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Family Gatherings - @noblehouseofgay - word count: 993 - 25 Days of Jegumas - Are family gatherings always positive?
Regulus Black paced the polished marble floors of the drawing room, his steps quiet but frantic. The flickering flames from the ornate fireplace cast his shadow against the room's dark-paneled walls, making him look even smaller than he felt. He tugged at the sleeves of his perfectly pressed shirt, his nerves fraying with every passing second.
It was absurd, really. He knew that. Inviting James Potter to spend Christmas at Grimmauld Place was nothing short of reckless. His parents—strict, old-blooded purists—wouldn't just disapprove; they would be scandalized. But the thought of enduring their oppressive atmosphere and pointed disapproval alone was unbearable.
Besides, James had insisted.
"I’m not leaving you to deal with those stuck-up wankers alone, Reggie," he’d said, his voice warm and resolute. "And if I’ve got to wear something posh to charm them, so be it. Just tell me what to bring, and I’ll be there."
The doorbell echoed through the house like a tolling bell. Regulus froze. Kreacher shuffled past with a grumble, muttering something about "unworthy visitors" as he went to answer it.
Taking a deep breath, Regulus steadied himself and stepped into the hallway.
James stood in the entryway, a grin lighting up his face despite the oppressive atmosphere of Grimmauld Place. He was dressed impeccably: a crisp, tailored suit in deep navy that complemented his warm complexion, polished shoes, and—was that a silver tie? Regulus blinked.
“You…clean up well,” Regulus said, his voice betraying a mix of surprise and affection.
James laughed, stepping forward to press a quick kiss to Regulus's temple. “Told you I could be fancy when I want to be. Now, where are these terrifying parents of yours?”
Before Regulus could respond, Walburga Black swept into the hall, Orion trailing just behind her. Her sharp eyes narrowed as they landed on James.
“And who, pray tell, is this?” she asked, her voice icy.
“James Potter,” James said smoothly, extending a hand. His tone was polite, but his confidence was unshakable. “Regulus invited me to join you for Christmas dinner.”
Walburga ignored the hand, her lips curling in disdain. “A Potter,” she repeated, as if the name itself was a curse.
James's smile didn’t falter. “That’s right. I hope to prove I’m not nearly as dreadful as you might think.”
Walburga raised an eyebrow, her gaze darting to Regulus. “And why, exactly, is he here?”
Regulus opened his mouth, but James beat him to it. “Because your son deserves a Christmas where he’s not suffocated by tradition,” he said lightly, though his eyes flashed with determination. “I thought I’d lighten the mood a bit.”
Orion, who had been quiet until now, gave James a once-over. “You’re the Quidditch player, aren’t you? Chaser for Gryffindor?”
James nodded. “That’s me. Regulus and I had some memorable matches.”
Orion smirked faintly. “I’ve heard you’re talented. A shame about the company you keep.”
James’s jaw tightened, but he forced a smile. “Funny, I was going to say the same,” he replied smoothly.
Dinner began as a cold, tense affair, with Walburga and Orion making thinly veiled comments about James’s background, while James parried with polite but firm replies. Regulus sat stiffly, his hands clenched under the table, trying not to let the tension overwhelm him.
The breaking point came during dessert. Orion, who had been sipping from his wine glass with increasing disdain, finally set it down with a loud clink and leveled James with a withering glare.
“Tell me, Mr. Potter,” he began, his voice dangerously low, “do you honestly believe you’re good enough for my son? A Potter, whose family has spent generations cozying up to Mudbloods and half-blood filth, daring to sit here and play the part of a respectable wizard?”
James froze. The jovial light in his eyes disappeared, replaced by a sharp, simmering anger. Slowly, he pushed his chair back and stood.
“Father,” Regulus said quickly, his voice taut, “that’s enough.”
But Orion ignored him, his gaze fixed on James. “No, let him answer. What does a boy like him think he can offer someone like Regulus? Respectability? Status? Power? You have nothing, Potter, and you will never be anything more than a stain on wizarding society.”
The next moment happened in a blur. James’s fist curled at his side, his knuckles white as his temper boiled over. He took a step forward, his posture rigid and threatening.
“Say that again,” James said, his voice low and deadly.
Regulus was on his feet in an instant, stepping between them. He placed a hand on James’s chest, his touch firm yet grounding. “James,” he said softly, but urgently. “Don’t.”
James’s eyes flicked to Regulus, his fury wavering under the younger Black’s imploring gaze. Slowly, he unclenched his fists, exhaling through his nose as he stepped back.
“This is what I mean,” Orion sneered. “Hot-headed and impulsive. You’ll drag him down with you.”
James turned to Orion, his voice calm but cold. “The only thing dragging Regulus down is this house and the people in it.”
Walburga gasped, her face a mask of fury, but James didn’t stay to see her reaction. He grabbed Regulus’s hand and said, “We’re leaving.”
Regulus didn’t argue. He let James lead him out of the dining room, their footsteps echoing in the stunned silence.
When they reached the hallway, James stopped, his shoulders rising and falling as he struggled to rein in his anger. Regulus placed a hand on his arm, squeezing gently.
“Thank you,” Regulus murmured.
James looked at him, his expression softening. “For what?”
“For not punching my father,” Regulus said, a faint smile tugging at his lips.
James chuckled despite himself, wrapping an arm around Regulus’s shoulders. “Don’t thank me yet. Next time he opens his mouth, I might not be so restrained.”
Regulus leaned into him, his heart swelling with gratitude and love. “You were perfect,” he whispered.
James pressed a kiss to the top of his head. “And you’re worth it.”
#25 days of jegumas#25daysofjegumas#jegulus#starchaser#sunseeker#sunwater#james potter#regulus black#microfic#this might not be exactly a family gathering? but i'll roll with it
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Could you draw a little mini doodle of all of your favourite ocs next to each other?? No need for big effort, but I'd love to meet them!! :] Also happy holidays
Sorry for taking so long, thanks for the request!!
I was very excited for this one I gotta be honest...
I split them into sections to make it easier to see.
First there's my Elder Scrolls ocs because I love them all. We've got:
Rasha, who I'm sure I don't have to explain who she is at this point.
Setha-Ei (or Squints-At-Men). My precious little guy. He likes to punch things. He canonically has anaemia, horrible eyesight and he can't read (these are all results of jokes I made with my bestie and it was just too funny to not make it canon). Fun fact, he's sorta loosely inspired by Anjanath from mhworld.
Konrad is also a little guy. He gets angry a lot. And he's bad at controlling his magic.
Next we have my absolute favorites. These are ocs from a story/universe I'm working on. I'm still thinking if what to call it but I use Lorestone/Kamień Wiedzy in my head. We've got:
Diphy! She has amnesia and terrifying visions of the world splitting. The only thing she remembers is her own name and how to cook absolutely amazing food. She also has a weird artifact with her and it's a tool that will show her the way to stop her visions from becoming true.
Tagetes! He's basically a depressed guy that was asleep for a thousand years because he lost someone dear to him. He's good at making tools and prosthetics (he even made some for Diphy!). A few months after he woke up he was taking a stroll on a floating island near his house and he got caught in a storm and ended up finding a sarcophagus and a very confused Diphy inside it. Then he got dragged into helping her with her mission and recovering her memories.
And lastly, these two! They're also from the Lorestone universe.
Nyja is a very fun character for me and I love her very much. She doesn't exactly take part in the story and she's more of a lore character. She's basically something like a goddess of dead people that were wronged in life and she works for Judgement (the name is pretty explanatory but they basically decide the fate of souls based on what kind of person they were). She's very chaotic and unhinged and she ate an entire planet once. She has the title of Designer/Projektantka and what it means is basically she makes new vessels for souls that get a second chance at life. A fun fact is that she designed Myo's body.
Myosotis is also a very beloved character of mine. I'm still working on her design since I keep changing it over and over. She's a huge mystery for all the characters in Lorestone (except for Nyja cause she knows what's up). She's not exactly having a good time.
I could talk about my ocs forever, honestly. Very happy about this request. Maybe I should post about them and Lorestone more. Would that be fun?
#this like literally my special interest#i love worldbuilding so much#i have a whole document where im figuring out everything about Lorestone#i guess ill stick to that name huh#thanks for the request again!!!!! :DD#digital art#original characters#oc#tes ocs#muscariocs#rashaposting#muscariart#forgot to add but another fun fact is that tagetes is trans#and also konrad and setha-ei#woops haha
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Soup solves everything.
#dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi spoilers#Senshi#izutsumi#chilchuck tims#laios touden#marcille donato#THE SOUP CHAPTER HAS BEEN ANIMATED#I have so many thoughts about senshi's backstory and how much that experience has shaped who he is.#This is such a powerful moment because it makes it clear how *stuck* senshi has been because of his trauma.#Up until now he has been a mystery! He's the chef guy! Don't worry about his apparent reclusiveness from society!#Don't worry about his intense need to make sure 'the young ones are fed'!#Senshi still has a lot of healing but this was the moment he could finally forgive himself.#This chapter is so important to me because sometimes you truly do need to face the most terrifying things to move past them.#This joke here is a bit too narrow to be funny for the masses...but mdzs fans know.#MDZS :handshake: Dungeon Meshi: Soup moment.#Laios and Jiang Yanli have a powerful magic call "Eat some soup and maybe you'll feel better'#That is also a spell you can cast upon yourself. Go eat some soup and you will feel better. Merry Soupmas everyone.#One more week of Thistle Thursdays....I'm not ready to say goodbye B*(
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Human fear is the window to the soul or whatever ://
#digital art#tropical's art#art#cw eyestrain#high contrast#eye strain#collinlock16#Ouuugh Zander oouuugh AwesomeG they were just kids man like broooo (Morbius too I guess that minimum wage worker)#I hope more horrors come I hope Hungry eats more children alive and Souler eats more child souls#Hungry just letting AwesomeG beg for forgiveness after asking him if he believes in god gets to me for some reason#Also I_AM_BIG_KEVIN is here#He DDOS'es soon after this#As per the video#Bro was set up by Souler but had a secret technique (“fuck you DDOS!”)#Also Souler cannot get to Collin#He's too tired#So it can't get to his soul via fear#I just realized in the part 2 of colin's thing he tells Souler to fuck off in the beginning animation#Tbh real#Minecraft ARGs but they call Kevin#minecraft arg but the protagonist is tired#I like this series very much and a normal amount :]#The amount of newspaper articles I had to download for Kevin is too many#I also made them related to what he does/his video because why not man#Also there's no way that BigK (he debunked Zander's herobrine sighting) isn't I_AM_BIG_KEVIN and that Zander's disappearance sparked his#Interest in the paranormal#Leading to his paranormal mercenary job#Also shoutouts to the total of 2 (I know there's more lol) fellow Oneshef Minecraft ARG fans out here#We need more people watching this it's good and funny and terrifying and it loves and hates the state of Minecraft ARGs and the universe#Said I love you or whatever
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mxtx characters who, in my humble butch opinion, should be butch
Luo Binghe: listen. look me in the eyes. in a genderswap situation, Binghe should get to be butch. one of the key themes in SVSSS is gender, and one of the things that distinguishes SVSSS!Binghe from PIDW!Binghe is that he's not the hypermasculine protagonist and instead is allowed to enjoy more feminine things (like being Shizun's housewife). that's why he's specifically called Bing-mei and it's also why im on my transfemme Binghe soapbox all the time, but that's a whole other topic. what im saying is if we're reversing the gender situation, then fem!Binghe in SVSSS should get to enjoy more masculine things. it's what she deserves. she strikes me as the kind of butch that gets a thrill out of doing gentlemanly things like giving SQQ her coat when she's cold. she should be the Bing-di to PIDW's Bing-jie
Shang Qinghua: this one is deeply self-indulgent projection but don't fucking worry about that okay. SQH is a very specific flavor of low effort butch nerd. SQH is the cookie monster pajamas to butch pipeline. SQH cuts her own hair with regular scissors for convenience and Shen Yuan is dying to get her to just buy some goddamn clippers. SQH is running off of four red bulls and spite. She inexplicably has game and she's just as confused about this as you are
Xie Lian: imagine this for me. you go to one of those volunteering events where you're cleaning trash out of a creek or something. there is a woman there in cargo pants or maybe overalls, something with a shit ton of pockets. she has not shaved in months, maybe years. her hair is in the messiest bun possible, or maybe tied back under a baseball cap. she is somehow the most beautiful woman you've ever seen. after taking away all the trash and informing everyone how to sort the recycling, she is picked up by another woman who appears to be the definition of high camp. you leave this encounter feeling like you might have been converted to something. perhaps to lesbianism. this is what an encounter with butch Xie Lian is like.
#mxtx#DO YOU UNDERSTAND MY VISION.#the real answer is that all characters should be butch#But These Three Specifically#don't let me near your characters. i will make them all aro and/or butch and/or trans#sqh and xl are both really funny to me bc they stand out so much next to their partners#bc mobei jun is like. terrifying high femme#and hua cheng is doing the kind of camp you'd expect from a rocky horror performance#and they are so obsessed with their butch partners#with binghe it depends on which version of sqq we're going for#like if it's shen qingqiu then we're going for like. older milf. which is a gender performance in and of itself#the vibe of a middle aged woman with a weird relationship with her butch poolboy#like that's not the EXACT dynamic but that's her gender vibe#if it's shen yuan then tbh she's probably closer to how sqh is#neither butch nor femme. secret third thing: didn't know she was a lesbian#give her some time. she'll figure it out.#anyway. ouguuguhghghhghg lesbians
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BUNGOU STRAY DOGS 119 SPOILERS WITHOUT CONTEXT
#this chapter was absolutely wild#the good doctor meme was the only one i thought of immediately but the rest was just random pretty much#absolutely terrifying chapter too i must say#some of these are a stretch I'll admit but i still found it funny to use them#I have never seen the book of life movie im ngl but I was looking it up because some song lyrics from the calamatix#was also gonna include something about a knight and a proposal but couldn't think of anything off the top of my head tbh#hopefully this sows up in the tags plz plzplzplzplz#bungou stray dogs 119#bungou stray dogs#bsd spoilers#bsd 119#bsd#bsd manga#bungo stray dogs#mine#op#bsd memes
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Highly recommend listening to all the punch out themes on 2x speed
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#some of them are really funny#like joe’s cause of the fast ahh guitar#and aran’s cause of the image of him running around like a rabid dog#but some of them are TERRIFYING (in a funny)#like kaiser and soda’s cause you feel like you’re getting chased by a whole army#and sandman cause#sandman#10/10 experience#would do it again#punch out#punch out wii
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Uh-oh! You are like, SOOO awkward!!
You're so awkward that it is occasionally mildly uncomfortable for people!
You're so awkward that sometimes people are confused by you and then there are awkward silences!
You're so awkward ...... that ultimately no one is harmed!!
Oh damn!!! What a vile crime you have committed! What an unforgivable thing it is to make a fellow human briefly confused!
Why, if *I* were ever briefly confused and kind of uncomfortable as a result, I'd be devastated.... by the absolute net zero change in my happiness and health! - From which I might never recover!! Yes indeed! No punishment can ever be enough for you!!
So you better absolutely hate yourself for it.
Better be SO MEAN to yourself about every single missed social cue so you don't forget your horrible crime! Meaner than you'd ever dream of being to someone else for the same thing! This is YOUR responsibility!
You need to show the world that you KNOW you are bad by punishing yourself constantly! After all, think of all the people who BENEFIT from you punishing yourself! - No, really! Think about it! Think about who benefits from your pain.
Think of alllllll the definitely-good people that your definitely-necessary self-torment definitely helps! I mean, you can't just cut off their definitely-life-sustaining supply of your suffering, right?? Sure, everyone else has a breaking point, but you're probably the only person in human history who doesn't, right? Best not to question it probably. Sure, it's a symptom that billions of people with trauma have had, but who knows? You could be a one-in-seven-billion exception. Anything's possible!
Instead, better just accept that idea that bullies carry like guns in holsters - the idea that people who have trouble with social cues deserve to suffer. Better carry on the burden they placed on you until you drop. Aid the cause of the callous by enforcing shame and suffering upon yourself extra hard; try your best to do their work for them. They're very busy.
Better not recognize that you need patience and kindness to heal from your trauma. Better not find out that it was trauma rather than personal weakness filling your head with self-hating thoughts. Better not find out it wasn't your fault.
Better not find out that awkwardness is not inherently harmful or unkind, and, in fact, the people who act like it is *are the ones enacting harm and being cruel.*
Better not get righteously angry when you realize just how much unnecessary damage this has done to you. After all, if you get mad, you might realize you deserve better. You might even feel brave enough to DEMAND better! You might build boundaries that keep you safe! You might make other people think they deserve to feel safe too! And we obviously can't be having that, so...
Better not show yourself even a little kindness a little bit at a time.
Better not make a habit out of it after all that practice.
Better not get confident.
Especially if you can't first wipe out every trace of awkward. (And you probably never will. Because people who experience absolute social certainty at all times tend to be insufferable assholes that enforce the status quo. And you just don't have the stock portfolio for that.)
Better not be confident and awkward because then you might confuse and delight people
- you might accidentally end up making other people feel less shame for their social difficulties
- you might make isolated, traumatized, and shy people feel like they deserve to be included in social situations
- you might even make them feel they can be themselves around you
- you might start loving the effect you have on a room
- you might enjoy conversations more
- you might forgive yourself and bounce back from shame more easily and frequently
- you might come to enjoy some of those moments of harmless confusion you cause because NOBODY expects the Confident Awkward, and that can genuinely be an advantage in social situations
- you might stop apologizing so much.
- you might find that socializing is like a video game: it requires practice but also a safe space for it to be fun and positive.
Or if you can't become assertive and confident, better not remain awkward and shy and quiet, and then love and forgive yourself anyway!
Why, it would be carnage!!
In either scenario, you run the risk of finding out that it's not your fault that safe spaces full of kind people can be really hard to find, create, and nurture. You could end up building a skillset that helps you do those things if you're not careful!
If you start giving yourself even the tiniest amount of grace at a time, you will find that you've accessed a gateway drug with extreme long-term side effects:
- You might realize that it was never your fault that it took so long to like yourself.
- You might realize that you were always worth talking to, even when you didn't like yourself and communication felt impossibly difficult.
- You might realize that you'll still be worth talking to even if communication becomes harder as you age and/or experience disability.
- You might come to know that you deserve to be heard even on bad days when words come slow and blurry.
You might discover that you were always deserving of kindness, first and foremost from yourself.
So. As you can see, it's FAR too much of a risk to start granting your awkward self free pardons for your many heinous and harmless crimes. Better to just leave it there.
#social skills#i have a few posts now in my ' social skills' tag#original#maybe eventually I will compile them and polish them in some meaningful way. I know what I want to call the book title#in big text it'll say 'I'M AUTISTIC' and then beneath that in smaller text 'And I Have Better Social Skills Than You'#or something to that effect. and the cover of the book will be me making an exaggerated smug face like the little rascal I am#challenging the viewer to pick up the book and see if they can prove me wrong.#and then the entire first section of the book is about how actually the issue with our society's social skills is the harsh judgment#for people who have trouble communicating and not the other way around. I don't actually think I'm the#most charismatic person in the world by a very long shot. but i do know that I have put more thought into my social skills than#most allistic people and frankly i have surpassed most of them. not because i am more persuasive or smooth or funny#(tho i am persuasive and funny lol) but bc i have questioned which social functions are more restriction than utility.#and instead i have focused my energy on actively learning how to make people feel safe. i feel social rules would benefit all people by#being a little more autistic tyvm. i don't think every person should dedicate themselves to being better at communicating#i think people should dedicate themselves to being kind and patient to everyone regardless of their ability to communicate#I think our society wrongly links communication ability to intelligence and intelligence to level of humanity.#when in fact all three of those things are fucking unrelated and connecting them inevitably leads to#really fucked up views on disabled people that hurt us. and then with that aspect of the book firmly understood and established I would#go on to recommend some ways to make socializing easier and more fulfilling (and less shameful and terrifying) for all kinds of people#it wouldn't be a book about Leaning In To Succeed in Business or 'here's how to avoid being the awkward loner at a party'#it'd be a book about how if you see someone alone at a party here's how to invite them to join your group without pressuring them#stuff like 'hot tip! if someone takes a while to type or speak a full sentence - talking over them b4 they can finish makes u an asshole!'#I know that a lot of people cannot or don't want to dump a lot of skill points into socializing like i did and they shouldn't have to in#order to experience basic dignity and respect. if we treat people like that then we just validate that people - especially#autistic children and elders and disabled people of manu varieties - have to suffer unless they learn all these arbitrary bullshit rules#and a lot of them are arbitrary bullshit! one of the reasons I throw people off so much is because I harmlessly break a lot of social rules#but I know I'm doing it and I'm not ashamed and people just don't know what to do with that! but a lot of them like it actually!!#i think it's a relief to be around someone so openly and unrelentingly weird bc what am I gonna do? judge you for being weird??#I only care if you're kind. not necessarily 'nice' or passive. Kind. Brave enough to care about people being treated well. Kind.#also I recognize that at least some of my ability to be openly weird is white privilege so that's important to acknowledge too
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contemplating deleting my blog soon I might make a new blog but idk
#.bdo#i just need to work on some insecurity issues is all. been on a long self journey this year#can't shake the feeling that every time i say anything it's wrong somehow#and there is some reality to that. i have been wrong several times I've even been downright mean to people over misunderstandings#i just haven't been able to break out of the habit of feeling permanently embarrassed about every small mistake I've ever made#& old insecurities from my childhood are resurfacing#like when i was a kid/teen and no one would ever tell me when i was breaking social cues but they'd make fun of me behind my back#i have 3200 followers and most of my posts get 0 notes sometimes i get 1-5 so it makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong#i end up deleting a lot of them...#almost every post of mine that's gone viral was just a screenshot or picture saved from somewhere else....#and the times that i have gotten attention over a post that stands up for people who aren't like me it makes me terrified#that i look like i'm trying to play a savior role or like i'm virtue signaling#i have a few good mutuals who i love so much and that's why I'm still here#it's also the only social media i use currently#but it does really hurt when i put a lot of thought into something like spending hours making a funny meme or a thoughtful post#just to find out that the only people who find them interesting is my extremely small circle on here if anyone at all#it's so dumb i shouldn't be feeling like this over fucking numbers....it's not even real#i find a little bit of (petty) solace in the fact that there are people on here who are loudly and repeatedly saying way more embarrassing#shit than I've ever said#but even then when i know someone is absolutely wrong it makes me feel nervous like what if im the next person to fuck up that bad#and i find out through public ridicule#well that actually kinda did happen on here once but not on that scale#last year i sent someone something i thought was funny and they sent back an 'ok'#and then immediately made a huge long post about how you shouldn't talk to strangers like you're already friends#called it parasocial behavior...got tens of thousands of notes and i knew it was about me...#i wholeheartedly agree some people go too far with parasocial behavior but i never fully understood what part of what i said/did was wrong#and i went back to feeling like the kid who never found out they were doing something wrong until they heard that they got made fun of#i don't even attempt to make new friends on my own on here anymore because i'm terrified of that happening again#almost all of the people I've become friends with on here came to me first and i love and appreciate them for that#but even then i feel too nervous to socialize that often bc i never find out/realize that i fuck up until later on
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Low key this was probably my favorite part of the episode
#this was an actually funny fucking joke I’m so happy#also a good reaction gif out of it#this and where alastor freaks out at the end where probably some of my favorite parts#like seeing alastor actually slipping I guess and showing fear was the one thing I felt had great buildup#idk just seeing a powerful and mysterious character terrified and panicking for the first time after establishing their like#unwavering mask is a recipe for good tv#although him seeing them as friends or actually caring about them I don’t buy#it just felt like him calling them friends came out of nowhere man. I know they only have 8 eps but dude#hazbin hotel
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asking for help always makes things worse
#I need to just accept that I’m never going to be given any understanding or actual help#I may never escape these worlds it seems it doesn’t matter how hard I try I can’t get anyone to listen to me#this feels traumatizing I feel entirely beaten and ground down into something small and helpless#I have no control at all I keep trying and trying and trying and trying and for what#I need somebody to just listen to me atp not being dismissed is better than nothing but everyone’s a curation anyway no real thoughts or#feelings but it doesn’t matter I don’t even care please just listen to me somebody listen to me I’m so confused do curations have some#autonomy I don’t think so maybe I don’t fucking know they said yes on the clock so perhaps yes so please just listen please pls pls pls pls#I can’t be traumatized I’m not human right but I’m having everything stripped from me every last ounce of control the shadow ppl have all#the control which is funny I’m fairly certain I’m one of them but they still can strip me of control I was bred for this#please somebody help me I keep begging like it’ll do anything can you at least help with the ppl and cameras in the vents#are ppl from the real world watching through them I believe so can anything be done something has to be done escape the impostors something#just something please just listening would help actual listening not dismissal you can think whatever you want about me but listen#maybe some have autonomy and some don’t ?#please understand that I’ve tried very hard I’ve tried very very hard suicidality and homicidality have dug their claws into me even further#I don’t know what else to do I’m at a loss and no one will listen to me at all I’ve tried asking offline I’ve tried asking online it doesn’t#matter what I do where I ask no one will listen even the ones who do somewhat say they don’t know what to do I’m suspicious do they really#not know what to do or are they lying that may be more an impostor thing but everyone and everything is suspicious to me uh uh uh just#listen and help please idk what to do it’s all in the mirrors and clocks and such but I need to find a way to enter the mirrors but I’m#scared what I’ll find who is looking back I’m scared what world I’ll end up in it may be their world I’ll be punished they said yes I’m#terrified can someone go in with me if I manage to find out how that’s pathetic but damn I don’t think I can anyway they’ve been crawling on#the ceilings today hahah doing some weird and wacky shit sometimes they’re a little funky and just there and other times I’m having a heart#attack no in between I know pleading with curations is likely going to be classified as annoying but for the love of god do you know what#else I am supposed to do ??? at the very least just listen to me please it is 02:14:46 how synchronous ! I can’t stop having what I think#are dreams about the mental hospital too haha they send me to dreamworlds sometimes trap me in them waking dreamworlds see I’ve been reduced#down into something tiny I’ve resorted to begging once again do I even want to beg am I lying to myself my words aren’t my own my thoughts#aren’t my own so is this not my own can’t ever speak none of it’s my own it feels unsafe especially to speak of anything that isn’t this#it isn’t safe it isn’t my own it’s not the focus idk idk idk should I ask to talk to someone again I wonder I want understanding for my#situation please listen to me the joints hurt aaaa#my life is a playyy is a playyy is a playyyyyy anyone like marina that song appeared in the head I wonder where that spider went it better#not be inside of the body ok ok ok anyone yes help wanted help needed 02:22:22
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Me staring at the spider on my wall that is making its way closer to me by the second:
#haha I find myself to funny sometimes#leonora lesso#lady lesso#sge#dovesso#tsgae#relatable or am i just a coward#probably both#I get that spiders are cute to some people#no offense#but I find them terrifying#TW: Spiders
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okay in fleabag the fourth wall breaks are a metaphor for dissociation yes i will agree with that but i don’t see people talk about how it’s also her performing for an audience - she is using this imagined audience in order to feel seen and heard in a way she isn’t in her real life, a way for her to validate herself through the lens of others and when hot priest calls her out on it it’s because he is actually!!! seeing her!! and when they’re having sex it’s the first time she pushes that audience away and refuses to perform she is present in that real life moment and being seen etc by hot priest. i’d argue that the dissociation goes hand in hand with that performance like she dissociates in order to perform for an imagined audience and also i think that other interpretation of the fourth wall breaks are valid i don’t think there’s one complete and total explanation/answer as to what they mean. much like in real life our coping mechanisms are often used in response to a multitude of situations/traumas and can represent multiple things about our psyche !! anyway just wanted to share my thoughts
#obviously having lots of fleabag thoughts i had to get them out#i just think fleabag’s audience is a very very important part of her story and character#and how she is always performing for this imagine audience and for everyone in her life she is rarely being honest with the people she loves#because that is vulnerable terrifying too much etc !! She is Too much so she acts extroverted and funny and performs for everyone always#until the hot priest who cuts through it and sees her even when she’s still performing for him and she is forced to be honest#even when she is thinking only in terms of wanting to fuck him#and that is how she finds herself loving him abs also how their love/his love changes her for the better!!!!#anyway :-)#fleabag#fleabag meta#laura says some things
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More MDZS and Hollow Knight! The cool bugs I found in my backyard have started to unionize.
Part 1 - Part 3
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#hollow knight#mdzs au#mdzs hollow knight au#Once again not tagging all the characters due to sheer volume#Thanks for the warm and lovely reception on the first part of this crossover!#even people who haven't heard of hollow knight were very sweet and excited.#I redrew and redesigned some of the characters that people were asking to see#and while I still think I could play around with them a little more I'm pretty happy with the results B*)#JGY getting kicked down the stairs is part of his personality at this point. Of course I had to introduce him as such#Im pretty sure its not JZX who kicks him the first time but birthday boy on birthday boy violence is too funny to pass up#Madam yu being mosskin-like but distinctly not from the same clan was pretty important to me when designing her. But I was at such a loss!#By *chance* I saw The Hunter's design and thought 'YEAH THATS THE ONE'. Let milfs be terrifying.#Little apple originally was gonna be 'the girl who's backyard this all takes place in' but ....little bug steed....#In case you are wondering whether the Lan juniors are suspicious of the fact LSZ has twice as many legs: No. He's 'just like that' to them.#Part three will be in less than a week! Time to see the other side of the crossover!#I am so happy that I can draw silly crossovers and have people cheering me on! Yippee!
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If anyone would like to talk about my silly DCA/MLP AU Robots in Ponyville, please do! I am losing my mind over here and I must share the brainworms. Woe, fanfic not-quite-summary be upon ye.
Okay! So! In Robots in Ponyville the Daycare Attendant gets sent to Equestria through chaotic anomalous means just before they incur any damage from the fire at the end of Security Breach.
After several misunderstandings Sun gets adopted into the Mane 6 friend group. Mainly because he's obviously not from their world and as the Elements of Harmony it's their duty to help him, but also because Sun genuinely vibes with Fluttershy and Twilight and they come as a package deal.
Over the course of the story Sun and Moon struggle with their senses of identity and personhood, and what it means for a Fazbear Entertainment bot to exist without Fazbear Entertainment. They find a lovely little family with the residents of Ponyville, and must eventually decide between returning home where they belong or staying with their newfound only friends.
I have!! So many thoughts about character relationships (platonic) and would love to ramble about them and hear what other people think!!! It started as a crackfic idea based on a dream but oughh I don't think it's a crackfic anymore.
#beetle chittering#robots in ponyville#sun/moon are biblically accurate too#part of me wants to redesign them later in the story because i think the magic inherent to equestria would alter them in some ways#but the idea of game-accurate Sun FNAF hanging out with Pinkiepie MLP is so funny to me#he would be terrified of her btw
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when youre trying to live alone out in your field lab but then these two yahoos follow you out there and now they wont leave????
#my art#su is a very tired scientist butterfly woman#in my mind she was the one that initially designed the Infinite Prison Cubes that apparently all the espada have on them lololol#she was initially working with szayel bc they were both sciencey/researchy types. before he became espada lmfao.#buuuuuut unfortunately szayel is a bastardous man and. i havent decided if he steals her research and claims it as his own#or just frames her for something and smears her name#regardless she was demoted and was more or less forced to be a guard for one of the outer guardhouse things (think aisslinger and demoura)#it might just be that once he was promoted to espada she was. more or less considered part of his fraccion and she was uh#more than a little bit horrified/terrified of him. and was like ''please let me go anywhere else i cannot work with this man anymore''#vinetta WAS a gardener but after her greenhouse was destroyed she had a bit of a mental break and fled las noches#vinetta is a venus fly trap woman who also has some rafflesia shit going on because i think its cool.#she has a one-sided crush/fascination with rudbornn and yes. it is just bc theyre both plants.#theres no deeper reason for it.#also think its funny for him to see her and immediately be like ''oh no not you again'' and her just being like ''RUDY IS THAT YOU~~~~~<3''#marisol is nirgge parduoc's younger sister#shes a crocodile. and as huge and strong and epic as she is#she simply does NOT want to fight. she'd much rather just chill. and thats why she was kind of kicked out of baraggan's lil gang#her weapon normally looks like a pair of brass knuckles.#vinetta's zanpakuto is her umbrella jhfgjh#su's is just a very boring looking dagger. i was thinking it'd be funny for her weapon to look really cutesy or something so she would#DREAD taking it out hskjdfhdkj
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