#but noooo i had to be honest and then he went and said i needed to see

[xneens]

three cents

you butt dial your boss during a girls night … the girls night where you told them you’d fuck aaron hotchner for three cents.

Girls' night out was wild, no one knew where you would end up. One night, you ended up on a boat and the next you were on a train to NYC. After getting thrown in jail with Emily, JJ, and Penelope during another night out, you all vowed to keep whatever happened during the night a secret from everyone, specifically Derek Morgan. Derek Morgan who had bailed all four of you out of jail, Derek Morgan who teased you relentlessly for weeks after.

After a long case, Emily suggested another girl’s night which all of you agreed on, desperately needing a celebratory drink after saving a little girl. It was around one in the morning when you got back to Quantico and though Aaron gave you the day off for tomorrow–or well, later today–all four of you decided to crash at Emily’s and drink to your heart’s content.

Popcorn and Hersey kisses lay on Emily’s coffee table, bottles of half-empty wine and jello shots litter the floor and you’re all giggling about whether to prank Derek by getting phone cases with a picture of him shirtless. You’re all on board and Penelope is getting them custom-made through a website she’s found.

“Speaking of Derek’s abs.” JJ drags the ‘s’ creating a hissing noise. She turns to you, grinning. “I’ve wanted to ask ever since you went to that Doctor Who convention with him. Do you like like Spence?”

You giggled, taking a small sip of wine, thinking about the genius. “Noooo. Spence is my friend. And he runs with his gun like it’s weighing him down. Besides, I only went to that Doctor Who convention because he went to see Barbie with me. He’s, like, too young for me, too.”

“He’s older than you.” Emily points out, smirking, knowing full well you liked older men. “He’s adorable and sweet.”

“Spencer is definitely cute and I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t had a sex dream about him,” you confessed, smiling as the girls burst out laughing. “But he’s too … inexperienced. I like my men like I like my wine. Old.”

Your phone had been on mute since you entered the plane, not wanting to abruptly wake anyone up if they were resting, so not a single person in the room had heard your phone ringing or Aaron’s multiple “hello’s” trying to get your attention. All of you were oblivious to your boss listening in to the conversation.

“Is Rossi too old for you?” Penelope asked, inciting another round of giggles.

You nodded, finishing off your glass of wine. “Just a bit. I’ve seen pictures of him when he was in the Marines though, and I definitely would’ve been the fourth Mrs. Rossi back then.”

Emily cackled, a bit of red wine spilling from her full glass. “Okay, I have a question. Would you guys fuck Hotch for ten million dollars? Be honest here.”

“No!” both JJ and Penelope spit out. They all turned to you, grinning like madmen.

You shrugged, filling another glass. “I’d do it for three.”

“Damn, three million? That’s–“

“Nope,” you smirked, taking a sip.

Emily paused, head tilting in confusion. “Three … hundred thousand?”

“No.”

“Three thousand?”

You shake your head, grinning at the confused woman. “Nope.”

“Three hundred?”

“No.”

Emily’s eyes widened, jaw-dropping a little further as you denied her guesses. “Three dollars?”

“No.”

“THREE CENTS?” JJ was the one to shout, mouth dropping open when you giggled and nodded.

Penelope threw a pillow at you, and you giggled, dodging it, nearly spilling your drink in the process. “Hey! This is supposed to be a judge-free zone. I’d suck and fuck Unit Chief Aaron Hotchner for three measly cents.”

“Okay, I’d understand if you said Derek but Hotch?” Emily exclaimed, shaking her head at the thought. “He’s like twenty years older than you!”

“Exactly! That’s part of the appeal,” you replied. You were sure by tomorrow no one would remember your confession–though you were positive you wouldn’t either–and that they wouldn’t tease you too much over it. “He’s the literal definition of a DILF.”

The girls laughed at your words, JJ having to clutch onto a pillow to control herself.

“And!” you continue. “I was working out with Derek once and Hotch came in the gym with gray sweats and his dick looks humongous. It was a huge fucking bulge. I think I saw it twitching.”

Penelope slaps her hands over her ears, playfully grimacing at your words while Emily chugs the remains of her glass, absolutely baffled. You didn’t mind, sex and boys were common conversation topics during girl’s night (and sometimes when Emily would catch you making eyes at someone.

The rest of the night continued the same, though less talk about Hotch’s big dick and more on whether you all should make more jello shots. By the time you’re coming up with an answer, it’s five in the morning and all four of you are knocked out from the alcohol in your system. Even in your drunk state, you knew you’d wake up to a pounding headache.

When Derek calls in the morning, telling everyone about a new case, you’re all moody and grumpy. Hotch wanted everyone in even though he had given the day off, so no one was jumping for joy especially not in your hangover state.

Despite drinking the most, Emily drives the four of you back to the BAU, mumbling obscenities under her breath on the way. When you enter the elevator, Derek is there, causing all of you to groan at his presence. One look at you and he laughs loudly, knowing what had transpired the night before.

You wish you could shoot his foot.

In the briefing room, Hotch apologizes for having you all come in on your day off, pausing to glance at you before presenting the case. Truth be told, you hadn’t paid that much attention to it, your headache taking up your attention. Fire, serial arsonist, fifteen dead, Seattle.

“Wheels up in thirty,” Hotch announces, walking across the table. As the team filters out of the room, he calls your name. “In my office, please. I want to discuss something with you.”

Confused, you follow him to his office, pushing through your headache to think about what he could possibly want to speak to you about. You come up blank, even more confused when you see him lock the door to his office as you enter. “Did I do something wrong?”

Hotch shook his head, moving past you to his desk. He picks up something and turns around. In his hands are three pennies, and he’s holding them out to you. “Three cents.”

You’re getting deja vu on the words, and it’s not until several seconds of standing in silence and confusion that it clicks. Three cents. You blush, looking at the pennies. “I don’t understand.”

“You said you’d suck and fuck me for three cents,” he smirks at your shock, placing the coins in your hands.

“What–”

Hotch unbuckles his belt, causing you to stop mid-sentence. “You’ve got twenty-eight minutes to suck my cock. Get to work.”

[angels-fantasy]

Top Secret Fiction Ch. 6

The Confrontation

Katsuki Bakugou x Reader

Description: After meeting the one and only pro hero Dynamight on a dating app, you two begin to see each other. Because of the dangers that come with his hero work, you both promise to be completely honest with each other from the beginning; though you can't help but keep one big secret from him.

You write fan fiction, mostly about him.

Chapter Details: deku makes an appearance here heheh. bakugou lowkey might like fanfics? but only if they're about him. scary confrontation 😟 reader is a bit sad and confused :(

Word Count: 1.4k

previous chapter

As soon as Bakugou got home, he opened his computer and looked up 'Bakugou x Reader'. What came up was a ton of links to different websites, one of the top ones being HeroFiction.Com.

Clicking on it, he scrolled through the sight and found many other original stories about different pro heroes.

While doing this, he learned that this was called fan fiction, which he'd heard about before, but he never paid attention to it because he didn't care.

Keeping the website open, he leaned back and wondered, were you writing fan fiction about him? You must've been, based on your notes. Did you write for other pro heroes, or just him?

A small part of him hoped you only wrote for him.

He sighed and rubbed his hands down his face, trying to think about what the hell he was going to do about this. Clearly, this was something you didn't want to tell him, meaning you kept it a secret.

And he hates secrets, but for some reason, this didn't feel too bad. He was almost... flattered, in a way. He was also curious and he just wanted to know more. But how would he even bring this up to you?

Deciding he'd need help with understanding this website, he called someone he trusted.

"Hey Deku. You know what fan fiction is, right?"

Blushing, Izuku replied with "Why are you asking me that Kacchan?!"

"Because I know you used to write that shit back in high school!" He explained, "Just tell me what you know about this site called 'HeroFiction.com.'"

A lightbulb went off in Izuku's head, "Oh yeah I recognize that name! It's basically a website for pro hero fanfiction. I've seen a few good ones actually-"

"Yeah okay, thanks." Katsuki said, cutting off his friend.

It was time for him to do more of his own research, specifically on this website.

...

When you woke up the next morning, you found yourself in your bed wondering how you got there.

Did I fall asleep? You wondered.

You cringed at the thought of Bakugou seeing you asleep and hoped you didn't do anything embarrassing.

Rubbing your eyes, you grabbed your phone from the nightstand and saw a text from Bakugou letting you know he had left after putting you in your bed.

You smiled at his thoughtfulness and texted him back a thank you, and an apology for falling asleep while he was over.

After tossing your phone down onto the bed next to you, you stretched and blinked away any leftover sleep.

As you were stretching your legs you felt your foot hit something softly. Wondering what it was, you sat up and looked at the foot of your bed, eyes widening when you realized it was your notebook.

But this wasn't just any notebook- this one had all of your notes for fics you were planning on writing.

You thought about how Bakugou brought you into your bedroom, and your heart sank to your stomach when you realized he probably saw your notebook.

"Noooo!" You cried and placed your hands over your eyes. "Kill me now..."

You prayed to any higher power out there that he didn't read anything.

...

Your prayers clearly didn't reach anyone because a few hours after waking up, you got a text from Bakugou that said, "Can we talk? ASAP."

Biting your nail nervously, you texted back "Sure" and asked when and where he'd want to meet up.

Quickly texting back, he told you he'd meet you at a cafe near your neighborhood in a few hours.

A little while later as you got ready to meet up with him you felt like you were going to cough up your stomach and die from your nerves.

You didn't want to accept it, but deep down you knew he figured out your secret. It was already terrifying trying to keep what you did in your free time a secret, but now that the person you wrote about knew, was even more terrifying!

It seemed as though your frantic thoughts made time go by even faster than usual, and it was now time for you to leave so you could make it to the cafe on time.

Taking a deep breath and patting your face, you stepped out of your apartment and began to head to the cafe.

...

As Bakugou sat at the cafe in the outdoor dining area, he tapped his foot anxiously as he awaited your arrival.

After his phone call with Deku and doing his own research (which just consisted of reading other fan fictions he came across), he came to the conclusion that he would accept this hobby of yours, if you were honest about it when he confronted you.

Since he had browsed the website a bit, he came across some stories that were actually decent (but also others that were very, very questionable and he really hoped you didn't write anything like that. ESPECIALLY not a story with him and that damn Deku).

He'd never admit it, but it boosted his ego a bit to know that you wrote about him, and he definitely wanted to read some of your stuff. He wanted to know if it was as good as some of the other ones he has read.

Suddenly, he saw your figure walking towards him and he was snapped out of his thoughts. He sat up straighter and placed his elbows against the table, leaning forward.

You sat down across from him silently with a shy look on your face. "So..." You said softly, "You wanted to talk?"

He cleared his throat, "Yeah. I'll just get to the point..." He said, before hesitating to say, "That night I was at your place, I saw your notebook-"

You grimaced, knowing exactly what he was talking about, and placed your hands over your face in embarrassment. "I'm sorry." You said.

Letting out a deep breath, you uncovered your face and continued to speak while looking down at your lap. "I knew this would come up eventually, I just didn't think it'd be so soon..."

Bakugou scoffed, "So when were you gonna tell me? Never?"

You frowned at his tone, "No! It's just not an easy topic to talk about Bakugou. It's embarrassing and I wasn't just going to say 'Hey Bakugou, did you know I've been writing fan fiction about you for three years?'"

He blinked. He could understand where you were coming from. In fact, he'd probably be more weirded out if you had told him that easily. But, even though you were honest now, it still doesn't shake his uneasiness about you keeping a secret from him.

Sure, it wasn't a huge, life threatening secret, but it was still something you kept from him. He liked honesty, especially in a relationship and it's something he valued heavily. A part of him felt like he should've known about this sooner, since it was about him for gods sake!

He sighed. "Before you go assuming things, I'm not mad at ya, okay?" He said, "I just... I think I need time to think about this alright? A few days at most."

You furrowed your eyebrows subconsciously, making your eyes look big and puppy like. Well damn, how was he supposed to stay away from you when you gave him that look?

"Okay." You spoke sadly, "I understand. I shouldn't have kept that from you, so again, I'm sorry."

He shook his head. "'S fine."

You rubbed your sweaty palms on your legs and stood up. "I'll give you time now, alright? Just, call or text me whenever you're ready." You said and gave him a small wave before walking back in the direction you came from.

As you made your way back, you thought about your talk with Bakugou.

If you wanted to keep seeing him, maybe you would have to stop writing. You were starting to really like Bakugou, and you didn't want a silly hobby to get in the way of a potentially serious relationship with him.

You felt your eyes tear up. It was hard to think about giving up writing. You had made friends through your writing, your own little community online. It was great! But realistically, could you keep this up forever?

That same night, you posted on your page.

Hi everyone. I've decided to take a break from writing for a while. I'm not sure how long it will be, but I will still leave everything here for you to read.

Thank you, xo.

authors note

HIII omg im so sorry i haven't updated this fic in a while 🥹 this chapter was actually really fun to write and omg writing readers thoughts at the end lowkey made me sad!! how do you feel about it? pls lmk!!

love ya!

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[eevylynn]

Art by Timeless

Shadows Within

Sterek || E || 37k wc

After making a deal with the Nogitsune, Stiles gained control of its powers. When an enemy comes, determined to end the Beacon Hills Nogitsune no matter the consequences, Derek gets kidnapped and hurt, and Stiles’ possessiveness comes out.

The gorgeous artwork is by Timeless. It was very inspirational!

This is by far the longest finished fic I have ever written, and I still can't believe I actually managed it.

Thank you to everyone that helped me get this done and out there into the world! You know who you are!

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

Stiles adjusted the grip on his stick and scuffed his cleats in the grass as he briefly closed his eyes to take a bracing breath.

After he had turned the tides of the championship game last season, causing BHHS to win, this was what he wanted. Scott had worked with Stiles on and off over the summer between sophomore and junior years to help him improve enough, so they could be co-captains together. With Jackson’s parents’ pulling him out and moving to London, that dream seemed even closer.

Then, the insanity of the fall semester happened, and any thoughts of lacrosse flew from his mind.

That is until the announcements for tryouts came out.

Thankfully, Scott had brought his grades up enough that Coach was letting him back. Maybe. Everyone had to try-out again. One would think that everyone that played on a championship winning team would automatically be back on the team the next year, but noooo–Coach had a wild hair up his ass and decided that’s not good enough and that they needed a “rebuilding season”.

To be fair, Jackson wasn’t the only one of their teammates whose parents decided to take them out of Beacon Hills. Probably because of all the murders, if Stiles was being honest. Even Danny was gone, which was unfortunate because Stiles could tolerate Danny.

This little shit that was standing, unwanted, in front of the goal on the other hand…

Opening his eyes, Stiles stepped into his shot, launching the ball towards the goal faster than he ever had before, passing the goalie’s stick by a hair and landing in the net.

The crowd on the sidelines erupted in cheers, but Stiles barely registered them.

“YES!! Another perfect shot! Way to go, Stilinski!” Coach Finstock yelled, snapping Stiles back to reality. “Stilinski, you’ve been holding out on us!”

Stiles jogged to the back of the line, making his way to the back. His eyes flickered to where Scott stood at the end. He was watching Stiles with a mix of admiration and unease.

“Dude, you’re doing, like, really good,” Scott said as Stiles neared him, eyebrows pinched a bit.

“Yeah,” Stiles muttered, as they turned to watch Isaac take his turn. “Thanks.”

They both leaned to look around the guys in front of them to watch Isaac shoot. The ball almost went into the net, but the kid, Liam, caught it right at the last second. The guys around them were evenly split between groans and cheers.

Stiles whistled as Isaac made his way to them. “So, close.”

“At least I was aiming for the net,” Isaac replied, reaching out to roughly pat Scott’s shoulder, “unlike some people who just whiffed and hit the frame instead.”

Once again, the goalie caught the ball. Scott had missed a few more shots, overshooting the goal or hitting the posts instead. A couple of times, Liam even managed to intercept Scott’s attempts, flashing that smug grin of his each time. The kid’s accuracy was almost annoyingly perfect, and he seemed to be thriving on Scott’s slip-ups.

Frustrated, Scott stormed off, ripping his gloves and throwing them down as he went.

“Dude!” Stiles said urgently, as he and Isaac caught up to Scott. “What is going on with you?”

“I don’t know,” Scott grumbled. “I’m having a really off day.”

“Off day? You are dying out there,” Isaac snorted. “Like, I’m feeling actual physical pain watching you.”

“I wish,” Stiles muttered.

“Yeah, like you need to be any stronger,” Isaac muttered back, immediately understanding what Stiles was getting at. “This is already weird as it is. I mean, you’ve been doing better than both me and Scott.”

“That’s because Stiles is new to his powers. Whereas, we’re not using our abilities out on the field,” Scott said. “On the field, we’re just as human as anyone else.”

“No, you’re really not,” Stiles pointed out, getting annoyed. “You’re a werewolf–complete with the strength, speed, and reflexes. It’s the whole reason you were able to even get off the bench last year, remember?”

“Yeah, but I’m trying to do better. Be better. I’m trying to make it fair for everyone, so I’m avoiding using my powers.”

“Well, in case you’ve forgotten,” Stiles said incensed, “Finstock doesn’t know or care if you are an Alpha werewolf. He just sees someone who’s not at the level they were last year. You might want to use some of your wolfie powers or you very well might lose your position as team captain. Are you prepared for that?”

“But…that’s cheating.”

“Technically, it’s not. There’s nothing in the rules about supernaturals playing on the team.”

“No, but that doesn’t stop it from being an unfair advantage.”

“Scott, the only way to completely prevent yourself from having an unfair advantage on the field would be to just not play,” Stiles said, getting closer to the edge of his temper at Scott just not understanding. “Your advantage doesn’t just come from using the obvious powers. Your very senses are heightened in a way that a human’s literally can’t. There is absolutely no way for you to play as a human, especially now that you’re an Alpha.”

[anonymouslosersworld]

Two-faced

Two-faced pt 2

Characters; Tenjiku

Genre: Fluff (F)

Toman reacts to : s/o with a double life.

warnings: Reader is a menace to society pt2

Requested by: @sousheiswag

Summary: gang leader!s/o that hides the fact that she Is a True menace and a gang leader to anyone.

characters: Izana, Ran Haitani and Rindou Haitani

Hiding something like 2nd life was exhausting. Like honestly how did you even find the energy to do it?

Your boyfriend's clingy, stupid, and always had to give you a heart attack one way or another, even if he doesn't admit it. He was up your ass every other day and making you angry half the time. Which made you so happy that you had ...creative outlet

It honestly took a load off caving someone's faces in after a big fight you had said, boyfriend. Sometimes you needed something to end up in flames and someone's ugly sobbing to get your anger out.

It was always a big plus that the people you were kicking the shit out of weren't the innocent bystanders but other gang douches that broke your territory rules or tried to take over your said territory.

But today you were running behind schedule some gang decided to pull some shit the day of some important day your boyfriend invited you . So you had to stop in the middle of getting ready to go deal with them.

you were kinda pissed, while you were hot the temp for that day was even higher and it made you cranky. So the douches got the death of a lifetime.

Izana Kurokawa

Izana was fucking worried, he went to your apartment to check on you because you hadn't called him like you promised you would. Your room looked like it had been ransacked if he was being honest, but he knew that the mess was a part of getting ready to go out.

what really made alarm bells ring in his head was the ugly boot footprints all over your home, he thought you had been kidnapped. While he usually said anything about your shoe preferences these seemed to be all over certain parts of your parents. It's where you keep all your valuables...kept is more like it since these places were empty/ ransacked.

Izana let out a huff and gritted his teeth.

'unbelievable' He thought as he walked out of your apartment.

'I'm so fucking late!!!'

well, you say that but you didn't seem to stop shoving s scum bag's face into the floor.

"you seem to like being on your knees for a girl huh? you must make someone happy." you said trying to alleviate your bad temper.

"oh but who am I kidding, you get no bitches do ya!" You grunt as you knee the guy in the face. "You'd be lucky with just a hello!"

"If it weren't for you I'd be with my boyfriend but noooo. Y-you just couldn't shut the fuck up and leave me be!"

The sound of bones breaking was clearly heard by you as you curb stomp the idiot who dared to cross paths with you. You can't help but remember a time not so long ago when it bothered you. But you were most certainly more bothered by your current predicaments because you didn't notice someone coming up behind you trying to confirm it's really you.

"DO you know how fucking long it takes to get a date with that asshole?! A lot! I worked really hard and you ruined it!"

"I could be sipping a (insert drink) with him right now! or watching a fucking movie?! Now I'll have to wait til his dumbass schedule opens up for another one bitch!"

Ran Haitani

See you rather die than admit to Ran that you were a leader of the gang. To give that man satisfaction would be a stain on your pride. So you obviously decided you would deal with the way you love.

Fighting was not one of them.

Physiological warfare of course.

So no Ran didn't catch you exactly fighting but in a particular scene. To him, it looked like you were ambushed or being harassed by a gang. When they looked at him in fear he just assumed it was because of him.

Turns out it was the opposite situation, he had no idea that you had told this daddy's man that his daddy knew what he was doing in his free time.

You had just exposed him for being a fraud rich boy wannabe gang leader just cosplaying, causing his fear to become real as his gang was ruthless and cutthroat.

"Now. do you want me to tell certain interested parties about this orr?" your paused before continuing, "you know you have a really pretty dad ya know? He really looks like my friend's type too, maybe you'll have a new step-mommy."

" You think your empty threats-"

"Empty? who said they were?" You grab his face and squeeze it with a force to bruise his face. "watch your tone with me little bitch boy, or you won't like the consequences ."

The look on the man's face when registered Ran's oncoming figure was hilarious. You would probably laughed if you weren't caught red-handed doing something."

"Heyyy Ran~"

"Is this what was keeping you late?"

"hmm~? what do you mean?"

"This dude bothering you?"

"Oooh, no we were just having a spirited conversation and we finally finished. "

The look on Ran's face was unreadable but after a minute he nodded.

"alright you little bitch, do what I told you or else," you whispered to the man behind him and walked to Ran who had extended his hand to you to hold.

So ran didn't find out till after rumors had spread that he was someone's dog and bitch.

Rindou Haitani

Rindou finding out that you were in a gang was actually pretty easy if you asked him (you never denied it or tried to hide it) . But if you asked yourself, you couldn't have been more obvious with him. In your relationship with Rindou you pride yourself with being honest with him and having a clear and open line of communication with each other.

you literally had just gone to the bathroom at this cafe that you and Rindou decided to have a date at and suddenly Taiju Shiba was in your seat trying to "conduct business'" with Rindou. You smirk as you approach the table before stealing a kiss from Rindou and placing yourself onto his lap.

"Hi baby, whose this date crasher?" you question him playing dumb. You knew Taiju very well.

"This is_"Rindou began before being interrupted by Taiju

" I don't think it any of your business'."

A laugh escapes your throat and you smile at him.

"Well I know you don't think at all. But seeing as you interrupted MY date with MY boyfriend.. it is my business. "

" No one has taught you to speak when your spoke-"

" Unlike your shitty ass, poor of excuse of a way of treating your "family" you don't get to talk to me that way. Or did you forget your manners when your parents died Dog." You spoke with poison in your veins, you hated every single cell of that loser. For the way that he treats your friend and her brother but also the way he handles things.

Taiju blood boils and he begins to try to "disciple" you but before he or Rindou could even react, your men quickly disabled Tajiu and pinned him to the table. With his face shoved into the dirty café floor , you motion to your men to pick the loser up. Blood ran down his nose and forehead, his cheeks stung from your full force slaps to the point were he almost didn't feel them.

" Now, just this once I'll let you off easy okay girlie? Because i know of a couple of interested parties that would like to shoot another one those videos. "

His face drained of color as he remembers Haikai's significant other torment and the humiliation's he went through because of them.

"good you realize who I'm speaking of. Hears what we are going to do. Your going to leave me and my boyfriend to our date. These lovely men are going to beat you to inch of your life then leave you for dead in some random river while recording everything and maybe just maybe that video will end up in Koko's or haikai's lovely s/o hands. And you will spend every waking moment wondering when either of them is going to strike."

Rindou had chills for weeks after that. He processed the event slowly as he clearly remembered the fear in Taiju's face. The fact that you could be so cold and ruthless but the next second be so warm to him blew his mind.

He would do the same thing of course but he needs time to process. But in the meantime you two go on a lot of uninterrupted dates.

Hajime Kokonoi

Kokonoi values information, money and luxury.

But there was a fourth thing he valued with his grubby greedy hands the most and that was you. You had everything he valued and loved all wrapped into one. You somehow knew information that it would have taken him a lot of time and money. You had "strange" and "random" friendships with some questionable people, connections he knew where in HIS world.

so he didn't have evidence to back up his claims but in his 4 million heart he knew that you were at least involved into his world but just didn't know how much. He knew you either deep enough to be an information gatherer of a spy but he didn't think you were a gang leader.

Day and night he would undirectedly tell you to leave that world behind and that he would take care of you but you never acknowledge his underlying message.

But he realized how strong you were when a gang he was working on merging another gang to tenjiku only to realize that group had disbanded and joined another gang.

Shion

Oh He knew, you think he would forget getting his ass beat by you??

[satancopilotsmytardis]

I think there is something to he said about Dabi building a life for himself before meeting up with Shigaraki again in Intox.

He makes sure that he isn't dependant on the other, he makes sure that people would come looking for him if he went missing, he makes sure that people have his back. He makes sure that the power imbalance is as small as possible.

He spends an entire year making sure he has his own life, making sure Shigaraki won't get impatient and come after him.

I really like how you write these dynamics, especially when the universe is closer to canon. (The same goes for your abo fics, which is probably why Haven is one of my fav fics).

Since we read from Dabi's perspective, all the mistrust he holds against the world seems natural, for him at least. He grew up in a world where almost everybody could be a threat to him, either killing him or worse.

And as much as Shigaraki grew up in a world where many people would love to kill him too, he doesn't quite understand what Dabi is going through. It isn't second nature to think of the same threats that Dabi had to think of in these universes. And it shows in their interactions.

Shigaraki is being polite, he is giving Dabi an option for an out, he is trying to make sure Dabi feels safe. And I love how affected he is when he realizes just how paranoid Dabi is, how paranoid he needs to be to survive. He will always keep in mind that Dabi thinks him capable of the worst.

They're both fucked up by how their world works in such different ways but I love that for them. I love even more that they make it work, no matter what. Shigaraki will support Dabi, but he will also give him space. He will make sure Dabi knows he isn't trying to bind him to himself. Dabi will give Shigaraki his trust. Both of them give the other loyalty and love.

Barely anyone else would dare talk to Shigaraki the way Dabi does. Nobody else looks at Dabi like Shigaraki does. They make for quite the pair.

(also, on a completely different note: I love Compress here. "Oh noooo, looks like I can't keep as close of an eye. *Wink wink*". I love this man. He knows Shigaraki isn't happy having to meet those three and would always be happy to see Dabi, so he'll take oit two birds with one stone, lol. And Magne and Twice as bouncers are nice, too)

Okay, be honest with me, did you steal any of my internal organs while you were rooting around in my chest? Because god damn did this comment throw me on an operating table and open me up from chest to pelvis!

I don't even know what to say except you GOT IT anon, you took everything I had, and you read it for absolute filth. The way they've experienced the world, how that impacted their first meeting, how they grew from that point and why it was important to the rest of the story, you really grabbed the themes I was working with and strangled them lovingly

And Compress is the MVP of this story (though he's fighting viciously for it with Spinner)

Thank you so much for commenting!!!

[icebluecyanide]

Alex Rider S03E04 Reaction

My unspoiled reactions to episode four, aka TUTOR YASSEN LET'S GOOOO

Liveblog

Oh okay so they are blaming Blunt in this, even if I think the trap was actually the Malta operation to bring him in.

Omg John/Yassen flashback!!! Yassen was so nervous!! I love how calm John stays throughout it all. And gosh the way Yassen closed his eyes when John told him to does things to me. I assume John saved him but gave him the scar in the process much like in canon

Yassen watching him sleep!!!

I was so ready to go noooo when Yassen said they had to leave their past behind them but apparently it was about Ian and not John lol. Love Yassen calling himself a professional

Twenty years ago 🤔 So with John being at Scorpia for three years that means Alex is canonically seventeen now

Alex stop questioning them in front of other people ahsldfhs

Tutor Yassen!!! Lmao ‘faster! This is slow’ I love how him having high standards is canon

SPARRING omg their faces

“He was kind to me” 👀 yesssss

How did they not realise yet that Scorpia went after Consanto when the woman literally said Julia Rothman was going to finish with Consanto lol

Lmao the awkward silence when Alex fails to hit the more human like targets, and they’re not even pictures

Yassen telling Alex how to kill someone 👀

The idea of them being allowed to keep their phones as they are training in the super secret training facility is just wild lol. Like yeah I’d make the signal bad too, what if people connect to their fitbit or something

Well this isn’t love bombing lol

Ahsldfh Alex is literally missing and you could tell the authorities Jack

Alex lying about the beating is big SAS training in the books vibes

Lmao Alex comparing Blunt and Mrs Rothman

Ahhhh so that’s the show equivalent of the vaccine!!

Gosh Alex forced to hit her as she’s held down

Does Yassen outrank Nile? 👀 omg Yassen/Nile showdown

“This one is my responsibility” 🥰

Love Yassen going ‘yeah you sadists are letting it cloud your judgement’

“What are you doing?” “Filming this?” “Why?” “Because it’s evidence” “Yeah of me committing a crime” ahsldfhsh yeah Tom!!

Yassen just. Refusing to talk about John is so funny to me

John saving Yassen <333 And gosh Yassen thinking of himself as expendable kills me

Exceptional agents <333 Though really there was no need to hit his cheek here lmao

Just let Yassen have his little speech about how emotions distract you, Alex 😭

Oh damn the taxi driver is Scorpia too, creeeeepy

“If he slips up just once, they are gonna kill him” yeah… unlike that other mission you were pretty casual about in s1… how is this a surprise??

Ahsdlfhs is Alex really gonna change their mind on weakness

Overall

Loved it!!! Really enjoyed the Yassen/Alex training scenes, though I kind of miss the love bombing from the book. Loved the John/Yassen flashbacks and I’m very excited to see more Alex & Yassen stuff!

Thoughts/Predictions

‘Kind of lonely though, right?’ I gotta be honest, the whole story with Alex challenging their notions of weakness and stuff really wasn’t doing it for me, but I feel like it sort of develops from Alex not being as isolated as he is in the books. Like yeah, it’s lonely, but Alex in the books is also lonely a lot of the time and it’s something that kind of goes with being in this world. But I do love Alex saying John saved Yassen out of friendship because it reminds me of his thoughts in Snakehead.

Some really interesting differences with the other students here, firstly in that the love bombing aspect isn’t there and they actually seem pretty antagonistic to Alex, while in the book they are all very friendly, in huge contrast to Alex’s earlier experiences with the SAS and MI6. It’s honestly kind of ironic that here it’s the exact opposite, because Alex lying about how he got beaten up is basically what happened with the SAS.

Second point about them is that they are all orphans and seem to be younger than in the book, so it seems the students are different? Are they teenagers like Alex? I honestly can’t tell, what with them casting adults, but I guess maybe Alex isn’t meant to be such an outlier in terms of age, which makes sense with the actors, but is interesting in terms of story because it means Alex isn’t exceptional for being young. I guess that’s also why it’s not made a big deal that he’s a teenager (also since it would seem unbelievable). But now John Rider joining at 30 seems like an outlier, since none of these kids actually had any experience haha.

Invisible sword seems to come from the gas and maybe still the nano particles, but how do all the people in London get hit by it? Just a cloud of gas? The football team probably got it in their system before the match with some excuse.

Nile’s so angry at Alex most of the time gosh. I guess Yassen took over the nice mentor role from Nile here.

Also real convenient that Mrs Jones and Jack don’t actually want to tell each other the truth lmao. I guess here the Department has no idea about who joins Scorpia since they have no eye on them like MI6 has in the book. But that also means there will be no all ports warning to arrest Alex.

Questions

Does Yassen know about John being a spy???

Did Tom and Kyra just��� forget about Alex supposedly getting killed if they don’t do as told? Like do they really think Scorpia isn’t going to notice them not getting off the plane in London? The flight isn’t that long… 

[cheriboms]

BTTF Year-End Tag Game!

Thank you to both @bttf-dork and @future-boi for tagging me in this ;w; also pika ur comments about my art WAHHHH ILYSM <33 oTL

This year:

How many times would you guess you watched the first back to the future movie?

Since I only hopped on this time train towards the final third of the year lol: fully all the way through, at least 4! Otherwise I've jumped around a lot while looking for clips and references and stuff. So if I stitch all those together, then we'll say approx 5ish :) The first movie is my favorite one!

Did you get any sweet bttf merch? If so, what?

Noooo, I don't really have any merch for things I like, actually... it gives me too much anxiety to publicly show my interests ;w;

How many cans of Pepsi Free did you chug this year?

None LOL I don't really drink soda to begin with, but if I do, I prefer white (lemon lime) soda anyway :P

What was a favorite bttf fanfic you read this year?

I'm going to be honest, I... don't read fanfic very much. 🫣 I usually end up creating my own stuff (art/writing) when I have free time vs looking at other people's, which ik I need to get better at T_T So I don't have a loooot to rec... that being said I MUST shout out "Emmett's first weather expirement." by @alex-a-fans !!! <3 It is my greatest treasure of the year <333

I also really liked "incredible" by @penny-anna, which I read before I officially entered le fandom ;w; lone pine doc and baby marty my beloveds !!!!!

Finally, like basically all of the Doctober prompts from @doctorbrown *O* Days 8, 22, and 30 are some of my favorites, but I really recommend them all oTL theyre SOOO GOOOOOD !!!!!

A favorite bttf fanart you saw this year? (please give us a link, not a screencap/repost!)

See: everything I reblogged. Jk but fr, everyone is so so talented it's really hard to choose :'0 Here's a bunch of some of my faves in no particular order!!

[x] from @hearts-for-winona | [x] from @maxintime | [x] from @future-boi | [x] from @bttf-dork | [x] from @synthsays and @daryfromthefuture | [x] from @therobotwig | [x] from @22194isbestboy | [x] from @mythical-bookworm | [x] from @mkayeatsspaghetii | [x] from @tobytost / @tobytost-star

Did you create any bttf fanart or fanfic? If you did, what one(s) are you proudest of?

Yes I did !!! It is actually the most fan content I've ever made for a fandom since I was in... maybe junior high? So like YUH. Tbh, it's very difficult for me to find what you would call 'pride' in my art so ehh >_>; that being said, I do think that I had a lot of good IDEAS for Doctober (esp days 19 and 28), but my execution wasnt really the best. I would have liked to draw days 17 and 24 (+ time travel day) a little more properly too; like, I'm not as disappointed at how they turned out, but I still wish they were better and/or I could have given them more time. The ones I most actually-tried-and-dont-mind are days 7, 9, and 21 + under the sea dance day. (So many links was probably cheating but tbf I've kinda bent the rules for the past few questions so... whatevs lol). I've ALSOOO still been working on my godforsaken essay, it is 40 pages rn but even tho it's not done, I'm INSANELY proud of it Q_Q

How many times were you late for school this year?

None! B) For one thing I'm graduated lol, but also I'm typically early gang. I'm that person who'd sit in the classroom by myself for like 5 minutes before everyone else would show up LMBO ^^;

Did you watch any other movies/tv shows with BTTF actors in them?

Yess I did!! A... lot actually :0 Most of them were by chance/pre bttf era, but still :P Here is my list as well as I could find, sorry it is soooo long, but what are ya gonna do:

Star Wars/The Mandalorian; The Addams Family (1991); The Tale of Desperaux (2008); Cyberchase; & Clue (1985) -- Christopher Lloyd, havent rewatched the latter 3 since I was a kid and literally went :0 to learn he apparently was in them. Also Kings Quest (2015) which isn't a movie/show but I think it counts uwu

Stuart Little (1999) -- Michael J. Fox, which also rocked my world to discover O_O like hearing it now I'm like "yeah thats him alright" but as a kid I would never have been able to tell you that was the same guy from that time travel movie, despite watching both way too much LMBO

Elf (2003) & Last Vegas (2013) -- Mary Steenburgen, nothing much to say except that she slayed ^_^

Love at the Christmas Table (2012) -- Lea Thompson, I didn't care for it and was shouting "LEA GET OUT OF THIS MOVIE, UR BETTER THAN THIS" like the whole time lol.

Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron (2002) & Curious George (2006) -- apparently these have Donald Fullilove (Goldie Wilson) in them? Same w Jason Scott Lee (Whitey) in Lilo & Stitch (2002)??? And Star Wars/Kenobi show apparently had Flea (Needles)????? ...HUH.

I binged both the entirety of Law and Order: SVU as well as Seinfeld this year w my sister; apparently Mary Steenburgen, Lea Thompson, & Casey Siemaszko (3-D) are in at least one episode of the former, while Elsa Raven (Clocktower Lady) and Ricky Dean Logan (Data) are apparently in a random episode of Seinfeld each. So like, technically I saw them, tho I don't distinctly remember it :'D Also, I have been making my way through Little House on the Prairie recently, which has Matt Clark (Chester the Bartender) in a few episodes !

Finally finally finally, I watched I Don't Feel at Home in This World Anymore (2017), as well as the LOTR trilogy like. Twice? And they all have Elijah Wood of course >:3c

Was there a memorable moment you heard a Huey Lewis song this year?

None in the wild, no :P But I did end up being in the top 0.1% of listeners for Huey Lewis this year... so UHHHHH take that as u will LMBO

How many times did you fall down this year?

Hmmm idk?? Probably at least 1 I would think ???

Did you get to see BTTF: The Musical? What was your experience like!

Nooo, I didn't even know it existed until like October !!! It looks super fun but atm/last I checked it doesn't come to where I live so :( I should listen to the soundtrack soon!

How many times did your mom retell the story of how she and your father met?

At least three times, and then probably a few times I'm forgetting :P

If you could describe your year in a BTTF quote, which one would it be?

The year in general is definitely "Oh great, the atrocity channel!" LMBO (but when hasn't it been since like... 2020? 2016???). For me personally, I think it's either "I don't know if I could take that kind of rejection." or "Don't talk to anyone, don't touch anything, don't do anything, don't interact with anyone, and try not to look at anything." ^^;

⚡️LIGHTNING ROUND⚡️ Did you get to: go on any trains, skate on a skateboard, ride a horse, drive a Delorean, run in the rain, go to a dance, hang up a clock, play the guitar, pull an all-nighter, read science fiction, or drive thru Burger King this year?

Your future is whatever you make it! So what are you going to make of this coming year?

I think I'm going to try to post more of the things I make, like my art and especially my writing ;w; Most of the time I'm quite George-ish and am too scared to put any of my stuff out there, for fear that no one will like it, so... I need to get better about that. Also I'd LIKE to get a full-time job and my own place some time next year, but we will see !!!

Idrk who to tag :0 ik @brinkle-brackle @mythical-bookworm and @alex-a-fans have already been tagged but havent technically done it yet... maybe also @backintime @tobytost @ectojester @stillpreoccupiedwith1985 @itsthemorph @doctorbrown @knickynoo and @fourth-dimensional-thinker :) but no pressure to do it, just didnt catch if youd been tagged or not!

[mangoposts]

mina I need a story time on everything u JUST SAID

-💐

K so there’s this guy i was talking to for a lil bit his name was BRANDON im exposing him cause he was an actual dickhead andddd i only began talking to him because my sister knew his sister and she was like he’s rlly nice you should talk to him blahhhh and i was like noooo but she gave him my number and he texted me and i had no clue who he was so i texted him back

Long story short i had a convo w him and he called me and he was fine i didn’t like him romantically but we had decent conversation so i would hang out with him from time to time cause he lived close and we become good friendssss we hung out often and he would call me a lot but i NEVER liked this man the way he liked me and i was very verbal with it like he tried making many moves like reaching for my hand or fixing my hair for me or whatever and i used to be like Uuuuughhhhh gross but he kept doing it bc he liked my literal disgusted reaction LMFAOOO

But anyway he noticed i started to get distant like three months in because he started to make too many moves and i didn’t fw that and i didn’t mind losing him as a friend at all so i just went a lil ghost then he texted me a freaky ass paragraph explaining all the things he likes about me saying he sees me in everything and everything he listens to or watches reminds me of him or whatever and saying to give him like one chance and listen this guy wasn’t ugly AT ALL he was very tall and he resembled Vinnie hacker a bit like same features😭😭😭 But i just could not like him in that way so despite the nice/creepy message or whatever i was still like Nooo i don’t really like you like that and then he called me and explained some more and was like can we just hang like one more time nothing romantic i just wanna be able to talk and have a drink with u so i was like okay im not declining a free drink bc im a slut

Anyways

I see him like a week later and we hang and then we go back to his car and we were gonna bar hop (I was kinda drunk and he was fake drinking. Literally completely sober while ordering me drink after drink which was crazy asl) But i noticed he wasn’t on my level so i told him let’s go to a different bar whatever so we’re in his car now and we’re in a literal empty ass parking garage bc he parked on the highest level and it was like 1am at this time

He brings up the fact that he fw me a lot again and despite me being tipsy i was still like listen broooooo you’re just my friend and i like fw u but i do NAWTTTT want a relationship in general let alone with you and then he’s like getting frustrated and he’s like “But i literally do everything for you” And starts complaining and yapping or whatever and im like falling asleep listening to this man im like Listen Bruh im either gonna fall asleep in this car or we’re going to go home bc i ain’t having this convo and then he started threatening me and was like “If you fall asleep you won’t wake up” And that was literally enough for me to take out my phone and text my sister to get me an uber but i did it casually by laughing at him and i was like “Whatever man” While texting her 😭😭😭 But i was tripping lowkey

Anyways he did have a weapon on him and he was going to use it if i didn’t just feed into his delusion and start saying “I do like you im just messing around” 😁 So i basically just acted flirty and shit until i knew i had a ride then i leaned over and unlocked his doors while like kissing his shoulder and left LMFAOOOOOO the ops were AFTER HIM🤍 But to be honest i don’t know if he suffered a consequence actually

He was a cancer man btw just saying ion know

[mythica0]

HI heres and request~~~ what if the turtles whould play a board game and one of the turtle cheats soo the others teach that turtle a lesson no rush~~❤️

Bored game

🎂: ROTTMNT

🧁: Donnie

🍫: Leo, Mikey, Donnie

Summary: when Donnie gets bored during a board game and decides to cheat, the other turtles don’t take it well.

A/N: yes the title is spelt that way on purpose lol. Thanks for the request and I hope you enjoy!

Bored game

Game night had arrived in the lair! A classic game of monopoly was being played between the Hamtao brothers.

The sound of rolling dice and shuffling paper, the slight thud when the metal pieces were placed against the spaces. Groans and laughter when someone got sent to jail or landed on an owned property.

However, it had been an hour at this point and Donnie was starting to get bored.

So, he did what any reasonable person would do in his situation, he started to cheat.

When no one was looking, he would take one dollars from the bank and put it in his area for cash, which he hid from the very beginning because no one got to know how much money he had ever.

Then he started moving his piece up a space or two once every few turns when eyes weren’t on him.

He even took a chance card unnoticed!

Eventually, though, the others caught on to the genius’ actions.

“Donnie?” Leo questioned, noticing the hidden chance card peeking out.

“Yeeeesss?”

“Where did all that extra stuff come from?”

Mikey pitched in too, “yeah! Your piece is further than I remember it being!”

Donnie looked around the room and pursed his lips.

“Donnie, I need you to be honest with me here. We’re you cheatin’ ?” Raph said seriously.

“Noooo?” He didn’t sound convincing even to himself. Curse his inability to lie!

“You know what we do to cheaters?” Leo smirked and raised his hands threateningly.

Raph and Mikey smiled. This would be fun.

Donnie gulped. What had he gotten himself into?

Before he knew it, the soft shell was pinned under Raph’s weight, hands above his head and unable to move them.

With that, the younger brothers began their attack. Leo poked under his twins arms and Mikey scribbled across his plastron.

“Oho crahahahap! Ahahahah!”

Then Raph joined, lightly tracing his forearms, causing him to giggle harder and close his eyes.

Raph smiled a bit as Leo exclaimed at the ‘discovery’ (raph had already known.)

“Your arms are ticklish! No way dude!”

“Shuhuhut yohohour mohohouth!”

“Le gasp! How rude of you!” Mikey fake gasped,

“To tell our brother to shut his mouth! This can not go unpunished!” Mikey then blew a raspberry right into the center of the purple-lovers plastron.

Donnie nearly screamed at the ticklish sensation that seemed to radiate through his whole body. He very quickly started wheezing after that, which the others took as their sign to let him up.

They did so, and Raph got him a glass of water, which he inhaled as though he had been walking through a desert for a month.

After settling down, Raph got curious. “Why did you cheat in the first place?”

“I was just bored, really.” Donnie deadpanned in return.

“I guess it was a…. Bored game? Eh? Eh? Any takers?”

Donnie shook his head and went along with it.

“A bored game.”

———THE END————————————————

[halleyuhm]

Trick or treat!!!!!!! - @maddstermind

You've got a treat!

Here's a chat scene from Route LXVI. I had to ultimately put it aside because it was not progressing the plot in an already slow chapter, but it was fun to write, and it worked as a great character study. Plus, it marks the beginning of Liv's worst lie~~

The layout is a bit weird because I normally write my chats adjusted to the left or right according to who is talking. Here in Tumblr it's a bit different. Bear with me. There it goes:

You:

Hey remember this convo from the neolitic era

Image

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Highzs🎱:

LMAOOO where did you find this?

You:

Image

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Got them by digging in ancient discord convos

Highzs🎱:

Damn I didn't know grammar

That youre is killing me

You:

Aw I think you were trying to spell cool

like pot8os

Highzs🎱:

pot8os I'm deceased

You:

When you used to write everything wrong on purpose

Highzs🎱:

to mess up with you

so you wouldn't know when I actually spelt something incorrectly due to me being an idiot

You:

being dyslexic is not cinamons with being and idiot

Highzs🎱:

Synonyms*

You:

I did it on purpose!

Highzs 🎱

You are missing an n too

You:

I don't rely on the autoccorrect

Highzs 🎱

Such a helpful tool, though

Could have saved me some misunderstandings

You:

HAHAHAH

LOWZS I JUST REMEMBERD

That one time you told us that you were sick

Highzs 🎱

HAHAHAH NOOOO

You:

YOU TOLD US YOU HAD ANIME

And I spent the whole afternoon searching "anime illness" on Google

and getting top tens instead of answers

Highzs 🎱

HAHSHHSHS SORRY

But that's the reason you finally watched Your lie in April, so worth it

👉👉

You:

👉👉

Probably my fave dyslexia moment

Highzs 🎱

And meanwhile Soda like

Sucks dude, wanna play some Smash until you get better or

You:

HAHAHAHAH

I distinctly remember the moment you said you just needed iron and he went like what

Highz 🎱

He still teases me about it

Did you know that

In those screenshots you sent

In that conversation

I was kinda

Hinting

Towards him

You:

WHAT

I JUST CHIKES WHAT

Highzs🎱:

WHAT??

You:

CHOKED

I'm rearesding everything

Highzs🎱:

Hahaha really???

Ok you are

Hey runt come back down

You:

I'm back

Dammit Lou

I'm going to be so honest

During that whole conversation

I thought you were talking about me

Highzs🎱:

HAHAHAHA I KNEW IT RUNT

The moment you said

"You know you could tell me anything right?"

You:

I was so abviously trying to ease you idiot

I wanted to be a good friend regardless of the feeling situation

I was so off though, damn

Highzs🎱:

Awwww that's so sweet

I actually did like you for a while though

I was pretty confused

You:

Haha no bet

I'm glad you told me <3

Even though I already knew it lmao

Highzs🎱:

Me too

Now

*uno reverse card*

Tell me who you were referring to

You:

NO SHOT

Highzs🎱:

As that written statement proves

We made a promise for a 50/50

Anytime one of us confesses, the other has to do so

You:

Yeah ._. but I wanted to talk about the present, not the past

Highzs🎱:

The present? Weren't you with Percy?

You:

Uhm I could be poly

Highzs🎱:

Alright, intriguing

But first things first

Years later I'll know who you were referring to in that convo

You:

Man, you already know

Highzs🎱:

Say it

Saaaayyyy it

I'm waiting

You:

Man we were rivals and didn't even know it

Highzs🎱:

Nameeeee

You:

Good grief

It was Soda

Highzs🎱:

WHAT

You:

Don't act surprised you knew it

Highzs🎱:

Okay runt

Why did you never tell me

You:

You've activated my trap card!

Same question back to you

Highzs🎱:

Sexuality struggles plus one of the pivotal points was you

You:

I didn't expect a sound answer

Highzs🎱:

You?

You:

Struggles

Highzs🎱:

Fair enough

You:

I'm returning now to compensate though

I didn't send the screenshots for nothing

If you will also tell me your name, of course

Highzs🎱:

That's the promise we made so

You:

100%?

Highzs🎱:

Cross my heart and hope to die

On three?

You:

Uhh nice

On three

1

Highzs🎱:

1

You:

2!

Highzs🎱:

3!

I like Maeve

You:

I think I like Gray

HWAT

Highzs🎱:

What?????

[livcosmos]

Chain of Thorns Booktalk

Omg… I finished it last night and I was fairly convinced that I won’t write this… but the first thing on my mind this morning when I woke up was something I read on Cassie's Tumblr, that she thought of ending the book with James on his deathbed waiting to go over to the other side to meet with his friends who have parted long before him.. that broke my heart. I woke up with that feeling I just can’t handle death and the thought of James being the last one to die it just….the thought that they all die eventually... I know the book didn’t actually end like that but it almost did and ahhh it made me think of Will’s death and Tessa and how…well you know it all already there is no need for me to open that wound again. I realized I couldn’t just leave it without saying anything, I owe this to all the tears I shed for these characters, this story, and to my younger self who fell in love with them in the first place, so here we are…

In case you didn’t get it by now I’m upset, I’m ok with how it ended but then I’m also not because this isn’t an ending it is so OPEN I… I have to be honest I went into reading this book thinking it will be the last Cassie book I read, and that was for various reasons. I said I won’t read the Wicked Powers because firstly I don’t really like Ty (I like him but I just I’m not there for him being the main storyline) and then there is Jem and Tessa I can’t bear seeing Jem age and eventually die...I don’t want anyone I love so badly to get hurt and die I don’t want to know how everything goes to shit and the Shadowhunter world gets destroyed or something. That is why I had some expectations from this book, I needed closure, a nice wrap-up that also would wrap up my time with this word but nooooooo…. but who am I kidding I also said I won't read this trilogy and then I did sooo I will probably also break and read the Wicked Powers, we will have to wait and see but still. I am glad that Cassie is taking a break because that means she hasn't written anything that would eventually kill me, and I am not tempted to read anything I won't like just yet.

I can’t believe I’m saying this but this must be my least favourite final book she has ever written, don’t get me wrong I loved and enjoyed reading it but I am so upset with ahhh everything… I have to start with the most obvious thing and that is well the family tree!!!! I need that accurate family tree I just need it in order to be able to sleep well at night just pleseeee!!!! I was so convinced that we were finally going to get it in this book but noooo aaahhh it’s so messed up and come on the Esme Hardcastle thing… is just an easy answer to a burning complicated question!!! I CAN’T! I need to know!!!! That was what probably upset me the most in this book, well of course besides… Christopher I didn’t see it coming…It took me by surprise…I was so convinced that Matthew was going to die… if you read my other booktalks you know that Matthew is my love he is behind Jem my second book love ever…and I would have been upset if he died but it just made more sense to kill him and till the moment Christopher died every second I was afraid that Math was going to die… Someone needed to die and ahhhhhh come on!!! I was living by that family tree, that he and Grace were going to get together and ah…bless him he had such a pure soul and was so kind and he didn’t deserve to die and let me tell you I was sure he was going to come back I didn’t want to accept his death I was convinced he wasn’t actually dead because he had to live in order to get with Grace and carry the Lightwood line…oh man I cried when he died but I cried even more when he appeared to encourage Grace with the fire messages … my God! I know I hated Grace but I felt so sorry for her and I just it was so emotional…they won’t get their happy ending it’s just heartbreaking. I never thought I would say this but I am ok with Grace now she suffered enough and there is no need or reason for me to hate on her anymore. Omg of course we also have to acknowledge here how amazing it is that Christopher invited the fire messages like omg!!! And can we please give everyone from the infernal devices a break they have already been through so much… first Gideon and Sophie lose a child and now Cecily and Gabriel? What is this? Ahhh… let’s get back to my Matthew…so I knew he wasn’t going to end up with Cordelia it was more than obvious but I said it before and I am going to say it again…I wanted it to happen so bad it just…Paris omg their trip there is my absolute dream!!! And of course, I was a little upset with Matthew for lying but ah I can’t be mad at him! Do you want to know what my favourite scene in the whole book was? The scene where the Marry Theves all came to take care of Matthew when he was sick! It was such a beautiful scene and ah…to have such good friends…I cried so much it made me so emotional and then with the knowledge that was the last time when they were all together is just …. so sad!!! And I also cried when Cordelia told Math that she doesn’t love him…I …I was looking so forward to that Christmas party and then Cordelia girl you had to do that! I, mean yeah she had to but ahhhh my poor baby! I was screaming at him that I love him and that he doesn’t need Cordelia! I’m sad that he didn’t get to be with anyone at the end but I guess that’s better he needs to heal completely before he can get into a relationship. Ah and he is going on a long trip… the ending made me so sad, that they are all going in different directions… I mean yeah they will reunite eventually but ahhh so sad… I also cried when they buried Jesse's coffin, the time capsule, that had me so in tears omg! It just isn’t an end, she left so many doors open, I need more especially of Matthew!!! Ah and Jesse and Lucie that also is like a massive open door I get that they are together but they are not married yet and… I just need that freaking family tree!!! 

Before we move on I have to say one more thing about Matthew, he is like a version of Will I feel like he resembles him so much in his personality and actions and I feel like Matthew was my second chance to make Will my number one love in a book because Jem was my number one in the Infernal Devices and even though I love Will with all my health I love Jem more. And here I love James but I love Matthew more and while Matthew is like Will in a way, James is a little like Jem but I guess I always make poor choices because well Matthew kind of got Jem’s fate. I am not ready to let him go because unlike Jem he won't eventually get his happy ending with Cordelia because let’s be honest the Matthew, Cordelia, and James love triangle never really was a triangle it was just there for drama. Nothing in this world will ever compare to the Will, Tessa, and Jem love triangle and the love they have for each other, and the love I have for them! (By the way, the Jem chapter at the end also had me tearing up because well… Jem) Yeah well, Matthew I love you! I am happy that he is doing better and that he talked to his parents (and omg Charlotte?! TWINS?! I’m so excited) I want him to be happy and I just bought an Oscar Wilde book in order to keep him a little longer with me, because I am not ready to let him go just yet! James and Cordelia…. I love them but OMG the amount of miscommunication…the frustration they put me through…I can’t believe that Grace had to be the one who told Cordelia about the bracelet because James over here couldn’t bring himself to do it! Omg! Thank you, Grace! It was so frustrating my God! I love them together always and I can’t say how glad I am they finally talked to each other! OMG can I please say that Alaister and Thomas carried this book? They were so cute and Thomas omg bless him he is such a cutie with his "Shut up Thomas” and his overthinking and Alaister grew so much …I am so happy that he has changed so much and that he is now officially part of the group and that he and Matthew are ok (even though I would have liked an official apology) and oh how he came to help Matthew bless him!!!

Moving on I don’t know if there is any need to say anything about Tatiana… but Malcolm oh my I can’t believe all the trouble he caused in the present originated here that is just wild!

Oh, I forgot to mention that I love the friendship between Jesse and James, their scenes together, and the bond they have developed in such a short time … fantastic! Ah, I don’t really know what else to say really… I am happy with this but then I am so not... I just…need that damn tree!!! It felt so good to watch Christine's booktalk because she was just as frustrated about not having a tree as I am, it felt really good to know that I am not the only one. I don’t want to let this book, this world go, I need more but having more will come at a great cost I’m not sure I am ready to pay. I just love them all so much and they have been with me for such a long time…it’s hard!

Anyway, thank you for reading, comparing this to the other booktalks this is a really short one but again there is not much to say because this wasn’t the end!

[breakfastteatime]

Story wise I think they did an amazing job and as a player it's been very difficult to witness Cal's struggle (when he went back and saw the echos in the IBS and everyone was afraid of him... ouch!). As you said, I wished they would have fleshed out more about the supporting characters and not have them as plot device in order to move on Cal's arc. They really got us hyped on the High Republic only for it to be just a crutch. It could have been about any other character in place and the end result would still be the same. And yes, full disclosure, my boy Dagan is awesome, ok? When he grew that force arm I was legit jaw dropped and had to take a moment. The parallels between Dagan and Bode were interesting to show the many faces of the fallen jedi, but also to show Cal's own journey and what could happen. Dagan spared Cal twice before he realized this time there wouldn't be an escape and only then did he unleash his true powers. Bode was just plain evil to begin with, simple as that. The fact that Cal put it so bluntly to Dagan that no, he's not free, he's just alone is again him confronting his own situation because in the end only Cal can help himself from not falling.

Re Kata, on the one hand it's good she wasn't around Bode much, because that will fuck you up for life, but on the other I am very mindful of what Cere told Cal, to guide *her* through the darkness? I assume she meant Kata. Also Cal giving her the compass? I was yelling at my monitor, like NOOOO!!! have you learnt nothing???

Also, to be on the petty side, Bode did not deserve a pyre sendoff, that was an honest insult to Cere and Cordova. I don't care if we're supposed to say "oh well, Cal did it out of respect"... just NO! It's praising an abuser and personally I just can't accept it.

Very curious what they'll do next. It would be very interesting if they would make a story where based on your choices you could end up conquering or falling to the dark side. I just want a happy ending for Cal, man. Damn, this was quite the journey emotionally, I need some soothing.

I don't know much about the High Republic, but I loved what we saw. I think the thing that interests me the most though is Cal can only every experience what the Jedi *were* and not what they *are* because there's so few of them left. Everywhere he turns the past haunts him. It's powerful stuff.

YEEEEEEEEES Dagan's Force arm was AWESOME. Honestly, the whole final fight with him is a highlight for me because I LOVE WEIRD FORCE STUFF!

I am so excited (and nervous!) to see Cal confront his own darkness in the next game and move past it. I can't wait to see what they do with it.

Yeah, I'm sure Cere told Cal to guide Kata through the pain of such a loss. LOL, I didn't even think about him giving her the compass ^^;

I guess they did it because his daughter was right there. UGH the end of that game hurts so muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuch. And maybe Cal did it for the friend he thought he had. Or just because he knew he needed to find a way to move forward.

I need him to have a happy ending too. Please, Respawn, let Cal be happy. He's worked sooooo haaaaaaaaaaard T_T

[neowinestainedress]

this is what i wrote yesterday while talking to myself on twitter lmao tried to keep it normal and sfw because if i spoke my real thoughts... i still have dignity somewhere

no but you're so #REAL like the things he makes me feel i'm complety insane and the thougths are definitely nsfw..

the problem is not only the piercing the whole look is insane when he has his hair like this i lose my mind and the eye makeup??? his golden skin???

yes. the probem IS HIM emo haechan no one will ever get you like me..... what do i need to do to have him i just want ONE (1) chance with him. he's so so pretty and hot literally not fair. GODDDD im thinking of that look once again and im screaming internally i want to eat him (in every sense of the word).

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Hiii! I’m sorry if it took me so long to reply but I’ve been busy and I didn’t want to rush the reply. This was karma telling you to never pull this move again ajsojlks I can’t even say “well at least you didn’t work for almost a month” because you came back to do even more 😭 But hey you had a great time at least!

hii rebs<3 don't worry!! and yes that was my karma but guess what i went to another concert on october 9 (A.C.E) so i had to come up with another lie and i felt so bad cause i literally killed a (nonexistent) family member to go in my defense it was my sisters idea😭 but it was SO worthy like i swear it was the best experience ever, the concert was amazing and the members were so so so so sweet and beautiful upclose even tho the second they looked at me i forgot what i had planned to tell them and blushed like crazy in front of yuchan (my fav) and he laughed at me held my hand and we took pictures together and idk im giggling and smiling like crazy thinking about it (when i wrote this i was alone at the office thank god)

omg that’s so cute!!! I miss making friendship bracelets, I wanted to make some for a concert I was supposed to see but thank god I didn’t have time because the whole tour got cancelled so I would’ve wasted beads and time lmao (I still have so many beads for taylor, I hope that for the next tour we will keep doing this because I don’t know what to do with them lmao)

YES!! i missed doing friendship bracelets so my sister suggested doing it but i dont think i will ever do it again because it was super tiring and time consuming.... noo and im so sorry about your concert :(

okay but second row is such a good position especially since you didn’t arrive super early. I feel you, for taylor I had to be there at 12:00 (before to get in line, but they opened at 14:00 when the concert started at 21 I wanted to die, I literally only survived because I started talking with two girls in line and then we became a small group). Noooo that’s one of my biggest nightmares, not you starting to question if it was you aodoss but lmao that’s what I fear the most in crowded spaces, it doesn’t matter how clean I am I always start thinking that the water didn’t do anything and the perfume just vanished and I smell like shit (also let’s be honest, it’s not so easy to know where the smell comes from so even if it’s not me I’m always afraid people might think it’s me 😭) tall people should be banned from the standing sessions I said what I said!!!

i love when you make new friends at the concert line. yes!! when we arrived back to the airbnb after the concert me and my friend smelled eachother to check if we weren't the smelly ones 😭😭 BAN TALL PEOPLE FROM STANDING SECTIONS!!!!!!

not you studying where they go lmao but could you choose or were you on that side because of the tickets you had?

what can i say i'll do ANYTHING to have haechan in front of me shgfsdjk (a little tmi that it might make me sound like an akgae but i swear im not i love all my neos i just dont play about haechan) but when i went to the link and since haechan didn't come i didn't mind being in third row like of course i would have loved barricade but when i ended up at the third row it was like okayyy and i didn't try to get more close to the stage and i enjoyed it so much especially since i even grabbed a piece of taeyong's shirt sjgjhdks but yes i studied their positions (i even did an excel with haechan and chenles positions so me and my friend could decide which side to go) and for this concert all the vip section (standing floor) was open so you could decide when you entered the venue where to go, unlike the past concerts where you had to buy the side you wanted. originally i wanted the left side ONLY if i was in barricade cause if not i wanted to go the extended stage but when i went inside the venue it was super packed that side so it was a big no (they sold more than 700 soundcheck packages so i think more than half of the people were at that side)

how does the soundcheck work? Did they try all the songs? Or was it mostly talking? I’m sorry if it’s stupid but I don’t know anything about this tour because I was/am so mad I couldn’t go I didn’t watch anything lmao.

to be honest, the whole experience SUCKS. we paid $400 and had the worst experience between all the other sections but i only paid it so i could see them more time and up close (but i wouldn’t recommend it i mean i’d do it again but as i said just to see them more not because it was a good experience). in terms of the actual soundcheck they come out at 5:30 with their "own" clothes (at least in asia they came out without their hair and makeup done and with their own clothes, but in latam and usa they wore the merch and had their makeup and hair done) and they introduced themselves and talked for about 5 minutes then mark asked about what song we wanted to hear (me knowing they took to my first out of the setlist: TO MY FIRST!!!!!) and he pretended we said all night long skhshjkf (cause they always sing anl at the sc), the song started and they went to the extend stage and they just walk and interact with the fans while singing, throwing kisses, reading the signs, doing kyuu, etc. after the song ended they did a little ment again talking about what they did the day before in chile. then they sang yogurt shake, did a short ment, sang sos (they sometimes exchange sos with candy if i remember correctly) and did a final ment then said goodbye (the soundcheck lasts about 20/25 minutes in total)

NOT YOU AND HAECHAN LOST IN YOUR OWN WORLD I LOVE YOUUUU

me and haechan are actually in a 7 year old relationship he just doesn’t know it yet 😁

the only thing I will ever be jealous of the usa is the sitting floor because standing floor is HELL I don’t care I’m used to it, it’s just hell every time and people have no boundaries. When I saw taylor I sat almost all day but then people started getting up before paramore and if you sat down you felt like suffocating (it was summer, in milan where it’s humid af, the sun hit the stage until the speak now set lmaooo I was frying) like there are already two hours to wait WHY ARE YOU STANDING??? the same thing happened with 127, one person RIPPED the signed ball from my hand I was shocked, like… is it really that serious?

yes i CAN'T do standing concerts anymore pleaseee also some people are super rude and ruin the experience 💔 for taylor thank god i bougth numbered? tickets (they were only $6 cheaper than the vip section but i was scared to go to the standing floor with argentinians cause they are WILD) and even tho i only arrived like 2/3 hours early i ended up being SUPER tired so yeah.... BAN STANDING CONCERTS!!!!!!! unfortunely for sabrina (but thank god for me), she wasnt that famous yet back in november so when she came out no one was standing 💔 but for the 127 the dumbass people started standing up like an hour and a half earlier i HATED THEM

gawddd what is wrong with these people how can someone be so rude to rip something from your hand fucking psycho

GIRL OMG AHSOOSO HOW ARE YOU ALIVE???? WAIT HOW DID YOU GET IT BACK OMG??? I fear this keychain doesn’t want to leave you

i am in fact not alive. after the concert ended i went to barricade and started trying to get the attention of one of the staffs because i asked a guard and he said he couldn't talk to anyone from the staff (such a liar because they were only chilean staffs) so i started to scream at whoever staff passed by and a lady guard started kicking me out of the venue and i said no wait i can't go i only want the keychain and i'll leave and she was so not nice but at least she let me but was BESIDE ME trying to check that i didn't do anything else ???? so one male staff was passing by and i said HEYYY FRIEND (what is wrong with me sfhdkfhkdk) could you please grab the little keychain that is on the stage and give it back to me? so he climbed the stage and had to look for it and found it so i got it back and finally left so yeahh that's how i got it back... and to be honest i kinda grew attached to the keychain so i was super hesitant to throwing it to the stage but i said if haechan uses it then it doesn't matter because also that was the only reason i bought it in the first place but thank god i got it back tho cause at some point i thougth i'll never see it again. wish i could buy a second keychain so i could have matching ones with haechan but that was the only one i could find in the world (i wish i was joking 😭)

I can imagine if you didn’t sit for hours straight omg 😭😭 (we talked about the eras tour, right? Didn’t we both get out of the woods as a surprise song or am I making it up? 😭😭)

YESYESYES WE TALKED ABOUT THE ERAS TOUR BUT I COULD TALK ABOUT IT NONSTOP AND YESSSS WE ARE SURPRISE SONG TWINS!!!

I didn’t see the videos but I agree with your friend (let's hope haechan doesn't mind you cheating on him)

i need to come out of the anonymity so i can show you my pics and we can chat NORMALLY and not through asks…. and haechan will have to suck it up!!!

omg? And your friend didn’t say or do anything? I don’t understand people sometime because one thing was if she tried to get to know you and releazied she didn’t like you, but she didn’t even try??? Dind’t even say hello??? Rude as fuck for no reason at all??? Maybe she was jealous of you and your friend?

yeah she was a fucking weirdo and so manipulative thank god my friend dropped her… but i also got kinda annoyed that she didn’t say anything and i mean i can defend myself i really have no problema doing that but she as the mutual friend she should have said something….

WDYM YOU HATE THE BRAIDS??? I LOVE THEM ON HIM

i HATE them so much in fact no words can explain how much i hate long hair on him (and actually on almost every idols it always looks TERRIBLE)

the difference in the length between him and the others is SENDING ME LMAO you don’t even try to hide it (as you should) the way EVERYONE say he’s even prettier irl kills me omg how can it be possible. “mijito rico” in chile 🤝🏽 “sei bellissima/o” in italy. maybe he was more tired back then? Tbh idk because I even if I surely saw videos of tds2 I don’t remember anything lmao but if all you felt it I’m sure it was like this

i tried to write longer paragraphs for the other members but since the haechan tunnel vision was crazy i only watched them for a short period so i don’t have much to say about them 😭😭😭but god i’m just thinking of irl haechan and i’m ascending he’s seriously so so so so so pretty

omgg 🤝🏼 and its so funny cause mijito rico has a song that goes “MIJITO RICO MIJITO RICO LA LA LA LA LALA LALALALALA” and haechan danced to it 😭

i want to think he was tired and not that he hated us especially since i watched lots of videos and it seemed like he only acted that way in chile

from the videos I have the feeling he has an amazing stage presence and it’s super underrated tbh but I wouldn’t know.

i swear his stage presence is no joke and in my opinion at least in live performances he’s the best singer between the 7

I’m so happy it was a great experience and you had fun!!! let's hope next time they will come back as 7 once again

thank you so much rebs i hope you can see 7dream soon too ❤️‍🩹

what merch will you get?

idk i didn’t have a particular one in mind but i saw the merch they sold at the netherlands and it’s kinda ugly i didn’t like anything 😭 so i was thinking maybe buy non official merch outside the venue? but i don’t even know if they sell that in europe so idkkk

I have nothing to say really lmao. I’ve been busy because I took photos for an exhibition I will have in November and I’m super happy with how they came out.

OMGG HELLO??? REBS THAT’S HUGE??? CONGRATULATION ON THE EXHIBITION THAT’S AMAZING IM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!! i bet all the pictures came amazing and the exhibition will be super successful when is the inauguration??

I was supposed to see one of my favorite singers yesterday but then she postponed the concert to November and then yesterday she cancelled the whole tour so I’m a bit sad about it cause I have been looking forward to it since February. And also since I was already seeing her I decided not to see another singer I like but I couldn’t even get tickets last minute for him because the last cities left were in these days and not close to where I live so I wouldn’t have time to organize a trip rip.

clairo right?:( i’m so sorry for that i don’t listen to her music but i saw a lot of people super bummed about it and i know how much it must suck for you especially since it was firstly postponed and then cancelled:/ sending you lots of hugs bby 🫶🏼

i will put my reply to the other asks in here to not have multiple ones at the same time!

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OMG NOOOO THAT’S LIKE ONE OF MY BIGGEST NIGHTMARES 😭😭😭 can’t you post-pone the vacation? it’s all already paid? (also i’m sorry but i imagined you maybe all dressed up at this party, cheering for the tour and then realizing when he’s coming there and having a breakdown sjdjdj)

i tried but i can’t change the airplane tickets for another day and it’s also already paid 😭 and yesaidjskxks i was hanging out with a lot of friends at the party (they don’t even know i like kpop) and i opened twitter just as an habit and the FIRST thing i saw was the post and i was like WAIT IT SAYS SANTIAGO and i saw the (wrong) date (i saw the mexico one thinking it was for chile) so i was like noo not on january 28th how am i supposed to ask for the day off especially since it’s like 3 days before our vacations but then i closed the app but as the party kept going i kept thinking about what should i say at work so i went to twitter again to make sure it was really on jan 28 and that’s when i realized it was actually february 4 for chile 😭😭😭😭😭 i wanted to scream SO BAD and i just said OMG NO and covered my mouth and my friends asked me what happened and i had to act like it was nothing when in fact i was DYING inside

(this is me if you even care 😞 https://x.com/VideoReacts/status/1742619354426982826/video/1)

i guess your vacation is not in another city where and when he’s playing (this doesn’t make sense so for example, if you’re flying to sao paulo you get tickets for that city instead) i hope you’ll find a solution please let me know if you do 😭

i hate myself so much rn because when my mom asked us where we wanted to go me and my sister immediately replied “NOT to brazil” and we ended choosing argentina cause last time my mom couldn’t go with us plus we didn’t have enough time to go to all the places we wanted but to my bad luck no kpop artist go to argentina but they do go to brazil 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 so i really have no solution and i won’t be able to see him and it angers me so much cause i’ve been waiting for YEARS for him and i almost lost my mind when he was away in the military for more than 21 months and now i can’t even see him i cant do this anymore im killing myself!!!!

soo yeah… sorry for the long spam. hope everything keeps going well for you rebs. have an amazing week love youuuu take care🩷

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hiiii!

yes. the probem IS HIM emo haechan no one will ever get you like me..... what do i need to do to have him i just want ONE (1) chance with him. he's so so pretty and hot literally not fair. GODDDD im thinking of that look once again and im screaming internally i want to eat him (in every sense of the word).

I WANT TO EAT HIM IN EVERY SENSE OF THE WORLD SO REAL QUEEN!!!

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hii rebs<3 don't worry!! and yes that was my karma but guess what i went to another concert on october 9 (A.C.E) so i had to come up with another lie and i felt so bad cause i literally killed a (nonexistent) family member to go in my defense it was my sisters idea😭 but it was SO worthy like i swear it was the best experience ever, the concert was amazing and the members were so so so so sweet and beautiful upclose even tho the second they looked at me i forgot what i had planned to tell them and blushed like crazy in front of yuchan (my fav) and he laughed at me held my hand and we took pictures together and idk im giggling and smiling like crazy thinking about it (when i wrote this i was alone at the office thank god)

not your sister being a bad influence too lmao. i don’t know them but i’m happy it was a good experience. also WAIT you MET THEM??? that’s so cool and they were so nice omg (are you on a mission to collect k-pop boys?) yuchan... haechan... do you have a thing for the chans sjaosajo

YES!! i missed doing friendship bracelets so my sister suggested doing it but i dont think i will ever do it again because it was super tiring and time consuming.... noo and im so sorry about your concert :(

yeah especially when they break and you have to run after beads, i will make them for taylor next concerts hoping we will keep doing them just to finish the beads

what can i say i'll do ANYTHING to have haechan in front of me shgfsdjk (a little tmi that it might make me sound like an akgae but i swear im not i love all my neos i just dont play about haechan) but when i went to the link and since haechan didn't come i didn't mind being in third row like of course i would have loved barricade but when i ended up at the third row it was like okayyy and i didn't try to get more close to the stage and i enjoyed it so much especially since i even grabbed a piece of taeyong's shirt sjgjhdks but yes i studied their positions (i even did an excel with haechan and chenles positions so me and my friend could decide which side to go) and for this concert all the vip section (standing floor) was open so you could decide when you entered the venue where to go, unlike the past concerts where you had to buy the side you wanted. originally i wanted the left side ONLY if i was in barricade cause if not i wanted to go the extended stage but when i went inside the venue it was super packed that side so it was a big no (they sold more than 700 soundcheck packages so i think more than half of the people were at that side)

NOT THE EXCEL WITH THE POSITIONS YOU ICON! but tbh there’s nothing wrong with this, it’s only normal to try to be as close as your bias/biases or pick a place where they play a song you like (i did the same for the diamond section at the eras tour just because of august (and also because it’s where you could see her the most)) it’s my MONEY i will get the place I want. taeyong’s shirt you will always be famous. oh so i see that chile’s organization works just like the italian one, tickets that are supposed to have a better view and should be limited turn out to be sold to 700 of people amazing!

to be honest, the whole experience SUCKS. we paid $400 and had the worst experience between all the other sections but i only paid it so i could see them more time and up close (but i wouldn’t recommend it i mean i’d do it again but as i said just to see them more not because it was a good experience). in terms of the actual soundcheck they come out at 5:30 with their "own" clothes (at least in asia they came out without their hair and makeup done and with their own clothes, but in latam and usa they wore the merch and had their makeup and hair done) and they introduced themselves and talked for about 5 minutes then mark asked about what song we wanted to hear (me knowing they took to my first out of the setlist: TO MY FIRST!!!!!) and he pretended we said all night long skhshjkf (cause they always sing anl at the sc), the song started and they went to the extend stage and they just walk and interact with the fans while singing, throwing kisses, reading the signs, doing kyuu, etc. after the song ended they did a little ment again talking about what they did the day before in chile. then they sang yogurt shake, did a short ment, sang sos (they sometimes exchange sos with candy if i remember correctly) and did a final ment then said goodbye (the soundcheck lasts about 20/25 minutes in total)

my poor to my first defender ☹ i’m just like you, say that the floor sucks and the vips even more but then i always get those tickets (tbh i only ever got the vip for taylor because it was the only ticket the site would let me put in the cart and i was shaking and crying (literally) after days of saying “the floor? not even with a gun at my head”) but i know my limits, one time while seeing little mix I was about to faint BEFORE the concert started and i didn’t push myself (the normal and vip were separated so i wasn’t going to be close to the stage anyway) i stepped back and had the time of my life anyway. so i always but the floor knowing that if i end up close to the stage it’s good but i don’t mind staying in the back. i feel these are the crazy things we can tolerate while we’re still young, in my 30’s i will get seated tickets

me and haechan are actually in a 7 year old relationship he just doesn’t know it yet 😁

please invite me to the wedding

yes i CAN'T do standing concerts anymore pleaseee also some people are super rude and ruin the experience 💔 for taylor thank god i bougth numbered? tickets (they were only $6 cheaper than the vip section but i was scared to go to the standing floor with argentinians cause they are WILD) and even tho i only arrived like 2/3 hours early i ended up being SUPER tired so yeah.... BAN STANDING CONCERTS!!!!!!! unfortunely for sabrina (but thank god for me), she wasnt that famous yet back in november so when she came out no one was standing 💔 but for the 127 the dumbass people started standing up like an hour and a half earlier i HATED THEM

love how we say this knowing damn well we will be at another standing concert when we’ll have the chance. yeah stadiums in latam are PACKED , san siro was sold out but for safety reasons they can’t fully fill the floor so it wasn’t so bad, and many people complained when seeing the videos saying “oh but it wasn’t full, i could’ve gone too,” you dickhead people need space! it’s not safe! (also it’s only normal that when the concert starts everyone tries to get closer to the stage so everyone was around it and there was more space in the back) time is not real because wdym last year sabrina was opening the eras tour and was unknown and now she’s breaking records every two seconds omg

gawddd what is wrong with these people how can someone be so rude to rip something from your hand fucking psycho

it’s french people what do you expect (sorry to my french readers i guess, at least you fight the fascists)

i am in fact not alive. after the concert ended i went to barricade and started trying to get the attention of one of the staffs because i asked a guard and he said he couldn't talk to anyone from the staff (such a liar because they were only chilean staffs) so i started to scream at whoever staff passed by and a lady guard started kicking me out of the venue and i said no wait i can't go i only want the keychain and i'll leave and she was so not nice but at least she let me but was BESIDE ME trying to check that i didn't do anything else ???? so one male staff was passing by and i said HEYYY FRIEND (what is wrong with me sfhdkfhkdk) could you please grab the little keychain that is on the stage and give it back to me? so he climbed the stage and had to look for it and found it so i got it back and finally left so yeahh that's how i got it back... and to be honest i kinda grew attached to the keychain so i was super hesitant to throwing it to the stage but i said if haechan uses it then it doesn't matter because also that was the only reason i bought it in the first place but thank god i got it back tho cause at some point i thougth i'll never see it again. wish i could buy a second keychain so i could have matching ones with haechan but that was the only one i could find in the world (i wish i was joking 😭)

you wanted that keychain back BADLY i love you you’re so chaotic 😭i’m happy that at least one person of the staff was kind enough to give it back to you tho. omg that’s so rare please don’t ever lose it and haechan if you don’t catch it next time!!!

YESYESYES WE TALKED ABOUT THE ERAS TOUR BUT I COULD TALK ABOUT IT NONSTOP AND YESSSS WE ARE SURPRISE SONG TWINS!!!

i can’t ever trust my brain i don’t know if i talk to myself or if i actually had conversations with people lmao glad for once i wasn’t insane

i need to come out of the anonymity so i can show you my pics and we can chat NORMALLY and not through asks…. and haechan will have to suck it up!!!

kinda yes because i try to imagine everything you tell me but i would love to see the videos (no but you don’t have to i have a vivid imagination i will keep using it)

yeah she was a fucking weirdo and so manipulative thank god my friend dropped her… but i also got kinda annoyed that she didn’t say anything and i mean i can defend myself i really have no problema doing that but she as the mutual friend she should have said something….

Yeah it’s obvious you can defend yourself but as friend of yours she should’ve said something especially because it was uncalled for

i HATE them so much in fact no words can explain how much i hate long hair on him (and actually on almost every idols it always looks TERRIBLE)

listen… I could take hating on the braids but… WHAT DO YOU MEAN LONG HAIR OMG is this the first thing we disagree on?

i tried to write longer paragraphs for the other members but since the haechan tunnel vision was crazy i only watched them for a short period so i don’t have much to say about them 😭😭😭but god i’m just thinking of irl haechan and i’m ascending he’s seriously so so so so so pretty

no i can’t blame you for that don’t worry i’d do the same

omgg 🤝🏼 and its so funny cause mijito rico has a song that goes “MIJITO RICO MIJITO RICO LA LA LA LA LALA LALALALALA” and haechan danced to it 😭

HE’S A CUTIE I WILL DIE

i want to think he was tired and not that he hated us especially since i watched lots of videos and it seemed like he only acted that way in chile

that’s the only reason also because he had fun this time and it’s not like something happened there for him to hate on the country

i swear his stage presence is no joke and in my opinion at least in live performances he’s the best singer between the 7

after this ask i saw a video on tiktok that asked nctzens “who’s your bias before and after” and EVERYONE talked about how chenle wrecked them after the concert lmao

thank you so much rebs i hope you can see 7dream soon too ❤️‍🩹

thanks love i really hope that but tbh they’re never coming here in italy and i doubt i’ll go to paris again especially alone

idk i didn’t have a particular one in mind but i saw the merch they sold at the netherlands and it’s kinda ugly i didn’t like anything 😭 so i was thinking maybe buy non official merch outside the venue? but i don’t even know if they sell that in europe so idkkk

in europe there’s non official merch outside but it’s mostly posters and shirts (but i haven’t been to a kpop concerts in ages so idk anymore) the things i got at the 127 concert were fan made (like photocards, fans, and other things, they sold posters outside after the show and my friend got one)

OMGG HELLO??? REBS THAT’S HUGE??? CONGRATULATION ON THE EXHIBITION THAT’S AMAZING IM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!! i bet all the pictures came amazing and the exhibition will be super successful when is the inauguration??

so umh... came back from the inauguration now and lmao people struggle when you don’t show them mountains or sunsets but i’m used to it (am i still sad? yes) i knew this one was going to be even worst than last year to understand but who knows, maybe once it’s over they’ll let me know that someone liked it (last year the inauguration was a flop but my photos ended up being the most appreciated) but what matters is that i love how the pics came out so i’m happy. thank you!!!

clairo right?:( i’m so sorry for that i don’t listen to her music but i saw a lot of people super bummed about it and i know how much it must suck for you especially since it was firstly postponed and then cancelled:/ sending you lots of hugs bby 🫶🏼

no it’s not her, it’s angelina mango, an italian singer. but it’s alright, i can’t do anything to change it so... (i’m still so pissed i haven’t listened to her since lmao) thank you for the hugs love u!

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i tried but i can’t change the airplane tickets for another day and it’s also already paid 😭 and yesaidjskxks i was hanging out with a lot of friends at the party (they don’t even know i like kpop) and i opened twitter just as an habit and the FIRST thing i saw was the post and i was like WAIT IT SAYS SANTIAGO and i saw the (wrong) date (i saw the mexico one thinking it was for chile) so i was like noo not on january 28th how am i supposed to ask for the day off especially since it’s like 3 days before our vacations but then i closed the app but as the party kept going i kept thinking about what should i say at work so i went to twitter again to make sure it was really on jan 28 and that’s when i realized it was actually february 4 for chile 😭😭😭😭😭 i wanted to scream SO BAD and i just said OMG NO and covered my mouth and my friends asked me what happened and i had to act like it was nothing when in fact i was DYING inside

YOU WERE LITERALLY THIS MEME I'M SCREAMING

(this is me if you even care 😞 https://x.com/VideoReacts/status/1742619354426982826/video/1)

THIS VIDEO KILLS ME LMAO i would’ve had the same reaction tbh

i hate myself so much rn because when my mom asked us where we wanted to go me and my sister immediately replied “NOT to brazil” and we ended choosing argentina cause last time my mom couldn’t go with us plus we didn’t have enough time to go to all the places we wanted but to my bad luck no kpop artist go to argentina but they do go to brazil 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 so i really have no solution and i won’t be able to see him and it angers me so much cause i’ve been waiting for YEARS for him and i almost lost my mind when he was away in the military for more than 21 months and now i can’t even see him i cant do this anymore im killing myself!!!!

OMG A FAMILY VACATION TOO this was brazil’s karma coming back to bite your ass there’s no other explanation lmao. this sucks but also he’s in a new agency, right? so I’m pretty positive things will be better than with sm and he will come back again in 2026 and you will be able to see him. Please don’t let it ruin your vacation with your mom and sister (and do like me, silence him and every world relating to the concert when the date comes up so you won’t see anything)

NEVER APOLOGIZE FOR YOUR LONG ASKS I LOVE THEM!!! i'll reply to the other anon in a while! i'm just going to eat. have a great week! love you!!!

[carlottawllms]

Hiyaaaa🩷

When your boss had asked you yesterday shortly before closing time if you could come to the office today – a Saturday – because the preparation for an important court hearing needed a bit more work, you’d thought that you could simply drive to the stadium directly afterwards and attend the game, but now it was 2:45pm, 15 minutes before kick-off, and you were still sitting at your desk, staring at the case with your colleague Ella, an no end in sight. OH NOOOO🥺😒

“That’s very nice of you, but no.”, you declined. “There’s still a ton of things to look through and I won’t leave you alone with it. Ben knows I won’t be there today.” OH LOVE

You didn't know how wrong you were and that you wouldn’t be watching any of his games anytime soon when you stuck your nose back into the papers to find more arguments for your client. You didn’t know what the following week would hold for you and that your relationship would be put to the test. OH DRAMAAAA

And it had worked pretty well. You’d moved out and into your own flat, started university and found new friends with new free time activities. Throughout the years you’d graduated, become a lawyer and all that without ever having watched a minute of football again. WE LOVE AN INDEPENDENT WOMAN

He hadn't been paying attention when he’d pulled out of the parking space and hit your car. Nothing more than a bit of a bigger scratch, but as an apology he’d invited you to dinner. You’d said no like three times, but Ben had insisted and eventually you’d said yes to get him out of your hair. He’d taken you on that date, had very much swept you off your feet and the rest was history. AHHAHAHA POOR CAR

Startled out of your thoughts, your gaze wondered over to where your phone had started ringing and the moment you caught sight of the cute selfie of Ben you’d set as his profile picture flashing up on your screen, your stomach dropped. PH WHY IS HE CALLING DURING THE GAME

“y/n, hi, it’s Levi.” OH NO OH NO OH NO NO NO

“I’m not sure.”, he shrugged, lips pulled into a straight line. “I haven’t spoken to him or anyone, I think they’re still assessing him, but when he came off he said it was bad, so we don’t have much hope to be honest.” POOR BOY 😭

You gently knocked on the door before entering. Ben was lying on one of the beds, his right arm draped over his face in an attempt to hide away from the cruel world. The bad leg was bent, a physio hovering over your boyfriend to assess his thigh. ILL CRY

With a pat to your shoulder and an encouraging smile, the physio left the room. The following silence was deafening. All that could be heard in the quiet room was Ben’s and your breathing. Your boyfriend didn’t spare you so much as a glance when he hoisted himself up in a sitting position, the pain evident on his face as he moved his leg, and if you weren’t unfortunately familiar with it all, you’d probably feel a little hurt by his actions. OH BABY GIRL

Once Ben was out of the shower and dressed in his Chelsea tracksuit, he reluctantly grabbed the crutches and followed you to his car. As you went to help him get into the car, he only gave you a pointed look and with a sigh, you gave up, walked around the car and got in yourself. AH, I HONESTLY WOULD HAVE LEFT HIM THERE, MY PATIENCE CAN'T BEAR WITH THAT

“Thank you for coming.”, he whispered and the way he sounded so sad just broke your heart into a million pieces. MM, MAYBE ILL FORGIVE HIM

As your relationship hadn’t started until around a year ago, the two of you didn’t live together yet and so far, the subject of moving in together hadn’t really come up either. Technically, you’d love to move in with him and be around him way more often than now, especially as his hectic schedule and your 9-to-5 didn’t necessarily make it easy to spend time together. At times you felt as if he was free whenever you weren’t and vice versa. You hated it. IF HE DOESN'T ASK HER TO MOVE IN ILL PUNCH HIM

Ben lived in this insanely huge house that you didn't even know if he rented or bought, and you couldn't afford a quarter of it on your normal salary if you tried. Moving in with him would feel like you were living off his money, and you were afraid that one day he might think that too. OH BABE, NO

With your overnight bag hanging from your shoulder and a bag of snacks and pick-me-ups in your hand, you got back to Ben’s and to your big surprise, he’d not vanished upstairs. Instead, he was looking a bit like a human burrito from the way he was wrapped up in the fluffy blanket you’d gotten him as a just-because-gift earlier this month. AHHAHAHA THAT'S ME WHILE IM READING 😂😂😂

You didn’t know for how long you were in the kitchen, but when you’d just dried the last pot, you felt a warm body brushing up against your back. “Sorry.”, Ben whispered into your neck as his arms wrapped around your middle and squeezed your gently. “I needed a moment. Can I help you with something?” OHHHHHH, I'M CRYING NOW

“Yeah. We haven’t had it in forever and I know you love it.”, you smiled. “You’re hungry?” I WANT LASAGNE TOO

“Give me a kiss first?”, he asked shyly, eyes dropping to your lips and when you pulled them into a gentle smile, Ben leaned in. His mouth brushed yours in the softest of kisses before applying a little more pressure. You kissed him back immediately, putting as much love in the kiss as possible in an attempt to make him feel a little better and when his smile broke the kiss, you knew you’d succeeded. CUTIES😍 😍

But then about two days ago, Ben had become a little distant. You’d blamed it on everything catching up with him and the realisation just kicking in, but when he’d pulled away more and more, not even kissing you good morning anymore, you’d started to wonder if you being here was too much for him. BENJAMIN DONT YOU DARE HURTING MY WOMAN

But the more days passed, the worse got his attitude. He’d already had a tiny fight with his mum over the phone, sent about three teammates away, who’d simply wanted to check in with him and then yesterday, when Mase had called, he’d told him he didn’t want to talk and hung up. HE IS BEING MEAN 😒😒😒

It was day five of living with him and your patience started to run incredibly low. After having woken up to his annoying behaviour, you’d decided to get dressed for some grocery shopping. Actually, you didn’t need anything, but after days of being confronted with the same mopy ass, you needed a breather. YOU HAVE A GOOD PATIENCE, I WOULD HAVE RUN AWAY AFTER THE SECOND DAY

“Just go and stop annoying me.”, he mumbled, causing you to stop dead in your tracks. Surely there was no way he’d just say that? HE DID NOT...

“All week, you’ve been in my hair, annoying the shit out of me with your constant babying. Telling me to take my meds here, cooking lunch for me there, staying here as if I’m some sort of idiot who’s not capable of living on his own.” OMG I'LL PUNCH HIM AND KICK HIS BALLS

“How could I forget, huh? It was the same shitshow as right now.”, he sneered causing a cold shiver to roll down your spine. “There’s no need for you to be here all the time. I’ve survived things like this before you and I’m perfectly fine on my own, you know? I don’t know why you think you need to be around me all the time, but I don’t need you. What I need is time to breathe, fucking hell!” Y/N LEAVE THAT LITTLE PIECE OF SHIT ALONE LET'S SEE HOW MUCH HE'LL RESIST

“Let me speak.”, you snapped, a furious expression on your face when Ben tried to interrupt you again. “I never meant to bug you or make you feel like you can't do anything on your own. It's all about communication, you know? You could have just told me. I fucking asked you if you wanted me to work from here and you said yes, Ben. An honest no would’ve done the trick with no damage done. Why didn't you tell me yesterday or the day before that you needed space? You know me, I would have understood.” OH GIRL JUST GO...HE DOESN'T DESERVE YOUR EXPLAINING

Driving home proved to be difficult with the never-ending tears falling down your cheeks, but somehow, you made it back safely. You turned your phone off the moment you got home and wasted no time in flopping down on your bed, curled into yourself as sobs shook your body. BABY GIRL🥺🥺🥺

You didn’t know for how long you ended up not moving an inch, but when someone knocked at your door, the sun shining through your window had already set. Your head hurt from all the crying and as you hadn’t had anything to eat since breakfast, you felt a little dizzy as well as you brought yourself into an upright position. MMM, YOU HAVE TO EAT BABE

With red-rimmed eyes and blotchy cheeks, Ben stood on your doorstep, holding on to his crutches and the sight of him all sad had your tummy dropping. I HOPE HE THOUGHT ABOUT A GOOD WAY TO MAKE IT UP TO HER

“Benji, hey, it’s okay. C’mere.” You were quick in stepping forward and wrapping your arms around his neck carefully and the moment he felt you brushing up against his body, he dropped his head into the crook of your neck. The crutches cluttered to the ground as he circled your waist tightly, but neither of you cared. YOU SHOULD HAVE LEFT HIM SUFFER A BIT MORE😌😂

“I know sorry isn’t enough for what happened back at mine, but I really need you to know that I am.”, he told you with your hands in his, thumbs gently brushing over your knuckles. “I didn’t mean any of it, I promise you, love. I don’t even want to try and explain it, even less excuse it because there is no excuse for any of the things I’ve said. I’m just so fucking sorry, y/n.” MM, I LOKE THAT

“You could never be too much, love.”, he told you sincerely. “You’re the best thing that has ever happened to me and when you left, I was devastated. I knew straight away that I’d fucked up and that I’d just single-handedly put our whole relationship in doubt and I’m so very sorry for that.” OK, YOU'RE FORGIVEN

“Thank you.”, he smiled softly, before his gaze turned serious again. “It’s still no excuse for how I spoke to you and what I said. I really am sorry.” EXACTLY

“There’s something else though.”, Ben admitted as he pulled away. “This is probably not the best time as I just had to turn into the biggest idiot the world has ever seen, but I feel like it could settle your worries a little, you know?” OK, IF ITS WHAT I THINK ILL SCREAM

“Actually, before that…you said I should think about whether or not this relationship is still what I want, but y/n I don’t need time to think about that. I know I want this, you. I love you, y/n and there’s nothing that I want more than to be with you and have you by my side for as long as you want me, okay?” CUTIE

“Oh…yes. Well, I’ve been meaning to ask you for a while now but being honest I’ve been bricking it and kept pushing it to the next day.”, he laughed with slightly blushed cheeks. “I erm…I was wondering if maybe erm…you’d like to erm…move in with me?”YAYYYYYYYY

“Ben.”, you interrupted him quickly, chuckling quietly at his nervous rambling. “I’d love to move in with you.” You could see his face dropping slightly in disappointment as he was obviously expecting the but. “It’s just that…you earn so much more than I do obviously, and I don’t want to live off your money and it’s…I don’t know it’s been plaguing my mind for a while.” OH SHUT UPPPP

“Yes.”, you laughed. “Because you’re my idiot. And I can’t believe I get to live with my idiot.” HER BIG IDIOT

OMG CARLOTTA

THANK YOU

I NEEDED SOME GOOD ANGST

AND THAT WAS PERFECT TO FEED ME😌

I HATED HIM SOOOO MUCH, AND SHE WAS SOOOO PATIENT I COULD NEVER😂

I FELT ALL HER HURT😭

YOURE INCREDIBLE GIRL🤭🥹

THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH FOR THATTTT🩷🩷🩷

I swear your feedback makes me smile every single time!! 🙏🏼

Thank you so much 😭🩷🩷

I’m really really glad you loved this! 😌 I really enjoyed writing it too 🙊🩷

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

FINALLY GETTING TO THIS its like my personal selfcare time <3333 mickey & uquizzes <33333

first of all my mind ALSO immediately went to knight!reader & prince!gojo when i thought abt the soft/violent parallel but wbk both our brains are poisoned 😭😭😭 all we think of is Them.

but YES UR RESULTS…… ohhh theyre so good. i love love love sending ppl uquizzes bc its so fun and i feel like u learn more abt the person too!! its just soooo nice like i literally cant tell u how much i adore uquizzes. <3 my beloveds.

because at least you will have done it. at least you can own it. <- OHHH THIS ONE HAS A KICK TO IT that result went so hard im in awe of uquiz makers.. and the spring flowers!!! ohhh i can see it so clearly actually. u remind me a lot of hyacinths!!!!! i like assigning ppl i know flowers hehe for u its either hyacinths or lilacs and i thinkkkk theyre both spring flowers?

AND THE BF/GF OHHH WHAT A DUO the way we both got our silly guy!!!!! its us and him against the world!!!!!!!!!!! THE RESULTS R SO CUTEEE utahime is such a sweetie 🥺🥺

AND THENNN THE QUIZ U SENT WHAT A BANGER first of all i am JEALOUS love as hunger is so real…. who will come into my kitchen and be hungry for me? <- LOVE this quote all of them r so good hhhhh…

okay mickey im gonna be honest i cheated a bit there was a question that i went back to after taking the quiz once bc i was rlly tied between two different options… and i ended up w two different results bUT i think both of them are super accurate n i felt them so deeply!!! here they areee i LOVED this quiz so much <33

I SCREAMEDDDD MICKEY this is so aricoded to me ….. i am so ill abt devotion AND tenderness esp when theyre mixed!!! and ohhh these quotes…. these quotes………. if there’s no one beside you when your soul embarks, i will follow you into the dark <- ‼️ ARI FOUND DEAD IN A DITCH ‼️ smth abt blind loyalty just absolutely guts me mickey TAT

ALSO ALSO BEFORE I FORGET!! good luck w ur room wall im sure itll look super great!! <3 (i can picture the movie posters) + PLSSSS PET UR CAT FOR ME tell them ari loves them T_T….

OKAY BUT MICKEY. MICKEY. (i am grabbing ur shoulders while saying this) YOUUUUUU CANT KEEP COMING UP W THESE CONCEPTS R U TRYING TO KILL ME…… atp u r PRAYING for my downfall U CANT JSUT CASUALLY SAY VAMP!GETO X GOJO X VAMP!READER AND THEN NOT ELABORATE 😭😭😭😭 i literally had to stop and take a second to breathe. what.

OKAY BUT………. thats literally the tastiest concept ive heard of in my entire fucking life WHAT….. i NEED to hear every single one of ur thoughts plsplsplsplsplspls im begging…….;;;;;

all i can think of is gojo being like. Abnormally happy to have u both drink his blood to the point where sugu has to stop him from offering himself up bc hes getting dangerously pale LMAOO i just. im sorry but i cant think of this concept and NOT picture gojo being the most giddy little fucker on this planet he wants u both to bite him sooooo bad. so bad. would gladly have ur teeth in his neck 24/7 sugu literally has to coax him into laying down while u tell him a bedtime story so he falls asleep and doesnt urge u to drink more hes a little sick in the head <333 hes like ur excited human puppy.

i can picture him trying to bribe u / get out of trouble by letting u drink his blood too like he pushes ur buttons all day and then when u get mad hes like noooo im so sorrryyyy <3 how do i *ever* make it up to u…. <33 (flashes nape and winks) HES SOOOO .. im sorry if this isnt what u had in mind mickey i think some part of my brain genuinely stopped functioning when u said vamp!geto x gojo x vamp!reader 😭😭 all i can think of is bratty unhinged gojo and his exasperated vampire wives. also can i just say im literally SO jealous of him

but also…… there’s something abt this concept that is just so beautiful bc u have gojo, the prettiest boy in the world, cocky and free and unbound — and then he falls in love w two vampires. just as pretty, just as unbound, but soooo much more powerful…. so much more experienced and knowledgeable….. idk i just think his adoration falls just a tiny bit into worship. i think he feels a touch of something holy when your cold hand meets his neck. i think he shudders with love when his blood is dripping down suguru’s lips. (entire medical team breaks into my home and pulls me away from my screen)

i hope u can feel exactly how insane this made me mickey when will ur terror end …. 😔😔 how am i supposed to be normal abt any of them. smh.

oh!!! and and and!! just as a final thing; knight!sugu x royalty!reader…….. ive been planning a knight!sugu fic for a WHILE (moss infected me long ago we love moss thank u moss) but that fic is more focused on sugu and knighthood and angst. kinda like a character study piece almost?? but then alexis mentioned knight!sugu x royalty!reader and my mind started SPINNING away here r some of my thoughts…. im still mapping it all out but !!

rn im just imagining it almost like … a parallel to the knight!reader x prince!gojo fic….. kind of. sort of. maybe not exactly im not sure if i want it to be in the same universe or not (bc in my mind the suguru in how deep is your devotion? is in love w gojo no i never even hinted at it in the fic yes i just enjoy tragic queer subtext) but!! its definitely very similar.

i picture royalty!reader as kind of a brat, spoiled and curious, used to getting their way but also trapped in the castle w guards overseeing them. and it’s obviously suffocating!! they hate the guards and the knights and their parents and everyone.

and then one day the king and queen hire a certain knight — the greatest knight — to be reader’s bodyguard (maybe a sudden assassination attempt spurred them on? smth like that) and!! lo and behold!! its sweet little sugu <33 all height and muscle and armor and keen eyes.

and reader is grumpy at first but obv they warm up to him over time bc its suguru, and he just has this allure abt him. hes a knight and hes loyal and he places his duty above all else but hes also a little mischevious. a bit of a trickster. he indulges reader and has the patience of a saint but hes also kinda teasing. and then eventually he sneaks them out of the castle, to their surprise, because they expected him to say no like always but he takes their hand in his and tells them to stay close.

and hes just so protective mickey…. at first it really is just a job to him but eventually he grows so fond of royalty!reader. he treasures them so dearly. he kneels for them time and time again and at some point its just muscle memory. i need him so bad.

ALSO final thing (for real this time!!) i just want u to know this fic will be BRIMMING w canine symbolism. dog imagery. wolf imagery. etc etc. in my mind knight!suguru literally is a wolf pretending to be a domesticated dog but when he’s alone w reader that wolfish side peeks out…. IM JUST. im so excited to write this u have nooo idea <33

OKAY LOOK I'M SORRY I KEPT DOING THE STUPID QUIZZES AND I FOUND ANOTHER REALLY COOL ONE AND I JUST IMMEDIATELY THOUGHT OF YOU (i'm moving into your inbox i live here now) no but fr i thought it was so cool and their poem lines were so fcking good???????????? woww

i got violent; "it is the way you would walk through glass to see a smile"; "give and never take for the guilt that comes with wanting is suffocating" THIS QUIZMASTER IS COMING FOR ME a bit life-changing quotes though i hope this person is having such a good day omfg

https://uquiz.com/quiz/evn4G3?p=6133991

- @softgirlgonehaywire

NEVER APOLOGIZE MICKEY I LOVE UQUIZZES LIKE I LOVE NOTHING ELSE ON THIS PLANET its literally my love language u know the way to my heart <3333 FEEL FREE TO MOVE IN i will make my inbox cozy just for u. i can leave a pillow fort in the corner. a cat plushie . make urself at home <33

BUT okok ive done the soldier/poet/king quiz before bUT i did it again (and realized how ihtctaot coded it is that kinda stung huh) and!! i got :D

… the king!! hehe. dare i say prince!gojo coded.. u see the vision i know i can trust u. ”you are tired of being steady” ohhhh they are coming for our LIVES mickey………

AND AND ANDDD the other quiz was soso lovely i adored it!! i loovveeee quizzes w lots of pinterest image / song lyric questions they r my favorite ever <33 THIS RESULT WAS SO CUTE TOO WAHH (AND THE WAY WE GOT VIOLENT/SOFT…. the ari/mickey parallels r once again unparalleled)

THAT WAS SO FUN TYSM MICKEYY… if u have any more quizzes at any point PLEASE break in i lovelovelove taking uquizzes ppl send me and also forcing other ppl to take uquizzes i like!!

… so ofc i had to return the favor:

what are you to your friends?

what highly specific emotion are you?

i hunted down two of my fave quizzes <3 hope u enjoy them hehe. i think theyre so fun n wellwritten. these were my results!! (i resonated a lot w them tbh….) i wanna know urs so bad too!!!!!

(AND ALSO just as a side thing. if u r interested here are my top recs for jjk bf and gf quizzes <33 i got shoko and gojo life is good i think the results r soso cute and real)

[heartsyhawk]

A friend knew I've had a rough go of things lately and took me out to see a movie. It was Star Wars. And it was so bad you guys.

My thoughts:

(I cannot figure out how to do the read more cut on mobile like normal so sorry about spoilers)

1. For the first 1/2~3/4 of the movie I literally felt nothing. No amusement, no curiosity, no anger, no excitement, nothing at all. My literal only actual emotion was "oh no this bag of beef jerky was very small actually and it's gone now."

2. The first actual feelings I had to anything was Leia's death. I cried but not for the reasons the movie wanted me to. It was a reminder that Carrie Fisher died, and that she died because the people in charge of this story did not value or take care of her and in fact actively pur the strain on her heart that led to her death by forcing her to lose a quarter of her body weight. I cried because I was angry. And Sad. Because Carrie Fisher deserved better and Leia deserved better and she should be here with us now, joining John Boyega and Oscar Issac in trash talking the absolute tire fire that movie was and living her life.

3. Look I know it's not fair to hold redemption arcs against the gold standard that Zuko's was but I cannot help it. (On a scale of Kylo Ren to Zuko how narratively satisfying was your angsty character's redemption and joining the protagonists side to fight the big bad...) I don't care about Ben/Kylo. There's absolutely no reason to, other than his mom and Dad are two of the most iconic and beloved characters in fiction. His character added nothing, accomplished nothing, improved nothing from a narrative perspective. You could completely remove every trace of him from the entire trilogy with barely any let alone a significant change to the story. Considering how important the story wanted him to be that is...not a great statement.

4. Not thrilled with anything they did to Poe (unrelated side note: my phone really wants his name to be Pie). I'm not the voice to speak loudest on this obviously but it seemed they reduced him to several stereotypes each uglier than the last.

5. They did Rose so dirty. But on the flip side it ironically means that Rose didn't get as mishandled and poorly written as other characters in the movie.

6. Okay so I really actually liked the message "they win by making us feel alone" or whatever. That's a good message, very well times in the grand scheme of things and also words I needed to hear and think.

7. The Resistance Battle at the end was good. It felt Star Wars. It felt more like the narrative end to a saga. Just not...one that included The Last Jedi or the first half of this movie. Does that make any sense? It left me feeling like I should have seen more of Finn's journey as a (Force Sensitive!) Storm Trooper Deserter who found out a whole squad did what he did. And for a wild moment my brain suggested going back and finding the breadcrumbs about Palpatine. But...there aren't any? I should feel something anything about Hux but that plotpoint came so far out of left field so fast it was over before you could process it and thus carries no emotional weight.

8. Did not care for the end on Tatooine. That was nostalgia bait for fans with no gravity whatsoever for Rey or her Story. If I had been a writer or director on this project (<strike>it would have been so different</strike> I would have ended it with the big hug between Poe Finn and Rey maybe with the Rey Skywalker name there or maybe with her embracing her identity and how it's not her destiny. Or maybe I would have had her training new Jedi or force sensitives and Finn to use their abilities and listen to the Force. Or something.

9. That movie ran 142 minutes and it absolutely felt like it up until the last maybe 25 minutes plus the credits. It was slow moving and disjointed. It genuinely feels like a rushed early draft that would have benefitted from a continuity editor and also a child to point out major issues.

I will *never* watch this movie again. And I say that as someone who cosplayed to showings of the Prequels, has four separate articles of licensed Star Wars clothing for my dog, and has had Amidala as the intended middle name for my first born daughter since I was 12. If you haven't seen it, my advice is do not. It is not fun. It is not a well told story.