#but my brain is FRIED TO A C

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My secret solenoid gift for @jariktig ✨Happy belated holidays!!

[crispycreambacon]

Hi y'all. I hope you all are well :)

Happy new year first of all. If you're still here with us, thank you. Thank you for getting through 2024, and thank you for being here. I hope 2025 will be kind to you 🫂

Second of all, I'm not sure if anyone is still here, but if there is someone: I'm sorry for disappearing so suddenly. Life really got in the way due to college, and I can't guarantee this next semester of college won't be very busy for me either. I've been trying to work on my personal life, and part of that was avoiding social media. I'd like to come back, but I'll be reducing the amount of time I spend on here.

If you'd like to know more about what else has happened to me, read on. If not, I wish you well, and I hope you'll still welcome me with open arms.

CW // TRANSPHOBIA, MENTAL HEALTH

If I can be vulnerable for a minute: things have gotten really bad for me last December. I came out to my mom, and it went so badly that I ran away for a little bit. I came back for personal reasons, but now I live with parents who refuse to acknowledge my identity and continue to refer to me with my deadname and AGAB. Moreover, I got triggered really badly at some point during the holidays, and it has led to me realizing I can't keep living like this. I need help.

Thankfully, my college provides mental health services, and from what I heard from other students, they're pretty good. They also provide tests which I definitely need. I can't keep living the undiagnosed lifestyle, y'all, I need to know what's going on with my brain shsldhskshs... I have some clues though. Nothing definitive yet, but I am pretty confident in my suspicions, and whether I'm right or wrong, I just want to figure out what's going on and manage it, start to heal and move on from the trauma I've endured both as a child and now.

I hope this update will suffice. I'm eternally grateful for my friends. They have kept me from absolutely losing it, and they have stuck with me at my worst moments. I love them so dearly, and if they are reading this: thank you :)💞

And to everyone else, thank you for taking the time to read. I'd love to know how y'all have been, so please let me know. I love you all. Please stay safe, and may life bring you the happiness you deserve 🫂

[marvelsgirl616]

for some stupid reason i just realized CHRISTIAN SLATER is in Dexter: Original Sin..... omg if we ever get a scene with christian and michael.....pray for me. also PATRICK DEMPSEY?! ive seen the commercials for the show and my brain just would NOT connect the name to the actor even when seeing them on screen.... finals has fried my brain i fear. 😭

[bunnidid-reviews]

hello 🌷 I hope you're doing well. i wanted to ask and I hope this isn't offensive in any way.. so those w did and osdd have the word system to refer to themselves as, right? what about the c ptsd fragments / parts? some r saying that they give their parts names even, but I don't do that.. tho I do want to make it clear to my loved ones that I am fragmented if that makes sense, and maybe even tell them what this ep does and how my anp usually behaves but im confused. i don't want to make it look like im different people but I know they get confused when I differently to protect myself or shift states, so I do want to explain!! im not in the community yet hence why I asked. thank you and I apologize if this was rough to read. ☺️

Hi anon! Thanks for reaching out. Pls note I’m not a professional and can’t give advice or speak for how the community feels, just going off my own experiences

So I’m a full supporter of using what language makes sense to you and your loved ones when explaining what’s going on for you. If that means using system language to describe it all, theres literally no issue with it at all, especially when its just between you and loved ones anyway. Sorry, but I’m not going to gatekeep words, thats silly! People might get confused if you talk about it in a more public way but thats about it.

I frequently change up my words according to who I’m telling about this all, depending on what they understand. Not everyone knows I have DID but I’ve had to explain what happens sometimes because I’m pretty overt with my presentation and I don’t really like having to do the whole ‘do you believe me or are you going to be fucking weird about this’ song and dance.

Here are some words that might suit you, based on things I’ve used to explain my parts without outing my DID entirely that you may or may not find useful:

- parts of self (‘this part of myself’, ‘the traumatized part of myself’, ‘the part of myself who struggles with this specific thing’, etc. descriptors help a lot to differentiate)

- trauma brain and present brain (easier, snappier, more to the point than ANP and EP, nicely not specific to any one part. Sometimes people use left brain and right brain to explain their logic side and creative side, so its the same kinda thing)

- using animals to describe whats going on (my housemates use things like ‘feeling stalked by hyenas’ when feeling urgency, or ‘hiding like a wounded animal’. This is pretty normal too, like ‘a deer in headlights’ used to describe someone whos frozen or confused)

- age descriptors (‘me at seven’, ‘teenage self’, etc. )

- job descriptions (‘the part of me that can go to work’, ‘the aggressive part of me’, ‘the part of me who cries all the time’. Makes it easier to get to the point of what this part does)

As for a system of parts, if you don’t feel comfortable using system, here are some others I’ve used:

- animal groupings (a flock, a murder, a herd, a colony, whatever works here)

- computer or machine terminology (‘my inner processing unit’, ‘my folders full of memory files’, idk I use the term ‘programming’ a whole lot with my loved ones because of how theyve said that I respond like a robot, but I’m certain some people here would be upset that I use their Very Special Terms. But if its in the privacy of your own home I really do not think it matters)

- Literally any sort of grouping analogy, whatever makes sense to you and feels right. You could say a jar full of trauma buttons or something idk! Up to you! Get creative with it

R and I constructed an understanding of my DID without using the Big Community Words because it was just me and him figuring it out for a few years. Things like The Personas (instead of parts or alters), the Council Of Bunny, trauma brain/present brain, The Guys In my Head.

When it comes down to it, you and I are on the same spectrum anyway. DID is not some special disorder, its just C-PTSD with extra steps really. So I wouldn’t worry too much about all this. I wish you luck in finding words and phrases that suit you and your loved ones’ understanding of what’s going on. Having someone Know helps so so so so much

And also if I totally misunderstood and you were just wondering what the C-PTSD community uses.. i have no idea sorry! Maybe look into inner child language? I’m not even caught up on my own community

[briannysey]

Now that I have finished a draft of the novella it is taking everything in my power to not open that bad boy up and get to re-reading

[reelaround-deactivated05312024]

what im getting from thjs movie through my fever is that voldemort was 16 whrn he opened the chamber of secrets. im gonna let yall take a wild guess on where he shouldve been instead

[bithermal]

Man I was thinking about Phil’s recent kidnapping again and how little reaction there has been to the last couple of kidnappings and the creators on the QSMP have really managed to take something that would normally spell disaster for a story and twist it to the use of the narrative: repetitively using a narrative tool.

Now I know speaking from a meta perspective it’s just a convenient way to explain someone’s absence from the server when they need a break, but when looking at it from purely a storytelling perspective it works perfectly. When you repeatedly use a narrative tool you run a very real risk of it losing its effect and becoming boring to the audience at best and annoying at worst, but the thing is that’s exactly what the Federation wants as an antagonistic force. They want players to get bored and stop looking; they want them to stop fighting back. And I just think it’s a masterful way of storytelling to twist that trap when writing into something that works so well.

[vonkarma2]

l/c working out because despite lennox being #1 avoidant pushing people away enjoyer, crow is so clingy and has so little dignity that it doesn’t even matter. he somehow roped this man into a dinner party with his estranged family they’re not even dating they’re not even friends with benefits they are coworkers with benefits but it happened anyway

[see-arcane]

Great website design, attention-catching and perfect for mobile. A sort of table of contents would probably be needed when you expand your work.

A couple of things from reader's perspective as well as marketing: "Their titles are subject to change—as is my focus—but as I’m physically incapable of not writing, odds are good that one of them will pop up as another published piece." I suggest taking away the "as is my focus" and saying "more" instead of "one". Make people reading this, from readers to agents, see confidence in your craft and faith in yourself. They are indeed a strong pull.

Which brings me and the final comment about your art. Say my art! Be proud of it, your friends are. Plus, I remember someone pointing out that if someone wanted to suggest you a new specific computer, but started putting it down, you'd lose interest in it. Find any more parts like this and make such minor changes.

Cannot wait to see what you're cooking.

Thank you for the confident-cudgeling, friend. Sometimes I need the reminder.

When it comes to actually making my stuff, I kind of just

But when it comes time to actually encourage people to Look at the Stuff?

Which is another thing to work on in the New Year, I guess

[agayconcept]

my chronically ill / disabled & heat-sensitive ass: yeah im managing ok in this weather i guess im not dead or fainting so i'm fine

me trying to talk to a friend abt it: yeah there's not enough cool for the hot. the hot is much. heat too bad for body to do moving. u kno? too bmuchs hoT ?? u feael me ?

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

FucksSAKE we're desperate and I'm fucking sick of begging for money so does anyone want some emergency art commissions. Like. Say a fiver for a quick sketch, maybe 10 to 15 for something with flat colour?

[pr]

also disclaimer: taylor doesnt even need to be gay for pr relationships to be real and for her to partcipate in them. straight ppl have been doing this for YEARS, and sure they could actually be dating, but yall have got to stop acting like its morally bankrupt to have a pr relationship (or stunts in general) or somehow lying to you on a personal level.

[giannaxmadden]

❛ i had it under control. you didn’t need to do that. ❜ - Billie

She may have only come around for selfish reasons, and she couldn't quite explain why she had suddenly cared for the girl as much as he did. But knowing she was surrounded by the most dangerous sort of people, did not put any ease back into her bones. So she had Elodie working overtime, and she insisted on being called upon should there be any hiccups. --- Sadly, her daughter had inherited a generation-long lack of driving skills, and Gia was not surprised when she learnt Billie was being pulled over for hitting an unfortunate curb on her way back to the Mikaelsons. So she rushed, pretending she was simply passing by, grateful to be only minutes away. And when she got there the cop in charge was read for filth in a manner that left him too stunned to speak and no ticket was drawn up. Perks holding power over the local systems.

Billies words were hurtful, of course, but not unexpected. "It's no big deal." she was tired, and she didn't have the energy to argue, to explain herself. "Let's just...go on about our day, yeah?"

[acreaturecalledgreed]

left a comment in this post saying that asking for a plot description isnt the same thing as demanding ppl decenter the queerness of their story and thats bot accusing them of "pandering"

that we'd love queer centered stories we literally just want a plot description

and got blocked

[newervegas]

brain hurts but it’s finished !!!!!!!!

(also i sort of love meirion or modan or myrick over maxen but i also love the name maxen for the eldest of aemmas twinsies?? maybe I’ll do a poll about it bc i can’t decide to save my life izjzjzhz) filled in gaps and things and ill add the love interests for aem and emmys boys when i think of them but !!!!! eeeek! and now to do anres and lhysa and feanorians and the etc !!!!!! 🥀✨🥴 <3

[paradoxesofgalaxies]

I've only had to help K through one panic attack so far today so packing/prepping for the move is going better than expected