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bsf!chris x bsf!reader
🤍 content warning: smut, fingering, oral (f!receiving), unprotected sex, sexualization of religious imagery
🤍 summary: after a date gone bad, your best friend chris is there to make you feel better with his cock
this fic was inspired/requested by this ask that was sent in forever ago (and it was also inspired/requested by someone who asked for a plot where reader goes to chris for comfort after a bad date but I forgot to save their ask </3)
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You buried your face into Chris' chest, tears staining the front of his shirt, but he didn't mind at all. He didn't mind the tear stains, and he didn't mind that you'd interrupted him playing video games on stream. All that he cared about was that you were okay.
He cradled your head with one hand, and with the other, he tenderly rubbed your back. You hadn't even been able to explain to your best friend why you were so upset yet, and he still held you against his chest, smoothing down your hair.
"You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to," he said in a comforting voice. You pulled away, sniffled, and looked up at him with your big, misty eyes. "It's embarrassing, really," you started off, wiping away a tear with the sleeve of your sweater.
He listened quietly without judgment as you continued on. "I went on a first date with a guy, and I don't usually do this, but we were getting along really well. So I went back to his place, and things got a little heated," you started to tell him, searching for his reaction and hoping he didn't think differently of you.
"What happened?" Chris sharply asked, clenching his jaw and imagining the worst-case scenario. "It's not that it was bad or anything. It's just that he didn't make me.." you started to say, but you turned away, too flustered to finish your sentence.
"He didn't make you.. cum?" Chris speculated. "Exactly," you said, somewhat relieved that Chris had finished your sentence for you.
"He came, and then it was just over. He didn't even try to get me off after or even cuddle with me. I just put my clothes back on, he told me he didn't feel anything for me, and then he suggested that he take me home," you admitted, your lip quivering and your eyes welling with tears again.
"What an asshole," Chris muttered under his breath, wiping away your mascara-stained tears from your cheek with his thumb.
"I didn't want to cry in front of him, and I didn't want to be alone, so I asked him to take me here since it was only a few minutes away. I hope you don't mind that I just showed up unannounced on your doorstep, sobbing at midnight," you apologetically said.
"Of course I don't mind. You know I'm here for you whenever you need it," Chris comforted you. "Thank you, Chris," you replied, pulling him into another hug, tightly gripping the fabric of his shirt as if he'd float away if you let go.
"Boys like that don't deserve angels like you. How are you feeling right now, pretty girl?" Chris wondered, resting his head against yours.
"I know I agreed to it, but I just feel so used, you know? I feel stupid for giving it up on the first date. And listen, I know this is weird, but I still feel kind of.." your voice trailed off as you cracked an embarrassed smile.
"Turned on?" Chris guessed, finishing your thought again.
"Yeah, I mean, it was good up until he stopped. I was so close," you admitted, almost forgetting you were talking to your male best friend instead of your therapist. "Oh, god. I'm so sorry. You didn't need to know that," you buried your head in your hands after your confession.
Chris let out a small chuckle, caressing your back with his fingertips again. "You don't have to be embarrassed to tell me things like that. I don't want to make you uncomfortable or anything, but I could, you know, finish you off if you'd like," Chris offered, his tongue darting out and wetting his lips as his gaze fell to your mouth.
Your eyebrows flew up. "Y-you'd do that?" You asked, seriously considering his proposal. "Yeah. I hate seeing you cry," Chris whispered, wiping away another tear as it fell. "If I could go back in time and make sure the whole situation didn't happen to begin with, I would. Making you feel good is the least I can do."
He tilted your chin up to look at him, searching your face for permission to kiss you. "What do you say? You want me to make you cum?" He sweetly asked, his gaze lingering on yours. "Yes. Pleeease, Chris," you softly begged, the words surprising you as they tumbled from your mouth in such a desperate manner.
He smirked down at you before his eyes fluttered closed, and he leaned in, his lips gently meeting yours. It started off slow - a few soft pecks here and there and a gentle caress of his fingertips along your jawline, sending goosebumps across your warm skin.
Before you knew it, the two of you had been swept up in the moment. His lips passionately engulfed yours, and his velvet-like tongue gently brushed against yours, filling your mouth with the taste of a blue raspberry-flavored piece of candy he'd eaten shortly before.
You softly moaned into his mouth, the vibration tickling his lips and sending blood rushing below his waist. He reached up your shirt, gently pinching your sensitive nipples, feeling them harden under his touch. He pulled your top off over your head and admired the sight of you half-nude on his bed.
His hand wandered to the button of your jeans, and he slipped his long, slender fingers into your waistband. He gasped and pinched his eyebrows together when he felt how wet you were, his face only a few inches from yours as he explored your folds.
You relaxed against his body, a few breathy, textured moans spilling from your lips. "Let's get you out of these," Chris suggested, removing his hand from your waistband and motioning for you to lift your hips, so he could pull your jeans and your panties off of you and have better access to you.
Once you were completely naked, you leaned back on Chris' bed and slowly parted your legs, showing yourself off to him. "Look at that. She's so happy to see me," Chris seductively cooed, sliding his middle finger up and down your slit. You shuddered at the sensation and his words.
Your breath hitched in your throat as your best friend toyed with you, spreading open your labia and admiring how pretty and pink it was. He placed two digits at your entrance and watched them slowly disappear into your drooling hole.
"You weren't kidding. You are turned on," Chris observed, pumping his fingers and slightly curling them. You bit back a moan and grasped at the bedsheets beneath you. "Don't be shy. I wanna hear you," Chris responded with a smile on his face, indicating to you that he didn't care that his brothers were asleep upstairs.
You nodded and released your lower lip from between your teeth. As Chris picked up the pace, another sensual sound tore through you, but you didn't hold back this time. "That's it," Chris purred.
You peered down at the way he pistoned his fingers deep inside of you, your eyes traveling to the silver chain around his wrist and his prominent veins on his arms. With his blue eyes locked on yours, he lowered his head between your thighs and took your clit into his mouth.
You jumped and squealed at the feeling of his soft tongue exploring you, fluttering around on your needy pussy. He closed his lips down around your sensitive bundle of nerves and started gently suckling on it.
"Oh, Chris," his name fell from your lips as your tipped your hand back and started combing through his soft, brown hair with your hand. He worked tirelessly, his mouth and his fingers caressing your sensitive flesh, and he was determined to do so until you were finishing all over his tongue.
"Chris.." you whispered, his name falling from your lips again, but this time in a tone that indicated that you needed something from him. He peered up at you with his perfectly blue eyes and his drunk expression as he drank from your center. "Hmm?" He hummed against your clit, causing you to raise your hips and grind against his face.
"Your tongue feels heavenly, but I need more. Please," you requested. "More?" He asked, pulling away for a moment. You reached down and gently tugged on the collar of his shirt. "I need you to fuck me, Chris," the words tumbled out of you with fervor.
He was towering over you while you laid on your back, staring up at him like he was a god whose cock was going to bring you eternal salvation. He pulled his shirt off over his head, revealing his gorgeous body to you that had become more muscular in these recent months due to how often he'd been working out.
Your eyes danced over his chest, his stomach, and the prominent lines on his lower abdomen that directed your attention to his hard on that was struggling against the grey cotton of his sweatpants.
Before you had time to take in just how flawless he looked shirtless, he was hooking his thumbs in his waistband and tugging down his bottoms. His dick sprung out, and your gaze followed the way it gently bobbed.
"You ready, angel?" Chris asked, positioning himself between your legs. You stared down at his smooth, pink cockhead that was glistening with precum, and you nodded. Your jaw fell slack at the initial stretch as he pushed the tip into your weeping hole. Chris was much thicker than the man you'd been with earlier that night.
"So big.." you whimpered as he pushed it in a little deeper. A smug smirk tugged at the corner of his mouth. "I know, angel," he said in a breathy groan as you fluttered around him. He started to rock his hips back and forth, inserting more of his length with every thrust. You let out a relieved sigh as he found your gspot, and your eyes rolled around in your head.
Chris gazed down at you beneath him, arms outstretched and tightly gripping his soft sheets. You loved the way he looked hovering above you, his flushed cheeks, his desire-filled blue eyes, and his pouty, pink lips parted as the room filled with his moans.
You felt his hand brush against the inside of your thigh as he spread your legs open further. His thumb found your clit, and he started moving it in circles as he drove himself into you over and over again. You let your sounds of pleasure pour from your lips with reckless abandon as Chris skillfully brought you to the edge.
You felt that divine feeling brewing deep within your core as Chris drilled his cock into you at an increasingly harder and faster pace. He could feel you sucking him in, and the way your pussy was throbbing around him. "You wanna cum, don't you, pretty girl?" He purred, looking into your eyes. "Mhmm," you hummed back desperately.
"How many times?" He asked, smiling down at you. His question surprised you. The man you'd gone on the date with couldn't even make you orgasm once, and now Chris was offering multiple? You were nearly too fucked out to answer him, but you regained your composure long enough to tell him, "three."
"Three? Greedy girl," he teased you, still making circles on your clit with his fingers as he rammed his tip into your gspot. "Show me what you've got, angel," Chris whispered, jolting his hips into you in a rhythmic pattern that he loved the way you reacted to.
Before you knew it, he was driving you over the edge, and your muscles tightened around him before you started to shake violently. You practically screamed in pleasure as you came on his cock, clenching around him uncontrollably which made it hard for him to hold on until your second orgasm, never mind your third. You felt the tension leave your body.
You'd been waiting all night for this feeling, and as you were sinking into the pleasure rippling throughout your system, you felt a second wave coming on. The pressure built so quickly this time, but the release was just as incredible as the first, resulting in you curling your toes and tearing at the sheets beneath you.
Chris was holding on for dear life, trying to get you to your third climax before he let himself cum, and with every powerful thrust into your drooling cunt, the harder it became for him to control his orgasm. He was begging to finish inside of you.
However, he maintained his stamina, pistoning into you at the perfect speed and pressure to get you what you asked for without giving in just yet. You trembled as you came onto his length a third time, leaving a thick ring of white at the base of his shaft.
Once you were completely spent, he snapped his hips forward and held them still, a guttural moan passing through his lips while he pumped you full of his heavenly substance. You could feel him release his load into you, his cock pulsating in your hole and leaving you with an incredible post-orgasmic state. He slowly pulled himself out of you, admiring the beautiful mess he'd left behind.
"How was that, angel? How do you feel?" Chris asked, checking in with you and cradling your face in his palm as he ran his thumb across your cheek. You smiled in sheer bliss, your chest still rising and falling as you caught your breath.
"That was divine. Your cock is like heaven," you whispered into his ear. "Well, angels like you are who heaven was made for," he whispered back.
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Just found your account and you're automatically my fav luci writer my god?? YOU'RE FEEDING US Could you do lucifer with a virgin mc who's oblivious to advancements but gets extremely shy if lucifer spells it out for her👉👈
You're in luck, Anon! I hope you don't mind if I refer to MC with gender-neutral pronouns! I'll still describe other stuff but I just feel more comfortable writing that way :D I'm glad you like my writing so much, it means the world to me! I'll try to write more for you! <3
rating: Smut, 18+
You couldn't deny that you had feelings for Lucifer, you often thought about holding his hand or what it would be like to date him. So you couldn't help but smile when he offered to Tutor you for upcoming testing. It was a rare occasion for Lucifer to be able to tutor you instead of sticking it on Satan again, on account of the workloads Diavolo annually places on him.
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You had brought your schoolwork to Lucifer's room, setting the stack of papers on his glass table, and sitting down on his couch. Lucifer came to sit next to you, pressing his leg against yours.
Clearing his throat, Lucifer said, "Let's begin with Spells and Potions..." Trying not to be distracted by his thigh touching yours, you jotted down the most important things.
"So, What do you think this one is?"Lucifer said, pointing towards the question and leaning over.
"I think that the answer is..." You trailed off, unsure if what you were about to say was right or wrong.
"Hm, Almost correct, Can you tell me what's wrong with this excerpt here?" He said, lightly placing his gloved hand on your knee, using his other hand to point towards the line of text you misinterpreted
"Uh," you paused, trying to sort your thoughts, there's no way Lucifer did that on purpose, it must've been an accident, no reason to get worked up... "Right here where I wrote eye of eye of newt, it's supposed to be, uh.."
Lucifer's hand trailed up from your knee to your thigh "Eye of hellfire newt, a small but distinct difference, it's easy to get confused when making this potion. The effects are, adverse and unwieldy." he chuckled lowly, lightly squeezing your thigh
"Let's continue, next is...Anatomy class," He continued, removing his hand from your thigh to pull his coat off "You need to understand a Demon's anatomy," his hands drifted to his necktie, wiggling it slightly before pulling it undone.
"Our bodies inside and out are actually quite similar, except for a few differences..." Lucifer explained, going into more detail, pulling his gloves off to unbutton his shirt, the first few buttons popping away from their spots, revealing his soft skin, and collar bones. "So tell me, where do you think my heart is? Go ahead, point." He shifted his body towards you on the couch, welcoming you to make the next move.
"W-wait what?" Your face flushed, Why did he just strip?! "I, I'm not sure.." you said, looking away, even though you wanted to stare.
Even when Lucifer went to the beach, with you and all his brothers, he wore a SPF shirt, never showing his muscles in their full glory, but now, you could finally see what he hit underneath his shirt. His ample pecs were decorated by his flush, pink nipples. You could eat up the sight for hours,, but it's wrong to look at somebody like that when they're trying to be professional, or at least that's what you thought was going on.
In all reality, you were completely oblivious to the fact Lucifer was coming on to you. And Lucifer was completely oblivious to the fact you were a virgin.
"Here, I'll show you." He said, smirking, guiding your hand with his towards his chest "If you press firmly enough, you can hear my heartbeat."
your breath stopped for a moment, his heart beat rapidly, and you could feel it radiating in your fingertips. Something about the way your hand pressed against his chest lit a fire in your loins. As soon as you felt it, heat flushed through your face, looking away and pulling your hand back.
"uh- sorry, yeah I felt your heartbeat," you said, awkwardly, feeling embarrassed. You subconsciously let your hand wander to your face, trying to hide a bit in your hand.
"Hm, Whats wrong, Mc?" Lucifer sighed, in a flirtatious tone. He reached out, guiding your head to face him with his index finger under your chin, with his thumb lightly placed on your chin.
He smiled, "Feeling embarrassed? That's hardly the most...sensitive subject for Demons." Now staring you down, with those gorgeous ruby eyes, there's no way you can look away.
He gripped your hand with his, guiding it to his frame once again "Lungs, spleen, liver,,," He continued to guide your hand down, with the corresponding areas of his organs, until, he could guide no longer, reaching his waistband.
"Mc," Lucifer edged closer, leaning in, cupping your face with his hands. "Kiss me."
Blush covered your face, stunned, you squeaked out, "Why?! I..I thought we were studying.." You said, reluctantly.
Lucifer laughed, "Mc, I want to be with you. Must I spell it out further? I want to have sex with you" He blurted out, shutting his eyes, blush creeping onto his cheeks.
"But..." you paused, looking away "I'm..uh, I'm a virgin!"
Before you could look back to see his reaction, Lucifer was on top of you, pressing his knee in between your legs. "Don't worry, I'll be gentle." he chuckled, kissing you softly while tugging at the buttons of your blouse.
Lucifer took his time, savoring the moment when the buttons came undone, revealing your gorgeous skin. He trailed his kisses down, nipping at your neck, down to your chest. He used one hand to gently roll one of your nipples around his pinchers, lightly squeezing and pulling them as he took the other into his mouth. He would circle his tongue around your nipple, ever so lightly grazing his teeth on them and nipping, earning a surprised gasp from you.
He pulled away, gliding his hands down your sides to the waistband of your bottoms, sliding them right off. Drifting his hands down your stomach and dipping his fingers into your underwear, Lucifer used his middle and ring fingers to slowly circle your clt.
pushing one finger into your wetness, curling it before pulling it almost out, then repeating the process until you were ready for another finger. two fingers, then three, then he figured you were ready, not for a fourth finger, but for him.
He pulled his fingers out, sitting up over you. he unbuttoned his pants, tucking his thumbs into his waistband, freeing his touch-starved cock, It twitched, begging to be pleased.
He slid his dick in between your folds, teasing you before putting it in, He pushed against your entrance until he met resistance. you rolled your head to the side, wincing a bit, feeling a tearing sensation.
As resistance snapped, Lucifer groaned, throwing his head back momentarily as he fully entered you. He sighed, "I want to see your reaction, look me in the eyes, Little lamb."
He slowly rocked his hips in and out, raking his hands towards your chest, squeezing your boobs, and rubbing your nipples with his thumb. He trusted deeper into you, causing you to gasp. He chuckled, His hand drifting from your chest to your clit again, using his thumb to rub circles while pounding you into next week.
"Oh, Lucifer!" you moaned without thought, but that only fueled him to vigorously fuck you harder.
He pulled out, flipping you on your stomach like you weighed less than air, he gripped your hips, bringing them into the air before pressing inside you again. "Mm~ you're so tight" Lucifer groaned, leaning into you, reaching deeper than he did before. He thrust in and out, slamming into your G-spot, every time he hit that sweet spot you saw stars.
At this point, you weren't aware of how much and how loud of noises you were making, being fucked numb, heat swelled in your loins, tickling you just the right way. You were so close to finishing, but couldn't quite get there
"Ah, Don't stop, Oh shit, Please don't stop!" You cried out, a panting, blubbering mess.
Lucifer only pushed himself deeper inside you, withdrawing his hand to spank you, slapping your ass then squeezing the area. You yelped when his hand hit your ass, looking back at him with pleading eyes. He smirked at you, proud of how easily he could make you crumble
"I'm so close," he sighed, the room filled with both of your moans and pants of pleasure "Mc, Mc!"
He slammed into you, your legs shaking as you were sent over the edge, feeling waves of pleasure crash into you, before being filled with hot liquid, bringing your orgasm to a peak. you grabbed desperately onto the couch, knuckles nearly turning white as you moaned out Lucifer's name.
After a moment, he pulled out of you, his cum spilling out as well. you both caught your breath for a minute before you sat up,
"Um, thanks for helping me study, Lucifer," you said, blushing, covering your body with your hands.
he laughed "Do you think I'm done with you? Not yet, stay in my room tonight, Mc." He looked at you with those seductive eyes "You're mine, remember?"
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"Whats that on your neck, Mc?!" Mammon asked, on the walk to school
"oh, um, its nothing, you know humans they're super fragile!" you laughed nervously, hoping he wouldn't realize it was a hickey from your 'study' session with Lucifer.
"Humans are so weak, nothing like The Great Mammon!" He boasted, quickly forgetting what just happened
"sure, humans are fragile!" Asmo laughed, knowing the truth behind the 'bruise' on your neck.
(side note: thank you for enjoying my stories enough to send an ask, sometimes I get writers block and its extremely helpful, I hope this wasn't too short. love ya, Reader, and Anon!)
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Everything Has a Price
Dark!Kurt Wagner x FemReader
⚠️ Warnings ⚠️ Loss of Virginity, Rough sex, Dirty Talk, Dubcon, Biting, Corruption?
I tried really hard! so hope you guys enjoy!
Also! Per request Pixie is added! If you've never heard of the X-Men Pixie here is a link! Very cute character!
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"You gotta be Joking- A fucking Fairy?" Logan all but scoffed. The group seemingly on a similar page as him for once-
"Fae which is a type of fairy but different-" Pixie corrected, with some annoyance in her voice. Crossing her arms as she kicked her legs out infront of her as she looked out the window of the jet.
"Fairies are one thing- but the kind of Fae we are looking for closer to like, Magical creature demi-gods. They can do a very wide range of things and are incredibly powerful with magic. However have a bit of a.. wicked streak from what I read" She said calmly, opening up her phone as she looked over the snippet of readings from it.
"So what- We have to drop kick a Leprechaun to get some of this magic shit?-" Logan all but joked as he shook his head.
"Leprechauns are a type of Fae so- Yeah"
The entire group groaned at hearing this, Pixie throwing her hands up as it was clear she was just translating not making the rules.
"This is the dumbest shit I've heard in a long time- You're telling me we may actually have to box a damn Leprechaun.. What lala land bullshit is this?" Logan said a bit sharply, Jean now turning to look at him.
"Sorry but all the stuff we deal with, is a magical creature really the strangest thing-" Jean pointed out, Logan opening his mouth to say something but shrugging in agreement.
"Listen- I don't like this either however- There is some magic that can only come from them supposedly-" Scott grumbled- Jean looking at the page at hand, Dr. McCoy had been kind enough to give them a printout of what was asked, Seeing how it had originally been on a scroll which just felt ridiculous to everyone involved.
While everyone was arguing in the front, Kurt had been quiet-nervously ran his fingers over the Rosary with a far off look-
Ororo who was seated not far from him saw this and placing a gentle hand on his shoulder making him jump a bit as he snapped from his daze.
"Hey, if you want some more time we can take you back.." She offered, But Kurt shook his head calmly with a watery smile.
"No no.. I want to return to help" He said softly, The woman nodding softly in understanding as she took her seat again.
It had been only a short time since Kurt had come back from death- It was something that still plagued him. Everytime he closed his eyes he was back, and it made his coward desperately to God. More then ever before- Defeating his own father.. Xavier Gone which left them all vulnerable- Even Amanda leaving him as his death had been too much for her.. He didn't blame her either.
So now what remained of the team was flying to quite literally get magic to protect what remained of the students.
"Hey I don't make the rules! Besides you guys should had said something if you guys didn't want to go the magic route! We are almost there anyway!" She yelled at them all angrily.
Logan sighed at this. "Where is there anyway?"
"Telluride Colorado" Pixie said, holding her hand up to show the small tracking spell for the Fae on her palm.
This seemed to quell the group for some time. Watching as they approached their destination.
The group looking around in interest at the rather beautiful environment. Seemingly greatful as well for the large forested area that could conceal the X Jet and getting a almost vacation like view.
After landing the group was quick to exit to look around. Kurt looked around seemingly happier them the rest, overall enjoying the scenery of the place- The mountains inviting and the light snow on the ground giving the place a almost whimsical hallmark card feeling.
"Let's get going guys, We really don't want to stay out late if there really is that many fae here.." Pixie said calmly as she snapped them all from their mild sight seeing.
The group quietly agreed before Pixie started up her tracker spell once more and began to lead them through the rich hiking trail- Everyone for the most part seemingly enjoying the walk- a rare setting of peace in their Chaotic life.
Kurt let his eyes wonder around as he saw the beautiful landscape, Pausing at a very pretty looking blue flower that seemed to sway in the snow- Turning to take a closer look as he didn't know flowers could bloom in snow.
His steps beginning to go off the trail but Pixie grabbed Kurt's arm and pull him back to the group at surprising speed-
"Nope- That is a trap, Stay with us all"
"Trap? What do you mean trap?" He questioned, clearly a little dazed.
"Those are setups to lure people like you into their world- And if you go you won't be coming back" This made Kurt shiver in a bit of fear at the seriousness of her words, as well as the words lf a 'their world'.
Pixie decided here infront of them all to lay down some ground rules.
No accepting gifts
No eating their food
No telling them your real name
Don't walk off anywhere
And Never be Rude- Logan...
It was another 45 Minute walk before they saw it.
Pixie released the spell from her hand as they stood infront of a very cute looking home? Just off the beaten trail and tucked in a nice little grove of trees. Kurt looking around with a soft smile, finding the whole thing quite nice, Ororo smiling at Kurt as she saw him relaxed.
The group looked back at Pixie who gave a hesitant Nod- Logan stepped forward first clearly still unamused by this all, banging on the door rather hard as he put his hands back in his pockets.
They stood there for a few seconds, before the door unlocked and opened just a crack.
There stood possibly the prettiest lady that Kurt had ever seen- His face warming a bit the sight of her as she looked to them all.
"How can I help you all?"
She asked kindly, Flashing those pretty eyelashes at them all- seemingly catching them all off guard by how pretty she was.
"You're the Fae apparently we are looking for-" Logan stated calmly- His voice a bit more charmed then before cause of her beauty.
Ororo saw the way her eyes seemed to shimmer as she looked over all of them, Before a kind smile went over her face and she opened the door wider gesturing the group inside.
"Please come in, take a seat"
The group shuffled in, clearly used to immediate threats so a cozy little cottage home made then weirded out truthfully. Especially with how nervous Pixie seemed to be- especially at what seemed to catch all their attention, the thin tail with a puff of (Y/C/H) at the very end that seemed to sway behind her through the rather thin slip dress, paired with what seemed to be wings that showed only in the shadows- clearly a spell hiding them from view.
Being lead to the kitchen table that had seemed set for a feast, like it was waiting for their arrival.
All sitting there, they looked over the spread and then followed the Fae who walked to the stove setting a kettle with a soft hum.
"Now, Let me make some tea for you all. Now may I know who has come to my home?"
"Im Pixie, Wolverine, Cyclops, Storm, Nightcrawler and.. Phoenix" Pixie said quickly as she took the lead, Swallowing thickly as she looked to the women as she started to make the group some tea- All of them felt, Weirdly comforble? Like being in the fuzzy home of a relative, wanting to eat ones fill and take a nap infront of the fireplace.
"So interesting, Mine is (Y/N)" She said calmly, Pixie slightly wrinkling her nose.
"I take it.. That is not your true name?"
The women laughed at this as she turned to look at them all, her tail flickering slightly.
"No you would be correct, that is not my true name- However it is one ive grown fond of. Now what do I owe the pleasure of this visit?"
She said softly, looking to them all- however her eyes seemed to linger on Kurt a bit longer then most, Ororo catching this immediately as she glanced to her Blue friend who looked flustered.
(Y/N) made his breath catch in his throat, shifting a bit uncomforbly as he kept his gaze lowered to avoid the way the thin fabric wrapped around her hips the way her long thin tail swayed behind her in a slow pattern- oddly hypnotic?
"We are here for help.. We hear you have magic that can protect our school and hopefully give us a upper hand" Scott said, (Y/N) walking to them setting mugs in all their hands with a kind smile, Jean holding out the paper calmly- (Y/N) almost looking like she wanted to laugh in their face as she folded the page and continued her more domestic task.
"... Quite a bit You're asking for"
She said sweetly as she handed the last one to the blue skinned man, he gave a sheepish smile as he took the drink in hand- Seemingly all of them remembering Pixie's words as they all held their cups and looked at the beautiful table of food however not taking a single bite or sip- Kurt almost pouting at this.
"So, Will you help us?" Scott asked, (Y/N) looked to him and smiled.
"For a Price" Scott seemed to bristle at this slightly, Looking to Pixie first who seemed to sigh.
"Everything had a price, Im sure you know that. My magic as well" She said softly, Sipping her tea as the group shifted trying to think.
"What kind of price?" Ororo asked sitting up straigher in her seat, Logan scoffing at this point.
"Fucking Stupid shit.. Let me guess a pot of gold" He grumbled, Pixie looking to him sharply.
(Y/N) smiling at this, A heavy pressure of magic settling on them all like a silent threat- Setting her cup aside as she scanned all of them. Seeing how they all felt her magic almost wrap around them, suffocating and like it was prepared to kill them all.
"Well, Normally I'd demand something I deem as valuable.. Gold is too cheap for your guys request- However I'm generous today! I'll let you think over what you have to offer" She said suddently very cheerful as the pressure seemed to disappear as fast as it appeared. Making everyone seemingly weirded out- Looking to each other in confusion.
Jean stood up at this point, massively uncomfortable it seemed but nodded politely.
"Alright, We will find something to bring to you for the trade off.. We should go, to think about it. Thank you so much for your time"
She said quickly, Pixie following foot as the two women got everyone to almost run from the house. Kurt a bit slower as he felt something.. As (Y/N) eyes followed him as he was rushed out.
"That was... Something" Kurt mumbled, Rubbing his arm clenching his Rosary tighter.
'Return'
A voice sounded in his ear, his eyes widening as he turned back just in time to see (Y/N) Give him a sly smile as the front door closed behind him.
The group left that night back to the Jet to rest and talk about what they could offer-The group going back and forth in arguing.
Kurt however was seperate, quiet as he let his mind wonder, she wanted him back.. He could help- If she wanted to meet with him it ment he could help.
With a heavy sigh, He teleported from the Jet- Landing outside as he ventured on his own back to the Fae house.
Stepping through the snow he took a heavy breath as he raised his hand to knock but the door swung open before he could even knock.
She stood there as alluring as when he'd first seen her. Silently she waved him in with a smile, Kurt skittish as ever stepped inside as the door swung behind him.
Her hand taking his own as she lead him to the livingroom, Her hands going over his arms making him shiver slightly.
"I'm glad you returned, Now we can decide the price- You are worth more then what your friends are standing there arguing over"
Kurt's eyes widened at her words and how much her hands were on him- His face starting to flush when her hand found its way to his cheek.
"What would I be worth?"
He said sheepishly, as he looked to her. Seeing the way she held his cheek in her soft hand, thumb running at the corner of his lips.
"More then you know it seems" She hummed, circling him like prey.
"A man back from the dead-" She whispered, His shoulders stiffening at her words as she pressed her back into him. His face flushing as he felt ever detail of her body against him.
"As pure as he left, possibly more so on the return.. especially for a Neyaphem.. So unique"
A shiver went up his spine at her words, his stomach curdling at this. He'd learned of his half Heritage only after his return, not even telling his dear friends of this.
"So I wish to trade something with you for my help" She hummed, running her fingers through his dark hair.
"Are you talking about my soul?" He mumbled softly, making her chuckle as she circled him.
"No No, Never your soul.. You're innocence" Kurt jumping at hearing this as he stared at her with wide eyes, (Y/N) chuckling at this.
"You won't even realize it's gone.. Besides, How much is it really worth to you? To help your friends? Help the world? It's something people lose everyday- How different could it be for you?"
He blinked in surprise, still flushed at the offer of taking something like that from him- Especially as she placed both hands on his chest, making it so hard to focus with how he could see practically down the slip dress.
However.. It didn't seem that bad Afterall.. He had never been with anyone before and- there are worse ways to lose your virginity.
Especially losing it to someone as pretty as her-
"Just that?.. And you'll help my friends?" He asked softly, (Y/N) smiling at him and nodding.
"So, Do we have a deal?"
Her hand snaked down from his chest and sliding down his toned arms as her fingers moved just under his hand right under his Rosary waiting for it in her delicate hand.
Kurt hesitating for a second, fear gripping his heart- before slowly lowering the sacred jewelry into her palm and watching her fingers wrap around it and carefully pull away from his sight, feeling something pull away from him in his chest.
"We.. Have a Deal"
With that she leaned up and captured his lips on hers, Kurt's eyes widening at this- As the sweet taste of her lips made him melt, his hands naturally finding their way to her hips as he felt her deepen the kiss.
He stumbled back feeling the world warp slightly before the room changed, not knowing how they got to what seemed to be her bedroom- as the back of his legs hit the bed and he fell back, seeing (Y/N) staring down with a almost wicked smile. She flicked her wrist as his pants were undone and sliding down his hips- Revealing the rather large erection that was barely concealed by the plain white boxers.
(Y/N) leaning up as she crawled up his body, Kurt tail curling in on itself in worry- However the feeling of her own wrapping around his seemed to catch his attention.
"Relax~"
She purred, Kurt nodding softly as the fae pulled down his boxers- His cock springing free damn near purple with how aroused he was, The man turning his face to the side in embarrassment. (Y/N) reached forward and turned his face back to stare at her, Seating herself just before his cock as she pulled the slip dress off herself.
Poor Kurt mind went blank, Seeing her body bare to the cool room as she sat before him. Kurt almost felt like he was gonna cum just from the sight before him- (Y/N) giggling seeing how his cock began to leak pre almost immediately, Her thumb rubbing over the head of his cock softly.
"Such a sweet thing you are~"
Rising up making sure he could see her cunt in all its glory she almost teasingly rubbed her core against the head of his cock- Watching how his hips bucked up almost by instinct as he let a shaky moan leave him before (Y/N) lowered herself onto him.
A small hiss falling from Kurt's lips as he felt her sink onto him, His back arching as he felt those velvet like walls wrap around him. A wash of pleasure going threw him as he felt her settle on him fully, He swore he could see god behind her as she rolled her hips on him- His toes curling in delight as he felt her start to bounce on his cock, A new sensation starting to burn in his chest like fire as he felt her- Like she was the most addictive drug he had never taken.
The way her breast bouncing with every move of her hips almost hypnotic and driving him deeper into the pit of bliss- (Y/N) began to let breathy moans leave past her lips, Leaning back as she began to pick up the pace. A few curses leaving her as well feeling the way he seemed to hit those deepest places inside of her.
Kurt head flew back, Growling as he grabbed her hips like his life depended on it. Thrusting up into her as he felt her tighten around him a gasp leaving him as much faster then he intended bucked into her hard as he came inside of her- (Y/N) giggling at this, Clearly having expected this to not last long, He was a virgin afterall.
Kurt body seemed to still almost like a statue as (Y/N) slid off him, a look of amusement on her face as she assumed he was embarrassed and would be prepared to leave after his inexperienced self came. Besides she got her payment Afterall.
However Kurt's eyes seemed to follow her watched her as she panted only softly, Seemingly satisfied with her choice of action.. his gaze darker as he felt his stomach twist in anger and.. Something new? Like a hold on his chest was suddenly gone? And it felt.. Good?
However now pissed at this Fae.. How dare she leave him there still hard and only wanting to take this thing from him- and having the audacity to laugh at him!
And worse..
He wasn't satisfied..
He wasn't satisfied at all!
Kurt hand shot out and wraps around her ankle still on the bed and yanks her back to him- A surprised noise leaving her as she looked back at him in shock. In the dark bedroom (Y/N) could only see the wide fanged smile and those yellow eyes that seemed different from before-
His hand on her ankle is replaced by his spaded tail, Now pressing on the center of her back right between those pretty wings and yanking her tail to keep her plump ass up- A squeal leaving her lips, Her fingers digging into the already messy sheets as he had her pinned.
"Y-You already gave your payment! What the hell are you-"
She was cut off as her face was pushed into the mattress harshly only catching the glow of his eyes as his lean muscle managed to keep her put.
"I don't feel like I got a fair deal of that 'payment'-"
(Y/N) could almost hear the smile in his voice, Pursing her lips she prepared to hit him with her magic but- Nothing happened... Wiggling in shock as she tried again but felt his yank her tail harder making her whimper.
Her eyes widening as a sinking feeling settled in her chest- Maybe that innocence was far more valuable then she thought... possibly the leash that kept a Neyaphem from being free on earth.
And the leash that kept those Neyaphem abilties from coming to the surface. Nullifying her own..
"Now Now- I was only teasing little one~ L-Lets come to a new agreement" (Y/N) said with a chuckle as she heard him chuckle behind her- Feeling his cock press against her cunt.
"Now~ Why would I do that Maus?~"
He purred out, Before with a hard thrust of his hip burying into deeply into her causing a loud moan to go through her. As fast as he had buried himself into her, he pulled out as he slammed back in.
Kurt not letting up as he held her in place, and his tail wrapped around that leg of hers as he fucking the fae into the mattress- hunched over her form watching the way her ass rippled with each movement of his hips, eyes almost glazed over in primal delight. Her nails digging into the sheets tearing into them as she felt herself cum- Burning embarrassment burning through her, as the roles had been switched and she came faster then intended.
"You wanted die Unschuld? Ja? How does it feel Maus?" He laughed, feeling how she came around him- Seeing how her toes curled and legs began to quake. How she looked to dumb and blissed out with her cheek pressed into the mattress those pretty eyes that had lured him in before half lidden and edged with tears. A fanged grin in joy at having reversed the roles.
"I don't hear you!~" He grunted out, Yanking at her tail again making her moan/cry out.
"I-It feels good!" She whimpered out, Looking back at him a few hiccupping moans managing to slip out.
"Aww so sweet~ Is my pretty fairy sorry for trying to skip out on me? Leaving me wanting? Giving me the bare minimum?~" Kurt said, his voice almost a coo as he still hadn't removed his cock from her. (Y/N) nodding rapidly.
"Wunderbar!~ Now like you before, I haven't gotten my ending yet" He chuckled out, seeing the way her eyes widened as he grabbed both her legs- Sitting up to his full hight as he chuckled at the image.
Her back arched painfully as he pounded into her with a harsh and brutal pace- Seeing how (Y/N) almost scrambled to escape from the overwhelming pleasure, her tail pressing against his chest. Kurt nipping her tail hearing the noise she made, Growling in warning as he grunted.
"Why move?! You love it don't you!"
He hissed at her, Feeling how her cunt fluttered around him at the pain mixed with the pleasure.
"Y-Yes! I love it I-I fuck~! I love it!~" She sobbed out, Feeling him press into the dips of her hip as she came undone by him.
"Meine hübsche Hure~! Giving magic for cock! Who knew how desperate you are!" He made fun of her, his moving to under her raised hips as the spade of his tail rubbed over her clit- feeling her jerk as her body shook.
(Y/N) screamed out, Feeling her walls tightened around his cock once more as she came- spots going over her vision as she overstimulated and shaking from pleasure. Tears rolling down her cheeks from bliss, as she felt him pull out- The feeling of their mix of cum running down her bruised thighs.
Panting hard as the world seemed to spin and she couldn't even tell what position she was in- Till thick finger pressed into her still aching cunt. A broken moan leaving her sore throat.
"T-Too Much!~"
Kurt pressed his finger into her more pressing against that soft spongy spot of her bruised walls making her toes curl and whimper around the diget. The male smirking as he saw the ruined hole shiv around his finger.
"Aww~ Enttäuschend, I thought a all powerful fae could handle more"
He cruelly cackled, pulling his hand back as he slapped her ass hard watching how the skin started to bruise immediately before pulling her tail back up slamming his hips back into her- Hearing that loud squeal rip threw her. What could only be described as a rumbling growl leaves his throat as he grabs a fistful of her beautiful hair, yanking it back roughly as he heard her cry out in bliss- as he pulled her back flushed against his chest upright for all to see.
(Y/N) bouncing up and down with each thrust as he held her up, Eyes rolled in overstimulation she desperately tried to grab his thighs for some form of stability.
Slamming his hips up into her making sure to keep her put by her hair, feeling how her back arched into his own- those delicate wings almost crushed between her back and his chest. Broken moans staring to leave Kurt as sweat gathered on his brow- Rolling his hips up into her as he felt the coil in him build up once more as he grunted in her ear.
His fanged teeth biting down harshly on the side her neck- The rush of magical blood flooding his senses as he cum deep inside her coating those 'all powerful' walls once more, pride filling his chest as he heard the whimpering choked moans from his conquest below him- knowing she would never forget him.
Kurt pulled back, letting the flat of his tongue drag over the fresh wound as he held the fae in place. Turning her head towards him by her hair still as he kissed her, allowing her to taste herself as he dominated her mouth. Pulling back as he chuckled seeing her dazed eyes at him, shivering against his body clearly exhausted by the rather rough treatment.
"Now~ I do think you are due for your end of the bargen~"
That morning Kurt returned to the Jet, The group who had been outside clearly prepared with a plan and also wondering out loud where their blue friend was when they saw him Bamf not far from them all.
A large apple in hand that he seemed to be finishing up as he held up a cloth bag with his tail, Giving it a slight shake for them to see.
"Got what was needed and seemingly extra.. Let's head back to the Mansion"
Pixie looked up at him, feeling something was off.... terribly terribly off that made her stomach drop, Looking to the apple he had finished off and tossed in the trash. Seemingly everyone else had the off feeling about him too...
How he stood a bit straighter, his shoulders more relaxed and a more.. devilish look to his face? Like that baby sweetness he had been ripped from him.
Paired with what was the most noticable.. Rosary that had been always been in his hands was missing.
Everyone was dead silent, seemingly not willing to ask any sort of questions.
And quietly they went to the Jet, boarding as Kurt seeming to linger outside just a bit longer looking in the direction of the cottage before heading in.
Taking his seat Kurt leaned back, seemingly tired as he drapped his arm over his eyes to cover the light of the Jet, paired with a feeling of two knots growing at the front of his head that made his head hurt and throb.
"Hey Kurt.."
He lifted his arm, almost feeling a peg of annoyance as he followed the direction of the voice. Ororo seated not far from him as she looked to him with a peg of concern.
"What.. did you give to her?"
Kurt pausing as his tail flicked next to him a bit sharply enough to cut the air, as a fanged smile went over his lips- Looking at Ororo who felt a shiver go down her spine at the smile that greeted her.
"Nothing of importance anymore"
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OK FIRST OF ALL HOW DARE YOU??! We got baby Orion, look at that bean, so small and cute, but at what cost? The cost of our hearts being shattered….
Now the dramatics are over! The Megatronus doll?! I can hear d-16 seething in jealousy somewhere lmao.
Please tell me I’m not seeing things and Prima pulled out a weapon when he heard the door open?! Ready to defend but not when it was needed most because sentinel is a little bitch.
ZETA BEING ORIONS FAVE?! (It’s so cool you included that because it is part of canon, it’s in the movie novelisation if anyone is curious)
It’s so much more tragic with that piece of info, the way you drew Orion feeling like he’s lost something and having to be snapped out of it 😭 I love your art so much.
It does raise a question though, how old is Orion? Did he age slower or did sentinel do something to was with his ageing?
baby prime orion au
AKJSHDKAHDA THANK YOU I'M GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT!!! and that it seemed to hit the way i wanted it to! it is my mission with this au to make it unbearably cute and painful as fuck <33
that doll... i have plans for that doll.... no spoilers but it will come back...
AND YES THANK YOU FOR NOTICING THAT!! you're the first person i see that points out Prima's reaction to hearing someone come in! he's a little (a lot) overprotective of OP and he's always on guard even when they're deep in the tower where no one but their siblings and some trusted members of the High Guard are allowed to enter. he's also lowkey training OP to keep quiet when he hears someone come into his room and to be cautious of strangers. he doesn't want his baby brother to be scared of the world but he just... wants to keep him safe at all costs. most of the primes think he's being a little paranoid but he Does Not Care. once OP is older and can take care of himself they can talk about his anxiety but until then he's sticking to his guns.
and fun fact! when Sentinel sent his trackers to take custody of Optimus during his coup, it took them just long enough to search his rooms for him to allow the High Guard to send reinforcements and take him away. so. anxiety for the win babeeey⁓
and yeah zeta being OP's favorite is directly taken from the novel! in my mind Prima is OP's primary caretaker with everyone else taking turns to switch out with him, but Zeta being the matrix holder doesn't get the chance to do it as often as everyone else. so him dropping by is a special occasion! and because he doesn't want to ruin the little time he gets with his baby brother with anything, he lowkey spoils Optimus the most. so it's a mix of novelty and over-indulgence that gives him the edge over everyone else 🤭
AND YEAH THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I WAS GOING FOR! in this au OP is looking for the matrix for the good of everyone, he does believe bringing it back is the best thing for their society but deep down he also hopes it will fix the gaping wound in his spark he's been nursing his entire life. and when he sees Zeta Prime's lifeless body he knows the matrix being missing from it should be the thing he should focus on but... it's really not. and he doesn't understand why.
and orion's age is... something i kinda hoped no one would remember to ask about (/▽\)
jk but for real he's about 52 cycles old. he's definitely older than the rest of the squad for at least a decade! buuuuut as a prime he also does age slower than them. this one is not on sentinel, it's just a him/prime thing. a small part of dee's frustration with orion in this au is because he's under the impression that they're more or less the same age but orion acts much more immaturely than he should, but this is kinda because orion literally doesn't mature at the same rate than he does.
it's not by much but the difference is there and they can feel it even if they don't understand it.
i have a chart in case anyone cares about it akjsdhkja
not my best work but it'll do for now.
so basically OP's mental development is one year for every 2.5 cycles while everyone else's is one per every 1.5. he and dee met when OP was 36 cycles old and Dee was 24 which was the exact moment where their mental development was almost equal, which made them hit off pretty well! but after that it was just a matter of time before dee started leaving Orion behind.
again, it isn't by much but the difference exists and is just one more straw to break the camel's back.
also the poor high guard that stayed behind to keep an eye on Orion was working overtime trying to keep people from wondering why this particular sparkling was growing up so slowly. they faked a bunch of records for him and officially speaking Orion is 47 cycles old, when he's actually 52, but even that only gave them a very limited amount of time before everyone started noticing that Orion was kinda little for his age.
they also did their damn best to keep Orion from entering the mines at the age he was supposed to because there was no fucking way they were letting the equivalent of 12 year old go in there.
they did so much crime and falsification you guys.
as it is OP was still mentally younger than everyone else when they went in, but officially he was almost 5 years older than he should've been. it was the best they could do.
so... yeah!
thank you for asking because i had been postponing doing this for weeks now xD
#hey i got an ask#Anonymous#transformers#tfone#optimus prime#baby prime orion au#THIS WAS SO NICE. THANK YOU SO MUCH I'M GONNA CRY 〒▽〒#i adore when people leave their thoughts in the tags and getting this ask made my entire week!! thank you so much!!!!#hope this was worth the wait!#and thank you for getting the brainworms working (/▽\)(/▽\)
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I would like to ask reader x stellaron hunters (i dunno if you accept multiple characters, if not im fine with only kafka) with a reader that fights like denji from csm.
Like, if you havent seen or read csm i would describe denji fighting style as bashing his head against a wall until it breaks, theres the eternity devil fight that you can probably find on youtube (altought its kinda gory, just telling beforehand.)
Its fine if you dont take the request but if you do thanks in advance :D
🌑 I have in fact not watched CSM but I'm vaguely familiar, so I've kept this pretty vague in the descriptions :)
✦ 𝐊𝐚𝐟𝐤𝐚 ✦
Worried sick + weirdly impressed
She finds the way you fight to be quite interesting, very curious as to why you choose it in particular
Will be asking a thousand questions, particularly about whether or not you feel pain and if yes, why you don't seem to mind it
If it does bother you, she will not hesitate to offer help through her 'Spirit Whisper' (what she uses on Blade to help with the mara)
But if you wish to endure it without help, then she'll respect it but care for you as best she can after fights
Truly, she'd rather end fights quickly so you dont have need to hurt yourself but she cant deny the excitement she feels at fighting by your side
Though her people are incpable of feeling fear, for you, she might just about taste it on the tip of her tongue
✦ 𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐝𝐞 ✦
This hypocrite
Hurts himself constantly and yet worries about you so so much
Scolds you for being reckless constantly even tho he is the same, which you tell him - a fruitless conversation everytime
Always watching your back like a hawk on the battlefield, taking hits for you when he can - he'd rather hurt himself even if you can take it
Loves sparring with you tho!
It soothes him to know that you can keep up with him in battle
That being said he's the type to constantly remind you to take care of yourself, rest, eat well, etc
It's also comforting to know that should the mara take him over you'll have a chance to fight back against him, at least
✦ 𝐒𝐢𝐥𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐖𝐨𝐥𝐟 ✦
So hype✨
You're like an SSR character, extra extra special and she's glad to have you on their side
Doesnt give much thought towards if it hurts you or not - all she knows or cares about is that it's cool as shit
Lowkey constantly asking to fight you because she sees it as a challenge to complete
Keeps equating you to a boss in one of her videogames
Hypeman no.1
Always hyping you up and asking about combos MID BATTLE😭
Menace but at least she's always down for the chaos
✦ 𝐅𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐥𝐲 ✦
Hypocrite no.3
So so worried 🥺
She's just generally very caring, especially towards those at her side, so obviously will keep an eye on you at all times
But as a soldier, she's not going to try to hold you back, even if she really wants to
She's got her own pride and so would never think to tarnish yours
BUT oh my god if you could stop risking your life every five seconds😭
She gets it, she does really, but she's naturally very empathetic and because of her trauma... Let's just say she's of two minds on the whole situation
Gets over it if you come out mostly alright - generally tries to focus more on the here and now
Please reassure her of what she already knows, that you're strong, capable and that she can trust you to come back to her at the end of the day
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So Good For Me - Jayce Sneeze Fic (Ja/yvik)
i’m in LOVE with your arcane fics and so hungry for more jayce content generally- i noticed light d/s and gentle caretaking on your list of elements you enjoy in fic, and i was wondering if i could combine those in a jayvik request? for whatever reason, jayce is kind of Out Of It and viktor takes a firm but loving caretaking role, directing jayce to drink water or blow his nose or lie down or what have you, and jayce happily complying- or viktor more directly assisting him/executing with that caretaking? i’m not sure if this makes any sense and it’s way too long but ya!! brainworm i had that i humbly place in your skilled hands
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Thank you anon for this lovely prompt!
This is disgustingly soft established relationship so I hope that's the vibe you were looking for. Also Jayce is very shy/bashful about enjoying being taken care of here, I figured if he was feverish and falling into a more submissive headspace he would behave this way.
(Jasha - diminutive for Jayce, Vitya - diminutive for Viktor, Solnishko - petname meaning sunshine, Zolotse - darling)
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Jayce made a discontented grumbling noise From where his face was pressed against the table. He had fallen asleep at some point while Viktor was focused on his own calculations. Jayce had been coughing and sniffling most of the morning. So it didn't surprise him that his body had eventually betrayed him this way.
Viktor hated to wake him when he was resting, But he knew what he really needed was to go home and get some good rest in bed. And Viktor didn't mind being the one who saw it so.
He reached out and gently squeezed Jayce's shoulder.
“Jayce, wake up solnishko,” He murmured gently rocking Jayce's shoulder back and forth.
“Wake up, Jayce. It's time to go home.”
Finally, Jayce's lashes fluttered as his eyes cracked open. He grimaced and pushed himself up from where he'd been draped over the table with a low groan.
“Fuck, What time is it? Snf. I didn't mean to fall asleep.” He rubbed a hand over his face and then his nose scrunched up with irritation. His nostrils fluttered and his eyes drifted closed despite Jayce’s best efforts.
“Snfsnf snfff hhh…sorry have to-Huh’RRSSHHuh…Hhhhhh’EISSHhhuh snff Excuse me,” He mumbled cheeks pink with embarrassment, having only just barely caught the sneeze against the back of his hand.
“Bless you. Its alright.”
He offered him a handkerchief and Jayce took it with a quiet, “Thanks” as he wiped his nose with the soft cloth.
“You're welcome. C’mon, get your things. It's time to go home now.”
Jayce nodded and snuffled into the kerchief as he stood up but then he noticed that it was too light outside to be the end of the day. “Viktor, its still early…” he said with a questioning look.
“Yes. But you are clearly sick and need rest, so we're going home early.”
Jayce's eyes were a little glazed over with a mild fever so it took him a moment of adorable concentration to consider Viktor's words. “I can go home, so you don't have to miss work.”
Viktor stepped into Jayce's personal space until he was close enough to reach up and cradle Jayce's jaw with one hand. “I want to go home with you, Jayce. And take care of you. Will you let me do that, solnishko?”
Jayce blinked drowsily, cheeks already flushed from his cold going slightly darker but he only mulled it over for a moment before he gave Viktor a soft bashful smile. “Okay.”
“Thank you, Jasha. You're being so good for me.”
Jayce shivered and his pupils blew out at the praise.
“I want to be good for you, Vitya.”
“Good boy. Come, let us go home where I can take care of you.”
Jayce nodded and Viktor took his hand toting Jayce along who went dociley until he stuttered to a sudden stop in the middle of the hallway. Viktor looked over confused until he saw Jayce’s expression had gone lax with a building sneeze. His breath wavered as his nostrils flared out into wide ovals.
“Hh’hh’EH-RRSSHHue….hh’huh’IZSHHHuhh…sndfff…sorry,” he mumbled as he swiped at his nose with the back of his hand.
“Bless you, Jayce. Its only a little farther and then I can tend to your poor nose.”
Jayce blushed, ducking his head a little bashfully as he rubbed at his septum with the knuckle of his index finger, but his expression was pleased at the offer. Viktor knew Jayce enjoyed being doted on and pampered when he could get out of his head enough to relax for it. “Thandks,” he said softly.
Viktor was grateful that they had found a place together only a few blocks away so they only had to pause a few times for Jayce's nasal interruptions.
When he shut the door behind them he was unsurprised to see Jayce's expression fallen into sneezy desperation again.
“Hihhh…EDSHHHue..hh’huh’ERSSHHHoo…sndff sndf scuse mbe.”
“Bless you, sweetheart.”
“Thandk you.”
He let go of Jayce's hand to press a guiding hand to his back instead leading him into the bedroom. And then getting him to lean against the headboard with his legs on the bed so Viktor could reach his shoes and gently remove them.
Jayce blushed again as Viktor helped him change into pajamas, taking his time to pet and massage at each piece of Jayce's revealed skin as he went.
“Thandk you, Vitya,” Jayce said soft and sweet when he was done and sliding under the covers propped up by a pile of pillows against the headboard.
“It's my pleasure, Jasha.”
Jayce smiled at him, eyes still a bit foggy with fever but contented and warm. Then his nose wrinkled and Viktor waited patiently as Jayce built up to another round of sneezes.
“Huhh…hhh’hh…Oh I'm…I'm gonna…ISSHHue…hhh’EISHHHoo..”
“Bless you, Jayce.” But he didn't stop at his usual double this time.
“hh’hhh’EGSHHHooo…huh’HUH’ERSSHHue…sndfff Thindk I ndeed to…hhh…blow mby ndose...”
“Of course, zolotse. Just a moment.” He knew that sometimes Jayce would get fits that could go on for ages if he didn't blow his nose to give himself some relief. He grabbed a fresh handkerchief from the bedside table drawer and then settled next to Jayce on the side of the bed.
“Hhh’hh’EGSHHHih…hh’Huh’RRSHEW–Eh’DSHHue…”
Viktor brought the kerchief up to Jayce’s runny nose, gently cupping it in the folds. “Bless you, Jayce. Go ahead and blow your nose, moi zolotse.”
“Hhh’MPHHchshh…” Jayce muffled one sneeze into Viktor's cloth covered hand before he managed to blow his nose. Viktor pulled it away, folding it over to a dry side and pressed it to Jayce's nose again.
“Once more,” he instructed softly. Jayce blew his nose a second time and then Viktor wiped his nose clean and set the handkerchief aside. “Very good, Jayce.”
Jayce's lips twitched into a small shy smile and Viktor ran his fingers through his hair loosening the strands from their usual style.
“I'll go make you some tea. Just rest in the meantime, solnishko.” He stood to move to the kitchen but Jayce reached out and touched his wrist getting Viktor's attention.
“Can you stay?” he asked softly, “Make tea later?”
Viktor's heart softened at the sight. Jayce also tended to be clingy when ill, preferring Viktor stay close enough to touch. “Of course, Jayce. Let me just get some water for you instead and change my clothes. Then I will join you.”
“Thanks, Viktor.”
“Of course, solnishko,” he replied softly, eyes warm with affection.
He made quick work of changing and getting water, and the bedroom remained quiet exempt for a trio of muffled sneezes.
“Bless you, Jasha,” he said as he got into bed beside Jayce. Jayce gave a bashful laugh, “Thanks.”
As soon as Viktor was laying down Jayce was pressing into his side, an arm going over his waist and his cheek pressed against Viktor's shoulder. Jayce seemed tired enough that Viktor thought he would drift off immediately. However it seemed his nose wasn't quite ready to give him a break.
Jayce's nose twitched against his shoulder, nostrils trembling as his breathing began to draw out into wavery inhales.
“Hhhh…hhhhhhhh….huh’hh…”
“My poor love. You have such a bothersome cold in your nose. Hold on just a moment,” he reached over to grab a kerchief, snagging by the tips of his fingers so as not to displace Jayce.
“Hhh’hh...” His expression was pinched with sneezy desperation as he tried to hold off long enough for Viktor to bring the handkerchief to his nose. But the itch brought on by his cold grew to almost to burn in its intensity and he was helpless against it.
“Hh’HUH’MPHHTSHH…hh’Hh’HZZSHH-mphh…shit, Viktor, I'm so-hhh… sorry…snfsnf”
“Hush now. It's alright. It's not your fault this cold has your nose so sensitive,” he murmured soothingly, bringing a hand up to pet through Jayce's hair. “Do you have anymore sneezes in that pretty nose of yours?”
Jayce blushed and nodded. “Yeah..hh…I hah-ve to sneeze…hhh..agaid…”
Viktor brought a kerchief to his nose, keeping his other hand in Jayce's hair. “I've got you, zolotse. Go ahead and sneeze for me.”
“Huhhhh’ERSHHHmphh…hheh-Heh-EHZZZZSHHmmm-huhh…HH’ERRRSHHHuhhh…”
“Good boy. Bless you, sweetheart,” he wiped Jayce's nose and then folded over the kerchief to a clean side and returned it to his nose. “Blow for me.”
Jayce obediently blew his nose and then resettled against Viktor with a little sigh of relief when his nose quieted. Viktor set the kerchief aside and pressed a kiss to Jayce's brow. “You're so good for me. My sweet Jayce. Just rest now.”
“Love you,” Jayce murmured as he began to drift off.
“Ya tozhe tebya lyublyu (i love you too).”
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i yearn for ponyboy angst after johnny and dally die and for once he needs darry and not soda...or more of the curtis bros grieving their parents/their friends/their childhoods together. just curtis bro angst all day every day. love ur stuff!
AGH!! TY LOVE!! this ask has been truly rottin' in my brain I thought about it durin' my ENTIRE shift today!! I hope you like it!! fic under the cut!!
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"Pony?" Darry's sayin' my name in a way that implies he's been sayin' it a while. I blink at him 'n I don't know where I've been. My fingers are all wrapped up in my jeans, white-knuckled. I try to relax but my body doesn't listen to me one bit, so I forget it.
"I've been callin' you, where were you at?" He crosses the room 'n taps a finger gently to my temple, brushin' my bangs off my forehead.
I shrug 'n he worries at his lip. "Somewhere else, I guess." Darry looks stricken but that's how he always looks nowadays: worried.
"I gotta talk to you about your hair, Pony baby." I inhale sharply 'n Darry's face twists up a little more. He moves all slow, eases down onto the couch beside me 'n wraps an arm around my shoulders like I might fall to pieces.
"I'm not colorin' it I swear to God I'm not-" Steve had made a joke, some comment, maybe even just a suggestion, that I dye my hair back to its normal color. I don't think he meant anythin' bad by it. I dunno. I can see it more now. Darry's rough 'cause he's scared. Steve was mean when he meant to be kind. I think Dallas was like that. Rough 'cause he didn't know how to be soft.
I think I said somethin' awful to him. I was always doin' that. Bein' cruel 'cause it all hurt so bad. Last week Darry 'n I had fought 'cause it's all we knew how to do 'n I'd told him I bet he wished I had died that night. Just like-
I didn't mean it. I never meant it. I didn't know how to not mean it.
"Honey?" I shake my head. Darry's lookin' at me again with big scared eyes 'n I know I've done it again. Gone somewhere.
"Sorry." Darry cups the side of my face, there are new wrinkles alongside his eyes. He always looks like he's just waitin' for somethin' bad to happen.
"S'ok, baby. I ain't gonna make you do nothin' to your hair." Soda's beside me now, too. I don't remember when he got there. "We've been talkin' 'n baby... we need you to let us help you wash it."
I flinch. Hard. Straight back into Soda's arm 'n know he had it there, ready to brace me. "No." Darry sighs, glances over my head, 'n Soda gathers me up into his arms.
"Look, honey. I'm not gonna make you. But I think... you'll feel a bit better. You don't gotta take a shower or nothin'. Maybe a bath?" Darry tries, reachin' out 'n coverin' my hand in his.
"No." I don't know what it was. I'd gone through the damn fire 'n come out scared of the fuckin' water. That night in the fountain was a million years ago. Glory, I don't know how I had space in my head to even remember it.
But I did. Fuck. I did.
"Hey Pony? Can we try somethin' else then? If you humor me?" Soda's tone is pliant 'n a little too bouncy. It gets like that sometimes. But someone has to be alright. So we don't mention it.
He climbs off the couch, pulls me gently up 'n I don't fight it. Darry's got a hand on my shoulder 'n Soda's got his arms around me still 'n they were like this more. Since. Like if they weren't always touchin' me I'd fade right away into nothin'. Sometimes it was nice. Sometimes it made me want to bite 'n tear 'n fuckin' scream.
The kitchen counter is clear, a couple towels folded onto the table, a chair tipped back against the sink. Soda guides me over to the chair, asks me a million questions in those big brown eyes he has that I don't know how to go about answerin'.
Are you fine? Is this fine? Does this remind you of- Does this remind you- Does this-
"Look, if you sit here you can rest your head back 'n I can wash your hair out without havin' to get you any closer to the water. D'ya think... that's somethin' you can stomach?" Soda's off to my side doin' all the talkin' but I'm lookin' straight out at Darry. He's still got a hand on my shoulder 'n Jesus. Has he always looked at me like that?
He shifts his weight 'n furrows his brow. His hand comes up slowly like I'm a spooked animal that might bolt. Some kicked dog. Some scared foal. He cups the side of my face 'n it occurs to me. It's the same place he'd once struck.
Odd. Both times touched in fear. A million years apart. I'm not even sure he notices.
"Pony?" I finally tear my eyes off Darry 'n when I twist my head, he lets his hand fall back to my shoulder.
"Ok." My voice aches. It always does. Maybe from the smoke. Maybe from the cold burn of that still water rottin' in my lungs even now. "Ok, I'll try." The look that Soda 'n Darry shoots over my head is filled with such a palpable relief I nearly cry.
"Ok, baby. I know this isn't easy. D'you think you can... take his jacket off?" Soda already has both hands around my biceps, just gently restin' there like he knows I'm gonna flinch again. "I ain't gonna take it-" My eyes flicker to Darry 'n hurt flashes across his face (not meanin' it, not knowin' how not to)- "'n neither is Dar. I just don't wanna get it wet 'n mess it up, ok hon? But if it's too much I can just try my best to avoid it?"
I clutch at the collar. 'N I can hear his voice clear as day. You better not fuck that leather up. You have no idea how much trouble it was to steal.
'N I almost laugh. Almost.
"He'd kill me if I let you give it the kitchen sink treatment." 'N my voice sounds all thick in my ears. I want to laugh. I want Dallas to knock me up the back of my head for even thinkin' of it. I want-
"Oh, Ponybaby." Soda's arms are around me again. I'm cryin'. When did I start cryin'? Why? 'N it's one of those times I don't want them to hold me. Jesus. It makes me want to run. To let the ache in my throat dissolve into the burn in my lungs. I want to bite 'n tear 'n scream.
But all I can do is sit there. Stiff in the arms I wish I could melt into.
"Soda." Darry drops a hand onto his shoulder 'n gently pries him off of me. When he takes his face out of my neck his cheeks are wet 'n I don't know whether it's my tears or his. "He's not-"
Here.
For a long moment, none of us move. Like a gunfight. Or a caged animal. 'N then I drag blunt nails under my eyes 'n scrub my face 'n Darry blows out a long breath like he'd been holdin' it. He lets go of Soda 'n we all go back to pretendin' nothin' happened. Or at least I do.
"Do you... want help?" When I look down my knuckles are white against the collar. I flex my fingers 'n they burn like that time I'd split them against some socs' jaw. Or that night Johnny 'n I had slept in the backyard out under the stars 'n the cold scalded along my hands 'n cracked my skin 'n I'd bled 'n bled 'n bled-
"Don't make me do it." 'N when I'd looked up at Darry I knew he understood what I meant. I squeezed my eyes shut 'n felt hands roughened by labors of love that had done nothin' but leave him with callouses 'n scars rest at my neck. He pulls the jacket off quickly 'n the rush of winter air slinkin' through the cracks we'd never be able to seal up scorches against my bare arms. I don't open my eyes until Darry presses the bundle to my chest.
When I look to Soda again, his face is dry 'n he's wearin' this encouragin' little smile that tugs too tight on the edges of his mouth. "You ready, Pony?"
I nod. Just a bob of my chin that takes every last ounce of strength in me. Darry turns, yanks another chair close to my side 'n Soda guides my head down to the sink.
The tap flips on. A lonely titterin' against the empty bowl. I don't control anythin' that happens after. Not the low, whimperin' sob that snakes out of my mouth. Not the way my shoulders jar up 'n away. Not my nails bitin' into Darry's arm so hard they leave bloody, half moons in their wake.
"No. Soda, no. Soda. I can't." Darry smooths one hand over my forehead 'n I reach for his wrist, catch it tight 'n hold on like if I don't let go he can keep me out of that night. If I can keep him here I can't go back.
"Pony?" Soda drops down so he can see my face. Reaches out to wrap me in his arms 'n I flinch. Fuckin' flinch. Right back 'n up into Darry's lap.
'N none of us are movin' again. Soda's falterin' in place, arms half reached out 'n face a mask of hurt 'n Jesus why do I always hurt the people I love? Why can't I stop bitin' the hand that wants to hold me?
"What is it, Pony? Are you here?" 'N I can't make my voice or body or anythin' work the way it should. But before I can stop it I choke out-
"Darry." 'N Darry lets out a little noise from somewhere so far in the back of his throat it comes out like a whimper.
"Oh, little colt." 'N suddenly his arms are around me again. My face is pressed into his chest 'n I'm heavin' deep sobs that have been rottin' in my chest for too long. Since before Dallas or Johnny. Before the week in the church or that night in the park. Maybe since Mama. Since Daddy. Since the last person to call me that was put in the freezin' Tusla earth.
"I love you." 'N it's whispery 'n waverin' 'n also the surest thing I've ever heard. 'N this time when I feel Soda return to my side, feel Darry open his arms 'n hold us both like were disappearin' before his eyes I just let myself be held. "You're here."
I am.
'N then he's shiftin' 'n I'm clutchin' his shirt tighter 'n he's pettin' my hair 'n tippin' my head back 'n not makin' me let him go though I'm too goddamn old 'n too big to be beggin' for my older brother.
"Keep your eyes closed, colt." 'N Soda's whisperin' somethin' low 'n soft 'n just louder than the sound the tap makes as it drip drip drips against the sink. 'N when the water runs along my temples 'n along the line of the scar that I'll carry until I die from the night I lost two brothers I don't think of the fountain.
No.
I think about the hot afternoon I won my first track race, felt sweat slide along my brow 'n saw the sun glint off Dallas' silver tooth even from way up in the stands. Hear the whoop of his voice still marred thick 'n heavy with his New York drawl. I think of runnin' home through the lot dodgin' the fat rain drops 'n stoppin' only to let Johnny catch up. Throwin' my head back 'n laughin'. Of the spray of a passin' car. I think of Soda laughin' as he flicks the spatterin' of water left on his hands at my face when we finish the dishes 'n mama not even scoldin' us.
I think of Darry's hands wet from the laundry as he runs a thumb absently over my face. Memorizin' it with calloused fingers when he thinks I've dropped off to sleep. The gentleness of his achin' love for us. Low 'n constant 'n how had I ever missed it?
"We're done, honey." 'N then I'm buried in his chest again, Dallas' jacket pressed against my stomach 'n Johnny's letter tucked into the inside pocket closest to my heart. Bangs drippin' cold between my brow, along my nose, 'n minglin' with tears never gone long enough to dry. 'N for the first time since it all, I'm right here. 'N it doesn't even hurt. It just aches.
#consider this the angst out of my system#takin my real real bad day#n copin by givin the curtis boys an even WORSE one#hehehe#tysm for the ask!!!#this was so fun#i mean sad#like real real sad#but i also almost never write from pony's pov#n i find him so? so.#hes everythin to me#when i let him be absolutely miserable in particular#ponys no good terrible very very very bad week#AGH!#anyways!!#TYSM for readin!!#see yall in the next one!!#the outsiders#ponyboy curtis#sodapop curtis#darry curtis#dallas winston#steve randle#johnny cade#the outsiders 1983#my writing#writers on tumblr#the outsiders angst#the outsiders fanfiction#also if u saw me post the wrong song no u didntttt
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𝜗ϱ — museo . hyoma chigiri x reader . ♡ . taking hyoma chigiri on a museum date to see interesting things and collections — however you weren't that interested on those, getting distracted by chigiri's beautiful facial features. ⟢ . word count : 745 memo : first post this 2025 yayy!! and this is inspired by this song called museo :D i edited this on pc too so, sorry if it looks not that good. ꒰ bllk files . files ꒱
there was only a few clouds when you looked up indicating that it's a good day with a fair weather. seeing only a few clouds also say that it won't rain, right? let's hope it won't. you run your fingers through your hair, leaving your house to meet with chigiri. you promised the male that you two will go into a museum this tuesday and that tuesday is today.
you took your phone out, messaging chigiri that you are on your way as he seen it pretty quickly, hearting your message as you smiled before putting your phone away. you casually listened to music, singing the lyrics on your head as you call for a taxi. the ride was peaceful, thankful that the driver didn't started any conversation between you two as it will only make things more awkward for you. the driver announced that you had arrived on your destination. you paid the driver without thanking them as you left the vechicle.
the wind blew past you like it was some anime, brushing your hair out of your face seeing chigiri was standing outside the museum catching a glimpse of his phone. he was probably scrolling or playing. a smile was etched on your face as walked towards where he was standing at. you reached him, waving in front of is phone forcing him to look up to see you with a smile on your face.
" well, took you long enough. " he said nonchalantly, putting his phone back into his pocket. your eyebrow raised at what he stated as you just rolled your eyes, grabbing him by the wrist as you link your arms with him. " i should have ditched you. " you jokingly said making chigiri look at you with the most "seriously" look. - the two of you are now walking inside the museum your eyes darting everywhere. you let go of chigiri's arm as he stopped by at a painting to look at while he waits for you. it has been two minutes, now looking for chigiri. your [eye color] eyes darted everywhere and look at the people that was in front of you to see if it was the familiar red head.
you eventually found him looking at a painting displayed. you were about to call out when you see how focus and serious he looks. it was like he was observing the painting that was in front of him. you can't really avoid observing him whenever you find him so relaxed or looking at something. you really just wanted to stay there and observe as if he is one of the things in the museum.
taking the camera on your bag as you took a picture of chigiri standing there. you look at the picture, seeing how his hair looks so beautiful along with his lashes. the people behind him is just a background to him as he shines the most, his features more visible.
he probably not realized it but you really love looking at him and sometimes zoned out whenever you two are talking. you don't realize it that he was now striding towards you.
" i thought you forgot to take that with you. " he said shaking you out of your thoughts as he pointed at the camera you are holding. " well, it was in my bag in the first place. " you replied as you showed him the picture you took. chigiri smiled when he glanced at the picture you took of him. " it will be unfair if i'm the only one who have a picture. " he stated, grabbing the camera out of your hand.
he didn't give you a time to protest and if you did, he certainly have a reply to it. you two walked around the museum, chigiri let you walk first as he followed you behind. your eyes wandered everywhere, interested at the artifacts that was displayed, your head tilting to the side in curiosity.
chigiri found the sight cute as he positioned the camera to click a picture of you. grinning as he took the picture. he looked at the picture with a smile.
he had only took one pic of you as you snatched the camera out of his grasp, making him roll his eyes as you two took a few more pictures before leaving.
even if you two left the museum, you still haven't really left the museum. why? hyoma chigiri was your museum, and you just want to stay there. forever.
date posted : 02 . 10 . 25
#blue lock fluff#hyoma chigiri x reader#chigiri x reader#blue lock x reader#bllk fluff#bllk imagines#bllk x reader#bllk x you#bllk x gender neutral reader
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"I'm such a failu-u-ure," Nirei whines, looking at his exams papers, red marks scattered all over the sheets, which makes Nirei feel even smaller than he already is.
Sakura turns his head with loud crack and stares at him as if Nirei just said something inherently stupid and blatantly untrue. what a bullshit, hie eyes say. Nirei is, actually, more worried about Sakura's neck — it sounded like his friend just broke his spine and now is refusing to move because of the shock he's fallen into.
they stare at each other for quite some time.
Nirei is sort of curious what will happen next, watching how Sakura's expressions change from furious to calm to embarrassed to confused to lost, eventually freezing in some mixture of all of them. quite a grotesque image, to be honest.
Sakura sharply exhales.
"you," his voice is insanely heavy and firm, and Nirei straightens up in an instant, feeling his shoulders and back protesting against such an abrupt movement. "you are not."
"I am... not?" Nirei echoes. Sakura murmurs something under his breath, which is, well, cute, because he cannot find the right words and tries to juggle his vocabulary and his emotions.
"you're not a failure," Sakura eventually murmurs. "don't call yourself that. it's not true." he doesn't blush nor stutter, but Nirei feels himself melting like a butter under the scorching Sun. yet he chooses to try the fragile patience of his friend and push him further.
"but I barely got D on my papers," he says.
"these damn papers don't describe you!" Sakura claims, raising his voice. it draws Suo's attention to them, and Nirei gestures to stay as he is. "you're more than 'em."
okay, Nirei admits, there's still some space.
"how am I more than them? they will decide my future one day," he says, and it's true. it could decide his future one day, but he doesn't care about it so much, knowing that Makochi will offer them all a place to stay and work.
Sakura struggles to come up with an argument, lips pressed into thin line, and he groans, looking at his own exam papers. Cs mostly, which is an improvement from his first Fs.
"...it only means more time to think what you want to do in the future then," Sakura says. "how to use your great memory for good, what to do with your impressing skills at noticing details, sharp eyes, and caring nature."
Nirei sobs.
Sakura startles and starts talking nonsense just to calm him down, panicking, and Nirei cannot help it but laugh and look at Suo, who has his usual scheming smile. oh, Nirei is about to witness the performance of all times.
"Sakura-kun," Suo comes closer to them and hands Nirei a bottle of cold tea to help him with hiccups, "but what's about me? what's about my future in this case? doesn't it look grim to you?"
Nirei observes exam papers with solid Bs on every sheet. what is he scheming then? it's a good grade.
"what are you yappin' about?" Sakura squints, suspecting Suo as much as Nirei does at the moment, and Suo tilts his head, grinning. "with such grades you're destined to have a decent university ahead of you."
"but decent isn't good enough, don't you think?" oh, Nirei feels shiver down his spine: this conversation isn't just about grades. it's more, and Sakura knows it, too. it's about Suo's inner demons, torturing him at nights.
Nirei cannot even predict the possible answer Sakura should give to satisfy Suo and let him go of his thoughts, focused on flaws. it took a long time for them to help him to appreciate the taste of food, not thinking of his past and guilt, weighing him down.
"Suo," Sakura starts, "you're already more than enough to us. you're charming people with ease, you tease them as much, you can persuade anyone, and you- you—" Sakura murmurs something so precious that Nirei barely able to stop himself from squeaking and kicking. Suo, who didn't hear Sakura's words due to the distance, looks slightly lost.
"I didn't catch what you've said, Sakura-kun. could you, please repeat?" Suo asks, and Nirei is too close to clapping his hands and giggling like crazy.
Because Sakura jumps on his feet, points his finger on Suo, and literally yells loud enough for everyone in the whole class to notice them having The Conversation.
"you're beautiful, and patient, and caring, and you still think ill of yourself for some reason, and I'm so mad because of that, and you still have no idea how much you've impacted me and others in the class, and!.."
Sakura stops, staring at Suo.
"oh."
Suo's face is slightly pink.
Nirei flops on the floor and screams.
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Later he writes down in his notebook that Sakura cannot stand his friends refusing to recognize and appreciate their worth. the idea to play games till the very night wasn't his best idea, but the outcome he received? better than he could ever expect.
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Adam slowly looked up. Was it over? Finally?
He squeaked as Lucifer hugged him tightly.
Adam: Y-You did it- you've ended it.
Lucifer smiled: It's over, dove.
Charlie: ...D-Dad? What's going on...?
Lucifer sighed and helped Adam to his feet. Turning to his daughter, he took in her and Vaggie's conditions.
He felt bad for injuring her, but he couldn't let them hurt Adam. He couldn't fail him again.
Lucifer: I'm sorry, hun. I haven't had a chance to explain. I'm sure you know who that was.
Charlie nodded: I know... but, that wasn't what I was meaning.
Following Charlie's gaze, Lucifer growled. He forgot that bastards body was still here.
Charlie: That's... that's Adam... kind of.
Lucifer: You're not completely wrong. That's the part of Adam, father wanted. The part of Adam I made.
Tightening his hold on Adam, Lucifer sighed and started rubbing the taller man's back when he felt him start shaking.
Adam: T-That's still my fault... I'm sorry, Charlie. And Vaggie. I didn't... I don't know why I followed him so blindly... that anger has been a part of me for so long that I didn't realise how much damage I was doing. I-I'm so sorry for hurting you and your family.
Vaggie held her girlfriends hand tightly, and neither of them knew what to make of this. One minute, Adam's terrorising Hell and the king, then the next, Lucifer is defending him from his own family.
Vaggie: You're... sorry...?
Adam tensed: I know it's not enough- not even a thousand years could make up for what I've done... b-but, I understand now. That I was wrong... and so was Heaven... and fa- God...
Charlie looked at her dad, who was gazing up at Adam, like he was the love of his life. What was happening?
Charlie: Dad... what's going to happen now?
Lucifer: Well... with Heaven closing the gates between us permanently... there's no real hope for redemption. But, I think you should continue the hotel.
Charlie: I- you do?
Lucifer: Sinners need your kindness, Charlie. Your caring nature. Those are qualities not often seen down here. And Hell needs you, now more than ever. Sure, sinners may not be able to rise to Heaven, but with most of the overlords dead, that should give everyone a chance to make a life for themselves.
Charlie: I... I can help them do that...
Vaggie smiled: If anyone can, it's you.
Adam smiled at the two girls. They really were adorable when they weren't trying to kill him.
Charlie: And what about you, dad?
Lucifer smiled: I'm going to repair my home. Or maybe, build a new one... because, I'd like you to stay with me, Adam.
Adam: Really? I... a-after everything?
Lucifer held his hands: Of course! You're my dove, and I'm your angel. And I'm never leaving your side again, of you'll have me, that is.
Adam felt like he was going to combust with how warm he felt. He couldn't believe his angel wanted him to stay. It's all he's ever wanted.
Adam: I-I'd love that, Lu.
Tormentor of souls au
Darkness surrounded him like a blanket. Only he was no way comfortable or felt safe. He felt fear grip him like iron as he tried to make even a sliver sense of his situation. He could barely a muscle, if he had any muscle to pull. It felt like he had nothing to move, was this what happened to the souls he exorcised?
Were they to end up here for eternity, slowly being drove insane with nothing but your thoughts to keep you company? Adam couldn’t even try to open his mouth to speak, well he did try, but the only words that would escape from him were from within his mind. In his mind he sighed, he was just so tired, he didn’t have any strength to fight, to argue that he shouldn’t be here. Yet what exactly was the point? He’d only tire himself further out.
He had to admit it, he was stuck here, for all eternity. Much the same as a sinner.
That was when he saw it a flicker of light. Not just any light, a pure white light. A light that was so familiar, one that brought him joy when it spoke to him in his booming voice.
His creator
“GREETINGS MY SON. IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I HAVE LAST SPOKE TO YOU AND FOR THAT I APOLOGIZE”
Adam didn’t care he was just so thankful to be in his creator’s presence.
“MY SON I KNOW THAT YOU HAVE LIVED A LIFE OF HARDSHIP AND THAT IT DID NOT STOP EVEN WHEN YOU PERISHED.”
He tried to not flinch at that. Thinking about his first life brought too many unpleasant memories.
“THAT IS WHY IT BRINGS ME PAIN TO ASK YOU OF THIS, BUT I NEED YOUR ASSISTANCE ONCE MORE. I KNOW OF WHAT YOU HAVE DONE THESE PAST FEW CENTURIES, AND I HAVE TO SAY THAT IT WAS NOT THE SOLUTION”
Adam could not believe what he was hearing. His own creator believed that they, the murderers and rapists, deserved to be redeemed!?
“HELL IS MEANT TO BE A PUNISHMENT, ETERNAL TORMENT OF THE SINS LUCIFER CORRUPTED WITH HIS WAY OF FREE WILL. HOWEVER MANY OF THEM DON’T SEE IT THAT WAY. TO THEM HELL IS MERELY A PLAYGROUND WHERE RULES NO LONGER MATTER. I HAVE SEEN TRUE MONSTROUS ACTS THE WICKED HAVE BROUGHT WITH THEM FROM LIFE. THEY CARRY IT MOST OUT ON THE TRUE CITIZENS OF HELL, THE ONES THAT HAD NO SAY IN BEING THERE OR NOT.”
The hell born, Adam thought taking in the Lord’s words
“I KNOW I AM NOT THEIR CREATOR, NOR DO THEY CALL ME FATHER, BUT I HAVE HEARD THEIR PLEAS FOR HELP TO BE SAVED FROM THE ACTS OF THE WICKED, OF ALL WICKED. UNFORTUNATELY THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE BORN DOWN THERE, BUT I CAN STOP THE SINNERS FROM HURTING THEM AND THAT IS WHERE I NEED YOUR HELP”
Adam had never put much thought into the hellborn. To him they were simply there and as long as they got in his way during the exterminations they weren’t a problem. There was the princess, but he didn’t really count her. He was curious however as to what the Lord wanted him to do.
“THE SINNERS NEED PUNISHMENT, AND THE HELL BORN NEED PROTECTION. YOU CAN BE THEIR PROTECTOR BY BECOMING THE PUNISHER.”
With a simple snap of his creator’s fingers Adam felt something shift within him, in his very essence he changed. A warm feeling engulfed him whole and then he knew no more.
((Oh shit- I love everything about this! God needs to fuck off and let our boy rest!
Sorry this took me a hot second to get to- and I hope my reply does yours justice 😝))
Charlie is in full work mode and has been since the failed extermination ended. Since finding out Sir Pentious ended up in Heaven.
For months, she had been working hard. It was so hard that she somehow missed the latest gossip going around the Pride Ring.
Sinners ending up missing, only to resurface months later completely different. Scared. Traumatized.
Many didn't think much of it. This is Hell. There's always some crazy bastard out there doing shit.
But, it was when they became too scared to even function, too scared to ever be normal again, too scared that they would rather turn an angelic blade on themselves than to live with the possibility of going through whatever it is they've gone through.
Charlie was actually getting quite concerned. Especially when she heard Angel talking about it one night at Husks bar.
Angel: I fucking tell ya, kitty. People a shit scared. I've never seen the clubs so empty!
Husk shook his head: Must be the worst of the worst, huh?
Angel scoffed, downing his drink: Nah, babe. It's something else. It ain't no sinner.
Husk: Hellborn?
Angel: Those guys are freaky. Don't get me wrong, but their not THAT freaky. I had a client who said he was taken for three months. Three. That's fucking child's play. But the shit he said happened to him... fucking skinning, to pouring acid down his throat. Fuck mam, the sick ficker even dug around I'm his muscle and tendons!
Angel shook his head: There's something going on... even Val has lowered the workload.
Husk: Pft. Fuck. That's how you know it's serious.
Angel: Damn fucking right.
Charlie stood at the top of the stairs, listening to Angel's story. She was shocked but not surprised. She wasn't sure why this person has the sinners so scared, but sury it's nothing new.
She probably should make sure Al isn't behind this. She's only heard a few tales of his exploits so she wouldn't put it past him.
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Alastor: Hm. So you've heard the rumors, too. While I'm flattered, I don't appreciate being confronted in such a way.
Vaggie: Just- fucking answer her, Alastor.
Alastor sighed, leaning on his cane: No, it's not me. I've been too busy here! And my kills stay dead when I'm finishing them~.
Charlie wasn't sure if she liked that answer, but it was good enough.
She apologized to Alastor, ams watched him leave.
Vaggie: ...I don't know, Charlie.
Charlie: I don't know either...
Vaggie: I'm sure it's nothing. Besides, you have more important things to deal with here, hun. You shouldn't get mixed up in sinner issues.
Charlie sighed: I know. I just... surely, it's a coincidence that this starts after the failed extermination... that was my fault. Simmered died because of me- I put my friends in danger! I feel like I owe it to everyone to at least try and solve it.
Vaggie smiled and pulled her girlfriend onto a soft hug.
Vaggie: I know you feel like that, hun. But you don't owe anyone anything... besides, if it's that bad, you could just ask Lucifer. He said he was looking for something to do.
Charlie: Hm... that's... a good idea, actually! I'll get dad on the case!
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Lucifer: Me on the what now? Charlie, why should I care about whatever is going on with those sinners? Their... you know... sinners.
Charlie: Dad, please? Our guests are sinners. We need them to be safe. So please. Look into this for me? Even just a little bit?
Lucifer sighed. He really didn't want to do this. But, seeing the hopeful, pleading look on his daughters face, eventually changed his mind.
Charlie: Oh- thank you, dad, thank you!
Lucifer smiled as Charlie pulled into a hug. But when she felt and heard his back crack, she slowly put him down.
Charlie: S-Sorry dad!
Lucifer laughed through the pain: It's okay, Charlie - nothing I can't handle! I-I better start hunting a... whatever the fuck this is!
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Found an amazing artist on Pixiv who draws amazing Itadori x Sukuna / x Sukuna (final form) and, hohoisnflbnfgon!! I have been LOVING those arts! 8D How Sukuna and big Sukuna manhandle Itadori at times is actually so darn HOT! <3 Either one of the Sukunas alone with Itadori or them both handling Itadori at the same time <3
Of course there's times when I go: "Awh, come on! Don't be that rough on the poor guy!" (because they both do seem to get too rough at times)
Not to mention all Sukuna x Sukuna stuff too! Oh dear me! 8D <3 Manhandling there too - and meeee likeees <3 And the body sizes! Final form Sukuna is MASSIVE with 4 ARMS! I love it how he handles both smaller Sukuna and Itadori! :D
But really, I have found my Heaven in Pixiv, ahaha :'D
#text#pixiv#Jujutsu Kaisen#Sukuna#Yuuji Itadori#Sukuna x Itadori#yaoi#gay#I have forgot how refreshing and inspiring yaoi arts can actually be#It's been decades since I last allowed myself to devour yaoi :'D#It just dropped out of my life#but now that it's back... I don't want to let go :'D#manhandling#Distracting myself as well since I do feel more or less anxious after visiting the doctor#But watching those arts make me miss a partner#someone to “manhandle” me too#At times life feels hard when you're almost 40 and been single your whole life#meaning no kisses; hugs; holding hands; bedroom activity and so on#I miss physical contact even that I've never experienced it#sorry if this was too much information :'D#I like to be honest
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tbh an important part of my take on the 'don't be like Sentinel' question is that hours earlier D16 had very decidedly assumed leadership of the High Guard, after which any attempt at resolving his very understandable personal trauma via murder was also, on a wider affects-everyone/your-new-power-means-something scale, inherently going to count as a military coup.
yknow. the thing Sentinel did to assume power/hand it over to the quintessons in the first place
#like you don't get to Be A Leader/wield power and also gratify your personal wishes/needs first and foremost#I feel like is an important part of the movie's whole ethos#sure Sentinel managed it for a bit but the point is it was unsustainable and he lost it again#tf one#transformers one#Megatron#d 16#Sentinel Prime#and tbf Orion's choice to ally with the high guard was also always gonna cause problems but in terms of like. people's general safety#it was also undoubtedly the preferable option compared to 'lets allow them to take point/call the shots'#cause the thing is honestly genuinely#if D16 had either turned his back on the high guard OR enlisted and then disobeyed orders to go after sentinel#then Orion would've been on waaaay shakier ground if he objected#cause in the kind of society they were living in vigilante justice/isolated terrorism/whatever you want to call it#would be no great sin against the ruling powers. like the 'left with no other option' argument definitely would have stood#but like. ORION is the one who's actually engaging in that shit. because he's not decided 'im the commander of an army now'#he's the commander of like. a terrorist cell made of miners. they're not a military organisation with training or much of a power structure#and meanwhile D16 is like 'this is my army now' which. okay cool but that means you are Not anything approaching a vigilante anymore#you get that right#stop operating on the assumption that that's what you are#you REPRESENT an established power structure now you're not just fighting one
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finally caught up a wee bit with dr who, i skipped the babies one cos it sounded terrible, went with the music episode.
good things: i like the doctor and the baddy was fun and clarose (i forgot her name twice now) is fine. also a very good episode for reaction images:
less good: i think i made a few of those faces myself while watching. what i assume was foreshadowing was pretty bad (had someone decided "one word repeated every episode" wasn't enough?). i am not sure why the doctor knew exactly what was happening, i don't mind that as an occasional plot device (they do know pretty much everything, after all) but it felt over done in this. why was there a music battle? why was there a song? WHY IS MURRAY GOLD BACK, HAD WE NOT AT LAST BANISHED HIM?
#dw#negativity though D:#mostly#BUT i like the main actors and they're the only people in every episode so at least it's the good way round there right?#it took me this long because i overall don't like RTD's style of Who and this contains a lot of the things i don't enjoy about it :'(#there were moments... there were moments it felt like ten'n'rose had returned from their hellish clique-dimension (season two) to haunt me.#good fucking god i never want to go back there again.#but you know what? at least RTD let this Scottish Doctor use his own accent instead of saying it would be “a tour of the regions” if he did#so that's nice :)#i think Clarose might be northern unless i just transplanted that onto her from one of her mothers (clara and rose had a baby????)#oh wow her eyes go so big! like comically fucking huge! i love it! at least for now!#fifteenth doctor#OH YEAH AND ABOUT THE NUMBERING#rtd critical#(seems like a useful tag for me lol)#at least the doctor kissed the tardis though :) that's what really matters isn't it? the otp. their love. etc.#LOOK HE IS WEARING HER COLOUR ��💙
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Unfortunately, I have too many works (most unfinished) that I love and adore, so this is off the top of my head and the most recent.
I swear these are a lot cooler and better than what I've described.
A paragraph detailing a drop of an ocean of gruesome crimes a character has committed.
My little precious sassy stalker demon baby saying, " My name is [REDACTED]" when the MC asks why he knows so much but not his own name (the name being a random one MC created for him like a minute ago).
MC: "You'll find there is no trace of the assassin's body." (Two of his coworkers/friends {at that point, not yet} exchanging unsurprised but uncomfortable looks.) MC's older brother (who is the leader of the group, people have the assumption that he's a normal guy): "Then there is nothing to clean."
A character reminiscing about his childhood, where his brother killed, cooked and seasoned his pet chicken (and fed it to him) and he got mad, so his brother got a pet chicken and named it (essentially) "Chicken Soup" so he could let him kill, cook and season it as revenge.
A series of letters where the two MCs kept having a consistent one line that included a 'stand' pun about one of them's drawings.
The MC regretting the choice of words he used when he rescued a child and the child's father is now confronting him. Flashback: I am kidnapping you. *Sarcastic* Present: Father, this man kidnapped me :D
MC being an oblivious man to the effect his smile has on others (namely a certain character).
The ending to a story where the surviving MC never finds out what happens to his brother, but it's very unsubtly hinted throughout that something specific happened. However, this information is not shared with that MC, and thus no one will ever realise the truth. A reversal of fates. If the surviving MC hadn't come back, his brother would still be here.
My outwardly mature mentor mentally an arsonist old (actually he's like forty) man and his weapon-making my-husband-died-once-so-now-I'm-actually-yandere-but-I'm-too-sweet-for-anyone-to-notice husband scenes.
(Experiences traumatising, horrible scene) Mangaka MC: I want to draw this so bad. (Does traumatising, horrible things) The Chosen One MC, receiving a headpat and a hug (most definitely affection): Is this... affection? No, can't possibly be. I'm an unlovable person who is too grown up (actually a child) to need such childish things like *affection*. My parents said so. Everyone said so. BUT I WANT MORE. No, bad human. That's bad. Also I just killed a person who asked me to kill them to end their suffering, my first kill, that's probably not good. Affection is an unneeded construct. 'Tis not a baby. Don't want or need it. (Makes people go through traumatising, horrible events) Almost-omniscient and omnipotent Side Character: This shows how much I love you guys.
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Tag Game: Favorite Writings
Name your top 10 favorite things you wrote (or 5 if you don't think you've written enough for 10) and then tag others to name theirs! It could be anything, from a single sentence, to a scene, to an entire fic, or an original story. All that matters is that you wrote it and liked what you wrote. It's fun to look back to the things you're proud of. I'll start -
"There on the ground lay Kudo’s head." - From this. I was very proud of myself for coming up with that ending.
Every single scene involving the sock puppets in my A Different Kind of Living Series.
Every time they burst into song in Moondrop. It was fun to write and fun to read back.
"As Tenko took his turn to run, he noticed a white-haired man standing in their neighbor’s backyard, examining the red flowers of the wisteria tree that grew there." From this. I loved putting in the small detail of Yoichi staring at red wisteria when they meet him.
The Many Different Instances in Which a Tattoo Can Occur. Writing this was really fun and I can't pick a favorite joke or scene. Really, I like the whole thing.
The first chapter for KudoIchi Week. I loved writing their battle against Dragon For One. Well, really the whole fic was fun.
When Hisashi kept blaming a literal cat for everything in The White Cat. That was very funny to me.
The first paragraph in A Normal Weekend. It was descriptive and fun to write.
The second chapter of Shigaraki's Monster. I loved giving Kudou and Bruce a more complicated relationship.
And finally, this paragraph from Not My Brother. "Yoichi was not his brother. He would not snap and throw tantrums at such obvious tactics. This was one Fumiya loved to use against him, throwing how much longer he knew Kudou in his face. He just seemed to know everything about Kudou. Little did he know, Yoichi knew more. Not just because of the instinctual “know” that came with being fated star-crossed lovers, but also because he loved Kudou enough to watch over him all the time, even when he was sleeping. Beat that!" It's just very funny to me.
No pressure @ ing. You don't have to reply if you don't want to! And feel free to join in even if you weren't @ ed.
@aimportantdragoncollector, @avis-fictional-world, @chaosverse-mainblog, @boss-the-goofball, and @mamashenanigans
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need to be exploding something but i Can't for some reason. just Can Not. my ability to do is just. Nay
#just me hi#GOUHHH#okay so I can't go back to bed rn cuz I was So tired earlier I went to bed at 7#Bad move !! But I also didn't have anything to do so kind of the only one lmao#So I slept for 4 hours and here I am now. At 2 am. Vibing [<- this is untrue]#I have Energy that I Need to dedicate to SOMETHING but I can't figure out what so I'm just vibrating really aggressively and pacing kfvshf#I could funkin writeeeee but I don't know what and i don't think I'll be able to focus so lmaoo 💥#// 💥🎶NONSTOP AUTOMATIC LIVIN IN DELUSION🎶💥#anywho loll--#//i could draw but that's Slow and Caramalizing work. Like when I want to evenly toast my thoughts you know what I'm saying kfshf#Or when I'm just trying to be Thourough. Or just rotating shiz so fast I gotta slow down lol#And then if I draw what should it be? The things in my brain ??? God forbid#What I'm just sposed to pick between the 3+ projects I have blasting at full volume in my head rn ?? That's crazy talk man#//mnm i want. a Snack#Snack tiymeeee#If only we had those kfshvfh#Ik where to get marshmallows (thought they could hide them from me. Impossible) but that's not a good choice for the hour or the craving lo#//what's the point !!! What's the pooooint !!! 🎶#i love you music hfvsh#/speaking of i took my mp3 player w/ me to skate w/ and played oldies and you know that was pretty good man I gotta do that again#Meant to do it last time but I didn't charge her :( and I don't want to stress her battery by killing her so </3#//oh also we went to the movies today !! Part of the reason I'm tired lmao#I always forget to bring smth to plug my ears (it's so funkin loudddd man oTL) but you know what I Didn't forget? Mp3 player w/ the noise#Canceling earbuds. Which worked insanely well I had Zero discomfort :D#Usually the theater experience starts to suck hard at abt the 2/3rds point cuz everything gets loud ;w;#but i forgot abt the sound thing w/ my buds in so :D yay yippee !!#We watched gladiator 2 :) watched the first one the night before so full context let's go 💥#It was good! I think anyway! I'm not sure i was completely clocked in kfshfh#//ooou I'm running out of tag space..#I'll say ciao right here loll :> toodles !!
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my niece stayed with us last night. it was pretty fun this time, probably because I was feeling better (if I'm already in pain or exhausted, I can't handle it). after we dropped her off, we talked to my mother for a little bit, and then drove to my in-laws. we were there for a few hours and because the guys were busy outside, i ended up talking to my mother-in-law for most of that time. it was... kind of good? I don't know. she actually showed some real emotions, just a little bit, but hey that's more than ever before! I even gave her a weird little shoulder squeeze/side hug, it was so weird.
anyway, I almost fell asleep in the car on the way home because I was so tired, and actually did fall asleep immediately on the couch.
#it's pretty annoying because my mother-in-law of course asked me how applying for jobs is going. I haven't applied for a single one yet#bc dude I can barely get through the day. I sleep for 12-16 hours a day. and I'm almost always in some kind of pain. and I'm not doing so#good mentally either. come on! I interacted with a handful of people in one day and had to sleep for like 6 hours.#anyway so I said it's a bit difficult because I'm constantly tired - it felt like the only thing she might kind of understand?#annnd she said its probably a vitamin D deficiency and I should get that tested (I won't because I'd have to pay for that and also I think I#read that taking vitamin D supplements doesn't actually help? I can't remember now and I don't want to look it up bc I know it definitely is#not the only or even main reason I am always tired.#I took vitamin D tablets for several months last year (?) bc my previous GP recommended it and. it did absolutely nothing at all#plus. like. I can't sleep. I sleep like shit. always. so. idk? that definitely doesn't help#and I sleep more when I'm in pain and all that too. so.#and she knows I have a bunch of health issues but. nope it's vitamin D because that's one thing and it's simple and here take a pill you're#fine now! wait why aren't you fine now? oh I guess you're just lazy 🙄#< that's 100% how that would go#ugh. Just let me sleep for 5-10 years. maybe that'd fix me....#like. I'm trying to get myself back (?) to being an actual human person again. I'm trying to figure out what's wrong with me. I'm trying to#live and not feel like I'm drowning every fucking day#finding a job is only gonna add more stress and exhaustion and everything. if I want to try to help myself this is the time to do it#okay rant over I'm going to sleep now#personal
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