truly and sincerely feel so loved and blessed and no one, no one can take that away from me. I really feel so thankful for where I am right now, and it feels so good to be allowed to enjoy that. That even though I am far from having my life figured out, even though I still feel like a mess in so many instances, I’m still doing a pretty decent job at this whole adulting thing. 

I know harder days will come, sad and frustrating times are inevitable. But I won’t shy away from them because I know that around the corner there will always been a happy day. So long as I am able to let myself really truly enjoy the bright happy days, then I will be able to weather the darker days.

[therealpolyglot-blog]

How to advance in any language

Raise your hand if you have ever got stuck while learning a language. Going from intermediate to advance sounds impossible, sometimes even passing that beginner stage can be a struggle.

- Been there, done that. -

We wanted to change our current situation of feeling stuck and create a master plan to level up in any language at any any level. We believe that the best way to keep moving forward in language learning is by challenging yourself to get out of your comfort zone. The simple act of trying something new can put you in an ideal learning situation. We also know that we need motivation to learn a language, and learning with friends is one of the most motivational things that could ever exists. This is why right now we want to officially invite all of our internet friends to join the level up challenge! So we can all help each other stay motivated while we work on those language learning summer goals.

This is how it works:

First step: Choose a language you love and ask yourself which level you are in and how would you like to improve. Second step: Download the free checklist in the level you want to join (Beginner, intermediate, advanced) Third Step: Join the challenge on June 1rst and start leveling up. Fourth step: Share your progress on social media using the official hashtag (#leveluplanguagechallenge) and tag @therealpolyglot so we can see you! This way we can all help each other stay motivated. Oh, and don’t forget to follow us as well, we are going to be sharing our own progress and helping you with any questions you may have. We also want to give our friend Erika a warm welcome to the challenge, she will be joining us at the beginner level of the challenge in polish.

** Download the checklist here**

“I don’t always get the opportunity to practice Dutch, which is really sad. I don’t want to forget it. I accepted the challenge because I want to feel like I can talk fluently about every topic in this language, I know this challenge is created to make me try new things. I will be doing the advanced version because I want to push myself into moving forward. I can’t wait to share with all of you the frustration and the beauty I find in this language. I am sure I will learn a lot with the level up language challenge.” - Mari (@MariPolyglot) “I really want to improve in Greek because I'd love to speak with my family. And don't feel ready to do that as far as I'm with my Greek, even though I know I could. I already understand a lot on an intermediate level but I can't speak or write like that. Therefore I plan to do the intermediate version. I'm so happy about the challenge and I'm also afraid to get out of my comfort zone, I've been too long in there. I hope I'll find myself with new confidence after doing the challenge for a whole month!” - Chrissa (@polyglossa) “First of all, I'd like to thank Chrissa and Mari for inviting me to this challenge. I love challenges because they have goals, and I like the sense of accomplishment at the end. It's an opportunity to test my grit, increase my focus, and use my creativity to find ways to complete tasks. I'm sure I'll learn a lot about the language itself, as well new ways to learn it! I'm excited about the possibility to complete different tasks and do things I haven't done yet!” - Erika (@polyglot_erika) Mari and Chrissa

Cómo avanzar en cualquier idioma.

Levanta la mano si alguna vez te has sentido estancado cuando aprendes un idioma. Pasar de intermedio a avanzado puede sonar imposible. A veces, incluso pasar esa etapa de principiante puede ser un desafío.

- A mi también me ha pasado -

Un día nos dio por querer cambiar nuestra situación actual de estar estancadas y decidimos crear un plan maestro para poder subir de nivel en cualquier idioma y en cualquier etapa. Creemos que la mejor manera de avanzar en un idioma es desafiandonos a salir de nuestra zona de confort. Este simple acto de intentar algo nuevo puede colocarte en una situación ideal de aprendizaje. También sabemos que necesitamos motivación para aprender un idioma, y sabemos que aprender con amigos es una de las formas más efectivas para mantenerse motivado. Es por eso que en este preciso momento queremos invitar a todos nuestros amigos de internet a participar en el Level Up Challenge. De esta manera todos nos podemos ayudar mientras nos esforzamos a conseguir nuestras metas de idiomas este verano.

Cómo participar:

Primer paso: Elige un idioma que te encante y analiza en qué nivel estás y cómo te gustaría mejorar. Segundo Paso: Descarga la lista gratuita del nivel en el cual deseas participar (Principiante, intermedio, avanzado) Tercer paso: Únete al challenge este primero de junio y empieza a subir de nivel. Cuarto paso: Comparte tu progreso en las redes sociales usando el hashtag oficial (#leveluplanguagechallenge) y etiqueta a @therealpolyglot así te podremos encontrar. De esta manera nos ayudamos unos a otros a permanecer motivados. Ah y no olvides seguirnos en todas las redes sociales, nosotras estaremos compartiendo nuestro progreso diario y respondiendo cualquier pregunta que puedan tener. También queremos aprovechar esta oportunidad para darle una bienvenida a nuestra amiga Erika, quien formará parte oficial del challenge. Erika estará completando el nivel principiante en polaco.

** Descarga aquí la lista gratuita**

“No siempre tengo la oportunidad de practicar el holandés, lo cual no me agrada. No quisiera olvidarlo. Acepté este desafío porque quiero sentir que puedo hablar fluidamente de cualquier tema en este idioma y sé que este desafío está creado para hacerme intentar cosas nuevas. Estaré completando la versión avanzada porque quiero desafiarme a salir de mi zona de confort. Ya quiero compartir con ustedes toda la frustración y la belleza que encuentro en este idioma. Estoy segura que aprenderé muchísimo con el Level Up Challenge.” - Mari (@MariPolyglot) “Realmente quiero mejorar el griego porque me encantaría hablarlo con mi familia y porque no me siento segura de utilizar el griego como quisiera aunque sé que es posible. La verdad entiendo muchas cosas al nivel intermedio pero no puedo ni escribir ni hablar como el resto. Por eso planeo completar el nivel intermedio del desafío. Estoy muy feliz con el challenge pero también tengo mucho miedo de salir de mi zona de confort, he estado en el mismo nivel en mucho tiempo. Espero poder encontrarme más segura cuando termine el desafío al final del mes.” - Chrissa (@polyglossa) “ Primero que nada quiero agradecerles a Chrissa y a Mari por haberme invitado a este desafío. Me encantan los challenges porque tienen metas claras, y me gusta esa sensación de éxito al final. Es una oportunidad para poner a prueba mi fuerza de voluntad, aumentar mi enfoque y para usar mi creatividad cuando deba completar estas actividades. Estoy segura que aprenderé mucho sobre el idioma como tal y que encontraré nuevas formas de aprenderlo. Estoy muy emocionada por saber que completaré este desafío y por que haré muchas cosas nuevas.” - Erika (@polyglot_erika) Mari y Chrissa

Wie du in jeder Sprache fortschreiten kannst

Erhebe deine Hand, wenn du jemals in deinem Lernprozess festgesteckt hast. Von einem fortgeschrittenen Anfänger zu einem Fortgeschrittenen überzugehen scheint unmöglich, manchmal kann es sogar ein Kampf sein aus dem Anfangsstadium auszubrechen

- Ich war dort, ich habs gemacht -

Wir wollten unsere jetzige Situation des Stillstands ändern und einen “Masterplan” erstellen, um in jeder Sprache und auf jedem Level vorwärtszukommen. Wir glauben, dass der beste Weg, um in einer Sprache vorwärts zu kommen, darin besteht dich selbst herauszufordern und aus deinem Wohlfühlbereich rauszukommen. Der einfache Vorgang einfach mal etwas neues auszuprobieren, kann dich in eine ideale Lernsituation versetzen. Wir wissen auch, dass wir Motivation brauchen, um eine Sprache zu lernen, und mit Freunden zu lernen, ist eine der am meisten motivierenden Dinge, die jemals existieren könnte. Deswegen wollen wir nun offiziell all unsere Internet-Freunde dazu einladen, mit uns an der “Level Up Challenge” teilzunehmen. Damit wir uns alle gegenseitig helfen können, motiviert zu bleiben während wir an diesen Sprachlernzielen für den Sommer arbeiten.

Und so funktioniert’s:

Schritt 1: Wähle eine Sprache aus, die du liebst und frage dich selbst, auf welchem level du dich befindest und wie du dich gerne verbessern möchtest. Schritt 2: Lade dir die kostenlose Checkliste herunter, die dem Level entspricht, dem du dich anschließen möchtest (Anfänger (beginner), fortgeschrittener Anfänger (intermediate), Fortgeschrittener (advanced)) Schritt 3: Schließe dich der Challenge am 1. Juni an und beginne aufzusteigen. Schritt 4: Teile deinen Fortschritt auf Social Media Plattformen und nutze das offizielle Hashtag (#leveluplanguagechallenge) and markiere @therealpolyglot, damit wir dich sehen können. So können wir uns gegenseitig helfen, motiviert zu bleiben. Oh, und zudem solltest du nicht vergessen, uns zu folgen, wir werden unseren eigenen Fortschritt teilen und wir werden dir bei jeder Frage behilflich sein, die möglicherweise haben wirst. Zudem wollen wir unserer Freundin Erika ein herzliches Willkommen zur Challenge wünschen, sie wird sich uns anschließen, als Anfänger in Polnisch.

** Lade die Checkliste hier herunter **

“Ich bekomme nicht immer die Gelegenheit Niederländisch zu üben, was wirklich traurig ist. Ich möchte es nicht vergessen. Ich habe die Challenge angenommen, weil ich mich gerne so fühlen möchte, dass ich fließend über jedes Thema in der Sprache reden kann. Ich weiß, dass die Challenge so gestaltet ist, dass ich neue Sachen ausprobiere. Ich werde die Version für die Fortgeschrittenen machen, weil ich mich anstrengen will vorwärts zu kommen. Ich kann es kaum erwarten, die Frustration und die Schönheit, die ich in der Sprache finde, mit euch zu teilen. Ich bin mir sicher, dass ich eine Menge lernen werde mit der Level Up Challenge.” - Mari (@MariPolyglot) “Ich will wirklich meine Griechisch verbessern, weil ich es lieben würde mit meiner Family zu sprechen. Und ich fühle mich nicht noch bereit mit dem jetzigen Stand in Griechisch, obwohl ich weiß, dass ich könnte. Ich verstehe schon eine Menge auf einem fortgeschrittenen Anfänger Level, aber ich kann nicht so sprechen oder schreiben. Deswegen plane ich die Version für den fortgeschrittenen Anfänger zu machen. Ich bin so glücklich über die Challenge und ich habe auch Angst davor aus meinem Wohlfühlbereich zu gelangen, ich war dort zu lange. Ich hoffe ich werde neues Selbstvertrauen in mir finden, nachdem ich die Challenge für einen ganzen Monat gemacht habe!” - Chrissa (@polyglossa) “Als erstes, würde ich gerne Chrissa und Mari dafür danken, mich zu dieser Challenge eingeladen zu haben. Ich liebe Challenges, weil sie Ziele haben, und ich mag das Gefühl etwas erreicht zu haben am Ende. Es ist eine Gelegenheit, um meine Entschlossenheit zu testen, meinen Fokus zu erweitern, und meine Kreativität zu nutzen, um Wege zu finden, Aufgaben zu lösen. Ich bin mir sicher, ich werde eine Menge über die Sprache selbst lernen, und außerdem neue Wege sie zu lernen! Ich bin gespannt auf die Möglichkeit verschiedene Aufgaben zu beenden und Dinge zu tun, die ich zuvor nicht getan habe!” - Erika (@polyglot_erika) Mari und Chrissa

[katiesreadingexperiment]

A quick introduction to Katie’s reading experiment

Hi, lovely.

Thank you for being here, on my little blog, hopefully you’ll enjoy it. 

The idea of Katie’s reading experiment was born on a rainy, cosy September day, after months of going back and forward, wanting to start reading again, not having the time or the energy, watching so many booktube videos but at the end of the day, being in a huge reading slump and not reading at all.

Let’s start at the beggining though. Hi, I’m Katie. Currently still 30 years old. I’m from Europe, however English is not my native language, so please excuse any potential grammar mistakes. Huge coffee lover (I also don’t mind wine). I have the loveliest, cutest little dog, which I absolutely adore. In a real world, I have a demanding job - and I need a sweet escape sometimes. I used to love reading, so much! For the past few years though, the real life got in the way - and I stopped reading, completely. I could blame the lack of time, but mostly lack of energy and Netflix. :)

I do miss the magical and wonderful world of books, therefore I decided to create Katie’s reading experiment.

The idea behind it is, to challenge myself with a range of book challenges, trying to not only find my love for books again, but to push myself out of my confort zone when it comes to reading. I was mostly a romance reader before, may that be dark romance, taboo, contemporary, sports romance etc. I want to change that. I want to read the genres I would never think of before. I want to finally read some of the books my favorite booktubers recommend. I want to find great new books and I want to find out which books are not for me. Most of all, I want to share this journey with all of you.

If you’re in the similar reading slump situation or if you’d just like to see, how this will go, if you like to read about books and are always on a search for that new great book discovery -  welcome to follow me on this journey. :)

[happyself]

12 and 17

Hiii anon bestie 12. my last dream that I remembered .... *insert jeopardy song* now that I think of it I can't clearly remembered, but he had Lando and Daniel somehow involved adn a tiers person but cn't remember who and what we were doing ( wasn't sexual that's for sure ) but yeah I think it was a nice one cause I remembered smiling to something in my dream.

17. Ideal partner, as someone i like or my type of person in general ... cause I think my ideal person would be someone who has the mixed personnality of Lando and Daniel, I relate to a lot of Lando so i feel we would get along well and understand each other but someone who would be like Daniel would push me and put me out of my confort zone so yeah someone like that would be so good for me I think. Thank you so much bestie for taking the time to send me numbers ♥

[atelierlilyart]

Commission for @sidarah

This one really pushed me to go out of my confort zone quite a bit, and i think the result was worth it. Thanks!

[arcab-arts]

So, does just learning how to draw counts as a style? I really am aware that I have a lot of room for improvement, but I couldn't resist to try. Thanks @c_kaeru_ for pushing me out if my comfort zone ❤️ .. .. Bueno, apenas empezando a aprender cuenta como estilo? Se que aún me falta mucho for mejorar, pero se verdad no pude resistirme a este DTIYS. Realmente saliendo de mi zona de confort. .. .. #spnfandom #spnfamily #dean #dtiys #supernatural #amateurartist #selftaught #artistaprincipiante #autodidacta https://www.instagram.com/p/CCuHU2lHbDg/?igshid=1757qmodt20ct

[galuby]

Pointless

OK SO THE WAY THIS FIC WAS BORN IS A LONG STORY BUT BASICALLY @themarginalartist got an ask abt her sona as an ink creature, the discord loved this idea and since we ran out of ways to torture Henry and/or Bendy in the angst tag we decided it would be fun to torture ourselves by writing how we die by the ink.....so ye, I DON`T DO WRITTING AND THIS IS MY FIRST FIC OK? 

But it was fun the get out of my confort zone anyway so here ya go:

(thank you everyone that let me use ur sona for this ;v;)

The taxi arrived to a park, there was a lot of people sitting under the trees, my heart couldn’t stop it`s fast beating.

“Finally! There they are! My friends! I will finally get to meet them in real life! Is this even real? “ I thought as I stepped out of the vehicle.

There they were, all of them.

From furry creatures to really small (and cute) beings, they were greeting each other with love and giggles, even tears of happiness!

A huge bus arrives at the park to take us to the place we were going to spend the day, once inside the bus everyone started singing off-key songs and making countless puns, yes, this was going to be the best day of our lives!

Since Lily was the server`s owner, she is the one responsible for this meeting`s hang out place, but it was hard to find a place to host about +40 crazy teenagers and young adults for a whole day, so all choices were a no no for us.

Luckily! She got a place! A nice restaurant had let us borrow the establishment for the day, it was pretty, it had good food and the chefs made the food in front of you! It was a true show!

But then we got kicked out because one of us set the table on fire with a crayon.

“What now?” says Margin

I turn to see Lily, her face showed frustration at the whole situation.

One of the restaurant`s employees notices our dilemma and offers us a solution:

“Hey kids! You know what? There`s a building a few streets away, it is abandoned but is in good conditions according to my buddy in the maintenance staff, and is big enough for all of you! Maybe you can get some drinks and snacks and have a good time there.”

This was it! The perfect place! Private, big AND FOR FREE.

We get back in the bus and set our way to the building.

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It hits my mind often

People, silhouettes I don`t recognize but yet…make me feel so… welcome, so safe…

What are they? Who are they?

I push what`s left of my mind to remember

But it`s pointless

Just

Keep walking

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“Well I mean… the place looks decent”-says Spuds

The building looked like it could go down at any moment, it looked older than time itself; it had covered windows and a huge, faded (almost invisible) sign in the middle of all the establishment. It was everything but decent.

Lily took a step inside first and proceeded to sign at us to come in too.

‘Wow okay the place does looks decent on the inside’- I thought.

“This is it! Get your snacks and drinks out boys! And let`s find a spot!”- different people said.

For some reason, the building looked really familiar to us. But no one could recall.

“Oh Hey! This place looks nice!”- said Moca as we arrived to an empty room with a tall ceiling and a lot of space to-

Wait a minute, now this place is familiar, well I guess we are just sharing a déjà vu.

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Keep walking

Tired, lay down

Wake up, keep walking

Stop

Why walking? What am I looking for?

Who am I looking for?

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Just keep walking

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We all brought our own blankest, they were big enough for more than one person to fit in; In a matter of minutes the floor got carpeted by blankets of all sizes and colours.

Everyone was taking out their snacks and drinks, we were all just having a nice time together.

Nature called to some of us so we had to find a bathroom and quick.

Morski, Gallacta, Saduna and I got on our way to find a bathroom but we were stopped by Zango.

“you guys can`t go alone, this building is too big and you don`t even know where you are going, wait for me”

Zango was a responsible adult, so she accompanied us to wherever the bathroom was.

It wasn`t long enough before we found one, we did what we had to do and headed back to where everyone else was.

While this small group was distracted, I did something I usually did in my school trips “get lost”, it was so fun to do that in school trips, no one ever noticed when I was gone or when I got back.

This people might actually notice my absence though, DOUBLE FUN! I shall not worry them too much though, just a small disappearing and I will get back as soon as I hear them calling my name hahaha!

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Keep walking

The hand clawed shadows don`t mind my presence

Keep walking

I can`t see trough this mask but I know this hallways too well

Keep walking

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I quietly turn to a hallway they walk passed, once out of sight I start to quietly run, get more and more away from them.

Between muffled giggles I enter a small room and shut the door closed.

“Pffffft HAhA oh my god they will never find me here” – I said to myself.

It wasn’t even half an hour before I got bored of my little “prank” so I get on my feet and start to head back to the group through the hallway.

Um… no THIS hallway, no wait that ink stain wasn`t there before, OH it must be this one! No wait, I’m pretty sure the door of  this one room was open, It must be….. no that corridor didn`t had those empty pipes on the ceiling.

…………….

“Fuck”- I say to my screwed self.

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“………guys, where`s Galuby?” -says Gallacta

Zango quickly turns around after hearing this.

“oh no, you guys go back, I will look for her”

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“ok ok, the building is not that big, you will be fine, you just gotta avoid walk in circles and you will be fine” – I desperately say to myself.

My cool was starting to fade, this was not funny anymore, I start to run-walk looking for a familiar sight, nothing, just hallways and corridors. This place was so old I could hear every step I took as a loud creak  thanks to the bad condition of the floor boards.

“Where the hell am I????”

I start to yell, calling for my friends

“Guys! I`m here ok! Hello?!”

I get to the end of a hallway, there was nothing but a single drawer against the wall, I climb on it and start to call for help from there with the hope that being on a taller object might help my yells travel faster.

Nothing, where is everybody? Was this building really that big? How come-

“Galuby!”

I hear a voice, finally!

I jump off the drawer  to the source of this voice as fast as I can.

“OVER HERE! HERE I-“

CRASH

The floor under my feet collapses, it was all so quick.

Crashing on the ground, one of the floor boards hits my back real hard but I don`t lost consciousness.

I try to get up as my sight comes back, everything was fuzzy, I could feel my head screaming at me to stay on the floor, I hear a buzz in my ears, I can barely stay up.

I look down and I could see something black, was it the floor or just my sight not nearly ok yet? My answer was my body crashing on the floor once again.

“uuuggh” I say to myself, everything hurts, it`s hard to stay awake but my survival instincts were keeping me up, I could feel it, this place is not safe, I must find a way up.

I can`t feel my wings, it was almost like if they were completely gone- “oh no…..no” one of them was broken.

The shock at the moment didn`t let me scream.

I look up to and start to desperately call for help between tears.

After a couple of hours I came to realize it was pointless, I must find another way up.

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I must get there

I have to find them

I have to find it

But what?

But who?

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Hallways, hallways, hallways one longer then another, I have to keep calm, I know there`s a way out.

My wings don`t hurt, I guess my body was still in shock.

I try not to think about them because if I do, I might try to move them and that will hurt.

“Hello!? Guys!? I`m here! Hello!?”

‘I can`t believe this is happening, it was just a silly prank and now they might have to take me to the hospital once they find me, ugh how could I be so careless?!’

In that moment, I low groan snatches me out of my thoughts as a chill runs up my back.

It`s not them, it can`t be them, this is something else.

Slowly turning around I could see it, a black and creepy clawed creature, mouth wide open, no eyes, no legs and extremely familiar.

I froze, the creature just stares at me for a second before crawling it`s way towards me.

Something made me comes back to reality and run, RUN FOR YOUR LIFE.

I`ve never run so fast in my life, it was almost like if I was flying, the ink on the floor stocked to my shoes but I didn`t cared at all.

I have to run I HAVE TO HIDE.

Turning hallway after hallway I come across a whole group of those things.

I finally scream turning back and try to find a new way to escape.

I keep running until I couldn’t feel my feet anymore, I didn`t dared to enter any room fearing what could possibly hide in there.

Panting, sure enough that the danger was gone, I stop.

The strong smell of ink was almost suffocating.

Tears start to run down my face as I press my back against one of the walls.

“I’m sorry………”

Unstoppable sobs fill the place, I have never felt so lonely and scared in my life, this was the worst mistake I’ve ever made.

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Keep walking

Something`s in my way, must avoid

I stumble over a door

Door closes, I fall

Must get up

Keep walking

I must find….them?

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‘How long have I been crying for? My head hurts, I guess I passed out for a few minutes’.

‘I have to keep walking, there has to be a way out’.

Getting back up, I start to walk trying to ignore this massive headache.

“They- *cough* they have to be somewhe- *cough cough*”

My troth hurts, I could feel I was coughing out moc- oh my god, this isn`t- what is this?

A was coughing a black substance, desperation rising in me again, all possible kinds of illness crossing my mind.

I quietly ask for mercy,  “no.. no please I can`t die”

Panic flooded my senses; Coughing out more of that black substance, I get myself together and start my search once again.

I was crying, where am I? where`s everybody?

I jumped as I heard screams, screams everywhere, they where coming from every corner of the hallways along with the sound of  running steps.

 It was them; Something happened, everyone heard so scared, I could distinct some words.

“THERE`SMOREOFTHEM!WHERE`S /PERSON/HELP! HELP!BEHINDYOU!GRABMY HAND!NOOO!RUN!OVER THERE!”

My desperation just grow bigger, I call them, I tell them where to find me, I tell them to please help me, I scream in fear too, I try to follow the screams; I was a mess, tears running down my face and making my vision more difficult.

The silence starts to come back as the screams go away.

Once again, I lost them.

Knowing that I wasn’t alone in the building was my only comfort, but what happened? Now I’m more worried about their situation than mine.

“They are ok, I know they are, there’s +40 people there after al-”

*COUGH*

This… this was a bad one.

That sudden cough made me left splatters of the black substance on the walls and even made my nose blee- MY NOSE IS BLEEDING

No wait, this is not blood.

“oh my god…”

That black substance was starting to come out of my nose and my mouth.

“the fuck is this..?”

I can`t think straight, I feel like the walls where getting smaller, I felt dizzy.

I try to walk forward as I feel like my feet weren`t touching the ground.

I`m scared, I’m confused, I’m lost.

“please…help…….HELP!”

And with that, I called the attention of those clawed creatures.

I can`t run anymore, my forces are at their limit, but those things are getting close and I don`t need to die just yet.

I spot a hallway barricaded by barrels and floor boards.

I run over there and start to climb as fast as I could. The will of survive gave me the last forces I needed to get to the other side and escape the danger. I fall on the floor, lying there for some minutes seemed like a good idea, but I need to keep moving, I need to find them.

I can`t feel my body, not in a –I’m tired- way, I literally feel like I have no insides.

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Keep walking

Can`t stop

It`s pointless

They

They have to be somewhere

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‘It`s….Them.’

A small group of people was walking trough the hallways. They didn`t noticed my presence at first.

I’ve found them! My friends! This tears are no longer from despair but happiness!

I was way to tired to call their attention, my last resources of strength were being directed at my feet in order to keep me up.

My head feels light, if it wasn`t for the fear of my body getting more hurt by crashing on the floor I wouldn’t be standing.

As the words form in my head I try to open my mouth and call them.

“gu- *COUGH* COUGH*”

This calls their attention, all heads turning to face me.

I could noticed something was off, there`s less people and everyone seemed like they have been crying a lot, but that`s not the worst thing, some of them had that black substance splattered on their faces, hair/fur, hands and some of them even where almost completely covered by that thing.

The moment they turn to see me, tears began to fall, some of them avoided looking me in the eye, others were trying to be comforting towards the most shocked ones, but what was happening?

I got my answer as a fell something cold ran down my face, getting in my right eye. I take one hand to the top of my head, it`s that black thing again.

I look up trying to find the source of this, but there`s no leaks? Not even pipes over my head? Then why-

“Galuby….?” I hear Moca call my name

I look at her, her face showed horror, what`s happening?

“I- *COUGH* *COUGH*”

I can`t complete my sentence, hard coughs and heavy wheeze start to kick in making me tear up a little.

Wait, these are not tears. My sight was getting fuzzy as black tears started to pop out.

This is it, something was extremely wrong with me, non-stop coughs didn`t helped my tears, this attack seemed endless. It`s hard to breathe.

Then, calm, quietness, the coughs stopped, not like I can say the same for the tears but at least I can talk.

Some of that black substance was coming out of my mouth, my tears were black and apparently, there was more of it all over my head, dripping, completely covering the sight of my right eye.

My heart wasn`t beating fast, in fact, I think I couldn’t even feel it. I swallow something that felt like I rock, and shakily try to speak once again, using the words I could only think of at the moment.

“He- Help me….please….”

I breaking in sobs I finally collapse to the floor. Moca was faster and got close to me to try and comfort me.

I look up at her with my face covered  in black tears, as soon as I felt her hug me I clutch on her shirt like my life depended on it and kept with my fearful cries and shaking.

This is the first time I was scared of actually losing my life.

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Keep walking

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Hugs

I remember comfort

I remember kind words

I....

I have to find them

 ok here y`all go TAKE IT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

(i will think of a part two)

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Repeat.

What are we thankful for?Whom are we thankful for?

Take a minute to think about it.

Working two jobs that let me provide and have financial stability.

Working a job (from home) with a strong support system that helped me improve my mentality.

My family, my son.

Now why are these important?

Without my job, I wouldn’t be able to do the fun things in life. Have food to eat. Have real world experience. Which is very important. The interactions I recieved at the hospital can be very vague or very phenomenal. I’ve heard so many stories , and learned so much from others.

Monat, people think the most negative about it. Ive never met such influential women who have helped me focus on my self growth after all the damage I’ve been though. It’s helped me push through my roughs to carry out my journey.

My family, didn’t have to put up with my bs I’ve ever put them through ,but they’re my support. My son , for being able to love like I’ve never loved before. To be able to watch him and my family grow together.

Now here’s where you keep fighting for what your worth is.

Are you confident or what you do? Does it make you happy? Stick to what does, but also know that jumping out of your confort zone can open a million of other opportunities for you.