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Shout out to the person who made this idea and to all the people who made such fine angst arts about this. You all made me bawl my eyes out badly you little shits.
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I’m bringing the Jiallante angst to tumblr cause I’m suffering on Twitter and I’m positive that yall can do some diabolical shit here with it too.
COMMON GODZILLA TUMBLR HURT US GOOD WITH THIS! 
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#jiallante#king kong#Godzilla#Kong and Jia#angst#kaiju#titans#godzilla x kong: the new empire#Somebody please make more angst fanfics 🙏#For some reason yall love making Kong Suffer 😀#like leave the monkey man alone he happy now 😡#but gotta know how will be Jia's mum be reacting like to her that shes a monster she will probably be devastated#Meanwhile godzilla be throwing hands while kong tryna protect her#its gon be like full alchemist again 💀#but first it was trapper as jet jaguar would be awesome and amazing but Jia as biollante is evil 💀#but perfect idea love it 10/10#but surprisingly those people on X has never considered Jia as an ally to Godzilla and Kong like they want the kid dead 💀#anyways need more art of Jiallante 🙏 bc for personal reasons i love to see Kong and Jia suffer#BUT WILL SOMEBODY PLEASE DRAW JIA JUST BEING HAPPY AND SILLY IN HER BIOLLANTE FORM. IT WOULD MAKE ME EXPLODE#Or some Jiallante fluff 😭 the angst is too much#nah but imagine Kaylee Hottle reaction to it tho 🥲
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Blue Boy Faifa is the gift that keeps giving in episode fourteen of Perfect 10 Liners because I don't think he is even aware of how flirtatious he comes across ("I'm trying to get you to tell me your name"), yet he leaves the door unlocked for his brother to comfort his future brother-in-law even though he is pissed at Yotha. Once he realizes he wants Wine's attention, he is going to make the best boyfriend!
But Faifa and Wine might need Tawan's help to get there first.
Because he is the love guru whose spidey sense tells him when the color-coded gays are in love.
Tawan got these two opposites together!
And now red is publicly written over Yellow Yal Arm's heart for his Red Rascal Arc.
So now that Black Brooder Yotha is lighter because of Green Guy Gun, this could be them too!
Yotha already put a ring set square bracelet that is reserved for partners on it.
So Gun has permanent real estate on Cloud 9 much to the dismay of his barking Blue Boy besties when Kong seems to have a poly agenda, but Faifa's "Gentleness Shows Strength" shirt is really speaking to who he is as a character.
Because Faifa is still leaving that door open, so his brother and brother-in-law can continue whatever intricate queer ritual Yotha is committed to rather than just realizing he is IN LOVE!
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Doesn't mean he isn't judging them when the morning comes.
It must be a Blue Boy thing because Kong is also judging Faifa for being "too friendly" with everyone and their mom, which is only building up more evidence to be *the* problem in the final story of Faifa x WIne.
But as long as these two color-coded boys in love can keep playing the daisy "he loves me… he loves me not" game who cares about some judgy friends.
Because Arm certainly doesn't care that his besties Green Guy Po and Blue Boy Sand are always judging him for being needy and clingy.
But Yotha also has to deal with his brothers and Neutral Newton is anything but neutral.
He is quick to throw Yotha under the bus about his love life, but I'm hoping this dad joins the elite squad of parents with THREE gay sons since Green Guy Po is out there looking for a boo while Newton is sitting there minding other people's business. Make it happen. Amen.
But now I have to see the exact moment Warit ripped Yotha's heart out and stomped on it. I get the reason, but I also get why Yotha is still so hurt by it. Yotha can't trust himself or what it is feeling because what he thought was love was a lie.
Also, Warit has a type, and it's damaged Black Brooder. Look at the pink light hit as they kiss instead of actually discuss their issues!
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They are lucky they are beautiful because they are toxic af.
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But I'm distracted by Gun, the light of Yotha's life, making a mistake of planning a weekend visit to his family with Yotha without actually speaking to Yotha first. Babe, your man has trust issues. You cannot spring this on him and expect a good response!
Not even Faifa being the one light thing in Yotha's dark room can coax this Black Brooder into trusting his heart again.
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Now the usually happy and chill Green Guy Gun has to convince his color-coded buddies that he isn't in pain because Yotha is being distant at the mere suggestion that he wants something more real, yet nobody is convinced. Not at all. Not even a little.
Yotha is soooo light around Gun, but he is so scared to mess this up that he just keeps hurting Gun, and Gun just keeps smiling through it. They are practically wearing the same color, and I'm in a glass cage of emotions.
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And Faifa can't really help either one of them through this because he sacrifices so much of himself for others that he ends up the only one suffering each time. Wine, as another Blue Boy, please be gentle with your future Blue Boyfriend. He will literally die if you don't help him.
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Because he and his brothers are so traumatized that Yotha thought it was okay to tell Gun that he should leave him if he found someone to love him better, so now he is sitting outside a bathroom in a light shirt but a dark hallway,
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While the light of his life is crying inside of it!
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AND NOW THE DOOR IS LOCKED AT NIGHT!
BECAUSE GUN HAS LOCKED HIS HEART AWAY FROM THE DARKNESS! NOOOO!
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And now Yotha is taking out the tie that has his birthday on it after imagining Gun back in his room. I'm on the floor. I'm crying into the tie. I'm using it like a Puffs Plus with Lotion, and I'm unwell about it!
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No. Gun! Don't do that! Don't show that it hurts when Yotha touches you. Don't do that to my heart when you are basically wearing black because you love him. DON'T HURT ME LIKE THIS!
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YES!!!! KISS! MAKE UP! BE BRAVE! BE HAPPY! BE LIGHT!
BE IN LOVE!
#perfect 10 liners#color coded boys in love#the colors mean things#they are already in love#the colors tell me so#I need the lighting and wardrobe people to get raises#they are doing an excellent job#because all I do is scream during these episodes#since the colors are coloring all the damn time#episode fourteen#I have no idea if I would like this show as much if it weren't color coded#and thankfully I'll never have to find out#BECAUSE IT IS BEAUTIFULLY COLOR CODED!
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PondSand Scenes because I love them (23 ¦ ??)
S: "If you're sleepy, go to bed. You've been working all day. You must be so tired." P: "I'm tired but I want to be with you. I miss you." S: "What do you mean you miss me? We've been together all day." P: "I miss you all the time." S: "Alright, up to you then. If you're sleepy, you can take a nap here. Once I'm done studying, I'll wake you up. Then we can go to sleep in the bedroom." P: "Okay." ... S: "Oh, you're really sleeping." ... S: "You startled me. Go to sleep. I can't focus right now."
#perfect 10 liners#p10l pond#p10l sand#pondsand#pondsandgifs#perfect 10 liners the series#marc natarit#poon mitpakdee#marcpoon#gifs#thai drama#tusersilence#tusernix#tuserrowan#khaotunq#userdragonz#tuserhidden#userlinnea#uservid#usermask#userjamiec#tusermona#userspicy#userlovevivi#useralien#melontrack#fyeahthaidramas#asianlgbtqdramas#i love them so much you have no idea
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halloween in pallet
#pokemon#rival silver#trainer lyra#trainer ethan#pokemon hgss#soulsilvershipping#hc that each halloween blue+ leaf hold a gigantic dress up party at theirs … lots of dancing and drinks :p#lyra wearing her ultra cute team rocket fit silver wearing lances iconic e4 uniform and ethan as… goku lol#silver originally wasnt gonna dress up but ethan said straight to his face “dude don’t be a fking loser for once” lol#plus i think both blue and leaf take costume parties VERY SERIOUSLY they are matching every year lol#so if silver DIDNT come dressed up they would chew him out all night & probs for months after (until red told them to shut up lol)#lance suggested his old uniform since it’s a perfect fit and ethan and lyra both loved the idea#ethan is definitely on his 6th fireball + coke and it’s only 9:30 he’ll be throwing up by half past 10 easily lol#also if it isn’t obvious this is my timeskip designs lol lyra 20 ethan 21 and silver 23 me thinkkksss#all of their cute lil features too! ethans freckles silvers short hair and scar#had so much fun with tiny background details that are hardly visible but yknow what!!! its fun for me!! lol#lyra pokemon#ethan pokemon#silver pokemon#hgss#pkmn#pokemon art#pokemon fanart#my art <3#johto au
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Reading a fic that's so well written I wish I could close my eyes and just let the descriptions and atmosphere wash over me, but the dilemma with closing my eyes is, well, I then would not be able to continue reading this fic, now would I.
#fanfiction#fanfic#reading#i don't read longform fic very often but this one is so good wow i'm in awe and clicking next chapter next chapter#the movie it's for I'm not even a particular major fan of itself but I am a fan of the character and the ideas and oh my god#they perfect it to a tee in every way even better than the movie could and yet keep their characterization spot on in line with the og#it's amazing the way they balance the humour and banter with the suspense/tension and drama/horror#and their descriptions are gorgeous/pick out just the right details#their follow-up is more canonical to me as a sequel than the actual official sequel which is wrong in so many ways#and I am in love with their writing style so much my god#i'll say the fic if asked probably will honestly make a rec post for it when I'm done just because wow but here i'm just vague posting#i mean it's 10 yrs old and I've been reading fic for 8-9 yrs and it is truly one of the best I've read in all of that#from all my tags I mean you can labour a guess for the fandom or fic and if you were to guess it wow good job I'd be impressed#but anyway !!! love finding masterpieces I hope this person decided to become an author in those 10 yrs almost *sobs*#I'm gonna say the fic anyway whatever it's From Out the Ocean Risen by Bluestar god it's good (for p/acific r/im)
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I'm not longer sad (lying) so let's go back to AATC
#i erased my old blog and i'll have to start again which is perfect bc i have started to like more the idea of separate my fanarts#so creating a new blog for each fandom is a less messy#i mean... i have already 10 blogs but i swear it's better for me on this way#anyways...#BROTHERS!!! WE LOVE THEM#aatc#alvin and the chipmunks#alsooo i decided to try Ibis paint and im having a pretty good time!#i still draw like shit with just my finger but i promise ill get better!
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Rotating Jarro in the Meat Marionette Au.
Like would he have his own meat marionette? I would think so, but that's making me rotate a civilian identity. Because he's a tiny starfish, meaning he'd definitely need some sort of disguise.
So what would he have for that? Do they make him a second meat puppet using what they know about the ones gifted by the Tunnels?? Do they make a wood/metal mech suit for him to use?
Like it's not like they go out often, at least as the Waynes, but there'd only be so many times they could mention their brother 'Jarrod' (mostly overheard) before people start asking questions. Not to mention Jarro wants to know about human things and go with his siblings to shop or visit the park.
Or would the Tunnels slowly change his body to be more humanoid over time? Some sort of effect from being connected to the caves and the batclan?
Au is a combo of mine and @phoenixcatch7 's Possessed Doll Au so check that out because a lot of the concept for this Au is from it
#meat marionette au#batman au#batman#cryptid batman#cryptid batfam#jarro#jarro the starro#Honestly I love the idea of him learning how to speak with the meat puppet because he's used to using telepathy#Also I just need Jarro and Damian being brothers#They're the perfect 'someone is going to die-' '-of Fun!' vibes#And Damian would probably get attached easier to a sibling whose visibly not human and looks like tiny cute animal#Jarro is the literal baby of the family like he's like 3 and mentally 9 or 10#But would he have a 'human' body#batfam#batfamily
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I see people thinking kazuki and rei's relationship back-tracked in the epilogue, but I didn't see it that way at all personally. the only (shown) photos taken with all three of them prior to the epilogue one are either ones where rei's body language is stiff (my man's so ace and autistic coded love that for him) - AKA the field day and christmas photos - or are less physically intimate like miri's middle school photo. not only that, but most photos shown on the board are more candid photos like the beach and rei + miri sleeping photos rather than family selfies. because of this it feels realistic that kazuki and rei wouldn't immediately go for a hug for a family photo or something along those lines, and the hesitance more-so comes from a place of just generally not being used to posing for family photos still. but despite everything, kazuki does pull rei in close, and while rei's used to kazuki dragging him everywhere, he usually looks much more annoyed/dismayed when he does so. here, rei has the most relaxed smile we've seen in a family picture, and kazuki and rei are more physically close/touchy without miri being in the middle for once. I see that as a clear sign of growth and love in their relationship rather than regression. (honestly, in general, their reactions feel realistic to me personally bc I'm someone who's really close with my family, but both me and my brother often still feel awkward about taking photos HDKFG)
#buddy daddies#also unrelated but yes they can be queer-platonic or gay or still pining or in denial after 10 years#the sky's the limit baby#but no matter what they are partners... 🥺#but yea I absolutely loved the finale even if it wasn't perfect but I saw people bringing this up but it was an odd perspective to me#have no idea if anyone will read this its probably a mess cause i weote this sleepily in bed but wanted to get these thoughts out#wouldve provided pictures but m tired#buddy daddies spoilers#spoilers
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I wanna pick up a girl and pin her against a wall and give her lots of lil smooches while we giggle like the little gay goblin gremlins that we are
#thoughts#oni talks#sapphic yearning#oni has a crush#not really targeted but idk I wish I was buff so bad bro#the lesbian short person madness is getting to me I think#I want to bridal carry the love of my life plz thank#why workout why no just be buff lesbian already :(#also to be able to do those dramatic ass romantic dips during dancing#want the gorl to know I am stronq reliable and will never drop her (unless she wants me to in a safe manner)#this is why I fucking love water I get to be as buff as I want I can carry gorl no problem I can carry anybody in water I can be buff as fuc#I do also wish my arms were bigger so I could more effectively wrap them around people sometimes but that’s separate#maybe it’s just coz I had more alcohol than normal today but the YEARNING IS GETTING TO ME YALL#I wanna write lesbian music again so bad I wanna shoot gay little music videos with my paramour#sleeby bedtime where we read each other sapphic stories as they fall asleep in my lap or give versa or smth#but also girls in lap!!!! so perfect 1000/10 also just I wanna be buff so baddddddd#ship dynamics#idk if it counts but I feel like someone could make ship art with these ideas so sure#I wanna be good at dancing so I can be like a little lesbian doing the rose thing in the most dramatically gay way possible#I’m gonna be a Gay lil cowboy tomorrow for pride and the urge to dramatically tip my hat in lesbian is gonna be so strong
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I know that thematically speaking, Miri is going to go back to Rei and Kazuki. The point of the entire show is found family. But episode 10 SHATTERED my heart into a million pieces and I started crying.
And this is more incentive for Rei to kill his dad. This man is the reason why Miri had to leave, he basically took their daughter from them. Neither Kazuki or Rei are going to just roll over and let that happen. Maybe Rei would have, before Miri, but she changed him. He's going to have the strength to stand up to his dad, because to be loved is to be changed.
#he even tells her that she changed him. this ep is SO mirroring ep 1 with the kitten#because Rei didn't put up a fight when Kazuki told him they couldn't keep it. he let Kazuki take it away‚ and give it to someone else.#but Miri has changed Rei. and this isn't just a stray kitten he found outside‚ this is his DAUGHTER that was taken from him.#Kyu-chan had the right idea‚ doing what he thought would keep Miri safe. but he is TRULY underestimating how much Rei and Kazuki love Miri#he seems to think that they were just playing family‚ and that everything will to back to normal when Miri is gone#but it won't be. they will never be truly happy without Miri. missions aren't going to suddenly be perfect! they just lost their daughter!#and it's because of this ultimatum‚ ''give up your daughter and be miserable‚ or keep her and she dies''#that i truly think that Rei is going to kill his father. he's not going to accept this ultimatum‚ because he has changed#buddy daddies#buddy daddies 10#suwa rei#rei suwa#kurusu kazuki#kazuki kurusu#kazurei#reikazu#a.txt
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scrambled eggs save me 🥰🥰🥰
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I have something to admitttttt I never even finished season four of miraculous ladybug :(((
I just started getting some level of annoyed or angry every episode and it just. wasn’t fun anymore. It’s not even that I hate I genuinely really love the franchise but I think I just…care too much abt it? Like I want it to be better so bad because it has so much potential and always has but then it consistently just…isn’t. And I don’t think it ever will be and that makes me sad and frustrated and I just can’t watch it anymore I’ll watch other ppls summaries and reactions and interact with fan content but I just feel so agshahhdhrahsggs about the actual show itself atp I don’t think I can ever truly go back to loving it how I used to and nothing I’ve seen abt season 6 is making me feel any different and I just ahghhhhhhh it makes me so sad
#love the movie tho 👍#10/10 way better than the show#not to say it’s perfect ofc I mean the bar is on the floor when it comes to being better than the show#but yeah I loved it 👍👍👍#I made chocolate chip cookies and had a release party with my ladybug funko pop#just to give you an idea of what I mean when I say I LOVE miraculous ladybug but not like. the show itself.#(anymore)#(mostly)#(I love seasons 2 and 3)#(until s3 finale 😔)#(1 is ok I mean smthn about it clicked with my middle school brain so)#miraculous ladybug#mlb season 6#ladybug and chat noir
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Crystal bestie. How we feelin about The Thorns so far…. personally I have no words
SO many feelings, so few words to properly articulate said feelings 😭
It's just... So good? Like? Not that I'm necessarily surprised by that outcome but Superbloom for me genuinely felt like a once in a lifetime (for him and for me), lightning in a bottle, the stars all perfectly aligned type of moment so that was a lot for this project to live up to. And it did? I'm not even sure what my expectations were but they were completely blown out of the water and this is only the first half. 👁️👄👁️
#like??????#i liked Straight To Your Heart but I was also mindful that Ash said there was a lot of sonic diversity#and i was especially 👀 knowing so much of the album was done with John Feldmann#and that Ash also a few different times has talked about trying to make this album more accessible to the mainstream#so again i had no idea what to expect#but it feels so immediately and specifically HIM#and it feels he's found the perfect balance of taking classic rock inspiration and putting a modern interpretation on it#and it just goes 🤸🏻♀️ so 🤸🏻♀️ hard 🤸🏻♀️#ughhhhh i love it#i stg i spent the whole of breakup with this look on my face 😏#10/10 no notes#ask#hemmohaze#blood on the drums
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No way I just watched a horror game playthrough, and it made me cry like a fucking baby
#Im like 'oh! eldritch horror! one of my fav flavors of horror!! and its my fav streamer :)'#NO. NO. BAD FUCKING IDEA. VERY FUCKING SAD.#Like there is death everywhere#but thats most horror games#BUT ITS THE VOICE ACTING AND ANIMATIONS- THE REACTIONS R SO REAL AND THE DYNAMICS ARE SO IN DEPTH.#You absolutely can believe they r real people w/ real connections bc of it and its PHENOMANAL. 100/10 for immersion#And on top of that. we r given a protag who has a wife and lil ones. Like he's not perfect. but he talks about the love for his kids#And his wife too#and Im like 'oh yay :) Talk of a family! he'll end up with them in the end'#HE FUCKING DIES. HE DIED IN THE END#It's my fav thing ever when media makes the flawed but lovable protag FUCKING DIE. WITH NO REAL HAPPY ENDING.#Even better if death IS the happy ending- which its supposed to be in this game BUT ITS SO FUCKING SAD#not specifying what game it is bc im trying not to spoil it for others bc I TALKED ABOUT THE ENDING but if you know the game... u will know#the bugz speak
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Your humanity is heavenly
#Enbetweeen arts#digital art#drawing#digital painting#blah blah something about the queer allegory of the fallen angel blah blah#no but really as someone who grew up in christianity I could talk about the way me and other queer people#in that exact situation after we have deconstructed and left the faith#humanness is so beautiful. it is so real and tangible and I love the way that seeing other people’s#humanity and genuineness through their own lived experiences regardless and even in spite of (sometimes) their religious backgrounds#is wonderful and something to be cherished#also as someone who has quote on quote fallen out of the Christian faith and found a restored faith in humanity because humanness is holy#and humanness is something I can relate to that is outside of the idea of worshipping perfection#instead I can choose to glorify the strength that we have in overcoming struggles and loving each other in spite of our flaws and#differences. and I can embrace the real unconditional love that has been shown to me through the relationships I’ve made#I could talk about this for like 10 years lol but I digress
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alright, but... it seems like i am in a mood for angst this morning because just imagine this: misao meeting someone that reminds her so much of ryu and having all of her childhood memories just rush back to her in one foul swoop despite the fact that she's tried really hard to bury them. because if misao allowed herself to think about them for a second, i have a feeling she would just completely breakdown because misao doesn't even have a picture of him or anything, so she forgot what he looks like and what his voice sounds like. so even if she saw him on the streets of gotham... misao wouldn't even recognize him because it's been so long.
and the fact that she has become like a ' human ' in that aspect somewhat enrages her because misao secretly HATES having to pretend like she is anything but who she is + like i believe i have talked about once but didn't get super deep into talking about, is that she may or may not distrust humans automatically upon meeting them. though this sense has lessened over the years, it is still slightly there due to her mother's death haunting her. and being forced to face her past like this where misao is not prepared for it mentally would be kind of devastating for her, NGL. (but y'all should totally give misao someone who reminds her of ryu anyhow, and i'm not saying that to be evil or anything. i'm just saying it because there has to be some way that she works through her issues eventually and with the way she is now... i don't think that misao would be willing to open up to someone else about them. so something has to act on her externally. )
#ALL POWER DEMANDS PAIN AND SACRIFICE: musings.#NO SLEEP OF THE INNOCENT. NOT FOR YOU: character study.#ahh don't we just love being greeted eith angst at 10:51 on a monday / j AHH i'm just kidding y'all but... yeah.#i am out to metaphorically grab my poor oc's by the throat this morning for whatever reason JSJSJ#but just to expand on this idea a little bit: i feel like the kind of person that would remind her of ryu would be a selflessly kind-#and courageous person because that's exactly what misao saw him as as a child. like although he was younger than her misao saw him-#as the 'stronger one' of them both and she was always kind of jealous of him for this because whenever something bothered him he would just-#simply keep on trucking along and take the difficulty of whatever he might've been dealing with in stride. but misao in her own mind has-#never been like that. she has always been hung up over things for too long and wanted to run away from thing's whenever she's faced-#challenges rather than face them head on because she would rather DIE than be vulnerable and someone who has humanity when she is supposed-#to be 'above them' and thus sometimes misao just wishes that she could physically carve out her heart sometimes because she-#cannot take all of the pain that has been stored within it over the years. like the pain of denying yourself intimate connection with-#other's and always being rough on yourself because you HAVE to be perfect or people are going to think you're weak. though being vulnerable-#certainly doesn't make you weak. misao just has a rather unhealthy view of her own vulnerability although she can see that in other's it is-#something that is necessary because of everything she'd been taught in her time becoming a psychiatrist. misao is just sooo-#complicated under the surface and that's why i love her y'all
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