#but now I don’t know if I want to move
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taylor swift we’re really in it now what are we gonna do…..💔💔💔💔💔/vent
#vent in tags#so i just called my dad to tell him what my mom said#Because now instead of her wanting me to move she’s forcing me#But she wasn’t the best eithe#Blue can tell you all about her tomfoolery#But now my parents have scared me so much by saying shit like#“Oh I heard the schools over there are BAD BAD”#and saying they think I would be just as if not more miserable there#but now I don’t know if I want to move
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Prompt 169
Danny is from a world where everyone has wings, even if most have long since lost the ability to fly. Something about loading and aspect ratio, wings being too small, body too heavy, now mostly used as display, whatever.
It doesn’t matter even if he had blueprints from when he was like six of a jetpack to help fly. It won’t work anyway and hey, he has his ghost form! Which uh, might be perhaps, affecting his wings which were maybe sort of scorched black and practically down to the bone thanks to the accident.
It doesn’t matter, he swears. Though he’s admittedly relieved to see the new feathers growing in are different from Dan’s angry sunset. Even if they’re not even supposed to be able to grow back. Alright, this is fine, no one is going to notice! It’s not like everyone knows about the poor Fenton kid whose wings were absolutely destroyed thanks to an accident! It’s fine.
He’s not flying in a half-panic towards the Far Frozen while crying because his wings are coming back and he’s so scared. He didn’t panic and instantly fled the moment Jazz pointed them out while changing the bandages.
He definitely didn’t trip over something while wiping away said tears and blacking out from all the stress and all of his problems that he definitely mentioned to someone and isn’t keeping a secret. Definitely.
Hawkwoman and Hawkman would like everyone to know that neither of them were expecting a very small child to be spat out of the villain of that week’s machine that should definitely not be a portal. A very small child, maybe nine or ten, with a multitude of concerning wounds both old and fresh. Which isn’t even beginning to touch on the wings.
Feathered, like baby down despite the gnarled scars, unlike their own metallic, with the beginning of tiny specklings like stars amidst the darker fuzz peeking from the wounded flesh.
Who?! Who dared?! It’s (at least to the forever reincarnating duo) a literal baby! They still have down! Tiny baby fuzz! Was it the portal?! Oh this villain is going to taste their maces for causing this if that’s the case!
The rest of the Justice League would honestly like to know what just happened and are honestly unsure on if they should stop the two…
#dcxdp#dpxdc#prompts#wing au#Shayera & Carter: THAT IS A BABY#Danny who is still very distressed when he wakes up: I don’t know what’s going on & might start crying at any moment#He got brought to the Watchtower#Y’know what make it where his world is similar to a Flashpoint timeline & that’s why JL never came#He has no idea why he’s tiny and just wanted to go to one of his caretakers#The League is trying to figure out how to get this kid home but also subtly asking how his home life is#Danny: Oh I guess my bio-parent’s house is dangerous but my caretaker’s homes are really cool and safe!#The JL now think this child is in foster care of some sort in his world#Danny does nothing to dissuade this assumption#Honestly it’s really freaky for him to see people without wings & maybe clings to Hawkwoman & Hawkman#Look their wings might be metallic but at least they have them & he can actually recognize their body language#How can anyone deal with not being able to express with wings?!#Even if his were completely scorched from the Accident he could still move them and such!
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This has been an absolutely horrible couple weeks for the Jewish and Israeli community, so I want to throw in at least a tiny bit of hope in here. Amina Hassouna, the Bedouin girl who was severely hurt in Iran’s missile attacks, has been recovering well and seems to be in good condition! She is described as being ‘fully conscious’ and ‘communicating and smiling’. Two bomb shelters have been placed in Al-Fura, the town that she and her family are from, as well.
#ישראבלר#ישראל#jumblr#(I know technically it’s not but I think people will be happy to see this)#also#putting this in the tags— I don’t want to focus on politics because this news is more important right now#but I do truly hope that this will initiate stronger moves towards protecting Bedouin towns and villages#many of them are unrecognised and do not have bomb shelters despite being there for decades#the treatment of Bedouins by the government in general needs to vastly improve#hopefully there will be proper steps in the future towards improving conditions for these towns#like I’m trying to be mild about this because it’s a subject that makes me very upset and I don’t want to go on an angry rant lol#like I said— hopefully things’ll to start change in a few years if the next government can please form a coalition not full of crazy people#if you want to read more about Amina and her family the Times of Israel has quite a few articles btw
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#bahhhhhhhhhh I’m just obsessed with them🥺#I’m going to post my next chapter tomorrow this is my promise to myself#it’s literally written !!!!!!!!!! but even though I *know* where I’m having the plot go etc etc#I just want to think a bit more and make sure how I’m portraying everytbing/the scenes I include are moving the story in the right direction#maybe it would have been easier for me if I just followed the game plot#but I HAD to go and add mythology and intrigue and angst and change it completely🥲#I’m also introducing a new character I’m SO excited for bc he’s so awful🥹🥹🥹 and I’ll draw him soon I think#well now I’m going to find a way to add a scene like this drawing in the future🥰🥰🥰#bc right now they only exist happily in my imagination and this art😆😆😆#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow fanart#sebastian sallow x mc#also I literally LOVE Eloise’s hair when it’s down#but a) she finds it scandalous bc of her time spent with muggles#and b) I the artist am quite lazy and it takes FOREVER to draw it like this bc I don’t actually know how to draw curly hair
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quickly before i have to go make dinner. miku miku butch beam
#aims the girl beam directly at hattori. don’t move#he’s a lesbian now#I think heizuha is infinitely funnier if he’s a girl#dcmk#this is born of me remembering heiji is my favorite and me realizing sera is everything I want . in being. you’re my friends now we’re#making gnocchi later (in 10 minutes actually cmon)#also experimenting with faces. I think I just need to be better at construction and anatomy#did you guys know this show is long. And if you rewatch it. It’ll take A While#AH NUTS WAIT SERA HAS GREEN EYES#my art#doodles
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oh. (part 2)
#wyatt in tears?? i’m done#this is setting in more and more that that might’ve been it#i don’t want it to be#but fuck man#joe pavelski#i’m going to fucking miss him if this is it#god#wyatt johnston#what’s wyatt supposed to do? get his own place?#never (jokes i know he has to move on eventually)(but why now)#tyler seguin#dallas stars#stars lb
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It’s disability pride month, and if you are disabled in the U.S. from Long Covid I want you to know that you’re not alone, and you’re valid in whatever you feel. Whether that’s sorrow at your new problems or rage at society for failing you, you are valid, and it is truly messed up that society is continuing to fail you.
#disability#trauma#chronic illness#long COVID#COVID#Tbh I’m not sure if I have long covid or not but I keep swinging between despair and fury#The brain fog SUCKS#I might have always had it but it feels especially bad now?#And I have all kinds of respiratory problems that got exacerbated#And possibly chronic fatigue but it’s unclear#And I’m one of the lucky ones!!!#I can still exercise without needing three days of bed rest after!#I was so RELIEVED when it turned out I could do that#I did like. Three weeks of breathing rehab to make sure#Not sure if it helped but now I’m not getting post-exertional backlash nearly as much anymore#And I didn’t lose my sense of smell or get my taste messed up#And I don’t need a respirator just an inhaler and some allergy meds and to take frequent breaks#And like. I know so many people have it worse#And that suuuuucks#But EVEN THIS makes me want to scream and rail half the time#Update as of Sept 2024 — this is no longer true#Got Covid again and now I can’t exercise without being too tired to move for three days#🙃#Probably will die mad about this actually#I had SUCH a good time working out one night#But then the next morning#Nope#head-to-toe muscle pain#couldn’t do any chores#Couldn’t even feed myself
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#I really hope 2025 is the year that I can let go of and leave behind all the people that fucking ruined and took advantage of me#and that I don’t even think about them anymore. I just want this shit to stop haunting me.#she doesn’t give a fuck about me and never did. but it still fucking hurts.#and I just keep ripping old wounds open because I’m always thinking about her but I know I don’t even cross her mind#especially not with how easily she just fucking discarded me once I’d served my purpose to her.#fucking almost 10 goddamn years literally fucking thrown away and looking back I realize all the shit I should’ve left over before#and just let her ruin her own life instead of taking me along for the ride and fucking me and my life up more in the process#I hope she fucking rots. I hope BOTH of them fucking rot actually. I fucking hate them for what they did#lying to me so id move in with them and then pulling all the shit they did so I’d stay only long enough to be beneficial for them.#fucking entitled cunts. fuck.#at least I’ve found a new bestie that isn’t a fucking asshole to replace the one that was#I’m so thankful for her but still so angry and upset with how I was tossed aside by the old one because of her insecure ass fucking fiancée#ugh. anyways. I’m gonna shut up now.#I just needed to vent for a second. I’m hoping this helps me detach more and leave that shit behind.
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i just need to know what it is about me that everyone thinks it’s okay to constantly disrespect me and treat me like a subhuman. everyone keeps telling me it’s not my fault that i keep getting used and fucked over but the common denominator is me.
like i don’t know what it is about guys being on the internet that makes them think women are a roster for them to act how every they want and have no consequences. im sorry it’s fucking trashy and what’s worse is when they’re people you have been friends with for years. even worse when they’re in a relationship. being online does not mean anonymous and social media is not a fucking dating or hookup app and i dont do that shit. i dont associate with people who do that shit and i don’t tolerate it being done to me.
you can ask people to stop but unless they respect you and actually want to i guess change for lack of a better word you’re stuck on a constant cycle of this harassment and borderline mental abuse and it’s really starting to take its fucking toll on me.
I’ve lost some of my best friends who think i just fuck around with whoever gives me attention because of my personality i guess i don’t know but it makes me sick to my stomach and i have never hated myself more. and then to find out your boyfriend is/was doing the same thing? it’s fucking devastating.
all it tells me is that im worth nothing to no one. the only thing im good for is sex or my appearance and when they get bored of me theres always someone else.
i have given up so much of myself to people who don’t deserve to be a thought in my mind and I still will protect them because i want to be the better person.
i just can’t take it anymore. i want to be chosen by someone who chooses me. me the person. sure i want the compliments and the flirty bits n all that but like there’s so much more to me than just my appearance and it’s becoming sickening clear that’s all im good for.
i’ve never felt so alone and i hate myself for it.
#like i don’t even pursue anything with people#i don’t initiate this shit and i sure as shit don’t reciprocate#so i don’t understand why this keeps happening#like these people know me#they know exactly how i am#why do they think i’ll act any differently online#i am a one guy kind of girl#i do not fuck around#even now i wont#and literally no one knows about the boyfriend situation#we’re still acting like everything is normal to the friend group#again because even though he deserves no grace i still want to protect him#i don’t want people talking bad about him despite how much i still hurt#so as far as everyone is concerned aside from the like 2 people who know#im in a relationship and it just shows that people have no fucking respect for that#like aside from tumblr two people know what’s up#one moved away like 5yrs ago and doesn’t talk to anyone#and the other kinda got thrown into the middle of it at no fault of their own#so like literally people just have zero disrespect for me#and i don’t want it to make me angry or bitter#but it’s so fucking hard
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i miss carpisuns sometimes </3
#not necessarily that I regret switching over but i just get like nostalgic for an earlier time in the ml fandom#s3 was soooo much fun for me#and the long hiatus before s4 was also the best. so good wasn’t ready for it to end when it did haha#things just feel so different in the fandom now#both the fandom has changed and I have changed#and of course the STORY has changed#and I like don’t know what to do about that or how to react#cause I am used to being one of the guys who is defending ml’s honor with my life lol#committed to spreading positivity#and I still want to be that guy!#but it’s like. idk. I don’t recognize this story anymore#this isn’t the same story that I fell in love with years ago. but I don’t want to just like Leave??#I do want to see how things play out bc I am still invested in these characters#and I would love to still be part of the fan community and connect with people over a mutual love for this thing#that has been important to me for years and has inspired me to create and learn new skills and make new friends!#but I also don’t just want to shut up and pretend I’m happy about things I am decidedly unhappy about lol#like it’s honestly surprising to me that a only a small minority of the fandom seems to feel the way I do?#and the majority are still super pumped and frustrated at the people who are complaining#and really. I don’t WANT to rain on anyone’s parade. I honestly don’t#I was part of the parade for years! I had the best time in the parade! I don’t want to ruin the good time!#so i try not to be too salty on main ? but i feel like I’m going a little crazy lmao! like I’m just one bitter little miser fhdjjd#i mean i guess it’s kind of a good thing that I moved blogs tbh lol#cause now when i whine only a fraction of the people have to be exposed to it 😂#but man i hate knowing that people might think of me as a salter#I mean it’s valid if people are trying to have fun and do not want to hear my complaining haha#but also do i automatically have to be a salter. are the only options support and defend ml 100% at all times or Be A Salter#or can there be a third category of certified ml lover that is just disappointed in recent events & disagrees with the new writing direction#is that too much nuance for tumblr lol#see maybe that’s why I miss carpisuns. she didn’t have to ask this question. she was only full of LOVE!#but therein lies the irony…like marinette I have made this choice out of love…for what the story once was…what is to become of me now…
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#my little brother is engaged :/#don’t know if any of you remember me posting about the whole situation like 8 months ago but i feel soo weird#and sad because i want to b happy for him but he’s six yrs older than her and she’s 19..#or i guess twenty now maybe whatever i feel so aggh. and he moved to a different country so i just feel like i’m never gonna see him again#like i knew this was coming they’re both super religious so i was like yeah they’re going to want to get married and have kids fast but.#it just feels crazy. i know that’s selfish but i have such a bad gut feeling about it that i can’t shake#but i can’t do anything about it so. idk. i just feel so lonely when things like this happen because i don't have anyone outside of the#family bubble to talk to about it. and obviously everyone else is like super happy for them. and it's not that i don't like her! i just#don't really? know her? at all which feels weird because we are a very close sibling group and i feel like i know & get on with my other#siblings' partners. i think it's partly like i just don't ever hang around people who are under twenty so she feels really young to me#which isn't her fault obviously but. do feel kind of scared for her getting married at twenty so she can start having babies.... idk idk#and obviously on top of that it's my younger brother so it does feel a little salt in the wound that he's moving on with his life and i am#counting it a win these days if i don't want to kms every three minutes#god it just sucks lol and i can't talk about it 2 anyone so i am venting here
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i just spent my morning learning the 9-1-1 magnet theory lore and now i can’t see straight
#to the four people who basically invented this whole thing i have 2 things to say#thank you#are you doing okay?#i feel spn levels of insane at the moment#i want it to be real but i also think it would be really funny if it was just like a prop guy#moving the magnets around for fun when he was bored#but at least some of it HAS to have an explanation like where are the magnet men#why those quotes and where did gob bluth go#and the calendars??? pls. america explain#i now know the true meaning of brainrot#girl i thought the couch theory was a lot?? nohr#also this was not meant to be a straight/gay joke but i don’t feel like rewording it so there#the fridge magnet theory#911 magnet theory#buddie#diaz family#buckley diaz family#eddie diaz#christopher diaz#evan buckley#911 show#911 abc#911 fox#em saying things
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Just saw the notes about silly little poll helping and wanted to tell you that it does. It does
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#i know it’s easy to feel helpless and discouraged right now but we owe it to the Earth to keep moving forward despite everything#and it’s ok to distract ourselves with fun little polls and animal trivia#you can’t let despair overtake you#i don’t want to get too off-topic on this blog but just know that I am here with you and we must simply do the best we can#asks#usa politics
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hey dude, i know you mean well for the ol community, and i think you're really cool and have been following you for a while, but i really don't think all this shitting on rose is justified. spreading callout posts by taking shitty things people have said out of context, especially queer poc, is a real tactic used by terfs to spread discourse and isolate queer people from communities, and it's worked so well that queer people have started doing the same to their own with really good intentions, but the overall effect is nonsense discourse and the spread of hatred. kab herself has publicly said that she and rose have a good relationship and that she thinks most of rose's impact on the games and community has been really helpful for checking her own biases. the screenshots and shitty things you've read about her are not the full story, and yes, i do agree that rose handled certain things really really shittily and i am not excusing that at all, but rose isn't a bad person at all, what the callouts show is out of context and does not show rose accurately as a person, and the degree of hatred for a group of people honestly trying to create a safe space for queer people is wildly disproportional. i really hope this doesn't come off as any way accusatory, because it really isn't, and i really look up to you as a creator. i just want you to be aware that this is something that has been settled by the people involved, and continuing discourse and wanting rose fired goes directly against kab's own wishes and is based on misinformation. thanks for reading this far. please have a wonderful day
I respect you and I appreciate that you reached out respectfully with this.
I do not repost these call out post to be malicious or start a hate campaign like some people have been accusing others of.
I do not encourage witch-hunting or harassment of Rose or Kab ; As they are people and make mistakes , even if the mistakes are extremely shitty and I understand that those screenshots were a private conversation but frankly , I think some of the stuff Rose said was extremely odd and vulgar , context or without.
I am not in the official OL server so maybe your right about them not being as bad but even if that was the case they should still be let go of the role as sensitivity reader because they’re views aren’t open minded and its ironic that they are supposed to help prevent bias and keep the game inclusive when they’ve shown a weird rhetoric and the paper bag comment actually made my jaw drop.
OL has been one of the most comforting things to me , I was in a really dark place when I started a new save file and fell in love with all the characters and the game so believe me when I tell you I would never want to attack the very person who created and brought me that comfort. It physically exhausted me and upset me yesterday when it all came to light , considering it has been a huge hyperfixation and boosted my self esteem.
I don’t care if GB is okay with their friends talking an insane amount of crap behind their backs. It's not my business, I just think that they need better friends.
Even with this in mind, I can’t continue my support for Kab if they decide to keep Rose on the development team, not purely just because of what they said in private but how they treated my friend. The both of them are insinuating that they’re a “liar” or that they “overreacted” when they just wanted to express a grievance. And a surprisingly large number of people are harassing them and accusing them of starting a “racist campaign” towards Rose when they are a trans minority as well. If the fandom is so quick to villainize my friend for simply speaking out then frankly I don’t want to be a part of this fandom.
I hope you also have a good day.
#orion4ever#orion discussion#orion thought#our life beginnings & always#our life now and forever#i will barely post now due to this#if you don’t agree with my view then I hope you have a good life and goodbye#and if you do agree and choose to stay then know I recheck my notifications constantly and smile when I see a like from a familiar person!#i am moving on#this will be the last i talk about this unless something changes#i am disappointed in some of the fandom but i know some people will have more trouble letting go of the game#so i won’t hold it against them#while i joke alot#i want to stay cordial
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I miss home.
I miss all the neighbors leaving their porch lights on and I miss the red maple tree that I fell out of one time and I miss the squirrels with black fur and I miss the dogs I knew by name and I miss the moss in the yard and I miss the way the plants looked and I miss the forest and I miss the bluebells and I miss the river and I miss the library and I miss the kind librarians we would give cookies to and I miss the cracked sidewalks that I would race down with my dog and my brother and I miss the deer and I miss the owls and I miss the way the street signs looked and I miss how everything felt so close and I miss home. I miss living somewhere that felt like home.
#augh#I’m fine I’m okay I’m just#missing. a lot of things right now.#that place was Home to me#and I think it always will be#and it’s been over two years and I haven’t lived anywhere else that’s felt like that#and I’ve lived in three separate places since then#I miss home I miss home I miss home#and I will never be able to go back to that time and I probably won’t live there again#and I don’t even know if I’d want to move back because I did have a lot of awful experiences in that place#and I have friends where I live now#why does moving have to be complicated#my post
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You said that if you dated Peter or Wade it would make you miserable. Which– Okay fair, Wade does have a history of purposely hurting the people he loves.
But what about Peter? Why do you think dating him would make you miserable?
because I’ll always know I had the option to climb a 6’8 cyborg and I passed that up for a sweaty little twunk that I perpetually have to remind to bathe (sorry peter)
#I don’t know. I don’t think peter is good boyfriend material. I think his insecurities would get exhausting.#Wade has bottomless patience. me… I don’t know. I don’t think I could. I’ve got my own stuff going on. I don’t want a Project.#peter is definitely a project. and he needs someone with shed loads of patience and perseverance.#me I just. I wanna have a good time. so. come to me my big beautiful time traveller. whisk me away.#take me to the beach. you can disappear after I don’t mind I’m not needy. just spend a beautiful romantic week with me.#sci speaks#I don’t really know what kind of person I’m compatible with really actually.#all my relationships have been. pretty short.#and I don’t think it’s any fault of my own really. and I don’t feel any loss over them at all. like at all. I wish I did. but I don’t.#a sci has so very thankfully never felt heartbreak.#but it makes me kind of question what kind of person I am when it comes to this sort of thing.#because I really don’t know.#I don’t know if I want commitment. I don’t even know if I want sex these days.#I … weirdly… am so devoid of yearning these days. like I feel content right now on my own. I don’t even feel lonely.#I used to yearn but I think I’ve moved past it. and I kind of just want to have a good time.#and that doesn’t even . involve a relationship or anything anymore. like I don’t think I want one actually. it feels like I’m Over it.#it’s kind of great because I’ve never felt so calm in a long time. all because I decided that I don’t. actually Need anything.#I don’t need anything more than what I have. and that’s brought me rest after So Long being restless.#but if a massive time traveller came and whisked me away on sexy adventures how could I say no
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