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every day i get up and work 😔
#i won’t complain about having a job#but some days i wish i didn’t#angelic hyperbolas.txt#if you google japanese work environment you can understand work and overtime keeps me too busy to write anything or pursue a hobby 😔#once my work load decreases i want to learn how to do fan translations. i think that would be useful 😊
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quick psa bc apparently it still needs to be said
DO NOT REPOST ART
idk in which language i have to say this for y’all to understand
DO NOT REPOST ART
i dont CARE if you credited the artist i dont CARE if u found it on pinterest i don’t CARE if you found it on instagram i don’t CARE if u found it laying in the corner of the sidewalk i don’t give a shit. it’s simply not yours to take and post without permission
repeat with me. you can repost only. and i mean ONLY. if the artist has given you explicit permission BEFOREHAND, asking them after you reposted does absolutely nothing. nada. nisba. niente. zero. it’s even worse.
(and permissions to repost are not blanket statements. if an artist is ok with reposting it doesn’t mean that another artist will be too, if you have the go-ahead to repost a certain art doesn’t mean that the permission extends to the rest of the artist’s work as well. “oh but i thought—“ i don’t cARE. ASK EVERY TIME.)
PLEASE begging to show even a crumb of respect for artists/writers/creators and their work it really is not that difficult
#im so doneeeeee i’m so fucking done i’ve had it up here with this shitt#i wish my art getting reposted didn’t make me so massively uncomfortable i’d be way more at peace and have less gray hairs#its ok to rb btw#but if u add some dumb take i will pulverize you#send post#yes i will rb this multiple times during the day i Will be making sure to cover more timezones djhdsj
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whatever happens, please don’t break
#god not a fucking DAY goes by where i don’t think of that one interview and this quote#does anybody have it word for word? please? i’ll pay you#literally every single time i think about how kunikida as w character was MADE for dazai. specifically to share his suffering#i actually sob into my hands because that means they were both destined for tragedy together and the long dark road they will walk#will at least not be lonely. because they have each other. they are each other’s light in the darkness.#DO YOU UNDERSTAND#bro the fact that kunikida is painfully aware of the imperfection of the world and how he still continues to fight for his ideals#paralleling dazai who finds humanity beautiful but cannot become attached bc he feels alienated from emotion#THE WAY THEY COULD HELP EACH OTHER????? SICK SICK SICK I AM SICK#i love kunikidazai sm i wish more ppl could see the potential#but some of you aren’t ready for the sheer perfection of their dynamic#also i’ve noticed that i am only capable of drawing dazai properly when it’s with kunikida what’s up with that 💀#and sorreyy i know their height difference isn’t THAT big but i didn’t realize until i was halfway into the coloring 😔💔#osamu dazai#dazai osamu#kunikida doppo#doppo kunikida#kunikidazai#knkdz#kunizai#lotus draws
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EVERMORE by taylor swift (feat. bon iver) — “and i was catching my breath, floors of a cabin creaking under my step. and i couldn’t be sure, i had a feeling so peculiar, this pain wouldn’t be forevermore.”
my #swiftiegiftexchange2024 for @lovesickallovermybed!!!! 🫶🏽🫶🏽
#HIII HII HII how are you <3333 SO sorry for being slightly to the party but HII#i saw that you are currently recovering from surgery and i‘m wishing you all the best and =a faster recovery 💗💗 i hope you’re okay and#are feeling and getting much better every day 💗💗💗#i’m your anon swiftie and it was really nice to get to know you!! 🫶🏽 you’re super super talented and your gifs are so so STUNNING#it was such an honor to be your anon for this event and i had such a fun time making this !#i was SO excited when i saw that some of your favorite ts songs are evermore and idsb. really really sorry i didn’t have the time to make#something for both because my laptop went dead for sometime and i ended up only having the time to make this 😭#evermore the song is something i hold and cherish deeply in my heart too and it was something that has seen some of the worst of my days#and so i decided to do this song for your gift instead!#i can’t really gif much and couldn’t even try#because my laptop in which i had installed ps in went rip so i decided to make you this#(slightly messy sorryy) scrapbook of my view of the song! i tried to incorporate some of the descriptive lyrics and the objects mentioned i#the song and i hope you like it 😁!#and because i think evermore is also something that IS meant to be incredibly personal to the people that listen to it#i decided to include some photos (+added highlights on every lyric that has ever touched me which is almost everything as you can see 😭)#of some of my journal pages on which i rewrote the entire lyrics (except bon iver’s addition 😅) in ‘21 when the song meant to me the most!#i hope you're having a great dayy love 🫶🏽🫶🏽#SwiftieGiftExchange2024#taylor swift#tswiftedit#evermore#*my edits#nadine.mp3
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I just want Peri to go back and be Devs babysitter. Knowing Dev lost his memories and trying to do right by this kid. Trying so hard to not make the same mistakes.
But I also want Dev to be scared to tell Peri he remembers because what if Peri has to leave then or if Jorgon comes to actually wipe his memories. Ao Dev doing his best to act like he did before he had his change of heart.
Basically Peri desperately trying to be a better god parent and Dev desperately (and failing) to be a bad ungrateful kid. (It’s how he sees his past actions)
Then we get guilt of Peri seeing how much of Devs happiness was lost with his memories and how much of a set back this is gor Dev while Dev seeing how mean he is to Peri and how miserable he is making him, which is worse this time because hes doing it on purpose. Dev now knowing Peri really does care but feels forced to be mean so not to slip up and loose Peri again. And Peri now having seen how bad at this he is. Seeing how he is still failing Dev at every turn. But neither willing to give up the other because they know what could have been. Peri knows Dev is a good kid. Dev knows Peri cares about him.
#fop a new wish#angst#fop peri#fairly odd parents a new wish#fairly oddparents#fop dev#peri fairywinkle cosma#peri fop#prompt post#idk yall I lost it at the end cause typos#but I didn’t actually get about six hours of sleep this weekend so idk this should be some of my best work#obsessed with a book series and i have decided to do that instead of sleep#now iys one am and im not allowed to sleep because I have work tomorrow#anyway I just want them to auffer ok#none of this is new but if I don’t type it out I can’t go on with my day
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Suptober - Day 14 || Fever 🤒 [x]
#suptober23#destiel#destiel fanart#dean winchester#castiel#spnfanart#wiggleart#some sick comfort lol#and of course the day of this prompt is the day I get my period smh#I wish I had a Dean to help nurse me back to health lmao#get well soon Cas!#for the coloring pages I think I’m going to put a pattern on the blanket I just didn’t have the time today
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I always try to not be shy about the fact Pio does not pass as a man at all, and that he is in a situation where he cannot take the steps to do so (medically transitioning basically)— not just financially, but mentally too.
He hates his chest, his private parts and the fact they cause hin extreme dysphoria once a month from his period, his voice is audibly feminine, he even has very "soft feminine" features, he is often mistaken for a butch woman and misgendered a lot (he's also very anxious about correcting people, since he's afraid of how they'll react).
And I feel it's important from me to showcase these features, because they’re part of a realty many transmasc/guys/men like me go through.
The thing about Pio is that he has an extremely hard time believing he's a "real man". Almost everything in his life is an active reminder that society does not see him as a man, and he has internalised it. He is happy the people close to him (his father, Chris and his family) confirm they see him as a man, but he has a hard time genuinely believing they actually do, because he can't possibly say the same about himself.
He's on the verge of giving up sometimes, to detransition, to go back being [REDACTED] and be a woman again. He thinks it will make life easier. After all, it'll be easier to socialise, talk to people, and even find a partner. Pio is gay after all, but what gay man would love a "woman," right? Straight men must be his only option, right?
But it won't be easier, it will outright kill.
And this is why his relationship with Fellow is so crucial to him. For all his faults, the fox did one very important thing right in the relationship— love Pio for the man that he is.
Fellow didn't always have the right words, but he knew words weren't really gonna help such a dysphoric person like Pio. The constant and consistent love and support over time was what made Pio realise how genuine Fellow was with him.
Intimacy felt less uncomfortable, it actually became enjoyable. He could actually bare his features, even if a little. He actually grow to like his voice a little, even if he's fine with it changing. Everything just became a little easier when he was with Fellow, he could actually see himself as desirable, to an other queer man no less.
He began thinking that perhaps he is a man, regardless of everything. This reduction of his dysphoria was what made him more motivated to seek medical transition later one, as he finally could think to himself, "this isn't pointless." He realised nothing can stop him from being the man that he is.
Even after their falling out during their work in Playful Land, Pio still had this drive in him. He went back to his father and started working, slowly saving up to seek a way to get his hands on HRT. And although he has a long way to go, he is for once finally determined to do what he must do for his well being.
He kinda spiralled for a while because of the falling out. He even began relying on alcohol for a bit. But this new profound drive carried him every day and kept him alive.
So basically, as angry as he is with Fellow, he will always be grateful for all the genuine love and desire he was given. It, quite literally, saved his life.
So yeah ofc they make up in the end, what did you expect, to not give them a happy ending? Poser./j
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#the ins and outs of the falling out and how they make up will be talked about some....other day...likely....#they're gay and a mess that's all you need to know/j#making Pio a trans man was extremely important to me for mutiple reasons#first of all it's a nice interpretation of the whole “real boy” thing from Pinocchio#but also because I am transmasc myself#my experience isn’t the same with Pio's#but a lot of his life was inspired by mine#from the way his dad reacted to the way his cis friend unconditionally tried to support him#it does feel like I'm looking at a mirror sometimes while thinking about him#part of me wishes to find a partner that has the love Fellow has for this man ngl LMAO#being trans is such a crucial part of his character and it low key makes me emotional sometimes#I think the “a self made man” phrase fits him a lot because he had to first realise and accept his gender internally#before he could take the steps to become that man externally#he's just. a very dear oc to me.#cw suicide#cw sui mention#<- didn’t outright said it but I think it was obvious#it is almost 1am my cramps won't let me be so I will instead talk about Pio's dysphoria as I'm feeling mine <3#pio occhibelli#twst oc#harry's writing#fools' play
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“What’s this one supposed to mean?”
“Hmm..beauty or strength, sometimes.”
“Perfect.”
@sketchbookweek Day 2 - Wilderness / Witchcraft
going back to my roots of drawing sketchbook being gay in a field
#update I’m doing the silly coloured speech bc I realised i didn’t make it super clear who’s saying what jjghgd#Hilda sketchbook#sketchbookweek#hilda the series#sketchbook ship#art tag#sooo this was the first drawing I did for skbk week and let me tell you guys#it fought me. every. step of the way#i spent like 3 evenings working on the sketch just to scrap it and redo it on the next one#I’m so rusty with art I haven’t been able to do anything remotely ambitious in so long sooo yeah :’)everyone lower your expectations please#however I do think this came out kinda nice#spiritually I guess it’s a redraw of that drawing from 2020 so seeing a bit of improvement is nice anyway#i love these prompts btw I wish I could’ve done both#the flower is a jasmine btw. every website on the internet had a different idea of its meaning so I picked the ones I liked 😌#is it worth mentioning that I had some doodles I wanted to post for day 1 but I literally could not get them done on time :’)#an attempt was made but ah well. onto the next
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WILLIAM MAGNUSSON ☆ 10 JANUAR, 1997
#Skam#Skam Edit#Skam OG#William Magnusson#I refuse to believe my son is 28 today#but yeah I had to make this messy set just to wish him happy birthday#it looks terrible because I didn’t have time before so I made these in a day 😭#the astrological takes are from a few websites: the imum coeli and astro library#most of them are from astro cafe astrology—the website where I made this particular birth chart#it’s obv not the first time I’ve done his birth chart tho lmao#the only info I didn’t have was his time of birth aka what defines his rising so I did what I had done for my other baby blorbos#used the time of the clip from his POV aka 14:07#it’s a sweet coincidence that his clip aired on the first day of ♋️ and his rising ended up being ♋️ as well!!!#generally I make fun of the h@te people spread towards him back in the day#but remembering some stuff this week made me really sad actually#it just blows my mind that a fandom who claimed to be all about love#would spend so much of their time vilifying and trashing a character ‘just because’#ANYWAY William will always be one of my favorites#I loved watching him grow and become a better & happier person#more than anything I loved watching him find love#it's what he deserved: to love and be loved#Julie Andem thank you so much for loving him too#and for—you know— WRITING him in the first place#:’)#s2#s4
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the day the earth stood still is the day i felt your presence leave it, and then every day after that.
#tw grief#sigh sigh sigh.#apologies in advance as this is not the happiest yap ! i would just like to write out some of my feelings on this day#the heaviest heart weighs under an insurmountable amount of grief — the ghost of love#days like today are a twisted reminder that has every emotion flooding through your soul#longing . guilt . anger . an indescribable melancholy that could only be consoled through the sands of time#a year ago i lost my best guy friend and it’s never really gotten easier . but ive heard it never does#all i can do is bundle up the love i have for him and search for him in the clouds that take up the sky#the circumstances around his passing will never not haunt me and rather than go into it all i’d like to say is this#if you have a loved one or a relationship or a friendship you cherish .. then never ever stop fighting for it - for them.#as time never really seems to be on our side#each day i’ll live as he intended . to greet the world with kindness and a smile and passion for positivity#in his wisest words (or rather after every phone call we’d have hehe) i’ll try my best to stay awesome & encourage you all to do so as well#if you’ve read this then i’m taking your hand and thanking you#it didn’t feel right not acknowledging him at all on this blog . he’s the one that introduced me to anime + more importantly : one piece#i wish i could talk to him about it all so he could see how far down this rabbit hole i fell just as he had done#will be spending the day enjoying his favorite episodes and being gentle with the world that surrounds us#this is not like my usual yaps & i feel vulnerable posting it but i wanted to carve out a space for him on this blog#forever missing the connie to my sasha . maybe in another universe we’ll get it right#have a wonderful sunday my sweet friendz and if you can — hug your loved ones & blow a kiss up to the sky 🤍💫#thank you for being here & helping me make this a safe place .#₊˚⊹ ᰔ xoxo aims
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hi friends hi teo nation i come to you with tail between my legs i am unfortunately still alive
#i wish i could kill myself by the end of the year but the logistics are wayyy off so i’ll be a pest for a while i guess#I would be lying if i said i missed tumblr i really didn’t but yk me i have to change one social media with another so drumroll please#i’ve been posting my moodboards on tiktok literally for me myself and I. Fun activity my pinterest is already gorgeous i was like well might#as well. So yeah whatever i have an oooold queue paused i might restart it again but yeah other than that. Hope everyone is doing well 🫶🏻💞 i#am definitely not but even after i said everyone irl i feel worthless people are like Oh you crazy girl like don’t u get it i am one bad day#from ya knooooow. omfg okay you see this is why i deleted tumblr like actually writing my thoughts like no one cares miss literally no one#you are 26 get a grip etc etc. I should probably answer some asks#tt
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wednesday, november 6th. the city is underwater. the national guard is coming. martial law is in effect, but the criminal element never sleeps. looting and lawlessness will be rampant in the parts of the city no one can get to. i can already see things will get worse before they get better. and some will seize the chance to grab everything they can. i'm starting to see now i have had an effect here. but not the one i intended. vengeance won't change the past - mine or anyone else's. i have to become more. people need hope, to know someone's out there for them. this city's angry, scarred. like me. our scars can destroy us, even after the physical wounds have healed. but if we can survive them, they can transform us. they can give us the power to endure and the strength to fight.
#nov 6th monoglue hitting extra hard on this day#didn’t have time to watch the whole movie today but i sat down and rewatched this scene. did some crying. wish this world had a batman#the batman#batman#the batman 2022#reevesverse#bruce wayne#mine
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deadpool and wolverine shoulda kissed at least ONCE there were too many opportunities
#and that is my morning wish of the day#cannot believe it#didn’t blink once during some scenes#I SWEAR THEY DID IT I JUST CAN’T PROVE IT.#deadpool#wolverine#morning wish#morning wishes in the pm lmao
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for further repostober (🎃) here’s the first lino i ever listed in my shop! i did this way back in december 2020 because to be honest i needed a christmas gift for my mom. lol. this is a newer picture of a reprint but the first set was definitely a learning experience!! i’ve still got lots of misprints of this lying around hahahaha
#actually was thinking the other day i should do misprint grab bags#i should probably set that up. get rid of some of this stuff#linocut#printmaking#relief print#block print#block printing#artists on tumblr#lino#dandelion#art tag#shop tag#repostober#i did more detailed stuff back then bc i was still unemployed!! and i didn’t have print every month deadlines like i do now. lol#i wish i could spend more time on prints :’)
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hi fam !!
#weezer#rivers cuomo#brian bell#patrick wilson#mikey welsh#ahhh omg :( i just fumbled so bad socially#and i just need to like. never speak again i feel.#and i’m trying to comfort myself because like. my friend started talking badly about me#and said i only use her to vent which makes me sad because i didn’t think that was true and i try to do sm for her#i made physics study guides for her ; compliment her when she posts ; and post her on my story a lot and always wave to her and talk to her#and i dunno. it makes me sad to think that but i can’t help it; you know? i just need to be alone sometimes and not speak to anyone#and it isn’t like i don’t wanna be her friend ; of course i do but like. it just hurts my heart she doesn’t wanna be my friend anymore#and it hurts my heart so bad and i dunno what im meant to do. and yesterday i had a party#and i said a bad joke in front of the wrong people and i just. accidentally embarrassed one of my good friends and i feel so bad#and everyone js went quiet and it’s just. i feel awful and need to be like. beheaded.#and i try to comfort myself like oh it’s okay. today is a new day. but today i feel even worse about it and there’s nothing i can do#to fix this; like on one hand THERES NOTHING I CAN DO TO FIX MY BLUNDER!!! but on the other hand; there’s nothing i can do and i have left#my imprint in their minds and it’s so bad. i wish i was like. dead or something; yk? like not even weezer can make me feel better and it#sucks so badly . i wish i could just not think anymore and ignore everything in my life. i just hate myself so badly right now ; and i can’t#even be sure that i’m gonna be better cuz i just lack so much social awareness. i wish#i was more socially aware . i just hate when i get too comfortable. i wish i awkwardly sat in the corner and#didn’t speak to anybody the entire night to spare myself from any awkwardness. i hate parties!! i shouldn’t have gone :(#SORRY FOR THR BENT POST I JS NEEDED TO TELL SOMEONE AND LIKE. GET KT OHT YK?#it’s just so. ahhh i hate everything sm rn :( but liek me and the friend joke like that all the time and idk. im just. :( i feel terrible#and i’ve apologized and he said it was okay but embarrassing cuz some ppl looked at him for his reaction#and i dunno. i just feel awful and need to just. focus solely on academics until my brain is fried and i can’t function or something !
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no you don’t understand. if i watch the last ep of we are, that means it’s the last time tan and fang will be on my screen, and i honestly don’t think i can continue living after that
#like you really don’t understand#as an aouboom stan from the first moments of a possible ship in viceversa#like look at my icon I literally made it my everything#having to go through all these side couple characters that just didn’t hit right#to finally get tan and fang#it wasn’t just a blessing it was like the fates aligned and every single wish I’ve ever made came true#it was more perfect than I could’ve ever imagined#like aouboom just are these characters for me#and as much as I can’t wait to see them in more stuff and hope for a main role show for them#in some way it just won’t ever match what tan and fang is#aou and boom fit these characters so perfectly they play them so well and the dynamic is both my personal favourite thing ever and also just#so perfect like I could write for days just trying to convey how every seemingly unimportant detail of this dynamic makes it pure perfection#I JUST DONT WANNA GIVE THEM UP#I CANT LET GO#give me the tanfang soap opera where I just watch every week of their life in all its mundane yet beautiful glory#I would tune in every week until the end of days#we are#tanfang#aouboom
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