#but like. I DONT EVEB LIKE SHIT LIKE THAT

[kokorozasumono]

[cowboy-robooty]

CONTEXT. THIS IS A SPINOFF MANGA WHERE ONE OF LE YAOI BOYS IN THE ORIGINAL MANGA HAD GERMANYS HAIRSTYLE, BUT IN THIS SPINOFF THAT FEATURES HIM AS A PARTICIPANT OF YAOI HE HAD A HAIRSTYLE CHANGE. THIS IS A PANNEL SHOWING THAT THE EDITOR REQUESTED THE HAIRSTYLE CHANGE. LITERALLY THEY SAID GERMANYS HAIRSTYLE IS TOO FUCKING UGLY FOR YAOI IM LOLING IM LOLING SO HARD GERMANY IS SO FUCKING UGLYYUWISIE AHAHAKOWKSOS HE IS SO UGLY HE IS SO FAILLLLLL AINT NOBODY LIKE BLONDE SLICKED BACK HAIR PLEASEEEE EVERYBODY FUCKING HATES IT. TOO UNFUCKABLE. AINT NOBODY BUYING A YAOI OFF DA SHELVES WITH A CUT THAT BAD PLEASEEEEEEEEEE

[nylwnder]

TRAINING CAMP STARTED YESTERDAY. LEAFS GAME ON SUNDAY. READ THROUGH A BUNCH OF MEDIA DUMP. I FEEL MYSELF COMING ALIVE.

[zapsoda]

"im gonna assume u havent read the manga" that is a reasonable assumption to make about any new fan given the recent influx of fans coming from the Anime

[lesbonoi]

its soo funny i would lose half the followers on my art blog if i posted my Real TFA opinions

[itsalwaysdark]

so close to being done with one step in the larger step in the larger step of the spreadsheet.

i ran out of space in the tags so im continuing them under the cut bc i wasnt finished... and if you let me finish i would of finshed my santance

anyways i have some countries like. the borders r pretty close to irl countries and i have them in my notes as x country but other ones i split them into like. just smaller subregions of the continent based on irl like. regions. like i split africa into . Madagascar + East Africa + Central Africa + Southern Africa + Western Africa + Northern Africa and its referenced off of maps where those r like. the recognized regions (well. madagascar is usually just counted as either east or southern africa but yk). but idk... im worried its a shitty thing 2 do i just dont know what else 2 do with it. maybe i should just use an actual world map instead since im going more realistic with like. the time periods and stuff. IDK i just rly wanna avoid the shit the sims does so much where it lumps a bunch of cultures together like. the chinese world in ts3 world adventures having a torii gate for the icon. -_- yk. the map was kinda superfluous anyway and more judt a way to visualize where the worlds we have were distributed + also was mostly influenced by that one ts4 mod which takes that more simplistic approach but maybe i can just step away from that and just go more realism based Its just hard bc i dont wanna like. lose the more like. silly isnt quite the word (itis kind of but not fully) ig i mean i dont wanna lose the abstraction kind of thing the sims has. but like. I am auite literally making a spreadsheet to get rid of some of the abstraction the sims has so what am i on about. IDK i just have been thinking abt it a lot basically... like sims im already making shit up and locking the sims to like real world history stuff it only makes sense to like. do the same thing with The world and not have it be abstracted. so yes that was a lot of words to say i think im just gonna move to thinking of the sims as living on Basically earth. In my personal the sims palace that ive made up. this is not to say i personally think of the sims as tkaing place on earth or anything ive just decided to do like. Bc this whole thing is basically an au im making anyway like. taking ts3 sims and making them be from the 1950s thats already Not what the game is like. so ill just make it a Realworld sims au. ok yay 👍 thats all sorry for talking sm abt something so pointless and also for not using a SINGLE paragraph break im basically just writing in this like i write in the tags (stream of consciousness) but the tags have the benefit of being naturally split up so yes i dont think anybody is reading this far. when i was little and playing skyward sword for the first time roughly 7-8 years old i got to the like trial on skyloft and i got so scared i smashed the cd so that i wouldnt have to do it . and then i blamed my dog for it. and i did this even tho lamp had JUST started a skyward sword playthru which idk if i knew at the time but i do feel rly guilty abt it. but i was rly scared. ok thats all

[sacreblugh]

it's crazy how someone can go from being your bff and platonic soulmate just to have them confess that they actually are obsessed with you and were playing the long haul all these years just for a chance in your pants and then just have them treat you like you don't exist and like you were to blame for them manipulating and catishing you and just completely turning into an asshole the moment you realized how manipulative, superficial, and just incredibly mean they were to you because you wouldn't date them ♡

[steampunkedparm]

It's so ironic that the candle burning right now is citronella based

such a specific smell for such specific memories

sharing drinks in a place i hoped to in two years home

9 weeks of being able to faintly taste mike and orange cream

both bitter because it's not home

not-home housing an adoringly familiar face

it couldn't have gone to anyone better

i miss Home.

friday Saturday sunday off,

it feels like the universe is mocking me

friday night shower

an unknowing routine achingly familair

there is a hole

partially filled

because there is still fondess

there is still promise of tomorrows and soon to be's

but fuck.

i miss Home.

i miss sleepy sunday mornings amongst too big spiders and rocky wooden flooring

i miss the cheerful greetings and smell of dew

i miss the sticky heat that made your 3 layers stick

i miss the need to cry in the back because it's all too much too fast

inmiss the chatter

the drunks

the merriment and love

i miss the dead and the living melding between worlds with the twist of the faes hand

i miss the 4 way agreement of potatoes

i miss the sickly sweet tang of teriyaki meat

i miss the smell of my sisters perfume and the twirl of her skirts

i miss the robberies and hijinks galore

i miss the genuine fondess of neighbors next door or across the way

i miss the rainy days and ducks

i miss Home.

[lulladae]

YOU 🫵 stop throwing people that are like you under the bus to make you look cool in front of assholes who don't understand shit

[alexandrium]

me checking my baby's face for FAS features even tho I know for a fact I didn't drink any alcohol

[greenlanterns-light]

I find it so funny how lico and akira are both flirty girl likers and yet they are so different about it (so far at least from what I’ve noticed). Akira is fun and silly and goofy and lico is. well. Well,

[little-mimikyuwu]

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[gayspock]

actually

sorry i'll say itnow. realness i do get insanely depressed the more its said. like yep adults now. everyones over it . everyones grown and now the only thing there is left in life is places where we can only ever connect once every few months cuz we have lives . this will be everyone from here going forwards. and i cant even say shit cuz its not that i really even have that. right. like idont even know anyone like that. and this is pathetic as shit. butjust that sinking feeling of knowing its too late, youve completely missed out. turning to youryounger self like ok so you know how hard it is to deal with everything. so dude lookits not going to get better . every year it gets worse you slip farther away. it getsharder to ever crawl because. cuz this is the only opportuntiy you'll ever get to consistently talk to people and its forever shrinking. and youre less likeable less of everything every year and more and more and mroe and its jsut going and going. i know i wouldnt likeme i wouldnt want to talk to me i wouldnt spend my few seconds of free time trying to get to knowme and i know that i know that deep down like.

because even beforehtat eveb when it should have been eaiserand even now when giventhat you cant make it work and you'll constantly blow it and everyones going to settle around you, and specifically most definitely without you, so shriknk up and die and because why do youever kid yourself about anything andyou'll go from the guy people remember every few months, becuase that was already yoiur FUCKING STATE OF BEING, to the person who doesnt exist at all because all your fearsof living in the periphery of everyone and constantly being left outand never jsut. mattering . SORRY . were never anything but completely rational. ALWAYS cdompletely rational. and always founded to be true . why didnt you try harder why didnt you dobetter when thatsall you can ever try to do and it never means anything. soemtiems i get crayz ufcking insane houses walking around the fucking house scrathcing at walls not seeing niot talking to anyone in months years however long its been criyng myself to sleep blah blah blah yap yap yap ne ficlomg grateful someone with a life has rememebred you exist this week because it wont happen again until next year. FUCK you. like i wishi was some fucking sincerely digusting fucking crerature sometimes but the reality of justbeing nothing like just being nothing that anyone can really like inthe end because youre substanceless and forgettable and fartoo easy to let slip away and jsut meek fucking loser that just lets it happen because whatsthe fucking point. i cant do anything to force peopleto like me just let me go fucking die in my hole alone i dont care any more and i dont want to care and i hate fucking everyone and why didnt you try harde rwhy do i have to try so hard to force myself . why does ittake so much to try and feel like im tapped into anything why is it that its jsut so easy LIKE

its not even maliciuous it used to be it could be but even when it wasnt it wasnt malciious ti was just alwwayswas jsut that like. we move on without you we do everything without you we forget you we wont invite you youre no in the conversation i cant kEEP UP WITH THE CONVERSATION EVER I DONT UNDERSTAND ANYHTING i feel like evryones just always laughing at mee AND im crazy bitch im fucking crazy i dont know why i cant make it i dontknow why i can never make it its not meant to be a fucking . oh youre falling behind oh its a race oh its a compettiion theres never any other way to conceptualise it other than jsut THAT. i ithnik when i trytoo hard then yep i am ugly and whatever butwhat is there there is that orthere is jsut . I DONT EXIST i dont understand anyone or anyhting i cant even try to i dont feel a part of anyhting i feel so fucking isolated all the tiem i feel so fucking alone im so fuckngtired this is it thsi makes it worse all of that stuff makes it worse but i dont have the fucking energy the wherewithall to fight it off over and over and voer again when itslike what else is there what is there to live for whenit just never means anyhting it just never matters lik oh my godthis si the reason why youre alone becauseyou make into eveyrhting like this whenit jsut . was never justthat im tired im ssad i think theres soemthing wronggg with me except its nothing wrong with me imjust using that as a fuckingthing to grip onto like yep yep something WRONG WITH ME just RELAX AND IT WOULD BE FINE! OF COURSEIT WOULD BE! LIKE IT EVER WAS LIKE IT EVER WILL BE LIKE THAT WASNT WHAT YOU DO IN THE FIRSTPLACE LIKE ITS NOT EVERYTHING THAT KEEPS FUCKING TANKING LIKE . what do you do what do you i feelfucking crazy im drained i cant sleep IM ALWAYS SLEEPING i go to work i fucking spiral im bad at it i get out of work i sit in the dark for hours bcause i cant . manage anyhting im so tired im so sad its my fault for nto trying to talk to people, i could try i could spend the few seconds of energy i have . the little time i go out i cant talk to anyone its so hard the people who do see me fuckng scream slurs at me i want to die i want to not exist i noly exist in somefucking . i dont get it everyone else has something hwhy sis it so difficult why is it so hard what is wrong with me GCONSTANT FUCKING BACK AND FORTTHHH THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH MEEE IM SEARCHING FOR SOME ANSWER WHEN IM JSUT NTOHING BUT ALSO OH GODTHREREHS TO BE. WHY AM I NOTHING WHY AM I ALWAYS NOTHINGGGGGGGGGGG IM SO UGLY IM SO BAD AT EVERYTHING IM SO ANNOYING AND YOURENOT MEANT TO SAY THAT BUT ITS NEVER ANYHTING BUT TRUEEEEEEEEEEEEEE AND WHY CANT I SAY THAT WHEN THATS WHAT I AM THATS WHO I AM THATS ALL I'LL EVER BE AND THATS. WHY. IM ALWAYS GOING TO BE ALONEEE SNAKE EAT IT OWN TALIKL

[imsogayyippee]

hi it's me tim wright luvr anon from earlier. what's ur fav tim moment....

KQBWKQBDNNZ I dont eveb KNOW.... I love like every time he shows up but ummm. he's so silly in entry 15 fidgeting w the paper n shit. ummmmmmmm. he looks so babygirl in entry 20 with that haircut <33. entry 57 makes me feek so bad for him :((( but then in entry 58 he's babygrirl. entry 59 is one of the best entries imo he did GOOD in that entry. entry 66 is.guh :(. entry 72 is another really good entry n yeah tim shows up so it counts. 75 + 77 :(. Then entry 84 GUUHHH he's so silly waking in the hallway sjdhsjhd. entry 86 god........ and then idk why but in entry 87 he's just so babygirl to me he's so pretty i love him

[grox]

I know its doomed to happen but I'm gonna be so sad if the new elder scrolls is too graphically intense for my little shithound computer you know skyim only needs 2gb of ram to function I lovr skyrim I dont eveb care if they do some legendary edition shit like release an ugly version and a pretty version please god

[blacknidstang]

Though i lowkey also don't vibe much with d/c because i care about sam too much I don't think it's entirely about sam?? Cuz thinking of it, i can soooo read deanbenny or deanjo without sam eveb being mentioned. Like i love deanbenny so much even tho i dont say it often and i can completely stop thinking about sam so i think it's less about sam not being involved and more about what the shippers do to sam? Turning him into their cheerleader or some homophobic asshole *done with the gay shit*, because unlike deanbenny that really has its own weight and meaning even completely independent of samdean in canon, dc shippers cannot ship it without diminishing sam's role both in canon story and dean's life somehow. I don't know if this makes any sense or not.