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arecaceae175 · 2 years ago

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Euphoria

My state legislators are trying to violently erase my existence so have some very very super trans drabbles full of trans joy as an act of rebellion. I transed literally everyone’s gender

Warnings: discussion of people who are not women menstruating, discussion of binding and taping practices and semi on-screen application, mention of unsafe binding practices and bruises, brief mention of racism/classism but it’s veeeeery brief and not said by name, dysphoria mentioned

Pronouns:

Time: they/them and xe/xem/xyr

Sky: he/she

Legend: ey/em/eir

Wild: any

Hyrule: they/he

Warriors: he/him

Twilight: he/they

Four: she/they/xe

Wind: trying out different pronouns! Not sure yet!

Time stopped in their tracks, barely avoiding running into three children standing directly in the middle of the pathway. Time blinked, then waved at the children.

“Are you a boy or a girl?” The first child asked.

“Neither,” Time said.

“Then what are you?” The child asked.

The second child gasped, hands flying to their mouth. “Are you a fairy?”

“Or a goddess!” The third child yelled.

Time shrugged and walked away. Xe heard the children’s ‘woah’ behind them and chuckled softly.

~ ~ ▲ ~ ~ ~

“I wore a binder for a long time before I became a soldier. After that I had to get good at taping. I tried wearing a binder at first, but that was not good,” Warriors said with a self-deprecating chuckle.

“I know what you mean,” Twilight said, rubbing his ribs absentmindedly.

“I keep a roll of tape as a reminder of my privilege. I was able to afford the surgery because of my status in the army, but that opportunity isn’t available to most people. Especially poor people or people with darker skin, it’s almost impossible to get it done,” Warriors explained.

“I don’t know many other trans people, but those I do haven’t had it,” Twilight said. “Dusk said she knows someone who can do that kind of thing and offered to pay for mine, but I couldn’t let her do that. I asked for the money to go to someone who needed it more. My dysphoria isn’t too bad, anyway. Tape and bindings work just fine.”

“Okay, I’m coming out,” Hyrule said from behind the tree.

Twilight chuckled. “I think we’ve passed that bit,” they said. Warriors rolled his eyes and groaned, and he heard Hyrule’s soft chuckle from behind the tree.

Hyrule slowly emerged, their tunic clutched to their chest. Warriors already had his shirt off and Twilight pulled his own off. Their chest was taped, and Warriors was impressed with how flat it looked under the shirt.

“It’s pretty hard to do the first few times, so don’t be discouraged if it doesn't look good at first,” Warriors said as Twilight picked up his tape. Twilight unrolled some of the tape and cut two pieces off with a knife.

“This looks about right. This is special tape made just for this, so it shouldn’t hurt your skin,” Twilight said, holding the pieces up for Hyrule to inspect.

“Woah,” Hyrule said, brushing their fingers on the tape. He gasped as soon as his fingers made contact. “It’s enchanted!”

“Sure is,” Twilight said.

“Are you sure there’s enough? I’m sure that isn't easy to get,” Hyrule said.

“I’m sure. The people who make it ask for us to pay what we can. Dusk makes sure the castle keeps them and others like them funded on slow months so everyone can get what they need,” Twilight explained.

Hyrule bit their lip and looked up at Twilight’s chest. Warriors knew from experience this wasn’t easy for either of them, and he admired their courage.

“It looks so natural,” Hyrule muttered.

“It’s safer, too,” Warriors said. Hyrule blushed. Warriors and Twilight had insisted they teach Hyrule proper binding methods after they discovered he was hiding bruises.

“Now, I can demonstrate on myself, or I can describe the process and you can try it privately. It’s easiest if I show you on yourself, but I don’t want to make you uncomfortable,” Twilight said.

“I can go too, if you want less of an audience,” Warriors said.

Hyrule shook their head. “No, stay. I trust both of you, it’s just… hard.”

Warriors felt his expression soften. “I know. We can both understand that.”

Hyrule gave him a small, sad smile. Then they took a breath, steeled their expression, and nodded.

“I’m ready,” Hyrule said, and they very slowly dropped their tunic onto the rock.

“I’ll be quick,” Twilight said as he knelt down in front of Hyrule and began to explain the process.

~ ~ ~ ▲ ~ ~ ~

Wild spun and spun, her skirt flaring out beneath her. Her opal earrings dangled from her ears, signaling today as a she day. She laughed loudly, throwing her arms into the air.

“This is amazing!” Wild said. Legend chuckled and nodded. Ey were leaning against a nearby tree next to Four, both in skirts of their own. Legend’s was pastel purple, Wild’s was a bright green, and Four’s was rainbow.

“Have you never had a skirt like this before?” Four asked. She swayed side to side, letting the skirt swish around their legs.

Wild shook her head. “I have a Gerudo outfit, but it’s pants. And I have a dress from Flora, but it doesn’t flow like this one. This much fabric is hard to come by,” Wild explained.

She finally stopped spinning and flopped onto the ground. “Everything’s spinning,” Wild muttered, clenching her eyes shut. Legend and Four laughed.

A stick broke in the forest behind them. Legend and Four both jumped around with a hand on their weapons. Wild, with great effort, sat up and grabbed her bow.

“Sorry,” Sky said, sheepishly rubbing a hand on the back of her neck.

“Oh, Sky,” Four said, dropping xyr hand. Wild flopped back onto the ground with a moan to protest the movement.

Sky’s face was flushed red, and his hands were pulling on his sailcloth.

Legend narrowed cocked eir head to the side in question. “Everything okay?” Legend asked.

“Yeah, yeah, everything’s good,” Sky said. “I was just wondering… if you had any more skirts? And if I could try one on?”

Four’s face lit up. “Of course!”

“Yeah, I’ve got loads,” Legend said, kneeling down to dig through eir bag. Ey deliberated for only a moment, then pulled out a skirt in a deep red color.

“This one will look good on you,” Legend said, holding it out to Sky.

“Thank you,” Sky said sincerely as he took the skirt. “I mean it, I really appreciate this.”

Legend waved away the praise, ducking eir head to hide eir smile. “Don’t mention it. Just get it on and join the twirling party.”

~ ~ ~ ▲ ~ ~ ~

“Have you noticed we’re the only two in the group who use one set of pronouns?” Legend asked.

Warriors ran through the list in his head, then nodded. “Huh, you’re right. I’m the only one of us that fits within the traditional binary, too.”

Legend wrinkled eir nose. “Gross. I don’t like being in any sort of group with a man,” Ey said with a smirk.

“Hey!” Warriors said, jumping to his feet. Legend jumped up as well and took off into the forest, laughter echoing behind em. “Get back here!”

~ ~ ~ ▲ ~ ~ ~

“Time, why do you use they and xe pronouns?” Wind asked.

Time was expecting this question. Wind had been asking all of them individually, trying to figure out which pronouns fit.

“I don’t feel much of a connection to gender,” Time said. “I prefer neutral pronouns.”

“What do you mean?” Wind asked, head tilted to the side.

Time allowed themself a moment to process the question and come up with a suitable answer. This was important to Wind, so they wanted to be sure xyr answer was good.

“Warriors has always known he’s a man. He felt it even before he had the language to describe it. Wild feels like so many different genders, and uses earrings to signal different pronouns because they feel their gender identity strongly every day.

“I wasn’t raised with a concept of gender. Even when I was exposed to different genders I never felt like any of them fit. When I left where I grew up, it was the first time people perceived me as my gender. What they assumed it was, at least. It didn’t feel right. I don’t know how to describe it better than that,” Time said.

Wind was watching xem with wide eyes, absorbing every word. “I’m not sure what gender I feel like, either,” Wind said.

“That’s okay,” Time said.

“Maybe I’ll try they? I like that better than he or she, I think. Maybe,” Wind said with a small frown.

“You don’t have to use any pronouns if you don’t want to,” Time said.

“How would that work?” Wind asked.

“We can refer to you with your name instead of pronouns,” Time said. Wind was silent for a moment, thinking about Time’s offer.

“I’ll keep that in mind. For now, I want to try they,” Wind decided.

“They it is,” Time agreed. "If it doesn't feel right, you can try something else."

Wind beamed.

~ ~ ~ ▲ ~ ~ ~

Twilight was curled into a tight ball. His uterus burned, and spikes of pain shot through their body every time they moved. The first day of his cycle was always the worst. The pain was nearly incapacitating.

“Hey, Twi,” Wild said, laying a gentle hand on Twilight’s back.

Twilight groaned in response.

“That bad, huh?” Wild asked. Twilight nodded. They moved the blanket very slightly, just enough to peek an eye out and check Wild’s earrings. Amber.

“Can you sit up? I brought some tea. It’s Hyrule’s special recipe. They were excited to share it. And I added some honey,” Wild said. They held a steaming mug in their hands. Warm tea sounded heavenly, but moving most certainly did not.

Twilight sighed deeply, then braced himself to move. As soon as he started, Wild’s hands were on his arms and back to help. Between the two of them, they got Twilight propped against a tree. Twilight shut his eyes and clenched a fist in his blankets, trying their best to focus on breathing through the pain.

“Okay?” Wild asked once Twilight’s breathing calmed down.

“Yeah,” Twilight mumbled. “Tea?”

“Here,” Wild said. They gently grabbed Twilight’s wrist and brought his hand up to the mug.

Twilight took a sip and felt the tension in his body release as the warmth spread through him. There was a slight bitterness in the tea that Twilight could just barely taste. Wild must have snuck some pain relief potion in, and used the honey to mask the taste. Normally Twilight would protest, but they figured the group could spare one potion. He would feel the same if it was any of the others.

“Thank you,” Twilight said, cracking open their eyes.

Wild smiled widely and nodded. “No problem. I have more water boiling for a hot pack, too. I’ll bring it when it’s ready.”

Twilight smiled gratefully as Wild tucked the blanket more firmly around his shoulders.

~ ~ ~ ▲ ~ ~ ~

Legend gasped loudly, running up and grabbing the cloth with both hands.

“That!” Ey exclaimed loudly. “That is the most gender confusing piece of clothing I’ve ever seen! I have to have it.”

Sky cocked her head to the side as he inspected the item. “What is it?”

“A dress? Or a long tunic? But it has shorts? What’s going on with the top there?” Wind said, running their hands over the fabric.

“The top looks so masculine, but the bottom looks feminine,” Sky said.

“This will be a perfect addition to my collection,” Legend said.

“What collection?” Wind asked.

“My collection of clothes to confuse cis people,” Ey said. Sky and Wind laughed.

~ ~ ~ ▲ ~ ~ ~

Four jumped at the click of Wild’s slate. Wild brought the slate down and stared at the photo with a small, genuine smile on their face.

“What is it?” Four asked. Wild came to sit beside them, slate tucked against their chest.

“You said you’ve been feeling more feminine lately, and you’ve been feeling a bit dysphoric about it,” Wild said. Four’s face flushed slightly as she nodded.

“The light is shining just right, and you look like a princess right now,” Wild explained. They moved the slate in front of Four, and Four gasped once xe looked at the image on the screen.

Wild was right. Four looked like a princess. Their skirt flared out in a wide circle, and her tight tunic accentuated their body’s curves. Xyr hair was braided in a half up half down style, and the hairstyle combined with the angle of the photo made her features look more feminine than usual. Four felt a pressure behind her eyes as she stared at the image.

“Thank you, Wild,” Four said. Wild put an arm around Four’s shoulder and squeezed her tightly against their side.

~ ~ ~ ▲ ~ ~ ~

“What term do Groose and Sun use for you?” Time asked.

“They use boyfriend and girlfriend,” Sky answered. His eyes got that special look in them, the one that meant she was daydreaming about her partners.

“They started out saying boyfriend. Once I started exploring my gender, Groose called me his girlfriend and it was such an incredible feeling. They use them both interchangeably, now, and I get that amazing feeling every single time,” Sky said.

Time smiled widely at Sky’s joy.

“What about you? What do you and Malon use?” Sky asked.

“Malon likes to be called my wife. Publicly, she calls me her partner. The term isn’t my favorite, but we haven’t come up with anything else that sounds better,” Time said.

“And privately?” Sky asked with a smirk.

“She’s quite… creative,” Time said. Sky laughed and covered her head with her sailcloth.

~ ~ ~ ▲ ~ ~ ~

“Excuse me.”

Warriors glanced up in surprise. A small child was standing at his side, nervously wringing their hands in their shirt.

“Hello, there. Is everything okay?” Warriors asked.

The child nodded. “My mommy sent me for herbs, but I can’t reach the shelf. Can you help me please?”

“Of course. Which one do you need?” Warriors asked. The child pointed, and Warriors grabbed the item off the shelf. “Is this enough?”

“Thank you, sir!” The child nodded with a smile and sped off to the payment counter.

Sir.

Warriors felt joy flutter in his chest. That feeling never got old.

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