#but of course there's an asterisk

[andorshitdaily]

Wandor Wednesday Wars #4 - Semifinal

Who completes the Ninja Warrior course fastest and/or makes it further than the rest of the pack?

(see original post for more info if you don't know about the sport)

Heat 1 - four will advance to the finals

Remember, FOUR will move on!! Vote for any of the four people you think should make it to the final, not necessarily who you think would WIN.

[craftbreak]

My favorite loopchat is definitely "did you know your eyes are two different shades?" but tbh i haven't stopped thinking abt the one where siffrin asks if loop is a star and they say some shit like "I'm more like a mirror. It'd be boring to be the real thing" ever since i finished the game w twohats

Like loop's favorite activities are being vague as fuck and foreshadowing. So it's entirely possible that loop starts saying star to mean like. Actor (star of the show, the star of a play and stuff like that). And they just like. Answered that at least half honestly just bc siffrin would be like "? What are you blinding talking about" and the true meaning would fly over his head bc he's still thinking about stars (celestial bodies). + it would add to a lot of stuff loop says to you not really being lies like you might think on a first impression

[kindaorangey]

hold on wait. wait. regime change between when show!armand leaves delhi, and when he's turned into a vampire. god. i'm thinking about his speech to madeleine, his "what will you do when there is nothing left of your era?". if he tried to visit the village he came from during his time with marius, he will likely have witnessed exactly that. within his mortal life. armand believes he is uniquely suited to endure immortal life, to adapt and survive no matter what. he might have seen the fall of the lodi dynasty while he was in his 20s; maybe that's why. but god. how devastating. his village might even have been destroyed in the fall of the lodi dynasty. what do you do if you are taken from your home and when you finally have the freedom and strength to return to it, it is unrecognisable to you. fuck.

[asurrogateblog]

[jigsaw voice] hello pink floyd fan. you have ten minutes to draft a post speculating about what happened to syd in a way that neither exaggerates nor dismisses the role of mental health and/or drug abuse in his departure from the band while simultaneously acknowledging his personal agency without reverting to either unfair blame or ableist infantilization. if you fail to write something sufficiently nuanced that does not ultimately contribute to his unsolicited martyrdom this brick I've tied on a string to the ceiling fan above your head will swing around and probably kill you eventually idk give it a few rounds

[internetkatze]

its really funny the stuff that gets to you sometimes. for all the horrors that happen in Mouthwashing the thing that upsets me the most is bad things happening on festive occasions.

[intertexts]

the thing is like i would probably enjoy being able to write sex, i find it mostly interesting as a vehicle for vulnerability and intimacy and desire and fear and crossed wires surrounding all of those etc. and it's like, theoretically the pinnacle of those. unfortunately however 1) i have a petty kneejerk response against when people go ohh sex is so special and important and the peak of human connection.... nothing else can ever match to it... like ok cunt watch me!! and 2) i have literally zero interest as well as varying amounts of distaste in the idea of having sex myself* or even just like watching porn or whatever & i like, really don't know if i want to write something based of shadows of the shadows on the wall.... i mean thats what we all do anyway for various things that are written. nobody's actually a arthropod kinetic whos turning themself into custody or probably has firsthand experiences if they're writing that shit etc. whatever. but nevertheless!

[livvyofthelake]

“this character is so august” hm and have you considered that no one gives a fuck about august in most cases. and that’s why this character i literally couldn’t care less about is august. anyway

[peridots-pixiwolf]

[Start ID. An ULTRAKILL screenshot of the end of level P-1: Soul Survivor, on standard difficulty. The screen displays that OP took 3 minutes and 5.18 seconds to complete it, got the required two kills, and ended with 9648 style points, not dying a single time. In other words, it's a perfect P-rank. End ID]

easy boss

[thedeadthree]

ok ok FINEE ill make a g*ojo girlie anything for pookie i GUESS!! <3

[kermitheefrog]

after talking to a girl tn w the same illness but who's more mentally unwell than mr at this current moment in toime I'm like how can I help u bc i know exactly how u feel rn n i want u to at least get to a slightly nicer place xxxxx

[legofrans]

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[laurabenanti]

i was tagged by the ever so lovely @eddiediaaz to bold all the things that apply to me. love you, alie ❤

APPEARANCE: i’m over 5’5” // i wear glasses/contacts // i have blonde hair // i prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // i have one or more piercings // i have at least one tattoo // i have blue eyes // i have dyed or highlighted my hair // i have gotten plastic surgery // i have or had braces // i sunburn easily // i have freckles // i paint my nails // i typically wear make-up // i don’t often smile // i am pleased with how i look* // i prefer nike to adidas // i wear baseball hats backwards

HOBBIES AND TALENTS: i play a sport // i can play an instrument // i am artistic // i know more than one language // i have won a trophy in some sort of competition // i can cook or bake without a recipe // i know how to swim // i enjoy writing // i can do origami // i prefer movies to tv shows // i can execute a perfect somersault // i enjoy singing // i could survive in the wild on my own // i have read a new book series this year // i enjoy spending time with friends // i travel during school or work breaks (if i can afford it) // i can do a handstand

RELATIONSHIP: i am in a relationship // i have been single for over a year // i have a crush // i have a best friend i have known for ten years // my parents are together // i have dated my best friend // i am adopted // my crush has confessed to me // i have a long distance relationship // i am an only child // i give advice to my friends // i have made an online friend // i met up with someone i have met online

AESTHETICS: i have heard the ocean in a conch shell // i have watched the sun rise // i enjoy rainy days // i have slept under the stars // i meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me // i enjoy the smell of the beach // i know what snow tastes like // i listen to music to fall asleep // i enjoy thunderstorms // i enjoy cloud watching // i have attended a bonfire // i pay close attention to colours // i find mystery in the ocean // i enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favourite season

MISCELLANEOUS: i can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // i am the mom friend // i live by a certain quote // i like the smell of sharpies // i am involved in extracurricular activities // i enjoy mexican food // i can drive a stick-shift // i believe in true love // i make up scenarios to fall asleep // i sing in the shower // i wish i lived in a video game // i have a canopy above my bed // i am multiracial // i am a redhead // i own at least three dogs

tagging (no pressure!): @maximilff, @sculien, @singinprincess, @connie-rubirosa, @drbrennans, and anyone else who wants to join the fun~

[royalreef]

@chaosmultiverse​ inquired: “I see” Vera How my character perceives yours - Accepting

              “We are... We are one and the same, I think.

      I think. That is the stubborn thing about this, is it not? We should be. It is only reasonable, right, that we should be? We occupy very similar places in our respective societies, albeit Vera is placed within a lesser position by my people’s understandings of it, but very similar all the same. The others are not the same in the ways that myself and Vera are alike, they do not share these things with either of us, and most of our talks have to exist outside of it for proxy of what these similarities are.

      Myself and Vera both have other forces to answer to. We have people beneath us whom we are expected to command and to wield with skill, lest they suffer and die and we bring ruin to what was given to ourselves and starve us out of our own home by mass of our failure. There are expectations placed upon us, people whom we have to answer to in turn, in order to ensure the system keeps turning another day. We must keep watch over our shoulders, lest someone come to steal from our flocks, lest they poison what we promised to provide, lest they slip a knife into our backs to assume our position for themselves, claiming that they could do it better. We occupy the same orbits, visit with the same people, form deals that grow slowly and make plans that are placed with careful words and actions only as proof of what we can do. We both have to maintain a careful balance of reward and punishment, both for others and for ourselves.

      But that does not... That does not feel right, does it? This is the commonsensical thing to believe, yes, it is only rational to understand myself and Vera as one and the same, and yet it does not fit. It feels wrong to think and to say, and I am none too sure of why.

     Perhaps it is because Vera obtained her position by herself? I certainly did not ask for the title which I hold. None of my family did, none of my fellow royals ever did, and this occupies a degree of understanding among us. It is a responsibility, above all else. We are what keeps the darkness at bay, keep the population alive and happy for another day more, what is required to maintain normalcy. There is always suffering for that. And yes, it hurts, and yes, it is terrible to deal with, but it is our sacred duty above all else. Why else would we be permitted to excess, and why else would we be permitted to rule, if not tempered by the rationale of what it means to possess what we do?

      I cannot imagine ever asking for this. I cannot imagine ever trying to attain this. For a future, perhaps, for the continuation of the family line, certainly, but for the self? It is unthinkable. Alien, even. How could anyone ever progress this far, without being born into it? You have to be tempered and properly trained to possess power like this, lest you wield it with the inexperience of a child. You have to have some right to it, something which sets you apart from the rest, some proof that you can handle all that it requires of you. Not just anyone is suited to it. Even moreso that, even if a single individual was suited to it, without proper grooming, it will only be them, and their family shall fall into ruin after them.

      Who even would want that? Why would you want to be given a leash and collar to be lead around by? Why would anyone ever wish to accept the chain of responsibility? Even moreso, whoever would like what we do on its own, not as an unavoidable evil to prevent worse outcomes, not as something that you must remind yourself is earned, and that they have relinquished right to their personhood when they endangered others? All that I do is because the throne demands it, because it is necessary to its day-to-day functioning, that the world would be better off for it, that I myself am better off for it? Our other friends are afforded love by the handful, afforded to be whatever they please, do whatever they please, and not once worry about how they are seen. Why would you exchange that for this?

       It is... a stubborn thought, is it not? Why would anyone ever do this, if not bound to it by destiny? Why swear yourself to it?

      Perhaps it is like that one thing that landfolk keep bringing up, as the difference between ‘old money’ and ‘new money’? I cannot help but feel as though, even when myself and Vera are so similar, there is something... wrong. A miscalculation, perhaps, or a subtly different set of priorities.

      Either way, I truly do not wish to discuss with Vera the differences between my authority and her authority. The mere thought of bringing it up makes me... It gives me the same feelings as discussing them as those in the same position as myself, I suppose. I do not really trust it. I cannot guarantee that these things will not come back around, to be used against myself.

                                                                                    Better just to keep quiet.”

[counterturn]

It's insecurity. Love, in a world of increasing digital alienation (people communicating online instead of in-person), feels like something rare and precious. Add to this the mythological status that love and partnership have in human culture and you get a recipe for a very jealous, possessive, and insecure type of attachment.

For a lot of people (seriously, a fucking LOT of people), the simple consideration that their partner's sexual and romantic attention might not be 100.100% dedicated to them is not only terrible, but a complete, unacceptable catastrophe. There's that trope about a girl who constantly nags her man about every woman that he talks to, but even if most of us know not to be that person, for a lot of people that's the instinctive reaction to - and again, I cannot stress this enough- just the possibility of someone else claiming your partner's attention.

And it's not about abusiveness or wanting to 'own' someone or anything like that. People are just scared. Scared to lose something that they love and that is precious to them. Scared that the thing that they love so strongly and so dearly actively thinks that they are not enough. Because if you suggest polyamory it's because you want more love/sex (choose your preferred insecurity). Which means the love/sex you get from me must not be enough. And if you're bringing it up you probably have somebody in mind. Which means your romantic/sexual attention is already not focused solely on me. Catastrophe. It's a negative spiral that you can't really talk someone away from unless they've already done some inside thinking about intimacy and emotions and relationships.*

The violence comes from the last step in that chain. That feeling that, by even proposing polyamory, you have already stepped away. And because so many people derive their self-value from the attention of their partner, I would imagine it to be like coming home and the worst thing you can imagine has happened while you were away, and now that you're here there's nothing you can do about it. And I'm the one responsible for it, by the way. In case you want to kill me before you kill yourself.

The reason polyamory is hard for people to even understand is because the relationship dynamics that we're exposed to and the emphasis of the fulfilling of these dynamics as being one of the ultimate things that gives your life value (and the additional emphasis that this must all be achieved during youth, etc, etc) raise us to have tense, fragile, paranoid attachments that, even if they have very deep feelings to back them up, can still fall apart in a moment. If you look on social media, ideas like 'cheating is the worst thing one person can do to another' are seen as pretty standard course, not even really worthy of debate. It isn't easy to overcome these ideas, and if it isn't something you come up against it isn't the sort of thing you might even realize you should be trying to do.

Definitely not for everybody. I mean hell, a lot of people wouldn't be emotionally capable of processing a threesome, let alone a polyamorous relationship.

fucking hell i forget that some people violently hate polyamory and are way too proud of admitting it :/

[heatwa-ves]

selfishness ESPECIALLY unintentional selfishness is one of my favourite traits in a character

[discoknack]

Gonna learn how to use Obsidian to organize my bullshit.

Can't help people if I lost my marbles.